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[gummiibladii]

hello

[nobie]

Neil Gaiman.

I want to say a few things from a journalist perspective. I'm a journalist myself, I needed to get as much information as I could about this news with as much objectivity as I can have.

Tortoise is a UK based media group. They do a lot of multi media investigative reporting (not traditional mmj though more like scripted podcasts, regular podcasts, videos etc.). Their motto, I guess you could call it, is “Get the news not when it happens, but when it’s ready.”

It’s a fine model from a business standpoint, but in the journalism industry, being fast and accurate is what most news organizations strive for. But never hit the mark to be honest. Heavy on the accuracy part. Tortoise is comparable in America to NPR, but NPR is on a far larger scale since Tortoise is still new, being founded in 2019.

The SA allegations became a story from the ground up. There was nothing said about it before yesterday because this story came directly from the women he allegedly assaulted. I know using the word "allegedly" seems like a cheap shot, but it has to be used because none of it has been confirmed by Gaiman. Only that he did in fact have relationships with these two women. But the SA allegations continue to be denied. The reporters and producers at Tortoise media have written an article and created a full four part podcast. They detailed their stories from both women, spoke about SA misconceptions, and gave background on Gaiman and his relationships (relationships meaning sexual and non con acts happening with them so be aware of that).

The podcast, I'm not entirely fond of because a sensitive subject should not be made into a form of "entertainment." But it did give me more information and different perspective on the story. And from the way this podcast is produced you can tell this story was not investigated lightly. It is a bit distasteful, but it has been done before. This is a full production mind you with a beginning, middle, and end. Plus sound effects and dramatic music, so thats why I say I'm not really fond of the idea. Just reporting the entire story with quotes from the victims would've been enough. I can only hope the reporter and producer did their job ethically as to fully understood the allegations and weight of the subject. (They do mention that in the podcast as well, but as a journalist all I do is ask questions so I def had questions.)

Now this goes without saying, but there should never be any doubt that SA is unjustified and horrifying. And one should never disregard the feelings of the victims. Saying anything like "well they shouldn't have put themselves in that situation," is what I mean by disregard. Why would anyone put themselves in that situation?

That line of thinking is why SA is one the biggest ethical topics in media. Should it be reported? Should it not? How do we go about reporting such a sensitive subject objectively? Do we name the victims? Do we name our sources? Have we considered all of the code of ethics in our reporting? What about our personal values?

Journalism code of ethics: Minimizing harm, seek the truth, act independently, take accountability and be transparent. This might be the first time you're seeing these and I know historically it feels like none of this is considered, but I always consider them.

It’s been a battle of my own personal values to have to report events like this with no bias, but it’s necessary for accuracy and integrity in my reporting.

Ethically, as a journalist, I can't choose sides I need to look at it from all sides. But personally, as a human, I can't condone these actions. Nor will I ever condone it. All kinds of things are being said about this news, and everyone is allowed their own opinion. I only wanted to put my perspective out there because it should be another side of the story to understand, considering this came from Tortoise investigating the allegations.

Here is the article and other news sites that have talked about the story from Tortoise. Also gonna link SPJ code of ethics in case you want to read through them.

Tortoise

The allegations against Neil Gaiman (ep.1 on spotify but you can listen anywhere they have podcasts)

The Telegraph

Daily Mail

The Rolling Stones

SPJ Code of Ethics

Also to the Good Omens fandom, I know this is tough news, but you are allowed to still enjoy Good Omens. I know the guilt/shame of enjoying things that are against your morals, but be kind to yourself.

none of this edited so i apologize for any mistakes.

[amos-evans]

Stumbled across this photo of Amos Evans' grave marker after my requests on Find A Grave went unanswered. The author of the Maryland Medical Journal article it was in, Seruch T. Kimble MD, FACP, (apparently a distant relative of Amos) describes it as "a small unpretentious tombstone" which I find to be quite apt.

Source: MMJ (Volume 40, 1991)

[sou-lscenario-processblog]

07.11.2023 MMJ

Reflecting on the Journey ✨📚

Sitting here late at night, I think about this past term like a story coming to life. I remember feeling unsure about what direction to take my website, searching for the right images that I could use for free, and the push to fill it with my own stories. 💕

Meeting Talgat Alman was inspiring - it made me see that my dream of being an international journalist is possible if I work hard and stay focused. It reminds me that every pro starts as a beginner, every top journalist once published their first article.🧩

I had to match my own goals with what my classes expected of me. A topic like drug use, which was just an idea at first, has grown into something big and meaningful. It shows how journalism can really make a difference.😍

Dealing with tough stuff like privacy issues, copyright, and keeping readers engaged is tricky, but it's also what makes me better at what I do. Learning about the fight between Google and authors wasn't just about law; it was about understanding how media is changing because of technology.

