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authorscurse · 10 months ago

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LOVE LEAVES SCARS: INTRODUCTION

Synopsis: In which! Due to a letter calling her to go back to Texas Verity Rosewood goes back to the place she spent years trying to forget. While she is there, she tries to reconnect with the people she left. Her family, friends, and especially the person she loved most.

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Case file #1:

[Name]: Verity Rosewood

[Nickname(s)]: Veri

[Age]: 20

[Date of birth]: August 22, 2000

[Gender]: Female

[Sexuality]: Bisexual

[Eye color]: Brown eyes

[Hair color]: auburn

[Height]: 5'6

[Playlist]: Top of my school 【Katherine Lynn-Rose】 Pov 【Ariana Grande】 You're on your own kid 【Taylor Swift】 Brutal 【Olivia Rodrigo】 Little Miss Perfect 【Write out loud】Lose you to love me 【Selena Gomez】 All I want 【Olivia Rodrigo】 Dollhouse 【Melanie Martinez】 Be myself 【Why don't we】 I wanna be yours 【Arctic Monkeys】 Consequences【Camila Cabello】 Mess it up 【Gracie Abrams】 Control 【Halsey】 Elastic Heart【Sia】Applause 【Lady Gaga】 Thumbs 【Sabrina Carpenter】 In my mind 【Lyn Lapid】 Happier than Ever 【Billie Eilish】 Not strong enough【Boy genius】 If Only 【Dove Cameron】

Case File #2

[Name]: Grayson Hawthorne

[Nickname(s)]: Gray

[Age]: 19

[Date of birth]: August 23, 2001

[Gender]: Male

[Sexuality]: heterosexual

[Eye color]: pale gray

[Hair color]: blonde

[Height]: 6'0

[Playlist]: Looking at me【sabrina carpenter】Can I be him【James Arthur】Labyrinth 【Taylor Swift】Daddy Issues【The neighborhood】Ador You【Harry Styles】If I killed someone for you【Alec Benjamin】Man of the House【Marilyn Hucek】Money, Power, Glory【Lana Del Ray】I bet in losing dogs【Mitski】Angels like you【Miley Cyrus】Surface pressure【Jessica Darrow】People Watching【Conan Gray】I ain't perfect【IV of spades】Mistakes like this【Prelow】Mirror ball【Taylor Swift】Favorite crime【Olivia rodrigo】Feelin good【Michael Bublé] Lay all your love on me【ABBA】All of the girls you've loved before【Taylor Swift】Set fire to the rain【Adele】

Verity Rosewood

—The one who absquatulated

"I never wanted to leave, but I had to. For me."

Being the heir of the Rosewood family, Verity has been training and learning how to manage her family's company even at such a young age. She went to different kinds of classes, may it be public speaking classes, business management, dance classes, and many more. She had to be different, to be perfect. The pressure of being the best and perfect heir was exhausting, but she had her friends, right? The Hawthorne brothers have helped her cope with all the pressure and stress her family and everyone else pressed on her. She thought she could handle it, but everyone had their breaking points.

Grayson Hawthorne

—The Heir Apparent

"And that made me hate you even more."

Grayson had been considered as the "Heir apparent" of the family for as long as he remembered. As a Hawthorne, he was taught many things, and that included never showing emotion. He had to learn how to not cry or show signs of weakness. Being one of the oldest siblings didn't help with that at all. In fact, it just added even more pressure on him. Having to be the older and more responsible brother out of the rest. It was difficult. Trying to make yourself look as if you're not broken. He is broken and hurt, yet he makes sure not to show anyone even a second of his true emotions. He was not raised to be like that.

Verity + Grayson

—The never ending story

"In this toxic and suffocating world, we had each other."

The friendship of the Rosewood and the Hawthorne family has lasted for years now. So Verity being friends with the Hawthorne grandchildren was no such mystery. The group was always seen together during classes, tea time, playing outside on the grounds, or even skipping classes together. They were inseparable, but there were 2 children in the friend group that were much closer with each other than the rest; Verity and Grayson. The two consider each other as their safe places, the person who brings comfort to each other. Due to the pressure of their families, both of them really understood each other and considered one another as the place that they could bring down their walls and become their true selves. They felt safe, comforted, and peaceful in the presence of each other. Because for once, they felt as if they had one place they didn't have to pretend as if they're perfect.

[Playlist]: Back to December【Taylor Swift】Play date【Melanie Martinez】Tattoos forever【lauv】Love song【Why don't we】Make you mine【Public】Somebody to you【The Vamps】You and I 【One direction】That way【Tate McRae】Runaway【Aurora】If the world was ending【JP Saxe, Julia Michaels】Your name hurts【Hailee Steinfeld】Why's you only call me when you're high【Arctic Monkeys】Talk too much【Coin】Overdrive【Conan Gray】The one that got away【Katy Perry】House of memories【Panic! At the disco】Back to you【Selena Gomez】Midnight Memories【One direction】Still the one【One direction】Lover【Taylor Swift】The way I love you【Taylor Swift】Favorite crime【Olivia Rodrigo】I love you so【The walters】WYD now 【Sadie Jean】Somewhere only we know【Keane】Afterglow【Taylor Swift】Kiss it better【Rihanna】Kidult【Seventeen】No one can fix me【Frawley】Fall for you【Sarah Kang, Jesse Berrera】Remember that night【Sara Kays】

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booasaur · 10 months ago

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I really felt like you said that nothing can do it like soaps! It’s been ages since I had a ship in a soap but you mentioned Otalia and I remembered just how much I loved them once.

Just the sheer screentime they get! Didn't both Flozmin and Jasanni's respective edits top 20 hours each?

Looking at the Otalia compilation someone's been putting together, it's also at 23 hours and not even complete yet! And I'm sure it doesn't include all the character defining previous scenes over many years of Olivia's FIVE marriages to pivotal Guiding Light men. Like, it does elevate her relationship with Natalia to know what a maneater and shark she was before and how hard won and meaningful the change with and for Natalia was. Obviously you see that even at the start of Otalia clips, and she never fully stops being a bitch, thank god, but it's just different when it's not a simple prologue or timeskip but actual years lived out on screen.

I was discussing another soap with my friend and how they might not go for the f/f plot after all, how the brief foray into bisexual curiosity was just to fill time, and it made me think, soaps are literally just about filling time; for all that people miss fillers in regular scripted TV and all the casual character and relationship development they bring, soaps are just that all the time.

Some are more sensational than others, lol, but when they tackle certain topics, they can be so much more authentic than other media. I'm still watching but Chloe's Huntington's plot on Neighbours was really well done, and like, it may be a very typical soap premise to have Olivia receive the heart of Natalia's previous big love, but seeing her struggling for months after with the heart transplant recovery isn't something you'd see anywhere else, and it dovetailed perfectly with the other main goal to have her reluctantly rely on Natalia who then responded to that vulnerability.

If you're in the mood, you should check them out again! The second part, or skipping a couple of hours in, maybe, in the playlist above are where the good stuff starts.

#replies #femslash related stuff #Anonymous #sent on 20240127 #5 #guiding light #otalia

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banghwa · 2 years ago

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Like Crazy (2023) as a discussion of (queer) loneliness

hiiii anyways i keep saying Like Crazy is incredibly bisexual/queer and its been hard to explain why without writing an essay so. without further ado:

*DISCLAIMER* I am not claiming I know anything about how Jimin identifies or the intended message of the album, nor am I claiming my interpretation as above any other. This is just my reading of FACE and Like Crazy as a gay person of colour and a grad student writing a thesis on transness where I discuss topics of loneliness as a systemic form of violence and intimacy. I am also looking at this from a very Western perspective; though I know there are likely many Korean and likely queer Korean authors, theorists, and poets evoking similar ideas, I’ll be making reference to authors that I am familiar with who are better known in a Western context.

Loneliness as a cycle of abjection

“I want to introduce Jimin’s true feelings that I didn’t bring up anywhere else. I looked back on myself and honestly expressed my […] emptiness and loneliness.”

I don’t think it would take a particularly high level of analysis to conclude that FACE, and Like Crazy more specifically, are meant to explore loneliness as a process of self-alienation. Non-binary author Olivia Laing describes the cycle of loneliness as one where:

“[…] the lonelier a person gets, the less adept they become at navigating social currents. Loneliness grows around them, like mould or fur, a prophylactic that inhibits contact, no matter how badly contact is desired. Loneliness is accretive, extending and perpetuating itself.”

It’s very clear from the beginning of the music video for Like Crazy that Jimin struggles with reconciling a comfort in loneliness with a need to experience intimacy. Regardless of his efforts, the rot of loneliness is never far, seeps in through the walls and stains his hands. As (ironically) relatable of an experience as loneliness is, it does not occur in a vacuum. Rather, the unique experience of queer loneliness and rejection is one riddled by othering from acceptable sexuality and gender experiences and an inability to be framed within normative categories. Robert Phillips, scholar in language analysis as it pertains to gay male sexuality, wrote on abjection through a trans studies framework. To him, the process of horror or unease that defines abjection, through which the “other” is separated from and by an “us,” goes beyond “casting out” and becomes more interactive process; the hegemonic is protected by rejecting whatever does not conform, that is ambiguous, that does not fit in box. “The anxiety at the root of this unease with transgender subjectivity can be traced back, in part, to a fear of the ambiguous.” Loneliness, like queerness, acts as a sort of mark of Cain, a characteristic that becomes so impeded in our being that it if first noticeable and then rejectable.

Despite being marked by loneliness, Jimin is the center of attention for the first act of the music video, featuring him crowd surfing and posing delicately for pictures. Yet, despite his yearning, he makes no move for intimacy. The music video implies the possibility that it is the result of this very hypervisibility as a figure of softness and boyishness, inviting parallels to be made here with the foucauldian references and the power play between surveillance and identity in other areas of the album, namely Set Me Free Pt. 2 (a discussion for another post for another time…..).

