#n THEN he gets his buddy 2 translate ‘there’s no way this girl doesn’t speak spanish she’s just lying cause she doesn���t wanna talk to me’

[totally-femme]

<3

[cabin-13]

u said self indulgent nico hcs?? 👀👀

ajkdsjkkj when I say self-indulgent, it’s Self-Indulgent and i pretty much ignore richard’s canon / haven't reread the books from either series in a long time nor have i read toa but if ur really interested... (long post ahead, sorry!)

nb nico is top tier 

goes by he/they pronouns 

touristcore aesthetic that’s slowly encroaching into e-person territory

he’s The Blueprint

likes thorn from the hex girls (even the reboot ver.) but digs dusk’s look more

how is this related u may ask?

yeah, i answer

idc abt canon so he and drew are bitchy friends and drew rags on his appearance constantly while brushing his hair but throws in self-care tips btwn loving insults

nico: you know im not a boy right

drew: doesnt change the fact you look like a wet rat, sweetie <3

i will forever stand by reynico being (platonic) soulmates and im gonna b extra self-indulgent and say they were friends in previous lives too and that’s why they vibed w each other so well <3 

speaking of previous lives, well.... heh..

(no but really, this hc is kinda embarassing but , if u want elaboration uhhhhhhhhhh)

i know nico only has like. a 5th grade education but i like to think he would be a good student ... if anything i think hades would at least homeschool him with the ghosts of (famous) teachers ??? he seems to be naturally curious and he’s kind of a smart ass (not in a mean way) in canon idk

polyglot nico! polyglot nico! polyglot nico!!!! he becomes the go-to translator at camp ( like he isn't already sjkjskjdk) 

yes he would know asl. why? bc i said so and rick needs to include include some hoh/deaf characters within the greek/roman pantheon <3 (if there is, not counting hearthstone from mcga)

leo finds out abt nico knowing spanish bc he once snorted at a joke he said and now leo won’t stop telling him shit like “¿cuál es la fruta que más se ríe? .... la naranja, ja, ja, ja --”

ironically has the best hair at chb (rick once said the di angelos had silky hair in the titan’s curse i think + reyna said something abt his hair too in boo ?? i'll have to check...) once he cleans up and the aphrodite kids are seething

nico’s hair starting to gray at a young age is also an interesting concept ! i think tumblr user fuocogo drew something ft that and it stuck with me

really self indulgent but he’s roman at heart (maybe even Literally. i read somewhere that an italian fan said the di angelos fit the desc. of modern day romans better than venicians ?? if i find it, i’ll link it >>>)

 i like to think his family are legacies of victoria seeing as he’s always one of the key pieces / an important informant for winning both wars ... plus his grandpa was a diplomat and uhhh idk where I was going w this ngl

speaking of family, I need to know if the di angelo bloodline no longer exists assuming maria was an only child and there was no mention of any other di angelos aside from her parents ..? i like the idea of nico finding out that he has more family tho !!

also I would love it if rick cleared up where and when he met maria pls and thank u <3

I MISS BABY NICO’S PERSONALITY SM ... which is why i propose that whenever one of his friend’s see his eyes sparkling and arms waving while he babbles abt whatever topic, they think it’s really cute !!!! like !! keep talking !! 

 he gets embarrassed when he sees his friends smiling at him but it kinda makes him a bit teary eyed bc it’s been so long since he was able to talk abt his interests without being shut down / forcing himself to keep quiet because he felt like he was being too childish/annoying

what im saying is that he should be able to act like a kid bc he is one !!!! he's 14 !!!!!

he either has the cutest laugh or the weirdest laugh and it strictly depends on who ur asking

i feel like he sneezes like a kitten...............he sneezes and everyone whips their head around to look at him and he’s never wanted to dig a hole and put himself in it more than now

i like the imagery of tinkling bells being associated with him so im gonna sayyy he would have a necklace with a little bell (something like this kinda ??) and yes, leo would’ve made it for him as a joke kinda but not really

valdangelo (either as a friendship or nah) is underrated

like ur telling me this kid has a metal dragon and builds the coolest things ever and nico doesn't even think it’s a little bit cool ?? nah. rr did them dirty.

the kids at camp love him and i won't take no for an answer

he brings out ye ol’ mythomagic figurines to explain/show them the monsters and gods of the greek pantheon

it’s a win-win situation bc he gets to babble abt his hyperfixation and the kids get to learn abt what they're gonna get into in a way that’s better than the camp orientation film (since nico’s literally the only one who’s seen it ((but i think the stolls wanted to check it out too ??)) )

they give him a “camp’s best counselor <3333” mug and he cries abt it to reyna and hazel

yes he’s wearing an unusual amount of friendship bracelets no he's not gonna take them off shut up

unfortunately im team short!nico bc i want 2 see him get engulfed by the hugs his sisters (yes this includes reyna) and friends give him !!! 

he wears demonia platform sneakers / doc martens (and converse but that’s p much a given) thank you <3

piper/nico friendship ... I Need It

they borrow each other’s clothes constantly

leo and them clown on jason  and jason is Suffering but he loves them all so it’s ok 

piper could probably carry nico 

nico stress bakes 

yeah

he and clovis become good friends and hang out in the dream world and u know what, im gonna say they’re cuddle buddies too. clovis seems like he would give nice hugs !

im a sucker for nico having friends from different pantheons too !!! also becoming sort-of friends with gods/immortals of different pantheons !!

the underworld demigod discord gc is cursed; one moment they're all talking abt how they're pretty much fated to stay in the underworld while they're both living and after they die but the next moment someone says they want a hug and a chorus of “yeah...”’s follows.

nico was a momma’s boy most definitely 

speaking of which, i like to think that while him and bianca looked like their dad and mom respectively, it would’ve switched when they got older ?? idk

autistic nico ..... rick make it canon and not btwn the lines......

idk how to explain this one bc it’s just Plain Weird but . i feel like . nico would like?? hang out under his bed ??? maybe i’ll draw a pic or something and edit this later sjjdjkddk

this is just me projecting but he hates looking at mirrors / seeing himself in photos bc the person he sees doesn't match the person he sees in his head ?? if that makes sense ??? like he doesn't look like the nico he used to be bc of how much his appearance changed ? idk

uhhh he sometimes hallucinates, esp when he was in tartarus and in the month after coming out of the jar

maybe i’ll elaborate on this later ..

i need more annabeth and nico friendship pls...... both of them like/liked percy and now he can't stop getting clowned 

HOWEVER.... if I see one more “not his/my type” joke im going to delete my tumblr

speaking of which, i have a conspiracy theory abt Things, but i don't wanna get my ass sniped into next tuesday

introvert leo forcing himself to be the group comedian even though he’d much rather be with machines and extrovert nico who pushes ppl away so he doesn't get hurt but desiring the company of another type vibes. im not gonna elaborate.

his latest hyperfixation is pokemon and his favorite pokemon are gengar and skitty, but jirachi and mimikyuu are close seconds

has a crush on N Harmonia  and a bunch of the male gym leaders no im not gonna elaborate

this isn't a hc but. rick u really gotta stop writing abt ppl automatically distrusting nico because of his appearance / godly parent (although some were kinda warranted based of their personal history even though nico still pulled through in the end)  im getting tired of reading abt ppl wanting to like. hurt him or Actually hurting him for stuff he didn't have control of sjkjsjkdsjkdk (like wtf happened with frank when hazel got poisoned?? I thought frank actually liked nico ahjkjsjkf) 

uhhhhh that’s p much it ??????  sorry for the long ass post .. maybe i’ll write abt him more if ppl really want me to...

[barbika1508]

Hiwaga (Vampire! Jeongguk x Reader)

Part 2

Words: 11,2k

Genre: Soulmate AU, Reincarnation AU, Enemies to Lovers, Action, Romance, Smut, Flufffffff

Pairing: Vampire! Jeongguk x Reader

Warnings: More cursing, Nightmares

Summary: Life was good, playing out better than it has been ever before. My future was bright and full of promises and wishes coming to realization. All up until she showed up. She stormed though the front doors ruining everything along the way by her mere presence derailing my goals and purpose in life. A puny mortal, a child, a complete nuisance, and yet…The key to an unimaginable life, to the truth all along.

Author's note: Hiwaga – mystery; full of wonder Words in italics are dialogues or thoughts that Jeongguk reads from others. So I’ve done research with this fic, and used certain words that need explanation…given that there can be A LOT I’ve put a dictionary just below the fic if anyone is interested :3

Jeongguk’s POV:

‘’YOONGIIIIII-YAAAHHH!!!’’ comes the call not really disrupting others, but it does pull the gained momentum to a full stop, everyone now straightening up, eyes and heads turned towards the entrance. We all observe as the owner of that annoying voice comes in sight, dressed in none other than Yoongi hyungs favourite red hoodie that he mostly lounges around in.

‘’I’ve figure it out!’’ she continues on oblivious to the others stopping because of her. Our elder simply smiles and turns his attention completely onto her, as she offers up a thick book that at first glance leaves me wondering how she was able to pick it up. Frankly if you look at her you wouldn’t assume that she’d be able to lift much.

He simply hums in acknowledgement, eyes scanning the page his smile gradually fading. Namjoon appears at the doorframe a moment later, the girl not jumping or flinching at his sudden presence like most humans would normally react to. Wordlessly she accepts a notebook from him, her own eyes darting left and right a frown drawing itself across her features. Hmmm she’s kind of cute…

‘’What’s going on?’’ Taehyung asks frowning as he shifts the spear he’s using to train, between his hands. We’re all dressed the same, in black tank tops and grey sweatpants most of us barefoot too. We came to the fully equipped gym which we’ve transformed into an arena its purpose clear – practice martial arts and combat between another. Hyung had just started teaching us new techniques honestly surprising us all as he joined in from the beginning.

We don’t necessarily need the fitness or practice – nobody even broke a sweat in the last hour we’ve been training – but the impending tension that has settled after the ball two nights ago, doesn’t seem to loosen up so this is the best next thing to relieve some form of built up frustration. Even though neither Yoongi nor Jin hyung revealed anything yet, both of them are hiding their emotions back but everyone just knows that something is happening. Fighting is a temporary distraction.

Most vampires don’t actually need to fight or simply never learn how to because they rely solemnly on their powers or abilities. And half of us could lean onto using our powers, but Yoongi made sure we had a good solid base of self-defence before he had us train our abilities. For example, his power is scary and rare and doesn’t require of him to ever lift a finger whilst fighting. Others had to learn the hard way how to control their powers. That includes myself – mentality and people’s minds are tricky.

‘’Research.’’ Its Namjoon that replies handing over a regular pencil that he usually sticks behind his ear whenever he’s working on something in the library where he has been spending a lot of time lately again at. The human accepts it, and is quick to start and scribble something over a page. Being the only one left out of this round I approach them first, eyeing Yoongi for a moment further his eyes darting over to Namjoon.

‘’This is bothersome.’’ He comments offering the book to Namjoon who accepts it nodding silently. The girl curses out of the blue, the swear words that spill from her mouth unfamiliar to my ear, and judging by other hyung’s faces they are stumped too. Some curses don’t even sound like words, but once she shuts up and looks at the platinum blonde elder, she looks beyond annoyed while he burst into chuckles shaking his head ‘’Yah, Y/N-ah there are kids here.’’ He teases back the occurrence and light-heartedness that he shows to her still unfamiliar. He must be the only one who understood whatever came from her mouth.

I spare a glance at Seokjin who is shaking his head, two fingers pressed against the inner of his eyes. Okay he understood her to, but to what degree I’m not sure.

‘’Aish.’’ She intakes a breath ready to smack Yoongi with the notebook but refrains from doing so, her eyes darting over to us. Maybe it’s just my imagination but I get a feeling as if they linger on me for a moment longer ‘’Not funny. They called me a child.’’ She ends up pouting and showing her notebook over to Yoongi. Glancing at Namjoon he’s awkwardly smiling, eyes averted down onto the thick book ‘’And other things I don’t need to translate.’’ Grumbling she adds looking upset as she glares at him unamused. Everyone offers soft chuckles in return finally relaxing more as they step closer.

Hyung’s arm rises wrapping around her shoulders reassuringly ‘’Well that was the plan was it not?’’

My eyes dart over to Tae and Jimin, exchanging looks between both of them in question and sort of answer at the revelation ‘’Yeh.’’ Her reply is curt arms crossed over while she turns her eyes towards Namjoon ‘’We’re close to figuring it out. Its trickier than I thought. Haven’t practiced Gaya in so long…Kaya…aish even my pronunciation is completely off.’’ She signs looking exasperated.

‘’Wait…’’ Hoseok starts tensing up taking barely half a step towards her in the uneven circle we’ve created ‘’Kaya as in the language? Karak? Like 5th century, dead long and forgotten language?!’’ he looks at them in complete disbelief mouth hanging ajar. He’s almost on his toes. I immediately look at the human, that nods fingers tapping against the page of her notebook impatiently or out of nerves.

‘’That one yes. Why? Do you know it???’’ her eyes sparkle for a moment, but hyung is quick to turn his head away and raise his hands in defeat.

‘’That’s way before my time.’’ he mumbles pouting. I watch as Y/N enthusiasm diminishes instantly. She sighs heavily looking at Yoongi who’s already staring back at her.

‘’Aigo.’’ She complains pouting ‘’It’s all on us then buddy.’’ She adds on offering Namjoon a soft smile. I can see her disappointment clearly in the way her shoulders lower sag. I narrow my eyes as I watch her, not really comprehending that there’s a chance that she actually knows a dead language. The name of it or the know how about it. She barely speaks proper Korean!!!!! And to know of a pre-Korean language makes zero logic!!!

‘’Uh huh. I’m sure we can handle it. Easy.’’ Namjoon replies trying to sound positive but, we all know he’s putting up a front for her sake ‘’I’ll head into the city right away. Go to my usual places to snoop around for any fragments. There should be at least something somewhere.’’ And with that, and a silent confirmation from Jin and Yoongi, he bids us goodbye’s and heads out disappearing quickly as he appeared before.

‘’What are you even translating? Did that douche-ling make another cryptic speech?’’ Jimin asks looking annoyed, tapping both fingers against the handles of his dual swords which are resting against the ground. Y/N instead of quickly replying looks over at Yoongi, who takes her notebook and closes it. Is she waiting for permission or is she actually being respectful for once?!?

‘’In the beginning yeah, he bounced with Karak but then switched to Latin mid-way.’’ Yoongi snorts smirking but there’s no amusement to his words ‘’Y/N-ah already translated his official scripts and the other speech, and the propositions he gave us.’’

‘’Lots of politics involved.’’ Jin confirms looking lost in thought, holding his head propped up with one hand, the other remaining crossed across his chest.

‘’There’s something else isn’t there.’’ I pick up on the lack of explanation staring straight at the human. Her lips go into a tight line eyes averting looking anywhere else, while she shifts her feet in line with her shoulders, stance defensive with her centre balanced. That much I can read out once her shoulders square up, and her leg muscles clench and unclench. Why is she wearing a hoodie and shorts again?!? Her bare legs look very nicely defined, I never noticed it.

‘’I wrote down notes of the conversation that Wangseja had with his advisor.’’ Everyone takes a double take at her disclosure clearly none of us expecting something like this of her. Maybe she isn’t a clueless bimbo after all.

‘’That still wouldn’t fully explain the usage of Karak.’’ Hoseok speaks up thoughtful ‘’Do you think them speaking out loud was deliberate or simply a foolish error?’’

He has a point there. It could be a trap, but Yoongi is quick to shake his head in denial arm now having shifted around Y/N, his hand placed on her hip ‘’I don’t think it’s either of those. It’s safe to assume for certain than none of you assumed that Y/N-ah here spoke more than 3 languages, let alone Karak in the mix right?’’ the other hyungs nod along eyeing her suspiciously, except for Jin that offers a smirk and Taehyung that seems to be revaluating his stance over her again ‘’Point made then.’’

That boulder in my stomach reappears again, as with prideful eyes Yoongi turns to look at her with a wider smile, while she shakes her head instead twirling the pen, he hasn’t confiscated from her. She’s shifting from one foot to another lulling side to side impatiently making him retreat his arm away.

This girl never seems to be able to stand still even for a second ‘’Yeah, yeah I’m more than meets the eye, bla, bla.’’ She shows her tongue at her supposedly life-term friend ‘’Never heard that one before.’’ she mocks, and slides the pen smoothly behind Hyung’s ear who doesn’t blink twice at her antics. Even more so as she reaches for his Geom that is sheathed on his left hip ‘’So instead of wracking our brains uselessly with the lack of information that we are stuck with, I would like to lay of some steam as well.’’ she draws out the double-edged sword, with poise, letting the handle go while she maintains the balance of it, flipping the sword around a single digit, capturing it successfully once it does a 360 turn.

She looks pleased upon capturing it, perking up and giving of an almost goofy smile. Oh no. Don’t tell me this is something else that she isn’t going to take seriously?

‘’You wanna play with us little mortal?’’ Jimin pips up looking enthusiastic and livelier all of the sudden. But he doesn’t slide forward and move closer to her like I know he would prefer to. It brings a smile to my face, the thought of him being so afraid of hyung that he doesn’t dare approach her in his presence all that much.

Looking at the girl, she’s preoccupied with hyung’s sword, trying to find the balance of it as she holds it by the handle horizontally keeping it steady. At his comment, she lets the sword fall but catches it before the tip can hit the ground.

‘’Jagi?’’ the nickname has everyone in the room freeze on spot. There are two reaction that she grants herself. Chuckles of amusement, that aren’t as quiet as the hyungs wants them to be – nobody in their sane mind would want to experience Yoongi’s wrath. Tae ends up ducking behind Hoseok as he’s the loudest, hence why the elders glare is instantaneous as he turns to glare at both giggling men.

Jin hyung straight up turns around hand covering his mouth, but his shoulders are shaking badly. Hoseok ends up grinning wider and starts too coo instead, teasing in between but mostly telling Y/N how adorable she is for some reason. Jimin settles for kneeling on the ground hands still holding into his own dual swords grin present over his features, eyes having disappeared from how much he finds this whole situation amusing.

I on the other hand hold back the bile that gathers in my stomach. Ew. Just no. Why? Seriously why. I cringe and listen to the way Yoongi is quick to defend her and not himself! He’s advocating for her, coming up with excuses as to why he is allowing her to use this nickname on him. Looking at her, she’s grinning widely clearly amused by the situation she has created.

I seriously feel sick to my stomach. It’s wrong it’s all just wrong. I seriously don’t like her. Just as I was starting to, I don’t anymore I really don’t. She’s way to cocky right now, acting as if she has hyung wrapped around her finger. He storms after our so called ‘dance line’ with the exception of me, as they start teasing the two louder and bolder. Unbothered she remains put just watching blurs go around, her eyes not able to pick up much on what’s going on as the chase begins.

If she wasn’t here – hyung would be chasing me too with the others. I let a few good comebacks die on my tongue knowing first-hand what it’s like to get silly punishment from Yoongi after badmouthing him or anyone else. Her mere presence right now is to put it in simple words; extinguishes my will to live. And yeah, I’ve been a vampire for almost 200 years but fuck does she weight me down. Is it because I can’t read her thoughts? I shift on my feet, dropping my arms from the crossed-up position I’ve had them. While my left hand reasts against my hip, I let my right rest over the handle of my own Geom. I’ve decided to build upon my skills with it, even though it’s not commonly used anymore, it’s still gives the thrill like no other.

That familiar itch raises in my throat slowly, prickling at it mostly. I think this type I haven’t felt since I’ve been freshly turned. But that was another story as my hunger for blood then was insatiable. When all I could think about was blood, and the constant pain that held me in its clutches. It’s starting to appear somewhat, but not necessarily for blood alone which is puzzling as to what’s happening to me.

