#so it hopefully helps my anxiety xd

[dr3am5scape]

Late Night Subway

(Grayson x Fem Reader)

(For more further experience, can add music while reading…or not :)

Hey y’all out there! Am happy it’s a nice and cold day jeez. I want to let you know that I’m glad that I am able to make more and finding more people reading my stuff, including lesbians which is amazing 💜 I want to say thank you for loving my stuff.🤭

Enjoy reading this for today and be doing more hopefully next week since I’m off for break yay!

Gloomy night in Piltover city, their was finally an underground train station that was made for people to get back to their usual home. And one of them is you actually. A lot of folks was already home in their cozy bed, while you just got out of work and you were pretty much the only one there. The subway was dark and green, which showed in the atmosphere. Some of the lights were flickering and some weren’t but dim. The air was musty, thinking none of the workers ever cleaned down there. It felt like you were in Zaun already but weren’t. You just got off from late night working at the main area of the library in Piltover, wanted to go home so so bad. You sat on the bench waiting for the train to arrive….hopefully. This place felt unfamiliar like it wasn’t suppose to be this awful compared what it looked before. All cleaned and perfection. It would be packed everywhere during the day. Maybe this night wasn’t the right time to get pick up. It was now 10pm. You had this deep thought if someone was watching you in the shadow as you kept looking back and forth. Just in a few moments later, you heard someone approaching you. “Sorry to startled you, miss but it seems that no one should be here at this time of night. Where are you heading to at this hour?” The sheriff says coming from behind. “Um home.” You thought for a second it was a creep asking you for something, until you realize enforcers do check on others who are still around this subway area. And she was one of them. “Oh thank goodness I wasn’t the only one here, I was scare for a second.” You took a deep breath from all the anxiety you had. “Dont worry ma’am. It’s my honor and job to protect any citizens of Piltover. May I ask what’s your name, dear?” The big women says. She was pretty much taller and look pretty strong comparing to your size XD Which made you not focus on her question but her whole body figure, til you shake your head.

“Oh uh it’s y/n.” The sheriff smile in pleased. “Y/n, how lovely. I’m Grayson. As you might’ve guessed already that I’m an enforcer in case anything happened here. That’s why I came to make sure everyone gets home safely.” You form a small smile and blush appear on your cheeks. “That’s very nice of you, Sheriff Grayson. I do need to get home actually. I was just afraid something might’ve happened to me. But thanks to you,” you said. “It’s no problem, ma’am. It’s my duty to ensure city of Piltover is safe. Since I’m here, may I walk you home and make sure you arrived there safely?” Grayson says offering her hand at you. You nod, smiling as you hold her hand. “That’ll be lovely, Sheriff.” Grayson offered your hand, gesturing to walk with her as you two saw the train finally arrives. “Follow me. I’ll find us a seat somewhere.” You two walk in and sat at the farthest back corner near the window. The train begin moving on towards the tunnels. While looking through the window, you look back at Grayson, seeing her as she makes sure everything was okay during the train. She saw you look up at her, which made her chuckle and wink at you, as a way of flirting at you. You couldn’t help but lift the palm to your mouth as you turn completely red looking slightly away from her. Oh god.

Later on, Grayson sigh, sitting down next to you. You two talked for a little while to the point, you felt your eyes tired. Letting out a yawn, you tried to stay up but couldn’t. Grayson glance at you. “You seem tired, y/n. Why don’t you lean your head on my shoulder.” You look at her twice, while blinking to stay more focus. “Wha-Really? Your such a sweetheart, Grayson.” You nod at her sweet advice and lay on the side. The sheriff lets out a small hum, flustered by your nice words. Throughout the train, you two were in complete silence. An hour later, train finally stop for your destination. You didn’t know Grayson would do such a thing, which was carrying you in a bridal style, while getting off. It caught you off guard being in this sort of situation. You didn’t say anything but just let it happened. Towards home, you thank Grayson keeping you safe and warm around her. You actually wanted to do more of this with her. So you gave her your phone number in case. You gave Grayson a hug, not wanting to let her go for tonight, but didn’t wanna make things too awkward, so you pull back. “Thanks for bringing me home. Hope to see you another day. Stay safe out there, Sheriff and gets some sleep. Goodnight.” You smile waving at her, but startled when she let you go inside as a way for respect. “Me too, y/n. Me too. Have a goodnight, dear.” Grayson says before walking out and watching the night sky, thinking about you, with a warm innocent smile linger on her face.

“She does like me. Just as much I like her too.”

The end

🥺aww me next Grayson pls

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Ok, hear me out. This is a kinda self indulgent request. How would Foul Legacy react to reader with bad circulation? Hands (and feet) that are freezing for seemingly no reason, even despite wearing socks/gloves. Except they’re not always freezing, and some days are colder than others, and others where it’s worryingly cold. Would FL just start trying to warm up reader, or something? (Oh, and bonus if the reader has anxiety of some kind and the bad circulation acts up even more on days that the anxiety is acting up)

(Hopefully this is understandable enough. It’s almost 3 in the morning and if I don’t hit send now I’m potentially going to chicken out of sending the prompt/requesting XD)

ahhh, i get what you mean dear, one of my relatives has REALLY bad circulation and i'm always surprised at how cold their hands are

Foul Legacy's first instinct is to hold your hands, immediately!! right now!! he lets out a small screech of surprise when you hold his face for the first time and your fingers are freezing, and that's coming from a monster who spent years in the Abyss itself. he lets out a concerned whine and carefully grabs your hands, examining them closely before he gives up and accepts that your circulation is simply awful, which he unfortunately can't do much about. so he does the next best thing and clasps your hands in his, squeezing them gently and letting out soft, warm breaths to try and raise their temperature with marginal success. if they're still icy after a few minutes he looks at you worriedly and whimpers, small grumbly chirps of resignation slipping from his fanged maw if you insist you're alright- he'll just have to get used to your chilled touch, then

however, there are days where it's... really bad. a combination of cold, dry weather and your nerves going haywire causes your body to essentially shut down, leaving you lethargic, anxious, and freezing cold all at once. Legacy peaks into your room with a soft croon, pushing the door open and walking over to your bed when he sees you shivering beneath the blankets. with a surprising amount of grace he hops onto the mattress so he can snuggle up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist and gently purring until you shift and flip over to face him. the soft rumbles help calm your frazzled brain, Legacy's claws tucking in the blanket around you and holding your hands to help you warm up before he leans in and gives you a lick on the cheek, trilling mischievously. he doesn't need anything right now, other than to lie next to you and simply... exist. and he wants you to know that sometimes, using effort to just exist is okay, too

[gabessquishytum]

I was just tidying up my google docs when I came across an old AU I thought up for Dreamling, it was partially inspired by your Sugar Daddy Dream fic (one of my absolute favorites, still praying every day for a dark sequel). It's supposed to be dubcon/noncon cause I love the idea of Dream taking advantage of a vulnerable Hob, vulnerable and innocent. Basically Dark Dream XD It is a bit cringy, but I’m hoping the horny will override that feeling lol.

