#since i know damn well not all of u can read my normal handwriting (so sorry)

[vampiregeese]

the dynamic ever

[alygatorwrites]

can I request a lil something? during the end of the manga or after the timeskip if you haven't read it yet, reiner still has feelings for historia and reader has one-sided feelings for him.

pieck gives reiner a small hint, saying he's wasting time while there's someone close to him that cares for him and points to you. he doesn't understand at first and maybe is conflicted about his feelings for you because of historia. reader is cool about it as she doesn't expect him to reciprocate her feelings.

a rollercoaster of emotions later, maybe there is a happy ending tho? i am curious to see what you can come up with 😭😭 i have dreaming of this scenario before bed and i can't help but get jealous of his crush on historia abjdsndks maybe you can help reiner reciprocate reader-chan's feelings or not

thank u so much aly 💖🥺

reciprocation

pairing: reiner braun x reader

a/n: OMG yesss! honestly, i was kinda annoyed at how reiner still had a crush on historia. i know that isayama wanted to show how everything went back to normal, but i was hoping that reiner would have a bigger role in the allied nations instead of being "dumbed down" to having an obsession with her. MAYBE THATS JUST THE JEALOUSY SPEAKING LMAO 😭 i was hoping this would be longer, although school has been killing me so im really sorry!! i hope its okay 💗💕 thank you honey!

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as reiner is handed historia’s letter, you fold your hands on the table and watch him without a word. when he reads the lines and smells the parchment - jean saying something snarky afterward - you say nothing.

you want reiner to be happy: you want to see him at ease like this more, face soft as the leaf of the page flits from his pinched fingers.

and so you let the man speak about historia like she’s a damn goddess, gushing over her handwriting, and keep your goddamn mouth shut. ignore your jealousy. your feelings.

the truth is, you’re in love with reiner.

you can’t even remember how it happened, but you can remember the first time you looked into those hazel eyes, and how you knew that they were going to stick with you for eternity.

you’ve come to accept his crush on the queen, though. reciprocation was never an option in your mind.

when jean begins to chew reiner out for lusting after a married woman, and reiner says something about jean being a horse, pieck’s gaze lands on you. “you’re rather quiet,” she says softly, resting her head on her palm.

you shrug, turning away from her. “i’m just tired.”

pieck catches your chin between her lithe fingers, and turns you to face her with a tiny smile. the young woman is very perceptive, and you’ve known her long enough. 

that’s when you notice the twinkle in her eye. she’s planning something.

pieck releases your jaw then, sitting up in her chair. “you’re wasting your time, reiner,” she says suddenly. “there’s already someone you know who cares for you.”

you pretend to not hear pieck - and definitely pretend you don’t see her faintly point at you through your peripheral. the movement of her fingers is barely there, but you catch it.

damn you, pieck.

the way you’re now pinned underneath armin, jean, connie, and reiner’s stares makes your stomach tie itself into knots with bubbling reluctance. shit, this is awkward. you want to run away.

still, you peer over to study reiner’s reaction. he looks confused at first, the contours of his face unreadable. you swear you see connie facepalm at the man’s cluelessness.

then reiner’s expression slowly changes: his eyes widen in awe, lips parting slightly, and brows knitting together. he seems genuinely surprised - and conflicted.

conflicted? why?

there’s no time to explain yourself though, because the door creaks open and annie steps in. her words fall on your deaf ears, and when everyone stands up to leave, you’re the first one out of the room. work beckons you as always.

two days pass.

you’ve been busy filling out tons of paperwork pertaining to the allied nations, so when you’re finally given a day off, you take it with open arms. 

freedom at last.

you lean against a bench outside of headquarters, enjoying the salty breeze that flutters along your skin. it’s dusk, the sky covered in a gradient of neon colors as the sun dips below the horizon.

you haven’t seen reiner since that day in the conference room. you wonder how he’s doing, what he’s thinking, how he’s holding up -

“hey.”

speak of the devil. you glance over your shoulder toward the voice, low and familiar.

reiner approaches you, clad in his uniform: the suit hugs his large frame perfectly, showing every flex of his muscles, and his blonde hair is neatly parted. the black tie looped around his neck just pulls it all together. it has you weak at the knees every. single. time.

“hey,” you answer, giving reiner a smile as he stops beside you.

and that’s when your heart lurches at the sight of him.

the sunset highlights reiner’s profile in gold, a heavenly shine that settles upon his blonde lashes and the flawless slope of his nose. the flecks in his irises sparkle – a beautiful mixture of soft browns and muted greens. the only thing you can do right now is admire the man. 

his words are what breaks you out of your daydream.

“work has been crazy lately, huh?” reiner says, focused on the candy-floss clouds and their fluffy shapes.

“well - yeah, pretty much. i don’t want to look at a pen or a piece of paper ever again.”

“that bad?”

“you have no idea. i almost regret marley and paradis reconciling.”

reiner chuckles gently at the joke, but it’s strained. his forehead remains creased, and he’s not really smiling. the emotion there is more … doubtful. it’s like he’s having some sort of inner conflict.

hopefully reiner’s not acting cautious because of the other day. you know he doesn’t return your feelings, and that’s totally okay. you’re happy enough being with him like this. “i’m not mad or anything, y’know.”

reiner stiffens at that. there’s a white flash of teeth when he chews on his lower lip. “i know.”

“good,” you hum, breathing out a sigh of relief. your core twists with envy when you force a grin. bite it back. tease him like always. “so about historia … ”

reiner’s eyes go wide almost comically, and you hear the breath in his lungs leave his firm chest in one exhale. there’s a light blush staining his cheeks now. it’s funny; he’s so goddamn big, yet he’s such a teddy bear.

“y-yeah,” reiner mutters. you observe the way his brows pinch together as he awkwardly shifts in place. it takes a while before the man composes himself again, which is strange.

is he scared or something? what the hell?

“pieck,” reiner hesitates for a moment. the golden strands of his hair ruffle in the wind and he appears ... well, lost. “was she being serious?”

the question is a shocker - jeez, he could have at least let you prepare yourself. a firm ‘no’ almost slips out, but you’ve never been much of a liar. not to reiner, anyway. crossing your arms against your chest, you inhale sharply and nod. avoid staring at him face-to-face. “yep.”

“ … why me?”

reiner says the words with a mixture of spite and anguish, a casual and rumbling voice. you immediately turn your head, frowning. “what?”

“i’ve done so many horrible things.” reiner exhales heavily and stares down at his hands; perhaps he’s imagining all the blood they’ve been stained with. “i betrayed everyone. i killed innocent people - all because i was selfish.”

it’s no surprise that reiner is broken after everything he’s been through, but it pains you to know that he continues to suffer in silence. whatever war is raging inside his ribcage tears him apart piece by piece, and you wish you could carry the burden. 

there’s probably nothing you can say to convince reiner that he was just a kid, a victim of circumstance. there’s nothing that can persuade him to see himself the way you do.

so you decide to tell reiner why you love him. 

you explain the amount of admiration you hold for him. tell him that you love the way he just wants to be someone his comrades can lean on, like a big brother. tell him that you think he’s the most gorgeous person you’ve ever seen and how you think he deserves the world.

the way you spill your guts out snaps every nerve in your body. you don’t say everything you want to – but you tell him enough. a dark flush spreading across your face, you find the courage to look at him.

the world seems to stop on its axis when you find reiner staring right on back. the intensity of his eyes is stunning; they’re lit up with astonishment and affection.

god, the affection. you see it clear as day. maybe one of the greatest regrets in his life is how he forced himself to see you only as a friend.

that’s when he reaches out to you.

reiner retracts his hand twice, unsure, before slowly brushing his fingertips against yours. the touch is so feather-light that you almost can’t feel it. it’s a test - he’s waiting to see if you pull away. you can’t even move if you wanted to, because his fond gaze keeps you rooted to the spot before him. 

when you don’t recoil, reiner finally moves to gently hold your hand; his palm is so much bigger than yours, and your fingers slot together perfectly, like a jigsaw puzzle’s final piece. 

heart thrumming like a hummingbird has been stuffed into your chest, you’re almost at a loss for words and come to a realization.

this utterly amazing man likes you. always has. 

but reiner shoved away the feelings for one simple reason; you deserved ‘better.’ focusing on the old crush he had on historia was a distraction - an attempt to convince himself to stop thinking about you.

because looking at you everyday and not being able to act upon his feelings was too painful.

“is this okay?” reiner asks lowly. there’s a slight pinkness to his cheeks, the color of a selfless love.

by some miracle, you manage to nod dumbly. “yeah, of course. it’s fine.” it’s amazing is what you actually want to say.  

reiner squeezes your hand at the reassurance, a sigh escaping from his throat. “i really—”

you wait for him to finish, but he doesn’t. reiner just searches your profile for signs of discomfort, and then untwines your hands to bravely swipe a thumb along the length of your cheekbone. 

there’s no time to speak because he’s already leaning down.  

the sensation of reiner’s lips pressing against yours lights your skin ablaze; you can feel the curling flames of passion sear your soul, made even more intense by the warmth of the sunlight on your back.

it’s natural, it’s tender, it’s warm.

reiner’s breath rattles into your mouth when you rest both palms against his solid chest and deepen the kiss. the musky smell of his aftershave and cologne envelops you completely, and fuck, it’s so good. your arms wrap around him, fingers passing over the sharp slopes of his shoulder blades.

as much as you wish the kiss could go on endlessly, there are people gathering outside. avoiding any unwanted attention from nosy strangers is very much appreciated.

you pull away to nuzzle your nose into reiner, and he rests his chin on your shoulder, protective arms moving to loop around your waist. it’s such an intimate caress that it sparks your brain into overdrive.

as the rushing sound of the breeze comes back to your ears through the quiet, you tuck the kiss away to be remembered forever. that’s all there is to it. being close to reiner like this - swaying together like wildflowers in the wind - is more important than anything else.