‘’You look like you’re having fun.’’ I raise an eyebrow as I look down at her in surprise ‘’The whole brooding thing you’ve got going on right now, is a good strategy. I commend you on that dude.’’

‘’Strategy?’’ I ask bemused eyeing her carefully as she steps right next to me and turns to watch the chaos that’s still unfolding across us. Her approach is like – if you were sitting on the very edge of a couch, she’s the person that would sit right next to you. Can she get even more annoying than this?!

‘’Well yeah.’’ She starts and looks at me slightly losing the edge of confidence she has ‘’To avoid this mess that’s happening. Wasn’t that…’’ she trails off clearly doubting herself ‘’Never mind then.’’ she’s quick to look away, left hand reaching up to scratch at her cheek, but she keeps it there avoiding to look at me.

I can’t help but to smile at her behaviour. Is she blushing?!

Odd. Humans are weird. Narrowing my eyes as I continue watching her, I can’t help but to relax a bit. Her hair is a mess as always, falling over her shoulders, clearly uncombed or unattended. Not that she’s dirty, she smells fresh and like she bathed fairly recently that strawberry hint present underneath the artificial flavour of honey scented shampoo.

The hoodie is too big on her body as it’s too big for hyung himself but on her it easily reaches her mid tights. Having said that the branded shorts with white stripes at the side of her legs peek just from beneath the red hoodie. Otherwise her legs are exposed, and following the curves from her meaty thighs, down to her calves I can see she’s back at being restless her left foot tapping against the ground the rubber of her sneakers making faint noise against the wood of the ground.

Shouts raising has me turning up, ready to defend myself from blatantly staring at her or crudely said ogling her. To my rare luck Yoongi has both Jimin and Taehyung pinned down, clearly having fun as he fake scolds them. Hoseok has given up and is sitting on the ground, hands propping himself up as he’s leant backwards. Jin hasn’t even participated in whatever they have going on, and is sitting in the corner of the room, kneeling against the wall with his new pink coloured Samsung Z in his hands, typing furiously on it with a small smirk on his face.

‘’Hey do you know why did the scarecrow win an award?’’ Jin starts getting everyone’s attention eyes rising after he asks the question. He even glances towards us. And we all know what’s coming it’s clear as a single cloud on a clear sunny day ‘’Because he was outstanding in his field.’’

I roll my eyes instantly, biting onto my lower lip because it’s ridiculous. Jimin burst into laughter first, Hoseok and Tae groaning but ending up laughing more so because of Jimin that rolls away from Yoongi who has let go of both vampires and is staring at hyung with a scrunched-up expression.

‘’Seriously hyung?’’ he breathes shaking his head. But a smile is present.

I’m genuinely startled when Y/N places her hand on my shoulder, body trembling as she tries to keep her own giggles down, but is not having much success with it. I stare at her confused but slightly fascinated by the rosiness that covers her cheeks, and face. Her eyes crinkle as they shut, mouth twisted into a grin. Her hold on my shoulder is surprisingly firm, again in the back of my mind making me revaluate the estimate I put on her about her strength.

‘’You’re laughing at that?’’ I ask trying to sound unimpressed but fail at it completely as I smile all due to her own amusement, the joke not being that drop-dead-funny.

She shakes her head instead and let’s go of me taking a step to the side hand readjusting the hold on hyung’s Geom once more ‘’The delivery was A+.’’ she points out as she starts to calm down.

‘’Thank you, Y/N-ah! You see brats? Someone appreciates my jokes! It’s why from now on Y/N-ah is my favourite creature ever!!!’’ he shouts out acting bratty himself. Jimin and Tae are both on their feet making their way over to Jin, probably with the intention of convincing him that they are his favourite whatever.

‘’Gee thanks.’’ Y/N chuckles bringing my attention back to her ‘’Never been called someone’s favourite ‘creature’ but I’ll take it.’’ she ends up grinning happily as she turns to me, warmth still lingering on her cheeks. As well as over my shoulder where her hand was ‘’Anyways you wanna practice Sour boy?’’ I immediately frown at that nickname as does she scrunching up her nose adorably for a moment ‘’Sour creature?’’ she tries ending up chuckling to herself as she shift left and right, the calmness leaving her while her jumpiness coming back ‘’Can’t use Sour wolf those right are reserved obviously…’’ I tilt my head not having a clue what’s she’s referring to ‘’…sour…ah never mind.’’ Again, she’s shaking her head but isn’t hiding away. She twists the sword again putting her left foot forward balancing her centre first, hands and sword following suit ‘’So you wanna try going against me?’’

It’s a dare.

I want to burst into laughter already imagining 3 moves alone to disarm her in a blink of her eye. But hyung’s words in my head stop me from over reacting at the preposterous challenge that’s right in front of me.

Humour her Jeongguk-ah. It will do good for your patience.

Taking a hold of my own blade, I spare a glance over towards Yoongi first noticing that everyone is watching us. They are going to be entertained I’ll make sure I will…

In a blink of an eye and my own, as my reflexes are enhanced mind you – I find myself dumbfounded, as her sword flashes due to the light and clashes against my own, knocking it sideways proving that my hold on it wasn’t as tight as it should have been.

As I look down at her burning but non-glowing human eyes, she’s glaring at me with some sort of fire in her irises. Her hand is back on me, firmly holding onto the inside of my forearm, while her blade is angled in a seemingly awkward position right arm positioned over her left body twisted to the side. But the most important part is; the tip of her sword is located right under my chin. The body of the Geom is strategically positioned in a way that would block any stronger and direct attack from myself.

The cheers burst out of the blue interrupting the silence that happened due to her unexpected actions.

My tongue darts to my cheek as I snort and tilt my head narrowing my eyes at her, as she ends up smiling but look serious doing so. She ends up pulling her hand and sword back, rising it up in triumph.

‘’Lesson number one; always be ready for the unexpected.’’ Jin speaks up oddly enough giving me a more serious look.

I don’t even bother looking towards others, and focus on the girl before me that’s literally skipping on her spot 2 steps away from me. She wiggles her eyebrows at me, sword getting placed to rest against her shoulder angled at an around 80 degree ‘’Lesson 1000-something-something never lose focus.’’ She imitates Yoongi’s pattern of speech clearly making fun of him making me know that he trained her as well. Her head turns to the right to give him a look.

I twirl my Geom keeping in mind that even though I’m about to surprise her as she surprised me, I a voice screaming at me to keep my movements slow. It would be an easy defeat – like taking candy from a baby – if I use my regular speed and agility on her. She wouldn’t stand a chance.

As I raise my blade, she instantly blocks it spinning with elegance at the perfect time. While I’m holding the leather wrapped handle with both hands, she only uses one and efficiently blocks me, her blade only briefly losing a hold twitching backwards and then coming to a still.

‘’To rough?’’ I tease, as she grabs for the long handle with her left hand the pressure against my blade turning prominent. Fuck. I didn’t expect in the slightest that she would be even able to push against me. But that’s maybe because I didn’t focus on taking a hold of my Geom in a proper way like I should have. I underestimated her.

She doesn’t reply initially, but offers a smirk jaw locked tight. To my astonishment she unpredictably steps back, and raises her Geom ready to strike down, which I block successfully intercepting her attacks from the get go. The fact remains that tips the balance contradictory to my own belief and those of my hyungs as with my brief lack of concentration, everything changes – words fill my mind – because she has managed from the get go to legitimately push me backwards. She has me moving, whole body getting in tune and reflexes to work as two close calls of the metal coming in contact with me have me focusing solemnly on her.

It isn’t until she’s out of breath that she jumps back like in the beginning, and simply breathes harshly through her nose. That’s the weakness of being a human. Getting tired. I know it’s not fair but I take my chance and charge forward, confident that I’ve got an easy win under my belt.

But as I move forward faster than I should I’ll admit her left hand reaches and gets in line with where my sword is pointed at. She’s reaching forward as if she is about to pick an apple, the action itself insane. That has me stopping right before the blade can touch, forcing my whole body to a halt. That’s when she strikes, finger wrapping onto the top of my blade against the blunt part of it.

It all happens so fast even for me, as she holds onto my weapon and just like the first time, she’s finds herself right up in my personal space, her blade finding a home under my chin it seems.

Her face is almost feral – that’s how I’d describe it the easiest. She’s showing her blunt teeth as she breathes fast heart absolutely pounding in her chest, as she glares at me the fire I saw before has turned into some sort of a blizzard, and hunger. The cheers that erupt of disbelief and glee get all muted - her blood is calling out to me. I can feel it vibrating in her veins, pumping steadily though her heart. It sounds like a forgotten lullaby her speeding but regulating steady heartbeat. It brings a taste of nostalgia forward.

The smile that stretches across her lips seems newly unique, only for my eyes – there’s of course that prominent sense of victory, happiness that’s prominent in her whole being still only inches away from me.

I’m left blinking in confusion, the hold of my blade being let go as someone pulls her backwards the cold blade that was located under my chin retreating as well as her warmth and now prominent smell of fruitiness, and something else that I can almost taste in the air – something that kind of remind me of the smell I remember that came from my own clothes when I was still a human.

‘’Ah our sweet Golden Maknae, it seems you have meet you’re match in at least one category!’’ Jin cheers throwing his arm over my shoulders, looking extremely gleeful as he starts poking my sides. I twist at his ministration but keep watching as Hoseok lifts Y/N up onto his shoulders, her hands free from weapons and desperate to hold onto something as she dangerously shifts and tries to balance herself on his shoulders. His oblivious jumping spree continues despite her cries of protests with Jimin standing behind the two ready to catch her as Taehyung dances along with the vampire that’s carrying her.

I can’t shake off the tingles that seem to entrap me in a sense, running over my skin prickling at my long stopped beating heart. I stare almost dumbly listening to the shouts and cheers from the human girl, that decided to act along with the boys’ antics easily following and mimicking them having the time of her life judging by the giant smile she has on, and adorable chuckles that raise. But the smile she gave me doesn’t resemble this one, one bit. The one I got was more – her.

‘’Good effort, Jeongguk-ah.’’ Yoongi speaks up appearing finally on my right, hand holding onto his Geom once more. Meeting his eyes, they seem soft the smirk he has not too promising for my dignity ‘’Of course you’ve managed to accomplish all the don’ts than do’s in what I’ve taught you, but it was a good lesson nonetheless.’’

Jin stars laughing immediately agreeing with Yoongi, the jokes and mockery following after.

I hate losing, I despise it with my whole being given that I’m not sure if I still have a soul. And even though irritation is brewing under my skin, I can’t find myself to feel real anger of any sorts. She threw me off too much to completely understand the feeling I’m experiencing, in regards of her.

Of course, I still don’t like her, why would I pfffff. This is only a reason more that I need to start and upstage her frankly speaking. I’m not jealous of her being in hyung’s good graces or anything childish like that but…I’m the golden maknae. I need to knock her down a peg or two.

I find myself watching her like a hawk, awaiting the anger and frustration to hit me…it doesn’t. And that’s concerning me slightly.

*A few days later*

I squint automatically at the spill and change of contrasting light that floods into the room. My eyes are quick to adapt but my brain forces me to react humanly. Rounding the corner, I’m met with a wide and open door that leads to the side of the mansion, into the gardens and towards the pathway that leads towards the garage. I sigh annoyed that someone is trying to start a prank war again. It’s a poor prank just leaving the doors open, but the sun that’s shinning inside is frankly bothersome enough to diminish my mood.

I was having a good match going on the whole night, winning every time of course setting new records. The peckish-ness appeared out of nowhere – I fed 2 days ago, there’s no reason why I’m feeling hungry again. I should be fine and yet, my throat itches uncomfortably enough so that I need to take plan B; Take a blood bag from the fridge to calm myself down.

I rarely do this, hating the cold and very artificial taste that the bag leaves on the blood. But the blood bags are there for this exact reason.

I stand at the entrance of the lavish kitchen and dining area on my right and place my hands onto my hips just contemplating my life choices as one does in the middle of the day – or night for some. Why does it have to be so sunny, why can’t it just keep raining. Of course, it has been a while since I’ve seen sunlight, but I sure as hell didn’t miss it that much. It’s absolutely glowing against the polished marble flooring, and reflecting all over the clean white kitchen.

There are bowls on the kitchen island, the presence of them making me listen in a focus for a moment if someone is close and trying to scare me. Silence. Strange. Approaching the kitchen island and avoiding the stray odd ray of sunlight that stretches across the room, thanks to a curtain being moved, I see pastry has been laid out on a wooden desk. Two banana’s lies on another chopping board still intact, while a gooey brown substance resides in a pot next to the pastry.

I’m so confused. What is this supposed to be?

Looking around for Jin hyung I’m left wondering if he’s back at experimenting with human food and trying to impress our annoying temporary human resident. Last time he baked 10 cakes, of different flavours, which the human did thank him over hundreds of times for, but barely made a dent in them. We had to throw them out after 4 days, with Jin hyung reasoning that it’s logical as they were going to go bad. Sounds like bullshit to me as in my time cakes were a delicacy to get often, but I feel as if they are more compact and longer lasting than 4 days but what do I know about human food. Eh.

Glancing towards outside keeping my eyes trained on the marble flooring I pick up on someone talking fast and thoughts of How lovely and kind, she is flooding my mind That girl has a knack for flowers, and it helps that she’s extra nice unlike most of Mr. Min’s friends I block out the gardeners thoughts as they continue wandering about Yoongi…yet again. Shaking my head to clear my mind, I take the chance squinting and frowning at the brightness even more prominent, my eyes trained to the outside watching as Y/N stumbles over her feet but recollects herself. She’s carrying a small bouquet of what seem like lavender coloured roses. I didn’t even know we grow those. The flowers don’t look that nice during the night I’ll admit that. But I know Jin hyung wanted multi coloured flowers, and I know there was a Boquete of blue roses placed on this very kitchen island some time ago.

I watch as the girl jumps exaggeratingly childish and cheerful onto the concrete ground of the mansions floor and short patio. Her bare feet make barely any noise, as she approaches.

‘’Oh, hey what are you doing up still?’’ she asks squinting but due to the contrast she must be experiencing. I’m surprise she spotted me outside. She kinda looks that sort of an adorable-ugly.

‘’You do know that we don’t sleep right?’’ I ask hesitant not sure if she knows this fact. I stare at her, ready to bolt to her aid as she stumbles again once she steps inside closing her eyes and taking 2 steps blindly ahead.

‘’I know that, I meant as in up now. Everyone is usually closed off at this time.’’ she’s quick to explain opening her eyes carefully, looking around still squinting the ugliness still there.

‘’I should be asking you why are you up instead. Aren’t you usually dead asleep by this time?’’ I turn the conversation around, watching as she reaches the counter and places the roses on it, turning back to the doors. I snort to myself at her choice of clothing being a white shirt with jean overalls that hang slightly lose on her.

‘’To be honest I drank one energy drink or two too much, so I’m wide awake.’’ She replies turning to look at me, expression relaxing into a normal one, eyes still blinking quickly a few more times glossiness present in them ‘’Do you mind the doors?’’ the question has my brows rising in question ‘’Is the light bothering you? I can close them, if it is.’’

Surprised I contemplate for a moment, preferring that she does close the door off but there’s something more to her unusual question ‘’I’m fine with them as they are.’’ I lie and sit myself on the second bar stool from the right corner of the kitchen island, making sure I’m keeping a safe distance from the pesky sun.

‘’Oh good.’’ she sighs in relief perking up ‘’To be honest I didn’t even know how much I’ve missed the sun.’’ the short explanation is happy as she practically skips over to the doors anyways.

‘’Hm I bet you do.’’ I mumble reaching out for one rose, seeing with the corner of my eye as she slips into a pair of slippers that she has left near the wall which I didn’t even notice were there.

‘’Do you?’’ looking up she doesn’t seem like she means anything ill with the question. I think she’s naïve enough to be genuinely curious.

I take a moment to think about it looking out at the brightness, while she goes to rummage around the cabinets ‘’I’m not sure.’’ I admit ‘’I miss sightseeing certain places in day-light. It’s just easier going at night, instead of putting a ton of cream to my skin, and having an umbrella along.’’ I ramble remembering the time when I visited Paris alone. I put a ton of sun cream on, and picked out a designer umbrella, but the curious looks and people randomly asking me to take pictures with them as they thought I was a model or something got tiresome really fast.

‘’Hmm, that would guarantee unwanted attention I’m sure.’’ Her comment has me turning to her again curious as it’s like she read right through my thoughts. She’s filling out a vase or just a tall ornate glass up with water, face portraying her concentration with the matter.

‘’So, whenever you aren’t hanging out with vampires are you usually acting as a regular human being then?’’ I ask interested in her answer and maybe to learn more about her. Even though hyungs have quickly grown to thrust her, I still have my reservations. She talks a lot like A LOT but she never really reveals to much exclusively about herself.

I get a snort in reply eyes meeting my own briefly with a slight glare and edge before she turns to the vase and flowers ‘’It differentiates.’’ She starts ‘’I used to have a job high up somewhat, so yeah, I’ve spent the last couple of years just working. Working, sleeping and eating.’’ I’m taken a back at the new information not having expected her to reply seriously ‘’Had to be on point and available 24/7. You know how greedy humans can get.’’ She sighs tiredly. I can’t argue with that statement so I simply offer a faint nod, watching as her fingers work delicately over the flower petals, rearranging them around neatly. She accepts the flower I was toying with, with a small smile ‘’So one day when I was going to a library to do some research for a project I was doing, I stumbled upon a revelation and just decided to quit.’’

Taking a step back she cheers up instantly ‘’Ta-da.’’ I observe her mirthfulness observing her as she steps over to the sink, letting the water on as she runs her hands under it ‘’So with that done, and wanting to avoid confrontation as any normal human being…’’ I roll my eyes at that knowing what lengths humans are willing to take to avoid confrontations ‘’…I hoped on a plane and, after 5 hours from landing I walked right through your front door.’’ She ends her explanation, whipping her hands with a kitchen cloth.

‘’Just like that huh? No attachments nothing?’’ she nods immediately as I tilt my head shifting after to rest it over my bent left arm ‘’Aren’t you humans known for unnecessarily attachments to people and objects?’’

She chuckles at my statement nodding and smirking amused, hands set in motion as she stirs the gooey substance in the small pot. Smells like chocolate but the melted kind ‘’You’re right about that for the most part and people. But I’ve been sort of a nomad my whole life. Never stayed in one place for too long.’’ She shrugs spreading the substance all over the pastry working meticulously and evening it all out ‘’Didn’t find a reason to settle down.’’

‘’Why thought? Did your parents move a lot so that’s why you can’t find a place you genuinely like?’’ having studied a bit of psychology I pick up on her not fully revealed and rounded answer. She’s generalizing herself a lot. Her movements don’t stop or pause in hesitation at my question.

‘’The second part is more correct in a sense. My parents eh they were what they were.’’ Again, she shrugs, placing the two bananas on the edge of the pastry ‘’I moved a lot with my partner actually. We went on adventures and whatnot, ready to marry and all that jazz.’’ I raise both eyebrows feeling perplexed not having expecting that from the likes of her. That sounds a lot harsher than I intended it to but…I would have never expected her to want to marry, or well be serious about it.

For some reason I can’t imagine her being paired up with any regular man or woman, specially not human for some reason. It feels wrong, feels like nobody ordinary like that can handle her.

‘’Tragedy?’’ I ask assuming the progression of her story.

‘’Yep!’’ she replies too cheerfully for the theme of the conversation, popping the ‘p’ childishly ‘’Wasn’t meant to be.’’ She offers a smile as she looks at me, not looking that particular sad. It must have taken her a long time to get over it thought, because her eyes aren’t matching the mask that she has put on. I can heart the almost pitter patter of her slightly speed up heart. And the shakiness to her hands isn’t missed.

