#riley it ok im joy

[kiya-cannibal-bug]

RILEY IT OK IM JOY-

Canon I was rileys 69th strand of hair

(I do ship Alice and Oliver btw!!!!)

[your-fav-is-divorced]

"riley it okay i'm joy 😁" and the person who originally wrote the comment are divorced

OH MY GOD 😭😭😭😭

"RILEY IT OK IM JOY 😁😁😁😁" and The Original Commenter are Divorced!

[mariagreenwoodart]

Riley it okay im joy👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹🥰🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍😍👺👺👺👺👺😤😤😤😤 (dies cutely*

Riley it okay I'm joy

👹👹🫠🫠🫠🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰🙃🙃🙃🙃

[nocomforthere]

When I tell you guys this is the first thing I saw when I opened Tumblr after like 2 months

[joyxiety-shipper5423]

Riley it okay, I'm Joy

[sunnydinthereal]

yo is that a simpson

[tsukacchako]

is anakt like a boarding school like in the sense that they live there instead of going back to their guardians at the end of the day

[cconfusedkat]

,,, Wait no i could literally work on their refs RN ????? YEYAGENAGDHG Joy

[triglycercule]

the amount of these chocolate yogurt bars i've been eating is INSANE!!!! i feel lik horror sans eating this shit bro became i KNOW he would absolutely devour these. he would eat the shit out of these. strawberry and vanilla. theyre so fucking good i cant stop eating i feel like a fatass but its ok its ok they taste good im allowed to indulge when i don't even eat lunch most days. theyre so fucking delicious 🤤🤤🤤 on a side note horror would also eat up that dehydrated yogurt i keep seeing on my youtube shorts (all i see on youtube shorts is food. all i see is food. its either cheesy noodly savory goodness or the most delectable sweet someone has ever made and i love it all)

he would decorate the little yogurt bowls with chocolate and nuts and berries and have it every morning. nightmare cannot start any missions before horror finishes his yogurt bowl because he refuses to do anything before his mandatory yogurt bowl. he does not share. dust tried it once and immediately hated it because wtf??? he's scared of it it feels unnatural. killer didn't even bat an eye at it because he doesnt eat lmao BUT OMG!!!! these yogurt bars are so fucking GOOD I CANT STOP I WONT STOP I DONT EVER STOP!!!!!!

[brigebus]

funny how I open Tumblr to find some ref pics for Joy and the first thing I see is an AU with the emotions all being Pim (I think?)

[amourjins]

same

—🎧

great lets get married and have 938292299 cats together 😄😄��😳‼️

[krooschl]

riley it ok im joy

[chaicedtea]

He laughs, “Cygnets? Wow. That is a really weird name. I’m gonna start calling Pete that, just to fuck with him.. Anyway, that’s pretty cute. I love baby animals.” Me too!!!

“So I’ve been told.” He chuckles, gently placing his hands on Bill’s waist.

[ tumblr would not let me reblog it, i tried like five times💔��� so i’m replying here @chaicedted :3 ]

He squeaks from the touch, allowing it.. dork. "Mmm, I've heard a lot of that talk about youu, handsome."

@chaicedtea

[raisedbythetv89]

Ok ooooook OK SO.

Spike was literally made for Buffy because he was made for and by Drusilla, and Buffy and Dru are the same person:

Innocent, kind-hearted young girls, with special gifts that cause them to carry more guilt/burden than others and they are used/abused/traumatized by angelus/angel, then neglected and abandoned, with Spike being there to pick up the pieces and nurture, care for, and love them the best he can to help them move past their angel trauma (which is actually an impossible task with Drusilla because of the sire aspect but isn’t with Buffy)

WHICH is why I believe William’s first act as a vampire was to try and save his mother. He was literally created to be Dru’s knight. Not only her protector but her healer. Which is why his first instinct when it should be all about blood lust is instead, to heal his mother who he still loves even as a vampire. I mean even Dru, a certified nutcase, is like you wanna do WHAT?!?! When Spike tells her his plan to save his mom😹

This is also why I believe angel trying to mold Spike into his image never really took or rather Spike was able to break free from it. Angel was created by darla for the intent of death, torment and destruction.

