#not even upset about it just like why would she not utilize the entire band make it make sense

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

genuinely my ONLY quibble is that Fall Out Boy is credited as the feature on Electric Touch but only Patrick was involved. if you look at the credits none of the other guys played on it at all, which first of all is a bummer bc they're all great musicians, but my main issue is that like, Hayley got a solo artist feature. which makes sense, because she has a solo career as an artist. but Patrick Stump has also done solo music, so how come even though he's the only member of FOB that had any involvement with Electric Touch, he didn't get a solo credit too??

[confusednarcissistwrites]

Teenage Dirtbag Pt.5 (K.S.)

strap in babies: this is rough one. love you all and hope you are staying safe 💛 enjoy

(cancer, v sad)

The minute the door slammed behind Kyle, you sunk the floor, pulling your knees to your chest and letting out a heavy sigh. No one else made you quite so ferocious in only a matter of moments. Yet, even so, you felt that obnoxious pang of guilt in your stomach for raising your voice at him. You often left confrontational situations feeling guilty; it was merely circumstance that most of the confrontation in your life was with him at that time. At least that’s what you told yourself.

You stood abruptly with a growl, frustrated with yourself. As much as you’d like to sit and rationalize with yourself forever, you knew in the end that the nagging feeling rarely left entirely. Perhaps he was right; you had very consensually slept with him twice with little to no complaint before blowing up on him. You could understand how he might be confused. You came to the conclusion that you had just been set off by his abrupt arrival, and that you’d apologize next time you saw him.

However, the next day, Kyle was absent from the class you shared with him. This was incredibly unusual as it was a criminal justice class he practically led most days, and he rarely missed classes in general. You struggled to pay attention, the guilt in your belly growing and gnawing at you. Was he okay? Had your words affected him more than you realized? What if he did something stupid? Something unthinkable? You were nauseous by the end of class, thinking yourself into a dither. Rationally, you knew he would never, but he’d done more than a few things you’d seen as out of character as of late. As soon as class ended, you spotted one of the boys from his band. Taking a deep breath, you approached him.

“Hey, Tony. Have you seen Kyle today?” you asked, hoping he wouldn’t pry.

Half baked, he shook his shaggy hair. “Nah, weird huh? Wonder what the little guy’s up to..”

“Mm, thank you,” you replied distractedly, not entirely convinced he was a reliable source. However, you had little else to go off of. You knew you had to make sure he was okay.

Your feet carried you swiftly to your car. Once in your driver’s seat, you found yourself unable to catch your breath. Were you being rational about all this? You really had no reason to be this concerned. Heaven knows he wouldn’t be if the shoe was on the other foot. You let out a long breath, pressing your palms against the steering wheel. Your conscience refused to let you just drop it and drive home.

The drive to his house felt oddly automatic despite how long it had been. Everything looked the same. White picket fences, square, manicured lawns, and housewives sprawled out in lawn chairs drinking sweet tea in the sun: The American Dream. But you knew better. The Scheible home had taught you much about how deceiving the appearance of a home could be. Bright white smiles sometimes hide the most bitter sadness.

You parked next to the curb, noticing an unfamiliar utility van sat in his driveway. Curiosity sparked, you hurried up the steps to the front door and knocked, suddenly feeling a little silly for being there. Too late to turn back now.

Mrs. Scheible answered the door. She flashed you a shiny smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Y/N, sweetie, what a surprise! Is there something I can do for you?” she asked. You could instantly see things were not good. She wore dark, puffy circles under her bloodshot eyes, and her normally manicured hands dry and the polish chipped. She normally invited everyone in without a second thought. Fear clenched your stomach.

“Hi, Darlene,” you smiled. “Is Kyle home?”

“Yes, he is. I’ll go get him for you, okay?”

You nodded, trying to convey as much sympathy for her as you could without saying anything. As she closed the door, your eyes found the van in the driveway again, and it all suddenly clicked into place.

Nurses. For his father.

You felt a bit queasy, feeling even more ridiculous for thinking he could possibly be upset over a squabble with you when he had much more pressing matters going on at home. Your thoughts were interrupted when the door was pulled open again, Kyle stepping out onto the doormat and closing the door behind him. It was as if the family was afraid the tragedy living inside their home would escape through the front door if it was held open too long.

You felt a pang in your chest as you took in the sight of him. It had been less than 24 hours since you’d seen him last, but he looked thinner, a shell of the boy you knew. His eyes looked like his mom’s.

“Hey.” His voice was weak.

“Hi,” you responded dumbly. “I-I, uh- you weren’t until class today. I was just… making sure you were okay?” It came out as more of a question than a statement. You weren’t sure why you were there anymore.

“Ah,” he replied, his arms wrapping around his middle. The silence hung heavy between you, his lack of a response speaking volumes.

“I’m sorry,” you blurted, picking at your fingers. “I shouldn’t have yelled at you yesterday.”

He blinked at you as if he didn’t remember for a moment. “You had every right to react the way you did,” he responded, shaking his head.

“No, I didn’t,” you sighed, hating how defeated he sounded. “You were right; I was giving you mixed signals and I just can’t expect you to read my mind. I think we… both have some uncertainty about what we’re feeling.” You met his eyes finally, seeing him give you a little nod of agreement. “And I can see you definitely have a lot more serious matters on your plate right now.”

He audibly swallowed, his eyes blinking rapidly for a moment. “Yeah,” he choked.

Overcome, you acted on pure instinct, wrapping your arms around his middle and pulling him into a tight hug. He tensed at first, but slowly relaxed, reciprocating your tight grip. You felt a shuddery breath leave his thin frame and could hear him physically fighting not to break down. “It’s okay,” you assured, feeling a knot in your own throat now.

He abruptly pulled back, hands wiping at his eyes harshly. “Thank you,” he breathed, giving you a tight-lipped smile as he stepped back toward the door. You wanted nothing more than to resist him pushing you away, but there was nothing you could do. You couldn’t rescue him from the realities waiting for him inside. You couldn’t ease the pain of losing a father one day at a time. So you just stood there helplessly, watching as he stepped back into his home and closed the door behind him. You weren’t sure how long it was before you finally came back to yourself and returned to your car.

++++++

You didn’t remember much of the drive when you arrived back at your dorm. You felt completely disconnected from everything around you. Walking into your empty dorm felt almost like a relief. You knew exactly what you needed.

You numbly pulled your phone from your pocket, selecting your mom’s contact. She answered after just a few rings.

“Hi, baby! How are you?” she greeted cheerfully.

You felt your throat tighten, tears welling up in your eyes. You couldn’t help but feel so grateful to have her there and healthy and available.

“I, um.. I’m kind of a mess, actually,” you replied, letting out a little sad laugh.

“What’s going on?” she asked, worry filling her voice.

You told her everything. She’d known about Kyle and everything that had happened during the breakup, but everything since then was new. You poured out every anxiety and doubt until you had nothing left to say, and she listened carefully to every word. By the end you were a blubbering mess.

“I just… I don’t know how I’m feeling. I don’t trust that I’m not just wanting to take care of him through this trauma he’s going through,” you sniffled, wiping your eyes with yet another tissue. You had a pretty impressive pile growing beside you at this point.

Your mother was quiet for a moment, thinking. “Honey, you have a big heart. I think that your desire to help Kyle is what drew you two together in the first place. You always wanted to teach him vulnerability.” You listened carefully, her words becoming your gospel as always. “But, I think you know that it’s more than that to you now.”

You felt stupid for not seeing it sooner. All the turmoil and heartache; how could you not have seen how much you still cared for him? You had never stopped caring for him. “I’m just scared he doesn’t feel the same. What if he just thinks he needs me right now so he can get through this?”

“Well, you’re going to have to decide if that’s a risk you’re willing to take or not, sweetheart.” Her tone was calm and resolute, convincing you it was really just that simple.

“Okay,” you replied finally, a shaky sigh leaving your tense body.

“I love you bunches. I know you’ll make the right decision, hon.”

“I love you too, Mom.”

You both said your goodbyes and hung up, leaving you a ball of snot and tears. Gathering up your tissues, you thought about all the things she had told you. Though your mind fought to keep up, your heart had really already made its decision. You just prayed you’d make it out in one piece on the other end of all this.

