Tara held her face in her hands, her knees bunched up to her chest and she shut her eyes tightly. Her jaw clenched and every part of her body strained.
Everything felt wrong.
Everything was wrong.
Tara felt like sometimes she and Teddy were growing up too fast. She had to grow up fast. Ever since Teddy came into the family, they grew up together. Parents weren’t there… well… barely. Maybe some babysitters when they were to young but once highschool started… she knew there was no attempt at getting them back. Her parents, she meant.
For Teddy, it was easier, which she wish wasn’t true but it was. They neglected Teddy to much for him to care at this point.
So why did it still hurt when she was told that their… her… mom and dad were dead.
She would like to think, maybe long ago and she forgot, that her parent held her in their arms and cuddled and praised her simply just for being happy. Or at least be seen. Be noticed. She barely even recognized the people in the photo when it popped up on her phone for the funeral- distant relatives like aunts and uncles were hosting it across state. She didn’t want to go. She doesn’t think that the rest of the family knows she and Teddy exist.
Has it been that long? Has it been that long that she barely even recognized her own parents? Yes, yes it was. And it was infuriating. She was pissed.
In the darkness I will meet my creators
Tara raised her head up and let her hand drag down her face, rubbing her eyes and then holding it over her mouth. She didn’t cry about it, she just hated it. Like your favorite show ending but the writers complete screwed you over and wrote the worst ending to mankind.
But when you have no one, you instinctively reach out desperate to find something, anything, to keep you upright.
And that first came in the form of Teddy.
And when it was to much for both of them.
There was Karma… and there was Ravage.
Karma was the other half of her, Tara and Karma like to think.
And they will all agree that I’m a suffocator
For Teddy and Ravage, no doubt the same.
So she and Karma empathized with Gabe and Carnage.
And looking back at it. The mere thought of somehow being separated from Karma like her brother and Gabe were from their symbiotes? … she doesn’t like the word symbiotes, she just calls Karma her ‘half.’ So thinking about Gabe and Teddy being away from their half seemed bleak.
She wasn’t alone, ever. Which strangely gave her comfort. Tara and Karma didn’t need to speak to understand each other and what each other needed. There’s no word to describe the bond you have with your half, it’s just… there. If you truly understand each other and work as a team, you can be one.
Suffocator
And for a long time, Tara thought she’d never find that half of herself.
Suffocator
And thinking about someone trying to take that away from her… from them.
Karma didn’t like that.
Tara didn’t either.
Karma gripped at the edge of the building under her claws, her right hand raised as she gripped it into a fist and then flexed her claws, her eyes narrowed and her forever smile seemed more grim in a wish it could frown.
The symbiote turned her head when she felt a heavy body hit the surface behind her.
Oh, love
Carnage approached from behind before hopping and perching next to her.
I’m sorry if I smothered you
“This cannot continue.”
“It won’t.”
Carnage turned his head, “It won’t be easy,”
“Or legal.”
I’m sorry if I smothered you
Karma turned and looked back at Carnage, hissing through her teeth as she bared them and sized up the other next to her,
“But we will not be threatened because of our existence, we are happy now,” she snarled, “they won’t take that from us- from our brothers,”
I sometimes with I stayed inside
“They won’t.”
My mother
. . .
“You willing to pay the price?”
Carnage stood his ground, his eyes narrowing. Gabe had no doubt. Neither did Carnage.
And Karma felt Tara’s determination.
“We already have.”
Never to come out.
—
Metal mirrors concludes…
Eye For An Eye… begins
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listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.
like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been
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large zionist blocklist below
i've compiled a list of all the blogs positively interacting with the @/israel-palestine-bingo blog
there's more info about how the names were complied under the read more, but just to get an idea of how vile the blog is, i just want to quickly mention that the first prize offered in their pinned post, "eight hours of memi mamtera," is the song used in the viral israeli tiktok trend of kidnapping, humiliating, and torturing palestinians in the west bank.
and the "grand prize," which needs no explanation, is "all of palestine! for free!"
some quick info: all the names here have either approvingly replied to, reblogged from, or liked one or more of @/israel-palestine-bingo's posts. for likes, i've only gathered names that appear under their original posts; mostly ones that have not been reblogged, and some with 2-3 reblogs that have not left the immediate sphere of zionists. i've also made sure that these are blogs who have either liked more than one posts from them, or who frequently reblogs from other zionists.
