#now i gotta tag SO many bitches bruh

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Before I sleep I just wanted to post these since I feel like to understand the situation better

First image: shitty as it sounds this thing he took from one of my posts was from blue shaded. Some dude who just loves to complain about everything any youtuber does like youtubers are supposed to be saints it’s just weird. Anyways ~ I’ve said this before but Ty was blocked during this time so obviously he was stalking and he KNEW it was him cause I knew he was talking shit. However I didn’t say his name so him getting butthurt really says something that he thought it was about him (and it was! But if I didn’t wanna say his name cause 1. I respected his privacy at the time and 2. I knew he would do this ☠️

Second image: I knew exactly what the fuck he was talking about. I say this because me and a friend saw him talking about it WITH HIS NAME HANDLE ON IT so you kinda fucked your self over with this one FR. If you want to see what he said it’s on one of @chatterghosts ‘s post I reblogged it so it’s probably below this one. I also find it funny that he thought I got it from Nate and Nate (why y’all named the same that’s so funny omg SORRY OFF TRACK) when I did but also like- blue shaded isn’t a private account you can see that shit in plain sight👁👁 hello. Also of course Nate knows the full story cause he told me AFTER you had this conversation and he told me everything but anyways 🎊

Third image: that’s probably a load of bs cause after you talked shit about Ethan you talked shit about jack. Not only that you FEED on this behavior. When I was in the discord you always talked shit about jack and nit picked over the smallest faults he’s made. You being associated with blue even ONCE tells me that you are attracted to these people (not romantically obviously but you get my point). Then we go onnn about me leaving the discord. Like I had the choice to tell you? I knew you’d talk shit about me if I told you why I left and if I lied you’d find out so I did the right thing and just left for good. I blocked ty on almost every platform I knew of and ghosted that mf (like I stated earlier, he found my only account I forgot to block him because I blocked him on the rest of my accounts🤡 I’ve met too many people who will do everything to find my other accounts just so they can have their say instead of just idk... maybe leaving that person alone?). A lot of my friends told me to leave ty with a LOT of evidence and personal experiences so this wasn’t just something I did on a whim. I took the courage to do it and I’m glad I did.

Fourth image: ANOTHER BS THING. I know damn well you simped for Mark so obviously you stood up to him the most. When I was being harrassed for liking Mark and how he’s a neo Nazi (? I still think that’s utter bullshit and also what’s up with mfs assuming every German last named mf is a Nazi like dude he’s a minority why would he be a Nazi- anyways) ty was saying so much stuff about how marks a good guy and while I do agree ty kept doing this a lot. Mark was his jesus to his crazy Christian after all. He babied Mark in a weird way like I get it I get that way too but I know that Mark is a grown ass man and he has to defend himself I’m not his momma and I’m not going to be a pokimane simp to him. In one of his rants about Ethan he said that Ethan was mooching off of unus annus like HELLO?? Ethan was apart of unus annus he should be proud of it? Plus it’s not like Mark hasn’t done the same thing and of course ty hasn’t said anything about Mark cause again Mark is a saint to him so not surprising. Ethan HARDLY gets credit for being apart if unus annus so I’m glad he gets to gloat about it because bruh if I did something like that I’d be promoting it and milking it it’s YouTube what do you expect- I feel like most people in this fandom treats Ethan as Mark’s sidekick like idk he didn’t also did as much as Mark? And I don’t even WATCH Ethan as much as Mark and I think this mf deserves more credit. The Markiplier has this weird double standard between youtubers idk I just find it odd as hell. Like the time pokimane came onto cloak and everyone calling her a slut? And whore? Like bruh I hate her but come on how low can you fuckin go. THERES a lot of bs in this fandom I could talk about after being in it for 6 years but that’s for another time❤️. the way ty says “I’m sorry what I said about Ethan made YOU upset” just sounds like “I’m sorry what I said made you feel that way :/“. It’s like what he said he doesn’t even recognize was wrong and doesn’t even care that what of he might of said was insensitive and just plain not in his lane to say that shit.

Fifth image: um what 😀 I was already out of the discord so do it yourself? Like yea lemme just ask to come back in and delete them🏃‍♂️- like no fuck you maybe you shouldn’t have treated people like shit I would of but no that’s your problem now. Also bruh my BLOG? I’ve never posted shit that I’ve had from the discord (aka discord screenshots) unless I forgot but from the looks of it he’s probably implying to delete my art from my blog😀. No bitch this is my blog you damn dictator I’ll delete something when I want to you’re not my parents. Also I hate this parenting attitude he has about how I have to do it 😐. Bruh you are a 20 year old man who likes Markiplier from the Internet I don’t gotta do shit HFHFJBJBJ. My final wish was to leave you loser for good but I see sore losers don’t like to see their teammates leave for their shitty behavior lolz.

TLDR: bitches ain’t SHIT this dude has serious abandonment issues over at the time 16 year old who doesn’t even know them irl

I’d like to say I didn’t bring up the actual things people who’ve talked to me about their personal experiences cause that’s for them to speak up about and that’s their private information. I’m only talking about my experience with this creep. Like I stated before I’m sick of this dude on my dick and bring up old fights that should of been resolved like a real mature adult but I guess a 17 year old has to finish this shit and many others.

I would go on more about the Ethan situation but you’ve heard me yak a whole essay of bs so I’ll leave that on hold (unless you wanna talk about it hmu 😏) idk if I should put this in the Markiplier tag cause this isn’t really a Big M problem but more of the cesspool of the fandom problem but I just want y’all Markiplier fans to watch out for this dude and I mean it PLEASE

[idontmeantosoundrudebut]

Many of Horror (Chapter one: This secret goodbye)

Fandom - How to train your dragon (movie franchise)

Ship - Eretlout (+ background relationships)

Wordcount - 3748 words

Fanfic summary - Moving on is hard, especially from something that doesn’t want to be forgotten. But it’s easier when you have someone with you who understands that mind-scarring agony, it’s easier when someone will hold you in the dark when all the monsters come out to play, it’s easier when you’re loved. But Eret is going overseas and Snotlout is left alone in a cold bed. 

The dream is back and he feels sick. Sick in the head. (I really can’t think of a good summary for this, so sorry my dudes)

Tags/Warnings for this chapter - Mentions of past child abuse

So I have yet to finish this Fic yet but I’m just so excited to show it to yall that i just had to give you a little teaser!!! This fic takes place a year after HTTYD3 but the dragons never leave and Stoick never died because Hiccup deserved a whole family for more than one day (Dreamworks, i’m talking to you asshole)!

Also please check out The colour of friendship by Sarahenany and The colour of family by Thurdsday26 on the Archive because it they are big inspirations for this fic and if you love Spitelout bashing and Snotlout whump and found family then, oh boy, that is truly the jackpot of all Snotlout whump fics! Also, the title of this fic is based on the song Many of Horror by Biffy Clyro and this to the first like three lines and you’ll understand why! 

Please enjoy and give me any feedback that you have, negative or positive, do not hold back bitches!!!! Haha lol bruh

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Eret is leaving today, but he'll be back in a few weeks, a month maximum if the summer storms keep at bay (Ruffnut prayed briefly to Thor before bed last night. She doesn't know why; it was an impulse thing). He, along with six other crewmates, will be sailing far up north to the port-island he once called home to establish a trading route for Berk and to perhaps arrange a meeting between Chief Stoick and the chief of his native village. The Northmen are good people, Eret had reassured during a council a week back, who've long been held under the sole of Drago's boot and will gladly reward those who levered that pressure with both miscellaneous goods and a long-lasting alliance.

The only problem with this grand adventure is that they'll have to travel dragon-less.

The Northmen too have been terrorised by dragons for generations and they will not hesitate to net, bludgeon, and flay the first dragon they see, even if said dragon has a rider on their back. Act first and ask later kind of folk, a mindset which Ruffnut is very familiar with. Eret predicts that the concept of living with dragons in peace and harmony is one his people will be suspicious of for a time, but he assures that they'll warm up to it eventually. So, the first few trips will be dragon-less and slowly they'll weasel their Berkian values in, a very cunning plan indeed if Ruff didn't say so herself.

So today is the day of departure and she's on her way to the docks for the send-off, alone for a change. Tuffnut, eager to be out the house and tired of waiting for her to finish braiding her hair, had nabbed Barf and Belch and left her on her lonesome to walk. At first, she'd been peeved to all Hel, rightfully so, muttering to herself about how easier life would be without her dolt of a twin till she remembered just how peaceful, well, peace was. As vexing as Tuff is, Ruff cannot deny her sibling love for him, but she also cannot deny the simple serene beauty of silence.

She's striding down a street of huts, the docks insight, when she hears a terribly familiar voice.

"You better be back in two weeks, if you're not, I'm coming after you,"

Snotlout.

Ruff pauses mid-stride and takes a step back, looking into a narrow alleyway between two huts. She steps closer and presses herself against the left hut wall, slyly peeking her head out to gaze searchingly into the shadowed alley where she'd definitely heard Snotlout's voice. As mad as she is (and she is mad), she isn't to the point of hearing imaginary voices in the shadows (not for a few years, at least).

There. Stuck between a wall and a bulky silhouette, is the short and distinctive shadow of Snotlout Jorgensen. The figure Snotlout is pressed against lets out a hushed laugh, head bowing and if wasn't for that laugh, she'd definitely be able to identify him solely for the dark outline of his facial profile.

Eret, Son of Eret.

Oh, this... This is interesting, very interesting indeed.

"No promises, we might have to delay returning if we see a storm on the horizon," Eret informs and Snotlout makes a displeased snort, to which Eret adds in response, "But if we don't then, we'll be back as soon as we can. Snotlout, you won't even know I've left,"

"It already feels like you've left me," Snotlout murmurs, head hung low, and it catches Ruffnut by surprise, that statement because it's such a vulnerable thing for Snotlout to say and the way he says it, quiet and anxious, is so alien to her.

