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[jascurka]

Szczęśliwego Nowego Roku! | Happy New Year!

[leftistscum]

I AM CURSING YOU FUCKBAGS TO 1000 YEARS OF OWOFIED NONSENSE. I HAVE TO SUFFER, NOW YOU HAVE TO SUFFER WITH ME.

Update:

All this effort and it doesn't even work. I'm not mad, just disappointed. Current theory is that I didn't include an important part of it in the while loop. The bot scans new posts, and I'm not gonna re-post this for the second time. It's only been actually tested two or three times including this try, and I'm keeping this as a sort of devlog. Update 2:

I restarted the OAuth apps that I made earlier today (an OAuth callback server to catch the keys, and another OAuth thing to generate the Authorization verifier). I worked almost all day to get these two to work together. The API ended up sending this error, and I don't know what it means, but it doesn't throw any errors client-side. Here's the error it throws. {'meta': {'status': 429, 'msg': 'Limit Exceeded'}, 'response': [], 'errors': [{'title': 'Limit Exceeded', 'code': 0, 'detail': 'Minor hiccup. Try again.'}]} Like, okay, great. Now I gotta actually look at the documentation and find out what this magic gibberish means, because this could relate to all those times I tried to authenticate, OR I hit the daily limit on posts seen by my bot, which I highly doubt. Update 2.5 after some research, I've learned absolutely nothing. That error code is a giant ball of nothing that basically says I exceeded a rate limit, but doesn't give any explanation as to which rate I exceeded. Thanks, Tumblr. At least Reddit threw client side errors that you didn't have to go to a broken API console to see. Fuck all of you, and I'll see you tomorrow.

Side note: I am surviving off one breakfast pizza from Casey's, one Pipeline Punch, one grape flavored 3D, 4mg Estradiol, 50mg Spironolactone, and I currently have 100mg Progesterone dissolving in my stomach, which at this point, might actually kill me. It's only 9:36 at the time of writing this, but it feels like I've been working on this for days. This is to say that I may have missed something super obvious, and if that's the case, well, I'll leave tomorrows problems to tomorrow's me.

Update 3

Just woke up and re-ran all the assorted programs just to get a fresh start. I'm still getting that error code, but more importantly, my access token and secret changed? I'm not expert when it comes to stuff like this, but I though tokens and secrets are constant and specific to apps. I can't actually test this thing until the API lets me through. Update 3.5

Found the error code. It wasn't way too hard, but it means my bot probably did something way too much yesterday and I have no idea what. It works on the server's clock and goes by callendar day. This means that if a bot hits the error code at 11:59 PM, it can hit it again at 12:00 AM. For an error 429 to happen, any one of the following has to trigger it.

300 API calls per minute, per IP address.

18,000 API calls per hour, per IP address.

432,000 API calls per day, per IP address.

1,000 API calls per hour, per consumer key.

5,000 API calls per day, per consumer key.

250 new published posts (including reblogs) per day, per user.

250 images uploaded per day, per user.

200 follows per day, per user.

1,000 likes per day, per user.

10 new blogs per day, per user.

20 videos uploaded per day, per user.

60 minutes of total video uploaded per day, per user.

So I can't test this until the server's calendar deems it a new day Update 4

It still doesn't work, but I am one step closer. Because of Tumblr's broken-ass console, I've had to find an alternate way to get an OAuth key. It turns out I was using a temporary access key, which is why it changed when I re-ran everything. I had to do this by using two other scripts. One of them is Tumblr's interactive console on Github , and the other one was a Yaml parser because boy do they like to encrypt. This has been my morning so far. Day two and 5 scripts later, just to finally have something that I should've had at the start.

Update 4.5

I FINALLY GOT AN API RESPONSE!!! LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Update 4.5.5

I have implemented a feature that makes the thing wait for a second then search for any comments with a timestamp older than the last time it waited and has the right keyword in the 196 tag. I have obviously accidentally wasted all my API tries today, but testing begins again tomorrow. You will fear my wrath soon enough. Update 5

Decided to check up on the bot, and ran straight into this wall of text. It looks like blog info? Some of those links take me to profile headers. This isn't a static thing either, it updates every 20 seconds like clockwork. Because I made it update every 20 seconds like clockwork. I think this means it's testing time. Wish me luck. Breaking News. Didn't work, but we're a lil bit closer. Again.

[thisselflovecamebacktome]

Hey where have you been louca

Before I start, I just want to say that I literally woke up today and was contemplating whether or not I should write an update post about myself and then you sent this within the hour, so if that's not a sign, what is? 💜 Anyway I'll give you the short answer and then go into depth for anyone interested in the ins and outs.

