#might abandon this blog and make a new one tbh

[kitkatlovingalgebrateacher]

Turns out that Mister Triangle's real name is Mister Compass and isn't Miss Circle's brother, BUT HER LOVER?? 😭

Lemme go rethink things real quick- Idk how to feel rn- Not angry about it though. Just shocked.

[moviestarmartini]

carseat backseat. — jude bellingham x reader x brahim díaz.

pairing: jude bellingham x latina!reader x brahim díaz.

summary: your girls' night out soon turned into a party of one. good news though, the two men over at the private booth were looking for the perfect opportunity to approach you. and they're looking to get out of that club fast.

wc: 3.2k

warnings: nsfw (+18 mdni), mentions and consumption of alcohol, basic sentences in spanish (as per usual on this blog tbh), PERREO !!!! , car sex (i'm romanticizing it tbh), soft doms!jude & brahim, marking, praise, light degrading, oral sex (f & m receiving), p in v, unprotected sex (twice rip), needy mfs, use of petnames, light manhandling, strangers hooking up tbh. if i missed anything lmk.

A/N: this was wild to write which is why i think it took me so long to finish !!! i mentioned it previously but i lowk picture them in a tuned chevy tahoe and not a limo but that might be irrelevant. reblogs & feedback are always appreciated babes xx enjoy

now playing . . . chulo pt.2 by bad gyal, tokischa & young miko / partition by beyoncé

Betrayed. 

You were currently feeling betrayed. Your girlfriends all abandoned you, with cheap excuses or promising hookups that surged throughout the night. You could’ve been on your way to get down and busy too, but you had standards. You sat at the bar, thinking what you should order before a margarita came your way. You curled up a brow at the bartender, who just replied: “The young men by that booth noticed you like tequila.” 

You frowned at the plural, taking a short sip of the peculiar-shaped glass before looking around. At a private booth full of couples making out and grinding on each other, you could easily recognize two pairs of eyes looking right back at you. With a confident smile, you raise your glass towards them before taking another sip, thinking that would be the end of it. 

You hummed in approval at both the taste of the tequila-based drink and the music the DJ was playing, before feeling a presence standing next to you. It was the shortest of the men who had bought you a drink, with light stubble that covered up his jaw and upper lip area. “¿Qué tal, bonita? ¿Te gustó el trago?” He was dangerously close, but you didn’t find the closeness uncomfortable. 

“How did you know I liked tequila?” You laughed, throwing your hair back. Brahim joined in, and he couldn’t ignore the way your face lightened up. His lips parted in amusement, watching your every move. The way you crossed your thighs, and how badly he wanted to pry them open. 

“How wouldn’t someone like you have my attention all night?” Brahim’s voice came as something similar to a coo, reaching forward to tuck a strand behind your ear. Suddenly, you felt your whole face heating up. “I’m Brahim, a pleasure.” You introduced yourself in the same fashion, not long after perking up at the song that started playing, its opening letters sparking interest. “Lovely to meet you, ¿Vamos?” He pointed to the packed dance floor with his head, offering you his hand. 

Taking down the rest or the drink you hopped off the bar stool, taking his hand gladly and into the dance floor. From your experience with Europeans, they were not the most dexterous dancers, standing still and looking up at the ceiling with their hands on your hips. The man only saved himself by the fact you loved the song and he bought you a drink, the least you owed him was a dance. 

But oh you were so wrong. 

Brahim gripped his hands on the soft skin of your hips, every once in a while controlling the circular motions you produced, while also grinding back against your ass. It only motivated you further, hearing him curse under his breath. “Joder… qué perreo el tuyo, princesa.” You chuckled a little at his reaction, biting on your bottom lip. The tension only grew when he spun you around, dancing face to face, your nose brushing against his. 

Before you could take the dip and cut the distance— his cologne had been clouding your senses, mind fuzzy with the growing sexual tension— he twirled you around yet again, your eyes landing directly on a chest. You tilted your head up to meet the eyes of the man she identified sitting next to Brahim earlier. 

“Fancy sharing her, bro?” He addressed Brahim, but his eyes didn’t tear away from yours. “All ours, Jude.” You heard the other reply as he inched closer. The words echoed in your mind, goosebumps forming up your arms. The man you now knew as Jude took both your hands, pulling them upwards and to rest around his neck as he joined the two of you dancing. 

The tension between the three of you was something you’ve never felt before, Brahim’s nose brushing against your neck and the way Jude stared you down made your knees weak. But the song came to an end, the DJ transitioning to a whole different genre. But that didn’t stop Jude from closing the distance and kissing you, your eyes falling shut instantly. A gasp left your lips the minute you felt another pair on your neck, leaving slow pecks.  

“Why don’t we get out of here?” Jude proposed, his lips still grazing yours. You nodded, and Brahim scooped your hand in his as he practically dragged you away from the dancing bodies, and Jude followed suit with your hands linked together. 

The flashing lights drowned the ambiance, and as you thought of the situation and what could be ahead, you smiled to yourself. If patience was the road to wisdom, you sure felt ninety years older. Maybe your friends jumping off the boat was a blessing in disguise— you deduced as you exited the club through the back. You squinted a little, your eyes already used to the strobe lighting of the club. 

Click. 

Jude stepped in front of you, covering his mouth to speak as a black large car rolled up. “Cover your face for me, baby.” He advised as Brahim opened the door for you, hopping in behind you, Jude looking at the source of the camera with a straight face before sliding inside the car. He gave instructions to the driver, giving him a large bill to… mind his own business apparently, as a partition was rolled up.

“You owe me a kiss,” Brahim complained after not even two seconds of silence, brushing his nose against your cheek. You couldn’t help but giggle as he roughly drew you into his lap, taking your lips hostage in his. While Jude’s affections earlier were soft and careful, Brahim seemed eager; but it still wasn’t his hand grazing the skin of your inner thigh, making your legs part open. Your mini skirt rode up, and you noticed how Brahim pulled it even further to rest at your lower waist. A hum of approval rang through the moving vehicle, and as Jude’s hand inched closer to your core, you shivered.

Brahim groaned at the sudden movement, parting ways with your lips to settle down your neck, Jude taking the same initiative. You moaned softly, jerking your hips. Him, in response, bit into your neck, his fingers delving into the soft skin of your hips. Getting that much attention was overwhelming, and you fell drunk on it. They really worshiped you, lips slowly making their way down, the moans rewarding the men for their good work. 

Jude parted first, his finger grazing the soft fabric of your underwear. “We’ve got you so wet,” He cooed, taking your cheeks and turning your head to look at him. He dissected your reaction as his hand just shoved the panties to a side and he took a dip to test your wetness. A light smirk tugged on his face as he watched your lips part in a tiny gasp. 

“Turn her a bit towards me, mate.” Jude instructed Brahim, who was busy painting hematomas on your neck. He nodded with the same devilish shine on his eyes, shifting a little so you would both face him. “What do you want, babe? You look a bit bothered,” He freighted innocence, a chuckle rung from behind you. 

You became even more embarrassed; how easy your body queues were to them. “Touch me,” You replied with a certain fortitude in your voice, when your eyes were dripping with need. Brahim watched you, lips slightly parted, and just smiled. He gave Jude a nod, who didn’t waste any time in sinking a finger into your wetness. You couldn’t help but throw your head back with a groan, finding rest in Brahim’s shoulder. 

Jude didn’t find any pleasure in easing it into you, fixing a steady pace that would have you writhing in no time. You noticed Brahim getting harder under your ass, the movements clearly getting him off. He still didn’t budge, instead hooking a finger on the strap of your blouse and tugging it off the way slowly before kissing the area. 

Your moans were breathy, as if you were a fish out of water, your hand reaching back to brush Brahim’s hair out of the way, his light beard tickling the back of your shoulder. You could also feel his hand sliding down your torso, his ring and middle finger soon finding a home at your throbbing clit. You noticed through almost closed eyes that Jude licked his lips and slid another digit in, picking up the pace. 

“You like that, princesa? Wanna cum?” Brahim brushed your hair back. You did your best to affirm between babbles, but the built up was rapid and dangerous. “You can do it, you’re so good for us.” Jude confirmed with praise, and you couldn’t have stopped the orgasm even if you wanted to. Your moans filled up the space, legs trembling as they both slowed down and worked you through it. 

Jude took his fingers out and started licking them, never breaking eye contact. Instead, he reached out to pull you into a kiss. His hand cupped your jaw with ease, as you sloppily made out. You could taste yourself in his tongue, “What a pretty mess we have here.” He stroked your cheekbone as the car came to a halt. The driver simply left the vehicle and both men checked through the tinted foggy windows their surroundings. They were at the hotel they requested, at the underground parking level that looked as though no one had been there in years. 

Perfect. 

You came to the same conclusion they did, now pulling Jude back into a kiss, your hands unbuttoning his shirt. But at the same time you reached back and pulled Brahim closer to do the same, with a bit of his help. Jude watched as you cupped his boner through the dress pants, letting a small surprised groan. He’d been so busy pleasuring you he didn’t realize how needy he was himself. 

“I want to taste you.” Brahim whispered in your ear, sending goosebumps down your spine. Trying to think of an arrangement, an idea quickly rose to your head before it was occupied with the toned bodies of the shirtless men on either side of you. “You will, I promise,” You gave him a peck before giving your attention back to Jude, kissing down his torso as you got on your knees still on the car seat. 

You heard Brahim sigh as you unbuttoned the other’s pants, Jude himself helping you lower his underwear to give his hard cock some space to breathe. You didn’t waste any time, licking the pre-cum that rolled down the tip before wrapping your hand around the girth and stroking it shortly. It didn’t take long for you to slowly slide it inside your mouth, Jude’s hand reaching to rest on the crown of your head with a groan leaving his lips. 

Brahim didn’t seem to want to interrupt your work, but as you got into it, you felt the familiar hook of his fingers; this time around the waistband of your panties. He slid them down before a thumb stroked down your wet slit. But the slow-paced affections didn’t last long as he pressed his flat tongue to pick up all the slick and go straight to town on you. You started to struggle keeping your mouth and hand at a good pace, moans muffled with the thick cock stuffed in your mouth. 

“Don’t stop,” Jude warned between groans, the grip in your hair tightening. The oral fixation seemed to be pushing him over the edge, in the same situation you found yourself in. 