The use of the word "me" too, makes her mind turn and burn with theories because there is something so very deep in the small, added word. She doesn't know what yet, but there is something painfully human about it.

Ruff watches the shadowed duo, transfixed as Eret lifts a hand to Snotlout's chin, tipping his head up so that they are looking at each other.

It's such an abnormal gesture for her to witness, especially between two people with whom she's never associated such tenderness before.

Eret has always been this tall, handsome, foreign stranger with a silky voice and a self-assured walk, who is as handy with a sword as he is on a boat, who's always there to help and give back to the people who gave him a better life. Snotlout has always been this hot-headed, confident loudmouth who is way too short to be as brave as he is and is way too good at singing for Ruff to admit, who's full of unyielding loyalty and howling laughter. But most importantly, they hate each other.

Or, now that she thinks of it, they did hate each other.

The last few months have been lacking the usual rivalry between Snotlout and Eret and she doesn't know why it's only hitting her now. At some point, they two of them became friends and she's pretty sure she isn't the only one who hasn't noticed, which is so peculiar because she, and the others, have seen the two of them hanging out at the sawmill and flying together at dusk to light the torches. Gods, they drank with each other last night and there hadn't been a single crass word spoken. When did this happen? She and the rest of Berk have gone blind!

"Snotlout, I'll be back. Soon. I can't promise you when, but I'll be back, and next time I go north, you can come with me," Eret assures, and though Ruff can't see Snotlout's features, she can feel the atmosphere lifting and hear the smile in his voice.

"Yeah?" There is something so hopeful and childish in the way he breathes that word, something that tugs at Ruff's heartstrings.

"Yeah, I'm sure I can convince Hiccup to spare you of your very honourable duties for a few weeks,"

"Hey, shut up!" Snotlout's foot jerks out sharply to jab Eret in the ankle, the former laughing breathlessly in response, "My work is honourable, okay? Someone has to test all those crazy weapons Hiccup cooks up and I'm the only man for the job, no one else is as brave as I am," He exclaims, all confident and cocky and familiar to Ruffnut.

"You're sure right about that," Eret says as he again raises his hand and, this time, it comes in contact with Snotlout's cheek, she can see the faint movement of his thumb smoothing over the skin beneath his eye. His voice is awfully soft with a terrible fondness that Ruffnut sometimes hears in Hiccup's voice when he speaks about Astrid or vice versa, it's a tone that she automatically links up to people who are fiercely in love.

Oh, Freya, they're in love.

"You gotta head down to the docks, Eret, you'll be late to leave... or whatever," Again, that insecure whisper is back and by Gods, it sounds so brittle and shaky that Ruff almost considers the thought that Snotlout might be crying.

She would be if she was about to be separated from her lover for an unknown amount of time, Ruff ain't afraid to admit that, but if Snotlout is afraid of anything, it's expressing feelings and emotions (He's afraid of proving he's human, proving he's weak). But then again, maybe it's easier for Snotlout to air out his inner thoughts in front of Eret because, well, they're in love and to be so intimate with someone, they're eventually going to see all the ugly parts that you hide beneath the pretty façade. Eret has probably seen the old insecurity they all know that still lurks deep inside Snotlout, raw and unfiltered, a thing from his youth that made him angry and afraid, a thing that was just as damaging as the scars on his flesh.

Ruffnut, nor anyone else on Berk, will ever forgive Spitelout for what he did to Snotlout. She will gladly say that the day he was exiled was the best day of her life and she will not be alone in the statement. Cruel, merciless, cold-blooded bastard deserved to be Blood-eagled if you ask Ruff and Tuff (probably Hiccup too, no one was more enraged than he was.)

(Ruff has never been afraid of Hiccup, except for once. He's far too lanky, too merciful, too kind, to be a scary guy. But that day, when Snotlout had lifted his tunic in the clubhouse and revealed the ivory scars that were striped across his back and chest, she'd taken a step back at the sight of the inferno that had kindled in his eyes, at the sudden look of mercilessness that had steeled his features, at the trembling fists clenched at his sides. He looked like a man ready to kill, like a man ready to burn then world to the ground, like a man ready to give it all up just for revenge. She was afraid of him that day. So, so afraid that she had nightmares about him for days afterwards.)

"I'll be a bit late, the lads won't mind," Eret says lowly, drawing Ruffnut from her walk-in memory-lane, and she feels her heart tug as he bows his head to press against Snotlout's, "I'll stay here. With you,"

Forehead touching, especially in Viking culture, is the tenderest way to touch the ones who mean dearest to you. Be it a lover, a blood-relative, a shield-brother, anyone who is buried deep in your heart. And here, in the shadows of an alley, hidden and quiet like a forbidden dream, two people hold each other. Soon, they will have to let go and isn't that the most heart-breaking thing? Letting go?

Her heart feels too big for her chest and she almost feels like a changed person by witnessing this, witnessing something she was never meant to see. Will love be like this for her too? Terribly tender and awfully soft? She doesn't know, Gods, she shouldn't be here.

Ruff tries to drag herself back but she's like a moth to a flame, unable to pull herself away from this blindingly beautiful display of love, so raw, so real. She never imaged Snotlout to fall so easily to soft caresses, but of course, he would. It is always our deepest wants that will bring us to our knees and all Snotlout has ever wanted is love, a gentle hand, a place to bury his heart.

They share a deep and long kiss. It makes her feel lonely and she doesn't know why. They part, breathing on each other's lips and holding each other tightly because they know, they know, they have to let go any moment. Their foreheads are still touching.

"Promise me," Snotlout whispers and she sees the silhouette of his Adam's apple bob as he swallows thickly, "promise me you'll come back. To me. Eret, promise you'll come ba-"

A quick but meaningful kiss quietens Snotlout's desperate pleas and Ruffnut has never heard him beg before, not like that, not like he's afraid that Ragnarök is about to fall upon them. Eret cradles Snotlout's face with his large hands. They are so close, they've almost become one shadow.

"I promise you, Snotlout," Eret vows, quiet but vehement, his lips brushing against Snotlout's, "I promise that I will come back to you,"

Another kiss is shared between them, sealing the oath that Eret has made and therefore making it unbreakable. Eret will return, he has to, and Ruff doesn't know what will happen if he doesn't. Something tragic, something unbearable to watch, something she can't allow to happen. She will not see Snotlout ruined again. So, she promises herself that if Eret does not return, she'll fly herself up to Valhalla, drag him back to Berk and the Gods best keep themselves to themselves and not get in the way of her mission, lest the know the true wrath of a Thorston woman.

"Come on, before Hiccup starts a search party," Snotlout says, voice stronger now that the promise of returning has been made, "Selkie's gonna want a proper goodbye too or she's gonna follow you the whole way,"

Eret nods in agreement and peeks his head out of the alleyway, looking up and down the street in search of any unwanted bystanders. In the sunlight, his eyes glitter amber and Ruffnut can make out his hand, large and golden, curled around Snotlout's.

"You sure you can handle her? I know that-"

"Gods, Eret, she's the timidest Thunderdrum I've ever seen! If I can handle Hookfang and a borderline psychotic Terror, among other things, then she's going to be a piece of cake," He reassures, almost sounding offended, and Eret chuckles softly as he gives Snotlout a fond look.

Ruff watches them step out from the alley into the sunlit street, hands no longer intertwined. She can make out the red flush on Snotlout's cheeks and the faint wetness beneath his eyes, which he wipes away hastily. The two of them share a look, secret and quiet, lips curled into gentle smiles, fingers twitching with the longing to touch. Then, as sudden as lightning, the tender-faces fall away and they leave, together but still somehow so far apart. They enter the real world not as lovers, but as friends, as a secret waiting to reveal itself.

For a few moments, she stays where she is, staring into the unlikely place of a secret lovers' farewell. Who knew that a place like this, small and dark, would hold such a tragic and beautiful moment? Ruffnut feels a mixture of emotions, the biggest one being happiness because bless the Gods, Snotlout has found love and if anyone deserves it, it's him.

At the after ceremony of Hiccup and Astrid's wedding a year back, a drunk Snotlout had suddenly embraced her tight and long and said; I'm gonna be alone forever, Ruffy, but that's okay, I got you guys, so... I not really alone. And being just as drunk as he was, she'd laughed and poured him another drink, dancing with him till the sun came to steal the night. She didn't remember what he said till a few days after and it had filled up with such a fierce and sudden sadness that Tuffnut had dragged her home, demanding an explanation for the terrible look in her eyes.

That's the thing with a twin like Tuff, the second her mood changes, he can sense it like a hunting dog catching the scent of blood. She can do it too, but Tuff has never been one to hide his true feelings while she, similar to Snotlout, would rather avoid the conflict of talking sentiments (even with Tuff). Her brother has to drag it out of her most times, corner her and say stupidly melancholic stuff like;

I can smell it, sister. You're sad.

Tuffnut is a curse and blessing all at once and she wouldn't have it any other way.

But anyway, she's overjoyed to see Snotlout in love and loved, but she's also anxious about it. Anxious in a way an older sibling is over a younger sibling when they start to dabble in dangerous things, in things that can get them hurt. And if love is anything, it's dangerous. If love can do anything, it can get you hurt.

Snotlout has been hurt enough. Snotlout has endured and lived through torture and torment, through betrayal and loss, through things she can't imagine surviving. She will not see him hurt again, not by Eret, not by love, not by anything. He doesn't deserve it.

The others will also share her feelings when they discover this secret love story, that she is sure of. Especially Hiccup, who in the past few years has become like an older brother to Snotlout (like the same way that Stoick has become a father to him, the same way Valka has become a mother to him). He takes his new sibling occupation very seriously and it is comical, the wiser brother and the reckless brother always at odds but always there to protect each other.