The short answer is that I've been taking an quasi break from social media where I still answer asks/messages but don't scroll or reblog. This break was taken for mental health reasons (it's something I've been realistically considering doing over half a decade) but also in part because I knew I was going to be busy for the rest of the year and absolutely hate the new tumblr changes, so it felt like the time to do it. I'm unsure when or if I will return to scrolling/reblogging, but as things stand it almost definitely won't be until at least after the new year because I'm just too busy and honestly? While there have been negatives and positives to this choice, the positives are well outweighing the negatives to the point of me being concerned about disrupting that balance. But I do miss you guys and finding that right balance will be something I'm contemplating over the next few months.

The longer and less sanitised version is that honestly, I was chronically online (like 15+ hours a day just scrolling and watching youtube videos) for just under 13 years and have been absolutely miserable and ill, both physically and mentally, for years of that, in part (and to be frank, a far larger part than I realised until I gave it up) because of social media. Like for reference, I got my first laptop when I was 15, and I just celebrated my 28th birthday on August 9th and I don't think I could tell you a single day in that time that I wasn't on social media.

Earlier this year, it reached a point where I realised that I have pretty much nothing else in my life; I almost never went out, I felt like my intellect and any attention span had vanished and my brain had turned to mush to the point of not having other interests and, especially since stopping work last year to deal with this housing legal situation, I stopped moving my body to the point my physical health was at the point of not being even to walk down the shops (5 minute walk, all flat and soft ground etc) without needing to rest.

Now obviously there were other factors there. Like I've made it no secret that I was suffering from Long Covid for the last 18 months plus a variety of mental health issues over the years and there was some very real practical shit (including but not limited to my housing situation) going on for that time, but it was clear that social media had exacerbated how shitty I felt.

So, knowing that I was going to be away for the whole of the end of September to mid November with very minimal internet, I made a plan that I was going to make a decision about leaving tumblr during that time. But when I felt that overwhelmed, like to the point of feeling anxious, about the changes tumblr made in late July to the point I found it unusable even with using an adblocker on a lot of the new features, I decided to move that forward. I limited my time to two hours a day on youtube (as of right now, most days I actually only watch an hour or less. It's only days [usually Saturdays] where the creators I watch upload a video that's over an hour on its own that I go to the two hour mark), limited my discord time to eras shows (and realistically then I mostly tune in for surprise songs and that's it) and half an hour otherwise each day and only use tumblr and facebook, the only other two social medias I have, as glorified texting.

To fill in the time before my time away in late September to mid November, I had originally only really planned to read and write more plus start relearning Japanese; and I've done all of that and continue to do so consistently. But, honestly, with both the fact that social media was far easier to give up than I thought and the result of it has been me feeling the best I ever have physically and mentally, though I haven't left the house as much as I'd like (I'm better than I was with it, but not at the level I'd like to be, in large part because I'm doing everything I can not to spend money at the moment given I'm going away for a large amount of time so soon), I've also found myself doing the tasks that I felt inadequacy/lack of confidence in to the point of feeling like "less of an adult" because of, and yeah, I do feel like more of an adult now. I cook dinner for my family five times a week compared to infrequently (and in general am eating far more healthily than I ever have), I clean more, I've reached out to get mum a trained carer and other support (a choice we both made of course) and I've continued to broaden my horizons by reading and engaging with media that I wouldn't pre 2022. I've also continued watching One Piece at a rapid rate and am now 2/3 of the way through the current episodes, much to the excitement of my brother lmao 😂

The only aspects of my life that I don't feel like a full fledged adult are the fact that I haven't moved out yet and that I'm not currently working. And both of those things are likely going to change very quickly because we got some amazing news at the beginning of this month that our housing issue has been settled and the landlord is allowing my mother (and by extension me until I'm ready to leave) to stay in the property which means I have the time to go back to work rather than being in legal meetings 5 days a week and can raise the funds to move when the time comes. As it stands, I've been to several interviews this month and am waiting to hear back for one that starts in December so would be perfect given my upcoming plans.

But it would be dishonest to talk about all of these benefits without talking about the difficulties. Because like just because it was easier to leave social media than I thought, that doesn't mean that it's been without issues and definitely doesn't mean that I am fully cured from every issue I've ever had. My demons (particularly surrounding body issues) have come up plus I've realised just how online some of my offline relationships are, like to the point where I can't even talk to them much anymore because they are too exhausted to talk about non social media related stuff but I'm no longer in that sphere.

