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RealAgeAU Drabble - The Scheme
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Cross walks from side to side “This is bad. This is very bad.” Cross even flickers in and out of view.
Dust holds out an arm and catches Cross by the arm before pulling him to sit next to him on the ground. Nightmare notices what Dust wants and climbs from his lap into Cross’s lap.
Dust watches as Cross snuggles their babybones and relaxes a little.
Dust nods and focusses back on what Error had shared with them.
Only to see that Dream is also close to a panic attack. Great.
Dream tugs on his own hands as he rambles “Fate and Balance are too dangerous! They will try to force Nightmare to change his domain. They already tried with me but with me being so well known and seeing as I already told everyone they knew it would attract too much attention if they made me change…”
Error groans as he sighs “Yes. I know. It is why I called for this meeting.”
The meeting being in some random AU with them, Error, Dream and Blue.
Blue pulls Dream near and puts an arm around his shoulders “Hey it will be fine. Error already hid where they are hiding and only us two know he is even alive.”
Dream shakes his skull “They just need to start checking universes. As soon as they find the right one they will know he is there. And notice Error’s meddling.”
Nightmare shoots Error a worried look but Error just shrugs “I will be fine. Balance already hates me anyway.” Nightmare does not look happy as he glances at Dust.
Dust frowns “They will just know? how?”
Dream searches for the right words “It is a god thing… if we are in a universe we can notice fellow gods or stuff changed by gods. It is why Nightmare and I could always sense each other.”
Killer tilts his skull “Seriously? I thought that was just a twin thing?”
Nightmare shakes his skull “No it was a god thing.”
Killer huh’s and looks off into the distance.
Horror frowns as he thinks “Meaning we can’t just keep hiding?”
Error shrugs as he looks to the side “I changed the universe code and makeup enough to make it unable to be found unless you make a very specific jump. The problem is that sometimes some gods can override bans placed by other gods.” He mutters softer “well… one exception with some very complicated and specific scenarios.”
Dust shoots Error a look “Can we copy that?” If they can do that maybe they can continue being relaxed here. Relax as they watch Nightmare develop his newly developing powers.
Error shakes his skull “Not without messing around with the save files, load files, reset files and save states.” He just shakes his skull at the looks everyone sends him “don’t ask how the guy made that mess work for himself.”
Dream looks at him worried “There has to be something we can do!”
Dust blinks as he feels a tug on his hoody. He looks to the side and sees nothing so he sighs “Cross. Visible please.”
A moment before Cross, and Nightmare, reappear again. Cross looks embarrassed. Nightmare however looks smug “We do what Dream did.”
Dust turns to Nightmare “What do you mean?” the silence around them is loud.
Nightmare nods “Dream says they can’t influence him because they know forcing him to change will attract attention. They don’t like being known. There is a reason people thought Error and I were the reason for all the bad stuff. Because they want us to be the face. They don’t want to be held responsible.”
Dust sees where he is going with this and doesn’t like it “Nightmare… please tell me you aren’t thinking what I think you are thinking.”
Nightmare keeps looking smug “We should reintroduce me.”
The loud and in sync shouting of No’s even surprises Dust as Cross after his own shout just holds Nightmare closer.
Killer sits down next to them “No. Nuh-uh. We aren’t doing that. Ever.”
Nightmare frowns “But we need to? If we don’t Fate or Balance will eventually find us.” He huffs as he crosses his arms “I like my domain but I can’t exactly use it to attack in anyway.”
Cross just holds him close and nuzzles his skull “We will defend you!”
Nightmare frowns “You guys are strong but…”
Error sighs “Fate and Balance are a league on their own… It is how they can just decide and change domains after all.” he sighs and shakes his skull “I don’t meet them a lot but lets say that near the start they made it clear what my domain entitled.”
Dust frowns and reconsiders some things. He never truly considered how Error ended up picking his domain. How Nightmare even knew what his entitled… If there are these much stronger beings around…
Horror must had made the same conclusion as he shoots Nightmare a look “what was your idea?”
