#so i dont get mad or even annoyed at 98% of the things that happen on the road BUT THOSE 2 THINGS PISS ME OFF BEYOND WORDS

[oflgtfol]

hi it’s literally common courtesy to turn your high beams off when there’s another person on the road. if you live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere with no street lights then no one’s stopping you from having your high beams on but as soon as you see someone else approaching, turn that shit off!!!

and honestly, if you’re driving in an area with street lights, i dont see why there’s any need at all to have high beams on. especially in a god damn suburban area where there’s constantly other people around you. there’s streetlights and hundreds of other cars with their own headlights on, you don’t god damn need your high beams on

frankly i’d say it’s even hazardous to keep your fucking high beams on in a suburban area. i honest to god cannot see jack shit when an oncoming car has their high beams on. literally, everything else goes black, and the only 2 things i can see are the two head lights. it’s fucking dangerous when i’m driving in a residential area at night and i cannot fucking see anything

if you have your high beams on around me i don’t respect you you’re rude as fuck and just know that i’m yelling at you inside my car

[brelione]

JJ and Rafe dating a 🥺 girl

Request:can you do jj and rafe dating a 🥺 girl

You were so different from the both of them in pretty much every single way

But that made you a perfect balance between their anger issues, family problems and lack of affection.You were willing to help them with their problems and provide years worth of affection that they had missed out on.

You didnt really know how you ended up dating the two of them.Only that it had started by breaking up a fight between them on the beach, getting them to sit down in the sand and discuss.

Now you were dating the both of them and had the two spending their nights in your bedroom while you guys ate chips and played board games

“Im sorry, princess.Im sorry.You know that I love you but I have to do this.”JJ whispered, looking at you.Rafe shook his head. “Dont do it, man.Dont you dare.”Rafe replied, gripping your hand tightly.JJ took in a deep breath before placing down the ‘swap deck’ card. “NO!”You screamed, burying your face in your hands. “JJ-what the fuck?”You asked, handing him your single card and taking the stack of forty from him. “Im sorry.”He grinned.

The loved to help you bake

Rafe had been whisking the eggs for a good two minutes, waiting for you to tell him to stop.JJ was working on the icing even though the cake batter wasnt ready yet. “You can stop whisking it now.”You replied, thanking him as you took the bowl from his hands.

They were so gentle with you because they figured you were such a gentle person that you should be handled just as gently

They would never use the term ‘fucking’ when it came to you because that just not what you guys did.But Rafe would admit that sometimes he felt like an innocent twelve year old when he used the term ‘love making’

Rafe’s favorite thing to do was to kiss the top of your head while you were sitting on your kitchen counter

He just wanted all of your attention all the time which often cause conflict with JJ because he wanted the same

But you somehow managed to distribute equally between the boys, usually having one with his head on your lap while you leaned against the other

Most dates were either picnics or movie nights

JJ was so proud when he introduced you to the rest of the pogues

They were just shocked.Obviously JJ is amazing but you were so different from him.They didnt understand what could have possibly got you two together.

Ward was confused as hell when you showed up to the house asking for Rafe

“Are you a friend?”Ward asked, letting you inside before shouting for Rafe.You hummed, not sure if Rafe had told him about you yet.Rafe was annoyed when he first came down the stairs, a big smile spreading across his face when he saw you. “Hey, sunshine.”He smiled, pulling you into a hug.Ward was still looking between the two of you, deciding to just walk off and question Sarah about it.

The two of you went upstairs, sitting on his bed. “So what’s up?”Rafe asked, not used to you coming over unannounced.You shrugged, kissing him gently. ‘I dunno...i missed you.”You replied, cuddling into his chest.

JJ loved how much you genuinely cared for him and Rafe.He’d smile whenever you’d text him to ask how his day was and ask if he had drank enough water.

They were both soft for you

Even though JJ and Rafe shared you JJ was constantly referring to you as his girl

You were always able to calm them down, didnt matter the situation

You even managed to get Rafe clean after a few months

It was difficult for him but you were supportive and helpful along the way, understand when he had a relapse instead of getting mad.

He didnt even know what kind of shit couldve happened if he hadnt fought JJ that night on the beach

They tried their best not to argue because they knew how much it upset you.

They ended up relying on just sending eachother death glares when you werent paying attention

JJ likes to leave hickeys on your neck so that everyone will see them

But nobody thinks that they’re hickies because youre always getting into stupid accidents

You like to read to them when they’re tired

Usually a childrens book or a fairytale because there werent any sad endings or real cliff hangers

Rafe was always cuddling with you.It didnt matter if he was the big spoon or little spoon, he just liked to touch you whenever he could.

JJ loved when you’d pull his hair lightly while you brushed it or braided it

He just liked all the attention

But he liked seeing you in his clothes even more

Rafe knew that you preferred over sized things.He often found himself buying 3XLs so that you’d be nice and comfy.

They often questioned how you could tolerate one of them.They couldnt understand how you could handle both of them at the same time.

All the love they had in your hearts belonged to you and if not all it was at least 90%

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[rikiflrts]

— ꒰‧ 𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭 ༉‧₊˚✧

after what seemed like forever, i finally made my own prompt list! if you wish to request for the prompts that you’d like to use with a certain member, then feel free to choose any of the numbers displayed and tell me about them in the ask box (^^).

also: please be specific with the genre that you'd like to imply with your chosen prompts, thank you~ ♡

1.) "i just wanted to give you a hug"

2.) "dumbass we're lost now thanks to you!" " i already got lost in your eyes from the moment i met you but you don't see me complaining."

3.) "please don't talk to me right now, im not in the mood"

4.) "how are you so beautiful?"

5.) "my hoodie looks great on you"

6.) "how could you..."

7.) "i trusted you"

8.) "i didn't tell you to trust me."

9.) "you're leaving? just like that?"

10.) "no stop you're making me blush"

11.) "and if i am?"

12.) "just shut up and let me play with your hair"

13.) "so this is what falling in love feels like"

14.) "how are you even real..?"

15.) "are you being for real right now?"

16.) "...did you just sniff me?"

17.) "if you're that mad then why don't you just take it out on me?"

18.) "i don't mind"

19.) "you dumbass, i said i like you!"

20.) "i used to have this huge crush on you (laughs)" "used to?" "well, yeah.. i dont really like you anymore"

21.) "can i hold your hand?"

22.) "are you nervous?"

23.) "less talking, more working!"

24.) "im in love with an idiot"

25.) "but you promised me that we'd get married!!" "for the love of god, ____ we were 5 when that promise was made!"

