#smooches all of you on the head 💜 have a lovely tuesday pls 💜

[quietlyblooms]

good morning!! i’m laughing at this silly post put also holding my head in my hands bc while chiyo might be more subtle about it, she will try to push people away. i don’t get to write it often and that’s kinda on me, but she gets scared, becomes avoidant, switches up routines and behaviors to create distance. you guys usually hang out every weekend? suddenly she can’t twice in a row. she usually goes to a particular store with you? for some reason, she doesn’t ask you to go and says she’s worried about bothering you too much.

and it’s kind of the truth — she is worried that she’s bothering you too much, that you’ll get sick of her, and bc she’s attached, she’s scared of getting hurt. this goes for both friendships and romantic relationships, though i think it’s worse if you establish a romantic interest from the start. chiyo, to be honest, just isn’t good at romance without a foundation of friendship. she gets awkward and nervous bc the other person just doesn’t know her, and she doesn’t know if they’ll understand her. she doesn’t know how to be vulnerable without clamming up with the fear that this person will see her and dislike what they see.

i wish i had more time to ramble but :’ ) one of these days i’d like to write her being difficult :’ )