+++++

A few days passed. You found yourself thinking of him almost always. You texted him occasionally to check in, but it was never more. He needed space to be with his family, and you respected that. You just wanted him to know that you were never far if he needed you. It was draining to worry so much about something so far removed from you, but you remembered your mom’s words and prayed you were doing the right thing.

It was very early Sunday morning when he finally called. You quickly sat up, knowing it could only be him calling you at this time.

“Hello?”

His ragged breaths came from the other end of the line.

“Y-N... he’s gone.”

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[asian-hero]

Is It Just Me Or Are We Soulmates? -15 (finale)

this is the end. if you want to read this on ao3 then i’ve posted a link before this one :)

if you haven’t read the entire series and want to read it on tumblr then you can type in shance on my blog and you’ll find it

A year later Lance had moved from his tiny apartment to Shiro’s moderately sized house. His lease was about to expire and Shiro had suggested that he move in with them. He joked that he could use an extra pair of hands to help with Misaki. Lance hadn’t even left room for Shiro to breathe before he said yes, quite enthusiastically. 

They didn’t necessarily tell Misaki about them, but they didn’t try to hide it from her either. Eventually she understood what they were to each other and even started calling the both of them “dad”. The first time she called Shiro “dad” instead of “uncle Takashi” he started to tear up. He never thought that he’d ever want a kid, but now that he had one, he never wanted to let her go. Hearing her call him “dad” was probably one of the best days of his life, other than Lance forgiving him, and then proceeding to move in with him.

Speaking of Lance, he had gotten a job as a teacher’s aid for elementary school. It was his dream to become a teacher some day, it’s what he went to school for. With that being said, there was little free time that he had to spend with Shiro and Misaki, as he had more work than imaginable. He always made sure that he’d see Misaki at dinner, and tuck her in when Shiro was too busy with his own work. Although he definitely felt tired almost every day, he wouldn’t trade his life for anything in the world. 

Both he and Shiro were back on loving terms. It took a month for Lance to finally be comfortable with Shiro again, and the other man was more than willing to wait for him. Lance remembers that everyday he’d wake up to the sound of Shiro knocking on his door, a single rose and coffee in his hand to greet him. After that they’d talk about anything going on in their lives; Shiro would talk about Misaki finally going to school and being extremely excited while Lance would talk about all of the kids in his class and how half of them would grow up to be douchebags. Eventually Lance got comfortable enough to finally do “couple” things: like holding hands, cuddling on the couch, kissing, going on dates. These few months had definitely been some of his favorites. 

That’s why when he blew nearly three month’s paycheck on an engagement ring, he wasn’t necessarily upset. Sure, it was a lot of money for a plain gold band, but for Shiro, it was worth it. Sure, he would’ve liked to save that money up for something else, like helping Shiro with the bills, but he was sure that the other man wouldn’t mind if he had to skip a couple of month’s pay. In fact, Lance knew that for a fact, because he had to pester Shiro about helping with the utilities bills, despite Shiro saying that he made enough money for them to live comfortably.

Now here Lance was, currently driving to Misaki’s school, the ring box sitting uncomfortably on his lap, with one hand on the steering wheel while the other one held the box with a death grip. His plan was to pick up Misaki, under the guise of wanting to spend more time with his new family member, then ask her about how she felt about Shiro and him getting married. Of course, it was going to be slightly difficult to explain all of this to a first grader, but hopefully she’d get the gist of it.

Waiting in his car, he felt a smile growing on his face when he saw Misaki running towards his car. Opening the door, she jumped in, a toothy grin plastered onto her face.

“Dad!”

Lance smiled at her, ignoring the erratic beating of his heart at the name. “Hey Misa. How was school?”

As Lance started the car she started going on about meeting new friends and telling them about Japan. occasionally he’d check in the rearview mirror to make sure that she was still buckled in. Shiro would have his head if anything happened to her. Once they were back at their house Lance parked the car and turned around in his seat, a nervous smile on his face.

“Hey Misa, can I ask you a question?”

She nodded her head enthusiastically. He took in a deep breath before asking: “How do you feel about me and your dad?”

Misaki tilted her head, almost as if she was thinking. “Happy.”

Lance smiled, feeling the nervousness in the pit of his stomach disappear. “You know how in those princess movies that you watch, the prince and princess always get married?”

She smiled, her lips stretching wide across her face. “The princess always looks so pretty!”

Lance nodded his head, grinning slightly. “Yes, they do. How would you feel if,” He pulled out the box, flipping it open for Misaki to see, “If I asked your dad to marry me?”

Misaki scrunched up her nose for a minute before responding. “Neither of you would wear a princess dress though,”

He laughed, poking her slightly. “You could wear one.”

Her eyes lit up at this notion. She started to bounce in her seat, a gleeful noise coming out of her mouth. “Okay!”

Lance looked at her, a soft smile appearing on his face. He held his finger to his lips, shushing her. “You can’t tell your dad, though. It’ll ruin the surprise.”

She nodded her head, moving her hands to motion her zipping her lips shut. Lance giggled, feeling a new sense of happiness fill him.

Now he was facing the biggest obstacle in his life.

———

Lance spent an embarrassing amount of time figuring out how to propose to Shiro. He thought about taking him to a nice restaurant, maybe enjoy a night alone before kneeling down. But the thought of embarrassing himself in front of a bunch of people in the restaurant made him strike that idea off. He also thought about proposing with a scavenger hunt, but he quickly realized that he had no idea of whether Shiro was well versed in traveling through Seattle, so he also took that one off.

Eventually he settled for probably one of the most simple ideas he could’ve come up with: wrapping up the ring box and placing it with the many presents under the Christmas tree. Honestly, Lance would rather be rejected inside of their house rather than in front of hundreds of people. 

The entire time he was wrapping the tiny box his hands were shaking. He had to redo it all over again multiple times because it needed to be perfect. The bows that they had stashed away were slightly bigger than the box, making the gift look slightly awkward. After trying to fiddle with it for fifteen minutes, Lance sighed, slapping a gift tag on it and writing Shiro’s name on it. 

Finally, on the day of Christmas, Lance was woken by a very giggly girl and an equally giggly man poking at him to get up. He lazily swatted away their hands, opening his eyes slightly.

“Can I help you?”

Shiro smiled at him, shaking his shoulders slightly. “It’s Christmas. Misaki wants to go and open some gifts,”

Lance sighed dramatically, flopping his arms on the bed. After a couple of seconds he sat up, a tired grin resting on his face. “Alright you oversized puppy, let’s go.”

They watched as Misaki ran down the stairs, squealing in delight when she saw the presents under the tree. It took about twenty minutes for her to finish opening up her presents, and once she was done, she immediately went to play with her new toys which included: two new dolls, a gigantic dollhouse, a toy car, and one of those mini toy ovens with plastic food. 

Shiro went over to pick up the excess wrapping paper when he noticed one tiny gift left sitting underneath the tree. Picking it up, he noticed his name on the side of it. Looking towards Lance, he pointed at the gift.

“This is for me?”

Lance shrugged his shoulders, trying his best to keep his nerves at bay. “I don’t know. Open it and see what Santa got you.”

Shiro rolled his eyes, setting down the wrapping paper mess for a minute. After carefully peeling off the wrapping paper he looked at the tiny black box in his hands. Opening it slowly, he felt his mouth open, tears beginning to prick at the corners of his eyes. 

Lance got up and sat next to him, gently plucking the box out of his hands and getting onto his knee. “Now listen, I know that we’ve never really talked about marriage before, and it’s totally fine if you just want to keep our relationship like this.”

“But I love you so much and I’ve been planning this for a while and I had a whole speech planned but now I can’t seem to remember anything.”

Shiro laughed at this, which caused Lance to smile before continuing. “What I do know is that there’s no one else I’d rather spend my life with, and I’m not just saying that because we’re soulmates and you’re kinda stuck with me. You’re the most genuine person that I’ve ever met, and you’re just so kind and caring. I honestly don’t know what I did in a past life to get you, but I know that I’m happier than I’ve ever been before.”

“So what I’m trying to say is: will you marry me?”

Shiro sat there for a while, tears freely flowing down his cheeks. Before Lance could take what he said back Shiro tackled him to the ground, hugging him tightly.

“Of course I’ll marry you!”

