#maybe she thinks I'm supposed to perform queerness for her like she likes to do

[umberandmochaagate]

This white girl told me that she forgets I'm non-binary because I "don't act like it" but loves to talk about how independent and strong I am

These be the reasons I cut mfs off

[turn-my-hollow-purple]

What Clique Stereotype Each AOT Character Is

this is in honor of the fact that the only thing on my mind right now is GENUINELY gothkasa like omfg I need her so bad it's not even funny you guys PLUH EASEEEE-

Eren: you're surprised he's actually passing his classes because he never turns in work, etc. (thanks to Armin and Mikasa); all the girls like him but he just exist you guys.. I will not fall into the Eren frat boy agenda I swear... (I want to so bad) but yeah he kinda bullies other kids and says "no it's just a joke, trust"

Armin: chess club captain! y'all knew this was coming I'm afraid but he's a cutie pie... obviously a brainiac... maybe a band kid too (positive)

Mikasa: she is a part of the alt kids, falling into the goth subculture! goth music, dark clothes, gloomy vibes, and boy oh boy does she pull it off

Jean: he's like... how do I put this... he's the kid who's quarterback on the football team and the lead in the school musical. A man who can do both dare I say

Connie: CLASS CLOWN! But not the kind that thinks he's better than anyone, people actually enjoy Connie's humor. Occasional spit ball at the teacher though... he frequents detention

Sasha: she is the 'leaves class early and shows up to class late' stereotype... except it's not intentional. And when she is in class? She's asleep.

Annie: she's also in the alt scene with Miksasa, but she fits into the grunge, skater kid scene. This means dark clothes as well, but she's got her skateboard, a vape, eyeliner, and emo music (I'm projecting slightly)

Bertholdt: he's giving class vice-president... he's a little goody-two shoes but not popular enough to be the actual class president. People enjoy him though because he's a sweetie

Reiner: That one kid you swear you've never seen without headphones on like are they permanently in your ears or something bitch hello? He's also a band kid (derogatory)

Ymir: she is also a part of the alt scene but she is 100% the queer stoner girl (also drug dealer lmfao); she dresses more boho vibes but always has some form of weed on her and she is your plug... also lowkey an art kid

Historia: my darling theatre kid. She's the lead in all the plays, musicals, performances, etc. She's really talented and pretty and everyone loves her so much. She probably gets homecoming queen

Levi: that one literature teacher that never seems to give 100% no matter how well the work is done... will blatantly tell a student that they're wrong instead of the classic 'oh that's a good try... not exactly what I was looking for though', it's just straight up 'no that's wrong.'

Erwin: this is the male history teacher who everyone's kind of in love with just because he's so attractive and lowkey so fun to learn from, but you also speculate might be kinda gay? He gets super into his lectures and his students love how interactive he is

Hange: OKAY SO- they're the science teacher who lowkey doesn't know wtf is happening but goes with it anyway... sometimes the students have to teach them what they're supposed to be doing and if you're in their class, there's a good chance you're fearing for your life at some point during lecture

[gffa]

Ok over on the discord we're invested in your 9-1-1 journey and agree 100% with your assessments, but we NEED to hear your thoughts on Mr. Eddie Diaz, esp his introduction, like I still cackle that this weewoo show actually introduced a new character half-naked in slow-mo with "Whatta Man" playing in the background (and I'm sure you've figured this out but it's him and Buck that's the giant ship).

I have struggled to put my 911 thoughts into coherence because there are two giant blaring sirens going off in my brain whenever I think about this series: 1) 🚨 🚨 🚨 🚨 🚨 ANGELA BASSETT🚨 🚨 🚨 🚨 🚨 🚨 How am I supposed to care about anything else on this show when Angela Bassett is there, being stunning and delivering a performance that's top tier every single time??? Okay, I'm being tongue-in-cheek about it, but genuinely Athena is my favorite character and the one I'm most emotionally invested in, the one that it's hard for me to look away from. It helps that I'm also deeply fond of Peter Krause because I watched Sports Night and loved him in that a lot, so connecting Bobby to Athena's story has been a double shot of my faves. 2) I AM LAUGHING SO HARD BECAUSE I'M SURE THEY DON'T MEAN IT BUT WHAT IS UP WITH THE WAY THEY ARE STRUCTURING THE BUDDIE DYNAMIC? Introducing a character with "Whatta Man" playing is hilarious, but even more hilarious to me is the way their arcs are kind of thematically running parallel to each other. Buck's whole character arc is about him feeling finally ready to grow up, to take on the scary parts of relationships that include responsibilities towards other people and being genuinely emotionally available, that was the entire point of getting close to Abby, who came with her sick mother that was always going to be part of her life. So, Abby leaves, then along comes Eddie who has a kid that he takes his responsibilities for very seriously, where it's not intentional to intersect with Buck's arc, but then they have them immediately interacting in a way that neither character does as much with any other character, conflicting at first, but then opening up and being real with each other and I'm sitting here going, "If one of these dudes was a lady, the way Buck just stared at Eddie with his kid, they would 100% be signally that this was building subtext." I can't say I'm deeply emotionally invested in them yet (see my Angela Bassett Problem), but it's been a wild ride watching them interact and going, wow, are they doing this on purpose? Because they sure clicked really fast. *eyebrow raise* Bonus thoughts: I knew Chimney/Maddie was going to be a thing beforehand, so do I like them because they're cute or because I was primed for them? Who knows, but they're cute! I love that they brought back Tatiana and I have to say, maybe she was kinda cold, but I was 100% on her side, because she was right. She didn't love him and if she'd gotten pulled into that, she'd have been expected to drop her entire life to be at his bedside and that's not what she wanted, I love that the show was so gentle with her and Chimney's reunion and realization that they sparked each other into realizing they each needed to get on a new path. I love that Hen got to be complicated and almost left her ex to die because it would have saved her a lot of hassle and she really hated her, but ultimately was a hero, yesssss, let queer women be complicated, messy, and ultimately heroic!

[violet-jessop]

i had my first therapy session today.

90 minutes with a psychologist who i'm booked to see once a week for the next 5 weeks.

a friend asked me if i was nervous last night when i told her, and i had to think on it. i found i wasn't. it was strange because logically i think i should have been, but i couldn't muster any real feelings about it. i felt indifferent. resigned.

i know that's probably not what she wanted to hear, but i think lying in this instance would have just given her false hope.

to get to this point has been such a shit show.

self harming since a decade ago this year, suicidal on and off for at least for the last eight. tried to seek help in 2019 only to get put on 10 times the starting dose of some random antidepressant and told to fuck off with no follow up and automatically renewing prescriptions. stopped taking those after a year or so with no real improvement. things have just steadily declined.

last year was okay, probably the most okay i've felt for an extended period since 2014. but now it's almost worse because i saw it could be okay, and now it's not again.

finding a psych that met my needs was near on impossible. my only two criteria were trans (or just a queer person who i could feel like less of a freak with) and able to deal with SI - and that left me with one option via telehealth. booked in to do a 15 minute consultation with her she was 30 minutes late to the session, so i assumed i'd been forgotten. then when she eventually called she didn't even acknowledge it.

getting the mental health care plan from my GP was so degrading. i went to a different doc because i didn't trust the last guy who is just so happy to write prescriptions. but the new guy was no better. clearly thought i didn't need any of this, wrote maybe 2 lines on the mhcp documents, left most of it blank, didn't even bother to sign it. said he performed the k10 which he didn't. straight up wrote that i seemed fine based on "good eye contact and engages well". and he never even sent it to the identity clinic, i had to chase him to obtain a copy so i could send it off myself.

and today rolls around. we have our session. what was supposed to cost me 134 out of pocket cost me 250 unexpectedly, so after the appointment they had to call me several times because my account had insufficient funds because i only had enough for what they'd told me it would cost.

in the session she misgendered me. she said "as a woman with autism. oh, i assume you're she/her right?". which was wild as a psych who works for the "identity clinic" - where i had to fill in a million forms that included my pronouns in multiple places. where i had sent an inquiry to find out if they had anyone on staff who would suit a non-binary person with SI. and then the SI, where i mentioned it as something i'd like to work through, and she pretty much told me if i talk about that sort of stuff in a non-joking way she'll have to make sure i'm institutionalised. so i had to play it off as a joke. as hyperbole. the two things, such basic things i thought. so what am i here for again? is what's wrong with me so taboo i can't even pay a medical professional $250 to let me speak about it? is my soul so putrid? if anyone ever tries to force me into inpatient i'll put on a pine overcoat as soon as possible, that's not up for debate.

so we talked about other things, and i cried in front of another person for the first time in ages and it wasn't even cathartic it was just for the shame of admitting my failings out loud. and she told me maybe my anxiety is just autistic meltdown which i know isn't right, i know the difference. she walked me through diaphragmatic breathing like i was 5. she recommended i buy airpods and try burlesque. it reminded me of Jo telling me i should try drumming circles around the time of my first attempt.

so i suppose i was right in feeling indifferent. i had enough hope left to try, but not enough to be hopeful. i really don't have the energy to go through this all again. time is ticking down, 128 weeks at best. i suppose i'll give her another two sessions and see. but if she doesn't work out i think that's me done. how many times am i expected to try? it was already mortifying enough. i know Tal will be angry, but i just don't have it in me to keep doing this over and over. every failed attempt at getting better just adds more weight, reaffirms what i already suspected.

and the statistics of it. either i've encountered consistently bad medical practitioners OR the problem lies with me. at this point statistically it has to be me, there's just been too many failings. especially when i see so many friends drive the same road without issue. yet i keep hitting roadblock after roadblock. at what point do i just acknowledge that i'm a bad driver? maybe it's been roadblock after roadblock because there's nothing else, there is no good ending. i shouldn't be on the road to begin with.

