#obviously i have a therapist but like

[punkstylerecovery]

I work really hard to keep my trauma from making me lash out at people. I'm aware in the worst way possible of how you can fuck people up by not working through your trauma and I know I'm not exempt from that, so I'm always trying to make sure I'm not fucking others [and myself] over like that.

But it's hard to tell sometimes, being as isolated as I am, what reactions are just trauma-based and what reactions are more stable and something to listen to more. It's not like I can ask most of the people around me [who aren't supportive] for feedback.

Which means some things I just have to puzzle over and endlessly wonder if my knee-jerk thoughts have any weight beyond my bad experiences.

It makes me wish we had a Trauma Jury, where traumatized folks could talk about situations and explain what they're feeling and other traumatized folks could advise them on how to handle it. So even people like me who don't have regular trusted people to talk about trauma-related situations with could have some help from other non-therapist people.

[babycharmander]

Weird folks: Vent art of any form is good and all but it should ONLY be between you and your therapist. Don’t share that stuff online or publish it!!!

Me, an artist/writer: *goes to therapy, talks about my trauma and mental health and how sometimes it’s hard to talk about it with others*

Therapist: Have you thought about using your art and writing to help you work through these things and share them with others?

[thedreadvampy]

had a scooby doo moment in therapy today gang

I have this problem I call the Shoulder Lawyer. he is the horrible voice in my head that like, if I start to assert in my own mind that anything bad ever happened to me, starts to harangue me with demands for objective unassailable proof with no alternate explanations and accuses me of being an unreliable witness to my own life.

and today in therapy I basically had a moment where I turned around and went OK GANG LET'S SEE WHAT'S UNDER THIS MASK OF DETACHED OBJECTIVE ASSESSMENT. WOW IT'S JUST LIKE 20 TEENAGE RAPISTS STACKED UP IN A BADLY FITTED SUIT.

you're not an impartial analytical voice at all, Shoulder Lawyer! you're the internalised version of a bunch of arguments made by people with a specific vested interest in me not believing the evidence of my own experience!

and while we're at it, Shoulder Lawyer, your arguments don't hold water, you're treating highly circumstantial assumptions as ironclad facts, not one man on this jury would believe the conclusions you've drawn, and anyway this isn't a fucking courtroom and nobody's on trial????? I DON'T BELIEVE THIS MAN HAS EVER BEEN TO LAW SCHOOL!!!!! BAILIFFS TAKE HIM AWAY!!!!!

anyway I did great. I'm so covered in gold stars this week I'm like a tiny galaxy.

[suzukiblu]

get u a therapist that'll stack weighted stuffed animals on your back when you're trying not to melt into stressed-out goo on their office floor 💖

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

I was rewatching The Stone Forest and I really like to think that Hilda had to pass by the Bell Keeper’s outpost on her way out of the city limits. I like to think that idiot looked at what was happening, shrugged, and said ‘eh, she’s the scariest thing out there’

[8xlewis]

just had probably one of the worst panic/anxiety attacks in my lifeeee I've stopped and started crying about 7 times, I'm hoping by the 11th time maybe it'll tone down a bit. hate life rn!!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[roitaminnah]

being autistic is funny because black and white thinking applies to fandom stuff for me as well. I see something I feel is slightly out of character of my blorbo and my brain is like THATS EVIL

[antisocialxconstruct]

fuuuuuck I'm SO close 😭 gonna try really hard to actually have this launched THIS MONTH in the hopes that the pins can be manufactured and shipped out in time for the holidays.

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

Am I being an idiot

[hershelwidget]

A collection of things I’ve screamed into the void with mild hope that the void would scream back (it did. on several of these)

I am so sorry but every single word uttered here is canon to YLS’s already insane lore. yes even the one about Jack Skellington. yes even the one about Dimentio. yes even the one that ties into MSM/TBoCI. yes ESPECIALLY the one about Captain Barnacles.

[cacw]

puppy barnes copium

[dreamyeyedrose]

listen if we brat summer our way out of fascism I'll fuckin take it

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Guess who just had a thought AGAIN

Gregory using an elevator to get somewhere (either by himself or with Freddy) nothing big or anything. Cassie happens to be nearby and gets such a dudden thought that its borderline impossible to turn it down. So she gives in to it and tries to do the same thing to Gregory she thinks he did to her, and tries cutting the elevator with him inside (probably with her Faz-wrench or vanni mask or both) before he can reach his destination.

Regardless if Gregory makes it out alive or not (but lbr he prolly would bc hes like a roach in that sense) Roxy being security, can probably see what happened, and likely be left with the choice of providing the evidence when others investigate it or try to cover up for Cassie by omitting and maybe? even scrubbing the evidence off the system.

Oh this went in different direction to what I was expecting lmao

I thought you were gonna say that Cassie took over the speaker system to say "Gregory... it's me. I think I need to explain a few things. You were never supposed to go to the Pizzaplex. That thing in the sinkhole tricked you. I really don't know what it is but it's been trapped down here a really long time. That MXES security system was designed to keep it hidden, but you shut down the security. Now it's free... It's not your fault. I know you did it for me. To save me... but we can't risk being followed. I'm sorry."

Lights go out. The lift is stuck in place. Maybe it starts going down or suddenly jerks down for a second, and then she just leaves it stuck there so someone else can let them out.

But no okay we're going full on murder route, got it lmao

I feel like Roxy would be the first to respond there given it's a security kind of thing she'd pick up on. She gets there and pauses. For just a second, she's back under the pizzaplex, trying to open the doors of the lift to save Cassie in the darkness, listening out for the thundering footsteps of Mimic in case it comes back...

The space between floors in the main pizzaplex isn't that big, so I don't think the damage would be as severe, especially if they got on at the ground floor and hadn't been gone up very far. Even still, this kind of incident is no joke. There's nothing you can do in these situations but hope and pray. The whole 'lie down on the floor' thing isn't even certain to help. The biggest risk if they don't fall far though, is ironically Freddy as well. If he falls on Gregory? Well... yeah.

If they're both relatively unharmed though, this is maybe a sign that Cassie should probably see a therapist... I mean it's a sign no matter what, but if something serious happens to Gregory, there's probably a lot more to consider there.

If she gives him the monologue and just makes the lift jolt before leaving it stuck between floors though, I can see Gregory yelling to be let out and Roxy or whoever answering like "What's the matter? Do you only like being in Freddy shaped metal boxes, or something?"

You know what? Everyone here needs therapy. I think they deserve it.

[m4lexxx67]

Who needs therapy when you got a page in your sketchbook that's just Gerard over and over again?

[gibbearish]

idk, its just. like. a person comes up to you with their heart cradled in their hands. says it is broken, says it hurts. places it in your hands, asks you to please make it stop and trusts you to fix it. wouldnt you be scared, too? wouldn't you be haunted by visions of you tripping and shattering it beyond repair, of driving the thing thats hurting them even further down so that maybe no one can ever get it out, of someone in their deepest darkest moment trusting you with their life and you fucking it up? how could that ever feel like anything but defusing a bomb? trust is such a valuable thing, a powerful thing, a delicate thing, and the more you have the more you get given and the more careful you have to be with it because what if someday you drop it and break it and it turns out you never should have been given it in the first place. wouldnt you be scared?