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I just looked it up cause I had no idea genuinely what twink meant I always use it to refer to males who are little like skinny waists and lil skinny chimkin legs, I call them twinks or twinkies I didnāt know it was a gay man thing. Wonder if I should stop using it
#random#idk really the meanings of words ???#like I mean I do but Iām context i apparently never use them properly and people have yelled at me for the way I talk and the words i use#like idk I pick up on words and sometimes I just use them and it becomes part of my vocab and depending on who Iām around they way they talk#bleeds into the way I talk and thatās just how it is idk#and often times and I know when I was younger and my tourettes was active Iād pick up on a word and that word Iād just repeat over and over#for weeks at a time#and I sometimes still do that sometimes itās phrases that I just repeat cause Iām hooked on saying it#it doesnāt matter what the word is#so idk if thatās also part of it but my word choice is quite literally everywhere#like my brother sometimes uses words from way back when and I like the way it sounds so I start using it#you just pick up on stuff and talk similar to the people you hang around#of any outside influence#like Iāve watched so much jiafei and cupcaake remixes right#and I just say āgulp gulp salamiā and other things daily#like my mum and brother call me a walking soundboard#like my aunt just told me that my grandma started saying slay constantly and my cousin had to stop her#I wish I couldnāt seen that :(#anywsy enough about me sksksks#*anyway#im a clown and youāre watching the circus#š¤”šŖ#the final season of 3 brain cell hour
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I made this AAAAGES ago and forgot to post it and now I'm annoyed by how it's rotting away on my phone so here. Bratty teen Thancred being a menace to Fourchenault (and a bad influence on Urianger lol)
#we never see fourchenault & thancred interact in any meaningful way (outside of Group Interaction) and i like to imaginr#its bc fourchenault Did Not Like thancred when they were kids and has resolved to just ignore him now#and thancred-the little bastard that he is-wouldve 100% messed with him on purpose if he had the chance#bc i just KNOW he pulled stunts like this to annoy fourchenault all the time#fourchenault tells him to eat more orderly and thancred gets more messy on purpose yk. he is wired to be petty against stuffy rich kids#also urianger isnt actually being influenced much he has always been down to break the rules if he wants to#hes taught by louisiox thats like a requirement. him & his group of unconventional little smartypants#only reason he went to thancred specifically for help here is bc 1) he knows thancred knows how to easily get onto the roof and#2) hes like idk 13 here so hes still a tiny baby size. hes too short to reach up lol#anyway thats enough silly kid rambling time to tag#fourchenault leveilleur#thancred waters#urianger augurelt#final fantasy#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#ffxiv#art#my art#xanders art#digital art#fan art
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The thing about Jayce and Mel is that like. She does not view him as an investment. That is just certifiably false. You have to skip over all her scenes to believe that.
In the beginning she does! She absolutely does! She conceives of their relationship as a business one - where she makes profit off his inventions, and he profits from her business and political acumen, both monetarily and powerwise. And overall, she believes she's fulfilled her half of the bargain.
It's only when he comes back to her after Viktor gets sick that she realizes he believes this is something deeper. And it's notable that she responds to that emotion - she opens up about herself too, comforts him, and expresses real emotionality about it. It's then that we see his ideals start to influence her - especially reawakening in her a desire for nonviolence.
Wanting to do things peacefully is something that's been with her since she was a child. It is what guides her away from Noxus, because her pacifism just does not fit there. It's why she loved Piltover so - they aren't a violent expansionist empire, which is a really low bar, but that's what she's grown up in.
She never finds the violence in Zaun, because she never goes looking for it. This is her fault, and her flaw, let me make that clear. She has some of the most power in the city, and should know about what kind of violence is holding up, and work to resolve it, truly. But she doesn't, because she's focused on her own exploits, and has so insulated herself away from the class struggle that it does not register for her until it grows to violence.
And then, once that violence comes, she maintains that pacifism with an iron grip, more than Jayce himself. It is Jayce who constructs (almost) all the HexTech weapons that are used in the Undercity, in Caitlyn's police squadron. He betrays the oaths that he's made to his partner, where Mel keeps the promise she's made to her's. She is the only politician left to try to tamp down on the worst of Ambessa's instincts, and her removal from Piltover is what marks it's descent into militarism.