Lance wheezed, patting Shiro’s back. “Hey babe, I get you’re happy and all, but I can’t breathe,”

Shiro sat up with a sheepish smile. He gave his hand to Lance, who slid on the ring, silently breathing a sigh of relief when he saw that it fit perfectly. Running his finger over it, Lance laughed, resting his head against Shiro’s.

“You know,” he started, a smile on his face, “I always imagined that I’d propose at such a romantic place, with the sunset in view and a planned speech in my mind. I never thought that I’d propose on Christmas morning in the most basic way imaginable.”

Shiro huffed out a laugh, pressing a kiss to his temple. “Well, I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

Lance felt content. Of course, this was far from what he thought his family would be, but he definitely wouldn’t change it for the world.

And he couldn’t wait to get married to Shiro and live his unusual life.

[cookehenry90]

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[thefreelanceangel]

IC Consequences–the Result of IC Actions

con·se·quence ˈkänsikwəns noun plural noun: consequences 1. a result or effect of an action or condition.

Effect follows cause, yes? Reaction follows action. If you pour too much water into a cup, the cup will overflow. Your action–pouring water without paying attention to the amount–results in a consequence: water all over the counter and floor. 

In the Land of RP, understanding that a reaction follows an action can be tricky. You are, after all, not dealing with absolutes but with people, story, plot and creative writing. However, the basic rule of “cause, effect” stands. 

What is an IC Consequence?

When you say something thoughtless to your best friend and they become upset, their emotions are the reaction to your action. In essence, the apology you have to make for being thoughtless is the consequence you suffer for your actions. 

A character also has to deal with consequences of their actions. We like examples, don’t we? So we’ll grab a random character–come here, Chessi, you’ll do nicely for this–and put her through a few instances to demonstrate what we’re discussing. 

For our first example, we’ll pick something as clear-cut and dried as possible. Let’s start with the action.

Without looking ahead, Chessi bolted down the street, a frog clutched firmly (yet carefully) in one hand. She ducked around the corner and slammed right into a Seraph. As she stumbled back, blinking in confusion, the frog escaped her grip and jumped, smacking right into the Seraph’s face. 

The actions here are: Chessi ran heedlessly, didn’t look before she ran around the corner and didn’t keep her grip on the frog. So what are the reactions to this?

Sword clattering to the cobblestones, the Seraph stumbled. Already thrown off-balance by the impact of blonde-to-chest, he flailed a moment. When the frog smacked him in the face, sticky feet clinging to the edge of his helmet, the Seraph scraped at it, slinging the frog back onto the blonde. Glowering at her, he retrieved his sword and grabbed her arm. “...let’s go.”

The reactions here are: the Seraph dropped his sword and became angry at Chessi for her carelessness before utilizing his authority to command her to come with him, presumably for punishment. 

Assuming the Seraph’s player is a reasonable individual with an understanding of RP, the punishment would likely be a little community service or a lecture on the importance of being careful. Chessi would apologize profusely, hang her head and either go about her community service or listen to the lecture before being more careful for at least a couple of days. 

Consequences for IC actions are not always punishment, physical injury or death. If your character is snappy, sarcastic and unpleasant to someone asking where the tavern is, the consequences of your character’s actions are that the person is going to steer clear of them. Perhaps even talk about them to other people and spread rumors that they’re someone to avoid. 

For every action, there is a reaction to consider–even something as simple as refusing to help someone carry a basket has consequences.

If a character doesn’t like yours because they’ve been unpleasant to them, met them at a bad time, were interrupted by them, etc, etc. then the consequences of your character’s actions are that character’s reactions. A consequence is not always punishment; it is the reaction to your character’s action.

When IC Consequences Aren’t Simple

It’s not always a simple incident, is it? A character gets into convoluted situations and is often involved in plot. By its very nature, plot involves consequences–if it didn’t involve consequences, the story would be extremely boring. 

So how do you handle more complex and potentially damaging consequences for your character?

Do not get your character into a situation you’re not prepared to write.

Do not “retcon” or duck out of a situation you wrote yourself into just because you don’t like the consequences.

Keep in mind that a story is fluid; bad consequences are not the end of the story.

Let’s look at a more damning situation and examine how those consequences play out for Chessi, shall we?

Although she’d been told to stay at the fort, Chessi’s desire to please outstripped her self-control. Rather than handle setting up the clinic area for potential wounded, the blonde strapped on her rifle and ran out after the mercenaries. She hadn’t heard the briefing and didn’t know what was going on. Which was, of course, why Chessi ran into the line of fire. Eric bolted out of position and tackled her before she could be hurt, but the plan had utterly fallen apart.

The action here is clear: Chessi disobeyed direct orders and ruined a combat plan that had been carefully orchestrated. Not only did she put herself at risk but she created a level of distraction that the mercenaries didn’t need. People are now likely to be hurt, and she’s obviously going to be in a LOT of trouble. 

Once the last wounded had been seen to, Eric stepped aside to explain to Jules what had happened. The captain, none too pleased, bellowed for Chessi. When she crept up to him, Jules backhanded her hard enough to send her into the nearest wall. Shouting about idiocy, Jules took away her rifle and ordered Eric to throw her into the cell normally reserved for captives held for ransom.

The reaction that Chessi received for her actions wasn’t unreasonable. Considering she put quite a few people at risk of injury or death and disobeyed a direct order from the captain of a band of mercenaries, it’s no surprise that she got smacked and locked up. 

These consequences have clearly not run their course. There’s no telling how long Chessi will be held in the cell or if she’ll be allowed to remain with the mercenaries. She could be thrown out of their group, demoted or even physically punished via whatever method the mercenary group has established as standard for them. 

Obviously this limits RP possibilities while Chessi is incarcerated. However, this doesn’t mean the character is “ruined.” People can come to the cell to chat with her until her final punishment is decided, and this provides the player an opportunity to decide how Chessi will handle the punishment she receives or play an alt during the incarceration downtime. 

The consequences stemming from her action will shape Chessi’s story. Maybe she’ll learn to think before she acts. If she’s thrown out of the mercenary group, perhaps she’ll find a new line of work. Perhaps one of the mercenaries will take her under his wing and try to teach her “how to mercenary” well enough that she’ll be promoted. 

Action + reaction = story

When the Consequences Are Motivated by OOC Issues

People are people. They’re not always able to completely detach themselves from their emotions or overlook their experiences in order to approach a situation in a wholly logical manner. Maybe they have specific tastes and someone’s character or RP style just rubs them the wrong way. 

Whatever the reason, it’s entirely possible that an IC consequence you’re dealing with has an OOC motivation. The trick is telling the difference and handling it appropriately.

What’s the difference?

This isn’t something you can look right at and go “Oh, they’re totally picking on me.” You have to examine context and make some educated guesses. Whatever you do, do not throw around accusations. It’s entirely possible that you misread something or that someone was having a bad day and didn’t put their usual ^^ or :) on a message that came off to you as blunt or dismissive. 

However, RPers aren’t that difficult to read. And many of us keep character journals, guild logs and other writings that show our “average” style of play. We have to make connections with other RPers, so it’s not hard to sit back and observe how people behave in groups. And how they behave towards people they don’t like. 

When the consequence is motivated by OOC issues, it will usually be disproportionate to the action and the person who has set the consequence will not be amicable about discussing an adjustment. 

You, as an RPer, have the right to discuss what affects your character, including IC consequences for IC actions. While you are responsible for playing fair with everyone included, you have the right to speak up and mention “hey this particular punishment would be really bad for my character / I’m not OOC comfortable with this / I had an idea that would have more impact.” When the IC consequences being levered against your character are driven by OOC motivation, the other player is (quite frankly) not going to give a damn about what you want or think. 

How do you handle it?

One of the best ways to handle dealing with consequences affecting your character that stem from an OOC motivation is a multi-step process. 

Make your concerns known to whoever is either administering the consequences or is in charge of the person who is doing it. 

Accept the consequences as far as you are comfortable while stating clearly that you’re willing to discuss adjustments. 

Follow through with those consequences in your RP.

