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Steve shakes his head with a frown, "Wait, what?"
Eddie backs up and starts shaking his hair out like a wet dog, dead petals and leaves falling around him like sad confetti. He doesn't quite look at Steve and bites his lips, quickly looking away at the pile of boxes that had spilled out of the closet, not sure what he was looking at, but feeling guilty as hell that he had been caught snooping. Even though he wasn't.
"Sorry, I wasn't looking through your stuff, I don't know what I was doing, I kinda panicked when I heard you coming and I think the plan was to hide in your closet." Eddie confessed, unable to look Steve in the eyes. He crouched down and started gathering up the bouquets and boxes, needing something to do with his hands.
"Well it's a little late to be going back into the closet now, especially your boyfriend's..." Steve snorted, Eddie's eyes darted up to Steve's at that, a shy grin taking over his mouth, unsure if it should bloom fully or wilt in the heat of his cheeks, red hot with embarrassment.
"Boyfriend?" Eddie whispered hesitantly, hope sparking at the bottom of his spine. Steve got on his knees across from him and started pulling boxes out of the pile to stack up neatly in front of him like a wonky tower, unstable and futile.
Steve was the one biting his lips now, the red in his cheeks making him look like a kid just came in from the snow tracking in mud, waiting under the glare of some parental figure ready to yell at him for the mess.
"I..." Steve glanced up into Eddie's eyes but couldn't hold his gaze, unsure what Eddie's were saying to him. Steve was terrified right now, his hands shaking as he tried to stack another box, knocking the whole thing over again.
The boxes fell and this time one of the flatter boxes opened as the lid tipped off. A leather bound journal, handmade from the looks of it and stamped in the cover was a bold EM in beautiful script you might see in a medieval text.
Steve gasped and tried to grab the book and shove it back in the box quickly, but his shaking hands were covered by another pair, more sturdy, but cold with the metal of a plethora of rings. Steve shyly looked at Eddie's face through his lashes, but Eddie wasn't looking back at him, his eyes glued to the journal.
"Steve... Is this- Are these my initials?" Eddie whispered, finally meeting Steve's honey brown with his dark chocolate, only growing darker by the minute.
Steve misinterpreted the look by miles.
"Yeah, look, I'm sorry, man, I don't know how to do this. I mean- I do, I've got moves, I can be smooth, trust me- just, I've only ever done this with girls, and I know you're not a girl- that's not- not the point. I know I can't just romance you like some chick, bring you flowers," at this Steve gestured all around them at the plethora of flowers ranging from Halloween decor to fresh as a daisy, "and hold your hand at the movies," here he reached down to Eddie's hands that had fallen limp on his own knees, holding them both between them as if to tether him back to reality, "but I can't help it, I really want that- all of it- with you. I-"
Eddie tackled Steve to the floor, landing on top of him with an oomph from them both as he knocked the wind out of Steve and his hair draped around their faces, blocking out the rest of the world. Steve looked up at Eddie with wide eyes, afraid for a moment that he had gone too far, but took one look at the beaming smile that had blossomed on his face and gasped in pain and relief, his head falling limp onto the carpet below as his body finally released all of the tension it had been holding since he had come back to the living room with pop corn and an apology on his lips to find Eddie missing.
"Steve, look at me." Eddie snapped. Steve opened his eyes wide again and looked at Eddie, smiling like a lunatic above him, "My favorite flowers are Violets, and you can absolutely hold my hand, and cuddle, and kiss me whenever you want! I may not be a girl, but I'm still a romantic, and right now I just found out I have a boyfriend who has been hoarding gifts and flowers in his closet like some sort of gay dragon." At this Steve laughed and rolled his eyes, trying not to let the water building up on his lash lines fall, beaming up at Eddie hovering over him, the curtains of his curly hair keeping the world at bay. "So, shut up and let me kiss you before I swoon from all this smooth romancing!"
Steve opened his mouth to say he absolutely can be smooth, he just had to work out some... kinks- but Eddie was done talking, he had a better use for his tongue.
steddie au where eddie thinks they're just hooking up because steve never treats him like all his previous girlfriends, but steve thinks they're dating and the relationship is only different because it's Gay. he's just trying to follow eddie's lead without making a fool of himself (he keeps buying gifts and flowers then shoving them into the back of his closet because he doesn't want eddie to think he's "treating him like a girl")
#lil update#add on#steddie au#steddie#steddie fic#steddie fanfic#st fic#stranger things fic#stranger things#steddie ficlet#stranger things ficlet#steve harrington#eddie munson#writing#my fic#is it me#tis me#op#lol#comedy#bring me flowers#and journals#so i can hoard them like a gay dragon#idiot4idiot#misunderstandings#idiots to lovers#gay#my idiot boyfriend
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Hi, I really like your stuff! Could you try to write a wholesome yandere? It will be kind of a challenge for you considering how dark your stories get but the I think you'll do well.
KILLING ME SOFTLY
YANDERE WINTER X MALE READER
Winter, the radiant star of the K-pop group, was a woman of contradictions. On stage, she was a dazzling performer, captivating audiences with her powerful vocals and mesmerizing dance moves. Off stage, however, she was a creature of shadows, a woman consumed by a dark and obsessive love.
Her obsession was Y/N, her manager, a man of quiet strength and unwavering loyalty. He was her anchor, her guiding star, the one who brought light into her often chaotic world. But Winter's love for him was not a simple affection. It was a possessive, all-consuming obsession, a dark force that threatened to consume her entirely.
Whenever a female idol or staff member dared to approach Y/N, Winter's jealousy would flare up, a fiery inferno that threatened to consume everything in its path. Her eyes would narrow, her lips would curl into a sinister smile, and a chill would run down the spine of anyone who dared to cross her path.
Y/N, though aware of Winter's obsessive nature, was not deterred. He understood the depths of her love, the darkness that fueled her passion. He knew that beneath the facade of the fierce idol was a vulnerable woman, a woman who craved love and acceptance.
"Winter," he would say, his voice gentle, "you don't have to be afraid."
She would look at him, her eyes filled with a mix of love and fear. "I'm not afraid," she would insist, her voice trembling. "I just... I care about you."
Y/N would smile, a knowing smile. "I know, Winter. I know."