26.) "but i still love/like you.."

27.) "this reminded me of you"

28.) "his/her/their smile is really pretty.."

29.) "just confess already!!"

30.) "you're an idiot." "yeah. your idiot."

31.) "are you even paying attention?"

32.) "does it look like i care?"

33.) "i don't really care"

34.) "it's been a while since i last smiled like this"

35.) "oh crap im starting to feel the butterflies again"

36.) "I'm scared, okay?! i can't do it"

37.) "what are you so scared of?"

38.) "im scared of falling.." "dont be, i'll catch you."

39.) "promise..?" "promise."

40.) "i guess promises really were meant to be broken."

41.) "you made a fool out of me!"

42.) "im sorry, its not you.. its me."

43.) "what about our promises??" "what about them?"

44.) "please dont go"

45.) "is/are they/he/she all you're ever going to look at?im already right in front of your attention is still focused on them/him/her."

46.) "that's it..?"

47.) "cuddle with me"

48.) "no."

49.) "his/her/their eyes were like pools; so deep. I fear that if I fall, I might never come out and reach for air."

50.) "i love spending time with you"

51.) "let's just be friends"

52.) "im sorry, im afraid of commitment"

53.) "im afraid of it too. why don't you just take this risk and overcome your fears with me?"

54.) "if its you, then i dont mind."

55.) "i love your smell"

56.) "what's that supposed to mean?"

57.) "first love really never does die huh"

58.) "hey, you look really familiar" "oh, really?" "yeah. you look like my soulmate."

59.) "if you like me so much then just marry me already"

60.) "wait i can do that?!" "your gullibility really amazes me sometimes."

61.) "are you dumb? be honest"

62.) "im not in the mood"

63.) "are you okay?"

64.) "you look horrible" "oh wow gee thanks for pointing that out sherlock"

65.) "what's in it for me?"

66.) "do you..like me?"

67.) "do you like him/her/them?"

68.) "but i wrote you letters.."

69.) "they mean nothing to me."

70.) "wow! i haven't seen you in ages, how have you been?" "we literally just saw each other 5 hours ago."

71.) "wipe that smirk off your face, its annoying"

72.) "aww, why? are you perhaps threatened that you'll end up falling for me?"

73.) "i think im going to puke"

74.) "are you blushing?"

75.) "aren't you tired of comstantly running in my mind?"

76.) "i can't get him/her/them out of my head"

77.) "your laugh sounds really pretty"

78.) "i love how your eyes sparkle whenever you're invested in something"

79.) "im falling"

80.) "oh no im catching feelings"

81.) "do you ever stop talking?"

82.) "let me get that for you"

83.) "its okay, i can pay for myself" "no. i wont let you" "but i have my own mone-" "shut up and let me spoil you!"

84.) "i refuse to stay in the same room with the likes of him/her/them!"

86.) "it was pretty obvious.."

87.) "come here."

88.) "stop doing that to yourself!"

89.) "you deserve better."

90.) "just leave. i dont want to see your face anymore."

91.) "i hate you." "the feeling's mutual."

92.) "didn't i tell you to leave me alone?!"

93.) "was it so wrong to love you..?"

94.) "if you really love me then just stay away from my sight."

95.) "you feel like home"

96.) "i love hugging you, it makes me feel safe"

97.) "i could kiss you right now!" "you're very welcome to do it."

98.) "i can't keep playing pretend"

99.) "let's put an end to this.."

100.) "i think im actually catching feelings"

101.) "this is getting dangerous.."

102.) "give me another chance"

103.) "give me one reason why i shouldnt leave."

104.) "im going to do it! im finally going to confess to him/her/them!"

105.) "you've got to be kidding me.."

106.) "i knew what i signed up for. im not surprised."

107.) "he/she/they has/have stars in his/her/their eyes and im captivated"

108.) "i love you" "nice try, but im not falling for that"

109.) "is it that hard to fall in love with me?!"

110.) "well if you put it that way, then yes."

111.) "you look happy"

112.) "you look happier without me."

113.) "can you guys please change the dare"

114.) "who gave you the right to toy around with my emotions like that?!"

115.) "i got played.."

116.) "stay out of my sight."

117.) "you're an eyesore" "you're an eye candy"

118.) "why are you still here?"

119.) "why..?"

120.) "stop making fun of me!" "make me."

121.) "was i just some kind of sick joke to you?"

122.) " i really like you "

123.) "i don't know how to express my feelings that well but i just want you to know that i'd take a bullet for you"

124.) "i'd do anything just to see you smile like that again"

125.) "what are you staring at?"

126.) "i think i have a crush on you" "you think? you're not even sure?"

127.) "take my hand"

128.) "let's get out of here."

129.) "you should wear my clothes more often"

130.) "i can teach you how"

131.) "I'm here for you"

132.) "you can use me to forget about him/her/them"

133.) "even if the world turns againt us, as long as we have each other, then we'll be alright."

134.) "you're all that i need"

135.) "you're all that i ever wanted"

136.) "you're all that i have"

137.) "please don't leave me"

138.) "I'm sorry."

139.) "look at me."

140.) "look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore."

141.) "you're an idiot."

142.) "i don't love you anymore."

143.) "did you just drink from my cup?" "and if i did?"

144.) "im going to kill you!" "you don't scare me"

145.) "stay with me a little longer"

146.) "i knew it.."

147.) "i should've known.."

148.) "are you jealous?"

149.) "i made you a playlist"

150.) "when will you ever look my way..?"

151.) "im fine with looking at him/her/them from afar"

152.) "he's/she's/they're out of my league"

151.) "im scared of getting rejected"

152.) "back to square one"

153.) "I'm tired"

154.) "what do you like about me?"

154.) "i'd rather starve than spend time with him/her/them."

155.) "if i'm an idiot, then you're a coward"

156.) "i dreamt about you last night"

157.) "it was a nightmare"

158.) "it's the little things that he/she/they do/does that drive me insane"

159.) "i like you more than i should"

160.) "be mine"

161.) "it was too good to be true.."

162.) "i had a crush on him/her/them"

163.) "i never really thought that i'd end up falling for you"

164.) "you're adorable"

165.) "you mean the world to me"

166.) "you meant the world to me"

167.) "what happened in the past stays in the past"

168.) "careful, you might end up falling for me"

169.) "very funny, mister lover boy"

170.) "lets go out on a date"

171.) "i'm so lucky to have you"

172.) "where are you going?"