Dodging all consequences, ignoring what’s going on or claiming that no one can make you write your character any one way is going to make it incredibly difficult for someone to help you. It can also ruin any chance you had of someone examining the situation objectively. No, someone can’t kill your character without your consent. (But if you signed up for an RP guild/setting/plot where permadeath was labeled a possible consequence, you did it to yourself there, bud.) They can administer reasonable consequences for your IC actions; you can accept those actions and lessen the degree to which they affect your character if you have no other recourse. 

And if you’re in a situation–a guild, a writing group, a joint story–where you are being actively abused, it won’t be limited to IC consequences. If that happens, leave. Pick up your toys and go home. There’s no reason for you to tolerate abuse over a hobby; there are other RPers in the world.

I Don’t Want This to Happen to My Character!

As the player/writer, it is your responsibility to know what you’re getting into with every character you play. Some are more likely to draw consequences than others. Chessi, our running example, is a cheerful, friendly person–obviously she’s going to get a good response on a social level. However, she’s not that bright and impulsive, traits which lead her to act in ways that aren’t always appropriate for the scene, story arc or characters she’s interacting with. 

You, as a player, are responsible for knowing your character and what kind of storylines they can participate in, as well as knowing how their flaws could (and will) incite consequences. 

Characters don’t pop up out of thin air, and they’re not a complete mystery to the person playing them. You know, after a very short time, what kind of situations your character is best suited for and what kind they’re likely to have a misstep in. 

If you put your character into a storyline or situation where their actions are likely to lead to consequences, you have no one to blame but yourself. And trying to avoid the result of your decision is going to irritate the other players as well as slow down or even halt RP for everyone involved. 

Do not play a character unless you are prepared to deal with the consequences of their decisions. Do not participate in a storyline unless you are prepared to handle the potential consequences of it.

Let’s say there’s a fancy dinner party coming up. I have two characters I could choose for it: Chessi or a noblewoman named Felicity. Chessi does not know formal etiquette, has no fancy dresses and knows nothing about fine dining. Felicity has been raised around that level of elegance and can comport herself masterfully.

If I choose to put Chessi into that situation, I have chosen to accept the consequences involved. Her inability to navigate a formally set dinner setting will likely draw the disgust of those around her. She may be asked to leave, thrown out of the house or even banished from ever attending such events until she’s proven she can behave appropriately.

Those are consequences that I have brought on myself by choosing to put a character that was not suitable to the event into play. I’d absolutely do it because it’s a new situation, a new chance to see what my character would do, but I’d also go into it fully aware that consequences may follow Chessi’s actions.

If I don’t want something to happen to my character–and we’re talking about expected possibilities, not “surprise I’m gonna stab u now” idiocy–then I am personally responsible for not putting my character in that situation. 

This also goes for knowing what kind of consequences are standard for your guild, story group, writing group, RP circle, etc. If characters of a certain rank are allowed to permakill characters with the right IC reasoning, you have no right to complain if your character is killed for doing something inappropriate, stupid or dangerous. Know the rules of the RP group you are interacting with and expect consequences accordingly; complaining after the fact only shows you didn’t bother with necessary OOC communication.

The character is only responsible for themselves; the player is responsible for knowing when and where the character should appear, what is likely to happen if they’re in the wrong place and accepting/reacting to what happens because of that decision.

Utilizing Consequences to Your Advantage

The entire reason people RP is to participate in collaborative writing. It’s a story you don’t have complete control over; that makes it exciting to both read and write. 

Consequences brought on by your character’s actions push your character’s story forward. They do much of the work for you. 

Due to her “little mishap,” Chessi was thrown out of the mercenary group she had spent half a year trying to earn a position in. It wasn’t a total loss though. When she left, one of the mercenaries gave her a letter of introduction to his cousin, a brewer. 

That letter of introduction didn’t get her a full-fledged job, but Chessi’s willingness to do anything earned the cousin’s acceptance. She even got to bunk down in the stone shed in the garden and meals came free with the position of gofer.

Due to the consequences of her actions, Chessi now has an entirely new situation to adapt to. New people to meet, new things to learn, new directions in which she can go. The plot was adjusted for me and allowed me to view Chessi in an entirely new light. 

Consequences are not the end of your character. Even if your character dies, you have a solid story to look back on and inspiration for a new beginning. You learn from every RP story that you participate in, as does your character. Accepting that consequences–while usually unpleasant for the character–are great for you as a writer is the first step to finding enjoyment in every aspect of RP. 

TL;DR

Consequences are a result of actions; remember that effect follows cause.

Those consequences can be simple or complex; they’re not always punishment or death.

OOC motivation for IC consequences is usually self-evident; any attempt at discussion to adjust will likely be shut down.

Don’t dodge consequences even if you don’t like them.

You are responsible for accepting the consequences when you put the character into the situation.

Consequences do much of the “plot” work for you; let them shape your character’s story.

[calorieworkouts]

The dance of life

This 'athletic musician' shares his approach to staying healthy in mind, body and spirit

Derek Hough is recognized by several for his popular attribute functions on the struck TELEVISION programs World of Dance and Dancing With the Stars. He credits his lifelong sense of inquisitiveness and hunger to discover new points with leading him to his career success as well as to an energetic, healthy and balanced as well as fulfilling life.

Discovering a passion

From a young age, Hough was always finding out. Born in Sandy, Utah, in the Salt Lake City location, he is one of five kids-- including his sibling, Julianne, who learnt dance with him as well as with whom he still teams up and explores. He bears in mind that his family was always actively developing. "We were always in lessons maturing, either karate courses, or swimming lessons, or art course, or dancing courses certainly, as well as drum lessons as well." shares Hough. "So I was constantly finding out, as well as for me it instilled a feeling of curiosity as well as cravings to find out, which has actually rollovered."

" My pals would have new playthings as well as devices of all kinds as well as I wanted them," states Hough. "My mother would certainly say, 'we'll make it' and also we would certainly use plywood and also draw things out then saw it out-- truly making stuff. It brought out my creative side."

That imaginative passion brought about his initial intro to the arts-- playing drums in a Coastline Boys tribute band when he was just 8 years of ages. The band messed around the neighborhood as well as at the Utah Region Fair. "Being a drummer I found out rhythm, which rhythm became my structure," he says.

That foundation aided Hough choose up dance reasonably quickly, and also it didn't take long for him to discover he liked it. This realization brought back early memories of dance with his household. His grandparents were all dancers, and also his moms and dads satisfied while on a ballroom dance team in university, so it was the continuation of a family members tradition. "Individuals ask me 'When did you begin dance?' as well as it ends up I would certainly been dancing as long as I could bear in mind. I consider home video clips where I was 2 years old as well as we were having dancing events in our living-room as a household."

A sense of community

Ironically, though, Hough confesses that he was "type of dragged" into formally studying dancing. "I didn't actually desire to go at initially. Yet I had this coach, he was a truly trendy guy, and after that it opened up a neighborhood for me, a sense of belonging." He (and also, later, Julianne) wound up relocating to London at age 12 to study with expert trainers, as well as there he tossed himself into a strenuous program of practicing and visiting, making every effort to boost his skills and win competitions. "We were circumnavigating, going to New york city, mosting likely to Hawaii-- as well as being a youngster from Utah I resembled, 'Wow, this is incredible!' That was definitely a revelation, that I really enjoyed it. I turned something I really did not want to do into recognizing and finding an interest."

One thing Hough specifically loves is exactly how the understanding of dancing has altered due to the fact that of the appeal of television programs like Dancing With the Stars and World of Dance, and also just how they have actually opened up dancing for even more people. "They have revealed the athleticism as well as effort, and have educated people, especially men, about it. You know, One Decade ago I could have stated, 'Hey, did you see that Paso Doble?' and individuals would certainly have been like 'What? Exactly what is that?' Currently they're like, wow, I enjoyed that gaucho, or that flamenco action. It has been great for dancing."

He also sees more individuals understanding just how physically requiring dance could be. A term Hough commonly utilizes to clarify his craft is that professional dancers are "creative professional athletes." He claims, "When I'm dancing, I don't just dance, I'm really training as well, in addition to dance. To do particular steps, to be fast with those twitch muscular tissues, and the stamina, that security, that core, that rhythm, the isolations-- I indicate there's so much that goes into it, from the main muscle teams to the ones you have actually never ever become aware of. It's a full-body thing. "

Not just that, however Hough states customers value the narration element and also feeling within dancing. "Several of my fondest memories of creating routines on Dancing With the Stars are of people connecting and also going, you know, that really influenced me to call my mommy, or I have actually experienced this, this sense of broken heart, and it was actually cathartic to view that. I really did not feel like I was alone, I seemed like I experienced it with you," he states. "So it's an actually attractive thing, as well as for me it has actually been an absolute enjoyment, it's been a delight to see the evolution of the appeal as well as the standing as well as gratitude of dancing over the previous years."