Nightmare smiles a tiny bit as he speaks “We start reintroducing me. We start obviously with the safest options first and work from there. Then by the time they find us, it will be too late and old news and changing my domain will be too suspicious for them to do.”
Dream looks unhappy “Who would we reintroduce you to first?”
Nightmare grins with a knowing smile.
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Reaper frowns as he floats from side to side in the beautiful garden. Careful not to touch anything.
Life giggles “I think you are worrying for nothing old friend.”
Reaper groans “I don’t like this. are you sure about this? I can still change the location and we can skip this meeting.”
Life shakes his face and looks excited “Reaper. Hearing that Dream and Error want to meet us about something very special? With special guests? Of course I want to meet them.”
Reaper frowns as he looks around nervously “If people find out I knew where you were…”
Life shrugs as she makes her tea “Balance already knows either way. She knew before you did. They never told anyone either. Meaning in the end others not knowing isn’t that dangerous.”
Reaper sighs as he floats over to grab his own tea to drink “I still worry…”
Life nods “I know. You worry too much.” She grins at him teasing “So how is your secret beau?”
Reaper shoots her a look “Don’t start.”
Life giggles and hums a happy tune “You can hardly blame me. It is very rare you truly connect with someone.”
Reaper sighs as he rubs his neck “Don’t start.”
Life giggles before both of them look up as they notice the change in the air. New people have entered this hidden space.
Reaper and Life look out and hear a voice which Reaper knows is Error.
“Life generally is in this area by the blossom trees. I can only assume she and Reaper will be there.”
Reaper knows they both are listening for any other voices.
“Life just�� hangs around here? Doesn’t that get boring?”
Reaper is still slightly shocked to hear Killer. He knew there was going to be a special guest but still.
Reaper knew that Error knew where Nightmare was and that means that he would knew where the gang is but still… it shocks him.
It only takes a moment before Error walks into view and he grins “See? found them.” and he continues leading the way. Dream is nearby with Blue as Killer walks in after them with Dust and Horror close behind.
Reaper frowns as he notes the obvious absent Cross and Nightmare but well… it is something.
Error leads them over as Life stands up herself with a small smile “It is a pleasure to finally see the faces of those who are the center of much talk around our universes.”
Reaper snorts as he sees all of them look sheepishly away.
Dream rubs his cheek “It is nice to finally get to meet you Life… I have heard much about you… Thank you for allowing us to visit you in your home!”
Killer rolls his sockets and copies his voice but softer and Dream does not even turn around or drop his smile as he kicks behind him and hits Killer’s shin.
Life smiles amused “Oh that is alright. I must say I was very curious about the fact that you wished to meet us.” And she waits.
Dream looks nervously at Error and Killer before looking to the side.
Error raises his brow at Killer and crosses his arms “Well?”
Killer shoots Horror and Dust a look. Dust nods to him and Killer turns to them with a smile “What can I say? We needed some time to relax and figure stuff out but now we are more than ready to continue on! Foremost.” He grins “Cross?”
Silence.
Killer sighs and turns around as he looks into the nothing “Cross I know you are there. Stop hiding the two of you.”
A very unhappy mutter.
Reaper blinks confused. He hadn’t even sensed Cross… How… Reaper glances at Life and Life looks shocked herself.
Reaper can understand him not noticing someone but this is Life’s realm. Her home. Made of her magic. How had she not noticed someone entering?
Killer glares and crosses his arms “Cross. We are here to reintroduce him.”
Cross grumbles unhappily but appears and-
Reaper stares and his mind blanks.
Nightmare is looking up at Cross highly amused before turning to Killer and holding out two arms. Killer easily takes him over before walking closer to Life and Reaper. Cross makes a wounded sound and hurries after Killer.
Killer grins as he proudly holds Nightmare up “Meet! Nightmare! God is restoration!”
Nightmare grins and raises a tiny tiny arm in a wave “hi.”
Oh shit even his voice is young and what even is this?!
Life coos and before Reaper can blink she is suddenly holding Nightmare and holding him close “Oh you are just adorable. No wonder they hid with you and kept the multiverse away from you.” she smiles happily at the panicked looking skeletons “Well? Are you all coming? I will make us a meal and we will talk about all that happened.” She nuzzles the tiny skull with a happy hum “Oh tiny skeletons are just too cute. I will make sure to make something you like. Do you have any favourites?”
