#man i genuinely cant decide but i really kinda want to do it

[rottingcompost]

should i just say fuck it and chop my hair off? mainly because i have been on the fence whether i should let it grow out as it is and look terrible but also mean that i can cut it and have longer healthy hair, or if i should chop it off where the roots are showing (they are at least 5 cm they are very visible) and have short hair and dye that green instead of having to wait until my hair grows out more, even if that means it will take longer to grow it out to be long.

[tomriddlehyperfixataion]

Tom Riddle x reader - blurb/how you(blank) because i need to write SOMETHING

How you meet - During 5th year, its a simple paired potions assignment and you end up getting paired with Tom. he's polite and charming of course, one must be to gain allies, even if they are...less, in his view.

How you gain his attention- Oddly, you don't pay attention to him like most of the girls do(frtho we all be drooling over him and blushing), you just get your work done and be polite. it gains his attention because 'whomst? doesn't react to my charms and face? i must find out the cause'. mans likes a puzzle to solve.

How it starts- he starts hanging around to try and solve the puzzle of you, he wants to know everything, every weakness and every tiny piece about the person who caught his attention. he surmises that he'll lose interest at some point once he learns enough/gains your attention like the other girls always give him. but the longer he hangs around, the more...comfortable he gets. he finds himself gravitating towards you, not really realizing whats happening until its already too late.

How he realizes- during another potions class, Slughorn was reviewing Amortentia and Tom smelled a particular scent that had him reeling back-his eyes going wide and ears turning pink. it was your perfume/shampoo/cologne/body wash/whatever. a smell he had gotten way too acquainted with over the last few months. (yes it takes him literal months to get to this point he is not a love at first sight kinda guy, he has to have some sort of connection) and he has a bit of a breakdown-because haha-WHAT!?

What happens after the realization- He distances himself right away, practically cuts contact. doesn't look at you, doesn't speak to you unless he HAS to. just goes cold turkey. right away he misses you and is just like *AHHHHHHHHHHHHH* but internally...this only lasts about two weeks before he decides 'fuck i miss them' and just stares at you for a good while before he gains to courage to go up to you and start talking again. he keeps his cool, of course he does, but inside he is screaming.

How he confesses- its right before summer break of 5th year, yes he takes forever to confess and he does it right before everyone leaves for the summer, just in case he gets rejected and doesn't have to look you in the eye until the next school term. For once he's fumbling over his words and he cant keep eye contact, his face slowly turning red as you stare at him with a small smile. depending on how you react, he'll either leave with a hidden smile or the STUPIDEST grin he's ever worn, or will wear. the grin will be if you kiss him on the cheek.

When you both come back for 6th year- Oh-he is NERVOUS-he didn't even know he COULD BE nervous. his hands are shaking slightly and he cannot focus on anything he is just so nervous about seeing you again. he hides it well, blank face and everything, but he moment he sees you at the train station, and you smile at him, he cannot help but smile back because holy shit they like me back and i wasn't delusional

lowkey i hc Tom is insecure in relationships(genuine ones)

How he is in a relationship- it takes him a long time to get properly comfortable. pulls back from any pda and wont even let you hold his hand. you can hold his sleeve or something but hand? nope. he's just so unused to being touched in a loving way that he's-almost grossed out by it? but once he finally starts to settle? ooooh he is the cuddliest thing on planet earth. feral cat that felt the loving touch of their human and now will never let them go. pda is at a minimum but now you're always holding hands in some way, pinkies interlocked and everything. study dates are the main dates, but he wont mind a date at the three broomsticks once in a while, as long as you find a quiet corner to hang out in semi-privately. will help you with homework but has to be offered something(wink wink just kidding its candy.) Major! sweet tooth, you could make him commit murder with the offer of sweets(lets be fr he wouldn't need candy to commit murder) jealous! jealous jealous jealous! and possessive, no one is allowed to talk to you, not with out several interviews from Tom and being cleared after taking a written exam on why they wouldn't try anything on his boy/girl.

loves to see you in his hoodies/sweaters, thinks its the best way other than hickeys to mark his territory. will happily give up all his hoodies to make sure everyone knows that you're his.

side note; i see so many tik toks(Slytherin boys react n stuff) that make him super threatening and menacing and willing to kill during the Hogwarts years. like he's smart. really fucking smart. he wouldn't risk anything just for someone he cares a lot about, torture? yes. kill? no. he's not stupid. he's not going to get caught over a stupid boy who gets handsy. will he later kill that idiot after graduation? yes, but during school? when Dumbledore is around to keep an eye on him? no. he's not stupid. he's not a murder machine, he's homicidal not stupid.

Anyway back to the point

Other relationship stuff-

Would take a long time to get to the point were he wants to go past kissing, hell it takes him forever to kiss you for the first time-like legit three months into the relationship. he would do knuckle/hand kisses and cheek kisses here and there-but it takes months for you guys to kiss properly for the first time. but anyway's he had never been attracted to anyone before you and takes a long time to get sexually active with you, mans is a virgin-everyone makes him a playboy and i look at his ass and go 'that man has never touched a girl a day in his life'.