The ‘prize' of service

" A large change in me directly is that for years I was a rival. It was always regarding being the very best, regarding winning-- that was my fuel. And after that one time I was in my home, taking a look at all these prizes, and I was like, wow, that's really great-- then I assumed, but why do I still really feel not met?" It ends up that functioning with others, coaching and also training, was the new fuel Hough needed. "It was a huge change for me, and also it actually boiled down to service. For me, it's the fulfillment aspect of it-- the sharing of ideas, or helping as well as bringing someone up, bringing their confidence up, or seeing that light take place in their eyes where they go, 'Wow, I can do that!'" Hough understood that, rather than winning more trophies or being the most effective, those were now the minutes that actually loaded him up.

" That emphasis, that transition for me has really opened a great deal of great things in my life, and also it's far more satisfying. On Globe of Dance, these professional dancers, these professional athletes, I really desire to aim to motivate and motivate them and not simply evaluate them but in order to help them on their trip."

Gratitude is likewise a secret, claims Hough. "We hear it a great deal, but it holds true-- you can't actually be in a fearful or upset state if you remain in gratitude, they can't live concurrently. For me, the second I start having expectations, expecting exactly how the globe ought to act, or anticipating exactly how my household or friends should be, or whatever it could be, to simply transform the assumptions for admiration. If I all of a sudden simply begin valuing, even if something is terrible, well, just how can I appreciate this? In that moment, it alters the entire video game.

" Just the other day we were shooting and also I was sitting there like, this is such a terrific job, this is so outstanding, this is so much fun seeing these amazing professional dancers. I have been in that setting several times because I was 12 years of ages, being judged on the dance floor, as well as you're functioning so hard, as well as so my gratitude and my concern for them out on that particular floor is overruning. And to view them, their skills, as well as their heart, as well as their reaction to will they make it via-- I simply like that."

" Simply start moving! Don't be hard on yourself or judge on your own. Activity is in our DNA, all of us."

Derek's tips for staying fit

Hough credits his family members, specifically his mommy, with grounding him healthy and also nutrition. "I recognized as I grew older just how successful she was when it involved healthy routines, as well as natural and health foods and points like that. She showed us from a young age concerning particular foods to consume and just what to keep away from," he says.

He hears his body as well as focuses on just what makes him react, whether it's just what provides him energy or exactly what makes him really feel slow-moving or inflamed.

Fresh food helps him stay concentrated and also sharp, not only literally but also psychologically. "It's so crucial, particularly when you need to attempt to produce something as well as choreograph. There's absolutely nothing worse compared to attempting to create something when your brain is not completely triggered."

One trick he makes use of is to utilize the power of organization. He on a regular basis drinks what he calls "swamp water," which is a super-greens formula he mixes with water. "I associated enjoyment to it, and in fact conditioned myself to like it. It was practically like I was drinking energy, I was consuming alcohol light, I was consuming emphasis ... that's the association I put with it, and also it gave me a lot power and so much clearness, and my skin removed up."

Greens in general are Hough's essential. "Any kind of meal I have, I have to have a large quantity of eco-friendlies. That's the theme throughout whatever I have. So if I'm having salmon, or a little chicken, or perhaps a little red meat, whatever it may be, there's constantly an abundance of environment-friendlies offered. Asparagus, broccoli-- all the great stuff."

To maintain himself favorable as well as determined, he seeks wisdom every day with reading or hearing a motivating speaker or podcast. "There's so much info, with social media sites as well as just media in general. You obtain this ding, this alert, this occurred as well as before you understand it, your mind is pirated. It's like we're filled with information however depriving for knowledge. So it's basically picking and choosing the important things I want to have actually entered my mind as well as absorb."

If he does discover himself with thoughts and also sensations he does not such as, he says, "The initial point to do is move. It's altering my physiology, altering my body, changing the method I'm holding myself. Transforming my body modifications my outlook."

Hough says the way to advance in anything is to challenge yourself to do hard things. "It's like exercising," he says, "like lifting a weight. Simply like you need to press against something hard to create muscle mass, you need resistance to produce growth. We require those obstacles, so welcome them-- they're a present in order to help you grow."

Dance! Hough claims that frequently individuals obtain frightened off by the word "dancing" since they've established limitations on themselves regarding what they can not do. "Simply begin relocating!" he says. "Do not be hard on yourself or judge yourself. Movement remains in our DNA, all of us. If you consider a child, even before they could stroll they're bobbing their heads, returning as well as forth. When you obtain outside your comfort zone, you constantly appear inspired and also sensation terrific. Dancing is a fantastic form of exercise as well as it's also great for your spirit."

Tweet @derekhough and also @hlmsmag and his #SamsClubMag story.

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For the really long number ask: questions by 10. :D

Oh boy, so many questions! Thank you, Speedy~ XD

There is a lot oftext (mostly rambling) below the cut. I would have had this posted sooner, but I’ve beenpreoccupied lately. ^^’

Feelfree to send me more questions~

~.~

10:The word that I use all the time to describe something great?

Hmm, probably “awesome” or “amazing” getoverused by me a lot. XD

20:Favourite video games?

FFFFFFFFFFF THERE ARE SO MANY!!!!!

Of course, you know me and how much I love HatofulBoyfriend. Those games will forever have a tight grip on my heart. >vBut also the Persona games I’ve played. *sobs* There are so many versions ofPersona 3 and Persona 4 by now, including their crossover sequels and whatnot.I love them so much. And Persona 5 is currently breaking my heart, but it’s sogood~ Also, we’re finally getting P3 and P5 dancing games to accompany P4:Dancing All Night, and I am so ready for that!

I’ve only played through Hakuouki: Demon of the FleetingBlossom so far, but I really want to play some of the other games at somepoint. I keep seeing stuff about them and I need it because the story andcharacters are so good. XD

Dream Daddy is also shaping up to be a pretty good game,from what I’ve played of it, so I can toss it on the list here as well~ ;P

There are way more games I could mention, but these ones areespecially important to me right now, so I’ll just leave it at that for themoment. =P

30:Eye colour?

My eyes are hazel. It depends on the light, but sometimesthey look more green and other times they look more brown.

40:What do I think about most?

I don’t actually know what I think about most. o-o

I try not to be this self-aware because paying too closeattention to my thoughts tends to stress me out. But, I mean, I do very oftenhave moments where I stop and go “oh my god, I love my girlfriend so much,she’s so cute, how is this possible” because I’m a sentimental dork and mybrain won’t stop reminding me. Also just as often over the last year, I’ve hada lot of thoughts about how I miss my dog and my cat, too. But I’m one of thosepeople who stops and notices/remembers really cute things and then has anemotional moment about how cute they are, so I tend to think about how cute myfriends are or how cute an animal is or… similar cute stuff. Because I’m anemotional sap.

Also, I’ve pretty much always got magical boys or birds onthe brain, but literally no one is surprised to hear that. XD

50:How do I destress?

I either play a game I like or listen to music (unless whatI need at the time is to shut out the world and all the noise that comes withit); try to read something or work on my writing; watch a show or movie thatmakes me happy as a distraction; or sometimes scroll Tumblr or just the tagsfor a thing I like a lot, mindlessly Liking/reblogging things.

You can tell I do that last one a lot from my various wallsof spam on everyone’s dashboards. ^^’

60:Pet peeve?

I have a lot of little pet peeves, but the one that comes upa lot is grammar. More specifically when people write “defiantly”when they mean to say “definitely” or when they incorrectly abbreviateet cetera as “ect” instead of “etc” aaaaaaaaaaaaah whydo people do this?

I mean, I understand that auto-correct is a thing and willmake you regret every typo you ever make, and I understand that mixing upletters and confusing words is common for a lot of people. So, I don’t get tooupset when I see it, but. How on earth did“defiantly”/“definitely” become a thing? Like… why? Idon’t understand. It drives me nuts just thinking about it.