Despite her possessive nature, Winter was a talented and dedicated artist. She poured her heart and soul into her music, her performances, and her craft. She was a perfectionist, demanding the best of herself and those around her.
One day, a new female idol, a rising star named Luna, joined their agency. She was young, beautiful, and talented, and she immediately caught Y/N's attention. Winter, sensing a threat, grew increasingly jealous. She watched Luna's every move, her every interaction with Y/N.
One evening, at a company dinner, Winter confronted Luna. "Stay away from him," she warned, her voice low and menacing.
Luna, taken aback by Winter's aggression, apologized and retreated. But Winter was not satisfied. She knew that she had to do more to protect her claim on Y/N.
She began to sabotage Luna's career, spreading rumors, sabotaging her performances, and undermining her confidence. Luna, once a rising star, began to fade, her light dimmed by Winter's dark shadow.
Y/N, aware of Winter's actions, was troubled. He knew that she was hurting herself, hurting others, in the name of love. He tried to reason with her, to calm her down, but she was beyond reason.
"You don't understand," she would say, her eyes filled with a desperate intensity. "I can't lose you."
Y/N sighed. "I'll always be here for you, Winter. But you have to let go. You have to let others be happy."
Winter, however, was unwilling to compromise. She was a woman possessed, a creature of darkness. And she would do anything to keep Y/N by her side, even if it meant destroying everything around her.
Y/N, despite his love for Winter, was aware of the destructive path she was treading. He knew that her obsession, if unchecked, could lead to disaster. He had to find a way to help her, to guide her back to the light.
He began to spend more time with her, trying to distract her from her obsessive thoughts. He would take her on walks, watch movies with her, and talk to her about her dreams and aspirations. He encouraged her to focus on her music, on her art, on the things that brought her joy.
At first, Winter was resistant. She wanted Y/N to herself, and she didn't want anything to distract him from her. But as time passed, she began to see the wisdom in his words. She realized that her obsession was not only hurting herself but also those around her.
She started to practice self-control, to manage her emotions. She began to see the world through a different lens, a lens of compassion and understanding. She learned to appreciate the beauty of life, the joy of human connection.
Y/N was proud of her progress. He had helped her to see the light, to break free from the darkness that had consumed her. Their relationship deepened, their bond strengthened by their shared experiences.
One day, as they were walking through the park, Winter turned to Y/N and said, "Thank you."
"For what?" Y/N asked, puzzled.
"For everything," she replied. "For loving me, for understanding me, for helping me to be a better person."
Y/N smiled. "You're welcome, Winter. I love you."
Their love story was a testament to the power of love and understanding. It was a story of redemption, of hope, of a love that could conquer all.
The soft hum of the cafĂŠ filled the air as Winter and Y/N sat across from each other, their hands intertwined. The warmth of the afternoon sun seeped through the window, casting a golden glow on their faces. It was a simple, quiet moment, a moment of peace and contentment.
Winter, once a tempestuous force of nature, now exuded a serene calmness. The darkness that had once consumed her had been replaced by a gentle light. She had learned to love herself, to love others, and to appreciate the beauty of life.
"Remember when I used to be so obsessed with you?" she asked, a soft smile playing on her lips.
Y/N chuckled. "I remember. It was quite a ride."
"I'm so glad you stuck with me," she said, her voice filled with gratitude. "You helped me to see the light."
Y/N squeezed her hand. "I'm glad I did. You're the best thing that ever happened to me."
As they walked hand-in-hand through the park, the setting sun cast long shadows across the path. They talked about their dreams, their hopes, their future. They talked about the life they would build together, a life filled with love, laughter, and endless possibilities.
As they stood beneath the twilight sky, Y/N turned to Winter and kissed her forehead. "I love you," he whispered.
Winter smiled, her eyes sparkling with happiness. "I love you too," she replied.
And as they walked away, hand in hand, they knew that their love story was just beginning.
- To Be Continued -
#kpop#kpop x reader#kpop x y/n#x male reader#beautiful#update#yandere#aespa winter#winter x reader#winter#minjeong aespa#minjeong x reader#aespa minjeong
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Alpha is done with Terzomega, but he's not much better. Featuring, well, obviously, sickeningly in love Terzomega and one interesting situationship between the second Emeritus brother & our dealy beloved asshole of a fire ghoul (affectionate).
Terzo and Omega are being painfully obvious and Alpha is so, so done. There is no way in hell they're going to fool anyone if they keep glancing at each other that way, looking away precipitately whenever they make eye contact. They are in a goddamn meeting for Lucifer's sake, something about next tour's budget that the two ghouls are only attending to make it look like the Clergy gives a single damn about creatures like them, and here are those two fools, "we just fucked" pratically written on their foreheads. Alpha leans toward Omega until he can hiss exasperatedly directly in his ear.
"Can you be any more obvious ? Stop staring, and stop touching your neck, Satanas."
It would be funny, to see a big ghoul like Omega dip his head down bashfullly the way he does just now, if it didn't bring such a sickeningly soft look in Terzo's eyes, one that even from the corners of his owns Alpha can see. It's sweet. Alpha can feel cavities forming in his mollar. There's not much else he can do though, so he straightens back in his seat, glaring at Terzo in hope of conveying the warning he's too far away to angrily whisper at him.
Except that Terzo doesn't even has the decency to be embarrassed about it ; no, he smirks and raises a smug eyebrow at his fire ghoul, who has to make a concious effort not to accidentally set his seat aflame.
This meeting better be over in less than five minute or someone will get hurt.
The second it is, and they're out of view, Alpha drags Omega and Terzo toward a relatively private hallway by the back of their neck, spitting mad, tail lashing behind him.
"Are you two out of your goddamn minds ?!"
Unfortunately, fueled by Terzo's evident delight at the situation, Omega has recovered from the initial embarrassement, his eyes now crinkled in a way that means he's smiling under his mask. Alpha is going to throttle him.
"Come now, Alpha, you're blowing things out of proportions," Terzo has the galls of chuckling, mischief brightening his features and isn't it Satan's best joke that being a dick is what makes this little asshole happy, because Alpha is equal part boiling with fury and glad to see that painted mouth losing a bit of its usual frown.
He's still pissed though.
