#mentalhealth masterlist

[phanfictioncatalogue]

(TW) Mental Health (2) Masterlist

part one

boys they wanna paint me (ao3) - chickenfree

Summary: It’s not like Phil’s never had a boy stay over, but they’ve never done this.

catatonia (ao3) - dizzy

Summary: Some days Dan just can't move.

Don't Leave Me (ao3) - phanmindpalace

Summary: Dan suffers from PTSD. He has a flashback whilst at Phil’s apartment and Phil finds him on the bathroom floor shaking and sobbing. Comfort and fluff ensues.

Equilibrium (ao3) - breatherepeat

Summary: During the process of living his truth, Dan and his brother develop a new understanding of one another.

From the Passenger Seat (ao3) - Allthephils

Summary: Sometimes clarity hovers just beyond reach and you have to get in the car and drive till you find it.

Going Forward (ao3) - softiejace

Summary: When Phil Lester signs his students up for a mental health workshop, no scenario he's prepared for includes running into his ex...

invincible (ao3) - jestbee

Summary: the first day after is like a breath of fresh air

I wonder if I'll ever let go (ao3) - thesassykels66

Summary: Dan comes home from a long day of speeches and talks, putting on brave faces and shuffling through his cue-cards. Feeling all that weight of trying so hard, and succeeding, wash away when he finds Phil wearing a face mask.

Let the Human In - rainbowchristy

Summary: It’s just a regular workday for Phil. Doing rounds with his patients, helping out with the occasional emergency department case. The only difference? He has one new patient in the ED. One found unconscious on the street. One who starts throwing up from seemingly nothing. One, with a very dark backstory and no hope for the future.

Life's a Beach (ao3) - thewakeless

Summary: A year in the life of Dan and Phil, and their mental health.

Monochrome (ao3) - intoapuddle

Summary: When you build your life out of fear that your mental illness could worsen, it leaves little room for excitement. Luckily, Dan has found a space online where he feels comfortable.

One Thousand Midnights or More (ao3) - JudeAraya

Summary: A decade of love told in moments.

picture imperfect (ao3) - intoapuddle, jestbee

Summary: He knows Dan hates to be patient. What he wants is for Phil to get on with it, to overwhelm him with sensation so much that he can no longer think about all the expectations he's failing to fulfill. But Phil knows better.

restless (ao3) - overwhelmedbysonder

Summary: Breathe. Just breathe.

In. Out. In. Out. In.

It’s not that I don’t try. I see my family, my friends, visiting with their faked smiles and forced laughter, desperately trying to pretend that things are fine, that nothing’s changed. I see them and I want to reach out, I want to look at them and smile and reassure them that I’m here and I’m fine and I’m here, but I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t.

Or, the one where Phil struggles with depression, PTSD and being mute, and Dan just wants to hug him.

Sutures (ao3) - jerseker

Summary: Phil returns to the forever home after a week away, just in time to pull Dan out of his negative thought spiral.

they just don't get it (ao3) - jestbee

Summary: Dan sometimes jokes about things that aren't a joke

Unraveling (ao3) - princejoohoney

Summary: Dan knew he was different from other children very early on. He never lost his 'imaginary friends', they only became a more integral part of his life. Living with his illness is never easy and with a secret as large as his, cracks are bound to appear. While he isn't ashamed of his DID, he knows the consequences of telling the wrong people.

when we need the truth (ao3) - wrongbed

Summary: Phil falls in love with Dan and everything is perfect, until it’s not.

(this is my take on the glorious 2009-2012 phan period, featuring Phil “Everything Is Fine” Lester and Dan “Prince of Angst” Howell)

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General Self Care

Things to Watch 

Horror

Hellraiser (1987)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=Blk4Av7XqTk

The Nun

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wIpbiBaEw_8

 Miscellaneous

Heat(Action/Thriller)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WP7iB71fDO4

 Blood in Blood out (Action/Thriller)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-4iunN6lcSU

 Look Away (Horror) 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tkaT-j-W3vc

 The contractor (Action/Thriller)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Vi5hmWthzdI

Before I Self Destruct (full movie) (50 Cent)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fuFJtsKRAqo

 A Mero Hajur 2(no english captions or dub)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NsaDFtX8t44 

Orson Welles - Don Quixote ENG Full Movie

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2RZaalXvhIk

The Stranger (1946) - Full Length Film, Orson Wells

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aqQ8SbMrL_4

The Black Rose (1950) Tyrone Power, Orson Welles

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jiDZLbktpss

Prince of Foxes (1949) Tyrone Power, Orson Welles

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fOQngGqY0Vw

Bollywood 

 Bahubali 2 full HD movie 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nOhV-xJcGEg 