[solitarily-sofia]

heartstopper (tv show) unpopular opinions:

tao should not have cut his hair. i feel like his hair being long was a sign of him standing by elle and growing his hair out in solidarity bc elle had mentions she got suspended bc of hair length (and taos is curled bc straight it would be past his chin which is the length elle got suspended for) also tao is supposed to be an "outcast" but now hes lowkey fineee

i wish the rugby lads had more screen time, specifically in the reoccuring line up of the three of them gossiping and being cut off by coach singh.

the whole point of the show is providing happy healthy lgbt couples so people complaining its too cheesey, cringy or unrealistic are incorrect.

i hate to say it but charlies mom may have been correct in banning him from nick until he got his grades up... maybe there was a better way of doing so but there was a clear connection bc charlie declining in school and him constantly being with nick. but i am glad how they added that to the show especially from charlies pov bc its so perfectly teenagerly and angsty lol.

i wish they had more characters not in romantic relationships especially with the implications of sahar x imogen other than issac just bc hes ace

kit and joe are the best actors in the show, both together and on their own. (i do think nearly everyone is fantastic but they are definitely the best especially kit but he has 10 more year of experience than everyone else)

most unpopular of all.. i dont love inogen as a character... i think she deserves the best but nick refering to her as one of hsi oldest, closest friends seems a bit strange seeing how most of there relationship is her having a crush on him. she provided a good subplot and conflict in season one but idk she doesnt seem to fit with the show. (this could be bc i was a comic fan first) also i think this could be different if she was a straight ally and expanding on her friendships instead but now i fee like they just wanted more queer people in the show and so they are throwing her with sahar. (the lighting was not subtle) anyway i dont think she was really needed in s2 except to keep ben, who i also dont rly think was needed, and i wonder what they do for her in season three

sorry for such a long list lol and although it may not seem like it i do truly love this show/story. feel free to disagree with any id love to hear your thoughts

Hii sorry for the late response today's been a bit chaotic.

Let's unwrap thiss

I to an extent agree with the tao one, his hairstyle really compliments his personality and he said he felt comfortable with it in season 2! And at first he only cut his hair for elle. But I personally think his season 2 hair looks better aside from that. Still love this though because it's cute that he grew it long for elle! :)

For the second one, I KNOWW!!. I would have loved to see the friendship between nick, Christian, sai and otis develop more!! However, if the show continues to follow as it does in the comics. We should see them more in season 3!! :)

With this I agree, heartstopper isn't supposed to be 100% realistic, it's meant to bring a sense of comfort to people who are struggling.

I agree that his mum probably should have handled it better but it helped Charlie in the long run so that's good. And I think she does genuinely care, but reading this winter and solitaire I can't say I'm a massive fan of her.

The imogen x sahar thing is understandable as there are a lot of queer teen relationships in the show, but the show is showing different types of queer experiences/relationships and how they come to terms with their sexuality. I understand your side though :)

Kit and joe are such incredible actors!! They never fail to have me sobbing on the floor. I MEAN THE FINAL SCENE OF SEASON 2 I WAS BALLING. And I agree the rest of the cast are so incredible too! I really loved tobies performance especially this season. It's rare to see aroace representation but he really did such a great job and it stood out to me.

And finally, with imogen (as a comic fan myself) at first I'll admit I didn't exactly LOVE her character, but it wasn't really her fault she was just a girl who liked a guy. I loved how her character developed though! I kinda think it's a good idea for imogen to be more involved because as seen in season 2 she doesn't have many friends and it would be great to see her adapt herself more to the Paris squad and maybe understand her sexuality more.

Thankyou so much for this ask I loved answering this :)

[kanmom51]

https://mobile.twitter.com/jimsparkle/status/1644882706436595712

What do you think about this? I know when the choreography happened everyone here were preaching a male and female dancing together doesn't means they are falling straight into bed. But this was so unprofessional from her side and it's not even an army edit, she did it herself. No army is going to edit her with him like this and it's not a repost too. According to theory, she was supposed to be his shadow right then why the same girl is crushing hard on him now ? Making their wedding edits ?

Or maybe, just maybe, they indeed got intimate with each other after rehearsals ? So she thought it's OK to do this ? Otherwise who's editing themselves with a celebrity they only danced with and met just 2 days ago ?

Are you a Jikooker? I can't help but wonder? Weren't you the one to send me the DM about how Like crazy is clearly JM having it on with the female and that he's clearly not queer? I wonder.

I was contemplating if to answer this ask of yours, I really did. But seriously, this was so ridiculous I just had to say something about it.

If it wasn't so very fucked up it would be actually be funny how people have a warped view of reality.

I'm sorry. I don't know just how much you understand JM (clearly you know nothing about this man) or the relationship between JM and JK, because if you did you would NEVER even toy with the idea.

One thing is for sure, 100% JM did not get nor is not getting 'intimate' with that dancer. That woman. Funny how you are all over this one because she's a woman, while the queer male dancer that wrote the heartfelt message about JM, he's not and never will be a 'threat' to you. Food for thought whoever you may be.

Not sure your ask really deserves this, but I will answer it seriously.

I went looking at her account. Did you? Actually go search it, see what she's all about?

The girl, a dancer, trying to make a name for herself, promote her own dancing career, had the opportunity of a lifetime. She got to dance with JM. The JM. The megastar. The first Korean to top Billboard (let's be real, we knew JM had the power to do this). I mean, really, can you imagine it? I won't call her a nobody dancer, cause she's not, but she is definitely unknown, and connecting herself with JM, that brings her clout. It did for those lovely ladies that have connected themselves with JK in the past. Saying that, I don't even think she's like those others. She actually danced with JM, she's proud of it, and is showing it off mostly.

And as far as she's concerned: no harm no fowl, because, let's be real here for a second. Who the hell would actually think she has one going on with JM because of an edit like this she's uploaded?

Clearly it's a joke.

I guess she was hated for it, so she took it down.

She, for one, probably was unaware of the might of Army. How dare she associate herself with JM? Obviously people don't know how to take a joke. You, my dear friend who sent me this ask, are a clear example of that. "Making their wedding edit". Really? You really truly believe that's what it was? The LOL is kind of a giveaway.

Being on Jimmy Fallon, dancing with JM, that was a pivoting moment in her career, one she is utilising and, I'm not sure you'll agree with me, but rightfully so. This was her moment to shine for a whole world to see, and something to definitely add to her resume. Which she is - has it all over her IG account for good measure. Again, promoting herself, because that's what she needs to do really. Promote herself to get more jobs. And what better way than connecting herself again and again to JM's tailcoat?

Truthfully, there is nothing wrong with it. It's like that one big gig you did with a super famous amazing artist. Sure she'd broadcast that over and over again.

How do I put this once again, just to be clear?

She's a professional dancer, who had the honour of working and performing with JM. The JM. Of course she'll ride that wave. Who wouldn't.

So, she or someone she knows (I'm thinking someone sent her this and she posted it with the LOL) did this. It's a joke. It's clearly a joke.

I actually feel for her.

She really had no idea who she's getting involved with.

The mighty hand of JM solos.

Here is how it should be treated:

[yes0another0outsiders0blog]

Damn, this next alphabet is kicking my ass and then I have so many more to do-- (I'm excited to do them, I love long form headcanons and overthinking things into essays and covering a lot in one post, they just take so long especially when my brain ain't working--)

Anyway, have the rest of my sexuality headcanons!!