The premise is your run of the mill cliché, Hob is the owner the New Inn, and it’s fallen on pretty hard times. He has an increasingly high loan to pay back by the end of the month, otherwise the bank is gonna come and repossess everything (this is how loans work right?) And due to the stress and anxiety, Hob decides to go and drink his sorrows away, at least for the night. He’s absolutely sloshed by the end of his bender, and proceeds to cry about woes and troubles to anyone and everyone in the bar, just stumbling from one table to another and talking to people. It is then he accidentally falls onto the lap of one Morpheus “Dream” Endless, infamous filthy rich mob boss known for his cruelty and cold demeanor.

Dream was just there at the bar talking business with an associate when out of nowhere this chestnut-haired man falls onto his lap, and just starts babbling away about his problems. Dream is so taken aback, he forgets for a moment that he’s supposed to be offended and should be ordering his men to beat up this random guy for even daring to come close, but this teary man’s eyes are so big and doe-eyed, looking so lost…. Dream ends up waving away his associate in favor of listening to Hob. And Hob is so adorable, trying to wipe away his tears and all the while hiccupping through his 15th rendition of his sob story, it also helps his heaving breaths are pushing his sizable chest to the forefront of Dream’s gaze. It’s pretty much love at first sight. By the end, Dream is so smitten with this man that he decides right then and there that Hob is going to be his, his precious pet who he’s going to spoil rotten with gifts and pleasure.

Dream takes Hob home for the night, holding back the urge to take his baby girl right then and there, he wants Hob to remember their first time. Before he leaves, he makes sure to note down everything there is to know about Hob, full name, birthday, bank details etc.

Hob, many hours later, wakes up with the world’s worst hangover and also to a few dozen messages from the bank and his staff, informing him his debts have been paid, and that apparently, the New Inn is getting renovated, already paid for, workers have already begun. He is so confused, he has no idea what the hell is going on, then he notices a new message coming in from an unknown number. It’s a request for him to go to an address at a specific time, it tells him not to be late, and that everything will be explained in due time. Welp. That’s not ominous at all, but Hob is mature enough to admit he’s brave (dumb) enough to actually follow through with the instructions. Hopefully, he won’t be losing any essential body parts….. (He’ll be losing his virginity and innocence instead huehuehueheuheuheu)

I actually have an excerpt, I hope you guys enjoy hahaha

“I need- nee- hiccup!- help. I just don’t know what to do.” Hob was desperately clutching onto the front of Dream’s shirt now, looking at him with teary eyes and trembling lips, and he looked absolutely… delicious. “What should I do, shtranger? Please tell me what to doo.”

Looking at the man straddling his lap, begging him so sweetly for his help, Dream licked his lips at the thought of what he could do to this man.

Dream gently framed his new precious toy’s face with both hands, carefully thumbing away the tears running down in rivulets. Kissing him tenderly on the forehead, Dream whispered, “Don’t you worry kitten, daddy will take good care of you.” 

Hob was still incredibly tipsy from his binge, evidenced by his bleary eyes and slurred speech, so it took awhile for him to process Dream’s words but when he did, he looked up at Dream with such hope and innocence in his rich brown doe eyes, “You- you will?” 

"Oh yes, baby girl. You won't have to worry about anything but me ever again."

-Love Yan Anon <3

Ajshdhdhfdj I'm OBSESSED. This hits some of my absolute favourite kinks!!! Intox!! Daddy kink!! Power play!!! No pressure on you my beloved, but I would sooo love to read more of this. I need to see Hob pushing his lovely plump boytits into Dream’s face, pouting about difficult everything is... I REALLY need more of Dream calling Hob baby girl because Holy Shit that's perfect.

And innocent Hob being manipulated and turned into a perfect slut by Dream’s powerful, forceful personality... Hob is so vulnerable and doesn't have anyone to protect him, so he'd better be a good girl and do as Dream tells him... After all, Dream owns him now, and if he puts even a toe out of line, there will be consequences...

[venelona-turtle-den]

Anon asks about Ghost Leon super cut🐢

I haven't received a lot of suggestions yet, but the ones I have/the asks that gave me an idea for future updates I just. Keep in my ask box like a gremlin so I don't forget about them.

Also don't be afraid to suggest stuff. If you do it off anon and I like it and implement it, even just a one-liner, I'll credit you if you wish 💖

Apparently people live in fear of that because of my poor phrasing. Also, a heads up question - do people want him to have both chin stripes and a tail at the same time? If yes I'll add both, if no I won't let people download 700 files at once (I'll streamline the downloading process before that tho, I promise)

Nnnno. At the very best it will be like a DLC (?) to Ghost Leon here, but a separate Ghost? Honestly, probably not.

Pfft yeah Leo goes from zero to a hundred real fast. Perhaps because he's always at a hundred, but tries his best to hide it :) Who can tell.

Sorry for all the repetition - at a weird RNG thing I'm trying to juggle the best I can. Having more dialogue helps and I added as much as I could, but hopefully I'll get more ideas as the time goes on.

This was during that update where I couldn't find the problem (because it was SSP itself) and was trying to find a mistake and troubleshoot. I didn't want to post any asks about it because I didn't want people to try and update it in case the mistake was in my files.

Don't worry, asks about possible problems with my Ghost is never a bother, so don't be afraid about messaging me 🙏

Oh, you don't know the ANXIETY I had when I was releasing my boy. The FEAR I had that I failed on every level, and that nobody will connect with him, or be sad during the sads, or bother to pet him more than 20 times... So every time I get an ask like this or see people talk about things Leo said it makes me very happy :') Thank you 💖💗❤

After making him so jolly and polite I was hesitant every time he's mean but then I was rewatching the show, and, like... Leo can be real mean when he wants to be XD

Don't worry - ol' man still cares about you 💙

Thank you anoneys 💖Sorry it is taking me this much time to answer asks - I wanna draw responses for a lot of them, but I've been busy and running low on drawing juices... But believe me, I look at every ask and post I'm mentioned at✨

[dokidokitsuna]

RWBY Dream Machine (for real this time)

...Now that this picture is finished, I’m realizing that I don’t know what I would even use it for. ^^; The composition is so ‘big’...it looks like an image for a double-page manga spread, or maybe a billboard...neither of which are things I need. Ah well, at least it’s pretty~

Anyway, I wanted to talk a little bit about how this project is going...’slowly’ is the best word for it. XD I don’t think I realized how much work goes into a rewrite, even a less-detailed analytical one like I’m doing.  Recently I watched Unicorn of War’s Winx Club Season 5 Rewrite, which is very close to the style I’m aiming for and really helped me to feel more confident in working on the script...which is already 5 pages long and will probably hit 6 pages before I’m through. God help me when I start recording it...

Anyway, that’s not even the most difficult part. What really wears me out is doing stuff like ^this: making assets, both visuals and music things, for people to actually be entertained by during the video. It is a SLOG...I dunno, I just can’t stand it. Maybe it’s anxiety, maybe it’s...actually it’s probably all just anxiety and fear. ^^; I mentioned before that I’m not an illustrator, and this is why-- now that all the rough designs are done, all that’s left is to make them into pretty pictures for the video, and I feel paralyzed...

Which is why I made this picture-- I may not know what it’s for, but it does look good, and hopefully it’ll give me a source of hope as I continue to work. 