Nightmare just stares at her confused as he shoots the other skeletons a helpless look.
Horror walks over and speaks calmly “His magic is still resettling and he can’t always eat everything…”
Life shoots him a look and nods “I understand.” He grabs hold of Horror and pulls him along too as she floats towards another part of her area “I assume you know about his diet? Come along we will prepare some for all of you.” she raises her voice and aims it at the others “Get comfortable! We will be right back.” And they disappear behind some bushes.
Killer slowly tilts his skull “… did that god just steal our mate and babybones?”
Dust looks after where they disappeared himself “I am honestly not sure…” he shoots Error a glare “I thought you said Life would be fine to be introduced to?”
Error huffs “Because she is?” he rubs the back of his neck “I guess it makes sense… she is the goddess of life. Of course she gets excited at the sight of children… I think she will eventually give him back to you guys…”
Cross is glaring into the distance “She better or I will not be held responsible for what I will do.”
Killer and Dust both look highly amused.
Reaper finally finds his voice “Why is Nightmare tiny?”
The others actually look at him and Blue grins widely “You got like two hours? It is a long story.”
Dream laughs and nods “I can only assume we have enough time before Life returns with Nightmare and Horror.”
Cross huffs “You guys explain.” He disappears from view, and Reaper suddenly can’t feel his lifeforce anymore.
Killer grins “Have fun hunting and stalking love! See you in a bit!”
Dust takes a seat in a chair and grins “Ready for a short explanation?”
Reaper nods and gets ready. He has no doubt this will be quite the tale.
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#utmv#realageau#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#dust sans#killer sans#cross sans#horror sans#dream sans#blue sans#reaper sans#life toriel#okay so like#I kinda wanted to make this two drabbles... but also i really wanted it to be one.#So i made it one :D#look at that!#The gang is introducing their baby to others!#and of course Life would LOVE the babybones#It is her whole thing! It is newly created life! Of coruse she adores the tiny baby!#the only reason the gang isn't more alarmed is because they immediantly spotted the obvious adoration and they knew life lives in that plac#so not a lot of places she can leave to by her selfimposed isolation.#reaper however is shocked#He didn't expect an ACTUAL CHILD#Why is there a child god?!#blue is there for emotional support.#Ink meanwhile is looking for his friends like “where the fuck is everyone?! :/”
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I DID IT! PROMISED CONSORT RADAHN BEATEN ON NG+7!!!
#AND i did so with my selfimposed challenge to not use summons for any remembrance boss in this run#god im so happy and proud rn#now i just need to do the final boss and that should be childs play after this lmfao 😭😭😭
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some old studies but make it enstars :)
#enstars#ensemble stars#hiyori tomoe#tsumugi aoba#kohaku oukawa#really tired recebtly so have some older sketcs to at least fill the selfimposed art every 3 days#m#moth is vvvv tired#rencently#but thats not important#whats important is that that is the prettiest tsumugi that moth has ever drawn#and that the kohaku speed paint turned out pretty well#need to do more of those have a file of my favourite alkakurei cards to speedpaint when artblock is hit#moth draws#thisi s in th e queue to post at a reasonable time
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thinking about yves and elias and its so deeply upsetting. why is love real. why here, why now, of all places. is it worth it. it doesnt even matter man. fuck my life
#the love is there. though.#its there#it changes nothing but its there and that means something...#but man is it painful#this is about lancer rpg dog days btw#i realize people follow me and have no idea who these people are#yves is a lancer with too many issues and most of it is selfimposed#and elias is his failcringe rich guy boyfriend who isnt fail OR cringe i just call him that. but also yes he is. he's a weapons researcher.#he's actually very smart dude from what i understand#just kinda chill guy a little bit
