#most of the time everytime i see a character my perspective changes because my brain hates settling on one design

[filzmonster]

If I may, this brainrot has been eating away at me, I just need to hear someone else's opinion! ✨️

At what point did you start shipping Gil and Break? What made you go, "yes, that's it!"?

What do you like most about them? I beg, share as much as you can about your thoughts on them! I need to hear it all! 😭🙏

fuck yes of course you may! Thank you so much for asking! *cracks knuckles* I've been waiting my whole life for an opportunity like this, so let's dive right into it!!

So to answer your first question - how I came to shipping them - let me start by saying that it took me a while. Tbh at first I didn't really pay a lot of attention to Break and all the cryptic things he was spewing (I have no excuse for this except that at the time I was obsessed with another manga that had a similar clown-ish character, so Break, at first, felt a little bit too much like a copy of that character for me to really be intrigued by Break).

Also, I was very much blown away by the platonic ... whatever that thing is ... between Gilbert and Oz, so I didn't really put on the shipping glasses for a very long time.

I watched the entire anime without developing any ships.

Then I started the manga and by then I was already so very, very, very deeply invested in everything, so this time around when I got to the specific moment that made my brain go oh, there was nothing stopping it from going oh.

It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this? a look ...

... and solidified itself with

1.) Break caring about the fact that Gilbert supposedly forced himself to act like he was still his friend after his past got revealed

and

2.) Gilbert caring about the fact that apparently the last ten years, in which he saw Break as someone he wanted to be trusted by, meant less to Break than they meant to himself.

(I could write an entire seperate post about what it means that Gilbert wants Break to trust him and the parallels to his entire "I want to be needed" issues because Gilbert is always more focused on being the person that "is needed/trusted/wanted/etc." by the people in his life, rather than being the one needing/trusting/wanting/etc. the other person - if that makes any sense. ANYWAY --)

There was no stopping myself after that.

My brain just went oh, this is very angsty from a platonic "my friend doesn't trust me as much as I trust him" perspective - let's make it EVEN MORE angsty by changing it to "my lover doesn't trust me" and the rest is history.

After that, I went back and looked at their other recent and significant interaction:

What was, up until then, a very significant scene for Gilbert (and for me - I was shook, and still am by this scene everytime I read it tbh) in relation to his issues regarding Oz and being left behind/no longer needed, re-wrote itself in my head into something Break said to Gilbert, a piece of very important advice, something said to Gilbert by someone who understood and even shared his desire to serve a Master, someone who already went through the exact thing Gilbert was scared of going through - losing his Master - and tried to help him, tried to push him in the right direction.

Break was the first person who looked at Gilbert and said "I want to fix him".

He saw what Oz couldn't see, which as how desperate and messed up Gilbert had become with the appearance of Alice in Oz' life, and understood.

This kind of understanding is what, in my eyes, is at the core of this entire ship.

Then the gang went to the ruins of Sablier and honestly, I ate that shit up:

This showed that, even though they understood each other, there was still some kind of power imbalance between them.

At this point in the story, Gilbert was still very much Not Aware of how messed up he truly was. Break, on the contrary, figured out that there's some other, far shadier stuff going on.

Break was admittedly smarter than Gilbert and tried to guide and help him. I love that he shows he cares like that, by slowly but not at all gently pushing Gilbert towards confronting his issues. He is definitely being a teensy-tiny bit manipulative about it, but who doesn't like a little bit of toxicity with their fictional ship??

Uuuuhhhhh after Sablier, the Isla Yura/Headhunter arc happened and while at that shitshow of a party, they had a lot of very nice interactions between them - alas, listing all of them in detail would make this already escalating post waaaaaaay too long, so here's the shortlist:

They confront Elliot together, and Gilbert manages to land a hit on Break

Gilbert realizes that Break is blind, all while Vincent is trying to lure him away so that he doesn't go to help Break

Gilbert's little flashback to probably the first advice Break ever gave him: get your priorities straight

Break sort of gives up the fight against Fang and Lilly

Gilbert shows up and kicks him in the back, going all "I'm his left eye" while also saying: you're my priority, too, you idiot.

Gilberts fixes up Break's wounds and then scolds him for not asking for help even though there are people he can and should ask for help - and isn't that a fantastic parallel to the very first scene I brought up in this post? How this entire thing, for me, started with Gilbert asking, desperately "Why don't you trust me?" and now we're here, with Gilbert, again, asking "Why don't you trust me?" Only this time Break doesn't meet him with the silent air of someone who sees himself as superior, more experienced, but answers his question with a request, finally accepting him as an equal: "please help me."

And then .... AND THEN ... it gets even better:

Listen. LISTEN.

Mere moments ago in the manga it was established that Break is utterly unable to fall in line with someone, unable to work in a team, unable to be a partner. He even repeats it himself: Sharon calls me Mr. One-Man-Show.

But here's Gilbert and he says: I don't care. Do whatever you want, I'll meet you halfway. I'll keep up with you. Let me show you, let me prove myself to you. I'll have your back. Trust me to have your back.

And Break does.

And then a lot of shit went down and it's all very, very tragic.

And then this happens:

And I realize that this is not The Most Important Thing in that chapter and that what happens right after is way more important than this little panel, but I want to talk about the perspective used here for a moment.

This is shown from a frontal perspective. We see Gilbert standing in front of Oz from an outsider's POV, someone who looks at them, someone who sees Gilbert stepping in front of Oz.

This is an important scene and an important perspective in more ways than one, so bear with me for a second, please, as I go off on a little tanget.

See, this scene is very reminiscent of a later scene:

A later scene that is shown from Oz' perspective. Because this time it is important that Oz sees Gilbert stepping in front of him, protecting him despite everything. This scene is for Oz.

The scene prior to that wasn't for Oz.

It was a little bit for us, as readers, foreshadowing that Gilbert, finally fully aware of all his memories, still choses Oz. It is the promise to us that Gilbert will pick Oz' side and ultimately safe him.

It was, truly, for Break.

Break, whose first priority was to get himself between Gilbert and Oz the moment he realized the truth about Gilbert.

Break, who wanted to protect Oz from Gilbert, who wanted to protect Gilbert from Gilbert himself.

Break, who saw, and realized and had faith without even knowing the whole truth.

Now look at all of that and tell me how I was supposed to NOT ship them.

Also, feel free to tell me why YOU ship them :)

Alright, now that I've spent ... an atrocious amount of length on this post to tell you when & why I started to ship them, let's move on to your second question: what do I like most about them?

Weeeeeelllllllll ... a lot of that is already answered between the lines of the "how this ship came to be" elaboration, so I'll start with a short little summary:

there are a lot of parallels between Break's past and Gilbert's present that allow them to understand each other in this very specific way no one else probably can

they push each other to grow/be better (with Break pushing Gilbert to confront his issues and Gilbert calling Break out when he's being a stubborn idiot and refusing help)

they support each other through their lowest points, again and again.

the fact that Gilbert accepted Break, truly, for who he is. That he looked at Break and went "this guy's weird and creepy, but I'm still going to work with him, I'm still learning how to cook for him, I'm still going to try to listen to his advice even though I don't really understand it yet, I'm still going to be his left eye and stand by his side and build a relationship with him that is built on trust, and I'm still going to look at him as a priority"

the fact that Break looked at Gilbert and went "I see you, I'll help you. I'll use you, sure, but even after you've lost your usefulness to me, I'll still help you figure yourself out. I accept you as my equal, please help me. I'll act like I don't care about you, but I do, oh lord, I do. And I'm so relieved that you chose well. I always knew you could do it."

Also, the thing is - I'm a Gilbert girly, so obviously I care about him and his relationships the most.

And for the most part of the manga, the most important relationship, after his relationship to Oz, is his relationship to Break.

Sure, there are Alice and Vincent and Elliot, and even Sharon and Reim and Oscar.

But the one who keeps showing up in all his most important scenes, the ones that deal with his issues, his struggles, his choices - is Break.

And not just that, they keep showing up in each other's important scenes that don't focus on them at first.

E.g., Gilbert is there when Break asks Oz "Where are you?", a question that will haunt Oz for a long time.

Gilbert is there after Lutwidge academy, when Oz and Break have another moment together, and vice versa Break witnesses another key moment between Oz and Gilbert.

Break is there when Gilbert chases after Zai Vessalius in the ruins of Sablier. Gilbert is there when Break wakes up blind.

Break is there when Gilbert regains his memories, and he's there when Gilbert choses a side; and he's there, always there, when Gilbert is confronted with his relationship with Oz. He's even indirectly there when Gilbert gets inspired by Sharon who wants to become stronger so that she can stay by Break's side.

They play a big role in each other's lives even when they aren't directly part of a main event.

Almost like they keep thinking of each other

They grow from "let's use each other for our own benefits" to "I'll risk everything for you". They inspire each other to be better.

They understand each other. Break gets a side of Gilbert that Oz, Gilbert's most important relationship, and even though he grew and learned to understand Gilbert better in the end, will never really get.

Likewise, Gilbert manages to cement himself in Break's life as someone he can trust and rely on, something that comes very hard to Mr. One-Man-Show. I'd even argue that not even Oz managed to become an equal for Break in the end, since Break's last thoughts towards Oz are still "I have to support and guide him", and Oz can't offer him any real solace - that position, ultimately, falls to Reim and Sharon. We're totally ignoring that Break and Gilbert do not really share a last, significant scene, just go along with me please

Anyway.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that their understanding of each other is the most important thing for me. That they are able to have this relationship outside of their other important relationships (Oz & Alice and Sharon & Reim respectively). That they help each other to grow and even teach each other how to better their other relationships.

They have such a big, positive, meaningful influence on each other without ever really trying. It's like they see no other choice but to be there for each other when one of them needs the other.

I love them, your honor.

Alrightttttt, with all of that said .... I think I'm done for now?

Feel free to add your own thoughts and tell me

a) How you came to ship them and why

and

b) What you like most about them and why

Again, thank you very much for asking!! This deep dive really did a lot for my general well being and showed me that while apparently I still know a lot about Pandora Hearts by heart, it may still be time for another re-read soon :)

Also, it's been sooooo long since I've had an opportunity to talk about Break/Gilbert and it was a lot of fun!!! I'm really grateful for that and I can't wait to hear your thoughts on them! <3

[mdhwrites]

Eda Vs. Lilith Part 2: Doomed By TOH's Core Flaws

So this is kind of a follow up to what I talked about earlier today about TOH fights lacking personality. This fight always nags at my brain amongst TOH fights because it's weirdly unmemorable while a part of my brain knows that everytime I go back to it, it is impressive. And it is! It actually is one of the most standout fights in the entire series. It doesn't slow down its animation so it still packs the punch it should, Lilith might be outclassed HARD here but there is a little bit of talking to allow an ideological side to it, the use of Luz as leverage is a good gimmick and a good way to level the field and even if it's obvious who is more powerful, the cost of victory keeps the tension high instead of the fight feeling pointless or without real stakes. It genuinely avoids a LOT of TOH's normal pitfalls.

But it doesn't escape TOH's inherent lack of creativity/personality and that's nearly unforgivable from a narrative perspective for this specific fight, let alone in context with the rest of the season. To start: here are ALL the spells used in the fight: Levitation Energy Blasts Shields Hooty Summoning

And that's literally it. This fight could be done by at least half, if not 90%, of all Shounen anime out there and you would have to change almost nothing with the normal movesets of Shounen protagonists. It's animated like a Dragonball Z fight and both Eda and Lilith are genuinely duking it out, using their staffs for blows half as much as their MAGIC. These are WITCHES, not warriors.

Worse yet, structurally... This is the last big hurrah for both characters. There are no more big fights of S1. There's Luz tackling Lilith and Belos lightly playing with Luz but nothing more and after this finale, both of these characters will never have magic like this again. This should be when the show goes balls to the wall with the fact that ONLY these two characters could ever have a fight with all nine coven magics being used as they show different strengths in each and use each one to counter the other.

Instead, the magic here is presented as stronger and bigger and prettier than the Covention fight... But it's not as interesting and none of it's new. I NEVER forget Eda making circles with a smirk along her own Hooty to create more that Lilith has to duck and weave through. I never forget Lilith being devoured or how Lilith's practicality means that she can immediately get behind Eda when given an opening for the final blow. Sure, it's still oddly physical at the start and end but it feels more in line with who they are and an exhibition of the excess of Eda versus the practicality of Lilith. It also feels more unique because it's the first time we're seeing these spells... And literally their second fight includes all of the same spells. No more, no less, unless you include Owlbert's inclusion in the first fight as a spell. Then there is one less.