‘’Most things aren’t.’’ I agree remembering my own human experience. I was meant to marry a girl from my village. Being a fisherman, third generation I was meant to uphold the family tradition, and have managed to snob the prettiest girl. But yeah. Not everything is destined to happen as you expect them to. Although looking back I know Na-yeon was wrong for me in all aspect. Even back then with my human set mind and precepting I was mostly doing it as it was expected of me, and not because I genuinely wanted it ‘’Also what are you even doing?’’ I find myself frowning as she starts to roll the whole thing together, bananas disappearing inside the roll.

She doesn’t even respond for a moment, and has stopped breathing. I’m about to stand up and help her out force her to breathe when she straightens up grinning widely again that triumphant expression I’ve seen before present.

‘’A HA!!!!’’ she cheers removing her hands away carefully looking extremely proud at the brown coloured roll that’s left on the tray ‘’I present to you, a perfectly made chocolate banana pudding roll!!’’ she presents’ hands pointing at it dramatically.

I glance at the severely unimpressed desert ‘’Judging by that crack right there, it isn’t as perfect as you claim it to be actually.’’

‘’What no!’’ she rushes leaning over it, bumping her hips into the stone counter. Curses raise, sounding way to rough for the image of a soft girl that she’s unintentionally portraying as of today. She preoccupies herself with inspecting the roll ending up frowning as she straightens up hands placed on the counter while she glares at the desert as if it has offended her.

‘’If it’s any consolation if I were still human, I’d eat it.’’ my words have her shoulders softening up as she shifts and eyes it some more. Her lower lips juts out slightly mouth forming into this sort of adorable hurt puppy pout.

But it only lasts a few seconds, lips quick to turn upwards onto a thankful smile ‘’Thanks.’’ Once her eyes meet my own, I get this odd warm sensation in my chest, seeing her brighten up thanks to my words and encouragement.

‘’Your welcome.’’

*A few days later, later*

‘’I don’t understand why I have to be the one to check on her.’’

A pause ‘’Probably because you’re the only one to dislike her the most. And the most probable to not make any advances.’’ At this I immediately fake throwing up, Taehyung chuckles following as on que ‘’See?’’ he points out smirking ‘’Namjoon hyung got almost punched when he accidentally told a pick-up line yesterday. She didn’t even register it, but Yoongi hyung just went off on him. Poor Namjoonie.’’ He tuts shaking his head finding hyungs predicament funny judging by the smirk he has on.

‘’As perceptive as she is, she can be so annoyingly dull.’’ I half snarl exasperated groaning to myself.

‘’That’s mean Jeonggukie.’’ He raises a complaint ‘’Don’t be so cocky. There’s always more than meets the eye. Even in regards of humans.’’

‘’Yeah, we’ve all seen that but…’’ looking at Taehyung that’s still walking besides me, arm brushing against my own mischievously now and then – he’s giving me this fond look as his eyes take me in. We start to slow our steps down, as we’ve reached the doors that led to the library.

‘’But?’’ he insists as I shrug stuffing my hands into the front pockets of the oversize black hoodie I have on.

‘’I just don’t like her.’’ I mumble, glancing towards the door lowering my tone.

‘’Yeah why is that?’’ glancing up I’m surprised at the way he narrows his eyes, and gets sort of serious, licking his lips quickly.

It’s easy to let the frustration rise up again, get a hold of me around my throat choking me up for a moment as I have to think what to tell him exactly. He’s smarter than he looks, always two steps in front of you, catching Yoongi and Jin hyung of guard even though the two of them have practically seen it all in all the years they’ve been alive. This isn’t said in vain when others warn against Taehyung. He’s as cunning as he is stunning.

‘’It’s the way she is! She just gets on my nerves you know.’’ I try lamely frowning gaze going to the doors ‘’The way she breathes is exaggerated, the way she talks, her voice is way to scratchy and of pitched, the lack of manners towards hyungs ugh…’’ If I was human, I’d shudder from anger but I simply close my eyes in frustration that part of her still irking me greatly ‘’…and the way she keeps on wearing hyungs clothes, and not sleeping enough. Does she even eat enough? What is that all about.’’

I end up glaring at Taehyung who nods once holding his serious demander but soon after ends up smirking widely eyes sparkling almost. He arches an eyebrow clearly having thought of something ‘’There’s also the fact that she almost beat your score in Overwatch.’’

‘’THAT TOO!!’’ I half exclaim throwing my hands in the air, then proceed to step up and don for a moment ‘’With my reflexes how is that possible?!’’ Taehyung just keeps nodding in understanding ‘’She’s a child that’s what she is! Doesn’t reach any level where we are, mentally and maturely.’’

‘’Pfff says the late bloomer himself.’’ I stop moving around and give hyung a challenging glare.

‘’I wasn’t that late. Just had extra on my plate in regards of my abilities.’’ I pout going into a similar pose as the beginning just standing closer to the doors.

‘’Aigo, Aigo, Golden maknae.’’ He tuts affectionately walking closer hand coming up to place it over my shoulder as he leans close to me ‘’You’ve got a fair point there yes, but don’t you think that we’ve had to accept you too in the beginning? That there weren’t any let’s say fractions of hesitance’s from our parts?’’

At this my nose scrunches up as I know it’s true, about their reservations when it came to me. My telepathy came at a disadvantage in the beginning, strength easily frightening even Hoseok hyung who is considered to be the best fighter in our clan.

‘’That’s it Jeonggukie. I see how your clogs are starting to turn. Do you see my point?’’

‘’She’s human hyung. There’s a difference.’’ At this he waves his hand straightening up.

‘’Meaning it’s in your favour if you really despise her that much. She’ll die judging by her bad lifestyle choices in a decade or two. Maybe three.’’ He shrugs attitude way to uncaring unlike our conversation a few days ago where he praised her and defended her loudly against Jimin who was upset at her yet another refusal. So, the switch has me second guessing him, and myself as…I didn’t even think about her dying.

It causes that boulder that hasn’t left my stomach to churn and twist, burning even at the thought of imagining seeing her lifeless body.

I don’t even notice that we’ve fallen silent until hyung speaks up again ‘’Anyways I’m gonna go find Jin hyung and maybe convince him to go to the city with me. I need new pair of shoes and a new collection is rumoured to be just on the verge of launching.’’ He wiggles his eyebrows patting my shoulder for a moment in consolation before he’s backing away, right hand stuck in the pocket of his pants whilst he gives me a finger gun with his left-hand winking a cold breeze of air whooshing past me, his eyes for a brief second turning icy blue ‘’Good luck, Bunny. And be nice to our human. They are fragile creatures after all.’’

I tilt my head in confusion staring at him ready to ask what he means by that but he disappears in a blink of an eye taking off leaving me alone. Even though I don’t exactly need air to breathe I do take it in and sigh, recollecting the confusion that are my emotions and have been for the past few days. Spinning on my heel I glance towards the double doors which are decorated with golden motifs, having been painted into white the wood barely peeking through unlike the inner side that displaying the many years the tree had before it was chopped down.

Pressing onto the handle of the left door I silently without making any sounds enter the big room from another perspective, the other entrance being in the ballroom whilst this one leads inside from a corridor that connects to the music room in the back of this huge house.

Nothing seems out of the usual as I take a look at the ground floor. Nothing moves either. I can hear her speed up heart and breathing, murmurs now and then cutting of the serenity. I walk over to the table that has been left since the “party” we’ve had. The name plates have been removed from its surface but it has been filled up by different books, and scrolls even. I glance over the few notebooks and stray papers here and there easily recognising Namjoon’s handwriting as well as Yoongi hyungs. The cracked screen of the iPad is mocking me as it lays unsafely on one corner of the table.

What has my immediate attention is a different looking notebook. I smirk in amusement as this handwriting is as of a child, words scribbled down in a fast pace, letters somewhere half formed or just distorted, even smudged. There’s an ink stain from a hand near the edge of the page, which I brush my own fingers over it. I can’t read through the text as it’s written in another language, and the choice of letters themselves are unusual. I don’t think I can even pronounce any word.

I’m not really here to offer my academic assistance as I barely speak any English myself, but it’s kind of nice to see that her character is clearly portrayed in the way she writes, and how she fills the page up irregularly. She’s as chaotic in real life and on paper.

Musing for a moment further spotting glasses and bottles of water on the other end of the lengthy table, I do glance upwards towards the second floor, hearing as a pen or something small as a pen clatters hitting the ground. By the lack of movement, I already figured she was asleep.

Silly human. Her life style is really un-well and extremely badly planned. Stepping around the table my intention on getting the girl and carrying her to her bedroom, gets postponed as my eyes shift onto a book, that for whatever reason has my feet stopping.

The gold of the cover is unusual between the rest of the books with used and dried up leather and yellowed pages. I pick it up, buried in between a stack of smaller scrolls and encyclopaedias actually. I frown at the title; it’s about mythology. Every kind actually.

What’s the most puzzling is that it’s written by hand. And the handwritings differentiate. Multiple people worked on this, and judging by the smell of the ink and paper things have been added or pulled out. Pictures are drawn here and there, and languages vary from all around the world from what I can judge by some symbols and added explanations in English.

There’s a myth about Thor, expanding at least 20 pages. Another myth about Pele a Hawaiian goddess covers well over 30 pages with many illustrations, and instructions from what I can assume for tattoos.

Shifting around I do recognize myths from the hand drawn images instead of their native titles. Nearing almost the end of the book, as I sniff at the pages and feeling like a complete idiot for a moment, I have to sit down as these are completely new pages added to this. Taking a look across the table, I find the A4 format pages placed near the corner just ahead of me, along with an old type-y looking pen with ink next to it.

Turning a page, I recognise the writing as being Jin hyungs which completely catches me of guard. Is this what they have been working on? Writing about myths?!

Don’t we have a coven war brewing?

Shuffling through the many written pages coming to the last one, I stare blankly for a moment the myth about Dangun which I know as it’s of Korean mythology. And as appropriate it is written in Korean.

What am I missing here? Why have they been working on this?! Why did other people work on this?! I pull the pages going slowly backwards, seeing stories actually unfolding. It’s not hard to connect the dots after a few pages, that these are from Yoongi hyung. But these are dating WAYYYY back in the millennia it feels like when hyung was as young as we are now it seems. But he was more mature definitely.

I frown at a half empty page where a sketch has been drawn into a half finished only the golden frame being finished. The sketch though - I can tell that linear lines are spears and, some even arrows that are sticking from what seems to be a pile of bodies on the floor? Only one figure is standing in the centre of the picture, with their back towards us armour robust and yet slim in a sense. I narrow my eyes at the handle of the soldier – the pommel is shaped like a pouncing lion.

Battle of Hwangsanbeol

That’s the title. I know about it from what hyung told me, but this is written much more in detail. The main explanation is from what humans are being told in schools, I remember it from college when I studied mechanics years ago. But the new ink underneath and Yoongi hyungs writing, is an indicator that this is where his story begins.

He didn’t take sides in particular, changing armours as he shifted from a Silla’s soldier into a soldier of the Tang army. The similarity is there with added commentary to make you know more about how life was then. What gets my attention is the comradery between hyung and another fellow that name is very generalized. They’ve struck a friendship and have covered for one another in battle, which had him switching sides and to remain with the Silla side out of curiosity and maybe even naivety he describes it. He didn’t have as much experience then as he does now to have judged everything smartly enough, even though the odds were clearly in Silla’s favour.

The praise towards the human soldier is tremendous, giving him full credit of saving his life more than once. And even though he was a turned by that point into an immortal, the praise has even me feeling grateful towards the man.

He did raise up in ranks, but he never left Yoongi behind. During the main battle after the slaughter, he describes his fellow soldier as being remorseful, as they stared across the field of many fallen soldiers and warriors and manslaughter that stretched miles away it had seemed at the time. It was brutal but necessary – I forget that hyung is from a completely different timeline sometimes. It’s easy to mistake him, and others for younger vampires.

The solider…tilting my head I spot a few notes written lightly over hyungs hand-writing. My frown deepens as the anger I felt before towards her starts to simmer - it’s not hard to see that this is Y/N’s handwriting. Her comments are absolutely ridiculous, playing hyung’s praise off – she’s dismissing it. How dare she? What does she know about wars, she was born in peaceful times, I bet to a good family! She hasn’t never experienced the horrors of wars, the stench, the travesty the fear the…

‘’No!’’ a shout has me glancing up stiffly. I notice how my fingers have curled into fists and how tight my jaw has locked together from anger ‘’…don’t…’’ she breathes out her heart beat now hammering. Confused I glance upwards thinking that she’s playing a joke on me. I’m ready to fucking snap at her – if she really is pulling a joke on me right now, I’m going to kick her out of the house myself.

‘’Ah no…’’ her words shift a cry following. What? Standing up I wait for amount further listening to her speed up breathing that’s sounds like hysteria ‘’NOOOO DON’T TAKE HIM NOOO!!!!!!’’ her cry is of terror and panic. It absolutely shocks me to my core but has me moving upwards, reaching the second floor and top of stairs in a second ‘’NO HE’S MY SOU…’’ she continues to shout switching to another language panic rising.

I’m completely disoriented by the mess that I find on the upper floor, books pulled and settled in piles on the ground, as posters of maps hang up over the book’s shelves. The 2 floor is sort of a balcony going half around the room above both entrances. After legit 2 spins around myself, I pick up on a mattress actually located in the very corner of the library. There’s a sheet stuck to the bent down ceiling, and a ton of blankets are thrown around the mattress.

I can see her finally, leg sticking up shoulder peeking over as she shifts onto her side ‘’Agápi mou, agápi mouuuuu…’’

‘’Shhhhh Y/N-ah.’’ I whisper as I run to her side, kneeling right next to her, my hands coming in contact with her overheated skin. She’s drenched in sweat, and twitching like crazy as if she’s fighting someone ‘’Wake up Y/N-ah it’s just a dream it’s not real, it’s not real!’’

‘’No…don’t go…’’ I pull her body into my lap without a second thought. As I brush her hair away from her face she flinches away probably because of my cooler hand. She’s overheating. What catches me of guard and has me whining is the tears that are running down her cheeks.

‘’Y/N-ah wake up, please wake up! It’s not real okay, it’s just a nightmare! You’re here with me in the library safe and sound! Come on you silly human wake up.’’ I urge her on rambling shaking her gently. She startles awake, eyes flying open hands in fists ready to fight. I half expect her to punch me but once her eyes find mine, she ends up smiling tiredly body immediately going lax in my hold.

‘’My love.’’ She says in Korean right hand reaching up, left palm pressed flat against my chest where my heart is.

‘’Don’t fall back asleep.’’ I try as her eyes fall close back again, her breathing having stabilized somewhat ‘’The one time I legit want to hang out with you, you suddenly want to sleep ah? The disrespect.’’ I laugh worried as I take her in. The bags under her eyes are prominent, and her cheeks which looks sort of more sunken aren’t reassuring me with her wellbeing at all.

I stare as her eyes blink open, taking me in clearly her hand that’s resting over my chest raises up shakily to cup my other cheek.

The blissful expression that settled before turns into a frown and a pout, as her eyes take my features in the change in mood confusing me with what to do. I readjust my hold gently, holding her steadily in my arms, making sure I’m not pressing to much of my skin against hers. I’ve heard from others that humans don’t like our colder skin in particular.

‘’Jeongguk-ah.’’ She states to which I offer a smile immediately as she seems to be coming back from wherever her mind took her.

‘’Yep. That’s my name.’’ I reply feeling her body tense up but not prominently. She’s waking up slowly at her own pace. She hums suddenly and pulls her hands back. I have to stop myself from wanting to tell her that it’s fine if she wants to touch me. That only conflicts my emotions all the more.

‘’Sorry am…was I making too much noise?’’ she asks gathering her thoughts, eyes darting around getting clearer as she notices the odd position we’ve fallen into.

‘’No, not at all.’’ I says wanting to immediately start reassuring her that everything is fine and she didn’t do anything wrong, but I have a hunch she’s not going to believe me either way ‘’Hyung wanted to see where you were exactly, and I was bored so. Two birds in one stone.’’

I help her up, as she starts to shift wanting to sit on her own. Silence begins after my brief explanation and after I’ve helped her sit back down onto the mattress. Without her permission I grab for a warm looking blanket and pull it over her shoulders, sitting down properly right next to her having this need to be as close as possible. Maybe I should offer a hug? Please say yes.

‘’What time is it even?’’ comes her question before I can ask her my own. She starts sifting more towards me, in the beginning of her sudden restlessness keeping the blanket around herself as she reaches with both hands upwards to rub her fingers across her eyes.

‘’Around 10AM.’’ I reply glancing towards the curtains, that are letting through sunlight from outside across the polished wooden floors only ‘’I think Jin hyung missed you at breakfast today.’’ I offer a smile while she pulls her hands away, running one through her messy hair quickly. She’s hunched forward into what seems like an awkward position – her gaze still seems far off like she’s not fully present yet.

‘’Oh yeah breakfast.’’ She mumbles glancing to the end of the mattress, to which I notice more pages and a silver notebook that has slid from the edge of the makeshift bed the papers all sprawled on the ground clearly by accident ‘’I didn’t mean to sleep.’’ She starts clearly her brain slowly starting up as she looks at me finally absently scratching the back of her head ‘’My back started to hurt, so I figured I should lay down or lean against the wall.’’ Ah so that’s why there are so many blankets piled up against the wall behind us.

‘’You should think more about getting proper sleep.’’ I comment ‘’I’m sure as great as this place is and cosy, I bet a proper bed would feel a lot nicer.’’

My heart and stomach flutter as she breaks into a small smile looking back to me amused ‘’Heard that before.’’

I shake my head immediately ‘’Uh huh. And if you’d listen, I think that would magically stop too.’’

She chuckles at my words, the gesture filling me with sort of pride that I actually made her smile and laugh. Oddly I want to comfort her properly. I want to make sure that she’s alright. Seeing her so distressed it…I can’t help but to still feel a bit freaked out myself. Her state is worrisome. Traces of her tears are still present over her puffy cheeks.

‘’So...’’ I start awkwardly ‘’Are you okay?’’

At this she looks away smile disappearing slowly ‘’I’m fine.’’ Another smile raises over her slightly dry lips this one clearly forced. She’s putting up a front – I just want to help her.

‘’You…’’

‘’I’m fine!’’ she’s quick to add not even looking at me swiftly pushing herself away, crawling over to the fallen notes, hands prompt with gathering her things ‘’Its fine. Totally fine.’’ She repeats it like a mantra, almost doubling over when she attempts to stand up ‘’I got it!’’ after the exclamation she’s up on her feet, proudly smiling goofiness making an appearance ‘’Totally A okay!!!’’

Frowning I’m quick to stand up following as she starts walking forward, feet slipping into her slippers before descending down the steps.

‘’You sure are saying that a lot for someone that just woke up screaming.’’ I don’t hold myself back this time. Even though I can’t see her face as she’s slowly descending down, the spring in her step isn’t present as much. She always walks with a bounce to her.

‘’This is the first time, it happened.’’ She huffs walking straight over to the table once her feet reach the ground. I grimace at her blatant lie, having heard her before in similar states that make much more sense now. But it’s always Yoongi that’s was at her side, specially whenever she went to sleep. It is different completely different to hear her from across the house, than from seeing her up close. It gives new meaning to her as a person.

‘’Yes, but it’s the first time that I’ve seen you sleep and wake up like that.’’ I point out as she places her notes on the desk, probably noticing the opened book I’ve left behind in my haste. Her head remains turned towards it, eyes going over the opened page ‘’You have nightmares every time you sleep, don’t you?’’

