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I'm feeling really annoyed at my friends today and idk why
#maybe it's their inability to realize they're the only ones laughing at the ginger jew jokes they make about me#maybe it's their inability to acknowledge that i only start responding with things other than insults back when they actually annoy me#maybe it's because everytime i talk about a character I'm interested in their immediate response is ''STFU''#maybe it's because they ruined a nice moment yesterday by calling me a stupid ginger Jew#maybe it's because everytime we try to hang out together they always show up so late and get upset at me for being upset with them-#-for not sharing that they would be late or that they wouldn't be able to make it#or when they get upset with me for asking how far away they are every now and then because I've been waiting for a fucking hour for them#idk#or maybe I'm just in a bad mood#who knows#newmsies
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I just like the idea that once Missa hears Phil has another "kid" he'd try and do whatever he can to help and Phil feels emotions about it
#Qsmp#Qsmp fanart#Pissa#qsmp shipping#qsmp philza#qsmp missa#qsmp Wilbur#I'd like to think the difference in style and shading relates to the contrast of scenarios! The first one is comedic-#while the second one is more serious and genuine in mood#Definitely not because I tryharded for the second scene#I have rotated this family in my mind so much aaGH#I just think Phil would fall a little more in love hearing Missa care about the people that are close to him#Also it is late I just would love to see Missa and Wilbur interact so bad and Missa being like: Okay as your father I'm going to help you#Missa may just have as much if not a bit more than Wilbur does but I think it could be a really funny dynamic#Anyway maybe Pissa reunion today prayge
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hehe. almost christmas!
#ace attorney tag#narumitsu#partial nudity /#2nd and 3rd things inspired by playing the first game and Uhh... why is phoenix accusing men of being lovers and being certain of it#and just generally containing the core of bisexuality within him#also there's that part i recall in maybe the..3rd game? where he's like Wow.. I'd Fall For Him Too... about that cinnamon swirl looking man#learnt lately that the writers upon learning that ace attorney was very popular with BL people immediately started reading BL#to understand the genre. i think phoenix would also do such Research in college. to Learn About People. About The World.#so now he feels that he has gaydar and is a good Ally etc. But actually maybe...you're also just bi too !#too bad you'll have to get kissed by a criminal to work that out! Hang in there <3#i reread my fic today !! I'm in the christmas mood now ! Sort of ! ooooh the 7 year gap.. at least we are in the 7 year gap years irl#Somewhere out there they ARE drinking wine romantically gazing at snow on a balcony in germany. thank GOD for that fr#so i shall be drawing things from THAT era next i need to depict men finally kissing NOW !!!!!!#can't do it with orufrey..can't draw cute happy romantic wintry art of them..didn't finish processing my current divorcecore arc era cycle
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Any ones that encapsulate the feeling of giggling kicking your feet like a cartoon girl with her crush or is that. Too specific.
My own crushes have sent me into a feet-kicking mood before so I getcha
#Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment but I kinda love being in love#you know?#also SORRY LOL TUMBLR DIDN'T EAT YOUR ASK I'M JUST REALLY BAD AT GOING THROUGH MY INBOX lo siento T_T#not a pic#somebody asked me a thing!#ask mood: image request
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do you ever. look at how talented your mutuals are and think "i love you. also why do you follow me"
#like. my art and writing do not even COMPARE#maybe i'm just feeling poopy bc i haven't had time or energy to update my fic#i also feel like no matter what i write it just doesn't! turn out good!#i want my writing to destroy someone LMAO#idk i'm just in a weird mood#today was a bad day and i don't feel that great#i haven't felt great for a while. idk i just feel run down and gross#don't have a job and go to school simultaneously#amori rambles
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It seems this year I have only two styles with no in-between what so ever, and looking at them in comparison is driving me insane just a lil bit
#not in a bad way but you know like#I love the lightness and dynamic of the fist one#but I also love the mood and details of the second#and maybe one day I'll learn how to merge them together to create the perfect middle ground#It's funny how you can pinpoint the exact moment I got bored and decided to just don't draw his left hand at all#I'm not lazy guys it's called selfcare#my art#sketch#kuroshitsuji#ciel phantomhive#our ciel
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Hi everyone! Gonna keep this week's report brief since I'm currently in a grove with my editing/coding.
Next Update (Chapter 3? Quite Possibly!):
Intro Scene (if not on music fest route): 100%
Music Fest Routes (Solo, V, and Amara): 100%
Club Pyre Path: 100%
Editing: 80%
Coding: 85?% (Possibly even more!)