The show was given literally unlimited freedom within its setting... And the best it could do was copy itself and better anime. So why bother remembering this fight instead of Covention? The twist? The fight is pretty much over by then since there's just one more literal charge from Eda to close it.

Because even TOH at its best cannot escape the weaknesses that lie at the heart of the show. A lack of personality and creativity.

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Dramione Recommendations

Ok so, 2020 has been A LOT but on a personal note one of the most surprising things to happen was me discovering Dramione fanfiction and becoming unashamedly obsessed with it. I really didn’t see that coming but I’m here now and I’m here to stay. 

I think I started reading in the Dramione fandom around mid July last year?? (In all honesty I’ve lost any true sense of time’s progression at this point so I could be well off the mark with that) And I’ve decided to compile a list of all my favourite fics I’ve read so far. Why? I really just want to gush over all the amazing writers I have found through this fandom because y’all deserve it. 

Side note: If any of the authors actually sees this post just dm so I can buy you coffee or post you writing supplies or something idk I feel like that’s the least I can do for all your amazing work x

Remain Nameless by @heyjude19-writing

Ok I have to start with RN because this fic is pretty much the sole reason I decided to create an account with A03 or a tumblr or just decided to get involved with this fandom at all. 

I headcannon this story hard. But I think even if you aren’t a fan of Dramione you should just read this because it is so unbelievably good and well written and poignant and Draco’s sarcastic personality in this is truly a thing of beauty in this - I relate to his inner monologue’s on a deep personal level. 

I could rave about this story any time, any day of the week, just ask me. In fact, maybe I’ll just start a HeyJude19 fan club to fulfill that urge.

There are so many elements that I love but for the sake of brevity, RN is a beautifully told story of Draco and Hermione finding love and healing in a post-war HP setting. Heyjude19 had the very special ability of making me want to simulatenously laugh, cry and swoon with the power of her words. Just stop what you are doing and go read it now if you havent already, ok?  

I also really enjoyed reading Bells on a Hill, Beers, Potions and Unwise Notions and A Shift in Focus, if you are looking for smaller fics, definitely give these a go. They are all funny and heartfelt stoires that will make your tippy toes wriggle with glee. 

The Rights and Wrongs Series by @lovesbitca8

The Right Thing To Do, All The Wrong Things and The Auction are the holy trinity of Dramione writing. I have christened it thus, so mote it be. And frankly I’m not interested in any other opinion than that one, thank you very much!

After reading this series I don’t think I’ll be able to look back on the orginal HP books without thinking of Hermione’s and Draco’s memories of their time at Hogwarts in these fics as anything other than strictly cannon. 

So many things to love about this series but I think one of the major highlights was Hermione and Draco’s use of occlumency. LoveBitca8 created such beautiful visuals with how occlumency works as a magical practice and seeing Draco and Hermione so devoted to eachother to the point of safeguarding their inner most feelings to protect eachother was unbelievably romantic and poetic. 

Also the smut is divine ;)

Manacled by @senlinyu​

My heart will never be the same after reading this story. Like I actually can’t think about this fic without getting a lump at the back of my throat. I have never felt so emotionally ruined after reading anything, compared to the likes of this fic. Just please, please read it. To badly quote HP, reading Manacled will make you suffer but you’re going to be happy about it.

The flashbacks are a rollercoaster in of themselves but the way Hermione inadvertently refers to them when she is still in a state of memory loss was so heartbreaking to read. My heart still aches for them both. Also its a truly satisfying to see Draco and Hermione written in a way were they are both so fiercly protective of one another. They make my insides go soft. 

I also really enjoyed Snow Fall, Now Is A Gift and All You Want by the author but to be honest anything written by Senlinyu is always thoroughly enjoyable and worth a look. 

The Erised Effect by @adaprix​

Ada is QUEEN of dramione smut but ‘The Erised Effect’ is top tier. Its equal parts funny, romantic, sentimental and oh so sexy. Ada really knows how to build and build on sexual tension and doesn’t disappoint on the final delivery. I’m a big admirer of her writing style and just veraciously read whatever she posts but ‘The Erised Effect’ is just golden. A must read. (Also Pansy’s sexual fantasy in this story is a visual I don’t think I’ll ever be able to remove from my brain so thanks for that Ada)

Also quick side note: Adaprix’ stories were the first I read when I was looking into this fandom and it was enough to get me hooked on the pairing from the get go so I have that to thank Ada for too. I remember devouring all the stories she had posted to A03 and when I was done I was like... now what am I supposed to do with my life?? And that’s basically when I began to look deeper into the fandom and thus the course of my life in 2020 changed for the better. 

Some other stories I love by her are Break for Me, All My Sins, The Big 4-0, The Fucklust Series and The Flat in Bath. 

Clean by @olivieblake​

This 6th Year AU where Draco and Hermione work together on a class assignment and end up falling in love had me feeling all kinds of ways when I read it. I almost don’t know where to start but I think one of the stand out things for me was how immersed I felt in reading it. 

Hogwarts is captured really well, you get a good sense of class atmospheres, character nuances and behind the scenes of events that happen in HBP but from a Draco and Hermione’s perspectives. It’s well executed and intricate tapestry of a fic. With an excellent plot twist ending! 

Also Hermione and Draco’s relationship in this is equal parts fluffy and smutty and it just ticks all the right boxes that you want to see for those characters ;)

Breath Mints / Battle Scars by @onyx-and-elm​

The angst in this one is just *chef’s kiss*

God I love this fic. The way Draco is portrayed is very true to his defensive and tetchy character in the original books but he is also given so much more depth. The way his diary entries are written are just so well executed. It’s a true testament to the author’s creative writing skill. And I LOVE how even though Draco is clearly in such a messed up place, he still has a basic level of self respect and dignity that he won’t tolerate being used or undervalued in his relationship with Hermione. 

Yep, I really love Draco’s characterisation in this one if you can’t tell.  But Hermione is also well written too. Her stuggles and trauma of returning to Hogwarts after war is described in a believable and grounded way. And my heart definitely ached for them both. I just wanted to wrap the pair of them in a big fuzzy blanket and tell them that everything will be alright. 

WANDS OUT! by @persephonestone​

This murder mystery / Dramione / Theo x Harry / AU crossover is everything I didn’t know I wanted until I read it. I felt like I was picked up and plonked right into an alternative dimension where all the characters of HP are just living it up in an Agatha Christie novel. 

It’s a funny and clever story that I found refreshing to read amongst all the other fanfics that are usually cemented in the HP timeline or universe. Theodore Nott in this fic is perfection he should be written like this in every fic from now on in my opinion. I couldn’t stop giggling any time he had a scene in the story.

And the ‘only one bed’ trope in this fic is 10/10. I don’t want to give spoilers but ohmygod. It hits all the right notes. 

The One With Technical Difficulties by cassielassie 

Cassielassie has an excellent three part series of Dramone called ‘The One with...” but I have to give special credit to this story in particular for one main reason. ELEVATOR TROPES. I can’t get enough of em. I think I have my early childhood viewings of NCIS to thank for my obsession with elevator tropes they just do something to me that simply cannot be explained with mere words. The palpable sexual tension of being in a broken down elevator with an ‘enemies to lovers’ pairing, a heated arguement breaks out followed by a discovery of mutual feelings and a romantic embrace...

Eugh. It gets me everytime. And this fic is no exception. I loved it for all the reasons I’ve already stated above but also for the attention to detail in Draco and Hermione’s careers makes this one particularly immersive. The dynamics between them established in this one-shot are convincingly portrayed and the chemistry between them is so undeniably hot. 

The Light is No Mystery by @masterofinfinities​

Yooo if you want to read a dramione fic that is a deep dive into Pureblood culture and Post-War recovery but is also a perfect allegory for discrimination and today’s political landscape of moral grandstanding for votes then look no further than this one. 

This story has a bit of everything. Intrigue, mystery, ptsd and recovery, enemies to lovers / secret relationship, government conspiracy and humour, to name a few. I eargerly await every update to this story and am anxious to know how it ends!

The Eagle’s Nest by HeartOfAspen 

Finally! A fic that gives me the Ravenclaw representation I crave. I think I could recommend this fic on the lore depicted of Ravenclaw house alone. ‘The Stacks’ and Rowena Ravenclaw’s own ‘come and go room’ are just such cool details that I could see being real in the HP universe. 

This fic is so cosy and makes me feel like I’m just popping back into Hogwarts for another year. You get to see all the usuals like prof. Mcgongall, Nearly headless Nick, PEEVES, Hagrid, as well as learn more about minor characters from the other school houses. The story follows Hermione going to her day to day classes and there are interesting concepts about magic and alchemy that are explored. 

Draco and Hermione’s relationship in this one is of course very fluffy and heartfelt. But it’s the attention to detail that really makes this fic outstanding and the experience of reading it feels fleshed out and true to HP universe.

A shorter fic by HeartofAspen that I recommend is one called Set in Stone, it has an adventurous, Indianna Jones vibe to it, that I am so down for. 

Teachable Moments by @purplesugarquills

In this fic Hermione is an innocent little virgin determined to learn everything about sex. And Draco Malfoy is her tutor. If that isn’t enough to get you on board then I don’t know what is. Both Heartfelt and Steamy. PurpleSugarQuills writes smut so well but it’s the progression of their growing attachment and the nervous treading of new uncharted waters of romantic relationships for both of them that just adds a whole other level of feels to the story. Also chapter 9 is like reading poetry - its so good. Eugh just give it a read if you haven’t already.

Les Pèlerins by @pacific-rimbaud

This story is high art. It’s transcendent. Reading this story feels like the emotional equivalent of standing around a hundred glowing fairy lights, sipping hot cocoa and being wrapped in the loving embrace of a s/o. I can’t speak my praises highly enough or even become passably coherent in my words when I try to articulate a review. 

From the very first paragraph I felt like I was just whisked away on a Parisian holiday and I’ve never even bloody been to Paris but damn it if this story didn’t make me feel like I was there. The writing style is just so tactile and intense it’s like I could feel the cold winter air brush against me as I read it. Eugh I just completely fell in love with the story and the writer. 

New Year’s resolution. Read everything PacificRimbaud has ever posted online. 

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ALSO CAN I ASK FOR SOME RANDOM GOM HCS U HAVE? like just random ones u have or if u want like some toxic hcs abt them :D

I’m assuming that I can include their negative traits of their personalities as well 👀 Also including Momoi in this… lots of analyzing for this hc, so I used my brain here pls appreciate AGAIN these are all headcanons/interpretations of possible toxic hcs about them and only a few are canon

[Headcanons]

Kuroko Tetsuya

Kuroko is the hardest person to find a “negative/toxic” trait in, and it doesn’t seem like he has any

kind, understanding, hardworking, and compassionate; he’s everything a good-natured protagonist is

but he’s only like this to people/hobbies he cares about/close with; anything else he’s quite apathetic and also very passive/neutral about

the biggest hint to this is when Akashi criticizes Kuroko for cherry-picking who the GoMs should “go all out against” and who to casually toy with

and Akashi is absolutely correct

most of the series is portrayed through Kuroko’s perspective, and Akashi is the first direct outside perspective who comments on his actions/attitude

it’s obviously not that Kuroko didn’t “notice”... he clearly sees and knows what these GoMs are doing; after all, he had a conversation with Aomine about how observant he is to everything around him

of course, if you were close to him, all your opinions and issues matter to him

it’s the fact that what’s not really important to him is suddenly now important just because someone he knows is involved

just an example: if someone was advocating climate change, he has no opinion on it until someone he knows cares about the issue

in other words, he has a subtle hypocritical view on things, especially when he interacts with others

another clear negative trait could be that he’s too idealistic or perhaps naive, seeing things in a clear black-or-white picture and not necessarily a gray area

WE know, as an audience, that the GoMs honestly needed therapy and a proper adult to guide their out-of-control talents

but Kuroko, in his eyes, had viewed them as “bad” and “evil” in their ways of basketball until they changed after their respective matches

he’s probably someone who doesn’t yield to other opinions once he forms his own, and this may make him unable to consider things in other people’s perspectives

which is again, ironic: someone who doesn’t have generally a strong stance but once they do, it’s very unyielding, which further proves Akashi’s comment about Kuroko’s tendency to nitpick which to care about

a final hc about a potential flaw he might have here in a different ask!