So he learns with you, once he starts? oh yes he goes full horn dog. he is insatiable! cant keep his hands off you in private/semi-private. is pretty vanilla at first but he finds a spicy book and is very intrigued. learns he has a breeding kink very quickly and is very into choke play and control.

First and last love, if you ever leave him(haha you wont), he will probably never get attached to anyone romantically ever again.

Very protective and will keep you out of his 'darker' business, like the chamber and his followers and plans, wants to keep you innocent, to have something that isn't total darkness and evil. now if you're into that kinda thing he wont stop you, but he will keep you away from it all just in case.

Cold hands-will warm them up between your thighs-thick or not.

Has naturally curly hair, and only lets you see it-everyone else gets the polished hair gel look. it took him months to let you see it-but once you proclaim your love for his natural hair-he makes it a point to let you see/play with it before he puts his gel in/after he washes his hair at night.

can and will fall asleep on you, esp. if you're playing with his hair or scratching his scalp/neck, arms fully wrapped around you and konked out, very cute panther lookin ass.

steals ur pillows and switches it with his(he has good pillows and washes his bed sheets/pillow cases routinely)

mayhaps have stolen one of your blankets...you're not getting it back.

will help you do any homework you have trouble with, might even let you copy his homework for a price(wink wink fr this time)

by the end of 7th year, and you're still together, fully plans to buy a ring and marry you. no doubts about it.

[heretopasstime]

Ex-Boyfriend Childe // Angst-Fluff

                                              🦊       ─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───      🐳

Synopsis/TLDR: You meet your ex Ajax- CHILDE, and surprise!! He misses you :( and wants you back. 

Tag/s: Regret, Reader is gender-neutral, One-shot,  Bad-writing, English is not my first language, Reader is referred to as ‘you’, Reader misses him too and kinda awk, bad writing + Childe is ooc here lol, not proofread

Posting this one as it was dwelling in the drafts. Reader is called ‘’YOU

Credit/s:  @saradika (DIVIDER/S), GIF posted by @raidenei, emojicombo.com for sparkle text divider,  quillbot for helping with my english :), notesapp for helping me. Inspired by a character Ai interaction.

You two were lovers for a long time, but after facing some problematic behavior  you had finally decided to break up with Childe, and he still misses you oh so much. On one of your travels, you manage to spot him again, and he seems to notice you, walking in your direction with his characteristic smug smile.

"Well, hello there, my beloved comrade! It's been a long time since I last saw you."

Seeing him approach you, your shoulders square up and tense up.

"Hi there, Tartaglia."

 The way you say his name is so unfamiliar to him; endearments or his real name is what you usually called him before the breakup. Childe raises an eyebrow, his smile still on his face, almost as if he didn't get that it was sarcasm, and he could feel his heart beating fast. Just as he tries to act normal, his thoughts run at the speed of light. It's so hard for him to accept that his ex-girlfriend hates him so much now, and he never realized he was messing up everything.

You express a characteristic subtle smile as I tuck in a lose strand of hair.  Childe cant help but notice how you still kept it styled it in the same charming yet disheveled way you used too when we were still together. 

"I’m doing... somewhat okay,"

 you confess, trying your best to sound composed and well-oriented. Trying your absolute best to not reveal the mess that you so clearly are and haven't really changed

 "Are you sure, Малыш ?" 

He lets out the last word, with a small pause between ‘Малыш’, and his tone of voice is a mix of sarcasm and a hint of genuine care for you. The way he looks at you, he seems to still have those feelings for you, but his dignity stops him from begging for forgiveness or begging you to date him again.

 Your eyes widen at the ever so familiar term of endearment, from a past that almost feels like a distant memory. You purse your lips tightly, feeling a bit pressured as a hurricane of emotions stirs in my stomach.

"Hah, I haven't heard that in a while."

 You let out a breathy chuckle, meeting his yearning gaze with a look of longing for just a moment. Looking away quickly as even as pleasing as it is it felt almost wrong to see such a desperate, pained expression on his face.

 He stops for a moment, looking at your expression, and takes a deep breath.

"Listen, I don't know if you still have any feelings for me, but if you do, please. Give me one last chance to show you I can change, that I can be better, and that I can make you feel loved again. I promise you."

His voice sounded both desperate and resolute, resolute to have one last try with the one he still loves.

“So please--”

"How can I be sure that my heart won't be broken into pieces again? I broke things off for a reason, Aja-.. Childe?"

  Whoops. Almost said his real name as you expressed your own reasonable distrust towards his confession.

