#njess04

[beldaroot]

Hi, hi!! if the losers were in an ATLA au, what nation would each be from?

hi hi sweetheart!! ok, so this is a difficult question to answer because the atla nations are meant to be representative of asian and indigenous cultures. even if the atla creators made the atla nations a hodgepodge of different asian/indigenous cultures, the characteristics of each nation carry specific relations to those races and ethnicities. people in the atla nations are benders or non-benders not because of specific personal traits, but because of spiritual entities engrained in their culture. therefore, i don’t feel comfortable placing the losers, who do not have any asian/indigenous roots, in the atla nations. however! the symbolism of the four elements is something that extends outside of specific cultures (for example, in astrology there are fire/water/air/earth signs), so here are my placements of the losers with the four elements:

fire (symbolizes passion, energy, strength, assertiveness, anger) = bill, bev

water (symbolizes change, introspection, healing, purifying, emotion) = eddie, richie

air (symbolizes communication, perception, knowledge, harmony) = stan, mike

earth (symbolizes stability, dependability, sustenance, life) = ben

[tinyarmedtrex]

“I can’t do anything right.” + “Please don't cry.” for the angst prompts please

Eddie didn’t know how to handle this. Didn’t want to handle it. This wasn’t something that a twenty one year old was supposed to have to deal with. He was still learning how to pay bills and divide his laundry so nothing ended up unintentionally pink. Not- this. Nothing like this.

“Mr. Kaspbrak your mother is on a ventilator. She’s alive but she can’t breath on her own. You’re her only living relative so the decision is yours.” The nurse spoke calmly, letting each sentence sink in before starting the next. He had clearly delivered news like this before.

“What-” He swallowed thickly, suddenly feeling weak and trying to remember the last time he’d eaten. Yesterday? No, he’d been here for the entire day. The day before? He had no idea, time was melting together.

“What are her odds?” He finally forced out.

The nurse frowned, shifting his weight. “Its different for everyone. She could wake up tomorrow but honestly, given her age and weight, I’d say that the chances she wakes up aren’t great. Maybe 20-30%.”

Eddie closed his eyes, nodding to acknowledge the new information. “Can I think about it overnight?” He needed food and a shower, needed to be away from this place to think. 

“Of course. We’ll take good care of her and call you if anything changes.” 

Eddie nodded, asking one or two more questions, then, for the first time in days, he left the hospital. Standing outside he blinked several times, filling his lungs with fresh air that didn’t smell like disinfectant or vomit.

After a few of those breaths a new wave of panic hit him. He didn’t have anywhere to stay. He’d rushed back to Derry on the first flight, not even packing a bag, and he hadn’t thought to get a hotel room. He knew his mom’s house was an option but his stomach churned at the thought of stepping foot inside.

“Fuck.” He muttered to himself, standing awkwardly outside the hospital, watching other people come and go. “I can’t do anything right.” 

As he was debating what to do a new car pulled up, black and shiny, stopping directly in front of him. Eddie was about to back up when a familiar body poured out of the driver seat.

Richie, who he hadn’t seen in years. 

Richie, who he’d broken up with when they’d decided on different colleges. 

Richie, who’s very appearance still made Eddie’s heart hammer in his chest.

Richie, who looked unfairly amazing, especially given how awful Eddie knew he looked.

All of it was so surreal that Eddie just gaped at him, sure he was imagining it.

“Hey Eds,” He said, straightening up and walking over to him. . 

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Eddie didn’t mean for it to be harsh but everything, all the responsibility and fear, they were all getting to him. Any filter he had was long gone.

“I heard- Bill told me about your mom and I flew out.”

“Why?” The word was thick as Eddie tried to swallow back his tears. He couldn’t do this. Richie was somehow both the last and only person he wanted to see.

“Ah fuck, please don’t cry.” Richie rushed to him, stopping less than an arm length’s away. “I wanted to help. The others are coming too. I can go. Ben should be landing soon- he can come instead.” 

That was it. Eddie collapsed into Richie’s arms, openly sobbing into his friend’s jacket. “Richie, I had to- they said I have to decide- she’s in a coma- it’s - I can’t do this.” Eddie wasn’t speaking in full sentences, not even close, but Richie didn’t seem to care. He let Eddie stammer everything out, rubbing his back until he was finally done. 

“You’re not alone Eds, not if you don’t want to be.” Richie finally said, pulling back just enough to wipe the tears from his eyes. Then he looked Eddie over. “I think food and a shower will help. Where are you staying?”