Taking the last two steps my feet touch the ground floor. I wait for her response as I make my way over to her left side, standing near her but putting enough distance to give her personal space. She flips the golden book to a close, placing a random one atop of it, shoulders shrugging in the meantime. Is she trying to hide it away from me? Or herself?

‘’A lot of people have nightmares, Jeongguk-ssi.’’ The serious look she gives me, irks me in a bad way. And not as in before where I felt agitated selfishly thinking of myself, but in a way that she’s treating me distantly - like I’ve been treating her more or less. The honorific is just the cheery on top. I think the phrase ‘give him some of his own medicine’ is appropriate to point out right now.

‘’Not like that.’’

She keeps staring at me upholding the glare she settles on. It’s so different from what I’ve seen her be and act around others. For the first time, I feel like I see another side of her which she clearly doesn’t like to reveal to anyone. Or anyone that’s not hyung. It’s starting to really bother me. Of course, I don’t really want her hurting or in pain, what just had occurred is something I’m ever going forget, but I’m sort of glad that I was here to snap her out of whatever nightmare she was in. I wouldn’t wish that upon anyone. She looked completely heartbroken, and lost.

Seeing that she has taken up a stubborn approach, it’s hard to miss the way her body trembles. Wearing a pair of grey sweatpants, and a simple t-shirt the difference in temperature has her obviously chilly maybe even cold.

Given that she doesn’t intend to lose whatever staring contest we have going on, I end up breaking it and reach for the end of my hoodie, tugging it over my head smoothly ‘’Here.’’ I say offering. She doesn’t reveal how surprised she is on the outside – only her heart jumping slightly does – but she does raise an eyebrow in question ‘’You look cold and neither of us need hyung to scold us if you’ll catch the flue.’’ If I was a human, I know my cheeks would be bright red as my reasoning is clearly lame.

She accepts the hoodie with a quiet ‘thank you’ and tugs in on quickly ‘’Okay so, where was I? You can help me move some stuff and get books I need…’’ I’m pleasantly surprised that she’s quick to fall into her work after what just happened. I do keep myself quiet as this is clearly a distraction. But the smile that raises over my lips I cannot stop. Even with her back turned towards me, she looks good in my clothes. My hoodie suits her. And I’m sure my scent will mix better with hers than hyung’s.

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3

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Dictionary: Dangun - was the legendary founder and god-king of Gojoseon, the first Korean kingdom Gaya also rendered Kaya or Karak - is the presumed language of the Gaya confederacy in southern Korea Geom - is the generic term for "sword", but more specifically also refers to a shorter straight-blade, double-edged sword with a somewhat blunted tip Lavender roses - is often a sign of enchantment and love at first sight. Those who have been enraptured by feelings of love and adoration have used lavender roses to express their romantic feelings and intentions. Agápi mou /Greek/ - My love

[demonboidies]

𝓼𝓲𝓬𝓴𝓵𝔂 - 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓼

pt.7

word count: 2,545

<this is a yandere story, therefore this is a trigger warning for emotional abuse, manipulation, toxic relationships and overall unhealthy obsession towards the reader/mc/yn>

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jungkook was really cute, in general. he captured hearts of many people, unintentionally, of course. it was an obvious fact and everyone knew it. except, all of the atoms in jin, hoseok, namjoon, and yoongi's body wouldve disagreed at this moment.

he was a whining, stomping, stubborn mess right now. tears were streaming down his face as he stomped about in his room, definitely making a big mess. the covers were thrown onto the floor as he kicked the small rug on his floor.

"hey, bun-bun, please stop! do you want noona to see this big mess?" namjoon tried persuading the boy, who stopped momentarily. he shook his head no and namjoon nodded, "exactly. if i tell noona that you made this mess, do you think she'll be happy? who knows she might just leave us if she sees this."

at the prospect of you leaving, his eyes teared up even more. he collapsed onto the ground, grabbing a pillow he had previously thrown onto the ground to cry into.

"no!~~"

the wail made all 4 of the guys cringe. finally, yoongi stepped forward running a hand through jungkook's hair.

"hey, bunny, why don't you get into bed and wait there for y/n to come back?"

jungkook shook his head.

"why not buddy?"

"i-i wanna see her when she comes inside, jungkookie doesn't want to wait any longer."

yoongi nodded thoughtfully, helping his fellow friend up, "we can wait downstairs, let's go."

his hand clasped tightly around jungkook's, letting the little sit on the couch which was positioned right in front of the door. yoongi made sure jungkook was preoccupied, turning to namjoon.

"get him his banana milk."

in a few seconds, the carton of milk was in jungkook's hand as he clutched a pink bunny plush in his other, staring at the door with determination. it was as if he was a runner, you opening the door would be the equivalent to the start of the race, and jungkook would have to run as fast as possible to you - the finish line.

jin sighed dramatically, feeling the weight off of his shoulders as he rolled his chair into the kitchen. hoseok and yoongi followed, letting namjoon stay preoccupied with jungkook.

"gosh, i knew he was reliant on her, but this is the worst episode ever." jin said taking a large gulp of water, he was trying to trick himself by thinking it was vodka. he indeed needed a drink, but right now wasn't an appropriate time.

"you know he has like over," hoseok paused thinking of a reasonable number, "200 photos on his phone, only imagine how many he has on his laptop, tablet, and probably has some on his fucking smart watch. knowing him he probably programmed it differently, just for that."

yoongi chuckled dryly, silently pitying jungkook. "he's so dependent, it's scary." he shook his head as if he was disappointed in jungkook.

hoseok and jin looked at each other, then at yoongi and broke out in laughter.

"coming from the guys who used her as your 'muse'." jin exclaimed, hoseok nodding and laughing along with him.

yoongi's face lit up a light pink, "oh whatever, at least i dont lie to her." his clap back made jin roll his eyes.

"we all agreed to this so don't go on bringing up that. that's just you trying to be a hero." jin's snarky comment made yoongi shut up immediately, although the glare he had directed to jin was clear on how he didn't like his snide comment.

"jungkook is just young, that's why. assured, we all acted that way when we were his age."

"pft, at his age i was kil-"

"noona!!~"

the excited squeal cut off jin who sighed heavily once again. wordlessly, they all walked out of the kitchen and into the living room. they saw jungkook holding you close by your waist, resting his head on your shoulder, even if you were noticeably shorter than him.

"hey jungkook." you patted his shoulder in greeting, your other hand being occupied by taehyung's hand. jimin watched the two youngest get most of the attention so he stomped into the kitchen. he grabbed one of your favorite drinks, bringing it out to you in a glass cup.

"here noona, drink this. you must be exhausted." you thanked jimin with a smile, pulling away from jungkook. you took a sip from the drink, looking at all of the expecting males. were they just waiting for you to come home? their eyes were wide, a smile on their lips...resembling puppies almost.

their eager eyes suddenly tore away from you, noticing your questioning eyes. "so..."

"noona let's play games upstairs!"

"y/n wanna check out my studio? i was working on some new tracks, if you're curious to hear some."

"noona, i never got around to showing you my dance performances right?"

you blinked slowly, staring at the individuals who were looking at you expectingly. the grip around your arm and you looked down to see jungkook looking at you with his bright, big doe eyes and lips formed into a pout.

"noona~ please?"

your breath hitched, the sight making your heart stop. the same time, your hand was being pulled in the direction of taehyung. you looked at the younger male.

"noona, you haven't spent much time with me. jungkook can wait, can't he?" taehyung's tone dropped and you could see in your peripheral vision jungkook moving towards his hyung.

"what? what are you getting at, taehyung?"

the other boy's eyebrows raised, shocked at the sudden informal tone jungkook had.

"i'm sayin-"

BZZT. BZZT. BZZT.

there was a vibration coming from your right pocket. so you took ahold of your ringing device, after un-twining your hand out of taehyung's (with his reluctance, of course), and swiped to answer it. you tried turning your body to the side for some privacy, but jungkook's hold didn't loosen a bit.

so you let out a sigh, saying a greeting to whomever was on the other end.

"good afternoon, ms. y/n."

"uhm, hello. who am i speaking to?"

the boys tried acting like they weren't listening in, except for jungkook who was watching you like a hawk. they were either on their phone, playing games, or just looking out the window.

"this is mr. kim, the secretary of mr. park hyung-sik's company, EyeCandy."

the name was familiar, it was one of the biggest companies regarding technology in South Korea. it was a job you had applied to maybe more than 2 months ago. it was a longshot dream you had. they handled many out of the country project and you simply wanted to become one of their translators. it was stupid of you to think you even had a chance. and it was obvious after the ceo had gotten up on a stage in america and by his side was a girl speaking into a microphone.

"ah," you said, not knowing what to think of it, "and why are you calling? sorry for the rudeness, but i can't wrap my head around it...i mean, i applied months ago."

jin's eyebrow raised in question, definitely paying attention now. applied? as in for a job?

"actually, i'm glad to be the bearer of good news, so we would like to say we have accepted you as mr. park's own personal translator."

you blinked once. twice. and thrice, or the third time.

"i'm sorry but, what?"

"come around at 8 am sharp tomorrow if you're interested."

and the line went dead.

"let's go!" jungkook said tugging your arm to go upstairs. but you wouldn't budge. jungkook began whining slightly, but stopped when you looked concerned with something. it seemed safe for him to assume it was regarding whoever you were on the phone with.  

"oh! i remember, hobi," you said looking at the surprised male in question, "your studio. it should be opening in 20 minutes, you asked for me to remind you earlier this morning."

the boys looked at hoseok suspiciously, but he only smiled gratefully. "oh thank you! i really forgot!"

he glanced at the boys, who were staring at him with high suspicion, but he gave no second thought to them, rushing upstairs.

"you know, noona," taehyung looked at you, softness in his eyes and smile, "you can call me tae or taetae if you want."

you smiled at his cute nickname, opening your mouth to respond, but jungkook cut you off.

"goo! kookie! jungkookie! you can call me those names! even bun-bun!"

'really? i would think annoying brat would be more fitting," yoongi thought bitterly, not loving the fact he was still attached to your arm - and the fact you seemed okay with it.

"well, if we're getting familiar with nicknames," yoongi said with a calm voice, "i give you permission to call me yoongs." he already made clear on the first day he wouldn't mind if you called him oppa or yoongs, but he thought restating it would've encouraged you to call him that more often. "oppa is fine too."

jin glared at him for taking the oppa title. "actually, you could call me oppa too, and if you want jinie. seeing as i am the oldest, that title should be reserved for me too." jin threw a glare at yoongi who only rolled his eyes.

you chuckle at the seemingly playful banter, not knowing how competitive they were actually being.

"joonie is cool with me." namjon said casually, walking closer to you. "and actually could i speak to you alone for a moment."

the mention of being alone with namjoon made junkook tighten his grip around you.

"no! noona is going upstairs with me," he declared for what felt like the thousandth time today,

"goo, i swear only 5 minutes. and you can take her upstairs to play overwatch or whatever."

the youngest showed to sign of letting up, until yoongi sighed and walked up to him. "goo, let's go. namjoon needs to talk about someting serious-"

"i am serious!" jungkook said puffing his chest out.

yoongi gritted his teeth, grabbing jungkook by the back of his neck and making him lean down a bit, so he cuold speak very clearly right into his ear.

"jeon, you better stop fucking around and come with me, let namjoon and y/n talk alone - it's something very important. or i swear to god, i'm gonna...beat the shit out of y/n right now, take them away from you, and make sure you never see them again." yoongi's words held no meaning, zero at all, but it got the reaction he wanted. jungkook let go of you, grabbing yoongi by his collar and staring him right into his irises. yoongi could tell how jungkook had switched, snapped, and was angrier than he's ever seen.

"repeat that shit to my face right now." jungkook, rather jeon, was furious. this persona/alter of jungkook was more aggressive than any other alter that jungkook had (at least known by the boys). it was a very, very, very stern rule in the house to not trigger that part of him. it never really ended well, no matter who tried to calm him down. the only way jeon would leave would be if jungkook had gotten sleep or just past out for whatever reason.

"come on," namjoon said, grabbing your wrist to pull you aside. it would be best if you didn't see anything that was about to go down, "there's something important we need to discuss."

you reluctantly let him tug you in the direction of his office. he shut the door behind you, but you flinched when you heard something crash.

"alright, so what i wanted to talk about was regarding your living location..." his voice trailed off, fiddling with some papers in his drawers, "jin and i wanted to know if you would be staying with us or you would be residing back at your apartment?"

this discussion was really supposed to be saved for later, but hearing your phone call and seeing jungkook's unusually clingy attitude, it seemed to be a good time to bring this question upon you. after all, with everything that seems to be happening at this moment, you might even say yes due to the pressure.

you nodded slowly. the decision had to be made, and the pros and cons of your choices were clear. living with the boys would only make your job easier, however it would inconvenience the boys. living by yourself (as you had been living before) would let you not be in anyone's way, however, the commute to the hill would have to happen every day and it sounded tiresome just thinking about it.

"i mean there is no pressure, however, we - as in all 7 of us - want you to know that it would be no problem if you had decided to stay with us. don't think that you would be a burden, you're already helping us so much. it also seems fitting if you're going to be here every day, in the case of an emergency or something," his voice trailed off in the end, noticing how you were in deep thought. he saw the contemplation on your voice and he smirked a bit. he just needed to convince you a little bit...

"and i'm sorry to say this to you - i just need you to know. the youngest ones really do rely on you for a lot of stuff. we need you here on time to be driving them at their designated hours. also...to think about jungkook - he really needs you by his side as well as taehyung. i don't know if you've noticed, but you're one of their calming remedies."

well now you really couldn't say no. to know that you were actually needed, i mean, you knew you were needed but for the sake of the two youngest. being called their remedies. it was like namjoon was planning all of this out only for you to say yes, his wicked and smooth words were very persuading.

and persuaded you were. it was crazy. you had only met the 7 males a mere day ago, but being called one of their calming remedies. if you were needed for an emergency, it would be too late if you were to commute to the hill. so the only option was...

"i guess i should start packing my things up then," you said, almost hesitantly. "i really would hate to burden you guys, but, my job here might be a waste if i would have to commute every day." you smile softly at the pleased man in front of you.

that was step one done and accomplished. everything was going well.

//I called this one pros and cons bc obvs ar the end,,,,but like pros and cons of jungkook is basically why that's the title

bc see hes a cutie wootie patootie, but hes also an annoying lil bitch for his noona ❤🥰 [pros and cons]

[that was a joke lol pls dont take offence]

[^jk finding out his noona is paying more attention to his hyungs]

[vodkctonic-blog]

jung hoseok, cismale, he/him, 25. — [ BOYEON “BO” NAM ], better known as the [ BENEFACTOR ], has been in crestwood for [ ONE YEAR ]. i think he is a [ CEO ]. rumor has it, he can be [ ADVENTUROUS ] & [ CHARISMATIC ] but also [ HEDONISTIC ] & [ MANIPULATIVE ] which is why i’ve heard their anthem is [ BIG SPENDER ] BY [ AS$AP ROCKY ft. THEOPHILUS LONDON ].

hey demons, it’s me, ya girl, cait, back at it again with this ABSOLUTE garbage can of a character... there’s not a ton of backstory on him under the cut bc i’m still trying to work all that out but basically he’s just... a fucking mess.

                                        BASIC INFORMATION.

full name: nam boyeon. nickname(s): bo. age: twenty-five. date of birth: october 31st. birthplace: daegu, south korea current location: crestwood, south carolina, usa. ethnicity: korean. nationality: korean. gender: cismale. pronouns: he/him/his. orientation: bisexual. occupation: ceo of multiple multi-million dollar corporations. language(s) spoken: english, korean, chinese, japanese, spanish, greek, thai & french.

                                PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.

face claim: jung hoseok ( jhope ) of bts. hair color: changes occasionally, currently crimson red. eye color: brown. height: 5'9". weight: 169. build: athletic. tattoos: n/a. piercings: n/a.

                                             HEALTH.

physical ailments: seasonal allergies. neurological conditions: n/a. allergies: pollen, mold. sleeping habits: 4-5 hours a night, usually restless. eating habits: varies depending on his mood, loves going to small diners to pig out on greasy food but also loves going to very high end restaurants. exercise habits: boxes as a form of exercise, cardio is usually a once a week thing. other than that he figures he moves around enough thanks to his job that he doesn't need extensive workouts. body temperature: normal. addictions: alcohol, tobacco, drugs, sex, gambling. drug use: frequent. alcohol use: frequent.

                                       PERSONALITY. ( PT 1. )

label: the benefactor. positive traits: adventurous, charasmatic. negative traits: hedonistic, blunt. fears: large bodies of water. hobbies: boxing, card games, video games, reading, cooking. habits / quirks: tba.

                                               FAVORITES.

season: fall. color(s): gold, sliver, red, matte black. music: not picky. movies: action, horror, suspense. sport(s): basketball, baseball, hockey. beverage(s): whiskey, dr pepper, iced tea, arnold palmers. food: steak, lobster, burgers, pizza, fries, kimchi. animal: dogs.

                                                  FAMILY.

father: tba. mother: tba. sibling(s): younger sibling, nineteen. children: n/a. pet(s): australian sheppard puppy named orion. family’s financial status: upper class.

                                                      EXTRAS.

zodiac sign: scorpio. mbti: entp-a. ( the debater ) enneagram: type eight. ( the challenger ) temperament: choleric. hogwarts house: slytherin. moral alignment: chaotic neutral. primary vice: lust. primary virtue: pride. element: fire.

                                                BIOGRAPHY.

i don't have like a full bio for him worked out yet but...

all you need to know is he's a cocky, blunt, impulsive & hedonistic af rich bitch who will flirt with anyone and everyone.

owns like..... 5 or 6 different multi-million dollar corporations and is constantly looking to become the ceo of more.

possibly got himself involved in some gang shit but no one knows he's involved in like the drugs part of that so sh

loves money & power.

also highkey loves blowing his money on other people ??

can be a dickhead sometimes but not always

spent 19m dollars on a one of a kind bugatti just to flex that he was the owner

is a hot ass mess

if u wanna know more pls hmu this is garbage im sorry

                                     PERSONALITY. ( PT 2. )

hides behind a wall of sarcasm, cockiness, and lust.

doesn’t really care to get to know people and had a tendency to push people away before they get too close to him.

but will also tease and mess with literally everyone.

wears glasses to read and mess w computers, but hates them a lot and probably won’t wear them if people are around.

is ….stubborn as hell and refuses to ask for help with anything.

his cars are literally his babies ??? like he ?? has a problem ??

a hotmess

fluent in a lot of languages, picked them up so that he didn’t need translators for business meetings, loves flaunting that skill.

lowkey worried that people will figure out that he’s actually v soft on the inside because that’ll cause him to start having to deal with his feelings, and he doesn’t wanna do that.

is the biggest flirt you will ever meet??

will try to get everyone to go to bars n parties with him ??

plays piano / violin & all that jazz.

drinks..heavily..  like every night?? it’s a problem tbh.

he cares… god he cares so much about people and the world but he pretends to hate everything because it’s easier than letting people in.

owns a book that is full of nothing but blank pages and keeps it on his coffee table because he ‘relates’ to it.

is a highkey hoe

super into fitness

loves boxing so much and can be seen at the gym quite a bit.. also has bruised knuckles 24/7 because of it as it’s a way to take out his aggression and feelings out on a punching bag?

speaking of… anger issues af. well… he's short tempered as hELL

actually super kind and caring once you’re able to see get past his wall?? which is really hard to do due to his job but if u do it he’ll cherish u.

has a bad habit of smoking whenever he’s stressed out, which is usually all of the time so he smokes…. more than he should. not just cigarettes either

he's a muffin. no, not a cute cupcake. a muffin.