She is ultimately a complicated woman, with a bunch of interesting relationships to Piltover and Zaun. I think you can divide Piltover as a city neatly between her, Jayce, and Caitlyn - each of them standing for some of Piltover's best instincts, and some of its worst.
#telespeak#mel medarda#jayce talis#It's why I find Mel discourse so tiring. Like.#This is a show full of complicated characters.#If we are willing to look beyond Victor emptying people and Caitlyn becoming a puppet dictator and Jayce literally killing a child#and see them as full and complicated people who are trying their best with worldviews that are influenced by their circumstances#why is she where we stop. I mean I know why. but still.#I don't even like MelJay. But like. It's there for a reason.#sidebar I find the notion that Jayce of all people should hold her accountable for Zaun just. exhausting.#Jayce is a piltoverian through and through. He loves someone from Zaun yes but that relationship is soaked with casual classism#There is a lot to be said about Mel ignoring Zaun! But he does too#it's something she reflects in him#The biggest critique of her arc I have is that someone in Zaun shoud've taken her to task#(My vote is on Vi just because she should get to confront the head of the faceless machine that's produced every tragedy in her life)#(But any Zaunite would do honestly. Just not heckin. Jayce.)#I do want to make a post about how Jayce Mel and Cait kinda cover all of Piltover's values#Cait as their enforcer arm Jayce as their scientist and Mel as their businesswoman/politician#but that's for another post. really this is two posts squeezed into one#I am just exhausting seeing people who do not care about Mel in her tag. Like. She exists outside of JayVik. the show is not subtle with th#arcane
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arc goes on a silly little trip to a dying kingdom on a finding nemo style search for its kid
#i think arc would be severely diminished in hallownest being outside its realm of influence+it is still rather young at this point#so its blending in with the locals to make navigating easier#this crossover involves baby gira slipping thru the cracks and somehow ending up in another universe. arc follows to find it#does seeing the decay+failure of the deities in this world leave a lasting impact on arc as an inexperienced young deity itself? well. :)#iffy on this design i did it quick but its hitting a lot of points i wanted generally. i dont wanna make it too fancy. simplicity is a poin#arc can manifest some extra arms (made of solid white light)+wield two more swords#brings resemblance to its wheel#has some elements that resemble the radiance. this is purposeful. not bc of malignance on arcs part they are both sun based deities#im justt fuckin around. smile#pokemon#arceus#sketch#also uuuh if youre seeing this wo any context for my arc n baby gira stuff check this tag:#poke mythos#or even#baby gira
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Been thinking about the idea that playing a game extends outside of the game itself recently.
When I get on forums dedicated to the game, explain its mechanics to others using videos or pictures, engage with discussion and community around the game, devising strategies or learning more in depth means by reading wikis and such, could it still be said that I am activelyā playingā the game?
To go off of the wonderful folding ideas video about WoW, I am at the very minimum certainly generating patatext for it that affects myself and the play of the game, either through myself or others.
Itās just kinda interesting to think about. There are a lot of games I feel like I have spent hours in, hundreds or even thousands, only to find I had spent maybe only a hundred in total but consumed or created this paratext for.
A good example of this for me is Dark Souls. I know that game like the back of my hand and have played it to completion at least 8 times. Yet, I only have just at 100 hours in it. But it feels like I have more, as Iāve easily watched quadruple that amount of hours in Dark Souls content on YouTube, as well as even more in discussions about the game and the genre. So do I only have my stated 100 hours in dark souls, or do I have much, much more through this āplayā without physical play
#I donāt really have anywhere Iām going with this#itās just something Iāve been thinking about#the way that this could influence oneās feelings about a game#does the time I spent watching dark souls content matter as much as actual play?#does it validate or confer any level of skill? outside of mechanical#but even the rote memorization of layouts of maps and mechanics of bosses or areas and enemies could be considered skill#itās just interesting
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been thinking about steven universe a lot again lately, so i'm gonna be cringe and. fuse. my special interests
i made a steven universe esque fusion of off the hook -- meet caesarea!!!!