“i like you,” reiner murmurs.

the suddenness of it makes you laugh, and you can feel the upward quirk of reiner’s lips - a whisper of a peaceful smile and a sweet, sweet promise.

[soobasaur]

are you mine?

— a lee minho au

genre: enemies to lovers minho x gender neutral!reader

a/n: this is for my bestie who has been in a minho obsession lately and needs more content, you know who you are :]

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you and minho didnt exactly,,,get along very well for a while

the only reason you both even knew each other was two of your best friends were dating and merged ur friend groups

(thanks a lot binsung 〴⋋_⋌〵)

you wouldnt go as far as to say you hated him

but you liked to pretend you did

you just barely saw him around so why not just mke him your mortal enemy??

it was easier to hate him then admit he was decent company!!

you had a reputation to uphold!!!!

and apparently he did too because he never really disagreed,,,,

you guys just ever had a chance to get off on the right foot and really talk

mutual disagreement <33

the thing is, the both of you were never left alone together

like ever

until that one time yall were abandoned (-д-；)

you and ur friend groups planned a hang out but everyone ended up cancelling last minute with no excuse

it was just you two who didnt get the memo and ended up alone

now that you think about it,,,that sounds like smth ur friends would do on purpose

(again, fuck u binsung!! ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ )

so just picture this,,,you and minho both showing up to an arcade and sitting in silence for an hour before getting a text that everyone cancelled

your immediate thought was to go home bc why would minho want to hang out with you???

but after the both of you read the text in the groupchat he got up and made his way inside, holding the door open and quirking his eyebrow up at you

“well, are you coming or not? I wanna try the new vr game.”

and you were just like \\(⊙︿⊙)// ???

he? wants?? to hang out??? with just you????

but u ended up following him in and he paid for your guy’s tickets ≧◡≦

“just buy me lunch after and we’re even”

lunch??? now this mf wants to get lunch together?!$%

you learned one thing about minho that day

he was,,,competitive,,VERY competitive

like what demon possessed him kind of competitive

whenever he won he would flash you a smirk and skip to the next game as he dragged his row of tickets along

it INFURIATED U!!!

ur pride was in shambles

so you unleashed everything after that and won a good amount of games ;)

u had been eyeing a cute cat plush the entire time but u didnt have enough tickets at the end :((

o(╥﹏╥)o damn it capitalism u just wanted a plushie

you didnt rlly want anything else so you gave your tickets to minho and waited to the side for him to get his prize

he came out with tHE SAME PLUSHIE YOU HAD BEEN EYEING \\( ಠ_ಠ)//

but before you could sulk about it he handed it to you and started to make his way to the exit Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

and during lunch this bitch ended up paying even after saying you should (｀ε´)

\(▰˘◡˘▰)//\\ (▰˘◡˘▰)//\\ (▰˘◡˘▰)// \\(▰˘◡˘▰)//

After that...hang out if you will,,u started to notice minho everywhere

LIKE E V E R Y W H E R E

why was this bitch all over your college campus?

you never noticed minho was in ur class for the longest time jsskkfk

like all of a sudden u just spotted him out of the corner of ur eye and were like o h

once he noticed you too there was no going back

say good bye to paying attention in class

(as if you ever did anyways)

he started to inch closer to you during class

he even started sending you notes

ಠ▃ಠ and u were so paranoid the professor would catch you

but this bitch was slick so u were fine

ヽ(๏∀๏ )ﾉ

he was the type of guy to throw little crumpled sticky notes at you whenever he wanted to say something during class

they’d be covered with doodles of cats and his scribbly messy handwriting + little hearts

it was usually just some dumb thought he had or a crude drawing of the professor (. ﾟーﾟ)

other than those few notes you guys never really talked outside ur friend group

there was one incident late at night tho

you had a big project coming up and it was 2am and you were...2 sentences in T_T

you deserved a coffee break <3

so that was how you found under the awning of an all night coffee shop

except it wasn't all night and closed right after you got ur coffee!!

and now u were stuck under the awning!!

all you had was your measly hoodie that you stole from changbin and your now soggy cup of coffee as you waited for the rain to pass

you might as well of just stayed home since ur wasting all this time you could’ve been working on your project standing outside

were you gonna work on the project once you got home? no

but did the thought of wasted time still make you mad? yes

you slumped against the shop as you bitterly drank your coffee, crushing the cup between your hands

after a couple minutes you felt the rain above you stop

you look to your side to see,,,minho?!

this mf was holding an umbrella above your head

“here, take my umbrella.”

thats when you noticed the cafe uniform he had on

“you work here?” you asked, before taking the umbrella from his hand

“yeah, your observant ass didnt see me literally make your coffee,”

“oh whoops,,,i thought you hated me, why are you giving me our umbrella?”

“i do, but id rather you uh...not die in the cold looking like a dead rat.”

was it just you or were his cheeks dusted pink?

probably the cold

(y/n you dumb bitch-)

you both walk back to your dorms after that

and he insists you carry the umbrella

cus his poor arms are tired from making coffee all day :((

and maybe it's an excuse to be closer to you

since hes a bit taller he has to crouch and scoot closer to you in order to not get wet >_<

⊙﹏⊙ ⊙﹏⊙ ⊙﹏⊙

over the next few weeks your find urself at the cafe he works at more often

one time you got the hours wrong and he wasnt on shift :(

but when you got up to leave he walked in and spent the day helping you study instead of working

you went for the coffee!! not for him!! definitely not,,,

(¬‿¬)

“look, im only hanging out with you cus you get the employee discount.”

“sure, and not cus you enjoy my company-”

“i 100% despise your company.”

ok but u didnt

u actually /REALLY/ liked his company

like WTF

where has he been all ur life

ew that sounded too romantic

but like fr where was he hiding

(・ε・｀)

soon you both were joining binsung on their dates

but it wasn't a double date!!

it was just four friends hanging out and two happened to be a couple

and they liked to hang out at fancy restaurants and do couple like activities

totally normal!!

there was one incident where you were about to pay for your meal but minho placed his hand on top of yours and slid his card instead

“you can pay on the next date.”

NEXT? DATE??

excuse me sir what do u mean-

you ignored changbin and jisung’s snickers behind you the entire night

when minho walked you home you couldnt help but let urself blurt out

“was this a date?”

minho gave you an incredulous look

“...was it not??”

oh my god this is embarrassing

“OH MY GOD WAS IT NOT?!!”

you ignored how minho was now turning crimson red and panicking and tugged on his collar, pulling him down for a kiss

“it was...a date” you mumble, now shy at the close proximity between the two of you

“...im gonna kill jisung.” he muttered, pulling you in for a hug, “he told me this was a double date”

“that can be our next date, the murder of our best friends.”

“wow i am in love with you.”

＼（＾○＾）人（＾○＾）／

minho and y/n murder besties!!

for legal reasons that is a joke

( ˶˘ ³˘(˵ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°˵)♡

thank you for reading !!

[dorkylittleweirdo]

the lesbian himbo solidarity post

okay so. basically this dude named max was in my anatomy class and we sat next to each other for the whole year so we had No Choice but to vibe

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so he’s a Large football jock and i’m smol. we were both seniors tho and there were only three seniors in that class so we bonded over that. so he looks,, really scary tbh. like. ya know. the Exact type of person who would bully you and call you slurs. so i was like “oh god oh god oh god” every class bc i was like “this is it, this is the day i Die by his hand”

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the first time we really vibed was when i came from culinary one friday bc i had culinary right before anatomy. and i had Cookies. a lot of them. and i had them in a little brown paper bag sitting right in the corner of my desk just bc like why not. cue max rolling up to class, throwing his stuff down and coming up Right Next To Me and Intensely eyeing the bag before going “hey jc, whatcha got there”. and i went “...cookies from my culinary class” and he just “👀👀” so i go “do you,, do you want one?”.  g r a b s  the bag while yelling “HELL YEAH” and really excitedly just eats a cookie and i just go “you can,, you can just take the bag if you want”. he obviously took the bag. we were Bros from that day on

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i was Notorious for being the Class Nerd bc i loved anatomy and i had over 100% in the class. he was Not as into anatomy and just wanted to vibe and i feel that bc i had a class like that too, so i just gave him my notes and warm up answers to copy bc i’m Like That. we had like,, a system in place, so he would tell jokes or just say random shit and i’d kinda laugh and vibe while taking notes