Spike was created to care for and love Dru. Which required an OBSCENE amount of patience, determination, humility, and love of a challenge. Which is why he was so intrigued by slayers, another seemingly impossible task - but the joy/fun was in the TRYING, the thrill of the unknown and the unpredictability of it all. Which are all the traits he needed to be there for both Dru and Buffy while also ensuring he never gives up on them as long as they want him there, and then some lol.

IM FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

Because also this is soooooo not where I planned on going with this but “I was made to love you” episode title is now drawing in the connection of, is this why Spike didn’t initially see the problem with the Buffy-Bot until he saw the reaction of Buffy herself who often acts as his moral compass as he relearns what is “good” after 100+ years living by vamp code because him AS A HUMAN, in his vulnerable, dejected and devastated state was killed and made into a vampire for the sole purpose of loving and caring for Drusilla selflessly, without regard for himself, much like the bots were!! So why would he see the harm in creating something like that for himself when no one was going to die in the process and it meant he could stop fixating in the real buffy? Both of which to a vamp who’s only been trying to live by human morals again for like 14 episodes vs 120 years with NO help just trial and erroring his way through becoming a white hat which his starting point is “I would like credit for not taking advantage of bleeding disaster victims” and “what do you mean building a shrine to show how deep my devotion is and chaining you up, offering to kill my ex, and forcing you to talk to me and admit your feelings aren’t the way to do this??” 😹😹😹 like he gets it so wrong, it’s comical in season 5 because he truly is so earnest about all of it because while yes it is all for a chance with Buffy, he genuinely wants to be better for her so he can earn that chance. As he says to Riley “a fellas gotta try” after saying he doesn’t think he has a chance with her.

He was an Eleanore who desperately needed his Chidi. Which Buffy is his moral compass but she ends up being a “let them fail/push them into the deep end” kind of guide. So he makes A LOT of mistakes along the way as many of us often do in general but especially those of us who were raised by abusive parents; who in our adulthood, have to learn to discern what is healthy vs abusive to be a good person to both yourself and others and be in actual healthy relationships with boundaries and respect with zero practical experience or good instincts to go on.

NONE of this excuses any harm that Spike causes at all. That is not the point of this to say “oh he didn’t really do bad”, no he did. Spike caused a lot of harm but this perspective that I’ve finally been able to put into words is why none of the harm ends up being a deal breaker for me and many spuffys because it puts his choices in the right perspective which is not that of a human even though he looks like one a lot of the time.

Spike pre-soul, making the mistakes he makes isn’t the same as a human or a vamp with a human soul making the mistakes because he doesn’t have his human soul motivating and informing the decisions he makes. It really mimics different cultures in a lot of ways as anya really demonstrates during her wedding with all her talk of demon culture and tradition (and her own struggles to assimilate into the human world again and she HAS a human soul and xander to help her) and the initiative being VERY n*zi coded and Riley being called a bigot because he is ignorant to much of demonology. So un-souled spike has a more potential for forgiveness of his mistakes than human soul havers because he is always genuinely TRYING to do right by Buffy even when he gets it horribly wrong. And the characters in the show always hold him accountable and make him feel TERRIBLE for the mistakes he makes.

Why does he have such potential for forgiveness you ask? The best example is to think of the concept of someone trying to assimilate themselves into a new culture. We can’t expect them to blend right in perfectly and get all the culture norms right, right away (again -anya-but also a real life example - when I travel in Italy and catch up with friends there I STILL always stumble and forget they’re always gonna go in for a double cheek kiss greeting - pre covid anyway - and I KNOW it’s a thing but if I’m out of practice it takes me a while to start greeting people that way again and it makes for some AWKWARD ENCOUNTERS until I get it down😹). It takes time, and normally guidance and patience from others that spike honestly doesn’t often have except in the form of being yelled at or beat up until he gets his soul. But his willingness to TRY anyways despite failure, rejection, ridicule and cruelty. How can I not love him?? He is me, I am him!! I was also met with so much unhelpful criticism and cruelty when I was just trying to learn and do a good job.

Both as someone who is autistic and didn’t know it for a lot of life; I too felt like I was blundering through without a guide or a rule book and I was sure I was making mistakes because people would get upset but I had NO help identifying what exactly I did wrong or what to do instead. So I knew I was messing up but had to keep guessing and trying anyway and getting it wrong again and again!