So in conclusion: with Christmas on the horizon and my other priorities, this is not gonna get done this year. But I hope you’ll look forward to seeing it in 2023...between this and Magical Friends I’m probably gonna be in editing hell ALL January long. ^^;;;;

[fairytalemorgue]

u ever wanna talk to someone but dont have anything worth while to say.... like no actual reason to talk to them n worrying they might get mad having u wasting their time lol.... u just want them to talk to u abt w/e they want bc u just wanna spend time w them n dont care what the convo is or even if there is a convo at all u just wanna vibe w them but scared abt not having an itinerary or w/e... or is that just me lol

That's not just you, for the record, it's your social anxiety, angel. You don't want someone who means a lot to you to be upset with you, and... May have difficulty believing they may want to spend time with you as well.

Your anxiety about "having nothing to say" is likely making it difficult to think of possible topics ahead of time, making you panic even more, which is not your fault, by the way.

My advice would be to whenever you think of something you might like to discuss, make a note on your phone. Just make up a cheatsheet of topics that your person might enjoy hearing about, things you also find interesting, of course.... Then add to it as you think of new ones. Not sitting down and brainstorming when you're tangled up in a panic, but just here and there.

After you have a few topics listed, glance over it whenever you want to talk to them, ok? You might not be able to hold onto everything when you visit with them, but it'll help control the panic of feeling like you have no reason to want to spend time with them.

Wanting to spend time with them because you love them is a wonderful reason, by the way, if they don't think so, if spending time with you is bothersome to them in any way... I'm sorry for being rude but that person might not deserve you. Clearly they mean a lot to you, but if they've made you feel like you need a reason or you're bothering them... There is no polite way to say the next thing I was about to write XD!

I'll let you know if I can think of anything else, ok? ^^ Hopefully this will help curb your anxiety a little in the meantime, critter ♡

(ETA: apparently this creature was talking about me XD! He missed me and wanted to visit but had "no reason", which is nonsense, I meant what I said about you wanting to visit is reason enough! Genuinely did not realize I was the person being referred to here, I am clueless XD! Not editing the response I wrote, just making a note here, I realize my answer got a little touchy at the end when I was bothered by the thought someone would find you annoying, that might have potentially crossed a line... I realize that anxiety can make you afraid without reason, I wasn't intending to besmirch anyone, I was just a little grumpy over the possibility of someone hurting your feelings, I'm sorry ><)

[aquariasmoon]

Oh look...Me drawing my Oc finally lol. I still need to draw the other one so expect that soon ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ Honestly, with this OC I made her for fun also I have never seen a chubby bey OC??? She has a small backstory/set up which I will post below. But yeah this character is really just an excuse for me to draw cute super girly outfits ( ^ _ ^;) that and also because I wanted a cute girl to beat up Tala LOL

Backstory:

Lilly has some pretty big money issues with a lot of debt, she ends up bouncing from job to job trying to pay it off. This is when she gets a job at the BBA for a new position.  During that year's world tournament they are assigning an assistant/technician to each team to hopefully make the tournament go smoother but also as another layer to prevent cheating. Providing everything from organising accommodation, travel and taking care of press statements to helping with repairs and most importantly regular checks to make sure all blades are legal. 

It’s a lot of work but the pay is real good, however out of everyone she is assigned to Neoborg who she can't seem to click with no matter how hard she tries to be polite and helpful. This is mainly due to the fact that Tala doesn’t want her in any way interfering with the team, unfortunately, that’s her job. Anxiety about not wanting to lose her job and trying and failing to appease Tala and the other members of neoborg she ends up finally cracking and goes full feral on his ass. This in turn causes him to start to *somewhat* respect her, they end up begrudgingly working together for the rest of the tournament.   

Lmao if you can't tell yes. This is a OC/Tala pairing. But I like drama so they hate each other ✧(´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)✧ Haha I feel like only I would make a beyOC and not make them a blader XD Yeah no she's just smart and stuff no blading experience at all just a background in engineering because she is actually big brain.

[hiccanna-tidbits]

AKGHBKUEFYDGJ when I tell you I just BARELY got all my submissions from last year's Hiccanna month in in time for this year's Hiccanna month--

Truly I have levels of procrastination inside me that most college students can only dream of.

So anyways, here's a moodboard for a fic I wrote a full-ass year ago. A moodboard that I made...last week XD Better late than never, I guess?

The fic is We're at the movie scene where everyone drowns, and it's also posted both on my AO3 Infrared_Ultraviolet and my ff.net Infrared-Ultraviolet! Go check it out :3 Hopefully I'll have the time and energy to write more full-length one-shots for Hiccanna month this year, but we will have to see! I'm a working woman now earning the big bank so I can continue to pay my internet bills and maintain the fandom lifestyle XD

Anna gets to have terrible insomnia because she is my beloved projection blorbo and she gets to deal will all of my issues for me <3 But hey, it's not like it doesn't have canon basis! We see that she does in fact have trouble getting up in the morning (enough to make it a running gag!) and is pretty bleary and out-of-it when she does, which could easily be the result of not running on much sleep and (unwillingly) staying up late. We can also see pretty consistently that she's not what would be considered a "morning person" (although I have my doubts such a thing even exists in real life). Anna's pretty heavily ADHD-coded, which often has insomnia as a side effect because your brain will not turn off ever, least of all when you need to sleep. Things like time blindness when you get super into doing something right before bed or existing anxiety and/or paranoia that's exacerbated by the ADHD really do not help, either.

Anyways, I'm here to tell you that the fear of forgetting your sleep meds when you're going on a short trip/crashing at a friend's house is very, very real. Especially since you often don't realize it until everyone else is already dozing off and no one wants to take you to the pharmacy to buy more XD At that point, your options are a) start taking shots in hopes the alcohol drowsiness will put you to sleep or b) lie awake and get bored and angry and hate your life and also have no one else to talk to because everyone else went to sleep in under 5 minutes. Yes, it really is that bad.

The one upside is that there IS the possibility you will get to watch your crush sleep in a non-creepy way (like you didn't seek them out like a stalker--you just can't go the fuck to sleep and they happen to be 5 feet away!) and fawn over how cute they look doing it XD Which is the only thing that gets Anna through the night, I'm pretty sure!

Although being alone with the stars and the creature noises doesn't sound half bad, if you HAVE to stay awake XD Better than staring at the wall of your room, anyways! Still praying for Anna to get that Starbucks the next morning, tho ^^;

Man, I really wish my college campus had had a duck pond with amusing but occasionally aggressive geese. We had some pretty insane squirrels, but staring down a squirrel is just not the same as being chased by a hissing goose. This is something that I think should happen to everyone at some point, to keep humanity humble. Also being followed around by hungry honking geese while you try to evade them and go to class sounds like the exact kind of college shenanigans I needed in my life! Instead of the depression-laden mess it actually was ajnsdlkuhkuedgh

I love the idea of Anna kinda inadvertently memorizing Hiccup's freckle patterns and finding little designs in them, like constellations <3 She pays WAY too close attention to him, and it shows XD I remember back in college I was gone af for this one guy, and I noticed he had this freckle pattern on his cheek that kind of looked like a baseball diamond. And I adored the fuck out of it ;____; If anyone replaced him with a clone who didn't have that little baseball diamond, I would catch on SO DAMN FAST. I imagine Anna would do the same thing with Hiccup XD Ain't nobody swaps Hiccup for a doppelganger without Anna being ON THE FUCK TOP OF IT.