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one time i was kinda tired and staring off into space and he rolled up to class and goes “jcccc why are you saaaad :((” and i was like “i,, i’m not???” and he was like super confident that i was Going Through It and was like “you can’t lie to me, i already saw that sad face” i’m like “you mean my Normal Face???”. but so while i was taking notes that day, he leaned over and drew a lil happy face on my packet, so i looked over and smiled at him. aND NOT EVEN A MINUTE LATER, he leans back over and turns it into a dick. and i go “b r o  i gotta turn this shit in i’m gonna get in trouble?????” and he Panicked on my behalf, Stood Up in his seat,  Y E L L S  to the teacher “SIR, I DREW A  M A L E  G E N I T A L I A  ON JC’S NOTES, IT’S NOT HER FAULT”. teacher just Looks over at us, blinks, goes back to his lecture. my face is Red, max turns to me,  w i n k s, and goes “i gochu”

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so my group Abandoned Me one day for a lab bc neither of them were there and i rolled up to the teacher like “k i’ll be Stabbing A Brain alone today” and my teacher’s like “but??? you need to Poke A Brain With A Group” and i go “but i have None Friends and my group mates aren’t here”. so max heard this whole interaction go down and is like “jc i Cannot Believe, you’re gonna group with us”. drags me over to some other people who sit near us that i anxiously vibe with, who had apparently been struggling to stab the labels into the brain for like seven minutes before i rolled up. max goes “okay guys jc’s in our group”. everyone’s hype. i labeled it, filled out the sheet, let everyone copy it, and all of us vibed for like half an hour

~

he was struggling to label to bones in the body for our warm up. two minutes in he goes “damn i know like,, four of these. jc how many do you know”, looks over at my worksheet, his eyes pop out of his damn skull. “JC ARE YOU FUCKIN SERIOUS”. holds up my worksheet that’s completely filled out, points aggressively at it while looking at our teacher, “ARE YOU SEEIN THIS SHIT???”

~

straight up asked if i was a mom one time bc he said i give off “mom vibes”. his response to me not wanting kids was “really??? i want like six”. appreciated me saying “oh, well i want a career” a little too much bc he couldn’t stop laughing

~

a regular occurrence was me finishing a worksheet really fast and standing to turn it in, then max going “sit your ass back down, i needa see that” followed by “bro i appreciate you actually letting me copy your shit but Please write neater”. his handwriting was worse than mine and he could read my writing but he likes to Complain

~

another Regular Occurrence was me finishing a test in about five minutes followed by him yelling “JC ARE YOU  F U C K I N G  KIDDING ME”

~

i’d bring food from culinary a lot and he’d just go “👀” and i would just give it to him and he’d be so excited and go “jc you’re the best” while proceeding to shove a cupcake down his face or whatever else it was i brought while  M O A N I N G

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he asked me one time why i’m so nervous around him, and he was probably expecting me to say some shit like “oh nooo i’m not i’m just Shy tm” but i Instantly responded with “bc you look like you’re gonna call me a slur in the 7/11″ and he was so genuinely upset and he goes “noooo jc D: i’m not a baseball boy” and i Died

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some dude smacked him on the back of his head and he goes “OW MY-” looks at me, “hey jc, what’s the back of the head called again?” and i go “the occipital” and he’s like “great, thanks”, turns around again to the other dude, “MY  O C C I P I T A L”

~

“jc have you ever been depressed” “max i have depression” “sick, you should listen to this band”

~

he slowly tried to put something on my desk and i was still adjusting to “okay not everyone is gonna hit me” and thought he was trying to do like a fistbump or something. and he goes “oh no i wasn’t-” and i’m like “oKaY yEaH iT’S fiNe”, he puts whatever lil eraser on my desk then goes “NO NO, GIVE ME SOME JC” and fistbumped me but it still Haunts Me bc he Was Not Trying To Do That

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“i’m gonna go as a cop for halloween” “...okay max” “all i have to do is wear a wifebeater shirt” “i-” “because. because ya know. cops beat their wives”

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asked what kind of music i listen to once, and i went “uh,, it depends” he goes “what are you listening to now??” aND I HAD TO GO “um,, bruises and bitemarks” and he screeched bc whatever he was expecting from the shy quiet girl who sits next to him, it was Not That

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so i wasn’t sure how to like,, come out but i have a bunch of gay pins on my backpack so i didn’t know if he knew or not. but then one time he just starts asking the people around him if they would kiss/date someone of the same gender. so i go “i mean,, yeah” and he goes “wait really” and i was Scared tm bc oh god here it comes. i go “yeah” he goes “full gay or like bi” and i was like “full,, full gay. i’m a lesbian” and he’s like “BROOOO THAT’S SICK :D” and he was so genuinely excited that i like girls

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ever since he found out that i’m a lesbian, he would move his desk reeeeaaally close to mine to show me pictures of girls and be like “hey hey what do you think of her”, trying to invite me to parties so he could set me up with someone, attempting to be my wingman

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he constantly shoved one of his earbuds into my ear so i could bop to his music with him. set his phone on my desk a few times so i could choose something and i go “oh no, i have garbage taste in music” and he goes “well i don’t, that’s why you’re choosing from my playlist” and i just Sat there like “wow okay but also that’s valid”. he shockingly had a few songs on there that i listen to, so we vibed to those. he listened to my playlists a couple times and he’d be like “most of these are either depressing, horny, or gay, and that sums you up pretty well” and i was Offended but he’s right

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“hey jc, what’s the bone that sounds like my name” “...maxilla???” “fuck yeah, there’s a bone named after me”

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asked me if i ever had a girlfriend before and i was like “n o  :((((” and he’s like “on god bro, you gonna get you some pussy”

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every time he’d see me out of class, he point at me and wave really aggressively and be like “HI JC :D” and i’d kinda wave back really shyly while watching him tell whoever he was with that we were bros. after a couple times, i asked him next class why he waved at me and he’s like “why wouldn’t i??” and i go “um. bc you’re pretty popular and well liked and nobody knows i exist and i’m pretty uncool????” and he deadass is like “J C  NOO YOU’RE REALLY COOL WYM PEOPLE LIKE YOU” and that’s how i found out that people actually knew me bc a bunch of the football guys i talked to in anatomy would point me out when they saw me bc they liked vibing with me so that was A Time. made sense why random people would like,, nod at me while walking by

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i brought cookies for my teachers and friends on valentine’s day and i gave max a couple and i was like “hey i’m giving these to all my friends so like here” and he just “jc you consider us friends???” and i thought he was gonna laugh at me and i just went “ah,,, yeah” and he was So Excited

[alchemist-shizun]

So uhh I had a train of thought and I just really needed to let it out please note that this is very long so beware before you decide to click “read more” and yeah as for contents this is just really me venting about the fact that I’ve prevented myself from drawing since forever and I can’t really stand it any longer (there might be many mistakes but I don’t expect anyone to read this) really just ignore it

Fuck it fuck it fuck them i dont C a r e ™ I’ve had enough i can’t fucking believe they made me feel like this still to this day I haven’t even talked to them in years and because of them I’m still not over it so honestly fuck you elementary teachers and your stupid fucking way of twisting a child’s perception of thing on their way of shaping themselves cause you ruined a perfectly creative child is what you did

Okay so this dates back to, yes you read, elementary school but oh actually let’s get to kindergarten first

I was coloring a lion picture, I was like 4 but I still freaking remember it to this day, the teacher there told me I did it wrong and I didn’t understand why, I got scolded for fucking c o l o r i n g COLORS, I WAS F O U R it wasn’t like a colored a lion BLUE I used typical lion colors what do you want from me?

So I tried again, unsure of what to do, unsure of everything, I color it again, and as if nothing changed I get scolded again and you want to know what they had the courage to do? The fucking hypocrisy? They sent me to the part of preschool you can go when you’re like 2 or 3 TO SIGNIFY THAT I WAS STUPID and to make me feel ashamed of myself for something that I had no clue about cause nobody cared to explain what I did wrong

I still remember how fucking bad I felt, I might have cried too, I don’t know anymore

Fun fact? I recently heard someone else had the same experience

Now what the fuck? What the fuck? Do you know how impactful something like that is on a 4 year old child? Did you not learn how to treat kids in university? Fucking hell you should’ve studied this kind of things, how am I supposed to react to that kind of shaming?

And now let’s go to elementary school. Everything fucking SUCKED in the attitude of the two main teachers I had.

Basically in here you had to write your name, date, class, daily stuff basically on top of the page every time, and right under these things before you start writing or anything you have to do what in Italian we say “cornicetta” that I can literally translate with “little frame”

Basically it was a very tiny drawing you did and you repeated it horizontally so that you had some kind of frame on a single side of the page

And I was terrible at them. I don’t know, I didn’t have the hand of the artist™ what could I do about it? I was just 6. And my teachers? Batshit crazy. My Italian and history teacher in particular, she absolutely hated my drawings

Everything I did didn’t please her at all, the frames I made were always criticized and thank god I don’t remember all of her comments cause if I did I’d probably still be upset over them

There’s one in particular I remember: I think we were making a drawing for history, cause I remember drawing a cave and some people, so I might have been in second or third year. I had started to color it and my teacher came up, inspected it and said “ah it was actually a good drawing, too bad you had to ruin it with colors”

How am I fucking supposed to feel about that? Do I have to yell in joy and say woah you’re absolutely right I must bow to your genius. N O fuck you that’s what I was supposed to say! I wasn’t encouraged in the slightest.

