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katyspersonal · 2 years ago

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Guys!!!!!!! I am getting better at drawing faces!!!!! dsfjhfdshjfhsd!!!!!!!!!!!

#doodles #honestly though i thought i was absolutely stuck #but apparently i've been making small improvement recently #so i guess i am not hopeless?#bit by bit and i can do it i guess #at least he looks satisfying now for me #also shorter hairstyle is not necessarily gone #presume he did cut his hair short past byrgenwerth #and it just grew a little #he also now looks like someone's father #which is funny because he probably died a virgin right

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snixx · 7 months ago

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life went forward and the world moved on but I never got over among us (2018)

#but no one:(( will play it:(( with me:((#i miss amogus with my ex best friend and all her friends #she was just like me fr she loved introducing all her friends to each other its another reason i loved her so much #and why i struggled so much when my high school best friend started making friends outside of me who didnt like me #one of them even gave me this long ass lecture on KAVYA YOU DONT NEED TO BE FRIENDS WITH ALL YOUR FRIENDS' FRIENDS YOU KNOW #oh and you cAnt jUst Ask pEoPle tO bE yOuR fRiEnd (jokes on her we're friends now. kind of ive been ghosting her for a while but not the po #Int 💀)#and look i learned that. sort of. but i still struggle with it sometimes #like at least with my best friends i always wanted to know about and be involved with everyone in their lives you know #which ive realized now is not practical #but im still this hopeless romantic who wants to be friends with all my friends friends and all my friends to be friends #even if i barely have the energy for it anymore. i guess losing her drilled that in #also another thing i realized is. its good to keep your friends separate sometimes because if the chain breaks you dont lose a whole system #which wasnt even a point of consideration for me back then because like i said. hopeless romantic. why would we ever fall out #but yeah it was hard having to accept that sometimes the whole world doesnt want to be friends. and people are allowed to dislike each othe #shocking i know #anyway what am i even talking about how did i get here #liveblogging.pdf

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wizardsix · 1 year ago

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the greeks are claiming gale as one of their own . have you Seen him?? his last name?? that man is greek im being so serious

#loves his mom.. knows how to cook... everything about him is thematically about water.. fatherless..#loves the pursuit of knowledge and magic more than anything.. hopeless romantic.. must i go on...#the fatherless thing was a joke but also not. i haven't met a single greek person w a stable relationship w their family #that man is GREEK #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #gale dekarios #six speaks #im not really a headcanon guy unless i really feel it. and i really feel this one so its incredibly important to me #also bc good greek characters are incredibly lacking in media i guess i have to project and make my own #also yes i am fully greek im allowed to do this lmao

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north-wilkesboro-moonshine-cave · 3 months ago

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another weekend, another job rejection!

#and now no more positions are open to apply to! for now at least. some more will probably drop soon. fuck i hope so.#love just. being fucking unable to even make it into the interview phase for my extraordinarily lofty career goal #Of Working In A Fucking Library #just. so thrilled.#kazoo noises #anyway tomorrow morning i have to find a time to talk to my rabbis bc if i dont figure shit out i have to pick between becoming jewish or #graduating on time and i have fucking NO ONE i can talk to this about and ive used up like all of my good will in all of my personal #relationships already and i am So Fucking Sick of feeling mean and petty and evil all the time but my options are either fucking smile and #be noticeably fake optimistic when i get called on my bullshit or burn like all three of my last remaining bridges #i just dont see why i cant even make it to interviews. like i can accept not being the right fit or whatever. but like. it really kinda is #everyone but me whos employed by now.#man. like listen. its not my professors fault. i get that i've got her in a bad position.#but she said ''sometimes we have to pick between sources of joy'' like MAN--#do NOT speak to me about that. absolutely the FUCK not.#you! are employed and have been in this field for over a decade and i work in a grocery store with no sign of luck changing.#i need to be in this section bc 1) im not fucking doing academia with a gun pulled on me #2) i need to actually get some kind of professional experience since its clear i can't actually get a job on merit so i guess i will pay to #go further into debt #anyway no one is around to talk to me about this and i hate bitching to my friends about how fucking hopeless i feel all the fucking time s #everyone please look away from my diary posting and think of me as sexy and fun and bubbly <3333 #like. its literally no ones fault so i should not be this fucking resentful.#and yet.#yeah im probably not getting classed as a good person for another several years. shame. ive always wanted to be good.#library travails