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#*problems occur on a project multiple ppl r working on* my boss @ me: what do u wanna do?#me. disastrously burnt out: i couldnt not even to give a fuck abt all this. i dont care i dont care i dont care#but thats not what i say. i say ok ill talk to the ppl and see how i can drop everything to help. and that probably means driving an hour#away to the other uni which is irrationally terrifying to me to the point where it will probably destroy my whole week a prevent me from#sleeping when i already am struggling to sleep. but its fine. ill get it done and itll be fine. for this stupid fucking project i dont#care abt. ay its so weird. ive never been this angry abt things. i mean its not even really anger its more dispair and frustration but it#manifests as just wanting to scream and throw a fit like a toddler. and i mean its my fault. i dont have to live the way that i do. i mean#i do but in an irrational compulsive way that i cant entirely control. but like its Saturday and i sepent 6 and a half hours taking#measurements and then met with my boss for like an hour and she was showing me cool imagines and talking abt cool new collaborators at her#new school and im just sitting there trying to maintain a smile bc my brain is semi disconnected from my body and im so exhausted#ugh. my brain is so fucked rn. i dont want to drive with even lower functioning thsn usual. and i was gonna meet my friend Tuesday morning#for once. and i might have to drive back and forth multiple days. ans what's my reward if were successful? two fucking weeks of watering#and measurement taking and i might have to stand around other ppl in all that time as well. usually im off spinning in circles by myself#amd looking unapproachable. i dont want to have to b a person around the undergrads#god im so weird. its like from the outside perspective if u were looking thru the window at me u would see me using a hammer and assume im#putting something together and i am but im also hammering nails thru my hand which no one asked me to do#so then why do i have to do it? ugh. thats y its a hard thing to complain abt bc ppl r like oh it sounds like ur compulsive habbits make u#productive and successful and yea sure but they're also destroying my life. im laying on the floor doubled over in pain and ppl r like oh#look how useful u r. who gives a fuck everything feels stretched and distorted like im suffering some sort of selfimposed Devin punishment#whatever. fuck this. tomorrow ill try my hardest to relax. literally i cant remember the last time i stayed in bed until at least 7am. ugh#but i also have some bullshit i have to get done tomorrow so well see#uuuuuugh let me leave this place @ schools send me ur official offers pls i wanna plan out my life for the next 5yrs#unrelated
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@lochjurat ➤ quotes that broke me
❛ i can bear my pain so long as it has meaning. ❜
A deep twinge pulls at the depths of their chest at hearing her words, an ache that runs to the depths of their bones.
"You shouldn't have to, pain does not give meaning inherently; you may see some meaning behind it, but those who see you suffer may not."
Words said knowing full well the hypocrisy behind their own statement, an almost mockery and critique of their past self; the life of a god is inherently painful, constricting, restricting by virtue. Not that it is not fulfilling in return too for it wields many positives, for seeing humanity moving forwards while you are partaking in it breeds a sense of pride, of joy, of a warmth that sits in the bones that you are doing something for many, many people—but it is a delicate scale to balance, a show.
Admiring people lavish you and look up to you, toss you bouquets and gifts, flock around you to gawk and question, offer a sense of fulfillment and growth ... but their gazes are like weights locking your wrists and ankles to the stage. One misstep and people forget you are no different from them at their core, prone to mistakes—for that is not only a thing for humans. So you endure, you grit your teeth and push back those days when the shackles catch up to you in hopes that you can forget they're there.
... perhaps their rose-coloured veil has been lifted for far too long, for little enjoyment remains in reflecting on godhood, and even the joys and wonders they have over their own people feel pale to the underlying guilt and selfishness for being free of it and not keeping the weight of thousands of lives on their shoulders. Maybe just these last few months have left a bitter taste on their tongue. Maybe they just don't like looking into a mirror that is standing before them.
Their lips purse for a few moments, dusting away old thoughts as their expression softens.
"... but if you have to, you shouldn't do it alone if you do hurt. Pain and pressure kept inside will at some point break the glass regardless of how sturdy it is ... but pain shared, even if only in talking, will ease some of it—especially to one who can understand that we are human too, in our own way. I cannot remove your pain or tell you to shed it, but I can offer my hand to hold and to listen."