Kise Ryota

y’all… it’s as canon as day that he has a mean side

straight from the author himself, it’s confirmed that Kise is only kind to those who he respects, and to the rest, he’s cold-hearted

in the manga, it’s very clear that he’s super judgmental on every first impression on people he meets, boxing them into categories based on the way they look, act, and speak

only when they surpass his preset expectations (low or high depends on his preliminary judgments of them) is when he opens his mind to the rest of their personality

this is a very close-minded way of thinking, and I hope I don’t need to explain why LOL

this can be interpreted as him being two-faced by the majority of the people in his school

his way of speaking can definitely be very cruel and crass, and to sensitive people, his words can easily shatter hearts

Kise’s negative/toxic traits are pretty straightforward here, so let’s move on

Midorima Shintarou

his harsh words can be considered a “negative” part of his personality, but I think it’s a lot more than just that

it’s confirmed in the series that he’s a bystander and almost always minds his own business

on one hand, one can say he’s self-driven and that he constantly strives for self-improvement

on the other, it can be interpreted as him being very dangerously ambitious and selfish, in which most actions he takes are for the sole reason of self-improvement and not for altruistic reasons

for example, when he helped Kuroko and Kagami in the training camp, it was under the reasoning that them becoming stronger would be a good challenge for himself to test and learn

that’s not to say that he can’t have friends, but most friendships he’s built are with capable people who can potentially provide him with some new beneficial skill/goal to strive towards

after all, he’s only learned to trust Takao as a friend only after seeing him as someone capable

because he’s so focused on himself, he’s extremely likely to turn a blind eye to injustice, most also likely to use Oha Asa to justify their “misfortunes” as he continues on his day

he’s not cold-hearted, but altruism comes by Midorima a lot rarer than the average person

now, we know that his Oha Asa aspect is used to balance his serious side as the “comedic side” of him, but if we really think about it, his obsessions with the horoscopes could be a huge obstacle in the future, where he may refuse to listen/depend on others in favor of his own intuition and the stars; after all, no one knows everything, and depending on the stars as one’s next source of advice and guidance isn’t a sound decision to commit themselves to

he seems like the person who overthinks and jumps to conclusions when it comes to social situations, but instead of confronting the person, he turns to fate and fortune if Takao isn’t near to help

Aomine Daiki

I wouldn’t be surprised if Aomine had a skewed sense of beauty standards from all those magazines he consumed and from being around Momoi for the majority of his life

of course anyone can distinguish pieces of media from reality, but during the most impressionable years of life, without experiencing other types of people and physiques, he would have limited knowledge on what “beauty” is and whatnot

this probably would be more of a problem in his adolescence than adult

a very given negative trait is his short temper plus his tendency to turn to physical violence when someone nags him to a certain point, seen with how he’s treated Wakamatsu in the beginning (though this seems to almost disappear by the end of the series)

what I’ve noticed in every scene he’s in, is that everything seems to revolve around him and his hobbies of basketball and Japanese idols

what I mean is that everytime we see Aomine, it’s always Momoi approaching to Aomine or just him always being the center of attention; never once has he approached Momoi for anything and it’s always been the other way around

in other words, people have to cater to him in order to get along with him/be in good graces (additional example: Imayoshi letting him do as he pleases to get him to be cooperative and participate in the games)

we’ve actually never seen Momoi’s hobbies outside of being a manager for her basketball teams and just anything basketball-related

he can be quite apathetic, choosing to only pay attention and try in things he’s interested in… which is basketball and those magazines

he seems to mature in the Last Game though, so I’m not quite sure to what extent these headcanons would apply to older Aomine (these also don’t really apply to Puremine)

Momoi Satsuki

the author probably also included this type of anime trope as comedy, but belittling another female for her body is definitely a no-go in reality; I feel like this is something most people gloss over really lightly

her body comments on Riko are actually what made me skeptical of her character at first before the show really shows her entire personality

that being said, it seems that she always takes the opportunity to look down on other girls (especially to those she is a stranger to) as a sort of “competition” when there’s boys around

definitely at certain moments, she screams a “pick-me girl” type of person (real phenomenon, you can search this up!)

while Kuroko doesn’t seem to actively mind this, I think she also has no good sense of boundaries and what’s considered appropriate touch and consent; people can chalk this up to “oh it’s just infatuation,” but this definitely isn’t okay if we really think about this

her life also seems to revolve around either Aomine or Kuroko, and based from that, I’d feel like she’d have a difficult time forming her own identity/life separate from her “manager life,” especially once she graduates from Touou

can definitely be interpreted as too clingy at certain moments, while others may think it’s her way of showing that she cares

Murasakibara Atsushi

most people would chalk up Murasakibara as “lazy,” and on the surface level, it does appear to look that way…

I think his true negative trait is that he has a lack of intrinsic motivations to drive him to do things

it’s different from being lazy; someone can be lazy while still having a goal, and certainly someone can be lazy while they’re motivated by thoughts of “I want to learn more,” “I want to get stronger,” etc. (you guys, it’s me right now in college)

and he doesn’t have that

part of this was contributed to the fact that he’s already so gifted with genetics and thus, there’s never been a goal for him to have to work towards to when he’s already at the top

he doesn’t actively seek out, and while that may be a characteristic of sloth, it’s not exactly right either

he willingly does things if people around him give him the motivations/reasons to do so; a person of sloth wouldn’t do anything even with all the motivations and goals handed right to their face

snacks/food are examples of extrinsic motivations that fuel him to carry on daily life

Himuro is always the main motivator for Murasakibara to come out and watch matches, and he also does whatever Akashi orders in both Teiko and present days // a person who can give the giant the motivation to do tasks would get along with him the most

searching out for a challenge against his basketball skills is something that’s never crossed his mind

why? he grew to be like the way he is because of the lack of results from his “search” of a challenge throughout his games

again, it’s only when Murasakibara gets handed a silver-platter of a challenge, Jason Silver, that actively gets him pumped up and raring to go

as such, Murasakibara is equivalent to a rusty machine, extremely difficult to start up and find compatibility with, but very powerful and efficient once he finds that spark

Murasakibara finding any partner or friend in the future would be extremely difficult because he ticks a different tune from the rest

Akashi Seijuro

his entire Bokushi side was a giant-ass red flag for very obvious reasons LOL anyways, moving on…

it’s difficult to pinpoint a negative characteristic for Oreshi because he’s the pinnacle of a gentleman character… but that technically is also his negative trait

for him to maintain that perfect image for himself and others, he has always carried himself in such a way that doesn’t allow for errors or expressions of “weakness”

thus, bottling up his frustrations and emotions to the point of no return is something very familiar to Akashi, and I’d feel like Bokushi is the result of his overflowing emotions left unchecked in the first place

I also predict that if Akashi continues to carry himself without letting himself wind down and feel emotions on the spot rather than locking it up inside him, a day will come when he splits into two halves again with a “new” Bokushi to deal with his current life (and let the current Oreshi take a backseat in his psyche to take a break from the turmoil)

also will tend to overwork himself to manage people’s expectations as well as his own, and he’s not one to depend on people not because he sees them as inferior or incapable, but because he’s doing this out of habit from being in positions of authority and responsibility for much of his life

and so, he may tend to hide important things or just not speak about his problems in general to those close to him because he feels like he can do it all himself and spare everyone the work and stress associated with them (a leader mentality)

throughout the majority of his life being calm and calculated, his emotions would definitely escape from him in forms of uncontrollable lashes of anger… before he would realize what he’s done… that is, assuming that another Bokushi hasn’t form within his subconscious yet

[gvaf-radio-blog]

I was laying in bed trying to not think about the rejection when the crying fit started, normally it goes away after a bit but this welled up and I felt an emotion like onto a rage induced tornado surging through me and I pounded the floor screaming like I lost a limb to a bear trap and started to pray to God, keep in mind I am a Satanist, to either help me find a way to get the love of my life back or to give me the means to end my life.  Satan was very understanding but reminded me to call them first next time since Satan never told me I was damned for being born pansexual and they did turn me on to better fashion and literature, sorry Satan.

It had been going on like this for the better part of July and there were several things going on in my life at the time one of those was a firm belief that I had grown too old, too fat, too broken to be any use to anyone other than to make others feel better and be target practice for the Russian Cupidi who seems very intent on making others fall in love with me on the other side of the continent, little fuckers have surprisingly deep laughs I found out . There was a person I was convinced was the love of my life because they seemed to understand me, never made unreasonable demands of me ( I thought)  and to put it simply we could not be in a room alone ever. We worked well together in fact each time we would meet it ended in us kissing and tearfully saying I love you to each other  while holding each other head to head crying. Everytime I heard a slight Russian tinged laugh. We were for a short time had an almost family, an almost family is where things are just off and need adjustments. I wanted tp make us a full family badly I wanted this family to happen because these kids were at one time treated like mine own, I am a  simple and boring man except for the Cupidi and a stalker with cat ears who keeps leaving dead birds on my front stoop.  

So yes I was that fool everyone has laughed at in a heart break fueled misery that pop songs and movies lie to us and say “ AH but tis only the third act! The two distant lovers will be reunited and the love song with start after the credits”. I want to start rounding up the con artist that make a living by filling empty headed children with these notions of true love or that love conquers all and sodomize them with live lobsters.  I don’t want to violate ethically challenged people with shellfish everyday, just on those days when I have to deal with the doll eyed masses, ok so basically every day I was trying to give myself the benefit of the doubt.  The Ex had asked me if the reason I wanted to get back together was because they were a “sure thing” I told her that they were really a long shot but if I didn’t try then I couldn’t live with myself. Fast forward a few weeks and several insulting explanations later and I am now turning over all the reasons I am broken goods and that I should not rise above my station because I deserve to be alone, i’m scum, I’m why baby jesus cries and milk spoils when I walk into the room. I started taking pot shots at the local Cupidi with my compound bow but it was hard to aim with eyes full of tears and the edible kicking in finally. I don’t know how to say fuck you in Russian but I think I know the sound of the word. 

Next we find me red eyed muttering some gibberish that’s been fueled by what I would find out later to be a suspected mental illness that is only half way being treated with medication and therapy. To give you a funny and disturbing visual. After not eating or sleeping for several days  I looked like what could be described as a  cross between a fat Reinfeld and a goth George Costanza , or Meatloaf on a bad day. I give you options for your visuals, am I not merciful?

It’s now sometime between one and five A.M and I am looking up the price of the least expensive .45 handgun because I’m poor and I’ll be getting some extra money soon because I turn thirty nine in a week I do not want to be thirty nine so I start looking for american style solutions, happy fucking birthday. I chose this caliber because having some medical training and studying the wonderful world of trauma  I got to see in full detail what a self inflicted head wound looks like and what a person's life is when the bullet doesn’t take enough grey matter. I didn’t want to be alive then I sure as hell didn’t want to live as a joke character from a Garth Ennis story so I was going to get a bigger bullet .  America, fuck yeah.

so I started to make my final birthday plan and feel at peace with having my last ride of Clove’s, bourbon and a good pub hamburger then, Tchüess. BANG! Obviously I didn’t buy the gun to end my misery and embarrassment as my brain was telling me I needed, because instead my brain going into OH FUCK mode was throwing everything it had at me to save the ship. Then it hit pay dirt. I rediscovered a natural emotional energy that put my mind into a laser focus clearing the fog and lies away  just enough to stop my self destruction and restart the rebuilding I began in the winter. The emotional energy that saved me from turning my head into goo goes by the name of pure fucking spite.

I realized that my idiocy levels had reached a critical mass when the Cupidi in hazmat suits who seem to be , in Russian , bitching about extracting me to go get recharged . They came down to take me back to a containment unit that will refill my cynicism back to optimal and lethal fuck off capacity. After my IV of coffee and Monster™ grape was removed I was set loose again into the wilds of Southeast Portland to reconnect my brain with seething hatred that I somehow misplaced my hatred during the heartache attack between Southeast Division and Southeast Clinton street where I  was bludgeoned with a baseball bat by the woman who was wearing cat ears. I was on a time limit because I had to do this quickly and retract my steps before my appointment with a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner at two P.M later that day. I managed to find my hatred , my senses and a new found desire to attack any human with those fucking anime cat ears on their head and entered the office and was treated like a human being not a Cro Magnon sociopath who might try  to kill people on the train, it was a nice change of pace honestly.

We talked about my past trauma and some of the diagnosis that where off base and some that came close to the mark but the main thing we talked about was the depression, the depression that had me looking for a gun as a treatment plan. This Nurse Practitioner pinpointed everything that I had to hide from others or train myself not to do in less than thirty minutes, Let me give you a bit of perspective. 

Most of the mental health professionals I worked with in the past used a method I call flow chart counseling, example:

Therapist sees me walk into the door, therapist will ask if I drink if yes how many drinks in a week, if no move on to the next question. Therapist: Mister Cromag do you drink?