That was, until Brahim stopped. 

You couldn’t even find the time to complain, to ask him for more; some shuffling filling the suffocating air before a leaking tip grazed your sloppy slit, all soaked with your arousal. You arched your back, pushing back against the friction. Both men snickered between themselves, Brahim still teasing you with the tip of his hard dick. 

“You really want it, don’t you?” He cooed, his teasing actions still going further by pushing himself onto your entrance, but never making it fully inside. Instead of responding, you concentrated on giving your best affections, catching him off guard. 

“Bro— fuck, do it.” Jude gave him the approval, clearly taking your enthusiasm into his pleasure as encouragement for the other man to satisfy you. Brahim sighed, lining himself properly with your entrance before burying his length inside you. 

The groans that came out of your throat were gutural, full of lust. “You feel so good…” He exclaimed, throwing his head back, still getting used to the feel. He wasn’t the lengthiest, but the sheer girth made up for it. His hands gripped hard on the dough of your hips, tightening as he bounced your body against his in the same fashion you were doing earlier at the club. 

You couldn’t help but arch your back even lower, doing your best to continue with your hard labor as Brahim set a relentless pace. You’d come to notice he was the most anxious one, yearning to take you as yours. But it seemed to be rubbing off on the other man, his long fingers gripping your hair with certain force. He thrusted hard enough to rock the car at the movement of his hips, enough to have Jude controlling your mouth, choking on his length. 

The scene was straight out of the craziest adult film, but you knew that if you weren’t the one experiencing it, it wouldn’t be as hot. “Cum, baby. Come on.” Brahim encouraged, smacking your ass loudly; you were so fixated on pleasing the other man you didn’t even realize how close you were to your second release of the night. It knocked the air out of your lungs, saliva stuck with a guttural groan as the sensitive tip hit the back of your throat. 

“Squeeze my cock like that— mierda, así, yes!” You could make out from riding down the tidal wave your orgasm brought, still stroking Jude’s cock while you took a breather to let out all the scandalous moans, letting the small tears run and ruin your mascara a little. 

By the stutter on Brahim’s hips you noticed he was going to finish right then and there, only bouncing your hips back in the same fashion you were doing in no less than half an hour ago at the dance floor.

It took him a moment to recover, heavy breathing overshadowing the sloppy blowjob. He pulled out, looking back to watch the cum dripping out your whole. “Jude,” Brahim looked at him with a heavy breath. “Look at this. Look how perfect our pussy looks pumped of my cum,” 

You whined at the sheer force the Spanish national manhandled you to show you off like a prize, and with this new angle you noticed a hint of pride in his voice. Jude’s seeming examination took a moment, even though you could hear the slick noise your leftover saliva made as he stroked his cock. 

“I think it’s missing something…” Jude pondered, rising to his knees before pushing himself inside you. With a loud moan of surprise your knees couldn’t hold anymore, collapsing onto your stomach. Your head rested on Brahim’s thick thigh, and he soothed you through the first few instances with praise. Now it was his turn to be the doting one, brushing your hair back and talking you through it. “You’re taking it so well.” 

“Suck him off, babe. He’s getting hard for witnessing how much of a good pretty slut you are for us,” Jude ordered, pulling your hips back up to pound into you shamelessly. The command wasn’t a problem, mind so cockdrunk you could do whatever they asked of you. 

Jude still helped you up so you could get to the task at hand, but Brahim dipped lower to link his lips with yours tenderly, contrasting the constant sound of skin coming into contact. As you made out, you took the chance to stroke his cock, still soaked with your fluids. He seemed to be melting onto the seat, still sensitive from the previous orgasm. Breaking away and trying to manage your moans as best as you could, your tongue licked up the prominent vein up the underside, before wrapping your lips around the soft tip. 

You fluttered your lashes up at him, finding him cute with his parted lips. But it was Jude who picked your hair back and motivated you straight into the action, sounds of pleasure now coming from both men. Brahim writhed under you, while Jude had you squirming. 

“Ah, fuck, fuck,” Jude whined, trying to finish on the same pace but being unable to do so. Your walls squeezed him dry deliciously, and he leaned to press his chest against your back to reach around and draw circular motions on your overstimulated clit. “Just one more, okay baby? You can do it,” He encouraged, at the same time you tore yourself away from blowing Brahim to breathe and moan out freely. 

“Perfect girl,” Brahim cooed as Jude slowed down, helping you ride down the wave your release represented. Jude pulled out, now standing back to admire his load leaking straight out of you. But now it was his turn to help you onto his lap, holding you close. 

“You did so well,” Jude hummed, caressing your cheeks, cleaning the dried mascara. Brahim scooted over, brushing your hair back with his hands and pressing the tiniest, most playful kisses over your bare shoulders. With a gentle hand, Jude turned your head in his direction and locked his lips with your own, slightly swollen and adapting a redder tone. It was tender, calm. Brahim followed, matching the same energy. 

It was strange how both men had that duality to them; going from being completely hands on and greedy with your body, to soothing you with the sweetest touches. “We didn’t even make it to the hotel room…” You joked, the two of them joining in the lazy laugh. 

“It’s barely one in the morning.” Brahim brushed his nose against your cheek, in the same way he demanded a kiss earlier. You noticed him and Jude shared a look before looking back at you. 

“Round two?” They proposed in unison. Still, their voices and expressions didn’t give any hint of obligation, just curiosity. You knew you could reject them and they would understand completely. 

And that only captivated you further. 

“Round two.” You confirmed with a nod and a wink, getting yourself together to at least spend a minute or so at the hotel lobby. As you all entered and confirmed the booking, it seemed that their infatuation with you only grew; Brahim couldn’t tear himself away from your side while Jude couldn’t stop looking back at you with a certain glimmer in his eyes. 

You knew this was bound to be a long night. The biggest comfort though? That you knew you were going to wake up the next morning held securely by two pairs of strong arms.

[softpine]

can i just word vomit for a min...

there was a point in late 2023 where i felt like i overstayed my welcome on simblr and i planned on just wrapping frozen pines up as quickly as possible and moving on. continuing to write when it's clear that the audience for it is dwindling felt so embarrassing that i almost didn't even want to put effort into it anymore, because i was afraid it just looked pathetic (obligatory disclaimer: no one made me feel this way, you're all so lovely, it's just the nature of seeing a community change over 7 years). writing already feels very personal to me and it's becoming increasingly harder for me to put my work out there (again, for reasons unrelated to simblr and entirely related to mental illness 🤙🏻). i know my story is so long that it deters new readers, and so sporadic that it makes old readers drop off with time. this has really been bothering me lately because i don't know what i can do to fix it. i don't think there IS anything i can do.

but. okay. don't make fun of me for saying this. dan and phil returning to youtube kinda changed my mindset? they may be pulling a fraction of the views they got in their peak, but they're happier than they've ever been and they're working on things they actually want to do, not things they think will be particularly popular. seeing that has made me realize that it is possible to keep finding joy in a community that has largely moved on without you. obviously my little blog is nowhere near the same scale, so this feels kind of silly, but i've been thinking about all the things i used to do on simblr that were never fun for me, i mainly did them because i knew they would get notes or because i felt like i had to do it. making cc, lookbooks, sim requests, reshade help (oh my god the reshade help), lot downloads, etc. they DID get notes, but i can't imagine spending my time doing any of that stuff ever again tbh.

on top of that, it makes me sad to scroll through my dash and realize that i don't recognize most of the people i see anymore. i still talk to some wonderful people here who i consider friends and that's invaluable to me (💖), but the broader community aspect is something i no longer feel a part of. and believe me, i know i'm at fault here because it's not like i'm going out of my way to talk to new people or participate in trends like i used to. i don't blame anyone except the passage of time!!

frozen pines, and simblr by extension, played such a gigantic part in my life when i needed it the most. and that's not to say that i don't still care about it, because i absolutely do, but it's a different kind of feeling. i've always promised that i would give frozen pines a satisfying conclusion rather than silently abandoning it someday, and though i do intend to keep that promise, i know it's possible that i might never get there. but i don't want to let my own insecurities get in the way of something i really enjoy doing. writing is an intrinsic piece of me that i'll never quit doing, but sharing my writing on tumblr is something that can't (and shouldn't) last forever. i know that. but i'm going to enjoy it to the fullest while we're all still here together 💞

to anyone who's still reading my silly story after all these years (especially those of you who still check in on my blog even though you're not on simblr anymore): thank you thank you thank you THANK YOUUU. you don't have to change a single thing about what you're doing. this is not me fishing for compliments or putting down an ultimatum, this is just me trying to make sense of my feelings.

but with all this being said, i've decided to quit simblr and start my own exclusive streaming service for $60 a year, i hope you'll all support me as i increase my production value 😌

(just kidding. ily. okay that's all)

[safety-pin-punk]

firstly, I love your blog and it's been a great resource to have as I've been learning abt punk! I hope you're well & ty for everything you do <3 do you have any advice for finding punk communities, both irl and online? I really wanna talk to ppl abt everything I'm learning and loving, but it's really hard to find communities. besides the landmine of trying to avoid nazi punks and the like, I don't rlly drink or anything so bars/clubs can be weird -teacupqueer/persie

Thank you so much!! I’m doing pretty well!

Finding Punk Communities Online:

I’ll be honest, I can really only speak on behalf of tumblr here. I don’t use other socials all that much.

But! If you want to find a fun awesome punk community on tumblr, you are already off to a great start! Find a punk blog you like or who has similar music taste, see who they reblog from and tag in their posts. I’ve met a LOT of really cool people this way on here! (Shoutout to @polyamorouspunk and @my-chemical-ratz whose blogs you should check out simply because they are cool people). And I’ve also met people who are in bands, or involved with bands (like @necromancy-savant and @dopamineband (who don’t use their tumblr anymore 😭)). I didn’t meet these people right away, it took a while of steady interaction with tumblr to build up these connections.

There are also Discord communities too, I don’t use discord much but I *think* (?) I saw a post go around a while ago where someone was starting up a punk discord server? Honestly maybe I’ll take the time to start one up, it might make me use Discord more lmao

Finding Punk Communities IRL:

Bars and clubs aren’t the only places to find punks!!

I’d recommend checking out any queer spaces in your area, I doubt it would surprise you to learn how often these two groups overlap.