Music and memories have kept me company through all this – the powerful pieces by Ludovico Einaudi and songs from a favorite K-drama. They remind me that creativity comes from living life and drawing on our experiences.

Looking forward, I see that journalism isn't just sharing information; it's about connecting with people's hearts and minds. It's about telling important stories with honesty and imagination.

The clock continues to tick, and my story continues to write itself, one word, one choice, one late night at a time.

Как рождественская музыка объединяет ноты в мелодию, так и конец нашего учебного семестра по журналистике объединил все, что мы узнали, в целостную картину. Это заключительный аккорд нашего обучения, полного открытий и успехов. 🎼 ✨

🍁 London Symphony Orchestra - Christmas Classics (Full Album)

[bisexualityinfused]

as per your request to hear about a heartbreak/recovery:

i found out my partner was cheating on me with women online (who knew he was in a relationship but oh well) and it was the most intense heartbreak ive ever had to deal with.

i almost left him but i wanted to try and save the relationship, and so i went to therapy, couples counseling, worked on myself/figured out who i was, learned how to communicate effectively, and how to cope in a healthy way (art & journaling mostly). i also got a mmj card but that wasnt until way later in the healing process.

i spent the first year haunted by it. nightmares, anxiety, insecurity, rage, depression, you name it. getting cheated on feels like ptsd. i lost my sense of self. i saw the world so negatively.

after that first year, things improved dramatically, not overnight, but the pain was easier to manage. it wasn't all consuming. i could dismiss the doubts in my mind. i could calm down my anxiety. and it just kept improving.

to this day im still with him and hes been amazing and contributed to rebuilding what he broke. (though if he pulls that shit again im out)

it was a rough time healing, easily one of the hardest things ive ever been through. but im happy again. my relationship is healthier than ever before. i didnt think id make it out of that pain alive but hey, life's full of surprises.

(disclaimer: im a firm believer that forgive and forget only applies if behavior changes over time, which in my situation it did. dont stay in an unhealthy relationship full of unfulfilled promises of change)

anyways sorry for the long message but i figured maybe you wanted a happy ending story so here's mine ((ps i think your blog is neat & hope youre doing well))

Thank you for the story!

The classic advice you always hear is to just leave the cheater and not go back but like. As someone who's been through that kind of stuff I get it. Wanting to stay and fix things. I'm really really happy to hear that it worked out. I like a story where things like this actually get solved and repaired. I'm very happy for you 🧡🧡🧡🧡

[echidnana]

17 & 21 :))) love you!! -finny

YAY thank you so much for the ask :DD we were in the mood to ramble about prosekai so this got kind of long. answers under the cut :)

17. What songs would you like added to the game? Which units (if any) would you like to cover them?

OOOOO THERES SO MANY!!! our #1 always is a leoni cover of any song from bocchi the rock! it would be SO cool (even though we know it'll never happen)

we would also absolutely cry to a leoni cover of sister by eve. it would be So Good, please give us a second eve collab colopale

some others:

- internet Yamero by Aiobahn (Ena)

- nothings working out by meiyo (niigo)

- ultimate senpai by PinnochioP (either wxs or mmj but probably wxs)

- sick sick sick by PinnochioP (saki)

- Fridays good morning by honeyworks (mmj)

- Ai no uta (mmj)

- zombies by deco*27 (vbs or mmj)

- mannequin by deco*27 (mmj)

- tenetene (niigo)

- deathly loneliness attacks (niigo or leoni)

21. Share a headcanon for your favorite character(s)!

YIPPEE OK since we love all of the characters equally. have one for each character >:) also some of these are very niche and specific

Ichika: he spent a lot of time online during his middle school years before reconnecting with leoni. mostly on like Miku forums and such

Saki: MOBILITY AID USER!! switches between crutches, a cane, and a wheelchair depending on the day but is on crutches the most often. they're also covered in stickers, everyone knows she loves stickers so Saki is always getting stickers as gifts! she has a penguin from Haruka, phenny from emu, sparkly stars from tsukasa, music notes from Toya, and a lot more!!