Pretty pleased with how this one came out! I kind of wanted to do a juxtaposition of dark pics with well-lit pics, and I think the end result turned out pretty decent! Also ended up with a green, orange/brown, purple, and black color scheme, which all go together surprisingly well :O

Any modern AU Anna would also definitely own that exact greenish-blue sweater. Just sayin!

As always, pic credits available upon request!

[littlemoondarling]

i don't know your characters yet, but i want to, sooo... 9, 12, 26, 30, 35, 42, 48, 50 and 57 for both ezra and theodore! hopefully it's not too much... 😅

Awww ty so much!! No ask is too much so never worry ab it! I'll answer under the read more bc I talk alot~

Starting off with dear ol Ezra Woodburn because he's a bit more down to earth than Teddy

[9] What is their love language?

His love language is physical affection, if he initiates it with you then you are sure to be his favourite person in the whole world because he despises being touched. That was how his husband discovered that "oh shit there may be something more than friendship here" when Ezra randomly cuddled next to him while watching movies on the couch.

[12] How high is their self-esteem?

Ezra's self esteem is so low it migot as well be in the center of earth XD

He was never able to accept anything about himself and always felt like a mistake that shouldn't have been born, but still, he makes it to over 50.

[26] Do they have any physical or mental ilness, how do they handle it and how open they are about it?

He has both, he has chronic joint pain and fatigue that he has been struggling with since childhood, he also suffers from terrible social anxiety, depression and autism but he never got diagnosed because he refuses to go to a psychiatrist. His family is a very conservative "pull yourself by your bootstraps" kinda family so he was raised to feel immense shame at his disabilities and so he is only open about them with his husband, but it isn't too difficult for people around him to guess given his behaviour.

[30] What are their most healthy and most unhealthy coping mechanisms?

The healthiest is definitely writing and spending quality time with his husband and cat, the unhealthy is sh and smoking :|

[35] Do they like their own appearance, and what do they do, if anything, to alter it in any way?

He really really doesn't, if he is given the chance to look like anyone else he would take it in a heartbeat. He got both top and bottom surgery to ease the dysphoria of being born in the wrong body and he has thought about going to the gym to lose some weight but his pain immediately flares up, but he is getting slightly better at accepting himself given how many kisses his husband gives the areas he considers flawed.

[42] What is their idea of a perfect friendly hangout and/or romantic date?

Going out to the library or a picnic in nature, maybe even a trip to the shelter so he can pet all the animals and coo at them and beg you for seven more cats, three birds, a turtle and a snake.

[48] Are they, or were they at some point in their life, a part of any subculture?

He experimented with the leather goth subculture in his 20s but he immediately discovered that he doesn't have the energy to melt in the summer, so for now it is only a winter and bedroom subculture XD

[50] What are they really good and really bad at?

He's good at cooking, writing, organizing, cleaning and giving orders, he sucks at teamwork, asking for help, singing and knowing when to take a break (and socializing, my man has 0 friends outside of the ones his husband introduced him to)

[57] What was the most stupid or dangerous thing they have ever done?

The most stupidly dangerous thing was to let a stranger that ten years before was his bully at summer camp into his home because he (The bully) had all his money stolen and had nowhere to stay, it ended well for him tho.

The most dangerous thing is probably having 7 attempts at his own life before he turned 25. He eventually met a guy in the psych ward who was fostering a mother cat and her kittens and that is how he got his little angel cat Pumpkin (the guy at the psych ward was Theodore)

Now for Theodore Malik!

[9] What is their love language?

Giving gifts and acts of survice, he will cook for you and make you the best outfits you've ever seen all for the small price of tolerating his existence and listening to him ramble about Batman for way waaaay too long. On the more extreme end he will kill for the people he cares about ♡

[12] How high is their self-esteem?

It fluctuates between I am a gift from god blessing you with my mere existence to I am the worst thing to ever happen to this planet and if i don't stop existing right now the whole world will explode.

[26] Do they have any physical or mental ilness, how do they handle it and how open they are about it?

He is immortal and has otherworldly physical strength and immunity but you will find him with very sever injuries more times than not, mentally he has a little cocktail that consists of depression, general anxiety, bipolar, ptsd and some psychotic hallucinations. He is very open about everything and you WILL know when he is upset because nothing on God's green earth will stop this man from complaining.

[30] What are their most healthy and most unhealthy coping mechanisms?

The healthy ones are cooking, embroidery and chatting with his friends, the unhealthy ones are smoking, drinking, driving off of cliffs and other destructive actions

[35] Do they like their own appearance, and what do they do, if anything, to alter it in any way?

He is obsessed with his appearance, narcissus levels of self love, all except his eyes, they are blue like his mother but he would very much prefer if he had inherited the warm brown of his father's.

[42] What is their idea of a perfect friendly hangout and/or romantic date?

Theodore's perfect date would be going to the club, getting wasted and forgetting about everything the next day, but if you're not a fan of that he would settle to going to a convention with you.

[48] Are they, or were they at some point in their life, a part of any subculture?

Punk goth, from the 60s till now, before that he just dressed in frilly dressed with floral patterns

[50] What are they really good and really bad at?

He is good at listening, taking care of people, cooking, making and fixing clothes, making friends, and making enemies, he's terrible and mainting a healthy long term relationship, taking care of himself, cleaning, and making good life decisions

[57] What was the most stupid or dangerous thing they have ever done?

Every choice he has ever done is stupid and dangerous, the honorable mentions being running away from home at 16 to go live with the man who stalked him, didn't end well at all. Attempting to kill his ex's abusive ex but he is the most powerful vampire so the only damage Theodore managed to do was burning half of that man's face (and getting himself on a hitlist) and having a thing for mafia bosses which isn't that good when you date two people from opposing sides at the same time :)

[greengrungeemo]

Unprofessional emo nail tutorial for longer lasting nails!! Since I now have nail polish on 24/7 and will have it forever, I learned the proper steps to have it last as long as possible to minimize the amount of times I gotta reapply, so hopefully this helps someone out there too! :3

Summary:

Use soybean or non-acetone nail polish remover!

Use base coat/bonder!

Apply color nail polishes of choice!

Apply top coat!

Apply cuticle oil (either before base coat or after top coat dries is fine)!

Lasts 1-2 weeks with this method depending on how rough you are with your hands!

ALSO, ignore the redness around the sides of my fingers, I chomp the shit out of my skin because anxiety. xD

Nails after 24 hours:

Nails after 10 days (I just took these now, enjoy silly cat! xP) :

So yeah, small chipping and removal near the tips, I prefer not to apply polish to the tips/front because it tends to stick under my nails sometimes and it irritates me. So yeah! There ya go!

[luckyshotwrites]

Eyo! Forgive me if this is an odd question, but how did you make friends?

