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hello mooties and sayangs, qeena's here <!
how do you spend your free time? i spend my free time watching movies and writing (mostly doing chores because actually, i don't have a free time) but yah, if i do, i love to watch movies or write or listen to music + cleaning my room!
what are you hobbies and how did you get into them? i don't have a specific hobbies as i simply just enjoy doing everything. everything fun are my hobbies! oh and singing!
what book or movie left a lasting impression on you? i don't read too many books but i've accidentally read one which just coincidentally happened to be the most traumatizing shit i've ever read my whole life. the title is 100% perfect match if im not mistaken by someone i dont remember his name (too lazy to search) this book is very traumatising as it contains lots and lots of gore themes, violence, malicious acts and etc. i'm, a curious human, just happened to come across someone reviewing this book on ig reels and stupidly decide to read it. as for a movie, idk, maybe mona lisa smile? i love julia roberts!
what kind of music do you enjoy? again... i don't have specific genres of music that i enjoy so i just love what i love. i love centimillimental which is a japanese rock band and recently i have started listening to plave which is a kpop band and i've always love donawhale, hanbee, poison girl friend, rocco and after thoughts which i'm sure all these bands/singers have different genres ijbol!
who is your favourite character (atm or all time) and why? ok here me out... weasley twins... girl bye— i've always love their character since i first watch harry potter which was in 2013 (i was seven). their characters are so amusing to watch but throughout the year, as i grew older, i happened to like george a bit more. don't ask me how. it just happened. i love his character and he's so funny.
as for my favourite character atm is spike spiegel AND drumrolls...! isagi yoichi, slursagi, isagoat! okay, first of all, i love spike because he values his own ways, even though sometimes (everytime) he'd get into trouble for it and that he's nonchalant, and contentious even though as a mc. i simply love the depth of his character! well, let's just say im in love with everything about a certain hot bounty hunter whom stuck on his troubled past... and my man, my majestic, egotistical, glorious, genius killer king, isagi yoichi purrrr. i love everything about him, his deep blue eyes, his hair, his nose, his lips, his ears, his feet, his teeth, his personality, his ego, his best friend, his coach, his rival, his kaiser, everything! he's my ride or die, the bonnie to my clyde periodt! nobody likes isagi as much as i do. nobody is a number 1 isagi glazer except for me!
that's all, thanks for the tag luvie! 🩷
(no pressure) tags: @reapkusho, @hanaeriin, @skullvgirl, @to6ge @choccorin and everyone who wants to join!
tag + q&a game ₊˚ෆ
hello! i thought it would be cute and exciting to do a tag game with all my mutuals to not only talk about themselves, but have fun! so here is my short little game:
alongside this picrew, share 5 things about yourself!
• how do you spend your free time? • what are your hobbies and how did you get into them? • what book or movie left a lasting impression on you? • what kind of music do you enjoy? • who is your favorite character (atm or all time) and why?
i will start first!
my name is rurumi and i enjoy spending my free time writing!
some of my hobbies (outside of writing) includes: drawing, building gundams and keyboards, and fashion! i got into most of them on a whim and became instantly hooked. aside from self-expression, being into fashion also helps with making friends in college because you always have something to talk about!
a book that left a lasting impression on me would have to be either kafka on the shore by haruki murakami or before the coffee gets cold by toshikazu kawaguchi. both stories have kept me up at night thinking a lot about the 'what ifs' in life.
i enjoy soul/r&b alongside anything of jrock influence, but i will basically listen to anything that sounds good. i am currently listening to 'so what' by lucy!
my favorite character at the moment is rin itoshi from blue lock because hes so ridiculously edgy, but at the same time i sympathize with him a lot. on the other hand, my favorite character of all time is suletta mecury from the witch from mercury series, she's an absolute ball of sunshine that i aspire to be.
tagging (+ no pressure) ₊˚ෆ
@kaiser1ns @naenaex0xx @shomatoriashi @choccorin @ryescapades
@rindreamery @soleillunne @kissxcore @rainswept @mitsvriii
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Cloud Surfer Au!
