#posting this to hold my self accountable

[fulcrvm]

2670 words into a new dreamling wip, which means i now have 16408 words of across 14 (?!) different dreamling fic wips after nearly one and a half years of trying to post even one complete sandman fic at all. goal for the next five months to get at least one or two of them posted 💪💪

[naomiknight-17]

Y'all it has been a TIME

Without making this post a thousand miles long, between vet bills, home repair, and a hiccup with my student loan payments, I am very in the red

I would very much like to be out of the red, and also be able to afford to go out for a nice dinner to celebrate my 14th wedding anniversary, which happened earlier this week, but went mostly unnoted.

So! You know what that means! Time for another...

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[polarsirens]

hooo

[johnslittlespoon]

tough and sweet boys are cuddling btw. at this very moment. kiss is mere hundreds of words away. sweating profusely.

[togament]

NSFW Alphabet… with Togame….

[akkivee]

i’ve been seeing one or two artists talk about their pkmn aus and i love how we’ve all collectively agreed that kuukou would have a gengar LOL

[kimmkitsuragi]

so i just updated blender......

[honeyrisuke]

There is something very very disgusting about how americans center their country in every single world event. Like, yes, its important to follow the money and hold politicians accountable, but making a world event at the other side of the world ABOUT your country and your election while speaking on an international stage is exactly why I don‘t like americans.

[ccrabapples]

So fucked up that I spend all my time creating things and making art and then if I finish it I'm like "huh, neat" and hide it away

[flowermist7432]

Lately i've been utterly crushed by my past and really conflicted on how I should feel towards my past-self. Sometimes I think "I was such a shitty person, gross, cringey, loud and annoying. Cant believe i did that, if how i acted as a 11 years old got out id be cancelled for sure. Im glad i was bullied and hurt because now I am humbled and a better person." but another part of me goes "That was a child! she was a girl who had a lot of emotions and cared and wanted to save bugs from being stepped on and hug her friends. she wanted to be loved and she didnt deserve what happened!"

[nebulouscoffee]

Late night activities (re-reading all the comments on 'Pretenders' just to psych myself up to posting ONE update)

[umalvie]

this is the plan this summer. i can't promise i will meet every deadline bc i like to do other things as well. but this is the plan

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 5

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Not much, I had to run errands most of the day and also felt incredibly tired, probably because the cats woke me up like 4 times last night begging for food and things. Overly warm and headachey a lot.

I planted a few new flowers, and pressed more flowers and clovers in my Large Sturdy Flower Pressing Book as well.

Actually worked on translating the text for the previously mentioned tapestry/painting thing. I think I've decided that it doesn't really matter very much, because nobody else even knows anything about this conlang except for me, so they won't know if it's wrong lol.. It is not entirely completed after all (complete enough to translate most simple sentences into consistently, but also there are a few spots here and there where I haven't fully worked out the way some part of speech actually functions or etc., or I wrote down one thing that later contradicts something else, so occasionally I reach a sentence that I'm not sure exactly which rule to follow to translate, and I need to do a larger comprehensive organization of the document to work out all the kinks and declare officially like 'THIS is the ONE way this is done' etc. etc.) - so because of that, I think I'll just kind of 'do my best' and if the rules now end up changing in the future as I further work on the language, then, that's fine, because nobody can read it anyway lol. Kind of like that song on my side music youtube that's sung in genuine Avirrekava lyrics but also I wrote them years ago and some of the sentences have now become outdated/invalid.

Washed and cleaned some kale so it will be dry for me to maybe make silly kale chips tomorrow.

Final proofreading + posting of the poll adventure thing.

eughh,, literally nothing else.. I hate running errands because it always makes me feel drained and sick after, plus I get nothing else done all day except for just going places. I know checking my p.o. box and picking up cat food and stuff is technically still a productive action, but it just feels like.. i should be getting all of my long term projects done instead lol.. what about the videos?? or worldbuilding?? what does grocery shopping have to do with elves??!?! >:V (aside from pretending to be a group of fantasy creatures evaluating produce having an imaginary conversation with yourself at the store ghghj,, but that is not productive either lol)