Honami: they hate flying- not scared of heights, just being in a plane freaks them out

Shiho: they really like cutesy movies like romcoms and such! they also can't do horror and have really strong reactions to thrillers and such

Minori: AUTISTIC QUEEN she had a "special interest journal" where she basically just wrote down all the idol stuff she knew. it was not just one journal it was like five full notebooks. and this was in ADDITION to her regular diary

Haruka: going to be honest. fat Haruka is so important to me. it's pretty upsetting how she has an ed and it's just. never addressed? and treated as normal? so we love the idea of Haruka putting on weight after becoming an idol again with mmj. she loves sweets so much!!!

Airi: DRAG KING so normal about Airi doing drag. definitely a lot of gender fuckery going on. Airi would totally see being an idol as an exaggerated performance of gender so he starts branching out into other expressions!! can totally see her wearing wigs or doing really funky costumes

Shizuku: her favorite animal is the ostrich! she loves "ugly" animals because she genuinely thinks they're beautiful

Kohane: is extremely knowledgeable about snakes and also very comfortable with things like animal death by virtue of having count pearl! if you ask her something about snakes she WILL talk for hours

An: very very picky eater. she hates slimy textures and loves simulating foods like spicy and crunchy stuff.

Akito: loves to do hair and makeup and is a very touchy person!! once vbs is formed and close Akito likes to play with the other's hair or do their makeup for fun :) an's hair is his favorite for elaborate hairstyles, kohanes is the most fun, and toya's hair is the softest

Toya: has arthritis and general hand pains as a result of being forced to play the piano so much when she was younger. it's hard for her to deal with, not just because of the pain but because of the memories associated with it

Tsukasa: has awful vision he refuses to get checked out. the rest of wxs start to notice how he has trouble reading things far away or doesn't seem to take notice of farther things so Rui decides to bring it up. tsukasa has a lot of internalized ableism especially as he feels he HAS to be totally healthy to be a good older brother to saki so the rest of wxs definitely helps walk him through the process of getting glasses

Emu: very animated while watching movies, she can't just sit still and be quiet she's constantly commentating and exclaiming things!! like "oh no don't go in there!!!" or "GASP! how could he!" wxs movies nights are very loud with her and Tsukasa combined

Nene: swears a LOT because of her online gaming. tries to tone it down around her friends, especially when at pxl, but it slips out a lot

Rui: makes things for his friends all the time!!! literally willing to learn anything. he's made hearing aids, braces, robot animals, water bottle filters, etc etc. also he has an AWFUL sleep schedule

Kanade: they have very poor motor skills and get shaky alot- it's one of the reasons they'll take a break from composing, but only if they're shaking bad enough for it to be too difficult to continue. that's part of the reason they were willing to try exercising. just overall very sickly

Mafuyu: he's transmasc + plural! also once he starts to heal and feel more connected to himself he gets very very physically affectionate with niigo. like hugs and cuddling and laying in laps, it just makes him feel very safe and cared for

Ena: AWFUL at video games. fighting games, survival, roleplay, she literally is so bad. mizuki tries to get everyone to play Minecraft and they have to delete the server because of how angry Ena got. her coordination in video games is just Not There

Mizuki: she watches jerma :)

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[cardmmjonline]

The Benefits of Microdosing Medical Cannabis: How To Find Your Optimal Dose

Medical cannabis

Medical cannabis has gained significant attention in recent years due to its potential therapeutic benefits in treating various health conditions, including chronic pain, anxiety, and inflammation. While traditional consumption methods of cannabis, such as smoking or edibles, can lead to psychoactive effects that may impair daily activities, micro-dosing has emerged as a promising technique for patients seeking the medicinal benefits of cannabis without the undesirable side effects.

Here we will explore the benefits of micro-dosing medical cannabis and provide tips for finding the optimal dose to achieve therapeutic effects while avoiding psychoactive impairment.

Reduced tolerance: Microdosing can help reduce your tolerance to medical cannabis, which means you can achieve the same therapeutic effects with smaller doses over time.

Avoiding side-effects: Microdosing lets you avoid the potential side effects of consuming large doses of medical cannabis, such as anxiety, paranoia, or drowsiness.

Increased productivity: Microdosing can help improve your productivity by decreasing symptoms such as chronic pain, anxiety, or inflammation, letting you work or perform daily tasks without any significant impairment.

Improved sleep: Medical cannabis can help improve sleep quality by reducing anxiety and pain. Microdosing can help regulate sleep cycles without any significant psychoactive effects.

