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foreverautumn89 · 4 months ago

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@miwiromantics Here is the rest of it I'll post others in a sec:

I'd rather those people stayed away-the ones that switch sides so easily and are going to come jump on the Jonathan band wagon after hes gone. Yes it sucks sometimes that there isn't a lot of love for Jonathan or Stonathan and not a lot of people to share it with, but its better than being around these fake fairweather ppl that only would like him because everyone else does. Its already bad enough that Jonathan is one of the most hated characters and we STILL have those people that claim to be fans of Jonathan when they're obviously not.

That's what I like-I like the people who are on Jonathan's side when being on Jonathan's side is NOT popular. Because it shows who truly really is on his side. I want friends like you. I don't want these fake people. I want people that genuinely love and understand him not people that just like him because its popular.

In the words of Jonathan Byers 'I would rather be friends with ZOmbie Boy than a boring nobody.' 'The thing is, nobody normal ever accomplished anything meaningful in this world."

I want to be friends with the 'freaks' that don't fit in with the popular crowd and all just like something because its popular. I want people around who genuinely love what I love without me having to convince them.

I'm glad that Jonathan isn't 'socially attractive' and people don't wear rose colored glasses when it comes to him like other characters. Because now we have a better chance of actually finding people who love Jonathan for who he is as a character and not just because they find him attractive. [Even with some ppl claiming to love Jonathan when they really hate him]. We still got a better chance.

Oh definitely-its defintiely about pretty privilege. Look at Billy. Look at Eddie. Look at Steve especially. Billy did way worse stuff than Jonathan ever did but its dismissed. And again this isn't me bashing Billy its just being like wtf to the fans. And its not about them dismissing it period-my problem with this is you can forgive Billy and see the good that he did, but you can't forgive Jonathan and see the good that he did. Keeping in mind that Jonathan has bene a good guy his whole life who barely has done anything wrong while Billy was the opposite for example.

Lets go with Eddie for now--They hate Jonathan for smoking weed and act like hes a monster and say hes like a child abuser [Lonnie] because of it but when Eddie does it hes the coolest person around. And Eddie was selling K too which is a really bad drug, but they don't see anything wrong with that. They do think that Jonathan is a monster though that is irredeemable and can't be forgiven for just smoking weed and dealing with his own problems for once instead of catering to everyone elses problems-that is him being selfish taking care of himself. And no I'm not bashing Eddie, its not him I'm irritated with its the fans. They seriously fry my brain while I'm trying to understand their 'logic'. This is just one example of it

About them calling him ugly-I don't think Jonathan is ugly I think he is so adorable and cute. Yes he may not be hot and muscular like Steve is, but Jonathan is still attractive and adorable and small. I don't like his hair in some of the seasons though it really didn't suit him especially last season and maybe thats why ppl see him as unattractive I don't know. And they're talking about like the eye bags and stuff like that-its like Steve has eye bags too and he has stuff on his face too-everybody has stuff like that. It's just being human. It doesn't make you ugly hideous or rat like ext like they say about him. I don't get why it makes you hideous or whatever and why Steve's facial flaws are ignored while Jonathan's are not. Again clarifying that I dont think Steve is unattractive. I'm saying I don't get why Steve has the same stuff going on with his face that they point out about Jonatahns and Jonathan is gross but Steve is hot. I even laugh because when i got back into ST and was watching S2 I couldn't even tell Jonathan and Steve apart-they both looked so similar and I found them both attractive. And also if they're saying Jonathan is ugly because there are times when he doesn't look his best, like how many times has Steve looked that way. I've seen some really silly looking pictures of him mainly because they fcked up his hair and the first few episodes of ST Steve didn't look his best either. But Steve is hot Jonathan isnt? Dont get it. But I'm saying if thats the reason why they keep calling Jonathan ugly then I just don't get it because its the same thing with Steve. There are plenty of moments where he doesn't look attractive either but those are ignored and Jonathan's flaws are hyper focused on.

#jonathan byers

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undercover-monsterlover · 1 month ago

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Hi, Can I request a romantic and Nsfw matchup for AoT, Stardew Valley, MCU. If its too much, Aot is enough. I'm Bisexual with a male preference and genderfluid. English is not my first language, if I do any mistake sorry for it.

About my style: First of all, I give importance to comfort. My clothing is described as conservative by other people. I like to wear long skirts, floral dresses and big sweaters. I generally prefer dark colors, mostly browns and blues. I use Oxford shoes and vintage bags. I love anything floral; earrings, socks, sunglasses, bags.

My appearance: My height is 170 cm. I'm a little chubby. I have big chest and big hips. I have a curvy body that attracts a lot of attention, but I hate it. I have light skin and rosy cheeks. I have dark thick eyebrows, brown almond eyes. And heart-shaped plump lips. I have long wavy black hair, which has been my reputation since childhood. Everyone at school and in the neighborhood knew me as the 'long-haired girl'.

My personality: People who see me describe me as cold, noble, aloof, arrogant, too chaste, intelligent and talented. I partially agree with these. Because of my experiences with my family, I built walls for myself and always kept my distance from people. I left my family and stood on my own two feet. I can be rebellious and raise my voice when I want, but I'm usually very quiet. People in my class make fun of me by calling me a spy. I always have a cold and scary expression on my face, and people who just know me are hesitant to talk to me. But people who know me well say that I am very knowledgeable (they seriously say that I know everything), compassionate and a loyal friend. I make them laugh a lot with clever jokes. I help helpless people. Apart from that, they say that I am extremely outspoken and have a sharp tongue. I can be very cruel and sarcastic sometimes. I take risks and calculate every step. Apart from these, I am very creative and very fond of books. I'm good with handicrafts. I sew, crochet, and draw. I write deep philosophical articles. I like to read everything, especially encyclopedias. I have been supporting charities since I was little, and I am willing to share even my most valuable things with people. I am interested in politics, mythology, fashion, philosophy and art. And my love language is act of service. And I really dont have a ideal type.

Alright, I'd match you with...

Erwin Smith

I believe that at first, due to your cold, aloof exterior, he may be a little wary of you, tending to keep an eye on you. He's used to rowdy, passionate troops and commanders, so your quiet, observant nature concerns him. He just doesn't know how much he can trust you, and trust is very important to him. He notices your sharp tongue, the cruel words directed at people you dislike when you think nobody is listening, the arrogant mockery, and it displeases him.

However, he does also notice the other side of you. Erwin is also an observant man, so he also sees how you treat those you do like, and people less fortunate than you. He doesn't understand at first, you seem so distant and cold, yet are so compassionate to those you consider to need help. And he won't deny, it intrigues him, this contrast. Perhaps that's why he initially decides to make an effort to become closer with you. He wants to understand you.

Oh, but it is difficult. He can tell you have walls up, that you don't trust easily, but he's determined to earn your confidence. He finds it ironic, how he, who was once so concerned with your trustworthiness, is now asking for exactly that from you. He's a forwad man, I believe, he doesn't want to beat around the bush with you, he thinks that would just annoy you. So when he makes his interest in you known, he holds nothing back, telling you exactly how he feels.

When you do start dating, he's almost incessant with his attentions and affections, he hopes baring his soul to you will allow you to trust him just the same, even if it's a slow process. When you do become close to him, and trust him enough, he adores how selfless you are. You'd give the clothes off your back if someone else's needed it more, your innate compassion is so strong. He doesn't quite understand why you don't show this side of yourself so openly, you'd certainly gain more favour with others. But then again, he's always quite happy to keep this secret treasure all to himself.

He's also incredibly proud of how intelligent you are. He often finds himself asking you for advice, wether for base facts, your strategic advice for a scouting mission, or just your opinions on news or others arguments. He likes to get an understanding of your way of thinking, even if he doesn't necessarily need your help with something, he finds it interesting.

As for your more conservative clothes, he's mostly ambivalent. He's never been one to care for appearances, but does somewhat appreciate your desire for comfort and utility in your clothing. He's also noticed your appreciation for florals, and likes that even in your understated style, that little hint of your personality still comes through. He'd do his best to obtain some high quality floral fabrics, for you to craft with. He asks you to make small floral handkerchief for him, which he then keeps tucked in his uniform pocket so he may always have a reminder of you with him.

In public, he notices the lecherous looks you get, but if you're cat-called or harassed, he doesn't step in unless you ask him to. He knows you're a strong person, and can handle yourself, and he wants to encourage you to defend yourself. He also knows that some days you just don't want to deal with it, and at that point, his station as a commander certainly comes in handy in putting down creeps.

He didn't first become interested for you in your body, that's not his style, but he's certainly come to appreciate it. He's concerned however that your long hair could be used against you easily in a fight, and almost considers telling you to cut it, but he really does admire it, and if you cut it...

NSFW

He wouldn't be able to use it to hold your head up when he's fucking you. He loves using it to yank your head back against his chest when he's inside you, or grabbing a fistful when he's fucking your throat, maybe even just running his hands through it if he's in a more generous mood. It's also becomes a bit of a habit of his to tug your hair lightly to signal that he's in the mood for some fun, especially if you're in public and he can't say it outright.

Erwin strikes me as a man who enjoys a good blowjob, he finds them practical and efficient, and god do you have the lips for it. Even when he wasn't quite sure if he could trust you, he would guiltily imagine how your lips would look stretched out around his cock. Though he doesn't have to just imagine it, anymore. He's not a big kisser day to day, you'll usually get a short peck on the cheek before he leaves or when he comes home. But during sex, he's tilting your head up as often as he can to get some sloppy kisses in, nipping at your lips just to feel them give.

Erwin isn't a "daddy dom" or anything quite like that, but he does tend to take the lead during sex. If you've been particularly snappy or sarcastic that day, to him or others, he takes it apon himself to be the one responsible for teaching you a lesson. He'll never be too harsh with you, or more rough than you can handle, but he will let you know he's doing this to keep you in line. He's not usually very talkative during sex, and not loud overall, but when he's doing this for you, he will talk you through it, and expects respectful and time-sensitive responses, no matter how blissed out you may be.

When you've done something particularly pleasing to him, he's proud of you, or he just feels like it, he loves to service you as well. His fingers, his mouth, his cock, anything, they'll all be put towards the purpose of drawing orgasm after mind-melting orgasm from you.