Hedonism as an escape

“[Like Crazy] expresses the emotions of the moment when you run away from reality to forget your wounds.”

The overlap between loneliness and overt sexuality is why eroticism is so culturally important to queer communities. Like Crazy explores desire and intimacy through what can be called a queer lens, as an escape and as an unsuccessful means to being perceived and acknowledged outside of suffering. The whole poem is absolutely beautiful, but a specific excerpt of gay Asian-American poet Ocean Vuong’s On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous comes to mind: “Don’t we touch each other just to prove we are still here? I was still here once.” As Like Crazy, Vuong’s poem discusses intimacy as the antithesis to loneliness. To be intimate is to come out of ones self. The erotic becomes an avenue to salvation (I will permit myself a little shoutout to Christian mythos by drawing parallel to the Song of Songs - we all dream of kissing God, of laying with the presence of something larger than us, and finding deliverance from it!).

Like Crazy communicates a power struggle between desperation for intimacy and an addiction to loneliness. What Jimin says about it and the juxtaposition with the actual visuals of the music video paints the picture of an attempt to build closeness on the foundations of perpetual solitude. In Like Crazy, closeness is futile. Loneliness becomes a lifelong lover, and intimacy an occasional affair. Though still better than perpetual solitude, it is marked by disillusion: “I’d rather be lost in the light.” Rather than evoke the image of a passionate one-night-stand, it acknowledges of the persistence of loneliness. queer latino write John Paul Brammer evokes this feeling:

“Loneliness, I find, continues too. Our relationship with solitude is one of the most important ones we have in this life. No matter how full and vibrant and loud we make things, the quiet always finds us.”

Despite Jimin’s desires for closeness, we don’t actually see him making any move for closeness. Rather, despite his best efforts, he walks against the course of those around him in a repeated shot before knocking the camera’s lens away; again, a parallel to the surveillance of set me free, as well as a possible denial of him pace against the grain.

Queer desires and longing

“Let me have a taste / Give me a good ride.”

For non-queer people, what is difficult to understand in the particularities of queer loneliness is its entwining with desire. It’s an unspeakable yearning - as much in the ways it is indescribable as it is often life-threatening to do so. It is a profound sense of non-belonging felt in the knowledge that you are not as others are or see you because of a fundamental issue with how - and for whom - you experience desire. As a result, the erotic and sexuality along the margins of what is normative, i.e. reproductive cisgender heterosexual missionary sex after marriage, are profoundly radical and embodied manifestations of queer desire: kink, bondage, leather, sadomasochism, casual sex, chemsex, etc. all contribute to this expression of queer intimacy and self actualization.

I know I’m being a little dramatic in the set-up here but it is really difficult to try to explain this inherent outcasthood to straight people. It is such a specific experience that is so untranslatable, and yet it is a feeling that I pick up so strongly in the Like Crazy music video. The remedying of sexuality with the profound alienation that queer people feel up until, very often, a dramatic and self-destructive discovery in young-adulthood, is something that straight/cis people just can’t understand. Leading African queer scholar and (erotic) writer Keguro Macharia writes:

“what is the taste of loneliness? / salt-bitter-sweet-nothing / after midnight, in cars, in booths in sex shops, in dark bedrooms, in anonymous hotel rooms, encounter after encounter, trading orgasms for ‘hold me’ and ‘let’s cuddle’ ‘if I suck you off, will you cuddle with me’ ‘if I let you fuck me, will you cuddle with me’.”

I’m not knowledgeable on kink culture so I won’t get too into it but I think it’s really interesting how submissive the lyrics come off. What is striking about the way Like Crazy approaches desire that sets it apart from any generic “we found love in this club”-type pop song is its desperate tone rather than one that boasts virility with promises of a “good time.” Instead, Jimin is the one pleading.

Queer loneliness as liberation

“She’s saying, ‘Baby, don’t think about it / There’s not a bad thing here tonight.”

Like Vuong’s poem, Like Crazy could also become a larger question on a heterosexual culture that is increasingly anxious about bodies and touch. The music video can be clocked as having the intention to discuss the erotic - the Robert Mapplethorpe reference is enough to assert this - yet it does so very tamely. Everyone is clothed, no one touches too much, the atmosphere is fun, chill, controlled. Jimin, despite his expressed desperation for closeness and hedonism as told through the lyrics and through his interaction with those at the party, through the careless throwing back of shots, does not find what he needs. The environment is too controlled, too “straight” (as in “proper,” or “innocuous”). He himself does not find any intimacy. He stays at the center of it all, untouched, and not daring to get closer.

Something that is reflected by a lot of trans theory writers (some whom I’ve read including Paisley Currah and Dean Spade) is that the normalization process in inclusion produces and reproduces ideas on who is and “insider” and who is an “outsider.” I read a bit of Melissa Caroll’s thesis on the political implications of queer loneliness as part of my own (much shorter) thesis. In it she discusses how “straight” culture, through the aforementioned social accounting processes, delimit the realm of the socially accessible, in a process Denise Riley calls loneliness. Caroll says:

“Currently, any public declaration that “I am lonely” presumes that we are registering this feeling based on what we have been led to believe that loneliness, as a term, means: sad, alone, lacking, in need or want of friends, odd, bizarre, queer, and unhappy.”

Heteronormative abjection of queer and trans modes of being are increasingly reclaimed as constructive and disruptive political strategies. As postmodernist feminist scholar Julia Kristeva writes, abjection is “the place where meaning collapses.” Rejection of inclusion to instead embody abjection and loneliness is another cornerstone of queer self-affirmation that is explored, again, through the erotic and the sexually obscene. The tame nature of the music video, Jimin’s desperation, implies a dissociation from himself and a refusal to face himself. There is an acknowledgement of the futility of his desires for closeness beyond what he is “marked” for, that it will “break” him yet he refuses to be “saved.”

So, regardless of whether Like Crazy truly is an attempt to explore the unique nuances of queer loneliness, it is clear that what it does discuss is struggle against self. The music video depicts not romantic rejection or conflict, but rather an imposed alienation. A self-rejection from an objected self and from a normative way of life. The stained, leather clad hand presumably belonging to Jimin himself dragging him to the party, the knocking away of the camera as a refusal to accept a self or to showcase that “wound,” the interplay between the warm shots of androgyny and desire contrasted with the cool setting of the club. The premise of the music video and its use of a movie itself is a refraction of this longing and abjection in a way; what does it say to attempt to translate a profound feeling of disorientation and loneliness within a normative context through the reference of a romance film featuring a White, conventionally attractive, heterosexual, cisgender, normative couple as a man of colour often read as gender non-conforming?

TLDR: Whether Like Crazy or FACE globally means to discuss queer loneliness and desire, the way they are ultimately explored and the play on gender and belonging imply a framework that is, intentionally or not, queer.

#this is excessive i know. im sleepy n i need to shower ill prbably come back together and chop it down to half wtv #im not joking when i say its long. be warned.#essayposting #🏹

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justcallmefox89 · 1 year ago

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Cinderfella's Adventures in Cordonia - Chapter Seventeen

An AU of The Royal Romance with a male MC and a bisexual prince.

Masterlist

Callum speaks to his former competition and receives an offer from Madeline.

“What just happened?” Drake asks, stunned.

Liam slowly shakes his head. “I honestly have no idea.”

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I lean my head against elevator doors, the cool steel soothing the sharp pain stabbing at my frontal lobe.

Hi, God. It’s me, Callum. I say this with full disrespect… you have a sick sense of humor. Believe me when I say I am not one of your strongest warriors; I definitely don’t need to be tested any further. And another thing –

The doors spring open, interrupting my impromptu heart to heart with God. I unobtrusively straighten my jacket as I step out of the elevator and back into the ballroom, and quickly work my way to the bar, keeping an eye out for Maxwell and Hana as I do.

I slide onto a barstool, coming face to face with the bartender from earlier.

“Back so soon?” he asks coyly, leaning his elbows onto the bar top, bringing his face close to mine.

“Couldn’t stay away.” I manage to give him a half-hearted smile. “Could I get a bottle of the Baird Dark Sky and two shots of the seventeen year old Hibiki whiskey, neat? Please?”

“Anything for you, sir.” he says playfully, smirking as he turns away to get my order.

Hi, God. It’s me again… am I a joke to you, old man?

“Here you are, sir.” The bartender slides my order to me, peeking up at me from beneath his lashes. “I was wondering if you had any plans – ”

“Seducing the help already, Callum?”

I’d know that shrill voice anywhere. I still hear it in my nightmares.

“Excuse me, darlin’. I need to speak to Satan’s mistress for a moment.” I twist on my barstool to come face-to-face to with her. How’ve you been, Smokeshow?”

She takes a sip of her drink, gazing at me over the rim of her glass, and shrugs one delicate shoulder. “Busy. Traveling with the court as we partake in this,” she grimaces. “Engagement tour.”

I toss back my first shot, chasing it with a sip of beer before I say anything. “Yeah, about that.” I lean forward and lower my voice. “What the hell happened? Madeline? Madeline, of all people?!”

“She was the best choice out of all the remaining suitors,” Olivia says sourly. “Liam had very few choices by the end of the social season.”

“Where the hell were you when he was making his choice?”

“I was forced to leave the competition shortly after you dropped out.” She gives me a tight smile.

“Why?” I squint at her suspiciously.

“Someone had information about my parents. Something that could hurt them, damage their memory. I couldn’t let that happen. Not even for Liam.”

“Somebody was rigging the competition,” I realize. “They wanted Madeline to win.”

