#my heart is slowly breaking

[arkorbehh]

tina and spares :D!

[futfemfantasies]

Of course Viv had to level it 🥲

[murderluv23]

I have finished episodes 7 and 8 of Hazbin Hotel. Fucks. Obviously.

First thing I will address without exception is Lucifer roasting Adam's game to his face. Yes, King!!! Oh my fucking god! Get him! Physically and mentally! I hollered over the dialogue and had to play it back. Note my volume was at twenty. I've been thinking that exact thing from the start and to have Lucifer vocalize it during battle is legendary.

Bless Jeremy Jordan's delivery as well. Sold it. Phenomenal casting. Wouldn't have anyone else playing Lucifer.

Look at our badass apple pie protecting his girl. Fuck. It. UP!!

Also- his demon form...Vivzie, we need to talk. We need to talk.

[beescake]

Sorry for the spam (^o^;) I just really like your blog

no need to apologize ayy!

in this corner we welcome all forms of enjoyment, regardless of whether you're a

happy to have yall here w me,

headin into homestuck 2024 :^)

[selfshippinglover]

Mr. Puzzles Screenshots: Mario Loses his Mustache 6

[lotus-pear]

just finished shido’s palace in persona 5…………..devastated beyond repair

[izuizzy]

I’m always drawing him in pain so have an AU where he’s actually good and his smile is actually PRECIOUS

[magicicephoenix]

another one of these short writing things :P

— — — — —

Sun stares, frozen with his hands gripping his upper arms. His casing creaks at a sudden pressure, and it takes him a moment to realize it’s from his own fingers digging into the plastic. Alerts overtake his vision, but all he can focus on are the two words that just hit the air.

Sun tilts his faceplate to the side with a clipped click. “S-sorry, friend,” he says, forcing a cheery tone through the static crowding his voice box. “I must have misheard you! Surely you didn’t just say that—“ His voice wavers, and he cuts himself off before it can break entirely.

The tech just looks at him, one brow raised like this isn’t completely inane, uncaringly slouched with one hand on their hip. “I said he’s fixed,” they repeat, oblivious as the yawning pit inside of his chassis grows wider and deeper and darker. “The moon’s fixed.”

The alerts increase to emergency status as his joints inch closer to crushing his casing. That can’t be right. The other, fixed? Just like that? After weeks of terrified uncertainty, months of ever-consuming fear, forever and ever of panic and anxiety and worry, and it’s just… fixed? That can’t be right. After all the stress, all the keep the lights on, the no breaks all day, the humming generators, the he’s sick right now, the troublemakers and their bans, the don’t touch the lights, the barbed stares, the clean up clean up, the gaping silence, the lights on on on and the overexcited screams and the full plate and you can handle it and lack of attention and stay happy stay bright and unused naptime corner and too much it’s too much he can’t keep doing this he’s cracking under the pressure the fear pain desperation sadness frustration depression horror anger hate frazzled overwhelmed overwhelmed overwhelmed—!

And now it’s just… fixed. Just like that. No, no, that can’t be right, it can’t, it can’t, it can’t. No, it can’t be fixed. Not so easily, so simply, so quickly, so effortlessly! That can’t be it. B-because if it is real, if it’s fixed, if it’s over, if it’s gone, just. Like. THAT…

…then what was the point of any of it at all?

…w-what has he been fighting for this whole time…?

Snap.

[solargeist]

What finally pushes Grian to leave the watchers? Does he ever reconnect with his adopted mom?

Resentment builds over time.

This isn’t what he wanted. The loss of autonomy, the social and emotional regression. He knows he’s not on equal footing, he knows most of them see him as a pet, they just want to see him perform. He feels lied to, used.

He’s on slightly positive/neutral feelings with his Watcher, but even then he gets overwhelmed, even then he can’t be confident what her true feelings or intentions are.

Turning into a Watcher is also scary. It hurts, he thought he was honestly going to die when his wings grew out. So when his hands occasionally cramp, he’s scared! He looks and takes note of other Watcher’s anatomy, how tall they are, the eyes, the feathers, talons, he just sees torture, and for what? What did he honestly expect from this?