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youngpettyqueen · 2 years ago

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basically rewriting my own tags here but. AU where The Joker is Wild is a more serious character exploration of BJ set in season 4

this got quite away from me and also long so. under the cut to save ur dashes

the point of the episode here would be to establish BJ more as his own character early on, by directly dealing with the idea of him being jealous of Trapper, and resentful of being compared to him. it also makes for an isolated sort of feel with him- he hasn't built these connections with the rest of the cast yet, and this is a cast who knew Trapper and so far dont really know him. by taking this more seriously it allows for some exploration of BJ's character, some room for him to grow, an opportunity for him and Hawkeye to strengthen their bond, and even some room to drop hints for the anger the bubbles underneath the surface for him

it starts off fairly similarly- BJ pranking Hawkeye and Hawkeye not being particularly impressed, leading to him launching into reminiscing about the "golden days" of him and Trapper's schemes. its implied here that this is something Hawkeye does often; comparing BJ to Trapper, often unfavourably, often bringing up how Trapper did things better and how he misses that. Hawkeye doesnt mean any harm here, he's just trying to reminisce and handling his best friend's departure as best he can, but this understandably still gets under BJ's skin. BJ, clearly unhappy, promises to show Hawkeye he's just as good as Trapper was, maybe even better. Hawkeye, not seeing that BJ is legitimately upset here, doesnt take it too seriously and just wishes him luck

no bet element. nobody else is in on it. BJ is still new to the 4077 and hasn't quite found his footing yet, further cementing his insecurities related to where he stands with everyone. he starts off small, simple, harmless. gag cigars, swapping the salt and the sugar and the like. Hawkeye continues to be unimpressed, goading BJ on, not realizing BJ is genuinely getting more and more upset and therefore not taking him seriously. until finally BJ starts to get outright mean, lashing out more obviously, and Hawkeye realizes something might actually be wrong. still, he doesnt think much of it- he doesnt know BJ, he doesnt know him angry, and he decides to wait until he's cooled down to talk to him about it and see what's up

well, that doesnt happen. Potter sits BJ down in his office at one point and tells him he needs to knock off the childish tantrum and speak up if something's upsetting him. he points out BJ's been lashing out at everyone, acting uncharacteristically mean, and watching Hawkeye be bombarded with a bunch of pranks is exhausting. he warns BJ to stop now before he goes too far. BJ agrees, but then typical sort of TV show dialogue moment- leaves the office and says to himself "after I get him with this one"

one last prank and then he's done. its all harmless, after all, he'll just get this last one out of his system and then this all becomes a funny memory. except that's not what happens. something goes wrong. it was supposed to be harmless, of course it was supposed to be harmless, but something goes wrong and Hawkeye ends up hurt. he was told to stop, he didnt listen, and now his best friend is hurt and its all his fault. nobody will even let him help, and he cant even blame them

once things settle, thats when they lay into him. Potter is the most livid anyone's ever seen him, nearly rips his damn head off because he fucking told him so. Margaret is furious, demanding what the hell's wrong with him, and Mulcahy's right beside her. even Klinger and Radar look ready to kill, Klinger holding Radar by the shoulders while Radar demands how anyone could do something like that to someone like Hawkeye. and BJ's feeling so horrible, so guilty, so angry at himself, it all just rushes out of him. he's so sick of being compared to Trapper, so sick of everyone treating him like he's just Trapper's replacement, all he wanted was to show them that he isn't just a sub-par replacement. he just wanted to be respected as his own person, he just wanted the comparisons to stop, he just wanted to stop being stuck in the shadow of someone he never even met. at this point BJ storms off before they can say anything else, goes to the only place he can go; the Swamp

that doesnt make it right, of course. but that forces some reflection. it makes a bit more sense, now. and the others can reflect on that- its implied they've been doing it, too. comparing BJ to Trapper. they comment on it a bit- Margaret saying she sometimes does it without thinking in OR, Klinger agreeing that he's brought it up when BJ reacts to one of his outfits differently than Trapper did, etc. Potter understands BJ's anger, having struggled with slotting in himself, especially seeing as he's replacing a dead man. everyone's anger softens a bit

meanwhile, BJ finds Frank in the Swamp, the only one that didnt tear him a new one. Frank, for his part, is completely unbothered. says he's on BJ's side, actually. says Hawkeye needed to be humbled. BJ snaps back that that wasn't the point, and Frank asks him what the point of it all was, then. and BJ starts to explain like he did to the others, but it starts to fall apart. and he admits that maybe it became about just taking his anger out on Hawkeye, because he didnt want to talk about it, didnt want to admit how much it hurt. he knows Hawkeye misses Trapper, and he's not mad at him for that, he just wishes Hawkeye would see him for him, see him for a real friend, not just a cookie cutter replacement. Frank makes a remark about how he definitely did their friendship no favours by putting him in the infirmary. BJ, wallowing in his guilt, agrees and makes his exit. one of those instances where frank is unintentionally and obliviously kinda deep?

bit of a time jump. its been a few days. Hawkeye's fine, recovering without a problem- it wasn't anything serious. BJ hasn't gone by, though. things are tense between him and the others, and he feels way too guilty to see Hawkeye. finally, he's eating his lunch in the Swamp, really just avoiding everyone, when Hawkeye comes in with his own tray. he parks himself right beside BJ and asks if he plans on talking to him about it, or just avoiding him forever. BJ tries to say there's nothing to talk about, but Hawkeye doesnt let him off the hook

so, they have a heart to heart. BJ opens up, admits how he hates how much he's compared to Trapper, admits he feels this ridiculous jealousy towards him. explains that he just wants Hawkeye to see him as his own person, as a friend, but he feels like every time Hawkeye looks at him he's just seeing Trapper in his place. he says he's done a lousy job at being the friend he wants to be seen as, and that he's been fucking stupid, and apologizes

Hawkeye, for his part, agrees that BJ's acted stupid. but he goes on to say that he himself was acting stupid, because he didnt see how much he was hurting BJ by constantly comparing him to Trapper. he admits he's struggling with Trapper's departure, and that he misses him a lot, but he also knows thats no excuse for the comparisons. he apologizes for making BJ feel like he was nothing more than Trapper's replacement, and tells him in no uncertain terms that he does like him a lot for who he really is, and values him as a friend. he promises to stop comparing BJ to Trapper, so long as BJ promises to stop with the pranks- at least, the pranks on him. BJ agrees, and they shake on it, both of them smiling now

an undetermined amount of time later, Frank is the victim of a devastating prank by the both of them. while he rages on, Hawkeye and BJ fall into each other laughing hysterically. their friendship has come out of this stronger than ever, and we end on an optimistic note

#mash #bj hunnicutt #because this is mostly BJ character analysis #again the concept of him being jealous over Trapper and even resentful of him could've been so interesting #if it was done well #which. The Joker is Wild is not done well #it makes no sense for it to happen in season 11 #and I just really fucking hate the fanon Trapper Complex #BJ barely brings Trapper up #Hawkeye really doesnt compare the two all that often #there's no canon evidence that this 'complex' exists #and this isnt my take on a Trapper Complex ok #this is just my take on what if The Joker is Wild was written better #and explored the idea of BJ being jealous over Trapper in a meaningful way #at a better time in the series when it would've actually made sense to have that as a plotline #rather than as a weird gag episode in the very last season #can you tell I just skipped over the episode in my rewatch lmao

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jadtkf38 · 11 months ago

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I hate my life. Why does everything always have to try my patience. I try so hard to put effort into the things and people I love, but it always fucking goes to shit. Everyone is so fucking useless and annoying. I hate you sometimes A. I really do. I always try to be so nice and genuine and you make me feel like im a fucking joke. You did the same thing everyone does to me and you don't even fucking care. I'm well reminded that nobody gives a fuck but I'm so depressed that you had to be added to that list. Sure you're drawing something for me, but that doesn't excuse the fact that even though I'm literally in your house you act like I don't exist. You should know damn well by now how that makes me feel especially when I tell you upright. You said you would be there for me and you're not. Why are you like this??? Why did you turn out like this? How could someone that was so kind be so cruel at the same time? How could the person that showed interest in me first turn out to play me and my feelings in the end? You say that I should tell you what im thinking but how can I when you laugh in my face, say "you know damn well I'm not gonna do that" to valid advice I give you, and just say I'm guilt tripping you or some shit? I fucking hate my life. Nobody takes me seriously and now I have nobody I can truely trust and love. Do you know how painful that is? Of course you don't. Because at least you have a family that cares about you and my stupid ass trying so desperately to be your friend too even though you obviously don't want it. Do you know how painful that is? I would give anything to have a position like that. But you don't care. I dont know why I care so much either. In a selfish world only the selfish succeed. And if you and everybody else insists on being that way then ill stop caring too. All I want now is to have some useless fucking company hire me already so I can earn money and sustain what little life I have left and fill the giant void in my heart and soul with useless games and art. I hate my fucking life and I wish everyday that I was dead. I knew I should've killed myself when these thoughts started. There's no point in living. Everyone is a useless piece of trash and I can't wait to die already so I don't have to feel this pain anymore.

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aqours · 11 months ago

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i'm OP it's kind of hard to ignore you when you're having a debate in my notes. like it's actively difficult to ignore this when my last 20 notes are from this. i am assuming you are willing to have a discussion on something when you have replied to somebody else ten times on my post. that being said upon re-reading it i kind of went all over the place in my post so let me try to rephrase everything.

i am telling you it doesn't fucking matter. the discourse around this game has reached such fucking levels that war crimes are seen as better than it when you can just ignore the fact the game exists. "it fetishizes incest" so does a billion other things. just ignore it and move on. i take issue to acting like you're giving us a galaxy brain take when you're really not. that's it. i bring up the other thing because i explicitly said the context behind these posts is related to a much bigger problem in general.

i am reading your replies. you do not seem to be beyond a very quick glance, so let me rephrase.

you're not saying anything worth listening to. you're fighting for the sake of dying on a hill nobody actually cares about.

everyone knows it. everyone gets it. anyone that thinks you're unreasonable in disliking it from the bottom of their chest is either a fucking goddamn moron that's either stupid as fuck or just wants to fight for the sake of fighting by being an annoying motherfucker.

you've done nothing to actually refute ebenelephant in any of your replies. ebenelephant has repeatedly stated that anyone is free to write about what they want and portray what they want: and ebenelephant is correct. you do not like how it portrays incest. that is completely fine. you are just free to move on with your life. it will not change anything. you talk about how it's immoral and no shit. anybody that supports this shit irl needs fucking therapy immediately. but it's a work of fiction. you can block people, blacklist it, move on with your life and only focus on the things you actually like.

all your replies boil down to trying to scream about the fact you don't like a game romanticizes something while the other people tells you "dude, they can still make it if you want," and acting like we're the ones without reading comprehension. it's annoying. you're not dying on a hill like some hero and you're not making a point. in fact, you're actively demonstrating what is anti-media analysis (as you seem to think i haven't read your posts...)

there is nothing to learn or to get from a serbian film. its meaningless violence to shock. and there are a lot of violent medias written like that. you dont watch a serbian film and come out with wonder that "wow what great political/social/etc commentary" because it means nothing and has no message to say.

