#really thankks for asking ahahaha sorry i got weird

[ayarambles]

2 and 28 for the ask game 💕💕

2. name something that takes you back to your childhood/your idea of childhood

I answered this one but I will say another thing that reminds me of childhood. Boxed chocolate milk 🥺 My dad would get us a carton of it each week for school but we’d always drink them all just at home as snacks lol so he got us an extra extra big carton but we just forgot it in the mall (like theres a safekeeping place where u keep stuff u bought but dont want to lug around with you around the mall lol and we kept it there and forgot about it for 2 weeks but it was gone lmao) so like chocolate milk always reminds me of that time ooof sorry this got long

28. name something that makes you feel like yourself

damn man dont come at me like that ajdasghjs 

i dont really know who myself is anymore these days n its something im struggling with cause I feel everything I used to define myself as is just another way to conform or to keep up with the idea of myself that someone else has of me y’know? like do I actually enjoying reading anymore? or do I just feel I have to like it because I did for a point in my life and its just something that everyone used to define me “like oh aya yea the bookworm” when I havent been able to even enjoy reading anything for a very long time and ooof its the same way with eveERything else like i just feel everything that made me myself at some point is just fragments of Someone Else’s idea or expectations of me and its not really “me” IDKKKK but i feel most like myself when I’m running because I can get out of my head and just focus on being alive i guess and no one knows me when I run like its just me and my music so YEAAA and this got longer and deeper than the previous one sorry ooof 🤦‍♀️

thanks so much for asking 🥺❤️❤️