Childe is the name of the man you wanted to leave, the man who kept you unaware of his real job and whom you was foolish enough to love and still love as he is apart of him. Ajax, the man you yearn for even after leaving him. His subtle, gentle touches and somewhat annoying personality as a lover kept you engaged and happy. The real problem was whether he was even himself when he was with you. As lying is the only constant trait shared between the two personalities you had named.

 "I swear." He looks at you in the eyes with a resolute expression; he wants to make you believe in his word. "I promise I will not mess this up again. I will be more honest, and I will do my best to make you feel loved again."

He puts one of his hands on top of your hands, a warm smile on his face, but there's something in his eyes. He looks a bit... afraid. He is afraid to mess up again, but he knows he has to prove himself to you to have you back.

 At the touch of his hand against your own, you cant help yourself as your body noticeably and instinctively relaxes. A soft blush appears on your cheeks as you hear his words, listening keenly.

"Why do you even want to get back together again?" Looking up into his ocean blue eyes, mindless and yet deep in a way it carries many memories of us together. Your voice pleads out for answers, in near desperation as your own eyes widens and doe's in the oh so familiar way that makes him melt.

 "Because I'm an absolute stubborn brash idiot, " he says softly and with a smile, his eyes full of affection for you, his whole body relaxed, a soft smile on his face. "And you are the only one who knows how to handle me , the only one that can make me happy." His eyes were shiny, with almost a tear in the corner of his eye. He still had that fear of messing up again, even if he was trying his best to calm you and convince you that you could trust in him again.

 Your body tenses, and your grip tightens as you almost pull away from his touch.

"That reason is so fickle; there's no depth to it." I bluntly admit in response that my eyes express a look of worry, as if I had my heart broken again. I wished for more layers rather than a simple "I love you'.

I had loved him to the moon and back. Even when I drowned in his ocean eyes, I never questioned it for so long. I had spent hours awake in the wee hours of the night, worried and anxious for his arrival. I had poured my heart and soul out, but I could not see the same resolve that I so wished to see within him.

 "Then what should I say?" He looked at you, looking like a kid that had been punished, with a sad expression on his face. "What more do I need to tell you so we can try one last time? Because I could say anything and I would do anything just to be with you, just to make you happy again." The sad expression, the sorrow on his face—it's all genuine; he was showing his true emotions, desperate to make his ex-girlfriend accept trying it one last time.

 I've always had to help him clearly express his emotions; it was once a benefit when we were together, but when it came to it, I was the only one who truly understood what he was feeling. I want to chuckle to remind him of the similarities in behavior he still has, but alas, it just comes out as a sad smile.

I lightly grasped his larger, roughened hands in my dainty, smaller ones; the size difference always made him melt.

"Tell me all, what your life has been like without me. Then I shall decide."

I respond; my request is serious yet gentle. I'm asking him to confess and admit his worries. It'll reveal to me the truth—the truth that I long for and seek after.

 "Without you, I felt like I missed something. I missed coming home and having someone I could hug or kiss. I miss everything we used to do together. Not only that, but without you, I feel empty. It's like nothing has meaning or color anymore. It's like everything is gray without the colors. It's like every emotion, every joy, every happiness, it's just gone." His voice sounded a bit hoarse; he was trying to control the tears. His emotions were sincere.

 He looks at you and takes a deep breath. "Without you, I feel like I'm just going without a real purpose." Every morning I stay longer in bed because I'm not excited to start my day, and I just spend most of the day wondering how and if I can go on. I can feel your absence in my life.” “Not only that, I miss our small talks and moments together, or the more personal moments. I miss them all." He seems to blush a bit. "And every day without you feels like an eternity."

 "Please, my love, I can't go on without you; you are my life, you are my reason to live, and you are the only one that makes my days worth it. I cannot imagine my life without you; you are the most important person to me, and I would do anything to keep you by my side, just to see and touch you again." He starts to cry; it wasn't fake tears or just acting; his sobs come from deep within his heart; he cried out of a raw desperation.

 Seeing him cry makes my heart ache and melt, and as if it were instinct, You hug him tightly. Letting his face reach, touch, and smell your hair . You’re arms wrap around his waist to hold him close, and his head lies on his chest as you hug him close to comfort him and even myself.

 He closes his eyes. His whole body starts to tremble as his heart and mind are overcome with emotions. "You are the most precious thing I've ever had in my life." Please accept to give me another chance. I promise I'll do anything, I'll be better, and I'll make you so happy. And I promise I'll never make you cry or feel sad again." A few tears fall from his face; some get lost in his hair. His breathing starts to get heavy as he seems to be on the verge of a panic attack.

 You gaze up at him, your chin resting on his chest, looking at his expression. Once you hear and feel his quickened pace of breath and heartbeat through his chest,  you don't even hesitate as your hand makes its way to his face, wiping away the tears ever so gently.

you’re expression is soft and sympathetic as  you caress his face and tuck away any of his ginger hair that's askew. You can't help but look in somewhat awe at his beautiful collection of freckles adorning his cheeks and nose, the same pattern  you kissed to no end. His eyelashes were long, and now they were dewy from the tears. Complimented by the light blush adorning his cheeks. Even in tears,  you can't believe such a man as enchanting exists.