Me: yeah, I like a good beer, or wine I take a shinning to good bourbons as well.

“Therapist now flows to follow up questions”

Therapist: How many drinks per week?

Me: Well, I like to have a drink that pairs with my dinner and some weekends I’ll have a bit more during games or socialization depending on who’s around.

“Therapist now moves down to alcoholism”

Therapist: how long have you been an alcoholic?

Me: I’m sorry what?

Therapist: You binge drink Mister Cromag, more than four drinks per week means substance abuse.

Me: No it means I like the taste of a stout. “Moves down the chart to denial”

Therapist: We need to find you an addiction specialist.

Me: You think my drinking is bad, wait until I tell you about my porn collection.

After that exchange I was referred to a physical therapist to help with carpal tunnel and after a traumatized therapist had to call security all while frantically  trying to find a flowchart for the psychotically horny they made a suggestion about me having an Oedipus complex.

So you now see what I mean, a lot of professionals never got to the heart of it and there are other stories where I’ve had the professionals all but sneer at me when my symptoms are presented. So this Nurse Practitioner was a nice change of pace and with the discussion about my issues, what I thought I might have been dealing with  (sometimes people see that I do have some form of intelligence and not just hit thing with club real hard unga bunga) we then worked out what medication I needed to treat  the thing I was dreading, being diagnosed with  Bipolar 1.

Bipolar and ADHD share many of the same characteristics and as I’ve learned if you have one the other is more than likely there it just needs to be screened for. Bipolar is also a hereditary form of mental illness which makes it a bit unique where others are mostly trauma induced but Bipolar just kinda waits for something to happen and when nothing does it creates its own fun. To add to this good time Bipolar  is classified as a “mood disorder”  your highs are hyperactive boarderlining and often going into a full true manic state of mind and body, not nearly as fun as it sounds. Then the lows are soul crushing affairs that amplify the depression and then takes the lies you brain tells you and creates a story based on people around you, your fears, past trauma and then makes you this poisoned lullaby cake that tastes like candy feels like medicine until you fall to your knees paralyzed and the fangs sink into your back and you see too late what is having you for dinner tonight.

So that’s a quick and blurry on Bipolar 2, I have Bipolar 1 which means I get all of that plus the added fun of hallucinations, and not the type Terrence Mckenna taught us about. These are things that just manifest as if they are real life like if you were in a  film and it was edited without  warning and in this new situation  you now have to improvise a reality, any  reality, this is why I take *drugs prescribed and other. The other issue is that it feels like my memories get remixed and things that happened now have a new twist, a paranoid hurtful twist.  Good example of this is when I was making a terminal wishlist and believed that there were people who truly wanted me to die because I interpreted their actions as malicious. Another example is I was walking home to the apartments  around ten or twelve years ago, I was walking home at the time with groceries and when I got through the front door there was construction going on at the apartment above me. I sleep days and at best i’ll get four hours due to shit employer, new born child, a girlfriend that was Sybil the next generation who completely refused to get treatment because she was a psych major and thought she was the heroin to overcome all odds  in a lifetime movie.  So on top of this my mental illness is not in check, no insurance and if I mention medication at work I could get fired. 

 I wish this was a part I made up  but I mentioned I was on antidepressants at one time and they removed me from two positions back to entry level until I got clean off celexa, Not allowed to do the fun drugs and then punished for using the boring ones no idea why I stayed there for eight and a half years. 

Back to the construction, I get home try to put my groceries away and one of the workers says he needs to do something in the bedroom I tell him to get bent , he calls me a fat fuck and I proceed to beat him bloody! Except it never happened, I woke up beating my fist bloody onto the tiled floor of the kitchen where I had started to put away my groceries until I jumped into this other reality, I’m just happy the kid wasn’t home because it might have scared her and made her cry and knowing I made her cry hurts the worst, I would have attempted that second suicide earlier. This freaked me out I’ve never had an hallucination like this I was scared, when I told then girlfriend hoping to get support or at least pointed in the direction on where to look she labeled me a schitzophrentic started talking to me as if I was going to flip out  and that I was even more dangerous.  I let that turn around in my head for years thinking that this was the linchpin to me being broken and with the way she talked to me I believed I didn’t deserve help. This was one of the main reasons I had to kill myself after she took my daughter away.

Like a few million other miserable , confused people out there I didn’t know a blessed thing about what was happening, I remembered the mental abuse and emotional abuse from the church, and some had argued physical and neglectful abuse I recieved at the hands of my family or my mother’s husbands who told my mother to no provide for me but instead buy him a new toy car. My step sister who somehow hates the knot headed reprobate more than I do stole his precious camaro and rear ended a Semi. After learning she was ok I fell on the floor laughing because all I could think about was this NASCAR addicted stunted man child calling his mommy to whine about a broken toy, to add to this mental image he was wearing a blue jean diaper and clutching a plush Richard Petty teddy bear.

There’s more but I don’t feel the need to talk about school bus drivers and me losing memory of one full  year of my life, bullying at the hands of adults and children alike. I feel like that would be redundant and unfortunately all too common a story I’ve heard from so many people in my life, friends, lovers , coworkers the fucking homeless people who talk with me after I give them beer money. Leaving some of the genetic issues aside you bastards need to understand how wide spread some of these traumas are for fuck sake my motley of misfits are all walking trauma case studies and instead of getting help YOU people ridiculed them, or gave them the greatest useless sentence in the english language which is :

 “Just get over it.”

Do you know what I would like to see? I want to see all of us survivors roaming the streets like that piss poor movie they claimed was a horror movie the Purge and with a list not unlike the list owned by the man that comes around Johnny Cash sang about during his song of the rapture, and I see men, women, and nonbinary people going to the address of those passive aggressive twits and beating them within an inch of their life, then carving into their chest (backwards) “get over it” then we move on to the homes of the rapists and tell them “you asked for this” before destroying their cocks with battery acid. The screams in the night would be glorious with the bats acting like percussion and the screams keyboard swells it would be like Front 242 unplugged. Maybe then the sniveling pretentious nra members out there will learn a bit. At best, it would be fair warning not to be passive aggressive asshole and learn a bit of compassion and mindfulness or to just get their heads out of their ass about battles they know nothing about if they want to avoid severe head trauma that one can not just simply get over. 

Living with mental illness is not easy at any level whether a small bit of depression after a breakup or full blown PTSD after a brutal rape that leaves one unable to leave their house. Whomever has these afflictions are the ones suffering and your feelings of inconvenience or fear  of those sufferers need to be thrown into the Willamette river, I would say you need to follow suit  but there’s enough garbage in this river you can fuck off into a trash compactor.

Living is the hardest thing I do but I keep finding ways to stop the thoughts from taking over and I will and have done whatever it took to not die and sometimes the only way I was able to beat the mental illness was being bat shit insane. Some people think I’m a drug addict, others just think I need to talk to my old invisible friend, a few well meaning souls have suggested psychedelics and these people are pure and I will castrate any who try and stop them from their holy work from the almighty Bob. what I do need is to find that bitch with the **baseball bat and introduce them to a proper bonfire that I’m going to roast one of those little commie Cupidi on, oh yes I want my revenge for St Louis. 

*the drugs in question are cannabis for the most part, when I’m spinning hard it helps tune me down and when the depression hits it shuts up the thoughts that plague me. Not a cure all nor is it a replacement for proper medication and therapy. I like to think of it a supplemental medicine that has the added effect of making Tool sound even more epic and letting me sleep peacefully. 

** all wildy violent, funny and or cartoonish descriptions written about are there to be funny and entertaining no Cupidi do not exist and the Cat ear person does but the assault was less bloody and didn’t involve a bat  but it was far more traumatizing.

[luffyasksandanswers]

4 and 6 for the song meme c:

Three Songs Meme @minister-of-candy

6:Three of my top dancing songs 

//World is going nachos because me has changed the order of the reply *laughs* Ok, first of all, frankly spoken, I’m not a good dancer. I mean I can jam like “uu, nice song!” but going further from nodding the head or moving the feet slightly , my brain just doesn’t know how to multitask any complicated patterns xD but anyway, most of the songs below are from the time I was a university student and ran at these monthly parties just to get collectible patches xD

Keinutaan by Antti Tuisku (feat. VilleGalle)

Antti is without a doubt, the king of Finnish pop. He rose from the third place of a talent show to the stars. After singing soft songs for a while he released his wild side and he definitely knows how to take the spotlights at the stage. This song is one of the rare ones which choreography is somehow danceable even for a pipe brain like me xD Also both of the singers in this song participated to the finnish verson of  De beste zangers (van Nederland) [x] and their brotherhood there was beautiful. 

Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 (ft. Christina Aguilera)

My friend used to always say at the student parties “oi, it’s your jam Id!” whenever the DJ dropped this one and I have no idea how this ended up to be that way but I assume these kinda parties just happen xD Well anyway, this song is groovy so why not, although my moves are more like Jäger although I don’t even like that drink

Tarkenee by JVG

A funny memory related to this song is that at my friend’s wedding this was played few times and we created a “dance” to this song’s chorus and even newlyweds’ granny was so happy to jam with us *laughs*

ps. random fact: The one who sings the chorus is Teemu Brunila who was the lead singer of the band called The Crash who is known for example from a song called Lauren caught my eye [x]

4: Three songs that always make me cry/teary-eyed

There are lots of songs that can fit into this category, especially movie soundtracks but these were the first one that popped into mind :D

 Bronte by Gotye

Anyone who has lost a pet (own or someone else’s that was close to you) can relate to this. It’s melancholic but it’s beautiful at the same time and the video reminds me visually of Princess Mononoke.

No more drama by Mary J. Blige 

I remember this song from youth when MTV still played quality music instead of reality shows and heard and saw this again after a long long time, still remembered how much sadness it gave, especially now that as an adult the lyrics are much much more understandable. As someone who tends to overthink and worry with the will of saving people on this planet, it is kinda devastating to know that the “characters” on the music videos are describing things some people go through every day whereas some people are born under luckier stars. Well, as a conclusion, this song has a very beautiful melody and message It would require big actions so that things on humanity would find the balance. 

 Tuntematon potilas  by  Arttu Wiskari

Wiskari’s productions doesn’t belong in my music lists in general but this song hits right in the feels everytime when the radio plays it. The translated lyrics can be found here [x]. 

This song’s first verse is basically from someone’s perspective who has struggled with Alzheimer/Dementia (”This disease took my sanity although I tried to fight back”) and the second verse is from the rest of the family’s perspective (”Now I understand the request that made me angry earlier”). 

Reason why listening to this is a ticket to Feelsville is because I  strongly associate this song with one of my grandparents because the memory loss kept on eating him inside for years. Eventually, he started to wish that it would be his time already and of course, it first felt bad to hear but it was even sadder to see how someone dear to you turns slowly to vegetable without their own will. 

[kyluxtrashpit]

For the writing game, I couldn't decide which, all the colors please? They're so interesting!

Omg I was so excited when I saw this! You’re so sweet to enable my rambling

Red: What type of writer’s block do you experience the most?

I guess the most common one is I get stuck in transitions. Like I know how this scene goes and I know how the next scene goes, but I don’t know exactly how to get from A to B and it’s one of those cases where I can’t just put a line and jump to it. Scene transitions are one of the hardest things for me for some reason. The second most common for me is probably when my brain is being a shit and won’t let me be productive due to some sort of emotional crisis lmao

White: Are you a supporter/lover of fanfiction?

I mean, kind of obvious lmao, but absolutely. I think it’s great that there are people who are creating things solely out of love for something, and that’s really what fanfiction is, at it’s deepest core. It’s a community of people being so enthusiastic about and loving something so hard that they work their asses of and dedicate time to just… making more of it. For no real external benefit other than some social validation, if they’re lucky. Love and passion are the true motivators and idk that’s just really beautiful to me

Black: Would you want to live in one of the fictional worlds you’vecreated?

I don’t really do a lot of worldbuilding because I find it incredibly boring and I’m terrible at it lmao, but since I always write either canon-verse or modern au, I’m going to treat this as ‘do I want to live in the Star Wars universe?’. And the answer to that would honestly be no. As much as there’s cool stuff, like advanced technology and aliens and maybe I’d be lucky enough to be able to move shit with my mind, there’s also a lot of bad things. A lot of fascism, a lot of wars, and every once in a while some asshole builds a planet-destroying superweapon and blows up a planet (or 5) and like… I could live on one of those, you know

That said, if I didn’t die because the planet I was living on exploded, I would probably survive alright. I mean, my background is in science, so tbh I might have better opportunities there than I do here. While that could mean making chemical weapons or something if the Empire was in power, that’s at least more interesting than customer service at a chemical company lmao. I still wouldn’t choose to live there, but I think I’d manage okay if I had to

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Blue: What’s more important to you: characters or plot?

