#maybe . . . . . . . i will go ahead and sleep . . . . . . .

[sleeptokenpuppy]

since we are rapidly approaching tour time again, what do we hope vessel plays as a piano intro before rain this time around?

[shewhoeatssand]

they are similar

[midnightsslut]

the reason why bejeweled feels very calvin to me still is how it parallels high infidelity. in general, the 3am tracks seem to explore a darker, more explicit side of a storyline that’s already present, if only in the form of subtext (like we don’t have a direct parallel for wcs, but we do have two songs exploring formative past relationships vaguely sexually, and wcs is the darker example), on the main album, and bejeweled/high infidelity is perhaps the best example of this. its similarities to tolerate it, which is about something she felt ‘at one point in her life,’ back this up. HOWEVER, I do think it’s exploring a potential outcome of the then-current state of her relationship with joe. like, this is how things could go - I have forgotten that I have a man in the past, and I can do it again.

[roscoehamiltons]

just woke up and Charles???????? congrats omg

[indelicateink]

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[inkats]

hanging out w ppl is great (I’m constantly nauseous)

[randomravager]

I don’t wanna go back please oh god I don’t wanna

[pearl-kite]

Am I supposed to actually accomplish things at work this week? In between planning for a meeting and drafting a mass email, I'm playing a guessing game for why my stomach is doing cartwheels at any given moment:

1. Election 2. Meeting (with folks who have already claimed it's going to be a waste of their time) 3. Knowing that election results are not going to be definitive right away 4. Generalized anxiety 5. Knowing that no matter the election results there is going to be A Bad Time

[cesium-sheep]

there's a heat advisory for thursday and friday which probably means letting my brother hang out in my room since it's the only one with ac which I feel a little squicky about but like. I can't just leave him to roast alone in the living room, that's super fuckin rude. and it also means that going to the concert, in a hot room full of people, is even more of a gamble.

honestly I'm starting to worry the whole thing isn't worth it, but it's too late now.

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s1 episode 23 thoughts

back at it again with another post surgery painkiller and x-files combo, let's goooo!

i'm almost done with season 1, only 1 more episode! i'll have to see how long it took me to get to this point and then update accordingly- but i might finish today- which will be bittersweet

(update! i started watching 20 days ago, so a i'm at a little over an episode a day! wow, time flies. and yet it seems they have always been at my side)

anyway this episode was again Problematic but i did chronicle my journey like always. i am a citizen journalist.

episode opened with some math words, math words which i definitely knew the meaning of (/s)

then the scientist we see working on a sort of jet thing gets sucked into his jet- he was locked in there by the custodian- with a sound the closed captioning described as a "squishing thud" which was. unfortunate.

enter our duo! "how was the wedding?" "you mean the part where the groom passed out or the dog bit the drummer?" (mulder, teasingly) "did you catch the bouquet?" (scully, teasing back) "maaaaybe :)"

(your honor i would die for them. no hesitation. mulder, what do you care if she caught the bouquet? dreaming of her as a radiant bride or something? scully, you stringing him along with that imagery? lol. lmao, even. i need to put them in a bottle and study them)

another scientist is killed when the custodian puts him into liquid nitrogen which is not something i can endorse but he WAS rude asf so i get it. and then his ear falls off and crunches which was nasty!

scully says she has seen this happen on a fish before! mulder responds that this is not something they'll see on "beakman's world" (had to google that one but it seems to be a contemporary children's science programming of some sort. and there was a man in a rat suit playing a rat. which is absurdly funny to me. hold on NEED to get an image of him for you)

i'm. gonna fucking cry why does he look like that. need to end this line of commentary here before i start begging for explanations on what the hell was going on in the 90's

so mulder seems to think that the custodian killed his boss and all the other members of this team working on the fancy jet stuff, which we know to be true but we don't know Why. turns out our custodian, roland, is the twin brother of the head scientist, arthur, who died a few months back, and has since had his brain placed in a cryogenic freezing chamber. JUST the head!

i love when scully and mulder need a visual on what a person would look like so they go to the woman in the fbi that presses some buttons on a computer and generates a dude. it brings me pleasure to no end. then they look at the guy like :0 yup that is exactly who we are looking for. i eat it up every time.

! SCULLY LORE REVEAL ! she has two brothers, one older and one younger! (she's a middle child omg.........)

mulder thinks siblings have a psychic connection (which is actually deeply tragic if you consider his circumstances) and that the ULTIMATE psychic connection is between twins. so the twin that is currently in an icy soup is somehow connecting to the other twin to get him to kill all the other scientists and finish his research. sure. why not.

there's then a scene where mulder tries to walk in the wrong direction and scully has to correct him, which recalled him getting lost in the woods in an earlier episode i had No Positive Feelings Towards, but it does make him always driving funnier. like, can he follow a map but has no internal sense of direction? was the gps still in its early days? did he have one at all? how is he getting places? a lot of people want to know

the last remaining scientist who was not killed lowered the temperature on brain soup twin, which was stored in another part of the university campus where they worked. man my university campus has no jet propulsion wing OR brain soup section. did i get ripped off? what is my tuition even for?

anyway, the episode ends with the seeming psychic curse of soup twin being lifted from custodian twin, which we can hope to mean positive things moving forward

overall, like i said, any episode of a show from the 90's with the words "mentally challenged" in the description is bound to have aged poorly, which i am not surprised by- up there with the earlier Indigenous appropriation episode and the aforementioned episode i Shan't Name- but, we did learn things! for instance, that scully has 2 brothers (!!!), just went to a wedding where mulder teased her about maybe catching the bouquet (and also a dog bit a drummer, drop the full story time scully don't be shy), mulder believes in the psychic connection between siblings, and that there was a rat on a kid's show that was a mere man in a suit. that i'm still gonna cry laughing at.

[battleslippers]

okay look. I have clear favoritism to outsiders ff to anime ff for several (albeit possibly nonsensical, purely sentimental) reasons, but I will say this one jjk fic absolutely captivated me and I think if I wanted to I could fill pages with notes and tears. head in my hands absolutely life changing. I didn't even forget the title after months

I feel like I'm gushing incredibly hard over this but I truly do feel it's a wonderful look into toji's and megumi's characters and the events preceding the former's death. It undeniably solidified him as my favorite character

in short I desperately needed fushiguro content a few months ago and immediately got my heart and mind torn to shreds by this and NEVER forgot. 10/10 highly recommend!

[hecksupremechips]

My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT

[solasgf]

[wereh0gz]

Y'know I think I'm starting to truly understand the kids who just didn't do anything in class during middle and high school. As someone who used to be a gifted kid and never really got it. Fucking hell

[izzy-b-hands]

the show was amaaaazing!!! the pretty metal boys just never miss!! Well worth the money and time and hands down, this was the best concert experience of my life. If you like metal in any way, I can't recommend enough that you see Avatar live!!

[miodiodavinci]

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