“Exactly,” Olivia says grimly.

“Did you ever figure out who it was?” I ask, sipping my beer.

She looks away, draining the last of her drink before answering me. “Constantine.”

“Why am I not even surprised?” I mutter, throwing back my second shot. “Does Liam know?”

Olivia nods.

“And he still chose to go through with this?” I raise my eyebrows.

She shrugs. “Liam agreed with Constantine that Madeline was the most qualified suitor left. He wasn’t willing to leave Cordonia without a queen.”

“And he’ll do anything for Cordonia,” I finish her thought.

“What else could he do? You had already left; all Constantine had to do was eliminate the remaining competitors until the only appropriate choice was Madeline. He backed Liam into a corner.” She gracefully slides off her barstool. “As fun as this little reunion has been, I’m ready to leave now.”

“See you around, Smokeshow.” I give her a slight finger wave, watching the back of her red dress until she disappears into the crowd. I swivel in my seat, leaning back against the bar top and gazing out into the ballroom. I slowly sip my beer as I study the party guests, scanning carefully as I attempt to locate a certain former king.

Gotcha, old man.

Beer in hand, I slide off my barstool and weave my way into the crowd, moving towards a recessed corner of the room where Constantine stands, accompanied by two bodyguards.

Where’s Bastien?

I leave a few people between myself and the trio, patiently waiting until Constantine becomes distracted by the mayor, who draws him into a lively conversation. A few seconds later the bodyguards turn their attention away from the king and begin scanning the ballroom for threats, each one looking in a different direction. Using the surrounding party goers as cover, I slink over towards Constantine, coming to a stop directly behind him.

“Don’t move,” I say quietly as the mayor moves away, drawing my index finger down his back until it rests between his shoulder blades.

“What are you doing?” he hisses, stopping himself mid-turn.

“I didn’t appreciate you leaking all the private details of my life to the Cordonian media,” I say conversationally.

“MacKenzie.” Constantine clenches his jaw so tightly I can hear his teeth grind together.

“I heard you threatened to do the same thing to Lady Olivia.”

“Liam could not be trusted to make the decision on his own. I needed to make sure that he would make the correct choice for Cordonia,” he says coldly.

“He deserves to have better than you as a father,” I seethe.

“Think what you want. Liam’s decision to wed Madeline is final, and there is nothing that can change that. Did you come over here just to discuss my son’s engagement?”

“No,” I say softly. “I just wanted to let you know I know exactly what you did. And to you remind that no matter how many bodyguards you have, someone will always be able to get to you. Have a lovely evening.”

I melt back into the crowd, quickly putting some distance between me and Constantine’s bodyguards. I spy Hana and Maxwell on the dancefloor, and move to take up a spot nearby to watch them, hoping to speak to them when the song is over. After a few moments, someone steps over to stand next to me. I glance down and see Madeline scowling at me.

“What are you doing here?” she demands.

“I was invited,” I say in a bored voice.

Madeline snorts. “If you’re back in Liam’s life that’s fine. Have all the feelings you want for one another. A tryst here and there can be managed but do not embarrass me.”

“You don’t care that you’re about to marry a man who is in love with someone else?”

“When you’re behind closed doors, you can have his heart and whatever other part of him you want. As long as I have the crown and an heir and a spare, I really don’t care what he does. This is practically the best thing that could’ve happened to you.”

I glance at her out of the corner of my eye. “I think you’re severely overestimating my interest in your future marriage.”

“I’m trying to work with you,” Madeline sighs.

“Once again, not interested.” I shrug my shoulders. “But… if I do decide I want Liam again, I won’t be sharing him. Don’t get too comfortable, Madeline.”

She opens her mouth to snap back, quickly closing it as she sees Maxwell and Hana hurrying towards us. Madeline sneers at me one last time before stalking off.

“Was that Madeline?” Maxwell asks, peeking around me. “Where’s Drake? Have you talked to Liam yet?”

“Drake is with Liam. I’ve talked to him… we’re just taking some time to think about things.”

“We don’t time to think about things,” Maxwell replies. “Liam is getting married in a few days!”

Hana gives him an exasperated look. “Callum is well aware of that, Maxwell.”

“As fun as this has been, I think I’m ready to call it a night,” I quickly interject. “Hana, I’m going to text you my address. If you happen to see Liam or Drake…”

“I’ll be sure to pass it on,” she assures me with a smile.

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One long Uber ride later I’m finally back in my building and unlocking the door to my apartment. Sashimi meets me at the door, purring and winding herself around my ankles. I bend down to scratch beneath her chin, and she rumbles with happiness. “Hey, my beauty. How was your night? Did grandda stop by and feed you?”

After living in the same building as my father and his boyfriend for the past nine months, my girl has become accustomed to their visits and the pampering the two of them shower on her. I shed my suit jacket and dress shirt as I move through my apartment, dropping them on the floor as I make my way to my bedroom. I fall backwards onto my bed and stare up at my ceiling with a deep sigh.

What a fucking night.

I close my eyes and sink deeper into my mattress. They shoot right back open a few seconds later as someone loudly knocks on my front door. Groaning, I roll off of my bed and shuffle towards the door. I press my eye to the peephole and have to stifle a gasp when I see who is standing outside in the hallway. I quickly unlock my door and throw it open.

“Now what are you two beauties doing here?” I ask, leaning against the doorjamb and raking my gaze over Drake and Liam.

“We need to talk,” Drake says bluntly.

I arch one eyebrow in interest and step aside, silently inviting the two best friends into my apartment. I wait until we’re settled in my living room to say anything. “So… who wants to start?”

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angelasscribbles · 2 years ago

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In Your Room Chapter 1: I Don't Like You

Series: In Your Room

Fandom: TRR

Pairings: Leo x Drake

Rating: NSFW

Warnings for this chapter: Lemons 🍋🍋🍋🍋

Song Inspiration for the series: In Your Room by The Bangles

Word Count: 1,415

A/N: I want to say this is for Day 5 (Romance) of DWAW by @drake-walker-appreciation, but this is...less than romantic lol! Imagine if these two had feelings for each other. What would it take to get them to admit it? I want to find out! This will be multiple chapters because they are both stubborn asses.

My other stuff: Master List.

Game night was not going well.

“Fuck you, Leo!”

“Fuck you, Drake!”

Both men had leaped from their seats and were inches apart, breathing heavily.

“Oh, for the love of God!” Olivia yelled, “Why don’t you just fuck each other and get it over with already?”

“What?!” Drake sounded disgusted.

So did Leo, “Ew, gross!”

Drake was home from college for the summer and his always slightly contentious relationship with Leo had hit new heights of friction. And Olivia was convinced she knew why. “The rest of us are tired of witnessing your foreplay!”

“Why would you say something like that, Liv?” Leo demanded, “I thought we were friends!”

“With friends like that…” Drake muttered under his breath.

“Come on guys,” Max cajoled, “Let’s just finish this round of Pictionary, okay?”

“Is anyone hungry?” Liam tried to redirect the conversation, “I can have the kitchen send something up.”

“Oh! Brownies!” Savannah pulled a card from the pile, “Come on guys, stop fighting!”

“New game!” Olivia announced.

“But we’re not done-“ Max started to protest.

“You and Sav are ahead so you win. Leo and I concede. I’m sure Liam and Drake do too.” She gave Liam a pointed look.

“Oh…ah…sure, you guys win.” Liam agreed.

Max exchanged a glance with Savannah then shrugged, “Okay, fine. Still undefeated!” They fist-bumped each other.

“So, what are we playing next?” Liam asked as he typed into his phone, asking the kitchen for brownies.

“Truth or dare,” Olivia replied with a grin.

“Oh, no,” Drake shook his head, “I know what you’re doing!”

“Oh, look!” Leo taunted, “Little Drakey is afraid of a game of truth or dare!”

“Am not!”

“Are too!”

“I’m not afraid of truth or dare! I just think it’s stupid!”

“If you’re not afraid of it, prove it!” Leo taunted.

“Fine,” Drake shrugged as he retook his seat, “I’ll play and I’ll beat your ass any day of the week because you’re fucking lame!”

“Good!” Olivia clapped her hands, “I’m going first. Leo, I dare you to make out with Drake!”

“Not on your life!” Leo said emphatically.

“That’s never gonna happen!” Drake agreed.

Liam tried to intervene, “Liv, I don’t think this is appropriate-“

“It’s okay, Liam,” Max interrupted, “I think Liv makes a good point. The sexual tension between these two is off the fucking charts. This needs to happen!”

“There’s no sexual tension!” Drake denied.

“I’m not gay!” Leo protested.

“Well, I hate to bring it up,” Liam said, “But remember Cedric Vescovi?”

Leo turned several shades of red, “That….that….I was just curious!”

Drake looked up with interest, “Leo fucked Cedric?”

“No!” Leo shook his head emphatically.

“They may not have done the deed, but they were buck naked in the swimming pool, and dad-“

“Liam! That’s enough!” Leo roared.

“Huh,” Drake said thoughtfully.

“Huh? What’s huh mean?” Leo glowered at him.

“Nothing!” Drake laughed, “I just find it interesting that’s all.“

“Well, it meant nothing! It was a one-time thing!”

“It’s ok, Rys, I get it. You’re scared.” Drake said quietly.

“What?” Leo turned to face him, “No! I’m not fucking scared! You’re scared!”

“I’m not scared of you man.”

“You would back down before I would, Walker. I’m not gay. You’re gay!”

“Bisexual,” Drake corrected him, as he took to his feet again. He walked directly into Leo’s personal space and folded his arms across his chest, “And not ashamed of it. You would definitely chicken out before I would.”

The challenge had been issued.

“I think the rest of us should….go see about those brownies!” Savannah suggested.