Finding the optimal dose for micro-dosing medical cannabis can be challenging, but here are some tips:

Start low: Begin with a small dose of medical cannabis, such as 2.5mg of THC, and gradually increase the dose as required.

Keep a journal: Keep track of your dosages, symptoms, and effects in a journal to find patterns and adjust your dose accordingly.

Experiment with strains: Different strains of medical cannabis can have different effects on your body. Experiment with different strains to find the one that works best for you.

Consult a healthcare professional: Talk to your healthcare professional, who can aid you determine the optimal dose and monitor any potential side effects.

To conclude, micro-dosing medical cannabis can be an effective way to achieve therapeutic benefits without significant psychoactive effects, but it's essential to find your optimal dose through careful experimentation and consultation with a healthcare professional.

If you're seeking a legal medical cannabis card, you've come to the right place. Here at t Card MMJ Online, our team of expert doctors will assess your condition and determine if medical marijuana is an appropriate treatment option for you. Schedule your consultation today!

[mferrante2]

MMJ Personal Project Reflection

I'm feeling OK about the completion of my personal project, but a little uncomfortable having to watch it in front of the class. It was a different experience than I'm used to--being in front of the camera, so that was an adjustment. I think my video displays my story and journey of how I got into journalism and why I love it so much. I like the b-roll I shot and the construction but I think it could be a little more crisp and match the VoiceOver a little better than it does. At the end of the day, I'm glad I got it done and am happy with the product. I liked the opportunity to reflect on the last four years and my personal journey to finding my true passions and what I want to explore in my future.

[nycannabistimes]

#Repost @natlnorml with @use.repost ・・・ 🥃 The adoption of medical cannabis access is associated with reductions in alcohol sales, according to data published in the journal Health Policy.⁠ ⁠ 👉️ Tap link in bio for the full story from NORML.⁠ ⁠ #NORML #cannabisnews #marijuananews #cannabisresearch #medicalcannabis #medicalmarijuana #mmj #legalizeit #legalizeamerica #marijuanamovement #cannabiscommunity #mmjcommunity #alcohol #Canada #healthpolicy (at Manhattan, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmhB3wLrM7M/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[designerslong]

Reggy weediphone 6s

REGGY WEEDIPHONE 6S FULL

Pregnant women are often advised to use flax seed oil.īut there is another plant whose seeds are an even better source of Omega 3……….hemp! (3) The very thing we need to make our CB receptors work at their best, is in the hemp plant! Cannabis is the source of the cannabinoids that we need to heal ourselves AND the source of the Omega 3 we need for our receptors to do their jobs properly! Fish oil may be contaminated with mercury- so many people prefer to use flax seed oil. The two most popular forms of Omega 3 supplements are fish oils, and flax seed oil.

REGGY WEEDIPHONE 6S FULL

Now, since the Omega 3-starved CB1 receptors are not working right, does this also mean that people, who have been deficient in Omega 3 for a while, are missing out on the full medical benefits- and the maximum high? Seems reasonable! Not getting enough Omega 3 can make you a bit crazy because without it, the CB1 cannabinoid receptors in your brain can be deformed or broken! Our low Omega 3 diet is making us sick and crazy!" We get WAY too much Omega 6, and not enough Omega 3. "The US diet sucks big time! We are fat, undernourished and crazy because of it. These findings identify a plausible synaptic substrate for the behavioral alterations caused by the n-3 PUFAs deficiency that is often observed in western diets. Finally, the dietary-induced reduction of CB(1)R functions in mood-controlling structures was associated with impaired emotional behavior. In n-3-deficient mice, presynaptic cannabinoid CB(1) receptors (CB(1)Rs) normally responding to endocannabinoids were uncoupled from their effector G(i/o) proteins. We found that lifelong n-3 PUFAs dietary insufficiency specifically ablates long-term synaptic depression mediated by endocannabinoids in the prelimbic prefrontal cortex and accumbens. Low levels of essential n-3 polyunsaturated fatty acids (n-3 PUFAs) have been linked to neuropsychiatric diseases, but the underlying synaptic alterations are mostly unknown. The corollaries of the obesity epidemic that plagues developed societies are malnutrition and resulting biochemical imbalances. “Nutritional omega-3 deficiency abolishes endocannabinoid-mediated neuronal functions.” On to the abstract and the info! (Where you see "n-3 PUFAs", read Omega 3.) The plant cannabinoids, THC and CBD, happen to fit in our receptor’s “key holes” and can fill in for a deficiency in the production of our own endocannabinoids. The reason cannabis works to heal us, is that our bodies make their own types of cannabinoids, endocannabinoids, that turn on the receptors, setting off the reactions. This action could be almost anything- from telling a cancer cell it’s time to die, to protecting a brain cell from Alzheimer's, to activating the suckling instinct in an infant, to soothing your upset stomach, and even making you feel “just a little bit too good”! (For more info on the cannabinoid receptors and what they do, see (1) for the short FOXNEWS version, or (2) for a real education!) (CB1 is responsible for getting you high - and a 1,000 other things.) The right shaped chemical will fit into the receptor’s “key hole” and this “turns on” some action. Some of these receptors are cannabinoid receptors. On the surface of your cells, there are chemical receptors that sort of work like an ignition switch in a car. But there is another far less obvious system -the cannabinoid receptor system. ( click that first link in my sig) I came across something important for the medical community, and maybe even for you stoners, too!Įveryone knows about the circulatory system, and the digestive system- they are pretty obvious to the naked eye. All of you (I hope) know by now that I gather MMJ studies from PubMed and medical journals.