Eddie gave a hopeless little shrug, remembering how poorly he’d planned all of this. “I don’t know.” 

“Well. I’m staying with good ol’ ma and pa Tozier. Do you want to come with me? We can wash your clothes too, give you some of mine for a bit.” 

The relief of having one decision lifted nearly made him cry again. He’d always loved the Toziers and the thought of seeing them was comforting.

“Yes. Please.” 

Richie nodded, an arm over Eddie’s shoulders as he directed him to the car. 

Eddie paused before getting in, looking up at Richie. Everything he’d felt for years came back to him, as well as the memory of how he’d left things. “Richie, I never- I should have called you back. And I didn’t. I fucked up. I still- I-” God he hated that he couldn’t get a sentence out. It felt like everything was fuzzy, seen through a strange film of haze and confusion.

Richie shook his head, silencing Eddie. “Later Eds. Let’s handle one crisis at a time.” Richie hesitated for a second then leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to Eddie’s hair.

“Gross. I haven’t showered in days.” He said, trying not to lean into the casual affection. He never let himself think about Richie, it was too painful, to easy to fall back into things, like he wanted to now.

“That makes it even better. You’ve been marinating.”

For the first time in days, Eddie laughed, gently pushing Richie’s shoulder. They looked at each other, a beat too long to only be friendly, then Richie stepped back. “Let’s get on the road to the Tozier abode. The ‘rents will be delighted to see you Eds. They always liked you more than me.”

“That’s because I helped with the dishes.” Eddie muttered, finally getting into the car and slumping against the seat. He felt better than he had in days, just being close to Richie again. There were feelings swirling in him that he couldn’t examine, not right now. For the moment he focused on Richie’s rambling, listening to him comically explain every detail of his plane ride to Derry and watching the scenery go by. For now, everything else could wait.

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[kikuism]

Hi!! may I ask how and when was the first time Kiku and Kou met? their reactions and impressions of each other? 💛💛

hello! what a cute question :’) well, kou is the palace healer, so kiku got to see him the first time on his first day at work. it was just quick glimpses though, as kiku had a full day of lessons and other princely duties; their first proper meeting is when kiku falls and scrapes his hand and decides to run to the healer’s chamber to get it looked at. so he does and he’s charmed by the quiet grace and charm of the healer. he takes his hand to examine it and kiku is like ‘!!!’ bc Boy Hold Hand.....kou effectively heals the cut, offering little tidbits of wisdom here and there, with a quiet grace that reminds kiku of a deity, or a guardian spirit, and kiku is immediately smitten. so, kiku is extremely charmed and flustered and makes up his mind to slip away to come to his chambers any chance he gets. kou thinks all the attention the young prince gives him is endearing (especially since, because he is blind, the sort of attention he has mostly gotten all his life has been demeaning), and he knows his frequent visits aren’t accidental at all, so he tries to show off every chance he comes by with a new demonstration of a healing technique or by preparing some new salve. he keeps him at arm’s length though because he’s a healer and kiku is a prince and he wants to play it safe--at the start. (kou realizes, quite a bit later, he’s starting to catch Feelings for him--’oh dear,’ he muses, ‘i was not expecting this.’)

[mafuyuh]

D. Gray-man!!

ooo i’d like to see a new season of it!! although it’s been years since i watched the last season :( i wonder if the manga is still ongoing 🤔

[ur-not-reddie]

I have learned that you are super chill ,super fun and a super great writer.

aww thank you so much 🥺

[nessa007]

your icon it’s perfectly splendid.

Thank you!!! Flora is a perfectly splendid princess 😊

[thestarsaroundyourscars]

💐🌷🌹🌺🌻🌸🌼 send this to ten other bloggers you think are wonderful. keep the game going. 🌼🌸🌻🌺🌹🌷💐

Awww! Thank you! You are wonderful too 🌷💐🌻

[exdeputysonso-archive]

If you had to have sex with someone from Marvel cast,who would you choose?

tessa thompson 👌

honesty hour 👀 anon or not I have to answer

[dahyun]

If you could be part of a gg, who would you choose?

i want to be predictable and say twice bc they just seem so fun and caring but also they’d be like. why is there a fossil in our group

[sarah-snook]

Any movie rec?

Ohhh good question!! Here’s a couple movies I love:

1. Shazam!

2. Crazy Rich Asians

3. A Simple Favor

4. Wonder

5. Coco

Sleepover Weekend! Send me asks from this list!

[beldaroot]

You are the person I respect the most in the fandom , and I love you!!