I mean, they both definitely matter, but if I have to choose? Interesting characters can save a dry plot, but the best plot ever written will still be mediocre at best if the characters aren’t compelling. Personally, I love character-driven stories more than anything. Event-driven plots can still be fun, but I prefer the focus to be on how the characters are dealing with said events, as opposed to them just being passively driven along by them. The best is when it’s the characters themselves driving the events of the plot, but that’s more difficult to execute than it sounds. Regardless, it’s the characters that usually draw me into a story in the first place and that keep me interested. And from the perspective of my own writing, I go character-driven, all the way. Sure, some event might happen that drives the plot sometimes, but I’m far more interested in how the characters react to that event than anything else

Yellow: What’s a common writing tip that you mostly ignore?

In terms of writing advice, nothing makes my blood boil more than those posts that say ‘get rid of this entire class of words’ or ‘if it’s not absolutely strictly necessary to the plot, cut it’. Fuck that shit. If you want your writing to look like Hemingway, sure, go for it, but a) Hemingway is overrated, and b) that’s not the only way to write well. Especially as someone who tends to focus on characters, passages that aren’t necessary to the plot may be necessary to establish characterization. Or they may add some emotion to the story that gets the reader invested. Same with wording choices; more or less words can drastically change the tone or mood of the scene. Are there times when you need to cut words and keep things concise? Absolutely, but any writing tip that says ‘remove every instance of [word] in your document’ is fucking bullshit and you should never listen to it

Grey: What’s a common writing tip that you almost always follow?

Tbh I think every writing tip you see should always be taken with a grain of salt, especially if it’s a ‘never do x’ because there is almost always a situation where doing x is the right thing to do, it’s just a matter of knowing how to do it correctly (looking at you, ‘never use the passive voice’). So really, there are very few I always follow, but I’ll give one that was foundationally helpful for me

Edit in a different format than you write. That can be changing the text size, or the font, or printing it out physically, or whatever. For me, I usually pop it into AO3′s preview function and take notes of things that need changing as I go. It forces your brain to notice things it’s been overlooking for the entire writing period. I only do my final edit this way, generally speaking, but I’ve found it to be incredibly helpful for catching typos and general weirdness in the writing

Orange: How many projects do you usually have going at once?

Because my fics are usually short, I tend to only have 1, but I think I’ve had up to 3-4 before. That’s basically me just popping between documents everytime I get stuck on one until one is finished lmao. But more than 2 gets to be a lot to handle

Currently, I’m really only working on my Big Bang fic, though I do have at least one one-shot I’m planning to write when I need a short break from it

Pink: Which of your characters would become your best friend?

This is so hard because like, I don’t get along with a lot of people generally speaking. I’m also going to treat this as the entire SW cast even though I only write Kylo and Hux, for the most part. And I’m not sure I’d be good friends with either of them. While Kylo would make an excellent self-destruction buddy, I think we’re too similar for the most part to get along. And while I also have an element of Hux in me that’s my anal retentiveness when it comes to organization (not to be confused with cleanliness; I’m talking more about my colour-coded work email and my nested folder system on my computer), I’m also very emotional, messy, and I’m not really equipped to verbally spar with him. I think I would actually do okay with Hux as a boss, not a friend, but with Kylo, I think we’d get along really well until we really didn’t. And then I would be dead lmao

Aaaand none of that was an actual answer. But like, I honestly don’t know? Most of the other characters I really like (e.g. Rey, Rae Sloane, Ventress), it’s because I would have a big huge crush on them which would manifest as my hovering in their vicinity a lot but never actually starting a conversation and then waxing poetic while crying about my unrequited love when I continue to go unnoticed lmao. Which is, well, still not friendship

Maybe Finn… I might get along really well with Finn. He’s one of my favourites as well and I think he’d be really interesting to talk to. Has a lot of interesting views on things, likely a good listener. Hm. I’m still not 100% solid on it, but after far too many words, that’s my answer lmao

Purple: Which of your characters would become your sworn enemy?

Okay, hear me out on this one because the reason isn’t what you think lmao. I’m also treating this less as ‘sworn enemy’ and more ‘person I’d least get along with’ and that’s actually Poe. And the reason is that highly extroverted, extremely friendly people who others call charismatic tend to rub me the wrong way. Like there’s nothing wrong with them, they’re perfectly nice, but they’re just too friendly and my socially-inept, introverted brain always responds to that with DANGER DANGER. And I think he would definitely fall into that category for me haha

Green: Pencil, typewriter, or computer?

Computer. I have written fic by hand before (I also sometimes do planning by hand, just because it can be a bit more visual; Fractured was planned largely by hand when I used to work evenings at a gym and had access to unlimited spare paper), but that’s usually only when I have nothing else to work with. I wrote most of a fic in the Halifax airport on a layover, once. I’ve also done it on my phone, but that’s too fucking annoying lmao. Typerwriters are super fun to use but also very impractical for me; my typing accuracy isn’t good enough

Brown: Do you have a set writing space? Or do you write everywhere?

Mostly I’m at home on my couch, but that’s really cause I have nowhere else to write. I do write at work sometimes (not smut though lmao), but only when it’s slow enough that I can get away with it. And there’s nowhere else I really go where I’m sitting with a computer for long periods of time

Silver: Are you comfortable writing in public places?

I am, yeah. I don’t know why I wouldn’t be tbh. Work is a public place and the only reason I don’t write smut there is because I don’t want to get fired lmao (slacking off is one thing, porn is another). I don’t really ever write in public, but that’s more because I don’t spend a lot of time sitting in public places by myself

Gold: Do your stories usually contain lessons or morals?

Not really… I can’t think of any at least. They always have some sort of closure, though, because I fucking hate open-ended stuff where everything isn’t worked out in the end lmao (or is at least on it’s way there). I’m too fragile for that shit haha

Clear: Do your characters control where the story goes or do youmaintain control?

I tend to write more like an rper than an actual author, based on conversations I’ve had with others, so my characters have a lot of control. That said, if you’ve got your plot and all the major points of it planned out and then you get halfway through and find it doesn’t work because of the characters, then that’s a failure in planning, not the characters taking control. Sometimes things do change and are reworked as you go, that’s the nature of writing, but that still means your plan needed some adjusting, you just didn’t know it at the time. I intentionally leave a lot of room in my plans for the characters (e.g. ‘and then they talk about [blank]. Hux says something mean and Kylo gets angry’ might be my only note for an entire scene), but if you’ve planned enough to actually start writing, your characters and plot should already work together. Characters control the minor details of the story, not the major plot

Tan: Are you open to co-writing a story?

I might be. I’ve never done it before and the Big Bang I’m doing now is the most collaborative thing I’ve ever done writing-wise. If someone approached me and was really interested in it, I might be willing to give it a shot. I’m not really sure how it works, though. I tend to envision it as basically an rp except it’s planned out beforehand and then edited afterwards, but in all honesty, I have no idea how it actually goes

[juunitaisenwishes]

So idk how my brain got on this topic and I have some ideas of my own, but I like hearing other people's perspectives. So the headcanons? Toshiko finding out that her s/o got her pregnant & then Michio, Nagayuki, & Takeyasu learning they got they're s/o pregnant. Again I have no idea how my brain got on this topic...^^"

Ooh! That’s unespected, but I like the idea! Don’t mind the topic, dear, I think it’s cute :3And I also like to imagine the characters in unexpected situations like this.I hope you don’t mind, but can I give the characters a little backstory? I can’t hold my brain and my fingers :’3

Finding about pregnancy

Boar

First of all, I believe Toshiko have no intention to get pregnant. She’s completely focused in her job and be the heir of the family that she don’t want to waste her time with something she really don’t care;

And I’m secure to guess that Toshiko don’t want to risk the perfection of her body. Pregnancy can chance a woman’s body, so I believe she want to preserve her beauty as much as possible;

She’s pretty young too, but probably when she’s the head of the clan, she’ll think about it;

And so, everytime Toshiko go to bed with a guy, she’ll use any method at her disposion (probably all of them) to don’t get pregnant;

(So about the backstory);

I can easily see Toshiko with bodyguards. Not she really need them, she can protect herself, but when she don’t want to waste her time and energy she can just send them;

All are handsome guy, of course. And she in a relationship with all of them;

And here is her s/o. He’s one of her bodyguards;

At first, he’s just one more guy and Toshiko don’t care that much about him;

But he’s different. When her others bodyguards pampered her, he just come to time to time, when he have something to talk or a interesting topic to discuss;

Toshiko is surprised at first. Usually her bodyguards just come with boring thing or empty praises (that she likes anyway), so this change really pleases her;

Both chat for hours and Toshiko really likes this moments;

S/o is also a sweetheart. He gives her attention and love without pressure her, and alway gives support;

Everything her family never give her;

That’s when she let her guard down;

After some days with cramps and nausea, Toshiko decides to take a pregnancy test;

When she got the positive, her first thought is abortion;

She’s a warrior, the heir of the boar family and she’s still young to give birth. Toshiko is convict to keep it a secret and do a abortion without her s/o know the truth;

But they eat breakfast together, and when she saw his smile she feels so dirty and repulsive;

Damn, truth to be told, she want the child, but have no idea how to deal with all of this;

What if her beloved s/o don’t want children and leave her?What if he’s lying to her all this time? She have ANY possibility to be a good mother?

For the first time in her life, Toshiko want to cry, but she maintain a calm and assertive look;

Sure no one notice, she’s in shock went her s/o ask her if is everything alrigth. He question her if her father do something again, hold her hands, kiss them and say he’s here for her;

Toshiko still keep her tears in check, but God, she loves this man!;

So she go straight “I’m pregnant”;

S/o smiled, keep holding her hands tenderly and ask “you want the child?”;

Toshiko surpresed herself when she say “yes” so easily and firmly;

Gods, she really want the child. With be the child of her sweet s/o, how can she just think in abortion so easily?

With her reply, s/o’s smiled become the more sweet and beautiful she ever see and hug her tight “You have no idea how I want to hear it, Toshiko! I don’t want anyone to be the mother of my children but you”;

Toshiko melt. She never feel so stupidly happy and loved in her entire life. And never expected to be so optimist to see her baby;

Extra

Toshiko want a girl, no doubts. She want her girl to be a dominatriz just like her;

She gives birth to a boy;

When she hear it, Toshiko expected to feel more disappointed, but she isn’t. At all;

Her boy is like a perfect fusion of her and her s/o, now husband;

Toshiko cried for the first time in her life;

She choose his name with a lot of care: Saiwarou. He’s her precious little boy and she’ll protect him with her life;

With Saiwarou older, she’ll want more babys and s/o will do as she wish;

They are, unespectedly, a happy family;

Dog

Unlike Toshiko, I can see Michio wanting a child. He already have his daughter (let call her Miki because it’s cute), but he like children, and one with his s/o with be nice, to say the last;

Unlike Toshiko, how want strong man, but also weaker than her, Michio isn’t that selective;

Michio looks like someone who don’t care about looks, but the woman NEED to like his daughter and at least try to be a good mother for her;

To this headcanon, I can visualize a s/o how work for the underground like him;

S/o and his daughter really like each other and s/o truly want to be a good mother to her, so she wins his heart;

Being both responsible parents, they probably with discuss about a new kid first;

They can’t just follow they hearts and let something lack for Miki;

After sometime discussing and figuring they money, both are secure with one more kid;

And Miki got really excited with the idea to have a little sibling;

So they start to try;

I can see they going for a month and nothing. Both feel a little frustrated but keep going;

So one day s/o just kick the door;

“MICHIO I’M FINALLY FUCKING PREGNANT!”