#might make an entire au out of this idea tbh#also yes i am aware that the concept of fusion was not invented by nor is unique to steven universe#but that show's take on fusion is what this is 100% influenced by#plus i'm not all too familiar with any other media's take on fusion outside of like. celeste. maybe dragonball z too#anyway back to your regularly scheduled tagging#deanthe#steven universe#fusion#splatoon#splatoon 2#splatoon 3#off the hook#off the hook splatoon#splatoon pearl#marina splatoon#pearlina
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I just realized my character "designs" are the opposite of most of the folks on here š
Fandom: "Odysseus is short af with black hair."
Me: Odysseus is around 5'10-5'11 with curly af red-brown hair and looks androgynous af. Doesn't get a beard til the end of the war and the beginning of the Odyssey.
Fandom: "Penelope is tall and willowy"
Me: Penelope is short af as she was born in a creek. 3/4th Naiadborn with sharp teeth, pointed ears, silver eyes, and muscle girl.
My Helen is chubby and will throw you.
#I swear I'm not doing it on purpose. I'm just doing what feels right TO ME when I read the Odyssey and Iliad.#as I tried to think of them without any outside influences (aka. what other people have drawn and going purely by feel when reading)#I just kind of find it funny. I really am an odd one out lol xD#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#...kind of been thinking of having Penelope's eyes shine in the dark like an animals. as that's fun to me#There's not really a consistent Helen but my girl is chubby.š¤#odyssey#penelope#odysseus#Water Wife#penelope of ithaca
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God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.
#like maybe its just that ive been too influenced my senju propaganda but i just think the uchiha as a clan kinda fucking suck#at least by the time we get to sasuke's dad leading things. they seemed fine when madara joined with the village#so its just that the resentment at feeling pushed out has risin by then. and maybe im not remembering things right but like Tobirama#made them the cops right? and they got pissed that they weren't given any political power but like u get so much fucking power as the polic#? and also it just seems like the worst fucking idea to put that all on one clan. like THE WORST job u could give to 1 clan of fucked up#eyeball freaks. and i can never tell if they r legitimately being prejudiced against but like they kida have good reason not to trust them#bc they were legit gonna overthrow the government. so like where did it start? i just kinda feel like they think theyre entitled to power#but r also intentionally standoffish to outsiders. but again maybe im just biased bc i dont like Sasukes dad and the nameless uchiha so muc#ugh. its too messy and its all built on the back of what may or may not have been a slight against them. and the rift just kept getting#wider. i mean knowing Tobirama it was probably a slight... but idk im not power hungry enough to understand y they got so mad abt it#konoha. the village in which everyone sucks and the children suffer.#naruto ramblings#naruto
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in the world of spyre, how much do we know about high court? like it's a predominantly (if not completely) human nation. it seems like worship of sol/helio is important. is it like,,, a theocratic ethnostate oorrrr???
and it would be completely high fantasy bs, right? i mean, solace is the only nation with arcano-tech, right?
