#my sora loving brain is going brrrrrrrrrr

[saunteredserpent]

can we talk about the whole “keep smiling! the gummi ship runs on smiles and ONLY smiles! you shouldn’t feel sad!!” and how it is legitimately toxic positivity as something that has likely driven Sora into fuckign. keeping every negative emotion and/or thought bottled up to the point where he feels like he wouldn’t,,, be able,,, to properly express anything of the sort whatsoever around Donald or Goofy or else they’ll just. keep reminding him to keep smiling.

not to mention the whole protagonist syndrome. this boy has the weight of not one, but literally SEVERAL worlds on his shoulders and he’s been burdened with the responsibility of saving them ALL time and time again. 

as a whole, it’s... actually heartbreaking when you consider the fact that this boy carries so much baggage emotionally and mentally, and he can’t ever exactly express it in anything other than positive gestures ─ even when he might not really be feeling like such in actuality at that moment.

i mean, that scene where Sora lets out that agonized yell and drops onto all fours in the Keyblade Graveyard before crying? that’s one of the very few, if at all, instances we see him actually break down.

anti/rage form? his inner darkness? him constantly being willing to throw himself headfirst into the fray/being self-sacrificial time and time again? were you to put that attitude, that behavior, under a microscope and break it down into the finer aspects, it’s very clear that all of it is essentially him feeling like that might actually... be the only outlet he has with his negativity.

he’s not allowed to express it properly, and therefore feels like he has no choice but to keep everything bottled up inside? fuck it. he’ll throw hands, he’ll sacrifice himself for the greater good, if it means no one has to see him struggle to be able or allowed to convey anger/grief/sadness/frustration/you fucking name it.  

i just... have so many thoughts and feelings on Sora, and his personality and behavior as a whole, and how much i honestly love him, and it’s just past 3:30 am and if any of this even came across as somewhat coherent, i’ll be happy to have gotten my point across.

if anyone has anything to add to this, i’m honestly all ears; i’d love to hear others’ thoughts and input!