Grian joined the Watchers because he wanted more from his life, the updates were just too promising…. He wanted to build better, bigger, the desire to know more, it’s a selfish reason and he doesn’t know how he’ll ever look his friends in the eyes again. If he does.

The isolation is also maddening, he doesn’t have anyone but the watchers, he can’t go anywhere without one, he can’t talk to anyone, no one actually acknowledges him.

I don’t even know what the final straw could be, you can only stay frustrated for so long, so sick to your stomach for so long. A particularly bad migraine can be enough of a reminder that eyes are going to grow out of his face if he stays.

It ends with tnt and a complete meltdown.

He knows how to fly, he knows how to open portals, he bought his time. If he sees her before he leaves, they say nothing, the eyes say enough for both of them.

Right now I don’t see him ever reconnecting with Her. But he does think about her, when he tells Mumbo about everything he almost refers to her as his mom, he knows that’s what their dynamic was, that’s what she saw, but he doesn’t want to say it out loud.

[disaster-bay-leaf]

affection

[the-words-we-sung]

Thoughts and pictures - S3E1

So after digesting my first watch a little bit, I'm starting my rewatch of this season and I'll share a few thoughts and reactions (and screenshots) because I can't keep it all to myself 😱

I was happy that we dived directly into the (sort of) trial and confrontation between Wilhelm, Simon and August. I do wonder how much time passed between the speech and this scene though. It sets the tone for the entire season for Wilhelm: he's gonna be alone, with no support whatsoever from his parents. He enters the room alone, his parents arrive after him and his mother doesn't even look at him... Simon arrives with his mother and August with his stepdad. But Wilhelm has to deal with the situation alone (aka how to get incredibly mad at Kristina barely 5min into the season 😤)

Simon looks so pretty and so sad. (And how did Omar manage to look even younger this season??) He wants to be done with this whole thing. Also I checked but 1.2 millions kronor is not as much as I thought it would be (it's apparently around 107 000€, which is not bad, but I was expecting more)

I see what you did there Simon 😏 (Can someone gif this scene and put it in parallel with Wilhelm seeing Simon's room for the first time and saying "cozy" in season 1? :p)

The boys coming back to the meeting: very smooth. Nobody knows what you were doing. Nop. Not at all. (We can see Linda kinda smirking when Simon sits back whereas Kristina looks like she just ate a very sour lemon). Wilhelm arranging his hair and Simon smiling at him: they might be in the middle of an important meeting and at the Palace but they're still 2 teenage boys in love (and I love them for that 💜)

Rickard looked and sounded like such an idiot in the previous seasons that I didn't expect him to actually be competent! But I guess we were mostly seeing him through August's eyes... I know Rickard said he was the best lawyer in the country but I have to admit that I thought he was just bragging ^^' Also: August is such an asshole. Did he really need to rile up Wilhelm like that? He's got quite the confidence to attack him and tell him how he just fuck things up on his own, in front of everyone like that, including the queen. Who, again, is not defending her son!! She tells them to shut up but she says nothing to August for talking like that to her son 😠

(They look like they've been called to the principal office). Kristina doesn't look at them immediately, she looks at Erik's picture on her desk first. Then she looks at August. And then finally at Wilhelm. She is so awful to him this season... Right from the start. And then she breaks down crying for Erik.

While Wilhelm holds her. I wasn't expecting to see her grieve so much this season. We didn't see that at all in season 2. Is it because she repressed all of her emotions too much? I hate that she breaks down like that just after Wilhelm publicly coming out. How can she not be there for him. I get that it must be hard to lose a son, but she still has a very alive one, who needs her.

Kristina is not getting redeemed in this season but Linda kinda is! I was super happy to see her get in mama bear's mode at the trial ^^ It was about time!! But here: I'm sorry Linda but it's not your son's role to keep you updated about what's going on in your house! You're the mother! Stop putting everything on this kid's shoulders!! Maybe he never tells you but do you ever ask??