                                                PLOT IDEAS.

bad influence. ( on your muse. )

best friends.

childhood friend.

competition.

confidant.

cousin.

current hook up(s).

drinking buddies.

drunken hook up.

enemies that used to be friends.

enemies.

exes who ended on bad terms.

flirtationship.

frenemies.

friendly competition.

friends that used to be enemies.

friends with benefits.

good influence. ( on boyeon. )

hate sex.

one night stand(s). ( past & present. )

partner in crime.

party buddies.

past hook up(s).

ride or die.

social media friends.

trouble makers.

[holylulusworld]

Used Part 1

Summary: The Reader is Dean’s friend, but Sam doesn’t like her, he thinks she’s a bad person and tries to show Dean how bad she is. Will he cross a line to proof his point?

How did I end up writing a Sam series?

Pairing: Sam x Reader, Dean x Reader (platonic) 

Warnings: violence, language, sadness, virgin reader, smut, first time, unprotected sex (don’t do this at home), Sam being a real asshole in this chapter (sorry, I love him but…)

„Hey, Dean what’s up? “ You ask.

“Well, Y/N we could use your help with a case, can you come to the bunker? We need a translation and you’re the only person I know who can translate ancient Greek.” Dean says.

“What about Sam? You know he doesn’t like to have me around, especially in the bunker; can the two of us meet somewhere else? You plea.

“Y/N, please we’re in a hurry and at the bunker are all needed books and its safe.” Dean begs. He misses his friend; he always wanted to ask you to stay at the bunker. You’re the little sister he always wanted, but Sam doesn’t like to have you around.

“Fine, I can be there in 4 or 5 hours. Can you prepare all books and stuff I need so I can be out of the bunker as fast as I can?”

“Sure, Sweetie.” Dean says smiling.

 4 hours later

“You called Y/N? I could’ve translated the book by myself.” Sam yells.

“But she can translate it faster! You know she speaks ancient Greek fluent!” Dean yells back.

You can hear the yelling when you enter the bunker, you silently move down the stairs. Dean hears your footsteps and turns around. “Sweetie!” he says smiling, hugging you tight.

“Hey Dean.” You smile and hug him back.

You can see Sam standing behind Dean with an angry face.

“Hello, Samuel, I know you don’t want me around so I try to be as fast as possible.” You say moving toward the books.

 “It’s done! You need those ingredients and this knife also you have to read those ancient Greek sentences while you push this knife into his chest.” You say, handling Dean the required weapon.

“What? I need to say it in ancient Greek?” Dean says rolling his eyes.

“Yeah, you or Sam!”

“Why can’t you do it, you speak ancient Greek, Y/N!” Dean pleas.

“Dean, you know Sam doesn’t want me to tag along on hunts. Remember what happened last time? He didn’t stick to the plan and I got hurt! You say shaking your head.

“But what if we read the words wrong? We could die, I could die…come on…you can’t let me die.” Dean begs.

“You can tag along, this time!” Sam says, suddenly standing behind you.

“I…fine, I’ll do it.” You say.

“Good, you can sleep in the room you used last time. We hit the road tomorrow at 6 am don’t be late kiddo.” Dean says smiling, hugging you again.

“Fine, fine.” You make your way to the room sighing, already knowing you will regret it … you love Dean like the big brother you never had but Sam…you love him in another way but you would never tell him, cause…well he doesn’t like you…

 2 hours later

“I don’t know why you can’t understand she’s my friend.” Dean whispers.

“I don’t trust her, it’s…I don’t know… I got the feeling maybe she’s a bad person. It’s just like it is Dean.” Sam yells.

“Bad, Sam? She’s a good girl, smart, funny and innocent in every way. Sammy, she’s my friend, like a little sister and she is not a bad person, she’s a good person.”

“Dean, I bet she is just like your usual bar shanks.” Sam says shaking his head.

“Wait what? No, Sam we don’t…I don’t!” Dean grunts angry.

“Sammy I hit the hay, you better change your mood, at least until the case is done. Don’t yell at her or let her get hurt again!” Dean says, leaving Sam’s room.

“Innocent, my ass, I’m going to proof you she’s a dirty girl like all your other hook ups.”

2 days later

“Good work kiddo, want a drink?” Dean asks smiling.

“No, you know I’m a lightweight and I need to walk back to my room, ya know, I don’t want to end up in the wrong room again, that was no fun.”

“You can stay here, you can have my bed, I need to…well talk to the bartender again.” Dean says wiggling his eyebrows.

“Dean, I won’t stay alone in the motel room with Sam.”

“He’s still at the library; you can take my bed and sleep, there will be no fighting this time, I promise.”

“Fine, but if I kill him in his sleep it’s your fault!” you say giggling.

  3 hours later

Dean texted you: “Don’t wait up kiddo, stay at the bartenders apartment.”

“Shit.” You had hoped he would come back. “I need a drink…or five.”

You grab the bottle of Jack and start drinking, after two drinks you feel brave enough to stand your ground against Sam, if you have to.

You decide to have a shower and to go to bed, before Sam returns.

You can’t fall asleep…”How about another glass.” You say giggling, pouring yourself another glass of Jack. You know you should get dressed, as you’re still in lace panties and bra but you’re to busy to ask yourself why Sam doesn’t like you…”Whatever.” You mutter.

Sam opens the door to the motel room and see’s you half-naked, only in your underwear. ‘Innocent my ass, bet she fucked with Dean just minutes ago.’ He thinks to himself.

You turn around when the motel room door opens. “Sammy, what’s up buddy!” you slur. “Dean’s with the bartender, won’t come back. Want a drink?” You say giggling.

“When did he leave?” Sam asks.

“I…wait… 3 hours ago I think. Why?”

“Then why are you still half-naked, you could’ve got dressed when Dean and you were finished.” Sam grunts.

“What? Dean and I… no…dumbass…I was in the shower and…” you look down at you and realize you’re still in your underwear.

“Shit, Sam. Why didn’t you tell me I’m still in my underwear?”

“Not my job.” Sam says dryly.

“Well, I wanted to get dressed after the shower and I kinda got distracted thinking about…”

“About what?” Sam asks standing in front of you.

“Well…forget it…nothing important.” You slur.

“Is that so?” He asks.

You nod and grab your flannel from the chair to get dressed.

“Gonna have a shower.” Sam says leaving the room.

‘Did he think I had sex with Dean?’ you wonder.

‘Going to proof Dean she’s not his innocent little girl.’ Sam thinks to himself.

The conversation with Sam sobered you up a bit, you decide to crawl into Dean’s bed to fake you’re already asleep; you don’t need another fight with Sam. You strip of your flannel and cover yourself with the blanket.

When you drift into sleep you can feel the bed dip. ‘WTF?’

“Ahem, Sam that’s Dean’s bed, remember? He said I can have it, as he stays at the bartender’s apartment. Or do you want that one? Then I can sleep in the other bed?” you ask, nervously.

“I prefer sleeping in this bed.” He whispers, suddenly closer to you.

“Oh, okay, then I sleep in the other bed.” You pipe.

“No, you stay here and I don’t intend to sleep.” Sam says spooning you from behind moving his hand over your leg.

“Sam! What are you doing?” you ask.

“Well, I told you I do not intend to sleep.” He answers moving his hand into your panties.

“Wait, what?” you stammer. “Sam…” you moan when he moves his long fingers over your clit and then through your folds.

“Already wet?” He whispers in your ear.

“I…Sam…”

“Is this for me or for someone else…maybe Dean?” He growls now.

“No, I…not for Dean, we don’t…I don’t…” you whisper.

“Good, all for me then, dirty girl.” He says slowly moving his fingers over your entrance, circling over your clit and back to your entrance.

“Sam.” You scream bucking your hips.

Sam removes his hand from you panties and opens your bra. “Lie on your back.” He orders.

“Sam, I…I mean...” you stammer, but you obey. When you’re on your back he slowly pushes your panties down, then he spreads your legs open, moving between them and starts licking. “Oh, God, Sam.”

He smiles against your pussy, licking through your folds while bumping his nose against your clit. You can feel he’s sliding his fingers through your folds, circling over your entrance, you know what he wants to do.

“Sam, don’t I’m still…” But its too late, he already thrusts one finger into your tight entrance, curling around, searching for your sweet spot.

‘Fuck, so tight?’ Sam thinks to himself, ‘I never thought the little slut would be so tight.’

“Sam.” You moan and he adds a second finger, thrusting them in and out your wet entrance, rubbing his thumb harshly over your clit. When he rubs over your sweet spot again you come screaming his name.

‘Good, now let’s finish the plan.’ Sam thinks to himself. He hovers over your body kissing the sensitive spot behind your ear, palming your breast with his large hands. Your arch your back, pressing your breast into his hands.

“I’ll be right back, need a condom.” He whispers. You panic, he doesn’t know you’ve never been with a man before, but you want him for so long, so you remain silent.

Sam texts Dean: “Hey, need your help can you meet me at the motel room in 20 minutes?”

“Sure, be there in 20 minutes.” Dean answers.

Sam smiles to himself and makes his way back to you, the condom long forgotten.

He’s hovering back over you and you’re suddenly nervous but you let your legs fall open for him, then you can feel him pushing into you, slowly but he’s huge and you never had a cock inside your pussy before, so he’s stretching you wide. He pulls out only leaving the head of his cock inside and pushes all the way back in until he’s fully seated, he waits for you to adjust to his size.

“Sam, oh, God, you’re so big.”

He grins and sucks one of your nipples into his hot mouth.

“Sam, you need, don’t know, do something, please.” You beg.

‘Do something?’ he wonders, but he shakes the thought away and starts thrusting in an even and slow pace.

“Sam, oh, God, I…it feels…oh…” you moan.

He nods and moves your legs around his waist, allowing him to push deeper inside of your wet cunt. “Sam.” you cry out. “There, it felt so good, I…don’t know that’s the spot?” you scream.

Sam starts to thrust harder and faster, he knows Dean will be back soon, but he wants to come, you feel too good, he’s surprised by your tightness. “Sam, please.” You plea.

Sam moves one hand between your bodies and starts rubbing your clit, he changes the angles to hit the sweet spot again and again. You reach your high screaming Sam’s name when the motel room door opens. But you don’t recognize it as Sam keeps on thrusting even harder riding you through your climax chasing his own release.

Dean’s eyes widen at the scene in front of him, he knows you like Sam, no love him, but Sam, he never showed any interest in you.

Sam’s huge cock and the harsh rubbing of your clit makes you come hard again; feeling your walls tighten around his member sends Sam over the edge too. “Dirty girl, never thought a little slut like you would be so tight.” He grunts, spilling his come into your cunt, shortly after he’s pulling out of you.

“Slut? I…I’m not a slut…I never… I’ve never been with a man before.” You say, tears streaming down your face.

“W…What?” Sam stammers. “Don’t lie, I just wanted to show Dean what a dirty slut you are.”

“YOU DID WHAT?” Dean yells.

Sam tries to get up from the bed and his jaw meets Dean’s fist; knocking the tall moose out. Dean moves to your side; you cover yourself with a blanket. “Kiddo, I’m so sorry. I never thought he would do such a thing, I should’ve never left you alone with him, I know how you feel about him.

You shake your head, sobbing. “I…should’ve left hours ago; it’s my fault, Dean. Can you bring him out, I need…shower…please…” you plea.

You scrub yourself, everywhere he touched you and everywhere he kissed you. You realize he never kissed your lips…’as he only wanted to show Dean I’m a whore’…You keep on scrubbing until your skin is sore and red, you need to wash him off, you need to wash the feeling off…the feeling of being used…

Part II

[vodkctonics]

[ im changkyun, cismale, he/him, 24 ] DESPERADO by RIHANNA? whenever i hear that song, it reminds me of JAEHYUK "JAE" KHANG. maybe because they’re DARING but also AGGRESSIVE. they’ve been living at mulberry apartments since OCTOBER of 2013 in APARTMENT 402 and have 2 ROOMMATES. ( LATE NITE by FOALS & SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW by GOYTE ft. KIMBRA )

it me, ya girl, cait, back at it again with another trash baby bc why not!! i tried to go a lil more indepth with his intro than i have my previous ones ( i’m sorry ya’ll had to deal with those garbage intros ok i really am ) along with giving ya’ll his basic stats and some basic connection ideas for him. ( also if you’re interested HERE is his pinterest board !! ) if ya’ll wanna plot with this trash bb, like this or hmu on discord ( 𝘫𝘰𝘰𝘩𝘦𝘰𝘯 𝘷𝘤 — 𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕠.#7518 ) or tumblr im if you don’t have discord !! anyways, onto the good shit !!

general information.

full name: jaehyuk khang. nickname(s): jae, hyuk, hyukkie, khang. date of birth: october 26st, 1994. age: twenty-four. nationality: korean. spoken languages: english, korean, chinese, japanese, french, spanish, german & russian. gender: cismale. pronouns: he / him / his. sexuality: bisexual. faceclaim: im changkyun ( i.m ) of monsta x.

background.

hometown: ulsan, south korea. current residence: baltimore, maryland. mulberry apartments, apt 402. financial status: middle to upper class. occupation: drug dealer / gang leader. education level: high school diploma. family connections: tba.

extra information.

myers briggs: entp-a. ( the debater. ) enneagram: eight. ( the challenger. ) temperament: choleric. moral aligment: neutral evil. hogwarts house: slytherin. sin: wrath. virtue: pride. zodiac: scorpio. element: fire.

biography.

born and raised in korea

parents were pretty strict and didn’t really allow him to do well.. anything.

however, they did buy him whatever he wanted and spoiled him in that way

and due to both of those things combined, he started to rebel at a really young age. ( i’m talking like 10 )

so he’d sneak out, graffiti people’s houses and break things and the likes.

pretty much got kicked out of his home for his actions at the age of 13.

slept on friends couches or in their basements and was pretty much on the street after that.

met some people a year later who saw potential in jae and basically paid for him to come to the states with him.

so without a word to his parents or friends, he moved to the states at 14.

those people were not really ‘good’ people, but they took jaehyuk under their wing and taught him how to fight, how to handle weapons and how to take care of himself.

n not long after that, he was ‘initiated’ into their gang as nothing but a runner

which he loved for a while, but he wanted more, he wanted to climb up the ladder.. so that’s what he did. by whatever means necessary. 

it took him a few years of busting his ass and doing whatever he was told to do, but that paid off by the leader appointing jae as his right hand.

it was more power than he’d ever had before, and he thrived off of it.

sadly, though, the leader and a few other men got involved in a drug deal gone bad and he lost them.

but on the other hand, that meant jae, who’d been the right-hand for a year or so, was now the leader. he had the most amount of power within that gang and he took full advantage of it.

personality.

hides behind a wall of sarcasm, cockiness, anger and lust.

doesn’t really care to get to know people and had a tendency to push people away before they get too close to him. because he really… doesn’t want to get hurt again & doesn’t want to put them @ risk.

wears glasses to read and mess w computers, but hates them a lot and probably won’t wear them if people are around.

wears tf out of jeans, v-necks, sweats, leather jackets and anything that makes him look like your typical fuckboi ?? it’s kinda his aesthetic.

is …. stubborn as hell and refuses to ask for help with anything.

his motorcyle and cars are literally his babies ??? like he ?? has a problem ??

a hotmess

loves halloween so much?? he gets so hype for that holiday it’s unreal.

fluent in a lot of languages, picked them up so that he didn’t need translators at meetings and the likes.

lowkey worried that people will figure out that he’s actually v hurt inside because that’ll cause him to start having to deal with his feelings again, and he doesn’t wanna do that.

is the biggest flirt you will ever meet?? like if he’s speaking 2 u… its usually flirty as hell unless it has 2 do w business or he’s just known u for centuries ?

will try to get everyone to go to bars n parties with him because that’s his life in a nutshell ??

hella nerd on the inside though like owns so many comic books, loves to play video games, read books, plays piano / violin & all that jazz.

super, super intelligent. could probably work @ nasa but instead he decided to do what he does & he honestly… ain’t complaining.

drinks..heavily..  like every night?? it’s a problem tbh.

he cares… god he cares so much about people and the world but he pretends to hate everything because it’s easier than letting people in.

full of horrible and cheesy pick up lines and jokes and frequently texts people said pick up lines and jokes.

owns a book that is full of nothing but blank pages and keeps it on his coffee table because he ‘relates’ to it.

is a highkey hoe but he keeps it on the dl

super into fitness as it’s a way to keep him away from drinking every evening. ( that doesn’t work lol )

loves boxing so much and can be seen at the gym quite a bit.. also has bruised knuckles 24/7 because of it as it’s a way to take out his aggression and feelings out on a punching bag?

speaking of... anger issues af.

actually super kind and caring once you’re able to see get past his wall?? which is really hard to do due to his job but if u do it he’ll cherish u.

has a bad habit of smoking whenever he’s stressed out, which is usually all of the time so he smokes…. more than he should

highkey into cuddling and all the cute shit like that but would literally never tell a soul because then they’d see that he isn’t such a hardass.

is a burnt cupcake who has really good intentions but has extremely horrible execution skills. ( and no i don’t mean the violent kind bc he’s actually v good @ that )

plot ideas.

bad influence. ( on your muse. ) 

best friends.

childhood friend.

competition. 

confidant. 

cousin. 

current hook up(s). 

drinking buddies.

drunken hook up. 

enemies that used to be friends. 

enemies. 

exes who ended on bad terms. 

flirtationship. 

frenemies. 

friendly competition. 

friends that used to be enemies. 

friends with benefits. 

good influence. ( on jaehyuk. )

hate sex. 

one night stand(s). ( past & present. ) 

partner in crime. 

party buddies.

past hook up(s). 

ride or die. 

social media friends.

trouble makers.

unlikely friends.

[souzoushin]

[Translation] IDOLiSH7: Rabbit Chat [Yuki - Bunny Hoodie]  Part 5

Title: "Happy Birthday” From Everyone

Participants: Momo, Tsumugi, Yuki

Source: Unlocked in game from Yuki’s limited birthday (2016) card, pictured here.

**Note: This will only be part 5, since I’m just aiming to complete the card. The previous four are available as translated by someone else; you can see @i7rabicha for a record of this (here).

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(Momo)

Yuki, happy birthday!! *ﾟﾛﾟ)*ﾟﾛﾟ)*ﾟﾛﾟ)ノ~★celebration★＼(ﾟﾛﾟ*(ﾟﾛﾟ*(ﾟﾛﾟ*

And, little miss manager, thank you for being such a wonderful guide! Trying to lead Yuki around is a real pain, no?

(Tsumugi)

Yuki-san, Happy Birthday!

Not at all...! We had everyone’s smooth lead-ins, so we somehow even got him to arrive early!

(Yuki)

Thank you both, really.

It was fun in a different way from the surprises I’ve helped with.

(Momo)

I felt like a mother watching her child set foot in the outside world for the first time! ww

(Yuki)

I managed to go outside on my own, so keep me company next time we’re free. ^^

(Momo)

It’s good to just do it once in a while! Didn’t it give you time to think about a lot of stuff? While walking along such nostalgic streets.

(Yuki)

It did. I kept remembering things, like how we’d buy meat buns at this convenience store and split them in half, or how we’d stay at that one cafe until it was closing time, working on songs.

(Momo)

Amazing, Yuki!! You remembered, I’m so happy.

(Yuki)

I always remember everything about you, Momo.

(Momo)

Now you’re lying! You totally didn’t remember the anniversary of the first time I took a bath together with you!!

(Yuki)

Isn’t that one a bit too difficult?

(Momo)

It’s not difficult!! You just lack enough love!!