#bobby dawn is from solace . he's a televangelist from solace#so in theory buddy dawn is also FROM solace#he's just spent the past whoever knows how long in highcourt going to boarding school#i'm sorry this is a part of my durdawn brain rot#trying to figure out buddy and max's vibes in general#and if buddy has spent the past three or four years (all of his previous hs experience) outside of solace in highcourt#idk that feels like it should have a big influence on him as a person#buddy dawn#fantasy high#fhjy spoilers#i don't think there are any in here but just in case lol#if i can't find more nailed down real canon information i'm gonna just. steal BLeeM's shit and start world building in it
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actually it's kind of funny how people will say Alex's fatal flaw is that he 'doesn't ask for help' and that it's his determination to handle things on his own that leads to his deterioration and eventual death when his whole introduction to the present-day timeline was a very literal cry for help that simply went ignored
#N posts stuff#like even if you think alex was lying throughout the entirety of season 2 and he was waiting from the Moment jay showed up#JUST to kill him (Which again i don't think makes much sense when he could have killed Tim & Jay immediately instead of#breaking Tim's leg. anyway) EVEN IF alex spent that whole time lying it doesn't actually change the fact that he would have at least#been Pretending to Ask For Help and if he wasn't lying then he was Literally Asking For Help and it doesn't Actually matter#what intention Alex had because the text is Ambiguous about Alex's honesty during season two; what isn't ambiguous is the way#other characters (specifically Jay) respond to him; like yeah - S2 Brian/Tim were never in one million years going to help Alex with shit#so sort of any argument that brings up Tim as someone who asks for/offers help is borderline meaningless in this era of the series#Jay had the 'opportunity' to help Alex (and i'll get back to that in a sec) but DIDN'T - Jay wasn't Interested in actually offering Alex#'help' bc Jay is ultimately curious about Answers and 'Offering Help' and 'Getting Answers' are two Wildly conflicting goals#Jay thinks Alex has answers and when Alex doesn't Offer these 'Answers' to Jay on a silver platter Jay gets pissed off and paranoid#and starts Stalking Alex bc he thinks it's 'Suspicious' that Alex won't give him the Answers (that Alex probably doesn't Actually have)#ANYWAY. ultimately this post is about how it's absurd when people argue#that individual character choices could have made a difference in the way this series played out - specifically wrt Alex#because EVERYONE in this WHOLE series are being affected by influences outside of their control ; including Brian Tim and Jay#so it's silly when people are like 'if ALEX had just made a different choice For Himself this could have all been avoided' WRONG.#bc Ultimately there's not really a way to 'help' someone else out of this situation - Tim tried and failed Repeatedly#the comics proved he even failed with Jessica - like MH isn't a horror situation where you can kill the big bad#'getting help' is a meaningless argument - what would successfully helping or getting help even look like? anyway.#the sub argument of this post is that Alex's biggest 'sin' is that he doesn't perform emotions the way other people want him to#like Alex is a character with a kind of flat affect - instead of LOOKING scared or grieved he LOOKS bored or angry#and everyone judges him based on that - so Alex is 'Suspicious' he's 'Lying' he's 'Guilty' but all of these deductions are predicated#on the belief that Alex isn't reacting to his circumstances the way a 'Normal' person would - so it MUST all be an act and so he's guilty#so everyone treats him like he's guilty until the end of season two when he's like 'Fuck it FINE i'll be guilty then' and so it goes#not a self-fulfilled prophecy but being Cornered Into a prophecy and then Blamed for it - SAD. anyway
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Hey! Just dropping in to say i love your yuu! She kinda inspired me to revive my own tiana yuu.
Also, I was curious, does your yuu have her own Charlotte? Or is she in twst alone?
Thank yooou šš AND NOW A PERFECT OPPORTUNITY HFGFGD. SHORT ANSWER: Yes, there is a Lottie equivalent, and her name is Lisette! She is Tiaās oldest childhood friend. BUT, sheās back in Tiaās homeworld, so Tia no longer has contact with her or any of her other friendsā which, is not great. Part of Tias whole āpre-life in twstā ordeal involved her incidentally distancing herself from her friends and not ever spending time with them anymore after a very personal event that led her to engross herself completely in her work, so she has a lot of regrets now. Especially, since there is no guarantee sheād ever get to see them again. (All of this is paraphrased hhhhhh, but yeah Tia herself is alone in twst.)
SPEAKING OF WHICH HERE THEY ARE because long ago I made reference material for myself (so its not exactly fully rendered)
i love them a lot, even if they are just people who are from her homeworld.
#cozy ask#twstposting#my art#they went through a lot of re-working#but i also wanted more friends ad an excuse to broaden the cast a little more in my brain#THOUGH CONSIDERING ALL FOUR OF THESE GIRLS dont make any appearances outside of maybe tiaās memories i-#Im kinda paraphrasing a lot lol.#twst oc#tia dumarais#(tangentally related)#octavia is my personal favorite design wise š¤§#but even though her friends arent with her- they still somehow manage to influence Tiaās thought process.