"Blowing- you were making bedroom eyes at eachother from across the table ! Do you have any idea how incriminating it is, not to mention absolutely fucking disgusting ?"
Omega shrugs elegantly, the wide plane of his shoulders raising easily.
"You're the only one that finds happiness disgusting, Al"
There's a chuckle trapped in the quint's voice, which does not help Alpha's temper. He stares at those two idiots, Terzo nonchalently leaning back into Omega's chest, humming in approval as the quint's hands work on tense muscles at the back of his neck. They are effortlessly domestic like this, relaxed and so, so easy to figure out. Alpha chucks his mask off just so he can bury his face in his hands and very nearly scream.
"One, seeing you being all lovey-dovey makes me want to throw up, the less I know about you two, the better, and two, if I can see it, everyone else can. You could get into so much trouble, you know that ?"
Omega's deep chuckle does not help at all. How can they be so careless ? How can they swat the risks like flies, knowing damn well how ruthless consequences can be here ? But then Terzo's face settles into something more serious, as he reaches out to straighten Alpha's grucifix, fix his collar and redo the buttons that popped open with gentle care.
"It's alright, dear. We are aware of our situation, but stopping ourselves from living because of it is out of the question. With acceptance comes a lot of freedom."
If Alpha is stubborn, Terzo is much worse, contrarily to popular belief, there is no way the fire ghoul will make him change his mind. Even less so when Omega joins in, voice calm and steady.
"You have to trust our judgement, or at least respect it, firefly. We made a choice. We'll stick to it, come what may."
Mourning the fact that he doesn't even has Ifrit's sad puppy dog eyes as a last resort to try and please convince them to be more careful, Alpha let out a long-suffering sigh.
"Alright. But I swear to everything that's unholy, if I walk in on you two, or if i hear anything coming from one of your rooms, I'm burning your beds down."
Terzo's smile is back tenfold, radiating the same smug energy as earlier.
"Of course, dear. We'll try our best."
He's wearing that "I know something you don't know" face, Alpha realizes. He narrows his eyes at the Papa.
"What ?"
It's Omega who answers though, no doubt grinning from ear to ear.
"By the way, Secondo's walls aren't as thick as you seem to think, mutt."
The echo of the second Emeritus brother's voice curling around the word in that half condescending, half appreciative tone bounces in Alpha's mind, sending a embarrassed flush to color his cheeks. It's almost immediately overruled by anger, as he bares his teeth in a dangerous snarl.
"Breath a word of this to annyone, and i'll dissect you two alive, understood ?"
Terzo only laughs, going up on his tiptoes to press a kiss on Alpha's forehead, like he always does when he teased him enough and wants to appease the fire ghoul.
"Of course, dear, of course, though I'm sure i'd still look fantastic on the slab."
Omega nods at Alpha, crossing himself backward still with that fucking glint in his eyes, before ducking down to press the sealed mouth of his mask against the crown of Terzo's head.
"You would. I can't think of any situation you wouldn't be beautiful."
Now they're just taking the piss, aren't they. Alpha is frowning so bad his face is starting to ache. Terzo seems aware, if his shit-eating grin is anything to go by.
"You flatter me, my love."
With a fake gagging noise, Alpha shoves them away.
"I assure you you wouldn't look that great in a tomb, so you two better piss off before I start digging."
Of fucking course Terzo and Omega saunter away giggling, pinkies entertwined. Pinching the bridge of his nose, Alpha is about to turn back on his heels when his phone pings. He digs it out of his pocket, frowning at the cracked screen. The message is curt, abrupt, so typical of the impatient, technology adverse man it comes from.
My room in fifteen minutes.
Of course, Alpha doesn't have to. If he doesn't show up, Secondo wil just find something else to occupy himself, or maybe jack off on his own if he really is that horny. Despite the tone of the text, Alpha is aware it's more an invitation than an order. But, well. It's not like the fire ghoul has anything more interesting to do...despite the heavy sigh he let out at his own predictability, he slinks off toward Secondo's room with a slight waving of tail. He's careful to use as much secret passages as he can, because Satan forbid he runs into Omega and Terzo again and give them even more amunition.
As he reaches the door to Secondo's room, he feels far too much like a hypocrite, at least until he shakes his head to clear it.
Whatever. At least he has the decency not to make this a public shitshow.
And if Secondo's sharp gaze thrown Alpha's way above the rim of his reading glasses makes the fire ghoul's stomach swoop strangely pleasantly, well. It's a secret he'll take to his grave.
#tee-hee#look all of them are important to me#terzomega is probably one of my biggest comfort ship#but also can we hear some cheers for alpha and terzo's relationship ?#i just think this tiny-ass man going up on his tiptoes to kiss alpha's forehead is cute#give me platonic kisses i just love that shit#also alpha being so concerned for omega and terzo's well being dshkdhshsh give me overprotective alpha i swear i can be trusted with him#and alpha and secondo#oh oh i love their complicated situationship#i'm a alpha/secondo truther and will be until i die#it's just too interesting a dynamic for me to pass up#anyway#alpha ghoul#omega ghoul#terzo#papa emeritus iii#terzomega#secondo#papa emeritus ii#nameless ghouls#the band ghost
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Fandom: Marvel (Mob Boss AU)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x F!Reader
Summary: You and Bucky used to be so in love and so⌠ignorant of the roles you had to play, which lead to you breaking up. But that didnât seem to keep you away from each other since you now act as Buckyâs nurse whenever he gets hurt. Based off my mini fic here.
Stitched Together | Pull the Thread | In Stitches | Bucky Barnes Masterlist
He was pissed off. His entire body hurt and he was really pissed off.
Sam dropped him off at your place. Bucky didn't want to deal with anyone else right now. He told Sam he'd call him when he'd need to get picked up.
He limps up to your door, grimacing at every move he makes. The stab wound in his stomach hurt like a bitch and he needed your help ASAP.
He knocks on your door, ringing the doorbell with urgency. The door swings open and your eyes widen, "Holy shit, Bucky!" You pull him inside and he groans in pain.
Bucky takes a quick glance at your table, seeing two sets of plates set out, "You expecting someone?"
You open your mouth to reply and there's a knock at your door, "Shit," you murmur, "Go to my room. Don't make a sound. Hurry!"