Also! If you are near a city, chances are you have an underground scene somewhere. Google and Reddit are great resources to find the places punks gather in your city. For example: in my city theres a cafe and record shop that are popular among the alternative crowd that I never would have found without the use of Google.

Otherwise, what are your hobbies? If you like gardening/are into solar punk, see if theres a local gardening club! (I’d say a 50/50 chance of punk or karens tbh with this one).

Start up a book club at a local library that focuses on books like 1984 and Brave New World.

Go to gigs that arent at bars or clubs, I went to one back in February that was at an abandoned church, that was turned into a concert venue. The place was child friendly so there was no alcohol, but there were a lot of cool people there!

And the best tip I have for you to avoid nazis is to just know their symbols and signs. Do a bit of research on it and familiarize yourself with what to avoid

As always, other suggestions for anon are welcome!!

[cherubchoirs]

alright, i looked trough your blog and it is quite fascinating both for original parts of your narrative and how it seems specifically based off of ultrakill plot as of 6-2. with later versions will you plan to edit your AU to fit with new narrative elements or you prefer to keep it true to how it is now?

on the note of newer narrative elements, what is your interpretation for mind of hell? it really does seem that if ultrakill has a true main antagonist then it is hell itself. and with current way how it was characterized it seems to have "inherited" the world from god and is in complete control over current situation. angels are lost without gods plan and just try to make the same motions as before. humanity may have actually been ended by hell's design, even with how much the earths machines act as a force of nature hell seems to comfortably channel them like water and using for its own purposes and entertainment. so far hell restrained itself only for its wins to be more cathartic (various "uprisings" on different layers), and so far is the most in control and very distinctly from everyone else is absolutely enjoying its time

so yeah, i am really curios on your take on hell's mind in both official material and your AU since i saw only very passing mentions for it in your posts

p.s. absolutely love your art, your character designs are immaculate❤️

ooooo good questions tbh...i've definitely thought a lot about what will happen with the au as ultrakill reaches its end and what i'll do about elements obviously becoming unfit compared to the story. i think it really depends on how much it's going to be off, but i will be honest in saying i would have a tough time abandoning my ocs if official versions of michael, raphael, uriel, or lucifer are introduced! i think of course they would be well done and i would actually love to see them in canon, but i think it would cause a divergent au in that case. because i would love to explore how this au might fit into whatever becomes canon, but i've just developed the world and characters too much to leave the au behind as it is now. overall though, i just need to see how it ends and what it introduces to know where i might want to go, if i'd want to do a properly canon-divergent au when everything is said and done, or if i might just...stick with a canon-divergent from 6-2 onward. it's funny bc i actually was nervous about this just with layer 7 dropping, so i can't imagine how anxious i'll be for the last 2 layers! esp with lucifer looming in treachery - i think it's very up in the air if any of the other archangels will play a role in the game at this point, but more about lucifer is highly likely to come imo so!!! it's a big waiting game to find out!!

you're right in that i haven't done too much with hell, though i am interested in it as a character - i have considered it more with lucifer becoming much more of an element in the au, as he has spoken with it constantly and hell is sort of...in love with him, in an abstract way. it views him still as one of the most beautiful works it has, the first bright and radiant thing it had ever seen in its misery, but hell has become utterly engrossed with the cruelty of humanity. while lucifer was some celestial god that fell to it, humanity had minds much like it, and so it fell in love with them in a way it could understand. hell is always searching for more, an artist always looking for inspiration while holding lucifer as its muse. it's the capacity they connect with on the most, both great creators with god's spark in them, and admittedly, in his suffering, lucifer sometimes understood hell's work. but lucifer was secure, lucifer it had always to speak to, but increasingly it whispered the brutality of mankind, the wonderful inventions of their minds and the horrible works of their hands it began to copy. it hooked itself into the terminals they installed, and so lucifer gained all the knowledge of machines through their internal circuit. and when mankind was wiped out, hell became master in a world run by automation with all the creators gone from their servants. it has all it wants, and it indulges in testing its creations upon the machines and the husks of mankind in such tangible joy that an abstract like lucifer could not bring to it. lucifer it relates to in hatred, in his deep, abyssal loathing of the god that trapped him here, but even that is something more abstract to hell than the brutality of humanity - lucifer hates perfectly, he hates with the mind of god, and it is not met precisely by hell as hell was born into what it is.

so what then can hell feel when lucifer is released from it, when the dragon is cut down and its flesh severed from treachery's? this is really where i want to explore the relationship between lucifer and hell, what they are to each other - hell is a take on "this place loves you", but it is entirely malignant, noxious and harmful, while lucifer recognizes it as the hideous creation he fell trying to destroy, yet it is now irrevocably his home, the one entity he now knows. they are tangled up in each other, lucifer in an obvious sense but hell now cannot bear to lose its little spark of god's light. something in his beauty sustains it, it pulls at him constantly now that he's partially left it, and lucifer is stranded not knowing what decision to make. he still hears it speaking to him, esoteric fragments made up of the ambient noise of its body, but what can he do with it now? it is alive, sentient, a being put into a wretched position by god which condemns it for how antithetical it is to the fulfillment of all other creations. lucifer wanted it gone. he protested against it all those eons ago. but now he is frozen by choice, seeing it behave as some evil god yet knowing it cannot be any other way. what is fair then? to find some way to kill it? to cut off whatever constitutes its brain? to reason with it? try to change its very essence? lucifer must work through the possibilities while accepting hell, in so many ways, is the place he now wants to be. free at last, but once more full of despair. how can he kill his home and what might be his only friend? how can he reason with it, when he once tried the same with god and was struck down? how can he change it when he is just a pale shadow of what made something so monstrous in the first place? yet he fears hell will grow angry in its stasis, in running out of victims for its cruelty, and act out in retaliation

[silentshadowbl0g]

text update 06-2023

hey yall! thanks for the nice tags on my recent art- a big reminder that i am pretty active on twitter @sadmachlne666 (the i is a lower case L) and i usually post art regularly, sometimes still warriors, but usually its whatever im into

as far as personal life, the mods and I have had a really hard past couple of years, but we’re doing our best to keep going.

Orion and i spent the whole month of October together last year, and we both plan on visiting Heck soon. I believe they’re both still technically mods here but I’ll be really surprised to see them answer anything, as they’ve both pretty much washed their hands clean of warrior cats or anything of the like.

I’m moving out of my parents house FINALLY- I’ll be moving in a 3 bedroom with two other friends of mine this upcoming July, im super excited.

(Everythings been paid off except the first bill due the first of July, im okay with money but my commissions ARE still open, i just may be slow getting to them cause im busy with preparations and my irl job. if you cant comm me, please consider reblogging the comm price post! thanks!)

As for Silentshadow’s Path- all ive done the past few years is brainstorm TBH! i have a very loose world and story built in my head but ive yet to nail anything down- mostly just the characters and their motivations and roles in the story. Trying to keep everything as it was when it was warrior-ifed is pretty hard, but i have to remind myself ive been working on these characters since 2013, its gonna be hard to change a world overnight (for me anyway).

So ive been thinking- i might just abandon this blog and make a new one? go back to my roots, make new references for everyone (everyone im keeping anyway. remember i made over 200 characters for this story??)

I’m tempted to just private/archive this blog, its what i wanna do but i know lots of fans, including my friends even, enjoy going back and just looking through this blog every now and then- id hate to take it away from anyone.

But as of now, even though im a bit too busy to draw and sit down and chat, Id love to interact with you guys again, feel free to send me some asks every now and then if you have any questions. I’ll let yall know what i do in the future- probably after im moved into my new apartment! Thanks for an amazing couple of years this whole project was.

[melody-han-wayne]

(OOC: Update + Apology—Long Post)

So I've been pretty much non-existent for the past 4 months or so BUT I can explain!

Basically what happened is that I emigrated to not just a different country, but a different continent on literally the other side of the world from where I grew up. And I left behind all my friends and family at home, meaning I came here alone and I'm still alone and probably will be alone for as long as I remain in this new country. So for the past few months I've been dealing with moving and settling down and making plans to secure my future in this new country—heck, just making sure I can have a future in this new country. I'm more or less settled into my new life now (except for the planning for the future part) but before that I kind of forgot about Melody for a while 🫥

So anyway the guilt ate away at my subconscious and Melody's voice came to me in a dream and berated me for abandoning her, so I woke up and quickly came to check on my baby. And I realise, to my utter mortification and horror, that I never paused my Tumblr queue, so all the half-baked ideas, the rough drafts, the tentative-but-not-in-chronological-order character development, had been posting itself while I was away 🫠. So if during the past 5 months you saw my blog degenerate into a bigger and bigger mess and wondered "What the heck is going on"—it's not you, it's me. Right now I'm just trying to salvage what I can of my blog (and my dignity) and reorganise everything I originally planned for Melody (tbh I forgot half of it but I'm sure the memories are in here somewhere, I just have to clean out the dust and oil the gears first).

Honestly I have no idea how many people follow(ed) Melody's story, I might as well be posting into the void for all I know. But like so many of the other RPers on this blog I started because I was bored and had some ideas in my head that wouldn't leave me alone, and over time I became attached to my OC and her story (perhaps unhealthily so). That's part of the reason why I decided not to just delete my blog and make my absence permanent. Because working on this self-indulgent project used to make me happy, and because I still have some ideas I want to share with whoever might be lurking around. Another reason is because of the community that welcomed me and that I personally watched grow. Even when this blog was at its 'most active' I probably didn't interact with other RPers as much as I should/could have (again, it's not you, it's me) but what little interaction we did have I truly did enjoy as we built and connected our own stories and characters while also interpreting the DC ones. I don't think I've said this before, and I don't think I'll ever say it enough, but really, thank you all for being willing to indulge me and play with me. This has been a lovely space to be in, and you guys combined are like 80% of the reason ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@florence-wayne-official @kit-the-nonbinary-wayne @that-one-gotham-kid @amira-wayne-al-ghul @warren-wayne-kyle @teagrayson + anyone I missed, knowing the rate at which this community grows there's bound to be at least one person I didn't tag (it's not a snub—again, not you, it's me and my bad memory—please don't be offended 🥺)

((idk if tagging everyone is proper etiquette after my prolonged absence, I was just going to say 'you know who you are' at first and leave it at that but I'm not sure if you guys actually know who you are 😅 so if I'm breaking some kind of unspoken Tumblr code of etiquette I apologise again))

(((I didn't mean for that above note to sound as rude as it did)))

ANYWAYS if you've read past the wall of text above to make it down here congratulations and thank you, I'll be doing my best to clean up/revise my blog and my OC and her story in the coming weeks and hopefully get some sort of continuity back on track :) I'm also trying to figure out what happened in the rest of the RP community in my absence so if I reply to a three-month-old post now: once again, it's not you, it's me, and there's totally no obligation to engage with.