Michio don’t know if he feels happy with the news or angry because she broke the door;

He choose to be happy and hug her;

“But you’ll pay the door”

“I’m sorry, dear…”

When Miki arrived home they give the news. The little girl is so happy she can’t stop to hug her mother belly;

S/o will be forbidden to do dangerous jobs. Even if she try to convince Michio otherwise, he’s absolutely adamant about it;

The more the pregnancy advance, more protective he becomes;

Sometimes he even carry her. S/o don’t expected this, but she likes anyway;

I can see Michio dealing with s/o changes of humor like a boss;

She starts to cry and yell? He’ll gives her a hug, caressing her hair until she calm down. She start to feel cramps? He’ll prepare a hot water bottle. Nauseas? He’ll cook a light but good soup for her;

S/o fall in love again;

If s/o ask if he wants a boy or a girl, I can see he saying he wants a boy, but he actually wants another girl;

But will be happy with any;

Extra

S/o gives birth to a girl;

Michio is so happy he looks like a idiot;

They let Miki carry the baby. She’s so happy and promises to be a good big sister;

Michio insists to choose the name: Yuzuki;

“Grapefruit and hope kanjis? You can’t be more cheese”;

“Oh, shut up! As if you don’t like the name.”;

Yeah, s/o loves the name;

Easily the most happy family ever. Everyone is so precious;

Dragon

I can se Nagayuki don’t wanting a child, but, unlike Toshiko, how absolutely don’t want one, he’s kinda more neutral;

Like, if happen he will be ok, but if he can’t it’s better;

It’s not like he don’t want children with his s/o, but just see the problems and disadvantages and how hard with be to educate a children;

But aside of it, he don’t think much about it;

Like Toshiko, to this to happen Nagayuki will need to really care and love his, to the point to let his guard down;

But unlike Michio, how don’t care much about anything, Nagayuki likes “action girls” more;

I can see he really disinterested in normal girls or girls how need protection. Independent and secure girls are more his type. If she can fight, better. I she can fight at his side, nice. If she can carry him on the battlefield and keep fighting, well his pride will disapprove and he’ll never admit, but BOI, he’s all hers;

So yeah, his s/o will work on the underground just like him. Will be part of the brothers plans, probably;

She also help to babysitting Takeyasu. Nagayuki is relieved to have help. Now he can breathe;

The pregnancy will just come after a good time in the relationship. Something like 4 or 5 years;

Being used to the her, Nagayuki will relax to the point to share his thoughts and insecurities, what means A LOT;

With this level of intimancy, he’ll eventually let his guard down and eventually forget to use condoms;

And so, one day s/o come and say she’s pregnant;

Nagayuki almost drops his mug, but maintain his composure;

At first, he thinks s/o is trying to play a joke with him, but then she show the pregnancy test;

Now he drops his mug;

He want to ask s/o if she wants to abort, because, in the past, this was a solution for him, but the words don’t came;

Nagayuki need a moment to realize he wants the kid, but is not sure if he can be a good father;

“Well” his s/o started “can’t be worse than babysitting Takeyasu”;

“Point”;

Even a little insecure, it’s not enough to drive him away, so he decides to try;

After this, Nagayuki will start to feel better and better about the issue;

Takeyasu got really excited to be a uncle. He’ll want to teach about fire to the kind and Nagayuki just “oh, you so DON’T”

Nagayuki will try to act all cool, but in the truth, seeing his s/o’s belly grow makes him melt inside;

When s/o sleeps, he touch her belly to feel the baby. Eventually he’ll start to lay his head to hear them and it makes him so in love with the kid. He feels stupid to love so deeply someone how not even born, but… Kinda like it;

One day s/o will catch him and take a photo. Nagayuki try to delete it, but s/o ensures she will not show to anyone, because is her treasure;

Nagayuki never feel so embarassed;

Extra

Nagayuki wants a boy, he got a girl;

He haven’t time even to feel frustrated. S/o shows him the kid, and his girl open her eyes, the same as his, stared at him and lift her tiny hands to catch him;

She grabs one of his fingers and Nagayuki melted;

Fuck it, he loves his little girl;

They choose the name together: Migako;

She’ll grow a girl version of himself. he can’t be more proud

I can see both wanting more kids. Next will be twins and the last a single kid. All girls;

Nagayuki have no frustrations. He’ll love his daughters;

Snake

Like Nagayuki, Takeyasu is more into action girls, so he want a girl how can kick his ass;

He don’t like girls too delicate too, they need to be more confident;

Takeyasu will be the more likely to impregnate his girlfriend because I can see he not into safe sex;

S/o is not insecure about getting pregnant, because if happens, she know Takeyasu will take responsability;

To me, to Takeyasu start a relationship with someone he needs to really want the person. He can have a night of sex without problem, but a serious relationship just if he feel something special;

People will be surprese about how stable they’re as a couple;

Of course they fight, but it’s never serious;

When s/o tank about her pregnancy, Takeyasu will drop everything he’s doing, lift and spin her and laught like a retardad;

He’s actually happy and looking forward to be a father;

He probably will be a father first than Nagayuki and will be a jerk about it, of course (poor dragon);

I can see him kicking the door of Nagayuki room and yell “GUESS WHO WILL BE A FATHER!!”

Probably when Nagayuki is with his girlfriend in a… Intimate moment;

“Oh, trying to catch me up already?”

“OUT!”

Takeyasu will unexpectedly become more sweet with s/o. Hug her for behind, while he rubs her belly and gives softs kisses on her neck;

Remeber Nagayuki laying on his s/o belly just when she sleeps? Well, Takeyasu will do it everytime he can, and will comment when he hear the baby’s heart and when they kick;

He’s a unexpected sweet and attentive father-to-be;

Extra

He wants a boy, got a girl (because I like to troll)

But he’s not frustrated. He’s so happy with his child and that’s what matters;

(I cant think in a name to her, i’m sorry);

He’ll want more kids. Lots of them;

“Go easy on me, father of the year. I need a break”

In the end they really have a lot of kids. 5 and Takeyasu wants one more;

S/o’s belly need a year of vacation to her think about it;

[theyellowcurtains]

New Years Rec List!

I did one of these a couple months back but I’ve read more since then!

It’s not yet new years, yet I’m doing this now anyways.

These are all amazing fics with such amazing authors. I’d like to say thank you to everyone who does write, read, draw, post, or has any contribution towards this fandom for keeping it alive and giving up content still even after the show is over. Thank you all so much, and I hope that there is still more to come.

(Starred fics are favourites!)

Chaptered Fics!

Come if you remember the way - Teatrolley (Non-explicit sex)

The first time Isak meets Even he’s fourteen, and a moving van is pulling up on the street outside of his house. Four years later he’s standing in an airport with their friends and Even’s parents. Even is going abroad for six months.

Or: Isak and Even are childhood friends who always seem to gravitate towards each other. Then everything else happens

if i knew it were true - smokeshop (@supermanplaining) (Heavy discussion/themes of mental illness)

They’ve both been broken. Even hates his brain and Isak hates his life, and the past is always lurking. Friends With Benefits AU where Isak loves Even and Even loves Isak, but they’re afraid to make it work.

Keep Your Eyes On Me - obscurial (Explicit Sex)

“Okay, I think I’ll start now,” he chirps, smiling widely at the camera, and suddenly, his entire demeanour changes. His smile drops to a sultry smirk, eyes glazed with lust and desire. Even feels a familiar tight feeling in his pants, and without removing his gaze from the screen, he carelessly throws his unwanted jeans onto the ground by his bed.

“Who wants to play with me first?” Isak murmurs, tongue darting out to wet his pink lips.

Isak is a camboy, and Even is a new viewer.

The five people who got to know and love Isak and the one who loved him all along - hannakin

The five people who got to know and love Isak and the one who loved him all along. A tale of Isak Valtersen through the perspective of others.

Vivid in Black and White* - Fxckxxp (@fxckxxp​) (Mild sexual content)

In a Hei Briskeby video prank taken too far, Isak meets Even for the first time down on one knee—asking for his hand in marriage.

ivory* - evenvaltersen (Explicit Sex)

“Would that make you relax? A nice orgasm?” Isak nods, curling up impossibly closer to Even and Even almost wants to cry at the softness of it all, at how tiny and snuggly Isak looks in that pink, too big hoodie. “Alright, baby. How do you want it?”

//or: isak’s stressed. fingering makes him calm down.//

take me as i am - argentae (@minjard​)

He isn’t crushing, and nevertheless this guy has become a Problem, because whenever he’s on shift he’s made it increasingly difficult for Isak to really spend his time productively. Sure, he could just find another place to study but he likes the access to coffee here even though he actually kind of hates the bitterness of it and he’s just not going to let himself get swept aside because of this guy.

In summary: Isak has been suffering. Terribly.

I Feel It When You Look At Me*** - photographer_of_thoughts (@nikkimikki) (Explicit Sex)

“Did you hear about the new guy?” Jonas asked, motioning over to the other side of the cafeteria. Isak looked up and became rather breathless at the sight of the tall, blonde, and totally gorgeous boy wearing sunglasses. Wait. Sunglasses? Inside? “Must suck to be the new transfer and blind. I hope someone is helping him find all his classes.”

Or, Isak and Even learn to see each other.

The Weight Of Us - verlore_poplap (Not sure, may be Explicit Sex, Cheating is there)

Isak finally takes the plunge towards what’s seemed like an inevitability for almost ten years.

Of course that’s when some guy comes along and ruins everything.

—

Isak Valtersen is literally the last thing Even’s life needs right now.It pretty horrifying how hard that is to remember, everytime he’s around.

Blanket Fort Gospel* - Sabley (Explicit Sex)

Isak Valtersen met the love of his life when he was eleven years old. It was a truth he had long tried to deny, but it was the truth nevertheless.

Lovesick* - Sabley (Explicit Sex)

Even is absolutely not making up excuses to take his daughter to see the hot new pediatrician. (Except he totally is.)

Or 5 times Even’s daughter wasn’t actually sick and 1 time she was.

Wish You Were Mine - cuteandtwisted (Pretty sure this just has sex jokes)

“You’re after my heart, aren’t you?” said Even, leaning against the bar counter. “I thought we had already established that,” Isak smiled.

Or Even is Isak's favorite bartender and there's some mutual pining involved.

One Part Wonders! 

Netflix and Chill - colazitron (No smut! Just so sweet omg)

Even's one night stand's bed is far too comfortable to leave the morning after.

can you blow my whistle, baby.* - milominderbinder (@milominderbindered​) (Sex Jokes only)

It's a normal Friday night in Isak's life. Just five guys, hanging out drunk at McDonalds in the middle of the night, talking about blowjobs, trying to deep-throat coke bottles. That sort of thing.

And if floorboards speak, the kiss on my cheek - Teatrolley

Even makes every place feel like home.

Or: Isak and Even’s relationships, throughout Kollektivet’s seven rooms

the right to call this home* - argentae (@minjard​) (So soft)

“I told her about you,” Even tells Isak on a Monday night. They’ve just had dinner and Isak is lying with his head on Even’s lap, complaining about one of his professors (because what else is new).

“Who?” Isak asks, furrowing his brow.

Even looks down on him and raises his eyebrows, waiting for the penny to drop and—

Oh.

Isak sits up so quickly he almost headbutts Even’s chin.

(or four times Isak is nervous about Hanna and one time he isn’t)

For Sonja, With Love - obscurial 

The inscription baffles Isak to his core – who exactly was this Sonja, and what on earth made her want to leave such a beautiful expression of love by his charity shop’s doorway?

(An au where Isak runs a charity shop, and finds one of Even's paintings at his doorstep.)

when i’m close to you (we blend into my favourite colour) - Behindthecities (@vanqoh​) 

In which Isak and Even are boy-friends with a hyphen in the middle. //or the the 5 times Isak forgets that he’s not dating Even and the 1 time he does something about it.

thoughts of unruly curls and plush lips - reasoniwantyoutostay (Explicit Sex)

Isak and Even get consumed by thoughts of each other before meeting up for the Halloween pre-game.

AKA What happened before 21:21

Series!!

Technology - skambition (Explicit Sex)

Basic Summary: Isak and Even’s relationship over years and years and years. The second part of the series covers Even going to school in London and Isak and Even starting their journey in a long-distance relationship. The third part of the series is their life after they stop living so far apart and how their relationship develops over time.

Sesong 5: EVEN - XioNin (@xionin​) (Mentions of: Sex, Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Drug Use, Suicidal Thoughts)

Interviewer: Now we’ve gotten a little Isak and Even clip this season (4) too. But is there something you feel is missing, is there something you’d wish to tell?

Henrik Holm: Through the character Even? Oh my god Even is such a complex character that he should have had his own season. But, now there wont be any more seasons. So I still feel there’s a lot Even could have told, and a lot he could have taught others. Through his story. So of course. I’m sure I could have played this character for years. But it’s weird that it’s over.

I agree, Henrik. This is for you...

Santa, Baby******* - empty_venom (@isyakivaltersen) (Very VERY Explicit Sex, Sub/Dom Dynamics)

Basic Summary: Isak makes Even a special advant calander where each day has a different sex act. It goes through a lot of things, as well as a real life situation disruption. It is all well written and probably one of the best and most committed I’ve seen someone to a series. 