@flowerbarrel @a-comforting-creature I'm sorry for @ ing you but here's the thing
Sunrise Ellie! I know it’s just concept art, but...yeah
#Ellie rose#Thsc#the henry stickmin collection#Cloud surfers au#idk why this took me so long#for once I’m busy on my vacation#so yeah#ok I’m gonna be honest#if this flops im gonna cry#I might just be done#I know I shouldn’t base my values on likes and stuff#and I really dont#I just like interaction#and I’m just not getting it#ok these tags are shit there’s no pressure#looking at this I know it won’t do well#if you don’t like it that’s fine#happy holidays#:)
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a mob of emus for an artstyle game on twt! ^_^
#project sekai#emu otori#the usernames are all their public twts so if you use that evil platform check out their art ^_^#many of them are on here with the same users even.. be gone from my sight vile bird#the one on the bottom right is Mine but ive never had an artstyle in my life so it may not be obvious to the viewers. sorry.#pjsk#prsk#proseka#only my beautiful mutuals beautiful art can make me do LINEART#i was going to ask on here but realized i dont have mutuals bc this is a side blog. sniffle. hell on earth#I dont have much to scream in the tags. semester is almost over. Im sleepy. I designed emu a huge seord for an assignment#but the 3d model turned out Bad. it looks ok from the top but you turn it and see Problems.#its been a month or so since i modelled that and i have gotten better so i want to try again with no time crunch + pressure#its a fun looking sword. magical girl sword type shit#EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT THE LITTLE PRINCE WXS STUFF I END UP AWAKE UNTIL 3AM BECAUse it GETS TO ME#WAAAAAAAAAUHGH. I HAVE CLASS IN 11 HOURS#GOODNIGHT. IT WILL BE AS IF ALL THE STARS WERE LAUGHING.#oh my god wait i did this this weekend bc i was like yaay i have a weekend without any assignments due#I just forgot abt one. Bc my email hasnt been working properly and didnt send me the reminder for it. i will spend my tuesdah drawing a gun
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Sonia and Komaeda getting along well enough to room together is so good honestly. Even if its mostly bc she takes no shit, Komaeda was still like the only person to stand up for her when Teruteru was trying to get frisky about her naiveté in the prologue/ch1.
I kind of suspect she was acting more unknowing than she really was then, to suit her role as a princess, but he had no way of knowing that then. Plus, if she was aware then, it might be easier for her to recognize the side of him that isn't all hope n murder? Since outside of the killing game he's pretty polite (if self effacing) and generally not down for creepy behavior.
If you've got any more thoughts on these two's interactions postgame, I'd love to hear.
I dont think it's perfect by any means (nothing on the ship is!) but its proooobably the best quick-solution scenario?
#God I dont even wanna tag this as art ugh#An art#FOR ORGANIZATION#Its true Nagito wouldnt try shit with Sonia or be creepy (also he gay) its just the things that he says#And Sonia is firm on her boundaries there but also patient about the rest. She's the expert diplomat after all#They're both Perfectly Civil after only a little bit and even get friendlier#(and Nagito is probably somewhat glad at least one person outwarly calls him a friend) (more of that to come ofc everyone ends up friendly)#Sonia: you're my friend!#Nagito: I'm sorry you feel pressured to say that. As expected of a princ-#Sonia: PARDON BUT DID I STUTTER.#Nagito: are you sure about rooming with me? It's rotten work.#Sonia: yeah it really fucking is actually. I'll do it though.#Ok I'm done sorry the doodles are unusually shitty it's not cooperating today#'It' what? Yeah
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okay i don't know if the hyperfixation will hold long enough for me to actually write this but au where everything is the same but the waylon house is just a bit more structurally sound. max doesn't die and is like 'thanks for this guys, is that the whole party or?' and everyone just sort of looks at each other like. well we don't want to anger him so what can we say but yes. and so the nerds and max end up hanging out for a night in the waylon house and the worst thing that happens is grace chastity is tempted to have a beer for the first time (she doesn't though. but with max offering it's very hard for her to refuse. or focus lol) max keeps giving them weird backhanded compliments like 'wow you guys are way cooler than you look, how'd that happen' which is not the best but it's way better than being beat up for daring to be in his line of sight, so they'll take it.