people have discussed seriously if this movie means anything or not, and it's own director explicitly stated it was indeed a commentary. using another infamous movie as an example: The Cannibal Holocaust was explicitly stated by it's own director that it was meant to be nothing more than an exploitation film to make money. even today there are people who seriously discuss this film as a reflection of a society that glorifies violence for gratification and sensationalism. something meant solely to squick you out to make money is talked about seriously sometimes in film circles. Salo, or: The 120 Days of Sodom is also in that camp of infamous torture porn/squick movies that's still discussed today. that's the beauty of critical discussion and media analysis. to me, in TCOAAL, it's both in how it romanticizes this incest while also making it clear both people involved are utterly fucked up mentally in every way imaginable and that somehow it's less toxic than the world around them to a society that wrote the Graves siblings off as less than worthless to be sold to an organ harvesting scheme even before that happened. i find it interesting.

you do not get to say that something is bereft of literary analysis because of an arbitrary belief. you are wrong. and i want to make that clear.

and you don't have to find it interesting. but it's really fucking weird you just outright say certain media has nothing to discuss intellectually in any capacity and it makes it obvious you don't actually fucking understand it. a movie that was intended to have no social commentary unintentionally created some that is discussed many years later. a movie that was meant to have commentary is often derided as less worthful in it's discussion and the main commentary (politicians in Serbia) is less worth discussing than just it's edgelord aspects, if anything if you want to discuss it it's more worthwhile to talk about it's portrayal of violence in pornogrpahy and abuse of women in pornography.

and the beautiful thing is you can pretend those movies don't exist either. but they had a right to be made. if you're not interested in anything TCOAAL has to say it's fine. if you don't like something bc it romanticized incest it's fine. everything is fine and i'll defend to the fucking death your right to not like it and anybody who says you just don't get it are actually just fucking wrong. the same way you're not really saying anything worth saying.

ebenelephant is right in that anything has a right to be made as long as real things weren't hurt (which is why if i had a magic button i'd just erase The Cannibal Holocaust from existence, any critical discussion to be made about it be damned). you are correct in saying that people dislike it for this reason. that is factually correct. that does not mean it didn't deserve to be made, that people who like it have no reading comprehension or are just stupid. it's just... a taste in difference. that's all this is, what any of it is.

does that make sense?

we've entered a really fucking weird era of shipping discourse ngl

#starposts #discourse cw #long post

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beomglocks · 4 years ago

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what yeonjun is like as a boyfriend

warnings & other: no warnings except for falling in love with yeonjun, but is that so bad?, side note: no body asked for this but between college stress aka finals and daily life struggles this is the only thing i could manage to come up with so plz enjoy.

w/c: 2 more words and its 1K

jesus take the wheel

when you first meet him he’s flirting

biting his lips and licking them

raising his eyebrows and all like

????

calm down i don’t even know your name yet

very bold

so shameless when you first meet him

“you look like someone”

“oh really who?”

“my future partner ;)”

ngl you would be so put off by his confidence

but he knows when to tone it down and you’re like

“oh you’re actually tolerable!”

if youre shy then rip you

always trying to get you out of your comfort zone

probably does extra shit in public and you just have to laugh along nervously

then when yall are alone you scold him for embarrasing you and he’s like

“ok ok im sorry” *hug*

if youre confident like him youre both annoying

just kidding but thats real couple goals

everyone is jealous of yall

he’s so cocky

always showing you off

“hi everyone this is my partner!”

“yeonjun...we know...we’ve known ever since you introduced them 5 months ago”

thinks you’re the most beautiful human to ever grace the earth and it’s not even close

“seriously how did i end up with someone like you”

seems like the type of boyfriend to kiss the ground you walk on

*not to be confused with a simp*

yeonjun does not simp

he has morals

so you know how he tends to say “baby” a lot

yeah

thats his fav nickname for you and vise versa

omg he loves that nickname forreal

skinship

like i know i said beomgyu and skinship was a huge thing

but my god

yeonjun is on a whole other level

just comes up to you and annoys you with wanting to be close

hes so clingy

but will probrably pout and whine when youre clingy with him

“ahhh y/n you like me sooo much look at you clinging to me like this, leave me aloooooone”

obviously he doesnt mean it like cmon youre each others batteries

kissing you in public

im talking full on makeout sessions

“we’re in public...”

“ok and?”

literally just always all up on you

if youre someone who needs their space yall will CLASH

might even get into arguments because of this

serious arguments where you call him annoying

i feel like he will take it to heart if you call him that

nobody likes being called annoying :(

wont touch or talk to you for days

DAYS

thats dog years in your relationship

you have to apologize and really mean it

he’ll accept it if you kiss him

omg he’s so jealous

SO JEALOUS

doesn’t want people looking at you too long

dont try to make him jealous he will fight the other person

ok maybe just giving them the stank eye then he’ll pull up like

“hey im standing right here have some damn respect”

you guys definitely fight

A L O T

sometimes over petty shit but sometimes it gets serious

always threatning to break up but never doing it

you both know you’re bluffing but it still hurts everytime

but your relationship is strong

i feel like yeonjun wouldnt get into a relationship if he knew he wouldnt have a strong connection with the person

he values communication

tell him how you feel

he’ll always listen

if he’s feeling down you better buy him his favorite foods and run your hands through his hair ok!

speaking of food

best food runs

like will just randomly be like

“hey wanna go to this one place with me?”

and it’s like 2am

but he insists the food is worth it

best dates too

either a restaurant date

(doesnt have to be expensive, just gotta have good food)

or he cooks for the both of you

he cooks surprisingly good????

you’re like there’s no way you made this

he’s like damn you hate me that much

but no like actually can cook but he’s clumsy you know

you gotta be monitering him

which he doesnt mind, he likes having your presence in the kitchen with him

PLEASE i feel like he doesn’t like being alone when he’s doing everyday tasks idk

like if he’s brushing his teeth or if you’re brushing your teeth

he’s right there back hugging you ugh

the type to walk on the side of the sidewalk where cars are closer to <3

if you’re younger than him he kinda has a superiority complex

not in a condescending way

he just tends to baby you more

if you’re older he still tries to act older in some ways

“yeonjun im going to the grocery store!”

“actually i made that exact same grocery list and went 3 days ago”

“the only thing on the list was rice?”

but he likes being babied

coo at him and he’ll get shy and tell you to stop

meeting the other members isn’t too bad

“this is my significant other! arent they just so etheral?”

everyone nods because if they dont yeonjun will probably give them some choice words later

you gotta compliment him a lot

he thrives off compliments honestly

you: “you looked good in that one scene”

him: “yeah but i looked good in all the scenes though right?”

you CANNOT C A N N O T compliment anyone else

you: “soobi-”

him: glaring at you “what about him?”

just to mess with him youre like “soobin killed this scene too”

pouts and whines

“nooooo what do you mean he killed this scene?? i’m the scene too pay attention to me!”

studio sessions with him are a vibe

he likes rnb so yall would just be chilling on days where he doesnt have schedules.

plays his rnb playlist and yall just vibe out

youre both laying down on the studio couch with his head in your neck and he’s dozing off *broken heart emoji”

wait ok i know i’ve said this before but

he’s the type to tease you during arguments

“you wanna kiss me so bad”

and when you do he’s all smug about it

“my baby just can’t stay mad at me for long huh”

your friends think he’s hot

they probably think he’s way too good looking to be dating you

so you doubt yourself

but he’s like nah our looks are on par that’s why we’re perfect together fuck them

always wants you to watch him dance

during practice or not, he wants you there

after hours at the practice room is just him playing some random song and freestyling

but you love it because he looks so happy and free

probably does some cheesy shit like ask you to dance with him

or if you’re sitting down on your phone he’ll come up to you dancing just to bother you then just laugh

he’s the best boyfriend

idk

#choi yeonjun #yeonjun #yeonjun imagines #fluff #yeonjun reactions #yeonjun drabbles #yeonjun drabble #yeonjun fluff #txt imagines #drabble #tomorrow x together imagines #txt headcannons #yeonjun headcannons #txt reactions #txt scenarios #yeonjun timestamps #yeonjun fic #yeonjun x reader

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a-very-tired-raven · 3 years ago

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EEEEEEE so I've been in a writing mood as of late and I needed some help for a writing prompt. One of my best Tumblr friends(@let-love-run-red go check her out!!! She writes amazing garcello fics and headcanons and is a big inspiration for me!!)helped me out! This'll be a lil angsty sorry not sorry lol

•Nothing to lose•

(Trigger warnings!:Mentions of abuse,death,homelessness, multiple past abusive relationships,and bad cigarette habbits!)

You burst out laughing for what seemed to be the 10th time day as your buddy Garcello told yet another joke. "Seriously tho cello! That one was terrible! " He shot you a wink "heh your smiling though." You tried to wipe the smirk off your face. Unsuccessfully. "Am not" you playfully swatted his arm. He just shrugs "Whatever helps you sleep at night kid."

You roll your eyes, "Hey I'm not the one wearing a long sleeved coat and Jeans in the middle of summer" You sent a playful glare. "Your absolutely nuts!" He returns your glare. "Hey at least I'm not the one who's only clothes are T-shirts,shorts and Hoodies! All you ever wear are T-shirts and shorts. Your the crazy one. I don't see how you don't ever get cold"

You smile softy as you see the way he talks with his hands moving everywhere while he rants. I mean.. you do too its just nice to see someone else not pick on you for that. Its... nice to have someone who doesn't judge you for who you are whatsoever. It's been hard,taking care of three siblings all by yourself. Most would shy aways and call you crazy weird,disgusting,freak you've heard it all. Garcello...

Garcello was different.

"Y/n?"

You snap your head up effectively cutting off your somewhat depressing thoughts. "Hm?" You look over. "Are you alright? Ya kinda zoned out on me. I mean I know I can be boring at times but I didn't know I was a snooze fest" Besides his joking banter he has a face full of worry, Beautiful golden eyes scanning your face as if searching for the answer to a murder mystery.

"Nahh your not that boring. Promise. And..yeah I'm fine. Just kinda spaced out y'know?" He nods his head in agreement. You both slow to a stop. He chuckles a bit and turns to you. "Yeah yeah I know, it's just... I recognize that look, Y/N. Believe me I do.. im sorry to be a buzz kill but.. you know you can talk to me. About anything right?" You give that soft and kind smile that melts his heart every rare occasion he gets to see it. You never smile enough..

Sure there's the joking but... genuine smiles,ones that don't cover a dark and rough interior. He knows first hand what that feels like. So.. he tries. He's tries all he can to get you to smile that genuine smile as often as can be. For both your sakes.