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samuraisharkie · 5 months ago

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the thing about living in the world is that it is filled with hopeless anguish and despair and evil and there’s no way for anyone to defeat it all. but you have to keep on living

#edit: if you are seeing this and it’s making you feel worse please know that this isn’t true. it’s not hopeless.#it can feel this way and it’s ok to feel upset but please don’t let this convince you the world is no good #like I said later— the fireflies are back. there are plenty of good things to fight for and you may not see it till later #so don’t give up.#I’ll leave my previous tags up for archival and commiseration purposes #I WAS feeling better but god nothing improves no matter what those of us trying to do smth ever attempt #nothing changes. it just keeps getting fucking worse.#I’m so tired of this world. it’s going to end in anguish and despair and ruin and the good people will perish while the evil survive #and no matter what we try we can’t stop it. I guess #we have to try nonetheless but I don’t see anything changing. it just keeps getting worse and worse #I am crying right now in just hopeless confusion #I don’t want to give up but god I don’t want to be here either. it feels like drowning and being on fire all at once

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soapkid · 7 months ago

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ive gotta be real im kind of losing hope for life

#it feels like it's only get worse and worse lately and i just don't know what to do man #its just like. swallowing me whole #the furure feels so fucking looming no matter what #i feel like a pathetic bum because i genuinely dont know that ill ever be able to take on longer than a 25 hour work week max #and because of how everything is im doomed to be forever dependant on someone covering so much for me #i don't feel like I'm ever going to be secure and i just. i have hopes for the future but any time i try to consider how i get there i just #it feels like everything falls apart #i know it's probably because it's 2 in the morning but i just don't have any faith in my life...#it's hard not to just. consider death sometimes i guess. I'm not actively suicidal. id hardly even say i passively am most of the time #it's just like... i don't fucking know how I'm going to make it out of this man. i feel so hopeless #...rant over

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mummer · 1 year ago

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i know the fascism intrinsic to zionism is obviously apparent on the face of it but it is really illustrative of Something that it has my so-called liberal father posting links to fucking prageru videos trying to manufacture consent for the murder of palestinian children

#i seriously dont know what to fucking do anymore i feel so lost and bleak and cant go to anyone with it #one of the posts was so deeply disturbing i find it utterly unforgivable. one of the most truly depraved things ive ever read #hopeless fruitless pointless #i cant fight him but i cant just smile and wave. Whats my option here. Cage cage forever.#i dont think i can ever forgive this and the worst part is i cant forget it lol #when we first started fighting when i was in high school it was about zionism!!! that was pointless too #but when he said shitty things then i didnt have a record of what he was saying. i’ll have this screenshot forever #how am i supposed to talk to him tomorrow without sobbing. Lol.#i have to go blow my brains out #delete later. I guess

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ghostdnfie · 13 hours ago

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this feels like a silly thing to ask and i feel like i talked about it before but in a more lighthearted way. ive been in this fandom for what, nearly 4 years? and in most of that time ive had to deal with seeing countless cruel tweets/posts/comments/whatever about dream or dream stans with so many likes time and time again and it always hurts the same even after years of being here ;-; a lot of it is just rsd but. also anxiety for some reason (a fun side effect of surviving every drituation...)

anyway my question is what do u tend to do when u see those to feel better bc my anxious brain loves to ruminate 💀

#discourse #i get upset/hopeless easily thinking how cruel the world is so u probably see why those posts make me feel so shitty #guess its just the way i am oh well #love how in april 2022 17 year old me was thinking wow this is horrible hopefully things will be better in 1 or 2 years. oh boy.