There's a headache brewing in her temple. Gods, she's been thinking and overthinking again.

It'll be fine, she reassures herself, stepping away from the alley and making towards the docks, the Gods wouldn't curse them all with more bad fortune, would they?

It's probably the most stupid question she's ever thought, in hindsight.

When she gets to the docks, it's jam-packed with dragons and Vikings alike, friends and family saying farewell to the crew and wishing them good fortune on their journey. The sky is clear and blue, perfect for sailing, and Ruff concludes that she wasn't the only one begging Thor to keep his storms to himself.

Immediately, her eyes are drawn to Tuffnut, dangling upside down from Belch's neck as he converses with a bemused Fishlegs. She's tempted to go over, but not yet, she has to do something first.

She quickly surveys the area, seeing one of the Berkian members of Eret's crew giving his vermilion Nadder a thorough farewell and a Northman kissing his Shield-maiden fiancé goodbye.

The Northmen, Eret included, were intrigued to see such wild and free women when they first came to Berk. Berkian women are hearty and frightening and hard to impress, daughters of wolves, bearers of warriors, the fiercest things on the battlefield.

So it had been a cultural shock to them, Eret had admitted one day, for their home only holds women who sew the clothes and make the food, who bear the children and tend to the house, who are quiet and timid and easily won over by a half-assed sonnet. Most marriages are arranged and many daughters are traded for land or gold, true love is a rarity to come by. Eret is proud of his home, but these are the parts he is ashamed of.

Astrid was the first woman Eret had ever seen to hold a weapon and he'd never met a woman as savage as Ruffnut before. Ruff will forever be proud that she was Eret's first taste of wildness.

There. She's found who she's looking for.

Eret kneels on one knee before Selkie, his beauty of Thunderdrum. She's orange like a sunset, pale and washed-out, with white flecks scattering her hide like parted clouds, matching her ivory belly, and Ruffnut has never seen a dragon with eyes that blue before. Selkie lets out an unhappy groan as she presses her face further into Eret's hand, eyes low in her grief as she listens to his whispers. Ruffnut can't make out what he's saying, but she's sure it's everything soft and reassuring.

Snotlout is close by, she notices, watching Eret with an open fondness. If Hiccup or Astrid walked by right now and took notice of the raw love in Snotlout's gaze, they would immediately know the truth. Clearly, she isn't the only one thinking this because Hookfang, stood beside his rider, nudges Snotlout with a warning hiss in the back of his throat. Never let it be said that Hookfang doesn't look out for Snotlout, he's ornery and easily distracted, but he makes up for it all with his loyalty.

Soon enough, the ship is ready and it's time to go. People gather along the docks and make their last hurried farewells. The drums begin and the chants of fortune echo across the waters, there's an intoxicating atmosphere permeating the air. Ruffnut hurries through the crowd, easily shoving unmoving folk to the deck in her haste because she has yet to speak with Eret. He's shaking hands with Chief Stoick and is about to go up the gang walk when she suddenly lunges herself at him.

"Ruffnut!" He gasps, surprised and clearly a bit uncomfortable, but he'll have to deal with her for the moment, "Thought you weren't going to- uh- show,"

"Course I was, idiot, and anyways-" She leans her head close to his ear and wraps a hand around his bicep, digging her sharp nails into his flesh threateningly as she whispers, "-I have to remind you to keep to that promise, Eret, son of Eret, I'm not going to have Snotlout hurt again. I was robbed of my revenge last time, I won't be again,"

When she pulls back, she flashes him a smile with too many teeth and bats her lashes with an intimidating gleam in her eyes. She's given this look to men who are now dead and it is Eret's choice if he wishes to be added to that mass grave. Eret stares back at her with shocked eyes, cheeks slightly red, and he clenches his jaw as he swallows thickly, rubbing a hand over the raised welts on his bicep. The drums echo across the water and the chanting voices chase after in earnest. After a bewildering moment, Eret gives her an awkward but thankful smile and nods his head in understanding.

"I'll keep that in mind," He says and all the tension in his muscles seem to slip away as Ruffnut softens her menacing gaze on him, clapping him boisterously on the already injured shoulder.

"Atta boy," She cackles, shoving him up the gang walk as she calls after him, a throaty laugh colouring her words, "You better be back in two weeks, you son of an Eret, or I'm coming after you!"

To her delight, she hears him laugh back at her.

The ship finally departs from the dock, sail high and proud as its pushed by the encouraging wind and the waves part smoothly as the bow cuts through the water, sure and steady. Some of the crew hang off the ratlines, saying goodbye to Berk (for now), and Eret stands, tall and almost warrior-like, on the stern. The salt-touched wind carries his dark hair and the sun reflects off his dark eyes, they glitter with a sadness that Ruffnut wouldn't have noticed if she didn't know the things she knew. His smile is melancholic, Gods, he already looks homesick. He's looking at someone and she already knows who.

Turning to look at Snotlout, she can see that his hands are balled up into white-knuckled fists, that his smile is forced and pained, that his eyes shimmer with tears.

Snotlout has always hated goodbyes. Especially ones that aren't supposed to last. Because they always do.

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i luv this shit bruh!! i was tagged by @ladyancientcosmos so uh 🥺🥺ty

nickname: well uh my first and middle names are thomas jaymes so most ppl just call me tj lol, but i also get teej and jayme sometimes, and one of my best friends calls me tommy (he's the only one that gets away with it though lol)

zodiac sign: we cancer up in this bitch!! 10th july babeyyy!!!!

height: around 5'5.5" i think? (lol) i gotta remeasure myself but i've grown since i last measured myself n i was Just short of 5'5" then soo

hogwarts house: i have no clue!! i've taken the test soo many times and i get a different answer every time!! it puts me in slytherin most but i don't think i really match the slytherin traits?? tbh i think i'm a ravenclaw, but ig maybe a hufflepuff?? i'ma have to go w/ ravenclaw tbh though lol

last thing i googled: uh i was looking up the dates of stonewall for an essay for my english language class

song stuck in my head: holiday by green day (a bop!!)

following: 141

followers: 40

amount of sleep i get: generally anywhere from 2-5 hours (yikez!) but i tend to like wake up n then not move for minimum half an hour, and on thursdays (bc i start late) and weekends i generally get like 4-8hrs

lucky number: 7 or 13 lol

dream job: making music bruh!! i live for that shit!!! i'm (technically) working on a covers album rn (but i hit a lil bit of a standstill what w school n stuff rip)

wearing: pair o those art socks (the ones w/ the scream on em), grey workout shorts, a cheap lion ring i got from claires when i was like ten, n then a black shortsleeve tee over a (bright) orange (i luv halloween) hoodie (+ my friendship bracelet and necklace lol i luv my friends sm bruh)

favourite songs: fully i'ma jus drop the tracklist for my covers album here jus bc i have an excuse to now lol;

midway arcade treasures - ghostbusters vhs

townie - mitski

lithium - nirvana

drown - bring me the horizon

jesus christ - brand new

wallflower - moses campbell

half a man - dean lewis

cop graveyard - teen suicide

say something - ceschi

mama - my chemical romance

song for the sleepless - ollie mn

brite boy - (sandy) alex g

broadripple is burning - margot and the nuclear so & so's

like real people do - hozier

u.n.i. - ed sheeran (might change this one tbh but i stand by the fact that this is his Only good album imo)

we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers - teen suicide (yes it's the second teen suicide song on the tracklist lmfao but it's a banger so why not)

thas not all my faves but uh yuknow lol (i need to stop sayin "uh" lmfaoo)

instruments: guitar, bass, ukulele, a lil piano, recorder(if we're counting that), whatever i remember of clarinet from yr5, the teensiest bit of drums, and i'm tryna learn violin at some point

random fact: i recently shaved my own head (down to a buzzcut) for a laugh and livestreamed it on instagram lmfaoo

aesthetics: in terms of clothes mid-to-late 2000s noel fielding lmfao, but in general i luv anything even vaguely edgy and i love mid-to-late 2000s low qual emo shit and midwest emo (especially irt music), and i was gonna say sumn else but my mind jus blanked but yh basically i luv edgy (especially ironically edgy) shit

okay so uh now i gotta tag 17ppl so uhh,, dw if you don't wanna do it n sorry if you've already been tagged or already done it hnnnggg:

@b-lurryblitzbee @izzy-24-xx @glennatohowerton @theentiregdtime @hauntedmoth @anthonycrowley @junkyardvampire @idioticnimrod @macfoundhispride @whatriverrunsdeeperthanthis @bookishbloop @crazypaddydennis @floralmac @gayfatmac @bastardmanvibes @lesbianfreyja @weirditalienplumber

[winterhalcyon]

Taggged by the lovely and amazing @towalkinyourlight who is a most stellar individual. 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: water you, gotta stay hydrated 2. phone call: My sister, she wanted me to pick up snacks yesterday. 3. text message: Also my sister, we were complaining about how long this guy was speaking in church today. 4. song you listened to: Last of the Real Ones by Fall Out Boy 5. time you cried: I honestly can’t remember. Oh shoot wait I do. It was in Black Panther when Bucky showed up. I didn’t cry persay, but tears were [resent in my optical area.

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nope. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yEP << hard same << Super same 8. been cheated on: No, but the last guy I dated got married a month after we broke up to a girl he met the day after we broke it off. So does that count? 9. lost someone special: Too many. 10. been depressed: Probabaly.  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Nope, @anglo-saxintrash can attest that I would in fact be the designated driver and would never partake in anyting more than a glass of brandy.