 Anari Hindi Full Movie 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EGkck-FWagc

 Ashke Full Movie (HD) (in Hindi, no English Captions)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZEeQ7XpBPUQ

 Ajay Devagn Full Movie (in Hindi, no English Captions)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yo_a0M0K2dI

 Vedalam Hindi

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=amjpzkRt660

 Mystery Science Theatre 

MST3K 424 Manos The Hands of Fate

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=I4r_-vF2Chw

 MST3k.s08.e20 - Space Mutiny

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sa42pxJyq64

 MST3K 303 Pod People

http://www.club-mst3k.com/episodes/303-pod-people

 Shows  

Buffy the Vampire Slayer Full Episodes (e1-14)

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLBBGFD3P96S01qVt9tMSG7MPaz5WeEa0t

 The Fairly OddParents #The Fairly OddParents Full Episodes Live 24/7 #5m21 d2

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4dww5NMP9KA

 Elmo and Friends Find the Best Pet | Sesame Street Full Episode

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AbY2Pjyg5CE

Cookie Monster Thinks the Moon is a Cookie | Sesame Street Full Episode

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=j2WhBtmpqCA

ASMR//Satisfying Videos

[ASMR] 8 Hours! First Class Flight Attendant Roleplay ~ Overnight Flight

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vDSdN1pMq3k

ASMR 50+ Triggers over 3 Hours (NO TALKING) Ear Cleaning, Massage

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=oXp0hTkXiks

 [ASMR] Sleep in 25 Minutes ~ Intense Relaxation

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CH_kaFcKDzY

 [ASMR PPOMO 24/7] to Relax, Sleep, Tingle and Study (3D Sound)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dsg0AbSEt4E

 ASMR 100 Triggers To Help You Sleep ♥ (4 HOURS)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=eLjSyI8bNfk

3 HOURS of Gentle Night RAIN, Rain, Rain Sounds for Relaxing Sleep

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=q76bMs-NwRk

 CaroLIVE 24/7 ASMR Stream for Tingles, Relaxation, and Sleep 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UDrRp6mU46k

Other Masterlists

Tumblr Alternative Masterlist 

General Transgender Resources

https://www.glaad.org/transgender/resources

https://saltyworld.net/category/sexwork/

https://www.usatoday.com/story/money/2018/09/21/equifax-free-credit-freeze-new-law/1377815002/

Resource Masterlists/Self Care

Mental Health Resource List

http://sexworkermentalhealth.tumblr.com/

Sexual Assault Resource List

http://myresourcemasterlist.tumblr.com/rape

Self Care Checklist

https://saltyworld.net/the-ultimate-sex-worker-self-care-checklist/

Coyote Rhode Island Masterlist

http://coyoteri.org/wp/local-resources/

Mental Health/Social Work

http://fixyourwritinghabits.tumblr.com/post/87191488514/creativesocialworker-social-worker-tumblrs

Recovery is Beautiful

http://recoveryisbeautiful.tumblr.com/post/80979925527/even-though-some-of-the-links-go-directly-to-the

Take Care

http://bit.ly/2Dnh6jk

or http://takecare-takecare-takecare.tumblr.com/post/141793471171/giant-self-help-masterpost

Sex Worker Only Community

http://sexworkerhelpfuls.tumblr.com/post/148059570735/chimaera-gray-sex-workers-only-forum-community

SW Resource Blog

http://sexworkerhelpfuls.tumblr.com 

Sex Worker Resource List , by Witch Mother Diaries

https://olywitchcrew.wordpress.com/resources/

[phanfictioncatalogue]

(TW) Mental Health Masterlist

Links Last Checked: April 8th, 2022

climbing up the walls (ao3) - revengeavenue

Summary: Dan's journey to feeling real was not an easy one, not at all, but perhaps getting there was worth it in the end.

Code Black (ao3) - starboydjh

Summary: “Code black: An influx of patients so great, there aren’t enough resources to treat them. The average A&E is in code black 5 times per year. St. Thomas’ Memorial Hospital in London is in code black 300 times per year.” Doctors Dan Howell and Phil Lester know all too well that when everything in the busiest accident and emergency department in England and their personal lives goes right, the most incredible of miracles can happen. After Dan bares the struggles of his past to Phil, a member of Dan’s distant and troubled family shows up as a patient in their A&E one night after years of silence, and life starts to feel like one long code black night in more ways than one.

