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sage-is-in-fact-very-tired · 6 months

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Despite everything, It's still you.

Or, maybe it's not. Because brothers don't do that. They're supposed to care and understand, and oh how you do not. Oh how you're just angry and on the wrong side of this war, and you're only willing to hurt. (The brother he knows is not one that is convinced all they do is wrong.)

Or, maybe it is, at least supposedly. Maybe it is still you, in there somewhere, because you backtrack so easily. You backtrack so easily on your actions the second you realize they're hurting the only person still willing to extend you an olive branch. (The only person still willing to love you like you are - because not even your father is willing to do that.)

Or, maybe it never has been. Maybe the real you died the first time you did. Maybe you've never been the same since, trying to piece together a person from broken and breaking pieces, and only succeeding in putting them back together wrong.

Maybe there is no you anymore. Maybe there's only a husk of someone so desperately hoping to become whole again by fixing this. The you that should be isn't the you that is, and yet, maybe in some regard, that is the you that should be. That is still you.

Maybe you are still you. Maybe you're not. Maybe you never were. Maybe so so many things.

And yet, one thing in this is not a maybe. Because despite everything - you or not - he'll still call you his brother. So, maybe you are still you, the good caring nice you. Maybe that person is still in there somewhere. Because if they weren't, you wouldn’t've panicked - you wouldn't have cared enough to save him, but you did. And maybe, maybe thats indicative it's still you.

Despite everything, It's still you - and maybe he can say that more confidently than you'd like. But it's right. It is.

#its still you. isnt it?#maybe you dont think it is. but it is #youre still in there somewhere #regardless of anything - you still *care*#you still care. youre still you #angry and upset at the world and all the consequences of your actions. but youre still you #its still you. despite *everything* - its still you.#sherbertquake56 #icarus morningstar #rae morningstar #eye duo #fable smp #fsmp #a tag to help find my own posts

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sunbloomdew · 1 year

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do you ever see a person and you are overcome with incredible fondness? and you just think "oh." but not in a romantic or sexual way you are just filled with warmth and it makes you happy, it just does. and you think "i'm so happy you exist. i'm happy you are somewhere out there in the world, doing your thing". it's love but also not entirely

like people are lovely and i feel it in my entire chest like a burning candle that smells like roses and a sunny day

#on love #aroace experiences #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aspec #aroacespec #sunbloom talks #<3 #just late night revelations #i like love and i love people :)#edit: loveless aros friendly btw #i think that's what i meant when i said love but not really all those months ago #“incredible fondness” is the phrase i really like instead of love #people need to stop coming onto this post being like “nO!! this IS love!!!” shut up you dont know me. maybe it is maybe its not #this was about personal experiences and it blew up somehow unfortunately lol

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bacchuschucklefuck · 2 months

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no more fan-ta-sizing about it! everything's already changed~

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #figueroth faeth #riz gukgak #adaine abernant #fabian seacaster #gorgug thistlespring #kristen applebees #fh class quangle #my! class swap thing! I guess this is like the poster for it now #got overinvested and finished it properly instead of winging it lol #in closeup order: cleric!gorgug; bard!riz; rogue!fabian; sorcerer!kristen; barbarian!fig; artificer!adaine #this one does have the harpoon gun I'd give fabian during sophomore year but literally only figured out for this piece lol #I like how it looks tho Im glad I hashed it out #thinking abt power armor adaine a lot tbh... she has the transhumanist audacity. she's villain-adjacent enough #to attempt unspeakable acts of body improvement #(its funny bc to wear a rig like that would Also demand a certain level of physical strength from you)#also yeah this is the thing with riz holding a megaphone that got me considering #its fun! it fits the aesthetics! maybe it'd grant him range for bardics #maybe he gets to keep that Im just not sure how he'd carry it around lol #fig gets to have all of her makeup... I like almost never remember to draw it usually kdsjfhdjk listen. I just forgor #I always forget makeup is real #also dont ask me what's in kristen's thermos it Is usually tea but you truly never know #sometimes its soup. it can be lighter fluid. soap perhaps. hot chocolate #also if u come knocking on my door abt kristen's somatic in this piece: I wont be home #she gets to be gross especially bc shes funny and 17yo and gay. we give it to her #okay I. whoo I should lay down. finally I can move on to other things #cheers! wahoo. yahha perhaps