Your body straightens, and as your feet raise to the tip of my toes, you take a deep breath and kiss him.

  Childe’s body tenses in surprise at your sudden attempt to kiss him; his eyes are wide open but his lips are closed; his heart beats at full speed; and his breathing gets heavier. His eyes close automatically, and he kisses you back, with a deep passion and desire in his kiss. His arms wrap around you, his hands gently grasping your waist, pulling you closer to him as he kisses you back. He seems to show his whole love and affection in those few seconds of intense romantic passion.

[boypussydilf]

FaC Miniseries really be out here saying, "Simon, you might be a suicidal man who would give his own life and brain for a pair of strangers that resemble a part of the traumatic past that ruined your life, but consider: you were selfish in your past relationship because you didn't consider your girlfriend enough and now that she sacrificed herself to become God for you you aren't allowed to die because that would make her sacrifice be in vain. You have to continue living in a world that you no longer relate to with people who will continue to deadname you and bring up your traumatic past for funzies and you aren't even allowed to reconciliate with your daughter or other closest friends because they have a happy life without you bumming them out with your depression and we wouldn't want you to burden them with your feelings of uselessness and crippling lack of self worth now would we? Now go hang out with a literal child you 59+ year old man, you have therapy in an hour."

hey i wanna point out that cripple is like. a slur a lot of ppl still use it in this kind of context w/o thinking but u can just say like, debilitating instead theres not any reason to use it

ik its just like habit tho bc its still kinda common so to respond to the ask ,

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They just could NOT be assed to resolve or address any of his emotional issues huh!!!!!!!! Yeah Simon, we know you think you suck, and you are suicidally depressed, and you are traumatized from both living through the apocalypse and spending a thousand years trapped under a curse, and the world changed without you so you now feel fundamentally out of place, can’t relate to people around you, and none of your skills are applicable anymore, and you are being crushed under the guilt of the love of your life making an unfathomably giant sacrifice to save you, and you wanted to see her again and apologize for not being able to bring her back so so badly that you were willing to kidnap a guy and keep him in a cage in your house for it, and you feel absolutely no sense of purpose in your life and have nothing to do anymore, but like, we have a really really great idea for how we’re gonna deal with that: we WON’T! We just Won’t Address It. You get to mention how you were willing to basically die because you felt like your life was worthless ONE time, and it will be after you regain the will to LIVE because you… got… told that you fucked everything up with your fiancé because you were apparently super selfish on accident? Now you’re just gonna go back home and be happy now. No yeah nothing changed in either your life or your mental state but we have to pretend it did because the story is over now. Your happy ending montage will casually feature you happily drinking at the bar. Don’t think about episode 4. Oh huh what’s that? What about your daughter figure who you felt you weren’t important to and would just be burdening and worrying with your difficult emotions, which seemed to be leading to you choosing to have a genuine and honest talk with her in the end? No she doesn’t even get mentioned, let alone show up on screen. Also Betty may or may not be dead. Yeah now that she cured your depression by telling you you fucked up she’s moving on with her life or something by which we may or may not mean reincarnating. Yeah we might have fridged her. Happy ending for everyone!

the therapy scene hits a special nerve like good for him but oh my god. i cant actually think of any other examples, but i feel like ive seen too many things decide that the way to portray healing as a difficult nonlinear thing is to. directly state “This is going to be complicated and hard!” and then not actually show it being complicated or hard now that they’ve acknowledged it. like dude all we actually see in that ending is just him being happy. you really made it seem like he is just Fine now. guys. guys what happened to his everything

[spacedlexi]

I totally get your point about the kenny/Jane thing. In my opinion the best outcome is letting Kenny kill Jane (honestly Jane brought that to herself, all of them knew that if he lost someone else he would finally go ballistic and she deliberately put him on that spot to prove "a point") and then staying in Wellington, because Kenny acknowledges that he's not fit enough to care for her and AJ anymore, so he begs Clem to stay. He's aware that he's not right for the job, and he accomplished his mission, he stayed loyal to Lee and left. It also gives the opportunity to speculate whether he finally found peace after all his suffering. (Even if the original idea was him offing himself in the Virginia lake after that)

i always find myself struggling to talk about S2 because i know the writers changed direction (multiple times?) as the season was releasing??? which means character arcs and motivations were altered to fit this new direction and its like painfully obvious sometimes especially when it comes to kenny and jane and luke

