#slvents

[sciencesolutions]

[shadowlucariomod]

You know... Looking through some older posts and blogs I grew up with my first years of ask blogging... It’s a bit sad seeing some of them go. askjollydragonite, ask-thepoketrio, speckled-glameow, ask-firefly-the-raichu... I never realized it until now how much it hurts to have left for such a long time period and return where there’s a whole bunch of new blogs unrecognizable to me. The only one I really recognized when coming back from my hiatus was askbookwormflareon, azuraracon, askprofpiplup, and splotchi.

... Just seeing all these posts of older blogs closing, seeing everything pass me by during my absence... It really hurts. anonsables just doesn’t feel like my character anymore. Originally, askteamshelds who inspired me to create the character in the first place, and he left ask blogging even before my hiatus. 

Seeing everyone leave like this... It hurts me so much. I see their original posts and what they’ve done. They were a fantastic group of people, and I never realized how much they meant to me. And now... most don’t do their original blogs anymore. They either got bored or tired of their blog, and that’s how I feel right now about my own ask blog...

I’ve never completed a plot point. I’ve always gone on hiatus before I could finish anything... The first hiatus was because I lost drive. I regained drive with askazorua, but then the second hiatus happened because my dad lost his job. I was hoping to complete at least one plotline, but then the third hiatus came to make me leave for two years. I feel like I’m perpetually going into these hiatuses, never able to escape. I feel like I will go into a fourth hiatus when the fall semester comes in because I will just be too busy to do anything, and I want to be a musician more than an artist.

But I feel like I still have to try, at least. I may be slow, but I’ll finish this plotline, no matter what. I’ll end anonsables on a high note, unlike the other blogs who dropped due to lack of motivation. I want to give my appreciation to the wonderful people that inspired me by doing what they haven’t done. I will complete this blog, and I will make them proud that I was able to hang on to the end!

I miss them, but I still love what they did for this community and for myself. I’m not giving up. Not yet. I’ll continue toward the end for them, and I’ll continue for my characters and myself. So, it’s time I stopped missing them and show these new people what ask blogging’s really about!

... Heh. If only I could be that positive, naive self. No, now I see what I’m doing. I’m just ask blogging for the memory. I’m not doing this because I want to. I’m doing it for the sake of memories. I’m ask blogging because I’m trying to achieve something that has long since passed me.

I took some time to think, and I realize... I’m not an ask blogger anymore. I’m not really ask blogging for the sake of myself. I’m just ask blogging so I can complete a story and prove... what, exactly? That I was able to achieve something the others weren’t able to achieve? That I was able to outlast the pain and sorrow?

This isn’t my community anymore... is it? ... Heh... No, this community barely remembers me. I barely remember me. I was so hopeful to continue this blog and remind myself of a wonderful time. But now, I realize... I’m not happy with myself in this place. Barely anyone recognizes me, and I barely recognize them. I’ve been gone for too long, and I’ve grown apart from this place because I only lived in a memory. I cannot bring myself to fully motivate myself to be a part of this new place because it’s not my old memory.

I guess I have to ask whether or not I should continue on. Heh... I probably have already reached the answer. I really shouldn’t debate this, but... I have to. For the sake of closure, I want to give one final chance to see if I want to continue living in memories, or moving on in making new memories elsewhere. The PokéAsk Community gave me so much, but... now, I feel nothing about it. I’ve just been apart for too long from this place, and I just cannot reattach.

And besides... I want to compose music. I have been invited to Twitch Dates Pokémon as a composer. I feel so happy doing music much more than art. Art feels like a burden, but music feels free.

If you guys have read this to the end, thank you for taking the time to read my pain. I will think about this in a better mind state, but for now, I’m just so tired... However, I feel like I’ve already arrived at my conclusion. I feel like I’m ready to start a new prologue in life and write the chapters as a musician. And to the older ask bloggers of the time that are still around to this day... Guide the new ask bloggers well. And thank you for everything.

[fuckyeahasexual]

I call myself ace because I dont feel sexual attraction. At all. But if i trust someone enough I dont mind having it with them. But apparently eveyone says that I cant be ace if i feel that even tho having it and feeling the attraction are two different things. Its annoying as fuck cause even my qpp, whos also ace, says its wrong. My boyfriend said it wad weird but understood as soon as i stated the difference so.. Idk. Im just annoyed at all this shit. (had to slvent sorta sorry)

(had to vent sorry - anon again) at this point im thinking of just saying im homosexual cause itll get people off my ass. But im not SO I DONT KNOW

It’s a common, but wrong assumption that enjoying sex makes someone non-ace. There are a lot of aces in the world that enjoy sex with their partners!

Like, the definition of asexuality is a lack of sexual attraction to any genders. It says nothing about how you enjoy spending time with others.