“Yep!” Max hopped up off the couch and headed for the door, Savannah right behind him.

“I’ll just text the kitchen that we’re on our way!” Liam followed them out.

Olivia was the last one to make it to the door as Drake and Leo stared each other down. She twisted the lock on the inside of the doorknob and smirked at them, “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t boys! Which leaves you wide open!” She pulled the door shut on her way out.

Drake and Leo stood inches apart, both heart rates elevated, both breathing a little heavy. Leo swallowed, hard.

Drake licked his lips before speaking, “Time to put up or shut up, Rys.”

“Oh, fuck off, Walker!”

“Figures,” Drake scoffed, “I knew you were too chickenshit to-“

Leo grabbed two handfuls of Drake’s shirt and drug him forward, closing the distance between them. His lips crashed into Drake’s, cutting off his reply.

A struggle ensued as each man fought for dominance. Drake grabbed Leo by the hair, Leo slapped his hands away and grabbed his hair. Drake shoved Leo backward, pushing his hands off his chest, but stumbled forward with him, keeping their lips locked together.

Leo shoved Drake back, breaking the kiss, “I found one way to shut you up!”

“That’s fucking child’s play, Leo!” Drake smirked as he tugged him forward by his pants.

Leo didn’t resist as Drake pulled the zipper down and slid his hand into his underwear. His hand moved up and down Leo’s shaft, “You like that don’t you?”

Leo bit into his lip but was unable to suppress the moan that escaped him. “No,” he breathed defiantly.

“Oh yeah?” Drake taunted, “Your dick is hard.”

“Because you’re touching it!” Leo protested, “Yours would be too! Watch!”

Leo unfastened Drake’s pants and pushed his underwear down to find him already rock-hard and dripping precum. His hand wrapped around him and started pumping, “See?”

“I mean, I like having my dick touched, has nothing to do with you,” Drake countered, his breath hitching a little, “Why don’t you just admit you like it?”

“Because I don’t!” Leo gasped as Drake’s hand tightened around him.

Drake smiled at Leo’s obvious arousal, “I bet I could make you cum right now.”

“No, you couldn’t! I don’t like you like that.”

“I think you’re a fucking liar,” Drake used his free hand to pull Leo’s head forward, capturing his lips in another searing kiss.

Their tongues explored each other’s mouths as their hands kept up a steady pace. When the kiss broke, Leo leaned his forehead against Drake’s, locking eyes with him.

Their breath came in gasps as they moved closer to one another, so close their hands were touching as they jacked each other off. Drake reached out and stopped Leo’s hand, gently pushing it to the side as he wrapped his own hand around both cocks, pressing the bases together and then gliding his hand up and down.

The sensation of Drake’s hand on him and their cocks rubbing against each other at the same time was the most amazing thing Leo had ever felt in his life. He watched in fascination as Drake’s hand pressed them together while increasing the speed and intensity.

Leo’s eyes moved up to lock on Drakes. Drake’s pupils were lust blown, his breathing ragged, beads of perspiration had broken out along his forehead, and it was the sexiest thing Leo had ever seen. He cried out as his body pitched forward and he came harder than he had ever come with any woman.

Drake continued to pump his hand while staring into Leo's face as he climaxed. Then he released him and started stroking himself.

“I can help you with that,” Leo offered, replacing Drake’s hand with his own, using his own cum as lubricant.

“Leo…” Drake panted, “Fuck!” Drake exploded, spewing long, thick streams of semen onto Leo’s abdomen.

They stood perfectly still as their breathing returned to normal, then Drake took a step back, “Sorry about the mess.”

Leo shook his head as if coming out of a daze, “S’ok, there are towels in the bathroom.”

“Right.” Drake ducked into the attached bathroom and brought back two clean towels. He tossed one to Leo and used the other to clean himself up.

“Well, that just happened,” Leo observed as he caught the towel.

“I did make you cum first,” Drake smirked.

“Whatever, fuck off….” Leo turned his head so Drake wouldn’t notice the red that rose to color his cheeks.

Drake tossed the towel into the bathroom hamper before heading to the game room door. He stopped halfway out. Without looking back, he asked, “Wanna….maybe…do it again sometime?”

“Yeah, sure,” Leo said while studying the curtains on the other side of the room.

“Okay.”

“Well, see ya later…”

“Yep.”

Drake pulled the door closed behind him, leaving Leo alone with his jumbled thoughts and suddenly undeniable emotions.

#trr au #drake walker #leo rys #drake x leo #dreo #angelasscribbles #choices fic writers creations #cfwc fics of the week

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dollsome-does-tumblr · 2 years ago

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finished the nevers 1-b!

aughhhhhhh, i wish they hadn’t so confidently ended as if a second season was going to happen! WHYYYYYYYY! WHY COULDN’T IT JUST END WITH AMALIA AND PENANCE BEING SCHMOOPY? frustrationnnnnnnn! (although i get that there’s no way they could’ve predicted the show would get THIS screwed back when they were still in production. you gotta try to swing for a renewal when you’re on hbo!)

i got SO attached to frank and hugo and i am pissed that hugo died. noooooooooooo! let them be happyyyyyy! i hate thissssssssss!!!!!!!!!!! hasn’t this show heard that we don’t bury our gays anymore??????? (I get that maybe james norton wanted out because he works so much, but shhhhhhh.) maybe i just immediately need to start writing a fic about someone rolling up on the scene whose new turn is bringing your recently dead boyfriend back to life. or maybe the galanthi seeds ship frank and hugo too, and one somehow falls on hugo and magics him back to life. yep. that’s where i’m at right now. MUNDI CAN’T HAVE BOTH HIS LOVES DYING TO BOOKEND THE SERIES! I REFUSE! I REFUSE TO HAVE HIS LIFE BE THAT SAD. also, foppish aristocrat + grizzled copper wound up being a really excellent shippy dynamic that i don’t think would have occurred to me! update: it’s possible i wrote my fix-it fic already. I HAD TO! FOR MY OWN PEACE OF MIND, & PEACE OF FEELS!

i really, really liked the twist of auggie going bad. the stammering, hapless, charming englishman trope feels like such a staple of whedon’s work (and just such a staple in stories in general), and i loved seeing it turned on its head. i especially liked the way that the penance/auggie dynamic sort of felt like a fred/wesley remix but through a more critical lens, and i like how it was starting to feel like an amalia/penance/auggie love triangle was starting to happen. but ugh, i reallyyyyyyyy wish we hadn’t ended the series on that hug. D:

kinda relatedly: you KNOW i was like, “horatio gravitating back toward his awesome wife and auggie being evil and amalia being bisexual means the narrative was totally setting up canon amalia/penance!” and now nobody can tell me any different, damn it.

all of the maladie/sarah stuff was riveting and so magnificently acted! loved her journey.

olivia goddess williams remains my favorite, even when she’s shooting an innocent space creature over and over.

amalia and her two past selves hanging out was excellently trippy!

i really liked the direction the show took in these episodes, i would have liked to see more of it. (but it would have required the magic resurrection of hugo swann, so maybe this is all for the best.) weary sigh! i really love all these characters and would have loved to watch them for much longer.

i still say reed diamond should’ve showed up as lavinia’s evil american boyfriend. sorry, denis o’hare!!!!!!

#dollsome's deep thoughts #the nevers #the nevers spoilers

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aclaywrites · 11 months ago

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How to fall in love via Deneuve Magazine Personal Ads Circa 1993

❖ Go to your mailbox and see that your latest issue of Deneuve magazine has been delivered. It’s in a plain brown envelope, but you still take it all the way inside the house before you open it.

❖ Take a moment to gaze at the cover and appreciate the fact that it’s named after Catherine Deneuve in honor of her sex scene from The Hunger which awakened us all.

❖ Flip past the first few pages of ads. Do I want to fax away for a brochure about the chance to go on a Kenyan photo safari with the world’s first out lesbian commedienne? What about the Olivia Thanksgiving cruise?

❖ Enjoy the Editor’s Column about how our new President Clinton has pledged to make real progress for the LGBT community. Bask in the warm glow of happiness knowing that the gay dark ages are finally coming to a close.

❖ Chuckle at Alison Bechdel’s ad for the Feminist Bookstore Network and wish you had one of those stores near you.

❖ Keep up with the state of the lesbian nation via the letters to the editor. Aren’t the repressive laws being passed in Oregon and Colorado shocking? Goddess bless that Kentucky baby dyke having to dodge the KKK at her high school 🙁

❖ Read the wedding announcements and get all choked up, remembering why you’re here. Resist the urge to flip to the end and see if there’s anyone new from last month. Hope springs eternal!

❖ Oh, the 20th anniversary of Naiad Press! I love their stuff! Especially how all the covers look like they’re printed with ink that was on sale. I wonder if they have any more copies of that Lesbian Queries book from 1990???

❖ Audre Lorde sure is gonna give them hell at the march on Washington, eh?

❖ So many bookstores. So many books.

❖ An article about Safe Sex! Hell yes! Even though lesbians don’t get AIDS because we’re God’s chosen people, this will be fun to read about in theory! “After all, aren’t we told that lesbians and priests are in the lowest risk category?” lol people thought priests weren’t constantly having gay sex. Simpler times.

❖ An interview with Alison Bechdel! She’s so swoony.

❖ Articles about soap operas, speculation about Hilary Clinton, gossip about Madonna and Sandra Bernhard. And what about Whoopi Goldberg? And that Ellen lady? She’s been on Arsenio Hall acting all cagy about the men in her life. A list of women we wish were gay, including Joan Jett? Didn’t she sing Crimson and Clover without changing pronouns like waaaaay back in the 80s

❖ Music reviews: Sweet Honey in the Rock and Alix Dobkin! We’re almost to the ads…

❖ Labrys jewelry, freedom rings. C’mon, let’s get to the good stuff!