173.) "sometimes it really just gotta be like that"

174.) "hello good afternoon, what's your order?" "hell- oh wow.. you please" "im sorry, could you say that again?" "wait no! i meant- uh..oh dear.."

175.) "he's too good for me"

176.) "stop giving me mixed signals"

177.) "i guess it really just wasn't meant to be"

178.) "im not interested in you"

179.) "i cant get him/her/them out of my head"

180.) "where is/are he/she/they?"

181.) "you took my pillow so im going to use you as a pillow"

182.) "why are you avoiding me?"

183.) "did i do something wrong?"

184.) "please talk to me"

185.) "im not even his/her/their ideal type"

186.) "it wouldn't hurt to try"

187.) "you smell like me"

188.) "i like my scent on you"

189.) "that sounds weird if you put it that way"

190.) "can i call you tonight?"

191.) "you should smile more often"

192.) "i hate it when people tell me what to do"

193.) "lets wear matching outfits!"

194.) "im arresting you." "why? i didnt do anything wrong" "yes you did, you stole my heart and i want justice!"

195.) "i guess i got too caught up with my fatasies to notice that he/she/they never really liked me back in the first place.."

196.) "you're the answer to all my prayers"

198.) "you should go home."

199.) "let me come with you"

200.) "run away with me"

last updated: 12/30/20

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[sparklinpixiedust]

Basic Training

This post has been sitting in my drafts for months now, during which I've come up with a few ways I wanted to write this post. This is what I've come up with.

Basic Training is the episode which made me hate Ben the most. The whole episode consisted him of being a stuck up brat only to be rewarded for it in the end.

This episode was the perfect opportunity to have Kevin in the spotlight and show how skilled and smart he is.

Gwen's presence in this episode was actually fine, there's no change needed for that.

Look, I know the shows named Ben 10 but we have seen Ben be the hero tons of times already.

And Ben being egoistic about his heroism is not something new in the franchise.

There have been episodes on the OS where Ben got a big head, yet I dont ever see anyone complaining about that.

Was is it because he was 10 that we excuse this behaviour? Nope.

15 - 16 is still pretty young and his attitude can be excused at this age as well.

My opinion? It was handled better in the OS.

There were times when Ben wasn't always the main focus.

In Lucky Girl, Ben has his ' who's your hero?' Moment.

They showed Gwen feeling jealous and hurt by the fact she wasn't noticed much.

It was realistic.

Then the epsiode proceeded to focus on Gwen , having Ben being kind of like a sub plot to the story.

Towards the end Ben compliments her.

So yeah Ben got big head, but at the same time they shifted focus so that the audience wouldn't find it annoying.

Gwen was in the spotlight for a bit, giving people a break from Ben.

Secondly  , in Be Afraid Of The Dark, Ben again is shown to be slightly stuck up, but towards the end of that episode he learns and acknowledges Gwen and Grandpa for help and understands his crime fighting is more of a team effort.

In Galactic Enforcers, we are shown there are other heros besides Ben as well.

Ben wasn't the sole focus of that episode. Yes it was about him but also about the Galactic Enforcers.

I don't think he was shown to be over confident here , but it was nice to see some other heros in the scene.

The Ben 10,000 episode focuses on how Ben was too focused on his job and the lesson at that was Ben needed to relax and have them Galactic Enforcers take the lead instead.

Again , his attitude towards everything was brought in focus but towards the end he learnt something.

I recently started watching Generator Rex and I can't help but compare Rex's character to Ben's.

Rex is also proud , rushes into things and considers himself to be a hotshot. But they also show him being down ,having trouble with his nanites and actually voice out his insecurities.

He's still the hero, still has things go his way most times but it's not annoying like Ben.

( I've only seen like 7 episodes so far so I don't know if this going to go down hil or not but so far so good)

The issue with the sequels after the OS was that Ben was the focus a bit too much.

We as the audience were rarely ever given a break from him.

Other than a few conversations here and there about his attitude,  nothing really was done about it.

Gwen should've been appreciated more for saving Kevin and Kevin should've been appreciated for stopping Aggregor.

But they weren't.

If it had been Ben , they would've made sure to show him getting some sort of recognition or trophy.

Back to the Basic Training episode.

We know he's the legendary Ben Tennyson, we know he's a hero. We didn't need another episode on it.

Instead the plot should've focused on Kevin. His skills, his abilities.

Ben would act the same but Magsiter Hulka should've put some sort of cover so Ben couldn't use the omnitrix.

Ben goes on breaking rules,  and having a hard time being a hero without the watch.

Towards the end, it should've been Kevin who cracks the case and saves Hulka. Ben is mad he can't use the omnitrix but instead uses the guns and other weapons he's learnt to use at the academy

He's not amazing at them , but it makes him realise that he is hero , watch or not, something that has been emphasised in the show. Its not impossible for him to function without the watch.

Towards the end, Ben getting a 95 was a stretch. I'm sorry , but the guy wasn't great with using weapons and without the watch I dont think he would've been able to complete that hostage excercise.

I'm thinking more like 89%.

Gwen gets 98, that's fine and Kevin gets a 100.

Hulka comes in and awards the medal (?) to Kevin, suggesting he's becoming more like his father.

( im ignoring the ret con, plus the retcon I'm assuming wasnt thought off at this point by the writers)

Ben is shown to take one of the guns back to earth, because he thinks they're cool and he wants to practice and get better at them.

The whole hostage situation makes him want to get better at making strategies.

Yes he's good at improv, but he needs to learn to properly plan as well.

It doesn't matter if he's never shown to use the gun ever again, and he's back to relying on the omnitrix.

Or maybe some time down the line, he could use the weapon, even if it for a second, to show that he is improving and getting better.

Before you say 'he's already a hero, he doesn't need to learn anything ' sorry but no.

He's 16. He may have saved the world but he still has growing up to do. Different battles are going to arise all the time.

Saying he is perfect at 16 is dumb. Saying he's perfect when he's ben 10k , it'll make some sense. He's been around for a while and is pretty experienced.

The watch is a part of him, but seeing him try to explore other options would've been a fresher idea.

Another scene that made me mad was the court (?) scene in Vreedle, Vreedle.

Ben being a hero shouldn't make him above the law.

Domstol ruling in favor of Ben just because he's the legendry Ben Tennyson was stupid.

After Ben's little monologue , and destroying Domstols desk, the judge should've just informed him that being a hero does not excuse him from following the law.

Kevin could've had his little moment doing some negotiation ( would've been nice to see how he works as con artist) and Ben could've jumped in and helped while making some good points for the argument, showing us he's not stupid.