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A few little sketches of some possible school uniforms for mage schools/learning centers for magic/etc. :0c Though because Nanyevimi is so scattered and disconnected, it'd actually vary much more by region (like not everywhere would have a cultural concept of what a suit jacket or neck tie looks like lol), so it's probably unrealistic for so many of them to follow too many traditional Uniform Conventions from cultures in our world, etc. But, still, fun to mess around with designs, and think about which would be most fun to wear/what school you'd go to just based off the clothing lol~
#I haven't felt well enough to do anything actually productive lately GRRRR.. evil health issues....#but I can sometimes at least draw while I lay on the floor with a heating pad and etc. lol.. so...#goofy little sketches. Still dislike that the ipad thing someone gave me is either like.. maybe the settings are just off OR possibly the#screen is slightly broken in some regard - so the pressure sensitivity does not work at all. thus all lines are blunt looking#instead of having tapered edges. which I KNOW can be a stylistic thing. like I think it's fine mostly#but sometimes shading looks weird for all of the lines to be the exact same size/width with like no variation lol#though since it's just little sketches it doesnt matter lol but still... hrmm... ever working out my strategy for how to use the ipad for a#art things/if I can ever get used to it/etc.#AAANYWAY... still so uniform obsessed.. and have been since I was a child. Like way before going to middle school and meeting#the people who like anime and get into school uniforms of that variety. I mean like... age 7 before even having any friends#and having zero popular media interests or outside influences that would make uniforms Trendy. but I would see like a 'private school#uniform' on a new story on tv or something or in a book and was just like OUGH... I Should Dress That Way#I used to go to thrift stores and find multiple seperate pieces that could be combined together to look like a school uniform#I had like 4 or 5 different 'uniforms' that I made myself in that way. My first outfit that I was ever allowed#to pick out for myself as my big First Day Of Middle School outfit was literally like school uniform inspired#(maybe mixed with a little goth.. like it was a school uniform sort of look but black and white with fishnet armwarmers lol.. plaid +#stripes pattern mixing my beloved... )#I think it's just the same way that I love apartment buildings because I'm infinitely fascinated with like.. observing human nature and peo#le displaying their psersonalities in little ways and how you can give 10 people the same exact identical space but each one will decorate#it completely differently just depending on their own tastes and reasonnig and etc. I love the idea of everyone in some setting#having to be in one specific set outfit BUT you can tell something about them by the little ways they customize it or what type#of accessories they wear or if they choose to button their shirt fully or not or etc. etc. I like the constraints of 'okay everyone has to#be in exactly the same uniform - NOW. give them their own unique style somehow despite this' etc. etc. like#yaaaayyyy.. I love thinking of little obscure details that convey personality. they have a little pin hidden on the inside of their#hat. their shoes are just like everyone else's but more worn out. they have a necklace barely visible beneath their collar. their tie is#always a little more askew that everyone elses. or even. the uniform is EXACTLY on model entirely clean crisp pristine not a single element#customized or out of place - which STILL tells you something about them. etc. etc.#ANYWAY.. yeahg.. struggling to get anything done these last few weeks so.. blam. poof. alakazaam. scratchy little sketches#of nothing very productive or relating to any other project in particular be upon ye
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okay btw uh. is it normal to do the thing i'm gonna describe or could it be perhaps a bit of a symptom of something. so:
i regularly encounter an elevator that needs you to keep the button to your desired floor pressed the whole time the elevator moves. i noticed that when my dad presses the button, he scrunches up his face and screws his eyes shut like he's in pain, for like five seconds at least. i've noticed it's something i do too, when i have to wait like for my computer to boot up or for someone whose door i've knocked on to answer. i squeeze my eyes, clench my jaw or grind my teeth, drop my head so that it pulls on neck/shoulder muscles, usually i'm also clenching my fists or gripping whatever i have in my hands. is it like. a thing that people do.