❖ Here we go! Classified ads– 30 words for $20! Queer personal finance, we buy used computers, a lesbian resort in New Hampshire.

❖ Personals at last! Is my woman here?

❖ Hey there’s that woman who has an ad every month expressing her ‘complete and sincere respect for’ women in military, fire, police, private security, corrections’. A gay male ad would say ‘Uniform fetish’ but apparently we’re too delicate.

❖ Bisexual boston babe ‘femalely handsome’ looking for someone who’s ‘nice to look at, not a feminist and not a bitch’. Next!

❖ Lonesome in Wyoming, Bisexual Bodybuilder, Softball is over, time to find someone warm for winter, Reubenesque Arkansas Buddhist…

❖ Find a girl who sounds promising– seems interesting and is not too far away. Spend a day or so composing a letter with a pen and piece of paper introducing yourself. If you don’t have a photo of yourself that you like, have a friend take one. Then finish the roll of film and bring it to the Fotomat and wait a day or so and then pick up the prints and hope you like one of them. Choose one anyway, and put it in the envelope with your letter.

❖ Get a stamp, hang it on the mailbox, never hear anything ever again.

❖ One month later, go to your mailbox and see that your copy of Deneuve has arrived.

#lesbian queries #lesbian query of the day #Deneuve magazine #personal ads #lesbian love #lesbian sex #yay lesbians

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terastalungrad · 1 year ago

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BB20: Monday 9 October

Apparently, the new mix of the theme tune means ITV avoids paying a domestic abuser. Fun behind the scenes facts!

I really love Yinrun's love of British slang. The way she joyfully says she's "knackered".

Nice seeing Chanelle and Jordan bond.

Hallie is trans! Very lovely coming out scene. BIG fan of the cis women gathering around her for hugs. And first ever Big Brother pronoun circle??

Yinrun comforting Jenkin! My faves unite.

I'm fascinated by Jordan and Henry together. The former a (surely neurodivergent) working class kid who's taught himself to speak like he's in Downton Abbey, the latter a Royalist Tory boarding school kid who grew up with a maid. So far, Jordan adores Henry. Of course he does! Henry's basically Jordan's special interest irl. But ... they are not the same. Curious to see how this friendship develops.

I know I'm being a sucker here, but ARGH I love Farida complimenting Hallie's makeup, including her overuse of she/her pronouns to make it really clear she's ON BOARD.

Anything we can do to decouple religion from bigotry is valuable work.

Olivia's secret task is to avoid being ranked "least entertaining". Classic Big Brother stuff - except it also stops her descending into embittered rage. FIlling the day with singing and cartwheels is making people warm to her.

Interesting moment: Olivia gets wound up after Farida helps herself to Olivia's salmon. As she starts working herself up into a frenzy - Hallie chooses this moment to compliment her jewelry.

This technique of tension-release-via-distraction is very familiar to me from my job, working with people who've had traumatic childhoods [comedians].

(First kpop song used in Big Brother UK I wonder? Instrumental version of Dynamite by BTS.)

Jenkin asked to rank housemates from most to least intelligent, goes entirely by accent. He places Llanelli's Chanelle 3rd from the bottom, in an act of inter-Welsh betrayal.

Noky puts Scouser Paul top of "funniest", and puts Jenkin last in another terrible bit of Cymruphobia.

Henry must rank by "entertaining". He places Olivia second. Since she's not bottom, she's now IMMUNE from eviction now, and I am HYPED! She was in a horrible position, fated to be hated and evicted - and it won't happen now.

Chanelle struggling with the very-low-stakes rejection of being ranked low on kindness. :-(

Early bonding between Jordan, Henry, Trish, and Hallie - bonding by making fun of Olivia. Jordan is VERY good at this. He's astute, and sharing his observations in a way that allows everyone to laugh at Olivia.

And hey, Olivia's salmon rant was ridiculous. As a one-off bit of letting-off-steam, this is fine. But I have a sinking feeling that this is the start of a group of outsiders who socialise by bitching.

Farida and Zak bond over how much they like Olivia. This is nice. I want her to have friends.

Ahh, Trish. People so wanted you to destroy Henry. You have betrayed the left by being friends with him.

Trish hates Tory voters, but recognises that Henry simply doesn't understand a single thing and therefore likes Boris Johnson. (Which is a pretty good working definition of "Tory voter").

Popular phrase this series: True Authentic Self. Hallie is on HRT so she can be her True Authentic Self. How can Jenkin be his True Authentic Self without his suitcase?

This is funny to me, since TAS just makes me think of Tool-Assisted Speedruns, which are the opposite of a True Authentic Self.

Welsh Chanelle tries to chat up bisexual Jordan. These are good identities to bring into a relationship in my experience.

Jordan's extraordinary. I was so worried this show would be in the same space as Love Island. But instead - best case scneario - it's in the same space as The Circle.

#bbuk

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casspurrjoybell-25 · 5 months ago

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Cold as Ice - Chapter 40 - Part 2

*Warning - Adult Content*

Wren Ridley

"You were drinking alcohol?" Landon asked as soon as we were alone.

"James was exaggerating," I assured him.

"It was just a sip."

"Do you wanna, like, talk about it?" Landon asked awkwardly.

I paused for a moment, unsure of what to say.

I didn't want Landon worrying about my behavior from when we were separated.

It was a useless thing to worry about, really.

"There's nothing to talk about," I eventually replied.

"What I would like to do is eat dinner."

I grabbed James's chair and dragged it over to sit next to Landon.

The two of us ate quietly for a little bit.

"Do you like your food?" I asked, noticing he was eating slowly, pushing the food around.

He looked up from the desk.

"Yeah, it's good."

"Do you still have problems eating certain things?"

He looked surprised at my question and I hoped it wasn't insensitive of me.

I wanted to be more careful about what I said to him.

Thankfully, he didn't look angry with me.

"Sometimes, I guess," he replied.

"But therapy is helping with the whole self-hatred thing and with getting my father out of my head."

"You know, you can talk to me about these things. If you need to or want to."

Landon stared at me for a moment then nodded.

"I know."

The two of us eventually got onto the topic of the impending winter break which was only two weeks away at this point.

"I have to stay in the dorms," Landon told me.

"I still have hockey. I'll have the Christmas week off, though."

"What are you doing for Christmas?" Landon leant back in his chair, done with dinner.

There was still some left on his plate but I was surprised at how much of it he actually ate.

I didn't comment on it.

"I don't know. Probably spend it with the Hansons. I know they'll want to go to church but I don't think I can and then they'll feel bad and stay home with me even though they really wanna go."

"Why don't you just come over to my house while they go to church?" I asked.

I said it without thinking but I didn't take it back.

I just subconsciously assumed that the two of us would spend Christmas together.

"You want me to come over for Christmas?" he asked, disbelief clear in his tone, his eyebrows lifting.

"Yeah, why not?"

"Would your parents be okay with that? After the whole Thanksgiving weekend thing?"

"Fox was the one that pissed them off that weekend, not you," I reminded him.

"And I'm sure, as soon as I tell them I'm bringing my boyfriend over for Christmas, they'll be thrilled."

Landon's eyes widened.

"Your boyfriend?"

"That's what we are, aren't we?"

Landon grinned.

"Yeah, that's what we are."

Then I remembered I hadn't even told my parents I was bisexual.

Now I had to decide if I should tell them or if introducing Landon as my boyfriend was the best way to go about it.

"So, you'll come over?" I asked in a hopeful voice.

"Yeah, if it's okay."

"Yeah. It will be," I assured him.

"The only problem will be Fox."

"I think him and I are okay now," Landon said.

"I think."

"I'll believe it when I see it."

"Seriously, I think he's more concerned about you being okay than he is about me."

I had no idea what the two of them said to each other but it was hard for me to believe that Fox was just suddenly okay with my relationship with Landon.

He was so stubborn and set in his was.

It took a lot to change his mind and I wasn't sure that one talk with Landon had done it.

As long as he could be civil during Christmas, it wouldn't be an issue.

"What about Olivia?" I asked him, suddenly remembering his sister still being stuck in that house with their parents.

"I'll have to see her while I'm home," he replied.

"But she'll be stuck with our parents for Christmas."

Landon and I cleaned up and got ready for bed after that, though I knew we didn't plan on sleeping yet.

I took an extra-long shower, getting myself ready for whatever could happen next.

When I got back to the room, Landon was lying in my bed, one hand behind his head propping himself up.

He looked me up and down, his eyes catching on the towel wrapped around my waist.

I grinned at him and got up on the bed.

His eyes widened.

"What are you doing?" he asked, his eyes wandering down to my bare chest.

"Whatever you'll let me," I replied.

Landon brought his eyes back to my face, his stare intense.

He pulled me down on top of him and caught my mouth on his.

His lips moving against mine were hurried like he was worried I'd slip away if he took his time.

The towel was barely covering me anymore, so I used one hand to throw it on the floor and situated myself better on top of Landon.

My lips eventually matched the pace of his and I could feel him hardening beneath me.

Landon grabbed me by the back of my thighs and flipped us over so now I was on my back beneath him.

He moved his mouth to my neck as I pulled at his shirt, hiking it up until he eventually pulled away long enough to take it off.

"You can take your pants off too," I said in a teasing tone.

He was about to oblige but paused for a moment.

"Wait, what about James?" he asked.

"Is this you asking for a threesome with James?"

I sat up.

Landon glared at me, shoving me lightly back down.

"No," he said.

"What if he comes back while we're..."

"He won't," I assured him.

"He'll be out for a while."

Landon didn't look convinced but he took the rest of his clothes off anyway.

While he did that, I reached into my nightstand to get a condom and lube then handed them over to him.