— fave colours

12. Hunters Green 13. Turquoise 14. Amethyst

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: Yes, and I love all three of them dearly 16. fallen out of love: The prerequisite to this is actually being in love, which are both hard no’s. 17. laughed until you cried: Oh yes, many times. 18. found out someone was talking about you: Oh gosh, so many times. 19. met someone who changed you: I think everybody you meet changes you in small ways, so I’d say yes. 20. found out who your friends are: Yup. 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Well, I’m not friends with them anymore.

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: most of them. the real question is do i like most of facebook friends? because that answer is no << This. 23. do you have any pets: I used to have a pet fish named Fish, but he passed away some time ago.  24. do you want to change your name: I alwasy think about it, but then I think it would suit one of my characters much more than I. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I honestly can’t remember. 26. what time did you wake up today: 8:00 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: SLEEPING. LIKE A REASONABLE PERSON WHO GETS ADEQUATE AMOUNTS OF REST MEGAN. 28. what is something you can’t wait for: to find out what my co-workers tumblr is, because I know he has one.  30. what are you listening to right now: Carribean Blue by Enya 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I actually don’t think that I have??? 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: Stupid people who don’t listen to grammar and English advice even though that is my job.  33. most visited website: hmmmmmmm, tumblr or netflix << yeah same. 34. hair colour: brown with highly unnatual loking red under streaks in it. 35. long or short hair: Like medium length? 36. do you have a crush on someone: Sure do. 37. what do you like about yourself: That I am probably one of the coolest and awesomest people on the entire planet at this very moment.  38. want any piercings: I mean I think about it, but I used to pierce ears and I have no real intrest in getting more. 39. blood type: A+ if I remember correctly 40. nicknames: Kadi, Kat, Kadi with a D (I hate you Nic) 41. relationship status: Single and apparently flirty. 42. sign: Libra 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: Parks and Rec. But recently Brooklyn 99 has been knocking it out of the park and I am loving it. 45. tattoos: None, but again I think about them a lot and they match my aesthetic so well. 46. right or left handed: right 47: ever had surgery: nope 48. piercings: ears 49. sport: I can play most any sport in varying degrees of success. 50. vacation: I want to go to Scottland. Like. I WANT to go to Scottland. 51. trainers: A pokemon trainer.

— more general

52. eating: I love noodles, but also sushi and pizza. 53. drinking: WATER BITCHES 54. i’m about to watch: Nothing, I am going to bed after this. But I’m going to watch Downton Abby tomorrow so I guess that. 55. waiting for: this semester to be over << oh my gosh yes. 56. want: to be done with school. there’s a trend here, in case you’re not picking it up. << this trend seems to be shared 57. get married: One day, but now I just want to bomb around like a boss and chill. 58. career: I want to be an editor for a publishing company while writing my own books, but I’m also looking into being a paralegal.

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: They are both stupid. 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: I’m already tall, so tallness is a must. 62. older or younger: Around the same age, but not younger. 63. nice arms or stomach: You know, since I said neither on that other one I’m going to say both on this one and even out the anwsers. 64. hookup or relationships: Preferably a relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant: Why are those my only options? What about Reliable or Responsible? Those R words sound nice.

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: New Years 2016 was a wild night. 67. drank hard liquor: Only in essence. 68. turned someone down: It happens all the time, and I enjoy it more than I should. 69. sex on first date: Never. 70: broken someone’s heart: Oh I know I have. 71. had your heart broken: Nope, and I’d return the favor by breaking something of theirs. 72. been arrested: I’ve come close. 73. cried when someone died: Absolutly. 74. fallen for a friend: I mean we became friends the same time I had a crush on him so yes?

— do you believe in

75. yourself: Always. 76. miracles: Oh my gosh yes. 77. love at first sight: I mean I can love how you look, but the rest? No.  78. santa claus: Ah yes, capatilism at its finest. Screw you red man. 79. angels: Yes, but a bit differently than the norm.

— misc

80. eye colour: blueis green 81. best friend’s name: I’ve got a couple. 82. favourite movie: A tie between Pride and Prejudice and Remember the Titans.  83. favourite actor: SEBASTIAN STAN  84. favourite cartoon: Voltron: Legendary Defender 85. favourite teacher’s name: Haggarty

Tagging: @anglo-saxintrash @nightbleeder @dragons-are-real-bruh  @daughter-of-mortain @aliens-are-really-real  and anybody else who wants to participate!

[punkcured]

gabridominique​:

Ooooo bitch I love this εїз

Name : Gabriel

Pronouns : None (but if you GOTTA then he/they ig)

Zodiac : Virgo ♍

Height : 5'3

Nationality : British & French

Fave Band : The Smiths

Fave Artist : Ed Sheeran maybe bruh I like so much shit EDIT : OH YOU MEANT LIKE ART ART NOT MUSIC ART AJDHSKFKEJF IM SO DUMB HI

Anyway Claude Monet ajdjskfk

When you created your blog : 2014/2015

Last thing you googled : Shakespeare’s sexuality

Lucky Number : 42 , 7 , 6

Other Blogs : @moodyacademia for academia aesthetic and @noiaecaffe for study stuff

Why you chose your URL : Gabrì is what my ex used to call me as my nickname and I really liked it so I kept it and then Dominique is my middle name

How many blogs are you following : 125

How many followers do you have : 1,340

How many average hours of sleep : oh dude like 6/7 ? I love sleep but I struggle with it

Instruments : Keyboard , does singing count ? Idk

Currently Wearing : Oversized open white shirt , boxers uwu

Dream Trip : Travelling the world with a cute boy and we just explore everywhere and learn about the history and read and write and just enjoy eachothers company

Fave Food : Pizza And Cheesecake , don’t make me choose

Fave Song : Oh bitch just one ??? I don’t thinks so lmao ; Idiot Oracle by Paul Dempsey , Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer , It Must Have Been Love by Roxette , Dakota by Stereophonics , River by Leon Bridges , Heroes by David Bowie

Idk who to tag I don’t wanna annoy anyone so if you wanna do it go 'head n just tage me

but uhh also @angycatman @punkcured I’ll happily annoy you sksks

Name : dj / danny / daniel if u so choose.

Pronouns : he/they, but don’t perceive me.

Zodiac : pisces

Height : 5'8″

Nationality : american

Fave Band : i can’t pick just one. the first one coming to mind is the cure.

Fave Artist : caravaggio 

When you created your blog : uhhhhhhh.. i don’t remember. i think 2015 ish?

Last thing you googled : how to spell caravaggio

Lucky Number : 6

Other Blogs : i have rp blogs but i am not giving those out jHJSHFJSH

Why you chose your URL : i just liked the way it sounded.

How many blogs are you following : 209

How many followers do you have : 125

How many average hours of sleep : 7 to 8 usually.

Instruments : sadly, none.

Currently Wearing : black leggings and a game of thrones shirt, even though i’ve never watched it. 

Dream Trip : the first place i think of is italy. or ireland! oh and france. i dont have anything specific on the mind with those places but i really love art history and architecture so i’d want to go visit museums and see old buildings and stuff. oh and stuff about ghosts.

Fave Food : pizza. always.

Fave Song : FUCK. right now??? it’s probably t r a n s p a r e n t s o u l by WILLOW.

tagging whomever would like to fill it out!

Rules: 20 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to get to know better

I was tagged by @youcanteverchangeme

Name: Harrison

Pronouns: they/them

Zodiac: Aquarius

Height: 5'9ish

Nationality: American (United States)

Fav band: The Whomping Willows

Fav artist: Van Gogh, Monet, Frida Kahlo

When you created your blog: This one must have been like 2014, but I had another one before this one that was probably from 2012 or older.

Last thing you googled: 90 farenheit to celcius

Lucky number: 30

Other blogs: My other blog is a secret. hehe

Why you chose your url: Idk, I thought it was clever. Cruciatus Curse is the torturing curse, so it’s like pain rising in intensity. I thought it was a good representation of my mental health at the time while also combining my love of Harry Potter. Plus I think it sounds poetic—both euphonic and cacophonic at once.

How many blogs are you following: 399

How many followers do you have: 195

How many average hours of sleep: I think 8

Instruments: None, I tried some in Elementary school but I sucked!

Currently wearing: Oops, just a blanket...

Dream trip: UK to see my girlfriend!!!

Fav food: Cheese fondue

Fav song: Crush by Tessa Violet

No pressure at all to do this, but I’m supposed to tag 20, so feel free to or not! Whatever! @coffee-cup-cai @hunscarian @babybratserein @pastashapes @hufflepuffbeanling @underthenarniansun @shadowintegration @imbeautyimgrace @samethyst @cittaly @unhingedbabe @ftwmentality @romantic-andall @littleroundmirrors @totallyacejasongrace @embrace-the-poof Okay, that's not quite 20 but idk who else to tag. Anyone else can do this too of course!!!

[ubelyptus]

soooooooooooo bb,,,...,.,,,strawberrry.

......I JUST FIND IT

  interestinggggggggg

how you Big mad cuz MY block game seeems 

skrong or summn

hanh???

oh.

well.

i never blockedt you 

on snapchat 

or whatsapp (you weren’t even muted),

yup, i still haven’t

but i didn’t have a properly working phone...

still......don’t

but either way you keep threatening to split on me 

like a weapon…fcking

manipulative as shit

it just seems to me that you just want to?

you never imprinted tho 

but she did 

so why should you?

i won’t ever, again, fight....

….with you.

my favorite accomplice

i wanted to learn with an open mind 

even after my phone died 

how to remain soft with you.  

even after being callled 

“old news" 

pffft

at least until

 i ‘m  eventually murdered by a cisgender man...

but

don’t fckn

pppppppop shit 

cuz like….. literally…..all i did was change my url.

shit, i Only blockedt you AFTER i saw you referencing gaslighting.

bc uhmm IIIIIIif that is about meeeeeeeeeeee 

ha!!!

 how fucking dare you.…..lyk....wuhh?

like when you said there is no difference between syn and alesia?????

