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Hello, how is your day going? I don't know if you are actually receiving requests, if not feel free to ignore this. What about you and Harry fighting in the car, maybe you're coming from a date and Harry was really late, the walk home is difficult with him and you start a fight, so she decides to get out of the car and walk home alone.
(English is not my first language so I apologize for any spelling errors that may have been made)
a/n: hello! My day is going well, thank u for asking. And yes, I do receive requests. No need to apologizeâyour english is great!
warnings: angst with a happy ending (sorry I couldnât leave them like this!)
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It was 9 p.m., and you had been sitting at this restaurant for the past hour, waiting for Harry. Tonight was supposed to be your date nightâsomething planned since last week. You'd even reminded him this morning, but here you were, alone.
It had been Harry's idea to take you out, to spend time together, to simply enjoy each other's company after weeks of him being swamped with studio work.
When he'd suggested it, you were over the moon, practically giddy at the thought of a night just for the two of you. Just boyfriend and girlfriend.Â
You'd dressed up for him in the sheer black dress he loves so much, paired with your black stilettos that accentuated your legs. Minimal make up, save for the bold red lips that added a sensual edge to your look. Youâd spent over two hours getting ready, perfecting every detail for tonight. But once again, you sat... disappointed.Â
He was late. not just ten or fifteen minutes, but a whole one hour.Â
Tears started to gather up in your waterline as the waiter approached your table for the third time, politely asking if you were ready to order. You forced a tight smile, declining him once again, murmuring that you were waiting for your boyfriend. You couldnât help but feel like the staff was probably laughing behind your backâthis poor woman, sitting alone, waiting like a fool.Â
Deep down, you knew it wasnât an emergency or unavoidable crisis keeping Harry away. Heâd used the same excuse too many times: Got busy at the studio, forgot to check my phone. Honestly, you were tired at this point of always coming second, but you know your pathetic heart will forgive him the second he starts blubbering out apologizes because you loved himâand you know he loved you, too.Â
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You discretely wiped a stray tear that has rolled down your cheeks as the sound of commotion at the door caught your attention. Your eyes glanced to the entrance, and there he wasâHarry, rushing inside, his eyes searching for her.Â
The second he spotted you, he knew heâd fucked up.Â
Harry strode over to your table, looking down at you with guilt written all over his face. His shoulders sagged as he spoke.Â
âY/Nâfuck, Iâm sorrââÂ
You stood up immediately, not wanting to hear a word from him. Grabbing your purse from the table, you turned around and walked away. Ignoring him.
Outside, the cold air hit you like a slap, your hair whipping against your face as tears spilled freely down your cold cheeks. You wrapped your coat tighter around yourself, desperate to hold it together.Â
âY/N, pleaseâlisten to me.â Harry pleads from behind her, his voice begging. He reached out to touch your arm, but you instinctively stepped back, putting more space between you.Â
"Don't,â you muttered, wiping your tears.Â
Harry froze, his hand hanging in the air for a second before dropping back.Â
His heart breaks looking at your state, your mascara slightly smudged, your nose red because of crying, and your cheeks red with biting cold. You looked so vulnerable, and yet you wouldnât let him near you. The realization crumbles him from inside.Â
âI donât want to hear anything; I want to go home. Just take me home or Iâll book a cab.âÂ
You whisper, sniffling, your voice hoarse and shaky.Â
Harryâs throat tightened, but he nodded, silently stepping forward to open the car door for you. Without a word, you slid into the passenger seat. You fumbled with your seatbelt and stared outside the window. not glancing a look over him as he starts driving.Â
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The drive home is suffocatingly silent. The air inside felt heavy with tension and unspoken words. The only sounds were the low murmur of the radio and the faint hum of the engine in the background.Â
Harry's grip on the steering wheel was tight, his jaw clenched as he fought to keep his emotions in check. The tension was evident as his other hand rested idling on his thigh, occasionally rubbing at his jaw in frustration. He wanted so badly to reach for your hand, to rest his palm on your thigh as he'd done countless times before. But he didn't. He couldn't.
It must have been forty minutes or an hour of driving in silence when you spoke, not able to sit in the tension atmosphere anymore. âAre we not going to talk about this?â You snaps.
Harry exhales sharply through his nose, trying to gauge a response: âWhat do you want me to say, love?" I said I was sorry.âÂ
Y/N scoffs at his words, her frustration bubbling over. âThatâs the problem, Harry. You think an apology fixes everything. Itâs not about saying sorryâitâs about not doing it in the first place. You knew how important tonight was for me.âÂ
Harryâs knuckles turn white on the wheel. âI didnât get time to check my phone. I was so caught up in the studioââ
âRight, the studio.â Y/N interrupts bitterly, âAlways the studio. Always something important than me.âÂ
The words hang heavy in the air; Harryâs shoulders stiffen. His lips press into a thin line as he pulls the car over the side of the door, and tires crunching against the gravel.
âWhat are you doing?â You ask, heart pounding.
Harry throws his car into the park and turns to you, his green eyes stormy and dark. âI donât know what you want from me; Iâm doing the best I can.â His voice was low but sharp.Â
Your throat tightening at his words, shaking head, âWell, maybe your best isnât good enough.â You whispers, trying to keep your tears at bay.
His eyes flicker, a flash of vulnerability breaking through his frustration, but you canât take it back now. The tension feels unbearable. Before you could think, You unbuckles your seatbelt and reaches for the door handle.Â
âWhere are you going?â Harry asks.
âHome.â Y/N bites out, stepping out of the car. The crisp air waves through your hair, goosebumps rising in your body. âIâll walk.â
âDonât be ridiculous,â he mutters back before opening the side of his door and stepping outside.Â
âRidiculous?â You whirl around, glaring at him. âWhatâs ridiculous is me sitting there, pretending that Iâm not hurt. Whats ridiculous is you acting like this doesnât matterâÂ
Harryâs chest heaves as he looks at you, searching for the right thing to say, but it doesnât come fast enough; you turn around and start walking, your heels clicking against the pavement.Â
You hear Harry calling your name, but you donât turn around, knowing there is nothing for him to say that would make you feel betterânothing. The chill of air whooshes past you as you hug yourself tighter, wrapping your arms around you, and quicken your steps.Â
The sound of his boots crunching against the ground, crisp leaves crushing beneath him as he follows you, the sound growing closer and closer, then you hear him say softly.Â
âY/N, please..stop."
Against your better judgement, you stop. You stop in your tracks at his words and turn around. Harry jogs and comes closer to you; this time you let him... wanting to feel him close. His face morphs into something more painful than that clenched jaw like earlier. The lines of frustration are replaced by something softer, something that aches your chest.Â
âI get it,â his voice low, laced with hurt. âYouâre hurt. And youâre right, I shouldnât have been late, and I shouldnât have brushed it off like it didnât matter. It did; you matter to me.âÂ
The sincerity in his words cracks your heart walls, the river of tears that youâve been holding threatening to spill over.
"Harry, it's not just about tonight," you say, your voice trembling. "It's about feeling like I'm always coming second to everything else in your life."
His shoulders drop, and he steps closer, his green eyes fixed on yours. "You're not second, love," he says; the words sound like a plea. "You're the only thing that keeps me going half the time. And I know I've been worse at showing that, but I'll do better. I promise you, I will."
You blink at him, trying to brush away the tears. "You say that, butâ"
Before you can finish, his hand gently takes yours. "Look at me," he says softly, and when you do, there's nothing but sincerity written all over his face.
"I'll prove it," he says. "Not just tonight, not just tomorrowâevery day. I'll make time. For you. For us. You're the most important thing to me, Y/N. I swear it."
His words sink in, warming the cold that's settled deep in your chest. For a moment, neither of you speaks.Â
Then, his thumb brushes over your knuckles, and you realize how much you missed the warmth of his touch; he gently touches them and kisses each of your fingers softly.
"Can I take you home now?" he asks tentatively, a small, hopeful smile tugging at his lips.
Y/N hesitated for a moment before nodding, the fight in you ebbing away.
"Okay," you whispered.
He lets out a relieved sigh and takes a step closer, wrapping his arms around you tightly. "Thank you," he murmurs into your hair. "I'll make it up to you, love. I promise."
#the ending was kinda shit#Iâm sorry#Harry styles au#harry styles angst#harry styles fic#harry styles fanfic#harry styles one shot#harry styles x you#harry styles x reader#harry styles oneshot#harry styles fanfiction#harry styles#harrystyles#harry styles smut#harry angst#one direction#harry styles imagine#harry styles fluff#harry fanfic#harry smut#harry styles drabble#harry styles book#harry styles au
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finally began reading the infamous if. current mc is maverick/maeve de soto (they/she) & their band's name is VENUS' HAVEN, they are an alternative r&b for reasons unknown to me bc they have such a rock band vibes but whatever. probably a sevenmancer bc i love a good enemies to lovers and bc i can't have rowan đ
#rena.txt#it took me under 3 seconds to like rowan. while reading his description i was already like this is my man. but okay. FINE. we ball#i still don't know what's the deal with maeve. they are cocky and arrogant but have a good heart. probably. maybe. i feel like she would#get involved in soo many scandals but idk. i will just have them flesh themself out and i'll just sit & look skfjskfsj#also i'm so not made for ifs tbh bc my attention span surely isn't on my side but i really like the vibe of the story so far :]#oh the band's first album is called far from home which i find funny (making me insane) since the name is venus haven so it's like. we are#far from that haven rn. we are going on a journey to get back there (through the albums) and idk love a storytelling through music#it has seven related reasons ofc bc i love drama skfjskdjs#also how are all my sexy mutuals pickings fcs for this like. this is the hardest job ever nothing fits as i want to HMM#also 2x. no idea if venus' haven is correct english or smth my grasp of this language sometimes it's so feeble when it comes to ' send help
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Summary: âI got a nosebleed when you tried to kiss me. I told you â itâs like Iâm fucking cursed!â â Or, in which an accident-prone girl stumbles and falls for everything, including Lando.
Pairing: Lando Norris x fem! reader
Word count: 23.2k (grab a snack)
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI â Angst: injuries, hospitals, surgery, scars, blood, dead parent, mention of car crash. Smut: penetrative sex, oral (f! receiving), body insecurities, very vanilla. Fluff: idiots to lovers, so much pining and scheming. Other: inaccurate timeline and made-up race results. it's fiction, folks!
A/N: Posting this then falling off the face of the earth, because this fandom is scary. Kinda unedited for now. English is not my first language! âĄ
Melbourne, Australia
Lando didnât recognise you at first. Granted, he wasnât the best at remembering faces, but usually if heâd met someone, he would remember them the second time around. Although, this wasnât his second time seeing you, he would later learn. It was probably close to the tenth time. It had just been some time since your last encounter. For a logical reason, he would also later learn.Â
Albert Park, 2024. Race day. Thatâs where he saw you this time. Walking down the paddock, next to Oscar and his girlfriend Jasmine, trying to keep up as the three of you made your way to the McLaren garage. Your hair getting messed up by the breeze, annoyingly sticking to your glossy lips, feet almost tripping on the seam of your baggy jeans. You were out of your element, putting on a brave smile â and Lando could tell.Â
He didnât realise heâd been staring at you, from his seat on the steps up to his motorhome, until you were out of eyeshot again, somewhere in the garage. He couldnât quite put his finger on why you were familiar and it was killing him. If you were Australian, maybe that would explain it, since Lando had no way of keeping track of all of Oscarâs old friends.Â
But you werenât Australian. As he later walked into hospitality, he overheard a bubbly British accent talking to Jasmine and Oscar, an accent belonging to you. It confused him even more, really gnawed inside of him. He should know you, yet something wasnât aligning, something wasnât right. Oscar wouldnât just fly anyone halfway across the globe.Â
It all came crashing down when he heard Jasmine ask you a simple question.Â
âBunny, can you grab me a fork?â
Standing up from the table, you gave Lando a small smile as you caught his gaze, signalling that you at least knew who he was.Â
Bunny, Bunny, Bunny. The nickname finally made him realise, finally made him recognise you. But you werenât the Bunny heâd met at multiple races before. You didnât look like she did. Or, you didnât look like you used to. Bunny was Jasmineâs childhood friend who had gotten sick, who had stopped traveling, who had stopped coming to races at all. The girl before him however, wasnât sick. You didnât look weak in any sense. Nervous, fidgety, and out of place, sure â but never weak.Â
As you were about to say a quiet hello to him as you walked past, Lando was already falling apart â socially that is. Words were stumbling out of his mouth before his brain had a chance to keep up. He cringed internally before he could even finish the sentence.Â
âHoly shit, I thought you were dead!âÂ
He shocked you, that was obvious. Your eyes went wide as you struggled to say something in response.Â
âLando, you canât just say that to someone,â Oscar chuckled from a few metres back.Â
âI-Iâm sorry, I just⊠didnât recognise you,â Lando stuttered out as you still stood dumbfounded in front of him.Â
âYou donât think I wouldâve told you if my best friend died?â Jasmine butted in, standing from the table, placing herself beside you.Â
She could tell that you didnât know how to react, already expressing your nerves about how uncomfortable it would be to attend a race after not going for a very long time, afraid that people would ask too many questions.
âItâs alright, itâs been a long time,â you finally managed to say.Â
Then, an uncomfortable silence fell over the four of you. It was like you knew that you should explain why it had been such a long time, but you didnât know how to do it âcasually explaining the second most traumatic experience of your, thus far, relatively short life. It wasnât casual at all, and you couldnât even try to fake it.Â
âEhm, Iâll go get that fork for you Jazz,â you broke the silence, swiftly excusing yourself to go back to the catering table.Â
Oscar couldnât stop chuckling and Jasmine looked borderline offended, something she tended to do, a resting bitch-face of sorts. Lando felt like the stupidest, most socially inept person alive, mentally facepalming himself as he watched you leave. This was going to be a long day.Â
Landoâs race however, was frustratingly short.Â
You and Jasmine watched the race from the garage, surrounded by muddled mechanics, blinking monitors and loud noises. It really was a circus, a well-oiled machine, fascinating to watch. Youâd forgotten how fun it could be. Also, how nerve-wracking it was to be standing next to Jasmine while her boyfriend â love of her life, light of her eye â was going 300 km/h, head to head with insanely competitive people, in big death traps.Â
The early races of the 2023 season that you had managed to catch in person hadnât been too impressive, from McLarenâs standpoint. Your humble opinion was that anyone who even sat in one of those cars was more courageous and impressive than you would ever manage to be. As the last season went on, you had learnt to trust the process, but both you and Jasmine would be lying if you said that 2024 didnât look like an even better year for the brightly papaya-coloured team you were rooting for. Â
With both drivers in good starting positions and Verstappenâs brakes catching fire on the third lap, Jasmine couldnât contain her excitement, practically bouncing on the balls of her feet next to you. Ferrariâs in the lead and McLaren fighting for that glorious third spot. It wasnât until Lando had a chance to pass Leclerc that the castle in the air came crumbling down. Oohâs and aahâs filled the garage as you watched the scene unfold on a monitor.
âOh, fuck,â you said under your breath, knowing that barely anyone would be able to hear you in the crowded space. âIs it over for him?â
Jasmine had been too busy squealing over Oscar going into third that she failed to realise that it was on the cost of Lando. That was until his car came rolling into the pit lane with irreparable damage from making contact with Leclerc.Â
Youâd seen it happen before, but that didnât change the feeling. Your heart basically lodges itself in your throat, making you unable to breathe for a couple seconds. And then it was the aftermath⊠Seeing the driver leave their car, head hung low, just wanting to scream at the world in frustration but bottling it all up inside.Â
Leclerc wouldnât even get a penalty, it was just how racing worked sometimes. That didnât change the feeling of complete utter failure for Lando. You could tell that as he, with assertive steps, made his way to his driverâs room, slamming the door shut so hard that it only flew back open again.Â
âBunny.â Jasmine grabbed your arm to get your attention, leaning closer so that you would hear her. âOne of us has to go ask if heâs alright. He doesnât have anyone here with him.âÂ
âDoesnât he have an entire team to do that?â you wondered.Â
Surely, they didnât send these drivers out without having enough support from the team when something went wrong. Surely, you thought. The look on Jasmineâs face told you the opposite. The fact that no one was running after Lando to his room was also quite telling. Or maybe⊠they knew better than to disturb him. Maybe Jasmine was setting you up for failure by asking you to comfort someone who didnât want to be comforted.Â
âHeâs gonna need someone whoâs not obsessed with performance and profit. Trust me, the people on this team may be nice, but they are not human when it comes to things like this,â Jasmine explained, and you took her word for it.Â
âAm I the best option?â
You didnât know him. And you were awkward. But so was he⊠Yet, you couldnât even get your little brother to stop crying by making him laugh or comforting him â let alone a grown man, like Lando.Â
âPlease,â she insisted, and you could tell that she was serious. There was no point in arguing with her. Seeing the rest of the race with Oscar battling to keep his podium position would be enough of a feat for her poor emotions. She wouldnât be able to walk away from it.Â
You werenât even sure if you were allowed to walk back there, but there was also no one stopping you when you did it. Your steps were the opposite to Landoâs assertive ones as you made your way to his driverâs room. You had no idea what to expect when you reached the already open doorâŠÂ
⊠but Lando, sat on his little bench, racing suit halfway off, lazily scrolling on his phone was not it.Â
âI understand that Iâm most definitely not the person you would want to talk to right now, but Jasmine said that you were here alone and I just wanted to ask if youâre okay,â you rambled out way too quickly.Â
It got his attention, looking up from his phone, but he didnât say a word. He was mostly shocked to see that you were the first person to come talk to him. He had expected Jasmine, or maybe someone from the team that he wouldnât want to talk to anyway. But not you. You had no reason to even be nice to him after how weird heâd been.Â
âUhm, so this is me asking that,â you reminded him when his silence got too much for you.Â
âIâm fine,â Lando sighed, dragging his fingers through his sweaty curls, getting flashbacks of what had happened all over again.
You could tell from the look on his face that he, in fact, was not fine. Â
It was toxic and harmful, that his first instinct when something like this happened was to immediately check his phone to see what people were saying about it online. But he had done it anyway. And sure enough, there were people blaming him â calling him reckless and a whiny little kid, finally getting what he deserved. There were also people calling Leclerc out, but Lando somehow couldnât focus on it.
Because the thing he saw most of when he was scrolling through twitter was your face. Maybe that was why he was even more surprised to see that it was you standing in the doorway to his room and not someone else. Â
âDo you know that weâve gone viral?â he asked you, referring to the phone in his hand. He couldnât help but let out a little laugh under his breath.Â
âNo?âÂ
You looked confused as Lando scooted over to make space for you to sit down beside him. You didnât have any social media, and Lando knew. He definitely hadnât tried to look you up after your encounter earlier to see why on earth he hadnât recognised you. It had gotten him nowhere. You had no accounts of your own and Jasmine hadnât posted any photos of you. He had stopped himself before searching up old paddock photos. So, it wasnât a surprise that you didnât know about the video that was circulating around right now.
âApparently, someone was filming when I said that I thought you had died. Itâs quite a funny clip,â he clarified, tilting his phone to show you the screen.Â
He watched as you looked at the clip, a gentle giggle leaving your mouth at how ridiculous it was. Your smile then turned into concern, seeing the amount of interactions the post had earned.Â
âIs that not bad publicity for you?âÂ
âI donât care about that,â Lando said honestly. âBut I am truly sorry for saying that to you.âÂ
Thinking someone had died was a new low even for him, and saying it to your face was just unexplainable behaviour. Yet, he still couldnât understand why he hadnât recognised you. Sure, he knew that you had been sick and then⊠probably gotten well again? But did that change your appearance? Maybe he just hadnât really looked at you before.Â
âI canât blame you, Lando â I probably looked dead the last time you saw me,â you laughed.
You couldnât remember exactly when it was, sometime mid last season. Right before it got really bad, but while your condition was stable enough for you to go to races. Maybe it was Silverstone. You had a vague memory of seeing Lando on that podium. You knew that you had looked horrible either way. When you thought about it, maybe Lando had never seen you completely healthy.Â
âThere was something wrong with your lungs, right?â he asked, wondering if he was remembering things correctly.Â
âJust the left one. I had spontaneous pneumothorax three times in a year,â you explained, earning a confused look from Lando before adding, âCollapsed lung, basically air was leaking from the lung out into my chest.âÂ
He raised his eyebrows as you spoke. You made it sound a lot more trivial than what he assumed it was.Â
It happening one time wasnât actually that uncommon. Apparently, lungs collapsed right, left, and centre. It was usually a quite easy fix as well, not even something that required surgery. But when it happened to you, that third time â it was obvious that the problem was much larger. There was multiple surgeries and constant checkups. There were ugly scars and never-ending breathing exercises.Â
It was a lot, for anyone. Even worse for someone just about to graduate from their bachelorâs programme. Your life had fallen apart, to say the least, and it wasnât something you gladly talked about, so making it sound trivial was your way of coping. If Lando realised that was another question.Â
âAnd Iâm sat here moping about a DNF,â he heard himself mumble before realising how insensitive that mightâve come across. âBut youâre okay now?âÂ
âOne final checkup left, practically as good as new,â you said, putting on a smile. âYou do know that itâs not comparable though, right?âÂ
Lando didnât understand at first, so you kept on speaking.Â
âMe, having a life threatening medical condition â and you, having a bad day at work?âÂ
Maybe you were the one sounding insensitive now, knowing full well that his work wasnât normal in any way, shape, or form. But that was the opposite of your intentions, so you kept on rambling to try and save yourself.Â
âYouâre allowed to be selfish and angry about something going wrong in your life without thinking about how other people might have it worse,â you added. âBecause letâs be honest, someone is always going to be in a worse situation. That doesnât take away from your right to feel things about whatâs happening in your life.âÂ
What had happened with Leclerc was shitty as fuck and if you were Lando, youâd be crying, cursing everyone and their mothers that even had a slight connection to Ferrari. But you werenât a professional race car driver. You were an emotional young woman. What you were trying to say was that Lando had a right to even be a fraction more emotional than what he was showing right now.Â
âI donât know what to say,â Lando answered simply after a moment of silence.Â
He wasnât used to people telling him he had a right to be emotional. Heâd been told since he was a child by people in the industry that being a whiny little kid would get him nowhere. Maybe you had a point. Whatever he was doing now to deal with his emotions (which was ignoring them completely), obviously wasnât working with how he was feeling inside.Â
âYou donât have to say anything to me if you donât want to, just allow yourself to feel, because even I can tell that youâre shutting yourself out and I donât even know you.â
Your voice was soft as you spoke. Your accent reminded him of the people he grew up around. That was something he hadnât realised before. He was starting to think that he had been completely self-absorbed all the other times heâd met you. You were almost⊠pretty, when you sat there next to him in ugly fluorescent lighting. Maybe it was the way you seemed to actually care that made his brain a little mushy.Â
You were scared to cross a line with him by saying too much, so you decided to retreat. Standing up from the bench, creating more space between you, you took a stance in the doorway again. It felt like you couldnât breathe in his tiny little room.Â
âI should probably go back to see how Oscar is doing,â you said, signalling with your hand to the garage.Â
Lando looked up at you with big eyes, nodding understandingly. You could almost visibly see how he was holding back from telling you that he was, in fact, not okay.Â
You really had no business pushing him to say something to you. But, something inside of you was calling you a coward for not even giving it a try. For not even giving it a second chance, trying to make him feel better about himself. It all reminded you a little all too well of something that your mother always used to tell you. Fuck it.
âMy mum taught me to always linger in doorways for a couple extra seconds before leaving someone,â you said, feeling heat rise to your cheeks at the mere thought of how stupid this was. âThatâs usually when people get to thinking about things they havenât had the courage to say yet, since you never know when youâre next going to see the person.âÂ
You were over-explaining it, pressing your nails into the soft skin of your palms as you got nervous. You were trying to say that you always resolved to leave people feeling better than they did before you talked to them.Â
Lando cracked a small smile as he watched you stumble over your words. He had now decided that you were pretty, standing in the doorway, your gaze oscillating between him and the floor.Â
âIâll ask one more time and then Iâll go â Lando, are you okay?âÂ
âNo,â he sighed. He couldnât hide it. âBut I will be.âÂ
âItâs never okay after something like that happens. I keep on blaming myself for things I have no power over, but thatâs got to stop at some point, right? I have to learn at some point,â he continued, voice coming across as slightly defeated.Â
You recognised his mentality, Oscar usually said something similar after experiencing a setback. You still didnât understand how he wasnât more visibly upset, yet you now knew that he was harbouring it all inside. It made you feel better that he had actually said it out lout â that he wasnât fine. You also felt a little bit worse, getting the feeling that his self-deprecation was far more severe than you originally thought. He blamed himself without good reason.Â
âIâm afraid I donât know you well enough to say the right thing now, but for what itâs worth, Iâm so impressed by you,â you admitted truthfully, hoping you werenât showing pity. He was actually such an inspiration, such an idol. Even when he sat there, looking like he had run through hell and back, fighting his brain to not feel sorry for himself.Â
âHave I done enough lingering to make my mother proud, you think?â you joked, tilting your head while you looked at him.Â
âYeah,â he smiled. âIâll join you out there in a minute.âÂ
Oscar had secured his third position and his first home race podium. Getting to see him up on that podium, covered head to toe in champagne was so special to you. Even though you were Jasmineâs friend first, you had really grown to love Oscar during their years of dating. Although, Lando never managed to make his way to the celebrations, something that lingered in the back of your mind.Â
You had tried so hard to get it right, to say the right thing â to make him feel better about himself. That was more than most people did. He was used to people sucking up to him, but this was different. This was honest. You had no reason to be nice to him. You had no reason to even give him your time of day. But you did it anyway. Lando didnât even think to say thank you before you left. He shouldâve, because you were right. He didnât know the next time he would see you, hell with your track record you might actually be dead tomorrow, and it was a shame if you didnât know that your words had helped.Â
Lando wasnât sure how long he stayed in his room, sitting on that uncomfortable little bench. Letting his thoughts get the best of him while simultaneously trying to think of what youâd said to him. That he should feel, that he should think this through. He was just hoping that what he was feeling was healing more than it was self-destructing.Â
He stopped spiralling when Oscar came back to his room to change, just next to Landoâs. He was covered in champagne, exuding pure joy of getting a home race podium. While Lando was happy for his teammate, trying his best to give him a heartfelt congratulations, he also couldnât stop thinking about how that trophy couldâve been his. The first one of the season.Â
What Lando didnât know was that Oscar was very much aware of all of this, having learnt how to read his teammateâs expressions quite well after spending so much time together. He knew that Lando took defeat harder, or at least he showed it more clearly than Oscar ever did. He also knew that he needed someone to⊠turn on the faucet for him, making him feel like it was okay to spew out feelings about how the race had gone, without judging him for what he might say.Â
âDid Jasmine come check on you?â Oscar asked, leaning in the doorway to Landoâs room.Â
Lando would never be able to look the same way at a person standing in a doorway without thinking about what you had said about lingering, staying for a couple extra seconds.Â
âNo, uhm, Bunny did,â he replied, feeling himself smile for some reason. He felt odd using your nickname, as he had no idea where it originated from. Yet, it was just so you.
âWhat was that look?â Oscar laughed. Landoâs smile wasnât just a normal one. Oscar could almost guess what had happened, that was just the kind of person you were.Â
âSheâs different from when I last met her,â Lando explained, feeling heat rise to his face as he wondered just about how transparent his emotions actually were. âOscar, sheâs trouble.âÂ
âThis is about to be hilarious, isnât it?âÂ
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Lando didnât have to wait long to see you again. On a week without racing, he decided on a whim to stay in England for a couple of days longer than planned after debriefing at the MTC. It was someoneâs birthday â a mechanic, an engineer â he really didnât know, but a bunch of people from the team ended up in a pub, drinking to their heartsâ content. It was nice, but most of all, it was relaxing. It wasnât Monaco, where everyone had their eyes on him as soon as he stepped outside. He could blend in better with the masses here.Â
As could Oscar. Lando had never really seen Oscar drunk before. Apart from now. Putting him in a cab alone and sending him home wasnât an option when the poor lad could barely stand on his own. Thatâs how Lando ended up in his and Jasmineâs shared flat. Even helping Oscar up the stairs had been a mission, especially since Lando wasnât that sober either. It was alright, they were young and without responsibilities for the rest of that week at least. The team leaders didnât even have to knowâŠ
âBunny is in the guest room, but you can stay on the couch if you want,â he heard Jasmine say from the kitchen, getting Oscar a glass of water, as Lando had just watched her wrestle him to bed. Jasmine was a short woman, but when she set her mind to something, she could move mountains. Or, her boyfriend.
It took Landoâs inebriated brain a concerning amount of time to figure out that Bunny meant you. You were Bunny. And he liked you. Or he thought so. He liked the picture of you that he had built up in his head after your conversation in his driverâs room.Â
He wasnât sure what you were doing here. Maybe you and Jasmine had a girlsâ night when Oscar was away. He didnât actually know that much about you, even less so when his brain was compromised by alcohol.Â
Lando thought he was being sneaky as he walked over to the guest room, where the door stood ajar, but the wooden floors creaked beneath his feet. He could spot your head of hair peeping out from under the sheets, shoulders covered by a papaya-coloured shirt that he assumed was originally Oscarâs. Your eyes were closed but you werenât sleeping.Â
âLando, I can feel you staring,â you almost whispered, cracking a smile but still not opening your eyes. Â
âMâsorry,â he mumbled, suddenly feeling ashamed. Â
You reached out to turn on the lamp that stood on the nightstand. Lando watched as you sat up in bed to get a better view of him, looking amused as soon as you caught his gaze. âDrunk?âÂ
âA little.âÂ
âDid you two have fun?âÂ
âYeah, Iâve never seen Oscar this drunk before,â Lando said, letting out a soft laugh. Heâd been like Bambi on ice getting out of the cab and up the stairs. It was certainly a bonding experience between teammates. âJasmine had to wrestle him to bed.âÂ
The shirt looked huge on you, it was too big to even be Oscarâs. That was a nicer thought, for Lando. As you sat up, the sheets pooled at your waist, with a bare leg sticking out on the side. For a second, it struck him that you probably had no trousers on.Â
No, nope, look at her face Lando.Â
Your face was bare. If he stared long enough he would probably start counting your birthmarks and imperfections. It almost looked freshly washed. Maybe you and Jasmine had done face masks. He didnât really know what a girlsâ night entailed.Â
âYour hair is shorter.âÂ
Lando said it out loud the moment he realised it. His drunk brain didnât let him keep anything in.Â
âIt was easier to manage while I was back at the hospital,â you explained, on instinct reaching up to touch it.Â
âFuck, right, the surgery!âÂ
Oscar had told him about it and Lando had somehow forgotten. He could blame the alcohol for now. You only having one checkup left and being practically as good as new had been too good to be true.Â
âUh, how did it go?âÂ
âSimple checkup turned into an emergency surgery and two weeks in a hospital bed.â You shrugged, as if you had told him what you had eaten for dinner, not showing any signs of how awful it had truly been. âBut I survived.âÂ
Lando nodded. âThatâs good, I guess. Scary, but good that youâre good.â
How many times could he use the word âgoodâ in one sentence?Â
The both of you turned silent after that, unsure of what to say next. You watched him as he stood in the doorway, his feet tentatively moving as his eyes flickered around the room. You started to smile as you realised what he was doing.Â
âIs this you lingering in the doorway?â
âI think so,â Lando shyly admitted. âIs it working?âÂ
You chuckled, still smiling all sleepily at him like what he had said was funny, or special. It made Landoâs heart hurt and his cheeks burn.Â
Truth be told, you couldïżœïżœïżœve used some lingering right now. You had talked to your father and to Jasmine of course, but you still felt like you had this pressure over your chest for things you hadnât said.Â
You couldâve told him about how youâd gone alone to the hospital because youâd thought it would be quick, but ended up getting prepped and rushed into surgery before anyone you knew even had time to make it there to be with you. There had been no one there to hold your hand.Â
You couldâve told him about the scar on your chest that was now worse than ever before. It was larger, more red, and way more noticeable. Youâd cried trying on shirts before going to dinner with Jasmine tonight, which you hadnât had the heart to tell her about. Youâd wanted to cancel the entire thing, before sucking it up and putting on a turtleneck.Â
You couldâve talked about it for ages, knowing that maybe he would listen. But you didnât. You couldnât. Not right now. Not to him.Â
âI think we should both go to sleep, Lando,â you said, yawning comically loud as you turned off the light before falling back on the mattress.Â
Lando didnât push you. Instead, he chuckled and said a soft goodnight. He knew he maybe shouldâve pushed you to talk. He sensed that he couldâve done it. But it also didnât feel like the right time. Not when he was drunk. Not when you were tired.Â
His eyes longed on you for a couple extra seconds, you looked adorable with the sheets practically swallowing you whole. He then walked back into the kitchen where Jasmine was standing, putting wine glasses into a display cabinet. Maybe you werenât entirely sober either.Â
He took a seat at the kitchen island, slouching over as he rested his face in his hands. Jasmine smiled at him, tilting her head to the side as if to silently ask him if something was wrong.Â
âJasmine, has she always looked like that?â Lando said, unsure of what he was even asking.
âBunny?â Jasmine questioned, leaning her elbows on the counter, scrunching her eyebrows in confusion.Â
âShe looks different from when I first met her.âÂ
Maybe you just werenât sick anymore. Maybe Lando had just been a right idiot the other times heâd met you and not properly cared to look at you. Maybe you had been shy and he had been self-obsessed. Maybe it didnât matter what had happened before.Â
âWell, for a start, she has two working lungs now,â she argued, a laugh slipping out under her breath as if what she said was obvious. âGot the colour back in her skin and gained some healthy weight, I think.âÂ
Lando hummed in response. It made sense. You did look different. That was the only sane explanation as to why you were constantly on his mind.Â
âWhy did you ask?âÂ
She looked at him for an answer, her eyes staring him down, searching for eye contact that he wasnât able to hold. He couldnât help but turn to the side so that she wouldnât see how pink his face was.