Hey hey! I don't consider this an odd question! If you are talking about friends on here? The vore discord chat that's in my feed helped me connect to a lot of them that I recognized or some that I hadn't. That's one of the biggest ways that I started interacting with everyone. While before that...it was kinda taking a "lucky shot." Ha-get it. I'm sorry!

Randomly sending messages to others/making a comment on their stuff/doing funny meme responses. And sometimes that one interaction could lead you to talking more with someone, sometimes it doesn't and that's okay! I am not an expert by any means with making peeps, but this is how a lot of mine went. I put myself out there to interact and a lot of people on here from what I discovered are just shy and or have anxiety with interactions, among other things. And that's perfectly fine, it's them and I love them. It honestly only makes me want to hug them all more. I know the pressures of anxiety and stuff too, but my drive to want to tell someone how amazing their stuff is, is far greater than my fears of all the bad that could happen from it.

Then from there, I popped a message to their DM when I felt comfortable enough. For example one of my friends now, I was worried about a post they made so I DM'ed them with support. Another we just exchanged songs. One I called out on Kate's Vore discord. And my first started out with me randomly messaging them a pepe meme where if they tilt their phone a certain way it says, "your doing great and I'm glad you exist." (They know who they are!...hopefully xD). This has been my experience. I kinda threw myself out there and sometimes I tried to interact with people and they never responded, or ignored me. Which is fine too, it can take a while before ya make a friend. I know it's scary and you might not want to be hurt, but sometimes you gotta dive in. At least that's my motto with everything I do. HOPEFULLY THIS HELPS YOU OUT AND THAT I SOMEWHAT ANSWERED IT COHERENTLY. I WISH YOU TO HAVE A WONDERFUL REST OF YOUR DAY! NONNEGOTIABLE.

[pastel-player]

i'm not sure if you're still doing hfjone asks, but i was wondering if you have any thoughts on how the contestants would deal with being back on earth after ONE?

I am ALWAYS taking ONE asks- stuff like this makes me super happy to see! Let me go through them one by one.

Charlie’s life is relatively unaltered, but the lingering affects of ONE become more clear as he starts growing up. Nightmares about falling from high places become a common thing, for instance.

Taylor comes back with a notable spike in anxiety. I feel like she’d be the only person to tell people what actually happened to her- which, unsurprisingly, no one really believes. I think her close friends are willing to give her the benefit of the doubt, but they honestly don’t fully believe what she says happened to her. I think she eventually starts going to therapy, where she slowly starts working through what happened to her.

Charlotte.. hoo boy, she’s fun. Okay so she’s definitely fun. I think the latter parts of ONE really fricked her up. I have a lot of thoughts on this women, but to summarize, I think she used to have a belief that the only thing that could hurt her was other people. She no longer believes that once she gets back. Now, she believes that she’s one wrong move away from the world taking everything from her. I think she’d be able to reconcile with her friends, but she definitely still has A LOT to work through.

Amelia is having a hard time but she’s doing much better. With my headcanons, she’s able to move right back in with her brother, so she’s spared a fair amount of trying to rebuild her life. I think she spends awhile struggling with her identity though, particularly in trying to figure out where Amelia ends and Senty begins. She takes a lot of adjusting, especially in her self-perception. It isn’t too uncommon to see her frozen in front of a mirror, staring at her own reflection.

Bryce I’m not quite as sure on, but I think he’d be handling it alright. Obviously he’d have been stuck longer than last time, but I think having a support group of friends this time around would help. He has a lot to rebuild, but he’s done it before, which would hopefully give him some confidence in doing it again.

Now, Liam… again, he’s doing better, but recovery is going to be a very long road for him. I think he ends up staying with Owen for awhile but eventually ends up moving near Amelia- the more he tries, the more he realizes he just can’t go back to his old life. He definitely has a lot more anxiety now- nightmares and panic attacks are unfortunately pretty common. He’s doing what he can to cope, but it’s difficult. I have my fair share of headcanons with him during this, but I’ll save that for another time cause this is already super long XD

[captainsparklefingers]

It feels really weird doing this xD but I guess talking about asking for help/feedback/generally venting about stuff (minor or otherwise) is always gonna feel weird? Is that what I'm doing right now? I have no idea. But anyway, writing it all out will hopefully help get it off my chest and I can try to move on to practical things. Mregh.

So I'm working on a series of oneshots about the first year of Kingsley's life (it was initially gonna be just the first six months before M9 Reunited but then I had some ideas that would only make sense after that, so here we are), and I've managed to get exactly one of them done so far. Which is good! I've got a second one in the works and a list of ideas for the others, buuuut I've managed to get myself stuck in the middle of the second one. Turns out it's hard to write Caduceus and Kingsley interactions when you have nothing to base them on XD and I guess that means I need a beta/somebody to bounce ideas off of. My regular beta (who is a wonderful person and one of my closest friends and who I love very much) is busy with real life stuff like work, so I don't want to bother them, and the people I want to ask to take a look at stuff and get ideas from are busy with their own fics and projects, and I don't want to bother them either. So here we are. I have anxiety up the wazzoo for a lot of things, including this, so it feels weird just putting a Tumblr post out there asking for help with something as silly as a fanfic...

And I'm always sort of afraid of writing Kingsley 'wrong', if that makes sense. Like, I know he's not Lucien or Molly, he's himself and there are echos of them in him, but with my whole belief that the memories of the previous purples are still there (just locked up until he's ready and comfortable enough as Kingsley to take them back and not get overwhelmed by them) and they sometimes leak out (the problem traveling with your past lives family is there's plenty of triggers there for stuff to slip through the cracks without context), and I worry that that makes it seem like I'm trying to turn him into Molly when I swear that's not what I'm thinking at all. So there's THAT layer to the anxiety as well.

So here I am with one one shot done, one about halfway done that I need a bit of a push with, and a list of ideas that I haven't started in on yet because I haven't gotten the second one done, and a lot of nerves about never getting anything done. Like, I'm not even gonna tag this because this is mostly just me trying to work out my anxiety about stuff (but uh if anyone is interested in helping or looking at some Kingsley stuff lemme know I guess), and I hope it helps. I've been having a lot of anxiety and nervousness about a lot of crap lately, and compared to other stuff, this is just such a minor bullshit thing to get wound up about.

God, anxiety SUCKS, y'all. It's the stupidest most irrational thing. Like 'ooh you wanted to do this as a fun lil side project to keep the creative juices going during downtime at work NOPE YOU'RE OBSESSED AND NERVOUS NOW ENJOY FEELING WEIRD WHENEVER YOU'RE AT YOUR LAPTOP FOR UNRELATED REASONS'.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

missing

sooo hi! I haven’t posted any of my writing on tumblr in a long time lol, but I thought about it and I figured, eh, I might as well for this one :). And since I haven’t done this in so long, mas, I’m kind of stealing your format a bit. Sorry about that :p. Anyway, this is actually my first lone star fic! That I’ve posted, that is. I have another one I’ve been working on for a while (it’s not extremely long but motivation and inspiration are fickle things), which I will hopefully post soon :). But when there wasn’t a fic about this the day after the episode (I lasted a night of resisting the idea lol), this possessed me xd. This takes place the morning after 4x03. I hope you enjoy :D!!

trigger warnings: talk of kidnapping

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TK woke with a start and a flash of anxiety, both of which were caused by his phone ringing. Ever since his mom, he always felt like he was going to get bad news. It was getting better, and then everything with Iris’s disappearance had spiked it again. But this was fine. Iris was back, so that was over. The anxiety started to recede, still humming in the background, but TK ignored it as he fumbled to grab his phone. He squinted automatically at its light, and he tried to see who was calling, but his eyes hadn’t adjusted after a few seconds so he just answered it.