The Outsiders Queer Headcanons : (Part 2)

Tim -

gay, 100% into men.

has dated/hooked up with women because he's "supposed to," but they always have to make the first move and he never really enjoys it.

pretty open about it. not really the type to bring it up unprompted, keeps his personal life personal, but if asked he sees no reason to hide it

what's anybody going to do about it, fight him? okay, he'll kick their ass. he ain't scared of what anyone thinks about what he does in his own free time. they're the ones that brought it up, they can mind their damn business.

Curly -

unlabeled, if asked he'd just shrug. he likes guys sometimes, he's pretty sure he's liked a girl or two before.

no thoughts, head empty. he has put zero thoughts into it.

maybe somewhere on the arospec, his romantic interests are really muted

still there, just not strong

for him, a partner is more of a MAJOR best friend that he happens to be physically attracted to as well

"wait, do any of the Shepherds like girls?" you ask

well, I just said that Curly likes girls sometimes... but let me introduce yall to

Angela -

pan and proud as FUCK

and has MASSIVE game, more than her brothers combined

poly as well, loves group dates and having partners that interact with each other especially

gets really into queer spaces/community, will actually seek out lgbt spaces and such

loves going to drag performances, she's loud and social and likes dramatic make up and costuming, she has a natural draw to drag queens.

Sylvia -

bisexual, prefers men, might go her whole life without even thinking of herself as anything but straight outside of modern au

like, in modern day after hearing about different sexualities then she might clock the feeling after realizing that being attracted to women is a thing

but her attraction to women feels different than her attraction to men, so she would probably just think "oh, we're REALLY good friends and I'd totally kiss her if she wanted to, but that's just how girls are right??"

it isn't even preference so much as it's intensity of attraction, has more small crushes on women and few bigger crushes on men

Evie -

aromantic, bisexual and slightly prefers men

not very romantically affectionate (is platonically affectionate), but is okay with having a partner that is. she just won't initiate or crave it, but she doesn't mind it. romance neutral in general.

does want to date still, loves a good qpr, will communicate with her partner about her lack of romantic attraction but doesn't feel the need to be open about it with others. she's in a relationship, it can be read as a romantic relationship, she isn't correcting anyone

Sandy -

straight

homophobic in an ignorant way

"no, I don't have a problem with the gays, I know some gays!!" girl, NO.

won't be intentionally mean, doesn't like when people are blatantly homophobic, but also won't put effort into changing herself and won't call out other's around her. might give an eyeroll and a "stop, be nice!!" at most.

thinks that since it doesn't actively affect her it isn't really her place or business

Cherry -

bicurious, but probably ultimately straight

is such a girls girl, very platonically affectionate, thinks girls are so pretty, so the thought of dating a girl has crossed her mind

also, she has ass taste in men and has definitely said "a woman would NOT treat me like this" but, boo, I have met women that would treat her like that and if she would just date a man that isn't garbage then she'd see that it's her standards that are the real problem

does try dating a few ladies, really isn't feeling it, feels really bad for leading them on and ends up staying longer than she should because she really loves them as friends and doesn't want to lose them

is the super pretty, casually flirty straight girl that 99% of sapphic people have unfortunately fallen hard for.

Marcia -

aromantic and asexual

has fallen into a lot of comphet, has absolutely dated a handful of men because her friends all were in relationship

slightly romance repulsed, thinks it's all just so boring

but is BOMB at coming up with pick-up lines and stuff, is witty as hell and will get flirty sometimes. she just doesn't want anything even slightly serious. it's a mental exercise, some friendly back and forth, nothing more. anything seriously romance-heavy gives her a major ick

sex-neutral, is interested in anatomy and artistic nudity (think figure drawing), she's not squeamish around the idea of sex and isn't even strictly against having it

just very... scientific about it. not very emotional, will work out theories or ideas in practice. likes to see what the human body can do, likes playing with dynamics, sees it all as research

doesn't really like the idea of a long-term relationship, likes her independence too much

[iguessthisismenow]

Lighting round! TTPD+A Songs, their public meanings and their actual meanings (red text means im unsure):

Fortnight - Matty - Taylor's public and private personas

TTPD - Matty/maybe Joe - Taylor from Karlie's perspective

My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys - Joe breaking Taylor's heart - Joe acting like a child and ruining their bearding contract that started off really good

Down Bad - probably Matty, maybe Joe - Taylor hating bearding and loving Karlie and hating how distant she and Karlie have to be

So Long London - Toe breakup - Taylor being terrified of the power toe held over her relationship(???)

But Daddy I Love Him - Loving Matty (maybe travis?) despite the public hearing him - loving women/karlie despite public opinion that its wrong/mocking the heteronormative ideals she's been slotted into (you should see your faces!!)

Fresh Out The Slammer - idek what the public are supposed to think. Maybe this idea that she was dating Joe while in love with matty?? Who knows. - Her bearding relationships being like prison while she steals as much time with Karlie as she can

Florida - escaping from the drama of her life for a bit - same. Maybe from karlies perspective

Guilty as Sin? - emotionally cheating on Joe with matty - being queer in a society where it's seen as sinful

Who's Afraid of Little Old Me - taylor vs her haters within the entertainment industry

I can fix him (no really I can) - matty?? Maybe travis - another bearding song, this time about Taylor taming a difficult beard / maybe just a fun song she wrote

loml - Joe - maybe karlie and the way they both struggled with bearding

I can do it with a broken heart - taylor performing in one of the biggest tours ever during a breakup - Taylor's betrayal when her masters were sold, her being able to rerecord her albums with stunning success

Smallest man who ever lived - joe / matty - her trust of the man who sold her masters

The Alchemy - Travis - Karlie at the Eras tour

Clara Bow - how women are treated in the music industry

The Black Dog - Joe - no clue

imgonnagetyouback - Joe??? Matty??? - potentially laying the groundwork for getting back together with karlie

The Albatross - Taylor's reputation - the open secret of taylor being queer in the music industry and how that's frowned upon / potentially taylor coming out soon

Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus - Taylor being in love with Matty for 10 years or something - Karlie and Taylor beading and both loathing it / potential set up for kaylor reunion

How did it end? - Taylor being angry at people being nosey over her relationship ending - almost coming out during lover only to be forced back in the closet

So High School - Being in love with travis - openly mocking travis and even the idea that she loves him

I Hate It Here - hating the public eye / rebounding from Joe with matty - hating the public eye / hating bearding

thanK you aIMee - hating Kim K - maybe hating KK, maybe others who are more homophobic

I look in people's windows - losing joe/matty - having to be separate from karlie for bearding / potential kaylor reunion set up

The Prophecy - Taylor wondering if she will ever find love - her wanting to find a place in her career where she can finally come out

Cassandra - the kimye drama - taylor worrying about coming out

Peter - a kid she loved when she was also a kid - the failed coming out

The Bolter - Taylor not being able to commit ?? - not sure, maybe setting up for a kaylor reunion

Robin - THEY HAVE NO IDEA. THEY HAVE NO CLUE. THEY CANNOT EXPLAIN IT. I'VE SEEN PEOPLE SAY ITS ABOUT HER FREAKING CAT - her son! her eldest SON! there is NO other explanation!

The Manuscript - Joe/Matty/maybe Joe Jonas or one of Taylor's old boyfriends who were much older than her - Karlie bearding with Josh

LMK if you want credit for a theory, I'm not sure how a lot of them started :)

[sleepy-ogre]

Thots On Bad Thinking Diary

⚠️Mild Spoilers⚠️

Just finished reading the entire series and damn it was so disappointing. OK, I knew the story was overall jackshit from before but I just wanted to know how badly a storyline can progress and although it was an agonising read in so many aspects, atleast I now know what a webcomic with no substance and only style looks like.

Like everyone else who despise this, I will also say that the plotline of this webcomic has to be it's biggest weakness. It doesn't even feel like they tried, it was so nonsensical and cliché. I did notice some comments saying how its all so highschool and while I do agree, it's not like drama doesn't happen in colleges/universities either lmfao trust and believe. However, it surely doesn't occur like the way it did in this comic which was VERY plot convenient. Plus the angst between the two protagonists isn't even that interesting. Rather it's the kind to literally make one pull one's hair coz ITS.SO.GODDAM.FRUSTRATING.💀 Like imagine a character being as frustratingly knuckleheaded as Yuna. I understand wanting to portray someone who has a hard time expressing their feelings but istg the way Yuna does it makes no sense at all at times, like you might as well loose braincells trying to figure it all out. On top of that, you have the romantic interest Minji who's the typical happy-go-lucky, head in the clouds protagonist who while atleast communicates better than her soon-to-be amour, still has her extremely childish moments. It might have been cute in some instances, but there were some moments where it wasn't even necessary. Atleast the antagonists in the webcomic are somewhat interesting, although they still feel too blasé. I think more time should've been given exploring their backstories as well. Would've been a 1000 time better than to waste entire chapters depicting SA between the protagonists of course. Like how does the author expect the audience to like Minji's supposed love interest when she can't even communicate and also has no regards for personal boundaries during intimacy lol.