Then having Domstol rule in their favor would've made sense.

On the way back to earth there could've been a joke about how Ben watches Judge Judy too much which is where he learnt about trials and stuff. Or maybe Gwens dad taught him a thing or two at some point.

All this doesn't mess with Ben's character all that much, he's still the hero of the show, he still has his ego but it makes him more likeable, shifts focus from his attitude, and shows us he's pretty smart and is growing into a good hero.

Ben's not a bad guy. I mean he is the hero of the show. There are tons of scenes which show he's good , like the whole sacrificing thing so the ultimates could live and all.

But little scenes here and there tend to be enough for someone , especially for someone who isn't a super hard-core Ben lover to form negative opinions on him.

Although calling him a psychopath / narc is out of line because I don't find him to be like that. His attitude was magnified by him being in the spotlight too much and writers not having a good balance in writing situations.

Ben being the main character of the show is at risk of becoming hated or less appreciated just because he's the font runner of the show.

Admit it, side characters tend to get more love most times than the main agonist of shows.

I've been watching videos on YouTube on this topic as to why this happens , and what I've come up with is that writers of shows tend to focus too much on main character. Things seem to go their way most times and this tends to get on peoples nerves, consciously or subconsciously because it's not exactly realistic.

Having shows where everything focuses on one person most times tend to backfire.

I don't mind Ben having a big head, I dont mind him making jokes and being so casual.

It's his defense mechanism to protect himself from drowning into the struggles and pressures of being a hero. But always having him be that way isn't good.

The writers should've executed it properly.

( okay this post got really long,  more than I thought it would. If you're read the whole things , congratulations on making it here lol.

I'm not going to stop anyone from replying to this because everyone has different opinions and we all have the freedom to express them.

Although I believe I've made my point and I've made sure to keep in mind all the arguments about why bashing Ben is wrong when he's not a bad guy while typing this out.

I don't think I've directed any major hate towards him , its mostly towards the writers for making the situations like that,but if you think I have you can reply to it.

I'm not gonna reply back though , because again I feel I've made my point.

Any agreements / disagreements you have with the post feel free to share because it is your right.

Any disagreements you have with other members,  as long as its related to the post you can share it.

Any issues you have personally with other members,  please keep them to your selves.

I will not tolerate bullying , harassing,  name calling and petty arguments on my post and blog page.

If this happens I will simply delete this post and re-upload it.)

[ifeelsoemptysometimes]

I feel like i didn't have a very good day today. I had to dismantle my room in a frenzy, letting everyone seem my belongings amd messes which was super invasive, my dad got annoyed at me because I was cold and had the heater on and had a blanket on. He argued that it wasn't cold and that im being ridiculous. I promptly left the room angrily bc this is something that I'm always being nagged at but I am a very thin girl who weights 98 pounds so the slightest of coldness will affect me and he knows this but what ever right. Later after trying to get clothes form my closet, I heard my parents talk about the situation described earlier and called me lunatic. Which, of course, made me a bit upset. I then was walked on by the repair men as I was looking looking for clothes. It was a bit embarrassing. I later had a small panic attack due to the fire alarm going of right above me and as much as i begged it yo stop i did not so I have to run out of the house before I stared to really freak out. In the course of this I had to walk past my parents as I held in my sobs nd wailing shrieks of panic. Well they sall me and asked what was wrong and I stupidly told them that i was startled. I was able to calm down but ws still shaken. I did the mistake of walking back inside too soon and was questioned. My parents dont understand what it is to have anxiety or panic attacks so think im over reacting and that I need to "control" myself. I told them that ist not something i can just control but that i can try and calm down (which i was able to thank God) but it doesn't matter how i much i explain or protest to stupid lectures on something they knwo nothing about. They won't bother hearing me out or care to understand how i feel. After that u judt kinda shut myself away so that I won't be subject to anymore bullshit from my parents. Is about 8:30 when i finally leave the room to get something to eat and my dad find his way to where i am. I guess i have bad face on to his standards and ask me if im mad. I simply tell him that im not and only answer in grunts. He then askes me if i don't like them and if thats the case then its too bad. I simply tell him that i dont dislike them and i ignore anything else he says and go back to the room ive been cooped up in. I honestly hate it when he asks me if im mad. It like thats all he ever knows what to ask me. Like im sorry if thats what it looks like but time and time again, no im not mad. I can't change my face and I can't just be smiling all the time. That would be freaky. And its not like I actually tell him how im feeling cuz it'll only result in me getting yelled at.

I've come to the realization that my feelings and opinions don't matter in this house. There's no, "hey well if somethings wrong then let's talk it out" none of that. My role in this family to to do what im being told and to keep my mouth shut when something I dont like happens. I feel like they don't ACTUALLY care about my feelings. I just have to suck it up and with for a better day. They can beat me, scream at me, I can try to te them and cry but they won't care. They wont take my feelings. I dont think they've ever asked me about my feelings. Unless its to mock me. I wish i could move out. I wish i could go back to the dorm where I don't have to deal with them. It doesn't happen very often but its exhausting when it does. I jusy kept thinking about it and thinking about it and thinking about and I just cant stop. Im tired of it. I don't know what kind of harm it does to me but its doesn't matter cuz it's not ther problem. The thing that I hate the most is that I can't just go up and talk to them about it. Like what will I say?? You guys hurt my feelings?? They'll tell me im being ridiculous and that i need to top being stupid. And ill just cry instead of acting saying anything. And that I HATE the most. That im such a cary baby. I cry for everything and I cant control it. I hate crying to much. But whatever, it doesn't even matter. I'll just wait till I cany go back to the dorms for my happy solo lifestyle.