Hello Yellow - analester

Summary: a fic that recounts how dnp spent world mental health day, including phil painting dan’s nails, phil wearing a cheese costume, and the two nerds sharing milkshakes like the saps they are.

I Dare You To Stay (ao3) - realityfallsapart

Summary: Dan Howell is a barista working a shitty job, frequenting his shitty apartment, and living a shitty existence, hiding his asexuality and going for a PHD in self-depreciation and depression. Phil Lester is a part-time intern, part-time employee at a local weather station, trying to get experience in his field and make a name for himself, while juggling a second job at the nearby Tesco's to give him some financial breathing room. Their paths were never supposed to meet, but what happens when they do anyways, one rainy day in Manchester?

in pieces (ao3) - theslytherinqueen

Summary: "I love you Dan," He had said, "but I can't watch you destroy yourself."

In the Shadow of Happiness (ao3) - phantomoftheliving (unmuted_silence)

Summary: After announcing the upcoming world tour, Dan has a mental breakdown. Will Phil be able to save Dan from the demons of his mind or will Dan remain in the shadow of happiness?

Just Take A Shower (ao3) - phandoe

Summary: Dan is depressed. Phil loves him.

Leave A Light On (ao3) - iihappydaysii

Summary: Dan told people he cared about that he wanted to get better.

Moving On (ao3) - adorkablephil (kimberly_a)

Summary: Post-TATINOF. Wanting to move his content in a more serious direction (not to mention the fact that he's been following Phil around since he was a teenager and has no idea who he is on his own), Dan moves out in order to separate his “brand” from Phil’s. Is there any way their friendship can survive? Or will it be changed forever?

Of Earth and Sea (ao3) - aliiciabrux

Summary: Going to Draxicord School of Elements has its many ups and downs. For one thing, Dan and Phil are roommates and they just can't seem to get along. For another, handling element-based powers is a tricky and sometimes explosive act. But it's all worth it in the end.

In which Dan has water powers and Phil has earth powers.

Proud -  phananddragonsfics

Summary: A short fluff fic based on Phil painting Dan’s nails for World Mental Health Day.

Restart My Life (ao3) - maxiemoo01

Summary: Dan Howell is constantly making jokes about death and his mental health, that's all they are though right? Just, jokes.

Sweet Pea - botanistlester

Summary: (tw) A nickname that goes bitter in your mouth. Cries for help that no one listens to. Gentle hands that make you quake on the ground you’re standing on. When Phil first met Nico, he thought he was a gift from the heavens. But behind the mask lies something daunting, something unnerving, that Phil never foresaw. Through his journey, he finds solace in Dan, the regular at his workplace, who seems to be the only one who sees through Nico’s mask to the darkness underneath.

Take Me By The Hand (ao3) - amczingphil

Summary: Dan suffers from a severe genetic disorder that has forced him to spend his entire life indoors, going outside is too dangerous for him as he has no immune system and catching any illness can result in his death.

He was as content as he could be given his situation, he would fill his time watching his neighbours and creating elaborate stories about their lives in his head, until Phil Lester moved in across the street.

Now Dan can’t stop thinking about the man with the plants and suddenly his ‘normal’ life isn’t as satisfying as it had once been.

The Changeover (ao3) - sloppyseconds

Summary: Daniel Howell, occupier of room 110, happens to meet Philip Lester, the man in room 120. Little to his knowledge, this meeting will cause Dan to question everything he’s ever believed and blur the lines between right and wrong.

the one with the fucked up summer camp (ao3) - theaux

Summary: (tw) Dan had only meant to spend a relaxing afternoon in the sun, slowly dying. Instead, he ended up in the children's psychiatric and behavioral medicine unit. It's not all bad though, as there seem to be quite a few friendly faces behind those locked hospital double doors, including a certain black haired boy...

What A Catch (ao3) - hygge

Summary: Phil visits the same cafe every weekday morning without fail. But, when he decides to visit the cafe on the weekend for once, the atmosphere that he had grown used to has completely changed thanks to a piano player named Dan. While Phil is ready to jump into a relationship, Dan is hesitant and is still trying to stitch his life together again after What Had Happened in his past relationship. And that’s easier said than done.

You're Driving Me Mental (wattpad) - dil-finds-phan

Summary: Phil is the new patient at an adolescent mental health unit. A young Dan is told to keep an eye on him but apparently, not caring causing things to go down hill. Will Phil get better, for Dan, as well as himself?