Unfinished!

Alphabet Aerobics - nofeartina (@nofeartina​) (Explicit Sex)

It starts with something Magnus says. Because of course it does.

“I bet you two have the most adventurous sex,” he says and looks at Isak with stars in his eyes.

Do they really? Isak's suddenly not so sure.

Or the one where Isak makes them explore sex using the letters of the alphabet.

When you’re near to me - skambition (Part of the technology series, Explicit Sex)

"Darling, when you're near to me this hope is everything and only you can save the day just because you're here and the world will disappear."

A story about Isak and Even and their beautiful future together.

[vesselblock65-blog]

Lindsey Harding | Learning a New Game

Not too long ago, Lindsey Harding seemed destined for Hollywood.

At least that’s what Gail Goestenkors thought.

“I fully expected to see her on the big screen,” said the former Duke University women’s basketball head coach, whom Harding played for during a standout career as a point guard for the Blue Devils.

In an individual meeting one time, Harding surprised Goestenkors by telling her that acting was her favorite class at the renowned ACC school. 

“She was getting ready to do what I believe was a monologue,” Goestenkors remembered, “and she said, ‘Do you want me to do it for you?’

“I said, ‘Yes!,’ and I mean she jumped right into character. I was about in tears, because it was so amazing and realistic. That’s when I said, ‘Oh my gosh, you have a gift.’”

Goestenkors wasn’t alone in feeling that Harding had a legit shot at becoming an actress. So too, Goestenkors said, did the acting coaches Harding continued to train with while she was in the WNBA.

Listen to Lindsey Harding's Appearance on The BroadCast

Whether Tinseltown is ever in the cards for the former National College Player of the Year and no. 1 draft pick remains to be seen. The anecdote, however, speaks to a broader, pertinent, and important theme of her life.

“She’s always very interesting, and always very interested,” Goestenkors said, “wanting to continue to grow, and explore different avenues. I always loved that about her.”

It’s a quality, by all accounts, that hasn’t changed, especially as it applies to Harding’s new line of work, a scout for the 76ers.

The game she’s learning might be different, but the approach - responsible for so many of her successes - has stayed the same.

Transitioning Into New Territory

In the modern NBA, four games in four nights is an unthinkable proposition. Truly.

Given the increasing (and justified) prioritization of player rest, the mere notion of inflicting such a demanding stretch on a player or team would be stopped dead before it could even qualify for nonstarter status.

These days, Lindsey Harding could be at a game on a Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Perhaps a Friday, too.

“It depends on the schedule, and who we’re trying to see,” said Harding, now four months into scouting for the Sixers.

Harding, by no means, is a stranger to the grind.

After completing a decorated career at Duke that earned her the no. 1 selection in the 2007 WNBA draft, Harding embarked on a pro career that was long and strong. It lasted 11 seasons, and featured stints with the Minnesota Lynx, Washington Mystics, Atlanta Dream, Los Angeles Sparks, New York Liberty, and Phoenix Mercury.

In the off-season, Harding typically packed up and went overseas, like many of her fellow WNBA peers. Opportunities in Europe took her to Lithuania, Russia, and Turkey, the country where her journey as a player officially ended 19 months ago.  

“I came back [to the United States] in May of 2017, and was done,” Harding said. “I took four months, and just vacationed. I was on any beach I could.”

But for someone who, for two decades, had poured so much sweat and cerebral equity into basketball, her feelings for the game didn’t just recede into the ocean.

“I knew I wanted to be in the NBA,” Harding said, reflecting on her state of mind in early retirement. “I didn’t know exactly in what capacity, but I knew that I had a lot of relationships, and wanted to just talk to people and see what they suggested.”

So, Harding decided to go to that year’s NBA Summer League.

One of the most impactul encounters she had in Las Vegas was with Bethany Donaphin, then the Associate Vice President of NBA Basketball Operations, and now the Head of WNBA League Operations.

Donaphin tipped Harding off about a newly-created initiative for former NBA players called the Basketball Operations Associate Program.

By the fall, Harding was in New York.

“You were given the chance to rotate through different departments within [NBA] basketball operations, from officiating to data analytics to CBA / salary cap, just everything to get an understanding,” said Harding. “It also helps with the transition from playing, what direction do I really want to go.”

More than anything, Harding’s year in the Basketball Operations Associate Program gave her a sense of what she didn’t want to do, and that was be in an office around the clock.

“I really wanted to work with a team. I missed that competitiveness, I missed ‘my’ team. So, from there, I talked to different teams and organizations about getting my foot in the door.”

A door opened earlier this year in Camden, New Jersey, and here Harding is now, the first real chapter of her post-playing career well underway.

Putting a Premium on Relationships

Everytime Harding drops by the 76ers Training Complex, which, in-season, is a rare occurrence, due to all the traveling she does, she gets a bunch of hugs.

Fine by her.

“I’m a hugger anyway,” Harding said. “I’m from the South.”

By necessity, Harding’s new role requires her to throw her arms around a bunch of different people, in a metaphorical embrace.

That’s because intelligence gathering is at the heart of her gig as a scout, “a big piece of the pie,” as Vince Rozman put it.

“It’s a huge component, especially from the NBA perspective,” said Rozman, Senior Director of Scouting for the Sixers. “Everybody knows what players are good and what they do. Understanding how they might fit, how they might react to our team and our coaching staff, it’s huge.”

Coaches, players, other scouts, executives, agents - all represent potential sources of intel capable of helping paint a more complete profile of a player.

Scouts like Harding are responsible for procuring this type of information.

And what’s the most direct, effective, and reliable way to unearth nuggets, big or small, that could eventually influence key personnel decisions?

Relationships, which Harding is all about.

“That’s why relationships are big, right?,” she said. “If I really know someone, and I have a great relationship with them, they’re more likely to tell me good stuff, the really good stuff. Some of the information I may not know, or I may not know how true it is, or I may not know if it’s heresy. But for me and my organization, I’ll bring it back and say, ‘What do you think about that, or is this crazy?’”

It can be a tricky dance, as straightforward as Harding makes it sound. 

Imagine this scenario:

You’re Lindsey Harding, an already recognizable figure in basketball circles, given your accomplishments on the court.

Now, you’re a scout, and odds are, just about everyone of your counterparts probably knows who you work for, and what you’ve come to the arena for that day.

Valuable intellectual property.

Harding’s personality has helped her cut through any potential awkwardness. “Genuine” was a word Rozman used to describe her.

“She’s easy to talk to, very outgoing, confident, and approachable. All of those qualities, once you walk into a gym and need to talk to a coach or other people scouting the game, it’s helpful, it goes a long way.”

Sounds a lot like the point guard Gail Goestenkors coached at Duke.

“She’s outgoing, for one, and she’s never met a stranger, for two,” Goestenkors said of Harding. “When you’ve got a great communicator who’s outgoing, but also very caring, sensitive, and curious, I think people are naturally drawn to that, and feel comfortable. And when people feel comfortable, they tend to open up more, and share more. I think that’s vital.”

Nailing the ice breaker, Harding has learned, is critical to starting good dialogue. She often picks the brains of some of the Sixers’ more experienced scouts for tips on how to get the conversation rolling.

“You don’t ever want to be someone who comes in and is like, ‘Hi, I’m Lindsey, soooooo…,” Harding joked. “That’s kind of rude, because people have done it to me. I don’t know if they think, ‘Oh she’s a newbie, she’s going to tell us everything we want.’”

Harding, as gracious and affable as she is, doesn’t. She’s catching on quick.

“Everyone’s been very, very helpful.”

Offering a Wealth Perspective

To only highlight Harding’s interpersonal skills would be to do a disservice to the well-rounded package she brings to the 76ers.

It would also be shortsighted to simply play up another narrative that’s associated with her.

“I don’t want it to be ‘The Sixers mostly hired you for that,’” said Harding, the second WNBA player and first African-American WNBA player to land a full-time scouting position with an NBA franchise.

She even addressed the matters of gender and race with the Sixers during her job interview. The response heartened her.

“They were like, ‘Yeah, we see that, but you’ve had experiences and have done things that most of our people haven’t. We want you to bring that, and we feel it’s going to be different, unique, and that it’s going to help us.’

In Harding, here’s what the Sixers saw:

“The combination of her skill as a player, and the personality and the desire to coach and learn and integrate herself into the NBA, that package was overwhelming,” said Brett Brown.

“She really comes with an amazing resume, pedigree, and spirit. When you talk to her, you feel that competitive drive that I would feel from Jimmy Butler.” 

Determination, and an insatiable desire to succeed have long been parts of Harding’s DNA.

Before basketball, she was a track-and-field star. Subsequently, Harding picked up hoops relatively late.

While being recruited for college, she was ranked predominantly on state level lists in Texas, mostly flying under the national radar.

But by the time Harding departed Duke for the WNBA, she was the sixth player in ACC history to reach 1,000 points; 500 rebounds; 500 assists; and 250 steals. Putting how good she was into further context, her no. 10 jersey hangs in the rafters of famed Cameron Indoor Stadium, and this past fall, she was inducted into the Duke Sports Hall of Fame.

“She just continued to work and improve,” said former coach Gail Goestenkors. “When it was all said and done, she was the top player in the country, and the no. 1 draft pick. That’s how far she came. She was very good, don’t get me wrong. But she wasn’t considered one of the elite. But by the time she finished, she was the elite.”

In addition to Harding’s work ethic, the Sixers were intrigued by the vantage point she could bring to the scouting staff as a former pro who had not only played extensively in the United States, but also, particularly, in Europe.

“She’s played in the WNBA, overseas, and she was obviously a high-level prospect,” Vince Rozman, the Sixers’ Senior Scouting Director, said. “She’s experienced all of these types of progressions that players we’re looking at have gone through. She’s really seen it all.”

Harding, who played for Belarus at the 2016 Olympics, admits she wouldn’t see the sport the way she does now had she not competed internationally. There were differences everywhere - in styles of play, coaching, and cultures.

“There are a lot of things I did learn from [international basketball], different talent, different players,” she said. “Some players you’d look at and say they’re not a great athlete, they’re not this and that, but how do they keep ending with 20 [points] and 10 [rebounds]? There’s something about this player that makes them good, and I really liked focusing on that too.”

In 13 seasons with the Sixers, Rozman has come to believe that diversity of perspective is an imperative dynamic to have within a scouting department. Harding, given the depth of her experiences, figured to enrich the room.

“Most of the year isn’t coming to answers, it’s coming to identify questions, and argue through them,” said Rozman. “As many different backgrounds and viewpoints as you have, it’s great.”

“It is sophisticated,” Brett Brown said about the art of scouting. “It’s intel gathering, it’s the nuances of seeing something that others might not see. It’s studied stuff, it’s homework stuff, it’s gut feel stuff.

“I think that with Lindsey’s experiences, both domestic and internationally as a player, she’s got a real chance to be something different as it relates to a polished, versatile scout.”

End Game

The way the world works, now that Harding has gotten started scouting for the Sixers, it’s only natural for us to wonder what her end game is, right? Where does someone with as intriguing a backstory as hers want to ultimately end up?

At the moment, Harding, who's scouting a little bit of everything for the Sixers, is just happy to have found a rhythm to her still relatively fresh routine, while continuing to meet new people, and expand her network of contacts.

“I’m much more comfortable now,” Harding said. “Everyone, not just my organization, but other scouts, has been very helpful.”

For as long as Gail Goestenkors has known Harding, which is pretty much all of Harding’s adult life, she’s admired her former player’s perpetual interest in “everything going on in life, and seeing life as a great adventure.”

“The sky’s the limit for her. I love that she dreams big, then goes out and tries to make it happen,” said Goestenkors, who spoke to Harding shortly before the season started

“She said, ‘I’m glad I’m doing this right now, because I’m behind the scenes, and I get to see how things work and how difficult it is and the decisions that need to be made. So this is so good for her.’

Harding was always a fast study anyways, Goestenkors said.

“She learns quickly, adapts, adjusts, and then excels.”

As Harding continues to learn more and more about the ways of the NBA, she’s already discovered that when it comes to professional trajectory on the basketball operations side of things, oftentimes “there’s no exact path.”

“You don’t go to ninth grade, 10th grade, 11th grade, then 12th grade,” said Harding. “Some people go straight to 12th grade.

“For me, and how I’m taking this, it’s one step at a time. I look at this as the opportunity of being a scout, a great opportunity to learn what everyone does, how they do it, and see what opportunities I have next.”

The partnership with the Sixers so far  has been productive, and promising.