[megaregz1-blog]

I hate being me living in my head is a constant hell that I don’t wish on anyone I battle myself every minute of everyday between the borderline personality disorder the eating disorders and the schizophrenia it’s pure hell the only person who knows about the voices is my girlfriend and a few selected friends like 2 that know they are always there they never go away this year has been hell it has gone from a constant radio to now people actually talking and now there’s an evil voice that likes to show up once in a while I like when there’s white noise tho you know if most people want peace and quiet they can just go to another room or go sit where there is no one I dont have that luxury if I want peace and quiet I have to spend $15 on a 2mg xanex for four hours of quiet and I’m a broke bitch so I gotta wait till the evil voice has been there a few days before I break down and pay it…I’m going through a divorce so I don’t want to go to a psych just yet but I don’t think I can. Wait much longer…..I want to die so I starve I starve myself because I haven’t yet decided if a bullet to the brain is what is going to happen. Just yet I don’t want to make anyone I care about sad but nobody u derstnsds what it’s like for me what just being g awake or asleep is like for me when I’m awake it’s the voices when. I sleep it’s the nightmares I never get an escape my girlfriend knows I starve myself for control but she made the statement the other day that I control everything I mean shit I even hold my pee and if I’m not puking because I want you refuse to puke but what she does the understand is I can’t controle the voices I mean how would you feel if you couldn’t control your own mind your own head I mean sure we all hear our own. Thoughts all day but your not really hearing them you are thinking them I hear voices that aren’t mine words I would never say I control my actions but I don’t control my head ND then when I sleep it doesn’t end I have nightmares horrible horrible nightmares the eating dissorders are the only thing about myself that I control at least that is how I feel sure I pick out my clothes and put on my make up but imagine for just one second not being able to contol your own mind it’s your brain nobody else’s but yet someone or a few other people control it how would you feel because to me that’s kinda a big deal that kinda outweighs clothes and make up so I go to food will I eat what will I eat how much will I eat and will I keep it down those are my choices in life those are the only choices I make in life that I think of nobody else first those are my selfish choices in life and I’m going to keep them till the day I die….I’m not actively trying to kill myself I dont walk around with a loaded gun or a cyonide pill but I do welcome death god do I welcome it I wish for it each day I have an amazing g girlfriend that I love almost more than I love my children and I have 3 beautiful girls I have my 11yr old with me all the time I don’t ever want to be without them but they deserve better than me the mess that I am…I’m damaged goods I’m completely fucking mental they deserve amazing they deserve great they deserve the world not that shattered peices of me that I have managed to salvage so yes I welcome death so they have a better future a future where I can watch them and they can be free free of the mess that I am….I mean with the borderline who the fuck knows who I am going to be one moment from the next and people think that’s hard to deal with imagine being the person feeling gall these feelings and not knowing am I going to be happy how bout sad am I going to be apathetic because I can’t let myself feel anything because I’ve fallen. Too deep so being numb is the only way to stop the bullet from going through my skull or the car hitting me leanna always says I have an attitude when. I go numb after I’ve been hurt but it’s not an attitude I just don’t talk I just don’t smile I just dont do anything I’m just surviving or trying to I love her more than anything she is my favorite but god she can hurt me like no other I know it bothers her but I take every thing she does and says personal I don’t mean to I don’t want to it’s just the way it is I can’t help but take everything personal with her because I’m so scared of messing everything up…That’s what I do I miss everything up all the time even my dad will tell you that if there’s a way to fuck it up I’ll do it and if there’s not a way to fuck it up I’ll make one…. You know I started out starving myself in 98 because I was raped and I was 210lbs and my way of thinking was well if I wasn’t so heavy maybe he would have just asked if I wanted to have sex so if I lost weight maybe it wouldn’t happen again…..I was wrong…But that’s the mentality of a 16yrold and being raped I lost control….Restricting my food made me gain. Some control back and it became a challenge like oh wow I lost 15lbsin a month how much can I lose next month if I restrict more and as a teenager your parents tell you what to do so ana and Mia gave me a sense of freedom of independence then as an adult you start thinking of others before yourself you start doing things to keep the peace you pick and chose your battles with people you do things for people so what do I do I hold on to ana and Mia I keep them close to me and I lean on them because just because you are choosing to do things for people doesn’t mean that it’s your choice because if you had your way you would do something else you really wanted to chose this battle but you don’t so you restrict you purge because that’s is your choice that you want to chose since you didn’t chose that last battle I didn’t want that nightmare last night so today I starve today I show myself that I can chose what to eat I still have contol I fall deep deeper than most people can go when I feel sad it’s not just sad it’s life altering life ending sad like when my baby brother died I fell into an abyss I tried to hide it from the world people feel sorrow when people died but when Mickey killed himself I tried my best to die to I got lost in drugs trying to o.d. I guess that’s why I want to get sober I’m subconsciously trying to live because Everytime I do a drug I hope I o.d. or I’ll have an allergic reaction I never had before Everytime I do something I hope it’s my last time…..I almost had it 3x 3x I o.d. 3x my life was saved a life that isn’t worth saving I’m not worth it I’ll never be worth it god why did I get saved why couldn’t they just let me go and it seems like the older I get the more of a mess I become I wish I was normal I wish I didn’t piss leanna off so much I wish I could be normal for her…My kids have never known me any other way so they don’t get mad when I am the way I am they just get mad cuz I’m their mom but leanna she deserves normal and I’m always possible g her off because of how I am I don’t want to be this way anymore but there’s no pill I can take to change my personality. There’s nothing I can take to take the borderline away I don’t u derstnsds why she is with me I do the understand how she can love me I am basically unlovable I mean if your reading g this the. I’m sure you agree I don’t want to be how I am I don’t want to to feel things the way I do I wish I was normal I wish I could go by what I know not how I feel but it’s like if I don’t feel it it’s not a fact if I feel like you are lying to me and you show me proof that you aren’t until that feeling of you lying to me goes away I can’t go by the facts that you just showed me….When I’m down I go down so far that it takes me longer to “get over it” than it does most people and when I’m in a good mood it takes longer for me to come down unless something happens to bring me down and because I’m so emotional and touchy it could be anything that brings me down and brings me down fast……I wish I could explain to Leanna I wish there was a way I could make her understand I wish I didn’t make her so mad or annoy or keep her so aggrivated…Looking at my life it’s not the life that you want to end I have ana amazing girlfriend I have a job I have. A roof over my head I have 3 beautiful daughters I have a life that people want and if intake myself out of the equation it’s a life that is the best I could ever ask for for its me I do the want it’s me that is a problem I hate my head I hate the way I look I hate the way I think I hate the way I act I hate the way I feel I wish Leanna understood that is a chemical imbalance in my head that makes me depressed not her but if I talk about how I feel she tells me to find someone who makes me happy and typing this gives me the same feeling that. I get when. She says it it’s this knot in my chest a feeling of despair like the start of an anxiety attack but she is my happy she is the only person that can make me happy she isn’t the reason I’m depressed she is the best thing In my life sure people get drepressdd for a week because they don’t have a job or something but that’s not the depression I have mine can’t be cured by getting a job or going somewhere mine can only be cured by medicine but I don’t have time to go get meds between mine and her schedule and then when we do have a day off well she has issues too and needs to go to the Dr and I know she wasn’t trying to make me feel anyway but she told me she can’t go get checked because she never has time and if she does have time something g else comes up that more important and weather she was trying to or not and Im sure she wasn’t trying to that made me feel like shit so I refuse to be the more important thing that keeps her from going because I am not more important than her not by anyway shape or form but she made me feel like shit when she said it so I won’t be what stops her from going plus anyway I’ve been like this my entire life so what’s a little bit longer….I have 5 layers of myself I have who I show the world Wich is completely fake happy amazing person the one who is made of rainbows and glitter and unicorns then I have who I show my family and friends that is a semi normal person who is happy all the time well most the time then I have who my kids see they don’t know all the bad of me all my sadness but they have a glips then there’s who Leanna sees she gets the most real me anyone gets….Depending on her mood depends on how real I am and then there is me just me the one I get to be when nobody is around the me that is free to just sit and just be I do the have to smile if I dont want and worry about being accused of having an attitude or being sad…Yeah I’m sad but I don’t want to talk about it no I don’t have ana attitude just cuz I’m sitting without a smile I’m just being that’s it ….I’ve been disassociateing a lot lately cuz I have to put on a front so much cuz I can’t just sit without a smile and be quiet so I stare I zone I disassociate because I need to have a break from being who everyone wants me to be….It gets so tiring being who everyone wants pretending I’m not this fucking mess of a person who thinks the world is better off without me and not good enough for anyone I love especially my girlfriend I worry I’m not good enough for her in more ways than one I worry I’m not good enough for her everyway possible….It’s weired worrying about that cuz in every relationship before her I did the care if I was enough for someone I really never stopped to even question it but with her with her everything is different….I’m so tired of being me I wish one day I could wake up and be someone else else or just not wake up at all ....