âHoly shit, you like her!âÂ
Jasmine let out a gasp as she realised, having to contain herself to not squeal and wake the entire building. Lando had nothing to say all of a sudden, his drunkenness not showing at all. Â
âYouâre not even going to deny it?âÂ
He quickly stood up to go to the bathroom, ignoring her question and hiding his dumbstruck smile.Â
âGoodnight Jasmine.âÂ
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As you looked at yourself in the mirror, you felt your hands grow sweaty against the stack of papers you held in them. The costume looked nice â almost too nice to be on your body. Beautiful, sparkly platform heels. Delicate lace and trims on the dress. The corset showed off a waist you didnât know you had. It wasnât you, so thank god you were acting like someone else.Â
âGo on, Magenta. Say your next line,â Jasmine urged you from her spot on the bed in your childhood room. The old canopy and fairy lights that decorated your bed made her look ethereal in a way. Â
There was something heartfelt, seeing your oldest friend in that room again, now a whole lot older than when the two of you would play with dolls on your floor. When you dropped out of university, you had to move back in with your dad and little brother. It hadnât been awful, but not ideal either.Â
Magenta was the character you were playing in your local theatre's production of The Rocky Horror Picture Show. Youâd been part of the crew at the little theatre for most of your life and now, when you had no classes to worry about and no summer job lined up for you â being part of a musical over the summer seemed like the perfect waste of time. You were going back to university in the autumn, so you felt like you had a chance to have some fun this summer.Â
ââŠto sing and dance once more to your dark refrains. To take that step to the right...âÂ
Magenta was the opposite of you. She was bold, and sexy. She had a sultry voice and was dressed in a stereotypical maid costume. Showing off both legs and cleavage. It was a fun change, but a scary one too.Â
âBut it's the pelvic thrust⊠That really drives you insane?â
Jasmine couldnât keep a straight face as she acted like your counterpart, starting to giggle like a schoolgirl, trying not to get told off by the teacher for laughing. The lines made no sense to her.Â
âAnd our World will do The Time Warp again â Jazz, youâre not focusing!â you exclaimed, joining her laugher as you fell on the bed next to her, ruffling the huge amount of decorative pillows you had on there. Â
âThis was so much easier when you were doing Moulin Rouge, because then I at least understood the plot,â Jasmine scoffed as she looked over the manuscript, leaning into your shoulder as you both relaxed into the pile of pillows.Â
âWhat do you meeean your character is a maid who is also an alien? Babe, why are they going to space?â she continued, gesticulating wildly with her hands at the pages.Â
âItâs camp, Jazz. Or maybe just written by someone on acid,â you laughed.Â
Rocky Horror was not the simplest of musicals to explain to someone who had never heard of it before. It was camp, and queer, and rockânâroll. There were aliens, and virgins, and a man in golden underwear. It was a nightmare â and the most fun thing one could imagine.Â
âWho have you invited for the opening night? Iâm so sorry again that we canât come,â Jasmine asked, turning over to lay on her back, staring up at the fairy lights.Â
The premiere was only weeks away at this point, but you had known for awhile that Oscar and her were busy celebrating her parents wedding anniversary on the same exact date. She had kept on apologising and you had kept on telling her that is wasnât that big of a deal. They could come on the second weekend, or the third, or any weekend during the entire summer. It didnât matter to you.
âDonât apologise,â you reassured her. âI havenât invited anyone. Dad has to go with Matteo to his first ever football game.âÂ
Matteo was your little brother. He was the sweetest kid you knew, albeit biased. He was also the most anxious kid you knew, so you could already guess that performing well during his game would be important to him. Your father had to be there, even for your own sanity.Â
âBut you need someone there, cheering you on. This is a big deal!âÂ
It really wasnât. Youâd done it alone before.Â
âJazz, Matteo is 10. He needs dad there more than I do,â you remarked.Â
âI didnât just mean your dad. You need someone there in general, Bunny.âÂ
You really didnât. Youâd done a lot of things without someone holding your hand along the way.Â
âLando should be in England on that day, yâknow, some MTC thing,â Jasmine hinted, her gaze catching yours.Â
You thought you heard her wrong at first. She never talked about Lando casually. From what you had gathered, he and Oscar hadnât even been that close up until the start of this season. Now, you knew that they hung out, but what did that have to do with you and your little musical?Â
âHuh? Thatâs just absurd. He would hate it.âÂ
If you were allowed to be judgmental for a moment, you would assume that Lando had never seen a musical in his life. Let alone something as weird as Rocky Horror. You also didnât understand at all why he should come watch you, on his own. That would honestly just make you feel like the joke was on you.Â
âI think he likes you,â she commented plainly, as if it was clear as day and not at all something from her wildest imagination.Â
She might as well have been speaking Greek. You did not understand Greek.Â
âWhy would he like me?â you squeaked, your eyes going wide. Â
âYouâre hot and funny, maybe a bit odd, but people like that. Why wouldnât he like you?âÂ
âIâm sat here flipping pages of a manuscript, while he is flipping some model over in bed,â you expressed, throwing your copy of the script at her. Â
Maybe that was harsh. You didnât know Lando well enough to say something like that with confidence. But, you did know yourself well enough to say that you werenât his type.Â
âSo, what? He could flip you over!â
You snorted in response, hiding your laugh. Jasmine was being ridiculous right now. Â
âItâs like you lost all your confidence when you got sick,â she said, her voice suddenly softened. âRemember our trip to Malaga? That Bunny wouldâve jumped on his dick without thinking twice.âÂ
It was crazy how she could make your trip to Malaga sound sentimental, or like an old memory of how you used to be. Malaga had been anything but orthodox. A group of teenage girls â too young to be drinking, making questionable decisions and racking up their body counts.Â
âI guess I grew up, Jasmine. I also shouldnât do something reckless with Oscarâs teammate.â You shrugged, standing up, ready to be over with this conversation and to start rehearsing again.Â
âThat is if he actually fancied me, which he does not,â you decided.Â
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Lando didnât know what he was doing. When he sneakily asked Oscar if he was doing something after their meetings, he had really been thinking about you. In his mind, maybe they couldâve done something the four of them, so it wouldnât be as obvious that it was you he wanted to see again.Â
But Oscar had an anniversary dinner to go to with Jasmine. And you â you were in some off off-West End musical. He really had to get to know you better, because that was not something he would have ever imagined about you.Â
Not that he was imagining you doing thingsâŠÂ
Oscar had told him to go. Lando had questioned his entire existence.Â
Yet, he still somehow ended up outside of the small theatre on a Friday night. He wasnât even sure if he was technically still in London, thatâs how remote the little community he was in felt. Going out clubbing with Max was his plan B, if this turned out to be as ridiculous as it sounded.Â
The Rocky Horror Picture Show â that was what the poster outside said. Nothing but a big pair of messily painted red lips were on it. He had no idea what he was in for and Google hadnât been much help. It looked like a mixture of the story about Frankensteinâs monster and a drag queen show.Â
He was early, arriving right in the middle of the final dress rehearsal. Something that Oscar had recommended he did, to not get recognised as much and to be able to leave swiftly if he turned out to absolutely hate it. Lando wondered how much of an avid musical-goer Oscar was, or maybe he had just gone to yours.Â
The theatre was small, probably not more than a hundred seats. It was classic looking, with red velvet chairs and heavy curtains lining the stage. He slid into one of the seats at the very back, looking with anticipation at the stage. The room was maybe filled to one third with what he mostly assumed were the castâs friends and family.Â
The stage was decorated with delicately handmade props. It showed a grand hall with checkered flooring, a wooden staircase at the back. Multiple odd sculptures and a wonky replica of the Mona Lisa. All under bright red lighting.Â
Lando didnât even have time to take it all in before actors entered the stage.Â
âAre you having a party?â said a girl in a baby pink dress and a comically blonde wig. Her voice was so high and brittle that it was almost annoying.Â
âYouâve arrived on a rather special night. Itâs one of the masterâs affairs,â answered a man with a fake hunchback, his long white hair making him look nothing but creepy.Â
âOh, lucky him,â said the girl again.Â
Thatâs when he heard a voice he recognised. A voice belonging to you. Sliding down the bannister of the stairs, you whipped an old-timey feather duster around.
âYou're lucky. He's lucky. I'm lucky. We're all lucky!â you practically yelled as you made your way to the girl, who looked positively terrified by you. Her looser boyfriend (Lando assumed), who stood by her side looked even more frightened.Â
It had been two minutes and Lando already rooted for the weird people â meaning you and the man with the hunchback. You were in what he would call a⊠slutty maid costume. Except it wasnât slutty; it was more artful. What was he even thinking?Â
Your wig was large and curly, the dark red colour of it suited you well. Your makeup was dramatic, and your entire costume was covered in silver sequins and glitter. You were not the nervous, out-of-her-element girl that he had seen in Australia a couple months ago. Right now, you were acting completely like someone else. And you were damn good at it.Â
Much like he imagined a musical to be, the conversation immediately turned into song. The Time Warp, he had heard of that one before. The stage flooded with an ensemble of dancers, dressed in tuxedos. The plot of this musical was still something completely alien. Maybe it barely had a plot.
Lando couldnât decide if he loved it or hated it. He felt like maybe that was the entire point of the show. Like it was supposed to be annoying, but also so colourful and odd that you couldnât help but be amazed by it. Â
Even with so much happening on stage, all he could focus on was you. You didnât dance or sing like someone whoâd injured her lungs not that long ago. You performed like you loved it, having a hard time hiding your smile even if your character was more of a moody type.Â
Lando, too, found himself smiling. He was astonished by how such a small production still could archive basically perfection. The singing, the choreography â it was like watching something prerecorded. It had to be a passion project for all of you, because he wasnât sure small theatre productions were the most lucrative thing.Â
At the end of the number, the dance ended with everyone falling to the floor. Thatâs when it happened, when he for the first time in the performance, heard something that didnât sound like perfection. No, that was the sound of someone in pain.Â
His eyes tried to find you in the pile of bodies on the stage.Â
Youâd practiced it a million times. Falling over â gracefully that is â in high heels wasnât the easiest of tasks. But never once before had it hurt like his. A stinging pain that never ended, so you couldnât help but scream. It gathered everyoneâs attention, quickly stopping the act and flicking on the normal lights.Â
A broken ankle. Your broken ankle and your yelping voice. It hurt like hell.
You could see how the people around you started to panic, talking about a first aid kit and getting a stand-in ready to take your place. You couldnât focus on anything but the pain, your eyes filled up with tears, clouding your vision.Â
God, you would pass out if this pain didnât stop.Â
Lando watched it all unfold from his seat. Seeing you sat in the middle of the stage, clenching your hands over your foot, tears falling down your cheeks, taking your mascara with them.Â
Ironically, something started to hurt inside of Lando, and he didnât know how to react. Could he sneak out so you wouldnât have known he was here? No, no. He was going to see if he could be of any help. That was the only right thing to do. In seconds, he had left his seat and started to march down to the stage.Â
âLando?â
Your voice was pathetic. Your tears clogged your throat and you felt ashamed, so fucking ashamed.Â
You knew that Jasmine had talked to Oscar, and that Oscar had talked to Lando. But seeing him by the edge of the stage, a worried look on his face, wasnât something you actually thought would happen. You did not understand why he wouldâve wanted to come.Â
âIs your foot okay? The fall looked pretty bad,â Lando said as he crouched down in front of you, looking more at your face than at your ankle so as not to scare you more than what was already inevitable. Â
âYou saw me fall? Oh fuck, why are you even here?â you groaned in pain.Â
You didnât mean for it to come across as rude â you just didnât have much of a choice over your emotions right now. It was nice that he was there, so fucking nice.Â
âOscar told me to come â I mean, I wanted to come too,â he emphasised.Â
Lando didnât exactly know how to help you now that he had waltzed up on the stage like some knight in shining armour. He looked around to see a man in his mid-thirties come forward with a bright red first aid kit. He tried not to raise his eyebrows too much at the man â dressed in his costume, looking like if Elvis Presley had been in a motorcycle gang. Â
The man tried not to look too much at Lando either â having known you most of your life and never once seen you bring a boy to the theatre.Â
âDarling, thatâs broken,â the man said as soon as he got a view of your ankle.Â
Lando couldâve said the same thing.Â
âNo, itâs not Eddie. Just bruised I think,â you tried to tell yourself, and Eddie. Â
Eddie, whose character in the musical coincidentally was also named Eddie, was your on-sight medic, working as a nurse when he was not busy acting and singing in his studded leather vest and greaser-like hairstyle.Â
Bruising meant you could suffer through it. Broken meant spending the summer in a cast and missing every single one of your performances. Thatâs what you got for wanting to have a fun, selfish summer for once in your life.Â
âBunny, I donât know how to tell you this in a nicer way â but itâs broken,â Eddie persisted, rummaging through the first aid kit for something to help with the pain.Â
âB-but the showâŠâÂ
You said it quietly, but Lando heard. Your voice was heartbreaking.Â
It showed how much this meant to you, and he realised now that you were probably embarrassed. He drew parallels to his own life and career, and how much a clumsy mistake could leave its marks for a long time forward. Even if this was only a hobby, it was still important.Â
âI can wrap it up for you, but it wonât heal unless you go to a hospital,â he continued, not waiting for an answer before he began to gently move your foot.Â
You whimpered in pain, biting down on your lower lip to not scream as it shifted. Grasping for just about anything to hold on to, you found Landoâs hand. You didnât have time to think it through, but Lando had a lifetime.Â
Your nails were painted black to match your costume, and your hand felt so small and cold in his own, yet you were strong as hell as you gripped his fingers in pain. He suffered through it, knowing that what you were feeling was a million times worse.Â
Eddie wrapped your ankle in a tight bandage. Lando could tell that heâd done it before. Some girl had found a bag of frozen peas in the staffroom freezer, that he then strapped over it to ease the pain. By the look on your face, it did absolutely nothing.Â
âIâll drive you to A&E,â Lando offered without thinking twice. He could see Max some other time.Â
Then it was the trouble of getting you down the stage and out of the building. Eddie throwing you over his shoulder couldâve maybe worked, but you had this thing called dignity.Â
So, with one arm around Lando and the other one around Eddie, you hopped your way out of there on one foot, cursing Mother Earth herself every time you accidentally touched the ground with the injured one.Â
âYouâre supposed to go to a UTC with broken bones,â you pointed out when you remembered it, feeling the need to correct Lando. Â
âYouâve broken a bone before?â Lando asked.Â
Eddie didnât have to ask because he already knew about your history with hospitals.Â
âTwice. My wrist once from falling off a trampoline, and a finger from shutting a car door on it,â you explained.Â
âYouâre a walking emergency, arenât you?â Lando said, like he was joking.Â
It wasnât really a joke to you anymore, though.Â
âYou donât know the half of it,â you mumbled, thinking he wouldnât hear you.Â
But he did, and it got him thinking.Â
You couldnât help but laugh as you got out to the parking lot. In your periphery, you could see how Eddieâs jaw dropped. A bright orange McLaren was not what you had expected to see, but then again, you couldnât have said what you expected instead. The man was a Formula 1 driver, for Christ's sake.Â
Eddie kept his mouth shut, but the look he gave you said something along the lines of you have a lot to explain, young lady. You would have no idea how to explain how you ended up here, even if you wanted to tell him.Â
âLandoâŠâ you said to get his attention. âI donât think I can get in this car without it hurting like hell.âÂ
âI borrowed it for the weekend. I didnât thinkââ he stopped himself, unsure of how to continue.Â
I didnât think you would break a bone and Iâd have to drive you?Â
Yeah, no. He couldnât say that.Â
âI was about to tell you to just shove me in the backseat, but it doesnât even have one,â you tried to joke, earning small smiles from both Lando and Eddie.Â
Just as getting out of the building, slow and steady won the race. Only this time, you werenât only cursing Mother Earth but Lando and Eddie too, blaming them for whenever your foot nudged something. You hoped they could take it lightheartedly because you werenât angry or mad at them. You were angry at yourself.Â
âYou, young man â take care of our best performer, okay?â Eddie said to Lando as he shut the door on your side.Â
You scoffed at his wording. He knew he didnât need to take on the role as a protective older brother-like figure in your life, but you kind of liked it when he did. Lando probably met a lot of important and intimidating people with his choice of career, yet Eddie felt different. He had no actual influence, but he had a heart that cared for you. Lando couldnât joke that away.Â
âI will, sir.âÂ
The UTC was relatively calm for a Friday evening, so you didnât have to wait long until you were rushed into a room to be assessed and treated. Nurse after nurse who saw your ankle said the same thing, get x-rays, evaluate, and hope itâs not surgical.Â
Lando didnât say much, only helping you explain what had happened when your pain made you unable to form coherent sentences. He stayed by your side, though. You had half-expected him to leave as soon as you got there, making up some excuse about being busy.Â
But he never did.Â
You even had to convince him to leave to get your bag that you had left in his car. He was unsure about leaving you alone the first couple of times you mentioned it.Â
But you wanted to get your makeup off, and fix your hair which had been left a mess after youâd taken the wig off. Youâd thought about that part, but the maidâs costume was still on your body. At least the nurses got a good laugh out of it â a barefoot, glittery maid with makeup smeared all over her face and a packet of peas strapped to her ankle.Â
When you were rolled off to get x-rays taken, Lando finally agreed to go outside and get it. It wasnât like he was allowed to go with you anyway.Â
âThank you,â you said as he handed you the bag. âThe x-rays will take a while, but the doctor said it is most likely a simple fracture and I will only need a cast.âÂ
You immediately took out a makeup wipe and a comb. The braids you had on under the wig were starting to feel very stiff, giving you a headache. Or maybe you were just tense because of all the other pain you were feeling.Â
âThatâs good.â He nodded, taking a seat on the edge of the hospital bed. âDid they give you anything for the pain?âÂ
You giggled a little, rolling your eyes, overplaying how loopy you were. âCan you already tell?âÂ
âJust a little.â He pinched his fingers, showing just how little. âDo you want help with that?âÂ
âYou donât have toââ you tried to tell him, but his hands had already undone one of the hair ties, his fingers moving gently to separate the braided hair.Â
He scooted behind you to reach better as you continued to take off the makeup, the wipe quickly turning a messy mixture of red and black with how much product was actually on your face. Stage makeup was no joke. His fingers through your hair sent shivers down your spine, but you tried not to think too much about it. He was just being nice. Thatâs all heâd been the entire evening.Â
âYou probably have better things to do on a Friday night,â you mumbled.Â
Lando shook his head, and then he figured you couldnât see it as he sat behind you.Â
âI called Oscar when I went out. He said he would tell your parents.âÂ
âParent. My motherâs not alive,â you whispered. âBut thatâs good, I guess. Did Oscar say anything else?âÂ
You didnât give Lando any time to think or ask about what you had said. That was on purpose. He wouldnât have known what to say anyway, with every possible sentence coming to mind feeling insensitive or way too pitiful.Â
âNo, not really,â Lando replied.Â
That Oscar had made fun of him, for getting to play a knight in shining armour as you were a damsel in distress, was something he opted out of telling you.Â
âHe didnât say that this was typical of me?â you muttered, rubbing your face in obvious distress.Â
Lando was done undoing the braids so he could move to see your face again, seeing it streaky and glittery from you having wiped off the makeup without a mirror at hand. He reached for a clean wipe, his eyes silently asking you if it was okay if he helped.Â
âI just⊠I canât fucking believe it.â You exhaled from your nose as he wiped your undereyes clean from glitter. Â
âItâs always like this,â you continued, showing frustration. âWhenever Iâm about to accomplish something in life, I always get injured.â
âI donât believe thatââÂ
You cut him off by explaining, âWell, I fucked up my lungs right as I was about to graduate.âÂ
âYou didnât fuck them up. Things like that just happen,â Lando interjected.Â
âI lost my voice on the second show the last time I did a musical. Had to give up a leading role for one that was just dancing, no singing,â you counter-argued, proving that it wasnât just some one-time thing.Â
Lando looked at you, waiting to see if you could come up with more examples before he told you that it wasnât fate that got you injured. They were coincidences.Â
âMy wrist was broken when I took my A-level exams, that was hell on earth,â you said, raising a finger of conviction. âOh, and I had appendicitis on my 18th birthday. Jasmine still hates me for that one because I ruined a girlâs trip.âÂ
âIs there more?â he questioned, raising his eyebrows.Â
You snorted out a laugh as another one came to mind. âI got a nosebleed when I lost my virginity. It didnât stop bleeding for like three hours.âÂ
Lando pursed his lips to not laugh, but he couldnât keep it in for long. âIâm sorry for laughing, but the picture in my head is really funny.âÂ
In hindsight, it was quite funny. At the time, however, it was the most embarrassing moment of your life.Â
âI was going to say that probably everyone experiences these sort of setbacks, but⊠I donât know anymore,â he tried to comfort.Â
âI think I might just be cursed, Lando,â you huffed, locking eyes with him again. Â
You both went quiet for a couple seconds as he took in your expression. A gaze so hollow, it didnât matter that you were trying to hide it with a smile. The smile was blacked out anyway.Â
He didnât understand how you could talk to him and reassure him without making it sound like you were second-guessing things, or ever feeling unsure of what your words meant â but as soon as the subject was switched to regard yourself, you were suddenly cold. Or not really cold at all, but just not as warm as you were when you talked about other people.Â
Your staring contest was interrupted by a young boy saying your name. A man came shortly after him into the small hospital room. Lando assumed it was your father and little brother, as he stood up from the bed to introduce himself. And to make some space between the two of you, since you were sitting suspiciously close together. Â
The boy got shy as soon as he saw Lando. He looked a lot like you, with the same coloured hair and the same big doe eyes, only he was clad in a green football kit. Your father was wearing a matching one to show support.Â
âHi Matteo,â you called out as your brother walked past Lando to immediately get to you. He was like that â shy with people he didnât know and anxious to talk to them. So you saved him, by talking to him as you saw Lando shake your fatherâs hand. That wasnât awkward at all.Â
âHow did the game go?â you asked, ruffling his sweaty hair as you invited him to sit next to you on the bed.Â
Matteo started talking, all excited about how theyâd won and that he had gotten an assist. Pretty solid for a first game, he thought. You were mostly glad that he had a good time and that he seemed to get along well with the other boys on the team. He didnât have it easy making friends because of his shyness.Â
Lando overheard the conversation, taking notice of how you had asked him how it went and not if he had won. It was those little things that made you different, made the way you talked to people so much more worth it. You were so fucking lovely, and you seemed to have no idea about it.
Your father had recognised him, but Lando couldnât tell if that was only because of Oscar or if he cared about racing.Â
With your family there, Lando started to feel excessive. He couldnât exactly argue his case for wanting to stay right there in front of you, and your father. He guessed it wasnât too late to still catch up with Max, but a part of him almost didnât want to do it.Â
No, he had to leave. He couldnât explain his reason out loud.Â
As he said his goodbye, he met your eyes from his position in the doorway. He didnât have much to say to you, or maybe he had so much to say that his brain couldnât find what was most important. His shoes almost felt sticky against the sterile hospital flooring, something glueing him to the spot.Â
âWill I see you at Silverstone?â Lando decided to ask before leaving.Â
âUh⊠maybe? Iâll have to talk to Oscar,â you said unsure, still sat in the bed with your arm around Matteo. Â
âCan I come this time?â he whispered, looking up at you.Â
You were shocked by his question. Heâd never asked to come before. But it wasnât really up to you if he could or not. It was always someone else getting you race passes, so you were in no position to be greedy.Â
âDonât worry about it. Iâll sort you out,â Lando hurried to say, seeing the uncertainty on your face. Â
You let out a sigh of relief. âThank you⊠for everything.âÂ
For showing up, for driving you, for staying. Heâd done so much that he didnât need to do. Maybe Jasmine was correct. Maybe he didnât just see you as her friend that he had to be civil to. Or maybe, heâd been dealt really bad cards tonight and had no option but to comply. Otherwise, he would be seen as a complete dickhead.Â
Lando nodded, pursing his lips into a smile, staying in the doorway for a moment too long, before finally walking away. You didnât notice him doing it, but someone else certainly did.Â
âBunnyâŠâ your father said.Â
âMm?â you mumbled, perking up your ears. Â
âDid that boy just linger in the doorway?âÂ
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âAre you avoiding me?âÂ
Landoâs voice shocked you as he came up from behind. Youâd seen him around during the day but kept your distance. You were technically his guest today, only ever having been invited by Oscar before. But you would be lying if you said that premise had made you more liberal with how you interacted with Lando. You stayed with Oscar and Jasmine, and your father and Matteo, because that was what you knew.Â
The paddock at Silverstone was a lot, even for you who had been to this rodeo before. Matteo and your dad, however, would fall asleep quickly tonight with how many new impressions theyâd received today. Youâd only managed to come on the Sunday, with you on crutches and Matteo being, well⊠Matteo. It was good enough of an experience anyway.Â
âNo, thereâs just a lot of people here to see you. I didnât want to be a bother,â you explained, nervously laughing. Â
It was jam-packed with friends and family, sponsors, and celebrities. Every time he had a moment for himself, it could quickly turn into a meet-and-greet if he was at the wrong place at the wrong time.Â
Now, minutes before he had to make his way to the starting grid, it was finally sort of calm in the garage. You were standing in the viewing section, a papaya-coloured headset around your neck.Â
Lando shook his head and sighed. âIâm so glad youâre here.â
You could not be a bother, even if you tried.Â
âSo, it wasnât a make-a-wish thing after you saw me fall on my face and break my ankle?âÂ
âWould Iâve been your wish?â he asked, voice affected by laughter.
âNo, sorry, Iâd pick a broadway show over this any day,â you responded jokingly.Â
âHowâs your ankle anyway?âÂ
The cast and the crutches you were leaning on didnât look too dramatic. It just looked like you had broken your ankle and were now dealing with it to the best of your ability.Â
âItâs healing just fine,â you nodded, leaning to rest on one crutch to show Lando your palm. âThe worst thing right now is the heat and the crutches giving me callouses.âÂ
As you reached out your hand, Lando couldnât help but gently grab your fingers to take a closer look. He was practically holding your hand. Sure, you held his when Eddie was wrapping your foot, but you were in an immense amount of pain at the time. This was something different. The callouses werenât even that bad.Â
Why was he holding your hand?Â
In the same moment you could overthink it, he let go.
âHave you been hopping around the paddock all day? You shouldâve told me, I couldâve gotten you a golf cart or something,â Lando wondered, feeling kind of bad.Â
He hadnât thought about your broken ankle when heâd asked you to come.Â
âItâs alright. Matteoâs been having a blast all day, so⊠thank you,â you shrugged.Â
You could deal with being uncomfortable for a day if it meant that Matteo got a once-in-a-lifetime experience.Â
His McLaren cap was signed, and he had ice cream in his belly. Heâd even gotten a wave from Sir Lewis Hamilton himself, and if that wasnât enough to make him school ground royalty for at least a week, you didnât know what was. Maybe you took your big sister duty too seriously, but literally nothing could make you stop caring for that kid. Â
âAnd your dad?â Lando asked.Â
You looked over your shoulder to see what he was doing. With Matteo in front of him, practically hiding into his side, you could see him talking to someone and smiling. You understood that he was mostly doing this for you and Matteo, but there was some underlying fascination that middle-aged men had with fast cars that you knew he was trying to hide.Â
âHe appears to be smiling, thatâs always positive.âÂ
âHeâs talking to my dad,â he revealed. That wasnât awkward at all.Â
Lando hesitated, unsure of asking you what was on his mind, but soon enough, words were falling out of his mouth anyway. You seemed to have that effect on him.Â
âI need to get ready, but can I see you afterwards? Maybe you can come back like you did in Melbourne.âÂ
You smiled, agreeing before adding, âIâll watch you get on the podium first.âÂ
The race started with both Lando and Oscar in good positions, which probably led to a false sense of security. Your gut feeling was unsure of it all.Â
Matteo held on to your hand during the entire start, you could tell that it was mixed emotions of excitement and anxiety. His headset was big on his little head, and he looked positively adorable as he tried to understand what was going on.Â
âLando is third right now,â you explained to him, pointing to a monitor. âAnd Oscar is fifth, you remember them, right?âÂ
Matteo nodded. âLando broke your foot, and Oscar talks funny.âÂ
âI broke my own foot, but youâre right about Oscar,â you laughed.Â
It was you that had to hold onto Matteo for a moment during the race when it really looked like both Oscar and Lando had a chance at winning. But after some godawful strategic calls, you realised that the podium wasnât as secure as you thought. Hamilton was steady in the lead, and Verstappen was chasing Lando like there was no tomorrow.
You were so focused on the leaders that you didnât even realise what was happening at the bottom of the grid. Pictures of two cars making contact flashed over the screens, and Matteo tensed up beside you.Â
âWhat happened?â he worriedly asked, clinging to your arm. âDid they get hurt?âÂ
âNo, no, it was just a little love tap,â you reassured him. They probably didnât even have any damage â that was how minimal it was. âLike when I reversed into grandmaâs postbox.â
âThat was you?â your dad laughed.Â
âBe quiet, Iâm trying to watch the race,â you hushed him, eyes back on the leaderboard.Â
Verstappen ended up catching Lando. P3 was the bittersweet consolation prize that Lando would have to act like he was happy about. Parade around the podium, covered in champagne, as if he wasnât completely gutted inside. You could see on his face that he was acting happy as they celebrated. He wasnât that good of an actor, if you were to be honest.Â
If only they had put on different tyres for his last stint.Â
Afterwards, you made your way back to his driverâs room â just as heâd asked. You could have overthought that question a million times, but you decided to just go for it. It was crowded with people, both staff and guests, rushing to congratulate him. Or maybe to comfort him. Your guess would be on the latter.Â
At last, the hallway cleared, and you hopped to stand in the doorway, finally seeing him.
âP3, baby!â you joked cheerfully.Â
Lando stared at you blankly, shaking his head as he snorted out a laugh.Â
âYeah, no, that was frustrating to watch. I canât even imagine how you feel.âÂ
He had no words. Already having had to put on such a fake façade to everyone else he had met after the race. He didnât want to do that to you. So, he ended up speechless.
âShould I leave you alone?â you whispered, breaking the silence.Â
âNo!â he hurried to say. âUhm⊠please, sit.âÂ
With some struggle, you managed to sit next to him on the bench in his room. Much like Melbourne. It was, however, a lot more difficult to move in the little room while on crutches.Â
He sighed as you sat down, helping you rest the crutches against the wall so they wouldnât fall to the floor. His racing suit was halfway off and filled the room with a scent of champagne. You tried to look him in the eye, but ended up focusing on how his helmet had left red imprints on his cheeks â like a gorgeous mark of endurance.Â
âI just⊠I donât know what to say, or what to feel. Itâs always so fucking close, and then I lose it.â Landoâs voice was stern and measured, his face blank.Â
It was a forced expression, though. He could cry if his tear ducks wouldâve allowed him to. Some mental barrier stopped him from doing it. He almost wanted to do it so that you would see his true emotions.Â
Your heart broke a little, seeing him be so harsh on himself. Because, with your mentality, he had just done something miraculous. Heâd done something mere mortals couldnât accomplish.Â
âIâm impressed you get out of that car alive every weekend, so I might be the wrong person to complain to,â you softly told him.Â
Lando had heard those sorts of words before, how he was superhuman for even getting in the car. Heâd felt the same way when he started, and maybe heâd lost that initial spark he used to have.Â
Your words didnât mean that you didnât want him to complain. He should vent, to the people that it mattered to. Get it out of his system, so that he could be sensible in front of the media.Â
It was funny how the sport worked that way. That he was somehow less happy in third, than Sargeant was in eleventh. That the people on the second and third steps of the podium were the biggest losers. And, they were expected to be robotic about it, otherwise, they would be deemed erratic and emotional.Â
What was the crime in being emotional anyway?Â
âI think you drove a perfect race,â you complimented him. âAnd then I think there were some strategic⊠mishaps that youâre not to blame for. Overall, this race was like the coolest one Iâve ever witnessed, and Oscar didnât even get a podium. Heâs my favourite driver!âÂ
You tried so hard to get him to laugh again, but he wouldnât budge. He had to tell himself not to. It actually kind of annoyed him that Oscar was your favourite. He knew he didnât know you well enough to be your favourite, yet.Â
âI donât get how youâre not proud of yourself,â you finally sighed, gesticulating with your hands as you spoke. âYou have every right to be proud, annoyingly so.âÂ
Lando knew he had to let his guard down. That was the only way he would feel better about this. This wasnât like Australia, when it hadnât been his fault for the bad result. Heâd still blamed himself, but let it go after a couple of hours. This time, a good result was somehow his fault. It was insane, the mental game he was playing with himself. And he couldnât let this go without talking it through.Â
âIâll be that later, I just need to feel sorry for myself for a couple of hours first,â he scoffed. Â
It was Silverstone, after all. Heâd gotten a podium on home soil. That was an accomplishment to be proud of. Last year, he was over the moon over his Silverstone race, but maybe that was because the car hadnât been that great. This time he had a great car, but was somehow a worse driver. It didnât make any sense to him.Â
His spiralling thoughts were stopped when he heard his phone continuously vibrate from the other side of the room, somewhere hidden under a pile of clothes.Â
âAre people blowing up your phone with congratulations?â you asked amusingly.Â
âNo, itâs the PR team,â he said as he looked over his notifications, a confused look on his face. âWeâve gone viral again. It looks like I held your hand when you showed me the callouses from the crutches.âÂ
You did technically hold my hand, was what you wanted to say. You decided that staying quiet felt better.Â
Lando regretted his wording as soon as he said it. He held your hand in a garage filled with cameras. He knew that. He was to blame for that. But was any harm done?Â
âI donât get how itâs always with you that it happens,â he mumbled nervously.Â
He sat back down beside you, giving you a view of his phone screen. The photos were cute, if you were to be honest. But also blurry and obviously taken by someone who wanted to be sneaky.Â
âAlways? Meaning once before?â you questioned.Â
That showed how little you were on social media. You didnât know about anything other than the video from Melbourne.Â
âNo, there were also photos of me at the hospital when you broke your ankle,â Lando explained.Â
The photos had been everywhere. He, and that orange car, at a hospital parking lot on a Friday evening. It was quite the headline for news outlets and gossip accounts.Â
âOhâŠâ you said, visibly surprised. âIâm so sorry if it caused you problems to be seen with a girl in a slutty maid costume.â
For a second there, Lando could watch you go through the five stages of grief, all through your facial expressions.Â
âYou werenât in the photos. It was just me and that⊠obnoxious car when I went back to get your bag,â he quickly added, calming your nerves.Â
You nodded understandingly, feeling yourself get less tense. âDid you have to explain it to anyone?âÂ
âThankfully not, Iâm such a bad liar.âÂ
What would he need to lie about?Â
Then you realised that someone like him probably couldn't just say that they drove a friend who had injured themselves. That would only lead to a million more questions. And, if he had said something â people wouldâve been able to put two and two together as you showed up to the paddock with a cast and crutches. Maybe he was protecting you.Â
You didnât know what else to say to him now, meeting his bright eyes once again. They had this way of shining, even though he was sad. It was not an uncomfortable silence, but you were starting to wonder if youâd overstayed your welcome.Â
Then Lando spoke again, his voice in a happier tone. âHas Jasmine mentioned Italy to you?âÂ
âMonza?â
âNo, now before Hungary,â he replied. âOscar and I have to represent McLaren at some charity auction, and I thought about inviting you as my plus one so that Jasmine doesnât have to be alone if we have to work a lot.âÂ
The invitation was carefully phrased, and you recognised that. If you had been more sure about Jasmineâs ridiculous idea that Lando liked you, you wouldâve made fun of him for dragging in Jasmine in his way of asking you to come with him.Â
âOh,â you mused. âIâd be a fool to say no, but there has to be other people that youâd rather go with.âÂ
Lando looked at you in confusion.Â
âLike, donât invite me just to do Jasmine a favour,â you continued. Â
He finally broke into a smile, not being able to contain it anymore. You were clueless, and Lando found that hilarious. âItâs not like I hate your company, yâknow?â
You chuckled. You hadnât expected him to say something so direct.Â
âCan I talk to Jazz about it first, before I decide?âÂ
Lando nodded softly. âSure, I mean, the invite is yours anyway. If you donât want to come, Iâll just go alone.â
You turned quiet again, looking him in the eyes as you took in what heâd said. The invitation was yours. He hadnât ever thought of bringing someone else. Maybe he truly was doing Jasmine a favour. Maybe this was him sneakily making a move. Heâd have to be a lot more upfront for you to catch on, though.Â
A tension settled over the room, an eternity passing without anyone saying anything. The mood switched, and you both could tell. It was probably time for you to leave, yet the expectation to say that last little thing was there. The little thing that would leave him feeling better about himself. You wanted to linger in the doorway, or linger on the bench, you guessed. You wanted to say so much more.Â
Oscar intruded by softly knocking on the already open door.Â
âOscar, hi!â you squeaked out of surprise, straightening your back to make space between you and Lando.Â
âYour dadâs looking for you,â he explained, chuckling.Â
âI guess I better go,â you said, standing up, finding balance with the help of your crutches. âYou both should be proud of yourselves today, or every day for that matter.âÂ
Lando looked down at the floor as you left. He knew that whatever face Oscar put on or whatever sentence he formed, it would accuse Lando of being down bad for you.Â
âDid you invite her to Italy?âÂ
âYeah, she said sheâll talk to Jazz about it,â Lando mumbled, hiding his smile.Â
You hadnât immediately said yes, but that was almost his plan by dragging Jasmine into it. She wasnât even supposed to come with them to Italy at first. But Lando wanted the four of them to do it together. It was a foolproof plan to get to spend some more time with you that wasnât in a paddock nor in a hospital.Â
âOn another note,â Oscar said while he remembered it. âHow the hell did you get her dad to come to a race?âÂ
âI donât know⊠I just sent Bunny three passes?â Â
âIâve invited him to races since I was in F3 and heâs never once shown up,â Oscar began explaining.Â
Lando scrunched his nose, unsure of where Oscar was going with his reasoning. Â
âHeâs a good man, funny even â but he does not like racing, at all,â he continued.Â
Was Lando being stupid for not getting Oscarâs point? Lando couldnât tell if he was being stupid. He probably was.Â
Then, it finally clicked for Oscar. âYou donât know how her mum died, do you?âÂ
Lando could do nothing but slowly shake his head, his mouth slightly open out of confusion. He could tell that Oscar hesitated to tell him. Maybe he shouldnât be telling your story, but he trusted Lando.Â
âAlone, in a car crash. She died on impact. Bunny was 15 or so when it happened,â Oscar said gently, his face showing pity with a downturned smile. âHer dad has always told her not to come to races, in case someone crashes and it brings up bad memories for her.âÂ
Now, Lando was definitely being stupid, because it still didnât click for him. It made him understand your mentality more â that youâd said you were impressed he got out of that car alive every weekend. Because you had, close up, lived through someone not making it out of a car â a car going nowhere near as fast. But what did that have to do with your father attending a race?Â
âI think Bunny mustâve convinced him to come see you, specifically,â Oscar finally said.Â
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âI donât even know what Iâm doing here,â you sighed, looking from the balcony out to the beautiful garden.Â
Fruit trees, pink oleander, and pungent lavender. Beautiful limestone houses. It looked picturesque, like something out of a movie. Yet, you were unsure if you belonged there.Â
âYouâre spending the weekend in an Italian villa. That is what youâre doing,â Jasmine insisted, wrapping her arm around your shoulder.Â
The house was gorgeous. The area was gorgeous. Everything was just perfect. And you felt undeserving of it. Youâd gotten to take off your cast just in time for the trip. This was your moment to be selfish this summer.Â
So, why the hell did you keep on questioning yourself?