She made me feel like shit and fucking laughed like she was pleased to fuck around with my sanity. Thank you very much you idiot now I’m terrified of drawing anything at all, this is what you created, you happy??

Not only she never gave me constructive criticism on my drawings, but she also insulted my handwriting over and over along with the one of some others, threatening us to go back to writing with the pencil instead of the pen like everyone else

Again, you can imagine how I fucking felt.

You don’t know how many afternoons I spent with my mother writing words in the exact manner my teacher wanted over and over because those were the sick punishments they gave us

Writing some words like 50 times

Sure, it can be practice, but God fucking damn it

I can understand when they said “hey you did a spelling error, how about you write this word like 20 times so that you get used to it” alright

But you don’t make a child sit for hours trying to fill entire pages of stupid senseless words making them feel even more ashamed and stupid than they already felt

It was dreadful for me and even my mother was pissed at that. Not that she didn’t criticize my handwriting either but she gave up after some time

Also, as if elementary wasn’t enough, we had a young teacher at catechism that dared to give us fucking homework LIKE THAT’S NOT EVEN A NORMAL THING none else in the world did that okay n o o n e

And she gave fucking marks, ofc my marks fucking sucked and I hated going there (my parents only made me go so that I could have done all the required things if I ever wanted to get married in church once adult)

Moral of the story, don’t trust catechism teachers if they’re like mine (also my parents hated her)

I don’t know when I stopped drawing, probably after elementary school, since I didn’t have to do those page frames anymore.

But with middle school came art lessons

Art lessons with the teacher I had meant no history of art at all for all the three years and only making art

I hated it, I sucked at everything, my drawing repulsion (if that’s a term I can use) grew stronger with all the years and the teacher I had also wasn’t professional at all so she gave marks based on how much she liked you

Despite all of this, there was a moment in first year of middle school where this teacher fell down the stairs and broke her leg, so we had a substitute: young, sweet lady that I instantly fell in love with

She made us do a project for a group of people we call “alpini” which is a particular group that helped in the war and fought in the north of Italy, in particular in the Alps.

I had a very artistic classmate, her mother was literally and artist and obviously I stood no chance against her, so I was like well I’m not gonna end up in noe place so, let’s just do this for fun I guess

I made this stupid little concept I had in my head, nothing special really, especially since I also drew people and I have no clue of how bodies work in art, but okay

Wanna know something?

I fucking won

I don’t know how, but I fucking won and I still have the prize

But then, the other teacher came back and everything was back to being shitty.

When it was time to choose highschool I was a bit scared cause my course would have had lessons of history of art since the first year and I had never had one while everybody else would have

I was afraid I wouldn’t have liked the subject

Let me tell you, it’s probably my favorite subject by now, and I’m at the last year. I was afraid I wouldn’t have been able to do anything with it, that if I liked history of art the only available universities where the academies that required you to have drawing skills

Then I came to know of the existence of the Cultural Heritage faculty and I couldn’t have been happier

But lately I’m still here thinking what if I actually tried to not listen to the people around me and practice my drawing skills ever since I was little?

I am so fucking sorry for myself because I lost a potential I know I could’ve grown to something probably very beautiful and I will never be able to see it bloom

And you know what? I don’t fucking care I’m so done with this feeling and I want to get rid of it so I don’t care if I’m 18 you can start whenever you want to do things

So I’m gonna start to teach myself how to draw after 18 years of my life and I’m going to see how it turns out and I will fucking stop being absolutely scared of picking up pencils

I’ll stop hearing my past teachers voices in my head saying it’s no use and that I should give up because they’re absolutely horrible and I hate them in particular

I don’t care that’s it this time I’m doing it, I don’t want to be conditioned by stupid people or be submissive anymore

And to those teachers, an honest and wholehearted fuck you, in your face.

[continuouscalamity]

CHAPTER 5 TRIAL TRANSCRIPT

"You know the time, buckaroos! Head to the foyer, pronto! Snrk! Oink!"

TRIAL 5 - BEGINNING

[4:51 PM] Monoboar!: The dread of seeing a person die still lingers within the elevator. Another one lost, and perhaps another one after this trial.

Only you lot have the capacity of finding the culprit.

...

The stops at the trial room for the fifth time for the time you've been here. Ten stands take place of the ones who once lived: ten portraits of Akihiko, Aderyn, Akemi, Wallace, Wilma, Eri, Riku, Qiuyue, Rayne, and Keiko.

Monoboar heads to his seat, and chanted out, "Head to yer stands at once, oink!"

@Alive [4:51 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': Willy. Stand. Yeah. [4:51 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: ...

[4:52 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel headed to his stand reluctantly and placed his doll on top. [4:52 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis wobbles to her stand. She looks like she's had much better times. [4:52 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo goes to their stand and gives Artemis a sad glance. [4:55 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana looks to her left. It's a straight row of three empty stands before Willy's. Damn...she doesn't like that. She hadn't payed that much notice until right now.

"Okay." she slams her hands on her stand. "Start talking, 'cause I wanna get out of this stupid room as much as everyone else..." [4:56 PM] Monoboar!: "Y'all know the drill, y'all should be experts at this! Though, I can't expect much from grubby minds, gwahaha..."

The boar slams his gavel down excitedly, looking towards the circle of people.

"Let the trial for Keiko Taisei friggin' start! Oink!"

[GIF]

[4:59 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Ugh. Okay. So, like..." she started. "I was walking back to my room and there was a, like...brown-ish red-ish handprint on the thing? I mean-- the wall?" she explained. She's tired. "I think it's blood. Well, duh, it's blood. I mean, what else would it be? Chocolate pudding?" [5:00 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: :consentbullet: "It's blood. Saw it for myself." [5:01 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Ugh..." she groaned. "Gross..."

[5:02 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "The place where we found her seemed kinda normal, 'side from the body."

:cluebullet: "There's only one set of footprints and a trail of something, or someone, being dragged." [5:03 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Well, she has a cane. Maybe she was dragging it along? I dunno?" [5:04 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "It was a pretty fucking big trail." [5:04 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Well, at least there's evidence there's a killer, right?" [5:04 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Ya can't drag yourself, that's dumb." [5:05 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Maybe she was, wait...was her leg, like, not there...? When we found her? Maybe she was dragging her other leg? Hey, it's a good hypothesis!" [5:06 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "S-She has... both legs at-attached to her body." [5:06 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "What the heck." [5:06 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I think you're thinkin' of Artemis, Hime-honey." [5:07 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Hey! No one can think straight in here, c'mon!" she huffs, looking embarrassed nonetheless. [5:08 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "..."

"Anyways. I should mention the body," [5:08 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I had a closer look at it while Artemis was there, I think." [5:08 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': { "Go on..." } [5:09 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Well, Artemis altered the body and it's position, so I couldn't see how it was placed originally." [5:11 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: :cluebullet: "However! I did see her wounds on the top, and a shallower wound at the back. Her clothes were wet, assumedly from the damp cellar conditions." [5:12 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I-I.. I remember how her body was at first." [5:12 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "OH!" Hana exclaimed. "Her cane! It was right next to her body, and, like...it was covered in blood and it looked broken." she said, seemingly proud of her perceptiveness. "Maybe someone, like, hit her with it...?" [5:13 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: :consentbullet: "Lookin' how the case file says she died from blunt force trauma, that has to be it!" [5:13 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Anyways, go on, Artemis." [5:15 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: :cluebullet:  She gave a rough cough, tilting her head downwards to stare at her stand. "U-Um... When I-I first saw her... she was face down on the cellar floor-- A-And she had her hands out as if she was trying to drag herself towards the door..." [5:15 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana grimaced. [5:16 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Must have had some life left in her..." [5:16 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: :consentbullet: "Seein' how was still alive when she was discovered, I'd think so too." [5:17 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': { "I meant as she was left there, but yeah." } [5:17 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: Packie winces. Okay, moving on from that.

:cluebullet: "There was one of those motive cards right beside her body. Maybe it's the one she received, or maybe the culprit's." [5:19 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: :consentbullet: "I found it... it was KUBOcard. I think I grabbed it..." She did indeed, she pulls it out. [5:19 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Oh! That reminds me again! I read that thing! It said something like, I know your secret, meet me in the foyer and explain yourself. I dunno. It was written with really, really neat handwriting, too." [5:20 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: { "I meant the motive card, but good thing you saw that too, Princess." } [5:20 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Taisei-san's, probably." [5:20 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: { "Shuddup! I know what you meant, I was just, uh...adding on!" } [5:21 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: { "Cool."}"Would you, uh, mind reading it to us? Or would you rather have us read all the secrets we got first?" [5:22 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I-I can do it." [5:22 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': { "I wouldn't mind knowing who got mine..." } [5:22 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: { "What the heck would they know about me anyway?" } [5:22 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Let's hear Kubo's card first, then we can discuss the motive cards." [5:23 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: She cleared her throat. Everyone be silent. :cluebullet:  "It says. 'What's new, Nosferatu? Kubo had to sacrifice his own sister to become a vampire!' And... yeah-" [5:24 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!:

[5:24 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: { "I hate the supernatural. Fuck my life." } [5:24 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: { " " } [5:24 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana blinks. [5:24 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: {"Kubo is too busy playing Minecraft to refute this."} [5:24 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: { "Damn." } [5:24 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "But considering... it could be a lie." [5:24 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: {"Yeah he's playing Minecraft."} [5:25 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I mean-- Mines wasn't true, Lake showed me..." [5:25 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "That's the thing! Some cards, I've discovered, have false information..." Hazel agrees. "I'd shared mine with Lady Uzo's, and it wasn't true." [5:25 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I got Lake's thing, and I wouldn't believe it!"