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infiniteseriesofhalfways · 23 days ago

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in personal good news, i have a job interview on friday

#i have to get out of this fuckass county if not state if not country #i dont know man. everytime i stop thinking about this for five minutes it hits me even harder #and i try to think of anything to distract myself and its like... whats the point #and i know. i know.#but god it feels pointless #so part of me wants to lean in even harder and try to find any good i can and focus on that #but at the same time how can i possibly?#i dont know.#i guess if you see me wildly fluctuating between hopeless and hopeful just roll with it #i am all of it #anyway yeah wish me luck on friday #ks talks

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daylighteclipsed · 2 years ago

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anyone else feel like the whole world is this 👌 close to completely snapping

#it feels like a rubber band is being pulled farther and farther #and it’s going to snap soon #like people are just rapidly reaching their limit #specifically the working class #France is already rioting #like we’re all just so fucking fed up with all the elites around the globe #america especially feels like we’re one jenga block away from #i can’t say war bc realistically we would be mowed down but um #quitting the game i guess #it’s all a game and we’re this close to flipping the board #I’m sick to my stomach I’m furious I’m exhausted #we’re all so tired and drained and hear all these horrible things every day and have to go to work like nothings happening #why are we going to work why are we playing this game i don’t wanna play anymore !!!!!#I’m just. I’m so hurt and frustrated and feel the grief of millions of people I’m in tears #this is not sustainable life doesn’t have to be this way it shouldn’t be this way #it feels so hopeless i hate it i hate it so much i am living on spite alone #god damn you elites i will go down swinging

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hecksupremechips · 5 months ago

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My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #its like i cant get ahead of myself when talking about him cuz theres still a lot not revealed by the end of ch2 but STILLLL #i was keeping my opinions on characters pretty neutral this whole playthrough though my bias towards gin and kai was very apparent lol #and i did start screaming in agony reliving my worst nightmare joe dying #i dont think my sister was nearly as torn up about it as i was though like god ill still never get over it #the first time i played i actually gross sobbed like maybe i was just sleep deprived but i was inconsolable literally never cried that hard #but yeah we did the second main game today and i was like #‘not trying to persuade your vote but heres one million reasons why we should let shin live ahaha’#i dont think she was very happy with her vote aldnks #but yeah i really am gonna be sooo annoying next time we play im literally gonna bring pages of shin analysis with me that i can gush about #it is an interesting thing this character cuz to me like everything about him is so clear like even from the beginning i just didnt buy #the idea that he was genuinely an asshole i knew there had to have been something more going on #and idk if ive made it clear guys…but hes exactly like me guys hes just like me fr #his story hits so hard it feels like my own self insert which is weird cuz obviously thats not true #but like i feel like its either you get it or you dont and if you dont understand exactly what this character feels cuz you feel it yourself #i feel like so much of him just wont make any sense to you #maybe im just being pretentious idk but like if you cant relate to his abuse and just #very blatant bpd then I feel like youll just judge him on how good or badof a person he is #like it just doesnt feel like itd hit in the same way like when i see this character talking about being hopeless and the way his trauma #makes him act irrationally like god it just clicks so hard it makes so much sense and i can physically feel it through the screen #I MAY BE FERAL ABOUT THIS CHARACTER TO AN ABSURD DEGREE SHHH #basically what im getting at is i feel if i dont over explain everything about this character to other people i fear they just Wont Get It #and that they will be judgmental which idk i guess makes me defensive #anyway yeah i just enjoy getting to re experience the spiral this guy has given me and i will be thinking about it a lot tonight

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anumacy · 5 months ago

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Part million of anu trying to explain how much of a hopeless romantic she is

Like i swear im not insane, like is it normal to be this gay, like women?????? HELLLOOOO???????? HI? PLEASE? HUG ME? LOVE ME? STEP ON ME IDC, YOU BEAUTIFUL BEING I LOVE YOU

Cough

I swear..... if I ever get a gf you bet im texting them at 3am "do you hate me now" every single day and then show up grab their arm n never letting go like your arm? Our arm. It belongs to both of us now. Now sit down and cuddle me n turn on pokemon.

#lesbian #just words #gay thoughts #im so gay #why am i so gay #wlw #hopeless romantic #ive never dated anybody before is it showing #im so single #guess you can call me a one hit wonder hahaha

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lesbiantrish · 6 months ago

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i just want to be loved by someone

#all of us /sys #are either hopeless romantics and cant fucking take it #or are completely disgusted by romance LMAO 😭#guess which one i am 😋😋#-?#but is it too much to ask? really #i love my friends. always #i love platonic love #but aslo like.#am i so unlovable that i dont have anythign more #also because of how my brain works (long fucking story.)#im probably never going to be able #to date ppl irl #not that anyone would want me! ha!!#vent #roy speaks

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2btheanswertothequestion · 6 months ago

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Cw for some suicidal shit in the tags :)