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ofswordsandpens · 1 year

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its funny because Percy has been spiraling ever since pjo and whenever he has a particularly bad episode you have other characters actively worried about it and you think to yourself surely they're going to intervene, surely someone is going to talk to him about it, and then like no one ever does lol

#I STILL HAVE NOT READ CHALICE #so maybe something's there #but I think Jason in boo was the closest thing we got (percy initiated the conversation)#but like... I still dont think Jason recognized/understood the extent to which percy was spiraling #and to be fair Jason was not present in tartarus so he wouldn't truly know but like #I dont think annabeth's approached the topic with him #at least not on a non superficial level #or if she did it happened offscreen #anyways #if percy deflects or loses it or whatever you can't say the warning signs weren't there lmao #pjo #percy jackson #mine

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verflares · 2 months

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who's afraid of the big bad wolf?

#brace yourself everyone. he's been trying to adapt his artstyle again #wolf link #loz #twilight princess #tp #tloz #tp link #zelda #legend of zelda #eye strain #artists on tumblr #my art #i had fun here . i think. i have GOT to get some better ideas at backgrounds but usually i just dont care... sad #but i have been told many times the shapes here are fun to look at so. i hope you enjoy. we will be twilight princess posting for a bit #so. be ready for that. maybe some non-loz stuff too depending on how im feeling #anyway have a nice day everyone ^_^#link #link legend of zelda #sorry. forgor to tag him

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linkedin-offficial · 3 months

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youll never guess where ive been

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girlwiththegreenhat · 2 months

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team fortress 2 finally getting rid of the bots after 5 years

work on the team fortress 2 comic continuing after 7+ years

half life 3 development looking more likely than ever with legitimate code, file, and voicework leaks referencing a new non-VR single-player game from valve featuring a HEV suit wearing protagonist and Xen creatures and concepts

shoutout to the valve fan that found the genie lamp. you a real one

#liz blogs #valve #team fortress 2 #tf2 #half life #half life 3 #what did i say. what did i fucking say.#once again the impossible becomes commonplace #valve exists as a company to walk into the gaming industry. slap their dicks on the table. and yell THIS IS HOW ITS DONE #and the gaming industry has never been in a more sorry state than it is now. maybe second only to the 80s i think. something something ET #in b4 its called Half Life Xen as all the files reference ''hlx''. hl3 fakeout. but its another half life game.#half life 3 has been ''made'' multiple times in various states but its never been up to standards. whatever this project is though sounds l #like its very far in development. maybe they didnt give up this time #ive never been closer in my life to actually saying half life 3 confirmed. its not confirmed but its looking really good for once #crazy year to be a valve fan i'll tell you what #its only the actual objective most anticipated game of all time. no biggie #edit - added a link for the comic news for those who dont know. and the bot bans havent been announced in one place anywhere #but you can literally just look it up on youtube or twitter. valve has been mass-banning bots for the last month. fixtf2 worked

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shithowdy · 2 years

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doctors are so fucking funny; if you go in like "based on my extensive research and corroborations i think i have this Disease" they will immediately go on the defensive and ask you demeaning shit like "how do you even know this Disease exists?" but if you go in and play stupid and say "gee whiz i'm just a silly little bimbo who doesn't know a thing but i have symptom, symptom, symptom, and symptom" they will very eagerly be like "oh wow, that sounds like Disease!"

#true story btw my old doc asked me how i even knew about EDS #idk dude maybe having Symptoms and an internet connection and a few friends with it who keep saying #'dude i think you have EDS'#like okay even if i dont i obviously have SOME connective tissue disorder #if you dont think it's that don't just put me down

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buppkizz · 1 year

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tf2 karaoke! 🎤🎶

(here's a list of the referenced+a couple extra songs)

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #if you are upset spy didnt sing...i do think if he tried it would be quite nice #maybe ne me quitte pas by jacques brel?#i think it would be like haunting and it would make everyone tear up even tho they dont know what he's saying #demo is sobbing.#soldier is also sobbing because he's not speaking english and he's so confused

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redysetdare · 5 months

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enough stories about how someone learns to truely be happy through love. i want a story where someone is desperately seeking out love thinking it's the only way to be happy only for them to learn by the end that happiness is what they make of it and they don't need love at all to make it.