"I know garcy. And thank you. Glad to know it still stands." You give him a quick hug that immediately makes his cheeks warm. He's really thankful for the shade his cap gives his face right about now. "I'll see you later alright? And tell Annie I said hey!" "Alrighty will do! And get some rest tonight okay? Cya." You nod a okay and walk inside your apartment.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You stare holes into the ceiling. Past memories flash through your mind. Your mother, and father. You were disgusted to call them that. Helping and raising your siblings. Her...death.. being homeless..heh something both you and garcello share in common. Picking up your smoking habbit.. heh another thing. Meeting him.. These past few months.

Its been hard...but its been good. You have a roof over your head. Your four siblings are okay. You haven't seen your older brother in a while but he gave you a call. You have food, water,and.. Garcello and Annie. A smile works its was on your face.

I'm glad I met him' a soft smile works its way onto your face until you realize you thought just garcello and not both him and his sister. YES you love them both- like a family-its not like that- ugh why does thoughts have to be complicated!! You roll over,you have to get to sleep. Garcello told you to! And he said he wanted to meet up for something again. You slowly drift off.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Garcello was antsy the whole walk to the park;the place you two agreed to meet. His face was a mad red. He had your favorite flowers and your favorite candy! Reeces pieces and snickers. He's never done anything like this before. Confessing he means. Sure he's asked a few chick's out but... Nobody important or someone he cares about, nobody like you. You changed his entire life in just the few months he's knew you.. He hopes you'll say yes. then again.. his hopes are all the way up.. who'd wanna date guy like him?

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You look up from your phone to see garcello approaching you. He's very...stressed? No... anxious? Yes Anxious for lack of a better work. With his hands behind his back...Hmmm....

"Hey cello, whatcha got there? You got murder on your mind?" You give a teasing smirk. He just immediately freezes. "I-um-uhm. No. I uh got ya somethin' if that's alright?" He very stiffly sits in front of you. He's sweating bullets. Geeze what's got him this worked up.. "Dang cello with how your acting Ida thought you were askin' me out" you give a light chuckle. He freezes completely.

"Heh uh yeah heh...um..here..you go.. I bought these. For you.. Noone else. Heh" He awkwardly places a two boxes of your favorite candy and holds out a large boutique of your favorite flowers. You freeze completely, mouth hanging open in shock."Y/N...I've liked you for a while now.. your so nice and thoughtful...and you understand me. I was maybe hoping you'd go on a date? With me?" His face is cherry red.

What. He can't be serious? Really he can't. Nobody would ever like you that. Yes you love him.. but you can't afford to love him. Caring gets you hurt. And being vulnerable gets you killed mentally as well as physically You've long sense learned this from your past three relationships

"Are you serious?..Garcello... I cant.. I can't accept this.."

Your heart sinks as you watch the hope glittering off his eyes dim

"Of course I am! Y/N I love you..." Your both standing up at this point. Your both shaking.

"And garcello... I know-i know but please-i just cant!"

"At least tell me why? Am I not enough? I thought... maybe you'd understand.." He drops the boutique. He..he knew it..your too good for him...He really does disappoint everyone..

"Garcello I just cant!can't"! You don't notice the tears spilling down your face at this point.

"But why! I love you! I really do! You mean so much to me!" You take a step back.

"Just stop! don't do that to me Garcello! Dont give me hope! Never ever give me something I want, something I want as bad as you!"

"Why" he's pleading with you so hard..please...just tell him..

"BECAUSE THEN I HAVE SOMETHING TO LOSE!" You hadn't ment to scream. Your fists are clenched and eyes shut tight, you feel as if you might collapse at any moment. Garcello's stunned into silence. "And then I'll be open to get hurt... and I just.." You let out a broken sob. "I'm just so tired of being hurt" you don't move as he engulfs you into a hug.

"And as much as I love you too.. I can't risk being vulnerable again... raising 3 siblings and protecting them so at least they can have a good childhood while you haven't even had on yourself..." You don't notice tears of his own dropping on your shirt. "Being backstabbed and left broken with Noone to fix you...I just can't do it again..." He let's out a broken whisper. "I know Y/N.. I know more than you ever will."

Your just left there hugging in silence. You've decided. You can talk it out because as you were too blind by fear. Fear of being hurt again... he's just like you,two broken puzzle pieces that fit together.

Hope yall like it! Promt idea goes to @let-love-run-red ! Go follow and check her out!

I accept any and all constructive criticism!,

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it9chi · 4 years ago

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jjk characters as quarantine 2020 trends

tiktok - itadori

look at me in the eye and tell me that itadori didn’t become tiktok famous overnight or after a few dancing videos he became a tiktok sensation. he was an avid tiktok user before quarantine but he took it more seriously when he ended up on his senpai’s fyp once and voila ! a tiktok star ! doesn’t stick to one type of content tho. maybe its the randomness in his videos that made him skyrocket to the top or the fact he interacts w his followers a lot in the comment section and goes on live time to time. no one really knows but hey, u might see a tiktoker out in sendai buying flowers and going to the hospital time to time

baking banana bread everyday - panda

idk why but this just screams panda to me like can u imagine panda disappearing in the middle of the day only to come back with freshly baked banana bread on his hands ready to serve to the few personel and students in jujutsu tech? sounds lovely if you ask me. maki and inumaki legally cannot say that panda smells cs he smells like banana bread okay maybe not like banana bread more like flour but its the thought that counts !

dalgona coffee - fushiguro

its canon that megumi drinks coffee.. black coffee to be exact so isn’t this just perfect for him????? but gojo got him to do this as a whole joke at first like he tricked this poor little boy into making this drink FOR HIM only for gojo to dip and thus leaving this tiring, pain in the ass to make drink to just sit there.. waiting for someone, anyone to drink him. so megumi, out of anger, drank the drink he made for gojo and just fell in love with it LMFAO “you reap what you sow” type beat is what megumi is thinking. he poured his blood, sweat and tears into making this for his sensei only for the said sensei to bail on him lmfao but hey! at least he’s got something to drink that isn’t black coffee anymore!!!

dyeing their hair - nobara

almost fried her scalp off from bleaching it every 2-3 business days after looking at another funky hair color and wanted to try it for herself to see if it fits her and surprisingly it does. she also changes her overall aesthetic a lot which is also a factor why she keeps dyeing her hair LMAFAOFAOF she tried the egirl look for the first month of lockdown but all she got was weird stares from the locals back at the countryside. she’s glad that she’s in tokyo now and no one gives a shit about how you look

became a plant mom - maki

can u imagine the 2nd year gang waking up to like a bunch of plants in their common room or the jujutsu tech common room in general to be filled with plants?? or better yet, imagine walking inside maki’s room to be greeted by a shit load of plants surrounding the entire room. maki names her plants and will smack you if you get one of them wrong. panda says her room reminds him of a jungle but we don’t tell maki that

playing animal crossing - inumaki

doesn’t he strike you as those guys who buys stuff cs its popular idk cs he does. he got his hands on the nintendo switch animal crossing edition first than the fans who waited so long for this to come out. omg inumaki king shit?? no one knows how he did it but alas! he did ! now he gets to play this game all day. maki has to barge in his dorm to tell him to do yk.. basic stuff like eat, take a bath, etc. cs he cannot and will not take his hands off his damn switch

started an online business (selling his preloved stuff) - gojo

u know those instalives or going on live to sell smth yeah thats what gojo does. what does he even sell you ask? some preloved luxury shit of course ! but if people start acting up on his lives and start spamming shit like

“can i buy you first?”

“the guy with glasses/blindfold talking, mine please!”

then gojo will start acting up. please don’t test him. nobody wants to see him slowly do a thirst trap in the middle of his live. he thinks he’s hot shit but frankly, everyone who knows him just think he’s being stupid. don’t give this man more money than he already has. he already has a big head along with a fat wallet, pls dont feed into his capitalist needs even more but its gojo so maybe opening ur wallet for the likes of him doesn’t sound TOO bad

#jujutsu kaisen headcanons #jujutsu kaisen imagines #gojo headcanons #gojo imagines #itadori headcanons #itadori imagines #fushiguro headcanons #fushiguro imagines #inumaki headcanons #inumaki imagines #nobara headcanons #nobara imagines #maki headcanons #maki imagines #jjk imagines #jjk headcanons

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thepictureofsdr · 3 years ago

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HELLO BITCHES my friend refuses to read the TLH short stories and ive given up trying so im summarizing it on the one long format social media we share so uh. read if you want to im not sure what anyone else would get out of this the first story is so fucking depressing HELLO

@mintminao3 i can’t believe im fucking rereading all of this it’s literally the foundation for why i dont like these characters and you’re making me reread it this should be considered a federal crime

1. CAST LONG SHADOWS

(this is a jem pov book bestie get it together will is mentioned literally a trillion times HELLO)

- jem is at the shadowmarket. premise of the book. matthew shows up and calls him uncle jem and kisses him on the cheek and i break down all over again

- flashback to the academy in 1899 (i forgot how OLD they are wtf)

- alastair says something really bitchy about will and tessa i forgot how rotten he was oh my god 😭

- “to everyone’s surprise” thomas gets him to stop 🤪 you dont care about this but i DO

- theres so much detail here you’re killing me this is an absolute nightmare im leaving so much juicy shit out YOURE THE WORST

- so uh. you know how ive devoted my life to our lord and saviour alastair carstairs. um. it gets a bit embarrassing here. just a tad. BUT YOULL UNDERSTAND SOON I PROMISSEEEEEE

- matthew goes looking for thomas who’s always with alastair and finds them both.

- matthew calls alastair a “low snaky serpent.” alastair calls matthew “mother hen fairchild” and then says he’ll be a lovely wife one day which i KNOW is an insult but i cant take it seriously hes just calling him a malewife it makes me giggle

- then matthew just BUSTS OUT the physical insults with an absolute unit of “has no kind soul thought to inform you that your hairstyle is, to use the gentlest words available to me, ill - advised? a friend? your papa? does nobody care enough to to prevent you from making a spectacle of yourself? or are you simply too busy perpetuating acts of evil upon the innocent to bother about your unfortunate appearance?”

- i mean. um. whew. for reference alastair’s hair is currently blond unless proven otherwise his introduction in TFTSA mentions him having “light hair” aka not the ink black he was born with.

- then alastair tells thomas to leave and pulls out the “women cant be good consuls blah blah blah” no one cares, this is the important bit, he goes on to, rather cruelly, inform matthew of a rumour floating around the academy that henry isn’t matthews father. gideon and charlotte work very closely together, and since matthew was born AFTER henry’s paralyzation, there’s a rumour that GIDEON is actually math’s birth father, esp since matthews got a mop of gold on his head rather than the red or brown of his parents. “henry fairchild is not your father” spat alastair. “you are gideon lightwoods bastard. everyone knows it but you.”