Can't wait to hang out with the Batfamily again ☺️ plus all my RP siblings, half-siblings, future siblings, stepsiblings, undead siblings etc XD

[techtakesoff]

Here's my obligatory bio for classpecting fun, I'm a stubborn person who takes things at face value, I tend to self-doubt and overthink about the simplist things, like I have a good idea I'm a heart player but what I'm not sure, I can both be hot and cold depending on the person, either very self-isolated or emotional depending on if I'm with friends or people I trust, or if I'm alone and random people walk up to me, I can also be serious or quirky. I tend to be an escapist and go into a dream world but I also tend to think logically. I bottle up my emotions if I worry that it might cause my friends and loved ones to worry about me bc I feel that I should worry and care for them not the other way around. I tend to hold grudges depending on the slight towards me, it might be short or long. I also have trust and abandonment issues because of a negative romantic relationship in the past that's why I rejected heart in the past bc I always associated it with bad emotional things, but now that I have a new and more positive relationship I feel that my heart is mended tbh. My interests are many, I like anime, old school horror films, true crime documentaries mainly for historical significance and educational purposes, cute and soft things, unicorns and bunnies, weird stuff tbh I can find the cutest things weird and bizarre stuff cute and adorable, I love pastel goth and lovecore aesthetics, sanrio and the supernatural. My favorite foods are sweets, Japanese and Italian food. I'm always second guessing myself and my purpose. Oh btw when I get emotional, if it really effects me I do the old arobatic fucking pirouette and have an emotional breakdown. I get maid responses but sometimes idk

Anon, you posted this in the Discord server as well. We don't typically classpect people on the blog. That's a choice you have to make on your own or ask someone else about. Personally, my classpecting skills are best accurate when I know the person. It makes it more accurate.

[euphor1a]

hello. just wanted to say that I love all your works.

funny story, your fic was actually the first ever fanfic that I read. it was a little over a year back, I was in a not-so-good headspace. and just searched up 'yeonjun fanfic' on google lmao just for the heck of it. tried wattpad, was scarred💀 twt was just not for me. and then tried tmblr and was greeted by one of your yeonjun drabbles. ngl, I was a little taken aback at the liberal use of the obscene words lmao. and then since I didn't know how to actually use tmblr, I just read all of your works. and I mean all. so the works that literally don't even exist anymore, I've read them too!

so I've been with your works way back when you were cupidchois. and my tmblr journey began with you so you're like the OG for me lol.

also, the not-so-good-headspace was due to this huge huge life changing entrance exam I had and your fics provided comfort. but when the exam date was too near, I stopped using tmblr for like 3 months.

but before going, I read whatever little part of bewitched you had written and remember thinking that okay when I come back after all this time, it might be a completed series. also, the release date for the yj sugarpapi fic was 14 feb but you said you needed more time. and I thought yeah I'm gonna be gone a long long time. it'll be there when I come back.

if only I knew lol. when I came back you had a brand new blog, half of your fics were missing, sugarpapi never came out, and get this, bewitched had actually gone BACKWARDS because you decided to rewrite it! lmfao, I'm not tryna sound rude or pushy at all. please dont take it the wrong way. the situation was just sooo funny.

so yeah, that's my history with your blog lol.

anywhoo, love your works a whole lot and thank you for introducing me to this hellsite without even knowing it<3

much love<3

... wow 😭😭😭, i’m genuinely struggling to find words to type here. Goodness. This is making me feel so many emotions like kdghfghfgh HOLD AWN 😭

!!! Thank you so much for sending this in, first of all?? This is like a peak moment™ of my tumblr life i’m not even kidding 😭!!! Especially because I kinda ended up joining tumblr in a very similar way, except that my OG was far more consistent than me with their blog and works 😅! Take me back to 2017 pls—

I’m pretty sure a lot of us here actually started out with just searching up fanfics on google and then finding tumblr in the search results. Because same! I did not know something like tumblr existed and my experience with wattpad was equally traumatising 😵; thank god for the hellsite. It sure is very annoying at times but it’s also nice that we can have our own little bubble here!

Lsjskdjkfj “liberal use of the obscene words” IM DYING 😭! Thank you for still reading them though 😭! A part of me is very embarrassed because I’ve... well, grown to find my old stuff very poorly written (hence all the rewriting) but a part of me is? Super fucking flattered? And proud? THANK YOU 🙈🙈

The fact that whatever the fuck I wrote actually provided comfort to a human being is enough for me to just go on and quit everything and live a life of a saint. It’s crazy... I never dared to imagine that my writing could actually do that? Because I always think that whatever I write is pretty forgettable tbh. Like you read it and move on and never think back. Anyway, I hope you are feeling better now, lovely 🥺! I’ve been in similar places throughout my life and damn I know how badly education related pressure fucks you up :(

Ah yes... Bewitched. Sigh. I have a love-hate relationship with that kid. I think I have mentioned this before in some random rant post, but god, rewriting is so hard. Because I spend most of the time regretting how I wrote it instead of the actual fixing and editing and rewriting. I won’t abandon it, but at this rate I’m not sure when I’ll be able to invest myself completely in rewriting either. It’s only harder because my daydreams have no ends and the amount of newer wips that I want to finish and post keeps increasing. And to top it off, there’s ✨real life✨, being an absolute pain in the ass constantly.

Also Sugarpapi 😭! It’s honestly me vs. the unrealistic high standards I’ve set for myself at this point. But you know what? I’ll take my time with it. Because I think taking it slow is better in all aspects. Like yeah, I could just half-ass it and put all the pressure in the world on myself to finish it sometime soon, but we all know that’ll be a mess itself, and will make me one too. It’s coming. I promise. Maybe in another year 💀

“If only I knew” — me at least twice a day skshksjk 😭;; it be like that 🙁! Apologies for the unexpected jump-scares you got from my whole new blog and all :'))

I will eventually repost the works people wanted to be reposted — surprise, almost all of my cupidchois’ masterlist actually ended up there after I rounded everything up (and almost nothing from my bts blog minus the reactions), so there’s that. And, I can’t even explain how much this ask actually means to me. Crazy stuff. Life changing.

Thank you so much!!! I’m sending you a parcel full of positive energy and my love, which is not enough but it’s the best I can do atm </3

[circus-shenanigans]

Welcome back, besties! ✨🦐💜

Okay it's been a while but since the new season of CoS is on its way again I'm BACK! New season, new blog, new me, and ready to keep track of all the juice.

First things first, my favorite team; as in previous years I'll mainly be focusing on whichever team I like the most, but obviously if you hear rumours about other contestants LMK!!!

Team 1 is just so fucking good. I mean, the talent they managed to bring together is great and there's just so . much . SHIT between these weirdos (/affectionate)!

Fred Spark ✨: omg this MAN!!! I feel so bad for Angelica that she has to be away from him for so long 😭😱 do you think he'll survive??? Who am I kidding of course he will never abandon her

Parcival 🥂: I love him so much but he's SUCH a MESS. I hear he's turning 27 during the game, you think they put him in here to make sure he doesn't join the club?! 🥺

Claerck Mellaerck 📽️: host turned contestant?! He sounds like he'll be the ✨worst✨ teammate LOL I'm so here for ittt

Rae Bombastic 🎙️: hot take, I don't care for his music... But the stage presence?! Hello!!! 😍🤩

Evelyn C. C. Quinn 🌬️: let me know your favorite season/episode of CoC in the reblogs!!! So jealous they get to meet her!!! I haven't read MoAaE yet but I swearrr I'll get around to it 😩🫡

Gigi Soda 🌈: can she tiptap dance her way to victory??? Tbh I think she's just here for the drama like us I love the messy energy <3 go on girl give us EVERYTHING 😍🫡

Thokk Skullcrusher ⚖️: guys what is a lawyer doing hereeeee (then again they might need one soon I'm JUST sayin) 👀👀👀

Chaqa Cheezeqake 🎂: I LOVE HER, YOUR HONOR! This is a Chaqa Cheezeqake stan account FIRST a CoS updates account SECOND 💜🦐💜🦐💜

I know I'm a little late to getting everything set up again but I promise I'll do a roundup soon!!! See you soon :)

Xoxo,

Circusgossip

[identityarchitect]

going by collective memory which is a spotty thing at the best of times, i think part of it was the move of fandom off of Livejournal. A lot of non-fandom content either had already abandoned it bc it was going downhill, or didn't leave until well after, and either way didn't migrate alongside the fandom migrations. I lost track of it, and while I knew some other multiples in Ye Olde Dreamwidth RP after the migration, there wasn't really a community anymore. The best way I think to get an idea what it was like is to find old archived sites and blogs that were live in like 2001-2004ish? I know scrapes-and-bruises [dot] neocities [dot] org has a pretty extensive list of archived plural/multiplicity-related sites and blogs, I found it looking for something else but it looks pretty good and I recognize some of the sites. But it was just... idk people WOULD introduce individual system members sometimes, but it was just as common for a system to just run their site/blog AS a system and you wouldn't know much about individuals, there wasn't really a pressure to disclose that, or your trauma, or what-have-you. There was definitely some drama, some folks were very against the idea of "naturally occurring" multiplicity, but large swaths of the community were supportive of it so it didn't feel too pervasive. it's hard to put a finger on exactly why, but the current community feels more like a content mill than a community. Like everyone's expected to Perform Plurality For Their Audience or some shit, you know what I mean? I didn't used to feel like I had to perform it correctly in order to be multiple. 🎆

That makes sense, tbh. If the community moved to newer sites there'd be disparity between the existing community as they tried to get set up again, archive important things, and whatever existing community may have been on the sites they migrated to.