He stared down at the things in his hand then looked at me.

"Do you need me to... um... get you ready?" he asked awkwardly.

The look on his face was so sweet I almost laughed but I stopped myself.

I didn't want him thinking I was making fun of him.

"I did in the shower," I told him.

"But I'd never say no to your hands on me."

He rolled his eyes but grinned down at me as he opened the bottle of lube.

Then he slowly put his hands on me and I felt like I couldn't breathe for a moment.

He only had one finger in me and it was enough to interrupt my breath.

"Is this okay?" Landon asked ahis time I did laugh.

"Yes," I said, grinning.

"It's perfect."

This encouraged Landon to keep going.

He added more fingers, leaving me squirming beneath him, until he finally hiked my knees up closer to my chest and entered me.

I let out a loud moan as he moved in and out, looking directly into my eyes the whole time.

It was the most intimate sex I'd ever had.

I didn't think I'd ever looked someone in the eyes like this because it never mattered to me who I was with like it did now.

When the two of us finished, Landon cleaned us up with a cloth and threw the condom away then got back into bed with me, kissing the top of my head as he pulled me close to him.

I kissed his chest before laying my head on it.

*********

The two of us stayed like that all night and we were sleeping peacefully until the next morning when we both woke up to banging on the door.

"James, open the fucking door," Anthony yelled, slamming his hand on the door.

I picked my head up from Landon's chest and looked over at James who woke with a startled look on his face.

I narrowed my eyes at him.

"What did you do?" I asked.

James didn't answer.

He just got up from bed with a sigh and went over to open the door.

As soon as the door was opened, Anthony pushed his way inside and shut it behind him, pushing James further into the room with his hands on his chest.

Landon and I shared looks of confusion before turning our attention back to the spectacle happening in the middle of the room.

"Anthony..."

"Shut up, James."

It was sort of comical watching the two of them argue.

Anthony was so much smaller than James.

Looking up at him probably strained his neck.

"You have no right butting into my life," Anthony continued.

"Warning guys away from me at the bar? Seriously? What the hell is the matter with you?"

"Can we talk somewhere..."

"I don't get it why you are going this.. You don't even want to be with me," Anthony exclaimed.

I nearly laughed at that.

Of course, James wanted to be with him.

That was obvious.

"You..." Anthony started again but was quickly cut off by James cupping his face in his hands and planting his lips on his.

Anthony's eyes went wide as James kissed him but he did nothing to pull away.

"Oh shit," Landon whispered.

James pulled away, keeping Anthony's face in his hands.

"Can we talk somewhere else?" James asked.

"I... um... I..." Anthony trailed.

"I have to go to work."

He stepped away from James and looked over at the two of us.

"Just pretend you didn't see this whole thing," he said to us, going toward the door.

"I'm sure I'll see you at the coffee shop later."

"Sure thing, my favorite barista," I replied.

Anthony sighed and turned his attention back to James.

"You... I will talk to you later..." and with that, he basically vanished from the room.

"Well, that was entertaining," I said as James walked back toward his bed.

Landon elbowed me lightly but he had a slight grin on his face from my comment.

"Not one more word," James mumbled, dropping himself face first onto his mattress.

Landon and I got out of bed and got ready for our run, which was now something we did together every morning and spending all my time with Landon was something I was afraid I was already used to.

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Ok I'm gonna have a little ramble here as I try to vote in a way I can justify beyond just "I'm a vindictive little meanie" bc I am but I wanna cite my sources you know?

So burning. Appalling cold open, emblematic of the shift late in warrens tenure to increasingly graphic cold opens which was a stark departure from the ethos of the show in the beginning, where they made a conscious decision not to show a child's dead body bc it was gratuitous and they trusted the audience to grieve without needing the graphic horror show. Warrens disdain for his audience palpable here. Noah's being bullied so they decided to present that with a shocking and weirdly sexual visual...why, exactly? Which brings us to the next point, which is characterization. How does Olivia Benson hear "boys will be boys" and not unhinge her jaw like a snake and swallow that woman whole, regardless of whether she saw what happened or not? Bc at this stage they had basically stopped writing her, is why, she was little more than a prop, her only job to stand around looking sad in a big puffy coat. Then we have the actual structure of the episode, another hallmark of the end of warrens run - cramming in way too much, to the point that no beat lands, that it's necessary to actually have the characters stand around at the end and explain what happened. Like. If you literally have to spell out the sequence of events I don't think you did a good job portraying them. And we get the shows continual sketchy treatment of male victims. The reveal of Noah's bisexuality was not bad bc he's a kid or whatever but it is bad bc the lines are so stilted and weird. Love the amazing bisexual Bensons hate the cringe awkwardness of that scene. 1/10.

But then confess your sins. I don't remember anything about the case if indeed there was one, which is the point; the episode wasn't about the case. Burton returns and this time he has a rape charge against him, not a charge of coercion and general sleaze but an actual credible charge of rape. And we're supposed to feel sorry for him bc he was drunk? We're supposed to believe him when he tells Olivia he was in love with her at sixteen? Olivia doesn't push back? Olivia goes and speaks to his victim alone which is like - where is IAB that can't be allowed. What was her intent? Defending Burton to the woman he hurt? We have Burton promising Olivia he won't talk about her at the meeting and the second she walks in he starts talking about her?!! And she's not angry, she doesn't immediately walk out, she sits there listening with wet eyes? Where is her care for herself, in all of this? Burton's first spi ended with Olivia alone, having chosen to walk away from him, having thrown the tape away, having called Nick, having acknowledged that this piece of her history is not the sweet thing she used to look at through rose tinted glasses but was actually harmful and having risen above it. Then we reverse to her still buying into the narrative of love, despite knowing that Burton has manipulated countless other girls and young women in the exact same way? And perhaps one of the most galling things about this episode wasn't contained in the script but was instead warrens public comments about it; he was proud of it, wanted to make a statement about the nature of forgiveness like. He thought he did a good thing by erasing Olivia's agency and making a rapist out to be a good guy who just got a bad rap or whatever. Are we supposed to see Burton taking accountability when he speaks about Olivia at the meeting after promising not to? Just. Phew this episode hates women and it really, really hates Olivia.

So they're both victims of terrible writing and an alarming mindset behind the scenes and they're both shitty to their characters, and the first one is a little racist and the second one is deeply misogynist. I think I'd be on board with either being crowned worst ever; they're each so profoundly bad. The thing about confess, though, is that it shits all over everything. Shits on the characters, on victims, on every flimsy concept of what this show is supposed to be about, and contorts itself into a pretzel trying to justify/excuse the behavior of a narcissistic, predatory man, nevermind who gets hurt in the process. Yeah, for me, it's confess your sins. I think it was always gonna be.

championship (round 12)

episode descriptions under the cut

burning with rage forever -> a boy disappears after meeting up with an online gamer. benson suspects her son is being bullied (imdb). after defeating brooke shields, noah comes out as a Bisexual King. the case also reinforces some unfortunate ideas about the cycle of abuse. and ummm yeah noah is in a dog cage at the beginning :/

confess your sins to be free -> when the only evidence of a crime is a church confession, carisi must find another way to prove his suspect guilty. benson agrees to meet with an old friend seeking to make amends for past transgressions (imdb). also known as, The One Where Olivia Decides The Rapist is The Victim. too many issues to note. b-storyline about a priest doing weird rapist vigilante stuff and carisi having thoughts on catholicism. fuck u warren leight!

#s.vu #s.vu bracket #worst epi of all time someone tell Warren #(don't tho)

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elvisabutler · 2 years ago

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Hello! This is the anon from the bondage ask. All I will say is that my bisexual ass was NOT PREPARED FOR THAT😳 I'm honestly surprised there aren't more Elvis & Priscilla poly fics out there. This was really good! Might I be able to request more please? With reader all wrapped up for them? Thanx again lovely! -B💖

i did say the limit was three overall in general for the gala and gave you a special permission to be like but actually can i have a little more intense. but also my own bisexual ass was not prepared for it because trust me that was gonna go in a completely different direction. but thank you for the compliment! and as you requested one ( 1 ) reader all wrapped up for elvis and priscilla. again, mildly tame, but i keep thinking these are too long so i cut myself off. and also i have no idea other than poly fics can be tricky in my experience? much like the actual irl relationships. i don't know but i now love them now that i have decided yes, we're gonna go with this trio and run with it.

bondage kink pt. 2 - austin elvis ft olivia priscilla ( see also: now i'm caught in between )

tw: bondage, a bit of rope play so to speak. it's not as light as the last time. so be cautious. possessiveness maybe?

after that one moment on the bus you had not been counting on anything else happening. you had hoped at the very least to keep elvis as your- well your sugar daddy and maybe just be on good terms with priscilla. never ever in your wildest dreams did you think that two weeks later while in elvis' lap he'd ask you what will go down in the history of your life as the strangest question you've ever been asked.

"'cilla wants me to bring you home to graceland, you alright with that sugar?" his hands grip your hips, preventing you from grinding against his clothed cock in order to distract him from you not wanting to answer the question.

you pause and blink slowly. "did- i'm hallucinating. i know you did not just ask me to come to graceland and that priscilla wanted me there. that your wife wants your girlfriend there."

his answering chuckle tells you that you're wrong. you heard him perfectly well. he was telling the truth. "i know what i said, darlin'. my wife wants my girlfriend there." he pauses and his lips move to your earlobe, nipping at the skin below it and the lobe itself before he continues with a whisper. "her birthday is coming up and i owe her a present. asked her what she wanted, you wanna know what she said? she said fire eyes, i want your sugar, our sugar all wrapped up for me to unwrap with you. and you wanna know what i said?"

you can't help the way your breath hitches at being called their sugar before you nod, unsure of your ability to form the proper words in this moment.

