#man s15 destiel is a rollercoaster

[saturnneedsspace]

All I gotta ask is, what do you mean "we are," Cas?!?!?! We?! Like the collective, royal we, or the 'me and you together forever' we? You can't just say that and then not fucking follow it up. Especially after Dean says, "nothing about our lives is real." And then Cas fr goes. "You asked what was real. We are?" What does it mean?????

[quillquiver]

It’s Saturday night. I’m sitting in bed, obsessively refreshing tumblr like it’s 2013. Will they bring Cas back? Will Dean reciprocate? With every new piece of information, my heart soars. It sinks. My clown makeup, so perfectly applied Thursday night has begun to sweat off with my ever-increasing anxiety. I should have gone for the industrial stuff, but I could only afford the drugstore paint. Rookie mistake. I look longingly at my shoes in the corner. Nothing feels real. Did Cas even confess? Am I a fool? 

No.

I reapply my paint. I pull on my shoes. I nudge my red nose into place. I can have low expectations but I must not lose hope. If I get burned, I have a whole circus to support me.

Show time.