âYouâd have no stories to tell from this summer if it wasnât for this trip. You need things to talk about when you go back to university, otherwise, youâll make no new friends,â she then pointed out.
You hadnât even thought of that. All your other friends had graduated. You still had six months of classes left because of your stupid lungs. You didnât want to make new friends. You wanted to keep your old ones.Â
You crossed your arms, looking up at your best friend with a pout. âIâll let you know that me and Jane Austen have had a riveting summer thus far in my dadâs hammock.â
Doing just about anything with a broken ankle was impossible, so reading in the garden it was.Â
âWhile you travel the world and go to races, I will always entertain you with hilarious Goodreads reviews,â you added.Â
Jasmine shook her head disapprovingly. âI really donât need to know even more nasty things that you would do to Mr. Darcy.â
Deep down, you knew she got a giggle out of getting a notification on her phone with a five star review only saying Mr. Darcy could raw me and nothing more.Â
âIsnât this going to be awkward though? Itâs like weâre double dating all weekend!âÂ
âWould that be so bad?â Jasmine laughed, thinking that it was probably Landoâs plan all along.Â
You realised quite quickly that Lando hadnât lied about them having to work. During the day, they were off to the manor house that was hosting the auction, doing lord knows what. It was something about cars being auctioned off and sucking up to millionaires.Â
You didnât understand why this type of event even existed. It felt like the 2011 classic Monte Carlo with Selena Gomez. That was at least your only experience with auctions for rich people.Â
While this one was for charity, it still only felt like a way for these millionaires to seem humble. They wouldâve bought the cars anyway, it was only for their own conscience that the charities even mattered. Maybe you were being harsh.Â
You and Jasmine at least got to spend some quality time with each other in the villa. You ate a long breakfast, cycled down to the city centre to try odd flavours of gelato, and went into cute little boutiques to find her a pair of heels to wear with her gown for the auction.Â
Your dress was black, and so were your heels. That was how fun you were going to be.Â
Truth be told, it was a prom dress that you hadnât gotten to wear because of covid, so maybe you were a little excited to get all dolled up tomorrow night.Â
When the boys got home for the day, they decided you all should take the bikes to a nearby lake. You didnât have much of a say, packing a basket with antipasti for dinner. It was unbearably hot even though the sun had started to settle, so maybe going for a swim wasnât the worst thing.Â
As the four of you swooshed down Italian country roads on rusty borrowed bikes, Lando and you ended up in front of Jasmine and Oscar, going much faster than they did. Everything wasnât a race, but some things definitely were.Â
Oscar cycled closer to his girlfriend, asking her a question heâd been dying to ask all day. âDo we tell them something about how they are both madly infatuated with each other or will they figure it out on their own?âÂ
âI tried to tell Bunny, but she wouldnât believe me. Itâs like she doesnât understand that people still find her attractive after she got sick,â Jasmine said.Â
She didnât know if she should sigh or laugh at your behaviour recently. She understood that your life had changed completely, but falling in love, or even just dating, shouldnât be something to be scared about. Not when you had a boy acting like a fool right in front of your eyes.Â
âSo, we let Lando try and awkwardly flirt with her by himself? And watch Bunny be clueless about it?â Oscar laughed
âHe has to be upfront at some point, right?â she responded.Â
They probably wouldnât have to wait long until Lando would scream in your face that he liked you. He had no filter left when it came to you.Â
The lake was small, surrounded by a pebble beach. The water looked almost artificially teal, like natural sources of water tended to do. Youâd never been to Italy before, but it was quickly becoming one of your favourite destinations. It was idyllic in ways you couldnât have dreamt of.Â
You threw the bikes in the grass and put out your beach towels close to the water. Feeling the pebbles under your bare feet and the sweet smell of sunscreen, you and Jasmine started to pack up your picnic basket.
There were almost no other people there, only seeing a family with children taking an evening swim on the other side of the lake.Â
After eating a little, the boys tested the water, groaning about how cold it was, yet somehow getting in anyway. You still didnât know what they had done during the day, but with their lifestyles, you guessed they always needed to find ways to relax.Â
Jasmine rested on her towel with her nose in a book, recognising it as one you had rated highly on Goodreads. See, you knew she loved your reviews. She mumbled something about how the protagonist reminded her of you when you asked her if she was enjoying it. You took that as a good sign.Â
You went down to the waterside, only dipping your toes in before deciding that it was way too cold for you to want to swim in it. Instead, you crouched down to look at the rocks, all round and polished from the water, in pretty green and coral shades. Youâd already gotten Matteo a local football shirt as a souvenir, but you could definitely fit some cool rocks in your suitcase as well.Â
Lando, zoning out from whatever Oscar was talking about next to him in the still water, tried to secretly keep his eye on you. He could catch a glimpse of a bright red bikini underneath the long, sheer white shirt you had on. His fondness had grown so large that even watching you pick pebbles warmed his heart. Or maybe that was the bikiniâs doing.Â
Jasmine could watch it all happen through the darkness of her sunglasses, having lost focus from her book. She furrowed her brows with concern. âBunny, arenât you warm?âÂ
Your hand subconsciously traced the edge of the your shirt collar, a faint smile forming on your lips. âYeah, but Iâll scare the children away if I show the scar on my chest,â you replied, your tone light yet tinged with an undercurrent of insecurity.Â
âItâs not that bad,â she said, promising, her eyes meeting yours as she tipped down her shades.Â
You laughed a little in disbelief. âYou havenât seen it since they reopened it.â You were talking so loud that the boys in the water definitely could hear you. âI also hate touching it, so I donât want to put sunscreen on.âÂ
Jasmine remembered the first time she saw your scar, a jagged reminder of the surgery that had saved your life. A long red line, right on your sternum, that had faded over time. But she hadnât seen the new scar, the one left by the recent, unexpected procedure.Â
âDonât be such a wimp,â Jasmine urged, getting up from the towel, a bottle of sunscreen in her hand. âGet your shirt off and Iâll do it.âÂ
She knew you well enough to push you to do it. You would never get over this mental hurdle without people telling you that you looked fine. People had scars. That was the way life worked.Â
You sighed, slowly fumbling with the shirt buttons as you tried to decipher Jasmineâs reaction. âSee? Itâs awful.âÂ
She shook her head, trying to keep a neutral face. It was worse than she thought, but she could never tell you that, because it hurt more than it helped. And it wasnât like the scar tainted your entire being. You were still a gorgeous woman, in Baywatch-esque red bikini. That was an unstoppable combo. Â
âItâs really not bad. It needs some more time to fade, thatâs all,â Jasmine reassured you, having no problem with touching the uneven skin to apply sunscreen.Â
You didnât want to look at her hand as she did it, so you looked out over the lake, catching Landoâs surprisingly⊠odd gaze as he stood in the water next to Oscar.Â
You hadnât wanted to stare too much at him earlier, knowing that your head would get messed up if you saw him shirtless in swim shorts. But now, you couldnât disregard the look on his face.Â
âLando, I saw that look. Just tell me that itâs bad,â you said, clearly still frustrated over the entire thing.Â
Lando was shocked you were talking to him, struggling to find the words.Â
âHeâs staring at your tits, itâs totally different,â Oscar suddenly said, having kept quiet for too long.Â
You almost didnât know if you had heard him correctly, but Jasmineâs ringing laughter told you that it was true. Lando sternly said Oscarâs name before drenching him in water, a playful fight breaking out between the two of them, overshadowing what had just happened.Â
That didnât mean it left your mind, though.Â
It was dark by the time you got back to the villa, stars hanging above you in the night sky. You knew it was the same sky as you had home in England, yet there was something much more magical about it this time.Â
Jasmine and Oscar went to bed, but you had a few things to prepare for the auction. You wanted to paint your nails and do a face mask; maybe even get in an everything-shower to save time tomorrow.Â
The night was still warm as you made your way out to the balcony in your nightgown, deciding that you might as well take advantage of the view while you painted your nails. The balcony felt like a secluded little sanctuary, bathed in a soft glow from the outdoor lighting and wafting in the breeze of the Italian countryside. Â
Behind you, the glass door slid open with a soft creak, and you turned to see Lando stepping out onto the balcony, carrying what looked like a cup of tea. Youâd thought he was asleep, the villa eerily quiet.Â
He had an easy confidence about him â something you admired. Clad in a soft cotton t-shirt and sweatpants, the kind that looked threadbare and like the most comfortable fabric ever. His eyes silently asked you if it was okay for him to join you, and you nodded. He sat down across from you at the outdoor dining table.Â
âOrange?â Lando asked softly, seeing the colour of the nail polish.Â
âI thought it was papaya,â you joked, biting your tongue to not get it on your cuticles as you continued to paint. âI bought it for Silverstone but forgot to wear it.âÂ
Lando didnât care. At least he told himself that he didnât. You were just representing his team by carefully painting your nails orange. There was no need to get all mushy inside because of it. It wasnât like it was permanent. Only a week or so of you thinking of him every time you saw your own hands. Maybe that was wishful thinking. Maybe you didnât think of him.Â
âI shouldâve told you earlier, but you look great today,â he said like it was nothing, raising his cup to take a sip.Â
He could tell that you were slightly baffled, a line forming between your eyebrows as you scrunched your nose in disbelief. âScar and all?âÂ
âYeah, of course.âÂ
Oscar had maybe been right about what Lando was looking at when you had asked him about the scar. They had overheard the entire conversation you had with Jasmine, so when he caught a glimpse of the scar, he had imagined something much worse. It truly wasnât that bad. It at least didnât steal his attention when you were standing in front of him in a bikini.Â
For a moment, neither spoke, the silence filled only by the sounds of the night. Cicadas, a distant car, and birds chirping. Lights from neighbouring houses twinkled like scattered diamonds.Â
âI donât know if you wanted me to know, but Oscar told me about your mother,â Landoâs voice trembled, confessing it to you. His eyes searched your face for a reaction, a mixture of concern and vulnerability painted across his features.
You stared down at your painted nails, adding one last stroke before closing the bottle of polish. You were scared to look at him, unsure of how this conversation would play out.Â
âItâs not really a secret, just a hard thing to tell people,â you replied softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
You somehow felt the warmth from Landoâs body even though there was a tableâs length between you. His presence wasnât uncomfortable to you, but the conversation certainly was.Â
âDonât pity me like Iâm some motherless child. Itâs really not that bad,â you continued, trying to keep your composure, the familiar ache in your chest making it hard to breathe.Â
In moments like these, it was like you could feel your scar glowing, how the tight skin wanted to rip right open to help you take full breaths.Â
A flicker of frustration crossed Landoâs face.Â
He hated how you had said it â how you tried to downplay everything that had happened in your life. He understood that it was your way of coping, but your entire being basically screamed for the emotions to be let out. You were hypocritical, and he was tired.Â
âItâs allowed to be bad. You were the one that told me that in Australia. Youâre allowed to feel bad about things that are shit,â he insisted, his voice carrying a firmness that contrasted with the tenderness in his eyes.
His raw honesty sliced through your defenses. Your view of him blurred as tears filled your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. Clearing your throat, you calmed yourself down.Â
Lando wasnât actually frustrated with you. It was more at the circumstances. He didnât want to push you, and you didnât want to upset him. It was just a very difficult conversation to have.Â
âDo you ever have nightmares about crashing?â you asked, whispering.Â
âNo, not really,â he admitted.
If he was thinking about what might go wrong all the time, he wouldn't be able to continue driving. Racing showed some people horrible fates of life. The abundant success that could be archived was harvested by others.
It was all about finding a balance, about showing respect for the thing they put themselves through, but also overcoming it by showing no fear.Â
Maybe it was different for you, Lando thought. Maybe you had already given in to the fear, because youâd get no success out of it no matter how hard you tried. You couldnât get your mum back anyway. Â
You took a deep breath before confessing. âI do. All the time.âÂ
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The early morning sun filtered through his bedroom windows as Lando got out of bed. Heâd slept like a king. The countryside was so quiet compared to Monaco and the cities he raced in. He stretched as he drew back the curtains, getting a view of the garden, and you.Â
The conversation you had yesterday had left the both of you unsatisfied. Yet, neither wanted to push the other to really get to the bottom of the problem,Â
This morning, however, you were waltzing through the garden on bare feet, a big bowl in one hand and a small ladder in the other one. The summer dress you were wearing blew with the breeze. You looked free. And slightly out of your mind, climbing a ladder to reach the fruit trees, without anyone keeping an eye on you.
Not that you needed supervision, but climbing a ladder could be dangerous. That was what Lando told himself as he rushed outside.Â
âOh god, please donât fall down,â he said, voice laced with concern as he almost ran through the garden to get to you, keeping his steady hands on the ladder.Â
You glanced down at him, a teasing smile playing on your lips. âItâs a stepladder, Lando. Iâm one metre above the ground,â you reassured him. Â
âStill, you should be careful,â he insisted. Â
âIâll break your nose if you look up my dress,â you warned. You werenât serious, but Lando felt his cheeks flush anyway. âDo you want one?â you asked, referring to the fruit you were picking.Â
âWhat is it even?â Â
âI thought peaches at first, but theyâre not hairy. Not small enough to be apricots but maybe hard enough to be nectarines, so that would be my guess.âÂ
You examined the fruit as you stepped down from the ladder, tossing one in the air before catching it again and placing it in the bowl.Â
âAre you sure youâre still talking about fruit?â Â
âOh, shut up,â you laughed, rolling your eyes at the innuendo.Â
You picked up a nectarine and took a bite, the sweet juice dribbling down your chin. âI made breakfast, but I assume youâre on the same diet as Oscar?â you asked, voice muffled by the mouthful of fruit.
Lando stared at you in awe, taking way too long before nodding.Â
âWell then, I guess you can watch me eat while you stick to oatmeal,â you replied playfully.Â
As the sun rose above the horizon, casting a warm amber glow over the cosy balcony, you and Lando sat by the outdoor furniture, eating your breakfast. The air filled with a scent of fresh coffee and the sweet nectarines. You ate them with yoghurt and honey, and Lando was totally jealous.Â
You didnât say much to each other. It wasnât really necessary. The world around you started to wake up, but on that little balcony, it felt like time had slowed down just for you two.Â
Lando turned to you, curiosity in his eyes. âWhy do people call you Bunny?â Heâd wanted to ask you that for quite some time. Â
âItâs quite a sad story, to be honest,â you began, swallowing what was left of your breakfast.Â
He almost regretted his question immediately. He hadnât even thought about how a cute nickname like yours could be from a sad memory. You watched as Landoâs expression softened, his eyes encouraging you to continue.Â
âMatteo stayed a lot at our grandparentâs house after mum died, because⊠well, life happened,â you explained, your orange fingernails tracing the rim of your coffee mug. âSince he was so young, he hadnât really understood the fact that I was his sister, so I instead became the girl he would visit from time to time who owned a pet bunny.âÂ
Lando leant his elbows on the table, captivated by your way of talking, his interest piqued.Â
âAnd Bunny was easier for him to pronounce than my actual name,â you continued, a faint smile forming on your lips.Â
âYou had a bunny?â
âYeah, his name was Taco,â you laughed, your smile growing more genuine.Â
He chuckled softly at the name. You would name a pet Taco, that was just the kind of person you were.Â
âDo you like having it as a nickname?â Lando inquired, his tone gentle again.Â
âI donât mind it,â you shook your head. âMatteo doesnât say it anymore, but itâs⊠itâs different when other people say it.âÂ
Itâs different when you say it, Lando.Â
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âYouâre drooling, mate,â Oscarâs voice laughed from behind him as they got out of the cars.Â
âI am not,â Lando protested, but Oscar only shook his head.Â
He wasnât fooling anyone as he watched you and Jasmine step out on the front porch, dressed to the nines, ready for the auction.Â
Oscar and him had picked up the two cars that were being auctioned off while you got ready. It was important that they were seen driving the cars up to the manor house as they arrived, and you and Jasmine were supposed to be arm candy. It felt both below and above your worth.Â
You laughed as you saw the cars, shiny and polished McLarenâs. You didnât care enough to know the models, you just knew they were worth millions.Â
Jasmine walked down to Oscar with ease in her high heels, a beautiful burnt orange satin gown on her body. You watched as he greeted her with a kiss, feeling both a sense of pride and also some loneliness in your stomach.Â
Your feet already hurt from your own heels. Something wasnât entirely right since you broke your ankle, but you would have to suffer through it.Â
Lando walked up to the porch, casually keeping his hands in the pockets of his well-fitted black suit. The white shirt he had on underneath probably had one too many buttons undone. Not that you were complaining, it looked gorgeous in contrast with his tan skin. He looked gorgeous.Â
You were dressed in all black, apart from your orange nail polish. Your gown with a perfectly poofy tulle skirt and a flattering balconette corset top. You looked delectable, and Lando had a hard time hiding that. Â
âDonât look at me like that,â you said seriously to him.Â
âLike what?â Lando replied, feigning innocence as he took your hand to help you down the front porch stairs.Â
Like youâre falling in love with me.
âLike this is some early 2000s rom-com and Iâm the nerdy girl whoâs just gotten a makeover by a more popular girl,â you replied, rolling your eyes but unable to suppress the smile tugging at your lips.
He gave a genuine laugh, the kind that could only bring a smile to your face. He wanted to respond with some cliché statement about how it was only fitting since you looked like a movie star, but he remained silent.
Lando helped you into the car like a real gentleman, while Oscar and Jasmine got into the other one. The drive was two minutes at most.Â
âDid you have a dress like that lying around?â he asked, fastening his seatbelt.Â
You nodded, moving your hands over your lap to smooth out the fabric. âItâs a prom dress that I never got to use because of covid.âÂ
A spark lit up in Landoâs eyes. âI never got to have a prom either, yâknow.âÂ
A moment of silence passed between them, the weight of missed milestones hanging heavy in the air. You assumed it was because he hadnât really gone to school like a normal kid, too busy with karting. Then, with a sudden burst of determination, Lando revved the engine.Â
âCome on, letâs treat this night like prom.âÂ
The manor house was bigger than anything youâd ever seen before. You couldnât grasp it â the multiple stories, the annex buildings, the beautiful and meticulous gardens. It was all too much for you.Â
Lando pulled up to park the car next to the grand entrance, handing the keys to the valet before coming to open the door for you. You were met with camera flashes as soon as you stepped out. It wasnât paparazzi, thank god â only photographers hired for the event. Â
Lando didnât dare to hold your hand in front of the cameras, this time. He settled with a hand on your lower back as you made your way inside after Jasmine and Oscar.Â
The auction was held in a grand hall â no, a conservatory. It had a glass roof. It was filled with decorations, floral arrangements, and candle lights. A stage was built by the end of the room, which you assumed would be where they auctioned things off.Â
It was also filled with people, dressed in sharp suits and colourful gowns. It looked photoshopped with how perfect it was. Not a thing out of place nor a person behaving oddly. Except for you, of course. You did not belong here.Â
âWhat are they compensating for? Tiny cocks?â you whispered for only Jasmine to hear as you took in the room. This was bonkers.Â
âThe tiniest of cocks,â she snorted under her breath.Â
Oscar and Lando did have to work â work the room that was, mingling and sucking up to people with big wallets.Â
You and Jasmine made your way around as well, albeit much slower and with less intention. You talked to some people, drank some champagne, and eyed the canapĂ©s being served around. It didnât look like anyone was eating, so you didnât want to be the odd one out. You already were. So, now you were both odd and starving.Â
You also eyed the objects up for auction. It was jewellery, cars, and destination vacations in places youâd never heard of. All in favour of some charity that was hardly mentioned once. Was this just a rich person shopping spree without the guilt of overconsumption?Â
Lando kept looking across the room for you, his eyes always seeming to find you within seconds. And you found him to, sharing smiles or joking faces, saying get me out of here.Â
It wasnât possessive â it was more of a secret bond that existed right there in time and space, going unnoticed by everyone but the two of you.Â
The bond was broken when a man approached you. Lando didnât recognise him, but he already despised him. He was flirting with you; that would be obvious to anyone but you. You didnât necessarily look uncomfortable. It seemed more like you found the conversation he tried to have with you pointless.Â
You were so oblivious to the impact you had on men, or maybe on all people in general. It made him want to set himself on fire. The itchy feeling inside of him, telling him to scream for everyone in the room to hear â that you were the most beautiful person heâd ever seen. And that you should be talking to him, and only him. Not some suave-looking asshole in an ill-fitting suit. God, you made him stupid. More stupid than normal.Â
As Landoâs thoughts spiralled, you somehow got out of the conversation, swiftly making your way across the room and out of a door that he thought led to the garden. Or one of the gardens. This place was huge.Â
He had things to do inside, people to talk to â but for a moment, he came to his senses and said fuck it. He needed to know if you were alright.Â
His assumption that the door led to a garden was correct. The evening light cast a silvery glow over it, a tranquil contrast to the busy ballroom. From a distance, he saw you take a seat in an old stone gazebo, covered with ivy. You bent down to unclasp your heels.Â
Lord, was he about to risk it all.Â
His steps over the gravel path made you hear him, and he couldnât help but feel busted.Â
âMind if I sit down?â he asked, raising his eyebrows.Â
You shook your head, gesturing with your hand to the space beside you. He sat down, shyly looking at his hands in his lap. On the bench, he saw what he thought was the reason you had come out here, besides that man talking to you. Dessert. Two of them in little ramekins, but only one spoon.Â
Lando breathed in the silence before hastily asking you what had been on his mind.
âWho was the man you were talking to?â
âSome stuck up think-tank-bitcoin-billionaire,â you huffed. âHe asked me if my company was up for auction.âÂ
It wasnât company as in a business. It was company as in your time of day. Or time of night more likely. He was asking to spend the night with you. Would audibly gagging be too improper of a reaction? Lando had to fight himself to not do it.Â
âWhat was your answer?â he wondered, trying to keep his cool.Â
Your lips turned into a smug smile. âThat itâs free for people who deserve it, and then I walked away.âÂ
Lando chuckled, liking the fact that you showed a sense of pride with your actions. âDo I deserve your company?âÂ
âHavenât asked you to leave yet, that should tell you something,â you mumbled, shrugging your shoulders. Â
Lando nodded, scrunching his nose, a pink tint on his cheeks forming from the crisp air.
No, he was blushing. It wasnât even cold outside.Â
âHave you had fun otherwise?â He cleared his throat, making the conversation about something else.Â
âI donât know. I feel like a fraud, like I donât belong,â you shrugged, fingers nervously fidgeting with the hem of your dress. âI think I might have convinced multiple people in there that Iâm a communist, just because I was raised with a working-class perspective on things.âÂ
Lando suppressed his laughter for it to not be too loud. You saw his eyes crinkle at the corners. Â
âThis entire thing just feels performative to me,â you added.Â
âOh, it totally is,â he agreed.Â
You glanced back at the manor, hearing the sound of voices in the distance. Your face reflected a mixture of amazement and discomfort. âAnd donât get me started on the way people look,â you began again. âMy mascara smudged and my dress got wrinkled the minute I stepped into that humid room, yet everyone else continues to look flawless.âÂ
Lando thought about interrupting you, saying that you still looked flawless to him. Or maybe you didnât, and that was the best part. He understood your point fully, though.Â
You shook your head as you continued, a bitter sigh escaping your lips. âAnd I canât walk in heels since I broke my ankle, and my dress shows my scar, and Iâm just⊠being a miserable little twat.â Â
You dropped your shoulders, looking down at your bare feet as your heels were on the ground next to them. It hadnât even crossed Landoâs mind, the shoes nor the scar, but it made sense that you didnât feel confident about it. That he thought you should be confident wouldnât exactly change your mind.Â
âOh! And they donât eat,â you hastily pointed out. âThey just hold the food and look pretty.âÂ
That was definitely true. He knew that you couldnât eat yourself full at functions like this. His own empty stomach was a testament to that.Â
âIs that why you came out here with two desserts and one spoon?â he questioned, containing his laughter to not come across as judgmental.Â
You giggled. âHave you seen AmĂ©lie?âÂ
Lando shook his head no.Â
âItâs a movie. It doesnât really matter, but one of the main characterâs favourite things in life is cracking the sugar on a crĂšme brĂ»lĂ©e, and I⊠think I agree with that,â you explained, grabbing one of the ramekins and carefully smashing the caramelised surface. Â
It made a slight sound. Your eyes lit up as you looked at it. âSee? Did you hear that?âÂ
He couldnât help but grin at your reaction.Â
âTry the other one,â you urged, handing him the spoon. Â
He had tried crĂšme brĂ»lĂ©e before but never in this way. Never with someone telling him about how it was the best thing in life. As he cracked the sugar, he laughed so hard he felt his chest vibrate.Â
He knew he couldnât eat the dessert because of his diet, but seeing you take a spoonful was almost satisfactory enough.Â
âYour mind is so⊠special,â he smiled in disbelief. He didnât know what he was saying anymore, he just knew he needed you to hear it. âI donât get how the universe couldâve created you.âÂ
Your smile faded as your laughter turned quiet. âIs that a compliment?âÂ
âIn the highest form, Bunny,â Lando insisted.Â
He didnât know how to read your reaction, your sudden silence was a shock for him. Had he ruined a perfect moment by saying too much? Thatâs when he saw it, the tears pooling in your waterline as you fought with yourself to not let them fall.Â
Lando was a soft mess in seconds. âA-are you crying because I complimented you?âÂ
âIâm sorry,â you said, trying to laugh but your voice came out hoarse.Â
âDonât cry, itâs alright,â Lando said softly, reaching out to wipe the tears away from your face, gently cupping your cheek with his palm.
He crossed a line as he did, moving closer to you than ever before.Â
You knew where this was going, and you werenât prepared for it at all.
âI justâŠâ You were full on crying now. ïżœïżœïżœI have no idea who I am, and this environment really showed me that.âÂ
Your lack of confidence broke his heart. Things had really piled up on top of each other to now finally get to you. A stupid auction being your downfall, the thing that made you realise how much your life had put you through.Â
âI canât get a degree, I canât do musicals, and I definitely cannot fit in here. I have no way of being the girl that you want me to be, Lando,â you sobbed, your breathing picking up as your hands gesticulated out of pure panic.Â
Your words hung heavy over the garden, suffocatingly, as you honestly believed them to be painfully true.
âHey⊠donât say that,â Lando tried to comfort, grabbing ahold of your hands to stop you moving, centering your focus. âYou have no idea what I want from you.â Â
âI want to hear you laugh at my stupid jokes. I want to feel your painted nails when you hold my hand. I want to see you get all giddy over a crĂšme brĂ»lĂ©e,â he listed things as they came to mind.
The warmth from his hands surrounded you as you let yourself relax, exhaling loudly.Â
âI want you to linger in every possible goddamned doorway you can find,â Lando continued, looking you deeply in the eyes. âThatâs all. Nothing more.âÂ
You were so close that he could see how colours reflected in your eyes. He liked you in ways he didnât know was possible â for the little things that heâd never thought about before with other people. He couldnât think clearly anymore. He didnât want to think clearly. Lando hesitated, his eyes searching yours, as if seeking permission.Â
You knew where this was going, and you werenât prepared for it at all.
He scanned your face, his gaze finally landing on your lips. You were waiting for him to move, for him to lean in, because you were too scared to do it yourself. But you wanted him to do it. You wanted it more than anything else.Â
But all of a sudden, the lust in his expression turned into concern, and you felt something wet drip down on your upper lip. Blood.Â
âOh, fuck.â Your hands flew to your face, trying to stop the blood from dripping further.
Of course this would happen now. You were cursed, after all. What were you thinking? A pretty boy could not just kiss you. The universe had decided that happiness wasnât for you.Â
âLet me helpââ Lando said, trying to get a hold of you to stay still, but you had already stood up.Â
You moved to pick up your shoes, and Lando sat frozen in his spot. âIâm gonna walk back to the villa, you stay and do your rich person duties,â your voice cracked as you said it, taking a step back to avoid his proximity. You had panic written all over your face and blood on your hands.Â
Landoâs emotions finally caught up with him as he too stood up to try and stop you. âBunny, please! Donât go, letâs talk about this,â he pleaded, hearing how pathetic he sounded. But he felt like he had no choice.Â
You recoiled further away from him, your eyes glistening with tears as you started to walk, your bare feet over gravel, heels swinging from your hands.Â
He couldnât understand â how youâd gone from laughing about crĂšme brĂ»lĂ©es, to crying, to almost kissing each other, and then to you getting a nosebleed. He also couldnât understand how he had let you get away. Fuck, was he stupid.Â
His thoughts got interrupted by the sound of someone running on the gravel. He met Jasmineâs worried eyes, contemplating if she should just murder Lando now.Â
âDid she just leave? What did you do?âÂ
Lando could only shake his head, running a hand through his hair, the gesture portraying his inner turmoil. âI didnât do anythingâŠâ he muttered, sighing loudly. âI was about to kiss her, and then she got a nosebleed all of a sudden.âÂ
Oscar came walking after Jasmine, just close enough to hear what Lando said. âThatâs so typical of her,â he breathed out, baffled at how you always managed to almost comically mess things up.
Jasmine rubbed her temples. âAre the two of you actually fucking stupid?â she questioned angrily before yelling, âLando, donât just stand there. Go after her!âÂ
âTo do what? Get rejected again?â he gesticulated with his hands in defeat, feeling his voice crack. His own tears had started to form.Â
Jasmine looked back at him like he was stupid. Lando was stupid. That was a fact he now knew. Â
âTo clean up the blood and then actually fucking kiss her â because she did not reject you, sheâs just scared!â Jasmine shot back, an intensity in her eyes that made Lando listen. âAll she knows is fear, and falling in love with you hasnât exactly helped with that.âÂ
He was stuck, his feet glued to the floor, the weight of Jasmineâs words hit him like a punch in the stomach. Falling in love â that was what the two of you were doing. Lando had been too blinded by his own infatuation to realise that you were scared of it â scared of that stability because your life hadnât been stable for years. You truly believed yourself to be cursed.Â
Fuck, was he stupid. He needed to fix this, and that was quick.
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He left the auction, Oscar assuring him that he could handle the rest of the night alone. The villa was quiet when Lando returned. He didnât know what he should say when he saw you. He didnât even know what kind of mood youâd be in.Â
For a moment, he stopped in the hallway with all the bedrooms. Your door was open, a faint yellow light seeping through. He heard you moving around, the tap running in your en suite bathroom. That made him dare to move, to stand in your doorway.Â
Your room was a bit messy from earlier when you were getting ready, your suitcase basically turned inside out. Your dress was tossed on the floor, next to your heels. A small red stain could be seen on the beige soles.Â
Suddenly, you exited the bathroom. Your face was washed clean from makeup and blood, and you were wearing an oversized sleep shirt, reaching your mid-thigh.Â
You stopped abruptly when you saw him, first shocked, then annoyed. He had no right to use your own methods against you, even though you knew he was right. Whatever heâd said to you, he would be right.Â
âNow is not the time to be lingering in some fucking doorway, Norris,â you snapped, more to mask your own panic than anything else.Â
You walked up to the door with determined steps, your fingers hovering over the doorknob. Your breath came in shallow, uneven gasps as you clenched your fists, nails biting into your palms.
âIâm not letting you close that door, Bunny,â he said softly, but with an edge of determination, placing his hand on the door so it couldnât move.Â
âI donât want to hear what you have to say,â you insisted, shaking your head as if to physically ward off his words.
Landoâs eyes softened, the frustration melting away to reveal an expression of raw sincerity. âDoesnât that defy the point? Your motherâs entire idea with teaching you to linger?âÂ
âDonât,â you whispered. He had no right to bring up your mother.Â
âWe might be dead tomorrow, but you wonât hear me out?âÂ
âDonât say that,â you pleaded through gritted teeth, tightly closing your eyes to even bear with your emotions.Â
âWhy wonât you let me tell you that I like you?âÂ
He dropped the bomb. He had no option but to confess it to you. It was the scariest thing heâd ever done, yet when it was out there in the open, a weight was off his shoulders. This was meant to go this way.Â
You opened your eyes. âBecause Iâll screw this up like I always do!â you choked out, voice thick with unshed tears. âI got a nosebleed when you tried to kiss me. I told you â itâs like Iâm fucking cursed!â
âSomething always gets in the way of me and good things,â you continued.Â
âIâm a good thing?â he whispered, but it almost echoed in the quiet room.