so they all hang out for the night, max is like weirdly chill and friendly, eventually he leaves and they're left standing outside the waylon house like. ?? what the fuck??? did we just befriend max jagerman???? the nerds are still apprehensive considering pete still has a black eye, grace is still boiling with religious zeal and repressed lust, and steph still doesn't really like him, but they can't help but remember how he said that trying to prank him was the nicest thing someone's ever done for him. and that just can't be true, considering he's literally the star quarterback and the main character of hatchetfield high, but.... the fact that he felt like it enough says a lot, doesn't it?
so they decide to leave the prank footage to gather dust and figure this was probably the best outcome they could have hoped for. who knows what they'll walk into at school tomorrow? maybe max will become a friend.
#and he does :)#nerdy prudes must die#npmd spoilers#npmd#i just. the brainworms. they're in me#if anything it would just be a oneshot i'm not trying to rewrite the show or anything#but like yeah max joins the friend group :)#do you ever think about how genuinely touched he was that they basically made him his own haunted house?#that shit was exposure therapy and they didn't even know it#and like dear god 'this is the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me'??? lines to go crazy about forever!!!!#bc like he's popular he's a star everyone knows him but no one's nice to him? do we know anything about his family?#and like obviously he's an asshole so like yeah why would people be nice to him if he's such a dick#but like.... consider this: babygirl#he was really endearing in that minute between being pranked and dying ok?#he was like a totally different person the minute the social pressure was gone#ok ok enough tag rambling. if enough people want this i will actually write it#*speaks
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thanks moth @repurposedmeatlocker for tagging me cuz i always loved a good dress up game as a kid lol. i'll tag @mysticbeaver @owmylasagna-blog @gettingfrilly @greetingsfromuranus and @le0pard-pr1ncess @t-allyitup @say-no-to-magic and of course anyone else who wants to do it cuz im always curious to learn more about my eene pals.
im lee and this is a very flattering and cartoony depiction of my likeness. my interests include ed edd n eddy of course, and a handful of other animated shows. ive been teaching myself to draw so i guess that could count as an interest. music is of course a major interest of mine, specifically hip-hop, rnb, electronic and dancehall. im also into internet horror and generally anything weird/webcore, like florecitadreams and the uncanny valley. my other semi hyper-fixation is anything tim and eric make. oh and im into thrifting and fashion. personally, i like to dress like someone's older brother circa 2001, but i love all eras and styles. im fascinated by the countless extremely specific "aesthetics" that people come up with.
#ok i talk too much#ive had some shit going on so its super late but i still wanted to do it and tag some ppl#anyway no pressure to do it! but it was fun 😁#idk why some of the tags aren't working :(
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I have to ask you, as the certified language playlist expert of tumblr if you have any musical recommendations for me. I am slightly in love (huge understatement) with the sound of the Russian band Shortparis but nothing else I know hits the same. Is there anything out there that will heal my art punk soul?