?!?!??!?!?! omg this is entirely too kind please i don’t deserve! thank you for saying this though darling, i love you!!!! 

[tinyarmedtrex]

”.. Are you proposing to me?” + “You look at him/her the way I look at you.” please

“Okay Eds, are you ready to do this?” Richie asked, wiping his palms on his jeans. He hated how nervous he was. It wasn’t like any of this was real but his body was reacting like it was. Like he was actually about to propose to his best friend. 

Next to him Eddie nodded as Richie glanced over at him. God he looked amazing in his dark pink button up and gray slacks. He was wearing the ones that hugged his ass perfectly. Richie knew it wasn’t for him but it didn’t mean he couldn’t appreciate it. Like everything else about Eddie, it wasn't for him but dammit he would sure as hell reap the benefits. 

“Yea, yea I’m ready Richie.” Eddie looked at him, smiling slightly. “Thank you again.”

“Anything for you Eds.” Richie said, dropping a kiss on the top of his head. Then he put out his hand, palm up. “Ready to make that asshole jealous?”

Eddie slid his hand into Richie’s and nodded. “Yes.”

Together they went into the restaurant where Eddie’s ex, Todd, worked as a bartender. A month ago Eddie had shown up at Richie’s apartment, his eyes red from crying and carrying what looked like half a liquor store. As Richie had ushered him to the couch Eddie told him what happened, how he’d come home early and had caught his boyfriend of two years with someone else. Eddie had been devastated and had broken it off immediately, giving both of them what sounded like the lecture of a lifetime. Even in his sorrow Eddie would never pass up the chance to lecture someone. 

It was then, after one to four bottles of wine and whiskey that they’d hatched a plan. Todd had been texting Eddie all night, saying that he was sorry, that he wanted him back, and Eddie was having none of it. 

“I want to make him see what he gave up.” Eddie had slurred. “I want him jealous.” 

Richie had nodded excitedly. He was drunk enough that everything sounded like a good idea. “Anything you want Eds. Key his car? Wire fraud? I’m in.” Richie had never liked Todd for several reasons. One, he was a dick and two, he was with Eddie. Even if the first hadn’t been true the second was enough to make Richie hate him. 

“I want to show up with you, like we’re on a date. He always thought there was something between us.” Eddie’s eyes had glinted. “He would hate it if he thought we were together.” 

Even in his drunk state the words had made Richie’s heart seize. Everyone always said that, always assumed the two of them were together. Richie could never decide if he loved or hated it but he loved the idea of making Todd jealous- and a fake date with Eddie. 

“Fuck yea Eds, let’s do it.”

That had lead to this, to the two of them walking in and requesting a table near the bar. Richie saw how Eddie’s eyes scanned the place, landing on Todd. Even though he hated the man there was a fondness in Eddie’s gaze. He really had loved Todd and the cheating had shocked him. Subconsciously Richie gripped Eddie’s hand a little tighter. It was then that Todd saw them, nearly dropping the drink he was making as his eyes followed them to their table. 

They sat, ordering drinks. Richie could tell Eddie was nervous so he reached over, taking his hand again. “You sure you’re ready for this?” He asked quietly. “This date might be enough to tip him over the edge.” 

Eddie nodded firmly. “I want him to see exactly what he’s missing.” 

With that the ‘date’ continued. Richie felt Todd’s eyes on them and several times Eddie looked at him, the same anger and fondness on his face every time. Overall though, the date went well.  Richie didn’t have to lie about any of his feelings and he got to do all the things he’d only dreamed of doing- kissing Eddie’s palm or flirting with him. If Eddie caught on he never said, instead just shaking his head. 

Then the dessert came. A chocolate souffle that Richie loudly insisted Eddie take the first bite. His spoon punctured the dessert and when it came out there was a ring on it. 

With an expression that would fool anyone but his closest friends Eddie looked up with shock. “Richie, are you proposing?”

Richie got on one knee, taking Eddie’s hand, but before he could speak he felt himself yanked back and onto the floor.

 “Eddie, we need to talk.” Todd said, glaring from him to Richie. 

“Oh? Do we? Because I think you said everything you needed to when I walked in on you fucking another man.” Eddie spat back, crossing his arms. “I’m here with Richie, like I should have been for years.” 

“Him?” Todd gestured dismissively at Richie. “Come on Eddie, you know you deserve better.”

“Hey!” Richie yelled but Eddie was on it.

“Richie loves me, he would never hurt me. That’s what I deserve.” 