“Hello?” he answered groggily.

“TK Strand?”

He sat up slightly.

“Uh- Yeah,” he responded. “Who is this?”

“Police Sergeant Sykes-” TK’s heart jumped into his throat, and he forcibly swallowed it back down. “I’m Officer Reyes’s boss. And you’re his fiancé, correct?”

“Oh, yeah, we- Yeah, we met once,” TK recalled vaguely. It had been a brief interaction when he was picking Carlos up from a shift. “Sorry, what do you need?”

“It’s fine,” Sergeant Sykes responded. “I apologize for calling you so early.”

TK glanced at the alarm clock next to him - 5:57.

“I had to be up soon anyway,” he said wearily.

“Oh, that’s convenient,” the Sergeant responded. He wasted no more before continuing. “Well, I was calling you because Officer Reyes didn’t show up for his shift at 5.”

Breathe. Just- Sykes was talking.

“Sorry, what was that?” TK interrupted.

“I was asking if Officer Reyes is at home,” Sykes repeated.

“No,” TK said. “He-” and then finally he woke up enough to remember. Relief and comprehension flooded through him. “He’s staying at the hospital with Iris Blake tonight.”

“Ah, I see,” Sykes said. “He must have overslept or got involved with something there. I’ll call them. Thank you, Mr. Strand.”

“Yeah, of course,” he responded, and the other man hung up. TK rubbed his face and glanced at his phone. No important notifications. No calls or texts from Carlos. And it was 5:59, so with a sigh he got up and started getting ready for work. His shift started at 7:00, so he didn’t have a lot of time to lounge around.

TK went into the bathroom and splashed some water on his face, trying to wake himself up a bit more. It didn’t really help. He dried his face and then quickly brushed his teeth, trying not to think about how it felt different with Carlos not coming home than when he left before TK. He thought about work instead, wondering what kind of day it would be.

Honestly, he wouldn’t mind a busy day, he thought as he went back into the bedroom and started looking for clothes.

His phone rang.

It’s fine, it’s nothing, just answer.

TK hurriedly picked up his phone from where he dropped it on the bed and answered it. He shoved the shirt he’d been holding under his other arm as he said: “Hello?”

“Sorry to call again so soon, Mr. Strand.”

It’s fine, just breathe. Maybe Carlos’s phone died and needs his charger.

“Sergeant,” he said, surprised. “What do you need?”

“You said Officer Reyes went to stay with Iris Blake overnight, yes?”

TK swallowed, staring at the wall but seeing nothing. “Yeah. Were you able to contact him?” Maybe the sergeant needed him to call Carlos himself, or remind him which room Iris was in.

There was silence for a few seconds.

Just breathe, don’t overreact. Everything is-

“Carlos Reyes is not at the hospital. We have no idea where he is.”

TK’s blood ran cold. His heart was beating in his ears - it’s fine he’s fine everything’s fine - and there was some squeaking sound in the back of his mind. Carlos must’ve left already. He must’ve- what was that noise?

TK glanced down and realized the noise was coming from his phone, which was currently sitting on the floor. He scrambled to pick it up.

“-you there?”

“Yeah, sorry,” TK forced out. “I- what were you saying?”

“Is there anywhere else he could be?” repeated the Sergeant.

TK closed his eyes, trying to focus. Breathe, breathe, breathe.

“Uh- yeah. There’s places he could be, but they’re not- I don’t know why he’d be there,” he answered.

“Such as?” Sykes asked.

“His parents’, the 126 firehouse, or just driving, like, to nowhere.” He racked his mind for Carlos’s hiding places, but he was still trying to figure out why he would be at any of them.

“I was about to call his father and ask if he knew where Officer Reyes is,” Sykes said.

“Okay,” TK said tightly. “But I can’t think of any reason he would be there. He- he said he was going to the hospital.”

“Is there any reason he wouldn’t want to come home?” questioned Sykes.

The lump in TK’s throat was growing fast.

“Mr. Strand?”

“Yeah,” he answered past the lump. “I- I went to talk to Iris, before her. . . disappearance. And, he thought- that it could’ve been my fault.”

“So he was angry with you?”

TK swallowed thickly. “Yeah.”

“Then it makes sense that he didn’t tell you where he was going,” Sykes said.

“No,” TK countered immediately. “He would’ve told me.”

Sykes didn’t say anything for a few moments. Then: “Tell me exactly what he said to you.”

“He- He called me, last night. Around 8:30, I think? Maybe 9:00. PM,” he added, just to be sure. TK took a deep breath. “I said I was getting worried, and I asked how Iris was. He- he said not great, and that I shouldn’t wait up, because he was going to stay there. So, I said that- it made sense, you know, that she shouldn’t be alone, and- and I said I loved him and he said it back.”

“He didn’t seem particularly angry with you last night?”

“No, just- quiet.”

“He’s most likely just spending time alone, and lost track of time,” Sykes said calmingly. TK would be annoyed at being treated carefully if he had any mental space for anything else.

“He’s been through a lot in the past few days,” the Sergeant continued.

“Carlos doesn’t lose track of time,” TK said, trying to keep the bite out of his voice. “And he wouldn’t skip his shift.”

The other end of the line was quiet for a few seconds.

“Sergeant-” TK started.

“I’m having someone call Gabriel Reyes now,” Sykes interrupted.

“Tell me what he says.”

“I will,” Sykes promised.

There was silence for a few moments - it felt like hours, but TK was sure it couldn’t have been longer than 30 seconds. He felt like pacing, but was rooted to the spot, barely breathing. TK could almost make out voices in the background of the other call, but he had no idea what they were saying. Then, nothing.

He waited a few seconds.

“Sergeant?”

“Gabriel Reyes has received no communication at all from his son.”

Breathe. That means he must be driving somewhere, blowing off steam.

“Okay,” he said, trying to ignore the tension in Sykes’s voice. “So- he’s driving, out somewhere.”

“Thank you,” Sergeant Sykes said, voice slightly fainter. What was he- right, talking to someone else.

“What?” TK asked, trying to keep his voice level. “Does someone know where he is?”

A sigh. “Cell tower report. Officer Reyes’s cell phone last pinged last night at 8:49 PM. His call to you,” the sergeant added.

It’s fine. It’s fine. He’s fine.

“So his phone died? That’s why we haven’t heard from him?” TK asked hopefully. Finally, there was an explanation beyond Carlos just forgetting.

“Carlos Reyes is missing.”

TK’s heart stopped. Everything slowed. It felt like plunging into the lake: muffled, freezing, and terrifying. The information wasn’t processing. It couldn’t, because this couldn’t be happening. Because Carlos had called him barely a day ago to tell him the exact same thing, but they had found her and she was fine-

“I’m sorry, TK.”