#[ ITS FINE ITS OK!!! ]#[ they want to tell her she doesnt have to hurt but like ]#[ its a selfimposed pain u cant rlly escape ]#[ unless u squash then ur ppl's comforts in some way ]#SYLVIE // ANSWERED.#OOC // WAITING FOR QUEUE.#lochjurat
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Nawaz Sharif Returns To Pakistan After 4-Year Self-Imposed Exile In UK
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Empty hallways greet
even emptier people;
In this, I resign. In exile, I design. – Hathaway Hayes (2022)
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Land and Sea #7 Oil. Acrylic on canvas 30 x 24 inches I’m always amazed at the patterns created when air, current and water mix. Sometimes, early in the morning, I can observe the wind coming toward me by the marks it makes on the water’s surface. And then there are always those unexplained swirls of chaos in the calm. I imagine a large animal stirring things up beneath the surface! It’s probably more ethereal than that as unknown air molecules interact. Other images here include beginning a work on paper and observations on my current self imposed art residency. Place is an important aspect in my work. Settling in and digging deeper. Feeling the connections and current struggles of this place. Seeing how it works itself out in the paintings. #place #hurricaneian #water #wind #windbreaker #artandnature #currents #selfimposed #artresidency #donpedro #livelifeincolour #originalpainting #artforinteriors #artforsale #artistthoughts #onpainting #paintingconversation #coastalabstract #blueabstract #layeredart #artcurator #artconsultant #thesea #landandsea #lisakellner https://www.instagram.com/p/CpxjD_YMLoa/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
#7#place#hurricaneian#water#wind#windbreaker#artandnature#currents#selfimposed#artresidency#donpedro#livelifeincolour#originalpainting#artforinteriors#artforsale#artistthoughts#onpainting#paintingconversation#coastalabstract#blueabstract#layeredart#artcurator#artconsultant#thesea#landandsea#lisakellner
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some years ago I started noticing a trend on Instagram's feed so I made it a selfimposed rule to close the app when I scrolled pass like 5 ads and/or posts from accounts I didn't follow
while this rule let me use the app about like a minute or a couple minutes back then, it's usually barely a few posts now now
we're all being slowly boiled like a frog
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im really trying so hard to be on a selfimposed drawing hiatus i cant be exposed to conversations about sol making out w every bahumian . what am i supposed to but draw its tongue time idk
#this is ehy im ina DEATH GRP#'i am done drawing foreve'' and then BOOM frog tongue polyamorous exploita#sorry to my wrist u will never be free from the Curse
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I DID IT! PROMISED CONSORT RADAHN BEATEN ON NG+7!!!
#AND i did so with my selfimposed challenge to not use summons for any remembrance boss in this run#god im so happy and proud rn#now i just need to do the final boss and that should be childs play after this lmfao 😭😭😭
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goinginto a selfimposed exile cus i'm too much of a chatterbox around people and if i talk too much i dislodge massive chunks of blood in my mouth. taste bad
#theres clotting in there rn that i absolutely must not dislodge or it will fuck with the healing process#but i love to chat. sing along to things. etc
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weird to see a horror franchise breeding within selfimposed normalcy
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Hello, I have returned!!!
After months of grueling, selfimposed learning I have finished CS50's Introduction to Computer Science.
Yaaaaaaaay.
lookit this
Congratulation Me!
Now some of you, from my very huge following that absolutely exist, might be wondering what I created for my FINAL PROJECT!
it might just be one of the shittiest homage to the flash game "Dino Hills" made to this date.
Here is a video demonstration I had to make for the final project (Feat. myself and my very confident voice)
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You want to play the game yourself? TOO BAD!
I still need to figure out how to host a game on the Internet
There are even worse news!
I only now figured out, after completing the course, that the Harvard certificate is more or less just a participation trophy.
My assignment is being graded by edx.org
If I'm unlucky, I 'll have to wait a month to see how well I did on the course and I'll have to shill out 200 bucks If i want to use that certificate
fuck
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Glad to have a great music collection so I can listen to something fitting to my vibe even in my selfimposed internet free times
#set my internet free time to starting at 11 PM#still can get around it if I want to#but as long as I don't have trouble sleeping like last night I don't do so more than one extra 45 min
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