- (theres way too much dialogue to quote that whole scene)

- then matthew slaps alastair which like. deserved.

- its up to you to form an opinion, personally i don’t give a shit that alastair’s going around with this rumour hes like 16 in high school and it’s everyone’s god given right to slander politicians charlotte and gideon are no exceptions but i think the manner of speaking was cruel and an apology is in order, matthew was a little shit as well but alastair kinda pulled out the nukes. math would’ve found out eventually but alastair was kinda a bitch about it

- anyway back to the present

- jem lets math call him uncle and math “glows” i want to bottle him up and keep him safe ugh

- talk of will james tessa and lucie you miss out on sucks to suck loser

- … he gets a truth potion from a faerie.

- math goes back home, gideon comes over the next morning, math has an internal emotional crisis, yadda yadda, NO IM NOT CRYING AT HIS REFUSAL TO THINK OF HIM AS AN UNCLE AND THE PAIN THIS POOR BOY IS GOING THROUGH UH UH

- OKAY UM I COMPLELTEY FORGOT ABOUT THIS BUT UH (hes talking to himself in the mirror) “you may be a waste of space in a waistcoat” he told matthew fairchild “but at least your waistcoat is fantastic” NOW IM ACTUALLY FULL ON CRYONG

- also math has a dog named mr. oscar wilde this is critical to the story

- james content you’re missing out on loser

- “alastair loathly worm carstairs”

- “later matthew would look back and remember it as his last happy day”

- “alastair god-help-us carstairs”

- just. please read this.

Christopher had the audacity to look surprised when Matthew began to belabor him mightily about the head and face. "Watch the test tubes!" cried Thomas.' "There is a hole in the floor at the Academy that Professor Fell calls the Christopher Lightwood Chasm” "I suppose I hate some people," offered James. "Augustus Pounceby. Lavinia Whitelaw. Alastair Carstairs.” Matthew regarded his very own parabatai with deep approval. "This is why we are chosen warrior partners, because we share such a perfect bond of sympathy. Come to me, Jamie, that we might share a manly embrace." He made incursions upon Jamie's person. James thwacked him over the head with his book. It was a large book. "Betrayed," said Matthew, writhing prone upon the floor. "Is that why you insist on carrying about enormous tomes everywhere you go, that you might visit violence upon innocent persons? Done to death by my best friend- my heart's brother--my own dear parabatai. He snagged James around the waist and brought him crashing to the floor for the second time that day. James hit Matthew with the book again, then subsided, leaning his shoulder against Matthew's. They were both thoroughly rumpled, but Matthew did not mind being rumpled for a good cause.

- thomas defends alastair. says that alastair regrets the prank, able to tell because of how uncomfortable he gets when its brought up. also points out that alastair behaviour is partly brought on by jealousy, like how all the fathers came to the academy after the prank, will came running to james’s side, whereas no one came for alastair. then matthew pulls out this absolute horrifier of calling alastair a curse of a son and its understandable that a father would want to see him as less as possible. thomas also tells them not to listen to the bs alastair says when hes mad bc its usually nonesense.

- more emotional stuff between the family you miss.

- math puts the potion in the scones. charlotte eats one. she falls ill almost immediately. jem is called. (my sister just got home and now people are around me im trying so hard not to cry) its revealed that charlotte was expecting, and hoping for a little girl. matthew is beyond horrified. gideon has been making sure she was safe at the clave meetings which is why he was around more. the baby was going to be named after henry’s most beloved great aunt. matthew has her hair. henry caresses math’s head. he wishes his father would pick up a knife and slash his throat.

“it was not the faerie woman’s fault or alastair’s or the fault of any other soul. … He was not a fool. He was a villain”

“He laid his cheek against the cold floor and refused to let himself weep again. he knew he could not be forgiven”

ill do the other one later im after crying a concerning amount i cant handle anna right now

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saksukei · 4 years ago

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wen junhui college au

other college aus; wonu minghao mingyu

you're damn right if you think that wen junhui is a theatre arts major because he iS and that too with humanistic studies as a minor aH and he's also on the rowing team,,, he started rowing as a joke and now he has one of the best times??? like. how.

and everybody knows he has too much energy and he uses it in the best way possible

like the plays? dude has a separate fanclub

you keep on seeing new tweets about “who’s the black haired guy in the play?” like wen junhui’s popularity is straight up no joke,, EVERYBODY KNOWS HIM

you on the other hand are an exercise physiology major with nutrition as a minor and you're also part of the rowing team,, and you have the best time for the women’s team,, which means,, you see junhui every other day,,

the coach pairs you guys often,, but there’s only one small issue,,,

YOU HATE WEN JUNHUI

he's such a pain in the ass,, he teases you every time he sees you,,, he always challenges your skills and makes you doubt yourself,, oh the amount of times you’ve wanted to deck him in the face,,

and today was the same as well

“you're not dead yet?” you hissed, as you saw jun approach you,,

“dont sound so disappointed, I might think you don't like me,” he retorted, a smug expression on his face, as he set his bag right beside yours.

“but I really don't like you,” you roll your eyes,,

jun chuckled, as he clapped his hands together, getting everyone's attention.

you guys were practicing indoors, on the rowing machine because there was some trouble with the equipment and the coach had to go get new stuff

which also meant he left jun in charge,, the teams assembled,, looking at junhui for directions,,

“alright everyone, warm up for ten and then start with a thousand metres,” he instructed. “and y/n, you're my partner.”

you rolled your eyes while everyone was whistling or smirking

it was no secret that you and jun didn't get along and he purposely tried to get on your nerves,,, heck everyone in the club said you two would fall in love at one point or another but you assured them by saying you'd rather choke

“your IQ is lower than room temperature junhui if you think that I want to train with you,” you hissed, as the two of you walked towards the machine.

“oh I'm sorry, I don't compare my intelligence quotient to someone who was deprived of oxygen when they were born,” he snapped, as he started warming up.

“you know what,” you spoke. “i'll just aggressively ignore your existence until you disappear.”

“maybe you should try doing it with that bird hair of yours, looks like worms will crawl out of it soon”

“why don't you look at your face first– ass clown?”

“why don't you look at your face first ass clown” he mimicked in a high pitched tone and all you wanted was to stab him there and then

“CAN YOU TWO SHUT UP WE'RE TRYING TO PRACTICE?” one of the team members yelled, causing you two to fall silent and warm up.

the next day,,, one of your best friends had begged you to go to her department because she had misplaced one of her things,, you only agreed on the basis that you'd be getting pizza

you were passing by the theatre to the class she told you to go to,, and you heard someone rehearsing their lines,, you went ahead to see who it was,,

of course it was jun with a script in his hands,,

and you don't know what it was,, but something just pulled you into the room,, maybe it was the way his words echoed of the walls,, the emotion in those alluring eyes of his,,

you actually sat down and listened to him instead of wanting to kill him,,, understanding what the hype was around him,,

like? you didn't even know this side of junhui existed??? excuse me? he was the biggest dick alive to you so you never really paid attention to anything nice that he did but this,,

you didn't even realize he had stopped until someone snapped you out of it

and you saw jun standing right in front of you

“well well well, it looks like I have a fan,” he smirked, folding his arms as he bent down to your level

“h-heck no,, I was just,,, looking for the um.....” you cursed your memory internally for forgetting.

“umm?” he teased,,

“shut up, I really was looking for something,” you snapped

“alright, alright” he surrenders,, raising his hands in defeat. “how was it though?” he asked.

“what?”

“the lines,, i'm sure you heard some of it.”

“they were um,,, good,” you reply,, shyly,, you've never been used to giving him compliments,,

jun nods as an awkward silence befalls the both of you,, you take it as a que to leave,, but then his voice stops you,,

“hey,, why don't you rehearse with me?” he suggested. “my actual partner is really busy and I need someone to rehearse with.”

“uh,, yeah sure?” you reply,,, as he hands you the script,,

jun started reciting his lines and you responded with the same enthusiasm

but the only thing that worried you was the last,, scene

in the script, it was written that jun's chracter would walk over to where you were, push your character against the wall and would try to initiate a kiss but your character would push him away

and so jun recited his last line, “i don't think I've ever tasted lips so fine, heck i'd taste them over and over again” he walked towards you, eventually pushing you against the wall

and your hEART WAS LIKE BADUMP!!

and his face was an inch from away from yours and you could feel his breath tickling your ear and you realized,,, how pretty wen junhui was,, how perfectly sculptured his face was,, those lips,, those cheekbones?? wait what??

and you were so mesmerized with how he acted on stage you didn't really realize you had to play a part as well

jun broke his stance, “you know you're supposed to push me away right?”

AND YOU BECAME RED

“y-yeah uh–but I–um remembered that I left the stove on!” you lied. “aND I DID SO BYE JUN!” you grabbed your bag and yEETED YOURSELF OUT OF THERE

and jun was confused but he ignored it and started rehearsing again

you on the other hand were trying to calm yourself like ???? It's just wen junhui? what the FUCK? Why is your heart racing so fast?? you were so confused? wHY? why is this happening

and the next time you saw him at training, oh dear god

“well if it isn't miss sunshine,” jun grinned.

“shut up jun, your existence makes me want to die,” you muttered,,, you felt your cheeks getting warm,,

“well, great, I think I'd be doing the world a favor.”

“jun if you're going to bother me one more time during practice I'm going to kick you so hard you will lose the ability to entertain a partner” you hissed, as you started warming up.

“nah,, you don't have the balls to do it,” he grinned, especially proud of the pun he used.

“you know what,,, I don't give a damn, so just leave me alone.”

“you give so many damns, they're visible from space,,,” he says,, his face is close to yours,, and you stop BREATHING

jun grins,, he thinks he has rendered you speechless,, as he goes up ahead to train with the boys,,

aND YOU FELT YOUR HEART WAS GOING TO JUST POP OUT OF YOUR CHEST

and now you were noticing all of these little things about him,, from his silly smile, to how he rolls his eyes, copies every small thing someone else does, to his goofy jokes, how his hair falls on his face, or just,,, him in general

all the while trying to keep your angry/annoyed facade so that he wouldn't pick up on it

but oh boy, it's wen junhui

and he notices every goddamn thing

including how much you've been staring at him especially in today's training session

he knew you were acting really weird since the rehearsal thingy but he was letting it slide because he thought you were upset or something and he didn't want to get on your nerves more

regardless, you decided to ignore jun from today onwards,, to stop feeling whatever you were feeling,,

and every thing was going great

you barely talked to him in rowing practice, you didn't attend the plays or even go anywhere near him

and jun,,,, he stopped annoying you as well

for two months

the whole damn university noticed but nobody dared to say anything ,,,,, in fear that you guys won't talk again

you were casually walking to the cafeteria and you heard something that just ,,,,, made your heart stop

“did you hear that jun got injured really badly? He was practicing in the theatre and this glass fell on his foot,,”

aND YOU DID A FULL 180 AND RAN AS FAST AS YOU COULD TO WHERE HE WAS

you had no idea why you suddenly cared so much like sure yeah, it was bad he got hurt but you were running so fast you felt your heart would pop out of your chest

the nurse eventually led you to where he was

and you saw his leg covered in bandages???

and your heart just broke

“hey what are you doing here?” jun asked. “i haven't seen you in like,,, two months?”