i hate when writers cant commit to the bit. and that kind of happens with kenny. which is weird because even tho they decided against him literally being carvers character (which wouldve worked perfectly for a luke v kenny ending), they still try to give him that carver storyline. like.. i could see kenny easily being in carvers position at howes. just like lilly in S4 with the delta. these two characters wanted leadership and never liked any pushback from the people around them. i can also see the kenny we knew from S1 turning into a man like carver in S2 (a dude who has lost a lot and whose methods are becoming more extreme to keep people safe) and i think kenny being carver instead wouldve made carver a much deeper and more interesting antagonist. like carver is fine. he works although his beef with this 11yo is weird. but we dont buy it when bonnie tells us he used to be a cool guy. we've only ever seen carver as a murderer. but if it was kenny in this role then immediately we add a lot of baggage to this character and his relationship with clem and her new relationship with the howes group. like we know kenny and we know what hes capable of but we also understand his motivations and we do believe that deep down kenny does want whats best to keep his people safe. and clem reappearing in the life of THIS kenny wouldve been Huge as he wouldve already begun his descent and clem is the only one who can really get through to him (like they still try to do when all the adults are like "uuuh clem you go talk to the angry man theres no way he'll listen to US"). i think they were afraid of making kenny an outright antagonist though and instead tried to have their cake and eat it too which just kinda...leads to mess... commit to your characters dark spirals and downfalls i hate this wishy washy bullshit. plus having kenny as carver instead wouldve centered clem in the howes discussion more. as it stands she just kinda gets swept up in everyone elses bullshit and just has to go along with it. classic child experience tho

jane pretending that aj was dead to intentionally push kenny over the edge just to "prove" to clem that hes dangerous was SOOOOO unnecessary jane!!! like we know girl!! we know!!! and when he tries to kill her for it its like...i know you saw this coming jane so how did you expect this to end?? was she just hoping she'd win the fight? she even tells clem to stay out of whatever was about to happen (plus she does genuinely put ajs life in real danger by leaving him in that car where they were lucky to hear his cries). but i think this problem stems from them changing it out from being a luke v kenny showdown. i think that ending wouldve culminated more naturally as their beef was slowly building since they first met. disagreement in leadership styles. that silly little middle school "choose who to sit with at dinner" thing felt like foreshadowing of a luke v kenny fight that just never happened. they needed to create a reason for kenny to attack jane as jane doesnt care about leadership she cares about keeping herself safe so the whole aj thing just....feels forced. like... jane why....Why........ where did your self preservation go...its like your whole character...

so...yeah.... i have a lot of conflicting feelings about S2 and its ending. on my recent playthrough i had clem tell kenny that maybe lee Shouldnt have come to save her in S1, trying to be all "boo hoo im so sad i get everyone i love killed boo hoo" and kenny responds by saying he should SMACK her for that???? i was so shocked that i missed taking the screenshot of it. i gasped audibly... turned into a "matter of time" situation for me (even tho things seem fine enough in the S3 flashbacks hes weirdly normal again and still talking about boats). kenny is definitely a broken man hanging on by a Singular Thread by the end of S2 and jane snaps it. this is why i like leaving kenny behind at wellington. clem and aj are definitely the light of his life at this point and he wants whats best for them. leaving them at wellington is really the best thing he can do for them both and its very sad because we know he Needs them. and clem would want to hold onto whoever she has left so its hard for her too. throughout all the seasons clem and aj are seen as the light in the darkness the hope for the future yadda yadda and kenny losing that? yeah i can see why the virginia lake idea was a thing. but thats ALSO why i like the clem shoots kenny ending. this man just wants it to be over he misses his family so much he cant take this shit anymore. staying with kenny into S3 really feels like we're stretching out his character as far as possible. it kinda feels like they hit the reset button on him and hes back to talking about boats. i feel like post S2 they just didnt really know what to do with him or jane. i feel like their endings in S2 are the most narratively fulfilling for their characters and i want clem to enter S3 on her own

[aita-blorbos]

(another oc/rp group thing… heh. assuming my friends will see this, I am so Sorry <33) (sorry if there’s too much colored text btw, I can send another ask without it if needed)

AITA for being, weird, I guess ?

so I (?? ??) am a god. pretty much. I guess im god’s friend but I still have, immense power, or something!!!! anyway there’s this one mortal guy, ok? (adult, he/him) now this guy. He’s a fucking loser. a real fuckup of a man. but unfortunately for both of us. I really like him.

it was kinda funny actually. i kept anonymously flirting with him to boost his ego and whatnot and for fun, plus doing that lets me pretend it’s ironic. id also openly chat with him a bit, but not like that. so he knows me, and then he knows this weird anonymous person—I don’t think he thought the flirting was genuine, though, seemed like it was joking. I, did absolutely fucking not want him to find out it was me, for the sake of my nonexistent reputation.

but then.

THEN I had an opportunity. he is fucking high. as im anonymous again, being weird, he threatens to stab me, I joke that I want him to (“promise??” typa thing, yeah?) i probably wasn’t joking . I keep pushing, so does he! he says he will do it.

so, I do something stupid! I take off that mask and I say id like to see him try! because he knows, I am a god, he wouldn’t try it.

