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two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat · 2 years ago

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Was anyone else just like...really weird about things that weren't yours ending up with your things?

Like...ok for example, in elementary school we would earn gold slips as a reward and we could use them to buy certain privileges for a week or a day or whatever

And I dont remember what grade but we had a "class pet" that was a stuffed rabbit and we could pay to bring it home with us for a week. And as a kid who really fucking loved stuffed animals (my bed was completely covered in them) I decided I would save up for that

Well I got it home and immediately hid it under my bed cuz It Did Not Belong. I wanted nothing to do with it. It lived under my bed the entire week so I would not have to look at it. The idea of having it touch any of my other stuffed animals gave me anxiety. And I was so fuckin relieved when it was time to take it back.

This never happened with new stuffed animals that I got at the store or as a gift. In fact new stuffed animals always got an honorary spot next to my pillow at night for at least a week after I got them. But if it was not MINE then it did not get to mix with my things.

I always gave people their pencils or pens back when I borrowed them cuz the idea of putting it in my pencil case made me nauseous. Even if they told me I could just keep it. Which made it really hard to understand how people could steal my pencils.

#actually autistic #also i realized yesterday why people losing things that theyre wearing/holding was so funny to me as a kid #cuz thst made no sense to me but it was the funniest fuckin thing #but its cuz of my sensory issues #i cant lose my sunglasses while theyre on my head #my brain doesnt block out the feeling of them on my head #i might forget WHAT is on my head #but i still know somethings there #im more likely to go ''hey wtf is on my head'' before i start thinking i lost my sunglasses #or like...masks....like i dont hate wearing them anymore but my brain still doesnt block out the feeling of wearing one #and they still lower my threshold for being able to deal with sensory stimulus #but i feel like some of the people who were wearing masks under their noses at the start just werent....aware that their mask had slipped #like their brains just started blocking out the feeling of wearing one and they couldnt feel that it had slipped past their noses #my brain just doesnt do that tho #like im over here just constantly readjusting my mask cuz i felt it slide down ever so slightly #or my mom always forgets to change out her slippers for her sandals when leaving the house but that just doesnt happen for me #my slippers and my sandals are made of very different material and one is significantly squishier than the other #if i leave the house with slippers its cuz i meant to #or in the case of that time i had to take my mom to the er i didnt have time to

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