But the “etc”/“ect” thing will alwaysbother me because it may have started as a genuine typo somewhere out there,but then people started thinking that “ect” actually WAS theabbreviation for “etc” and… no… Seriously, click on that link upthere and read the definitions of both abbreviations. There is a very cleardifference and it makes me want to rip my hair out that people don’t realize.*sobs*

70:Can I sing?

Actually, yes. People really like my voice, but most of thetime I’m really shy/awkward about it. To think I once wanted to be a singer ina band. ;;-;;

I remember going to a sleepover for a classmate’s birthdayparty in 6th grade and I casually mentioned that I liked to sing, so all thegirls in my class who were there wanted to hear and they kinda coaxed it out ofme. They were all super impressed and wanted me to sing them a lullaby beforewe all went to sleep, but I ended up singing them some 60’s RocknRoll musicinstead because I was really into it at the time and that’s all I knew off thetop of my head.

And then in 8th grade, the music teacher at our schooldiscovered that I had a perfect singing voice for the school musical and sherearranged an entire scene in the script just to give me a song so she couldutilize my voice. I had kind of resigned myself to it at that point, so thefirst time I had to sing in front of everyone during rehearsals I justpretended like I was singing for everyone at that party again. And after I hadfinished the song, everyone in the auditorium who hadn’t heard me sing beforewas speechless and I got a freaking standing ovation because they didn’t expectthe quiet kid to be hiding that kind of voice. //dead

Unfortunately, I don’t have a very powerful singing voice,so it didn’t project very well. No matter how much vocal training I was putthrough for it. But because my speaking voice is so loud, I didn’t need to weara body mic for my voice to project to the back of the auditorium. You know thatrule of the stage about how you’re not supposed to turn your back to theaudience while you’re speaking because it muffles your voice? I was told Icould act in any direction I wanted to if it worked for the scene because, evenif my back was turned, everyone could still hear my voice loud and clear evenin the back row. *sigh* So, the one song I had seemed kind of pointless in theend, but the music teacher (who was also the director of the play) refused togive it up. She apparently just really loved my singing voice that much.Instead, she told me to talk-sing the parts of the song that were too high forme to sing loud enough and I thought that was kinda silly, but I did it anywayand it turned out alright. I can sing lower notes quite loudly, apparently,just not the higher ones.

So, I guess that answers the question. I like singing bymyself, though. Sometimes, I’ll sing around people I’m close to or feelcomfortable with. But generally I’m still awkward about it.

80:Can I drive?

Not yet. *sobs* But I’ve been taking driving lessons and Ihave a road test coming up soon-ish. So, hopefully I’ll have my license beforethe end of the year. I mean, technically, I guess you could say that I can drive at this point, but… I’m really not that good at it.

Up to now, the only vehicle I’ve been able to drive is atractor. A car is a whole different creature, though, and I’m having troublefiguring it out… especially since I’m apparently too small to see over theback seat properly and I’m not sure how I’m going to be able to deal with that,since it’s kind of a pretty important thing for backing up. =/

Tractors are way less terrifying and I would much rather usethat as a mode of transportation if given the opportunity. XD

90:Favourite sporty activity?

When I was a kid, I used to like playing soccer and baseballa lot. Now, I enjoy badminton more on the rare occasions that I get to play it.^^

100:Do I have more girl friends or boy friends?

That is a very difficult question to answer because I don’tactually know. I… don’t really think about that much, so I don’t “keeptrack”… and, besides, gender is a weird and relative thing, so who evenknows? ^^

110:Do I like selfies?

I hardly ever take pictures of myself anymore. I used to alot when I was younger and I kind of wish I still did now, but I just don’thave the energy and I feel weird about it. I don’t dislike it, though. I justkeep putting off doing it because I lose interest almost immediately after Ithink about it. This is why I struggle every time someone asks for a picture ofme because I just… don’t have any recent ones… generally. o-o

120: AmI much of a daredevil?

That really depends on the situation. I don’t mind tryingnew things even if they’re a little out of my comfort zone. But I won’t go outof my way to seek out dangerous/crazy/adrenaline-pumping experiences. XD So, Iguess I play it safe more often than not.

130:Favourite piece of advice?

Aaaaah, I think one piece of advice that can be applied tomany situations and is very important to me because it keeps being relevant inmy life is this…

If someone hurts you (whether they intended to or not) andyou don’t know if you can trust them again, you are not obligated to give thema second chance even if they come back to you and ask for one. If you’re notready to risk putting yourself out there for someone who hurt you before andrisk the chance of getting hurt again, you do not have to. Even if they seem tohave changed or say they miss you and want you back in their life, you owe themnothing. You are not obligated to take them back. You are allowed to say no andprotect yourself. It doesn’t matter if that person who hurt you is“family” or someone you used to be best friends with. You don’t haveto open yourself up to risk getting hurt again just because of your previousrelation to them.

140:Do I believe people are capable of change?

That depends on how you define “change” when itcomes to a person.

Personally, I don’t think people can fundamentally change any part of themselves, but I do believe people can grow. In which direction we grow (positively or negatively) determines who we areat any given time, but deep down on the inside, we are, have always been, andalways will be the same person we were born to be. Personality-wise andwhatnot, that is our identity and it’s how we learn and choose to channel thatidentity that makes all the difference. There’s always room for growth, butoftentimes the results are permanent and it’s easy to spiral in the oppositedirection of our desires because we are still affected by our environments andpersonal situations. You know, the whole nature vs nurture thing. That’s howyou get people who used to be good becoming rotten and people who used to be terriblemaking a positive turn around.

I think this growth is what people refer to as“change”, though, and I’m just being nitpicky with semantics becausethe two words technically mean different things in this context. I justdistinguish between them when it comes to this sort of thing because of whatI’ve observed in different people throughout my life and this is the way I’vemade the most sense of it so far. Humans are complex creatures and it neverceases to confuse and amaze me.

150:What is the best decision I have made in life so far?

I… really don’t know. Clearly, the choices I’ve madeleading up to this exact moment in my life have been a mix of good and bad, butthey still all resulted in me being exactly where I am today. And a lot of goodthings have come from it, such as meeting most of the people in my life. Ican’t really say what the “best” decision I ever made was. I’m justliving each day trying to survive, so I don’t consider each individualdecision. As morbid and depressing as that sounds. I guess I’m grateful forwhatever decisions led me to meeting so many wonderful people. ^^

160:What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe?

*looks at the pile of clothes I still need to fold and putback in my closet* I have a lot of pink, black, and white clothes, but I don’tthink either of those colors can be considered the majority of my wardrobe? Ihave a pretty decent mix of colors to choose from.

170:One of my favourite quotes?

I was always a fan of Adam Savage’s “I reject yourreality and substitute my own” because Mythbusters is cool and I liked thecontext in which it was said. XD

180:Do I like shopping?

It really depends on my energy levels. Most of the time, I’mjust not in the mood to go shopping anymore. I used to love it a lot when I wasyounger, especially when I’d get to go shopping with my grandparents and mycousins. But I do still enjoy hanging out with my mom’s side of the family andmy friends, so going shopping with them is more fun than exhausting. So, Isuppose it also depends on who I’m with, too. ^^

190:If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go?

Honestly, I never have an answer to this question, so Icouldn’t even begin to think of one. This may sound like a cop-out, but I thinkI would rather not mess around with time travel even if it were possible. Although,if I did have that ability, I’d probably use it in such a mundane way as tofind out about things (like social events or awkward encounters) before they happenso I could make sure to avoid them like the awkward potato that I am. XD

200:Dragons or wizards?

*slams hands down on table* BOTH!!!! Or even better! Give medragon wizards! >v

210:What is on my bucket list?