“jun I'm sorry–” you felt tears slide down your face. “i'm sorry I ignored you every time you tried to make a conversation with me or whatever I just,,, I had all these feelings that I couldn't figure out and I got scared–”

“hey hey hey, it's okay,” he cooed, as he opened his arms wide, only for them to wrap around you, as you cried in his chest. “no harm done, I promise.”

“no but jun– I was really inconsiderate and I just kept on feeling like I was missing something but I couldn't figure out what it was,” you cried out. “i felt ignoring you would be a solution but I just, I don't know?”

“hey, okay listen to me– what happened in these past two months happened–” he wiped the tears from your face. “but I hope you understand that the only reason I used to bother you a lot was because,, well,,, I really geniunely like you.”

“l-like me?” you stuttered.

“why do you think I annoy the crap out of you?”

“because you're an idiot, you like doing stuff like this,” you answered.

“but you're the only one I annoy?”

“okay that part I missed,” you give him a weak smile,, jun chuckles,, ruffling your hair,,

“in all seriousness though, I hated these two months. I felt like you were upset or something and I didn't want to risk hurting you even more so I stopped talking altogether because I thought you'd talk to me if I did,,” he admitted.

“its my fault this happened in the first place,” you responded. “and I now realize how stupid I am.”

“you're not stupid, you're just an ass clown,” he joked, a playful smile on his face.

“but i'm still sorry, junhui,” you sighed. “i really didn't want this to happen.”

“hey, it's okay– we both were right in our own places.”

“so um now what do we do?” you asked.

“well it depends,” he answered. “does someone want a cute, charming, handsome and brilliant boyfriend?” he grinned.

“only if he wants an amazing, beautiful, smart and talented girlfriend,” you answered.

“oh he sure as hell does,” jun grinned.

#seventeen imagines #seventeen oneshot #seventeen scenarios #seventeen headcanons #seventeen x y/n #seventeen x reader #seventeen x you #wen junhui #wen junhui imagines #jun imagines #wen junhui scenario #wen junhui x reader #seventeen #jun seventeen #seventeen jun

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omegawolverine · 4 years ago

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Plesse tell me about queerness in the get down!!

okay okay queerness in the get down let's fuckn goooo

disclaimer: I havent watched this show in full for like 5 months at least, probably gonna get something wrong and/or forget some more important bits. also this wasnt proof read I just word vomited

tws: period typical homophobia, abuse mention, f slur use, bury your gays trope, overdose mention, mention of a creepy possible age gap (the age gap hasnt been confirmed so that's why its possible), cops

going from least to most prominent queer characters, let's start with mylene cruz!

so, from the beginning of this show she has an established romantic relationship with ezekiel (although the status of their actual relationship changes frequently throughout the show) and though this was a relationship she was hesitant to pursue, it is clear that she does have romantic feelings for him and if not for them both having growing careers in very different music genres (zeke specifically working in a genre that she repeatedly labels as bad because she thinks they're ruining records + that it isnt real music because they're using someone elses piece and rapping over it, that's not really important here tho lol) they probably wouldve had a much healthier, smooth sailing romance. that being said theres a few things that happen in the show that, while not explicitly clear, or even really good coding at that—to the point where you wont catch if you really arent looking for it (and trust me, I always look for coding, hers was just so little that it flew over my head until I saw someone else mention it)—are still cool to think about!

so, for starters, I wanna mention the toy box performance, which was performed by mylene and regina, who are best friends. that's all cool and shit, and you dont really think much about it...until you hear about the fact that the show runners purposely colored a lot of the scenes in that performance with the bi colors. like. the writers after the show ended basically said "oh yeah there was plans to make her coding more explicit, but our shit got cancelled soooo" and then dropped the fact that she was gonna be bi (or at least implies bi) in the series, which puts a new twist on a few things.

now, besides the bi coloring in the background of the toy box performance (which was mostly on scenes with her and regina, which involved a lot of uh,, lowkey lewd dancing. with each other. in very revealing outfits. wooooo), there's her music! I dont tend to read too much into this one bc, like I said before, her coding is fucking light and the writers themselves said they didnt really get to do much with it, but I think some stuff with her music is interesting. specifically how her, yolanda and regina's song set me free blew up because dizzee, resident (lowkey enby coded) bicon, got their song played in a queer club. also that the song was majorly important to dizzee and started playing literally right as he kissed a boy for the first time and realized "oh shit I like boys that's bonkers". also that the song can be taken in a gay way since literally the entire thing is about becoming your true self, fully and unapologetically, which is what both dizzee and mylene's entire character arcs are about. dizzee (and a lot of other queer people, apparently), heard this song about being set free and it resonated with them so much that they got that shit most of its popularity.

speaking of dizzee and mylene, they parallel each other a lot in the way that their arcs are about them realizing who they are, coming into themselves and no longer just letting people treat them like shit in a sense (dizzee starting to tell people essentially that they can call him weird all they want, they can make fun of how he acts, what he likes, how he dresses, etc. but he likes how he is and quite literally saying "it's okay to be an alien" as he has consistently compared himself to one throughout the show vs mylene learning that if she wants to be a disco singer she needs to put her foot down, not let anyone, not even the love of her life, not even her abusive father, stop her from achieving her dreams, etc. and continuing to pursue her career with or without their support). one more little parallel that I think is interesting is during I think s2 towards the end of the show is when dizzee and thor are shown together having fun with each other, painting all over the building and each other and are basically just being happy and in love together and then they have these clips of them being interspersed with clips of mylene at a party where she is starting to realize that if she wants to get anywhere she needs to be her own main priority and that she needs to put her career and her dream, which is what makes her the happiest, above all else if she wants to succeed. idk I just think how the show made these two into a weird parallel, accidental or not, is neat. maybe not an explicitly queer parallel, but I think at least how her music and whatnot helped dizzee, the main queer character in this show, blossom, is important.

moving on we got shaolin fantastic also known as "oh no your internalized homophobia is showing-"

so, heres a quick list of...interesting shao facts:

Consistently referred to as fag/faggot (shaolin fanfaggot is my personal favorite); he gets really defensive about this despite nobody actually thinking he's queer, it's just people being assholes to be assholes, and he is the only character consistently referred to using a slur, especially a homophobic one, especially for a "straight" character. dizzee, a canonically queer character, is called a fag less than shaolin is even though dizzee actively goes to gay clubs, has a not so secret dude he "hangs out with" and wont let anyone properly meet, paints his nails, wears less than straight clothes even by the 70s standards and is just all around the definition of fucking queer (and I mean like in the weird way, not the gay way). in fact theres only like once I can remember him being called a fag and it had nothing to do with him actually being gay it was literally just like thrown out there the same way you would call someone a bitch.

Has only shown sexual interest in women, yet refuses to have deeper relationships with women in general (possibly because of trauma but who knows) but takes his relationships with his "brothers", specifically zeke, very seriously

Tells zeke and zeke ONLY his real name when zeke was planning to stop being his friend bc shao more or less got boo boo, a like 14 year old black kid, arrested for selling hard drugs; he was clearly scared and trying to do anything to keep zeke around, literally chasing him down the street and hounding him until he got zeke to stop and argue with him

Kept threatening to beat up zeke in the end but couldn't actually bring himself to do so, instead saying that zeke is "fucking lucky" before walking away

Let's zeke get away with things that nobody else can, in general just has a weird soft spot for ezekiel that he shows with nobody else

when shao found dizzee with thor in a vaguely compromising situation (like they were just shirtless covered in paint sleeping next to each other but shao had also seen everything they painted on the walls ((which some of it was sus)), it was clear they had painted on each others bodies and dizzee had been routinely disappearing with this guy for weeks now yet not producing nearly as much art, at least, as far as we audience members know) he didnt judge him but instead, waited for him to get cleaned up and then told him something along the lines of "theres a reason why im so secretive blah blah blah [not everyone needs to know everything about me]", which, in context, kinda implies that he might be a lil. a lil homiesexual. jus a lil.

whenever even the possibility of zeke leaving him comes up he absolutely loses it. he has literally cost ezekiel life changing opportunities because he thought zeke would just up and leave him for them. this could be abandonment issues bc he's a severely traumatized character, and that probably does contribute to it, but it also is just not a reaction he has to any of their other friends just randomly dipping in and out of his life soooooo

generally speaking, this mfer has got either bisexual with a big hard on for zeke coding or homosexual with terrible internalized homophobia and still a hard on for zeke coding. either fucking way, that nigga gay. he gay as hell. gay as fuck man. there wasn't really much to analyze here tbh bc the coding is just so fucking obvious if you look for it or you are/have been a gay person who's dealt with at least a little bit of internalized homophobia.

also, just a sidenote, idk how fucking old shao, but I'm praying hes like at max 19 bc I'm pretty sure zeke is a minor in this show and shao definetly is not so the whole him being heavily implied to have a crush on ezekiel thing is kinda. oof. not oof if zeke is like 17 but any younger than that? OOF.

edit: apparently the characters are only supposed to be a year apart in age but i had no clue about that before writing this post and since shaos age was never actually stated in the show i naturally assumed he was an adult since his actor Looks Like An Adult. this is definetly on me to a certain extent, but i also never saw anything about this when trying to find our their ages so 🤷‍♀️ maybe i just didnt look deep enough, sorry!

now moving on to the main event...marcus dizzee kipling :]

so, first things first, let's talk enby coding bc him being bisexual was already confirmed!