And as someone raised by an emotionally distant/abusive narcissist, navigating healthy relationships became even MORE difficult and I made a lot of bad choices along the way that landed me in some awful relationships much like what spike and Buffy devolve into towards the end of season 6 because both of them are up stream without a paddle when it comes to healthy relationships, healthy coping mechanisms, and communication. They know pain, avoidance, fighting, torment, and ecstasy from always living in extremes and life or death situations (notice Buffy struggles the most in the season with no threat of the apocalypse until the last two episodes - season 6 - which is SO common for people with trauma, you really fall apart when things are low stakes)

It’s why the tenderness and gentleness of season 7 means SO MUCH. Both of them experiencing these tiny pockets of true peace with each other after everything they’ve been through individually and together. Experiencing true peace like we see from them is one of the hardest things to accomplish if you have severe trauma.

I’m always really happy when I can digest these complex themes enough to communicate why I love them so much and why they’re so important to me. The fact that this show had so much in-fighting amongst the writers and misogynists trying to make spike pathetic and accidentally making him one of the most complex characters, plus episodes based specifically on neurodivergent/queer peoples’ traumatic coming of age experiences because the parallels are SO strong there no way they’re not lol. This all means I can probably spend the rest of my life dissecting the layers of this show and learning about myself in the process and always find something new 🙃🙃🙃 and clearly I love all aspects of spuffy so god damn much as they each embody a big part of my life experiences in so many beautiful yet tragic ways.

[cloudy-osc]

"Ever since she was little riley would always talk about these...friends in her head. We didnt know what they were of course. She even draw them on many diffrent occasions. As she got older she rarely ever brought it up untill recently how ever...she brought it up to bree and grace but they were just as confused as we are heh...why do you ask?"

Joy said to her orange companion who had a tense look of her face

"i-its just" she started "for some reason i keep worrying-no riley keeps worrying about this...i just dont understand why"

She fiddled with her sleeves before speaking up again

"you said she draw them right?"

"want me to show you?"

anxiety nodded as joy summoned the memory. Riley was no older then 4 at the time and she was coloring with her tonge sticking out like always. anxiety would have thought it was cute if the drawings wereint so...familiar? They looked familiar. Like shes seen these before...

She looked back at joy who had a smile of her face. She looked back then back at joy. Then again and again and again and again and-

"wait what!?"

"huh? anxiety whats the matter?"

"t-those drawings...there of you guys!"

Joy looked at anxiety puzzled. She looked back. That couldint be them...right

"whaat? I dout that. Its a coincidence at best"

"but joy-"

"besides Riley doseint know we exist"

"but joy!- ack!?"

anxietys worrying was cut short by a pillow to the head by ennui

"can you shut up im trying to sleep"

"oh! Ennui just the emotion i needed! Help me convince here!"

she said running and pushing ennui to the control pannel. She scoffed in return looking up at the memory playing

"and what exactly am i looking at anxiety."

"those drawings! They look familiar right?"

"...hm"

*she pulled out her phone takeing a photo of joy.*

"hmmm...looks similar to joy"

"exactly!!" anxiety yelled before looking ar joy

"see what i mean?"

"...i mean i guess it looks kinda like me" joy started "but its not possible Riley doseint know what we look like let alone if we even exist!"

"can you two just sleep on it or something. Ugh C'est trop tard for this nonsense"

anxiety sighed as she nodded

"exactly wee-wees right!"

"dont call me that"

"you just need to sleep on it. Youll forget about it by morning!"

It wasint that simple bit anxiety couldint argue. Joy then rushed the newer ones to bed as she went back to dream duty

"theres no way that real...right?"

But it got worse from then on.

(OK END NOTES! this is for an au i made a bit ago that i want to explore more. Ill write more soon but for now this is all i got. I may turn this into an ask blog or series or something like that but for now this is all you get. I hope you enjoyed! Feel fres to ask questions :>)

[c10v3r]

i was like debating whether or not to post these but like riley it ok im joy.

YES THIS IS DANDYS WORLD AND YES MY FAV IS RAZZLE DAZZLE