Bug Testing: 0%
I can confidently say the editing and coding should be done by this time next week!
Bug testing will likely take a few days, possibly more if I run into any complicated ones, but, if not... you'll be getting the next update really, really soon. 🤞
#redo; rewind if#interactive fiction#if game#progress report#for once i'll keep my tag rambling short since i really want to finish coding the section i'm on but...#currently been listening to the same song on loop for the last hour instead of a playlist or something because i'm in a mood#not a bad one. just. same song repeatedly for a few hours type of mood#who knows? maybe i'll mix things up with a different version of the same song. spice things up a bit.
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trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1
wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)
bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:
#my art lol#synth v yuma#yuma synthv#synth v#synthv fanart#synthesizer v#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#YES I KNOW ITS DIFFERENT but at this rate its the umbrella tag. all vsynth shit goes under there just like on main 😔#sorry for the annoyign watermarks i just dont want this to get stolennn/traced it'll b my joker arc. is2g#like thats never happened to me before as far as i know but now that my art is getting 'better' i begin to get scared that it will happen#if my fanart got stolen i'd def sting a little yeah but not hurt AS bad as if someone stole my original shit. THAT would hurt#one of many reasons why i post less personal oc stuffs. although as mentioned above i AM in an oc mood so i wanna draw em maybe...#and stuff like this is a step to develop a PROPER FUCKING REF STYLE bc i SUCKKKK AT MAKING REFS LOL 😭 BUT I SHOULD GIT GUD#i have a few other refs planned for vocaloid au (i guess???) related shit but they're not done yet. this one was also a wip that i just??#impulsively decided to redo & finish bc i wanted to draw but nothing else i was trying to draw came out right. advantages of many wips#i have SOOO many things i could say abt some of the things that went into this redesign but i dont wanna come off as pretentious 😔💔#obviously it was primarily inspired by the vimalion yuma design but. there's moreeee that i can't explain here bc tag limits and im shy#i do think i want to try and be more intentional with my character designs now so i'm seeing how that goes as i redesign some old ocs#man though this kind of stuff makes me remember i used to LOVEE doing this stuff. and now its even crazierr given art improvement#uaurhghh my head is buzzing w/. so many thoughts. THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPENS I GET SO MANY IDEAS WHEN IM BUSY GFD#this is actually from today though unlike some other things i might eventually post. that'll make more sense soon#and fuckkk i forgot the chain necklace thing on the chibi yeah but i couldnt get it to look good. whatever
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i'm just a little sentimental guy
#𝜗𝜚 rambles#i want everyone to know that i think about each ome of you who interacts with my posts#just know i care a lot#even if i struggle to say it sometimes#i'm truly so bad at talking to people#i can't help my shyness but i really do appreciate the kind words and interactions#i just don't know what to do with myself#i want to be better at showing it to others!#i'm on my period so maybe that's why i'm in this mood
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Oh.
#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them#and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual#and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it#i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha#it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing#that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before#my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up#is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop#and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it#maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but#man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc#idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later#probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void#anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself
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Hello Sofie! I hope your day has been good!
I just saw this ask after I finished a really stressful batch of paperwork and was feeling super overwhelmed, and it really cheered me up. My day has been kinda tough, but I'm tougher, and you being so kind as to share your well-wishing definitely helped me stay that way ;w; Thank you!!!