And now onto the seggs scenes. I suppose this is more on the subjective side but again, very blasé. And sure, some people just prefer things the way it has been showcased in the webcomic and while I do respect the preferences of others, I will say that for a smutty GL, it's kinda boring. Like it's the same ol' 👆ing, where is the ✂️ing and 69ing😭 I'm assuming sapphic seggs is much more than that lol. A part of me feels maybe its the censorship, that some platforms don't want to showcase certain acts that are too "risky", maybe that's why seggs in GL sometimes feels too one-dimensional. Atleast we had some very copious scenes involving munching the carpet and tiddies. Still I'm not saying the seggs is that bad, atleast the consensual ones. Coz there are a few scenes that are guaranteed to make one feel uncomfortable. Plus there are scenes in which both the central romantic interests want to explore and be adventurous especially with toys however even then it feels like its somewhat performative. One more thing I have an issue is with the same ol top-bottom trope in smut. Like it's always about domination be it het or queer media. Like I really hoped for a switch at the very least but I suppose I was too optimistic lol. Ik this trope is prevalent in queer media and ik how its just the replication of what typically occurs in het interactions but this is a very far-reaching issue in smut and erotica in general and I'm fed up of how everything has to be about who gets to be in control and under control.

Would I go back to reading this manhwa again? Eh, no cause for all the buildup and intrigue it sure does end up being a total bummer. Too bad coz the artwork is very pretty. I hope Lily of The Valley is better. (Update: I'm only up to date with 6 chapters but yea, LOTV is no less different💀💀💀)

Again, no hate to the ppl who still ended up liking the manhwa, I'm just not living for it and hence decided to vent about it here :)

[neverwritewhatyouknow]

Hi! I'm sorry if this sounds rude, but I'm trying to give you an opinion from another side of the story. I'm Jewish, and I 100 percent agree about there being Jewish erasure in media. I agree with you on that. But that doesn't mean that you can just say that an actor has to be Jewish to play a Jewish character. In my opinion, it's kind of like the only queer actors can play queer roles. Rachel is an actor; sure, she isn't Jewish but it's her job to pretend to be something different than what she is in a film. I don't think it's Jewish erasure if there's an actual character in the movie that's Jewish.

P.S when you say Rachel's a great actor, but she's shit because she's not Jewish sounds a wee weird.

P.S.S I'm double apologizing. I hope you have a lovely day!

Hey! Welcome to the blog! (Don’t know if you wanted this posted or not because your name is on it, if not, let me know and I’ll take it down). Also this will be very rambly because I’m so tired and I can’t focus, so bear with me.

Just to clarify I’ve definitely never said Rachel is shit! I don’t know if I’ve ever used the word shit exactly, but if I did it was 100% at the situation and never supposed to be at her. I really, honest to god, think she is an amazingly talented actress. But the Jew erasure in the movie is what��s shitty.

The issue is, when they made sure to cast every other character with 100% accuracy, it’s very clear that they purposely didn’t cast someone Jewish, you know? Maybe I’m hallucinating, but I’m pretty sure I read somewhere that they even explicitly looked for a Mexican/Mexican-American actor for Alex because they knew people would freak out if he was anything else. They were incredibly mindful to all other minorities, which is great, but they forgot one.

If they hadn’t done that, and didn’t look for people to fit all the different minorities and instead just went for a type of blind-casting (roughly meaning: not looking at the person or the role and just casting based on talent), this would be a totally different conversation. Like it would still be bad, but you could say “Oh, they weren’t trying to be authentic.” It’s the fact that for RWRB, they did exclude one single ethnicity from the movie while they made sure to uphold all the others. They didn’t take any away, you know? Besides the only Jewish character. That’s erasure. Purposely done. As for the character herself, it is highly unlikely she’ll be Jewish in the movie. Since Nora (the character) wasn’t stereotypically “media” Jewish, like praying all the time or talking in Yiddish or from New York (you know, all that stuff that screams JEW), it seems easy enough for the film to ignore that literal ethnicity. Obviously we’ll have to wait for the movie to come out to see just how true that is, but due to the actress not being Jewish the character won’t be as well. She may perform Jewish religious rituals (weird for Nora’s character) or do stereotypically Jewish things (idk… eat a bagel? Talk about money? All that stuff people think Jews are). But none of that makes her Jewish. Does that make sense? Told you, rambling.

And I mostly disagree that it’s the same as queer actors playing queer roles, for the sole reason that one is an ethnicity and one is a sexuality. One is more inherently private, like someone’s sexuality is something that is so personal. Not that an ethnicity isn’t personal, but it’s not the same as a sexuality. Like… ugh how do I explain this without it all sounding super convoluted. Ethnicities aren’t something people tend to hide (unless faced with very horrific circumstances, you know what I mean), while sexualities are something many people keep private until they so chose. You physically cannot play an ethnicity due to it being a literal biological thing, like someone literally cannot play Jewish. They can just play stereotypes and the religion aspects, but they can’t play Jewish when they’re not. The same way that I couldn’t play a Pacific Islander when I’m not. I guess maybe in a way it is like queer actors playing queer roles, since sometimes it could ver more stereotypical when they want to “show the gay,” but I have wayyyyy more thoughts about that and it’s all more confusing and long that I have time for right now and none of it will come out the way I’d want it to right now lol.

I have an older post that might have gotten buried or deleted, but it talked about how Jewish viewers don’t even realize that the Jew-erasure is something bad, because it’s something we’re so used to seeing. We’ve come to expect it (subconsciously or not) so it’s not even a thought when it happens. We’ve been told that it’s okay due to centuries of it happening. And obviously not 100% of any one group of people will agree on anything, that would be impossible and a miracle. Especially a group of Jews agreeing on things (*Jew humor*). But I was to ask you a question, I really don’t mean this to sound confrontational but it will because there’s no way for it not to: Would you be saying that it doesn’t matter ethnicity-wise if Alex was being played by a totally non-Mexican or Hispanic or Latinx actor? Would you still say that counts as representation since the character is Mexican-American even if the actor isn’t? (Again! Don’t mean that to sound as confrontational as it does. Really just a question!)

I totally understand where you’re coming from, the same way I’m sure you do. We can both agree that there’s a lack of Jews in media and Jew-erasure. But I hope I’m able to show you more of why, at least for RWRB, this is 100% Jew-erasure and how actors can’t play an ethnicity that they aren’t a part of. I know (believe me I know) that actors are hired to play someone they’re not, but not when it comes to ethnicities. When it comes to ethnicities, Jews are the only one still not being played accurately, (people aren’t tanning up to play Latino or having their eyes tapped backwards to play Asian anymore— Yes… these used to be real practices for actors back in the day), and it’s because people think it’s okay. It’s not. Not for any ethnicity or race. Especially when Jewish actors are constantly rejected for being too Jewish, and Jewish-Americans account for soooooo many hate crimes every year.

Did I cover everything? Message me or comment if I missed something or you want something clarified. I’ve been up for nearly 20 hours now and I think I’m melt into the couch. But I’m serious, message me so we can talk if you have any questions. Okay I’ll stop rambling now!

[dearweirdme]

What do you think was the overall reaction of both gp and fandoms about the taennie rumors after almost 3 months? Do you think mediaplay really worked? To whose advantage?

I think they received more negative reactions especially Jennie. I visited her IG and there were a lot of visible defamatory comments. Those are probably just trolls, but those are not really good for her image. You mentioned that they used the rumor to help Jennie with her Idol series venture, but she received even more backlash than ever after it, and everything just went downhill for her from then on- her song with Abel, Abel’s song Kpop, her lazy performances and poor attempt at redeeming herself giving excuses for her blunders, I think those were what she will be remembered of instead of being Tae’s gf.

As for Tae, he’s been so quiet apparently. Do you think being associated with Jennie would tamper his image and reputation? Is that why he’s not feeding the rumors?

Jennie seemed to be unbothered about it all, and so is Tae. I am just wondering what your perspective about this stunt is, like a conclusion or something.

Hi anon!

Mmm, a bit tricky to answer this right now.. because I'm not sure whether or not it's actually done yet. But for the sake of it, let's assume that it is.

I think it definitely brought Jennie what they wanted. It was never meant to polish her image, it was meant to bring her publicity and that it certainly did. Around Cannes all eyes were on her and The Idol. Every article that was about Tae and Jennie being spotted also mentioned The Idol. It was great publicity. The hate she got doesn't matter in that regard. Attention is attention. From Jennie's side this wasn't aimed at fandom, but it was to gather attention from a bigger audience, so that they would also watch her new series. Her fans were always going to watch it, so they didn't actually care about how they would react to it. Jennie has always gotten hate, from Blinks even. It has intensified a lot, but I think they expected that and I think they just took it in stride. The pro's heavily outweigh the con's in this case.