She takes out her pocketed card. [5:25 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Really? Thank friggin' goodness! I got Pickle-nii-chan's..." [5:26 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "I 'unno much about mine to say if it's true or not. And I'd rather not know."

He takes his card out and reads it again, making a face at it. [5:26 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "Wait, you got mine? What does it say." [5:26 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Do... some have false information...? Or are all of them, wrong?" [5:27 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "We'll.. have to tell and see." [5:27 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Oh, uhh..." she fidgets. "Hold on a second." she digs through her apron pocket, a packet of sugar falling out in the proccess. She finds a crumpled piece of paper.

"It was written by the boar, obviously. Um... 'Oi princess! Did ya know that your friend Packie caused his sister's "accident" on purpose out of jealousy? Can't see him the same way, can't ya?'" she read the card out loud, crudely mimicing the boar's voice. [5:27 PM] Monoboar!: Monoboar sniffs. [5:27 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Yeah I got Keiko's 'secret'... That doesn't sound good right about now, doesn't it?" [5:27 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel's brows raise, looking at Packie. [5:28 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Ah, you did?" [5:28 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "The fuck? No, that's not true. It doesn't matter right now, though, not important." [5:28 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel is doing some math in her head right now. [5:28 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Okay- Who else wants to share...?" [5:28 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Okay! I believe you, like, a thousand times more then that stupid hog." she said, but secretly she was curious. What was true about it? [5:29 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Can I share Lake's?" [5:29 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Yeah it said something like 'Keiko poisons her parents to take care of them' or some shit like that." [5:29 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: She mimics Monoboar's voice, in the same vein as Hana. "Hey! Heard that lil' Lake tried to slip harmful substances into a batch of cookies made at her camp but got caught! Ain't that a treat? Bwahaha!" [5:29 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Go ahead, Uzoamaka-san. I--" [5:29 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Ouuuahhhh... scary.." [5:29 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis lets out a teary scoff at Willy's talk. "Y-Yeah fucking right." [5:29 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "NO?" [5:29 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...a bit late, but perhaps wait your turn." [5:30 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: She's referring to everyone. [5:30 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana groaned. [5:30 PM] Monoboar!: "Y'all's impressions of me friggin' suck."

[5:30 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Who.. else. I can share the one I got." [5:30 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "I should share mine, but you may go first, Lady Artemis." [5:30 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "WHY THE FUCK WOULD I PUT SHIT IN MY COOKIES FOR KIDS!!! YOU'RE JUST STOOPING TO LIES TO GET US TO CRACK AT THIS POINT!!!" [5:31 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: She puts on her best Monoboar expression, but since she's been in tears the last hour and a half it's pretty shitty. "News Flash 'bout Willy! He sped up his mentor's death so he could take his place! So cruel, that boy..." [5:31 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Shuddup, hog! You're wrong! I bet you couldn't do any better, stupid idiot! You sound like you have a potato stuck in your throat at all times! I'll eat you for my dinner! Actually, no, I don't even wanna touch you let alone eat you." [5:32 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "Mm, I can read mine whenever you guys want." [5:32 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Bruh." She refers to Willy's secret. [5:32 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: {"Hana,"} [5:32 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: {"What? I'm right!"} [5:32 PM] Monoboar!: Monoboar plugs his ears. [5:32 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Wh-" Willy stepped back at the lie of his. "What the fuck! I would never! Mortimer was a better parent than-" He stops himself. "... Now's not the time for that, but anyways... Yeah, not true!" [5:33 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel is making a face. "...and you all swear on your very life that these secrets are not true?" [5:34 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I can swear that mines wasn't true... Ask Strawberry..." [5:34 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I swear on my life and my mom's and my mama's!" [5:34 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "YES! I'M NOT FUCKING HEARTLESS!" [5:34 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "That's like, three lives. That's how much I swear." [5:34 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Not only on my life, but The Magnificent Mort's as well!" He shoots out some doves. [5:34 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: { "Ghhuuhhh..." } [5:34 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "Mine definitely isn't true. You can ask me more about it later if you want to know what's up." [5:35 PM] Monoboar!: "Oh yeah, Kubo's playing Minecraft. Let me get his card."

[5:35 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana made direct eye contact with Packie. [5:35 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel sighs. [5:35 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Waiting for Monoboar. [5:35 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: He ignores Hana. [5:36 PM] Monoboar!: He yoinks the card out of Kubo's pocket, reading off as so:

"To thee, thy vampire. It has come to terms that Hana created a cult of her personality whose members she calls her "subjects". Bwahaha! Ain't that a card?" [5:36 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Why'dyoudoShakespearetalkwithhiscard." [5:36 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "WHAT?" [5:36 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...okay, that sounds nothing like Hana. Are you even trying? And why are you speaking like me? DOTH THOU MOTHER KNOW I'VE EATEN HER FOR BREAKFAST?" [5:37 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: {"Jesus-"} [5:37 PM] Monoboar!: "Fie! Fie!" He shakes a fist.

[5:37 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: Packie holds back a laugh. The thought of Hana controlling a cult was too much. [5:37 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hana would never! Hazel snorts a bit, but puts back on an angry face. [5:37 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "That's not friggin' true! What the heck? You're not even trying!"

[5:38 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "We're getting off track... has anyone not gone yet..?" [5:38 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: "I haven't read mine yet, so I can read it now?" [5:39 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: God fucking dammit. [5:39 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel was about to speak but looks at Packie. [5:39 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Ugh, mine said Artemis killed her mom on accident, or something, but that's not true, as if you could expect it to be anywhere near a truth." [5:39 PM] packie hayai 🌾 💤: He looks back. Thank you. "I have Fujita-kun's secret, let me fuckin'.." he reads it out loud in a monotone voice.  "From the down below, Renzo killed their parents because Zuz'gamath asked them to! A devil indeed! Gwahaha!"

He shudders after that. Bazing a I fucking hate supernatural shit. [5:40 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "These are sooooo farfetched." [5:40 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel likes it when it doesn't include weird bullshit. [5:40 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel looks at Renzo. [5:40 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis looks ready to snap. "I-I'm gonna kill that fucking pig--" [5:40 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Bazing a I hate boars. Renzo looked uncomfortable. "That's.. that's n-not true.." [5:41 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Both of those have to do with them killing their parents or something! You aren't trying, you aren't trying, you stupid hog! You smell SO DISGUSTING! I'M GOING TO GAG!" [5:41 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel looks around. Did no one get something of hers? Oh well. [5:41 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: She clears her throat. "May I say mine, then?" [5:41 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Go ahead, Haze..." [5:41 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana looks at her friend. [5:41 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Yeah, then Renzo's, then Cerviel's." [5:42 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Whoever they got, they still gots to share." [5:42 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "A-Anyways, with that in our information as well, for this case, would it make every one of these false? Because even in Lady Uzo's," She pulls the card out to read it, not bothering to recite every word. "Uzoamaka let someone die instead of helping them, all for getting the scoop." [5:42 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...But of course, Lady Uzo refutes this as false." [5:42 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Like why the hell would I do that."

[5:43 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Hrhh.. so much death... Uzo is a good friend, not a bad person." [5:43 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "The pig's not fuckin' trying..." [5:43 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Pbbbbbth! Zoa would fucking never do that, she's too nice for that." Willy crosses his arms. [5:44 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Exactly... what is the meaning behind all this, Sir Piggy!? I saw through this the very day you gave these to us..." [5:44 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "What? Is the dumb 'twist' you're gonna spin on us gonna be that one of these are actually true? That'd be so cliche." [5:44 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: { Uzoamaka will remember Willy's kind comment. } [5:45 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo looks around at everyone. "Ah, so... is it my turn..? That is what Uzo said... we-" They pause, "..I got Hazels." [5:45 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Hm?" Hazel feels a bit nervous now at Hana's speculation. What if hers has a truth? That'd be so embarrassing!! "...yes, go ahead." [5:47 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Okayyyy," Renzo takes out their card, which they had decided to take with them to trial because why not. "Fun fact-o! Hazel completely destroyed another writer's reputation because of a lie she told! Oh the writer's world... Boohoooooo..." They read, entirely word-for-word. [5:48 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: She bristles, hands clenching into fists. "Of course not...! I'd never do such a horrid thing-- the writing industry is hard, yes, but I respect others!" [5:48 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "These all sound like a load of barnacles." [5:49 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "So they were all lies..?"