HANH?

oh, but you think i blockedt you first bc i didn’t wanna get my feelings hurt?

….mhhhhhhh. ok.

seeems odd since you’re not liar 

right, eli????

but,,,,,so what’s this about the cozi password change? am i just shifting too rapidly between your and my reality???

bet.

no, i blocked you on things after THAT 

AND THAT WAS TODAY

oh, and didn’t your friend, my so-called “fighting buddy,” anan…

.just,,,,,fckn block me like i’m useless

trash

randomnly 

after all

i asked 

was that they 

not speak to me 

about you?

but YAAAAAAS  twas ONLY Me and simply Myself and just i 

who ain’t wanna get….hurt.

hanh?????

oh ,

obvi,

yeaaaaaaa

yeeeei

truuuu,

sooooo 

sssssorry,,,,but

calling me “old news” or saying i’m “old too” 

don’t forget your girl is 2 yrs older than you 

and then staying silent for these few days about changing passwords

that..... already did that, boo

at least i sent alesia third party emails thru the app, boo

she pushin 30 and can only talk you 

venuse....????. no....a 

talking and 

w a l k i ng tragedy

entyway don’t bring that up just to be loud and wrong about that too

you’re not always wrong tho, you know

you’d probably fuck up and slit my throat 

 powertripping

when i’m wrong about you

and you can only do that if you

 black and white 

me out 

to NEVER BE WRONG 

AND I DO 

ACTUALLLY HATE THAT ABOUT YOU!!!!! 

WHY CAN’T I EVER BE WRONG, ELI???? 

WHY????//

OH your emotions....? about your father that after 6 yrs you didn’t tell me about?

your reality? when you have a habit of projecting?

 and lowkey being dishonest 

to yourself first

 and then subsequently

 to me????

your time? when i’m mostly on yours?????

your efforts? like ripping up notes and telling me 

“my turn” to get fucked 

by you 

was over

when the only reason i was tiredt

was bc i crashed

too tiredt after explaining to You

that

  i‘m not even going to LET you play middleman

for a baby pushign 30????

oh. bet.

but since we’re being transparent:

here are receipts with timestamps:

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-hop-hop

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop+hop+bun

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-bunny

yea you must love dirty laundry

oh.

but that’s what i knew about you.

oh:

be yr own guest my love

i Knew you would ignore the “old news” message since that's literally when you started telling on yourself 

you do treat trans partners

 like side hoes, 

thasssa wholeBET 

and some change

 for you to create

cuz thassssssss 

how you feel about me fr fr

so that “like” is mine but

  i…..actually really Really love that you laughed tho.

bc i haven’t heard you fully belly laugh in a long time.

if ever iirh.

even after knowing you for 6+ years, 

your supposed “first friend “ in the DMV

the person i can trust my life with

the only

you’re my only...

 ,,,,,even after i spiraled 

and cut myself for the first time since middle school?

now my friends are fucking spotting you 

and talking to each other 

about you

oh, you didn’t know. 

but i got mehndi done today 

let a summer baby boy

love 

a cut up 

by me

body

 before noon

today 

thinking i’d see you and we could talk like,,,,

…..like real people do.

and you’d be distracted by the design and not zone in

 on the failed cuts

 on my wrist 

since i’m shit at not just repeatedly carving into 

white meat

 when i can only use a ceramic blade

i just didn’t WANT you to 

so i never “came home to [you]”

you said that on nov 4th/5th of last year

and

i’ve been looking up bpd all day

eventho i told you

  i don’t trust the internet 

sooooo you not telling me 

didn’t hel p

but it’snot at all your job to 

and i sitll

stilllstil stil stilllca’t see

....and i dind’t want you to see.

bc i’m not just a man.

i’m still femme

which you seem to love to forget

and still soft enough, i think.....

i hope…..or learning to be soft,,,,

where it won’t get me killed,,,,,

but where it still counts.

with…or without you.

either way i’m a man who loves you. a man whose phone died at 28% trying to get you to see that i was trying to be soft even after you called me

 “old news”

but,,,,,.....,,,compared to …..who?????? sh....oooo??????

your new girlfriend who is 1 or 2 years older than you?????

and can’t speak to me 

a man who is only barely out of 23???

and instead only whispers

 to you?????

bruh, she’s clearly not fond of me. 

and you’re not a liar , 

so don’t 

she had to tell you that she wasn’t the one putting out “aggy energy”

specifically

during yennayer which

i ruined

and im still sorru

but which means

she’s probably done it in your apartment on purpose already, boo

didn’t think of that, did you

lingustically.,,,,,nope.

oh, but there’s power in a whisper, darling.

i am just cardinal like you

i am air too.

  i should know 

bc i accidentally whistled....and,,,,,,

i only blockedt you so that you wouldn’t “hurt [your] own feelings”

 like you told anan you sometimes do.

sooooooooooooo yea... i

did it so you wouldn’t hurt you. 

as cardinal water/pisces moons 

are prone to do.

you can;t drain

and you can’t drown

 ain’t that how i affirmed you

i already hurt me 

when i dissociated 

and i’m STILL FUCKING sorry 

that there was blood that you had to see. 

i couldn’t stay in my body long enough to clean fast enough

but i still didn’t want you to hurt you bc of me.

like you did repeatedly

bc of bpd or bc of basically cishet or at least cis ~queer girls

or other partners 

like when you were with kat,

who’s still disgustingly attached to a messy white

and now a new black kid.....

or with shushoo.

and how you might with alesia.

no, correction: how you have with alesia. 

how you will continue to, if you’re not careful, with alesia.

you’re a lion facing a prince of a house kitten ,....,

.,, who is homeless.

do you feel good, big boss?

all i asked was for you to listen t

o how you were speaking to me 

on the phone 

at your place of work 

and when she’s there

possibly a place of worshiop

..... even after i told you 

that i was intentionally putting energy into Not fighting you

and you

  say you

"don’t wanna be a middle person" 

but you also….wanna cape for yet another fucking cis girl.

who isn’t even muslim this time. 

HOWtragic.

i couldn’t laugh

couldn’t ever laugh at sway

bc by whatever fortune if you do split or don’t 

 i still  love you

i love you too much

but in those moments after that phone call….

after my phone died…

and my body couldn’t move to charge it.

wouldn’t move….

and all i could do was cry during the adhan.

bc you’re tooo much like matt now

i wish i knew what it could feel like to

 hate someone 

who called you 

"OLD NEWS” 

compared to a bitch pushing 30 

youza WHOLE fuckn clown, dawg.

matt did this same shit

move me out for a new side bitch

yet anotehr cis

look at how cute trans love can be

oh

no

NO

no,

no

no

this is what you give me:

laughter.

BC what fucking luck.

BUT IT’S gotta be TROOF

  s ince you don’t lie?/?

shit I LAUGHED TOO:

it sounds like….

NEITHER OF US

KNEW WHAT COULD

HAVE BROUGHT US

HERE, ELI.

maybe you nursing poison in your own home

and telling me i’m making you feel unwelcomed

on a blog and not to my face did it

fuckingggggggggg. why’ald.

you think it’s too much sweat????? false. 

that apartment stayed cold.

too many tears?

 ok ok yea troof.

but too much love? forreal?

we?????

ooooop

hoooop!!!

oh, you speakin’ french now. our collective colonizers tongue in 20gayteeeeeeeen?????

CAN’T RELATE 

bc I’M TOOOOOO GAY

wow. we ruined it, fam???? fr fr?

nah, chosen fam.

you ruined us.

you ruined us over:

 a cis girl and

your own impatience

and your own anger.

and my slow brain and my slow body

//

i’m not sure she’d find you from maryland

if you dissociated bc your other semi

 but not 

girlfriend emotionally abused you

until people who didn’t know you were muslim

thought you were fucking drunk

and you fucking stilllllll 

work with her?????

why couldn’t you just wait until she found a new job???

ain’t she trying????

or izzzzzz she??????

hahhnh???

where was the damn rush?????

you’re like two goofy high schoool kids 

reaching for the quickest nuts every 6 hours

 like jesus fuck.

you’re irresponsible as shit telling me i’m a grown man making grown decisions and i see this 

?????

unREASONABLE, ELI.

this isn’t a situation of a kettle calling a pot black

 babe

bc i’m actually Black

and you’re not

but she’s black too.

what did i tell you:

"you datin’ two whole Niggas. if you fight me over her, you will lose either way.”

but instead you called me “obtuse”

SAT words for me

 but not for you…….what.,,,.,,,,,,,, fckn luck……..

what luck,,,,,that the one person who housed me consistently

and kept me alive

when i trusted no one

would call me "old news”

and let their cis girlfriend

 turn herself into your

personal "healing” …...

sibkid. \\\\

howTragic like all of CC’18

you know what happens when you slip and get sloppy and let a baby bitch be responsible for your healing?

she leaves. 

for a real bitch 

with microhealing abilities, 

GOOFY.

she worships a new goddess every friday?????

well, i know only of orixas 

and only of black power

 but from what i know of goddesses OFF of OUR continent…

soooon...

at least one of them WILL want a soul from her

just letting you know it might not have to be hers.

…..OH!

and when i chargedt and openedt my phone after days of wandering. ….the last messages from you are:

YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID “LEAVE [[[[MMMMMYYYYYYY]]]]]] KEYS”

like a fucking baby.

imagine that.

even to you, i’m still a whore.

out…the…bakc….dooor.

