#parishland

[stephaniefchase]

This is what happens when you are surrounded by ignorant, semi-illiterate people. They create controversy where there was none. Now the skeletons that you wanted to remain hidden have to come out. I will speak my truth because no mother or father at whose hands I suffered abuse at as a child will be allowed to villainize me as an adult. My parents owe me nothing. As an adult I owe them nothing. I will not be rude or disrespectful but I will not be silenced. Nothing that I have accomplished came from help from parents or family. It was always strangers who saw my potential and who inspired me to know my worth. I was quietly mourning when my mother sent me a disturbing message because of her inability to rationalize and think critically. She thought my tribute to someone who holds a special place in my heart was an insult to her and an attempt to make her look bad. If you never saw me sing in the competition. You never saw me sing in it. Period!! What was wrong with me saying that? I never said you did not support me in pageants. Yes you went to two of them. So what? I graduated from BCC & UWI and you never came! Told me you were coming with your best friend whose daughter was graduating also. When I asked her where you were she said you said “you were not coming” that broke my heart. If not for two friends I invited being there to support me at UWI graduation I would have crumbled!! Eveybody mother and father was there but such is life. Yet I didn't hold it against you. Invited you to my post grad dip Education graduation and you attended that so at least I have that one memory. However, our relationship has always been strained. That is the truth. Then this morning my biological father who was abusive and remains narcissistic to this day recorded a voice note and sent it to social media blogs in attempt to discredit me. Pretending not to know what he ever did to me but for whatever reason I disowned him. Claiming he has always been there for his children. LIES. LIES and more LIES. He may be there for his step-son and his son from his current wife but NOT his previous children. It is because of this man and how he treated my mother that I learnt from early I must not allow myself to be at the mercy of anyone. He beat my mother and I unmercifully. Put us out countless times. What I mentioned in this video is not even 1/10 of what I remember and I remember everything that happened to me. I have an older brother who suffers from chronic depression. My father does not even know how to communicate with my younger sister who has given him two grand-children. He told her never to contact him because he does not want anyone messing with his family. So I guess neither she nor her children are family. This is the type of man who is so evil that he thinks she wants something from him when all she wanted was for him to meet his grand-children. Better her than me cause I have not spoken to that man in over 20 years and have no desire to. These are the type of parents who want you to forget your childhood especially when you worked hard to make something of yourself. They want you to pretend that they were perfect when they were not. They would like to silence you because they do not want the world to know the abuse that you suffered at their hands. I will not be silenced. I have always been a loner so I will continue speak my truth because it is my right to do so. The path I have trod is not for the weak!!!!