#sleeping is my brain doing maintenance. whenever i do a set of steps i'm running a program. every time i feel it's a batch file being run | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

steakout-05 · 13 hours ago

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fellas is it alterhuman to feel kinda sad that you were born with flesh and bones instead of built with steel and synthetic material and that your eyes don't glow an unnatural yellow in the dark. to yearn that one day the cracking of your bones will be replaced with the whirring of circuits. to imagine a future where you can easily mend and repair and swap out your parts on a whim. cause like. i feel that

honestly i think i feel less like a human and more like a positronic brain that was spawned into a human body in some fucked up mishap and now i'm just here.... wait would that technically make me a cyborg-

#i'm like data soong but in reverse #instead of a android longing to be human it's a human longing to be an android #legit i feel like i should have been an android or a robot and tbh i'm a little bit pissed and sad that i'm not #i do refer to myself as though i'm a computer or an android-adjacent creature #every time i lose balance or trip over or forget what i'm doing or mess up i call it a malfunction or a glitch #whenever i mess up speaking or have a moment where i'm stuttering a lot i think my speech functions are glitched #every time i take a while to think or process something i imagine my brain's making the aol modem connect noise #i often refer to my brain and its functions as though it's a computer with programs and hard-coded scripts #it helps that your brain kind of is a computer in that it works very similarly to one #sleeping is my brain doing maintenance. whenever i do a set of steps i'm running a program. every time i feel it's a batch file being run #it makes sense!!#a big part of why i feel this way is probably autism. like actually i think that's what influenced this #and data from star trek but honestly i think he more awakened these feelings rather than spawned them #like this was already here data just unlocked it #feeling like something other than human is a very common feeling among many autistic people #this feeling like an android thing isn't something that hinders me or something i dislike btw #i in fact wish i were an android!! i'm just sad that i'm not #this human thing is annoying i wish to be synthetic #reject humanity return to steel #android #robot #alterhuman #nonhuman #guys i might be this

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