And it's far lonelier dealing with both of those and even having the highs I've had and been told about others having without sharing it with the community I've had on here. I got a plethora of messages about the selfie day the swifties had recently with acknowledgements that I was missed because I would always reblog everyone's and to be honest, that was the hardest day to stay offline because it made me miss scrolling through this site the most. Same with eras nights, especially this week's given it's the first ever LATAM shows (Brazilian anon, if you see this, please send me a message about your show when it comes up in November!). Like for all the horrors I've faced on this website, on the most part it's really turned into a great community the last few years and I miss being part of that, even if I felt like no one would miss me at the time (which, as an aside, is why messages like this really warm my heart and mean a lot to me anon, so thank you for sending it). And that's why I am going to be using the next few months to heavily consider finding a different balance for the new year when I have more time, at least on the weekends if all goes well and I go back to work lmao.

So where am I going from here? Well as I've said, I'm pretty much jam packed until the end of the year. A friend of mine is getting married in late September so I'm going across the country for that before spending most of October in Hawaii and on a cruise to travel back home and then early November in Sydney to see Charlie Puth and Sam Smith live because my mum (and I in Sam's case) love their music. So I have been pretty much just been preparing for those financially and practically, like to the point of having completed my Christmas/late year birthdays shopping this week lmao. After that, it's pretty much just getting my car fixed, Christmas and then my Melbourne trip next February to see Taylor perform (my friend and I are hoping to get a Sydney ticket too but we won't know until at least September 4th when resale starts). Other than that it's just keeping on going and growing like I have and hopefully going back to work so I can move to Melbourne sooner rather than later!

I would also like to note that though I know I do not owe strangers on the internet an explanation, you all know I pride myself on my transparency so I do want to put in a reminder that my Hawaii trip has been booked since late October 2022, cannot be rebooked given it's connected with a Disney cruise that has no other dates and the fires occurred past the refund date, and I will not be going to Maui. Certain loved ones and I have also given to charities connected to the rebuilding of Maui and wish them all the best in this horrific time for them. I urge anyone who did not have plans already booked to go to Hawaii for the rest of this year pre Maui fires to please stay away and instead use that money to donate to them while they are rebuilding and for those who did have booked plans and are going to lessen your impact as much as possible as resources will likely be scarce and should be prioritised towards citizens.

Anyway, after that massive rant, I think that is all I have to update you all on. I hope you're all doing amazingly and live is treating you well 💜

[buckhelped-archive]

feel-good, tropey buddie fic rec

a couple weeks ago i asked for some sweet trope-heavy buddie fics to take my mind off 5x10, and y'all did not disappoint (thank you SO MUCH to everyone who sent me recs <3)!! i had every intention of making this post shortly thereafter but got wrapped up in holiday stuff, as you do. so it's a bit late but i still wanted to put together a list for anyone who might be after the same thing, especially considering the time of year!

i've not had a chance to read everything here yet so i've just posted the authors' summaries, but have included the tropes involved as well since that's what i was after. the ones with ✨ are ones i have read though, and ⛄ denotes a holiday/winter setting!

feel free to reblog and add more as this list is nowhere near exhaustive, and self-promos are welcome and encouraged!! just please try and keep everything on-theme :) i'll also be editing this as i come across new ones as well. list starts under the cut, sorted by word count. enjoy!!

<5k

✨ pin all of my hopes to your handlebars by spiritsontheroof - pining!eddie, 5+1-esque - 4k - The top of the fire truck is as good of a place as any, really.

He can climb up, lay on top of the hoses, and be left alone. No one follows him up here, or comes looking for him, and no one who walks by in the truck bay can see him. It’s peaceful and it’s quiet and sometimes it’s the only place Eddie can get one moment’s peace in this place.

He does it for about six months after the tsunami before anyone finds him.

And the person who figures it out, of course, is Buck.

✨ as ordinary things often do by hattalove - didn't know they were dating, meddling firefam - 4k - “Uh, Chim,” he says, “why would we be kissing each other in the first place?”

“Oh, no reason,” Chimney shrugs. “That’s why I figured you’d be on board. Just don’t kiss each other for a week, which you already do. Easy money.”

spoiler: it's not easy money.

seamless shifts by tkreyesevandiaz - clothes sharing, accidental confessions - 4.2k - Eddie lets a confession slip while stuck in the dregs of sleep, and Buck panics about it.

Or, the soft clothes sharing fic that turned a little angsty because these boys are idiots

you know we could have it all by neoncrayolas - fake relationship - 4.5k - Eddie's parents want him to move back to Texas. Eddie tells them he's dating someone.