Jennie's real fans won't leave her for this. They will blame Tae for not standing up for her and just keep supporting her. Maybe she even gained some fans who were Teannies. And, I think this aided in her name being more widely known. Jennie was already big, but a supposed romance between a Kpop princess and a Kpop prince is bound to make you even more famous. I think that has been the aim from Jennie's side.

Jennie won't be remebered for being anyone's girlfriend, or for being the 'topic' of a song. Her legacy will be BlackPink, no matter who she dates, she is absolutely big enough for that.

For Tae I think things are a bit different, and it is possible that his side didn't like the way things were going. If nothing else happens (during his album release) he wouldn't have benefitted from this for a specific project, like Jennie has with The Idol. For him it did more for his overall image, people think he dates women because of this. It's also kept his name going around for the last few months, which might have been an intended side effect, but in general I feel this was to give him a veil of straightness. It would explain why he seems to have cooperated less than Jennie and why he has been seemingly distancing himself lately. All Tae did was show up at the Paris walk, while Jennie also fueled rumors (well, even that was only once... I think). Who knows what lyrics Tae's songs will contain? He will have a "straight" storyline for the ones who feel uncomfortable with queerness. It having been a very short stunt (not including the gurumi stuff) it won't have damaged his reputation or his image. Tae is lovely and he is loved a lot.. it would take a whole lot more for that to be destroyed. If nothing else happens, people will soon get over this and it will eventually be parked int he realm of "rumors".

So in general I think it did what it was supposed to do. It's going to be more clear after a while I think.

[idontpreferit]

Saying Rocky Horror is transphobic? U haven't read 1984

What I mean is, I wrote an essay in college for a class called The Language of Thought. The essay was about 1984 and how language suppression was supposed to also suppress thought. If they eliminated "thoughtcrime" then they'd have total control of the population.

The trouble is, (luckily) it doesn't work. You can be fully enmeshed in the Party's newspeak, doublethink, doubleplusgood culture, and still feel a deep sense of longing, dissent, resistance. What is natural to oneself exists regardless of culture, and in fact, the more suppressed or repressed a culture is, it's only bound to result in behavioral or psychological hemorrhaging.

So this applies to : trans people have always existed, before the language of trans existed, which has only been within the last 12 seconds of world history. (First in print in 1960s or 70s, 1990s becoming more widely used, specifically "trans").

So yeah, 12 seconds.

In 1975, Rocky Horror was released and used the term transvestite and transsexual. These are 2 distinct things that I'm sure cishet people wouldn't recognize the difference.

Add transgender and I mean, it all has the word trans in it, so who cares what difference does it make?

So listen

The gay, queer, trans sensibility of camp

The way we understand satire

The way we are superior at doublethink, in fact, and can hold nuance and contradictions

And are more resilient than this reactionary idea that being offensive is "unsafe" or "harmful". Well, to the people who don't get what Rocky Horror is doing, those people are ALREADY dangerous, unsafe, harmful to trans and queer people, and this film isn't FOR them. Never was. That's why it flopped when it came out.

Mainstream society hates that they're the butt of the joke in this movie, the ones not in control

And if you're afraid that this is how cis het people see you, well yea maybe they do

So embrace it

Lean into it and make it camp

The more you think we're "like this" the more fun I'll have making you believe you're right, and the more you'll think we're serious. It protects us... turns the words meant to hurt us and reclaims them. Maybe it does reinforce their shallow ideas but those of us not interested in respectability... go off

Ouroboros

I support trans rights AND trans wrongs

We get to have iconic and complex queer characters who are imperfect. Engage with the flaws and think critically as an adult, without assuming that it endorses the wrongs simply by displaying them.

Even if the movie DOES seem to glorify problematic things (the coercive sex) then YOU don't have to endorse it.

It also brings to mind the same discourse with "baby it's cold outside" where it was so forbidden and unacceptable for women to enthusiastically consent to sex out of wedlock, that I'd boldly claim to reclaim the song as a way to perform this "purity" with a tongue in cheek slew of excuses to an imaginary viewer (God?) To why she was allowed to stay and fuck her man during a snowstorm. Good for her.

People are so sticky for thinking consent is an easy straightforward thing. It can be! It isn't always! Cuz we don't always know what we want and can resist the unfamiliar, the taboo, not because we DON'T want it, but because we're taught not to.

So if I may indulge to reframe the coercive sex Frank has with Brad and Janet, it's like well what if they try it and like it, and they did. Is it an example of how we should behave? Absolutely not. Don't act like that, especially in the year of our Lord 2024.

I don't think it took a whole lot of force for them to be convinced to try on queer sex though. They folded fast. Let's focus on the way symbolically this means everyone is bi and being trans is hot and also Tim Curry is hot. Cishet people need to relax.

And younger queer people also need to relax. IMHO. I get it I love the passion and fervor that younger people have when discovering things for the first time as if the rest of the world hasn't ever made the same discoveries.

Come to your conclusions the way we all had to, reinvent your wheels. I'm just old man yells at cloud, discovering what it feels like to be in my 30s and people in their 40s and beyond roll their eyes at me just as I do to the 20 Somethings and so on. Tale as old as time.

But Rocky Horror isn't transphobic. It isn't meant to be an accurate picture of a human being lol he's literally an alien actually. This is a silly movie. A batshit indulgent movie with a loose grip on narrative to begin with. But transvestite... where did that classification go?

It's not the same as transgender, transsexual, or drag queen.

As we have learned the term trans, has it not erased cross dresser and transvestite? As we blend gender, attempt to erase the binary... I still think clothing, femininity, and masculinity exist. There are subconscious ways even children portray these traits, and in clothing it's an easy way to access them, to perform gender. To access gender.

I was AFAB and I am a drag artist that most often portrays femininity. It's for pay, on stage. I enjoy it because it feels transgressive to my natural gender state (ambiguous). Am I a cross dresser? I feel like one tbh.

If someone only really likes to wear transgressive clothes erotically, is that a transvestite? Sounds like fun. What's the matter with that?

I'm just tired of accusations being made about things like Rocky Horror meant to erase all the good its done in this world to ignite the freak within me, and many many other queers. View things with a critical lens, sure, but do so with enough book learning to realize your history, the context, and the intent. I think intent matters, so sue me. You can't tell me Tim Curry didn't have a blast as that character. Do you think the intent was to be anything less than iconic?

All these coconuts seem to be falling out of trees, and I'm trying my best to know where I exist within the context of all that came before me

Otherwise idk it's a lot of wasted thoughts and words already said somewhere else but better,

ouroboros

Etc.

EDIT:

I watched the remake with Laverne Cox and it's like, see?? This is how you think you could do better? Not to be like U RUINED IT WITH WOKE like no, of course a diverse cast would benefit any production. But my observations:

Laverne and Adam Lambert are the only ones of the culture in that film. They understood the assignment because they're one of us. The rest of them were not. Just homosexual theater kids. If they even were all gay, who knows. They're devoid of cultural context. Plus! As sad as it is when a cis person is cast in a queer role, a pretty person cast in an ugly role is disrespectful. Riff Raff's casting was offensive. Magenta's casting was like, wow she seems cute and sweet, not like a sick freak. Brad was too Chadly. No ugly people make it in the Industry anymore, and when I say ugly people, I mean an LA 6, ya know, still actually attractive but you can at least disguise it.

Give me an actual "hear me out." Fuck out of here with the palatably fuckable.

Would I pay to see it as a stage play? Yes, I'd see Laverne do anything. Was it a money grab? Absolutely. That's all this industry has left.

God, do I have to start writing screenplays? Fuck

It's up to me to reinvent the wheel!!!

For my next essay I'll be discussing the Addams Family theory and philosophy, the intersection of kink, indulgence, and Zen Buddhism

[99milsofdepresso]

Here's a story about queerness. I've removed names for the identities to remain anonymous and so on and so forth. There's no moral at the end but I hope you like a queer experience today. If not just move along I guess.

I was fifteen at the time. He was thirteen at the time and we thought we were lesbians. I don't know what we are now, he's completely different from the girl I dated. I thought it was my first lesbian experience where she actually liked me. He was constantly depressed. I've met his dad, I understand the reasons that he's constantly depressed. He was thirteen and turned fourteen and we remained friends after I broke up with him, but he was my first lesbian experience and she liked me and I wanted to love her. And I noticed things. I noticed that he talked over me. I noticed that little things that didn't matter upset him. That he flew off the handle a bit too hard for my liking and scarier to me still, I couldn't help him be happy. He seemed determined not to be. I... I want to bring my partner joy, peace, serenity, passion, inspiration, ect. Where we make each other better people and always try to learn more all the time. He encouraged that, and he's gone on to flourish wildly without me and I'm so happy for him.