#i'm not going to describe what it feels like#i don't trust myself to correctly identify delimit and categorize this stuff#and i don't trust myself to make a description of it that is not potentially deeply influenced by things i've read#regardless of if it's true or not to what i really do feel irl in that moment#i mean it feels bad. though i don't usually NOT do that thing described above so idk.#but well. 'bad' is relative#i don't know what people mean when they say adhd boredom feels bad or autism sensory problems feel bad#anywayyyyy if anyone has any opinion on the matter would LOVE to have some outside perspective#but if not dw#broadcasting my misery#why i could have adhd
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as much as my instincts are now connecting tsp tp anything, its the successor to me connecting markiplier ego lore to anything
anywho, Actor Mark is Narry, Timekeeper is Darkiplier, and Y/N is Stanley/ThePlayer in this essay i
#oz rambles#idk if this makes any sense but like#hear me out#actor drags along y/n into playing his games n stories making them the protag#tk. while i dont wanna put them with dark just bc i dont wanna make them a villain like how dark was turned into#bur tk exists outside of the overall story and game. making a cameo and being able to influence stuff inside of it#theyre outside the breadth of actor/narry#n the yn/stanleynplayer just makes sense#abywho ramble over im busy today
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God I wish we knew more about what specifically was going thru Jasonās head after his fight with Bruce, because essentially his entire worldview has been collapsed. Heās spent the past however many years believing that Bruce is ultimately responsible for the pain that he feels, that the entire Batman thing does nothing but harm others, and that the only way he will āget betterā is by killing Bruce.
Finding out that he was apart of Jokers plan all along, and that no, Bruce actually DOES care about him and regret what happened, and actively WANTS to make it right by working together with him has to be insanely difficult for him. By the time he shows back up in game to paint the red hood symbols and get ready to save Bruce, heās figured out that Scarecrow is going to finish the plan and kill Bruce and that he actuallyā¦doesnāt want that. And from there on now Jason has to spend time trying to figure out who he is again.
Not only did Joker put ideas in Jasonās head, but Jason also has spend the past few years with one goal in mind, kill Bruce. As far as I know he hasnāt spent any extra time on a side gig or playing some video game that he likes lol. So he needs to find himself again and figure out how to trust his thoughts and ideas and try to free himself from the joker.
#Iām the dlc heās obviously gotten himself a new outfit and is working essentially as a pre n52 red hood. though from the way Babs and Bruce#talk to Jason in game I feel heād have a slightly better relationship with them#and by better I donāt mean besties with them or anything but that they are more sortaā¦tolerant of him?#like I think Arkham Bruce is weirdly more understanding of his villains and is capable of having a lot of sympathy for them and this#clearly extends to Jason given how even after all the fear gas and militia Bruceās response to Jason is just: ur my son and I want to help#and Barbra is very willing to argue with Jason over what heās doing but also still sympathetic and wants him to come home.#so anyway I think they are reaching out more with offers of help and genuine worry for him. but not only do their ideas of Justice conflict#but Jason is still Goong Through It and canāt bring himself to fully trust them again#and he also needs to figure himself out without any outside influence#and btw none of this is me saying Arkham Bruce is better than comics Bruce i think theyāre both wonderful and interesting and I like both#Bruceās responses to Jason in utrh and in ak. they r awesome and cool and interesting.#and they both suit the story they are in#I was kinda just rambling through this and idk what my point is š but I love Arkham knight Jason#arkham knight#dc#my post
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i sit with my saint sebastian medallion clutched in my hand like a lifeline because iām normal
#contemplating going to sleep with it clutched in my hands. for comfort. because iām normal#anxious about leaving the house without it most days š because iām normal š«”#valentine notes#āoh saint sebastian is the basic saintā you are NOT like me. except you are. because iām normal.#<ā pisses me off i didnāt spend my entire childhood being fixated on that guy independent of any outside influence to be called basic for it#āoh heās the basic saintā i want you to sit in a catholic church and read his story over and over again for years and come back and tell me#that you arenāt preoccupied with him an unhealthy amount. sorry that my chosen saint is sick as fuck thatās not my fault#iāll start getting weird about saint florian or some shit. saint valentine even.#start venerating the mother mary. if we want to talk about basic.#anyway
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