His senses came rushing back to him. It was like Sykes snapped him out of a trance. TK took a deep, shuddering breath.

“Don’t tell me you’re sorry,” TK said hollowly. “Find him.”

He was already moving, rushing to grab the rest of his clothes.

“Mr. Strand, we’re going to do everything we can-”

“I know that,” TK interrupted forcefully. “And you want me to come in and answer some questions, right?”

“. . . Yes, but-”

“Tell Gabriel I’ll be there in five minutes.”

“Mr. Strand- TK, Gabriel Reyes isn’t here,” Sykes said, the sympathy - more like pity - in his voice mixed with confusion.

“He will be,” TK said firmly. “And like I said, I will be too. So tell him.”

Sykes sighed. “I will,” he replied, sounding a bit defeated.

TK was about to hang up, but he hesitated. Stared at nothing. Heard his heart pounding now that the silence wasn’t filled with his voice.

“Thank you,” he said shakily. “For telling me.”

“Of course, TK,” the Sergeant said after a few seconds. “We’re going to find him.”

“I know,” TK said. He didn’t.

He hung up.

TK took another breath, and then dropped his phone onto the bed. He felt the anger rising back up. He needed to move, and he did. He jumped right back into his search for clothes. TK searched near frantically for his shoes (or any shoes really) as he switched his pajama shirt out for an actual shirt. By the time he changed all of his clothes, he finally found them.

TK rushed into the living room. He grabbed his keys off the kitchen counter and-

His phone. He ran back into the bedroom, snatched it off the bed, and was out of the door within seconds.

After an agonizing 40 seconds (time really was fond of making seconds feel like hours that morning), TK finally made it to the car. He unlocked it, threw open the door, and slid in. He knew the way to the police station by heart. Take a left on-

The door shut. The silence was back. TK hated this silence. Silence that should be just the lack of noise but was so, so much more. Silence that was anger and sadness and death-

TK let out a strangled sob. He hadn’t even realized he’d been holding his breath until it all rushed out. He could feel the tears in his eyes, feel one start to track its way down his face. The silence took away the anger for just a moment, and all he wanted to do was scream, or cry. But he didn’t have time for either.

TK closed his eyes, taking a shuddering breath. And then a few more, slightly steadier ones. Carlos needed him. TK couldn’t just sit in the car, because Carlos was going to be fine but they needed to find him first. His fiancé was missing, and he needed to help.

TK opened his eyes and put the key in the ignition.

[slunatic]

So, I have a Patreon with exclusive stories (up to 21 now). You can also see rough drafts of stories I'm working on, get news on stories I’m planning, and vote in polls to help decide what I write next. Consider supporting this Lunatic for as little as $3 a month to see the stories and more. If you're curious about the stories you're missing out on, here's a list with summaries.

1. Thief in the Night: KiGo one shot. Prompt (from Evander): a role reversal where Shego is the hero and Kim is a young thief with Wade still there as her support. https://www.patreon.com/posts/42078975.

2. Curses: KiGo one-shot. This one shot goes out to Nranders for expressing a desire to see more KiGo and more fantasy. I hope you like this. Well, I hope everyone likes this and, please, feel free to send requests or prompts for these one shots. I have almost no ideas for them, although this one, I had this idea for a long time, but could never turn it into a proper story. I hope it works like this. https://www.patreon.com/posts/42831025

3. Civil Union: original one-shot. Summary: Manara's spending the weekend at her girlfriend Lauren's house… with her wife's permission of course. https://www.patreon.com/posts/43868712

4. Opposites Attract: KiGo one-shot. This one actually started out as a fic here on Facebook, but I added over 1500 words to it. Prompt: a superhero story where the villain and the superhero are roommates and they keep making excuses to each other about why they are out all of the time and they stitch each other up after battles but neither has an idea that the other is their nemesis and they keep on lying to each other why they’re covered in scratches and bruises. Plot Twist: they’re attracted to each other/dating. https://www.patreon.com/posts/47257744

5. Emma's Idiot: SQ one-shot. I enjoy a good “wait, that’s my idiot” situation, but I realize I often only think of Emma being Regina’s idiot rather than they are both each other’s idiot. Long story short, here’s a one-shot where Regina is Emma’s idiot. It features my new head canon that Regina is good at pool. https://www.patreon.com/posts/52147343

6. Nature of the Beast: original story, first draft novel, 20 chapters. Summary: Tala was supposed to go check on her friend, Kyra, and make sure that her new, promising job (at a supposed strip club) was on the up and up. She wasn't expecting to meet Citlali, the club manager, who keeps distracting her from what she's supposed to do, so she has to keep coming back to the club. This is not good for her anxiety. https://www.patreon.com/posts/53598606

7. First Time: original one-shot. Summary: Manara has a wife, Reena, and two children, and also a girlfriend, Lauren. Seven months into their relationship, Lauren has Manara and the children stay with her for the weekend, even though she thinks it’s a bad idea. Something goes wrong, but it shows Lauren how close she is, not just with Manara, but with Reena and the children as well. https://www.patreon.com/posts/56594456

7. Little Regina. (SQ story started as a Facebook prompt). Hi, everyone. A little background before we get into this one-shot. This is actually an old request from 2017. It's buried in my Facebook page somewhere. It's kind of a sequel to my story Little Girl Lost. I recently reread that story and then remembered this story, so now I want to work this story into a short three-chapter official sequel. For now, you're seeing the original one-shot. I haven't had a chance to work on it yet, but hopefully sometime soon.  Anyway, here's the original prompt from Googly Eyed Sociopath: A Regina version of Little Girl Lost? xD I want a cute kiddie Regina. All I can say is: Good luck with that, Emma. Kidding, don't wanna torture Emma, (yes, I do) but it could happen where Regina suggests she would like another kid and Emma's a little wary about it as she's never really gotten to parenting baby/toddler Henry. Some magical mishap happens where she's suddenly in this frightening situation taking care of a kid and after a while, she finally begins to deal with the fact that she can be a good mom too. Awkward maybe as a start, but I'm sure she'll manage. xD I can't remember if Little Girl Lost was after the finale where Regina implanted her memories of taking care of Henry, but since you did say that Emma's gonna be bad at it, then I'll assume it's not. https://www.patreon.com/posts/55091941

8. Kinder Joy: SQ story, a revamp of the above story, 3 chapters long. Summary: a sequel to Little Girl Lost. https://www.patreon.com/posts/56693116

9. Welcome to the Neighborhood: original story one shot. Summary: Harper moved in next door to very nice neighbors who have a daughter, Rana, away at college. Until, one day, Rana is locked out of her house and Harper offers her shelter from the cold. Things get steamy from there. G!P. https://www.patreon.com/posts/57245422

10. Feasting: original story 4 chapters. Summary: this is a sequel to Welcome to the Neighborhood. Rana is home for Thanksgiving break. She wants to spend time with Harper, who is alone for the holiday. https://www.patreon.com/posts/59115199