"anything for my birdie. i'll give my birdie whatever she wants. i'll give her our sugar as a present. you'd like that wouldn't you? i hear your heart stuttering, mama. you wanna be our sugar? not just mine?"

"what's the ca-" he silences your question with a light kiss as his grip tightens once more.

"no catch, baby. 'cilla wants you and i want you and i want to make my satnin happy." he pauses and kisses you with a little more force this time as he lowers you and allows you to grind with him controlling the speed. "what's the answer, sugar?"

"yes, please." is all you can force out as you find yourself getting more than a little distracted by elvis kissing your neck and not letting go of your hips.

which leads us to the present moment of you being on what is the biggest bed you've ever been on or will ever be on in your entire life with priscilla goddamn presley standing over you. elvis had told her to wait downstairs when he took you up here. she had mildly pouted before he whispered something in her ear that relaxed her face and allowed her to become ever the great hostess.

elvis for his part had debated how he wanted to tie you up, priscilla wanted a present to unwrap but how did she want to unwrap it. he settled for something simple. your hands bound in the front with loose fitting ropes around your arms. an ascot he had ripped in haste one night held together your ankles. the restraints were loose, nothing like what you and priscilla had done to him that day on the bus but that was the point. you couldn't get out of the restraints but priscilla could untie you as slowly as she wanted.

"aren't you the cutest thing." you hear priscilla practically croon as she climbs onto the bed and toys with the restraints on your hands. "did elvis do this all for me?"

you nod, biting your lip as you look at hers. "he did. i'm your present that you asked for all wrapped up for you." a pause. "can i get some sugar, priscilla? please?"

she smiles and kisses you ever so softly. "when you ask that nicely how i am i supposed to deny you anything?"

"you're not." you laugh before trying to move closer to her. "i want to touch you. i want-"

elvis slides into the bed behind you and tuts as he kisses your neck. "satnin's birthday, sugar, not yours. gotta let her decide what she wants to do with you."

you shudder before nodding and letting your head move just a smidge so elvis can continue his onslaught that you see priscilla watching intently. her lips purse for a moment before she leans down and kisses the other side of your neck and down toward your chest.

"i say we leave the restraints on for a bit, don't you baby? wanna see what noises we can have our sugar make for us before we let her touch us. touch me." she moves so that she's leaning over you and kisses elvis with a quick peck that he turns into more when he grabs her chin and pulls her in just a bit.

you groan below them only to have the pair of them just look down at your face and grin. elvis speaks first, as his hand ghosts over your skin. "be a good girl, hm? and we'll untie you."

priscilla leans over you once more and gives you another kiss. "you're my favorite present, i want to take my time. please, baby?"

you let her, you let her because you get it. you get how elvis for all his faults might actually give her the world. and if that included you and having you at priscilla's mercy. well, that's what his birdie wanted.

besides, it's not like this exact scenario wasn't exactly what their sugar wanted too.

#ally's 500 follower gala #austin!elvis x olivia!priscilla x reader #austin butler #olivia dejonge #austin elvis x reader #olivia priscilla x reader #ally answers asks #honestly real talk anon you request it again someone is getting some sort of onscreen action probably.#guess this is just what i write now.#these three.#oop.#ally writes

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joshyybassett · 3 years ago

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Olivia Rodrigo x y/n

(Female reader)

Summary: Y/n just wants to have some alone time with her girlfriend but when they both work on HSMTMTS and Olivia has her busy life, there’s not a lot of time.

SMUT!!! FLUFF!!! HAND KINK!!!

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“Hey! How are you, Y/n? I feel like we haven’t done any scenes together in a long while.” Dara was right. In HSMTMTS Kourtney and Ellie (your character) don’t really interact that often, and if they do it’s normally a shorter scene. You really did wish they could have more scenes together, although it’s just not in your control.

As much as I really wanted to talk to Dara I also knew that Olivia was currently not busy for the first time in forever. It’s been a week since I have been able to really talk to my girlfriend about anything, so I needed to be there, with her, now.

“I’m good! I’m sorry I got to go, maybe I’ll throw a little cast get together this weekend and we can talk then! I’m so sorry!” I say in a rather rush while starring down the door.

“No no I get it, Olivia’s not filming right now. Go and get her! Of course I’ll come to a cast thing this weekend! I’m free and I’ll bring snacks!” She was smiling so I knew she couldn’t be too mad.

I said thanks and ran away. Olivia was okay with Josh but obviously they’re on awkward terms at the moment. Josh is my best friend but he dosent know about Olivia and I yet. As much as she tells me it’s okay if tell him and as much as I want to tell him, I know that he needs more time. He can’t handle it right now and I think that’s understandable. Maybe I’ll tell him this weekend if I do throw a thing. Actually, the biggest issue right now is maybe I’m not ready for it. Dara and Olivia are the only ones who know I’m bisexual. I’ve been to scared to tell anyone else which is ridiculous because most of this cast isint straight anyway but still. I’m taking my time. I’m terrified.

“Olivia! Liv!” She turns around as she was trying to open her trailer door and smiles.

“Y/n! Hi love!” I ran into her arms, practically knocking her over. I stand up, grab her arm, and we spin in circles.

“Ellie looks super hot today. What’s with the bikini though?” Liv asks me. Immediately my cheeks become warm. I have no idea how someone like Olivia can find me attractive, but I love her and am glad she does. Ellie had a swimming scene today which was interesting to film. Honestly a bit embarrassing.

“Y/n? You ok?”

“I love you.”

“I love you too, Y/n/n.”

“The bikini was just a for a dumb swimming scene with Ellie. I know I look terrible I just haven’t had time to change yet.” Olivias eyes went wide after I said that. I’m not sure why though, I was just telling her what had happened.

“Y/n, don’t be so rude to yourself. I was just going to say that you’re hot.” Olivia takes your hand and pulls you into her trailer. After she shuts and locks the door she looks you up and down. Olivia has never been someone to have a hand kink until she met you. HSMTMTS costume department loves to dress me in jewelry. I mean it does match Ellie’s vibe. One time Olivia saw me with a bunch of rings on and she adored it. She talked about all of them for an hour.

Olivia pulled you in for a hot kiss. You could taste the cherry chapstick on her lips from earlier. She bite at your lower lip so you opened for her tongue. She was obviously loving the moment but you were loving it even more. You always find Olivia crazy attractive, so this was only amazing.

She pulled away from the kiss and said,“Remember we can stop whenever you’d like.”

“I want to keep going.” The only I am positive about right now.

She took two of my fingers and placed them in her mouth. She sucked until she was out of breath. I could feel her tongue making out with my fingers. Instantly I felt a pounding down there. All while doing this, she was starring right into my eyes. I never thought I would be alive this year, let alone fucking my hot girlfriend.

You pulled her shirt off her body. She immediately returned the favor as I played with her bra. You run your fingers over her nipples. She let out a soft moan on my fingers. Their girl is going to be the death of me.

She then took my fingers out of her mouth and looked at me like a little puppy.

“You’re so pretty and hot Liv.”

“So are you.”

She slowly licked the bottom of my neck to the top of my neck. Then bite my chin. She then pushed me onto her couch and straddled me.

I was a virgin when we started dating. This is now our fourth time. I know what she likes and she knows what I like. The best part is that we both like almsot everything.

Olivia started grinding against my hips. She started moaning like crazy. She was still in her underwear so she stood up and I pulled them off her. She then got back on top of my stomach and started grinding again. You could feel her wetness dripping through to you.

“Choke me.” Your pretty little devil.

I never knew someone could love hands so much though. So I placed my hand around Livs throat and choked her a little. She let out a loud moan and I moaned back. Her wet pussy was still riding me. I flipped us so she was laying down.

I fingered her with all my strength while still applying pressure to her throat. She eventually reached her climax. Her moans made my soaked.

The thing I love most is her tits. I started sucking on them. She flipped me back over and licked my pussy until I reached my orgasm.

Once we both had calmed down, she went and grabbed a blanket. Her trailer was always cold and neither of us felt like putting our clothes back on yet. We snuggled with the blanket over us.

“Liv.”

“Yes?”

“I think I’m going to tell him.” She sat up at looked at me.

“Josh? Actually?”

“Yea.”

“I’m so proud of you baby.” She then pecked my lips. “He broke my heart but he’s still your best friend and it’s only healthy that you tell him.”

“I know.”

“I love you baby.”

“I love you too.”

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Today was the day that I tell Josh. I start walking towards his trailer when I come to a pause. This is terrifying. Am I ready? Is this the end of our friendship? Will he b- No. You got this Y/n.

I reach his trailer and knock on his door. I hear him unlock the knob and then I see his face.

“Hey Y/n/n! You haven’t been to my trailer in a while, what’s going on?” He looked genuinely concerned which only hurt more.

“Can we sit down? I have something I really need to get off of my chest.” He nods his head, closes the door, and sits down next to me on his small couch.

“What’s up?”

“Josh I’m dating someone.” I searched his eyes for a response.

“Why were you afraid to tell me that? That’s amazing!” He then looked more confused than before I said anything.

“Josh, I don’t know why I haven’t shared this with you but… I’m bisexual.” I immediately looked away from him, not wanting to see his disappointed look.

“Y/N! THATS AMAZING! You know I’m queer, why would I be sad or mad about that?” He looked worried, like someone might of said something bad about it.

“I do know that I guess you’re just going to be furious as to who I’m dating.”

“Y/n, I know you’re dating Olivia.”

“Wait what? How did you know that. I only told Dara and I didn’t think she was someone to tell secrets like that.”

“She’s not. Y/n/n you’re my best friend. Why else would you be in Livs trailer everyday? Why else would you make that slightly sad look every time the script mentions a Ricky and Nini scene? Know the real question is, why didn’t you tell me?”