âThatâs what you got from that?â you cried, looking up at him through wet eyelashes. âYou donât understand. Everything good that comes into my life, I mess up. I canât even be normal around you because Iâm so afraid of ruining it!â
âBecause thatâs the only thing that matters â that we like each other, that our feelings are mutual,â Lando explained like it was simple. âYouâre not cursed. Youâre just human. And so am I. Weâre allowed to mess up, to be scared, to get nosebleeds at the worst possible moments.â
He took your hand, basically shaking as he held it. You didnât move away. You let him hold you. You let him closer.Â
âOr⊠if you are cursed, then Iâll start carrying a first aid kit,â Lando continued with a small smile, moving his free hand to wipe your cheek clean from tears.Â
You let out a surprised snort, the sound mingling with your sobs. It was a ridiculous notion, yet somehow, it made perfect sense.
âCan I try kissing you again?â he softly wondered, a semblance of hope in his voice.
Lando watched as you started to smile at the question, nodding slowly. âPlease, kiss me.â Â
He brought both his hands up to your cheeks, your eyes intensely locking for a moment before he softly leant closer, his lips meeting yours in a featherlight connection.
The kiss was sweet. Softer than what you wouldâve expected. It was also quite telling of all the emotions that you both harboured inside, finally being set free.Â
Lando kissed you like it was important, like his life depended on you knowing how much it meant to him â like the two of you would never need another form of communication to tell each other things. This was for you to know that calling yourself cursed was just stupid. You were scared, thatâs all. But you didnât have to be scared anymore.Â
He was the one to break the kiss, his breath hot against your face as he grinned. âSee? Not cursed.âÂ
That was enough to get you laughing, turning your head down to lean against his chest as you let out a pathetic giggle. No blood, no broken bones, no compromised breathing. Okay, maybe your breathing was a little off, but that was to be expected after kissing someone.Â
For a long, hazy moment, the two of you simply stared into each otherâs eyes. How you ended up on the bed passed in a blur, the only thing your mind could focus on was Landoâs hands on your body. His lips back on yours.Â
The kissing quickly grew fevered and devoted, his tongue exploring your mouth, neck, and chest as you melted against him and the soft mattress, your fingers clutching around him. He took away all of your thoughts, every lingering worry or doubt completely removed. Insecurities too, gone with the wind.Â
He was breathless when he stopped for a moment to catch his breath. You fiddled with your fingers to undo the buttons on his shirt, revealing a landscape of freckled tan skin before your eyes. His palms moved over your hips, up your waist, cupping the underside of your breasts through the thin cotton of your t-shirt.Â
As he moved to take off your shirt, you froze. Lando stopped in his tracks, waiting for you to say something.Â
âThe scar,â you said. âIt makes me feel⊠weak, and I donât want you to treat me like Iâm weak.âÂ
Weak was the last word Lando would use to describe you. But he also understood.Â
âI donât have to see it. Itâs alright like this if thatâs what makes you comfortable,â he explained softly.Â
You nodded, deciding on keeping your shirt on as you watched Lando remove his own. He was perfect, and you were you. Maybe that was enough.Â
Lando caged you beneath him again, crawling over you, leaving sloppy kisses on your face, arms, and over the fabric of your shirt. The kisses ended with him biting your lower lip as his hands found home in a tight grip on your hips, the lace edge of your underwear tickling his palms.Â
âCan I go down on you?â he whispered. His eyes looked for permission to continue, and you nodded, messily kissing him back.
He lowered back down your body again, his strong hands absentmindedly massaging the plush skin of your thighs, before finding the waistband of your panties, pulling them off you in a slow motion. He nestled between your legs, not breaking eye contact.Â
You almost felt cold by being naked, even though the room was delightfully warm. You wanted to cringe at what his sight of you must be like, but he didnât give you a chance to do so, a string of praise words falling from his mouth.Â
As each word was said, he spread your wetness through your folds with a feathery movement of his fingers. Lando brushed your clit with a light touch, taking in your reaction before dipping his fingers into the pooling wetness.
âP-please, Lando, oh fuckââ Your voice was wrecked as you grew desperate for more.Â
He grinned at your words as his face met your heat, leaving kisses around it before finally touching the part where you needed him the most. âSo pretty,â he mumbled against you, kissing your clit. That made your brain short circuit.Â
You reached down to push the curls of his forehead as he delved in, softly bringing you pleasure. Sucking on your clit with intention while his fingers curled deeper into you, his free hand gripping at your thigh, certain to leave crescent-shaped imprints from his fingernails as your soft skin spilled out between his fingers.
You truly did look pretty, though â through Landoâs eyes. With the evening glow of the sun shining through the windows and the white linen bedding surrounding your body, you looked angelic. As your shirt rode up, your stomach was revealed. He loved seeing your skin. Nipples pebbled through the t-shirt, hair dishevelled, skin gleaming from a thin layer of sweat. You made him painfully hard by just lying there, letting him taste you.Â
âIâmââ You couldnât get the words out, voice choking on your own moans, but Lando knew to increase the intensity.Â
You were a fucking mess when you finished, letting that hazy feeling completely take over, whimpering his name out like it was the sweetest thing. He kept on babying your clit with the tip of his tongue until you tugged at his hair, lifting his face. He couldâve gone on forever if youâd let him.Â
âCome up here,â you urged him, your voice shaky. You watched him lick his glossy lips, running a hand up your body in a soothing manner before collapsing next to you.Â
âYou should see how breathtaking you look right now,â he exhaled, looking at you with your face flushed and your eyes glossed over. You stared at him so deeply, catching your breath, as you realised you couldnât decide what eye colour he had. They shifted from green, to blue, to brown. Fuck, you were spent.Â
You thought for a while, and Lando could see it on your face, a mischievous grin forming on your lips before your hands moved down his stomach, stopping by his belt buckle. He let you undo it, your bottom lip nestled between your teeth as you teasingly looked up at him.
Already worked up from before, he moaned as you started to palm him over his trousers.
âIâm not gonna last if you do that,â Lando gasped, holding your hand still with a tight grip around your wrist.Â
âTake them off, then,â you simply answered, earning a laugh.Â
He couldnât say no to that, moving awkwardly to get both trousers and underwear off as quickly as possible. He then settled closer to you, having you basically wrap your legs around him, clinging like a koala. You shared a look between each other, making sure that this was okay. It was so much more than okay. This felt necessary, like you were meant to do it.Â
âIâm on the pill, so this is fine by me,â you explained to him, a tremble in your voice by having him so close to you.Â
He kissed you before he did anything else, settling your nerves. Feeling your bodies mould together, creating a common heat. He glided himself through your folds, touching your already stimulated clit. As an act of desperation, you moved your hips lower, grinding against him.Â
âYou okay?â he chuckled.Â
You hummed against the skin on his shoulder, playfully nibbling as you kissed him all over. His eyes met yours as he pushed into you, waiting patiently to see your reaction to the light stretch. You nodded, your breath hitching as he began moving more purposefully.Â
The slow drags set of sparks of pleasure within you, so intense your eyes rolled back. You werenât sure what kind of noises left your body, uncontrollable with the pleasure. Hearing Lando moan deeply into your ears made you feel less unsure. Â
Completely intoxicated, you tried your best to take it all in. You focused on the golden shimmer in his eyes, the scattered freckles on his face, and the scar on his nose. It was so warm, and wet, feeling him thrust inside of you. You didnât know what to do with your hands again, just desperately spreading them over his back to his shoulders. Your sharp nails were destined to leave claw marks.Â
âFaster, baby,â you breathed out, ready for more.Â
You felt Lando grin against your cheek as he heard the pet name. It had completely slipped out on accident, but that didnât mean it drove him any less crazy. You felt him grip your body harder as he fucked up into you.
âDoing so well for me,â he moaned out your name. âCâmon, Bunny, let me see how pretty you are when you come again.â Â
A litany of moans filled the room, from the both of you. That, along with the sounds of your bodies crashing together, made you fucking delirious. You were close, so close. You wanted to feel that feeling again, of him bringing you to the end.
You shamelessly used him as you felt the familiar fire spread through your veins. He wasnât long after, almost lifting your body to get you closer to him as he finished. His moans were slow and shaky as he rested his lips on your forehead.
His hips lost all rhythm as he spilled into you, his cock twitching inside you while he slowly pumped you full of his release, thrusting several times as he rode it out. You wanted to memorise the guttural sounds and the tremble of his face muscles as he reached the ultimate high.Â
âWeâre a mess,â he commented, burying his face into the crook of your neck.Â
You let out a small chuckle. âStay still for a second,â you ordered him as you relaxed in his hold. Both of you sighed at the sensation of him filling you up completely. You would enjoy this feeling of having him as close as humanly possible for as long as he let you.
âI donât ever want to move.â he murmured against your hair.
You caught your breaths in unity, staying close together without saying much more. You didnât need to. Lando knew that all his future dreams would take place here, lying quietly next to you, in your own sacred heaven. You two, sharing heavy breathing and sighs, after delicately bruising each otherâs bodies.Â
He looked you deep in your eyes, seeing how tired you were, but solidifying what was once a doubt for you. He looked at you like you were a risk worth taking. A river worth wading. A river worth drowning in.Â
â â â â â â â â â â
Lando woke up the morning after feeling well rested, in a bed that was warm and the sheets scented by you. He felt you moving next to him as he came out of his slumber, mumbling something about it being too hot and how you had forgotten to open the window before falling asleep.Â
He didnât understand how you felt hot when all he felt was ice cold as you left him alone in bed. The room got brighter as you moved the curtains, opening a window to let in the outside air. He opened his eyes to see you, back turned against him, stretching your body to wake up. A grin plastered on his face. He was painfully happy.Â
You moved to wrap your arms around yourself, lifting the hem of the shirt youâd slept in. As you pulled it over your body, Lando got a view of your entire being. He was certainly awake now. Naked, your skin glowed golden technicolour from the sunlight, in stark contrast to the white room.Â
You knew exactly what you were doing as you slowly turned around.Â
âJust look at youâŠâ Lando exhaled. âFucking gorgeous, Bunny.âÂ
In seconds, you were back in bed next to him, pulling the bedding up to hide your face.Â
âGonna act all shy now?â he teased, chuckling.Â
As you peeked back out, Lando was quick to get closer to you. He hovered over you as his hands found your body.Â
He didnât even have to tell you â your lips already parting as his thumb caressed your cheek, moving closer to your mouth. You took his thumb in your mouth, softly sucking as it rested on your tongue. You saw how his eyes fluttered at the feeling, gently removing it to press a passionate kiss to your wet lips.Â
Lando was hesitant to let his hands wander lower, softly cupping your breasts and littering your sternum with open-mouthed kisses. His fingertips lightly pinched the sensitive peaks of your nipples, as he looked up at you through tired eyes, always wanting your reassurance, as his lips got close to the scar.Â
You nodded gently, allowing him to kiss it. You didnât like touching the scar, but somehow, you had no issue when his mouth did it. He kissed it gently before moving to kiss your nipple. He smiled with pride at the breathy gasp you let out as he placed his mouth on you. You were practically whining at the pressure of him sucking at your skin.Â
He released you after a moment, lying down next to you. He felt your heartbeat through your chest as his head rested on top of your breast, softly padded by the plush skin. You looked down at him with joy, placing a finger under his chin so he was looking right back at you.Â
Slowly, your fingers traced his face. He smiled at your orange nail polish. You took your time tracing the bridge of his nose, stopping when you got to the little mark he had right across it. He had his scars too.Â
âMy heart hurts,â you groaned quietly, as you ran your fingers through his hair.Â
âHuh? Are you serious?â he mumbled against the skin of your chest.Â
âItâs a dull ache, a desire almost,â you explained, and Lando understood your point.Â
âI think itâs contagious,â Lando smiled. He let the words linger in the air before adding, âYou should come with me to Hungary after this.âÂ
You sighed, realising how hard it would be to say no to him in the future. âI donât go back to uni for another couple of weeks, soâŠâÂ
âIâm buying you a plane ticket right now,â he said, reaching for his phone, but your hands stopped him.Â
âNo,â you said.Â
For a second, Lando started to second-guess everything.Â
âJoin me in the shower first.âÂ
â â â â â â â â â â
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The Only Thing He Needs | F.C
Franco Colapinto x AFAB!Reader
Warnings: Cunnilingus, p in v, creampie (in that order) typos and grammatical mistakes because english is not my first language. reader has breasts and a vagina but nothing else about her looks is specified
Word count: 3k
Author's note: Behold... my first child. It's ugly af but I love it because it's mine.
This is shorter than expected and I'm sure it'll disappoint many of you, so I apologise in advance. I'm just a girl trying to make the fandom happy.
Interactions with this thing would be appreciated, even if you want to let me know how much it sucked đ
The sun is setting when he finally enters his room after what it felt like an eternity. The weather outside is so hot that when the cool air touches his skin he almost lets out a groan.
Franco would be lying if he said that it wasn't an extraordinary day, because it was. Despite the tremendous heat inside the car and the physical pain he went through, he did an amazing job and couldn't be prouder of himself and everything he has achieved at this point in his career. Sensing that there's a lot more to come, he can only feel excitement for the near future.
Still, even after everything that has happened and all the love and support he's received in the last couple of hours, there's something missing. Someone.
You.
You were there at the paddock during the race, but trying to avoid the media and all the fuss that would be caused if they knew of your relationship, you left the moment you saw the cameras. He hasn't seen you since then, almost three hours ago, and he wouldn't be exaggerating if he said that he is dying because of it.
You're everything he needs.
When his eyes finally find you, you're coming out of the bathroom, freshly showered and dressed in nothing more than one of his old shirts. Your hair is loose and messy, your feet bare and there's that glint in your pretty eyes when you realise that now he's here in front of you, breathing the same air. Your beauty makes his heart swell with love.
His arms are wrapped around your waist the moment you literally jump into his embrace. Soon you're showering him in kisses all over his face and neck. He giggles in response, the grip on your waist increasing slightly.
"Missed you." You mutter, nose nudging the left side of his jaw. "I'm sorry I couldn't stay."
"It's okay." Franco answers. "You're here now. That's all I need."
And he means every word.
You smile in response. A smile that reaches your eyes and makes them shine with such intensity that makes him feel dizzy with love.
"You should take a shower." You don't miss the way he pouts when you pull away from him to have a better look at his face. "You stink, love."
"You love me anyway. Stinky and all."
Your laughter echoes in the entirety of the room as you walk towards the closet, where you look for a clean shirt and shorts and then toss them towards him. Rolling his eyes, he walks to the bathroom, chuckling when your voice, from the other side of the door, reminds him that you love him always.
Almost half an hour later he comes out of the bathroom, all wet hair and bare chest. He finds you in front of the bureau where youâve put some of your clothes and he knows he should be thinking about something else right now, maybe discuss the race and his future in F1, or maybe he should tell you how much he would love to let the world know that he is yours, but all he can do is stare at you.Â
Leaning on the doorframe, he observes your every move. Youâre not doing something extraordinary, only going through your things, probably looking for the earrings youâve lost again, but he isnât afraid of admitting that every single thing you do, no matter how big or small, make you look like the most fascinating creature in existence.
Soon, as every other day, he finds himself walking in your direction. Hands itching with the need of touching you.
There's something about you. Something that lures him in like nothing else has done before. Maybe it's your hair and the intoxicating smell that touches his nostrils when he buries his face in it. Or maybe it's your skin and its taste, so sweet that it forbids him from thinking straight. It sure is the sound you make when you feel his hands on your waist.
His long fingers roam the skin of your waist and back as his lips kiss a wet trail down the right side of your neck. A soft breath leaves his mouth when his lips reach the spot right over your pulse, wasting no time in sinking his teeth in your flesh, softly but hard enough to make you hiss in pain.
"Fran." You warn him. Dainty hands touch his in an attempt to push him away, but his grip on your waist becomes stronger with the fear of losing the contact with your skin.
"No, no. Por favor." He whimpers. He whimpers impossibly close to your ear, the agonic plea making you squirm in his arms almost against your own will.
"You bit me, Franco."
"PerdĂłn." He cries. "PerdĂłn. I won't do it again."
The mere thought of you leaving hurts him so bad that it is almost physical. It's been such a tough day and now all he wants is to hold you and never let go. You're the only one who can make him feel safe, at home.
There's nothing in this world that Franco loves more than having you in his arms, being able to kiss every part of you and rejoice in the way your body and soul respond to him. Always you, no one else.
âTanta belleza..." he whispers. Hands now travel up your abdomen and then your sternum, until they finally rest on your round breasts. When he starts kneading your flesh at the same time he keeps kissing and licking the skin of your neck, you moan softly. In response he chuckles, amused by the way in which his words and touch make you forget everything.
You want to be mad at him, you want to scold him and forbid him from touching you if he bites you again, but your mind is dizzy by his kiss and the feeling of his body pressed against yours. His touch breaks your resolve and he knows it, always taking advantage of that.
Today is no exception, because soon he starts moving against you. Hips rocking forward, his growing erection brushes against the roundness of your ass, making both of you moan out loud.
"Can you feel me, baby?" He asks and he sounds desperate. You want to answer but fail miserably because of the intensity of it all. "Can you feel how hard you make me? This is all because of you, for you."Â
You moan his name when he moves his hips once more, your own body meeting him halfway, desperately looking for the contact that makes your skin shiver.Â
âYou have no idea,â he mutters against your skin, words interrupted by the kisses he's still giving you. âThe things I want to do to youâŠâÂ
Your answer comes in a shaky breath.
âThen what are you waiting for?â
The next few minutes happen so fast that you barely have a moment to process it all. In no time you're laying on the soft bed, your shirt is long gone and the cool air kisses your skin. The only piece of clothing remaining on your body is your underwear.Â
Franco is at your feet, looking at you with eyes full of need and adoration. He takes a long time taking you in, pretty eyes looking at every piece of you, and when your own hands travel from your abdomen to your breasts, repeating his actions from before, a soft whine escapes his mouth. He observes as you touch yourself for him, right hand going down until you start playing with the hem of your knickers. He licks his lips, sight fixed on the wet spot in them.Â
Just before you can sneak your hand under the soft fabric, his long fingers wrap around your wrist and pull you aside. He takes no time in replacing you, taking both sides of your panties and pulling them down. In no time they're being thrown to some place on the ground, long forgotten for the rest of the night.Â
Hands on both of your knees, he spreads your legs open and lets out a shaky breath the moment your dripping cunt is finally on display. He has seen you like this countless times before but he always reacts the same way: enamoured with every part of your body. He wants to taste everything he can, he wants to drink from you until you beg him to stop.
And that's what he does.
Flat tongue travels from your hole to right under your clit, repeatedly, during a few tortuous seconds that feel like hours. Spreading you open with his thumbs, Franco keeps licking you there until you're the one whining and begging him to give you more.Â
In response, you feel him smirk between your legs.
âYou want more, huh?â
âPlease. Fran, por favor.â
He chuckles.
âQuĂ© putita que sos.â
You want to answer but nothing comes out of your mouth. Nothing but a high pitched moan when his lips finally lick your clit. Before you can even process what's happening, he's suckling on your bundle of nerves like it is the most delicious thing he's ever had the pleasure to taste. When your hands take a handful of his hair and tug at it softly, deep moans sound on the back of his throat and the vibrations rumble through your entire body, making your back arch in pleasure.
There's nothing better than this. His mouth on you, kissing, licking, making sounds that would make even the boldest of men blush. He eats you out like his life depends on it, ignoring the need for air in his lungs because all the oxygen he needs is in you, in your skin, in the very taste of you. He drinks from your juices as if they are the sweetest ambrosia, giving him life, giving him everything he needs. Nothing else, no one else but you.
You keep moaning his name louder and louder, not caring if others are listening. You'll deal with that later, but right now there's nothing in this world that could make you stop from letting him know how you feel.
âSo goodâŠâ you moan. âYou make me feel so good, baby.âÂ
He moans as well. Hips rocking against the bed cover, unconsciously looking for release. Your words are music to him, because all he wants is to make you feel so good that you forget everything else. Everything else but him.Â
âYou're soaked.â He groans after gathering your arousal on his tongue and then swallowing it. âIs this because of me, amor?â
Once again, you want to answer but his actions interrupt you. This time, your words get stuck in your throat by two of his long fingers entering you. Carefully, making sure he doesn't hurt you, but the only thing you can feel is the immense pleasure spreading all over your body, legs shaking slightly with the feeling of his fingers starting to move inside of you at the same time his lips wrap around your clit again, suckling with need.Â
You moan his name like a mantra, both hands gripping his hair as your hips start to move almost involuntarily, rubbing yourself on his face as you look for your own release. He doesn't protest for a second, in fact, he grabs your ass in his hands to move you closer to his face and now it's impossible to part away from him, tongue and lips torturing your puffy clit as you cry out in pleasure.Â
And then he does something that he's never done before.
His teeth grazes your sensitive bundle of nerves ever so slightly and that sends you to the edge. You have no time to react because soon entire galaxies are exploding behind your closed eyes. Some sort of electricity makes your body tremble as you cum on his tongue, and for a moment you feel like you are touching the sky with your hands. Seconds that feel like an eternity, you want to feel like this for the rest of your life.Â
When you come back from some wonderful place you've never been before, you find yourself still laying on the bed, but this time Franco's on top of you. He's waiting for you to recover, only caressing your sides with his hands and leaving short kisses on your collarbone and chest.Â
He knows you're back when you intertwine your fingers in his soft hair.Â
âYou okay?â He asks. You nod in response, a content smile on your lips. âNeed you to use your words, baby.â
âI'm fine.â You answer. âBetter than ever.â
He purrs like a kitten when your hands travel down his back, caressing his soft skin for a few moments. Then you remember that youâre the only one that has had an orgasm tonight, the realisationg making you feel incredibly guilty. Part of loving him is taking care of him as much as he does with you. Thatâs why it feels wrong, leaving him like this.
Your gaze finds his. Heâs hovering over you now, one arm supporting his own weight as the other is in your face, fingertips brushing against your cheek and jaw. His big, pretty eyes are looking at you as if heâs trying to decipher you, and soon he does. It scares you sometimes, how easily he can read your thoughts by the expression on your face.Â
âYou donât have to, you know?â He mutters.Â
You kiss him softly, tasting yourself on his lips.Â
âOf course I have to,â you object. âBecause I love you.â
Franco smiles as you sit and motion to him to now lay on his back. He complies, never denying anything to you.Â
Soon youâre kissing him again but this time youâre the one on top, legs on both sides of his hips. The sounds leaving his mouth are intoxicating and, trying to coax more out of him, you take your hands to the waistband of his boxer and pull them down, just as he did with your underwear before.Â
You wish you could take your time with him but you know that he wonât last long. His cock is impossibly hard, precum dripping out of the angry red tip. Thatâs why his reaction when you touch him doesn't surprise you; heâs at the edge and it wonât take much time for him to come undone in your arms.
âAmorâŠâ he moans as you stroke him, spreading his juices all over his beautiful dick. You know what he wants. Heâs trying to tell you that he canât wait any longer, that all he wants is to feel you.Â
So you comply.Â
Both of you moan the exact moment he enters you, hard cock stretching you out in such a delicious way that has you closing your eyes tight. Youâre so wet that he slides in easily, filling you completely.Â
Your name leaves his lips in a plea that makes you move in no time. The friction coaxing more sounds out of the both of you. He whispers sentences that are never finished, words both in English and Spanish that have no coherence. Heâs so lost in the bliss of having your sweet cunt wrapped around him that can barely speak properly.Â
âYou look so beautiful like thisâŠâ he manages to say, the phrase interrupted many times by his own moans. âRiding my cock⊠so, so goodâŠâ
In response you move faster. You can feel him inside of you, twitching with the need of release that will soon arrive. His grip on your waist tightens as you ride him faster and faster each time, breasts bouncing with your moves and that, too, sends him over the edge.Â
âFranâŠâ you moan, your eyes pleading. âCome on, baby. Fill me up.â
Those words and your walls hugging his dick with such intensity are enough to make him cum. He reaches his orgasm in seconds, warm seed spilling deep inside of you and triggering your own climax, which is shorter than the previous one but even more intense.
You keep moving for a few seconds, milking his cock a little more. When you start feeling him going soft you decide to take him out of you, hearing him moan one more time as he watches his own semen dripping out of you.Â
The way he looks after he has an orgasm is one of the most gorgeous things youâve seen in your life. Hair dishevelled, skin glistening with sweat and pretty eyes full of satisfaction, heâs drunk in love and adoration for you and you love it. You love seeing him like this, knowing that youâre the reason behind it all.Â
âYouâre perfect.â you whisper to him, your lips hovering over his. âThe prettiest boy Iâve ever seen.â
Franco smiles as his right hand comes up to caress your hair lovingly. Now, after the intensity of the love-making, both of you long for your loverâs touch in a more innocent way, in a way that can soothe all the aches.Â
You stay like that, resting in each otherâs arms, for what it feels like hours. After a while and starting to feel a little sleepy, you sit up on the bed. He looks in your direction, surprised and almost offended with you for pulling away from him.Â
âWhat are you doing?â he asks.Â
âWe need to take a shower, come on.âÂ
You try to get off the bed, but his strong arm is around you in an instant, taking you back to his side. You giggle as he holds you tight and starts biting at your neck.
âThereâs no way Iâm letting you go,â he says. âYouâre staying here with me forever.â
âBut we canât!â You laugh again. âWe need to have a shower and eat something.â
âNo, no.â This time his tone is more serious. His hands are both on your cheeks, softly making you look at him in the eyes. âYou are the only thing I need.âÂ
For a second you want to scold him for not taking his own well being seriously, but then a smile appears on your face, leaving the previous frown behind, because now you realise that you feel the same way.
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I belong to you
Pairing: Feyd-Rautha x f!reader
Summary: Your house unknown but a high-born and a Bene Gesserit, you get wed to the na-baron of Giedi Prime, Feyd-Rautha. ItÂŽs not easy with him and his darlings, but after some time it seems you are much to his liking. Is there a soft side hidden inside Feyd, only for his wife to see or will he treat you the same as any servant?
Warnings: arranged marriage (like all of them lol), smut, violent behavior, breeding kink, pet names, dom/sub dynamics, mentions of knives and blood, size kink
Word count: 3.5k
Authors note: English is not my first language, sorry for any mistakes. Hope you like it <3
The bed was comfortable and soft, much different than the room itself with his stony, cold walls and the black interior. You were not asleep, just lying in bed with closed eyes. The current situation making you uneasy and sleep didnât come easily. Next to that were the people standing in your room. You felt their preying eyes on your body even though the blanket covered you fully. It was Feyd-Rautha, your newlywed husband, with his darlings. There were three of them, being his concubines for quite some time.Â
âShe is rather ugly.â One girl spoke up, not even caring to whisper her words. They probably wanted you to hear it anyways. âNext to that she is a witch.â The other hissed. Feyd stayed quiet but you knew he had a big smile plastered on his face. You didnât move nor open your eyes, you wanted to know why they suddenly decided to pay you a visit at this hour. Your husband hasnât been in your chambers before, not even after marriage did he share the bed with you. He was spending time with his darlings and only having this annoying black teethed grin on his face when you ran into him.
âI think she is awake, Feyd. The witch listened to us since we came here.âÂ
The room was dark, no light coming through the big windows. This planet was very dim, caused by the industrial pollution and their black sun. One of the reasons why you missed your home planet so much. There you had fields of green grass, blue skies and people were dressed in colorful clothes. It was a warm planet, like spring and autumn combined.Â
You opened your eyes and stared at the little group in your chamber. Your expression cold, showing no emotion. Feyd and his darlings kept your gaze, amusement hiding behind their eyes. Slowly, you sat up glancing shortly at the clock next to your bed. It was 2 am. âWhat is the reason you came into my room at this hour, my Lord?â You asked, annoyance showing through your voice. Again, this grin on his face. He hasnât shared many words with you since you arrived on Giedi Prime. All you ever dream of is this exact expression.Â
âMy darlings wanted to take a look at my little present.â Present? No, you were not just a mere gift to him, but right now Feyd sought only to demean you.
He sat down on the edge of the bed to your feet, his eyes never leaving your face. He wanted to drink up every expression you were going to show him. But there was nothing. You had trained long, you were good at it. Instead, you shifted your eyes to his three concubines. They all looked pretty similar, only one of them had a big black bar on her forehead. Their skin was white, eyes fully black and their heads shaved, not a single hair on their body just like Feyd. You had heard they were the beauties of Giedi Prime - and they fed on human flesh.Â
âI have been here for two months now. Did they not have the chance to take a look at me yet?â You replied. Feyd shifted next to you and your eyes fell back on him. He didnât like the tone you were using. âCareful wife, thatÂŽs not how you speak to me.â You mustered his face, he appeared to be displeased by your reaction, not expecting you to talk back like this. He was a scary man, unpredictable and violent, but you were not an ordinary girl. Trained in the way of the Bene Gesserit, you mastered the Voice. There was no way you would give yourself that easily to him. âI apologize, husband.â Seconds later, there was a knife sitting at your throat. The cold blade grazed your skin lightly, but still breaking it enough to release tiny drops of blood. You were surprised by his sudden reaction and leaned back. Holding your chin high, you did not break eye contact with FeydÂŽs dark blue eyes. âYou better shut your mouth!âÂ
It was a command. He wanted you to submit, making it clear he had full control over you. However, you simply stared back at him, not moving a muscle. This made him angry, but he didnât change the pressure of his hold. âDo you want me to cut your neck, little mouse? I could slice you up right in this moment.â The grin wandered back on his face, making you uneasy. He was enjoying the thought of making you bleed. You replied after a while, choosing your next words carefully. âI will give myself to you completely, but it will be out of my own will, not through force, na-Baron.â
FeydÂŽs expression went blank for a second. He sensed something in you, something he hasnât been confronted with before. Now snarling he said âYou better do as I say, wife. I wonÂŽt think twice about staining these sheets red with your blood.â A soft smile appeared on your lips; it was not to tease him. With a calmer voice you replied âNo, you wonÂŽt treat me like this. I am your wife, not a mere servant you command. I will submit to you, but you need to earn my respect first.â
During this whole time the three concubines just stood there watching you and Feyd. There was so much tension in the air, that they didnât dare to interfere. But then Feyd leaned back on his heels and the knife left your throat. You straightened your back and touched your skin where it had been broken softly. Tiny droplets of blood stained your fingers, but it was not much. Suddenly one of the concubines dropped to her knees next to the bed. She looked at your fingers with pleading eyes. âLet me taste your blood, please.â You starred at her confused than back at your fingers. Thinking about all possibilities what could go wrong if you let her do it, you finally decided to let her lick your fingers clean. Reaching out to her, she immediately leaned forward to lap at them. For a second you looked back at Feyd, who carried his usual smile, enjoying the situation in front of him. But in the next moment the girl kneeling on the ground raised rapidly and tasted the fresh wound on your neck.Â
âGo away!â Stripped of control over her own body, the concubine moved away from you. She blinked disorientated, trying to figure out what just had happened.Â
âHow dare you?!â The other concubines hissed, dripping with spite. Feyd was showing not a single emotion in his face. You directed your next words to the concubines. âYou ask me how I dare? I donât think I gave her permission to touch my neck.â Those standing looked to Feyd for help and protection, yet his gaze remained solely fixed on you. âDo you think you are better than us? We have been here for a long time. You are just a foreign girl.â They started to argument, but you interrupted them. âYes, I think I am better. You may have been in his care for ages, but who is the one that will bear his heir? It will only be me.â Your response silenced them.
The room was quiet, you watched Feyd taking in your words. It appeared as though a realization washed over him, yet he wouldnât let it go so easily.Â
The knife returned to your throat, this time softer, drawing no blood. âI donât like the way you treat my darlings. You are not yet with child, wife.â His eyes flickering between your eyes and lips. âAnd why is that?" You retorted sharply. "If you had devoted more time to me after our marriage, I might be carrying an heir now. But instead, you choose to spend your days and nights with them.â If he wanted to play a game, you certainly wouldn't hesitate to participate.Â
There was anger and fury dancing in his eyes, yet nestled behind it, timid and faint, was attraction. You almost had him at your grasp. âAnd why is it that you have an issue with my behavior towards your concubines, but overlook their insults and disrespect towards me? This is not how I imagined Feyd-Rautha, the na-Baron, to treat his wife.âÂ
Feyd was taken aback by your words and let his hand with the knife sink down. You both held each other's gaze for a while, almost as if engaged in a silent communication through your eyes. It felt as though he had finally comprehended the entirety of the situation. Slowly, you tilted your head to the side, offering your throat to him in submission. It was the gesture he had been seeking - a sign of surrender. In the next moment you heard the knife hit the ground with a sharp clink and his raspy deep voice, dismissing the concubines.
Soft, wet lips immediately left a trail of kisses along your exposed neck. He made a grunting noise while inhaling your scent. You shifted your arms and laid flat on your back, opening your legs so he could just fit nicely in between them. Feyd made a noise of appreciation and continued his assault on your skin. âMy dear little wife, being so obedient now.â When whispering, his voice sounded much deeper. It turned you on. His hands found your clothed breasts, squeezing them roughly, but as your hand caressed the back of his head calmly, he softened his touch. He raised his head and locked eyes with you before kissing you for the second time, since you arrived on this planet.Â
The blanket was fully gone now, thrown into the last part of the bed. Your nightdress pulled up, so his hands had free access to your naked skin. Feyd enjoyed tracing the curves of your body, savoring every glimpse he could get of you. âYes, so pretty like that. You like it too, donât you, little mouse?â He grinned and his face moved closer to your face again to fully capture your expression in this dimly lit room. âI like it very much, husband.â âFeyd. Say my name.â His lips lingered over yours, waiting for it. âI like it very much, Feyd.â You repeated. A growl leaving his throat, he pressed his lips to yours.Â
His right hand wandered down to your clothed cunt. He brushed over it, making you whine into his mouth. He grinned, slipping his hand underneath your panties and gliding his fingers through your heat. âYouÂŽre so wet, my dear. Is that all for me?â A moan escaped your mouth at his words. Oh how his deep voice and words turned you on. You were sure, he could make you come just with it alone. Not trusting your voice, you nodded. He watched you, as his fingers played with your sensitive area. Gradually, he lowered his lips, planting kisses along your cleavage, grazing over your nipples, and trailing down to your stomach. His fingers slipped under the waistband of your lace panties. âThey are so pretty, but unfortunately, they have to go.â Feyd remarked.
After they were thrown onto the floor, Feyd leaned down between your legs, placing small kisses on your inner thighs. You arched your back at the pleasure and quiet whimpers escaped your throat. Feyd made his way to your pussy and gave it a lick, making you shudder. âYou like that?â He grinned suggestively at you, revealing his black teeth. But he didnÂŽt wait for an answer, instead he ravished you like a starving man. His big hands were placed on either side of your hips to keep you pressed into the mattress, since it was difficult for you to stay still. Quickly, two fingers entered you, moving slowly. Your moans grew louder, searching hands buried themselves in the black sheets. âI am going to come, Feyd!â Goosebumps spread all over your body, you were so close to your release. âThen come, little mouse!â He commanded and you let yourself go fully. It was a climax like you never had before when touching yourself alone. Your husband was definitely very skilled.Â
After you had calmed down a little, Feyd loomed over you. His lips found yours again and he rutted against your body. Even though he was still clothed, you could feel how turned on he was. âGonna have my way with you now, yea?â He chuckled, leaning back to pull his pants down. Your eyes widened at his length and thickness, as you starred at his dick. You began to worry how it was going to fit inside you. Feyd saw the change in your expression and bend back down, holding himself up with one arm next to your head, while the other pumped his cock slowly. âDonÂŽt worry, dear. I will be gentle.â He planted a kiss to the tip of your nose and you locked eyes with him. His now gentle and tender actions made you wonder, if it was just a tactic to make you trust him. Despite this uncertainty, you didnÂŽt sense any unease in your gut.Â
You gave him a shy smile and your hands found his strong shoulders. âWill you put this off as well? I want to see you.â Your words amused him, he enjoyed the way you behaved. âEverything my little wife wants.â He answered proudly, feeling his ego boosted and leaning back to remove his shirt. You mustered his pale skin - it was white like snow. Curious fingers grazed over his muscles, Feyd placed his hand over yours. It made you feel safe. There was no longer anger or violence directed towards you.