Um. I don’t have a bucket list anymore. Well, I mean, thereare a few conventions I’d like to go to eventually, so I guess that. ^^

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Seven Very best Recommendations on The way to Seduce a Woman

You can find likely, quite a few wonderful ladies you'll want to be with. And you'll find these fortunate guys who understand how to deal with them correct, and as being a end result, they obtain a good deal of female interest. So what's the big difference amongst you and these guys? You, perhaps imagine you've to appear properly like some actor or be a millionaire to select up these chicks. Even so, you're incorrect. Brad Pitt-look or Ferrari keys inside your pocket are great factors to get, but when you will be not like that, no worries. In fact, the sole point you'll need could be the appropriate system. It is possible to appear unsightly and be bad, but women will nevertheless adore you. So go through our 7-points approach and make these goddesses worship you.

one. Dress up your very best You may have to search appealing if you'd like to obtain an focus of the girl you like. Really don't overlook to consider a shower just before you go out. Women like if you search tidy. Really don't put on fits for those who come to feel extra comfy in the informal type, or really do not shave your beard once you really are a fan of the lumberjack fashion. Every one of the women possess a good intuition, plus they will sense you will be pretending to get somebody else.

Recommendations: • It is possible to use a little of the favourite fragrance, but not as well a great deal. Girls like whenever a guy smells wonderful. When she thinks of you, she will bear in mind your fragrance.

two. Be an excellent listener What actually seduces ladies it is the capability to pay attention. You must pay attention far more than you speak. Really do not endeavor to inform her all of your stories, but pay attention to hers as an alternative. Display her you're prepared to pay attention and fully grasp her, so you will certainly win her above. Talk to her, analyze her, all her likes and dislikes.

Suggestions: • When she tells you anything, nod, smile or inquire for far more information of her story. • Make feedback including “yeah”, “okay”, “oh really”. • Inquire her inquiries which include what does she do to get a residing or in which did she expand up. Make it much easier for her to share. • Request her about her tastes: her preferred music band or even the dish she likes. It is an awesome subject to begin with. • Do not make sexual compliments.

three. Be a mystery man If you meet a woman you wish to seduce, act slow and cautious. Really do not hurry and really don't stalk her. The key phrase on this stage is definitely the anticipation and mystery. Do not inform lots about by yourself. Allow her guess who that you are. In line with the statistic you'll find two male traits that every one of the women like: it is the substantial amount of self-confidence and energy. But not be selfish. It is okay to get proud of the lifestyle but usually do not brag. Otherwise she will flee from this kind of an egoistic man.

Suggestions: • Do not inform a great deal about oneself. • Do not hurry to reveal your intentions otherwise it is possible to just place her off in case your emotions are more powerful than hers. • Say only points which will allow you to to get noticed through the crowd of males who want her awareness.

four. Really don't be afraid of lovely ladies The majority of the males believe pretty ladies have numerous supporters, and that's why they will not spend any awareness to a straightforward man with an ordinary appear. And the truth is, the cutest women are sometimes alone whilst significantly less gorgeous gals have additional supporters. Women may well presume when the boy is frightened of her amazing search, he can be intimidated by any challenge. And who would like a little one guy? So really don't be overwhelmed with her appears and consider the chance to talk with her.

Guidelines: • You can find pretty number of guys who're not intimidated from the female attractiveness. You'll have fewer rivals. • Never inform her trite compliments about her seems. Endeavor to see behind that and produce a deeper comment on her persona or fashion.

five. No alcohol Alcohol may well make you braver, nevertheless it is your largest enemy in seducing girls. Most guys make this blunder. They method girls currently being intoxicated. Remain sober to grab her consideration.

Recommendations: • Speak to her want to an common man or woman and who is aware of, perhaps she is not really a goddess in any way and only a beautiful single woman.

six. Humor is most likely the very best approach to seduction If you're able to make her laugh, you'll be able to make her like you. Really don't surrender, after you asked her to dance with you, and she refused. Otherwise you supplied to acquire a drink for her, and there was a failure once again. Come up that has a humorous joke, pleasant smile, and informal talks - it is all you would like. Based upon a scenario, remain assured and display her you happen to be a powerful guy, who can attain your aims. But really do not be irritating.

Strategies: • Such as, inquire her if you're able to just stand shut to her when the many past issues have been unsuccessful. • Be cunning and request her aid in lieu of a pickup line. It's an ideal motive to begin the conversation.

seven. Physique language At the very least half of our communication is nonverbal. Our bodies speak! Considered one of the very best solutions to seduce a lady should be to use a flirtation entire body language with her. Once again commence gradually. Your intention would be to get her utilized for your touches.

Strategies: • Consider her hand and lead her to some area based on a area. It could be a bar within a restaurant, a sea seashore, a roof of some sky-scrapper or her sitting spot inside a cinema. • Do not cross your arms, even when you've got a glass of wine in it. The identical holds genuine about your legs. • Really do not use any swear phrases. A straightforward traditional language is generally much better than any slang. And it displays your intellectual side. • Area your hand on her shoulder, in the event you really feel it's the appropriate time for it.

Really do not neglect it truly is not quick to locate your appropriate match. And really don't get upset if some thing goes incorrect. All you'll need is really a little bit of practice and self-confidence.

Como enlouquecer uma mulher na cama

[persseius-blog]

Seven Greatest Guidelines on Tips on how to Seduce a Woman

You can find possibly, a lot of wonderful women you'd wish to be with. And you can find these fortunate guys who understand how to deal with them correct, and as being a consequence, they obtain a great deal of female interest. So what's the big difference in between you and these guys? You, perhaps assume you've to seem properly like some actor or be a millionaire to select up these chicks. Nonetheless, you happen to be incorrect. Brad Pitt-look or Ferrari keys inside your pocket are great items to possess, but when you might be not like that, no worries. In fact, the sole factor you may need may be the proper method. It is possible to appear unsightly and be bad, but ladies will nevertheless adore you. So go through our 7-points system and make these goddesses worship you.

one. Dress up your very best You may have to appear interesting if you'd like to have an focus of the girl you like. Do not fail to remember to consider a shower just before you go out. Women like whenever you seem tidy. Really don't dress in fits in case you really feel extra comfy within a informal design, or really do not shave your beard whenever you really are a fan of the lumberjack design. Each of the ladies possess a fantastic intuition, and so they will sense you happen to be pretending to become somebody else.

Strategies: • You could use a little of one's preferred fragrance, but not as well substantially. Girls like whenever a guy smells wonderful. When she thinks of you, she will bear in mind your fragrance.

two. Be a very good listener What seriously seduces gals it is the capability to pay attention. You ought to pay attention far more than you speak. Really don't seek to inform her all of your stories, but pay attention to hers rather. Present her you're prepared to pay attention and recognize her, and you also will certainly win her more than. Talk to her, analyze her, all her likes and dislikes.

Guidelines: • When she tells you a thing, nod, smile or request for far more information of her story. • Make feedback including “yeah”, “okay”, “oh really”. • Request her queries for instance what does she do for any residing or in which did she expand up. Make it less complicated for her to share. • Request her about her tastes: her preferred music band or even the dish she likes. It is an awesome subject to begin with. • Really don't make sexual compliments.

three. Be a mystery man Once you meet a lady you prefer to seduce, act slow and mindful. Really don't hurry and really don't stalk her. The key phrase on this stage could be the anticipation and mystery. Really don't inform a good deal about on your own. Allow her guess who you might be. As outlined by the statistic you'll find two male traits that each of the ladies like: it is the substantial degree of self-confidence and electrical power. But not be selfish. It is okay for being proud of one's existence but will not brag. Otherwise she will flee from this kind of an egoistic man.

Ideas: • Really don't inform a good deal about oneself. • Really do not hurry to reveal your intentions otherwise you could just place her off in case your emotions are more powerful than hers. • Say only factors which can allow you to to get noticed from your crowd of males who want her interest.

four. Really do not be afraid of beautiful ladies Almost all of the males assume pretty ladies have numerous followers, and that's why they will not pay out any awareness to a straightforward man with an ordinary appear. And the truth is, the cutest ladies tend to be alone whilst much less gorgeous ladies have much more supporters. Ladies may presume if your boy is frightened of her beautiful search, he could be intimidated by any issue. And who needs a child guy? So really do not be overwhelmed with her seems to be and get the danger to talk with her.

Recommendations: • You will find pretty couple of guys who're not intimidated from the female attractiveness. You'll have fewer rivals. • Never inform her trite compliments about her seems to be. Seek to see behind that and create a deeper comment on her persona or fashion.

five. No alcohol Alcohol may make you braver, however it is your greatest enemy in seducing females. Most males make this error. They strategy women becoming intoxicated. Keep sober to grab her consideration.