[s3venpounds]

1-102

102 questions? damn thats gonna be tough my guy but aight

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

i do. at least, i trust in them enough to not take the phrase lightly.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

considering im 22 thats not that huge of a gap, considering some people have like a 10 year difference. so yeah i guess

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

pretty recently actually, went to a birthday party of an acquaintance and i didn’t really enjoy myself til i went to sing karaoke but my drunk friend was being hella annoying at the same time

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

i do that on the daily so yeah

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

i mean probably, humans can’t do ANYTHING without having both a positive and negative influence

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

yeah Spire- Reverie( feat FAWNA) that song was sent by said friend that i got reminded of =]

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

red plaid boyfriend style shirt, pepperoni pizza print socks, superman boxers and some athletic shorts with my highschools logo and colors 

8. How often do you listen to music?

whenever im not talking to someone, playing games, or in a serious atmosphere

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

sweats after wearing sweats style pants for so long its hard to go back to my skinny jeans

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

considering its 2017 and literally nothing happened in 2013 but my graduation then no

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

both? i think im one of those things you call an ambivert.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? 

yeah and he was way too timid about it man like ‘s just a kiss

13. What about ‘R’?

nope all my friends with an r name arent close enough for me to try that shit

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

nope would love to learn though

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

yep. mostly so i know where to tweak my personality so i can improve as a person i guess but yeah i tend to get paranoid

16. Are you going out of town soon?

not to my knowledge no, but it wouldnt be the first time my parents pull out “surprise” plane tickets to go somewhere i didn’t want to and on such short notice

17. When was the last time you cried?

mmmmmm can’t remember, so its not in the past 6 months or so

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

yeah, went downhill afterwards

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

blue or purple if possible thatd be dope

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

no not really

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

how hungry i am and the lack of food

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

considering im not gay or at least not confirmed yet, no. 

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

dunno, not even sure where we stand

24. What are you sitting on right now?

a folded up blanket and an old office chair

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

its not everyday but when i say i love them they say it back so thats nice

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yep, multiple times. but yknow oh well right? i would rather something be left where it is than go through an extra excruciating chapter of hurt just because i fell in love with someone i barely knew

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

A.T

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

nope infact the last time i got sick was 2 years ago i believe

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

blue notes, it was on sale and it WAS really soft not its just eh soft

30. Does anyone hate you?

HAHAHHAA yeah. one of my friends confirmed it too still do i think

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

why would i hide them.. these questions were clearly made for someone under 18 and i apologize for reblogging without reading them

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

FUCK.NO.FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME WATCH THEM AND FUCK YOU FOR BRINGING THEM NEAR ME

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

nah sounds like too much maitenence

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

my first year. erase my existence. nah im kidding i would probs delete last year or the year before that anywhere in that time frame

35. Did you have a dream last night?

nope sadly =[

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

the day before yesterday we were both v sleepy after movie night

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

nope. marriage is an annoying thing and until i find someone worth all that struggle not gonna happen. but ive got a good feeling about this one

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

considering they said i love you yeah i would hope so

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

that same person also said this a few days ago so yeah i think so

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

yeah found some old classic songs and got my body groovin that night

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

nope 

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

nope

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

no… and now i feel a little sad

44. What’s the best part about school?

when all ur friends did something amazing yesterday and they talk about it with u all excited and shit

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

yep , some are really cringe worthy 

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

nope i just texted notes were too hard to pass without getting caught

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

yeah a lot to the point im almost there

48. Were you single over the last summer?

yep

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

yeah a little

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

chores, usual adult things, maybe cooking

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

nah i dont hate him, maybe not on the best terms with em but yeah

52. Are you nice to everyone?

nope there are some people that just rub me the wrong way

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yeah 100%

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

are you serious? 6 months? thats so short, how the hell anyone falters at that point? i expect people to start cheating ATLEAST at the 1 year mark 

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

not very to be honest. i wear my heart on my sleeve as a friend says.

56. Do you think you like someone?

yeah i think i do

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

no…….?

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

boys are fun for mindless fun but girls are more for sentimental stuff. both are equally nice to be around

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

yeah tequila is a bitch

60. Do you hate anyone?

yep! same person who hates me!

61. How’s your heart?

like spiritually or like physically. havent gotten a medical check up so dunno, and spiritually? its being taken care of so thats nice

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

yep! and i refuse to talk about it =]

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

nope never

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

person who hates me HEH maybe even my best friend but in an endearing way like “ this fucking bitch decided to snort fucking fundip hes my friend but god damn hes a fucking dumbass”

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

nope i wouldnt mind painting em tho

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

probably i make a lot of them

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

they better not. youre a shitty person for pushing someone to that point. 