You gazed at each other for a while, neither of you feeling the need to break eye contact. It was easier to read his emotions now, and it was clear that he wanted the same thing as you did. You freed your hand out of his hold and placed it on his strongly erected member. Gently, you started stroking him. Feyd closed his eyes and tilted his head back from the pleasure he was feeling. You tightened your grip, precome dripping out of the tip. It was such an arousing view.Â
Suddenly Feyd gripped your wrists and placed them over your head. âI want to come inside you, little mouse.â He breathed huskily in your ear. You didnât mind this at all, finally feeling his touch on your body was exhilarating. You had always desired his attention.Â
There was some impatience in his movements now. Feyd stared at your naked body underneath him, while his free hand positioned your hips at the perfect angle. You felt yourself clamping down on nothing, wanting to be filled up by his pretty cock. âMy love, you look irresistible. You wonÂŽt be getting any sleep tonight.â His husky voice sent shivers down your spine, excitement bubbling in your stomach. Before he entered you, he freed your wrists out of his grasp to support his own weight. You panicked for a second as it seemed like he was going to lean back, and you really disliked not having him close in this vulnerable situation. Feyd smiled, his face only mere inches from yours. âI'm not going anywhere.â He reassured you with his raspy voice and captured your lips.
Kissing him shifted your focus away from the pain between your legs, as he pushed inside your tight hole. âDoing so good for me, doll.â He hushed your whimpers, pressing you closer to his warm body. You felt safe in his arms, being able to relax completely. After he was fully sheathed inside you, he let you adjust to his size.
Blinking slowly, you opened your eyes and looked at him. His eyes were already fixed on your features. Small praises left his lips, before he loosened his hug on you and brought his arms next to your head. You felt so small when he was hovering over you like this. Not long after, Feyd started to move his hips. First, he was gentle and slow but as your moans grew louder, he quickened his pace. Your hands wandered over his wide, muscled back, fingernails causing small scratches to appear. The pain spurned him on. âThey gave me such a perfect wife, taking me so well.â Your husband praised and placed a kiss on your forehead. You shuddered and felt your release being close. FeydÂŽs thrusts started to become sloppy and unsteady as well. He cursed under his breath and bit into your shoulder. You squeaked at the sudden pain. âFeyd, I am close.â You whispered. He lifted his head again and grinned. âGood girl, yea⊠I am close too.â He growled, his eyes turning even darker. You caught a glimpse of primal instinct in them, like you were his prey. âCome for me whenever you are ready, little mouse.â
Feyd pulled out completely, only his tip touching your entrance slightly. Then in a fast movement, he pushed inside again, going in so deep his dick kissed your cervix. You made a startled sound and in the next moment could only moan. He was hitting all the right places, which made you come hard. Your back arched off the mattress, while moaning your husbandâs name in bliss. Feyd had waited for your climax until he let himself go and filled you up with his seed. âSo good... so good for me.â He rasped, out of breath, still coming down from his high.Â
You had closed your eyes, only opening them when Feyd was moving over you. He had leaned back on his heels. One hand was placed protectively over your stomach, while the other held up your leg. He watched his cum drip out of your pussy. When his attention returned to your face, he grinned slyly. âNot done with you yet.â You were quickly turned around on all fours. âYes, stay like that.â FeydÂŽs body was pressed into your back and his dick rubbed on your ass. He was growing bigger and bigger every second. Calloused fingers found their way into your hair and he tugged harshly on it. âGoing to fill you up again. ThatÂŽs what you wanted, am I right, little mouse?â You could hear how much he enjoyed teasing you.
There was no time for a reply, as he pushed inside of you with ease and you couldnât surpress the moan that escaped you at the feeling of the stretch. The sensation nearly stole your breath away and Feyd immediately set a rapid pace. In this angle he felt significantly larger and deeper than before. All you could manage were small whimpers in response to the overwhelming sensation.Â
FeydÂŽs free hand, that was placed on your waist, landed a sharp slap on one of your cheeks. The pain made you hiss through clenched teeth and you turned your head slightly to look back at him. Pleasure and lust were written on his face and when you caught his eyes, a smirk appeared. âDonât look at me like this, love. I know you liked it, clenching down on me so tightly.â He pulled your hair back, forcing you to sit up. Your back was pressed against his chest when he whispered into your ear. âTell me how much you like it.â
A shudder went down your spine and you whined. He was so deep inside of you. With a shaky hand you pressed down on your lower belly to feel the bulge Feyd was creating. âIt feels really good-ah!â You answered him. âYou like it, when I fuck you like this, little mouse?â You could hear the smirk in his voice. âYes, yes Feyd.â Seconds later your orgasm approached and you came hard on his cock. Soft lips were gently pressed to your cheek, while you tried to catch your breath. Even though his thrusts were harsh, abusing your insides, he still handled you with care.
His pace didnât falter as he was hunting his own release. Your body went limp, but he held you up on strong arms, moving you back on dick. And again, he filled you up with a huge amount of his seed.Â
He actually stayed true to his word of not letting you sleep the whole night. When a faint light filtered through the windows, signaling the arrival of morning, you had just reached your 5th or 6th climax. You weren't even sure because, at some point, logical thoughts ceased to form in your head.
Feyd laid you down gently as your eyes were closed from tiredness. He had fetched a wet cloth to wipe you clean. The coolness was soothing against your feverish skin. After he finished, you felt the mattress sink in as he laid down next to you. Protective hands wrapped around your middle, pulling you close to his body. "Mine," he whispered softly and placed a tender kiss on your temple. If you weren't going to fall pregnant after this night, you didnât even know what to believe in anymore.Â
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Love at first sight with Luffy
Love at First Sight (Luffy x Reader)
A/N : I don't know if this was exactly what you wanted but I hope you'll like it anyway ! Sorry if there's a few mistakes, English is not my first language and I was kinda tired writing this but it was really great to write ! Let me know if you'd like a part 2 !
As you were busy taking orders in the little restaurant you worked in, you heard the door open and turned your head when you heard a bunch of people talking loudly. There were five people now standing at the entrance of the restaurant and you thought that they made quite an interesting group.
As you looked at them, your gaze was immediatly drawn to a young man, a boy that stood among them, wearing a strawhat that covered brown curls. He had a huge grin on his face and was scanning the place, probably looking for a free table.
You stared at him for a few minutes, completly forgetting that you actually had work to do and that part of your job included welcoming new customers.
You hadn't met many people in your life, since you never had the opportunity to leave the small island where you lived, but this young man was probably the cutest you had ever layed eyes upon. There was just something about him that made you impossible to look away.
The brown haired finally turned his head in your direction and you were met by beautiful brown eyes, sparkling with joy and something else you couldn't quite put a name on. The boy had lost his smile and was now looking at you with such wide eyes that you started to feel weird. Your hand tightened on your notebook as your felt your cheeks starting to flush.
A green haired man nudged the straw hat boy who immediately broke eye contact. Your looked away and took a deep breath as if you breath had been taken away.
You opened your notebook, deciding that it was time to go back to work and went to the counter to pass the new orders to your colleagues. You still felt a little weird because of what had just happened but you decided to ignore it and to look around for more orders to take.
You noticed that the only new customers in the restaurant were the group with the strawhat boy.
Your heart started to race when you saw him sitting at the table a few meters away from you, talking cheerfully to his mates. Were you actually going to approach him ? Yes, because it was your job. Why were you so nervous about this anyway ?
You took a deep breath as you made your way to the table and once again your eyes met with the boy, making you instantly blush.
"Hello, what-what can I get for you ?" you asked, looking at him and trying not to show that you were actually very flustered.
The more you looked at him and the more familiar he felt to you. It was a weird feeling but it was actually very nice.
The boy had opened wide eyes and was staring at you without saying anything.
"I didn't know he could stop talking." the green haired man said sarcastically.
"Luffy ? The waitress is talking to you." said a girl with orange hair.
Luffy. So that was his name. You didn't know why but hearing his name felt like music to your ears and you couldn't help but smile a little.
Your cheeks flushed even more as you kept looking at the boy in front of you, who seemed to be totally lost in his thoughts.
He was really beautiful.
Luffy blinked and got back to reality, but he still looked at you like no one had ever looked at you before. His gaze felt warm and gentle, but also very intense.
"Were going to take a bit of everything." he said with that same smile he had earlier, but this time it was clearly addressed to you.
A warmth started spreading through your whole body and you couldn't help but smile back at him, also a little surprised by his request.
His smile felt warm in your heart and somewhat familiar. He really did have a beautiful smile.
Your eyes simply couldn't look away as your thoughts started to race in your head. You had never felt anything like this before.
What was happening to you ?
"Someone's hungry." you replied after a few seconds, both amused and surprised to see that he had ordered the whole menu.
The boy smiled.
"I'm the future king of the pirates so I need to eat enough food !" he said with that same smile plastered on his face.
Future king of the pirates ? That was really ambitious but you thought it was actually endearing. He had dreams and goals and you thought that it added to his charm. And just by looking at him, you just had the feeling that this boy was capable of doing anything.
"I'll get you plenty of food, don't worry mister future king of the pirates." you said smiling.
His eyes widened at the nickname and you could swear that you saw his cheeks turned a little pink.
Wasn't he adorable ?
You decided to look away and took the orders of his friends, before walking away.
You stopped and leaned against the counter of the bar, trying to regain your composure. You heart was beating like crazy and you just couldn't stop your racing thoughts. Your mind was still thinking about Luffy, that beautiful stranger you had just met and exchanged a few words with.
You felt like you were going crazy but most of all, you felt like you were falling in love.
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TYSM 4 THE DAISUKE HEADCANON, IT SO CUTE I WAMT TO SQUISH HIS CHEEKS SO BAD OMGGGWGWHAHAH...anyways. HUGGING/CUDDLING/SLEEPING, KISSING, PET NAMES/NICKNAMES HEADCANONS...AS IS WJAT ARE HIS FAVE ONES???? OR OMG LIKE JEALOUSY HC, OR TEXTING, AS IN IS HE A FAST TEXTER OR SOMEONE WHO REPLIES LATER? HOW WOULD HE WRITE AND DOES HE SEMD RANDOM THINGS OR LIKE THOSE SAPPY GOODNIGHT/GOODMORNING TEXTS?...hope it's not annoyingđ§, also u dont have 2 write them all!! im just legit tweaking for that manđđ§đ
Pairings: Daisuke x F!reader
Warnings: slight mention of nsfw on the sleeping part, but in reality it's just what the other crew thinks :)) not proofread, probably contains grammar mistakes, english isn't my first language!!
HC: hugging, cuddling, kissing and sleeping with our favorite boy!!
(A/N): DW I LOVE WRITING FOR DAISUKE!! I mean who ISN'T tweaking about that manđ This is a bit boring but um yeahđą I HAVE LIKE SO MANY REQUESTS FOR THIS MAN ALREADY IDK HOW I'M GONNA FINISH WRITING THEM ALL I'M HAVING A VERY BUSY WEEK BUT OH WELL!!
â°â†This is like a part 1 btw since I'm gonna write EVERYTHING you requested because I'm crazy like thatđ -> m.list
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HUGGING
You can't tell me this man doesn't love hugs.
For short hugs, he's gonna quickly put a hand around your shoulder. Or maybe he'll just keep you in a quick embrace before letting go.
For longer hugs, he's going to keep one of his hands on the small of your back and the other on your upper back.
OR he's gonna just hold his arm loosely around your waist, it dependsđ
Daisuke loves to hold you, that's a fact. He just likes being with you in general, he feels lucky af
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CUDDLING
Like I mentioned in another post, if you sleep in the same bed, you'll get cuddles every single night, I don't make the rules.
Daisuke doesn't mind if he's the big spoon or the little spoon, just CUDDLE with him
If he's the big spoon, he will keep you close, hold you to his chest, arms loosely wrapped around you, pulling you in.
If he's the little spoon, he's gonna curl up and let you spread out or whatever, you can even throw your leg over him he doesn't mind
He's probably gonna let you lay your head on his arm, but then he'll have that weird, tingly static-like feeling covering his whole arm
But he'd be too embarrassed to just pull his arm away, even if it hurts him, he just kinda lets you stay there since he doesn't wanna ruin your comfort.
He's usually the little spoon, he just likes being held and wrapped in your arms. He feels more comfortable that way.
But at the same time, he LOVES being the big spoon, because he feels like he's keeping you safe and secure from whatever difficulties or 'monsters' there are (jabortion)
I feel like his favourite cuddling position is Sweetheart's Cradle, he just prefers to hold you like that, it's easier for him and it's just 'so romantic' (his words not mine)
If you aren't aware of what that position is, google it because I have NO idea how to explain it mb gangđą
If he wants cuddles he's gonna nudge you and lay his head on your shoulder, and if you don't get the hint he's gonna trust fall on you
Lovely cuddles btw, he lives for them and he loves them so so much!!
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KISSING
Okay so he's whipped
Kiss him on the lips while you're passing by him and he's gonna be at your feet
He loves loves LOVES when you just place a small kiss on his forehead and tell him he did something great
I'm telling you I just KNOW this man would kiss every single inch of your body
He likes to kiss the back of your hand softly while doing something for you, he feels like you're a princess
That's right, you don't feel like you're a princess, he feels like you're a princess
I feel like he enjoys short kisses more than long ones, he prefers them quick idkđ€·ââïž
BUT he doesn't mind making out with you so um GO AHEADđ
Daisuke probably would risk it and make out with you somewhere other than the bedrooms, but he'd be scared that you two would get caught. It's just the THRILL he feels when he does it that gets him going, yk?
PULL ON HIS HAIR WHILE MAKING OUT
He's gonna ask for reassurance to make sure he's kissing you goof enough
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SLEEPING
CUDDLES EVERY NIGHT
Omg SLEEP WITH HIMMMM
I feel like he loves having you play with his hair while whispering praises to him as he slowly drifts to sleep (who doesn'tđą)
Daisuke will also just talk about his day while you're also falling asleep, listening to him rant and babble on and on about what he accomplished
I kinda think that at some point someone caught you two sleeping together and probably had other ideas
SWANSEA: He probably rushed to wake up Daisuke, since Daisuke usually kinda just sleeps in. He opens the door to reveal that the young man isn't in fact alone, but accompanied by another person. Swansea notices it's you and all of the sudden something clicks in his head, realizing why Daisuke would talk so much about you. He doesn't mind it, as long as you two are happy. Of course, Swansea at first thought you two did something, but he quickly reassured you guys that he doesn't mind as long as you two don't wake him up at night.
"It's fine, just stay quiet and don't wake me up at night. Don't make this a habit."
ANYA: She wanted you to help her with something, not bothering to knock on your door as she opened and took a look inside. She scanned the room, only to notice you laying in bed asleep with Daisuke. She thought it was sweet and cracked a smile, but probably also thought you two did something else. She felt guilty for invading your privacy and quickly closed the door. She didn't expect you to do such things, but it wasn't a surprise it was Daisuke who was next to you. She's gonna DENY that she opened the door to your room.
"Did you need something earlier this morning?" "What? No, I don't know what you're talking about..."
Jimbo has no reason to enter either of your rooms, and neither does Curly.
Anyways, Daisuke loves sleeping with you because that just makes time for extra cuddles. He doesn't mind if anybody says anything about that, he simply does not care.
Your room or his room? Good question. Both, both is good.
It's usually his room, it just feels better that way. Plus, he has a Gameboy and you two stay up at night playing or watching him play!!
Stays cuddled up with you beneath the blankets to keep you safe!!
He snores. Loudly. You either have to wake him up so he can shut up or you just get used to it.
Since he sleeps with his mouth open he also sometimes drools, BUT, he never managed to drool on your sheets so I guess that's fineđŁ
He's fine omg
JUST SLEEP WITH HIM IN ANY WAY HE'S GONNA LOVE IT!!
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Did I tell you how beautiful you are, already?
Agatha Harkness x reader
Summary: Your best friends drag you to a club to celebrate finishing college, and when you cross eyes with a stunning older woman it makes you do something youâve never done before.
Warnings: +18, smut, alcohol, soft dom!Agatha, sub!reader, oral sex, finger sex, strap on, choking kink, praise kink, etc.
Word count: 6.3k
A/N: Just a reminder that English is not my first language, and... I might have got carried away writing this.
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âCome on, please, do it for me?â
Your roommate, Yelena, has been begging you to go to a club with her and her girlfriend Kate for a whole week, you werenât the type to go partying, so many people in such a tiny space overwhelmed you, but you just finished your last day at college and Yelena really wanted to celebrate it with you.Â
You have been studying and working so hard for the last four years she wanted you to get loose just this once âyou deserve a break, come onâ she whined following you around the apartment while you went to have a shower.
Maybe you did need a night outâŠ
âFineâ you scoffed turning around to look at her, her face breaking into a excited smile âjust for a few hours ok? I donât want to spend the whole night outâÂ
Yelena squealed and hugged you tightly âitâs gonna be the night of your life!âÂ
You really doubt it, youâd prefer spending the night watching a movie with them and drinking the, really bad, cocktails Kate did, but well, I guess you could make the best out of tonight.Â
âYeah, yeah⊠let me shower in peace nowâ you chuckled and she ran to her room, hearing a too enthusiastic âyes!â From Kate âthese twoâŠâ you whispered to yourself before getting into the shower.Â
You spent the next two hours getting ready, doing your make up and the girlsâ, this was the only part you really enjoyed about going out, getting ready with music blasting from your tv, you and Yelena laughing watching Kate dance her soul out.
âI hope youâre taking me to a only women club or something, I donât want to spend the whole night rejecting guysâÂ
âYou really think weâd ever go to a club with straight people? Oh no, weâre going to a gay bar, maybe youâll find a girl to distress yourself a little bitâ
âHey!â You looked at her with a shocked face, making her burst into laugher âwhateverâ you rolled your eyes, trying to hide your blush as you turned to the two outfit options you had laid out on your bed.
Youâve been on a dry spell for like⊠a whole year probably, you donât even remember the last time, since you broke up with your girlfriend you drowned yourself in your career and you job at the university cafe, deciding you didnât want any distraction from finishing it.
Shaking your head to get out of those thoughts you studied the clothes in front of you, the first outfit was some black plain pants and a lace corset, and the second one a black mini skirt with a deep v neck red top âthat oneâ Kate pointed to the skirt and top âIâm sure youâll get laid if you wear that topâ You groaned at the pair laughing at your flushed face, you shoved them out of your room and got ready, opting to agree with Kate.
Not on the last part thoâŠ
You paired the outfit with your favorite black leather boots before going to the living room where the pair was âok Iâm ready, we can go nowâ you said making sure you had everything in your purse when you heard Yelena whistling and Kate saying something you didnât even catch âgod you two are insufferable, letâs goâÂ
They knew how shy you got when they hyped you up, and they really loved doing it.
The three of you got an Uber to go to the club, neither of you knowing if you could drive back home later, so you decided for the safer option.
You spent the ride laughing and chatting a bit, finally out of the stress of college, telling what you were going to do now, your plans and dreams for the future. Youâd take a year off, deciding to travel around before getting tied down by studying for two more years, youâve been saving for it these years, and you were gonna live the best time of your life visiting places, you were sure of that.
When you arrived to the club you stared at the entrance, a few people seated outside, smoking and chatting, while Yelena paid the driver, she insisted the whole night was on her, and honestly, you werenât going to complain a bit âit will be fun, I promiseâ Kate pushed your shoulder with hers playfully, sensing your anxiety âletâs goâ she held your hand and guided you inside.
The loud music reached your ears, it made your whole body shake from the vibrations, the warm lights making you ease your nerves a bit, you looked around, sighing in relief when you only saw women on the dance floor and the bar, you didnât have anything against men but you really didnât want any near you, not tonight at least.
âI need a drinkâ you announced the pair who was already dancing, chuckling slightly at them âdo you want any?â You were sure you were gonna end with a hoarse voice tonight, having to yell over the loud music so they could hear you. Yelena nodded at you and gave you her credit card.
She really was going to pay for everything.Â
You walked to the bar, already feeling a few eyes on you, you sighed and sat on one of the stools âthree shots of tequila pleaseâ you almost yelled to the waitress, she just winked at you, in a friendly way, and started making your shots.Â
You looked around while you waited out of boredom, your body slightly swaying to the music, when you looked to your left you saw a woman at the end of the bar, her eyes already on you as she talked to a redhead woman who got her back to you, when you felt her gaze running your figure up and down you immediately turned your head, your cheeks feeling hot.
You couldnât really see her very clearly but⊠you could tell she was attractive.
âYour shotsâ the voice of the waitress pulled you out of your thoughts, you thanked her before paying and made your way to the girls, not without glancing again to the brunette woman, who was still following you with her eyes.Â
âWhatâs with the flushed face?â Yelena raised an eyebrow at you while taking her shot, Kate taking her as well.
âNothingâ you just shrugged it off and downed your shot, the hot liquid in your throat making you hiss, the couple glancing at each other shocked, but deciding to let it go.
Kate pulled you to the dance floor, the three of you starting to dance to the music, shouting along the lyrics, but you couldnât shake that older woman from your head, that wavy wild hair and those blue eyes checking you out.
It felt like she put a spell on you.Â
Yelena came back with another round of shots, downing them immediately she discarded them on one of the nearest tables. You started to feel the liquor easing your mind, your worries about your life slowly disappearing, only feeling the music and the lights above you.Â
Closing you eyes dancing to the beat like you were the only one in the club, itâs been so long you didnât feel this way, not caring about anything or anyone, you made a mental note to thank Yelena for convincing you to come, maybe you would regret it tomorrow morning when the hangover arrived but you didnât care a bit about that now.
When you opened your eyes you realized you lost the couple, looking around the dance floor you saw them far from you, dancing and practically making out in front of everyone, you giggled at the view and turned around, ready to go to the bar when you saw her, right in front of you still sitting at the stools. You paused for a second, watching as she sipped her drink calmly looking away from you.
Your eyes travelled her form, how the suit hugged her figure in all the right places, the sleeves of her shirt rolled up to her forearms making her look even better, your gaze went to her face again, admiring her side profile, that prominent jaw, watching how she licked her lips after sipping on her drink again, and then her eyes landed on you.
Fuck.
Suddenly everything went quiet around you, you could only hear the music blurry in the back, your heart pace quickening, only focusing how the woman winked at you, in a way of saying she caught you staring, but the smirk she wore told you she didnât mind a bit.
Maybe it was the alcohol, or just the way her eyes encouraged you to do something, but you felt a wave of boldness in you, making your way towards the woman, her smirk widening at the act âhiâ you told her your name, you were sure she could hear your heartbeat, you felt like it was going to pop out at any second.
âAgathaâ she simply told you, grabbing your hand assuming she was going to shake it, but your breath hitched when she took it to her lips, kissing the back softly âcan I buy you a drink?â
You just nodded, your voice failing you to let any word out and she just chuckled at that, finding your flushed reaction really cute âcome sit with me, beautifulâ she patted the stool next to her, you didnât hesitate sitting down, trying to hide your blush with your hair a little âyou want something in special?âÂ
âWhatever youâre drinking is fineâ you smiled at her, seeing how her lips pursed in a hum, her eyes lingering on your legs for a second, making you more flustered if thatâs even possible.Â
She ordered the drink before turning her attention to you again âmight sound like a cliche but, are you here all alone?â God her voice, that deep, slightly raspy voice, it sounded hypnotizing.
âNoâ you giggled and shook your head âI came with my friends, who almost dragged me here, but now they are somewhere making outâ you shook your hand towards the dance floor, making both of you chuckle.
âWell, Iâm glad they did, it would have been very bored for me otherwiseâÂ
âOh? Howâs that?â You raised an eyebrow at her and sipping the drink the waitress laid in front of you.
Agatha got closer to you, her chin resting against the palm of her hand âyouâre the only one who seemed interesting in this placeâ her other hand carefully sneaked itâs way to your knee, her finger tips dancing through your skin, quietly asking for permission.
You grabbed her hand in yours and put it flat on you upper thigh, making the older woman bite her lip, her thumb caressing your skin âthe feeling is mutual thenâÂ
Your eyes stared at each other for a minute, you could cut the tension between you with a knife, and when you felt her move towards you, her lips parting a little, you suddenly stood up, you were not gonna fall that easily.
The fun just started.Â
âWanna dance?â You held your hand to her, seeing as she chuckled in disbelief.
âOh no sweetheart, I donât danceâÂ
âToo bad, Iâll have to dance alone thenâÂ
You sighed dramatically and walked backwards to the dance floor, wiping a fake tear from your eye. Agatha shook her head at you, secretly loving the show you were putting on.
When you hit the dance floor you slowly started to sway your hips to the music, you hands traveling up from your sides to your head, tangling them in your hair as you closed your eyes, turning around so she could get a perfect view of your backside.Â
Her eyes never left your form, watching you dance so deliciously, eyes going from your swaying ass to your fabric less back, noticing your floral tattoo for the first time making her breath hitch, her fingers twitching around her glass, imagining how it would be to feel your soft skin under her touch.
She gulped down the rest of her cocktail and stood up, making her way towards you, carefully sneaking her arms around your hips not to scare you âyou are something else, you know that, doll?â Her low voice whispered right into your ear, making goosebumps raise all over your skin, a shiver running down your spine. And when you went to turn around she held you back tightly, pushing your back to her front ânah ahâ
You let out a gasp, your hands holding her wrists that rested on your abdomen, her hips started guiding yours, making you both moving in unison, you felt her breath on your neck, moving your head to the side making room for her to plant a light kiss just under your ear, one of her hands guided yours to the back of her neck, your fingers interlocking into her hair.
âFor someone who doesnât dance, you move pretty goodâ you turned your head so you were looking into her eyes, your teasing smirk making her chuckle darkly.
âYou have no ideaâŠâ she rubbed her nose against yours, feeling her breath against your lips, your eyes flickering between her mouth and her eyes, she slowly turned you around, her fingers softly caressing your spine.
Itâs been so long since youâve been this close to someone, feeling her soft hair around your fingers as you scratched the back of her head, her eyes never leaving yours, she made you feel shy under her gaze, biting your lip you looked away from her.
But it didnât last a second, her hand grabbed your chin and made you look back at her, her thumb pulling your lower lip from your teeth, stroking it slowly âif I kiss you now, will you pull away from me again?â She asked with a teasing tone, her eyebrow raising for a second.
You just shook your head, looking up at her with doe eyes âI wouldnât dareâ you whispered, your breath hitching as she closed the gap between your lips, you closed your eyes, your lips parting a little, waiting for the woman to finally kiss you, but after a second of waiting you felt her laugh under her breath as you looked at her again, your eyebrows furrowing in confusion, she was smiling diabolically, ghosting her lips against yours but never properly kissing you.
With a huff your hands grabbed her cheeks before pulling her towards you, your lips finally meeting, causing Agatha to hum in surprise but kissing you back without hesitation, her arms on your lower back pulling you flush against her âeager, are we?â She hummed between kisses.
âShut upâ you bit back letting out a chuckle, but the woman didnât like that, her teeth biting you qlower lip in a warning before her tongue intruded your mouth, making you moan into her mouth.
She liked controlâŠÂ
Good.Â
The kiss was soft, but intense, she tasted like sweet alcohol, her hands squeezing your hips, and when she pulled away for air you pouted, already missing her addictive soft lips.
And when she was about to comfort you she saw two girls behind you, looking at the two of you not very subtly, she turned to you clearing her throat âI hope those are your friendsâÂ
âWhat?â You looked at her with a questioning face before she pointed to them with her head, you turned around, her hands never leaving your body, when you saw Yelena with her arms crossed and raised eyebrow playfully and Kate giggling behind her âoh come onâ you groaned and hid your face in your hands.Â
âOh no, donât mind usâ Yelena said with a smirk âwe were just about to leave, are you⊠coming home with us orâŠâ she looked between you and Agatha.Â
You turned to Agatha, not really knowing what to do, you didnât want to leave at all, not now, but you didnât want to go home alone later âyou can come to my place if you wantâ she whispered in your ear and winked at you, making your face flush red, your breath shaking for a moment.Â
âAre you sure?â
âMore than sureâ she squeezed your hip and nodded at you confidently.
You turned back to the girls, perfectly knowing they saw and heard the interaction âIâm staying, donât worry about meâÂ
Yelena nodded before turning to Agatha âI donât forget a face, so be careful with her, or be sure Iâll search for youâ
âYelena!â You huffed at her in disbelief, leaving Agathaâs hold to push your friend away before she embarrassed you any further âI will call you if anything happens, I promiseâÂ
âI told you the top would work!â Kate squealed behind you, making you blush even harder.
âYes, yes, now please goâ you whined looking at her desperately, she gave you a quick hug and a âhave funâ whisper before dragging Yelena out of the club. You sighed in relief before going back to Agatha, who was trying to hold her laugh with her hand over her mouth âGod, Iâm sorryâÂ
âHey, theyâre just looking out for you, itâs cuteâ she chuckled and pulled you close to her again by your waist, it was cute really, seeing how protective they were of you, she wished she had someone like that in her youth, it would have saved her from a lot of unwanted situations ânow⊠do you want to go to my place?â
âRight now?âÂ
She hummed nodding her head âonly if you want to, of courseâ the last thing she wanted was making you uncomfortable âwe can walk, I only live a few blocks from hereâÂ
âI do want toâ you reassured her, holding her hand and squeezing it, and you two walked outside, hand in hand Agatha guided you to her house.Â
You made a little chat, talking about meaningless things mostly âare you cold?â She said seeing you shiver at her side, you just shook your head, telling her you were ok, but she just took off her blazer and placed it on your shoulders âif I let you freeze Iâm sure your friend will kill meâ you both chuckled at that, it was true, if you came home with a cold Yelena would certainly kill the woman.
Soon you arrived at her place, it was nice, a cute house in a neighborhood, she let you inside before her, allowing you to look around a bit âI wish to have a house like this some dayâ you smiled at her, following her to the kitchen.Â
âIf you work hard enough youâll have it in a few yearsâ she winked at you, watching as she grabbed two glasses from a cabinet, she poured you both some wine âand something tells me youâre a smart girlâÂ
That made you blush âwell I just finished college, thatâs why my friends wanted to go partyingâ you said while hopping on her island.
âCheers to that thenâ she clicked her glass with yours before sipping it âWhat did you study, if it isnât much to ask?â Her hand stroked your upper thigh, making you hold your breath for a second.Â
Her touch was just so⊠electrifying, so warm, it felt so good, you didnât know this woman at all, but you knew you wanted to feel her touch everywhere, her voice praising you right in your ear.
âI studied creative writingâ
You earned a curious hum from the woman, seeing how she made herself comfortable between your legs âI want to be a writer, but I have to get my masterâs degree to get a good job, but my brain is so fried of studying Iâm going to take a year break and maybe start writing my first book, who knows? It might blow up and I wonât have to study anymoreâ
The woman listened to you, paying attention to every word you said, a smile growing on her lips âthatâs very interesting, and Iâm looking forward to read your bookâ she squeezed your thigh, making you giggle âitâs true, Iâve always admired the creativity of the writers, or of the artists in generalâ
âYeah, it takes a lot of imaginationâ you hand played with her shirt âwhat do you do, if I can ask?â
You didnât know why but you wanted to know everything about the woman, you were sure she has lived a lot of adventures, the decoration of her home agreeing with you, it was full of paintings and sculptures of all around the world. And she did tell you, she told you she was an archeologist, how she has travelled all around the world, studying about all cultures and collecting so many treasures.Â
Her eyes glowed when she talked to you about her job and her trips, and you loved it, you wanted to be like that someday, being proud of who you were and what you have done.
She was inspiring.
You didnât know when or how but you ended in her living room, seated on the couch facing each other, wine still in hand, Agatha asked you about where you wanted to travel this year, telling you advises and warnings from the places she had been.
She told you stories, anecdotes, you spent hours talking, it felt so easy with her, youâve never met anyone this interesting.
You were both laughing at something she said, your hand fell on her thigh softly for support, when she suddenly grabbed your glass and discarded it on the coffee table with hers, when she sat back she pulled you close, pulling your now bare leg over her lap âyou are really beautiful, you know that?â She said wiping a hair out of your face, her thumb caressing your cheekbone.
âI could say the same thing about youâ you smiled at her, your lips kissing softly the palm of her hand.
âIâm oldâ she scoffed and bit her lip.
âYouâre not that old, and so what if you are? Iâve always found older women gorgeousâ you made yourself comfortable on her lap, your hands stroking her collarbone and neck âand you are gorgeousâ
Agatha just hummed and pulled you closer, her hands laying comfortably on your bottom âwell thank you, sweet girlâ she planted a kiss on the corner of your mouth, then your jaw, making her way down your neck, causing you to gasp, your hands going into her hair.
âAgathaâŠâ you breathed out, her teeth biting on you pulse point âplease⊠kiss meâ she turned her head to look at you, admiring the love bite she just left on your neck.
âSuch a good girlâ she hummed, her nose rubbing against yours softly âlet me hear you beg for me a little more, hm?âÂ
You pouted at her, yours hands traveling down to her shirt, unbuttoning it slowly âplease, I need to feel your lips everywhere, I need you, please AgathaâÂ
âEverywhere, huh?â She asked, making you nod eagerly âI canât deny such an obedient girl thenâ she said before her lips were on yours, how she perfectly molded your lips together, her tongue dominating yours into your mouth, it was intoxicating, addictive even.
The woman stood up from the couch, wrapping your legs around her middle as she walked up the stairs, holding you tightly so you wouldnât fall, her lips only parting from yours for air, immediately yours landed on her neck kissing and nipping softly, hearing how her breath hitched with your act.
When she arrived to her bedroom she laid you on her bed softly, seeing her stand on the end, her hair a mess from your hands, her lips puffed from the kiss, her shirt half unbuttoned, showing the purple lace bra underneath it made you shiver, your thighs closing on their own, feeling how wet you were already, it was embarrassing.Â
âNone of that, open your legs for meâ
Her eyes darkened suddenly, her voice lowed an octave while she finished taking off her shirt, throwing it somewhere in the dark room. You obeyed of course, your legs opening for her causing your skirt to ride up, your eyes never leaving hers, watching as she crawled the bed on top of you, her lips kissing the naked skin between your breasts.
âYouâre too dressed for my likingâÂ
You felt her hands pulling your top upwards, and you raised your arms so she could take it off completely âfuckâ she whispered when she saw your bare chest, her fingers softly dancing around them âdid I tell you how beautiful you are already?â
âYesâ you said gasping out, you felt her lips wrap around your left nipple, making your back arch from the mattress, your hands holding her hair, she just hummed and turned to your neglected nipple, tugging it carefully, earning a moan from you.