Todd grabbed Eddie’s arm and started to pull him away. Richie scrambled to his feet, about to follow them but Eddie shook his head. “I’ll meet you in the car, babe.” 

Todd looked so angry he could spit. Richie simply waved at him before grabbing their ring and then going back outside. While he waited he smoked three cigarettes, a vice he had supposedly given up, before Eddie finally came out. 

“Well? Is he equal parts jealous and pissed? Did it work?” Richie asked, stamping out his cigarette. 

Eddie didn’t meet Richie’s eyes as he spoke. “He apologized. He wants to get back together.”

“And you told him to go fuck himself, right?” Richie asked. 

“Not exactly.”

Richie scoffed, shaking his head. “Eddie! Fuck! You’re going to let him hurt you again? You’re not that stupid!” 

Eddie’s head snapped up, indignant. “It’s not stupid Richie! We were together for two years and he swears it was a one time thing! I want to give him another chance!” 

Richie shook his head. He was already so upset and hurt that he had a hard time forming words. How could Eddie not see that this was a hug mistake. “Once a cheater always a cheater! You know that! Come on!” 

Eddie crossed his arms, pinching his lips together. “Todd promised! Why do you care anyway?” 

“Because!” Eddie raised an eyebrow, silently telling Richie that that wasn’t a reason. 

“Because I love you!” Richie was yelling, he couldn’t help it. His blood was pounding in his head and he was pissed. “Because you look at him the way I look at you! And I can’t watch you get hurt again!” 

Eddie’s mouth dropped open and he started to say something but Richie was already on the move, running to the other side of the car and getting in. 

“Richie! Richie what the fuck!” Eddie pounded on the window, trying to open the locked door. 

“I can’t.” Richie shook his head, not looking at him. He started the car and drove off. He swore he could still head Eddie shouting a block away. 

He went home, collapsing onto his couch as the reality of what he’d said set in. He’d fucked everything up. Nothing would ever be the same. Eddie would probably not speak to him again. At least he wouldn’t have to go to the wedding. 

Richie decided that he needed about six drinks.

As he was pouring his first one his front door opened and suddenly a very angry looking Eddie was blocking his exit. 

“You were my ride asshole.” He said, glaring daggers at Richie. 

He’d never regretted giving him a key more. Richie was trapped. So he did what he did best. Deflected.

“I assumed you’d get a ride with Todd.” 

“Jesus fucking christ Richie!” Eddie closed the distance between them, poking Richie with his index finger. “You can’t tell me you love me and then take off! I had to take an uber- you know I fucking hate those!” 

He swallowed, trying to keep the emotion out of his voice. The last thing Richie wanted was to start crying.  “What was I supposed to do? Stay there and listen to you let me down easy? No fucking way. You can go be happy with him but I don’t have to like it.” 

“God you’re dumb.” Eddie said, shaking his head. 

“Hey!”

“Richie,” Eddie’s gaze turned up, meeting his eyes. “I’ve liked you for years. Since fucking high school. I just never thought you-” 

Richie didn’t wait for him to finish, bending down and smashing his lips to Eddie’s. Eddie yipped but he was then kissing Richie back, pushing him against the counter to deepen the kiss. While Eddie’s lips were on his Richie lost track of everything else - at least until Eddie stepped back. 

“We need to talk about this.” Eddie said, still in Richie’s space. “I just got out of a long term relationship. I don’t want to fuck this up.”

Richie put his hands on Eddie’s waist, stroking his hip with his thumb. “I’ll wait. However long you need Eds. I’ve waited years, I can wait a little longer.” He was grinning like an idiot. He’d given up on this ever happening and now Eddie was here, saying yes to him. 

Eddie was smiling too, relief written on his face. “I love you.” 

He groaned, shaking his head. “You can’t say that and not expect me to want to kiss you again.” 

Eddie’s grin grew. “One more kiss then I should go. I can’t trust myself around you.”

“God I love you.” Richie said as he bent down, pressing another kiss to Eddie’s lips before holding his hands up. “Go, leave before your sweet lips claim me again.” 

Eddie giggled, shaking his head. “I’ll see you soon ‘Chee.”

“I can’t fucking wait.”

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[kikuism]

Kaji Yuki as Kiku is perfect,suits his soft manners!!

ohh thank you, i'm happy you think so too!!!

[161sy]

@njess04 replied to your post “starting work at a new company tmr i’m a little nervous bc it’s a...”

congratulation, Im sure you will do great

thank u so much <3 

[virgocity]

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[nessa007]

Happy birthday

Thank you 🥰