#for anyone who's concerned: im doing A-OK! just had a difficult patch that kicked in during the infamous Afternoon Sleepies™️#y'know how it goes#I'm going go take a break— maybe go for a walk / workout a bit to help vent the bad vibes and boost my mood.#definitely gonna grab a snack and lay down no matter what!#(obby i know you're reading this and rest assured im alright; just emotional from being overtired lol)#obbyposting#(kinda)#sofie answers asks
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#and i SADDLE UP MY PONYTA AND I RIDE INTO THE SIT-TAY#I MAKE A LODDA NOISE CUZ THE GURLS THEY R SO PRETAY#RIDIN' UP N DOWN BROADWAY ON MY OLD STUD LEROY AND THE GIRLS SAY:#SAVE A RAPIDASH RIDE A MEOWBOY!!!#JOHN WAYNE AINT GOT NUTHIN ON MY FRINGE GAME HELL NO!!!!#well stranger don't ya know i'd like to be yer friend... IF I HAD THE TIME TO STAAAAAAY.#BUT I'M A BRAMBLIN A BLOWIN IN THE WIND. I'VE GOT TO CATCH ANOTHER STAAAAAAAAGE.#I STRAP ON MY GUITAR JUST LIKE A FORTY FIVE. I PRAY EACH NIGHT MY AIM IS TRUUUUEEEE#and ACQUAINTANCES TURN TO FRIENDS I HOPE THOSE FRIENDS THEY REMEMBER ME#HOLD THE NIGHT FOR RANSOM AS WE KIDNAP THE MEMORIES#NOT SURE THERES A WAY TO EXPRESS WHAT U MEANT TO ME#SOMETIMES I GET TO THINKIN BOUT SETTLIN' DOWN. FADE OFF INTO A MEMORY.#BUT EVERY NIGHT THAT I STEP OUT TO FACE THE CROWD?#I KNOW THIS IS THE LIFE FOR MEEEEEEE#pokemon#meowth#ok context. to whomever it may concern. which is no one but idc i have a lot to say and no one to say it to#first off heres my like bi-annual post bc i 1. only draw f*rdekyl* and fucking detest f*re *emblem fans with a burning passion#so i hate sharing my 'art' . so heres a rare non-fk thing. bc i also hate social media as a whole it makes me sue of side all#but like 2. i have deliberately avoided scar/vio bc its a BAD GAME. and its not made well. also i know 'open world' formats#trigger my ocd. which it did exactly. but thats mostly irrelevant. but in anycase. i bit the bullet bc i was in a pkmn mood#esp after my long beloved n*te and dook*ie gave me a hankering for a pkmn game again#and my lil bro accidentally bought 2 copies years ago so i was like fck it ill give it a shot its Free#and yes the game is dogshit. however. everytime i see a meowth in the wild i lose my mind.#his jaunty little yee-haw walk kills me every time. i adore him. thus this was inspired.#alright imma head out i fucking hate this website as well as every other social media . maybe ill draw something non-fk in like a year#see ya in like a year maybe if i live that long. which i wouldnt count on bc tbh this year has been BAD in terms of my pain. im on the#EXTREME decline and can BARELY draw anymore. i want to die. i got nothin left. it just keeps getting worse so adios!#:(
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tagged by my friends and colleagues @wanlittlehusk and @edwardalbee to share the worst three movies i saw last year; avatar is low hanging fruit but it really was that bad and i would have gotten up and left had i not been deep into the edible i took watching it in theatres lmfao; bully felt pointless and ultimately exploitative and i turned it off because i didn't think it was worth engaging with; i was sadly extremely disappointed in may december and did not find it remotely compelling—i really like todd haynes and the cast was great but i found it deeply uninteresting beyond the premise which wasn't executed well so i got bored and turned it off
i'll tag @jerrylandis / @lesbiancolumbo / @loveinstreams / @hazardutypay / @greatmortality / @majorbaby / @columbosunday and anyone else who'd like to do this 🫡
#i'm like. genuinely shocked people like may december though maybe i was just in the wrong mood but. i literally was like wow a real L for#todd haynes this is bad lol
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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects
#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar#no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new#but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term#so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now#so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but#it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out#that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance#so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial#but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal#although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive#i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary#ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness#which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days#and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself#im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles#but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy#and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me#i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this#i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself#im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body#im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up#and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please#and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching#between numbness and overwhelming agony#what the fuck am i talking about
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the joke is that that's just historical knights, yes
#it's one of the more annoying things on this site#repeating the joke back to you like you didn't make it in the first place#maybe I'm just reading tones wrong in this case because I'm already primed to be in a bad mood about tumblr
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sorry for how slow and sparse I've been getting around to everyone. I'm doing my best but genuinely rn I desperately need to take care of myself instead of always putting others first.
#I've been. not okay mentally or emotionally for a few weeks now.#and I'm eternally grateful for the. like. 2 people that know that and have been so kind and patient with me.#and I feel bad for not giving as much as I want to be to /everyone/ right now and how much I feel like I'm falling behind.#but I don't have the energy or the will rn and I need to be shaken and forced to rest.#I'm so depressed and stressed out and anxious over every little thing rn.#my sense of self-worth is fucking shot and I'm trying so hard to be brave and remind myself people really do care about me.#that I'm not nuisance that I'm not causing problems and ruining everything that it's not better for everyone if I just wasn't in the picture#idk this isn't like. I want to be swarmed with reassurances right now.#it's more of just. I'm sorry. I know my mood is fluctuating and I'm very slow lately.#I promise I'm not ignoring anyone.#I'm just in a not great spot and it's taking a bad toll on me especially when I know how I am trying to appease others.#while giving up my own well-being giving up my own heart.#I just need to rest and take it easy for a bit. I promise everything is fine.#rambling#maybe delete later
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