When they arrive in California to visit, they think that someone is Buck.

5-10k

Drowning in Dreams (You're My Raft) by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels - bed-sharing, co-parenting - 5.4k - In which Buck sleeps his way into a relationship with Eddie, but not in the way you'd think.

The Castle Operation by on_mars - christopher does some parent-trapping, didn't know they were dating, everyone can see it - 5.5k - “But you know he’s not far, right?”

“I know.” Christopher whispers. “But he used to be around all the time. He used to be around all the time and now he’s gone.” Christopher adds, taking the pen to scribble on his notebook. “I don’t understand why Dad didn’t ask him to stay.”

“Did you want him to stay?” Carla asks, smiling.

“Of course I did.” Christopher frowns. “I want him to stay forever.”

[OR Christopher has a plan to make his dad realize he's in love with Buck]

✨ shout if you want my heart by hattalove - didn't know they were dating, buck takes care of eddie - 5.9k - “I’m not even in the neighborhood of mad,” he says, instead of vomiting any of the thousand feelings warring inside him. “But Buck. This would’ve—this took you hours.”

“I’m good at multitasking,” Buck says, and Eddie can practically hear him shrugging over the phone. “I did all the cooking after I put Chris to bed, and then I got up a little earlier to get the cleaning and laundry done. It was nothing.”

Eddie’s starting to suspect he’ll have to wait for Buck to come back to make him understand that, actually, it kind of was everything.

or, eddie has a tupperware-induced emotional crisis.

✨ call you home by ashavahishta - married!buddie, different first meeting, love at first sight - 6k - "He’s like, so pretty sometimes I can’t believe he’s real?” He’d rambled once, so tired at the end of shift he was basically drunk with it.

“I’ll take your word for it,” Hen had said patiently, and patted him on the shoulder. “I like girls, remember?”

“He’s built like a Greek god with the face of an angel,” Eddie had argued, a stubborn set to his mouth like he was determined for Hen to believe just how gorgeous his husband was. “Even you couldn’t resist that.”

Or: "Eddie Diaz drinks his 'I fucking love my husband' juice for 6,000 words." OR "5 Times Eddie Told The Firefam About Buck and 1 Time They Actually Met Him".

✨ he's asking you to go home, i have my own key. we are not the same. by coup_de_foudre - outsider pov, 5+1 - 8.1k - She’s been sat at home all day, alternating between flicking through the regular trashy daytime television, and baking an absurd amount of cakes. She’s already boxed an entire ginger cake for her mother. But, for now, it’s a Friday afternoon and she’s finally hit her breaking point of boredom.

Which led her here. Standing outside of Eddie’s house.

Only, Eddie isn’t the one who’s opened the door. It’s not Eddie standing there, mild surprise on his face as a towel hangs dangerously loose over his hips, water dripping down onto his bare chest.

Or, the one in which Ana's boyfriend is almost definitely in love with his best friend only....he doesn't know.

Carnations by red_to_black - pining!eddie, secret admirer - 10k - Evan Buckley has never once been given flowers in his life.

That is, until he mentions it in a fit of self-pity at the firehouse. Then they're everywhere. What he can't work out is where they're coming from.

(or: Buck mentions never getting flowers before, and a certain someone decides to remedy that.)

I Didn't Know I Was Lonely 'Til I Saw Your Face by HMSLusitania - fake relationship, different first meeting - 10.6k - After the ladder truck and the blood clot and the tsunami, Bobby makes Buck go to therapy before he does something stupid (like sue the city). Buck's not totally comfortable being alone with a therapist, but fortunately he makes a friend and ally who's willing to help him out - Eddie Diaz from the 136 who's just been caught in an illegal fight club.

OR

Total strangers Buck and Eddie go to couple's therapy together to get out of the therapy requirements their captains have placed on them.

11-25k

Facing Fears by elizabethbri - co-parenting, didn't know they were dating - 11.4k - "Prompt: Christopher has an end of year class trip to an amusement park and he asks Eddie if Buck can chaperone. Turns out Christopher heard some of his classmates talking about the wave pool in the water part of the park and he wants Buck with him cuz Buck saved him from the tsunami last time."

Includes Eddie and Buck being adorable dads, jealous (and swooning) moms, and all three boys facing their fears together.

⛄ Goodwill is Sent in Snapshots (You Only Get the Full Picture on Return) by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels - romcom antics - 14.0k - When both Evan Buckley and Chimney Han are dumped at the start of December, they decide to swap houses - with each other. A nice two weeks in a different location will be a great unconventional Christmas. Certainly not anything life changing.