??????

i couldn’t even work a john when i wanted to

 if i was sad about you.

but imagine?????

  a cis-pixie woman older than you

letting you treat her like a child?????

then

imagine me feeling shamed into leaving

bc of pictures of your smiling face

after i cut myself and felt shame 

that

in your unwelcomed  to both me and you

BLOOD

 blood 

is what brings me back

 to life.

how.

fucking.

why’yald.

i blockedt you so that you didn’t lurk.

bc THat is what you do.

instead of speaking with me, 

you seem to have expected me

 to read your blog back 7 years.

and just know all of the fatherly things that trigger you.

like…even during the times when i was afraid of my own phone and laptop for 2 months bc of my sister, brother, and birth parents????

funny how i’m the youngest of us “grown folks” and yet still find that really 

FUCKING

immature.

of YOU

to do

you really never knew me, or did you…..??

you donated to me before you even knew me.

so i know your heart has parts made of gold.

but now you show off your crystals and your gold.~~~

yep.

here we are.

you’ve "only every seen [me] as a boy.”

ok. bet.

and unti this post:

i’ve hardly heard you refer to me as a man.

so:

ain’t you late?

ain’t you late, babe??

ain’t you late?

i’m a year younger than you.

which means if you grown

i musta BEEN a man too, boo.

but you’ll always be

 my favorite accomplice

 and always be my favorite friend too.

but you cannot think you can play me by calling me

 “old too” or “old news"

 for young fish who is basically femme trade

and thinking i won’t cut open a fool.

which coincidentally always happens to be me

she’s hardly out to anybody important and lying at work too.

i must be bigger fool.

bc you knew better and didn’t do better.

but i’m being immature.

  ok ...,.,,.,,

cute.

your pisces moon is keeping you from seeing clearly but that’s what young water seems…to do. to much light reflected; tho it is a fountain of youth.

she’s pushing 30 baby 

but true, you’re her boo.

yea, a childish boo.

you ever wonder why her playlist from you had more songs than ours did?

why she can never keep a man around for valentines day?

oh but don’t you love “patterns”, baby????

unless it’s her leaving shit around the apartment

or her triggering you

or her treating your dick like it’s foreign, 

even to you.

my gay ass was shookedt 

when you told me you voluntarily 

triggered yourself

 for her kitty too

but i AM 

a grown man

 who is “running” from….you

you think that statement is not…. dishonest??

you really think that statement is true???

—

i didn’t run. i just

needed space

and you afforded me none.

you couldn’’t afford it.

february is before march which is before april 

sooooooo it’s always a tight month ain’t it???????

oooooooh but you afforded her plenty.

she gets to take off her fucking pants while i try to figure out if i should move from a spot next to you….

on your fucking bed.

she took off her pants to climb near you before she could even say hi to 

nooonoo

ahh right

and THEN ME.

“Oh, you CAN stay”

that’s what She told me.

and you said nothing.

so i left….the room.

i never run.

you pushed me out with your captain save-a-cis silence.

it’s violence.

and

you’re still pushing and pushing and pushing and pushing 

until me…you know 

i, the "old news” 

just feels like he should just 

fucking fall 

onto the district streets

and she finds it

to her fucking fancy 

to fall

 into your lap

like a damn,,,,zel. 

distressedt.

with a roof over her head outside of your apartment too.

woooooooops!

yip, as she is probably prone to do.

her kind….isn’t new….boo.

her kind isn’t new to me

her kind isn’t new to you

you ever wonder why she feels so familiar to you?

she reminds Me of the girl who told you 

she could never marry you 

and is now trying to date someone just like you

so don’t be so unkind to me 

or to you 

or be so foolish

 as to believe i gave up on you

you gave up on me

and on top of that

you think i just...ran

ran….with what clothing?

the ones you packed up for me and left at the door 

that i was suppose to pick up 

and slide out the back….like a fucking whore?

you just tryna be

a cissie's bae

who stay clownin on trans folks now?

oooooooh issa bet, mo

. i mean.,,,.,,.mhhhh i guess?

—==—

but troooof, i don’t “need" anybody.

but i want you.

but you need her.

that’s how it work, don’t it?????

that’s why you risk job security every day.

and let her leave her panties on my clothes.

and let her tell me i "can stay" in …..A, not MY, spot next to you

in yo'bed?

what fucking fools. the two of you.

but “no one is forcing [me] to"

oh, baby you /are/ forcing me too

i look on your blog and then find out you’ve been feeling “unwelcome in [your] own home”

this whole fucking time

all the way since early november, innit?????

if i love you at all, 

what else am i to do?????????????

??????????????????????????/

know that you will self-destruct 

and just…wait for you to????????????????????

???????????????????????????????/

no

i didn’t run.

you just fucking pushed me.

and you’re still fucking pushing.

and you’ll keep pushing.

bc that is what you do.

embe…..@strawberreli 

se sá’m te konne nu’ou.

you like microblogging so much

so like it if you read this shit

[averagemartian]

85 Questions

I was tagged by @icyblueroses​ so blame that nerd Ay @anotherim5blog​ @just-in-my-wonderland and @jacobaco if you wanna do this then go for it

THE LAST

1. DRINK: Water

2. PHONE CALL: My cousin wishing me happy birthday

3. TEXT MESSAGE: Link to the Drive file for an assignment due in four hours

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: BTS’ Blood Sweat and Tears (Kinda fitting for this ‘I regret procrastinating’ vibe I’m feeling rn)

5. TIME YOU CRIED: A few hours ago skyping with a friend but it was lowkey so I don’t think she noticed, good tears tho

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: What’s dating?

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: Half of the boys I kissed lol

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: My mom watched the final four episodes of Avatar: The Last Airbender without me so… no other betrayal will be more painful than that.

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: Lose some here, gain some there. Life goes on.

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: lol

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: Nah I strongly dislike alcohol

 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. Blue like #001526

13. Red like #330000

14. Purple like #460033

 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: Yeah

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: lol

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: Hahah yeah

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: Sure

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: This new version of myself is real nice

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: Bruh I barely know myself

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: What the fuck is that?

 GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: Idk bro

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: My doggo Anakin

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: Nah but I do like being called Mars

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: Watched two movies I didn’t like while everyone fell asleep, and waited for the subway to open (stayed over at a friend’s house after a party ended at 3am but I was too alert to sleep)

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: dunno, didn’t have class yesterday

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: writing and skyping

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: *shrug*

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: Tuesday night cause she’s at work now

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Nothing, but I have 등골브레이커 by BTS in my head

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: Yeah but my memories of him are sketchy (local cryptid)

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: all.

34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: Tumblr probably

35. HAIR COLOUR: Dark brown with a pink streak

36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: Short and I don’t ever want it long again

37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: nah I’m a cold bitch

38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: I haven’t killed myself yet so I’m pretty proud of that. Dedication, I guess?

39. PIERCINGS: Fuck no (do you see how often that shit gets ripped out in movies? Plus sleeping with the ear ones on sucks)

40. BLOOD TYPE: A-

41. NICKNAME: Mars, Marcelinha, Pipoca (old one, my mom doesn’t call me that anymore)

42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single and read to focus on my career and be That Cool Aunt

43. ZODIAC: Leo

44. PRONOUNS: She/Her/They/them/Whatever tbh what is gender

45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: I’m dead inside and nothing is enjoyable anymore. Waitin on Westworld tho.

46. TATTOOS: I want to get Wan and Rava and some cool bending around them in my left forearm. Money tho.

47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: Mixed but I favor my right hand cause shit is usually designed for it.

48. SURGERY: Wisdom teeth and one on my belly button I was too young to remember

 50. SPORT: Martial arts

51. VACATION: Yes, please

52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: Comfort is all I ask

 MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: Why do I have a body

54. DRINKING: Why do I have a body

55. I’M ABOUT TO: Go the fuck to sleep

56. WAITING FOR: My motivation to return from war

57. WANT: To get shit done and enjoy myself while doing it

58. GET MARRIED: Eh…

 WHICH IS BETTER:

60. HUGS OR KISSES: Hugs for sure

61. LIPS OR EYES: Eyes

62. SHORTER OR TALLER: Whatever

63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: Depends on the context

64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: Back muscles tho

65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: Eh…

66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: Fun in moderation

 HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: Kinda. Long story.

68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: Fuck alcohol

69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: A contact fell once but I found it so I don’t think it counts

70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: Yeah

71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: Nah

72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: Ugh yeah

73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: I guess?

74. BEEN ARRESTED: Nah

75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: So… my father told me my grandma died and I was like ‘lol who cares’ but then my mom was like ‘wait what if it was the good one’ and I started crying, but it wasn’t her cause she comments on my facebook stuff so lol who cares

76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: Yeah why not

 DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: She’s competent sometimes

78. MIRACLES: Sure

79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Nah you gotta build it bro

80. SANTA CLAUS: Only if it’s the Rise of The Guardians one, he’s cool

81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: Eh why not

82. ANGELS: Yeah but make them scary you cowards

 OTHER:

84. EYE COLOUR: Greenish

85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: Sky High fight me on this

[shadowlink720]

FE: Birthright Randomised Prologue, Chapter 1 and Chapter 2

(aka ‘I can’t believe Shadow is freaking Dead’)

ok Are you ready for this? I’m sure not but let’s mcfreaking go I’m gonna go on a lot of tangents probably so please forgive me for that---

oooooooook so let’s see if this actually works (I haven’t actually tested it yet, but it loaded instead of hanging at a black screen so I’m assuming it does), let’s also see if it breaks the game or not b/c I’ve heard that Birthright can so therefore Conquest is more reliable but I never want to play Conquest ever again holy heck I don’t have a physical copy of Conquest ayyyy

But enough stalling! Let’s get right to it! Ah jeez I really want to give Corrin the really short hair I did when I branched off to Revelation but I want to keep the SYMBOLISM-

.... a lot of these pictures are gonna be squint ahah (also it’s Samurai b/c I need Astra lmao)

ok then let’s goooooo

I suppose I should be worried that the ‘No’ option doesn’t show properly but w/e (the button is blank lol)

........ Azura could you build the suspence any higher ahahahah;;;;;;

