#prayers appreciated I guess I’m just….worn out and 🫠

[aceofstars16]

I’m kind of online again? Ish?

And uh, I feel like I want to recap this month cause maybe that’ll help me feel better about it or something…

I was hoping it would be a refreshing, relaxing, and clarifying break. It wasn’t. At all. I’m more exhausted than before and my depression has been probably the worst it has ever been. (Maybe I had a breakthrough last night but honestly I am still wary and unsure and just tired so I don’t know for sure yet)

I started physical therapy and I am…still not sure if it’s helping? I’ve tried dry needling a few times, but I can’t say I notice any drastic difference yet. (Though my neck went out really bad one day a few weeks ago so that might be impeding seeing any improvement) But hey, I tried Excedrin and it actually seems to help my migraines…I just hope I won’t have to keep taking them as often as I have been 🥴

Our cats also got fleas like…a month ago…and we are still dealing with them…maybe it’s a little better now but it’s still frustrating to see them…and get bit by them…they are also probably one of the reasons I’m so tired 😒 (and I haven’t drawn much cause I’m tired and the fleas are in my drawing room and last time I tried drawing on the couch in there I got bit 🔪)

A few good things: I got to do two escape rooms with family, and we beat them with a lot of time to spare and it was fun. This past week I got to see my brother and wife with the rest of the family and we all had a fun (though sometimes tiring) time. I also had some ideas for my books (slightly inspired by being salty about a book series I tried to read, and also excited for @dragonanne ‘s book release 🎉) so I might actually have a little more of a plot for the trilogy instead of just vague ideas lol. Oh and I read a lot of books and changed my book reading goal to 50 this year cause I’m only eight books away from that already 😂

So yeah…I’m kind of discouraged and disappointed about this past month…🫠