(Yuki)

You’re such a harsh judge.

(Tsumugi)

It surely just means that’s how much Momo-san loves you, Yuki-san!

(Momo)

That’s right~! And it was super difficult trying to rent this place starting midnight, they only let us have it for the sake of old friendships!

(Yuki)

Just goes to show how talented you are, Momo.

Still, seeing everyone that came to greet me wear T-shirts with our faces printed on them was quite the bizarre experience.

(Momo)

We prepared them specifically for this day! They were all really excited to wear them!

(Yuki)

Even TRIGGER?

(Momo)

They were super into it. In fact, it’s the first time I saw TRIGGGER that into something. So much that I promised to treat them to lunch later on.

(Yuki)

I bet it went more like, “We’ll wear them for you, so you owe us lunch.”

(Momo)

That’s not true! That’s not how I wrote that scenario in my head! ww

(Yuki)

I have no idea what you’re talking about.

Still, TRIGGER put on a show for us yet again.

(Momo)

It was such a passionate session...! I want to play guitar with them again!

(Tsumugi)

By the way, Momo-san, I heard that you kindly taught Iori-san and Riku-san how to play accompaniments...!

(Momo)

Well, I only taught them one that used to be popular among girls back in the day, though! w

(Yuki)

That was its own brand of interesting too, just like the seiyuu concerts that Nagi-kun goes to watch in secret.

Also, having Yamato-kun pour me a drink yet again felt really satisfying. That begrudging expression on him just gets my heart racing.

(Momo)

The fact that you keep bullying him like this is why he doesn’t like you! w

(Yuki)

I just can’t stop myself from picking on him.

(Tsumugi)

Speaking of IDOLiSH7, and that aside, I’ve been entrusted with everyone’s birthday messages yet again! May I post them in here again, just like last time...?

(Momo)

Show us, show us! Everyone’s messages of love towards Yuki!

(Yuki)

I’m counting on you, little miss manager!

(Tsumugi)

Iori-san: “Yuki-san, I wish you a happy birthday. I heard that you and nii-san have made plans to become cooking buddies. I will continue to look up to you as a model senior when it comes to both personal and professional matters. We’ll be in your care.”

Yamato-san: “Happy Birthday, Yuki-san. It is true that we’ve been in your care and we owe you for a lot of things, so I chose to attend today. Please continue to get along with Momo-san.”

Mitsuki-san: “Yuki-san, Happy Birthday! I was worried that just veggies might not have enough protein, so I tried cooking with a lot of beans and seeds. I apologize if that was uncalled for! For next time, please tell me about your special vegetable menu!”

Tamaki-san: “Yukirin, hbd. You’ve taught me a lot of stuff. It’s always fun to spend time with you, Yukirin. I wanna say you don’t feel like a senior, but like not in a bad way. Let’s eat pudding together again.”

Sougo-san: “Yuki-san, I wish you a happy birthday. I’m glad to have been allowed to celebrate with you, so differently from how we did with Momo-san. It honored me to get to wear a printed T-shirt of the two of you and to be permitted at such a nostalgic location. I will treasure the memory for life. May you have a wonderful year.”

Nagi-san: “HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MR. YUKI! I look forward to seeing what forms of entertainment we can expect from you next. Also if you watch Cocona, you might become even happier.”

Riku-san: “Yuki-san, happy birthday to you!! I think it’s really great that your birthday is on Christmas Eve, because it feels like one amazing thing after another. I’m glad I got to celebrate your birthday, Yuki-san. I’ll work hard so that I can also become someone like you, who is able to convey such wonderful feelings to everyone!”

(Yuki)

This is nice.

It feels as if the whole world is revolving around me.

(Momo)

Yuki, did it make you emotional!?

(Yuki)

I wonder. Maybe it did.

(Momo)

Momo-chan can totally tell! You’re giving a really soft smile.

It’s the same face you made earlier when Okarin was singing on stage!

(Yuki)

I really didn’t expect Okarin to sing, so it felt moving to see.

(Tsumugi)

If it made you happy, then that’s all that matters...!

(Yuki)

Momo is one thing, but I never expected to receive this kind of celebration, myself.

(Momo)

What’re you talking about! Our juniors know all too well what a kind person you are, Yuki!

If they didn’t, they wouldn’t have gathered to have a party like this!

TRIGGER worked their hardest to celebrate too, and didn’t they send a message just earlier?

It says: “Looking at Re:vale, it’s easy to tell just how much you treasure each other, and that you mean the most in the world to each other. Please continue to be a model to us from now on as well, and to show us the greatest view as we walk in your footsteps.”

(Yuki)

So this time it wasn’t a declaration of war.

(Momo)

Well, they already did that last month after all!

(Yuki)

Then, should I take this chance to do an impression of Momo?

I’m so happy I could seriously burst. Oh, let these feelings of mine fly out into the entire world~

(Momo)

That’s no good--!! That lacked any flair, start all over!

(Yuki)

What’s flair.

(Tsumugi)

Yuki-san, could I have a little bit more of your time for something? Lol.

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>> 1. Was there anything you had particularly much fun with while celebrating?

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(Tsumugi)

Was there anything you had particularly much fun with while celebrating?

(Yuki)

When we kind of had a karaoke competition with everyone. Okarin was trying so hard while singing it was adorable. He never even goes to karaoke with us, so I felt moved.

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>> 2. Was there any part of the celebration that really surprised you?

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(Tsumugi)

Was there any part of the celebration that really surprised you?

(Yuki)

Maybe, how into it TRIGGER were. They were wearing sunglasses and those T-shirts. and even had a jam session with Momo. I think it’s best if TRIGGER fans never get to see that.

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>> 3. Was there any part of the celebration that you found difficult to handle?

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(Tsumugi)

Was there any part of the celebration that you found difficult to handle?

(Yuki)

Not me, but there was a part where Sougo-kun kind of had this passionate outburst, as if some hidden side of him went rampant, and Tamaki-kun was desperately trying to stop him. Does his personality change depending on the place he’s in too, just like it does when he’s drunk?

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(Momo)

Oh right, Yuki, did you get to see Ban-san!?

(Yuki)

No, I think I caught a glimpse of his ponytail from a distance at some point, but we didn’t get to meet face to face.

(Momo)

I wonder if he’s still being cautious...

(Yuki)

Isn’t that just Ban’s way of being thoughtful? We didn’t see him on your birthday either. So he can’t go showing his face just for mine now.

(Momo)

I see... Ban-san is so kind and considerate, I really like him...

(Yuki)

Momo, adultery is bad.

(Momo)

It’s not adultery!! Also, this feels like déjà vu wwwww

(Tsumugi)

Um... Actually, just like last month with Momo-san, I have been entrusted a message from Banri-san as well.

Of course, part of the reason he wasn’t able to meet you today was also how busy everything got, but... May I deliver the message...?

(Yuki)

I’m sure Ban must have known it would come to this, too. Would you be so kind, then?

(Momo)

Yes, let’s see the birthday message from our beloved Ban-san!

(Tsumugi)

Roger that!

“Happy birthday, Yuki. I never imagined I’d get to take part in both Momo-kun’s birthday and yours. This has honestly been a really great day for me. I listened to your new song, and rest assured that I’ll still be cheering you on from now on. Also, keep the rabbit chats to no more than one every three days.”

(Yuki)

Ban...

Isn’t this message way too cold compared to what Momo got?

(Momo)

Eeh!? Yuki, but can’t you feel the strong love overflowing from this message!?!?

(Yuki)

It has to be as direct as how you say it, Momo, or I can’t tell.

(Tsumugi)

(Momo)

You say that, but I saw you screencap it!! ww

(Yuki)

Well, because it’s one of Ban’s very rare affectionate moments.

(Momo)

Yuki, that’s a bit creepy wwww

(Yuki)

Momo, my mental stability isn’t infinite either, you know.

(Momo)

Sorry wwww

(Yuki)

After I’ve calmed down, I won’t forgive you unless you keep me company for an entire day.

(Momo)

That’s a really easy task, you know.

(Yuki)

Oh really, it’s that easy. Then, I’m sure you won’t mind writing me a passionate message right here either.

(Momo)

I already have one prepared, of course!!! I copied it from the memo and kept waiting for the right time to paste it!!!

(Yuki)

So your love for me is just copy paste level?

(Momo)

Don’t start stealing my lines, that stuff is what I usually say!! w

(Yuki)

I was joking.

(Momo)

I was, too. I don’t have any copy-paste, you know!

(Yuki)

I know.

(Tsumugi)

It’s a birthday message from Momo-san to Yuki-san, so I’m sure it will be full of love!

(Momo)

Little miss manager saying that just raised the bar even more, but I’ll do my best to live up!!

(Yuki)

Let me hear what you have to say, Momo.

(Momo)

Alright!

Um,,

Getting cornered like this sure makes me nervous.

Hey, Yuki.

Happy Birthday.

Even now, I’m still so unbelievably happy that I actually got to celebrate with you like this again.

Yuki, lately you’ve been doing your best to express a lot more of your feelings to me than just three simple words ever could, in a lot of ways. And you have no idea just how grateful I am, so much that I sometimes feel like my heart will burst from my chest.

Yuki.

I’m so glad and grateful that you exist.

Thank you for being by my side.

Thank you for letting me be your partner.

Please let me celebrate your birthday next year, too.

-- From Momo, who really loves you!

(Yuki)

I don't know what I'd do if you didn’t celebrate with me next year.

I’ll say it however many times it takes.

I swear we’ll still be together, even 100 years from now, or even 1000.

(Momo)

Yeah......

Wait, was it my birthday today...?? Why are we making me happy here......?

(Yuki)

No, you’re the one making me happy.

Because today is my birthday.

So please smile, Momo.

(Momo)

Okay...!

(Tsumugi)

I’ve witnessed yet again just how deep your bond runs... Also, your birthday has become quite the passionate topic on social media as well, Yuki-san!

(Momo)

She’s right! Here, Yuki, look how many birthday messages you got from the fans!

We really ought to post a reply from you for them. What should we write!!

(Yuki)

That’s true. Little miss manager, this thank-you message is addressed to you as well, so please let me type it.

Thank you for celebrating Momo’s birthday and mine again this year. I feel as if Momo and the fans are what gives meaning to my songs.

I would like you all to keep loving us, and only us, forever from now on.

And I’ll make sure that Momo’s and my Re:vale will keep charming you.

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Note: I do not own this card, so this translation was never intended to cover the rest of the parts, and it never will. I was just aiming to complete it because it was left unfinished before. The screencaps I used were kindly provided by KirakiraDenka on Twitter, and I received them via lli-luz-ill here on Tumblr. Thank you both!