'She was killed over a lie...' [5:49 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel shifted a little, uneasy. "It should be my turn now, but I um.. have a little bit of bad news." [5:49 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Whet." [5:49 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "...Ehh?" [5:49 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He sighed. "I never read my card so I don't know whose I got. I buried it in the park." [5:50 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "..." [5:50 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "....!?!??!?!?!?" [5:50 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Understandable. Have a good day." [5:50 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Whhoooppss... well, who didn't hear theirs..?" [5:50 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "WE NEED KUBO'S DIAMOND SHOVEL." [5:50 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "That.... Understandable- But that could've been vital evidence..." [5:50 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel stares at Uzo. [5:51 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "God- Damn it. Okay, we can focus on the other clues, for the time being." [5:52 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I doubt the boar would let us out for some friggin' buried card that's probably a lie." [5:53 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel is fiddling with her hands a bit, looking down nervously. "But... consider what Hana had speculated. What if that one had a truth?" [5:53 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "How the fuck would we figure out which one is the truth, then?" [5:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Now Hazel wishes Keiko had been able to tell them the killers name... death is fickle. [5:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "I don't know, Lake." [5:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...well then, we can perhaps come back to it." [5:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: ? [5:54 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Anyone of us could've lied, but we can look back to it."

:consentbullet: Consent. [5:54 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Ummm, I have, like, one more thing I noticed. I dunno if it's important, though." [5:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Oh? Hazel looks up at Hana. [5:54 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Hm?" [5:55 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Keiko-chan was holding a little piece of cloth in her hand I think? It looked like it was torn off of...umm, something. Oh, it was darkly colored. I dunno what color it was, but it wasn't light." [5:56 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Maybe it came from... The killer's clothes..?" [5:56 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Oh fuckshit! [5:56 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka looks down at her mainly neon clothes. [5:57 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana doesn't look down at her clothes. She's wearing bright pink. [5:57 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel wears bright blue, so! That's all good. Either way, she continues on. "How dark?" She hopes that question makes sense. [5:57 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Violet isn't dark, so I'm out of the question." [5:57 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Ummm...I dunno, dark? That's all I could see in the cellar light." [5:57 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Right, right..." Hazel nods. [5:58 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel shifted. Anxious. [5:58 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "You good, Cerviel-kun?" [5:58 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "That narrows it to a few of us..." [5:58 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: "I'm.. okay." [5:59 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Trail and pillar." She taps her ID. [5:59 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Oh! Pillar!" [5:59 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Oh, I got a look at that!"

[6:00 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: :cluebullet: "I saww... one of the two big pillars in the foyer! It had a small bloodstain on it, yess." [6:00 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "..."

"So this means..." [6:00 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...?" [6:00 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "...Ohhh..." [6:00 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Well, think 'bout it, why would blood appear in the foyer and bedroom halls?" [6:01 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "I dunno." [6:01 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "She was killed elsewhere... and then dragged to the cellar..." [6:01 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Okay." [6:01 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: :testitheorybullet: "Maybe the killer... for lack of a gentler word, bashed Taisei-san's head against the pillar?" [6:02 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: :consentbullet: "Yeah!" [6:02 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "And not with the cane?" Hana interjected. [6:02 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Well, there were two wounds." [6:02 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana blinked. "Ohhh..." [6:03 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Ohhhh." Ok. [6:03 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: :cluebullet: "Cuz, like, there’s a very, VERY obvious trail of blood leading from the pillar Renzo-san mentioned and outside on the grass by the cellar." [6:03 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Yeah! Alright, we got the big picture." [6:04 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana claps her hands together. [6:04 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel smacks her lips. [6:05 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana clears her throat. [6:05 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "So, we can conclude the culprit and Keiko met up about that secret thing, the culprit kills Keiko, then dragged her to the root cellar, yes?" [6:05 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka turns her attention to Hana. [6:05 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana looks at her. "What? I had something caught in my throat." [6:05 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Oh, sorry, thought you were like, signaling something." [6:05 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Why would the killer drag her?" [6:06 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Perhaps, they are not strong enough to carry our friend Keiko..?" [6:06 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Well-- I mean, why to the cellar?" [6:06 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "I dunno." [6:07 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel doesn't know either. [6:07 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "To hide the body probably. Just a guess." [6:07 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Because it's spooky." [6:07 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "I was suspecting the same thing." Not you Hana. [6:07 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "The dungeon woulda fit more, 'cause of edge factor." [6:07 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana nods. [6:08 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': { "Not even a killer would wanna go in there..." } [6:08 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "Maybe get Taisei-san scared...? What the fuck, man..." [6:08 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Maybe... they knew she was still alive. And they dragged her down there to make sure she wouldn't get help before she died..." [6:09 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: It seems the killer is a bit of a bastard, confirmed. Hazel shudders. [6:09 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka frowns. [6:09 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "What the fuuuuuuck..." [6:09 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "That is quite dark... I dislike the notion of one of us doing something so cruel, during a murder such as this..." [6:10 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...is there anything we've missed?" [6:10 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "..." [6:10 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Let's take the bloody handprint into account." [6:10 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel doesn't have any clues, I'm just going off the skin of my teeth. She tilts her head. [6:11 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Hime-honey, where'd you say the bloody handprint was again?"

@Hana Minami! | baby chain [6:15 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Oh! It was, ummm...like, leading to the right side of the bedroom hall. Hah. Pretty accurate, right?" [6:18 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "The right side, huh?"

"..."

Mr. Brightside starts playing in her head as she takes out her ID. [6:19 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazelisperfectlyfine。 [6:19 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: She takes out the map of the first floor, using her pen to "draw" a box around it.

[6:19 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel　points。 [6:20 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Can we say the culprit was from this area?" [6:20 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: ａａああ [6:20 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: ”Yes．” [6:20 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I guess so...?" [6:20 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Was it leading to there or away from there?" [6:20 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "I'd say it's a fair assumption." [6:20 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: hazeliｓｐｅａｋｉｎｇｉｎｔｏｎｇｕｅｓ [6:21 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Away, I'd assume." [6:21 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Then... yes." [6:21 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Perhaps the killer's route was like this."

[6:21 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Specifically from Keiko's door, I think." [6:22 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Correction, it wasn't away." [6:22 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "But was the handprint here's or the killers...? Either one of them could've made it--" [6:22 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel stops speaking in tongues. [6:22 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel notices something, but her sudden godspeak was so intense she needs a moment to point it out. [6:22 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Another correction,"

[6:22 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "This was probably the killer's way back in." [6:23 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Disregard the past stuff, I got it confuzzled." [6:23 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: { "Ehh.."} [6:23 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "So they made it coming back?" [6:24 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Makes more sense now." [6:24 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "I mean, I'd assume so, since there weren't any more bodies at the scene." [6:24 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Do you suppose..." [6:24 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel trails off. [6:24 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hazel tilts her head at Hana. Ok oops [6:24 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana tilts her head at Hazel. [6:26 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Regarding the-- the rooms. Shouldn't there be something to take into account with the people placed nearby her room...?" She doesn't know. [6:28 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "There's only five people there who hasn't be involved in a previous trial... and only a few wears dark clothes that could match the cloth in Keiko's hand." [6:29 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: So. She glances from Kubo to Cerviel a few times, since they're right beside Keiko in the dorms. [6:29 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Well, Kubo is playing Minecraft." [6:30 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel has been quiet for a while. He pulls his doll closer. [6:30 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Fair point. She looks at Cerviel, since Minecraft is on Kubo's side. [6:30 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "..."

"...Cerviel." [6:30 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Cerveee?" [6:31 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He looked away uncomfortably. "Yes?" [6:31 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "..." [6:31 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Come to mention it, Cerviel's "secret" wasn't brought up?" [6:31 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "It...wasn't." [6:31 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "The only one that wasn't." [6:32 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: "Oouuuahhh.." [6:32 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "..." [6:32 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "................" [6:32 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana clears her throat. [6:32 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "And Keiko can't tell us the secret she got--... The one we found could've been planted." [6:32 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo coughs. [6:33 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel's eyes are darting from person to person as they speak. "Hold on.." [6:33 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "Hey boar, I got a question: Everybody got somebody else's 'secret,' right?" [6:34 PM] Monoboar!: "Yeh." [6:34 PM] Monoboar!: "Oink."

[6:34 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "So it would be fair to assume that Cerviel got somebody else's, not his own, right?" [6:34 PM] Monoboar!: "Yoink." [6:34 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: THANK you. [6:36 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "So it would also be fair to assume that Cerviel dug up his card that he got and switched it with Keiko's card that she got, hiding his own, right?" He's not looking at Monoboar for this. He's looking at Cerviel disappointedly. [6:36 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Dang. Never thought he'd do it." Hana says, automatically assuming. [6:36 PM] Monoboar!: "You tell me." He turns his head to Cerviel.

[6:37 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo is like :pits: rn. They're still coughing a little. [6:37 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel turns to Cerviel. [6:39 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel shrunk under the look. He's about to cry.

"I.. I have my card." He slowly pulled it out of the pocket of his shorts, hands shaking as he read it aloud.