I think it freaked him out, hehe~ !!!

so. what comes next, hahahahahahahah, isn’t important but uhhhh later i was being uncomfortable again and told him to get on his knees and beg and it was a whole thing and, long story short, he hated me!!!!

that was short lived since I made it very clear I wouldnt leave him alone. because he CANT LEAVE ME!! HE DOESNT HAVE A CHOICE. and I need him. I wouldn’t let him leave. so, he had to accept it!!!!!

soooooo, we are chill enoughhhhh, for a while, until I was bored and decided to be weird again! not just, romantic weird, I think this went beyond flirting hahahah.. and it made him!! very uncomfortable!! so OBVIOUSLY I kept doing it! (for the record, this is all contained within tumblr asks!!) then he started to ignore me so it wouldn’t, matter, but then!! THEN!!!! it got interesting! he was mad at me!

really mad at me.

long story short he told me to, die!! A lot!!!!!! he was very loud about it as well!! it was funny. ..and kind of attractive, in fact.

we’re, chill enough once again now, and I’ve been more normal, for his sake! my shenanigans continue, but I am being ““respectful”” from now on! however, though I don’t regret it at all,

aita ?

[mothlover69]

I DEMAND LEON KENNEDY SELF SHIP LORE!!!

(I don't know anything about Resident Evil other than what my brother's told me but I'm genuinely curious.)

AAA def using this ask as an excuse to talk about how we get together ❤️

Going under the cut cuz it got away from me

I meet him at a bar when im like 21 or 22 and hes around 43/44 cuz that is definitely where that man spends a majority of his time when hes not on missions. We get to talking, he buys me drinks, he thinks im cute but he can tell im pretty young compared to him. He honestly feels kinda guilty for being attracted to me

He gets a couple drinks in and starts flirting. Obviously i flirt back. But nothing happens that night and we go our separate ways

One day, couple weeks later, im out running errands or something. The suns starting to set, im walking home, and there's not that many people around. Some asshole catcalls me, i flip him off, like i usually do. But i guess i have really bad luck that day because this guy decides to pull over and get out of his car. He starts following me, yelling something about how hes gonna kill me. I start walking faster, hoping to get to the next block where i know there'll be more people.

Suddenly, someone else appears next to me. I was so focused on the guy following me and trying to, like, survive that i dont see where they came from.

Oh my god you'll never guess who it is. Yeah, it's Leon.

Since there's now a big, buff man carrying a gun next to me, and we clearly know each other, the guy following me suddenly doesn't seem too keen to keep threatening me. But Leon still turns to him with a cold expression and asks him what he thinks he's doing.

Dude takes one look at him and just turns and books it.

Leon asks if im okay and then walks me home. He figures he should probably leave, but he asks if i want him to stick around for a bit 'just to be safe'. Really, he just cant help but want to spend more time with me. Even if he feels like he shouldnt.

I accidentally triggered his savior complex and now he wants me even more

Obviously, I say yes. Hot older guy that just saved my ass wants to hang out for a bit? Literal dream come true

At first we just talk. He's funny, and we keep making each other laugh. But the more time we spend with each other, the more the tension grows

His self control keeps getting thinner and then the two of us are unconsciously leaning towards each other while we talk. He makes some kind of teasing remark that makes me pout at him and suddenly he cant take it anymore. He grabs my face and kisses me

Im ecstatic, enthusiastically kissing him back until he pulls away with a flushed face and dark eyes

He tells me that we shouldnt do this, that hes so much older than me, and i tell him hes being stupid. Making a big deal out of nothing. And he looks so guilty, torn between his desire for me and his desire to be an honorable man that doesnt sleep with someone half his age

It doesnt take much to convince him to give in. And then im on his lap and we're making out again

He spends the night. I make him breakfast the next day because with those abs he must be starving. I tell a bad joke and he cracks up and seeing me in the morning sunlight that streams through the window... he does not want this to be a one time thing. He doesn't want to be without me

So after breakfast he asks me on a proper date, and apologizes for not doing so before. Formally asks me to be his partner. Of course i say yes

And the rest is history

Anyway..

But yeah, my s/i is a normal citizen that doesnt have anything to do with the actualy resident evil lore. I dont fight BOWs, i dont work for the DSO, im separate from all of that. And Leon really appreciates having something important in his life thats.. normal. Im something stable and soft for him to come home to. The thought of me is what keeps him strong when hes off on his missions.