I agree that it feels kind of content-mill-ish. This happens in other tags where people post in the tag because they have xyz identity and not because the post is actually super relevant or needs to be in the tag, but like... I go into the pluralgang tag and I see people posting updates about specific internal things in their system, posting about how they got a new headmate 3 seconds ago and want to introduce them, posting apologies for things, and it's like. I don't know how to describe it, but it's uncomfortable. I really don't need to know about the internal happenings in your system, and neither does the rest of the pluralgang tag.

We post about stuff going on in our system, but that's more because this is our personal blog where we blog about whatever we want, including IRL stuff, and not because we... idk, feel the need to meet a quota of posting about headmates before we're a Real Valid System. (I have no idea why people feel the need to post about every single thing that happens to them in every single plural tag.)

I also definitely think there's influence from young people joining the plural community? No fault on their part but for a lot of like, newly discovered 13-14yo systems, they're not really in a position to speak to their family or friends about plurality, y'know. But (and I think this is a thing most new systems do, not just young ones) they really want to be validated in their identity as plural, especially if they've tried to gauge how family or friends might feel and gotten a resounding "even if it were real, you're not plural". They discover that they're real, and they want to keep being real: they want other people to tell them they're real, because so far other people have told them they're not real, or that being real means being someone else entirely. (This happens in the queer community too, and seems to manifest as people only being able to tell other queers that they're 'valid', and seemingly unable to make any other positive comment.)

And so you end up with people wanting to talk about every single headmate in excruciating detail, and every conversation between those headmates and every headspace discovery, but more than that they want to be part of a community where they can talk about everything and everything is acknowledged, validated, and loved on a personal level. I don't think plural tags are a great place for that. Best of luck to them, of course, but in my experience trying to make a community that is like that just ends up being even more gatekeepy, presumptuous, and toxic. (Speaking from experience.)

[trickstarbrave]

one thing you guys need to know about me is. i consume and write a good amount of isekai/reincarnation stories i just never end up posting. either story gets abandoned bc i realized i didnt plan it out or i get a New hyperfixation i have to indulge in

this is one of those but. it involves a transmasc main character which i feel is severely lacking in the genre.

anyways im gonna dump the plot out here bc its my blog and you all have to suffer. but i will use a read more so. also i havent named any characters yet so hopefully it wont be too annoying to explain.

to start off with, it would make the most sense if i explain the original plot of the novel the mc is being shoved into. it was a toxic romance novel the mc read bc it was just a disaster of a plot with two fucked up ppl and it was genuinely entertaining to him. he's trans in our world but likes shitty weird romance stories as a guilty pleasure despite them being mostly marketed towards women (though he also likes toxic BL too. he's that kinda guy)

anyways. female lead (FL) and male lead (ML) are just a super toxic couple. ML is emperor of this fantasy empire (as one tends to be if you arent the cold duke of the north or crown prince lmao) who is looking for his childhood friend. said childhood friend was the illegitimate child of a noble household. maybe a county or smth. ML was originally the son of a concubine never intended to take the throne but he did so by force. mostly because he had a sort of childhood romance with this friend--they both had a crush on each other and spent a lot of time together whenever possible. and just to spite him the ruling empress at the time destroyed her family and it was said she was killed but no body was recovered.

so the ML goes looking for her. he's a bit obsessive and a bit toxic but he's the kind of person that spoils and acts sweet to the person he loves. the FL hears about this and wants the position of empress and also revenge (i havent figured out what she wants revenge for tbh. i might give her some kind of connection to the previous empress tho) who casts extremely powerful, dark magic on the ML to make him think she's his childhood friend and essentially overrides his memories of her. makes up a lie that she was adopted by another family because she had the ability to be a good mage and was raised by them after being abducted by the previous empress. after which she moves into the palace. she even starts to fall for the emperor because he's very sweet when all lovey dovey even though he could also be cruel. the MC thinks this is stupid reading it bc he's like "you know how he actually is. you know his real personality and that he'll want to kill you for doing this. are you insane"

the og plot ends with the spell breaking the emperor realizing she isnt his childhood friend but he's already married her and slept with her so he just kills them both. its mostly told from the FL's perspective though so she believes its bc he both hates and loves her and can't reconcile those feelings of both wanting her more than anything and wanting to kill her. (in reality though its because she told him his childhood friend was actually dead and he's so disgusted with himself as well that he wants to kill the both of them)

mc gets into an accident as so many isekaied protagonists do and ends up in that world in the body of a little girl at an orphanage. she's an extremely pretty girl but he's like. "what the fuck. i live here now? in the world of that toxic ass novel??? AND i have to transition again?????? this is the worst." but he's a survivor if nothing else and decides to tough it out. orphanage sucks but he's not there forever and instead enlists to use a sword and uses magic to transition. only problem is complex magic like that costs a lot of money that a simple mercenary can make. so he ends up working for a noble family convincing himself its fine. he'll just completely avoid the plot

only well. despite basically being a knight he has problem after problem. namely that he is such a pretty boy the daughter of the noble he works for is head over heels for him and also he is STILL not making enough money to pay off his debt. but he can't just bail because then he'll have no way to make that money but if he doesn't soon that noble is going to kick him out or want him dead anyways.

the imperial palace is hiring guards though and he knows that might get him caught up in the plot but he knows it'll be a couple of years till the plot starts. and the imperial palace pays WAY MORE than the knights salary he gets here. so he asks for a letter of recommendation and in a hurry to get his ass out of there the noble agrees and he's on his way to the palace, deciding to save up all of his money basically and once the plot starts bailing, paying off his debt, and working as a mercenary until the plot is over and probably fleeing the country in the subsequent succession war with the death of the emperor.

he mostly avoids the emperor. the man is cold and harsh but he doesn't have to interact directly, mostly he just patrols the grounds for intruders. to be the emperor's personal knight (bodyguard basically) takes a lot more than just a letter of recommendation and being good with the sword. they've passed by each other on occasion but usually his face was down bowing or the emperor was far enough way he can't really see him.

and then the mc gets caught up with palace stuff, people flirting with him, a new mentor training him with the blade, perfecting infusing his sword with magic, the works. he's actually having a great time in the palace. to the point he doesn't notice the main plot is happening until it basically starts.

the emperor is on the balcony of his room and starts getting a terrible migraine. the mc realizes "oh shit wait is it time for the plot to start? if that starts happening that means the FL cast the spell and she'll be at the palace in a few weeks." but before he can just leave he notices the emperor is VERY close to the railing when he basically faints and the MC moves automatically to catch him. the emperor's person knights rush downstairs to see where he is and if he's okay and luckily he only has minor injuries (though the mc dislocated his shoulder and ankle catching him). mc is relieved he's alright because this will probably mean he gets a huge reward, can pay off his debt, and resign with the excuse that he just isnt as good with the sword post injury even if it would be a lie.

the emperor comes to fairly quickly though, sees him, and instantly calls out his childhood friend's name and is hugging him and crying about how relieved he is to find him. the mc is just staring confused and baffled wondering if the magic got fucked up from the FL casting it, but even though he's protesting the ML is hearing none of it and saying to take him to the bedroom he had prepared for his friend and treat his injuries. everyone is very confused by this but they also check the emperor over and see he got a minor head injury and hope the misunderstanding will be cleared up soon. but the MC is just like. is this guy going to kill me realizing who i actually am. even if i deny it that magic is strong. i keep saying im not and he is Not Listening even when others say he's acting strange.

come morning the mc barely slept he is still so anxious and confused wondering how the fuck this even happened. how the hell he's gonna get out of this. the FL will want him dead for interrupting her magic. the ML will want him dead for impersonating his friend/first love even though he Did Not Mean To Do This. not to mention the room is decked out with stuff for women and is the bedroom the emperor has perfectly curated for his friend complete with sleep wear and robes and day clothes and fancy dresses and jewelry and he's just like. "im just a fucking orphan brat why the fuck am i here???? not to mention i do NOT wanna be put in any of those dresses i think my muscles would rip those immediately."

emperor comes in to see him freshly bathed (MC sent the maids who were ordered to help him bathe out of the bathroom. he can clean himself up and hopefully he can talk some sense into the emperor) in a robe sitting on the bed awkwardly. emperor looks at him and pauses going "... now that it's not dark i can see you properly... you weren't just pretending to be a man were you?" and the mc is like panicking not wanting to be killed and just ad libs "yeah i am a man now. i understand if you longer feel the same way about me though, i knew you might not so i never approached you" and the ML just smiles and says "you're you no matter what. what gender you are won't change how i feel. besides it only makes sense, you were always a tomboy who hated dresses. i prepared dresses just in case you changed your mind but i can get you proper suits as well." and the mc is like. "SHIT I WAS REALLY HOPING THAT WOULD GET ME OUT OF THIS WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE BI SPECIFICALLY FOR HIS FIRST LOVE".

the mc thus spends a while trying to ad lib based on stuff he remembers from the novel and also trying to figure out a way out of this. the FL will find out her spell bounced and wanna get rid of him and also if the magic wears off bc the FL wants to cast the spell again he will realize one way or the other that the MC isn't his childhood friend.

mc reading the novel: fl is dumb as shit actually falling for him. She knows he’s crazy and doesn’t actually love her but this is too entertaining to put down

mc realizing he is now falling for the emperor bc of how sweet he is to him:

i have. a new idea for a novel.

[thegirlintheredchair]

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

Look who has emerged from the depths of her own mind to write a blog post. I haven’t written in ages. I had planned on writing “Letters to Allah” (a sort of summary of the month and what I learned) in my journal after each month but I sadly didn’t keep up. 😕

It is birthday month! (No, today is not my birthday). I’ve never liked birthdays and I’ve never celebrated them (apart from treating myself to good food, donating or planting a tree) but if anything, I use birthdays as a measure for my spiritual, mental and worldly growth.

I feel like I’ve aged 50 years since the beginning of this year and I am definitely not the same person at all. I feel like two different people tbh. (I would like to think I’ve progressed mentally and spiritually. Lol).

It has been a tumultuous year so I’m highlighting 31 lessons I’ve learned this year before turning 31. Some are constant lessons and some are new ones.. I hope this benefits you too.