[trustmeimadoctor]

I fucking HATE migraines! Still having them daily for over two weeks straight. I also sometimes really hate tourette syndrome. Yesterday I was just trying to be social. I was at my mother's and one of her friends was there. Her friend has an adorable little daughter with down syndrome who was not there. I was having a conversation with my sister while in full migraine mode and while having abortive medication in my system along with 20mg of THC edibles. I don't remember what we were talking about but I remember thinking the word "stupid" and preparing to say the word "stupid". But instead my mouth said the word "retard". I was mortified because I know how much my mother's friend is offended by that word. I instantly apologized. I felt horrible and I couldn't explain what happened. I think she knew. I mean she's aware that I have tourette syndrome but it didn't sound like a tic. I felt like such an asshole :(

[pamperrypr]

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I had so much fun talking to journalist, educator, and author Yanick Rice Lamb that you may as well call this my “Women Crush Wednesday” episode! If you’re interested in Black media and the Black press, then you’re going to love it, too. Yanick and I have been in the media industry for decades, from back before the internet and wireless technology – when we called our contacts, the phone was attached to the wall ... and sometimes it was a rotary phone.😊 We’ve seen a lot, done a lot, and know a lot, and because our careers went in different directions (Yanick to academia while I became an entrepreneur), we have a wide range of experiences to share with you. Listen in to get the insider scoop on: MMJ and how it’s changed journalism, 2 of our favorite woman pioneers in Black media, how to make your story pitch wherever you send it, why Howard University’s School of Communications is at the crossroads of Black media, Yanick’s online magazine Fierce for Black Women, her other projects that support the Black community … and more! 💥💥💥💥💥💥 “Journalism today means you have to try to be first, and if you’re not first, you have to be different.” – @yanickricelamb 💥💥💥💥💥💥 #journalism #nabj #howardu @fierceforbw #readysetgospeak #mediarelations #mediacoaching #mmj #editorial #bison #speakersmagazine #blackmedia #blackvoicesmatter #blackgirlmagic https://www.instagram.com/p/CSOBfefARBI/?utm_medium=tumblr

[highly-personal]

Any weekend journalists out there #struggling?

[sou-lscenario-processblog]

01.11.2023 MMJ

Audience Engagement

Tick-tock, it's midnight again.

Today's class was super exciting for me. Learning about how to really connect with readers just clicked. It's like an art, and it made me wonder how to really make that connection stick. ✌️

Diving into last week's discussion question I had my moment. I recalled "The Counted" project by The Guardian. Data-driven journalism that not only informs but also moves its audience.

Then came the presentations, and Aruzhan's take on misinformation in blogging hit close to home. The way false info spreads, causing real damage (like that crazy 20 million tenge loss because of a pyramid scheme ad), it's a wake-up call for us as future journalists. It reminds me why we must strive for truth and accuracy.😔

I'm so ready to make stuff that's important and connects with people in the right way. I'm excited to use what I've learned to make my website even better. Maybe I'll even write a super long article. The ideas are just flowing!❤️

Stay tuned as I navigate these creative waves. 🌊✍️ Oh, and as I type this, Spotify just shuffled to a track that's perfect for this reflective mood. Give it a listen and let it inspire you too.