--- all the best, Sasha
muuum i'm the certified language playlist expert of tumblr nowww
hhasjkdfdj hi Sasha!! first of all, I just listened to their top songs and they slap?? I can totally feel why nothing else would hit the same 😭 their music has a very specific vibe to it, but I've tried to find similar-ish sounds anyway:
in russian:
Петля Пристрастия, I don't know their discography very well but you might want to check it out; esp. their album Фобос
По пятам by Лиса
3x3 by Gruppa Skryptonite, 104, T-Fest
Yamakasi by Miyagi & Andy Panda
in other languages:
Ул by AIGEL (tatar)
Ophelia by George Taylor (english)
Neturėjom Dainos by Solo Ansamblis (lithuanian)
Everything In Its Right Place by Radiohead (english)
Ah, Anne by Augusta (chuvash)
BIBA by Farasat Anees, Slick Trick, Toshi (urdu)
Qustai by Qudyr (qazaq)
Süpürgesi Yoncadan by Altin Gül (turkish)
Rat In The Trap by GIRIBOY (korean, english)
Alala by CSS (portuguese)
Oh My God by Sevdaliza (english)
Усе песні спетыя by AKUTE (belarusian)
Cradles by Sub Urban (english)
Gender Eraser by Mad Foxes (english)
Truly hope this helps 🙏
#. many of these i wouldn't call art punk but you be the judge!! i hope there's at least one song/artist you like#. no pressure tho if these are all shit that's fine too haha it really is difficult#. i'll let you know if i find something that's closer but hoooo boy#. OK YEET#sasha tag#music#l#r.ask
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What color characters are you?
Orange character
Orange characters are charismatic and talented. They push themselves to be the best at everything they put their mind to, and get upset when they can’t meet their own standards. They tend to be prodigies, seeming almost superhuman in their genius or abilities, but they often base their self-worth off of how well they can perform, making them feel isolated from the others around them. While most people see orange characters as cocky and self-absorbed, they are actually quite insecure in themselves.
They want attention and validation from others, but because of their faux confidence and the constant (and often somewhat empty) praise from the people around them, the people that are truly closest to them often withhold it from them. This often leads them to push themselves beyond their limits to succeed and/or act out in unhealthy and self-destructive ways, in an effort to get some kind of recognition. These characters seek to impress, and have a hard time telling praise from love.
They have a constant need to be the hero, in whatever context that means for them. These characters usually have a sense of humor and wit that can tend to flatter themselves (although much of what they say is rooted in truth), but it’s contrasting to some of their more self-deprecating natures. They can be serious loners, since they isolate themselves from others in an attempt to protect themselves. Although they would never admit it, they crave acceptance and belonging. Others generally don’t see this, because orange characters are loathe to admit weakness and build up defenses by making it clear that they don’t care what others think, although they do.
In childhood, it is likely that their parental figures were either absent or abusive, often holding them up to high standards while not providing enough positive reinforcement. Other characters need to treat orange characters not as an annoyance, or give up on them quickly, but to make it clear that they are willing to love and support them regardless of how useful they can be, and to voice compliments where they are due.
Tagged by: @nezumivc103221 (thanks!!!)
Tagging: Whoever wants to do it
#DASH GAMES.#( ok honestly some of this is true but some of it also isn't )#( for example his parents were not abusive )#( his dad was absent alot though yes )#( and put alot of pressure on him to 'be stronger' )#( but also said alot of shit that kinda ??? fucked w/ his head ig ??? )#( like his dad is alot of the reason kamui went off the rails and became a villain )#( but the whole thing about self worth validation etc is definitely accurate imo )#( if kamui isn't strong he feels worthless :D )#( hence why he accepts death so easily if he ever loses a fight )#( i can go on and on but i don't think there's enough space in the tags anyway )