When I was a fifteen year old, I dated a thirteen year old. She was funny and kind and sweet, and my *best friend* introduced us. My sister. The woman I have decided is absolutely worth my (and everyone else's) devotion and loyalty. We have a long and complicated friendship that on my end is undyingly loyal. I have seen what my sister is as a person and I love her to the core. That's who introduced me to the thirteen year old. My Adoptive sister who is a few weeks younger than me introduced me to a friend of theirs? Hers? I really should talk to her/them more. This thirteen year old and I were in fact, Set Up because I was bi. I was bi and I had autism so it shook out to comfortable saying Pan, but it feels the most right. Bisexual doesn't mean transphobic, either, but Pansexual feels right. At the time, this baby trans man, was a lesbian. Didn't want to date men. Openly gay. Highly recommended friend material. We loved spending time together and talking about what was Real. Also Anime. Anime was a big part of the friendship.

I was questioning my gender. I didn't like how much of a performance Feminine was all the time, but Lesbian was comfy. Ish. I didn't know, breasts were a problem for me. I still want top surgery. I hated *being* a Woman at 15. Men were perfectly Happy to treat me as a Woman at 15, and Woman just meant Sex Object.

Maturity be damned. Experience with saying no be damned. People started countdowns to when I was to turn 18. As if that meant they'd be in less trouble if they were caught trying to romance me. Or worse. Some people don't care about my agency at all, but they won't be caught dead being a pedophile. It's really about where you draw the line, I suppose. I will go to my grave saying men are trash, because *the men that do that? They are trash. The men that do not hold them accountable? They are also TRASH.

I still hold this one lesbian experience tightly, to my chest. It was a *normal lesbian relationship* where we liked each other and we were too young to have sex, but it *was sexually charged* and I think about it *all the time* because he transitioned, and I still haven't.

He took me to my very first anime convention. We kinda dry humped in a tent. Through clothes. I knew though. I realized as it was happening that I wanted her. I wanted sex with women. I was having this realization in a tent with the thirteen year old who just bit my neck in just the right way because she wanted me to lose it like I wanted me to lose it and kiss her and kiss her and kiss her and maybe eat her? I didn't know. I just had the realization that I wanted all of these things. That I wanted it to finally, Finally bring her joy. I told her that biting my neck was deeply arousing and I kinda want to do sexual things when it happened. We were at an anime convention, and camping in a tent nearby. I brought a guitar. I didn't help set up tents because I didn't want to get in a fight with his dad that day. I was a coward and he deserved so much better than me, but I look back at this very gay memory with wonder now.

What if it had been more? What if I *hadn't* chickened out? Gods but she was *thirteen* and *going through it* and I was *fifteen* and *also going through it* and we barely had the tools to help ourselves, and I couldn't trust him to help me, and I knew I couldn't help him except with connections to resources and basic Google keywords. He did everything else himself, and I'm proud of him. I think he's married??? Now??? And I hear he is perhaps pursuing a doctorate? He was absolutely the one that got away because I was foolish, you understand? I was a DUMB GAY. BE BETTER. BE HONEST WITH YOUR PARTNER. USE YOUR BEST JUDGEMENT ABOUT THEIR DAD. AND BE READY FOR THEM TO BE HONEST WITH YOU.

We both have autism. I don't know if that makes it Better? Worse? HEY GAYS? I MEAN IT I NEED HELP. QUEER FAM, IF HE TRANSITIONED IS IT STILL A LESBIAN MEMORY? IF BOTH OF US DONT IDENTIFY AS WOMEN ANYMORE IS IT A GAY MEMORY? A LESBIAN MEMORY? I HAVE BEEN TURNING THIS OVER IN MY HEAD FOR YEARS AND I NEED HELP. THIS IS GENUINE THIS IS NOT IRONY I AM THIRTY AND MY PARTNER AND I BOTH THINK GENDER IS STUPID BUT WE'RE OPPOSITES ON THE PIPELINE NOW, SO I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I AM, YOU DIG? I'M GAY, BUT MY LESBIAN MIDAS TOUCH MAKES TRANS PEOPLE??? WHY DOES IT LOOK SO FUCKING STRAIGHT?!

Do labels even Matter at this point? Like... And I STILL haven't transitioned. I want the counseling and hormones and to ditch the boobs, but I am actually scared to do it. Like what if I tell someone all of this and they still deny me a boobless existence because I'm performing traditional femininity Too Much. I love girly shit. What if I just wanna be a flat chested girlie? Or do I want to transition? WHAT AM I?

I'm me. The body I'm in is a Meat Suit for an A-Gender consciousness. Lesbians are important, and I love women and I love being nonbinary. I also love SOME men. They are very special men. Or they Were. Now I have a Partner, one day a Spouse. I love my Partner. My Partner has the best tasting dick ever, actually. Most man cum tastes like bleach smells to me. Women taste like proper buttery scrambled eggs. You do the math on what I'd rather eat. PSYCH! My Partner. Delicious dick. Not bleachy or salty. Tastes like people fluid. I love my Partner, and they *love* it when I go down. My Partner doesn't have this Queerness Label Struggle that I have. My Partner Loves me and I think it's Real. That they actually understand and listen to me and appreciate me. That they're safe to be around. That they're safe for me. That I can trust them to actually care about me. It's Love and it's Love the way you deserve, baby. Mutual inspiration, a desire to be together. Also they ought to smell good, just trust me and trust your own nose for what registers as "good smelling person" when you know, you Know. Be Wiser than me. Be Honest. Be Certain, and don't perform certainty be Honest with Yourself about What You Want. I wanted someone who would Listen. I found them. It's the love of my life and I will spend the rest of it trying to be a better person than I was, every moment. Always trying to beat my top score at how much I can learn. You might be different, and that's fine. Props to you for reading this far. Hope you have a nice day. It's certainly *Queer*.

[merelaes]

There was much to learn from their history and from what shouldn't be repeated. So much of their history was told by the Maester, and it was clear that they were biased on several matters but still taught it. So many believed that the Targaryens had queer customs, but he believed that was only because of the faith. It influenced them more and more. Daemon had been able to learn a lot of history by speaking with the Old King and the Good Queen, something that Aemond was partially envious of. There would be tales that he would never be able to hear, and he knew that his own father never cared to tell him any. Regardless, he would read everything that he could get his hands on and even listen to the tales that Daemon might tell during their talks.

So many spoke of Maegor and Visenya as cruel, and Aemond pondered why. He rode her dragon now, and he wondered what could have been so cruel. Had they not been doing what was right for their family? Wasn't it part of their duty to protect their families? There was much to be discussed in that regard, but all too many believed what Maester wrote and would follow it blindly. If there was no one to ask questions, then nothing would ever change. Or would be learned.

"Everyone will always desire power. I suppose Aegon was the first to do something about it. Truly, he was the only one who had the resources to keep everyone in line." He mused while his fingers began to idly tap at the arm of the chair. Dragons had made them kings. Not just the dreams like the others who thought or talked about them. Their dragons had won them the realm and the loyalty of those lords. Breaking the wheel of merely talking about conquest, Aegon had done it. The throne that his father sat upon and that the lords of the realm had placed him on instead of Rhaenys,The Queen Who Never Was. It seemed that the wheel could have been broken then and there, but no one dared to do it." Hmm. So, it did.

Aemond did not like to think of himself as a pawn, but he knew the duties that he must perform. It was his honor to do what he would do for his family. Yet sometimes he questioned them. Even if it was in the silence of his room, "Mother has taught us the faith, but I do not always follow it. If she asks me to pray and join her, then I will. I fear most people would view our union with unfavor,  sadly."He sighed before looking away for a moment. No one would understand, and the mention of them being second sons wasn't the most favored conversation. "Yes, we are the ones used for gain. We have no voice, and we must perform whatever is expected of  us."He spoke bitterly. Aemond's own emotions came through for just a moment before he collected himself.

The prince did not believe that they would ever be able to place a queen on the throne. It didn't seem likely, and he would have thought that an uproar would always happen, and Jaehaerys might have wiped his hands clean because he didn't want to face that. Perhaps he was saving Rhaenys from the struggle of never being accepted by those men and from a war. A war that could have taken them from the throne and had his family fall" Perhaps Jaehaerys knew that she would never be accepted as queen. That war could have been started by the others. They might have broken the wheel and come to take the throne from her, thinking she was weak. Dragons or not. Rallied together, and with some dream, maybe that could have happened. We could be gods, but even we  bleed.