Oh i got sappy good bye o////o

[onthegreatsea]

my friend built a tiny itx based PC and its so so SO cute and i've always wanted to make a htpc or something but never had a reason to and so i've just been obsessing over this idea for weeks now but still cant even decide on a cpu. or a case. or what im even going to use it for.

also goddamn smaller parts are expensive

itx goes as far back as LGA 775 which is crazy. I'd love to make a tiny Win XP machine but for gaming in that era you really need a GPU *and* soundcard and obv itx boards dont have PCI slots so... probably wont do that

a small and compact NAS for Plex would be super useful. something low powered so i dont have to turn on my main, power hungry, PC just to watch something on the TV in the other room.

but also thats kinda boring on its own...so switch emulation? PS3 too.

but man theres like no good case options for a NAS that also can hold a normal sized GPU. single slots/low profile are cute and all but holy shit the prices.

actually theres like no good case options in general

i've only managed to find two cases i genuinely like and i've looked at hundreds and hundreds already.

i'm half considering doing a console case mod honestly. wouldnt wanna do it in a console i already own but i like how the (white) Xbox One's look. but then thats a whole bunch of work getting it to all fit and not overheat like crazy (and, again, the itx tax).. but it would be a fun project

...and i *still* havent even found a proper case for my Win 98 machine

[nnugatoryextravagance]

also actually sludge. im kinda curious now about onycraft in general

Grabbing youj and shaking you b y the shoulders god bless I owe you my life I love LOVE telling people about my boy

Onycraft is my oldest oc (11 at the time of typing this) and I have been insane about him for that entire period of time so this is gonna be a big post because being concise is the devil (I am genuinely so awful at it) so enjoy this read more buffer for convenience because I am so full of words

Onycraft is a very, weird character to put it bluntly even for me LOL, I was gonna say he doesn't look like it from the outside but that's also a lie he absolutely does.

He was an incredibly dangerous Thingy made in a lab who isn't fully capable of realizing how much he is both just by default and because not even his creators know, that and also because his brain was fried out by that one time he was put in the electric chair for but dw about that, the most intense thing hes ever done in that regard was going into such a catastrophic mental breakdown he proceeded to turn into an eldritch mass for a short period but just long enough to blow a hole through the fucking moon (hence the failed execution thing after he turned back, hes fine)

Regardless of that though and the whole, regularly breaks the laws of his reality by just existing thing, being functionally immortal also has made him extremely impulsive and reckless, tldr he's very good at dying! But he doesn't mind it, he's very selfless too since he knows he can take a lot more hits that other people cant- usually very literally. He cares a LOT about those close to him to a fault and his friends and family are always his top priority, even if he is a goddamn menace to them sometimes, he's a big ol softie if you manage to crack his shell open.

Despite his previous severe brain injuries he is incredibly smart too, even if it seems very off and on from the outside, he's very gifted with technology (mostly from having to repair the mechanical parts of himself so often his whole life) and is also a Huge Nerd (do not ask him about sciencey shit you will be kept there forever). Much to his frustration though those brain injuries also have impaired his ability to do a Lot of things, most severely has been reading and a lot of his fine motor skills. TLDR he built his own personal spaceship but he can barely read the instructions on the back of most food packages.

I am so very normal about this man I could absolutely keep going but I keep spacing out really bad while typing this so I'm gonna have to scruff myself here LOL, I dont mind any further questions though teehee I love talking about this ugly little beast so much hehe

I wanted to include a funny image of him here but Tumblr decided to break my shit so hard for some reason and I CANT so pretend I did here

[wolfstrong]

season 6 thoughts and reflections lets go baby

I'd just like to start out by saying this last like 2 months I've been watching season 6 have been like the craziest of my life, like I graduated college and I'm now living on a farm on the opposite side of the country, so like my recollection of this season isn't the best. AND ALSO this season was sooooo all over the place so its fitting I guess.

Okay, I'm not gonna be the first person to say this but season 6 was uhhhhh kinda weird guys! But I can proudly say I didn't hate it. there were PARTS of it I hated very very deeply. but overall I think there was some real good in it. This season did not have so much of an overarching plot, it had like SEVERAL plots going on. I think this maybe could have been done well but it wasn't. PLOT NUMBER ONE: buffy comes back wrong which makes her have sex with spike. I honestly HATED this. every Spuffy conversation was the exact same thing in this season and it all went NOWHERE. i swear every episode they would have the most word salad nonsensical conversation that always went pretty much like Buffy saying that despite having sex with him she hates spike and then spike responding like "whhhatttt no that cant be true". Ugh I was seriously so sick of it. When we learn that Buffy went to heaven after she died and actually DIDN'T want to come back that was like a really interesting direction to take things. but then they like kinda did nothing with that other then like Buffy being depressed all the time. Which is fine but like don't you think this leaves great potential for Buffy to relearn why the world is awesome? shouldn't this have created great great drama between her and Willow, the person who brought there back? they like slightly tried to work with these things but also didn't. and instead focused soooo much time on spuffy. like okay. PLOT NUMBER TWO: Xander and Anya divorce arc. I actually liked this plot point honestly. It was a very interesting exploration of both their characters and I feel like it made them both feel real. I liked Xanders nervousness leading up to the wedding and Anyas sort of ignorance in thinking they were gonna live happily ever after even tho we as the audience know that things will not end well. And I liked when Anya slept with Spike, it was just the kinda good drama you can really get into. PLOT NUMBER THREE: Willows magic addiction. I don't know this really could have been something. like it was so close to not being incredibly stupid but then it was. The issue is they decided half way through to treat her drug addiction like it was 1 to 1 a drug addiction which literally made like. no sense. Willow does not seem like the type to ever get into like heroin or something. I feel like the reason a lot of people to drugs is for the escape, but Willow was actually in a somewhat stable and happy place in her life? what makes much much more sense and what they almost did was have her addicted to the POWER that comes with magic. like this is good and real and not stupid. and they kinda did this but they also kind of had it be a drug thing? also this arc kinda culminated in Tara dying and therefore I hate it by default. PLOT NUMBER FOUR: whatever the fuck was going on with the trio. I thought this was funny and good honestly. I like the trio and villains because its like. not every evil is a supernatural demon. sometimes the most evil forced in the world are stupid virgin loser nerd guys. and like brother that is so true. in real life incel men ARE some of the most deeply evil and horrible people you will ever meet. So I'm glad they went there and also the trio just was genuinely funny in a sit com big bang theory type of way.