What's up? Cerviel killed someone and took his identity! What a face off! He didn't bother mocking the boar. He stared down at his stand. [6:40 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "...What?" [6:40 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "IS THAT ONE THE ONE THAT'S TRUE?" Hana blurted out. "You're not saying it's not true!" [6:40 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He flinched. "It's not true, but.. Miss Taisei didn't believe me." [6:40 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "SO YOU JUST FUCKING KILLED HER? IS THAT IT?" [6:40 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Oh my fucking god." [6:40 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "You-" [6:41 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "And you. Dragged her while she was barely alive." [6:41 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Wh... What is the truth, then!?" [6:41 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel wrapped his arms around himself. "Please let me explain.. please." [6:41 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...O-Okay, okay..." [6:41 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "After I told her not to confront the person her card was about..." He shook his head. "She went and did it anyway... Look at what it did." [6:47 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He took a deep breath, squeezing his doll.

"Miss Taisei asked me to meet her last night in the foyer. I didn't know who the note was from, but.. I wanted to trust that everything would be okay if I met with whoever it was." He had to pause to wipe his face.

"She.. wanted to confront me about my secret. She said I was a danger to everyone and that she was going to tell you all. She just.. wouldn't listen to me!" He held the doll even tighter. "I got so scared.. she just kept yelling at me. So.. I pushed her." He didn't make eye contact with anyone, pressing on.

"She hit her head on the pillar pretty hard and I got even more scared. She was going to tell everyone that I tried to hurt her, so I grabbed the closest thing and.." He trailed off for a moment. "I didn't know she was still alive when I brought her to the cellar I just.. wanted to hide her. I couldn't.." He trailed off again. Words were hard. [6:48 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "...Sooo...you killed her instead of trying to explain to everyone that she was wrong about your secret?"

[6:48 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Y-You killed my girlfriend over a misunderstanding." [6:49 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel just puts her face in her hand. [6:49 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Words couldn't describe how she was feeling right now. [6:49 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "...SO BASICALLY, WHAT I JUST FUCKING SAID?" [6:49 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "This is like, the stupidest motive I've ever heard here."

[6:49 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: "It's not like that!" He couldn't help but raise his voice, backed into the corner. "I didn't want to hurt her! I was scared!" [6:50 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "You think that's an excuse...!?" [6:50 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "The fucking multiple bashes in her head say OTHERWISE." [6:50 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "Instead of helping her you left her to fucking die!" [6:51 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: "No." He wiped his face. "There's no excuse. Miss Taisei.. just wanted to help." [6:51 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo is still coughing. [6:51 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Scared of people hating you? Huh?" she leaned forward in her stand. "Why didn't you let her go? She wasn't gonna hurt you! Did it look like she was gonna hurt you? I don't think so, killer! Why'd you drag her to the dungeon? You're sick!" [6:51 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Root cellar." She corrected. [6:51 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Same thing." [6:52 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "She walks with a fucking cane! She couldn't have done anything to you that you couldn't have talked your way out of!" [6:52 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: "She wanted to lock me up. I.. she said I was too dangerous to allow to go free." [6:53 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: "YOU COULD'VE FUCKING--" Lake breathed deeply through her nose. [6:53 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "Alright, let me get this straight,"

"You killed her, instead of using words in the Japanese language to clear up something Monoboar made up."

[6:53 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "So this means she wouldn't have even killed you in the first place, Cerviel." Hazel stamps her foot. [6:53 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana snorted. "Lock you up where? In the root cellar? I'm sure someone would've found you there! You wouldn't have killed her if you didn't have some kind of sense in your brain that you were capable of that. I'm right and you know it!" [6:54 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "My girlfriend's dead--" Artemis let out a rough wheeze, leaning against her stand's railing. "She's dead over something you could've used your words to solve--" [6:54 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "And-- and... Cerviel, we could've helped you if she did something like that... her choice was brash and stupid, but it was nothing to kill her over... I have no words." [6:56 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel gently set down his doll. "None of you will understand." He wiped his face again. "It.. doesn't matter what I say." [6:56 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "I don't wanna understand." Hana says coldly. [6:57 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "No, luckily I hope I'd never understand feeling obligated to kill." [6:57 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: Lake leaned against her podium, face in her hands as she took deep, deep breaths.

"More innocent fucking people dead over some bullshit stirred up by some fucking freak," Lake growled to herself, seething. [6:57 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: "I understand completely." She hissed, scowling. "We're all fucking well-known people! Don't you think someone's tried to slander our fucking names before?! We understand! Don't go spouting bullshit like this!" [6:58 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He curled in on himself, staring down at the floor. "Can we vote then? I just.. want it to be over." [6:58 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "E-Even so, from what Sir William said," Hazel clears her throat. "Lady Keiko did something... thoughtless. In her stead of wanting to protect others, she got herself killed instead... why does this happen?" [6:58 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Why did she have to do that? Why did you--!?" She turns to Cerviel, pent up, but says nothing more. [6:59 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He doesn't say anything else. Cerviel closes his eyes, tears still falling down his face. [6:59 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: {"Waaah! Gonna cry, killer?"} [7:00 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel huffs. [7:01 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: {"Stop that! You don't get to fucking cry!"} [7:01 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He's crying anyways. [7:01 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: {"Waaah! Waaah! Uuu, I wish my mommy was here!"} [7:01 PM] Monoboar!: "Let's vote!"

On cue, voting screens power on at your stands, and a selection of students is displayed by rows and columns.

"Who the friggidy frag is the blackened? Decide now! Gwahahaha!"

@Alive [7:01 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka plants her finger on Cerviel's icon. [7:02 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel votes for himself. [7:02 PM] Lake Kawaguchi |: With a bit of hesitation, Lake voted for Cerviel before looking away from the screen. [7:02 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana hesitates for a second before tapping Cerviel's thing. Ugh, she might be pissed as hell but she still doesn't want to kill someone. [7:02 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': Willy votes for Cerviel. [7:02 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis nearly punches her screen out of her flurry of emotions. She votes for Cerviel. [7:03 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel taps Cerviel's face rapidly. [7:03 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: On the panel~ [7:04 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo is currently clutching their chest with their hands, so they just drop their head onto the panel, because in their mind that was the next logical step to take. Cerviel just happens to get picked, how lucky! [7:06 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Monoboar? [7:06 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Give him a moment. He's doing his best. [7:06 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Ok valid. [7:07 PM] Monoboar!: "AAAAAND- The votes are in!"

After everyone had voted, the screens flicker black, and proceed to light up in anticipation for each profile.

"Whomst is it? Hmmmm? The killer who's totally not bawling, who could it beeee?"

7:09 PM] Monoboar!: A musical tune plays out as it lights up on the fox trainer's portrait.

"You bet yer snrk'n butts that it's Cerviel Winter who made Keiko bite the bullet! Or should I say, cane 'n pillar. Gwehehe."

@Alive  

[7:10 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "That doesn't make sense!" [7:10 PM] Monoboar!: "Do you think I understand what I say." [7:10 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "Ugh, no." [7:11 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: Cerviel took a deep breath. "I deserve whatever I get but please.. someone take care of my foxes when you get out. They.. don't deserve to suffer because of me." [7:11 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel sighs. [7:11 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "I see... foxes." Hazel repeats. "What are their names?" [7:11 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "And... address." [7:12 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: And credit card information. [7:12 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: And social security number. [7:12 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "I'm gonna take them with my friends and we're gonna dye them pink with kool-aid so they'll be all cute!" [7:12 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...Hana." [7:13 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "What? It's plausible!" [7:13 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He looked up at Hazel. "Their names are Zuriel, Micah, Theo, and Gabriel. I don't.. have an address. I lived in the forest, but you can find a sanctuary called Angel's Haven. It's.. there." He curled around himself again. "Please don't hurt them." [7:13 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "What the hell? I'm not a killer like you, I won't hurt your sweet babies!" [7:13 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: "They'll be safe with us." [7:13 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "...we'd never hurt an animal for no reason." Hazel sighs. She bats Hana's shoulder. [7:14 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: "Or... at all, really. I hope." She eyes everyone suspiciously. [7:14 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: "...Sorry." Hana says. [7:14 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzo should be the one batting since she's right next to Hana. [7:14 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: "Thank you.." He looked up at Monoboar. "I'm.. ready now." [7:14 PM] Monoboar!: "No other last weeeeerds?" He tilts his head. [7:14 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: She bats her in spirit. [7:15 PM] I'm sorry, Miss Taisei: He shook his head. "All I want to make sure is that my friends are taken care of." [7:15 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: But you killed one of them, Hana wants to say, but she holds off. [7:17 PM] Monoboar!: "Kay." With no further hesitation, he slams the gavel right then and there with a bright grin. "Get prepared, oink, fer some JUICY PUNISH-MA-MENT!"

Cerviel Winter has been found guilty. Time for punishment.

@Alive

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1BzFbB_hvBIfBkSS0d58QgdEaYwMPKaCYzIQ8tTN1qnM/edit?usp=sharing

[7:21 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': "..." [7:21 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo isn't looking up at the execution as it goes on. They just keep their head down and try and drown out any outside sound, to little avail. They couldn't bring themselves to watch people die anymore. They didn't even know how they managed to watch before. [7:21 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka blinks, wincing at the scenery and audio.

"..."

"Jails are better than executions, Monoboar." She huffs out in a fit. "This all could've been avoided, if it weren't for you causin' a damn domino effect."