She was already addicted to your sounds, loving how you hips rolled into her with every touch, she wanted to hear you scream her name, to have you ruined beneath her, only the thought of that made her core clench into nothing.
On your end you were trying to ease your breath, itâs been so long without any kind of intimate touch you were so fucking embarrassingly soaked already, but you were sure if it was with anyone else you wouldnât feel like this, her touch was like magic, it made you feel so freaking good.
Agatha kissed her way down your stomach, leaving marks here and there, loving how they looked on your pale skin, when she reached your skirt she signaled you to lift your hips, her hands pulling the fabric down before discarding it on the floor âoh my sweet girlâŠâ she almost moaned at the sight of your ruined panties âI didnât even start yetâÂ
Her fingers ran down the wet spot, making you whine and hide you face in your hands âIâm sorryâ you whispered out.
âDonât be⊠itâs fucking hotâ she pulled your hands out of your face, the smirk on her face reassuring you she was being truthful, you nodded, watching her slowly pull your panties down your legs, your breath hitching in anticipation.
You only saw how her face changed, seeing you completely naked, spread out on her bed with her marks all over you, waiting for her next movement impatiently, your hips slightly moving on their own, you looked perfect, she wished she could take a picture of this moment.
With luck tonight would only be the first of many.
She started kissing your knee, painfully slowly making her way up your thigh, feeling her breath over your mound as she continued her tease on your other thigh âAgatha pleaseâ you huffed desperately, your fingers wrapping her sheets tightly âjust fuck me pleaseâ
Agatha chuckled, deciding to put mercy on you before her tongue ran through your folds, making both of you moan, you tasted like heaven, and she made you feel like you were in heaven.
She wrapped her lips around your puffy clit, her hands pining your hips down into the mattress with force, never taking her eyes from your face, seeing how it squirmed in pleasure, your head arching back into her pillow, your moans increasing with each movement of her tongue, she played with your entrance with her fingers, rubbing your wetness all over you hole.
Your hands flied to her hair when you felt her finger slowly pushing inside of you, she groaned at how easily you let her, yet how tight you felt, her mouth never ending the abuse on your clit, nipping and sucking on it, hearing how your voice failed you to let any sound, only gasps and broken moans.Â
âYou feel so goodâ she moaned biting you thigh âbeing such a good girl for meâ she felt you clench around her finger, slowly pushing another one in, keeping her pace slow but deep.
Your mind was blurred, you couldnât think, you couldnât talk, just feel her long fingers inside of you, curling and spreading, your climax growing quickly in your lower stomach, hearing her praises, how good you were taking her, how good you felt around her fingers, it was maddening you.Â
She could tell you were close, so close, your cunt tightening her fingers, your moans getting louder, you legs slightly shaking already, she had to be face to face with you, needing to see your expression when you came for her, her thumb continued stimulating your clit, her lips kissing your neck, going up your jaw.
âCum for meâÂ
Her deep voice in your ear made your insides snap, crying out her name you reached your orgasm with force, your back arching into her, seeing stars through your closed eyes. Agatha helped you ride your high, her fingers slowing their pace, staring at your blissed out face, how a smile broke into your lips.
She carefully pulled her fingers away, watching you open your eyes and looking into her eyes, your breath slowing easing, she brought her fingers to your lips âsuckâ she said, your mouth immediately opening for her, wrapping your lips around her digits, cheeks hollowing as you suck on them, your tongue cleaning them whole.
âSuch a good pet you areâÂ
Fuck yes, that pet name, if anyone else said that to you, you would have laughed, but coming from her⊠it made you immediately wet again, a shiver running down your spine.
Pulling her fingers out of your mouth she attached her lips against yours, biting your lower lip before her tongue intruded your mouth, you both could taste yourself on your mouths âcan you go again for me, pet?â
How could you deny her?
âYesâ you said breathlessly, pulling her into another kiss before she stood up from the bed âwait, where are you going?â You whined after her, hearing her chuckle and disappear into her large walk in closet.
A few minutes later she walked out, fully naked and with a harness around her hips, a big, purple, strap on standing proud and tall âfuckâ you let out in a breath, admiring her beautiful body, her long wild hair now in a messy bun.
âLike what you see, doll?âÂ
The cocky smirk she wore on her face told you she already knew the answer, watching her walk to the bed, like a hunter walking to itâs prey, her hands landing on your waist as she got on her knees on the mattress, waiting for her to do whatever the fuck she wanted with you.
You were willing to take whatever she wanted to give you.
Suddenly she turned your figure around, manhandling you however she pleased, bending your knees, making you stand on your elbows, her hand wiping away the hair from your back, her fingers following down the pattern of your back tattoo.
It made you giggle, just for this moment it was worth the six hours you laid still getting the tattoo a few months ago.
âYou like it?â You said in a teasing voice, turning your head to the side so you could look at her.
âYou have no ideaâ
She hummed her hand making itâs way up your back again, stopping at the back of your neck, slowly she wrapped her hand around your throat, squeezing just the right amount to make your core clench around nothing, you mind suddenly fogging in submission âis this ok?â She whispered against you ear.
You just nodded, afraid your words would fail you.
âI need words, petâ
âYes, fuck yesâ you whined out, feeling her length slightly rub against your wetness.
Agatha chuckled at your state, you were so pathetically desperate, it was adorable. She planted a kiss on your shoulder, her free hand guiding the strap to your entrance, seeing how you rolled your hips into it impatiently, your fingers holding the sheets so tight you knuckles became white âone rule, you wonât cum until I say so, got it?â
She didnât let you answer, feeling the large toy slide into you, making you hide your face into the pillow, trying to muffle your loud moans, but the woman wasnât having that, her hand on your throat sliding into your hair, pulling your head out of the pillow âI want to hear you, petâ she moaned into your ear, the heavenly sound causing goosebumps to erupt on your skin.Â
âI-Is it-?â
âDouble sided? Fuck- yesâ she hissed between thrusts, it wasnât fair, at all, hearing her moans and grunts into your ear as she thrusted into you, her pace hard and deep, feeling her right in your g-spot.
She had you cursing between moans, your legs already shaking after your first orgasm, the sound of her skin slapping against yours only making you closer to the edge.Â
You looked yo pretty underneath her, so ruined, it made her clench around the toy, the base stimulated her clit just perfectly, moaning as she bit your shoulder, trying to get a hold of herself, feeling how her nipples rub against your back.
Her hand made itâs way around your throat again, loving the feel of the vibrations from your sounds on her hand, she pulled your middle up from the bed with her, her free hand sneaking to your clit.
âfuck-! Iâm close, please-â you let out a broken moan, your hand scratching the back of her neck, making the older woman shiver.
âHold itâ she moaned into your ear âbe a good girl and wait for meâ she was close too, feeling her lower stomach burst with fire, but she wanted to make you suffer a little longer.Â
You whined out at her words, your nails digging into her wrist on your throat, tears threatening to spill out from the overstimulation, you were not gonna be able to hold it much longer, the feeling of her fingers on your clit making your cunt clench around her.
It only took her a few more thrusts, feeling on the edge with you âcum with me, petâ her voice weak while she bit on your shoulder, you didnât hesitate a second, letting yourself go, the orgasm waving through your body, feeling the older woman tense behind you, her hold on your throat tightening for a second, cutting the air from your lungs as another wave crashed over you.
She let go of you immediately when she realized, making you fall on the mattress, seeing you shiver for a moment when she caressed your back, both of you trying to catch your breaths for a minute.
You didnât realize her walking away, your mind to focused on the aftermaths of your high, it wasnât until you felt her turn you around carefully, a damp towel cleaning between your legs making you hiss a little.
When she finished cleaning you up she threw the towel somewhere, laying down besides you, her hand wiping away the hair from your face making you hum âwas it too much?âÂ
You opened your eyes at her worried voice, shaking your head immediately âit was perfect, thank youâ you whispered, kissing her lips softly as you wrapped your, still shaky leg, around her middle, your hand stroking her cheek softly.
âGoodâ she chuckled pulling you closer to her.Â
You stayed like that for a while, looking into each otherâs eyes, still calming down after your highs, before you broke the silence âyou know⊠I donât do this often, never done it actuallyâ you chuckled as you felt you shyness creep into your cheeks âand I really like you, so maybe⊠we could do this another timeâÂ
Your heart was about to pop from your ribcage.
âOf course, Iâd love to, dollâ she kissed your forehead smiling, sensing your nervousness.
âOk, goodâ you giggled, hiding you face into her neck.Â
Agatha chuckled with you, stroking your hair as she felt you arm wrap around her comfortably âjust to clarify, I donât to this often eitherâ she felt your shoulders shake with laugher.
After a few minutes you pulled your head from her neck, your elbow resting on the pillow, seeing how the rays of the early morning sun coming from her window light her beautiful face.
âAgatha⊠did someone tell you, your name sounds witchy?â You hummed in thought, the older woman looking at you in disbelief for a moment.
âThatâs because I am a witch, dollâ she scoffed playfully, pinching your side and making you laugh, falling back on the bed as she caged you between her arms.
âWhere are you powers then? I mean, every witch has powers, right?â You raised your eyebrow at her, your fingers pulling her hair from the bun she still had on.
Agatha stared at you for a moment, her long hair caging your face around it, it almost felt poetical âdidât I just show you? Maybe your little brain needs a reminderâ her bit back, her lips lowering on your neck.
âTouchĂ©â you just giggled, feeling her fingers tickle your sides.
And suddenly the sound of your stomach roaring made the woman look at you âoh my godâ you hid your face in your hands, both of you laughing into the air.
âCome onâ she stood up and handed you she shirt âletâs get you something to eatâ
âOnly if Iâm able to walkâ you chuckled, your legs still numb from the two powerful orgasms the woman pulled from you.
Agatha laughed, helping you up from the bed and down the stairs.
When you watched her cook breakfast for both of you, your only thought was you could get used to this.
And you thanked the heavens for Yelena to drag you out tonight.
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SUMMARY: 4 times that Y/N and Chris made a couple's trend on tiktok.
WARNING: None.
REQUESTED?: Yes, by anon.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: That is my work, I DON'T authorize any plagiarism! | English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if there's any grammar error.
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Since the pandemic, tiktok has become one of the most used social media in the whole world, thousands of people download it every day and thousands more create content daily or, sometimes, just post a video that explodes in views, many of them starting a career with it, or creating a hobby from it.
And that's what happened in Y/N's life. She was still finishing high school when she posted her first video on the app, not expecting it to get more than 10 likes.
She was at the triplets' house, still in Boston, watching a movie with her boyfriend, when that same video exploded, reaching more than 300 thousand views and 150 thousand likes.
So, while Matt, Nick, and Chris were starting their careers on their new YouTube channel, Y/N was starting hers on TikTok.
Fans loved the fact that Chris's girlfriend had a TikTok account and posted regularly, after all, she lived with him in LA, which meant that the fandom had content of her and him together almost weekly.
Y/N was the typical influencer who participated in all the trends that interested her, from dancing or singing famous songs to recording herself cooking different recipes.
But the ones she loved most were the couple trends, and it was nothing that a few minutes of begging Chris to do them with her couldn't convince him.
Secretly, the boy loved making that mini videos for TikTok with Y/N; he adored showing that he was hers, how much he loved her, and how obsessed he was with her.
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1.
Chris positioned Y/N's phone on top of his computer desk, the device resting on his laptop with the screen facing forward, the TikTok camera already open, and with the audio already selected.
The boy took his Prada wallet from the back pocket of his baggy jeans, leaving it ready in his hand, hiding it behind his back.
His blue eyes glanced briefly at Y/N, who was on his right side and out of the camera's frame, a smile on her face as she admired him, waiting for the recording to begin.
He extended his right arm, clicking the red button in the bottom center of the screen. The melody of the chorus of Cupid's Chokehold / Breakfast in America by Gym Glass Heroes began to play.
"Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like"
Chris removed his hand that was hidden behind his back, showing the black wallet and opening it, holding it on the left side so that the right side was exposed to the camera, the transparent plastic holding a small picture of Y/N. His face appeared on the right side of the screen, a sideways smile decorating his face.
The girl was lying on Chris's chest in the picture, probably in their bed, the room was dark and the camera's flash completely illuminated her face, a big smile adorned her features along with her closed eyes.
Chris brought his wallet closer to the phone's front camera, holding it there for a few seconds before lifting it slowly and lowering it quickly while moving slightly to the right side.
"Take a look at my girlfriend"
Y/N's figure appeared where the wallet was, wearing a pink set from Fresh Love, a soft smile on her face as her eyes focused on Chris, a passionate glow in them.
"She's the only one I got (ba-ba-da-da)"
Chris returned the smile, placing his wallet on the desk and pulling his girlfriend's body against his, filling her face and neck with kisses. Y/N, throwing her head back with her mouth open in silent laughter, was the last image the camera captured before the tiktok ended.
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2.
Y/N docked her phone in the phone holder attached to the dashboard of the triplets' car, which she asked Matt to borrow the keys so she could go out to lunch with Chris.
She lowered the device's screen brightness, leaving it at minimum so that Chris wouldn't see the TikTok camera opened. Her eyes quickly went to her boyfriend next to her, seeing him scrolling through his own cell, probably looking for a nice restaurant for them to eat at, as Y/N had asked him to do.
She quickly clicked the red record button at the bottom of the screen, smiling briefly at it, an amused gleam in her eyes.
"There's this Osteria Mozza that looks cool. It's Italian, just how you like it." Chris commented, his eyes still focused on his own phone screen as he read the restaurant's reviews.
"Great, I feel like eating pasta." Y/N nodded quickly. "Let me just touch up my lip gloss real quick." She asked, turning her body sideways and reaching over to the seat where Nick normally sits, grabbing her purse.
She pulled it forward, slamming the side of it against the back of Chris' head, before placing it on her lap.
"Ouch, fuck! What was that for?" Chris's voice was high pitched due to the surprise of the impact, his cap almost falling off his head as his right hand left his phone and went to his hair, fixing the piece there while he looked exasperatedly at his girlfriend, his blue eyes wide.
The girl pressed her lips together as she tried to hold back her laughter, clearing her throat momentarily. She opened her purse and took out her Dior lip gloss.
"I'm sorry, baby. I didn't even notice. Are you okay?" Y/N glanced at him quickly, her brow furrowed in false concern.
"Yes, just be careful next time." Chris asked, removing his hand from his cap before turning his attention back to his phone.
Y/N closed the zipper after reapplying her lip gloss, anticipating her boyfriend's final reaction before turning her body again, raising her arm and taking the purse to the backseat, slamming it into Chris again, this time hitting his nose.
"Babe! What the fuck?" He frowned, turning abruptly to her as he brought his hand up to his nose, rubbing the area. "What the hell are you doing?"
A sound of laughter escaped Y/N's throat, her mouth falling open as a laugh escaped freely, her head falling back. Chris watched her as if she were crazy, the beginning of a smile appearing on his lips, his blue eyes running over her expressions.
"I'm sorry baby, it was for a tiktok. You're so funny." She said amidst laughter, pointing to her phone that was still recording them.
Chris rolled his eyes, a big smile taking over his features as his hand reached for the device. He widened his eyes at the camera playfully before clicking the red button again, stopping the recording.
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3.
Y/N took advantage of the fact that Chris was still brushing his teeth in the bathroom of their bedroom to position her phone on the nightstand on her side of the bed, the front camera capturing an entire side of the room.
She pressed her lips into a thin line, trying to contain her laughter in anticipation as she grabbed her pillow and blanket from the bed, gathering them both under her arm.
"Chris, I'm going to sleep on the couch tonight." Y/N spoke out loud, intending for the boy to hear her.
And he did, lifting his head abruptly and turning his body completely towards her, his toothbrush in hand and toothpaste on his lips.
"What?" His voice was muffled by his full mouth, his eyes wide as he watched her in surprise.
"I'm going to sleep on the couch today." She repeated, looking directly at him this time, making sure her body wasn't in full view of the camera or cutting into Chris's image.
"What? Why?" Chris asked again, a thread of sadness crossing his blue eyes as his brow furrowed, his mind working hard to try to understand what he had done wrong. A pain took over Y/N's heart, wanting to give up on the idea right then and there.
"I'm going to sleep in the living room, on the couch." Y/N spoke one last time, turning around and walking towards the bedroom door, in order to open it, but her action was stopped by the brunette, who spat the paste in his mouth into the sink and dropped the brush, running towards the girl.
"Wait, you sleep on the bed, and I sleep on the floor above a blanket or something, and tomorrow morning, we'll talk about it. Just don't let me sleep alone." He asked in a desperate tone, taking her arm and pulling her close, wanting to hug her and apologize for whatever he had done, even without knowing what it was.
Y/N looked into Chris' eyes, her own wide in surprise. She didn't expect that.
"Oh my baby, no! It's a prank, just a tiktok trend." The girl explained quickly, pointing briefly to the phone still recording before pulling Chris into her arms, feeling her eyes filling with tears and her heart warming with love.
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4.
"Nick, this is not that difficult. They only have two types: pink and purple, I want the pink one! Are you dumb?" Chris was talking loudly, his phone pressed on his ear as he was on a call with his brother, having asked Nick to buy a specific candy he knew Y/N liked on his quick trip to Target.
Y/N walked towards him with her own phone in hand already recording, the rear camera facing Chris, who was sitting on their bed with his back against the headboard, the blanket covering half of his body as the sound of a random series came out of the television.
The girl was only wearing small cycling black shorts and a Chris t-shirt that was huge on her body, covering her bra-free boobs.
She walked closer as she watched her boyfriend fight with his brother, a look of boredom in his eyes that quickly met hers, a small smile appearing on his face as he sent her a wink.
Y/N smiled back before stopping her steps, her free hand going to the hem of her - his - t-shirt and pulling it up a second later, exposing her boobs to Chris.
His blue eyes widened in a matter of seconds, his mouth opening into a perfect O. Nick's voice sounded shouting from the other side, demanding that Chris responded, but to his ears, everything seemed to have gone silent.
"Nick, buy anything, you name it. I need to take care of one thing right now, I mean, two." The brunette spoke weakly into his phone, lowering the device and clicking the red button to hang up the call without even looking at it, completely ignoring Nick's voice on the other end.
The girl let out a laugh, the image of Chris standing up abruptly and pulling Y/N against his body being the last thing captured on camera, before the tiktok ended.
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series summary. the holy grail of the seven men who ruled the country's entertainment used to be your friends at school. now, ten years later and between successes and failures, what reason would they have to want to come back into your life? pairing. eventually ot7 x f!reader... or not? content. first of all, english is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes! curse words, flashback, a lot of remorse, fights, stubborn people, lack of communication, angst. a/n. its finally here. i haven't re read this chapter bc im almost falling asleep and i have to work tomorrow, but i'll give this one another look in the weekend. a friend of mine helped me with the traduction bc i'm really really burnt out rn. also, chapters names changed!! i hope you guys like this one! see you on the next oneđ«¶đ»
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âOppaâŠâ
Yoongi raised his head, his body leaning toward the piano acknowledging your presence in the room, and you could tell how he was physically struggling to move away from the instrument. Under his watchful gaze, you walked in his direction shuffling your feet, with a pitiful expression and every intention of openly complaining to one of the elders in your group of friends. But you relaxed your expression when you were a few steps away, recognizing his notebook on the piano lid and the trail of ink between his fingers at a safe distance from the keys.
His laughter confused you, and when you looked up, his lips were curved into a pretty smile. It was annoying. He was only two years older than you.
âWhat happened now?â
You remembered that you had come with a purpose, but your mind, as evasive and suggestible as ever, found more interest in what your eyes had caught.
âThe usual,â you barely commented, moving to sit on your legs in front of Yoongi. âWere you writing?â
Yoongi glanced over to find his notebook, his shoulders shaking in a sigh because he knew he wouldn't be able to escape this conversation now that you had discovered him.
âSomething like thatâŠâ
âCan I see it?â
âIt's nothing decent. I don't think it's prudent.â
You pressed your lips together at his response, letting your shoulders droop, disappointed. But it was what you had expected; after all, Yoongi was quite secretive about his notebook, and it was rare for him to let you get this close and know so much about him. Even though you had probably known each other since you learned to swim and multiply, and surely knew more skeletons in his closet than he would like to admit, Yoongi still had a reluctance to show you or anyonw his writings. You had to catch him at a very relaxed moment.
So you set aside your emotions, not allowing Yoongi to respond as you pouted, and crossed your arms while turning your head away.
âTaehyung and Jungkook got so competitive on the court that they kicked us all out,â you frowned, remembering how the two had rushed past you and stolen the ball in the blink of an eye, moving so quickly and with cheeky laughter that you barely understood what was happening until you saw them tussling with the ball in front of the scoring area.
They were already in extracurricular hours, and although everyone had subjects to study and delve into, they decided to take a moment to take advantage of the fact that the school court would be empty and play for a while. Jin and Namjoon had left the game after two quarters because they simply couldn't keep up, and since one was in your group with Jimin and the other with the two kings of competition that day, they decided to kick them out and leave them as referees along with Hobi, who was the initial one.
Surprisingly, Yoongi also didnât attend the game or his extracurricular class, choosing to get lost in the music room, taking advantage of the fact that it was empty that day because classes ended early.
âI donât understand why they have to ruin everyoneâs fun.â
Your little thirteen-year-old self, ignorant of many aspects of life, could only cross her arms and complain. Yoongi smiled, his two extra years of age giving him an understanding that perhaps you didnât have access to, because it was inconceivable to you that such a sacrilege could be considered funny. Basketball hours were sacred!
âThey're just messing around.â
âOppa, you should've seen how they were pushing each other,â you shook your head, refusing to believe that Yoongi really wanted to defend them. âIf you had been there, you could've stopped them.â
âAnd Jin?â
âHe was laughing with them.â
âAh,â Yoongi turned his head. âSo the second best option was me?â
You shrugged. âWell, I thought I could convince you to go to the court, butâŠâ
âButâŠ?â Yoongi rested a hand on the bench, leaning in to see you on the floor.
âMaybe itâs more fun to listen to you play the piano.â
You smiled brightly, intertwining your fingers while Yoongi wore a half-smile. Without responding, he straightened up again, adopting the posture he had when you saw him through the glass of the door, before you interrupted his concentration. His fingers danced in the air for a few seconds, touching the notes in his head, recalling sound after sound, until the pressure on them gave way to a melody unknown to you.
It had to be a new piece, a new composition in his notebook. Yoongi played, calm and serene, focused and absorbed, letting the sound flow as if it came directly from nature.
Seeing Yoongi like this was⊠a strange event. Later, as time passed, you would think it was unbearable to have to see him everywhere, to hear his name around every corner, but at that moment you were lost in him, absorbing the sounds of his mind that his fingers materialized on the piano, allowing yourself to be carried away by the tide of his emotions, the way he conveyed so many words with his touches. The fast and slow notes, the change of tempo, all so meticulously created and organized to send a message, to describe an emotion, to paint a scene.
Yoongi was scared. Perhaps nervous, even. When he finished his piece, you could only look at him in awe, his shoulders moving a little faster due to the intensity with which he finished, keeping his head down, as if processing what he had just done. His fear was palpable, his hopelessness and unease.
âOppa?â
âI donât knowâŠâ he paused, dropping the lid over the keys and taking a calmer posture. âI donât know if Iâll do the right thing when I graduate.â
âWhy?â your brow furrowed, and you leaned forward in concern. âYouâve always talked about it. And you have a lot of talent, oppa, I know youâll make it.â
Yoongi gave a nearly pained smile, as if he understood something you had no idea about.
âJin is going to medical school.â
âI know. But itâs what heâs passionate about,â you moved closer to your friend, trying to give him some of the support he always gave you. âIsnât music what youâre passionate about?â
The black-haired boy frowned. The answer was clear in his eyes, in the way he played the piano until he was breathless, but the gestures of his doubts were there too: when his fingers trembled with anxiety, his eyes gaining more shine as the seconds passed.
âOppa,â you called, trying to break the silence, trying to prevent his thoughts from eating him alive. âIf itâs what you love, youâll succeed. Iâm sure of that.â
You saw how the haze in his eyes disappeared, his features relaxing at least a little.
âI probably only have your support. Iâll have to rely on that.â
His small smile constricted your heart. In that moment, you didnât know what you could do to show him that it was enough, but you were also unaware of the reality that his words held. It was probably due to your age, the age difference with Yoongi, but you couldnât shake the feeling that he would never be completely satisfied with that. You wondered if it was about you, just for a second, recalling the way he smiled when some of the other boys gave him words of encouragement.
Maybe he was just more vulnerable with you than with the others, but a thirteen-year-old's reasoning didn't go that far.
With your foolish conclusion, you came home that day with a heavy heart.
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Speaking of loose ends and unresolved issues, there were some specific people who deserved to take home the award and the crown for the most intrigue of the century. Because when you entered Choi Dohyun's office, with Seojun and Yuna on either side, even knowing that there were things still pending answers and others you could barely understand, the last thing you expected was for those you werenât even aware of to suddenly materialize, like a kick to the stomach.
But keeping your head high and your composure was something you had lacked the last time, and thus, against all odds, your face showed no emotion when you caught a glimpse of Min Yoongi storming out of the office looking angry, not even when his eyes moved towards your figure and his wires crossed for a millisecond, betraying his movements. The sound of his shoes against the floor didnât even distract you, keeping your gaze fixed on the man who appeared behind the door, with a huge smile on his face and eyes that screamed that signing this contract might take more from you than it would give.
Min Yoongi flanked you, a nearly imperceptible gasp of surprise escaping him as you passed by his side, not even giving him a glance of acknowledgment over your shoulder, as if he were less than a mere insignificant dust particle, and he collected himself as best he could to keep walking, ignoring the astonished looks your companions shot him.
You flashed the biggest smile, a feeling of anger settling deep in your stomach, and you shook hands with Choi Dohyun, who was cheerfully introducing himself with a voice an octave higher than usual.
You didnât miss the way he shot a glance down the hallway, where Min Yoongi should have been disappearing, and the bitter sensation in your throat intensified.
âWell, donât take it the wrong way, Iâm very happy because we finally have this,â Yuna beamed, raising the envelope with the contract as if it were her most cherished possession, just as they exited the large publishing house and the cool afternoon air greeted them, âbut did we just see the damn Min Yoongi leave that office?â
You simply sighed, feeling the tension radiate from your brotherâs body, who hadnât separated from you since the moment you were ushered away by Choi Dohyun's secretary.
âThat was⊠wow. I donât even have words.â
Seojun rolled his eyes, and you had to suppress the urge to pinch his side when Yuna turned to look at you with the envelope in her hands while you all waited to see your fatherâs blue car navigate the avenue.
âDo you think⊠this means weâll have more opportunities to meet the seven gods of Olympus than most people?â
Her smile made you feel nauseous, but out of her ignorance, you could do nothing but try to mimic it. Seojun, on the other hand, was making nothing but irritated faces.
âMaybe, if you work harder.â
Yuna let out another squeal of excitement, and you took a deep breath when she turned around to look at the cars again. Seojun wrapped his arm around yours, glaring at anyone who came too close, even by accident.
Your friend kept murmuring in disbelief, and all you could think was that she was probably holding in her hands the worst decision you had ever made.
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Whatever the reason for your encounter with Min Yoongi, you had deduced that your bad luck came down to being out of the house. Putting a foot outside the holy altar of your home was proving lethal for your emotional stability, so you spent the rest of the day locked up, managing your social media and overseeing deliveries.
Dohyun had agreed that the publishing house would handle the entire printing, packaging, and shipping process of the books, as purchases were only growing with each passing day. His real offer was to leave you with nothing to do but continue planning your stories, because at that moment, you were a goldmine for him.
âUnbelievable! Jung Hoseok revealed the truth behind the distancing of the Korean entertainment dynasty.â
The voice coming from Yunaâs phone caught your attention. You lifted your head from the blank document on your computer screen, glancing sideways at your friend, who was comfortably sprawled on your bed with a furrowed brow and a conflicted expression, as intrigued as she was worried about what she had just heard.
âThese past few days have been tough for the kings of entertainment, as the last public sighting of them was over a week ago when Kim Namjoon, Min Yoongi, and Jeon Jungkook left the businessmanâs building and enthusiastically greeted all their fans. As good followers, we know itâs too strange not to see them often, and the last time this happened was when Jung Hoseok had the accident that prevented him from continuing to play professional tennis.â
Yuna looked intensely focused, biting her nail and awaiting the climax of the video. You couldnât help but roll your eyes, but you couldnât deny you were a bit curious about what news they would share, knowing that the boys werenât ones to openly discuss their private matters.
âWith their reputations at stake and rumors flying back and forth [how exaggerated], Jung Hoseok had to come out to clarify the situation. His official statement, which was informally published on the famous app Whotalks, said: âWeâre all fine. Please be patient with us.â Whether his statement implies misunderstandings among friends that are in the process of being resolved or if we should wait for an official statement from their leader, weâre not sure. But itâs concerning theââ
âWhy would they make such a big deal about this if they arenât even sure what that post implies?â
Yuna paused the video, giving you a confused look, surely thinking you were immersed in whatever you were doing on the computer (nothing), too busy to pay attention to these âinsignificances,â as you used to say.
âY/N, you really have no idea of the magnitude of power these men hold over the entertainment industry. With a snap of their fingers, they could shake everything.â
âAnd why did they get so much power?â
âThey earned it. Through their hard work.â
You couldnât help the huff that escaped you. You didnât find what Yuna had said funny because it was true; they had worked incredibly hard to achieve what they had at that moment. At least you knew that their beginnings had been humble. But it annoyed you, inevitably, because you couldnât control the resentment shaking in your chest. Healing my ass, you hadnât forgotten anything from the last few years, no matter how much you wanted to convince yourself otherwise. So much effort to force them out of your life, only for them to find a way to disrupt it again in a week as if they had some right.
What a bunch of audaciousâ
âOh. A message came in.â
Your friend sat up on the bed, and you sent her a confused look.
âMessages come in every second, Yuna.â
âItâs from a verified account.â
Without lifting her gaze in your direction, you froze in your chair.
âOhââ
Oh no.
âNo fucking wayââ Yuna stood up in the bed, exclaiming loudly: âKim Taehyung is in your DM's!â
âTell him to go to hell.â
â¿¿Huh??â
The words slipped out before you could think twice. From the tense way the words left your mouth, you could tell Yuna was torn between asking more or simply contradicting you. Her eyes moved from the screen to your face, her fingers moving almost imperceptibly over the device.
âYou know, every time you make it harder to understand whatâs going on with these people.â
Finally, she locked her phone and dropped it on one of your pillows. You had never been a fan; your friend understood that. She had never questioned you about it⊠except for that random afternoon in this same room when she asked too many questions, but after the encounter with Yoongi that afternoon, you wondered what moment or what would need to happen for her to stop believing that it was just a matter of taste differences and for you to have to tell her the truth.
Before everything that happened a week ago, you had never considered it necessary to talk about it because so much time had passed, and you believed you were at a point where things related to them really didnât affect you anymore, nor would you ever have to interact with them again to warrant giving your friend a statement. But of course, things were different now, and emotions would continue to clash with one another, and you hated to think that their attitudes meant they were trying to return to your life, or at least get involved to some extent, which would imply, strongly, that you would have to tell Yuna what had happened.
âHave you ever thought that you might have run into him if you had gone to the convention?â
âYeah...â you sighed in defeat. It was impossible not to consider that alternative, how things might have turned out. If you would still have this overwhelming resentment in your chest or if they would have carved their way back into your heart once more.
The foolish you at eighteen would be thrilled right now.
âAnd even with that doubt... donât you have even a little curiosity about what he says?â
You preferred not to, to be honest. You would rather just rip out every memory from your head with tweezers to be able to return to a semi-normal life, where your biggest worry should be saving enough for a trip and not when those damn lunatics were going to leave you alone.
But you found yourself stretching out your arm to take the phone when Yuna handed it to you, a grimace of insecurity settling on your face.
âIâm not going to ask,â Yuna spoke, and you sent her a glance just as she turned on the bed and took her own phone to continue watching her celebrity gossip. âIâm not going to pressure you.â
You didnât respond. You lowered your gaze to the device in your hands, feeling a mix of relief and bitterness. Well, at least she had given you the opportunity to worry about that later.
The screen lit up, and there it was. A new message from Kim Taehyung.
thv Hi. Itâs Jimin.
Huh?
You ?
The read notification arrived almost instantly after you replied. With your brow furrowed, you watched the bubble appear from his side of the chat.
thv Iâm sorry for writing from Taeâs account, but you blocked me
Ah. Ah. Right.
After receiving the notification that Jungkook had followed you a few days ago, and especially because he had shown up at your work out of nowhere short after that, you had blocked everyone else with an Instagram account, just to be safe.
A small detail.
You Oh, yeah
That Jimin was trying to contact you, considering the context of the whole situation, wasnât too outrageous. When you studied together, apart from being the first to start teasing others and fostering friendly banter, he was also the first to try to fix things because he couldnât stand hostile and tense environments. Itâs not that you thought he had a chance to fix anything now, but maybe you were a little interested in what he had to say. After several days, it was inevitable not to feel curious, right?
After the bubble appeared and disappeared several times, the message finally arrived.
thv Do you think we could talk in person?
You No.
thv I promise it'll just be me
You No.
thv It can be anywhere you choose
You I said no If you have something to say, write it If you donât have anything interesting to say, then Iâm going to block this account too
thv No Wait Okay.
The sound of Yunaâs phone had faded into the background of your mind. You kept your eyes on the typing bubble, fearing that maybe Jimin would change his mind and decide not to respond to the questions swirling in your head. Now that he was being so persistent, you were more eager to know. I mean, it was the least you deserved, right? Some kind of answer, some kind of reason, a why. Something to explain everything, because the root of that growing resentment in your chest was due to their lack of communication, to their ease in discarding you like a worthless piece of paper, not even caring if the air swept you away or the rain destroyed you.
They owed you something, and you had the right to an answer. You could have moved on, yes; you thought you had, yes; living with resentment in your heart affected a personâs life, yes... but God would be the only living being on earth and in the universe who wouldnât feel even a pinch of pain for everything that had happened. For the inexplicable disappearance, for the disconnection, for the destruction of an incredible blind trust that was woven with that friendship you believed to be unconditional but ended up being one-sided. Who could really blame you for being cautious of them?
If when you cultivated that friendship, that friendly love, the fruits they returned to you were rotten, how could you simply trust? Who could?
thv Iâm sorry for what happened. I know this was very abrupt, and it must have been strange for you
Strange, for lack of a better word. Strange was a euphemism.
thv I apologize on behalf of everyone.
You Iâm not interested
thv If we could meet in person, I could explain better
You Iâm not interested. That wouldnât change anything.
thv I know this goes beyond what happened this week, but I donât want you to have a bad impression
You Youâre a damn audacious one, Jimin Do you think itâs only the latest thing that would make me see you all negatively? Is that the only thing youâve done? Or well, what you havenât done either
thv Okay, I expressed myself very poorly I know we were already on bad terms before; I meant that I didnât want it to get worse
You Well, honestly, I didnât think it could get worse until now.
thv Iâm making it worse
You Wow, apparently you do have awareness and common sense For many years, I thought you lacked that
You blocked the phone, letting it drop onto the table, your heart racing because of the audacity that man had to refer to what had happened as if it were just a silly childhood memory, as if it had simply been a stupid basketball game where you werenât allowed to play. That only reinforced your thinking, the only plausible reason you had given life to over the past few years, the only explanation you had for their disappearance: that they never cared about you as much as you did about them; that you were never truly fundamental in their lives. Because, come on, they had built a friendship and shared memories before you appeared on the scene; they knew each other beforehand with a depth you could never reach, long before your name reached their ears. They had a connection; you were never ignorant of that; there was something in them that kept them united, something that made them understand each other almost on a spiritual level, and naively, you believed they had made you a part of it; that you had managed to be part of that connection.