- Fae

[78682homes]

Des agriculteurs et des chefs cuisiniers s'élèvent contre "l'industrialisation" du bio 78682 homes

https://www.78682homes.com/des-agriculteurs-et-des-chefs-cuisiniers-slvent-contre-lindustrialisation-du-bio

Des agriculteurs et des chefs cuisiniers s'élèvent contre "l'industrialisation" du bio

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homms2013

#Informationsanté

[gurumed]

via GuruMeditation

[shadowlucariomod]

That feeling when you look at your paper and decide to scrap it all and start anew.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[78682homes]

"Shutdown": des voix républicaines s'élèvent contre une déclaration d'urgence 78682 homes

http://www.78682homes.com/shutdown-des-voix-rpublicaines-slvent-contre-une-dclaration-durgence

"Shutdown": des voix républicaines s'élèvent contre une déclaration d'urgence

Donald Trump doit-il déclarer l’urgence, comme il l’a évoqué, afin d’ériger un mur à la frontière avec le Mexique? Porte de sortie potentielle au plus long « shutdown » de l’histoire des Etats-Unis, l’idée déplaît jusque dans les rangs républicains. »Si nous le faisons, cela se jouera au tribunal et le mur ne sera pas construit », a mis en garde dimanche sur CNN le républicain Ron Johnson, chef de la commission du Sénat sur la sécurité intérieure, disant qu’il « détesterait » voir…

homms2013

#Informationsanté

[shadowlucariomod]

I forgot how tedious animated spriting is... DX

[shadowlucariomod]

I know I have no place in saying this, so I'll put it in Read More.

I've observed that the PokéAsk community has lost communication amongst each other ever since I've joined in. It seems to have downgraded to where people (including myself) have barely any motivation to do asks (this only applies to some people) and barely send asks to each other. I understand some people have no time and cannot update on a daily basis, but it seems to have really spiraled down ever since that strike of Dygii leaving her Lati@s blog and the massive Anon Hate. :/ I barely see any more Anon Hate, but instead more hatred among the people of the asks blogs because of misunderstandings. It's quite sad seeing people start tormenting themselves because of unable to blog.

Honestly, it's only what I observed, and they say that the negative is more easy to see than the positive. I do see Firefly, Polimod, Shelds, Skins, and a bunch of other blogs still running strong after many years of blogging, so I'm guessing they're sorta used to this and are able to just ignore the negativity to do what they like. But I feel some other people just don't understand that they do this for themselves and not for others, and so they seem to go down on themselves because of not being able to update. :/ I understand that people have friends that give a little push if they want to do it, but... I feel like most are just doing ask blogs just because someone else is doing it and not updating because of that.

[shadowlucariomod]

Venting About Life

Tried to hold it in, but heaven forbid that I stress myself to depression...

I feel like a failure. An utter disgrace. Just because of not being able to find a job and keep it. I just feel so terrible about myself because everyone is telling me that I have to move on with life. But, honestly, the way they're trying to motivate me is just demoralizing me even more than helping. They secured my bank accounts from me a while back, so I have no access to them (like there was any money worth using in the first place in my account). School never taught me anything about how to hunt for jobs and do these things, and I'm unsure of where to start to learn about it. Moreover, I have lost faith in my abilities to do work since I can never keep them in the first place, so I find it difficult to find any motivation in the first place. And besides, I've been told so many times that "oh, you want to do music for a living? Heck no, the pay's too low. You need to find something that pays better." It's just irritating me that I want to use my musical abilities, but they say I'm just not good enough...

So, yeah, I'm a bit stressed. I'm just much too shy to go out and talk to anyone. But I'll find some positive spin once I finally get things figured out...

[shadowlucariomod]

Seems like my darkness against this issue hasn't settled yet... Looks like I'm a bit more angry than I thought...

I'm seriously upset with the education program at the moment. Actually, upset would be butchering it. I'm seriously infuriated against the education program and how bad it is in the US.

Let me just say that because of the education program teaching students that they have to be perfect, my niece was torn down to tears because of how marked down she was. I didn't really think much about it because I know that school is stupid, but I looked at her recently graded paper. It looked like something a middle schooler should be doing, not a first grader! And guess what? SHE WAS FREAKING GRADED LIKE ONE TOO! She's not even in the Honor's Class. She not a prodigy. And yet, this school apparently thinks that all children have to be on the top. No wonder my sister was very angry about choosing this school some time ago. It's like a freaking military school.

Some people might think that I'm over-reacting, but this is pretty unacceptable. Nobody's perfect! Stop trying to teach children that they have to be perfect to be successful! This is something I've seen in other elementary students in different schools. And it really bothers me. A LOT.Seriously, a child in first grade shouldn't be crying from stress. They should be crying about getting boo-boos from falling into the sandbox or being frightened from a flying bee. They should not be crying because of fucking stress!

I hate the education system. I'm so glad that my sister decided to take my niece out of that school and do schooling online. Because seriously, that's ridiculous to expect something like that.