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imsoo normal about guys byw
#sprry this is the start of my downfall im actually going to theow up and vomit and die#fronting daily actually sucks!and i have no restraint on my curiiusity and i have to figure shit out and i literally want to die#cause like i found out shit i didnt want to and its entirely my fault too bro i cant even be upset cause i went looking for it ughhh#i should be allowed to die afterschool so i dont have to feel anything else tbh thatd be a pleasure great thing whwatever#this is genuinelky the repeat of my downfall again literally september all over again and its just march jesus fucking fhrist bro need todi#the nervous system is so dumb what is ooottfvgvsh or whagevr i hate that dumbass acronym i hate healrhcare#serenity save me 🙏 save me serenity 🙏 come home#everyone keeps sayng that but qith donald trump#anyway back to me i need to scream and not just to serenity cause i feel bad🤭 no emojis are tood enougu anymore bro im going to kms#killing myself so fucking hard like a vampire driving a stake through his heart sort of shit ykwim like a siren drowning ro sokething poeti#save me sid 🙏 sid save me actually hed laugh at me for hthis lowkey which is soo deserved cause real bro why am i breaking down at midnight#on a dchool day too bro again and again i dont want to go to mf schooll and be obsessed w k. hes fine but i genuinely cant do my work#lowkey would iet be weird to talk to my ex ab my relationship with him cause like yea i miss him ykwim and i need closure but i got a crush#cause like on one hand its like i was the one who brokenup ykwim like even if the circumstances werewei4d whatever its like why would i hav#the right to even bring it up and i alr crushed on a new guy and like ignoring the uguult i do like him ughh broni want to kms#i love love i just dont love lvoe for myself cause ugh bro i hare one guy idc ab his crushes but he made me hear ab them lke idc idek him#sorry u had a bad experience w bi girls like idk what u want me to say ??? surprise me too ??? tff ugh i hate love girls#i need a gf but the thoigjt of liking a girl genuinely deeply scares me to my core cause i like girls but ppl dont like that i do ykwim#all mu friends are fucking gay bro idek why im so worried ab liking girls like who is there to disappoint but myself and my entire family#noo pressure qt all being oldest and queerest like ok yeah its midnight happy new years. i need this blanket tobsuffocste me#sleep wrappedup alr like a borito burito i dek and its not enoughh i need a soul crushing embrafe to sleep#ok im done i got post vent clarity i need to sleep#post#erics tag#delete later#serenity needs this as a ref in the morning#i beed my mom to cry to but j cant tell her any of this id rather be eaten alive by bugsbro and if i just cry to her without a reason#shell fs go througj my phone and fimd out why anyway so wjats the pointtt my god i tqlk too much and vent too much#gota flair forbthe dramatics ivguess mb
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how do people vent bro that shit's embarrassing as hell
#i posted a thing and deleted it in a nanosec :/#if you see this its a sign to never get peer pressured into showing your sketchbook to people youll regret it like nothing else#why tf did i show them my shit and now we dont even talk or whateverrrr#im not even mourning the friendship yet and im just flashbacking to that moment like wtf i shouldnt have brought it in the 1st place#never get peer pressured into doing anything man only do shit youre enthusiastically willing to do .#so fucking stupid#sorry heads been such a blur recently i got so insanely suicidal the other day at the library i genuinely thought that was it 4 me that day#also idk got manic yesterday? 2 days ago?? idk what it is but it felt like the best description#life sucks when youre not pete wentz 💔 i wouldnt be more mentally stable but id at least be hot 💔💔💔#ok last tag i promise my heads always fucked up and it keeps replaying songs/phrases like a damn cylindrical nightmare it gets so loud im +#+ on the verge of tears from how overwhelming it is rn its 'out of sight out of (my) mind' like that shirt pete wore in 07 and also#thats 2 tags lol (now 3‼️‼️)
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a doc of omega yamo being a nuisance, you say?