OH MY GOD IT WORKED

TAKUMI REPLACED HINOKA I’M GOING TO D I E And he’s a Diviner lmao no Fujin Yumi for u m8 I hope that the Ryoma and Takumi replacements can/will use Raijinto and Fujin Yumi lol ohhh my farore I am actually shaking aaaaahhh give me a minute ahahh--- this is so surreal is this actually happening I don’t even kno w ANYWAY

Takumi are you saying ‘How dare you!?’ to the Nohrian for trying to attack me or me for not knowing how to dodge-

also I’m going to skip enemy/ally phases so there aren’t any spoilers >:3c

ok I know it’s for stability’s sake, but Takumi with the Sky Knight class looks like he has short hair-

OH MY GOFD

woops I could have taken a better one uagiuagdfudgh RYOMA IS REPLACED WITH AZURA I’M DYI N G IT’S WORSE THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE IN THE ROOM NEXT TO ME WHO CAN PROBABLY HEAR MY LAUGHING THO HECK

ah yeah since it’s Birthright then the Nohrian siblings won’t get randomised for stability :V

wait Felici a is tAKUMI FELICIA IS TAKUMI WE DON’T NEED TO PLAY IT ANY FURTHER THIS IS THE PINNACLE HOLY HYLIA

ohhh my gosh Sakura is replaced with Mozu aaaaaahhhhh that’s adorable auhfiughdfysdgf

OH YM GOD

Ryoma is Yukimura I’m This playthrough is going to end me tbh---

I don’t think I’m ever going to get over Felicia being Takumi and Azura being Ryoma tbh holy heck

also I really hope Felicia turns out to be a class that can use bows so that she could possibly have Fujin Yumi idk how it works tho ahahahhhh;;;;;;

I’m not getting over this, I can’t wait to see more of Felicia being passive aggressive/throwing the extreme SALT around

Azura, Takumi just asked if u were alright, I don’t really think humming is gonna help u with answering him-

Azura, High Princess of NoChill-shido

aaaand more vanilla sibliings (I’m sorry, I didn’t have the courage to try to get Revelation to work-)

It’s at times like this when you realise just how different Hinoka and Takumi are when it comes to acting towards u at the start asfhiudfsiudh

WELP ANYWAY that concludes the Proloooogue, time to get right into Chapter 1 aaaaaah

also this is what I was talking about with the button being blank ahahahh;;;;

time to see Felicia and Jakob’s replacements ayyyy OH MY GOD

Felicia is now an Oni Savage Hana holy heck- JAKOB IS KAZE I’M GOING TO DI E

OH MY GOD Flora asked Hana if she’d help w/ waking Corrin up and Hana’s voiceline was just ‘No’ aioasdfudfhsudfs I think I’m going to do Chapter 2 as well seeing as basically nothing will be different this chapter b/c I ain’t doing Conquest ahahah;;;

I always seem to forget how tutorial heavy fe games are, but especially in Fates :’’’’D ayyyy first level up! ..... I only got hp! :’’’’’’’’D yikes that was an awful level up audgaiufhaduf do the growth rates change for Corrin? idek ahahah (no they don’t seem to)

anyway hope ur ready to Die, Xander if not then.................. well this is Birthright ayyyy lmao

aaanyway we don’t need to see this cutscene we’ve already seen it before many tiiiimes because it’s exactly the saaaaaaaaaame but there’s Leo with his inside out collar again lmao there’s a tag on it and everything that’s cute

You know what I realised the other day though??? A unit’s clothing can get ripped in this game, idk what causes it tho, probably getting low on HP, and it’s certainly not fixed magically w/ healing it’s a funny little detail idek

lmao bye Hana we won’t see u again for a whiiiile ahahh;;;;

onto Chapter 2! :D (I love this so far ngl, oh my Farore)

So! who are the Hoshidan prisoners!? >:D oh yeah we have to see Ganon- GARON, first asjhifadufa Dragon Veins, Ganglari, magic from Valla, yadda yadda yaddaaaaa PRISONERS!

..........oh my Farore-

Kaze don’t be mean >:V I mean.... yeah tea sounds great right now but THAT DOESN’T MATTER U were in their position once, in an alternate universe :Y

........................... Holy Hylia-

...... So does this mean I can call Jakob a grill he certainly does roast ppl a lot in the original-

WHAT ARE THE ODDS

THAT RINKAH REPLACES KAZE- it was really funny tho, when Corrin said ‘Huh? Have you heard of me?’ Rinkah just said nothing, but her mouth was open and her voice line was ‘What?’ so I’m just imagining her like ‘Bitch, I am Hurt’

yeah yeah Dragon Vein tutorial and all that I GET IT- Let’s look at Kaze’s stats and skills! >:D

...... Holy shit he’s a monster

His personal skill is Collector, which is super neat because hey! free stuff! :D He also has Seal Magic which could be good with his terrible less than stellar Resistance, and Good Fortune, which restores up to 20% HP EACH TURN, well.... based on his luck stat, which is..... pretty bad lmao- maybe he has a really good Luck stat growth idk (I peeked at the output file after having played the chapter and his stat growths are HP = 15, Str = 30, Mag = 35, Skill = 50, Spd = 25, Lck = 50, Def = 20, Res = 40, so yeah, pretty decent barring HP and Def haha;;;) But LOOK AT THAT STRENGTH HE’S A BEAST AND A C RANK IN SPEARS THAT’S FANTASTIC UGH- Kaze........ my man, I can’t wait to see what you can Heart Seal into it could probably be really cool, or..... pretty bad, idk anything could happen with this randomiser

I just realised how ironic his randomised class was; he went from a light, speed based Hoshidan class to a bulky, defence based Nohrian class ahahah;;;

but enough digressing! Let’s get started! >:D

....... Goddesses damn it Kaze, why do you have such an adorable laugh u’r gonna kill me- also don’t lie, you can’t use staves :V Anyway, I shouldn’t bother letting Gunter get experience because reasons, this is Birthright-

I’m just gonna end the turn without doing anything and see what happens, because I want them to still be paired up when they attack/still be on the healtile;;;

Rest in pieces, generic samurai.

Look at how quick these guys are to throw their lives away, how cute. Another level uuuuup 1 point to Speed and Luck, wow that’s.... not all that great, but I’m not going to have a lot of luck anyway so I should just take what I can get :V

Jakob no, it’s no use You have a club and your against a sword I mean yeah you survive but not for long m8

....... I hate to break it to ya, Jakob, buuuut

ah jeez, Corrin almost leveled up again-

Dammit Corrin, we could have finished it there and then if you had just HIT HER- no matter, she should be done now

Ayyy, level up for Kaze!

And it’s pretty darn good too! :V

I still can’t believe that Kaze replaces Jakob, like, they couldn’t be any different with how they treat people- I’m not complaining tho; means I get Kaze pretty early on >:3c ayyy he got Defence +2! :D

aww that’s the end of the Chapter ;;u;;

ooooh hey! Jakob’s a Nohr Prince and Rinkah’s a Spear Fighter! (That makes what Jakob said earlier even better lmao;;; ) I can’t wait to see Jakob turn into a mcfreaking DRAGON awwww yeeeaaaah >:3ccccc

oh yeah, Garon talking about ‘kill the Hoshidans!’ all that nonsense like, bruh. nah. I want a Nohr Prince and Spear Fighter, yo. it’s funny how Jakob still stands the way he does tho, but I can’t get a picture of it agusdasusfgha

ahhh, wheesht Xander, u idiot, you know more than anyone that there’s something definitely up with Garon and all that stuff with the vanilla Nohr siblings yadda yadda

Ok you can’t really see it, but there’s Jakob standing the way he usually does lol

Why u gotta be so r00000d it’s still oddly fitting that he’s in the place of Rinkah, tho; it’s like, what Jakob would act like towards Corrin if he hadn’t been their butler, albeit a little less passive aggressive :V

JAKOB I told u to STOP-

aww man, that’s the real end of the chapter

safjuhduhfsdufhasf I wanna play moooore but I shouldn’t make this go on too long ;;;;u;;;; So u can bet that I’ll keep going later hahahah;;;;

Sorry for the low quality images btw, I might look into getting a screenshot plugin at some point, idk I also don’t know how often I should do these, so if anyone who bothered to get this far could tell me what they would think would be best that would be really great :0

[grilledcheem]

This is the last post that the amazing @commodorecliche tagged me in (that i know of)

RULES: ANSWER THESE 85 QUESTIONS AND TAG SOME PEOPLE

since it’s super long it’s under a cut

THE LAST

1. DRINK: Mountain Dew

2. PHONE CALL: Mom

3. TEXT MESSAGE: see above

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Freewill by Rush

5. TIME YOU CRIED: A couple months ago?? Idk

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: Nope

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: I’ve kissed one person so no?

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: no

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yes.

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: i have depression. so. yeah.

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: yeah.

 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. blue

13. green

14. mauve

 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: sure have!

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: never been in love so no

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: sure have.

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: nope

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: yes, my therapist thank god

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: yes? what does this mean?

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: *insert it’s been 84 years meme here*

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: all but maybe a couple of them

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: two cats - Lily and Luigi, one dog- Duke

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: nah.

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: my aunt and uncle forgot it was my birthday so I didn’t do anything rip me

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 7:30am for training at 9am

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: sleeping

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: I’m going to see Fall Out Boy in October

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: Tuesday

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Nothing because the person I’m hanging out with TURNED THE MUSIC OFF

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: yup. My parents were friends with him.

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: training ugh i hate how much we have to do but at least i’m getting paid

34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: good old tamblr

35. HAIR COLOUR: dark brown normally but right now it’s purple

36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short

37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: nah that’s for people who have their life more together than me

38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i got nice legs?