🎼 Song: Alessia Cara - "Make It To Christmas" 🎄☃️

[chronicrip]

just got out of seeing hamilton!!! it was, amazing. my body hurts SO BAD and i’m exhausted but luckily i can just, go home and go to bed. sitting for hours also isn’t my strong suit, apparently. my joints and bones ached in my fingers and my tailbone and my ankles and my back and on top of that my stomach and chest felt like they’ve been compressed by a ton of weight!! and my brain is a fucking mess BUT!

now i’m listening to music and smoking a j on the way home so life’s good 😎 (cool glasses emoji)

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[zephyr082]

Getting started

Florida legalized medical marijuana November 2016. I immediately thought this was great, but didn’t really think I would ever go through the process.

I have anxiety. It’s not like I have cancer. Anxiety is what people say they have when they just want to get pot. Etc etc. I had a list of reasons why I wouldn’t do it.

I have always had some anxiety. It got worse when I went to college and had to “fend for myself” with a lot of support from my parents. I found coping mechanisms. I participated in group conversations, support groups. Always just shy of going to the doctor. I mean, I could handle it, it was just life, everyone else was handling it fine. I didn’t realize how much I let the anxiety have a voice and convince myself that it was really nothing; or that if I did talk to someone, they would think I was making it up.

In 2014 I had a baby. Any anxiety issues I thought I had were immediately drowned out but the huge overwhelming anxiety of caring for a child. I had never heard of post partum anxiety; the focus was always on depression, and I wasn’t depressed. But I was afraid to let my baby out of my sight. I didn’t want to sleep, finally falling asleep most nights with my hand draped over her bassinet. I didn’t want to let my husband go anywhere with her. I was very easily aggravated. Terrified to go out with her. I still didn’t get help. The one time I mentioned it to my OB/GYN (and I downplayed it because I thought I was over reacting), she nodded and said “it was hormones” and would even out. This was probably partially true, and it did even out some. But I never stopped being anxious.

Finally, in February 2018, I broke down and scheduled an appointment for a new GP and cited anxiety. That was a hard visit. My doctor was kind and supportive, and all my rehearsed speeches to convince her I was anxious were unnecessary. I left that day with a prescription for Prozac. Quite a few more appointments and some medication adjustments and I was feeling so much better.

So why did I get MMJ? Being on Prozac has leveled me out. I can go to new places and talk with new people, but I still have episodic anxiety attacks. I don’t want to change my medication. So many of the alternatives have unpredictable side effects; and even withdrawal issues if you forget a few doses. But I wanted something that would help in the middle of an attack.

So I did research and ended up going to see a Doc MJ for a MMJ recommendation. Oh my goodness did I have anxiety about this. The abject cruelty of forcing a person with anxiety to jump through these hoops. Once again I had convinced myself they wouldn’t believe me. Once again I rehearsed speeches in my head to defend my decision. Once again did the doctor immediately respond with kindness and support and issue me a recommendation. It was so perfunctory I almost laughed in the office. From then in was bureaucracy. I paid my pound of flesh to the state and waited.

While I waited, I researched dispensaries, researched benefits of strains, all the while keeping in mind that NONE of this is scientifically backed. Lack of legalization has meant lack of knowledge; so it really is all experimentation. I’m 36 and just starting to experiment with marijuana.

Twelve days later I get the email from the state signing off on my approval, two days later I make my first visit to a dispensary to buy pot for the first time. (FYI I’m still waiting on the physical card 3 weeks since submitting payment.) I have never smoked anything and don’t plan to, so I buy six vaporizer pens; two each of three different blends. (I wanted my first time patient discount.) I’m nervous, so I picked a dispensary that is more scientific seeming and lists their products by CBD:THC ratios; Surterra.com

I have had the MMJ for one week. I’m still figuring out when to use the different pens I bought and am making notes for other types I want to try. To help with my irritable bowel, to help with my period headaches and cramps, joint pain, insomnia etc. I’m still not really talking openly about marijuana use. I was just getting used to talking about being on Prozac, now it’s something some people think should be illegal. I’m still getting used to talking openly about mental health issues. It seems almost like saying “I have anxiety” is trendy, but I want to believe everyone who shares with me that they also have anxiety, but I do question if they really understand.

I want to chronicle this, if only for myself, so that I can remember how I was feeling as it happened. And if someone else does stumble upon this, to maybe help them feel like they aren’t alone and to let people know that this process isn’t so scary after all.