well…
#the doc sure does exist 🤷#me waiting to post this until i had compiled all the tags into the doc so it wasn’t just the empty doc i started with good intentions#that just said ‘yowling’#and then me not even doing that 😭 what’s in the doc right now? absolutely unhinged shit from ANOTHER yamo post. why#liv in the replies#anon i love you so much. this is the correct method to get me to do things (be interested) (bully me a little) (i have to write FOR someone)#maybe if i actually write something for omega yamo being a nuisance i will post snippets#and not have to create elaborate rules about posting them. also i keep telling myself it helps to be like. home & functioning to write#& maybe if i chilled the fuck out a little bit i would have the time to do fun things i like but i feel like i have been saying#‘ok once i get through this [semester/summer/working/class/season]’ for like. three years now but also i don’t feel like i have stopped ever#in my life so that may also be part of the issue. anyway! in the mindset now that i have to make time for things that bring me joy/creative#because otherwise there will never be time#but also telling myself that like. i work seven days a week 8.5-9 hours a day plus commute/classwork so it’s ok to only be able to come home#& do Adult Tasks & write my coursework requirements & ALSO i’m doing my fucking applications which i really really need to do & should take#priority & i am going to need to work very hard to do because. i don’t want to do them :)#so!!!! this is your daily tag dump on a post which it is not relevant to (on brand for me)#but also the point was to say thank you i love you please have 0 expectations because i don’t want to disappoint you#but i love your encouragement and am not taking it to be any pressure!! i just have to preface bc i am like this
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for realsies
#HELLO IM VENTING AGAIN IM SO SORRY#i am sick of everything the usual but i just need some fucking therapy and my diagnosises are taking too long because the system is shit#over here and i feel like i am a literal walking disaster a hazard to myself are my meds even working anymore idk? someone needs to lock me#in a fucking wardrobe before i loose my shit and do something stupid as fuck at least im self aware ok were growing this is called growth#wow ok amazing spectacular#like tonight ive decided i hate everyone again i want to quit uni actually might do it this time i just applied for a random job for no#reason i have a job but if i have 2 then i can over work myself to the max so i dont have to go into uni#i have three weeks off so now im cutting everyone off who knows how long this episode is gonna last for#i am loosing my god damn mind i do not want to do anything everything is so hard why is everyone so pressuring#i stopped doing some of my stupid habbits but now im just going full circle again so im thriving rn live love laugh am i right guys or what#AND WHY CANT I JUST HAVE A THERPAIST WHO CONTACTS ME ITS BEEN SINCE OCTOBER U FUCKING BITCH GO FUCK URSELF#anyway im in huge amounts of pain too idk what i do in my sleep or something but my shoulders hurt so bad#i hate wet tags on clothes when they stick to you throws up actually#i had stale fucking garlic bread today and i want to move out but if i move out then things will get worse for me#why cant i maintain a normal friendship without loosing my mind and hating everyone i mean no one knows my friends are pretty good with me#they understand but i dont know#ive come to the conclusion that i am just a shit
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Anyways I love futago siblings bc of the inherent drama to it & the complexity of feelings involved in it. And also I want futaba to suplex akechi in a sibling kind of way. It's not that complicated
#speculation nation#akeshu nation literally pardons him for trying to kill akira Twice#and youre caught up in futaba potentially forgiving him for killing her mom when he was 15#& context clues tell us that he was likely pressured into killing by shido?#it's not like hes doing this shit for fun. like ok he enjoyed killing okumura bc okumura's a piece of shit capitalist#but besides that. when we get to know him we learn that he wanted to be a hero when he was a kid#& that coupled with the way he acts in 3rd semester really paints a picture#he doesnt start killing again bc he doesnt need to. & Notably he stops trying to kill akira bc shido isnt pushing for that anymore#plus i dont think futaba has to forgive him for them to be friends. it will always be something present in their minds#but in the same sort of way of akira liking akechi enough that hes willing to give him the chance to atone for Shooting Him In The Head#i believe futaba could give him the chance to atone. or at least try to be a better person.#and i just think futaba would enjoy the excuse to limitlessly bully him.#the 'you killed my mom so u cant be mean to me' card. which she would pull a lot im sure#it wouldnt always work. especially if she overused it lol. but still.#and yea idk. i can get being uncomfortable with ppl trying to wave away the fact that he killed her mom#but when it's done right. i think it's quite a compelling relationship.#her seeing herself in him. recognizing the ways they are so painfully alike. & that pain being what pushed him to the lengths he went#her sympathizing with him doesnt mean Forgiveness. it's just a potential basis for connection.#god i just keep going on about this but that person made me literally so angry#dont post ur bad takes in main tag 2k22. i dont wanna fucking read them.