Rolling his eye when it came to the Maester of Oldtown, Aemond gave another hum as his focus started to shift from the conversation to the pain in his face. "Yes, I do suppose you are correct that they would, but there is no one to write in favor of Maegor, is there? I'm sure you have been told stories, but are they in favor?" He asked while continuing his search. Bringing up bottles to read what it was. Usually, he kept everything on the table tidy, but in his state, he was somewhat forgetful of where he had put everything. "I believe the faith is just to inspire hope and keep people busy."

The frustration of reading each bottle and not having the one he needed was enough to frustrate Aemond even more. He scolded himself for not keeping the table tidy like he insisted on every other day. "Yes, I am trying to do that. I don't want to spend all night tossing and turning." Aemond sighed. There was also a chance that it would turn into the next few days of not being able to get out of bed and having to deal with the pain that could turn into another one of those dreaded fevers. He kept himself against Daemon and focused on his warmth and scent. "I did not think it was so bad. I was going to do it before bed." He mumbled but knew Daemon was right. He had done too much and exhausted himself without realizing it. "I will take the sapphire out if you want to clean it. I don't want to make you look and clean the wound; I can handle  that."Aemond suggested, not wanting to make Daemon deal with the grotesque sight of the wound.

🔥SINCE THE MOMENT HE STARTED TO LEARN HISTORY the Prince had been a voracious student. Always wanting to know more, read more, ask more questions. The Maesters oft chastised him for asking too much about Visenya Targaryen, or about her son Maegor. He cared little for the relationships between the members of his family, he cared deeply for what they have done, who they have been. Beyond what the Maesters had written, he wanted to know the details no one else knew, no one but those who have lived among them. So he pestered the Old King and his wife for answers of a past that maybe they wished to forget. While Jaehaerys had tried to keep him from learning a thing or two, Alysanne had been different, and she had answered honestly to each one of his questions.

The Prince had been interested in the deep hate that the Maesters proclaimed in the books about Maegor and his doings, and of what Visenya had done - and had come  to see them differently than most. For Daemon was not one quick to judge based on the tales of others, he preferred to make up his own mind, and pass then judgment if it was required. Perhaps his interest in Maegor, and Visenya, had prompted people like Otto Hightower, to believe him no better than them. And even if it was a dangerous accusation, Daemon feared not to be like them, for he knew the lies among the men of the Faith.

“There were several fights before the Conquest, my sweetling, do not believe these Lords didn’t desire power. What legacy would they leave if not a name on the annals of their land? Power has always been the most seductive thing for a man, even more than the most exquisite whores of the Street of Silk. Anyone would give even their lives in the pursuit of it.” For it has been the reason many fought against Aegon, to not lose the power on their lands. A chuckle escaped him at his nephew’s words. “Of course they bend the knee not for loyalty to Aegon, but from the fear of Balerion. Loyalty it’s won, not given freely. Aegon won it through fire and blood, and it gave him the right to create the iron throne.”

Lowering his head the Prince smirked at the foolish thought of a child who has not seen much of the world. Aemond may have spent hours in the library reading the books, but from the streets little did he know. “I’m surprised that your mother has not taught you about how the Faith sees our union. Perhaps she has no reason to care for it, doesn’t she? She wouldn’t suspect who you like, or the one you allow in your bed. But believe me, Aemond, if our relationship was ever made public it wouldn’t end well for either. And we are second sons, not forgotten, we are to be used, sent to be married to a Lady who can give lands or support to the realm. We’re never not seen, our actions have an impact whether we believe it or not.”

He believed he was not wrong, that Jaehaerys did not know what to do, and did not want to be the one choosing. Let the realm do it for him, and he would wash his hands from it. Daemon did not feel sympathy for the act, even though it had beneficiated his brother - and in a way it had also beneficiated him - yet such action now was casting a shadow on the possibilities of Rhaenyra becoming Queen. The dragon Prince looked at his nephew as he spoke, and paid attention to his words. It surprised them for sure, but he knew what to say to that. “If the realm was truly to go against their oaths, then something different must be done, and perhaps we should accept Aegon as the next King. But until then, we still have the possibilities of having them accept her.” Through how things went and knowing the things he knew, Daemon was certain the war would not come from the outside, but from the inside of their own family. Yet he decided not to dwell on Alicent’s view, or Otto’s manipulations for such subjects were sore for Aemond.

“Maegor is viewed the way he’s viewed by those who write the history books. And who, pray tell me, are they? Maesters.” He offered with a smile. “Maesters from Oldtown, and who did Maegor fight? People from the Faith. Of course the Maesters will give him some color, apart from his personal decisions that little have mattered to me.” The whole issue about his wives was not something Daemon had cared about. It all seemed like gossip for bored Ladies. “Not all of us had. I don’t give a fuck about the cunts of the Faith.” He may have been raised to follow it, but he had never bothered to even pray.

There was a pause in his words as Aemond seemed unable to find what he was searching for, which prompted him to get up, and shorten the distance between them. “Then we can have a good attempt for the pain to stop before it grows worse.” Some days the pain would be like this, impossible to deal with, and in those days, Daemon watched over him, and tried to soothe him as much as he could. Holding him with one of his arms, Daemon took the oil that he needed with his free hand and kissed his forehead again. “You should have taken it off the second you came here.” He suggested as he suspected both the patch and the sapphire could be too much when they were together. “Shall we clean the sapphire and your wound?” Sometimes if dirt has been allowed inside it could prompt pain from raising.

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Movies that Might Make Good Musicals in My Opinion & Why

So I made a list of musicals that might make good movie musicals before, so now I'll do vice versa. Just like most list I make, this will be long, detailed, and possibly edited later. Sorry, lol.

Dead Poets Society

So I've heard talk of this already existing or being in development, but I haven't seen anything, so this might just be more of a “what I hope for” thing. The movie was also already a stage show. This should have a John Patrick Shanley’s Prodigal Son type vibe, not just because Robert Sean Leonard is in that show too, but the sense of the script and feel of the show. I can see the music having a Spring Awakening sound to it. I think a musical would be a great way to improve upon the film in some areas, like Knox and Chris’s romance that bordered on creepy (and underdeveloped), and the Nuwanda stuff that was pretty insensitive to Native Americans. Also, maybe change how... white the film was, in terms of cast and extras. Brown v. Board had happened by 1959; there could've been students of color (maybe the casting reflected how rigid Welton Academy was, but that should be acknowledged, which it wasn't, if so). And please keep Neil and Todd’s queer subtext, or better yet, make the queerness explicit. And I don't know if he can sing or anything, but I'd die to see Ethan Hawke, or really any of the og poets play Keating. Ethan now just reminds me the most of Keating for some reason, and I think it’d be touching.

Wild Nights with Emily

Emily Dickinson’s poems are famous for being pretty musical, so a musical about her would be cool. Wild Nights with Emily is one of my favorite piece of media about Dickinson because it doesn't portray her as a boring shut-in who wrote boring poetry, a far cry from who she was. It was also the right amount of silly for me personally (I love Apple TV’s Dickinson, but the modern humor could be a bit much for me sometimes. But that's just a me thing, not an inherent flaw of the show. It's storyline is also a bit too long for a musical, it being a series). Turning Emily’s poems to songs would be easy (?) because of how she wrote them; they already fit songs like "House of the Rising Sun", "The Yellow Rose of Texas", etc. Dickinson’s “Split The Lark” song kills me every time (straight up cast Ella Hunt in this hypothetical show would be a cool idea). And I could see Mabel singing lines from Emily's poems and warping them as a villain song since she seemingly did that in real life.

The Sandlot

I love musicals staring a bunch of kids. I like feeling impressed and like they're more talented than me. The Sandlot would be fun. I could see it being performed in the round. I don't have many detailed thoughts about this one right now honestly. I just like the idea. And I love this movie.

Rocketman

This one feels like it was supposed to be on stage from the get-go. The movie, especially during the title number, felt like the world’s most detailed proshot. Not a flaw to me, but to some.

The Iron Giant

I'm glad this once underrated flick has gotten more attention over the years. Even though it's amazing, I always felt like there could be more to it. Like we could develop Dean and Annie's relationship beyond one or two-ish scenes of bonding and boom! Relationship. Or maybe cut out their romantic connection entirely, as it's not necessary. And include the deleted scene (that was included in the extended cut) of Dean seeing Giant’s dream projected on the his TV so that his views on Giant changing when he almost attacks Hogarth make a bit more sense. I think it wouldn't hurt for the story to be longer. I don't know how the technicalities of the show would work with Giant and how big he is. There's a King Kong musical, so maybe something like that, or of course scaling down Giant in the process but still making him big. It’d be an impressive puppet.