39. PIERCINGS: yes - my ears are pierced and i have my septum pierced

40. BLOOD TYPE: O-

41. NICKNAME: none because it’s hard to get a nickname out of hannah

42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single

43. ZODIAC: astrology is bullshit, but sagittarius

44. PRONOUNS: she/her, they/them

45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: Voltron and Star Trek: The Next Generation

46. TATTOOS: piglet on my left forearm but hopefully soon i’ll get one from legend of zelda on my right thigh

47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right

48. SURGERY: wisdom teeth and a laparoscopy

50. SPORT: volleyball, basketball, track and field

51. VACATION: like what was my last one or what one i would like? Bruh i can’t afford food right now let alone a vacay

52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: like sneakers? Adidas and converse.

 MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: nothing right now.

54. DRINKING: nothing

55. I’M ABOUT TO: punch in my time for training so i can get paid

56. WAITING FOR: MONEY BITCH MONEY

57. WANT: to play overwatch right now

58. GET MARRIED: i gotta talk to people first dude

WHICH IS BETTER:

60. HUGS OR KISSES: either/or depending on who’s giving them.

61. LIPS OR EYES: eyes

62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller.

63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: either.

64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: nice arms

65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship.

66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: troublemaker.

 HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: no

68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: yes

69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: nope! But i wear them

70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yup

71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nope

72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: yup..

73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: yup.

74. BEEN ARRESTED: no.

75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes

76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yes

 DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: sometimes

78. MIRACLES: ehhh

79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no. but i like the idea of it

80. SANTA CLAUS: no. parents told me when i was 3 that santa was a scam

81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yes.

82. ANGELS: nope unless they’re aliens

 OTHER:

84. EYE COLOUR: dark brown

85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: Howl’s Moving Castle

[ravenreadsrapidly]

~BOOK TAG~

50 Bookish Questions

Gonna start off the blog with this because... Why not?

1. What is your favourite book and/or book series of all time?

Ummmm..... Honestly? As much as I’d love to answer the first f*cking question I really just can’t because hi, I love way too many books to have a favorite m’kay?

2. What is the longest book you have ever read? How many pages?

Okay, probably... High 500′s-Low 600′s? I mainly read YA novels so I mean... Yeah, nothing too long or too profound I guess.

3. What is the oldest book you have ever read? (Based on its written date)

Honestly- Ummmm... Probably some school mandated book that I had to spend way too long analyzing because ya know gotta love the curriculum man but yeah, probably, “Their Eyes Were Watching God,” by Zora Neale Hurston.

4. What is a book series that everyone else loves but you do not?

Okay, getting into some shade now. Um... I remember when like, the matched series was so hyped up and I just... Didn’t like it too much? The selection series wasn’t too amazing or anything either but I mean that’s just my opinion. Props to you if you loved that book.

5. What book or book series would you like to see turned into a film/ TV series?

Okay, House of Night as a TV series would be so good, just... Yes.

6. What is your favourite stand-alone book?

Probably... Ooo this is a good one. My Life Next Door by Huntley Fitzpatrick is pretty good, it’s also the first one to come to mind so we’ll go with that for right now.

7. What is a book that you feel glad for not reading?

Honestly? Fifty Shades of Gray can stay FAR away from my ever growing TBR pile

8. What is a book that you feel guilty for not not reading?

... The 50 books that are on my TBR pile that I just haven’t gotten to yet.

9. What is a book you have read that is set in your country of birth?

Ummm... A majority of the books I read are set in the United States so heck yeah man. For an example... I guess I could say the majority of the Mortal Instruments series?

10. What is a book that you own more than one copy of?

I feel attacked... The Mortal Instruments series. How many copies I have is nOne Of YoUr coNcerN

11. What horror book made you really scared?

Hm... I don’t read horror all too often but The murder Complex by Lindsey Cummings was pretty unsettling?

12. What book do you passionately hate?

OkAy. There’s one book I just... I couldn’t get through without feeling... entirely disgusted. It was... I believe it was... Yeah! All the Rage by Courtney Summers. It was just... So graphic and I suppose the things depicted in the book were too inaccurate and played off for me. It upset me in ways I don’t really like discussing, so I’d just... Yeah I’d say that’s probably the book I hate the most.

13. What is the biggest book series you have read? How many books are in it?

Okay. Here’s the tea. I suck at reading series. I’m currently reading House of Night and Throne of Glass but I mean.... They’re both on my TBR right now since I’m rereading the Lux series by Jennifer L. Armentrout so I mean... I guess the longest series that I’ve finished is The Mortal Instruments Series WhOoPs.

14. What book gives you happy memories?

Okay, this is an amazing question. It’d have to be... Hm... Okay, Unenchanted by Chanda Hahn. I don’t have the slightest clue why, I guess it’s a book I read during a hard time in my life and it was just so sweet and pure and wholesome and just thinking about it and reminicing gives me warm, fuzzy feelings.

15. What book made you cry?

WhAt bOoK hAsn’T?!?! Um... I guess in all seriousness though... Okay, avoding the basic answer of, “ALLIGENT” I’m gonna go with... Okay Cruel Beauty by Rosamund Hodge. That book is definitely one of my favorites 10/10 would recommend it’s gr8

16. What book made you laugh?

Hm... The Vampire Academy series overall is pretty funny, Rose is a riot.

17. What is your favourite book that contains an LGBTQ+ character?

Y’all. Listen. I’m gay as f*ck. My boyfriend is great just a subtle PDA because I so love that man. But um... okay The Mortal Instruments series again but not because Alec because f*ck Alec. Magnus Bane is my spirit animal.

18. Have you read a book with a male protagonist? What is it?

Good. Question. Ummm.... Hatchet! by Gary Paulsen, hell yeah. I didz it.

19. Have you read a book set on another planet? What is it?

Does outer space count...? Um... SKSKSKSKSKSKSKS gah, I’ve read books with Aliens... But on a different planet...? I guess I started reading These Broken Stars. That should count... Right...?

20. Have you ever been glad to not finish a series? Which?

OkAy No! I refuse to DNF books, I’m sorry but I will not. They just get put onto the TBR list.

21. Have you ever read a book series because you were pressured?

Pffff ummm.... Probably not! None of my friends read so I mean hahahahahahaha ow

22. What famous author have you not read any books by?

Sksksksksks um.... I have a few Rainbow Rowell books but I sadly haven’t gotten to reading them yet don’t kill me plz plz plz I promise I’m plannin on reading em

23. Who is your favourite author of all time?

Of ALL TiMe?!?! Gahhh! That’s so hard!!!! Um... Okay. I’m committing. Cassandra Clare and I’m so not sorry.

24. How many bookshelves do you own?

Two big bois~~~ Mmmmm I love looking at my books.

25. How many books do you own?

Um... E-enough... Not enough. Must buy more. Must buy more book babies <3

26. What is your favourite non-fiction book?

Okay, not a huge fan of non-fiction. Not gonna lie about that. Not one bit not at all. But probably... Grrrr.... Nope, can’t do it. I can’t read non-fiction I’m sorry man.

27. What is your favourite children’s/middle-grade book?

Basic bitch answer but: HaRrY PoTtEr

28. What is your next book on your TBR?

SKSKSKSKSSKSKSSKSKSSKSKSKS LEMME FINNISH THE LUX SERIES STOP JUDGINGGGGGGGGG!

29. What book are you currently reading?

... The Lux series

30. What book are you planning on buying next?

Honestly? I have no idea. I just kinda... Let myself go into a book store and browse for hours until my wallet is empty.

31. What was the cheapest book you bought?

Bruh. Used book stores that you find next to libraries are a God sent. Some are like... 25 cents? And they’re in Godly condition? It’s amazing.

32. What was the most expensive book you bought?

Um... Manual wise? Like $70, but book book? Maybe $40 on a pre-ordered, signed, hardcover...

33. What is a book you read after seeing the movie/ TV series?

Mortal Instruments! I’ll admit it! It was still fucking better than the movie, fight me. Books are 99.99999% of the time always better.

34. What is the newest book you have bought?

Recently I got, “The Sun is Also A Star,” and, “The Cruel Prince.” So.... Yes. I’m excite.

35. What three books are you most looking forward to reading this year?

Honestly? I have so many books on my TBR and I’m so excited for all of them.

36. What is a book you love that has a terrible trope? (Love triangle, etc)

Twilight. Enough said. Don’t @ me

37. Have you read a book in a different language? What was it?

Nope! I’m not bilingual but I’m learning German because yes.

38. What is a book you’ve read that is set in a time period before you were born?

The Infernal Devices Trilogy, mmm yes feed my soul with perfection.

39. What book offended you?

Um... Thirteen Reasons Why was offensive for five billion reasons tbh.

40. What is the weirdest book you have read?

OOOOOOOOH okay, honestly? Charming by Krystal Wade was pretty weird.

41. What is your favourite duology?

MMM I’ve read a bit of Six of Crows and it’s pretty good but idk, that’s probably it tbh.

42. What is your favourite trilogy?

... The Infernal Devices.

43. What book did you buy because of its cover?

The thousandth floor.... Don’t judge me.

44. What is a book that you love, but has a terrible cover?

ALL THE TEA IN THE WORLD, but I think any book that has a Movie Tie in Cover just automatically is unattractive... My bad.

45. Do you own a poetry anthology? What is your favourite poem from it?

I don’t! But I do want to start exploring books written in Verse

46. Do you own any colouring books based off other books?

Hm... No... But now I want some...

47. Do you own any historical fiction?

I don’t think so? But the “And I Darken” series has been calling my name for a while so...

48. What book made you angry?

Honestly? The last book of the Divergent series. It was just.. No. It was a let down. And I loved that series with my whole heart.

49. What book has inspired you?

Hm... probably... in all seriousness? It’d probably have to be the shadow falls series. I can’t explain why but... It helped me keep going and pushing forward.

50. What book got you into reading?

Definintely The Mortal Instruments Series. No doubt about it.