Prioritise Allah over everything, especially over your desires and whims…this life is for His obedience and to gain His pleasure. In other words, the deen of Allah requires sacrifice. We are already sold… Allah has already promised us heaven granted we place Him over everything else. Yani there is nothing more beneficial to a person than seeking and possessing the pleasure of Allah. If He is pleased, He will give you contentment in all your affairs, in this life and the hereafter. Guaranteed! In short, Don’t lose sight of the akhira. Nothing in this world is promised. The reality is that there is only one reality!

Take time out to send salutations on our beloved Prophet (ﷺ) and you will be amazed by the change you’ll see in your life. I am currently not in the habit of doing this daily but I’ve experienced its benefits. My aim is usually to send salutations at least 500 times daily and countless times on a Friday. The shortest darood shareef is simply his name. I also like this one: "صلى الله علی سیدنا محمد و آله و سلم"

Lots of people need to hear this: Please take your Salah seriously! What even are you if you can’t say your five daily prayers?? It is the bare minimum. They make up less than 50 minutes of your day! You are depriving yourself of not being able to enjoy the comfort of talking to Allah. Also like how dare you abandon the one who provides for you continuously and unconditionally?? How do you intend to have a productive day when you don’t start it with Fajr? How do you intend to sleep peacefully if you don’t end your day with Isha?

DON’T.STOP.MAKING.DUA!! It took me a long time to idk internalize this? Lol. Yani I went through periods of asking for something diligently and then not asking for it at all. Because you know your hope wavers. And that’s okay but don’t stop making dua. It’s like that quote, (I forget who it’s by; I think it’s by Umar (RA)) “if He has inspired you to make dua, know that He wants to grant you what you’re asking.” Besides Allah never says no to our duas. He only has three response: “There is no Muslim who calls upon Allah, but that Allah will give him one of three answers: He will quickly fulfil his supplication, He will store it for him in the Hereafter, or He will divert an evil from him similar to it.” (Musnad Aḥmad 11133). Pair your dua with tahajjud and watch miracles unfold!! ✨️ ("The dua made at tahajjud is like an arrow which does not miss its target. - Imam Ash-Shafi’")

Learn the etiquettes of making Dua (I might do a separate post on this) but for real don’t just start with what you want. I’ve been looking into this lately and this is what I’ve learned so far (briefly): Start by Praising Him. Call Him by His Greatest names. (Al-Rahman, Al-Raheem, Al Ahad etc).Thank Him for the countless blessings he bestows on you. Every.Single.Day. Then pour your heart out!!!! And ask. Please ask unapologetically and shamelesslesly? He is the Lord of Impossible. The Lord of Miracles. Who else even is there in your corner?? End the dua with salutations on the Prophet (ﷺ). “Du’aa’ is suspended between heaven and earth and none of it is taken up until you send blessings upon your Prophet (ﷺ)” - ‘Umar ibn al-Khattaab [al-Tirmidhi (486). That being said, you can make Dua at literally any time.

Sit with the righteous. This is sooooo important. You need these circles that talk about Allah. The Sunnah of our beloved Prophet (ﷺ). The Noble Quran. These are your anchors for sanity in this world tbh. (Yes the internet lectures are good but if you have actual physical circles with real tangible people thats even better) These circles lift your imaan (much needed in todays world), keep you sane in the face of adversity; I honestly wouldn’t know how to solve or navigate my problems, if it weren’t for Islam. I am where I am today because of His religion. Its like that quote by Umar (RA) [can you tell he’s one of my favorite companions 🙃] “We were the most humiliated people on earth and God gave us honor through Islam. If we ever seek honor through anything else, God will humiliate us again.”

An attitude of Gratitude. This year has been a huge lesson in this. It made me be thankful to Him in every situation. Gratitude brings abundance, it unlocks the fullness of life. It’s the little pleasures in live (that we take for granted) a roof over our head, hot meals, the presence of parents and siblings that care and love you. A family that practices the Deen and has the same mind-set. Sunsets, the moon. Friends like family, your health, an unblocked nose. Our own existence as Muslims! (We’re from amongst the guided, imagine if we weren’t?) Just there’s far more to be thankful for than to dwell on that one problem(s) you’re facing. Gratitude needs to be our default position. This year I made a concise effort to become a person of Shukr and it has kept me anchored and has brought me back from moments where I was about to give up hope. 🥹🫶🏻

#PocketsofPeace. Sit with the Noble Quran, ponder over its meaning. Pick a surah for a year or go through random ayats. No amount of time with it will ever be enough. The Honorable Quran is like the ocean, the deeper you dive into its meaning, the more you’ll discover. Also this will build your faith. We live in end times and our resolute faith is the only thing that can save us!!! Faith is the only thing that has survived the test of time. It pivots you back to the one thing that will always remain constant in your life no matter how much the world modernizes; Allah.

Qadr Allah; Tawakkul. Every year I say I’ve internalized it and every year I struggle with it. I will say that this year this has strengthened in comparison to last year. Qadr is the sixth pillar of faith (not believing in it can take you outside of the fold of Islam). The thing with Qadr is that it is only appreciated in hindsight, or viewed in the past tense. Your way forward to navigate Qadr is through your Tawakkal in your Lord and your duas. The Prophet (ﷺ) said (on his son Ibrahims death): “The eyes are shedding tears, and the heart is grieved, and we will not say expect what pleases our Lord” (Sahih Bukhari 1303)

There is always khair in delay. “What is meant for you will reach you even if it is between two mountains. And what isn’t meant for you will not reach you even if it is between your lips” –Imam Ghazali

“But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not” (2:216)

Define your boundaries! especially if you're an empath. Whether it’s at home, work, university, or even friendships. You are your biggest advocate! I have to say this though that learning and knowing more about my religion has helped me become firm on setting them and not budging from them or feeling guilty about them or thinking that people will think I'm weird. Define your boundaries from the beginning so no one gets to take advantage of your empathetic nature. You can be empathetic and still say no.

The other end of the spectrum is just as shitty (excuse my French). This one is a lesson solely for me. I wish to explain this one no further.

Log out of social media once in a while! It is refreshing. There’s less noise because you are only exposed to the lives and opinions of those immediately around you (as God intended. Lol). This might not be a hot take, but we aren’t meant to hear every thought, see each other’s lives or know about people’s emotions who we will probably never see face to face.

In the same vein, be mindful of media you consume. When I took a break and came back, it just made me realize how much none of it matters??? Likewise being always on SM we are constantly receiving information. Like Too Much Information. I don’t think were supposed to crowd our brains like that. Take at least 24 hours off of social media every week. You’ll thank me later.

Peace of mind over everything. Im a big advocate for this! “When a thing disturbs the peace of your heart, give it up.” -Prophet Muhammad (ﷺ).” [al-Zuhd wal-Raqā’iq 1147]

You are on your own, you can’t rely on people to do what’s important to you. If it’s important to you, you’ll have to do it yourself. No one is going to step up. You need to show up for yourself!

Keep Husn Adh Dhan (thinking good of other people). Boy do I struggle with this one! People can be bone deep kind, loving and self-reflective but can still be selfish in certain situations. People can be well meaning, generous, sociable and easy going and still hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies. Every person is a kladeiscope and they will surprise you. (I don’t think you can ever fully know another person) You will surprise yourself too. It’s not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse either. It’s also not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. (Even though I’m still struggling) it is just a fact! I understand the concept of Husn Adh Dhan, and I’d like to think this year I’ve internalized this a little? But I have a long way to go.. May Allah help make it easy to distinguish who is gold and who is gold plated.

Privacy is power!! A quiet life is so underrated! SM and capitalism and culture has put such a significant emphasis on the definition of success as fame, being known, having an accolade of worldly accomplishments and excessive wealth. There is so much power in anonymity. Your life does not have to be a grand spectacle for others to have a worth. You don’t need that kind of validation bro! Plus it saves you from so much Ayn!

Trust your gut. Vibes and energy don’t lie. If something is off about a situation or a person. It means it is off. Intuition is God’s gift! And women have it down to a science.

Cut music out of your daily life. I swear to you, you could be doing much better stuff with your time than numbing your brain with beats. Also I feel it opens the path for you to commit other sins and just look at sinning in a different light? Do I make sense? Lol. Replace that with nasheeds or Qur’anic recitation. You’ll end up memorizing a few ayats too (or a whole surah). It’s a win!

Not everything needs a reaction. Learn to walk away. Spent your energy and your time wisely.

Make Dhikr a part of your daily routine. Your heart is your most hardworking muscle but it needs to rest too! (please, Im trying to be poetic) "Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest." (13:28)

A Litmus test for choosing a spouse: the single most important decision you'll ever make as a woman is choosing the father of your children, everything else is secondary to that. If he is God-fearing and God-loving, you have a winner!

Learn the difference between people who are good in general and people who are good for you. Not everyone will understand you or has the same heart as you and that’s okay. Move on don’t keep waiting for the same effort. Some people are just meant to be acquaintances.

Pray for your parents. They put on a tough act for us. Pray for their emotional and mental well-being and that they get to see you successful in both worlds.

Respect and understanding over love. If some one claims to love you and doesn't respect you, they don't actually love you.

Reflecting on your own destructive habits and working towards fixing them is self-care. You have to work towards change; quitting that sin you keep going back to, looking at what needs to go or what needs to be added for your life to move forward. People usually assume self-care is about indulgence (self-worship) or doing whatever you want (selfish). I think it’s more about doing things that are healthy for you.

Cut out people who think you’re arguing or personally attacking them every time you try and solve an issue or express your emotions. It is draining and mentally exhausts you. If someone cannot tolerate you making an effort in communication (read ask clarifying questions) and sharing what you feel, distance yourself from them. No one is a mind reader!

Communication without comprehension is a waste. You could be sharing your most darkest, scariest vulnerabilities with a person and not be reciprocated even with words. I suffer from incomprehension sometimes (read come off as cold). I pray Allah makes me better at easing someone's suffering in whatever capacity I'm capable of.

Be quick to apologize when you know you've hurt someone. Trust me it will take nothing away from you. Even if it was unintentional, it’s so easy to just apologize and move on. I personally think it helps maintain the trust in any relationship.