Secondhand Lions

This film should be a classic! If you haven't seen the it I recommend it. It has a similar-esque story to The Iron Giant, being about a boy making friends with a non human creature (a lion if you didn't guess). The film just deserves more attention. EDIT: So I recently rewatched this film and notice what might be the actor playing young Garth (who's white) with a painted face to look darker during one of Hub’s backstories. It might've just been the lighting on the scene, but it might not be. This would obviously be really bad, so some kind of musical remake could be an opportunity to fix this issue. Just a heads up that it might be there.

Pippi Longstocking

If you can't tell, kids' movies to me would be the easiest to turn into musicals. I grew up with the Swedish version of Pippi (English dubbed) thanks to my dad. I loved it, along with the American film, cartoon, and even the Shirley Temple Show version. It could work as a musical. The films and show already had their own different theme songs.

The Lorax

I know this might sound odd. Of all the films on this list, I want this one the most. The Illumination film, while fun, had a lot of flaws (no shame if you still liked it), such as marketing for the film contradicting its own message, the film being too safe, etc. But that's exactly why I think a stage show would work. It could improve on the film. Like having better characterization and being less gimmicky. I would also want it to be a bit more faithful to the book/TV short film in a few ways. If it's possible on stage, I liked the idea of obscuring The Once-Ler’s face to symbolize that he could be anyone, including the audience if they let themselves. Maybe even make Once-Ler a gender-ambiguous role to reflect that more. And the story ending with the child (Ted in the film, unnamed in the book/TV short) being given the tree seed and walking away from The Once-Ler’s home, reminding the audience that there is hope to save the trees, but it hasn't been done yet, as the trees are still in danger unless people care to help the trees. The film’s very happy ending arguably only serves as inspiration porn rather than actually teaching people to care about the trees. I could see “Let It Grow” staying in some way as a song sung by The Lorax and his animal friends in the beginning when Once-Ler first arrives at the forest, trying to convince him to not harm the trees. Maybe even obscure the child’s identity and gender to symbolize that they could be anyone as well. Make the Once-Ler’s rise to greed longer than just one song. You don't destroy the trees in a day. You don't become a monster in a day. It would hit better. And make Once-Ler’s destruction a conscious choice rather than blame his unawareness of the trees' deaths. Maybe even have him lie initially about his awareness of the trees to Thneedvile till he confesses to the kid that he did know, but didn't care so he could make money. Companies lie like that all the time. Imagine a scene immediately after his full transmission to evil (“How Bad Can I Be?” in the film) where he looks upon the treeless land and actually looks apathetic towards it and only cares when he realizes it will ruin his business since he can't find an alternative to tree fluff/leaves; he doesn't express true care till he talks about it to the child/Ted, as he's only realized his folly over the years. There are some things from the film that could be saved, like the memorial Lorax and the animals have for the UNLESS tree. That was the best addition the film made. And include the cut song “Biggering” rather than “How Bad Can I Be?”! That was a masterpiece and should've never been cut. Or better yet, have bits of “How bad can I be” performed at the beginning of Once-Ler’s poor decision-making, and have “Biggering” be this sort of final crescendo before his complete downfall. Like “How Bad Can I Be?” is a cut-up as a prologue(s). The demo version of “Thneedvile” also added to Ted/the kid more, so I think that would stay too. All the cut songs actually add a lot to the story and have great humor, but the film wanted to be marketable and as inoffensive as possible rather than good (and was made by one of the most money-hungry, Once-Ler-like film companies ever). I would want a slightly more dark approach to the massaging. Show more of the effects of the world losing trees rather than just talk about how bad it is. Show us why we should care. Maybe include an endangered animal in the story and have it go extinct thanks to The Once-Ler’s practices. Just something. The message could even be extended to not just care about the trees, but the natural world as a whole, as global warming and other issues like it are still as big of problems as ever.

Jennifer's Body

I think we need more horror musicals. We have Carrie The Musical, Starkid’s Hatchetfield Universe, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Jekyll and Hyde, etc. so a horror musical isn't as odd as it might sound at first. I liked the film, but there were some things that if feel could us an update. Like the dialogue being very cheesy and dated (nothing wrong if you like that, I get its appeal; it's just not my thing unless done in a particular way). Or Needy and Jen’s attraction to each other being treated more as sapphic fetishization to get guys to see the movie rather than it being there for representation (especially in the trailers for the film). I think it would be nice to see more pre-succubus Jennifer, and her friendship with Needy pre-succubus, so that it could be a bit more sad when she's changes and so that the change is felt more. It would also make it more sad when Needy has to kill her. I want more pain or hesitance from Needy having to fight and kill Jen. Even though she knows it's not Jennifer anymore it still can't be easy to deal with your best friend/crush dying twice. They were friends from childhood, it has to be a least a little painful. I guess I just want a bit more heart behind it than the film had (not that I thought the film didn't have any).

The Invisible Man

We have Jekyll and Hyde and Frankenstein musicals. Griffin might as well join his mad scientist bros. This would almost definitely have to be a musical movie because I have no idea how you would make Griffin look invisible on stage practically. I really like gothic musicals and I think this could have a similar vibe. Griffin’s more blatantly asshole-y behavior when compared to Jekyll and Frankenstein’s well-meaning but flawed natures could make him and the musical stand out against its other mad scientist processors.

[lesbiradshaw]

Hello! Literally just started following you and I'm aready in love. It's so refreshing to see someone in the stevebucky fandom who doesn't worship (or even like really) the actors and is able to separate them, not to mention the army of peggy stans who are on the rise, who diminish the importance of comic steve and mcu sam. I can't help but agree with every word you say, as former mcu stan and current mcu hater who still loves the cap quartet dearly. Do not get me started on the performative white feminism on pushing Cap Peggy down our throats (and in MoM where they introduce openly queer woc. I did't see Mom bc I refuse to support Mcu any longer but I doubt her being a raging lesbian is even mentioned, and she's a literal child so it's not like we'll see her happily flirt with every female character like she does in the comics. It's very obvious that the new wave of mcu stans are mostly just the Rat's fans and never even touched the comics which are, while also sometimes problematic, much more diverse and deep dive into their characters instead of cheaping them down so they can appease to your average yt us straight viewer

NOT TO MENTION I always thought America Chavez was... afro latina? And as a person of romani heritage, I take great offense to Wanda and Elizabeth Olsen, but that's another topic of its own. anyways, thank you for your posts!

(mashing both your asks into one bc your points were all so good <3 also MoM spoilers ahead for anyone who didn’t see that tag)

before MoM even came out there was a tweet from film updates on twitter talking about how the movie had been banned in a few countries for including a queer relationship on screen (america’s mothers) and a prominent queer character (america whose sexuality was only alluded to by the little pride pin on her jacket) and almost all of the quotes and replies were people joking about dr. strange being gay for ironman or wanda being a gay icon and maybe it’s just because i’m a hater but i got so fucking irritated that no one was acknowledging the actual lesbian of color who was in the movie .. even if it was just for the jokes (which were all about white characters being gay because they hate acknowledging poc can be queer) and having seen MoM (with my friend’s free ticket because i would not have paid for it otherwise) most of the people are ignoring america completely, or blaming her for ‘contributing to wanda’s suffering’ as if wanda doesn’t spend the entire movie trying to kill her. like what ? AMERICA IS A CHILD 😭 but yeah, in MoM they also have this entire bit where it’s revealed the the multiverse worlds have numbers and guess what number the mcu is …. 616. it’s such a fucking joke considering the fact that the mcu is nothing like half of their supposed comic sources, and especially fucked up because this movie prominently revolves around mcu wanda who we all know is VERY VERY VERY VERY UNLIKE HER COMIC COUNTERPART aka one of the most whitewashed characters with erased heritage in the mcu and that’s saying something because the mcu loves changing characters that way. even when cast poc for poc roles they choose lighter skinned people most of the time. very odd of them … i also find it very odd that a lot of #stuckies are now championing mcu wanda as their queen (after saying they didn’t like her being whitewashed) just for slicing captain carter and are also pretending to be outraged on sam’s behalf because of her live action inclusion when i have seen half of them shit on sam before for the benefit of bucky. it’s like their hate for peggy is so strong they think about her more than they do the characters they actually like/love using other characters as a tool to fuel their hatred of her and TRUST ME i don’t like that woman either but 😭 the irony of being enraged that sam is being put to the side in favor of the white woman while also only caring about sam when the white woman is involved … mcu stans have no brains i SWEAR and that is why i only care about what happens to a very select few characters at this point. thank you for your kind words and making me feel sane 🫂 america chavez and comic amerikate i will avenge you ….