He obeys without a word. As soon as your bedroom door closes, you rush to your front door and pull it open, "Hey, dad! Sorry, was in the bathroom."
"It's alright, Bug," your dad kisses your head and enters your home, the bag of takeout in his hand. You take the bag from him and head to the dining table.
"Nice! Sushi!" you feign excitement, silently praying that, for whatever reason, your dad doesn't go to your room to find your ex boyfriend, now mob boss, bleeding on your floor.
"You still like the dragon roll, right?"
"Yup!"
"Good," your dad joins you at the table.
"Um, I have to finish some online training class really quickly and then I'll join you in a bit."
"Yeah, yeah. No problem. Go finish up. I'll be here," your dad waves you away and you rush to your bedroom, locking it behind you.
You head to the conjoining bathroom, as see Bucky cleaning his wound. âWhy the fuck did you think coming here was a good idea?!â You whisper angrily at the bleeding mob boss in your home.
âI didnât know your dad was coming over!â Bucky loudly whispers back in response.
âExactly! You didnât know which is why the smart thing to do wouldâve been to call or text me to let me know you planned on coming!â
The mob boss scoffs, âWell sorry, I was a little too busy trying to not to die from a stab wound!â He gestures to his punctured skin.
You pinch the bridge of your nose and sigh, âOut of nights you get hurt, it had to be the night my dad and I have dinner together.â
Bucky rolls his eyes, âMy bad. Iâll make sure to schedule my stabbings at a more convenient time.â
âIdiot,â you mumble as you grab your first aid kit from under the sink, and gesture for him to sit on your toilet.
You work in a quick and efficient silence. Bucky doesnât make an effort of conversation because he knows you prefer silence when you work.
Despite your annoyance with him, you're still gentle. You apologize for the stinging of neosporin.
He watches you with an observant gaze, a softness in his eyes. A sense of longing fills him in the pit of his stomach...or maybe that's the feeling of the needle you're sewing him up with.
Bucky still can't believe this is where life has lead you both. You help save lives, he, on occasion, ends lives. You're light, while Bucky lives and works in the dark.
He knows coming back into your life was dangerous, but he couldn't help it. He just missed you so much and was desperate to have you back in any capacity. Even if he can't have you the way that he wants.
You finish up, taking off the bloody gloves you wore and throwing them into the trash, âStay here. Take some meds. Iâll check up on you, but please be quiet. If dad finds you, heâll kill both of us.â You state with concern and seriousness.
He nods and gives you a shy smile, âIâll be fine, sweetheart. Go enjoy dinner with your pop.â
You stand with a sigh, âJust text me if you need anything. Iâll pretend itâs America or something.â
âGot it. Thanks,â Bucky says as he slowly stands from your toilet after you stitched him up.
He watches as you quickly clean up and exit your room. He listens to the distant sound of you and your dad talking.
Buckyâs shoulder slumps as he lets out a shaky sigh. He wishes it never came to this, sneaking around and pretending like he still didnât love you.
Because he does. He always will, even if you two are now worlds apart from each other, on opposing sides, never meant to be.
#bucky x reader#bucky barnes x reader#marvel#bucky barnes#bucky barnes imagine#marvel au#mob boss au
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you just canât call a spade a spade âż megumi fushiguro
ďšpostscript : megumi canât confess to youďšfem reader
the moment is just right.
itâs been a long day strolling around tokyo with your teammates. yuji and nobara had insisted you come along to check out a few shops nearby that had opened.
it must be a nice gesture as you completed a hefty mission not too long agoâat least thatâs what you think.
itâs all a plan that was setup, to make megumi grow closer to you. he has no idea why he trusted those two idiots and this stupid plan.
because heâs shaking right now, trying to catch his breath as he gazes at you humming a relaxing tune. youâre not bothered at all. yuji and nobara said they had to âgo to the bathroom for a secâ ( itâs been more than 10 minutes ).
youâre completely oblivious to this setup, and megumi feels guilty. is this method even okay? is he on the right track? is he doing good? a rush of anxiety washes over him. he should back out now, or maybe he shouldnât. heâs overwhelmed with indecisive thoughts.
he sighs as he looks to the right, a vein popping on his forehead when he sees yuji and nobara giggling by the tree giving him signals. well here goes nothingâŚ
âhey.â he avoidâs your gaze, staring front with a pretty pink color capturing his face. âi just, wanted to ask something.â he doesnât miss the way you eye him curiously.
âwhat is it?â you slightly fix your poor posture, hoping he didnât notice how you were sitting like a shrimp on the bench a few seconds ago.
âwell.. i kind of..â the syllables come out in stutters, an unusual sight for someone cool-headed like him.
there are so many things he wants to say out loud, how captivating your smile is, how heâd get all giddy whenever he hears you call his name, that he likes you.
âforget it, itâs dumb.â
thereâs so many things he could of said. so many words held back at his throat and yet all he could do was push them further back.
he canât even look at you, heâs pathetic, heâs sick, lovesick.
âthanks for making me curious.â you scorn playfully. maybe now you do think itâs something dumb, maybe his feelings are dumb. heâs just a teenager with no experience, itâs just a crush anyway.
âitâs late.â you look up at the sky which had already turned dark. âim going back, catch you later?â you slide your phone back in your pocket, standing up from the bench and dusting yourself off.
âyeah. ill see you.â megumi nods his head. once youâre out of sight, he sees the two idiots running towards him with disappointed expressions.
âcome on, fushiguro!â yuji quips. âyou seriously fumbled the bag..â
âexactly, and you didnât even offer to walk her homeâdid you read anything from the book i gave you?â nobara crosses her arms.
âyou two..â megumi lets out an annoyed sigh. âim going back too.â he announces, ignoring the baffled look on their faces.
âhold it! you promised to treat us after this.â nobara grabs his shirt in time. âyou know what, forget about that idiot. at least pay for my clothes!â nobara huffed. âhey!â yuji glared at her.
âill treat you guys tomorrow.â megumi groans, heâd nearly forgotten about that. âyou better not be lying!â yuji yells as he watches megumi walk away.