"When the hell is this ending!" She throws her arms out, then lets them fall on her side. [7:21 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana didn't look as usual. [7:22 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis is silent, watching Cerviel's untimely demise.

....

A familiar feeling settled back in her chest. So similar, yet so different. "Can we go now." [7:23 PM] Monoboar!: Monoboar chuckles at the scenery, playing around with his gavel. [7:23 PM] Monoboar!: "Yeah, yeah, hang on." [7:23 PM] Monoboar!: He hops down to the elevator, opening its doors with a push of a button. [7:23 PM] Hana Minami! | baby chain: Hana scuttles into the elevator. [7:24 PM] Hazel 🔖 final stretch!: Hazel follows suit. Fuck this place. [7:24 PM] 🔫Artemis🔫| What the FUCK: Artemis hobbled into the elevator. [7:24 PM] Willy Wonder | 'Splorin': Willy gets in the elevator he looks at everybody else as he does, then bringing his glance towards the floor. [7:25 PM] 🔥 ZOZO! 🔥 Are Ya Mining Son?: Renzo lifts their head as they hear the door open, and look over at Cerviel's stand. They notice that he left his doll there. Was that intentional? Did Cerviel say he was gonna do that? Their head hurts too much to remember. Still, they cross the room to take the doll from his stand, and take it with them into the elevator. [7:26 PM] UZOAMAKA! 🖊 WOW!: Uzoamaka enters as well. [7:28 PM] Monoboar!: As the doors close, you all ascend back up.

Another one gone from the roster.

TRIAL 5 - END

[sanguinesprout]

Well, that sucked... uuuuugh it’s coooooold xwx (updates, some gloomy and bright feels and self pep talk)

Hmmmmmmm... so, long time no post-ish...kinda..! To put it simply I’ve been stressing real hard over this form to try claim benefits/financial help and expended all mental my energy on that aaaall these past weeks. I struggled and I avoided but I finally fiiiiinallly managed to do it and now the main source of stress has subsided temporarily until they contact me again for maybe a face to face meeting in which I’ll commence my super anxiety flailing. But I guess for now I have time to stress about the things I normally stress over and haven’t done yet. Pah!

So the form right, you have to fill in about your health conditions/disabilities and I reaaaally had trouble writing about things like that. I mean, writing on here definitely helped me with some parts of it, since it was stuff I had written before, but just not on paper and... writing it out irl is like... super difficult and uncomfortable and knowing someone has to read it and ugh damn... I had to write about physical things too and there were lots of things I kinda was unsure of and it went from me writing very little to me writing probably TOO much last minute xwx I mean, it’s better than writing too less, but maybe I went into more detail than needed, but maybe it’s enough info that they’ll skip me in the face to face part... plz plz plssss! ;3; No, no you’ll be fine, you can do it!

I seriously spent so much time staring at it and it was just so hard, there was this reluctance even though I wanted to get it over with so badly, it’s like there was a magnet pulling me away, my concentration level dropped to minus 10000000, my head hurt from forcing myself to try think, it was torture Dx It’s probably something so easy but I unconsciously chose to overthink it and get all ruffled by the prospect that someone’s gonna read it and judge me... mehhh. By this point I just hope they can read my handwriting lol it literally looked like some kids english homework, full of scribbling out and arrows everywhere hahaha *sob* I had my sis read over it before I sent it, I was really nervous about that, it’s like she’s seeing a big slice of this blog (which scurred me), but she said it was fine, it was good! She’s supportive of me even if we frustrate each other a lot, I’m really thankful for her help and encouragement ;u;

Anyways, whatever the outcome, at least I tried! I kinda succeeded in finishing something I would’ve just not even attempted usually and that’s great! I did good and if there is a next time, I’ll try even harder! The anxiety and irrational held me back and scared me away from trying, but maybe I’ll get over them much easier now that I proved to myself I could do it if I just really really reaaaally put my mind to it! Putting my pen to the paper, that’s another big thing that was needing to be done too lol. The race between doubt and determination was won by determination’s last minute spurt powered by encouragement from various sources (including myself and my fear of letting people down!) Yaaay~! sarcasm is no good booo!

Form aside, I had to do phone calls and make trips to the post office quite a bit lately too, I did them! Whooo! I also went out and had some nice shopping trips, even met some of my sis’ buddies and it was nice, it was pretty fun in fact! I wasn’t as anxious as I thought I’d be, though the times I were, I just... sucked it up and kinda went with the flow and it became okay after... I tried and I pushed forward and everything was alright *hugs self* c:

I have such less energy and brain cells left that this post probably sounds so half assed and pointless no, no negativity! silly, but I’m doing it, I haven’t abandoned my blog and it’s almost been a whole year... or at least 2/3 of a year, yay for me! Christmas is so soon, it feels kind of lonely this year compared to past years because of some things but it’ll be okay, as long as I have my family and finally get to spend some nice quality time with them like I’ve been looking forward to, I’m happy! ^^

I got a lot of materials to make some nice arts and crafty things lately. it’s kinda given me some more incentive to make some nice things and just have some fun. I haven’t done anything yet though, but I plan to... ack! Gotta make sure not to overthink things and put myself off, just go for it! I’m not abandoning my dreams of making some self motivational/self expressive or cute things or just learning to draw in general (lolol) just yet! I’ve just kinda gotten a bit doubtful and shy again (especially with just being online too), but Imma crawl back out this hole and do some things right naaaaooo!! *slips and tumbles* oof @w@” C’mon silly, keep going, believe in yourself! 

I have a lot of ideas, and they keep piling up, but I’m having a hard time getting them out... I keep letting the anxiety, comparing, fear of judgement slip in and foil my plans. Things don’t have to be perfect, just try your best..! It doesn’t matter what other people think, as long as you like your creations. Other people have their own style and you have yours, be proud of it and let it shine. Practice makes... progress! You can do it!

I want to try and do more than one thing a day like most other people can like I know I have the potential to, like maybe do a little bit of art, a little bit of self care, a little bit of family time rather than just sitting around wondering which thing to prioritise or which thing is a waste of time to focus on and in the end achieve absolutely nooooothing .___. Baby steps, keep climbing, keep growing, don’t let your thoughts bring you down, you can achieve everything you want to, you just have to try with all your heart, ignore the mental obstacles, they can’t stop you, go go go!

With one of the other things I was stressing about a few weeks earlier, it was submitting a claim for a lost parcel, I struggled with that even, but I tried really hard and I did it and even though I was expecting nothing to happen, something good did happen! They fully reimbursed me! I was so surprised! Even though I was missing some information and thought it was going to be pointless and many weeks passed and I even forgot about it, my efforts actually paid off. The experience alone of just trying was a good lesson for me, but now I’m beginning to believe in ‘if you don’t try, you won’t know/nothing ventured nothing gained’ even more! This happened after I submitted my benefits application, I don’t wanna be too hopeful incase nothing happens here, but whether the result is something or nothing, I’m just glad I tried! c’:

I also received some praise about my packaging skill and service (I’ve been selling unwanted things and I always put in a lot of effort) and it was so sweet and kind and just lifted my sprits so much for someone to acknowledge it, I am so grateful ;w; For someone to take their time to write such a nice message and show their appreciation, ahhh it’s such a wonderful feeling..! I reached my goal of making at least one person smile! It was also another very pleasant surprise! I want to continue to chase this feeling and keep fulfilling this goal! I hope one day I’ll be able to feel this way with my creations ahhh cryyy ;u;

With my physical health woes and medication trials, it has only been a short period but it seems to be going alright, not very far, but it’s going somewhere and in a more positive direction. Once again I am so grateful to my dr, they are so amazing and kind and helpful ;u; Health is important! I want my family to be more healthy too, I worry about them a lot, because they don’t take care of themselves and they also avoid things and... uuu I’m sad :c I don’t want for them to be ill, time is short and I wish for them to be well and happy but it’s difficult when they’re so stubborn. I need to try harder.

A family friend passed away from illness very recently, it was extremely saddening... It must be incredibly hard for their family right now, I hope they will be okay Y__Y Life is unfair, life is unpredictable, it’s all the more reason why I need to get up and make the most of it right now. Spend as much time with loved ones as I can and make sure everyone is happy and healthy so we can have an even longer happier life together, reach for my dreams and so and so. Yolo... so try your hardest... time is precious ;^;

Well, um... that made things a little gloomy but I have to learn to face reality more seriously. Okay, for ourself and our loved ones, let’s make everyone proud and try our best! This life is my own and I’m going to take control of it, I’m gonna make it worth being happy about! Time is of the essence!

It’s been so cold lately, but because of this I’ve been able to see it snow! Although it’s not much, but it’s magical all the same and I’m happy to have been able to witness it, to go outside and enjoy the little but wonderful things of life, I don’t want to miss out on them anymore either! A new year is approaching, a new year where it will still be hard but I’ll continue to persevere until I’ve reached my goals! The post I left in my drafts, which I see every time I post here, the one with a long list of my dreams and things I’ve been wanting to do, I glanced at it and I think I managed to do a few of the littler things this year! I still have a lot to go, so I’m gonna aim to do at least twice as much next year! Yeah!!

Have a great evening (and a wonderful Christmas and New Year if I don’t post again before then), let’s go go! :D