um, to start off, I just wanna say I dont think this enby coding was intentional or even really coding, it's just moreso me being a dizzee kin on main and knowing as a transmasc enby he has very transmasc enby vibes. for example:

cool, gender neutral nickname that everyone calls him

paints nails various different colors

the whole wardrobe is just a transmasc enby heaven...fishnet shirts, jean overalls, jackets and cuffed pants galore, the big colorful pins, etc

gender neutral hairstyle (when I had my fro it was very sexy and made it easy to transition between hyper masc and vaguely fem, which is pog)

comparing himself to/representing himself consistently with an alien character (though this is meant to represent his sexuality, it could also double as a gender thing too, not neccesarily bc of the whole nonbinary alien trope but bc an enby who likes aliens might heavily identify or compare themselves to whatever their idea of an alien is, whether that just be a genderless entity or a motherfucker with fly style and no need to be perceived as anything other Wacky As Hell)

moving on from there, let's talk about how his queerness is presented to us and how, while it may be a really good piece of representation, especially coming from netflix, it still lacks in A Lot of places.

so, let's start with good things!

i personally really like the get down's queer rep with dizzee bc it's (for the most part) nonsexualized and very very soft, about dizzee figuring himself out and realizing there is a place where he fits in, and about two teenagers in the 70s falling in love over their shared passion for street art. it also features an interracial couple where both boys challenge stereotypes both about queer men and men of color, which is epic poggers and very sexy. this piece of rep specifically is very important to me bc I am a queer black person and even tho interracial relationships are mostly normalized now, I've still had people give me shit for primarily dating white people in a town that is...primarily white lol

mm anyways, I can also appreciate how in the get down, dizzee being represented by rumi the alien is not a thing specifically related to gender (as it often is) and instead is about his sexuality and just in general weirdness and how it has led to him being alienated amongst his peers, poc or otherwise. him seeing himself as an alien is not about just his queerness, which is important, it is about him being a queer black man who talks different, acts different, dresses different and is "soft"—he isnt a walking black male stereotype and he wouldnt have been seen as masculine back in the 70s by any stretch of the imagination. this can be relatable to a wide spectrum of queer poc, from queer black men currently who still have to deal with this shit or to people like myself who are afab neurodivergent mixed race enbies that have always been signaled out as weird and alienated for it. dizzee is god rep bc while he has a small part in this show, his parts are very impactful, hard hitting and show queer poc of all ages that they arent alone and that it's okay to "weird", you just need to embrace it because somebody will love you for you, as thor did for dizzee.

that being said theres um. some minor problemas here,,,

namely:

dizzee and thors first kiss

the lack of development this pairing got

the way dizzee was confirmed bisexual off screen, he never said the words himself, just showed interest in both genders

the way dizzee and thor were never even confirmed boyfriends or just fwb so most of the fandom just calls them boyfriends bc Why Not

dizzee was implied fucking DEAD??? AT THE END OF THE SERIES?????? AND THOR WAS IMPLIED ARRESTED?????????????

now, these might have been things that wouldve been fine had the show been given it's full run but it wasnt which is why we are now left with probelms.

so, from the top, let's go over these: dizzee and thor's first (and only "on screen") kiss was one that was shown in a montage of other queer people making over and doing other vaguely romantic/sexual things, one of those things being a whole ass naked titty being mouthed at, but the actual kiss...was just not shown? like they really did just say "yes they kissed <3 you know this from the context clues of it being in a montage with kissing, hickey giving and titty sucking <3 but no we will not show it <3" LIKE HELLO? I SAW A NAKED BOOBIE BUT NOT TWO MEN KISS??? HUH????????

also, dizzee and thor were both fucking high as hell during this bit like this isnt a terrible thing but it's also like sometimes you do shit when you're high that you wouldnt do sober and they just never kissed again on screen so like?? like idk that's not that bad but it does kinda irk me since they deadass got no other on screen intimacy after that unless you including painting on eacher other or sleeping next to each other on a shitty mattress but not touching at all during it bc they were both at opposite ends of the mattress like half way off it

so yeah, that was trash. then we got lack of development, which kinda goes with the "dizzee being a bisexual but he never says it in canon" thing cause like...okay dizzee was already sort of a side character from the get go like he wasnt the mc by any means, but he became way more of a background character as things continued until we basically only saw him for performances or when he was with thor, yet they got no fucking development as a pairing other than "dizzee realize he gay, he like thor, he and thor spend time together and ig probably do some gay stuff but we dont really know bc we only ever see them do graffiti together now" like?? tf am I supposed to do with that shit. answer. quickly. and then theres dizzee not being confirmed bisexual, which is just a running problem with shows literally doing everything to say a character is bi except for having the character just...say they're bi? which would be so easy? like a good way dizzee and thor couldve had some development is by thor teaching dizzee things about the queer community that he didnt even know existed, thor couldve helped him understand what being bi meant and helped him label himself and whatnot but instead we got an off screen confirmation that the writers had bisexual in mind when writing him. which is garbagé.

the whole thor and dizzee never having a confirmed relationship status is also a development problem cause like literally nobody knows if they were just friends who made out, maybe fucked, who knows, or if they were dating bc dizzee does give a love confession but a love confession doesn't mean there is a relationship, especially since thor didn't say he was in love either (as far as I remember, I could be wrong, plus whether or not that really happened or was apart of dizzee literally overdosing during a performance is unclear so 🤪)

and now for the biggest issue...bury your gays trope.

during the season 2 finale, dizzee and thor are chased by cops after they are found doing graffiti, one of the cops is able to catch thor while the other chases dizzee into a train tunnel and there is a train seen headed straight for him before the show cuts to black on a train horn. the show writers claim that if they had gotten another season, dizzee wouldve been alive but since they didnt and since that's essentially super fan trivia knowledge, most people dont fucking know that and instead had to watch a black queer teenager chose death over being fucking arrested by a white cop. on top of that, thor didnt see any of that shit because he was caught and the cop started hauling him off while dizzee was still being chased so thor literally has no clue where his friend/possible boyfriend fucking is or that he's likely dead in a goddamn tunnel all alone, unless you count the fucking pig that chased him in there who wouldve died too. this shows rep was so fucking good as far as most shows go on not having major fucking problems, on not being toxic and over sexualized, etc, etc. and then they just. killed a black queer teenager for no fucking reason. like it was literally the last episode ever, it would add nothing to the plot, it would just devastate fans and devastate it fucking did. I dont cry easy but seeing a character I identified with, who I had hyperfixated on, die because he'd rather that than be arrested is terrible. it fucking sucked.

so yeah. that's my all too extensive thoughts/analysis on the get down's queerness. theres definitely stuff I missed, or misinterpreted, or looked too much into, etc, etc., but this was a fun thing to spend time writing sooo yeah!! thanks for the ask anon, sorry this was just a big rambley info dump, but hopefully you get some enjoyment out of it since it took like 3 hours at least 😭😭 feel free to ask clarifying questions lol

#shit self #asks #the get down #mylene cruz #shaolin fantastic #dizzee kipling #long post #analysis #info dump #idk if anon has seen tgd or is just being nice so i tried givinh background to things #kinz #bangerz #discourse

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violetnotez · 4 years ago

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Yo shindo relationship headcannons but he uses his quirk to make reader think that their phone is going off. He finds it hilarious. Reader does not.

HC: Shindo Yo as a S/O

Omg nobody held me back so I did Shindo Yo Boyfriend HC sorry not sorry 😏

Pairing: Shindo Yo x reader

just fluffy ideas of how this boy would be as an s/o

I honestly think he’s a total flirt-LIKE LOOK HOW PRETTY HE IS

but he’s like different about it

hes not straight flirty, like “oh you look hot, did it hurt when you fell from heaven?” ew

No, hes more sentimental and observant

He’ll greet every morning with the biggest smile and always giving you a compliment

“Wow babe you look amazing! Did you change your hair? It looks great!”

“Love the new lipgloss you got- it really suits you!”

“Whoa youre wearing a green shirt...did you do that just for me?”

This boy prides himself on PDA

once you start dating he is EXTREMELY touching immeditaely

Holding your hand, ksses on your cheeks, hugging you from behind

He THRIVES on touches

If hes dating someone, theyre his one and only- so why not let everyone else know that?

If your not for that, thats cool, he’ll hold back a little-after pouting about it, seriously, he loves being close to his s/o

The first time he sees you in one of shirts, this boy is GOING TO MELTTTTTT

He has no shirts anymore- and its not even because YOU took it

He was just so obsessive with seeing you in his clothes, he just gifts it to you

He try to be slick about it, like leaving them in your room and “pretending” he left them

Would be super sad tho if you try to bring them back

He is a classic romantic

Like on your first date, he brought you a whole ass bouquet of roses

Your dates are usually pretty generic- the movies, a nice restaurant, maybe a cute ice cream shop and a walk on the beach....

He doesn't really try to overthink or go crazy with dates

He is the CUTEST in a gray hoodie

This boy is pretty-and he KNOWS it

He’ll do every f* boy thing that’ll make your heart swoon-like run his hand through his hair, give you side eye looks, his tongue poking out of his mouth-

YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT EVERY F-BOY DOES THESE THINGS

He defintiely will use this to his advantage

He would never cheat on you, but, he will pretend to indulge in other girl’s hitting on him, trying to act “innocent” like he didnt know

HE DAMN WELL KNOWS

(Honestly watch out though girls are gonna be trying to get with him left and right)

Like if youre arguing with him a little and he sees a girl checking him out, he’ll try and make you jealous (he has a wierd thing for seeing you angsry he thinks its kinda hot)

And he neverrrr takes arguments seriously. Like at all.

Once he gets more comfortable in the relationship, he will be a totalllll prankster

He has a pretty good quirk for it

Like he’ll make you think there are earthquakes just to see you all frazzled

and he will totally play along to see how long he can make you think there really was an earthquake

Or if your taking too long to get ready he’ll make the floor rumble so you stumble

Usually ends with you yelling at him for almost ruining your eyeliner and him laughing

(we finally get to the original request Jesus Christ)

HEAR ME OUT

He would definitely try to make you think your phone is going off just to have an excuse to touch your rear

Cause if you put your phone in your back pocket, all hes gotta do is lightly touch it and send a small vibration...

It honestly was sad how long it took you to figure out it was him

He was trying to hold back chuckles the whole time, your face so confused when you kept bringing your phone to your face and seeing no alerts

Until he got carried away and touched your ass-

when you were holding your phone in your hand

You tensed up, stopping in your tracks as you gave him a wierd look

“Wait Yo-”

And then realization struck you-it was him

You cheeks got red, a gasp slipping your mouth, as you tried to swat his chest

“Ahh cmon babe dont be bitter!”

honestly he found it just super funny, chuckling as he instantly grabed your hand before it collided with his chest

he kisses your digits, his thumb rubbing soothing circles on the side

“Ya know, you look cute when you blush-”

“Dont change the subject Yo, you just touched my ASS IN PUBLIC-”

(Sorry if these were short, I’m working on the Disney Choose Your Adventure rn so my usual fic posts will be a little shorter!)