âi swear..â megumi walks a far distance away from them, now walking down a lane across the street. âwhy canât i just say it?â
the question rings in his head. he doesnât know why he felt discouraged mid-confession. he canât explain why his heart was pounding loudly in his chest, that he had the sudden urge to shut up and run away. is this what love feels like?
megumiâs always been direct, but with you, he just canât seem to call a spade a spade.
#đŞź.faylvrs#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x reader#megumi fushiguro#megumi fushiguro x you#megumi fushiguro x reader#megumi angst#jjk angst#jujutsu kaisen angst
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I just wanted to pop in and say thank you for all your posts. Youâre a soldier Dani. Whenever Iâm having doubts and scrolling through the tag, I see your posts and they kinda smack me upside the head and make me remember that I donât really have any reasons to doubt something that has clearly been built up from the beginning and was left on an unresolved high note in season 4.
Although, in my defense, the reason I get doubts is because was a k/ance shipper when I was a dumb teenager, but now as a dumb adult, I can say k/ance didnât even have 2% of the proof Byler does, but yknow sometimes thereâs that voice in the back of my head that sounds like Theadore from Alvin and the chipmunks telling me that Iâm just getting queerbaited again.
ANYWAY I appreciate you so much and just wanted to send you a nice ask, since I know you get a lot of hate!
Thank you dear!! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
Honestly I get why people have doubts, we queer people have had to deal with so much queerbaiting or just our queer shows being all cancelled, you really never know even against all logic... there's always that 1% of possibility that straight people are being intentionally or mindlessly cruel writing about our experiences and don't give them as much care as they do with the storylines of straight characters
so I get it, it's probably usually healthier to not trust in it so you don't get heartbroken again, but in this case I'm really convinced there's TOO MUCH stuff and it has surpassed the "it could be a coincidence" option wayyyyyyy too long ago! It would be a level of intentional cruelty I would have never seen before if Byler didn't happen
Lucky for us, I believe we have nothing to worry about and they are good writers that have been building this story and this slow burn romance between Will and Mike and also have been planning for El to become her own person at the end of the show, the narrative is really telling us that and we have so many parallels that would be a complete waste of time and resources if it didn't mean anything for the story + if you look at all the other seasons they are ALWAYS foreshadowing things that happen in the season after and imagine putting this intentional ass COUPLE framing in the show and then doing absolutely nothing about it I would be flying to the Duffers house and knocking on their door asking for ANSWERS because WHY WOULD ANY DIRECTOR DO THIS IF THEY DIDN'T MEAN A ROMANTIC PAIRING WHEN ONE OF THEM IS CONFIRMED IN LOVE WITH THE OTHER!!!!
Anyway sorry I started rambling about them again lmfaooooo but as you know we have SOOOO MANY reasons to logically believe in Byler, it's not crazy to believe in it at all and there's so many people that literally STUDY cinema that said the same thing we are saying đ¤ˇ
Byler will be endgame! đđđ
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The blue sky in your eyes
Soukoku Ok, you know about when you are crying and itâs the most beautiful day outside, so you think like, âthe sky should be as sad as I amâ. With that in mind this scene came up, and itâs more of Dazai having that thought, and deciding to latch on another anchor to validate his mood.
Dazai doesnât remember when it changed. One day, before he could realize, he wasnât looking up to calm him down anymore.
It was a thing that had stayed in his body almost like a program inside a robot. Whenever he felt overwhelmed, trapped, or just wanted to be gone, he would look up. And see the sky.
It was a dangerous gamble. He knows that, but what is life without a little danger? Look up when you want to burn the world, and if the world apparently wants you to burn it too, it would respond with a shitty sky.
For some really annoying reason, it was rare, and when faced with the most common blue sky sprinkled with some clouds, he would just decide to lay down and do some cloud watching. â If sometimes he happens to be in the middle of the road, what can he do? Itâs the system.
It was in that situation that Chuuya appeared one day. Thinking about it now, Dazai is almost sure it was then that it changed.
It was a bad day. He had fucked up, big time, he had too many subordinates killed, the drug he was suppose to retrieve was shattered on the floor, all that piled up, with the dooming notion that, on top of everything, he would have to report back to Mori at the end of the day. He was not afraid of the man, never. But, and with a lot of buts, Mori was his boss, and he, despite how Dazai hated to admit it, had power.
So he laid down, this time in a park, and looked at the sky. Cussing once more at the view of the overwhelming blue with those stupid fluffy clouds.
âWhat are you so angry about?â A voice popped up beside him and Dazai just closed his eyes.
âIâm meditating, could you please leave? It would be nice.â The guy just hummed at that.
âYou fucked up real bad this time uh.â
Leaning on his elbow he glares at Chuuya.
âI did not. They were incompetent and now the one facing the consequences is me.â He groans and lays back down. âIâm here, alive, in the shit while they managed to die, how is that fair?â
After some minutes of silence he hears some shuffling beside him and when he looks over, Chuuya is laying down at his side.
âSo? Why are we angry at the sky?â
âWe?â
âI hope he didnât do much, cause it really sucks to fight, the⌠you know, the infinity blue.â
Dazai chuckles. âYou can attack it at night when itâs black then.â
âBut I have to see to make it a good fight.â
Dazai looks up at a little cloud with a beautiful shape, he pulls his arms up and tries to grab it.
âI know what you are thinking, that does not look like a hanging ropeâ
âYou are so mean, if it wasn't, how could you know that was what I was seeing, hm?â
âBecause I know how crazy you are.â The boy puts his arms in the back of his head and continues to scan the sky. âYou want backup?â
âFor what? To talk with the boss?â He scoffs at that. âWe arenât kids being reprimanded by our fathers.â
He can sense Chuuya shifting to the side and staring at him.
âNo, itâs worse.â He waits some more minutes and when Dazai doesnât dare to respond he continues. âItâs okay to be scared.â
âIâm not.â
âBullshit.â At that Dazai looks at the redhead. And is caught by the depth of his eyes.
They are more gray than blue now, even with the sun right upon them. Somehow, that was comforting, to look at them and see something other than just clear blue. Chuuya seemed mad, probably at Dazai, but at the same time it didnât feel quite that.
âJust a crappy day. It will pass eventually, like any other.â
âYou can talk shit about crappy days you know? Instead of..â He waves his hand at Dazai. âPicking a fight with the sky.â
Dazai gaps at that and puts his hand dramatically on his chest.