“I just feel that at this stage of her life, and the timing we have in organization, I think it’s a great fit on both sides,” said Brett Brown. “We’re thrilled to have her. Male or female, she’s great at what she does.”

Source: https://www.nba.com/sixers/news/lindsey-harding-learning-new-game

[erinforitnow]

Really Outta Place Rant, If You Know Me Personally Please Don’t Read!

I don’t think this post warrants any trigger warnings but the last thing I want to do is upset people so if by chance someone actually reads this post and wants tws lmk.

All my life I was bullied for who I was, by my parents, by my grandparents, the kids at school, even the fucking teachers. I couldn’t sleep. I had no outlet because my family judged everything I liked, and gave me shit for showing dislike for things too. Everything I did was poked and prodded, I had no privacy. Not even my journals felt safe.  All my life I’ve also experienced an inability to see images in my head, and I had OCD, so the only thoughts I had were songs, as I was obsessed with certain albums. My brain has never felt like an escape, or a safe place, it was just a radio I could never turn off, and I felt ostracized because everything I learned and saw I had to slowly break down over the noise (as I was too insecure to do it out loud), so I’ve always felt behind.

All my life I would also black out and when I woke up things would have happened that I didn’t do. It didn’t even feel like I was really possessed. It was like I got shut off. I didn’t retreat into my mind, I just sunk back. I would just watch events unfold in front of me like the world’s most boring movie. And I would forget a lot of happened. But sometimes it was more like a record skip. My life just kept changing and I suddenly was told I liked things that I didn’t. I’ve always hated confrontation so I just went with it. I hated everything about myself, everything I created, everything I said I loved, because I felt like they weren’t mine, they belonged to the me that everyone else knew, the me that everyone preferred. I started sleeping around at an early age. I tended to drift towards people that treated me like shit. Just because at that point in my life I didn’t have any sort of emotional outlet for the decades worth of bottled up emotions. I slowly at that point started to get the ability of just giving up control. I could blackout on demand when I was too stressed or scared or sad or whatever. I started doing this a lot during sex because I wasn’t sexually attracted to the people I dated.

At long last, I finally got to college, to freedom, and I started expressing myself through music and poetry, but the voices were still there, and I kept losing control during the moments I wanted to be there the most. I met two amazing friends and the most amazing girl I had ever met. I started a band, and I wrote a few songs that I think will really be a hit. The girl I liked said yes to going out with me. I finally had everything I wanted. Everything I never had. But I didn’t want to share it with the other me, so I started using DPH to sleep and repress her. And it seemed to work for a while. Until one night, a friend of mine stayed over, and when I fell asleep Alex took over and started flirting with her (This was not one of the times where my life felt like a movie, it was one of the times where I wasn’t watching). It got to the point where she was breathing pretty fast and wanted to go further. But something happened. I woke up. and I REALLY misunderstood the situation. I told my friends and they had my back, but luckily the girl started to get through to them and they believed her. They turned on me. Everyone turned on me. The girl I liked started to drift and I think she probably got the wrong idea.  I was mostly alone until this sweet girl told me she had a crush on me. She would come over but all I had the energy to do was sleep. I couldn’t help it, it was a combination of weed, my meds, the dph, and the fact that Alex took over when I slept. I felt exhausted constantly. We started getting close, she was really sweet and her and her friend were there for me. I was still recovering from my break up before I met the girl I was actually attracted to, and that “break up” too. So I kept getting more stressed. I turned to dph harder. Like an insane amount. I kept giving my pills to my gf to try and get clean but it didn’t work. I would black out and wake up with another bottle. My roommate tried to report me and he came over and something inside me just broke. I screamed at him, which sucks because hes one of the sweetest guys I’ve ever met and I really hurt him. I cut off everyone and stopped going to classes.  Winter break rolled around and I went home to my tiny farming hometown. I felt even more alone, as I only had one friend back home. And while she was great, it wasn’t enough to keep me from giving up. I started spending an insane of money on otc drugs to get fucked up as much as possible. I didn’t want to die but I felt like the world wanted me to, that’s my excuse for my addiction.  I came back to campus after a few failed dates and a few weeks of dph and tussin abuse and just couldn’t bring myself to go to my classes. I keep trying to take my life but everytime i do I black out and they take over and I just can’t. I need something immediate, like a jump or a gun, everytime I try to hang myself or over dose I just can’t.  My friends slowly started to forgive me for what happened. I explained my perspective and they trusted me. things started to heal. but I was still skipping my classes, and I was blacking out more and more. but every time I wake up more people are talking to me. The other me has two boyfriends, and a bunch of boy toys on campus. they do my homework, talk to my friends. They’re hosting an orgy. They’re doing everything I was always too scared to do, but theyre also stealing my life. People have msg’d me and came to my door asking for Alex. My friends are down with her being in front full time.  They’re letting her lead the band I always wanted, they’re stealing my art and my music and saying its theirs. And I can’t even do anything, i just don’t have the courage. Everyone hates me, they call me “Hyde.”  But the thing that really, really, gets me, is that they claim they’re the original, they say I’m a facade and I’m not real. to not worry about me because i was just a character, that my songs and my thoughts and my journal and my money belong to them, that they’re the ones that did all the hard work, that they worked 60 hour weeks in a kitchen back home, that they made all the decisions about my life and look. And everyone believes them?? I don’t understand why people can’t see Alex is a lying psychopath. I’ve lost everything. I’ll I wanted to do is suppress them with sleeping meds because I didn’t want them to scare off the girl I like (shes pretty young, doesnt date much, insanely smart, beautiful, and talented, VERY straight arrow) but I scared her off anyways. I can’t even bring myself to talk to her anymore. I hate everything.

TL;DR:

I have two personalities, but my other personality tortures me and is stealing my life, but everyone likes my other personality better so they don’t care.

[kiss-shotheart-under-blade]

Kizu Rambles and Some Meta Discussions (feel free to add any thoughts to continue the conversation):

So this is mostly just a list of my thoughts as I finally get to the Kizu movies I’ll be adding as I watch.

○ Part 1: Tekketsu-hen “Iron-Blooded” • The slow jazz combo with the fanservice kills me. I’m dead. • Dude, I’m super vibing the character designs for this. Like Hanekawa is so fucking cute, but not in an overwhelmingly cutesy way that I’m personally not a huge fan of. • This definitely gives a different feel to the Monogatari Series if you started on this first, which I knew some people have. • Araragi looks so much more fashionable here (probably from the style change). Like I can’t get over his peace necklace right now. • God, Shinobu, well Kiss-Shot in this case, crying breaks my heart. • Seriously though, this is so beautiful. I love the character designs for this soo much. Gosh. • Not gunna lie, I miss the long monologues. I have always loved character driven, dialogue heavy pieces of works. • They’re really playing up the horror aspect of this as expected. It’s neato. • Knowing context means everything you see makes a lot more sense and is way sadder too, like the name and the head rubs. Also, Kiss-Shot is soo fucking cute♡ Best girl~ • I know Shinobu speaks in an old-timey manner, but these subs are laying it on thick though the quality is great. 👌 • I understand this is a prequel, but damn if you think I won’t cheer from seeing Oshino Meme. I miss that man. Also, man I cannot get enough of this art style. Definitely art inspo♡♡♡ • Man, this is soo good. God, understanding the finale of their exchange and watching Kiss-Shot just silently bare it leaves the viewer with so much tension and drama, or at least for me. • The ending theme 👌👌👌 Now onto part 2!

○ Part 2: Nekketsu-hen “Hot-Blooded” • Oh shit bois, ohh shit. A fight! Like jkay, not yet. • Dude, the Aikido for Dummies part kills me. • I saw the baby hand, and all I could think of was the Deadpool movie. • Dramaturgy gave up really quickly. I wanna know why he hunts other vamps. • Every fanservice scene this time is super over dramatic in the movies. I’m crying. Also, Hanekawa seriously got the cutest lingerie. Like girlll~ • Kakakaa, the leg scene. Ahahahahaha~ • I really do prefer the designs in this for the vampire hunters than the og ones. Ngl. • Thanks, Araragi, for asking questions I’ve been wondering like about the limbs 👍👍 Better than leaving it as some weird mystery. • My dudes, I’m living for the Bake music remakes are♡ • I know it uses a lot of jazzy music, but I’m crying at the sexy jazz that starts planning as Oshino looks at Araragi. I know there’s a ship for it out there. • Dude, young teen Shinobu doing some nice acrobatics here got me feeling those Breath of the Wild Zelda vibes~🌹 The pointy ears help with that image. • Super confirmed: I’m weak to Jazz. Reminds me of Transistor music. • Their conversation about running away from reality, and Hanekawa looking down reminds me of a meta I read about how people can probably start seeing oddities not only from having a trauma, but also from choosing to avert one’s eyes from reality, allowing them to shift their gaze into that realm in which oddities exist. Once you’ve seen one, it’s hard to leave that ‘night world’ since you can’t unsee what’s happened once before. I really like that explanation for oddities since it seems to fit the most. Oshino often describes how oddities are what we make of it; that they basically have to live by their reputation, our perspection of them. Makes sense why Shinobu isn’t acting like an oddity because she wasn’t being viewed as one anymore. • Always nice to see a gratuitous body shot of guys lately. It’s nice to see the sexy fanservice not limited to the girls. Also, thanks half sleepy grumbles of Shinobu about how being a vampire makes you hot. It was amusingly adorable, and also informative about why Araragi is fucking shredded! I always wondered why he was so ripped. • ‘Course I’m just checking to see how human you are. *slowly strokes every ab* Yuuuuuppp, suuuper humab. *circles some more* Wow, so human. Glad to know they’re both lusty after each other’s bods • The part I paused at when Hanekawa falls into the chair after being accused of touching other men’s bods frequently show that she is thicc 👌 Or at least she is from the angle. • I just did this awful screech laugh when he did the sexy lean down on chair and go, seriously thanks, like a typical fucking bishounen. Then Hanekawa’s reaction. I’m dying, Squirtle! Makes the weirdest fucking character ever, but also makes him super weirdly endearing and weirdly hot. Thanks NishiOisiN. 👍👍 • I’m CACKLING~! A glasses girl porno. Why always so specific? Like I’m not into loli’s so lemme grab this hot, sporty milf mag, hmm, just like that one woman, hmmmm. I’m super enjoying the :3 face Hanekawa makes as she glances at him knowingly. More cat-like pre-cat. • Teen Kiss-Shot has such a nice aesthetic, but jesus fuck that head imploring scene, like girl has no chill. I’m always uncomfortable with those types of horror-y scenes. • All I can think everytime I see that ridiculous big ass cross is something along the lines of, ‘lol, I’m not overcompensating all.’ • Forrealz, like how isn’t that cross hurting Mr. Half-Vamp himself, Episode? Real questions. Also, his life and crazed looks kill me. • What the fuck, Episode!? That explains why Hanekawa seemed so put-off when she saw him again in Tsubasa Tiger! Bro, she’s human, chilllll~ Also, must every brilliant character have a Kakyoin moment? Honestly this could be a Jojo reference for all we know since we know NisiOisiN enjoys his references, including those to JJBA. • Oshino really plays up his true neutral nature here. Okay, lemme correct myself, I think he’s more chaotic neutral or even chaotic good then true neutral which is more Gaen. • Again with the head plunging. Geeze. I love this literal use your brain. • I’m gay for young adult Kiss-Shot. She’s hot. Best girl 👌 • You gotta props Araragi for being smart, even if he’s really dense. Also, the more human, the deadlier. I really wanna know why they’re hunting Kiss-Shot down. • Hanekawa was wild during Golden Week. Also, dick in pants, Araragi. He’s totes gunna worship those panties. • This explains even more Tsubasa Cat, and his obsession with dying for her. Her selflessness (ish) influences the development of his own. Did she already like him? Like I am curious why she helps him since she’s not as saintly as he think she is. • Guillotine Cutter is a right up ass. Man, I wish we can get more Koyomi Vamp fighting scenes in Monogatari, but alas he’s half human for now. • I love these titular character arcs barely show the characters. Yeah~ It’s not uncommon, but damn, lemme see my vamp girl! • Ending theme is super jammy♡ French music is so pleasant to listen to~ I’m now on part 3! I do really enjoy the standalone nature of these. I wish they would air them in theater like Kimi no Na Wa did. (And also completely caught up for the first time in years since I’ve started since I have such a bad habit of starting and not finishing even if I really like it. Honestly, all I wanna do is rewatch this series over and over again to analyse every part. Also, gotta read those light novels~)

○ Part 3: Reiketsu-hen “Cold-Blooded” • When??

To be continued…