#bnha #bnha x reader #bnha hc #bnha x reader hc #shindou yo #shindou yo imagines #shindou imagines #shindou x reader #shindou yo x reader #shindo yo x you #bnha shindo #bnha shindou yo #bnha shindou yo x reader

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irkenheretic · 3 years ago

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ok im acting a fool now this has nothing to do with your au at all (i know, big fail and not what u asked) But when u make writings of any kind, given the state of the fandom, do u ever feel like it’s WORTH posting (u can read that however u wanna)

or does it take a lot of convincing internally to get u to do so

(this ended up delving into some pretty dark topics like incest, rape, and ableism so uh just a forewarning so yall arent . blindsided by that)

i ask for Fun AU Content and i get Pain . Suffering, even. youre unvited to my birthday party 😭

but in all seriousness.... i don't.

its like... i put a lot into my fics. even the oneshots already posted, i put a lot into it. and most people dont really.... care much

a lot of people like to claim that this fandom has no hierarchy of "more popular" and "less popular" but the funny thing is, people that say that the most are the popular people. there is a very clear social ladder here where there are people at the top that can do basically whatever and get fawned over, and then theres Everyone Else and they dont get that kind of acclaim.

which, thats not a Bad Thing to observe. this is common in literally every fandom and pretending like we're somehow "above" that is seriously disingenuous- we're not. popular users like i said can do basically whatever and people still love them. its disheartening when "basically whatever" means "put out work i personally dont think is very good." its downright insulting when "basically whatever" means "get away with being a flat-out cunt 'cause people are too scared of you to call you on it."

so its like... is this what im making content for? assholes, and the people that excuse them? why would i want them to read my stuff? for all i know, one day i'm gonna wake up and have my callout strewn about because, and im gonna be honest with yall here: anarchisma has some seriously fucked up plot points. its a dark au. and some of the plot points arent dark, theyre just odd. there's an incestuous couple and its never really made into a Thing theyre just There. its not a Statement on how Incest Is Bad, theyre literally just vibing and thats their Thing and its not seen as a Bad Character Trait to be Fixed And Amended. their main problem is codependency and shoving themselves into the box of "the weird people" at the detriment of their real personalities. at the end of their (background) arc, they resolve both their issues... but they're still in a relationship with each other. most people in this fandom, even the ones that claim they're Not Antis cause they Like The Bad Ship, would at best think this is fucking weird and at worst try to doxx me over it. on the other side of the coin, there's a character that attends a trial for their own childhood rape. and since the trial includes memory playbacks, the worst thing in this guy's life (so far) is being played on The Big Screen. its... im planning for it to be described in-detail, because its supposed to make you uncomfortable. the victim is the pov character in this instance and the inclusion of the detail is supposed to make you, the reader, feel the same bone-deep revulsion and discomfort that they felt watching their own trauma unfold in front of basically their society's equivalent to God. but yk, its commonly accepted that Rape Scene Bad (and yeah there's a good argument for that, gratuitous scenes like that just for the sake of torture porn arent.... good..... but im not gonna get into that here cause thats a more nuanced topic than i feel comfortable tackling on my Invader Zim Tumblr Blog) but the point is like, will the mere inclusion of that scene lead to people hating me? nobody in this fucking fandom has any Reading Comprehension to maybe think about wether the scene is just gratuitous for thee sake of gratuity or if its like.... actually. serving a purpose. hell, am i gonna get angry people in my inbox now, over a scene that isn't even confirmed to be included?

some characters have confirmed mental illnesses; am i gonna get people in the comments explaining to me how An Autistic Character Would Never Do Something Like That or try and excuse the pretty fucking reprehensible actions of certain people because of their autism? would they come after me for making an autistic character immoral? (fun facts: lefy's autistic! hes also one of the most immoral characters in the whole protagonist lineup.... but also, you get why he did what he did. jerkass woobie, remember.) and on the other side, some characters have confirmed ASPD! am i gonna get idiots in my comment section explaining to me that She Can't Be A Sociopath Because She Loves Her Family And Has A Boyfriend? (note for everyone else: i have ASPD.) if i have to have my own disorder condescendingly explained to me in my comments i am GOING to lose my mind

i know this makes it sound like i have a pretty low opinion of this fandom... and i do! kind of? i know there are a lot of smart, talented people here. i admire the work of so many creators and i love seeing certain people in my notes (if you regularly like my original posts, i know your url by heart and i love you)

but no matter how good the good side is, theres always gonna be a bad side. for every fan of my au there's gonna be some dipshit that saw "rapr," didn't read the rest of the tags, gets shocked that the first story is about miscarriage, and tries to take it out on me for writing it in the first place, rather than realizing it was their dumb ass that didn't read the fucking tags.

i have some OC-centric oneshots. they're going to be a part of anarchisma as chapters in a defect-centered anthology. the anthology serves to introduce certain characters or concepts that were too clunky to introduce anywhere else in the text. i have "the worst job in the empire," which i've showed to a lot of people, and they all liked it. i have the "little green candies" fic, which im pretty sure im infamous for among my friends cause its freaked out everyone i showed it to. i have two other fics i think are really good

sometimes i think about posting them.

and then i remember nobody really cares about ocs unless theres art attached. a lot of art, and only if its past a certain threshold of "quality." if i post that stuff to the wider public and nobody cares i'm gonna be really upset, honestly. itd kill my motivation, and id rather live in a fantasy where my au is popular, than post au content and realize that it probably never will be.

#theres a lot to be said about how fandom in general #treats artists as bottomless Content Machines #and writers as basically invisible unless they either #a) learn art and learn it WELL #b) partner with an artist #or c) gets really insanely crazily lucky #both artists and writers suffer in The Fandom Hierarchy #the only way not to suffer is to be famous #and i can say from experience: itll open the door to a whole NEW kind of suffering #to the point where its deebateable if its worth it if ur famout but not 'undisputed fandom god' famous #ANYWAY this went pLACES imma take a break b4 doing the next asks aaaAAAAaaAA #now calling the tallest

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blackwolf12 · 4 years ago

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Prank War

All of this started when Dick was bored, Bruce was off world and Alfred was gone for a few days, so he decided to prank Damian. He called Damian to his room "Dami can you come here for a sec?" Dick could barely contain his giggles.

"Tt- what do y-" Damian was cut short when pink paint, glitter and feathers fell on top of his head. He looked angrily at Dick "Grayson!" he shouted and proceeded to chased Dick around the Manor. Everyone else was, for once, quietly minding their business when those two intrupted the peaceful silence. Dick then jumped on the brown couch which Jason was sitting on making Jason growl. "One, two, three, four, I declare a prank war" Dick shouted.

Tim groaned, "Dick!" he whined. "Don't you remember last time? You know when there was a literal pink elephant in the manor, before that the pools were pink. Every. Pool. In Gotham. Was. Pink." He said slumping with each word. "Alfred took my coffee away... For a month!" He whimpered and said "I almost died" dramatically.

"Eh. Whats done is done. Let the war begin" Dick announced bouncing on the sofa like a little kid. "Damian, Cass and Jason are team red. Tim, Steph and me are team blue."

"Seriously Dick? I dont even want to take part in the prank wars. Any you put the good ones in the other team!" Stephanie protested. Dick grinned at him, "Too late."

The teams went their seperate way to prepare. Team Red was discussing who was going to aim for who in the war. "You two can choose out of Drake and Brown. Grayson is mine" Damian growled not over the pink glitter accident. "I'll take replacment, so Cass can you take Steph?" Jason asked. Cass nodded grimly. Honestly thay acted like it was a real war. It was just so amusing.

Back with Team Blue they had two members who weren't even trying. "I just wanted to drink coffee and solve some cases peacefully. But obviously there is not peace here" Tim said glaring at Dick. "You can do your stuff after this, Steph you can take Jason, Tim can take Damian and I will take Cass. Kay?" Dick said rhetorically. "Fine lets get this over with" Stephanie grumbled.

Damian set an onslaught of prank upon Dick making him regret the pink glitter very much. First his hair became pink, then his nails somehow became pink, and he had pink makeup that would not come off. He also found himself stuck in a huge room with a mirror maze. It took him an hour to get out and he hit his nose on the mirrors multiple times (a/n This has happened to me. The mirror part).

Jason had hid the coffee machine and threw every coffee packet outside. And somehow managed to close every coffee selling place temporarily. Tim cried a lot and then passed out. When Tim woke up there was a coffee packet on the floor whick kept moving away from him till the packet got burned and he cried all over again. Nobody seemed that sad about it.

Cass made all of Stephanie's clothes colours that look hideous and that you would want to wash your eyeballs. Stephanie somehow got her hair dyed green, which would look horrible with her newly coloured clothes. Her spoiler costume was dyed green and orange which does not go together. There was a scream in the manor that day, so imagine birds flying away because it was really loud and the whole manor shook.

Stephanie hid all of Jason's guns and kept paintball guns there instead. Jason honestly wasn't so sad about that. When he shot it at criminals they would be stunned long enough for him to knock them out. Jason was considering keeping some of the paintball guns. And the out of the blue some of Jason's leather jackets smelt like fish which is something he hates. It would just not wash out. They also turned blue after that.

Dick made Cass' costume pink and yellow and tried to jump scare her multiple times, emphasis on tried. Her belt which strored all of her batarangs and some other stuff was so lose it kept slipping off. Some of her stuff was also found in really high places. But she had no trouble getting them down.

Tim took all of Damian's swords and stashed them and then hung Damian upside down when he was sleeping. He kept spraying Damian with water like he was a stray cat and Damian got annoyed. Damian also found himself pushed into the pool multiple times. Everytime he came out he shook al the water of himself like a grumpy cat which he is.

After that both teams went all out and chaos was unleashed. Somehow they got the once beautiful white walls splattered with pink paint everywhere. There were slime balls, water balloons, eggs, the sofas were overturned and everything was coloured. They were all screaming at each other about anything. And some point Dick was trying to sing operas but failed and sounded like a dying donkey. Then everyone started screaming at him.

T'was the jingle of keys that everyone heard and froze. "Well Masters who is going to clean this up?" Alfred was home and Alfred was not a happy camper.

"H-hey Alfie, how was the trip?" Dick said nervously.

"Who's idea was this?" Alfretd said sharply. Everyone pointed at Dick. "Guys!" Dick whined. "Master Richard I expect the house to be spotless before you go back to Bludhaven. And no cookies for you."

Dick went on his knees and screamed "Noooooooooo!" dramatically and much longer. Everyone else snickered and went to eat cookies. But after that they went to help him (they were forced to help because the ninja butler said so)

Hey. Hope you liked this, gimme some prompts. Just comment and I'll write it. Stay safe guys.

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