#aro #aromantic #ace #asexual #aroace #loveless aro #loveless #non-partnering #nonpartnering #non partnering #nonamorous #aplatonic #enough of amatonormative tropes in media!!! enough 'you're miserable without love' stories!!!#less “you're too focused on ambitions to make you happy that you dont let yourself fall in love”#more “you're too focused on finding love to make you happy that you wont let yourself live”#more “there is so much more to life than love and so much more that can bring your happiness if you just let yourself experience it.”#maybe I should write this story #and when i say love i mean all love. not just romantic love.#which is why i tagged aplatonic too #while i mostly see this trope in terms of romantic love i think there's something to be said about #telling stories where people are perfectly content alone too #it doesn't have to be sad or pathetic to not have friends by choice. they dont have to be a miserable person to not have friends #i think we need more variety in stories where it shows people just content in their lack of love or relationships in all shapes #not everyone wants a family not everyone wants friends not everyone wants a partner not everyone wants love #some of us are content without. that should be explored without the need to fix it.

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arsenicflame · 4 months

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Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?

#ive been super curious about this because people seem to have really strong opinions on the queue! so many people seem to HATE it #but i love using the queue! i dont really know exactly why i like it so much- i started using in like... 2016 and its a fundamental part of #my tumblr experience now. i think i started off just using it for offline hours so id hit most my american mutuals (/ for aes posts)#but these days basically everything goes in my queue (cept time sensitive things & like. current hype and original posts-#anything 'normal' posting is in the queue)#idk it feels. nice to me! i like to spread out my posting and not rb 30 things in half an hour and then disappear for the rest of the day #esp since my spaces are so circular- the same post runs on my dash a dozen times minimum. and i get to put it on ur dash a week late!!!#and its so nice to have small interactions with mutuals in incompatible timezones; to open up my notifications in the morning #and go: oh! my friends were here <3 #its such a Part of the tumblr experience for me i dont think i could ever truly change now. maybe switch to timed queueing #but my availability changes so much i prefer to just. know i guess #but (i am so sorry for all that) im curious about how other people feel!!!!!! itd be so interesting to hear abt why people do/do not like i #i know some people like the experience of spamming and going. some people think it makes this seem to much like influencing or whatever #everyone has their reasons and i want to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#nyxtalks #poll #queue #no see answers option because you must fall into one of these

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lucabyte · 5 months

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Not all who wander are lost. Some who wander, however, are extremely, extremely lost.

#note: this is a kitchen in a house of change. they are still on the road w the party #not to say i think that maybe chillin out in one location with some loved ones and planned visits from their friends would fix siffrin #but i am saying that they do seem to hoard random items at every given oppertunity. which is an interesting habit #isat #isat fanart #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #isat spoilers #sifloop #isat siffrin #isat loop #sloops #lucabyteart #but yeah no i dont actually know that siffrin would wwwant to be . travelling literally forever. given the. well. um #that one QnA answer especially. the immediate deflective joking when asked how long they'd been a traveller. mm.#it's not like they chose this life is the thing. and we know they have a habit of forcing themselves to 'stick to the script'#i really do think they'd be better for some stability. its not like you cant have a house and also go on fun travel holidays also #(if you want my real opinion. why not just move to bambouche to help raise bonnie. but. that's fanfic territory at that point)

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electoons · 6 months

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I love the college of winterhold. everyone there is casually deranged and there's like an alarming number of students and staff who threaten you immediately when they meet you. it's always one of the first questlines I do. which makes it even funnier when you get made the arch-mage of the college. I'm level 12 and got through this questline knowing exactly 3 spells. what do you mean you want me to lead the college. this school CANNOT be an accredited institution