âFor your information, he was obviously taunting me.â Chuuya rolls his eyes at that. âHe should be suffering just like me, with rain pouring on us, or with fog, or at least cloudy, this-â He points accusingly at the sky. âIs just outrageous.â
He sees Chuuya slowly getting back up and brushing off some grass from his clothes before walking to him and offering a hand, to which Dazai just glares suspiciously.
âYou are blocking my view.â
âCome on, nothing will come out of just sulking in the park, the weather forecast says it will be a sunny day all the way up.â
âAnd what do you propose?â
âGet it over with and then, I donât know, open a bottle of wine.â
âI prefer whiskey.â
âIâm not drinking that.â
âSo you are drinking too?â
âWell, duh.â
Good enough, Dazai takes Chuuyaâs hands and they both start walking to the Mafia building. Before entering he takes one more glimpse of the sky, and sighs, blue as always. And so he turns to Chuuyaâs eyes that were already changing their shade again.
So much better.
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the way youve ONLY spit facts with every ask i've sent you. NOT A SINGLE ONE OF THESE WASN'T PEAK!!! time to discuss every single hc brought up in this,,,, whenever i think about a "dust gets replaced the most in the trio when w nm" i always think about like. the logistics of that. like if horror wasn't such a COWARD when it came to anything deadly to him (i always think about that one panel of him getting pissed at the suggestion of walking through blue snow,,,,, my cowardly son don't stop being the pathetic loser you are) then i totally think that he'd be up there with death count. a horrortale-less horror with no fear and no reason to live would be SO reckless. UAGH but anyways,,,, i love thinking about this. but also i dont know anymore when it comes to dust and his deaths that people make him a bit TOO reckless. remembering this fic where dust was investigating killer's private business or whatever sneaking around he was and im looking back at it like. dude shouldn't you be trying to get back to dusttale??? YOU HAVE HIGHER PRIORITIES (but the fic was actually good i could dismiss the weirdness). idk i just dont think he'd be SPITEFUL SPITEFUL unless provoked imo. i've spent too much time rambling about these 14 words in this ask,,,,,,
ANYWAYS finally onto the next sentence. maybe the whole post i made about killer keeping an elaborate internal profile on dust and horror wasn't enough but killer with a microscope at the little disposable glass slides that feature horror and dust is just one of my favorite FAVORITE THINGS :333 my favorite,,,, they'd hate it SO much!!! so much,,,, and then onto horror i also think Yes. maybe he sees the new dust making the same mistakes the previous dusts did like disobeying some sort of hidden rule of nightmare's (maybe killer would give him little tips and tricks. but also ALSO horror is literally described as "the closest thing to a hint system" in horrortale so yk,,,, wait i should totally think about this more in a seperate post but ANYWAYS) and he's like ughhh shit i should tell him to stop. but would he be pessimistic enough to not want to do anything to help dust after all of these despite the bafflement??? horror would feel like shit for not intervening but also like his incredible awareness that this is a NEW dust. not the old one that he had some form of a shitty bond,,,, so why even help him AAAAND there pop up the pessimistic mindset that all of the trio have soooo
AND I LIKE TOTALLY THOUGHT ABOUT THIS BEFORE IN A PREVIOUS POST!!! YES!!!! he would. horror DEFINITELY doesn't approve of feeding people humans but dust and killer are the exception. just because they deserve it and it's probably some kind of fucked up self punishment anyways since projection onto another you must be some form of SELF harm. mtt parallels,,,, ANYWAYS no WAY they like that shit in my eyes. like if even HORROR who's used to human consumption and even feeds (haha PUN) into the human food system doesn't like the cannibalism then why the HELL would dust or even emotionless killer would like it. killer doesn't realize it in the moment but after eating that shit he's so damn disgusted and he doesn't even know why. its not even JUST his emotions because UAGH!!! THE BODY IS REACTING TOO!!! THIS SUCKS!!! and dust just. why can't he throw up,,,,,,, but in like a less canon adjacent path they'd freak over this shit. awww horror you fed up a special treat made with love?? thats so sweeeeet <333 i can't describe it well through text but i can imagine it in my head. creep time trio my beloved. when they ditch the "danger to eachother" part of "danger to eachother and everyone around them" and instead just decide to be public service enemies to everyone around them!!!!!!
buubonita you sneaky little mosquito THIS NEXT HC IS JUST YOUR LITTLE FIC SNIPPETS YOU POSTED!!! you THOUGHT your amazing writing could sneak past ME; TRIGLYCERCULE: rememberer of nothing but the murder time trio. you fool,,,,, i was wondering what the context behind that snippet was. liiike did killer rip out his eye for some reason??? he got THAT curious??? but yeah that makes more sense for there to be some other reason. but i am not You and The Writer so that's up to you to decide bludbonita. that snippet reminded me of this mini horrordust comic where dust donated his eye to an eyeless horror??? i dont remember it was like last year but anyways
would horror play the trombone in front of the two i Don't Know because that leans more into Sans Undertale canon for me to comment on. i am a LIAR i say i am a fan of the murder tine trio bu i dont even know much about their origin...... (moving on) CAT DOG RABBIT TRIO MENTIONED,,,,, YES!!! YES!!!!!! YEAASASAGGHHHHHHH!!!!! killer likes cats for obvious reasons,,,, horror would like dogs because idk (aside from him giving off dog vibes imo) dogs used to be like. wolves. hunter gatherer helpers. horror "hunts" even though all the hunting is just him playing psychological games with humans and leading them to their demise. HE LITERALLY IS THE PHRASE SLY DOG THAT'S LITERALLY HIM. and then obvious dust bunny pun. if i were well versed enough in like animal symbolism id probably find a serious rabbit connection to him. or maybe hare. perhaps on a rainy day i shall research for my trio!
that sleeping mask hc is SO CUTE,,,, THATS SO FUCKING CUTE I LOVE THAY I LOVE IT SOOOO MUCH EDYAGAHHHH!!!! RUDAGAH!!!!!! kitty face mask perhaps. it might get stained or degraded with his eye goop but still,,,, bro probably doesn't even close his eyes behind the mask but at least he doesn't get the extra sensory stimulation. and they dont get JUMPSCARED seeing killer sleep with his eyes open (they look even more empty than usual when he's asleep). the inner fluff lover in me came out in this little hc (which i will in fact be adopting thank you very much. this one is too good to pass up!)