If you’ve read till the end, congratulations to you!🤝🏻

Theres been a lot more changes, lots of things i started doing differently that have helped me grow as a person. I like the current me, i feel like i can handle certain situations better than i wouldve last year. Its the small victories that count ✌🏻

Hope you related and benefited from some of these lessons/experiences. May Allah be pleased with us and give us a beautiful end to our lives here. Ameen. ✨️

Love, Phi 🕊

[moemammon]

The demon brothers reacting to MC dropping their phone on their face while laying down:

Lucifer

Why are you laying around on your phone anyway? Why, because Lucifer was buried in paperwork and couldn't give you the time of day!

He wanted to, of course, but you knew better than to pester this workaholic while he was doing stuff.

So instead, you decided to keep him company with your presence, rather than your words. And he appreciates it. Having you around clears his head and encourages him to work faster, somehow.

Maybe it's because he wants to get back to you as quickly as he can? He's rather spend time with you, anyway.

And it seemed like you'd need it since you just destroyed your nose with your phone.

All you wanted was to scroll through the group texts to pass the time.... why did gravity betray you like this...

Lucifer hears the soft smack of your phone against your face, and the grunt of pain that follows it.

He doesn't even need to look up. He knows what happened. Maybe he's trying to spare your feelings?

You don't see it, but a smile tugs at the corners of his lips. What a sadist...

"I did tell you to sit properly while you use your D.D.D., didn't I? I hope you've learned your lesson."

You narrow your eyes at the demon, not sure whether to be embarrassed or irritated.

Lucifer finally looks up at you with that judging gaze of his. But he's not going to mock you, of course! The eldest is too mature for that.

"Maybe it's time I took a break. It seems that you need something other than your D.D.D. to keep you busy."

So all you had to do was pull a Mammon and he’d start paying attention to you, huh?

You make a mental note of that.

Mammon

You were in Mammon's room, lounging around in comfortable silence. You were laying across his sofa on your back, arms propped up to hold your phone over your face while you watched a video.

And that's when the inevitable happened. Your fingers slipped, and....

The moment your phone makes contact with your face, Mammon's practically in tears.

Seriously. He has to shove his face into his pillow so he can calm himself down. But did you HEAR the sound you just made-

He's dropped his phone on his face so many times that he's glad HE gets to laugh for once, instead of the other way around!

He feels your pain though, so once he recovers from laughing for ten years, he asks if your nose is okay

Which you reply that it is not.

May he offer you a bandaid in these trying times?

"Don't look at me like that! I already said I was sorry for laughing at ya, didn't I?? C'mon MC... Oi, don't ignore me!"

Levi

Levi's back is to you and his eyes are trained on his computer screen, watching the pixilated game characters move across the screen.

You don't mind, since you're absorbed in your own game, a new mobile mmorpg he introduced you to!

And you've taken the liberty of stealing his bathtub bed for yourself, and we're currently laying on your back, arms raised high as if that would channel power into your character's move combo.

But it seems like you got a little too excited, because your phone slipped out of your grasp, and right into your poor face.

When you yelped, Levi pauses his game and takes his headset off to see what??? you just did??

Then he sees it.

His dear Henry has lost the battle against their D.D.D... he knows you fought honorably...

No but seriously, you good?

He's probably the one who's done it the most out of all of his brothers, what with all of his hobbies involving browsing the internet.

"Uh... I don't have any ice, but you can use this soda can..? It's still cold."

Thanks Levi. That was very poggers of you.

Satan

You were laying about, scrolling the internet to figure out the meaning of a word you'd just read.

Impignorate??? What was THAT. Not even Satan had an answer, so you had to rely on google to give you a hand.

Speaking of hands, yours decided to betray you and send your phone into your face, which Satan just witnessed.

He was mostly paying attention to the book his nose was buried in, but he’d sneak glances at you from time to time.

And he just happened to get lucky enough to witness your murder

This man lets out a very audible "Pfft-"

He was trying not to laugh. He swears. It's just that the sound of the phone hitting your face was just

Chef kiss

And now he will offer you a kiss, too, to your lil red nose.

He gets up to make sure you're good, still obviously laughing about it.

"Maybe you should sit up next time you use your D.D.D., hm?"

Now where have you heard that one-

He's definitely logging that memory into his brain forever though lmao

He didn't know humans could make a sound like that

Asmo

Does this scenario even need explaining??

There was nothing unusual about you and Asmo laying around his enormous bed, scrolling through devilgram, fashion blogs, and rolling over to show each other your latest internet find.

But all that rolling around and laughing came at a price...

That price being the structural integrity of your skull, after your phone just dive bombed into it.

Asmo IMMEDIATELY sits up

If there's anyone who knows how dangerous a blow to the face can be, it's Asmo!

He's not even laughing about it. Just cupping you're cheeks and checking you over like a worried wife mom

"Are you okay?? Nothing seems to be swelling, and I don't see any bruises... How's your nose? Does it hurt?? I'll get you some ice! We don't want any marks on that adorable face of yours!"

Nurse Asmo will heal your superficial wounds

Speeds up the recovery process with a million butterfly kisses all over your face

May or may not turn into a few kisses going lower and lower, until-

Anyway, just be careful next time, okay? You nearly gave him a heart attack!

Beel

What do you do when you run out of ideas for what to make for dinner?

You look to the internet for some recipes! Preferably easy ones that can be made quickly and in huge batches, per Beel's request.

He's looking, too! There are plenty of cookbooks to flip through, so while you handle the googling, he's busy... drooling over the photos in the books.

At this rate, he might just eat the books themselves...

So you get up from your cozy lounge spot on the counter- Or, that was the plan anyway. But one thing led to another, and the only thing moving was your cell phone.

Rapidly.

Toward your face.

Beel hears the smack and then the curse you mumble under your breath, and looks over with worry.

His hunger is temporarily forgotten since he's got to make sure you're okay. Humans are fragile, after all!

Maybe not fragile enough to seriously be hurt by something like this, but he still doesn't like when you get hurt.

"Are you okay..? That sounded like it hurt."

Carefully inspecting your face. When he concludes that you seem perfectly fine, he gives your hair an affectionate ruffle.

"Why don't we look through the cookbooks together? I found a recipe that looks tasty. I want to make it with you."

The pain in your face seems to fly away in the presence of this sunshine man.... you have truly been blessed...

Belphie

Hanging out under the stars with Belphie was always so relaxing. You couldn't get enough of it!

And this time, you had the great idea of snapping a few photos of the display above your heads.

After a couple of selfies and a few shots overhead, to position your phone to take one last photo of yourself and Belphegor, when your finger slips.

Belphie has abandoned you.

He rolls away at light speed to prevent the phone from possibly hitting HIM, and lets you take the hit.

You've never felt more betrayed....

And he has the nerve to chuckle???

He grabs your phone from your face, inching close enough to look you over.

"Sorry. I didn't want to get hit. That must've hurt, huh?"

Yeah, no kidding.

Probably imitates the sound you made at random times throughout the day just to get on your nerves tbh

He's annoyingly good at it, too

Evil man

Gremlin

[charmixpower]

Explaining my slow descent into Winx Club best friend madness that I fell into two days ago, and now bothering me enough to make a post abt;

I don't think I mentioned this when I was live blogging s2 but in (I think) the ep Twinning Witches (which could have been used to flesh out some nice witch side characters but I digress) Griffin said that she put them in the worse groups based on friendship/personality

Bloom and Tecna

Stella and Musa

Flora and Aisha

This was my thought process upon receiving this information

Firstly I thought the most obvious choice for the worst team work would be Stella and Aisha, but then I realized that despite Stella accidentally excluding Aisha I don't think their teamwork would be that bad? Like Aisha wouldn't fight with Stella? I honestly think they'd just be really uncomfortable but they wouldn't of dropped the ring like Stella and Musa. I felt like genuinely the moment the got a moment alone together would be the moment they started getting along, and yeah that literally happened. Like they have a lot in common? It's really just Aisha's hypersensitivity due to trauma and Stella's obviousness coming into conflict. One conversation cleaned that up, on the other hand

The more I think about Stella and Musa not getting along the best the more I agree. Honestly they both deal with crippling abandonment issues in the exact opposite way. Stella trying to prop up an over exaggerated personality as happy and fun loving as possible so people stick around and Musa doing the exact opposite of projecting her real personality as agressively as possible to keep people that might leave her away. I also feel like Musa coped with having no friends at school by becoming a teacher's pet, and Stella did the opposite of becoming the class clown, and Musa's snitch tendencys and Stella's blase attitude often come into conflict like over the test answers. Musa seems to care more than she lets on and Stella tends to over exaggerate the importance of things she knows doesn't matter in an attempt to ignore the things really bothering her. I agree that these two would struggle in their friendship at times!

Flora and Aisha I wasn't expecting but it makes sense? I think Aisha's mix of anxiety and over confidence that she constantly moves between would literally force Flora to take a more active role in what ever their doing and I think that would just be very stressful for Flora. Mostly bc Flora seems very conflict resistant? I think Flora being so slow to act would slightly make Aisha's anxiety worse? From experience when you get random bursts of confidence you need to cling to those or else you get trapped in fear. I think Flora would read these bursts of confidence as recklessness (and she's not wrong) and try to slow Aisha down, unaware that that was one of the few means of not being terrified all the time. That and Aisha would definitely mirror Flora, and Flora would absolutely loath the leadership role this places her into.

Bloom and Tecna genuinely surprised me? Mostly bc the show apparently decided that Bloom would randomly take offense to Tecna's gadgets and that's just dumb. Bloom had never had a problem with Tecna's technology. Honestly this would of made more sense if Tecna's casual bluntness hurt Bloom's feelings? Bc Stella says thing carelessly that she doesn't mean, I think it would be easy for people to brush of her more rude comments bc she's a bit of a ditz. While when Tecna says something rude, she means it, she just isn't soically aware of what she's saying enough to know she's being rude? Tecna needs to be around people who are unbothered tbh. That and I think Tecna would grate against Bloom taking the leadership role the most??? I feel like Tecna sees Bloom as the least qualified member to lead, and she's not exactly wrong. Sure Stella lazy, but she has a weird amount of combat experience. Bloom on the other hand is a fish out of water in this new world, and Tecna is probably so confused as to why the only person who never knows what's going on ended up as their defacto leader. I think a cute resolution to this would be Tecna realizing she's the leader bc she listens to all of them and remembers their perticualr strengths to use them them best (in battle). Bloom's anxious slightly confused nature and thin skin would naturally come into conflict with the blunt queen I don't make the rules.