But no, it was never like that. It was always one-sided. Whether you were a game, a case of charity, or someone they simply couldnât say no to, you had no idea, but none of those options felt too foreign to reality. Especially considering the way Jimin referred to the past as if it had been a child's game and nothing more. There was never more for them. You should've known that.
thv Iâm really sorry, y/n I truly wish I could talk to you in person I promise I can explain many things
His messages shone on the lock screen, and more than feeling curious again, you felt rage. So now they could talk. Now they could fucking communicate. Where was that willingness ten years ago? Five years ago, even? You never thought you would see any of them so willing to offer you what you had longed for, maybe at least to finally bring closure to the whole situation.
But you didnât want to give them the right to become the victims in this situation. They had time to do something, yes, now you knew, and they simply chose not to; it was high time you really let it go. Let them go. What would an explanation fix now? When, if there was still something of the friendship you built, it should've crumbled to dust. Their willingness now meant nothing. If you ever saw any of them again, you would rather rip their hair out in a fit of rage.
You Fuck you Fuck all of you
And you blocked Taehyungâs account.
Anticipating any possibility, you also blocked Jungkook and hoped that would be the end of it.
Finally, you would try to seek true healing, because it was about damn time.
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You y/n, I'm so sorry y/n? y/n????????????????
Oh no. Taehyung's going to kill me.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â
Speaking of the king of Rome.
Park Jimin flinched, tightening his fingers around the phone he was holding, which clearly wasnât his, literally caught red-handed. He swallowed hard when his friendâs footsteps drew closer, circling around to face what he feared most.
âJimin...â Taehyung began, his confused expression turning into caution, quickly shifting his gaze between the phone and the wide-eyed blonde. âTell me you didnât do it.â
Jimin shrank even more, pursing his lips, realizing there was no escape. In his defense, he had fervently believed for a moment that he would succeed. Taehyung hadnât agreed from the start, especially given how angry Yoongi had been that afternoon when he arrived at the penthouse and how he had locked himself in Namjoonâs office, and the tone of their voices hadnât diminished for even a second, especially not when Jin arrived an hour later.
Taehyung and Jimin werenât sure what had happened, but considering the recent events, they could make an educated guess.
It all led back to you.
They were surely paying for what they did.
âI told you it was a terrible idea!â Taehyung strode closer and snatched the phone from Jiminâs tightly clenched hands. Jimin let out a defeated sigh, sinking back against the couch as Taehyung began to scroll through the messages, growls escaping his throat.
âI didnât think sheâd be so...â
Jimin hesitated, and when he turned to look at his friend, his furrowed brow silently asked, âare you serious?â
Another defeated sigh escaped him.
âYouâre not fixing anything. If Namjoon finds out about this...â
Taehyung didnât finish his sentence, but Jimin understood. But could any of them really blame him? Let he who is without sin cast the first stone! No one was a saint in that place when it came to you. At least he had the decency to try to explain things when the others just charged in as if nothing had ever happened (for now, Taehyung and Jungkook, simply because he still had no idea what had happened with Yoongi).
The problem, of course, was that Jimin was better at comforting someone in person than through messages.
âThere's no going back from this.â Taehyung murmured, still focused on the screen. The shine in his eyes gave Jimin an idea of what was going through his mind, and he remained silent until Taehyung looked up. âWe really messed up.â
âDid you need this reality check?â
âDid you?â Taehyung frowned. âI donât know why you expected a different response.â
âWell, what did you expect to happen doing what you did?â
Jimin watched his friend click his tongue.
âWhat did you expect me to do? I didnât think it would snowball like this.â Taehyung shook his head, and Jimin barely recalled with a shudder how the atmosphere had felt in the penthouse after Tae had posted that story about your books on his Instagram. âI just wanted...â
Once again, Taehyung chose to remain silent, but in his absence of words, Jimin understood.
To make up for it.
âObviously, Iâm not going to say anything,â Taehyung added, shooting a sideways glance at his blonde friend. âAfter whatever happened with Yoongi, I donât even want to imagine how Namjoon would react if he finds out about this.â
âIf he finds out what?â
Jimin and Taehyung froze on the couch, watching through the reflection of the TV as the person appeared behind them before they could recognize the friendly yet concerned tone.
Jung Hoseok circled the couch, clearly troubled by what he had just heard. It was evident he had just returned from practice because his hair was wet and he looked somewhat flustered, his cheeks flushed despite the chilly weather that night. He dropped his training bag on one of the armchairs, and Jimin averted his gaze when he caught his friend's eyes. It wasn't that they usually kept secrets and tiptoed around the others, but ever since Jungkook had pulled that stunt of searching for you at work when Namjoon had expressly forbidden it, the waters between them had been a bit tense, and any topic involving you could explode any healthy and cooperative conversation in seconds.
Hoseok crossed his arms, allowing his cheerful expression at finally arriving at the penthouse to fade completely, hardening his features as he shot a stern look at the two young men.
Taehyung also averted his gaze. The moment he heard Hoseok's voice, he tucked the phone between his legs and probably looked tenser than he should have. He, just like Jimin, didnât dare meet Hoseokâs eyes at that moment. Because Hobi had stopped at the door, and with whom they had in front of them, they couldn't hesitate. They both knew it, they both understood.
And Hoseok knew very well. He was aware of all the tricks the two shared and could sense from their silence that they were up to something. Besides, of course, their conversation had been overly revealing. They had to be thankful it was him who arrived in the midst of their confessions, and of course, he would demand to have a conversation of such gravity with such freedom.
But no, in that house, secrets were not kept.
âIf he finds out what?â Hoseok emphasized the words, urging the stubborn young men to keep their mouths shut.
Hoseok then exhaled through his nose in a sigh.
âIs it about y/n?â
Jimin and Taehyung lifted their gazes, a bit tempted but diverting their eyes as if pretending to be uninterested. While the atmosphere had been very tense lately, Hoseok and Jin had kept themselves somewhat distanced from all that unease, mainly because their demanding jobs kept them away from the penthouse most of the time. Namjoon, for his part, couldnât escape the topic as easily since he had an office at home, initially to monitor them in a healthy way, and now because he felt the need to keep an eye on each of them to prevent them from doing something stupid.
Yoongi... well, maybe he had tried to stay on the sidelines, but he had clearly failed miserably if he had ended up arguing with Namjoon and Jin.
âWhat did you guys do now?â
Hoseok's severe tone was chilling. Jimin remembered the times he had decided to participate in his dance classes, the few that he taught personally each month, and how he had felt Hoseokâs sharp gaze and his blunt comments about his steps in front of all the students. It was as if he became another person. Although it was terrifying, the two young men admitted it was refreshing to see him like that in the academy, because he had lost a bit of his spark since his accident. Before, he only looked that serene and committed when he was at his tennis practice.
At that moment, however, Jimin and Taehyung appeared more reluctant despite his severe attitude, because they didnât know if he would spill the beans to Namjoon afterward.
âAnd what happened with Yoongi?â
The slight softness in his tone made Jimin lift his head. Still with his arms crossed over his chest, Hoseok sat across from them at the table in the center of the room.
Jimin sighed, and Taehyung shot him an alarmed look. Are we really going to give in this quickly?!
âWe donât know what happened with Yoongi. He just arrived in the afternoon, locked himself in the office with Namjoon, and they wouldnât stop arguing. Then Jin came in, but that didnât make them stop.â
Hoseok looked up, scanning the hallway. Now the house was silent, perhaps more grave and tense than usual. Hoseok didnât know how it had come to this and hadnât sensed that atmosphere immediately.
âIs Jin here?â
âI think heâs in his room,â Taehyung replied, shifting on the couch. âHe stormed out of the office a while ago.â
Hoseok grimaced at the mere thought, causing a shiver.
âThen it is about y/n.â
Jimin and Taehyung once again averted their gazes.
âOh, come on.â Hoseok uncrossed his arms, more frustrated than angry at that moment for not being able to fully understand what was causing so many arguments among his friends. âIâm not going to go talk to Namjoon later, regardless of what you tell me. I just want to understand.â
The two young men exchanged a glance, Hoseok believed, communicating mentally. It was always strange but interesting how those two could understand each other at such a level that often they didnât even need a look. They could support each other's ideas without overthinking it, just like they were doing at that moment in front of him, and Hoseok couldnât help but think that this topic could cause them more harm than they realized. That these two were even hesitant to share something with him now, fearing to do so, considering whom they could trust or not, spoke volumes about how this issue was being handled and it was not healthy at all.
Hoseok didnât know that Namjoon had been arguing. The only time he had talked about that topic with the others was when Jungkookâs incident happened, because by crossing such a clear and blatant line, Namjoon saw the need to have a group meeting to set some ground rules. But whatever had continued to happen that he was unaware of was creating cracks in the trust of all the members, and that didnât sit well with him at all.
âI wrote to her on Taehyungâs Instagram,â Jimin began, looking down with his hands intertwined on his legs. âAnd I might have made things a lot worse...â
âMight have?â Taehyung turned to look at the blonde, who barely raised his head to meet his gaze before Hoseok interrupted.
âAnd what did you say to her?â
Jimin pressed his lips together. âI asked if we could meet in person, and when she said no, I just tried to apologize for everything.â
âDonât forget that you proceeded to carry out a rather undisguised gaslighting.â Taehyung added.
âI didnât manipulate her!â
âYou spoke to her as if everything that happened didnât matter at all!â
âThatâs not how it was! I just expressed myself very poorly,â Jimin exclaimed, facing Taehyungâs accusations, who remained with his arms crossed and chin raised, clearly in disagreement with him. âYou, more than anyone, know that I donât communicate well through text.â
âBecause you overthink everything. You didnât even need to text her in the first place. I told you it was a terrible idea. Now she hates us even more!â
âDid she say that?â Hoseok intervened.
Taehyung gave him a disbelieving look.
âAnd I quote: fuck all of you.â
Hoseok took a deep breath, trying to process the situation. Taehyung looked angry, and Jimin appeared offended that Taehyung was so upset about what he had done, in addition to misrepresenting his words, if Hoseok understood correctly. But the brown-haired guy had a point: it had indeed been a terrible idea, and Namjoon would lose all his hair if he found out. He understood Jiminâs motivation for trying to reach out, but Hoseok felt Jimin had lost some tact in the process by approaching you just to find a quick solution. Clearly, the atmosphere in the penthouse was affecting everyone, and not in a good way. He couldnât judge or blame Jimin for trying to lighten the situation for both parties, even if he could have approached it differently.
So Hoseok sighed, understanding the magnitude of the problem they had, and turned to the two young men who were now looking at him attentively, after recently avoiding his gaze as if their lives depended on it.
âHow did you think you were going to meet her with the level of fame you have?â
Hoseok knew Jimin had acted on impulse, and perhaps addressing the underlying reasoning would make him think better next time, if there was one.
Jimin opened his lips slightly, confused.
âI... I donât know, but I would've found a way.â
Taehyung scoffed. That would have been impossible because, surely, only after Jungkook, Jimin was one of the most recognizable faces in the industry and, therefore, couldnât walk freely down the streets without having a horde of fans behind him within seconds. If, for some divine reason, you had agreed to meet with Jimin, then he would have exposed you too much to the public eye and you would have had more problems before getting any answers.
âThereâs no way, Jimin.â Hoseok spoke, as the blonde shot a fierce look at his brown-haired companion. âWeâre no longer in a small town.â
The two young men turned to the elder, putting their silly squabbles aside. A feeling of nostalgia and longing filled the air, embracing them and bringing to the surface poorly buried memories in the gardens of their minds; the gusts of Hoseokâs words uncovered them easily.
âWe canât afford that luxury now. We lost the opportunity a long time ago.â Hoseok reminded them, with a hint of discord in his voice.
Taehyung hated remembering those times. Having had his hands tied, sealing his mouth voluntarily, believing he had no other option... it completely sickened him. For a long time, regret had physically drained him.
âI wonât talk to Namjoon, donât worry.â Hoseok assured them, and although the two young men should've breathed with relief, the truth was that they already felt too shaken. âBut be more careful about where you talk about these things.â
âWhat things?â
âFuck!â
Taehyung jumped off the couch when the voice came from his right, being the closest to the source. The three friends turned to see Yoongi, walking down the hallway from his room to the main living area of the penthouse.
âAre you guys sharing secrets?â
Instead of being scared, Jimin and Taehyung fell back onto the couch, letting out an exhausted breath. Yoongi shot a confused look at Hoseok, who returned it with a more severe expression.
âCome here, Yoongi. We need to talk.â
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Please can we have more Yan justice league?
Maybe the reader has a boyfriend in the military so she doesn't see him much and when he comes back to visit, the go on a fancy date before they crash it?
It would make it even better if they reacted to the boyfriend about to propose to her!
A Day in Life: Heartbreaks
Synopsis: A day in your life where your yanderes find a secret of yours and tell you another one.
Pairing: Yandere!Justice League X Assistant!Gn!Reader; Modern!40s!Bucky Barnes X Reader
Tw: Bucky youâre one of my fav characters from Marvel, I'm so sorry I did u dirtyđ; Heavy mentions of cheating and NO forgiving; Stalking; English isnât my 1st language.
Word count: 1k
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Extra notes: I should be studying instead of writing this. Also omg I got so many requests in just a few hours, thank you very much!! I'm writing them all!!
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Since most of your days became filled with stress and anxiety, you started appreciating even more moments where you could just forget all your problems, from small ones â like, lack of motivation to go to the gym, bad hair days and an ingredient you forgot at your fridge and became rottenâ, and big, out of your control ones â like seven superheroes, who you see almost everyday, stalking you.
Your boyfriend getting back was one of the best dic(k)strations.
Bucky was a sergeant, he spent weeks, even months, away from you on missions. It was hard, but you were both busy people, so your mind was usually too stimulated to think about boy problems only all day, most adults were, and you believed the hard work would be worth it one day. The future was hopefully bright.
The League never mentioned him. Actually, some of them implied more than once that they thought you were available, so they probably didn't know about your relationship. You didn't use much social media and your boyfriend got especially busy this year, so it made sense.
He paid for you to get your nails done earlier and took you to a nice restaurant. After that, Bucky took you for a walk around the city, lively and beautiful even at night, and stopped at the park where your first date happened. Everything was fine, until he got on his knees. Suddenly, seven, mostly colorful, figures descended upon you from out of nowhere, screaming.
â (Y/N)! YOU CAN'T MARRY HIM! â Flashâs voice startled you, confirming your suspicions to who the group was.
You growled.
â SERIOUSLY? LEAVE ME ALONE! IT'S MY DAY OFF! â Bucky, who had swiftly gotten up with his fast reflexes as soon as the heroes charged, blinked at the sight. He looked between you all.
â Doll? Whatâs this? â You looked apologetic at him.
â Sorry, Bucky. Since I got my job, my bosses got⊠Protective over me⊠â You didn't want him to get hurt. Bucky and his friends had a great sense of justice and hated bullies. He would surely want to do something if he knew the true extent of things. You also didn't want to ruin the vision he had of his idols.
Since their obsessive behavior started, you just counted your lucky stars that they would just get tired of you one day or wouldn't sabotage your relationships. They seemed fine with you having friends, but dating was different.
You turned to the League.
â Go! â They shook their heads.
â You can't trust this bastard, darling. We have proof of his betrayal to you. â You looked at Wonder Woman skeptically and crossed your arms. Bucky gulped.
â Oh, really? How so? â You raised an eyebrow.
Batman fiddled with his wrist computer, a second later, a protection was shown and different pictures and videos of your man talking and being very intimate with someone very familiar to you appeared. Your stomach churned and your heart ached.
â This is fake! Doll, you have to believe me! â Bucky cried out and got in front of you, holding your shoulders, trying to cover your vision from the images. You took a step back and kept looking at the images.
The League had more than enough means necessary to fake all of this, but you knew Natasha was Buckyâs ex, and they were still friends and coworkers, even with their intense heartbreak. You sometimes got insecure and worried since they spent so much time together, but he always told you you had nothing to worry aboutâŠ
You gulped.
The League was all glaring at his back while he shouted a hundred words per minute, desperately trying to convince you he was telling the truth.
Superman growled and walked forward until he grabbed Bucky by his shoulders and pulled him away from you.
â Stay away from them, you asshole. (Y/N), I would never do that to you. â You ignored Green Lantern's words, like you were doing since the pacifier incident. You knew he was getting desperate and that made you specially scared, but at least he gave you some distance.
â Not now. â Batman took a step forward. â A few hours ago, we discovered your relationship. For security reasons, we searched, and found these pictures and conversations from his second social accounts, that he uses to commit his cheating.
â He didn't try to hide much, he thought he wouldn't get caught. â Flash stated.
â I-I need more proof⊠These could be old⊠â Your first words spoken made Bucky shut up. Mind scrambling for something.
â Let the Lasso of Truth speak for him. â In a second, the Lasso was thrown around Bucky's torso and he was squirming. â Speak, you worthless mortal! â Wonder Woman ordered.
Bucky was able to struggle for a few seconds, before he blurted out.
â It's truth! It's truth! I told her we broke up and started dating her again! I thought I could have you both at the same time!
You gasped. Your hand shot to your chest.
Flash was on your side in a second, trying to hug and comfort you, but you pushed him away. You started crying from heartbreak and anger.
â HOW COULD YOU?! â You glared at him and pointed at his face.
â Doll⊠I swear I love you both. But I'm also narcissistic, insecure and look down on women. â The Lasso was really doing its job. You laughed humorlessly.
You had nothing to say anymore. No reason to stay. You took advantage of his tied arms and got close, punched his nose, and stomped away.
The League contemplated going after you and trying to bring you comfort, but Batman and Martian Manhunter decided to just let Bucky go (after intimidating him so as to not get close to you again) and follow you discreetly, watching you from the shadows, intervening only if necessary.
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Prison Reid x Fem!reader
Read part two here!
Summary: Your best friend asks you for a favor and you must defend the innocence of the man you were in love with, the same man for whom you left the FBI and moved to another country years ago.
Words: 1,6k.
TW: mentions of murder, trauma, death, jail. angst without happy ending. miscommunication. right person, wrong time. reid's time in jail. spoilers for season 13 and all the ones before that. english is not my first language (sorry for my mistakes, be kind please).
Note: First of all I want to thank you for all the support in my first post because the truth is that I didn't expect (if you haven't read it yet, I already have my masterlist). I still can't believe I reached 1000 notes, it makes me very happy.
And secondly, I apologize in advance for this, but I love drama and being a little cliche sometimes. I promise to write a nice, comfortable, less dramatic Spencer story in the future (I hope so) but ttpd is my everything lately.
⥠Enjoy! âĄ
The constant pounding of your right leg against the table was beginning to make you desperate and to dwarf the room. You didn't know what to do to stop and think for a few seconds, you had even lost count of all the times you had tried to fix your already perfect and ironed clothes that you had spent hours choosing and modeling in front of your hotel mirror.
It felt like hours had passed since you arrived at the prison, though it was probably only a few minutes. Part of you wanted to run out of there and avoid a dangerous reunion at all costs. The other part was anchored to the chair and would not move until you found a way to get Spencer out of there and fulfill the favor Emily had asked of you.
You couldn't let your best friend down, especially when her job could be in jeopardy if Reid was still in prison. You wanted to make sure she was okay, and repay her for all the favors she had done for you during the years you had lived together in London. Without her, you probably would not have survived or become the successful and respected lawyer you were now. She helped you heal when you needed it, now it was your turn to help.
Before you could think, grab your things and maybe even leave the room to catch your breath, a guard abruptly opened the door. Your eyes immediately fell on the handcuffed man the guard had practically thrown into the chair in front of you.
You blinked several times, trying to process that you were actually standing in front of him. He looked so different from the way you remembered him from the occasional picture Prentiss showed you. The years hadn't gone by for nothing, you knew that, but Spencer looked like someone else. It was more than the messy hair, the beard, or the numerous bruises on his face that made you wince. It was that his eyes no longer sparkled, and he himself looked dull.
The guard came out after warning them that they only had fifteen minutes, and the cameras pointed directly at you two.
âHey.â That was all you could say, biting your inner cheek at how stupid it sounded.
At first he didn't react and hardly seemed to breathe. His expression was like seeing a ghost, and you couldn't blame him after so many years of not hearing from you. You knew you looked different from the last time you saw each other because you had tried too hard to look like someone else. You wore your hair shorter and a different color, even the way you dressed was other. You looked more serious and grown up.
âWhat are you doing here?â He asked dryly after scanning you with his eyes for a few seconds.
You froze when you heard him speak and his voice, once music to your ears, was like a kick in the stomach.
âI came to help. I thought Emily told you...â
âShe told me that she wanted to call you but I told her not to.â Spencer cut you off before you could continue speaking. âThat you weren't going to help me.â
You frowned as your brain processed those words.
âWhy not? You...you are my friend.â You said, trying to hide the tremor in your voice.
He clenched his jaw and narrowed his eyes, trying to look away from you because it hurt. You could feel the tension multiply, making it almost impossible to breathe in the small room.
âFriends don't stop talking for six years and pretend the other doesn't exist.â
Oh, that had hurt.
It was true that you had disappeared from his life six years ago, and you had not made the slightest effort to return, even leaving the country with the excuse of looking for a better future. But you had your hidden reasons, you wanted to forget Spencer Reid and your intensely ridiculous and unrequited love.
From the first time you heard him talk about statistics and smile at you like a child, realizing that you listened to him like no one else, you fell madly in love with him for years. Always hoping that one day he would stop thinking of you as his friend and realize how much he deserved to be loved and that you would be happy to do so, that you could give him the whole world without hesitation if he asked you to.
At first you thought he wasn't that interested in love, that he was too smart and focused to lose his mind like you did for him. However, then you saw him several times interested and pining for other girls: the movie actress, JJ, the girl at the bar and Maeve...she was very different and painful for you.
You couldn't stand his strong love for her, at least not being so close to him and having to play the role of the best friend who always listened to him repeat how wonderful she was. Knowing that he could fall in love with someone he didn't even know personally instead of you, whom he saw every day and had known for years, changed you and made you run away to save your heart.
You got a new job far from the United States, thanks to Agent Hotchner and his glowing letter of recommendation. And so you went back to being an ordinary lawyer, no longer chasing serial killers or a boy genius who never loved you as you would have liked.
âSpence, I...â You tried to speak softly, almost having the urge to take his hand to make the situation better, but you didn't. âI'm sorry.â
He was obviously tense, he wouldn't even look you in the eye and you could swear his eyes were a little crystallized. He barely glanced at you for a second before speaking again.
âYou don't have to say it if it's not true.â
âIt's true.â
You stopped yourself for a second, sighing and centering yourself again.
âBut I'm here for the case, to help you with that...and I'm sorry for everything that happened to you.â You said more calmly and with an almost sweet tone.
You both knew it was more than just the prison issue and the current situation. It was a sorry for Maeve's death, Alex, Morgan and Hotch's resignation, his mother's problems, Cat's damn appearance, and most of all for not being there to support him in all.
âYou should have called and said so.â He finally responded after letting out a snort and tensing his jaw more.
âYeah...I should have.â You admitted, shifting uncomfortably in your seat.
You thought silence would take over the room again, but instead he spoke again.
âYou can go now.â
âI'm not going anywhere unless you're free.â You pointed out with determination.
âYou don't have a problem with go before.â He said in the same indifferent tone that was beginning to irritate you.
You should have frozen, kept quiet and focused on the case to get him out of there. But you couldn't do that and act professional when your insides were burning with the memory of the past.
âDon't give me that, you know why I did.â You blurt out, frowning and instinctively pushing the chair away from the table that separates you from him.
âYou never said anything to me.â He replied, running a hand through his hair in frustration before speaking again. âYou just disappeared like everyone else I've ever loved because you got bored with me.â
âYou know I left for the opposite reason, because I...â You tried to say, but your voice cracked and your hands shook in an awkward attempt to touch his. âI loved you the way that you were and...â
The sudden sound of the door opening made you gasp and immediately shut up. The presence of a grim-faced guard made you realize it was all over, and you pulled your hand away from Spencer's again.
âTime's up.â The guard reported and you signaled him to have at least more minutes.
Fortunately, the guard nodded and gave you only five more minutes. You looked at your client again, trying to get into the professional role and discuss his case, but he seemed to be in another world after your half sentences.
There was no room in Reid's mind for your words, after feeling guilty for so long for not doing enough to be a good friend to you, for scaring you away with his problems, for not being one you wanted to keep over time and return his calls. But now, did you really say what you thought? Did you really love and care for him?
Everything was tearing his word apart in that moment.
âYou won't have to see me if you don't want to, but I'll get you out of here soon, Spencer. I swear.â You promised and you could see in his face the surprise at your honest tone.
Maybe he expected a different attitude from you, maybe he thought you were still so obsessed with him that you would insist on seeing him and kill yourself to make him laugh again. But you had matured, or so you thought. You were no longer the young woman who hugged him every time he felt far away and was content to be the one who was left over. Now, you were the brave woman who left the ship before it sank completely.
As you watched the guard check the handcuffs and lift Spencer out of the seat to take him away, something inside you reacted. You called out his name before you could react and quickly had his desperate eyes on you.
âYou don't have to worry about the past...I'm over you.â You said confidently before nodding goodbye and walking out with one less burden.
He remained anchored to the ground, trying to process your words with his racing mind as he watched you leave him again.
You...you had been in love with him?
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Enemy
Kinktober day 3
Paring: Spiderwoman!reader x Venom!Nat
Warnings: SMUT, dub-con, fingering, tendril sex, Venom forming a dick, (Iâm sorry), degradation, humiliation, public sex, breeding kink, nipple stimulation, orgasm control,
!Disclaimer English is not my first language so please excuse any grammar or spelling errors. This story is completely fictional!
A/N: Iâm very sorry if you read this Lewis
Masterlist- Kinktober
The rain was purring onto the dirty streets of New York washing away all the grease left by the city however the read dirt stayed; they had to be taken care of by you. You were Spiderwoman since you had turned 17 a few years back and since then the streets were your life. Your mornings, your noons, your evenings even your nights had been spent cleaning this city from its dirt. There was simply no time of a committed relationship, even though you had tried and failed with what you thought would be the love of your life. Unsurprisingly being a superhero barley covered anyones bills not like it had been implied by the comics you had spent your whole youth reading. You couldnât quit either Spiderwoman was a symbol. A symbol of hope and kindness when every institution failed you had been there protecting those who couldnât do it themselves.
Sitting alone in your one bedroom apartment you were certain that being a super hero in high school was a lot easier than making it your profession in adulthood. Your head was planted upon your desk your eyes threatening to fall asleep from sheer exhaustion. You barely listened to the frequency of the police radio. You were quickly awoken by the news of a black human like monster being sighted by civilians. You were in your suit in record time pulling your mask over your tired eyes before swinging into the cold city. You swung over the busy traffic of the the New York streets.
Arriving at the described location you realised that the object of your attention was no where to be found. Not a trace from it left. Your curiosity got the better of you. In your years of being a superhero and fighting against the green goblin and people made of sand nothing could shock you anymore. Oh how wrong you were. But this was something something, new something exciting which could potentially make your boring life a bit more exciting.
The police was just as clueless as you were so you started to search around the area yourself. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary until you made out a red headed woman alone in a dark alleyway. You came closer to her this probably wouldnât help your search but she had a strange aura around her pulling you in. She seemed a bit nervous perhaps her green eyes fixated on your athletic form. She looked older than you maybe in her mid 30s but you werenât sure.
âCan I help you this is a dangerous neighbourhood.â The woman face changed to a smirk âWellâ she started âIâm sure you can help me in a personal wayâ Flirting and especially sleeping with civilians was off limits but you were desperate. It had been months since the last time you had another woman at your mercy. âIâm sure I can be of great-â you could see the womans eyes widen as she looked over your shoulder in the same moment your spider senses went off. Was something behind you? You turned around to see nothing you were confused for a second until you felt a force wrestling you onto the ground. You managed to turn to onto your back only to face a black slimy creature. You stared into its big white eyes as it slowly opened it mouth to reveal its many white razor sharp teeth. It seemed to have multiple rows of them all tripping in salvia. Its velvet tongue had an impressive size as it hovered above your masked face. Salvia tripped onto your face as you tried to move away.
âYou were right Nat⊠she is stupidâ the creature above you remarked in its deep voice. âHeyâ you squeaked higher than you had intended to. The goo pulled back to reveal the beautiful red head again. âOh look V she looks so shockedâ she snarled at you pulling her arms from the black slime but your hands remained pinned to the concrete. Her hand gripped onto your mask pulling it up as you shook your head to side violently. Never once did you get unmasked but she did it gripping onto your chin so you couldnât move. âYou are a pretty one spider girl.â âFuck youâ you bit back. She responded in laughter making you blush in humility. âOh no Iâm gonna fuck you sweet girlâ she said in between laughter.
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âPleaseâ you whimpered desperately your face pressed against the hard brick wall. The position you were in was beyond embarrassing. Complete naked bend forward black tendrils running over your naked form with her fingers deep inside of you pressing against you g spot. âWho wouldâve guessed the symbol of hope would be such a slut. Look you are dripping down your legs like a penny whoreâ she slapped your ass making you cry out for more. âMoreâ you whined feeling the tendrils rolling over your nipples.
She moved her fingers at her brutal pace curling and twisting as you clenched down. âI- Iâm gonna-â âShould we let her Vâ she asked her companion. âCumâ you did on command releasing your slick over Nats hand and wrists.
Natasha pulled her hand from your heat making you whine at the lost. âI think she can do anotherâ the goo formed a dick around Nats hips which you only realised once its big head was already pressed against your tight hole. âI canâtâ you lied as she pushed in âYour body wants it I know it Spideyâ she chuckled pushing in until she bottomed you out. She let you adjust before picking up her pace. She fucked into you hard and fast. âIâm gonna fuck you pregnant you little slutâ she bit into your neck the tendrils working magic on your already overstimulated clit. âFuck Iâm gonna cumâ she picked up her pace one last time before releasing her with cum inside of you.
The tendrils pulled back from your cum mixing into each other before tripping down your thighs. She pulled her pants back up leaving you panting against the wall. As a last act of affection she helped you back in your suit before leaving.
âUntil next time spider girlâ
:)
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T'es ben chix - Luke Hughes
Summary: Amélie decides Luke Hughes is the cutest boy she's ever seen, but she doesn't know how to tell him.
wc: 7k
content: fluff, a little bit of angst, kissing, panic attacks, anxiety, quick make out session, a couple dirty jokes, long distance relationship (let me know if missed anything!)
notes: don't let the title fool you, this fic is still in english!! i realized the other day while doing schoolwork that i don't have a fic that discusses being french-canadian. so... here we are! this fic was super fun for me to write and i incorporated experiences and challenges i have faced over the last few years. a lot of the mistakes that amélie makes are mistakes that i have made or that other french speakers make when speaking english bc sometimes we try to directly translate things and it just does not work lol i reallly hope you guys enjoy!!! and to any other francophones out there: let's be friends!!
just finished writing and it's about 5k words more than i was planning
Amélie honestly wasn't the biggest fan of going out back home, so going out in a place where she could barely speak the language was even worse. But a few of the girls she'd befriended had convinced her it was a good way to get to know more people and to let loose. She sat with the three other girls at a small table, her fingers drumming against the glass of her cocktail.
"Yeah, what did you think of that guy that presented today, Am?"
"Hm? He did... good."
"No, silly. Did you think he was cute?"
"Oh, um, he's... how do you say... not my type?"
"Not your type? Then what is your type, Am?"
"Probably that guy she's been making googly eyes at all night," one of the others teased.
"Who? The tall, curly haired guy in the corner?"
Amélie blushed, sipping at the alcohol for courage.
"Ooo, she's totally into him!"
"You should go talk to him, Am!"
"No... I tell you... no American boys," she waved them off.
"Well, that's too bad. Cause it looks like he's comin' over here. We'll be at the bar if you need us."
"Guys..."
But it was too late, the other girls were already up and headed towards the bar.
"Calisse," she mumbled, trying to ignore the tall figure approaching her table.
"Mind if I sit?" he asked. She looked up at him, her lips pursed. He had the same curly hair and boyish smile that her friends had been teasing her about. She really hadn't planned on talking to anyone tonight, let alone any boys. The girls knew her rule: no falling for any boys while she was in America.
"Uh... sure," she replied, gesturing to the empty chairs across from her.
He smiled, sitting down casually, rubbing his palms on his pants. "I'm Luke. I, uh, I thought I'd come introduce myslef since we, uh, made eye contact so many times."
Amélie bit her lip, nodding as he spoke. She barely knew enough English to follow what her friends were saying, and now she had to talk to some random guy at this bar she didn't even want to be at. "I, uh, I am Amélie."
"Amélie? That's a really pretty name. Did I, uh, did I say it right? Amélie?"
Her cheeks flushed, her eyes flickering down to her drink. "Yeah... that is right. Thank you." Her fingers tightened around the glass, trying to think of something to say next, but everything just came in French.
Luke could sense her hesitation, suddenly becoming way more nervous about coming over. Maybe it had been stupid. Maybe he was making her feel uncomfortable. "I just thought... I don't know. You seemed nice. Do you, uh, want to talk, or...?"
She met his gaze, taking a deep breath. He was trying and he seemed nice, like he really wanted to talk to her. "I... my English, it is not very good," her accent thickening as she spoke. "It is... hard for me."
Luke nodded, leaning forward slightly. He had teammates that didn't speak English as their first language, so he kind of knew what to expect. "That's fine. I'm sure it's better than my French. That is your first language, right? French? Sorry, I just assumed cause your name-"
"Yes, French," she cut him off, giggling at his rambling.
"I can barely say anything in French, so you've already got me beat."
His attempt to make her feel better worked... a little. "It is easier... to write. But speaking... more pressure, I forget the words lots."
"I get that. But we can just... talk slowly."
She sipped at her drink, waiting for him to continue.
"So, what brings you to Jersey? Not a lot of French people here."
"Exchange... at Rutgers. I am from Québec. Saguenay. But I come here... and I work on my English."
"That's super cool. It's awesome that you're pushing yourself to get better. I, uh, I went to Umich for a bit, but-"
"Umich?"
"Oh, right. University of Michigan. I lived in Michigan before I lived here."
"You move here because..."
"For hockey. I play hockey."
"Oh... that's cool. I like Les Canadiens. You play in the LNH?"
"The NHL? Yeah, I do. You like hockey?"
"Everyone in Québec likes hockey. Very popular."
"But you didn't know who I was," Luke teased.
"Only like Les Canadiens, sorry," she shrugged.
"Well, that's fair, I guess. The Habs are pretty big in Québec, huh?"
"Yes! My family... all big fan." She felt comfortable talking about her family, talking about home, the things she liked. Her dad watched every Habs game on TV and sometimes he'd even drive down to Montréal for a weekend to see them play.
"My family loves hockey too. Everyone plays. My mom, my dad, me, and both my brothers. It's like in our blood... or something."