i ALSO really love this one. dare i say i've never actually considered how they ALL would snap themselves out of dissociation (UNFORTUNATELY i don't have multiple brains. nor is mine fully developed yet. that is Okay) but this is so,,,4 rhavh the way that physical touch is how they all ground themselves??? funny how killer's the only NOT dangerous to himself toođ i should probably do more research on dissociation but i do like the biting hands thing to snap dust out of what im gonna guess as more of an emotional detachment from the people and situation around him. maybe when things get BAD BAD he like. shoots some bones at himself. as if biting wasn't bad enough but at least he gets some penitentiary retribution through this. and then horror TOO but maybe with the depressive life that he lives in. maybe to remind himself that not EVERYTHING is pointless and wont lead to anything because uhhh it DOES lead to SOMEWHERE. at least what he's reminding himself of is the worst possible somewhere that things could lead to but ehhhh whatever idk im not a professional on this
FINALLY last hc,,,,, yeah he does that. what the fuck man horror could pop out the most HILARIOUS bangers and he gets NOTHING back??? smh he needs to raise his standards and take his ass to someone better (his standards are RAISED it is just that unfortunately horror has no other choice. dust and killer aren't even the best he could settle with)
the way that this was SO long..... enjoy this ramble. i didn't LIE when i said i'd respond to every ask of mine you answer đđđ
dear buubonita,
it's gotten to the point that i'm running out of ask ideas so now i have to resort to my trump card: MTT ASKS!!!! what are you,,,,,r favorite,,,,, mtt hcs that you have for them,,,,,,,, even if its worlds most basic hc IDC (devours the mtt content)
denied from the pearly gates, triglycercule
MTT headcanons! here we go. They're not that big of a deal though.
Dust is the one who's been replaced the most times out of the group, Killer being the detail-oriented guy that he is, is able to tell the slight differences, starting with the fact that Dust doesn't know them, but their tastes tend to vary a bit.
Like the old Dust likes bourbon and the new one prefers vodka instead. Very insignificant things that serve as a reminder that the Dust they know is gone. Horror has a bad memory, but not when it comes to remembering his teammates' antics. He feels baffled, not just because Nightmare took Dust from them one day and shoved another in their faces as if they couldn't possibly know what's going on.
A shorter hc is that Horror has fed Killer and Dust human parts before. It was on a "date". Dust felt a bit uneasy, Killer took it for what it is; something new. Killer never stops trying something new. (We get it, stfu with the joke)
Whether or not they enjoy human flesh, I'll leave to your own amusement.
Dust had his eye ripped out once, Killer took it to dissect (but he wasn't the one who pulled it out) and Nightmare asked him to go get a replacement. Horror had to be the surgeon on duty from experience and put the new thing in its place.
I personally don't see any of the three smoking weed đ, Dust may have tried but let's just say it's not a good additive to his degraded mind. I don't see Killer smoking anything at all, though he might be willing to try too. I'd say it's not something he'll pick up as a habit in the end.
Horror doesn't consume anything at all.
Killer, Dust and Horror can play the trombone. Though I like to think Horror is the only one still playing it.
Killer likes cats
Horror likes dogs
Dust likes bunnies (and rodents)
Killer sleeps with his eyes open (and his little hands on his soul) Horror and Dust gave him a sleeping mask so they wouldn't have to see him.
Their methods for getting out of dissociation;
Dust has a tendency to bite others, but he mostly bites his hands. Horror sticks his hand in the hole and scratches a lot, and Killer pinches others in the face (although this seems to be canon, I love it)
Horror is the only one who still makes puns, but neither Dust nor Killer usually laugh with him when that happens... (difficult audience)
#the way writing and thinking about this GENUINELY TOOK HOURS#what the FUCK i didnt realize how long these things took#i'm not sick of the murder time trio i'm sick of having to type#CANT SOMEONE JUST TYPE FOR ME I SWEAR I CANT TYPE ANYMORE#tricule rb#i have so much to say and i just realized that#all of these responses to my asks gets me GOING because HOW AM I WRITING SO MUCH ON SOME STUPID RAMBLES
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@rozaceous replied to your post âLater TPAC teasers bc i'm busy rnâ:
FULL OSTRICH, lmao that he very abruptly recognizes that he's abt to receive The Talk and deploys Jason as a defensive weapon
âthe talk from anyone bat-related is not going to be a Normal Talk. he doesn't want any one of these eidetic memory freaks knowing anything of his anything, which is where this talk was likely to head towards
(dick, trying to be the best brother-dad, also shameless, also raised on bat contingencies
"--and i'll send you the encrypted list of discreet shopping sites afterwards. let's move onto the next module on the psychology of kinks, and--"
korvin, "kill me. kill me now")
jason's happy to stir shit and get in people's way, there are no loyalties there
korvin just đđ "lalalala not listening lalalalalalala" ostrich mode
#redglyphs#rozaceous#on tpac#phd-verse#my big beef with the common trope of ''ew the sex talk'' between characters is how generic and juvenile it ends up playing out#the adult is grossed out by talking about it (puritan behavior) and the kid is squealing and freaking out#the squick needs to be particular to each relationship#here it's knowing that these mfers can deduce your entire psychosexual whatever from anything you let them know#and you also know they monitor your internet browsing history#it's like having your family know your ao3 reading history#korvin would rather shoot his own dick off and he doesn't bc even then it means he has something to hide#(he doesn't really but ppl are entitled to privacy and space + that's a big thing to explore w the fucked up batfam dynamics so teehee)#actually the whole fam is fucked up w how none of them can manage to say 'dick' if they don't want the intrusive thought of dick grayson#popping up whenever they want to do things.