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

yeah, sometimes on purpose sometimes on accident, sometimes cuz i wanted to

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

A.T

70. How do you look right now?

like shite mate i havent showered yet

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

yeah Justin HEH

72. Can you commit to one person?

i damn hope so otherwise life is gonna be hella lonely

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

yeah! 

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

yep. multiple times too

75. Did you wake up cranky?

nope woke up horny. thats what happens with morning wood

76. Are you a jealous person?

yeah, the more amazing someone is the more jealous i get

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

i wanna say yes so yall dont shy away from them but like real talk its fucking aggravating, a lot of work, and tiring sometimes. anyone who says otherwise is glossing over shit or hasn’t seen the whole spectrum yet

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

yeah about 98% done too

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

yeah 

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

the same tiring shit as everyday pinky try and take over the world

81. Last person you cried in front of?

justin

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Azley.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

considering they stayed up with me while i was hitting an emotional low yeah i would think so

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

cuddling, probably freaking out that we’re physically right in front of each other

85. Are you over your past?

nah, i like my past as shitty, cringy and heartbreaking as it is i love it

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

yeah isnt that how relationships happen….?

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

yeah justin

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

yeah i’d accept it, then close the door.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

yeah cuz its fucking cold outside my dood, here lemme get some tea or some shit youre probs freezing

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

honestly yeah i once had this really spotty conversation with a girl literally everyone in the school hated at the time. then i realized wow, im just horny and have no substantial feelings for this person and if i do go through with this i will regret it

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

i dont know i dont like to think very far

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

yeah he grew out his hair like that annoying french kid in the will smith movie hitchcock that kept calling him  le petite asshole

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

nope

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

nope 

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

nope HAH

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

considering the last person was my brother fuck no. hes ugly as all hell

97. Who do you have texts from?

uhh, my brother, my best friend, my brother in law, my phone company, and a close friend

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? i would cheer em on while i get fetch the crown royal hidden in the back of the pantry

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yeah not that much different from anyone else really

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? 

no one unless you mean the person who took the photo then my cousin

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

no, and i dont plan to now. i hate them.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

yes.

overall this shit has gotten my mood a little low so if yall excuse me im gonna mentally drown in music

[wake-up-i-know-you-can-hear-me]

answer 1-116

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?I don't know why i feel the way i do, or even what it is that im feeling. This is what confuses me the most often- but i hope to figure it out one day.2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?Sometimes, not gonna lie, some people send me morning nudes; and that's the same thing right?3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?Not really, i've only ever kissed three boys and all of them smoke weed pretty much everyday, as long as i don't have to join in, it's cool.4: Do you find it easy to trust others?It depends on who they are and how i'm feeling. Sometime's im in a very isolating mood, but other times i want to make everything known.5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?Riding my bike, singing Red Hot Chilli Peppers, carring a hutch to my sisters house.6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?Ideally whatever boy i have feelings for at the time, i always seem to trust them the most.7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?Cry. A lot. although that is very hypocritical of me, as i have been the girl that has slept with another girls boyfriend before.8: Are you close with your dad?Very. He raised me as a single parent and since my nan died, i have lived alone with him.9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?Nah, 8 days ago.10: What are you listening to?the sound of my fingers typing and i can hear my dad on his computer in the next room11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?Any kind of energy drink.12: Do you like hickeys?I've never had one, but i like the idea.13: What time do you go to bed?Usually between 3am-9am14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?Multiple people.15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?I'd say so.16: Do you always answer your texts?No, i always open them because it annoys me seeing the notifacation, but i only reply when i need to.17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?Hate is a strong word, i dont think it is possible to hate someone you felt so deeply towards.18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?A few hours ago19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?A couple of people, but i rarely see them20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?Probably a boy tbh21: Is anyone else in the room with you?Nope22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?Sometimes, i believe everyone deserves what they get in life.23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?I'd say about the same24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?A lot of people, but a certain name comes to mind, yes.25: In the past week, have you cried?nope26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?I'm naked lmao27: Do people ever call you by your last name?I get called ''taskforce'' and other versions of my sirname, but its very very rare that someone calls me tasker28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?yes lmao29: Do you have a best friend?I'd like to think so, but im probably not theirs30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?Yes, although i know that they kiss a lot of other people31: Who was your last call/text message from?call: hollytext/message: tom 32: Are you mad at anyone?Quite a few people33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?I've only kissed people older than me34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?19?35: How many more days until your birthday?8636: Do you have any summer plans yet?Nope37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?A lot 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?Yes39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?I dont think so, at least one person knows pretty much everything. I probably have a few that i try to forget, but all of the main ones are out.40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?No41: Do you think age matters in relationships?Yes42: Are you available?For what?43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?244: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?I have never had my ears pierced, and i already have all of the piercings that i want (other than ears, i might get them done one day). I have my septum and both nostrils. 45: Do you believe exes can be friends?Yes, as long as you both make it clear on what you want to be.46: Do you regret anything?so much47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?A boy48: Did you ever lose a best friend?Too many49: Was your last kiss a mistake?I guess you could say so, but i wanted it to happen and i don;t regret it at all.50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?Because they aren't interested51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?I don't think so, maybe?52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?I try53: What was the last thing you ate?Cheese&beans54: Did you get any compliments today?My dad's friend saw us whilst shopping and kept calling me ''lovely'' and ''angel'' and it was sweet. also like 5 people swiped up on a selfie from my sc story and called me pretty, i got more compliments today than usual. 55: Where are you going on your next vacation?DisneyLand Paris with my best friend for our 18th birthday.56: Do you own anything from other countries?yes57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?I'd say 50/5058: Where have you lived most of your life?Latchford59: When was the last time you took a long drive?I don't drive much, probably a few months ago60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?Yeah when i was younger, never an adult version like in the movies.61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?Nope62: Who do you text the most?I don't really text anyone, i have a lot of people i speak to on facebook and snapchat everyday though. 63: What was the last movie you saw?Beauty and the beast i think64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?I don't have a current girlfriend or boyfriend lmao65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?066: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?nope67: Do you curse around your parents?Too often68: Are you happy with where you live?I guess, its a shithole but it's my shithole. I've lived here forever and i have too many memories in this house to leave, as much as it pisses me off sometimes.69: Picture of yourself?lol70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?It depends. If i truly feel like i love someone, then it has to be 100% monogamous. just the thought of them even looking at someone else could make me go psycho. but if i didnt have major feelings for them then i'd be cool with them speaking to other people too. I'd make it very clear what i wanted.71: Have you ever been dumped?Nope72: What do you most like about making out?Where their hands go, lip biting, cute smiles between kisses, and heavy breathing.73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?Yeah, they had a girlfriend and i broke them up. 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?The other usually, i catch on pretty quickly, but they usually have to kinda make it ovbious that they want it before ill even consider going in.75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?If i find someone attractive, i have to find their entire body attractive, one tiny thing can put me off, everyone is different.76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?Ryan i think77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?Nope78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?Nope79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?Boys that i like, dogs, happy memories, and things that i look forward to. 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?I'd consider it, but im only 17 so probably not this young.81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?Yeah, they told my bestfriend first so i already knew, but they told me eventually.82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?Too fucking many, im an idiot83: Do you miss your last sweetie?A lot84: Last time you slow danced with someone?I don't think i ever have85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?Nope86: How can I win your heart?That's such a complicated question; and if you need to ask, chances are you can't. It happens without choice, but i'll let you know. 87: What is your astrological sign?Libra88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?Riding my bike still, it was a long journey. 89: Do you cook?Everyday90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?Yes91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?Sometimes i do, but sometimes the idea scares me92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?I'd say im more of a monogamous person, but i dont know93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?Nice hair, nice smile, funny, nice eyes, tall, idk i have really high standards, probs why im single94: Name four things that you wish you had!-a lot of money-a car-someone that loves me as much as i love them-a nice house95: Are you a player?Nah96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?Nope97: Are you a tease?Hahaha maybe98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?I've met people i follow on tumblr, but i dont think ive planned a meetup with anyone from here, i used to meet people from ask.fm when i was like 14 lmao99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?Yeah100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?Yeah101: Hugs or Kisses?Both102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?YESSS103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?Their posture 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?Yeessss105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?I've been there and done that, i wouldnt really call him sexy, but yeah i guess lol106: Do you flirt a lot?with some people107: Your last kiss?What about it??108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?No109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?Yes110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?Ehhh toss up between 3 people111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?Nope112: Does someone like you currently?I don't think so113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?Unfortunately 114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?I'd like a serious relationship, but people only have flings now a days115: Ever made out with just a friend?Yeah116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?I'm pretty happy single, but i wouldnt mind being in a relationship.