"They play for... the same team?"
"One of them does. Jack, he plays with me. My other brother, Quinn, he plays in Vancouver," Luke tried to keep it casual, not wanting it to seem like he was bragging.
"Ah! The Canucks!"
"See, you know a bit about other teams," he teased.
"Shhh," she giggled. "Your family... they seem very... what's the word... talented."
"Guess you could say that."
She took another sip of her drink, her mind buzzing with questions to ask, but none of them coming to her in English. She wanted to ask more about his brothers, about how he started playing hockey, but her mouth just couldn't keep up with her brain. She also didn't want to come off as rude or obsessed with him because of his title, so she just nodded.
"You don't have to worry, you know. I'm not judging you," Luke comforted. "So, what do you do when you're learning English or watching the Habs? You got any other hobbies?"
"I like to... read. And bake... when I have time."
"Reading and baking," Luke mused. "What do you bake?"
"Everything," she giggled. "Tarte au sucre is my preferred. My mom... she always bakes with me."
"Tarte au sucre? What's that? Sugar pie?" Luke's eyes lit up. "You'll have to make me that one day. I've never had it."
"Maybe. You will have to see."
"Challenge accepted."
Amélie went to respond, but her phone buzzing stopped her. It was her friends calling, probably ready to head on to another bar. She didn't want her conversation with Luke to end, but she knew she couldn't stay there all night.
"I have to go. My friends... waiting," she sighed.
Luke's face fell a little but he nodded. "Yeah, I get it. But I, uh, this was fun."
"Me too."
There was silence for a little, neither of them wanting to be the first to say goodbye. "You should give me... your phone number. So you can try my tarte au sucre."
"Sounds like a plan," Luke said, handing his phone over for her. She typed in her name and phone number, adding a '<3' next to Amélie.
"Text me," she giggled, waving goodbye as she joined the other girls at the bar. Luke watched as the four of them started talking amongst themselves quickly, giggling as Amélie told them about her conversation with the hockey player.
He finally stood up, making his way back over to the table where his teammates were sat. Curtis raised an eyebrow at him, a smirk plastered on his face.
"Well, how'd it go, Romeo?" He leaned forward, failing to conceal his grin.
Luke rolled his eyes, "Good, actually. Really good."
Nico raised his pint, "Told you. You just had to go for it."
"So... what's next?" Curtis nudged him. "You ask for her number?"
Luke nodded, trying to play it cool. "Yeah, we'll probably meet up again."
"Probably?"
"Okay, fine. Yeah, we'll see each other again. I'm going to try her sugar pie she was talking about."
"Sugar pie? Is that what we're calling it nowadays?" Nico teased, causing the whole table to erupt in laughter.
Luke shook his head, letting the teasing slide. His mind was too focused on the girl with a French accent and promises of baking him pie. He had to see her again.
~~
Luke found texting Amélie way easier than he'd imagined. She wasn't lying when she said her writing was better than her speaking. Her texts barely ever had mistakes, in fact sometimes they were worded better than his.
They texted back and forth constantly, which earned Luke some teasing from his colleagues. In writing, Amélie was much more confident, returning his flirting with practiced ease. Her personality really shone through in a way it hadn't at the bar. She'd occasionally crack jokes, usually about how he didn't know any French and that she'd have to teach him. Their conversations flowed, talking about their days, sharing stories, discussing the schoolwork that Amélie had, and sometimes sharing pictures of their meals. Although Jack did most of Luke's cooking, he'd never admit that to the girl.
You have to come and try my tarte au sucre soon! Only if you're brave enough though ;)
Luke grinned at his phone, his fingers furiously typing back a reply.
Oh, I'm brave enough. Just let me know when, and I'll be there.
I will. Maybe next week? I need to make sure it's perfect first.
Deal.
~~
Amélie paced her apartment, making sure that everything was in order before Luke came over. She was even more nervous than she had been in the bar. She really wanted things to go well. They had decided to label the event as their first date, and although a bit informal, she was still shitting herself.
The pie was sitting on her kitchen island, untouched. She didn't want to eat any of it until Luke was there to eat it with her. She was worried he'd get in trouble because it wasn't part of his meal plan for work, but he had reassured it multiple times that it wasn't a big deal if he had a little pie.
Just as she was about to rearrange her throw pillows for the third time, there was a knock at her door. She froze mid-step, wiping her hands on her jeans as she made her way to the door.
It was just a pie. And it was just Luke. Nothing to be too worried about.
She hesitated for a moment before she pulled the door open, tilting her head back to look up at Luke. He was standing there in a Devils hoodie and some track pants, a baseball cap covering his curls. He looked relaxed, his hands tucked in the pocket of his hoodie. Amélie hated how nonchalant he looked in comparison to her.
"Hey," he greeted. "I brough my appetite, as promised."
"Good. I hope you are ready," she joked, stepping out of the way to let him in. He pulled off his shoes, taking in her cozy apartment. He laughed when his eyes landed on the big Québec flag hung behind her couch.
"I'm sure it'll be amazing. I'm looking forward to it, don't worry."
She nodded, though her nerves didn't disappear. She led him into the kitchen where the pie sat waiting. The smell of it filled the small space, warm and sweet.
"Wow, looks good, Am. Guess you weren't kidding about being a good baker."
"It's like you with hockey. My talent," she giggled, blushing as their eyes met.
"I don't know. Your baking skills may be miles ahead of my hockey skills."
"Don't lie. Let's see if it tastes as good as the smell," she grabbed a knife, finally cutting the pie into pieces. She placed a generous slice in front of Luke, taking in how comfortable he looked in the situation. She really admired how easygoing he was compared to her. It was their first date, but his demeanor made it seem like they'd been seeing each other for months. Meanwhile, her heart hadn't stopped racing since she opened the door minutes before.
Luke picked up his fork, flashing her a grin before taking his first bite. His eyes widened and he let out a pleased hum, "Holy shit, this is so good."
"You like it?"
"Are you kidding? This is like the best dessert I've ever had... don't tell my mom I said that. But really, Amélie, you've ruined all other pies for me. Can I take some home to show Jack?"
"Of course! I'm glad you like it. Is my mom's recipe."
"You should probably teach me how to make this, so I don't have to beg you every time I want some."
"I wouldn't mind," she giggled, taking a bite of her own slice. The taste reminded her of home and she suddenly felt a lot less nervous about messing up her English in front of Luke. They continued to eat their pie as they talked, shifting the conversation to more personal topics, wanting to know everything about each other.
Luke told stories about growing up with his brothers, sharing embarrassing moments from their childhoods and the occasional hockey-related mishap. Amélie found herself laughing more than she had since she'd arrived in America, her body filling with warmth.
"And that's how Jack ended up chipping his tooth. Our mom was furious, but Quinn and I thought it was hilarious," Luke explained, shaking his head at the memory.
She laughed, her shoulders shaking. "You and your brother... troublemakers," she teased, resting her chin on her hand as she listened to him talk. God, she could listen to Luke talk for hours. His accent was the cutest thing she'd ever heard and his smile curved up more on one side than the other, almost like a smirk. He was so perfect.
"Yeah, we were. Still are, I guess. But what about you? You got any fun stories about your family?"
"One time my dad, he take us to Montréal for a Habs game. And my older brother he had... he liked one girl he saw. But she was anglophone, no French. He goes up to her and he tries to talk English. But it was soooo bad. Even worse than me. He only knew maybe like three word. I think he said like 'Hey, you pretty, drink?' and she looked at him like he was... insane! He... he panicked and ran away. We bullied him for years after. Our dad, he will still talk about it at dinner sometime."
"That's brutal," Luke laughed. "Glad our first conversation didn't go like that."
"I am just better than him."
Luke shook his head, flashing his lopsided smile that made Amélie swoon. "Clearly. You've got the charm, no doubt about it."
"Maybe a little. But still I get nervous. When you arrive, I think maybe that I would die."
"You hid it well. I didn't even notice. I was the nervous one."
"You? Nervous?" she raised an eyebrow, placing her fork between her lips .
"Yeah, you were... well you are, like the prettiest girl I've ever met," he rubbed the back of his neck. "Didn't want to mess it up."
"Is that a joke? You did not... mess up. I like talking with you."
"I like talking with you too, Amélie"
~~
It was their fourth date and they were back at Amélie's apartment. Luke was sprawled out on the couch, his feet propped up on the coffee table as he playfully scrolled through one of Amélie's French-to-English learning apps.
"Come on, give me a word," Luke teased, turning to look at the girl sitting beside him with her legs tucked under her.
"Alright. Alright. Um... try... 'papillon.'"
Luke squinted, trying his hardest to translate it. "Papillon," he reapted slowly. "Uh... sounds like pasta, maybe? Wait, no, wait... um, balloon?"
She let a burst of laughter, learning back against the arm of the couch. "Non! It's butterfly!"
He groaned dramatically, throwing his head back in mock anguish. "Butterfly?! That doesn't even sound like butterfly! What?!"
"You are needing more practice," she giggled, comfortly placing a hand on his thigh.
Luke's eyes widened at her touch, but he couldn't help but smile. "Yeah, clearly I need a lot more practice. You might have to become my full-time tutor."
Amélie smiled, her fingers lingering on his thigh, sending a warmth through both of them. They'd been spending more and more time together, and things were less awkward, but still full of nervousness. The banter between them was easy, but there was an ever-growing tension gnawing at them both.
Luke reached for a throw pillow next to him, lightly tossing it at her. "Give me another one. I swear I'll get it this time."
She swatted the pillow away, but her focus had moved on from French. The space between them had slowly been shrinking and she had just noticed how close they were. She tilted her head, her eyes flickering up to meet Luke's. "I think... maybe you are better at other things than French."
Luke's grin faltered, his breath catching in his throat at her new tone. He glanced down at her hand still resting on his thigh, then back at her face, then back to her hand again. "Oh yeah? Like what?"
"Like... this."
Before he could question what she meant, she leaned in, her lips brushing his, testing the waters. The kiss was soft, hesitant, but the second their lips connected, everything they'd been holding back snapped into place.
Luke's hands moved to her waist, pulling her closer. The kiss deepened quickly, no longer hesitant, but instead filled with the feelings they'd been dancing around for weeks. Amélie sighed against his mouth, her hands sliding up to his chest, gripping his shirt in his fists. Luke groaned softly, the sound muffled by her lips.
Their kisses turned hungrier, more urgent, as the tension in the room built. Luke shifted, gently pushing Amélie back against the couch as he leaned over her, his body pressing against hers as their kisses grew sloppier. Her hands tangled in his hair, pulling him closer, and Luke's hands slid up to cradle her face, his thumb brushing her cheek as the kiss deepened.
Neither of them wanted to pull away, not wanting to be the first to end the kiss. Luke realized he couldn't hold his breath any longer. He gasped for air before kissing her again, harder this time, his lips moving with more urgency than before. Amélie let out a soft, breathless moan in reponse.
They pulled away again, their foreheads resting against each other as they tried to catch their breath. Luke brushed a strand of her hair, that had gotten stuck between them, out of her face. His eyes were still half-closed as he whispered, "I've wanted to kiss you for so long."
Amélie smiled, her chest rising and falling rapidly as she tried to fill her lungs with air. She looked up at him, her lips still tingling. "Me too. I... I did not expect it to feel... like that."
"Good or bad?"
"Good," she whispered, her fingers tracing the back of his neck before pulling him in again, her lips finding his once more. There was no hesitation this time, just unfiltered desire as they gave in to the kiss.
~~
"Where you goin'?" Jack asked, pausing his video game as he heard Luke head for the door. He turned around, noticing his brother wearing his Michigan backpack. "And why do you have a backpack?"
"Amélie's place. I'm spending the night."
"Damn, Lukey boy's finally getting laid."
"Shut up, Jack... there's no confirmation that that's what happening. She just asked if I wanted to sleep over."
Jack smirked, leaning back on the couch with a knowing look. "Uh-huh, sure. You don't pack a bag just to sleep over, bro."
Luke rolled his eyes, adjusting the straps of his bag. "It's not like that. We're just hanging out, maybe watching a movie or something."
Jack snorted. "Yeah, okay. Whatever you say, lover boy. But just in case, be safe."
"It's not like that," Luke groaned, grabbing his keys off the counter, trying to escape Jack's teasing.
"I'm just saying! Good luck, bud!"
Luke mumbled to himself as he stepped into the hallway, heading for the elevator to the parking garage. His heart was racing more than usual, not just because of Jack's teasing but because tonight did feel different. Spending a night together was a big step in their relationship, especially since they weren't officially official yet.
They hadn't even discussed labels yet, and although they were very close, there was an unspoken worry of figuring out where things were heading. Luke really, really liked her, but he didn't want to rush anything. If Amélie wanted to take things slow, then he would take things slow.
He sat in his car, getting ready to leave when his phone buzzed.
Just picked out a movie. Hope you like rom-coms ;)
Only if we watch it in French so I can practice
Deal.
When he pulled up to her building, he practically leaped out of the car, taking his backpack with him. He knocked on her door, his heart in his throat.
Just go with the flow. No pressure
Amélie giggled when she opened the front door, dressed in one of Luke's Devils hoodies and a pair of shorts he couldn't see from under the large sweatshirt.
"Hey. You look cute," he leaned down to kiss her.
"Hey! Missed you."
"It's only been three days," he laughed, allowing her to wrap her arms around his waist, propping her chin on his chest. "You ready for my horrible French?"
"Ready for anything," she giggled as he ran a hand through her hair.
They stood in the doorway for a few moments more, before she grasped his hand and pulled him into the living room. They settled on the couch, a blanket thrown over their entwined legs.
"Am, I've been thinking..." his thumb brushing lightly against her thigh. "I don't want to overthink it anymore than I already have, but... we've been spending lots of time together. And I really like you."
"I like you too, Luke. A lot."
"Good. Because... I want this to be official. I mean, us. I want us to be official. I don't wanna be just 'hanging out' or 'seeing where things go' anymore. I want you to be my girlfriend." His voice softened at the end, his heart out on a silver platter just for her.
"You really want that?" she gushed.
Luke nodded, "Yeah. I want you. I want... us."
"I want that too," she smiled, shuffling impossibly closer to him, pecking his lips.
Luke pulled her back in for a deeper kiss, relief flooding his body. When they pulled apart, Amélie rested her forehead against his, her fingers gripping the front of his hoodie.
"So, it is official?" she whispered.
"Officially official. You're my girlfriend now."
She kissed him again, laughing into his mouth. "Well... now that we have... figured that out. You have French to practice... boyfriend."
"Let's get started then, girlfriend."
~~
"So... when do I get to meet her?" Jack grinned, knocking Luke's shoulder.
"Oh, um, I can ask her."
Jack raised an eyebrow. "You can ask her?" he teased. "What, you haven't mentioned me?"
Luke sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. "I have, Jack. I just... didn't think you'd be so excited."
"Dude, of course I'm excited! My little brother has a girlfriend now! And you know I've gotta approve, see if she's good for you. Duh."
"She's not a test subject, Jack. I'm not bringing her so you can interrogate her."
Jack snickered, loving how flustered his brother was getting. "Relax, I'll be nice. In fact, bring her out with us and the guys this weekend. Some of the other girlfriends will be there."
"I can ask her. Just... don't be weird about it. She get's nervous."
"Me? Weird about it? Never. I'm charming."
"That's what I'm worried about."
"Come on, it'll be fun. She'll get to meet everyone, and you know the guys will love her. Plus, if she can survive a night out with us, she's a keeper."
"Look, I'll ask. But I know she's been busy with schoolwork. I'll ask her tonight. But seriously, Jack, don't freak her out. Please."
"Scout's honour, man. I'll be on my best behaviour."
"You're not a-- never mind. I'll let you know what she says."
~~
Luke laid next to Amélie in her bed, his arm draped over her waist. She was scrolling through TikTok, laughing at French words he didn't know yet. He pressed a kiss to her bare shoulder, peeking at the screen where some girl was speaking rapid French while doing her make up.
"Hey, Am."
"Hmm?"
"So... Jack and some of the guys are going out this weekend, and a few of the girlfriends will be there too," he paused, thinking over his next words. "Jack was, uh, wondering when he could meet you. He kind of suggested you come along."
She blinked, "Meet... all of your friends? This weekend?"
"No pressure! If you're too busy with school, I totally get it. I just thought it might be fun. Only if you want to, of course," Luke quickly added.
She bit her lip, thinking it over, and Luke could tell she was weighing her options. "I'm nervous. I would... like to meet Jack. To be... part of your world."
He pulled her body closer to his, pressing more kisses to her shoulder. "You're already part of my world, Am. And trust me, Jack's been bugging me about meeting you since our first date. He's... well, he's Jack. But he means well."
"Okay. I will come. But if Jack, he makes me feel awkward, you owe me a very good dinner."
Luke laughed, "Deal. And don't worry, I'll be there the whole time. Plus, survivng Jack means you can survive anything."
~~
"C'est trÚs cute, non?" Amélie asked, showing her outfit off to Luke.
"You look like a millon bucks, baby," he replied, leaning down to kiss her.
"What?"
"It's... it's a saying."
She tilted her head slightly, repeating the words back to herself. "A million... bucks."
Luke thought her accent made it all the more adorable. "It means you look beautiful. Like super, super beautiful."
"English says, they are so strange. First you tell me it rains cats and dogs... now I look like I am money. You explain me all of these sometimes, yes?"
"Of course, baby. But I mean it, you looks amazing."
"Thanks, Lu. We should go?"
"If we have to," Luke pouted, leaning down to give her another kiss.
~~
Amélie gripped the straps of her purse so tightly that her knuckles were white. She had never felt so nervous in her life, not even on their first date. She had so many people to impress tonight and probably less than half the words they had in their vocabularies.
Luke was quick to notice her anxiety. She usually walked with so much confidence, but her posture was slumped and her lip was held between her teeth. "Hey, you okay?"
She nodded, but her choked voice betrayed her. "I... I don't know if I can do this."
"You'll be fine, Am," he whispered, brushing his thumb over her cheek. "Jack's going to love you, I can promise you that. And it's just a few of the guys--nothing big. And hey, some of them aren't even native English speakers themselves."
Her eyes were still full of uncertainty, her fingers busying themselves by picking at the skin around her nails. "But maybe I will say something wrong. Or they ask me things, and I do not understand them? Or they will all laugh at me."
"You've been doing so well with your English, love. And if you're ever feeling stuck, just squeeze my hand and I'll come to your rescue."
The bar was pretty empty for the most part, just a few tables of friends talking and sharing drinks. In the back corner, Jack was sitting with a few of the other guys and their better halves.
"There they are!" Jack cheered as soon as he saw them approaching, standing up to greet his brother as if he hadn't seen him in weeks. His tone was loud and confident, and Amélie could feel every set of eyes at the table move towards her and Luke.
Luke gave his brother a quick bro-hug before turning to his girlfriend. "Jack, this is Amélie. Am, this is my brother, Jack."
Amélie felt like all the moisture in her mouth had disappeared, her hand gripping Luke's with a vice-like strength. She opened her mouth to speak, but all her words got stuck. "I, uh, I... hi."
"Nice to meet you, Amélie," Jack said. "Luke's told me loads about you."
She gave him a tight lipped smile, her mind scrambling to find a response, but nothing came. She felt like the weight of everyone's expectations were holding her down. She wanted to wow everyone with perfect English, but all she could do was stand there, frozen.
"She, uh, she's a little nervous," Luke interjected. "Amélie's from Québec, she's here in Jersey to learn English. But her French is like the most impressive shit ever."
"No worries. We're just happy you're here," Nico spoke up.
Amélie forced a smile, but it didn't reach her eyes. She sat down beside Luke, her hand still gripping his with immense force. The conversation around the table picked back up, but she remained quiet.
The guys were easygoing, laughing and joking with each other, and the other girlfriends seemed just as relaxed. The more they spoke though, the harder it became for her to follow. She could pick up on bits and pieces of what was going on, but she couldn't seem to form a complete sentence in her head.
"So, how do you like Jersey so far?" one of the other girlfriends, Lexi, asked with a warm smile.
"It... it's very different. But I... I like it," she replied, her eyes not leaving Luke's hand in her lap.
"She thinks back home is wayyyy prettier. Right, babe?" Luke helped to direct her.
"Yes. Québec is very beautiful."
"So what brought you here?" Jack asked, desperately wanting to know more about the girl that had stolen his brother's heart. "School?"
She bit her lip, trying her best to think of how to reply in English. "Yes... I.... study at Rutgers. Exchange."
"That's awesome. What're you studying?"
Her mind went completely blank. She'd even rehearsed answering that exact question, but now, with everyone looking at her, the words were gone. Her hand tightened around Luke's again, taking a sip of water to clear her throat.
"She's studying communications and media. But the point of her exchange is to work on her English skills."
"That's sick," Jack nodded along.
The conversation around her continued, a few questions being tossed her way but her responses were usually just a few words, the gaps being filled in by Luke. The group eventually moved on to a story that Nico was telling, and Amélie used the shift of attention to shrink into herself further. She let Luke rest his hand on her bouncing knee in an attempt to calm her nerves, but his touch felt foreign in the situation.
After what felt like hours, but had most likely only been half an hour, she leaned close to Luke, whispering in his ear. "Je vais aux toilettes." She stood up before he could respond, scurrying off to the bathroom.
Jack shot Luke a curious glance, but he just shrugged, trying to mask his own worry.
Amélie slipped into the bathroom, pressing her hands against the sink as she stared at her reflection in the mirror. She felt like she was suffocating, her eyes burning with unshed tears. She hated feeling like an outsider, not being able to connect with Luke's world outside of her.
She wiped under her eyes, praying that her mascara didn't run. She didn't want anyone to know she'd been crying in the bathroom. She just wanted to be like the other girls at the table--relaxed and confident, going with the flow of the conversation.
With one last deep breath, she made her way back to the table. Luke looked up at her as she approached. He could tell something was off.
"Everything okay?"
She just nodded, falling back into her silence at the table. She laughed when everyone else laughed, smiling politely when someone made a remark towards her. Luke had never seen her so quiet in his life, not even on the first day that they met. By the time everyone had left the bar, her anxiety was so bad she thought she might puke.
Luke opened the car door for her, and she slid in, staring blankly out the window. The silence between them was heavy. Luke could feel it too, his fingers tapping nervously on the steering wheel.
"Am, what's wrong? You've been quiet all night. You barely said a thing."
The tears that she had been fighting so hard to keep at bay finally spilled out. "I... I feel so stupid. I-I couldn't even talk to them. I couldn't even... act normal."
He reached out, placing a hand on her thigh. His heart clenched at her words. "You're not stupid, Am. You're doing amazing. You're learning a whole new language, that's huge."
"But I had to have you help on everything. I could... not even answer Jack's questions. They normally think... I'm dumb. Not good for you." She wiped at her eyes, frustrated with herself for crying.
"Amélie, baby. No one thinks you're dumb. And you are more than good enough for me--don't you ever doubt that. Jack loved meeting you. Everyone did. I could tell. They don't care if you need some help speaking English. Hell, some of those guys could use the help speaking English."
"I wanted... to be better. To show I can do this. But I feel...lost."
"You don't have to show anyone that you can do anything. Not to me, not to Jack, not to anyone. I love you for--"
"You love me?"
"Of course I do, Am. I... I didn't want to admit it like this. But... I am so in love with you, Amélie."
"I love you too, Luke. Sorry if I... embarrass you tonight."
"You could never embarrass me, Am. Never ever."
"I-"
"Nope, that's enough out of you. Let's go back to yours and watch that stupid cop show you like."
"Mensonges?"
"If that's what it's called, then yes."
"I love you, Lu."
"I love you too, Am."
~~
"I don't know, Jack. She was so nervous last time..."
"But last time there were other people there too. Just tell her you've got the place to yourself for the night and then I'll walk in a couple hours later and be like 'Oh! Sorry, my plans got cancelled.' And then we can all hangout," Jack suggested.
"I'm not going to lie to her. I'll just ask if she wants to spend the night."
"Come on, Rusty! You know I'm just trying to help her relax around me. You're making it sound like a big deal. It's not! She's your girlfriend, and I want to get to know her. Plus, I'll make it fun! I'm good with people."
"I appreciate the thought, Jack. But I want her to feel comfortable, not tricked. So I'll just ask her if she wants to come over and spend the night. No tricks."
"Fine, fine. Let me know what she says."
"I will. Just... don't be an idiot."
~~
Amélie followed Luke into his apartment, her backpack thrown over his shoulder. She looked around, noticing how painfully obvious it was that two men lived there.
"I'm just gonna put your bag in my room. You wanna go make yourself comfortable on the couch?"
"Sure."
She sat down, curling her legs under herself, glancing around the living room. She picked up the remote off the coffee table, fiddling with while she waited for Luke.
"You good?"
"Yeah. Just... taking in. It is very... you."
"What, you mean messy?"
She giggled, then tension in her shoulders disappearing. "Maybe... un peu."
"Hey, it's organized chaos, baby. I know where everything is. Well... most of the time."
"I like it. Feels... comfortable. Like you."
"That's all I want, babe. For you to be comfortable."
"Where's Jack?"
"Probably in his room. Why? Wanna talk with him?"
Amélie quickly shook her head, her eyes widening. "No, no... just wonder. I don't want to... bother him."
"You're not bothering him. He's probably playing video games or doing some stupid shit. He'll come out here eventually."
The last time she'd been around Jack, she hadn't been able to shake her nerves. Tonight, she was determined to make a better impression, even if she still felt like puking.
Luke gently nudged her with his elbow. "Hey, you're good, Am. Jack's chill. You don't have to be nervous."
"I know... just... want him to like me."
"He already likes you," Luke reassured, brushing a strand of hair from her face. "He wouldn't shut up about how cool you were after the last time."
"Really?"
"Yes, really. I wouldn't lie to you, silly."
"Love you, Lu."
"Love you too," he leaned in to kiss her when footsteps pulled them apart.
"Aww, did I interrupt a moment?" Jack's teasing voice came from the doorway.
"Relax, Jack. We were just talking... about you."
"Oh yeah?" Jack pushed himself off the wall, making his way to the couch. "All good things, I hope."
"Duh," Luke squeezed Amélie's hand, allowing her to rest her head on his shoulder. "Amélie was just asking what you were up to."
"Probably nothing interesting compared to you lovebirds. Was talking to Trevor--can't let Luke get ahead of me in the whole having a life department."
She tried to think of a quick response to his joke, but came up with nothing she deemed funny enough.
"Luke tells me you like studying here cause it's different. How so?"
"Um, everything... is feeling bigger here. The city, the campus. And obviously... English. There is like... zero English in my town. We use some words... but not lots."
"Well, seems like you're doing great. Don't stress it. Plus you've got this guy," he gestured to Luke, "to help you out, right?"
She blushed, "Yes, Lu is... super."
Luke grinned, leaning in and whispering, "Told you he likes you."
~~
"I don't know how I'm gonna survive without you, Am," Luke admitted, wiping the tears from his face. His usually calm, relaxed demeanor was gone, replaced with a raw vulnerability.
Amélie had told herself she wasn't going to cry, but seeing Luke cry made that impossible. Her tears had started as soon as his had. "You will, Lu. You are so strong. And... I will not be gone forever."
He shook his head, intertwining their fingers. "I know, but... shit's gonna feel so different without you here. I'm used to having you here all the time. And now I won't see you until summer. I don't know how to do that."
"You'll have Jack, the guys, your family. I'm just... a plane away. We will FaceTime, and before you know... I am back. And I will meet Quinn... and your parents."
Luke rested his head in her lap, letting her run her fingers through his hair. She could feel his tears soaking the fabric of her jeans. "I'm gonna miss you so fucking much, Am."
"I'll miss you too, Lu. So, so much."
They stayed like that for a long time, just wrapped in each other's embraces. Neither of them wanted to let go. Neither of them wanted to admit how hard the next few months would be. They just wanted to stay together... forever.
~~
Amélie was sitting at her desk, her phone propped up against her water bottle as Luke's face filled the screen. His hair was a mess and his eyes drooping. She could tell he had just gotten home from practice.
"Hey, beautiful," he greeted.
"Hey, you," she replied, resting her chin on her hand. "How was practice?"
"Exhausting," he groaned. "But seeing your face makes it better."
Amélie blushed, biting her lip as she smiled. Before she could respond, she heard her brothers' voices coming from down the hall.
"Ah, c'est qui, Amélie?" (who is it, Amélie?)
"Son chum?" the other laughed. (her boyfriend?)
"Ahhh, mais Luke, t'es ben chix." (Ahhh, but Luke, you're so hot.)
"Ferme ta gueule!" Amélie shouted. (Shut your mouth!)
Luke burst out laughing at the look on his girlfriend's face. "What're they saying?"
She huffed, rolling her eyes. "They're being idiots. Teasing me about you."
"Teasing, huh?" He raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. "What did they say? Come on, tell me."
She sighed, getting closer to the camera with a small smirk. "They said you're... how would that translate.... that you're 'hot.'"
"Oh, did they know? You must have good pictures of me hanging up then, huh?"
"They're just being annoying. They think it's funny to tease me because I love an American."
"Well, tell them I appreciate the compliment. And tell them I say 'hi'," he teased.
Amélie shook her head but shouted, "Luke dit bonjour!"
From the hallway, her brothers responded with exaggerated greetings in their broken English, making the couple laugh.
"They're something else, huh? I can't wait to meet them one day."
"They'll probably want you to ask Cole for free Habs tickets. But... in a few weeks, I'll be back and I'll get to meet all of your family."
Luke's eye lit up at the thought. "I know! I've been counting down the days, baby. I can't wait for you to be here again!"
"Me neither. Excited to meet Quinn and your parents."
"Yeah, my mom's super excited to meet you!"
"I'm a little nervous though."
"Don't be! They are gonna love you so much, Am!"
"I love you, Lu."
"I love you more, Amélie. Only a few more weeks, then we'll be together again. I can't wait."
"You promise?"
"I promise. And I'm gonna spoil you so much. Just you, me, and the lake."
"Can't wait."
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Welcome to my TedTalk of my favorite aftg recurring event: people reacting to Neilâs languages.
First the monsters reacting to Neilâs French
âHe wished he could take some satisfaction in the shell-shocked looks the language and his furious tone earnedâŠIt was an age before anyone responded. Nicky was too busy gaping at Neil to say anything, and Aaron was staring at Kevin as he waited for a translation. Andrewâs surprise gave way to what a fool might mistake for delight and he leaned forward on the desk. âWow another one of Neilâs many talents. How many can one man have?ââ
This scene is funny because unproblematic and ordinary Neil Josten just busts into their dorm room with no explanation and starts speaking in angry French. (And Andrewâs âyouâre interesting to meâ without actually saying so.)
Andrew and Wymack discovering Neilâs German. (Only Andrew reacts but itâs important to remember Wymack heard the German as well(for later))
âThat wiped the irritation off Andrewâs face. It was forever before Andrew answered in German. âThatâs unexpected. Did no one tell you I hate surprises?ââŠâhow many languages do you speak, runaway?ââ
We love seeing through Andrews medication to his true feelings(surprise). And then this being followed by a civil conversation of Neilâs true past and Andrewâs reactions. Is this really the love hate(mostly hate)TFC andriel dynamic we loved for half a book.
The upperclassmen+Wymack finding out about Neilâs French (only Wymack's response but, again, important to know the upper classmen hear his French.)
He didnât realize what heâd done wrong until he felt Wymackâs piercing stare. Andrewâs lot new Neil spoke FrenchâŠBut Wymack, like Andrew, had also heard Neil speak fluent German. Neil ground his teeth and refused to return Wymackâs look.â
Wymack hadnât reacted to the German because of the situation but he probably also didnât feel the need to respond to yet another one of his kids having a second language. But apparently bilingual is where he draws the line for languages. Neil âmultilingualâ Josten had Wymack questioning who he really was and why his second and third languages happened to be those already present in his team.
Upperclassmen, Nicky, Aaron, and Kevin finding out about Neilâs German (thanks to Andrew being Andrew)
ââOh shit,â Nicky said, switching languages in a heartbeat. âSince when do you speak German? Andrew, you knew about this? Why didnât you tell us?ââŠAaron looked at Neil. âWhen were you going to tell us?ââŠDown the hall the upperclassmen stared at them in disbelief. Matt was the first to get his tongue back, but the best he came up with was, âI thought you spoke French. That was French this morning right?âŠâ
Aaron being the king of not caring about things concerning Neil.
Last but not least(if I remember correctly) Jean reacting to Neilâs French.
âJean wasnât expecting him to understand them and shot Neil a startled look.â
This startling Jean was funny. How can one be anymore scared when sitting next to Riko Moriyama. And Neil letting his attitude get the best of him in not only English but also French. He was on a roll and he wasnât going to let a language switch stop him.
#aftg#the foxhole court#the raven king#the kings men#neil josten#andrew minyard#kevin day#nicky hemmick#aaron minyard#dan wilds#matt boyd#renee walker#allison reynolds#david wymack#jean moreau#exy#lgbtq#andriel#nora sakavic#all for the game
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Now I'm wondering how countries like Japan and China teach literacy.
Since kanji / hanzi don't really have that much in the way of phonetic elements, they kinda have to teach them by memorization and I don't think they have many reading comprehension problems over there.
(Although both countries do have supplementary phonetic writing systems in the form of bopomofo and pinyin for China, and the kanas for Japan)
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It's a little closer to teaching vocabulary than spelling, but the same kinds of principles apply: You teach the building blocks, like the traditional radicals, which aren't so different from teaching Latin and Greek roots in an English class for English speakers.
And, as a matter of fact, lots of those radicals do predict pronunciation, just not in every single case. They can also be clues to meaning, but again, not absolutely consistently. Many characters have a sound-cueing radical on one side and a meaning-cueing radical on the other. It's just that only some are still useful in the modern day, while others are more like the English word 'plumbing' where knowledge of Roman lead pipes explains why this word comes from the one for lead, but the root probably wouldn't help a kid learn the word in the first place.
One similarity to teaching phonics would be teaching students to tell very complicated and similar characters apart: you want to help a student spot all the little building blocks of the character and then spot the ones that are different, not just glance at the whole character and get a general overall vibe. If you do a whole look-based approach, too many characters are too easy to mistake for one another.
Remembering a bajillion Chinese characters is hard if you're trying to memorize them in a year and not all of elementary school, but I think people who don't read them underestimate how many component parts there are and how approachable they can be if you start by learning fundamentals, not just memorizing a few individual characters as though they have no relation to anything else.
They're actually pretty systematic, just in the way that English spelling is with its overlapping systems and historical artifacts, not in the way that highly regular Spanish spelling is.
Having taken a lot of Japanese classes, I will say that Japanese as a foreign language textbooks often do a piss poor job of this and totally do teach kanji in a sight words-y way... But my Mandarin class started with important foundational concepts that served me well in Japanese later even if I bombed out of Chinese class at the time.
Can you tell how irritated I am by all the foreign language learners who think characters are sooooo hard when, really, it's just their crappy textbook? Haha.
They're moderately hard in the way that learning a full adult spectrum of vocabulary is hard, but people do that for foreign languages all the time. The countries that use characters do tend to make sets that are smaller for certain kinds of applications, same as we have things like simple English wikipedia, but a literate adult will always know lots more, whether it's from their career in engineering or their predilection for historical romance novels.
Uh... anyway, the answer is "Bit by bit in elementary school, just like in any other country".
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