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was growing up, there was once this track we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes youngster in a youngster carriage." and i’m like, "adequate, that’s it! That is how you do existence. That is the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, child carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence grew to become out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra elaborate, right? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, one other marriage, one other divorce; you received the image. (Laughter) (Applause) So if you’re excellent at math and/or a rapid reader, what you will have bought there is that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i’m a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one option to seem at it, however not the only way.For the reason that what I feel relatively happened is that I saved marrying the flawed character. No, it can be not that I failed to– it is no longer that I chose bad guys. My first two husbands have been mighty men who are actually married to distinguished ladies who are not me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, well, we’re buddies on facebook now. So, all is good that ends good, proper? After the collapse of my 1/3 marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying every person in sight, except the one character that I really wanted to marry in an effort to have a great relationship and that when I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the screw ups. The so-called failures, clearly.Seeing that we’re talking at present about ladies inventing, i’m going to speak about inventing relationships. What I’ve found via plenty of trial and undoubtedly, many, many, many mistakes, to be the item that has changed my life and love, and that is this inspiration of marrying yourself. So what does it imply to marry your self? It can be a big concept. It’s as large as marriage itself except, if I would simply summarize it, it might be that you simply enter into a relationship with yourself and then you put a hoop on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you decide to yourself fully. And then you build a relationship with yourself to the point the place you realise that you are whole correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can occur to you that’s going to make you more entire because you already are. And this alterations your life. By means of now, i’m sure at least some of you’re wondering why you will have to be being attentive to a three-time divorcee talk about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself.And that i realize that. This is what I must say about that: what I’ve discovered and my experience is that the areas where you could have the most important challenges on your lifestyles end up the places where you’ve essentially the most to give if you happen to do your inside work. I style of want to say that once more: the locations the place you’ve the most important challenges are the places where you might have essentially the most to present. So let me let you know slightly bit in regards to the individual I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was once three months ancient. My dad was a criminal; he used to be a drug vendor and a pimp with a heart of gold – actually, they both had hearts of gold – and he spent roughly my whole existence in prison.He simply got out of jail after his most contemporary sentence which used to be two decades. Unless the age of nine, I used to be mainly in two dozen foster homes. The thing you must know about this story – there are numerous small print, absolutely – but the factor you have to understand is that I got here out of that childhood with one intention: to under no circumstances be left. The way I was once going to do this is that I used to be going to get married. That used to be the best way I used to be going to accomplish that intention. So I bought married the primary time to a man I met when I used to be 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I used to be 19.He was a particularly just right man from a nice loved ones, he had an MBA. I mean, it was like, you know, marriage material. You understand, I was once thrilled. I was like, "i’ve a household. I belong somewhere. This is special." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I acquired married again to another exotic man, who is the daddy of my now sixteen-years-historic son.We still have a exclusive relationship. He’s a really excellent guy. However after 4 years I left him, too. And i’m not proud to claim that I did that, however with the intention to relatively marry your self, you ought to get in many instances very painfully honest with your self about what it’s that you have carried out. So i am no longer happy with that. Then eight years later, I got married once more, once I used to be 40, and i used to be like, "good enough, this feels right!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a girl who used to be in 24 foster houses: a guy who began to date after nine months of marriage; essentially, he began relationship a 21-12 months-old lady. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You have got to have a way of… For this reason we’re facebook friends. So, right here i am looking at this person that I simply described with a horrible track document of relationships, and i’m like, "i am presupposed to marry her? That is the girl you want me to marry?" And the reply is sure. Since here is the deal: the item about marrying yourself isn’t just like cohabitating. You’re no longer just going so far for a at the same time and notice the way it turns out.You will do this till dying do you part. You are going to take vows. So here are the vows. Number 1: you will marry your self for richer or for poorer. This implies you’re going to love yourself correct the place you’re. You don’t say to your self, "whilst you get to the corner of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you do not say, "when you lose ten kilos, then i’ll love you." And you do not say, "for those who hadn’t married that loser, I would really like you, but on account that you did, i am sorry, I suppose it is over." while you marry yourself, you walk yourself down that aisle precisely the place you might be. And paradoxically, I located that loving myself exactly the place i am is the one technique to get the place i am going. Number 2: you are going to marry yourself for higher or for worse. What this implies is that almost all of us are inclined to like ourselves for higher, I imply, sure, i’m having a first-class hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s now not what i’m speakme about. I am speaking about for worse, you recognize, the big existence disappointments.Might be you do not own a home, you failed to get the career you desired, probably you did not graduate from university, or get the connection you desired. Possibly it hasn’t became out– possibly you fight along with your mum, probably you watch too much reality television, whatever it’s, it isn’t important anymore. Because when you marry your self, you settle to stay with you it doesn’t matter what. 0.33, you marry your self in ailment and in health. What this means is that you simply forgive yourself in your mistakes. A mistake is not certainly a failure except you do not be trained from it and unless you don’t grow.There is a announcing, "You ask for endurance, and what you get is a line at the financial institution." (Laughter) What that implies is that lifestyles does no longer offer you what you have got requested for, it gives you the humans, areas, and situations that permit you to boost what you ask for. And the item is that if you don’t get it proper the first time, life will give it to you once more. (Laughter) on the grounds that existence could be very generous that manner. It’s like I didn’t get it the primary time, in the first marriage, and that i didn’t get it the 2nd time, maybe the third time i will get it.So within that terrible experience of that 1/3 marriage, I realized something about "in health problem and in well being". What I realized is how to take a seat by means of my possess bedside, and find out how to preserve my own hand, and easy methods to nurse myself, and methods to relief myself. What I realized is that i’m a person that i can count on. Final however no longer least, you marry yourself– when you marry your self, it can be to have and to maintain your self. What does it imply to have and to hold? Well, I suppose it means that you love yourself the way you want someone else to like you. I had always been going by way of lifestyles with this sense of lack. I felt like I was once kind of 1/2 a individual, and that I used to be lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete life: that I was once now not whole unless any individual loved me.The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to suppose entire until I realized to love myself. So this trade of marrying yourself transforms each discipline of your lifestyles: your business, family relationships, children, social relationships, pals. On the grounds that while you marry yourself, this gigantic factor happens: you become able to like on this whole new way. You become capable to love different persons proper the place they are, for who they’re, the same approach you’re already loving your self. And of course, this is what the sector needs more of. So when I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole thing I wanted, I began seeing it as my job to clearly just remove darkness from my little corner of the sector. That is my new job. Considering I do not want anything, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it is all about how can i aid this person reap her intention? When I’m in my social communities, it is like what am i able to deliver to this that handiest i will bring? Once I go on dates, it is like how can i simply detect another character might be for just one hour which, of path, brings me a full circle.On account that people continually requested me about my love lifestyles; they wish to be aware of. (Laughter) you know, the answer is, i am nonetheless working on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So this is where i’m proper now. About three months in the past, I went on a primary date. About 30 minutes into the date, I found myself paying attention not to whether or not he appreciated me, but how I felt in his presence. I spotted that I was once light, comfortable, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I acquired rather excited! Look, that is how committed i am to myself." i’m not even on this date trying to get any person to like me. I am more desirous about how I suppose about me than how he feels about me, no longer on the grounds that i am egocentric, but considering the only relationship i’m ever going to have with yet another individual is the one who i’m already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it became out he appreciated me, and we are nonetheless together. It’s cool and powerful, however i have been married 3 times, so sluggish down! (Laughter) the object is that i’m no longer trying to get protection from him through marriage, and, God forbid, a baby carriage. I’m handiest right here to only be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" for the reason that although these words are very powerful – and really robust to a man or woman like me – I are not looking for them to listen to it from him because i have already heard them from myself. The way in which I see it’s like I took myself to the highest of a mountain, or possibly to the bottom of the ocean, and that i got down on one knee, and that i stated, "i’m going to never depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I particularly desired to be with all along, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was growing up, there was once this track we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes youngster in a youngster carriage." and i’m like, "adequate, that’s it! That is how you do existence. That is the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, child carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence grew to become out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra elaborate, right? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, one other marriage, one other divorce; you received the image. (Laughter) (Applause) So if you’re excellent at math and/or a rapid reader, what you will have bought there is that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i’m a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one option to seem at it, however not the only way.For the reason that what I feel relatively happened is that I saved marrying the flawed character. No, it can be not that I failed to– it is no longer that I chose bad guys. My first two husbands have been mighty men who are actually married to distinguished ladies who are not me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, well, we’re buddies on facebook now. So, all is good that ends good, proper? After the collapse of my 1/3 marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying every person in sight, except the one character that I really wanted to marry in an effort to have a great relationship and that when I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the screw ups. The so-called failures, clearly.Seeing that we’re talking at present about ladies inventing, i’m going to speak about inventing relationships. What I’ve found via plenty of trial and undoubtedly, many, many, many mistakes, to be the item that has changed my life and love, and that is this inspiration of marrying yourself. So what does it imply to marry your self? It can be a big concept. It’s as large as marriage itself except, if I would simply summarize it, it might be that you simply enter into a relationship with yourself and then you put a hoop on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you decide to yourself fully. And then you build a relationship with yourself to the point the place you realise that you are whole correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can occur to you that’s going to make you more entire because you already are. And this alterations your life. By means of now, i’m sure at least some of you’re wondering why you will have to be being attentive to a three-time divorcee talk about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself.And that i realize that. This is what I must say about that: what I’ve discovered and my experience is that the areas where you could have the most important challenges on your lifestyles end up the places where you’ve essentially the most to give if you happen to do your inside work. I style of want to say that once more: the locations the place you’ve the most important challenges are the places where you might have essentially the most to present. So let me let you know slightly bit in regards to the individual I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was once three months ancient. My dad was a criminal; he used to be a drug vendor and a pimp with a heart of gold – actually, they both had hearts of gold – and he spent roughly my whole existence in prison.He simply got out of jail after his most contemporary sentence which used to be two decades. Unless the age of nine, I used to be mainly in two dozen foster homes. The thing you must know about this story – there are numerous small print, absolutely – but the factor you have to understand is that I got here out of that childhood with one intention: to under no circumstances be left. The way I was once going to do this is that I used to be going to get married. That used to be the best way I used to be going to accomplish that intention. So I bought married the primary time to a man I met when I used to be 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I used to be 19.He was a particularly just right man from a nice loved ones, he had an MBA. I mean, it was like, you know, marriage material. You understand, I was once thrilled. I was like, "i’ve a household. I belong somewhere. This is special." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I acquired married again to another exotic man, who is the daddy of my now sixteen-years-historic son.We still have a exclusive relationship. He’s a really excellent guy. However after 4 years I left him, too. And i’m not proud to claim that I did that, however with the intention to relatively marry your self, you ought to get in many instances very painfully honest with your self about what it’s that you have carried out. So i am no longer happy with that. Then eight years later, I got married once more, once I used to be 40, and i used to be like, "good enough, this feels right!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a girl who used to be in 24 foster houses: a guy who began to date after nine months of marriage; essentially, he began relationship a 21-12 months-old lady. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You have got to have a way of… For this reason we’re facebook friends. So, right here i am looking at this person that I simply described with a horrible track document of relationships, and i’m like, "i am presupposed to marry her? That is the girl you want me to marry?" And the reply is sure. Since here is the deal: the item about marrying yourself isn’t just like cohabitating. You’re no longer just going so far for a at the same time and notice the way it turns out.You will do this till dying do you part. You are going to take vows. So here are the vows. Number 1: you will marry your self for richer or for poorer. This implies you’re going to love yourself correct the place you’re. You don’t say to your self, "whilst you get to the corner of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you do not say, "when you lose ten kilos, then i’ll love you." And you do not say, "for those who hadn’t married that loser, I would really like you, but on account that you did, i am sorry, I suppose it is over." while you marry yourself, you walk yourself down that aisle precisely the place you might be. And paradoxically, I located that loving myself exactly the place i am is the one technique to get the place i am going. Number 2: you are going to marry yourself for higher or for worse. What this implies is that almost all of us are inclined to like ourselves for higher, I imply, sure, i’m having a first-class hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s now not what i’m speakme about. I am speaking about for worse, you recognize, the big existence disappointments.Might be you do not own a home, you failed to get the career you desired, probably you did not graduate from university, or get the connection you desired. Possibly it hasn’t became out– possibly you fight along with your mum, probably you watch too much reality television, whatever it’s, it isn’t important anymore. Because when you marry your self, you settle to stay with you it doesn’t matter what. 0.33, you marry your self in ailment and in health. What this means is that you simply forgive yourself in your mistakes. A mistake is not certainly a failure except you do not be trained from it and unless you don’t grow.There is a announcing, "You ask for endurance, and what you get is a line at the financial institution." (Laughter) What that implies is that lifestyles does no longer offer you what you have got requested for, it gives you the humans, areas, and situations that permit you to boost what you ask for. And the item is that if you don’t get it proper the first time, life will give it to you once more. (Laughter) on the grounds that existence could be very generous that manner. It’s like I didn’t get it the primary time, in the first marriage, and that i didn’t get it the 2nd time, maybe the third time i will get it.So within that terrible experience of that 1/3 marriage, I realized something about "in health problem and in well being". What I realized is how to take a seat by means of my possess bedside, and find out how to preserve my own hand, and easy methods to nurse myself, and methods to relief myself. What I realized is that i’m a person that i can count on. Final however no longer least, you marry yourself– when you marry your self, it can be to have and to maintain your self. What does it imply to have and to hold? Well, I suppose it means that you love yourself the way you want someone else to like you. I had always been going by way of lifestyles with this sense of lack. I felt like I was once kind of 1/2 a individual, and that I used to be lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete life: that I was once now not whole unless any individual loved me.The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to suppose entire until I realized to love myself. So this trade of marrying yourself transforms each discipline of your lifestyles: your business, family relationships, children, social relationships, pals. On the grounds that while you marry yourself, this gigantic factor happens: you become able to like on this whole new way. You become capable to love different persons proper the place they are, for who they’re, the same approach you’re already loving your self. And of course, this is what the sector needs more of. So when I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole thing I wanted, I began seeing it as my job to clearly just remove darkness from my little corner of the sector. That is my new job. Considering I do not want anything, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it is all about how can i aid this person reap her intention? When I’m in my social communities, it is like what am i able to deliver to this that handiest i will bring? Once I go on dates, it is like how can i simply detect another character might be for just one hour which, of path, brings me a full circle.On account that people continually requested me about my love lifestyles; they wish to be aware of. (Laughter) you know, the answer is, i am nonetheless working on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So this is where i’m proper now. About three months in the past, I went on a primary date. About 30 minutes into the date, I found myself paying attention not to whether or not he appreciated me, but how I felt in his presence. I spotted that I was once light, comfortable, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I acquired rather excited! Look, that is how committed i am to myself." i’m not even on this date trying to get any person to like me. I am more desirous about how I suppose about me than how he feels about me, no longer on the grounds that i am egocentric, but considering the only relationship i’m ever going to have with yet another individual is the one who i’m already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it became out he appreciated me, and we are nonetheless together. It’s cool and powerful, however i have been married 3 times, so sluggish down! (Laughter) the object is that i’m no longer trying to get protection from him through marriage, and, God forbid, a baby carriage. I’m handiest right here to only be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" for the reason that although these words are very powerful – and really robust to a man or woman like me – I are not looking for them to listen to it from him because i have already heard them from myself. The way in which I see it’s like I took myself to the highest of a mountain, or possibly to the bottom of the ocean, and that i got down on one knee, and that i stated, "i’m going to never depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I particularly desired to be with all along, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was once developing up, there used to be this tune we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes child in a child carriage." and i am like, "good enough, that’s it! That’s how you do existence. That’s the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, youngster carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence became out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra problematic, proper? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, an extra marriage, another divorce; you acquired the photo.(Laughter) (Applause) So if you are just right at math and/or a fast reader, what you’ve gotten obtained there’s that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i am a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one strategy to look at it, but now not the only means. Considering that what I feel rather occurred is that I saved marrying the incorrect character. No, it’s now not that I failed to– it is no longer that I selected dangerous guys. My first two husbands were potent guys who at the moment are married to unique women who don’t seem to be me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, good, we’re acquaintances on facebook now. So, all is well that ends well, correct? After the fall down of my third marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying everyone in sight, besides the one man or woman that I relatively wanted to marry in an effort to have a first-class relationship and that after I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the failures. The so-referred to as disasters, absolutely. Seeing that we’re talking today about ladies inventing, i will talk about inventing relationships.What I’ve discovered by way of plenty of trial and most likely, many, many, many mistakes, to be the thing that has transformed my existence and love, and that’s this thought of marrying your self. So what does it imply to marry your self? It is a tremendous inspiration. It’s as huge as marriage itself except, if I might simply summarize it, it could be that you simply enter right into a relationship with yourself and then you definately put a ring on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you commit to your self utterly. And then you definately construct a relationship with your self to the factor where you understand that you are entire correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can happen to you that’s going to make you extra whole because you already are.And this changes your lifestyles. With the aid of now, i’m definite at least some of you’re questioning why you will have to be paying attention to a 3-time divorcee speak about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself. And i comprehend that. This is what I have got to say about that: what I’ve discovered and my expertise is that the areas where you’ve gotten the biggest challenges on your life come to be the areas where you’ve got essentially the most to provide in case you do your inner work.I sort of wish to say that once more: the areas where you might have the biggest challenges are the locations the place you may have essentially the most to present. So let me inform you a bit of bit in regards to the character I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was once a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was three months old. My dad was once a criminal; he was once a drug vendor and a pimp with a coronary heart of gold – surely, they each had hearts of gold – and he spent more or less my whole existence in jail. He just got out of prison after his most contemporary sentence which was once two decades. Until the age of 9, I was normally in two dozen foster houses. The object you have to know about this story – there are a number of details, certainly – but the thing you have to understand is that I came out of that childhood with one goal: to on no account be left. The way in which I was once going to try this is that I was once going to get married.That used to be the way I was going to accomplish that goal. So I acquired married the first time to a guy I met once I was 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I was 19. He was a quite excellent guy from a exceptional loved ones, he had an MBA. I imply, it was like, you understand, marriage fabric. You recognize, I was overjoyed. I was like, "i have a family. I belong somewhere. That is extraordinary." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I bought married again to another exclusive guy, who’s the father of my now 16-years-old son. We nonetheless have a amazing relationship. He is a particularly excellent man. But after 4 years I left him, too. And i am not proud to assert that I did that, but in order to really marry your self, you have to get in many instances very painfully sincere with your self about what it is that you have executed.So i’m now not proud of that. Then eight years later, I received married again, when I was once forty, and i used to be like, "adequate, this feels proper!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a lady who was in 24 foster properties: a man who started to date after 9 months of marriage; nearly, he began courting a 21-yr-historical woman. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You must have a way of… Because of this we’re facebook buddies. So, here i am looking at this man or woman that I just described with a terrible monitor record of relationships, and i am like, "i am purported to marry her? That is the woman you need me to marry?" And the answer is yes. When you consider that here is the deal: the item about marrying your self is not only like cohabitating. You’re no longer simply going to this point for a even as and see the way it seems. You’re going to do this until loss of life do you part.You’ll take vows. So listed here are the vows. Quantity 1: you are going to marry yourself for richer or for poorer. This means you’ll love yourself correct the place you might be. You do not say to your self, "whilst you get to the nook of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you don’t say, "whilst you lose ten kilos, then i will love you." And you don’t say, "in the event you hadn’t married that loser, I would like you, however due to the fact that you probably did, i am sorry, I suppose it can be over." when you marry yourself, you walk your self down that aisle precisely where you’re. And satirically, I found that loving myself precisely where i’m is the only approach to get where i am going. Number 2: you’re going to marry yourself for better or for worse. What this means is that the majority of us are willing to love ourselves for higher, I mean, certain, i am having a quality hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s not what i am speaking about. I’m speakme about for worse, you already know, the big existence disappointments. Perhaps you do not possess a residence, you failed to get the career you desired, maybe you failed to graduate from school, or get the relationship you wanted.Might be it hasn’t turned out– perhaps you fight together with your mum, probably you watch an excessive amount of fact tv, whatever it’s, it doesn’t matter anymore. Since whilst you marry your self, you settle to stick with you it doesn’t matter what. 1/3, you marry your self in sickness and in well being. What this implies is that you forgive your self on your mistakes. A mistake isn’t surely a failure until you do not learn from it and unless you don’t grow. There’s a announcing, "You ask for persistence, and what you get is a line on the financial institution." (Laughter) What that means is that life does not offer you what you might have asked for, it offers you the individuals, areas, and circumstances that allow you to enhance what you ask for. And the object is that if you aren’t getting it correct the first time, existence will supply it to you once more. (Laughter) considering life may be very beneficiant that approach. It is like I did not get it the first time, in the first marriage, and i did not get it the second time, probably the third time i’m going to get it.So inside that horrible expertise of that third marriage, I discovered whatever about "in health problem and in wellbeing". What I discovered is how to sit via my own bedside, and easy methods to keep my own hand, and learn how to nurse myself, and the right way to remedy myself. What I discovered is that i’m a person that i will count on. Final however not least, you marry your self– while you marry yourself, it’s to have and to maintain your self. What does it mean to have and to maintain? Well, I suppose it implies that you like your self the best way you wish to have any one else to like you. I had at all times been going by way of life with this sense of lack. I felt like I used to be kind of half of a person, and that I was lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete lifestyles: that I was no longer entire unless any person cherished me. The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to feel whole unless I realized to like myself.So this business of marrying your self transforms every discipline of your life: your business, family relationships, kids, social relationships, pals. Due to the fact whilst you marry your self, this tremendous factor occurs: you become competent to like on this whole new method. You end up ready to love other individuals correct the place they are, for who they are, the identical approach you’re already loving yourself. And of course, that is what the arena desires more of. So once I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole lot I needed, I began seeing it as my job to clearly simply illuminate my little corner of the world. That is my new job. When you consider that I don’t want something, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it can be all about how am i able to help this person gain her purpose? After I’m in my social communities, it is like what can i deliver to this that only i can convey? After I go on dates, it’s like how can i simply realize another man or woman probably for only one hour which, of direction, brings me a full circle. Seeing that persons perpetually asked me about my love existence; they need to comprehend.(Laughter) you recognize, the answer is, i am nonetheless engaged on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So that is where i am right now. About three months ago, I went on a first date. About 30 minutes into the date, I determined myself paying concentration to not whether or not he appreciated me, however how I felt in his presence. I noticed that I used to be gentle, glad, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I received really excited! Seem, that is how dedicated i’m to myself." i am not even on this date seeking to get any individual to love me. I’m extra concerned with how I consider about me than how he feels about me, no longer on account that i’m selfish, but considering that the one relationship i’m ever going to have with a further character is the one who i am already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it turned out he favored me, and we’re nonetheless collectively. It can be cool and effective, however i have been married three times, so slow down! (Laughter) the thing is that i’m now not looking to get protection from him by means of marriage, and, God forbid, a child carriage. I’m handiest here to just be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" on account that despite the fact that those phrases are very robust – and really strong to a man or woman like me – I don’t want them to hear it from him considering the fact that i have already heard them from myself. The way I see it is like I took myself to the top of a mountain, or possibly to the backside of the ocean, and i acquired down on one knee, and that i mentioned, "i’ll under no circumstances depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I fairly desired to be with all alongside, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was once developing up, there used to be this tune we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes child in a child carriage." and i am like, "good enough, that’s it! That’s how you do existence. That’s the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, youngster carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence became out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra problematic, proper? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, an extra marriage, another divorce; you acquired the photo.(Laughter) (Applause) So if you are just right at math and/or a fast reader, what you’ve gotten obtained there’s that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i am a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one strategy to look at it, but now not the only means. Considering that what I feel rather occurred is that I saved marrying the incorrect character. No, it’s now not that I failed to– it is no longer that I selected dangerous guys. My first two husbands were potent guys who at the moment are married to unique women who don’t seem to be me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, good, we’re acquaintances on facebook now. So, all is well that ends well, correct? After the fall down of my third marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying everyone in sight, besides the one man or woman that I relatively wanted to marry in an effort to have a first-class relationship and that after I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the failures. The so-referred to as disasters, absolutely. Seeing that we’re talking today about ladies inventing, i will talk about inventing relationships.What I’ve discovered by way of plenty of trial and most likely, many, many, many mistakes, to be the thing that has transformed my existence and love, and that’s this thought of marrying your self. So what does it imply to marry your self? It is a tremendous inspiration. It’s as huge as marriage itself except, if I might simply summarize it, it could be that you simply enter right into a relationship with yourself and then you definately put a ring on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you commit to your self utterly. And then you definately construct a relationship with your self to the factor where you understand that you are entire correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can happen to you that’s going to make you extra whole because you already are.And this changes your lifestyles. With the aid of now, i’m definite at least some of you’re questioning why you will have to be paying attention to a 3-time divorcee speak about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself. And i comprehend that. This is what I have got to say about that: what I’ve discovered and my expertise is that the areas where you’ve gotten the biggest challenges on your life come to be the areas where you’ve got essentially the most to provide in case you do your inner work.I sort of wish to say that once more: the areas where you might have the biggest challenges are the locations the place you may have essentially the most to present. So let me inform you a bit of bit in regards to the character I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was once a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was three months old. My dad was once a criminal; he was once a drug vendor and a pimp with a coronary heart of gold – surely, they each had hearts of gold – and he spent more or less my whole existence in jail. He just got out of prison after his most contemporary sentence which was once two decades. Until the age of 9, I was normally in two dozen foster houses. The object you have to know about this story – there are a number of details, certainly – but the thing you have to understand is that I came out of that childhood with one goal: to on no account be left. The way in which I was once going to try this is that I was once going to get married.That used to be the way I was going to accomplish that goal. So I acquired married the first time to a guy I met once I was 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I was 19. He was a quite excellent guy from a exceptional loved ones, he had an MBA. I imply, it was like, you understand, marriage fabric. You recognize, I was overjoyed. I was like, "i have a family. I belong somewhere. That is extraordinary." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I bought married again to another exclusive guy, who’s the father of my now 16-years-old son. We nonetheless have a amazing relationship. He is a particularly excellent man. But after 4 years I left him, too. And i am not proud to assert that I did that, but in order to really marry your self, you have to get in many instances very painfully sincere with your self about what it is that you have executed.So i’m now not proud of that. Then eight years later, I received married again, when I was once forty, and i used to be like, "adequate, this feels proper!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a lady who was in 24 foster properties: a man who started to date after 9 months of marriage; nearly, he began courting a 21-yr-historical woman. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You must have a way of… Because of this we’re facebook buddies. So, here i am looking at this man or woman that I just described with a terrible monitor record of relationships, and i am like, "i am purported to marry her? That is the woman you need me to marry?" And the answer is yes. When you consider that here is the deal: the item about marrying your self is not only like cohabitating. You’re no longer simply going to this point for a even as and see the way it seems. You’re going to do this until loss of life do you part.You’ll take vows. So listed here are the vows. Quantity 1: you are going to marry yourself for richer or for poorer. This means you’ll love yourself correct the place you might be. You do not say to your self, "whilst you get to the nook of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you don’t say, "whilst you lose ten kilos, then i will love you." And you don’t say, "in the event you hadn’t married that loser, I would like you, however due to the fact that you probably did, i am sorry, I suppose it can be over." when you marry yourself, you walk your self down that aisle precisely where you’re. And satirically, I found that loving myself precisely where i’m is the only approach to get where i am going. Number 2: you’re going to marry yourself for better or for worse. What this means is that the majority of us are willing to love ourselves for higher, I mean, certain, i am having a quality hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s not what i am speaking about. I’m speakme about for worse, you already know, the big existence disappointments. Perhaps you do not possess a residence, you failed to get the career you desired, maybe you failed to graduate from school, or get the relationship you wanted.Might be it hasn’t turned out– perhaps you fight together with your mum, probably you watch an excessive amount of fact tv, whatever it’s, it doesn’t matter anymore. Since whilst you marry your self, you settle to stick with you it doesn’t matter what. 1/3, you marry your self in sickness and in well being. What this implies is that you forgive your self on your mistakes. A mistake isn’t surely a failure until you do not learn from it and unless you don’t grow. There’s a announcing, "You ask for persistence, and what you get is a line on the financial institution." (Laughter) What that means is that life does not offer you what you might have asked for, it offers you the individuals, areas, and circumstances that allow you to enhance what you ask for. And the object is that if you aren’t getting it correct the first time, existence will supply it to you once more. (Laughter) considering life may be very beneficiant that approach. It is like I did not get it the first time, in the first marriage, and i did not get it the second time, probably the third time i’m going to get it.So inside that horrible expertise of that third marriage, I discovered whatever about "in health problem and in wellbeing". What I discovered is how to sit via my own bedside, and easy methods to keep my own hand, and learn how to nurse myself, and the right way to remedy myself. What I discovered is that i’m a person that i will count on. Final however not least, you marry your self– while you marry yourself, it’s to have and to maintain your self. What does it mean to have and to maintain? Well, I suppose it implies that you like your self the best way you wish to have any one else to like you. I had at all times been going by way of life with this sense of lack. I felt like I used to be kind of half of a person, and that I was lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete lifestyles: that I was no longer entire unless any person cherished me. The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to feel whole unless I realized to like myself.So this business of marrying your self transforms every discipline of your life: your business, family relationships, kids, social relationships, pals. Due to the fact whilst you marry your self, this tremendous factor occurs: you become competent to like on this whole new method. You end up ready to love other individuals correct the place they are, for who they are, the identical approach you’re already loving yourself. And of course, that is what the arena desires more of. So once I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole lot I needed, I began seeing it as my job to clearly simply illuminate my little corner of the world. That is my new job. When you consider that I don’t want something, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it can be all about how am i able to help this person gain her purpose? After I’m in my social communities, it is like what can i deliver to this that only i can convey? After I go on dates, it’s like how can i simply realize another man or woman probably for only one hour which, of direction, brings me a full circle. Seeing that persons perpetually asked me about my love existence; they need to comprehend.(Laughter) you recognize, the answer is, i am nonetheless engaged on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So that is where i am right now. About three months ago, I went on a first date. About 30 minutes into the date, I determined myself paying concentration to not whether or not he appreciated me, however how I felt in his presence. I noticed that I used to be gentle, glad, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I received really excited! Seem, that is how dedicated i’m to myself." i am not even on this date seeking to get any individual to love me. I’m extra concerned with how I consider about me than how he feels about me, no longer on account that i’m selfish, but considering that the one relationship i’m ever going to have with a further character is the one who i am already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it turned out he favored me, and we’re nonetheless collectively. It can be cool and effective, however i have been married three times, so slow down! (Laughter) the thing is that i’m now not looking to get protection from him by means of marriage, and, God forbid, a child carriage. I’m handiest here to just be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" on account that despite the fact that those phrases are very robust – and really strong to a man or woman like me – I don’t want them to hear it from him considering the fact that i have already heard them from myself. The way I see it is like I took myself to the top of a mountain, or possibly to the backside of the ocean, and i acquired down on one knee, and that i mentioned, "i’ll under no circumstances depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I fairly desired to be with all alongside, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was once developing up, there used to be this tune we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes child in a child carriage." and i am like, "good enough, that’s it! That’s how you do existence. That’s the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, youngster carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence became out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra problematic, proper? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, an extra marriage, another divorce; you acquired the photo.(Laughter) (Applause) So if you are just right at math and/or a fast reader, what you’ve gotten obtained there’s that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i am a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one strategy to look at it, but now not the only means. Considering that what I feel rather occurred is that I saved marrying the incorrect character. No, it’s now not that I failed to– it is no longer that I selected dangerous guys. My first two husbands were potent guys who at the moment are married to unique women who don’t seem to be me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, good, we’re acquaintances on facebook now. So, all is well that ends well, correct? After the fall down of my third marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying everyone in sight, besides the one man or woman that I relatively wanted to marry in an effort to have a first-class relationship and that after I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the failures. The so-referred to as disasters, absolutely. Seeing that we’re talking today about ladies inventing, i will talk about inventing relationships.What I’ve discovered by way of plenty of trial and most likely, many, many, many mistakes, to be the thing that has transformed my existence and love, and that’s this thought of marrying your self. So what does it imply to marry your self? It is a tremendous inspiration. It’s as huge as marriage itself except, if I might simply summarize it, it could be that you simply enter right into a relationship with yourself and then you definately put a ring on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you commit to your self utterly. And then you definately construct a relationship with your self to the factor where you understand that you are entire correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can happen to you that’s going to make you extra whole because you already are.And this changes your lifestyles. With the aid of now, i’m definite at least some of you’re questioning why you will have to be paying attention to a 3-time divorcee speak about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself. And i comprehend that. This is what I have got to say about that: what I’ve discovered and my expertise is that the areas where you’ve gotten the biggest challenges on your life come to be the areas where you’ve got essentially the most to provide in case you do your inner work.I sort of wish to say that once more: the areas where you might have the biggest challenges are the locations the place you may have essentially the most to present. So let me inform you a bit of bit in regards to the character I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was once a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was three months old. My dad was once a criminal; he was once a drug vendor and a pimp with a coronary heart of gold – surely, they each had hearts of gold – and he spent more or less my whole existence in jail. He just got out of prison after his most contemporary sentence which was once two decades. Until the age of 9, I was normally in two dozen foster houses. The object you have to know about this story – there are a number of details, certainly – but the thing you have to understand is that I came out of that childhood with one goal: to on no account be left. The way in which I was once going to try this is that I was once going to get married.That used to be the way I was going to accomplish that goal. So I acquired married the first time to a guy I met once I was 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I was 19. He was a quite excellent guy from a exceptional loved ones, he had an MBA. I imply, it was like, you understand, marriage fabric. You recognize, I was overjoyed. I was like, "i have a family. I belong somewhere. That is extraordinary." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I bought married again to another exclusive guy, who’s the father of my now 16-years-old son. We nonetheless have a amazing relationship. He is a particularly excellent man. But after 4 years I left him, too. And i am not proud to assert that I did that, but in order to really marry your self, you have to get in many instances very painfully sincere with your self about what it is that you have executed.So i’m now not proud of that. Then eight years later, I received married again, when I was once forty, and i used to be like, "adequate, this feels proper!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a lady who was in 24 foster properties: a man who started to date after 9 months of marriage; nearly, he began courting a 21-yr-historical woman. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You must have a way of… Because of this we’re facebook buddies. So, here i am looking at this man or woman that I just described with a terrible monitor record of relationships, and i am like, "i am purported to marry her? That is the woman you need me to marry?" And the answer is yes. When you consider that here is the deal: the item about marrying your self is not only like cohabitating. You’re no longer simply going to this point for a even as and see the way it seems. You’re going to do this until loss of life do you part.You’ll take vows. So listed here are the vows. Quantity 1: you are going to marry yourself for richer or for poorer. This means you’ll love yourself correct the place you might be. You do not say to your self, "whilst you get to the nook of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you don’t say, "whilst you lose ten kilos, then i will love you." And you don’t say, "in the event you hadn’t married that loser, I would like you, however due to the fact that you probably did, i am sorry, I suppose it can be over." when you marry yourself, you walk your self down that aisle precisely where you’re. And satirically, I found that loving myself precisely where i’m is the only approach to get where i am going. Number 2: you’re going to marry yourself for better or for worse. What this means is that the majority of us are willing to love ourselves for higher, I mean, certain, i am having a quality hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s not what i am speaking about. I’m speakme about for worse, you already know, the big existence disappointments. Perhaps you do not possess a residence, you failed to get the career you desired, maybe you failed to graduate from school, or get the relationship you wanted.Might be it hasn’t turned out– perhaps you fight together with your mum, probably you watch an excessive amount of fact tv, whatever it’s, it doesn’t matter anymore. Since whilst you marry your self, you settle to stick with you it doesn’t matter what. 1/3, you marry your self in sickness and in well being. What this implies is that you forgive your self on your mistakes. A mistake isn’t surely a failure until you do not learn from it and unless you don’t grow. There’s a announcing, "You ask for persistence, and what you get is a line on the financial institution." (Laughter) What that means is that life does not offer you what you might have asked for, it offers you the individuals, areas, and circumstances that allow you to enhance what you ask for. And the object is that if you aren’t getting it correct the first time, existence will supply it to you once more. (Laughter) considering life may be very beneficiant that approach. It is like I did not get it the first time, in the first marriage, and i did not get it the second time, probably the third time i’m going to get it.So inside that horrible expertise of that third marriage, I discovered whatever about "in health problem and in wellbeing". What I discovered is how to sit via my own bedside, and easy methods to keep my own hand, and learn how to nurse myself, and the right way to remedy myself. What I discovered is that i’m a person that i will count on. Final however not least, you marry your self– while you marry yourself, it’s to have and to maintain your self. What does it mean to have and to maintain? Well, I suppose it implies that you like your self the best way you wish to have any one else to like you. I had at all times been going by way of life with this sense of lack. I felt like I used to be kind of half of a person, and that I was lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete lifestyles: that I was no longer entire unless any person cherished me. The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to feel whole unless I realized to like myself.So this business of marrying your self transforms every discipline of your life: your business, family relationships, kids, social relationships, pals. Due to the fact whilst you marry your self, this tremendous factor occurs: you become competent to like on this whole new method. You end up ready to love other individuals correct the place they are, for who they are, the identical approach you’re already loving yourself. And of course, that is what the arena desires more of. So once I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole lot I needed, I began seeing it as my job to clearly simply illuminate my little corner of the world. That is my new job. When you consider that I don’t want something, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it can be all about how am i able to help this person gain her purpose? After I’m in my social communities, it is like what can i deliver to this that only i can convey? After I go on dates, it’s like how can i simply realize another man or woman probably for only one hour which, of direction, brings me a full circle. Seeing that persons perpetually asked me about my love existence; they need to comprehend.(Laughter) you recognize, the answer is, i am nonetheless engaged on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So that is where i am right now. About three months ago, I went on a first date. About 30 minutes into the date, I determined myself paying concentration to not whether or not he appreciated me, however how I felt in his presence. I noticed that I used to be gentle, glad, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I received really excited! Seem, that is how dedicated i’m to myself." i am not even on this date seeking to get any individual to love me. I’m extra concerned with how I consider about me than how he feels about me, no longer on account that i’m selfish, but considering that the one relationship i’m ever going to have with a further character is the one who i am already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it turned out he favored me, and we’re nonetheless collectively. It can be cool and effective, however i have been married three times, so slow down! (Laughter) the thing is that i’m now not looking to get protection from him by means of marriage, and, God forbid, a child carriage. I’m handiest here to just be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" on account that despite the fact that those phrases are very robust – and really strong to a man or woman like me – I don’t want them to hear it from him considering the fact that i have already heard them from myself. The way I see it is like I took myself to the top of a mountain, or possibly to the backside of the ocean, and i acquired down on one knee, and that i mentioned, "i’ll under no circumstances depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I fairly desired to be with all alongside, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .

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Translator: Nadine Hennig Reviewer: Ilze Garda once I was once developing up, there used to be this tune we used to sing on the playground, and it went like this, "Tracy and so and so, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes child in a child carriage." and i am like, "good enough, that’s it! That’s how you do existence. That’s the way you do a relationship. Love, marriage, youngster carriage. Ok, acquired it! (Laughter) Then I grew up, and this is what my existence became out to be. (Laughter) somewhat extra problematic, proper? (Laughter) Love, marriage, divorce, dry spells, love, marriage, co-parenting, an extra marriage, another divorce; you acquired the photo.(Laughter) (Applause) So if you are just right at math and/or a fast reader, what you’ve gotten obtained there’s that i have been married 3 times. Yep, three, and divorced. What that’s supposed to intend is that i am a complete failure at relationships. And that’s one strategy to look at it, but now not the only means. Considering that what I feel rather occurred is that I saved marrying the incorrect character. No, it’s now not that I failed to– it is no longer that I selected dangerous guys. My first two husbands were potent guys who at the moment are married to unique women who don’t seem to be me. (Laughter) And my 1/3 husband, good, we’re acquaintances on facebook now. So, all is well that ends well, correct? After the fall down of my third marriage in 2005, i realized that i have been marrying everyone in sight, besides the one man or woman that I relatively wanted to marry in an effort to have a first-class relationship and that after I married that individual, all of my relationships can be successes, even the failures. The so-referred to as disasters, absolutely. Seeing that we’re talking today about ladies inventing, i will talk about inventing relationships.What I’ve discovered by way of plenty of trial and most likely, many, many, many mistakes, to be the thing that has transformed my existence and love, and that’s this thought of marrying your self. So what does it imply to marry your self? It is a tremendous inspiration. It’s as huge as marriage itself except, if I might simply summarize it, it could be that you simply enter right into a relationship with yourself and then you definately put a ring on it. (Laughter) In different phrases, you commit to your self utterly. And then you definately construct a relationship with your self to the factor where you understand that you are entire correct now, that there is not any man, girl, job, circumstance that can happen to you that’s going to make you extra whole because you already are.And this changes your lifestyles. With the aid of now, i’m definite at least some of you’re questioning why you will have to be paying attention to a 3-time divorcee speak about marriage? (Laughter) Even to herself. And i comprehend that. This is what I have got to say about that: what I’ve discovered and my expertise is that the areas where you’ve gotten the biggest challenges on your life come to be the areas where you’ve got essentially the most to provide in case you do your inner work.I sort of wish to say that once more: the areas where you might have the biggest challenges are the locations the place you may have essentially the most to present. So let me inform you a bit of bit in regards to the character I truly wanted to marry: myself. I’m from Minneapolis. Wooh! (Laughter) My mother was once a prostitute and an alcoholic. She put me in foster care when I was three months old. My dad was once a criminal; he was once a drug vendor and a pimp with a coronary heart of gold – surely, they each had hearts of gold – and he spent more or less my whole existence in jail. He just got out of prison after his most contemporary sentence which was once two decades. Until the age of 9, I was normally in two dozen foster houses. The object you have to know about this story – there are a number of details, certainly – but the thing you have to understand is that I came out of that childhood with one goal: to on no account be left. The way in which I was once going to try this is that I was once going to get married.That used to be the way I was going to accomplish that goal. So I acquired married the first time to a guy I met once I was 17. We got married a couple of years later, after I was 19. He was a quite excellent guy from a exceptional loved ones, he had an MBA. I imply, it was like, you understand, marriage fabric. You recognize, I was overjoyed. I was like, "i have a family. I belong somewhere. That is extraordinary." after which after five years I left him. Then ten years later, I bought married again to another exclusive guy, who’s the father of my now 16-years-old son. We nonetheless have a amazing relationship. He is a particularly excellent man. But after 4 years I left him, too. And i am not proud to assert that I did that, but in order to really marry your self, you have to get in many instances very painfully sincere with your self about what it is that you have executed.So i’m now not proud of that. Then eight years later, I received married again, when I was once forty, and i used to be like, "adequate, this feels proper!" Let me let you know what felt correct to a lady who was in 24 foster properties: a man who started to date after 9 months of marriage; nearly, he began courting a 21-yr-historical woman. Ok, I imply, it could be humorous, if it weren’t so tragic. You must have a way of… Because of this we’re facebook buddies. So, here i am looking at this man or woman that I just described with a terrible monitor record of relationships, and i am like, "i am purported to marry her? That is the woman you need me to marry?" And the answer is yes. When you consider that here is the deal: the item about marrying your self is not only like cohabitating. You’re no longer simply going to this point for a even as and see the way it seems. You’re going to do this until loss of life do you part.You’ll take vows. So listed here are the vows. Quantity 1: you are going to marry yourself for richer or for poorer. This means you’ll love yourself correct the place you might be. You do not say to your self, "whilst you get to the nook of Hollywood and Vine, then i will marry you." you don’t say, "whilst you lose ten kilos, then i will love you." And you don’t say, "in the event you hadn’t married that loser, I would like you, however due to the fact that you probably did, i am sorry, I suppose it can be over." when you marry yourself, you walk your self down that aisle precisely where you’re. And satirically, I found that loving myself precisely where i’m is the only approach to get where i am going. Number 2: you’re going to marry yourself for better or for worse. What this means is that the majority of us are willing to love ourselves for higher, I mean, certain, i am having a quality hair day today. I love me. (Laughter) that’s not what i am speaking about. I’m speakme about for worse, you already know, the big existence disappointments. Perhaps you do not possess a residence, you failed to get the career you desired, maybe you failed to graduate from school, or get the relationship you wanted.Might be it hasn’t turned out– perhaps you fight together with your mum, probably you watch an excessive amount of fact tv, whatever it’s, it doesn’t matter anymore. Since whilst you marry your self, you settle to stick with you it doesn’t matter what. 1/3, you marry your self in sickness and in well being. What this implies is that you forgive your self on your mistakes. A mistake isn’t surely a failure until you do not learn from it and unless you don’t grow. There’s a announcing, "You ask for persistence, and what you get is a line on the financial institution." (Laughter) What that means is that life does not offer you what you might have asked for, it offers you the individuals, areas, and circumstances that allow you to enhance what you ask for. And the object is that if you aren’t getting it correct the first time, existence will supply it to you once more. (Laughter) considering life may be very beneficiant that approach. It is like I did not get it the first time, in the first marriage, and i did not get it the second time, probably the third time i’m going to get it.So inside that horrible expertise of that third marriage, I discovered whatever about "in health problem and in wellbeing". What I discovered is how to sit via my own bedside, and easy methods to keep my own hand, and learn how to nurse myself, and the right way to remedy myself. What I discovered is that i’m a person that i will count on. Final however not least, you marry your self– while you marry yourself, it’s to have and to maintain your self. What does it mean to have and to maintain? Well, I suppose it implies that you like your self the best way you wish to have any one else to like you. I had at all times been going by way of life with this sense of lack. I felt like I used to be kind of half of a person, and that I was lacking something. I went into my relationships hoping to solve this feeling that I had my complete lifestyles: that I was no longer entire unless any person cherished me. The reality was that I wasn’t ever going to feel whole unless I realized to like myself.So this business of marrying your self transforms every discipline of your life: your business, family relationships, kids, social relationships, pals. Due to the fact whilst you marry your self, this tremendous factor occurs: you become competent to like on this whole new method. You end up ready to love other individuals correct the place they are, for who they are, the identical approach you’re already loving yourself. And of course, that is what the arena desires more of. So once I married myself, and i spotted that I already had the whole lot I needed, I began seeing it as my job to clearly simply illuminate my little corner of the world. That is my new job. When you consider that I don’t want something, I have already got it. So when I take conferences, it can be all about how am i able to help this person gain her purpose? After I’m in my social communities, it is like what can i deliver to this that only i can convey? After I go on dates, it’s like how can i simply realize another man or woman probably for only one hour which, of direction, brings me a full circle. Seeing that persons perpetually asked me about my love existence; they need to comprehend.(Laughter) you recognize, the answer is, i am nonetheless engaged on it. Don’t seem to be all of us? So that is where i am right now. About three months ago, I went on a first date. About 30 minutes into the date, I determined myself paying concentration to not whether or not he appreciated me, however how I felt in his presence. I noticed that I used to be gentle, glad, joking. As I mirrored on the date afterwards, I was like, "Wow, I received really excited! Seem, that is how dedicated i’m to myself." i am not even on this date seeking to get any individual to love me. I’m extra concerned with how I consider about me than how he feels about me, no longer on account that i’m selfish, but considering that the one relationship i’m ever going to have with a further character is the one who i am already having with myself – just going to have it with them now.So it turned out he favored me, and we’re nonetheless collectively. It can be cool and effective, however i have been married three times, so slow down! (Laughter) the thing is that i’m now not looking to get protection from him by means of marriage, and, God forbid, a child carriage. I’m handiest here to just be in a relationship. I’m not loss of life to listen to the phrases, "Will you marry me?" on account that despite the fact that those phrases are very robust – and really strong to a man or woman like me – I don’t want them to hear it from him considering the fact that i have already heard them from myself. The way I see it is like I took myself to the top of a mountain, or possibly to the backside of the ocean, and i acquired down on one knee, and that i mentioned, "i’ll under no circumstances depart you." And now i’m married to the one man or woman I fairly desired to be with all alongside, myself.(Applause) thank you. (Applause) .