Then Buck meets Chim's next-door-neighbor, and Chim meets Buck's apartment-crashing sister.

Buy Back The Secrets by allyasavedtheday - amnesia, hurt/comfort - 18.8k - He casts his gaze to the right, to the voice he’d heard a minute ago and the hand still on his shoulder.

And, well. Okay. So Buck may have just been unconscious for an indeterminable length of time but he doesn’t think he’s exaggerating when he says the guy leaning over his bedside is one of the most attractive people he’s seen in a long time. Especially when his face splits into a smile that rivals the brightness of the hospital lights that almost just fucking blinded Buck a second ago.

“Welcome back, hotshot,” the guy says and it sounds fond – familiar – and Buck honestly has no idea who this guy is.

His brown hair is dishevelled on top of his head and his eyes look tired but then Buck notices the LAFD t-shirt so- alright. Someone from the firehouse, maybe? But he’s pretty sure he’d remember a face like that.

*

After getting hurt on a call, Buck wakes up thinking it's 2018. AKA Buck can't remember who Eddie is but he's pretty sure everyone's lying when they say they're "just friends."

✨⛄ baby, won't you take me home for christmas by wafflesofdoom - fake relationship, bed-sharing - 18.9k - eddie didn't think lying to his parents about still dating ana would backfire so badly - but suddenly, it was christmas, and his parents were begging him to bring his girlfriend home. so, eddie did what any logical person would do - he pretended he was dating his best friend, buck. buck, who he might be secretly in love with. buck, who agrees to come to texas for a week and fake a relationship with eddie.

what could go wrong, right?

(lots, apparently.)

⛄ Coupled Up For Christmas by cherishingstydia - fake relationship, bed-sharing - 19k - Eddies mother mistakenly thinks Buck and Eddie are dating, and insists Buck comes back to El Paso with him and Chris. Eddie is so shocked by her being ok with that he can’t even correct her before the call ends, so Buck says they can pretend…only problem it won't be pretend for Eddie he’s already madly in love with Buck.

life sure can try to put love through it by wafflesofdoom - married!buddie, amnesia, hurt/comfort - 20k - Listen - the panic attack Buck had, it was fully justified. As far as he knew, it was 2021 - and Eddie was standing next to him, telling him that he’d forgotten the last three years of his life. He felt he deserved a moment to have a panic attack, thank you very much.

or - after an accident at work, Buck forgets the last three years of his life. Mentally, he's back in 2021 and in the midst of a failing relationship with Taylor - but actually, its 2024 and he's married to his best friend, Eddie. Navigating amnesia is pretty heavy work, as it turns out.

26-50k

✨ the distance to the stars by cloudydaisies - didn't know they were dating (well, one of them didn't know), pining!eddie, miscommunication - “Didn’t know you were seeing someone.”

Buck just laughs. Like, honest to god giggles. Eddie is stuck fighting off doubly massive waves of butterflies and confusion, all while Buck just gazes down at him.

“That’s cute,” he hears Buck mumble, just before climbing into the truck, calling Eddie after him.

-

or, everyone knows eddie is dating buck except for eddie, literally.

⛄ Hiding in a Living Dream by Spinteresting - fake relationship, bed-sharing, co-parenting - 31k - Where does your mom want you to invite me?” Buck asks.

“Uh….to El Paso….for Christmas.”

“What? Why would they want me there? I’m not family.”

“First of all, you are family Buck. But, um, also I might have accidentally given them the impression that we’re dating.”

Buck laughs, “Wait…how did you accidentally make them think we’re dating?”

Or: Buck and Eddie fake a relationship, spend Christmas in El Paso, and realize it might all be real after all.

Playing House by mansikka - roommates, hurt/comfort - 36.2k - When Buck ends things with Abby, he no longer has a home. He doesn't want to house share like he did before, and he doesn't want to sleep on Maddie's couch. Could a new friend with a spare room be the answer to all his problems?

Also known as: What if Buck moved in with Eddie instead of Chim after ending things with Abby?

To Build a Home We Deconstruct Our Rituals by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels - fake relationship, bed-sharing, co-parenting, marriage of convenience - 44.2k - After the shooting, Eddie realizes he needs to put some things in place. Like who will get his assets if he dies. Who will speak for him if he ends up in a coma. What might happen if his family contests Buck's guardianship. Luckily, he's got a simple easy-peasy solution that won't result in insanity, catastrophe, or heartbreak:

Marry Buck.