#s15 spn

[spnstillstudies]

BONUS STILL (KO-FI♡)

S15E18, “Despair”

[clairenatural]

Heaven as a place where there is only peace, no negative emotions. So you can be your true self without fear. So you can love the angel freely. So you can be a happy family again. So you can drink beer and drive your car and drink beer and drive your car and drink beer and drive your So you can't miss those left behind. So you can't mourn your life. So you can't resent your father. Is this the free will you fought for?

[undercovercannibal]

No, he didn't.

[funkytownwinchester]

"I can't do this alone." - Supernatural parallels (S01E01 / S15E20)

[2sw]

"Dean physically hitting/beating Sam" requested by anonymous

I had this same themed gifset in my drafts for quite some time, but since anon requested it, I remade it to finally post it. I excluded the occasions when dean was under the influence of MoC even though the show explicitly stated that the mark only amplifies what's already there. I also excluded a few other scenes for obvious reasons because I know how to take context into account, so I think this is a fair gifset. now apply the same standard to sam and do the math. and my original intention was, and still is, to show sam's reaction because everything I post is about sam. I don't even consider this as a dean crit post, this is just how he is and it is part of the show you can't deny.

[eversw]

sam + sam?

[nostalgicbones]

I’M HAPPY NOW

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

THE TRUTH

destiel // blush - wolf alice

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[fatallyaddictedtofiction]

First time Dean died for a while:

Sam went to extreme lengths to get him back only for an angel to do it then dean and said angel became boyfriends

Second time Dean died for a while:

Sam didn't try to bring him back but dean still came back also with a vampire boyfriend this time

Third time Dean died for a while:

Sam didn't try to being him back because he assumed he'd get back by himself with another random boyfriend he picked up along the way.

Sam held this belief until he himself died.

[roublardise]

10x01 - Black // 15x07 - Last Call // 5x16 - Dark Side of the moon

in spn triplets is code for gay sex thesis

[shallowseeker]

We should've seen Dean get DRUNK drunk after Chuck curses them with bad luck in s15.

Flirty, stupid, crawling-into-Cas's lap drunk.

DEAN: *hiccup* Caaaaaas hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii CAS: (baffled) Hello, Dean. DEAN: (exaggerated whisper) I had more to tell you in Purgatory *collapses into hysterical laughter* you interrupted me

[winchestergifs]

STACKEDextras ➙ Don't you have a girl to get back to?

8.10 Torn and Frayed ✣ 15.9 The Trap Written by Jenny Klein ✢ Robert Berens Directed by Robert Singer Original Air Dates: January 16, 2013 & 2020

[lovealwayssay]

I know I'm crazy and need to stop thinking about the Supernatural finale but I can’t because I was so focused on how shitty the finale was to Dean that I hadn’t truly gotten mad about how it treated Sam until now and I hate myself for that because SAM!!! Sam, who had been through almost nonstop trauma since he was born, who started the show losing the woman he was in love with, who had his bodily autonomy violated over and over again, who spent at least 180 years being tortured by Lucifer, who died and lost and grieved and bled for the entire show, was supposed to just lose Dean, his brother, the one constant in his life, after losing Cas, who he considered family, and Jack, his child, and be able to move on and live a happy life? Sam deserved so much better. He deserved to grow old with his brother and Cas, marry Eileen, and raise their kids with Jack as their older brother. The ending they gave Sam is what Season 1 Sam would have wanted, not Season 15 Sam. They ignored everything he had been through, everything he had endured, everyone he had met, and all his growth, so he could satisfy his 22-year-old dreams. There is no universe in which this was a happy ending for Sam and I’m so heartbroken about it. 

[papercute]

several thoughts(tm) on dean’s bar-owning hallucination/dream from when michael was possessing him:

first of all, obviously all the details of this incarnation of pamela are basically a parallel to cas, making her as close as she could be to cas without being cas. the “to hell and back” t-shirt and the wings necklace are incredibly on the nose. but i also wanna add that the fact that this manifestation is pamela in the first place is a parallel to cas.

first, it doesn’t really make sense for it to be pamela at the time of this series. we hadn’t seen pamela for maybe eight seasons, and she died in season 5(?), so she wasn’t exactly relevant to the series at this time. but i think it was her of all people because she was dean’s first impression of cas. it was pamela who reached to cas in the séance and was the first in the whole series to speak his name, and it was the image of pamela finding castiel that is dean’s first time ever experience of him.

also, on the cas stand in being a woman: aside from the fact that the cw is very obviously homophobic, i prefer to think that it’s dean’s internalised homophobia. this version of pamela is as close to cas as she could be, but she’s just not a man.

thirdly and finally, there’s the repeated mantra of sam and cas being on a hunt and that they are supposed to be back tomorrow. or something. and it just kinda hurts that in dean’s ideal world, cas is coming back to him. cas is always coming home.

[ihatedean]

it's so small but there's something so interesting to me about the fact that when dean makes eileen's "pro list" with sam he says "she gets it. she gets us" instead of... you know, the much more normal and sane alternative when talking about your brother's potential partner, "she gets you."

it speaks volumes I think because there are so many examples of their attempts at a committed relationship failing specifically because [she] (insert whatever name you want here) did not get them. like, as a unit. [she] understood sam or understood dean and could maybe have given them something they wanted; you think you love someone, and yeah, there's baggage, he's been through some shit he doesn't want to talk about, but sometimes that's relationships, right? but if you had to pinpoint a moment in the relationship when things got bad, it would literally be the second the brother shows up. that's when you realize this man can't even imagine being anything but a half of something else. you love a person that is incapable of seeing himself as such. you loved a coping mechanism.

i don't think dean believes sam ever needed his seal of approval to be with eileen, not consciously at least, but the highlight of these late seasons is witnessing the aftermath of these two accepting that they cannot breathe if they don't know where the other one is. even worse, how natural they make it seem. of course i killed myself to bring you back. water is wet, dude, keep up. and just like dean said, eileen just... gets that. definitely because she met them at a very different point in their lives in comparison to, say, lisa or amelia. they have a security that only comes with seeing with your own eyes as your brother literally kills death for you. eillen knows that if she wants sam, he'll always carry dean with him. she might not fully understand how deep it goes or how bad it can get because she never witnessed it, all she knows is that brother trumps over girlfriend, she's not fighting it.

compared to sam who barely opens up to his partners and i assume only scratched the surface of The Thing with his brother, dean personally had his ex calling him out on his weird relationship with sam. like, lisa borderline insults them lol and though i don't think lisa's words made him insecure about it, it's not surprising he'd be more aware of eileen's reaction to it. "i tried the family thing" essentially means "i let someone see it."

if eileen stays there she'll be dating the two of them, just... in a not-fun, very unsexy way. and no one in that bunker stops for a second to think how deeply disturbing that is.

anyways i wrote this three days ago and thought maybe my brain made up the "she gets us" part, so i looked up the clip to make sure i'm not crazy and found this in the comments. thank you sinasina4170 on youtube two years ago. you said it a lot better in a lot less words.

[funkytownwinchester]

Cas being sarcastic - Supernatural (S15E08)

[2sw]

"Yeah, well, someone has to keep fighting for Jack."