Simon being truly angry at Sara is so good. I am so happy so he's able to feel that way and to not feel like he has to repress it, to forgive her, to help her. She did something truly bad and he's allowed to be mad. Also look at his angry lil' face 💜

In things that made me laugh: Wilhelm's reaction and face to learning that Simon is grounded all semester xD He was talking all smoothly/flirty and then his tone changes so dramatically when he realizes he won't be able to get his boyfriend in his bed very soon! Horny boy is horny (and frustrated :p)

This faaaaaace ☹

I'm happy to see that Simon still has Ayub and Rosh here to support him. I wish they would have told him that replying to comments online was a bad idea though. You know the saying kids: don't feed the trolls!!

Wilhelm looks like such a normal teenager when he gets back to his room. First time we see him so carefree. It breaks my heart to know that on the other side Simon is so unwell already.

Wilhelm waking up happy and smiling. And being just a teenager (for the first time in a very long time): thinking about his boyfriend, redrawing the heart on his hand. It's such teenager things!! My boy just wants to have a normal life... (And then he's immediately reminded that he's actually not just a regular teenager with Farima's text).

Simon's worried face when he asks about Wilhelm's initiation. You can see he's truly horrified at the idea that he might have gone through what's been described in the article.

And then it starts: the piling up of everything on Wilhelm's shoulders. First his mother looking really unwell and breaking down (even though she hasn't been said to be officially ill yet), and now the negative impact of his speech on the school... Which Vincent takes great pleasure in reminding him about.

This first episode is really good at setting things in motion. We see already the beginning of what's gonna go down during this season: Simon not feeling well, dealing with online hatred, struggling with his new place next to Wilhelm in the spotlight. And Wilhelm trying to finally live a carefree life at school with his boyfriend now that he's officially out but slowly getting crushed under the pressure of his role as Crown Prince and the increasingly obvious lack of support from his parents.

[clotpolesonly]

there's something really tragic about how the whole dreamer trilogy kicks off because Declan wants to look for his birth mother

the catalyst for the whole series is that, in the holding pattern that is their life, Declan breaks first

and it's because he still doesn't feel like he belongs or is wanted in his own family, even in peace times, even when he and Ronan have laid down their weapons and made some effort to patch things up

for once, he wants something for himself, and he takes the initiative to get it, and it all snowballs and backfires so horribly that when he gets to the end of the line and Matthew is dead and Ronan is dying and the world is ending and his mother doesn't even want him, he can only look back and say that it's all his own fault

and there's no one left to tell him he's wrong

[sifeeeng]

i want my sanity back

[disasterbiwriter]

in honor of a conversation with my beloved @ernestonlysayslovelythings where we agreed that "inches count", please enjoy my favorite sentences that i wrote today. if you want to clap for the fact that i wrote at all after 4 months, well, by all means.

put in a break for anyone who prefers to stay spoiler-free, though all of this is pretty context-less.

Say What You Want, But Say It Like You Mean It (for the uninitiated - an AU where Luke raised Jess and Lorelai didn't raise Rory)

There’s a clatter beyond the apartment door, someone scaling the stairs, and then a frenetic tattoo of knuckles on wood. Jess half rises to answer, but before he can, the apartment door swings open and Rory explodes over the threshold.

But everyone who ever had a heart / oh, they wouldn't turn around and break it? (for the uninitiated - this started out as drabbles diverging from AYITL where Rory and Jess grow back into each others lives and then oops I got obsessed with it and turned it into a whole-ass fic)

“I was calm because I am calm. And if I weren’t, I would tell you.”

She laughs a little. “Well, you don’t always.”

His face shifts. Surprise, certainly, and something married to hurt (but that can’t be, they don’t hurt each other now) moving into, finally, anger. “That’s not true, Rory.”

“Jess—”

“No, I get it. Jess is a closed door, right?”

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

the notes you find throughout quentin's lair are so sickening.....

[st-hugs]

Sigh