you can also quickly look through the blog yourself (it doesn't have that many posts), or check out any of the names on the list with a quick 'israel' or 'palestine' in the search bar or their blogs.
there are more screenshots at the end of the posts, including ones showing who made the blog (ani-lo-daredevil / katenotbishop), and the bingo board itself (ashenpumpkin).
blocking tip: fastest way to mass block users (on desktop) is to go to settings -> the blog your blocking them from -> scroll all the way down to 'blocked tumblrs,' and then copy-paste the name your blocking
names listed below in alphabetical order
reminder again, block don't engage
2peachy
acleverforgery
ani-lo-daredevil
apollo-enthusiast
ashenpumpkin <- credited for making the bingo board, reblogged/liked almost all of their posts.
aureatecorvid
avi-on-jumblr (main @/clear-what-i-was-seeing)
awstheticshit
bambahalva
bleepiesheepie
bluenorther
blueredfetch
bones-and-crows
britneysmeanshirt
cannibalism-is-my-love-language
captain-navii
casavanse
celepito
chubbybubba
ciitrus--fruitz
coffeelovinggayidiot
da-socks
davos-is-the-one-true-king
dchan87
disregardenedgnostic
elder-millennial-of-zion
faggotry-enjoyer
fdelopera
flowercrownsandfairylights
fluffel677
fluffy-art-moss
george-lucas-is-god
got-chavi
icereader12
illegitimatetenenbaum
inklingm8
its-hila
jewishlivesmatter
just-illegal
karinhasdacookie
katenotbishop <- the main account of the person running the blog. her sideblog is @/ani-lo-daredevil
kelluinox
kingofslush
letaot-ze-magniv
lingonberryjamistakenwhat
lovelyhairedpianist
magic-coffee
marrymepadfoot
marvel-ous-posts
masters-puddle <- pornblog
mixmangosmangoverse
morganas-simp
mossadspydolphin
multifandermissesanakin
nameless370
namiko026
nevleg32
notcrazyiswear
oakstar519
perfectlynormalperson
psychologeek
queerius
randomname3
redvodyanoi
rhysaka
sally006
sbinklebooper
scp-1296
shinekocreator <- commented, 'but is this the 8 hour version?' on a post where someone ''won'' the song used in the tiktok torture videos.
snakelung
sort-of-a-demon
soxiyy
stuffandatherstuff
tearsandice
tedious-waffle
thebejeweledwatercat
the-library-alcove
thirdmagic
thisgingerhasnosoul
timegirl
tolaat-bli-toelet <- the person running the bingo blog. mainblog is @/katenotbishop
transmascpetewentz
tribulation-of-somnolence
unexistencerpg
viktorrotkiv
wanderingmadscientist
whiterose-blackrose
whitesunlars
why5x5
note: @/tolaat-bli-toelet changed her username to @/ani-lo-daredevil (her main is still @/katenotbishop)
and from the same post,
the last post was also reblogged by the creator of the israel-palestine-bingo blog
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No matter how many excuses you make
No matter how many thinly veiled broken promises you swear will never be repeated.
The only thing you ever manage to do
Is make me cry
So just
Stop.
Please.
I don't care.
I do care.
And fuck you for making me remember how much I still do.
****
Being contacted by the blood again out of the blue, with the kind of news I've been dreading and it has begun once more.
Oh goody. Well it's time for depresso espresso as I weep into my pillow after a nice long six month break from the constant reminders.
Why won't they just give up on their damn Hallmark ending already. For fucks sake just... leave me alone.
I'm an orphan with living parents. Disowned and alone on paper just ..fucking... STOP.
Just stop. Stop stop stop STOP.
Stop.
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this is the kiss penelope asked for. a kiss. nothing she said implied she wanted more than this little peck..
but this is the kiss colin gave her. this is what he wanted..
and this is the kiss that opened his eyes. this is the brow-furrowing 'oh' moment. this was the kiss he wanted and needed..
and this is where he needed a moment. he needed a second to bask in the afterglow of their kiss before his lips instinctively inched back in to meet hers again..
this is the moment the hope for anything 'more than friends' with colin, ended for penelope. this is where she thought, 'this was just a favor! this was just my friend colin being kind. this is never going to happen again, but at least i had it once'...
and this is the moment colin saw the possibility of 'more than friends' with penelope
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