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"Maybe you believe deep down that no one will ever be able or even willing to meet your needs.. :-(" yeah haha maybe. Maybe NOT so deep down lol
#like yaaaaaa being used and abused and mistreated and taken advtange of all yr life can do that#like genuinely can i just have a deep calm love 😂#where i dont feel like im walking on eggshells or need to play a role or make myself uncomfortable to make it work 😂#where im never pressured to do things that will harm me or be blamed for my own mistreatment 😂#can i just have that 😂#it feels so impossible. like yes subconciously ive played a part in it obviously#i have things im attracted to that arent good for me#but genuinely i didnt realize up until now#im nuturing yes and love to spoil but i dont think i actually LIKE being 'mommy'#it just feels familiar. it feels like that's what is wanted and expected and so i play into it#idk my heart breaks for all the shit i did in the beginning of the relationship that i didnt really want to do#i genuinely 100% THOUGHT I WANTED TO. I THOUGHT i liked it but looking back i was just#doing what felt familiar and doing what i felt i had to to not get abandoned#and it just hurts my heart#how much i betrayed and hurt myself just so someone wouldnt leave me#and now i see that if i had just been myself and he left it would have been an alignment#a moment of 'oh we're not right. oh well'#i mean it wouldnt have gone down that way and i didnt know the knowledge i do now#but just. idk.#my heart just hurts for myself tonight. how badly i want to be loved and belong but how impossible i make it to FEEL love#how i assume other people dont like me so i hang back and save them from having to experience me#yuck! you dont wanna be around me! im annoying! im cringe! i dont want you to have to pretend to like me when you dont it's ok#and it ends up pushing ppl away. i have to be myself to attract the people i belong w#which is so scary#if im myself if im just open and authentic then it's also up for anyone to reject me and judge me#but it lets people see me who WANT to know ppl like me#but even that feels so surreal to me#i force myself to believe my friends want me around because it's so mean to assume they dont#but i just cannot believe it#anyway idk i reached tag limit. im just sad and wish i had more community
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#ughhhh i started writing a quick bro / dave for todays date but im def not gonna finish in 45 minutes nooooo#its my ki.nk and i wanted to savour what i was writing by dragging it out hffffffff#wish i thought to start it before last night ughhhhh#but ughhhhhhhh dudeeeee its hapeninggggggggggg#god im so fucking thorsty for it#no one writes it the way i want it#and now ive gone and made it silly by trying to do it for today#but i cant just take those parts out bc they're so... baked... into the plotline#hfffffffff why didnt i just make this its own thing ughhhhhh (bc dave would never wanna do that sober thats why)#hffffffffffff screams#writing sm. ut is so time consuming for me#(tbh writing is on its own lol)#but to write. my fave thing. for the first time. its a lot of pressure for a fic that was supposed to be a quick joke#bro ended up being fucking smitten as hell too bc thats how i feel abt this ki. nk lmao#i dont think im even gonna get hi tonight lmao its okay a holiday doesnt mean shit when its something i do on the reg#im so tired hhhhh im just wasting more time typing out more tags bc im too tired to write fic words lol ugh#delete later / /#maybe i will so i can just go the fuck to sleep rn and write more when im more awake. date be damned. im not finishing in 30 mins lol#and even if i did finish in 30 mins i sure as hell aint proofreading and posting within 30 mins#ok yeah gonna get ready for bed and set the writing down for when im not gonna write something rushed ill regret and have to undo later
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My relationship to food is so crazy fr and by that I mean just this side of unhealthy
#trigger warning for food discussion stuff ig things got personal in the tags#i like eating and i have no problems with how my body looks!! i'm hot and i know it#but like there is a Pattern of weird food related shit in my life#like when i was hella depressed i wasn't eating enough obvi and i think my stomach like shrank or smth#and then there was the time in the sixth grade where i tried to give myself an ed which is its own can of worms#i think i felt pressured to have one because it was a common experience or smth?? I dont even know#i was soooo not ok in middle school. this will shock no one#and then like sometimes i'll just not eat even though im starving and have food nearby#which is probs part of the adhd/autism package#but like WHY#WHY do i do that??#im worried abt health issues in college because of food and not having my parents around to be like 'eat'#but also i'll be able to control everything that i eat and no one will tell me not to eat something#so maybe it wont be that bad!!#i should talk to my therapist abt all of this wtf.#persannal#dont rb or else
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