Notable sights: Found 13 four leaf clovers, and 2 five leaf clovers, though one of them is almost a 6 leaf (like one of the leaves is nearly split all the way into a sort of heart shape, just not entirely). Also two of the clovers are HUGE, probably the biggest 4 leaf clovers I've ever collected, like 2 inches across maybe. The sky was very pretty a lot with big fluffy white clouds. Not a 'sight' really, but I got to sit in air conditioning for a little while today and it was very nice. I love the cold crisp kind of stale air smell, like walking into a freezer or something (which I used to do when I was a kid, I would sneak into a walk-in freezer at a school cafeteria and just sit there for a while lol), it's comforting to me.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Had a bit of smoked gouda and green onions in my Mandated Completely Plain Flavorless Grits For Breakfast this morning, as a littol treat lol.. Tried a 'biscoff' ice cream bar, which is generally a flavor profile I like, but I think I would usually rather be eating a cookie than having ice cream. Also an Ensure nutritional drink, which I know most people consider gross but I genuinely like them.. maybe it's like a source of comfort when my stomach is too sick to eat, like 'oh well at least I can have this cold smooth textured chalky chocolate thing' lol.

Sort of like how I have positive conditioning to feel safe/comfortable in bathrooms (due to it usually being one of the only places you can safely retreat from a social situation or get out of crowds in public areas, etc.), even though rationally I have no particular reason to like bathrooms much, and most people dislike public bathrooms especially. Fellow public bathroom and ensure nutritional shake lovers unite! (3 of us in the entire world)

[solaria-writes]

fuck it Darius Morgan centric-fic, written in Like water for chocolate style

I KNOW FOR THE THEME OF THE FOOD IS MORE ACCURATE TO MAKE IT ARTEM CENTRIC BUT THIS IS ALSO GOING TO BE DARTEM

also, this is what Like water for chocolate is about

[virtuabun]

ive always wanted to do the Halloween thing where you draw your OC's cosplaying other characters... im starting now so i can actually make my dreams come true this year

[levia-kun]

One of the most dangerous thing about AI is the bias laundering into the false "objective" truth. Because it's not true that those AIs are neutral or objective in anyway kind or shape and not recognising the bias is incredibly dangerous. Because by filtering the bias through the machine, it's easy to present it as the truth calculated by the unfeeling machine. And existing negative bias will be laundered into an objective truth.

The reason this bias exists, is because databases those AIs are trained on are collected and created by humans. This will lead to them inherently being biased.

Let's use 1 + 1 = 2 as example So obviously 1 + 1 = 2 is always true, right?

Now we change to formular by saying x + x = 2x No objections so far.

So, what is x? In math you can define x as any number or give it a criteria and proof it to be true. But if we expend the definition of x beyond just number or ties to math, what'll happen?

Let's define x as any fruit, then the logic is 1 fruit + 1 fruit = 2 fruits What fruit doesn't matter, we just want to determine the amount of fruits total. So, what's a fruit then? Do we qualify tomatoes? what about zucchini, olives and avocados?

Depending on person a zucchini and tomato are two, one or no fruits. And despite x + x = 2x being a correct operation, results vary so wildly, because the database x, can vary to person to person.

This is no different for AI, because the database itself has been collected and labeled by humans. The bias of who made the database will always be present.

For AI work, data has to be labeled and put into categories. Obviously a picture of a cat will be labeled cat, maybe the colour of the cat, fur pattern etc. Additionally the person can tag it as "cute", which is a more subjective measurement, especially when it's kittens.

So. uhm, What when we apply this principle for humans?

Like queer people get tagged inherently sexual. Lesbians get an additional "hot" label, bisexuals "cheater", gays "feminine" etc. Attractive woman is tied to terms like "pale skin, thin, big breasts, natural beauty (but it's full make up still)" and "undesirable demographic" get tags with negative connotations all over the place.

Then what about the quantity and ratio of data presented? If more than 50% are white, and majority men, how is that not disproportionate? When in many studies the amount of non white is so little, they don't get categorised as their individual ethnicities, but summed up as "non white".

How the fuck is that not bias talking?

Even now, despite open AI scraping the internet in its ethically dubious fullest , has it's own database still to remove CSAM, gore Because it doesn't want the AI to even know and generate it, not because it would be unethical to use those pictures. (which they use underpaid workers for that get traumatised in teh process btw) Yet they can't do the same to curate ratios and check their other biases?

So taking all that into account, it's so, so fucking important to stress, that AI is not objective. It trains on databases carrying the creator's bias, subconciously or not.

It's not some objective machine calculating. It's calculating through the bias of its data.

Machine didn't create itself

Humans did.