So

Taking that Stella and Bloom are best friends for granted

Since the show outright states that Aisha and Flora get along badly that would leave the other best friend to be either

Aisha and Musa and Flora and Tecna

Or

Aisha and Tecna and Flora and Musa

And since Aisha and Musa have a full episode dedicated to their friend ship I was like "Ok! Case closed! The pairs inside of this friend group are Stella and Bloom, Flora and Tecna, and Musa and Aisha!"

Bc it makes sense?? At least to me?

Aisha and Musa have a episode dedicated to their friendship and how much they care about eachother and it's super cute and I love it. But also I think they are very similar? They both feel like outsiders, they both struggle to connect to people and (unlike Tecna) they really care about what people think and deeply want to be close to someone? Plus both of them are the some of the most dedicated characters in the Winx club. I am convinced that Musa and Aisha are ride or dies. Like Ashia goes to rob something for a girl she barely knows and Musa is always first to defend her friends. I remember at first Musa was more hesitant to help the other Winx before she knows them well but after that she's covering Stella's tracks when she's on a war path. Aisha, Stella, and Musa make up team "How do you want your ex's life destroyed?? We got a list of options."

Flora and Tecna at first caught me off guard but I definitely see it. Mostly bc of Chemistry major Flora doing experiments with mad scientist Tecna. Plus while their both smart I think Flora would never get annoyed at Tecna not getting as high as grades as she could (bc Tecna doesn't have the highest grades of the Winx? But she seems to know everything so I'm assuming that the girl is just an ADHD mood and doesn't do her homework). Plus I think Tecna would be able to make decisions for them both, taking leadership stress off of Flora, without steamrolling her. I mean Flora is willing to tease and mock Tecna without getting overly worried so they must have some type of rapport going on. Plus Flora being able to keep Tecna grounded in the emotional side of things bc Flora has a lot of emotional intelligence and would be able to explain why these emotions happen and why their important and I genuinely think that would be really nice for Tecna who struggles with them

But then I saw Musa be the most upset over Tecna's death, I low key assumed that we'd finally be seeing some anger from Flora bc she's v underutilized, then I saw the wiki fucking list Musa and Tecna as best friends and Flora and Aisha as best friends?????

And I'm going absolutely feral

The ones explicitly stated to make a bad pair??? Is Winx club actively fucking with me????

Not only do Musa and Aisha have a lot of on screen friend moments, I don't think Aisha and Flora interact out side of Flora hanging onto Aisha when on the hover bikes!!!!

I just?? They're trying to convince me that Musa and Tecna we're best friends even though Musa explicitly states that she sometimes feels left out of the Winx club (implying that she didn't have a best friend within the group) only to say this???

Even their order of introduction implies that Musa and Aisha should be best friends, Bloom then Stella then Flora then Tecna then Musa then Ashia!

I was utterly flabbergasted

Anyways 🙈 me at the Wiki bc why would Musa be feeling left out and get all these cute moments with Aisha if she had a best friend in Tecna, I'm losing my mind

[1111jenx]

Give us insider information on those Leo risings! 🔥

Ofcourse!

Time to add some more fire to my blog🤍 I'm a Leo Rising/Venus and I have 4 planets in Leo degrees so bear with me guys, this will be an expose post🤭

Leo Rising/ Sun in the first house

read my full rising series here ✨

First and foremost, let's talk the hair. (yes i'm aware of the stereotype) Leo rising people usually have something about their hair that makes them stand out. It doesn't necessarily have to be thick or luscious. Their hair is truly unique, or/and they take great care of it. A lot of leo risings are prone to play with their hair often without even noticing it💞

Their eyes are usually so intimidating? I truly hope people notice this🤣 Leo Risings may have very leonine eyes or feline eyes and their eyes look very playful and expressive!(also if they have some scorpio/pluto energy they can give off a very intimidating energy haha) take a look at JLo and Marilyn Monroe<3

Leo rising individuals have the Sun as their chart ruler. Whatever sign and house that their chart ruler resides in will have the traits/characteristics amplified. -> eg: i have Cancer sun 7° degree(libra degree) in 11H= adds a layer of extroversion&detachment to my sensitive self, cardinal sun in fixed house with fixed chart ruler(sun) also adds stubborness and go getter energy to my identity!

The Sun illuminates, Leo rising natives are usually HELLA career-oriented and can be extreme hard workers(taurus 10H— taurus is a fixed sign), they may also follow their family's path. More than anything, they aim to be filthy rich LOL, this is becsuse they have the sign of taurus(possesion, materials, standards) in their 10th house of career, public life.

they have big dreams and a soft spot for the arts. their childhood home may have been not necessarily the healthiest. as their 4H (moon) ruler is in the sign of scorpio, where the moon is at its fall. they could have been easily dismissed by their parents and grown resentful of this dynamic. leo risings later life may have been held back due to their fear with abandonment and lack of attention when they were younger. their aura is domineering, their family might have feared the darker side of them and strongly rejected their profound emotions. (4H scoprio)

so so prone to being obsessive with their home or strongly goes against the idea of "making a stable home with someone" when they're younger or constantly having issues w settling down.

because of these issues, these natives thrive to search for stability from the outside world (10H), having Taurus here means that publicly, they work with jobs that brings pleasure, are practical, and they truly value material stability. They possessed of a powerful will when it comes to their job, and can come off as quite hot-headed, but very loyal, kind and steadfast. they like to be seen as "productive" and influential! (taurus ruler is venus) omg and they also have amazing eyes when it comes to aesthetics too😌

they get along super well with people, but its pretty hard to get close to them as they're so picky😉 lowkey kinda judgy sometimes(i'm dissing myself at this point)

pretty good with money in my opinion haha(taurus=finance; virgo 2H), HOWEVER, if their 2H ruler have some strong aspects to jupiter or to mars, this will suggest that they tend to spend money on things that make them feel good🥰

alsooooo are great at gifting!!!! their keen eyes for details and the smallest bits of ppl habits daily will help them pick amazing gifts(virgo 2H)

lowkey get stressed about having money somtimes, tbh i'm not gonna lie they may get physically sick if their finance is not going well.

spend money on things that improve productivity. like anything thats new or interesting and benefit their health or their loved ones' health, they'll buy it.

lowkey more obsessed with their health than virgo rising LOLLLLL like the older they get the more they feel the need to have a healthy lifestyle ( my mom is a leo rising and the way she takes care of her self put me to shame)

they need a partner who's also their bestfriend, who will literally be their sidekick, who they can share EVERYTHING to. i mean it. leo risings may seem hard to get but they're such softies in relationships hahahah

convincing. i'll put it at that. the type to talk people into doing things for them and people probably would do it without realizing they just got played💀(3H in libra)

yikes tbh with that 3H in libra, leo risings LOVE talking abt relationships and love LOLLL they're lowkey so nosey they wanna know everything about u hehe

alsoooo they tend to be very soft with their siblings? like they always look out for their siblings in a way haha. harmony in communication is so important to them. like you wouldn't expect it by looking at their fiery asses but they are surprisingly chill, they hate confronting people sometimes but other times, they can't help it🤣

as a child they could have been pretty cold. i'd even go as far as saying they became this way because they didn't receive enough love. super super private when it comes to their family, the type to have SPICY family secrets. but deep down, they always have a soft spot for their loved ones.

they would want to teach their children about philosophy and deeper meanings of life, these people truly believe that they must "give their children everything they couldn't have when they were younger" even though they may not be that fortunate with settling down at first, but when they do, they give it all to their family.

their children would be very adventurous, just like them, they value creativity and their children's innocence. lowkey will be that person who ball her eyes out at their children graduation all of the sudden🙄

their love for travel is insane. i'm not gonna lie, i went psycho during the pandemic as we're not able to leave our houses and we do not want to break any restrictions for safety reasons, my mother also went banana and we just started to lose it on my cancer rising brother and my taurus rising dad🤣

people with leo rising have a fairly interesting love life. they attract wayyyyyy too much randos and wayyyyy too much casual flings. but they can be pretty ok with this, as long as the fun doesn't hurt anyone

so serious about their health?? i repeat they're so so serious about their health?! capricorn 6th house guys. they take on wayyy too much responsibilities too, and then they get overwhelmed💀

*falls in love with an alien*

i'm just kidding, having 7H in aquarius means that they like smart and social people, they just do. they don't open up easily though and it will take them some time to truly show their partners their more vulnerable self.

they hate being tied down and will call ppl out for trying to tame them, BUT they are hella controlling. lets not forget that aquarius is a fixed sign luv😌 they will require utmost loyalty from their s/o too!

oh also i think i should mention this, their marriage/long term relationships may have A LOT of ups and downs, just something i noticed.

commitment issues.

they always think they can do better and that there will be a lot more options, especially when it comes to casual dating(sag=jupiter=expansion in 5H)

they love loveeeee friends who are fun and exciting like them. they love people who can talk with them for hours too!! value constant and entertaining conversations!

lowkey will treat their bestest of friends like their siblings🥺

i also notice a lot of leo rising still hang out with their childhood friends? for them they value these friends very dearly and are genuinely grateful for them!

MISCHIEVOUS. when they're with their friends they take down the business-like facade and become quirky as hell.

their friends may understand that they have a deeper side to then that craves nurture and love. they are actually not as heartless as they show others, deep down leo risings are SO EMOTIONAL and they kept so much memories about their roots and origin. they're simply always very grateful for the experiences life gave them, good or bad.

too calculating sometimes. people think they're an ice queen but they're the softest bundle of joy ever. they have cancer 12H so it might take a while for them to become vulnerable and open towards their inner emotions❤️

amazing style. smhow can be super photogenic???? all leo risings i know are naturally domineering (tbh way worse than earth rising, but more fiery) and can honestly dominate a room as soon as they step their foot in.

people literally feel the passion just by standing near them. they radiate a contagious and uplifting energy, they're also the glue that binds people together:)

lowkey, they can be so chill sometimes. they can be even a bit innocent and might think that people don't have bad intentions💀

they love attentions. or more like they grow to become so used to it? its like they just attract so much attentions from people, with the sun in their first house, it just comes so naturally?🤣

So here are some significant details i wanna talk about with you guys:) If you have anything you wanna add lmk<3

love,

saint jenx🖤