“I thought you would be mad.”

“Why would you being happy make me mad?”

“Never leave me becuase of her. Promise?”

“Promise.”

#bisexual #joshua #joshua bassett #olivia rodrigo #smut #fluff #gf #bff #hsmtmts

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notexactlyrocketscience · 2 years ago

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Alright y'all, let's do this.

Review: The Summer I Turned Pretty (2022)

(no major spoilers!)

If you missed my long hate-rant about the book, here you are.

Jenny Han is a great contemporary author, I just feel like the book focused on the wrong (and often problematic) themes, and therefore didn't age well. Naturally, I was excited about the 2022 Amazon Prime adaptation for that reason—I binged it in one go, and I wasn’t disappointed!

What I disliked:

🥀 There's nothing particularly special or distinctly high-budget about the show (perhaps other than the marketing)—It definitely has that same old teen drama ambience with a generic original background music score, and sometimes doesn’t linger long enough on important scenes. The flashbacks are kinda eh because the characters just look like adults dressed like kids, so I'm glad they kept those to a minimum. (Some book fans were disappointed but tbh most of the flashbacks in the book were just depictions of Belly being bullied by the boys and then idolizing them for the bare minimum.)

🥀 Love triangles involving siblings are just icky, okay? I was hoping they'd tone it down a little in the show, maybe limit it to just a confession scene, some chaste and awkward dating, and then a heartbreaking rejection for the second lead, but ohhhhh no. ಠ_ಠ

🥀 Y'all ... it should be ILLEGAL for teen shows to depict PARENTS having sex or steamy makeouts. Look, I fully respect that all parents are individuals with their own lives, sexuality, et cetera outside of their roles as parents, but even for me as a grown adult it’s uncomfortable and traumatizing to watch, okay? WHY is it necessary??

🥀 It's looking like they're going to bring out further seasons, but man I hate the icky trash-drama plots of the sequels. I hope they heavily diverge from that, but really I wish they'd neatly wrapped up in one season while they were still ahead.

Okay, onto things I liked 💫:

🌻 THE CASTING?? The books made it seem like everyone was white, but the show is sooo inclusive! They made Laurel, Steven and Belly Korean-American just like Han, which I appreciated so much. ❣️ They're all amazing actors, perfect for each role and really brought the characters to life.

🌻 There's so much more content about the parents! (Aside from the unnecessary makeout/sex scenes) Laurel is an author (!! like Han!) and Susannah is an artist. The dads are around, too, and we get to learn so much about all the adults' dynamic!

🌻 BISEXUAL JEREMIAH! BISEXUAL JEREMIAH, THIS IS NOT A DRILL!! This was so perfect for his golden retriever-like character, like a missing puzzle piece. 💖💜💙 There's also a side-character sapphic couple, and a bi middle-aged man main character. The queer inclusion is perfect and never feels artificial.

🌻 THE MUSIC SELECTION?! Sooo high-budget and inclusive of POC and queer artists: Lots of Taylor Swift, plus Olivia Rodrigo, Billie Eilish, Baby Queen, HAIM, Japanese Breakfast, Phoebe Bridgers, BLACKPINK, Bon Iver, Matt Maltese, Doja Cat, Hayley Kyoko, Tame Impala, and so many others. Amazon Prime does such a phenomenal job of matching specific lyrics and vibes to a scene, but again sometimes the fade-in/-out is abrupt, probably because of screentime limits.

🌻 THE BOYS AREN’T ASSHOLES!! Applauds wildly Steven is sometimes bossy, insecure and mean, but he's quick to see sense and apologise. Jeremiah is only reasonably protective and rarely immature; for the most part he's so, so selfless and adoring. The show does a MILES better job in portraying Conrad NOT as a selfish asshole, but as a usually gentle and attentive person who is very bothered (for GOOD reasons) and not himself this summer. He doesn't have the headspace to indulge in serious romantic pursuits, but his emotions often get the better of him and he acts impulsively, letting people down. He eventually realises his wrongdoings and always makes proper amends. Cam is the gentleman he always is, and the other boys respect that—any jibes they initially make at him are significantly more light-hearted. Toxic masculinity is NOT romanticised like it is in the book.

🌻 Belly is the exact character I wanted in the books. She knows what she wants—personal growth and respect from others. AND she stands up for herself several times. She is not a pick-me girl and calls out bullshit. Most of all, she doesn't mistreat Cam.

🌻 Women in general are portrayed better. There are many complex teen girls in the series, all with their own individual backgrounds. Taylor and Belly have their fights but then they talk things out like real friends. It's really refreshing and more accurate to real life.

🌻 New scenes were added with all the important conversations and communication between the characters that never happened in the book. It made the series so much more comforting and wholesome, and didn't leave me with that uneasy feeling.

🌻 The new plotline additions were highly appreciated! They're nothing ultra-original, but they subtly enriched the narrative and removed the overly serious focus on the romance that the book had.

🌻 The theme (or at least, one of the major themes) was the correct one!—That all teen girls (and anyone!) deserve to feel both pretty and independant whenever they want to, regardless of what they look like, what they're wearing, where they are. This does not make them less worthy of respect, and is not an excuse to infantilise or dismiss them. A true coming-of-age.

🌻 The summery beach setting really is soothing and lovely. 🌅

🌻 This time, I totally shipped Belly with whoever the show was going for. The sparks were there, and it felt warm and bright. It just worked and made sense, every time. They definitely did that part right. ✨

That's all from me, folks! It's not a must-watch show by any means, but definitely more worth your time than the book, especially since Jenny Han was involved in the writing process. 🌸 Have fun!

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mrs-nate-humphrey · 2 years ago

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Do u have any hcs about Vanessa and her older sister? (Ruby?)

thank u sm for your ask! <3 sorry for the late response, i've been unwell & burnt out *sobs*

i think i've mentioned my headcanons here & there but never made one specific post to put them together, so i'll do that now :) more under the cut, ahaha.

i think we can already tell from canon - from how when vanessa & nate are getting together in s1 she takes him out or suggests taking him out (i don't remember which?) to a lesbian punk concert & then to a mexican food place right after. the vibe i got was that despite not being a lesbian, vanessa's always been very involved in local wlw events because of ruby, and would probably be totally on top of like. queer film festivals and whatnot, because ruby would've taken her there always.

they canonically lived together for a bit. i kind of imagine their dynamic to be similar to serena & eric, but maybe with a little more space, as vanessa strikes me as someone who would want to be independent and not have her big sister in the picture all the time. the abrams parents are canonically stated to have very idealised & firm expectations of vanessa (and probably of ruby too) as we can see during s1 when v & nate are comparing their overbearing parents (imagine being able to compare your parental pressure to that placed on nate by the archibalds, the abrams were definitely making vanessa feel the weight of their expectations & she likely couldn't have spoken to someone like dan about it, because the humphrey-abrams family dynamics are such that he's likely very close to her parents, just how dan can't complain about rufus to vanessa because the rufus v sees and the rufus dan sees are two different rufuses. rufii? lol sorry).

we also see during s3 & that whole nonsense with vanessa wanting that speech so bad to impress gabriella and her whole "i wish the humphreys were MY parents i wish they were PROUD of me!" as well as. the fact that vanessa even went to college? was because nate dragged her off to the sats, just so that she would have the choice if it came down to that. nate wasn't ever like "you gotta go to college", he was like "if you one day decide that you DO wanna go, you should have the ability to decide that for yourself & be in a position to make that decision" which i really like.

anyway, all that is just to say that the abrams parents seem very overbearing, and im sure ruby felt the weight of those expectations as well. which is why i think of v & ruby to have a dynamic closer to serena & eric's, a sort of "you are the only other person who knows what it's like to have our biological parents be this unreliable and intense so i will be there for you and you will be there for me and we will mutually support each other."

i think ruby would be the sort of person to ensure that whoever she's dating is good to her sister, or else she drops them, and i see ruby and whoever is her gf at the time (or hell, girlfriends plural,she could be polyam) being very cognisant of including vanessa in stuff. like. if they go for dinner out they bring back a dessert for her, the 2 of them ask her questions about what's up with her and how she's doing, stuff like that. id imagine ruby's gfs to be a lot like serena was to jenny in early s1, very big sisterly because 'my romantic partner's little sister is my little sister now.'

i also think vanessa is bisexual (if i remember right, @vanderwoodlings once said "vanessa is the closest thing to a canon bisexual that we got" and... they're right. canon vanlivia kiss and all those yearning glances at serena in s1/s2 and at olivia in s3.... anyway) - and i think unlike ruby, who always knew she was lesbian, it takes vanessa a while to truly acknowledge and accept her sexuality. the fact that she has ruby, though, and the fact that ruby has taken her along for so many lgbtq+ events, would mean that vanessa knows that she has that support net, and that would make navigating her sexuality easier. not necessarily easy, but easier. i wrote a fic about this... well, kind of about this, but it's directly connected & uses this headcanon. here it is, if you want to read it.

i feel like i have more headcanons that im not remembering rn, but hopefully this is solid enough to answer your Q?

oh, bonus headcanon. im sure that at some point, ruby's lesbian band makes one of those hour-long documentary/behind the scene videos. who better to direct it, shoot it, and put it together, than aspiring filmmaker vanessa abrams?? (i have a lot of thoughts about this headcanon specifically. i might fic it up.)

#leila i tagged u for ONE sentence im attributing to u but if u have any additions....#pls go ahead and add !#that applies to all mutuals btw feel free to slam your thoughts on the abrams siblings onto this post #bonniesdamons #meta #kind of?#prompt #vanessa abrams #ruby abrams #my writing #because i DID link that one fic #thank u for the ask btw!!!!

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