[cindrblock-garden]

All the numbers. Just do it

           ASK ME THINGS        

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

I love you and bring me food

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

Nothing other than friendship

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

I would personally drag their ass to rehab.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

Nope.

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Slightly intoxicated.

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

Literally every relationship of mine ever?

7. What does your last received text say?

“same”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

Just once.

9. Where was your last kiss at?

At a friends birthday party.

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

October 2016

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Orange juice and the occasional coffee.

12. Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

If they’re not hard you’re doing it wrong.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

I’d spend more time with friends than on the internet.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

She might get annoyed with my presence after a few hours.

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

ugh dont make me chose. (sunny)

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

Don’t have a middle name.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

Pants are for the weak/week.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

yes.

20. Does anyone like you?

I’ll go out on a limb and say my boyfriend tolerates my existence.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Yes.

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

Not that I know of?

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

TOO MANY.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

The day I do not consider getting a tattoo is the day I die.

25. In the past week have you cried?

I am a fountain. I always cry.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

The good kind.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Partly in, partly out.

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

He liked to pretend he was.

29. Do you think you’re old?

Nah.

30. Do you like text messaging?

Depends on the occasion. I’m pretty anti social, so yea.

31. What type of day are you having?

The type where you roll straight out of bed, onto the sofa and watch netflix all day, not even putting on clothes.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

Yessss, I’m dying to get it done.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

The warmer the better.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

Several actually.

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

Relationship. I’m too clingy for casual things.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

As complicated as they get.

37. What song are you listening to?

(watching netflix)

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

Yes.

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

There used to be.

40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

He’s literally just the kindest person I know? A giant softie. Oh and his music is trash and I love it.

41. When did you last receive a text message?

April 26th.

42. What is wrong with you right now?

I’ve got a mad cold please kill me.

43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

I’d like to think I know my mom pretty well.

44. Does anyone disgust you?

Oh yea.

45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

No.

46. Are you in a good mood right now?

Not particularly.

47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

My mom.

48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Red.

49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

Yes.

50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Trying not to.

51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

Nope.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

No.

53. Do you like rain?

Hell yes.

54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Only if they don’t know when to stop.

55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Thats like my signature move.

56. Do you like to cuddle?

I’d die for cuddles.

57. Are you shy?

Yes please don’t talk to me.

58. Do you get along with girls?

A select few.

59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

Currently am :)

60. What do you carry with you at all times?

Cell phone.

61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

If I wasn’t alone I would.

62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

Absolutely.

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

Yep.

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

Yesssss!

65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

My dog fell asleep on my lap watching netflix.

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

18, 19, and 18 again

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?  

Do them myself. Ain’t no one got money for bedazzling flimsy bones. 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

Leopard.   69. Do you have any stickers on your car?

No thank goodness.   70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

Luke Bryan any day.    71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? 

Android.  72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?   

Never.

73. Do you like diet soda?   

If you’re gonna drink soda it may as well be the regular one, cause diet isn’t any better.

74. What color are the walls in your room?   

Purple and gray.

75. Are you 16 or older?   

Older.

76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?   

Yes omg put the finale on netflix already.

77. Do you have a job?

No please hire me.    78. What are your initials?   

L.R.

79. Did you ever have braces?   

Rip them off of me right now.

80. Are you from the south?   

Nope.

81. What does your last status on facebook say?   

I couldn’t find the last thing I actually typed on facebook, I’m literally never on it.

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?   

No they can go burn in hell please.

83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

My birthgiver and I are pretty tight.

84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?   

Oh go no.

85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?   

Split.

86. Do you smoke?   

No.

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?   

Flippedy Floppedies

88. Is your phone touch screen? 

Yes I dont live in the stone ages.  89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?

Straight.   90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?   

I sneak into my house more often than out.

91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?   

Lake.

92. Have you ever made out in a car?   

Yes, the horn scared the shit out of me (you know what I’m talking about)

93. …Had sex in a car? 

Not yet.  94. Are you single or in a relationship?   

Clinging to my favorite human.

95. What were you doing last night at midnight? 

Sleeping.  96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?   

July first last year.

97. Do you like the camera on your phone?   

It’s fine I guess.

98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?   

No.

99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?   

Nah.

100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?   

Nope.

101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?   

Not seriously.

102. Name your favorite Kesha song:   

No.

103. Do you have any tan lines right now?   

I don’t tan.

104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

Absolutely.