Ideas: • Speak to her want to an regular individual and who understands, perhaps she is just not a goddess in any respect and only a wonderful single lady.

six. Humor is most likely the very best approach to seduction If you're able to make her laugh, it is possible to make her like you. Do not surrender, after you asked her to dance with you, and she refused. Otherwise you made available to acquire a drink for her, and there was a failure once more. Come up using a humorous joke, pleasant smile, and informal talks - it is all you would like. Dependant upon a circumstance, remain assured and display her you happen to be a powerful guy, who can obtain your ambitions. But really don't be irritating.

Recommendations: • One example is, inquire her if you're able to just stand shut to her when every one of the former issues have been unsuccessful. • Be cunning and request her support rather than a pickup line. It really is an ideal cause to begin the conversation.

seven. Physique language No less than half of our communication is nonverbal. Our bodies speak! Among the very best approaches to seduce a lady will be to use a flirtation entire body language with her. Yet again get started gradually. Your purpose is usually to get her utilized for your touches.

Suggestions: • Get her hand and lead her to some spot based upon a spot. It could possibly be a bar in the restaurant, a sea seashore, a roof of some sky-scrapper or her sitting spot in the cinema. • Do not cross your arms, even when you may have a glass of wine in it. Precisely the same holds genuine about your legs. • Do not use any swear phrases. An easy traditional language is often greater than any slang. And it demonstrates your intellectual side. • Location your hand on her shoulder, in the event you really feel it's the correct time for it.

Really don't fail to remember it's not quick to uncover your proper match. And do not get upset if one thing goes incorrect. All you would like can be a little bit of practice and self-confidence.

Como enlouquecer uma mulher na cama

[indarknessborn]

Violin journal week 1

I was never one to care very much about music. Everyone is so obsessed with bands and "music is life" is the common mantra. And I never related to that or understood that. I liked music okay, but not like that. Music used to really bother me actually, as weird as that sounds. If I listened for too long it would make my inner ear feel weird and then my throat would kinda close up and I'd get anxious and kinda nauseous. Like sensory overload maybe? I'm not sure. I still get it occasionally but only with certain frequencies or certain styles of music. It's definitely not as bad anymore. But because of that I'd go months without listening to music, and when I did I preferred to listen to songs I already knew well so there'd be no surprises. And no one around me could understand that. I was always the weird kid who never knew any bands or anything lol. It took a long time for me to start enjoying music and seeking out new music and wanting to create some myself. But even then nothing compares to how I am right now. I guess it was last week when I had this crazy dream, where I could play any instrument I touched. And it wasn't just by magic either. I had an intimate understanding of how instruments worked and I could easily play new things by drawing from the knowledge of how to play other things. Like if I knew to play one string I could play all strings, or if I knew one wind I could play all winds. Even if I wasn't perfect at it at first I could figure out the difference fairly easily by listening. There was this one vivid part about playing the trombone of all things. I've never even touched one before but suddenly I feel like I know what I'm doing. How to buzz my lips and how far out to stop the slide for different notes. Really bizarre. I never knew that instruments were so connected like that either. It wasn't until I told someone about the dream where they were like.... "Yeah that's how it really is? Knowing instruments helps learning new ones be much easier." That shocked me. All this time I thought you had to have specific instruction for each individual instrument that you wanted to play. But then suddenly it makes sense, in the ancient past when instruments were created, there were no classes and lessons on how to play them. Just like blowing in a glass bottle to make a sound is something that you can naturally discover without instruction, instruments were made and created to be accessible. So that people could make beautiful sounds. They didn't start off as this high bar where you have to have a lot of money and a lot of practice in order to use it. And I realized suddenly that instruments didn't have to be difficult at all. That they were tools to help you, not intimidating skills that take great talent to utilize. Then later that week I had a... Vision? Day dream? I'm not sure what to call it. It honestly felt like recalling a memory. I was upset about something and wanted to be away from people, so I went behind what I guess is a school building where it was just grass and trees and where people wouldn't have much reason to wander into. And I started playing violin there by myself. Just with my eyes closed and letting my emotions ride the music like a wave. And it was so cathartic and powerful, especially combined with that dream I had, that it was all I could think about that entire week. I had to dig out my keyboard cause if I couldn't play at least *something* I'd go mad. I could really use something like that in my life. A way to express my emotions sounds so nice. So with these potent thoughts on my mind I've been looking a lot at violins and especially the electric side of it cause there's so many cool things you can do with it. And I decided that I was determined to learn. I did a lot of research on what violin I wanted and found this beautiful black one that can be played both acoustically and electrically and has great reviews. I got excited and planned to start saving up to buy it eventually. But then a group of my beloved friends decided that they'd all pitch in and buy it for me for Christmas. I tried to tell them no, it's too expensive, maybe just donate a bit towards it and let me pay for the rest, but they won't listen. I'm trying to not get my hopes up in case it doesn't work out. But gosh I'm so excited. In the mean time I've decided to go ahead and start learning. I borrowed a friend's violin and found a fairly inexpensive tutor who I can schedule lessons with on demand so that I can adjust the length and frequency of the lessons based on my finances. So it's much more flexible and works better with my situation. Tuesday was my first day of violin class. It is significantly harder than I expected but I welcome the challenge. The most difficult part for me seems to be holding the correct positions. Like how the hell are my fingers supposed to hold the bow this way... I'll get it eventually I'll just have to practice until it feels natural. I've also discovered I have to wear my glasses or contacts when playing. It's strange for me cause usually I only wear my glasses to drive cause my vision really isn't bad. But when my teacher told me to put my bow on the D string I was having double vision. I asked her "how do I put my bow on it when it's lower than the other strings?" She just kindof looked at me like "um...... It's..... not?" Haha woops. Got easier to see it with glasses though but contacts would definitely be better. I'll have to buy more when I have money. Class went really well though. My teacher actually asked for my pronouns (whoa) and she said she wants to cater the lessons to my goals and the styles I want to play. I'm really excited about that especially because I'm hopefully getting an electric violin for Christmas and want to play edgier things eventually. Also my teacher literally was like "you're picking this up pretty quickly for your first lesson, do you have any musical background?" Which. I kindof? Do? But definitely not very much. Not like she meant it. Like at the start of the lesson she was telling me there was this tape she could give me that you put on the neck for beginners that shows where the notes are. Since a violin doesn't have frets so you just have to guess the distances. So it's like a little cheat sheet until you learn it. But by the end of the lesson she refused to give it to me. She was like "no you don't need it you can hear the notes. You're fine." Like bitch!! What!! Give me the tape!! But admittedly I'm a little proud of myself. She says I have a good ear cause I corrected myself a couple times without her having to tell me. Wednesday I practiced for the first time and discovered that my violin mute doesn't actually mute for shit. So I played outside on my porch to not disturb the room mates with my horrible beginner sound. I hopefully have a better mute coming in soon so I can practice in the middle of the night like I tend towards. The weather was really nice outside though since it's finally getting cool again, and I had a lot of fun playing, even if it was just mindless drills and fighting my muscles to obey the proper positions. I am slowly but surely getting better at figuring out how much pressure to use when bowing notes. There's a delicate balance and I keep fucking it up on accident. But after 2 hours of practice it's sounding much better than when I started. And I can now sort of play twinkle little star. Even though technically I'm not supposed to have learned those notes yet. I got bored of drills and wanted to actually play something so I learned it haha. Hopefully I'll build up calluses soon, I destroyed my finger tips after so long of a practice session. Worth it though. Thursday I was sick so I spent most of my day inside and didn't get to practice even though I really wanted to. I've started watching Your Lie In April since I've had literally 5 or more people suggest it to me at this point. It's really good so I can see why everyone kept bringing it up. Both the main characters are really relatable. I actually love the girl and I'm usually pretty picky about female characters. But man my favorite part is how she plays. I swear I was falling asleep while watching and then she started playing for the first time and the next thing I know I'm sitting up leaning towards the screen fully transfixed. Like sure I expected her to be good or whatever but I expected it to sound like some overly perfect studio recording. The way she plays is so full of emotion. And the way she just kindof says fuck the rules and plays it her way and so full of passion... I was moved and so excited that I wasn't even sleepy anymore. I aspire to have that sort of effect on people with my playing. I want to pour my emotions into my violin so that everyone can hear. I have to keep working at it!