11. Original Sin: Redemption: original story, 17 chapters. Summary: Jahna is a long lost princess just trying to get to know the family she never knew while regaining her sanity. It’s a struggle to leave her old life behind, though. https://www.patreon.com/posts/59358465. There's also a PDF of the full story for Sandwich tier patrons. https://www.patreon.com/posts/61607700

12. First: KiGo one shot. Summary: Kim’s having her first heat. Shego is here to help out. https://www.patreon.com/posts/60279254

13. Creating a Monster: 15 chapters. original story, novel length. Summary: Cerberus is a Wild One that acts exactly the way everyone expects a Wild One to act. Pallas is a Wild One that acts in a way no one expects a Wild One to act. Together, they change the very notion of what a Wild One is. https://www.patreon.com/posts/61991734

14. The Cursed Princess and the Black Knight: 6 chapters. Summary: Kumari is a princess living with a curse and the Black Knight might be the key to curing her. If her father allows it anyway. (Cover art.) https://www.patreon.com/posts/68907921 Epilogue: https://www.patreon.com/posts/69230642

15. Warrior Class: Claiming the Stars (First draft one shot): summary: a check in on the characters from the Warrior Class series. https://www.patreon.com/posts/71900847

16. Green-Eyed Monster: Summary: Snow loves Regina, more than anyone ever thought. https://www.patreon.com/posts/72438362

17. Gift Giving: 3 chapters. Summary: this is the sequel to Feasting with Harper and Rana up to their usual shenanigans and managing to grow as people as they fuck each other silly while Rana is home for winter break. https://www.patreon.com/posts/gift-giving-1-3-72718901

18. Creating Another Monster: Summary: In this sequel to Creating a Monster, Cerberus and Pallas are expecting a baby in a world that still doesn’t quite understand them. Are these Wild Ones ready to be parents to a Wild One? Is the world ready to accept Wild Ones are people? https://www.patreon.com/posts/creating-another-76059544

19. Moonlight Sonata: Summary: Shego and Kim are married with four daughters. Shego planned a great vacation, but now their parents can’t watch the kids. What’s a needy couple to do? https://www.patreon.com/posts/76397182

20. Original Sin: The Divine Plan. Summary: Jahna is trying to keep herself together, but her mother thinks she needs to learn to accept her responsibilities as the Heir. Jahna does her best to avoid buckling under the pressure, but also doesn’t want to accept this life her mother wants for her. https://www.patreon.com/posts/86415928

21. A Lady’s Place. One-shot. Summary: Chaqa is a visiting queen, meant to entertain King Lahim. She finds herself much more interested in his twin sister, Nashwa. https://www.patreon.com/posts/90945860 

22. Cruel and Unusual Punishment. Phase One complete. On-going series. Basically, Kim and Shego buddy cop story. Eventually, KiGo. AU-ish. https://www.patreon.com/posts/95243393

23. Lost Youth: this is the sequel Kinder Joy, which you might remember was a sequel to Little Girl Lost. Established SQ. https://www.patreon.com/posts/105135591

24. Once Within a Dream: 23 chapters. Summar: Samar is a warrior in mourning, aching for connection. She finds it exactly where she was looking, much to her surprise. https://www.patreon.com/posts/105897196

[infinite-happiness]

GKS-G 2023 (1st Round Embassy Track) - Part 1

Hello world!

So this is my very first post here.

Maybe I'll be talking about my GKS application journey on this blog and share my experiences online with you guys (if you happened to stumble upon my writings or just somehow ended up here on this blog :D)! Let's get the ride together!!

Anyway, I made it to the 1st round selection (and hopefully will do so until the final round - Amiin *praying hard) of the Global Korea Scholarship program for the 2023 intake . Well, so proud of myself for making it so far (patting me on the back XD). You did well myself! :)

The application itself is such a tiring, long process which require time and dedication (money I could say hehe). Currently, I am waiting for the 2nd round result by NIIED (합격 고고) which will be announced on early May (dunno maybe in the first week? last year it was on the 6th!) And while waiting, I think it would be good to record my application journey so far, so here I am writing this! Hope this will helpful too for you guys who are interested in applying GKS in the future!^^

So first thing first, I had to prepare all the documents while working full time that it was quite stressing for me. I only had time after work to write my essays. In addition, as English is not first language in my country, I had to get my documents translated into English first and then going back and forth to get my documents apostilled (as I am not living in the capital city - it took me 2 hours one way). Another thing is about the recommendation letter (this consumed me more time and energy than I thought haha - you guys better prepare it beforehand). I asked my academic advisor to write one (I had prepared my draft before contacting him, which he then asked about it actually). I had to explain to him multiple times to make sure he signs across the backflap of the envelop as well. But when I got the document.. no.. nothing! my professor didn't sign on the backflap :( On top of that, the document was so messed up, it was crumpled here and there (JNE is not professional this time ㅠ). I had to contact my professor again and asked him to send me a new one (with sign on the backflap) and to put some cardboard along with the packet to make sure it arrived safely. In the end I got my letter back (safely), but it took about one week (obviously lol).

After that, I arranged all the documents needed and sent it to the Korean embassy like one weeks before the application closed (still using JNE tho wkwk). The applicants of the embassy track in my country (I'm from Indonesia) was around 699 people and the quota is only 27! YES, you read it right! I had almost like 700 competitors ㅠ but I was indeed so lucky to get selected (Thanks God!).

The Korean embassy in my country chose like 45 candidates in the document screening. They announced the successful candidates list on their website, but they only posted the applicant's given name (last year they published the full name), and there was my first name as well! But, but.. the thing is my name is not unique at all, most of the women in my country are having the same name with me :) and that was not cool all lol. I was afraid if it actually were not me (although I had a feeling that is was me ㅋㅋ) and got more paranoid after asking one of the 2022 successful applicants as he said that last year the embassy mailed the successful candidates first before posting the list on the website. And I didn't receive any mail from the embassy (had been checking every 5 minutes lol, inbox and spam). I couldn't concentrate on my work because of my anxiety (despite that my Korean ehm crush (?) kept telling me that I would make it because I have TOPIK level 6 - but still.. ㅠ). And then the lunch time came and I was about to do my Dhuzr prayer that I got an email from the embassy congratulating me! I was so happy and was about to cry until I finally read on the mail that I had to do the interview the next day (they said it would start from 8 to 11, first come first serve based)! Yep, the next very day! Congrats to me! lol . I felt overwhelmed because I'm new in my company, and I didn't know if one day notice for a leave is acceptable here. So as soon as I finished my prayer, I reached up to the HR representative in my Department and asked her about the matter. She said that it was okay as long as my supervisor okay with it. Fortunately, my supervisor let me to take a leave for the next day (thank you Mr~ - I told him that I had an urgent family matter lol).

With that, I started the interview preparation as soon as I got off from work. I studied my essays (read it again and again), watched videos related and read people's blogs as well (thank you people :)). I also made a list of questions that the interviewers might ask and recorded myself to practice my answers until late (not recommended but I had no choice ㅜ).

Well, this is going to be a loooong story so maybe I will split it into some parts (I know you guys will be bored to read a very long passage coz so do I :D). Will be back for the second part about my interview experience (and hopefully will be consistent with this blog XD)!

Thank you for reading! Have a lovely day! <3

XOXO