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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a few Carlos moments from the 2024 Azerbaijan GP
#carlos sainz#charles leclerc#autumn posts#so many insta moments saved!! and most this quality hehe#not HQ but still I fawn!!#the middle especially AHHH his lap đľâđŤ ok!!!!#hoping to do this more to share what I have in the backlog that I haven't seen here yet tho totally could've missed someone posting these!!!#I know I talk about it a lot in the tags but ahhhh I'm usually at work đ kinda have a super unbalanced relationship with my job#but it means I'm usually so behind on the dash and there are so many incredible fics I cannot wait to read!!!!!#so many things I miss#thank you everyone for sharing what you create â¤ď¸#and thank you for your patience with me as I catch up!!!#like literally no one is putting pressure on me haha but I do it too much to myself!!#always feeling like I'm running behind but I know that's not how fandom works!!#it's wonderful to pop in and share whenever feels best!!#anyways tl;dr I'm hoping to catch up more soon and just hella thankful for all the kindness here â¤ď¸#I worry way too much (as evident!!) and slowly finding balance where I can have more time to do what I love in life#anyways it means a lot to ramble here!!#I'm a single pringle usually alone in my office or the apartment (except blessed weekends with friends! and stressful work events hehe)#so having this space means so much to me!! and to all the online spaces where it can feel like a little respite#and there is still so much to see!! (I've not even seen dts or Carlos and Daniel's vlogs like!!!! woah!!!! so much!!! đľâđŤ but also đĽł)#I've only seen a few of the Don't Blink episodes!! and some races from the past so far!!#and cannot wait to be yelling over fics soon omg the premises I've seen!!!!! AHHHHHH I always want to comment so you'll be hearing from me!!#but now back to work (for just a little longer!!)#hoping everyone is well â¤ď¸ and hope you have a restful evening morning and afternoon too!! đđđď¸â¤ď¸
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The Winchester brothers? Oh I think you mean Sam Leahy and Dean Singer <3 I think their mom is Mary Campbell-Winchester so maybe that's where you got confused <3
#listen I just think symbolically rejecting the family legacy on the family legacy show where the legacy is perpetuating pain and horror#is interesting#I'm just musing. i think sam would actually do leahy-winchester or winchester-leahy#mr dad did the best he could. he reconciles to him and he's proud of the men of letters thing#dean i think. clean break.#when cas says maybe i should get a surname and dean immediately suggests singer and confesses sometimes he pretended his name was singer#as a kid. just to himself.#and sam pops up and is like. it could be. if you wanted. just saying. i think it'd mean a lot to the old man.#and dean dismisses it but sam catches him writing in his journal:#mr and mr dean singer. mr and mr cas singer. mr dean (cas) singer.#dean mary singer#mrs dean singer ? (that one's crossed out Dean's not ready to crack yet)#and dean never makes an announcement or anything he just starts introducing himself as dean singer and cas as castiel singer#mary i think it's important to her to keep Winchester bc for her Winchester was an escape from HER family legacy of pain and suffering#I think for a while after resurrection she tried saying to other hunters that she's mary Campbell to cash in on the family name#because whenever she said Winchester she was met with suspicion from John alienating himself lmao#or people commenting positively on sam and dean and she was trying to avoid being reminded of and associated with them#but that felt like a betrayal of what her younger self had decided AND a betrayal of John. whom she loved.#even if she finds out that love was engineered and manufactured. it's still something she felt. it's still something#she poured so much of her young life into#and it represents the hope that her sam and dean might be able to work through things#so eventually she says with defiant pride I am Mary Campbell-Winchester. no matter what reaction she might get from other people.
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for a more succinct summary on my thoughts about fields of mistria.... it's nothing like HM64
#m.txt#hm posting#there is such thing as Too Much in a game i think#and while it's anyones own choice whether they want to engage with all the mechanics. and how quickly they want to do so#i am the type who will try to do everything there is as much as possible. unless its something that i know i for sure dont care about#and won't impact my progression#as someone who wants to make farming sims i often get anxious whenever i see a new one pop up. because like. competition and w/e right?#and fortunately i now get to be comfortable in the knowledge that this game Isn't What I Like About Farming Sims At All#its also comforting to see all these things that i'd never want in my own game and be able to recognize it like.#oh yeah thank god i never ever want a furniture crafting mechanic#that's so much extra work to build
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i am getting. actually kind of close to completing the (reasonable) parts of my collection
#like there are 3 things i expect to take me 5 years. if ever. to get my hands on (unless i somehow get a job that pays x4 my current one)#but aside from that im at like 4-5 things left. just got another thing today! damaged but it kinda works for it. cant wait for it to arrive#and i'm not gonna find a better price then 30% off og retail when it usually sells for 30% More nowadays#btw by collection i mean. everything i am collecting. not just spop. but mostly spop lol#i get Itchy when i go 1-2+ months without finding anything#so whenever something pops up at a good price it feels good to relieve that even when the itch was focusing on a different thing atm#i love deleting a saved search i've had for ages lol#mylife#i told my mom 'i dont want to collect just to collect :(' <- feels guilty about consumerism#and my mom was like. but you are a collector. you like to collect things. a lot of people do lol#and then i was like oh okay. somehow that fixed my guilt
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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it#my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with#and while this like isnât fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l#lovely?#bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am#glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh iâm popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like sheâs hasnât been gone#since iâve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life#he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even#harder now. in others he is easier.#he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken#about. that no one knew. my dad doesnât love him more now but he understands him better#my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he#hasnât walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his#personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasnât dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the#nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off#he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isnât. he doesnât know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he#still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so sheâs tired today. donât stay#long when you call in to see her?#whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late heâd ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael.#not ur kids. u canât parent them. he didnât know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart#i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him
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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on
https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share
(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.
(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceivedâ˘ď¸)
anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more đ
- @bondedpairs
ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you donât want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! weâll all love you for it!!!
#like. i donât know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows heâs being put into the codependent rookies arc.#heâs aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack arenât getting together because mackâs gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcanâs#many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows heâs inside a story but#not in a way where heâs trying to do anything to it. heâs just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand#liv in the replies#bondedpairs#happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! âalso hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3#weâre 2gether p much 24/7â no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance#this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure heâs having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in willâs life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice#itâs like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. youâre the only kids#close in age to each other but theyâre NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey#(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that iâm saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not#where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like âinvested early in stock!â & itâs a picture#of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks heâs sooo#like that but itâs will smith saying my god you are insufferable but youâll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. thereâs layers to this here ANYWAY) weâre building a life#i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much#smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. youâre gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & iâm like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred#i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO#blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at#a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)
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