Also i just have to say, Giles leaving was REALLLYYYY a major hit to the show and a driving factor of why it wasn't as good. I really felt his absence, sure since season 3 he hasn't had so much to do, but the group NEEDS him. he's like the straight man/ responsible adult and person who puts a end to the lame bullshit. idk he's just the anchor of the whole show i think, he keeps the thing grounded. and without him we were just floating about nonsensically. And while I'm being a hater, I think the dialogue in this season was just awful. I have a lot of thoughts on "buffy speak" and how it can actually be really great if done correctly. in this season, it was done badly. it was way too much and all of the time and just plain stupid. oh and also, THIS IS THE SEASON WHERE AMY GETS UNRATTED. which is awesome if you are me specifically, so shout out to that plot point. I'm trying to think of something else positive to say about this season but uh, I really can't. Okay I suppose what I can say is that it had potential. Like it could have been really interesting, and I can imagine a version of it in my head, with a few tweaks, that would actually be great. I won't even say it was almost there, it was far from there, but that's almost better I think. If something is really close to being great and they fumble it, that's usually like, way worse. but If its bad enough, then its like kinda camp. And by the end of it, this season truly was camp. I hate dark willow, I think it's stupid as hell, but when Dark Willow and Giles started to have a Super Saiyan anime type battle of magic, that was lowkey iconic. like fuck it, remember the nerdy girl and old man librarian from season 1? well they are both shooting at each other with beams of light now and destroying the whole damn building. That's camp bitch, they truly didn't give a fuck anymore. Oh, and of course, as a Willow and Xander best friend forever applicator I love the resolution of the finale. Like literally love and friendship saved the whole entire world, bitch. OKAY

EPISODES I LIKE:

All The Way: I just love Dawnie so a Dawn centric episode yessssssss and I just love to see her be such a angsty teenager while also being a huge dork cuz all 15 year olds are just like that. This episode had such early season energy and I love that

Once more with feeling: duhhhhh okay duh. DUHHH.

Tabula Rasa: oh boy this episode. its sooooooo its SOOOOO. like i busted a gut laughing and then it just ended SO TERRIBLY. but whatever I can still appreciate the hijinx of everyone losing their memory

Double Meat Palace: literally iconic and genuinely good I don't care what anyone says. GREAT atmospheric episode that genuinely gave me chills are points. THIS EPISODE WAS GREAT AND NOT EVEN THAT STUPID YALL JUST DONT GET IT. its literally about the horror of mediocrity and excepting that you'll never be anything more then a cog in the machine

Hell's Bells: SOOOO much in this episode. SOOO MUCH. like some truly funny bits and some things that are just gut-wrenching. It's like such a train wreck but like if a train full of clowns is what got wrecked.

Entropy: iconic freak media. And I love Anya okay.

Worst episodes:

Wrecked: the downfall of the season, the moment I realized that all my hopes and dreams for the plots they were setting up were going absolutely no where. and Spike and Buffy fucking so hard they break down an entire house is DUMBBBBBB

Gone: wtf even was this episode. BUFFY ACTS SOOOO FUCKING OOC HERE IT"S INSANE. i hated watching this actually it was bad

As You Were: to be honest with you, this one is SOOOOO bad that it's almost iconic. Like this has to actually be the worst episode of BTVS I have ever seen. I didn't even feel like I was watching btvs in this moment, it felt like some other horrible show. but like its Riley man. it's literally the episode where Riley comes back and I expect none the less.

Characters:

No one new to talk about other then the trio, who I said I really liked. I'm glad to hear Andrew will be in season 7 cuz I think he's great. It's funny that the show is like. he's very obviously supposed to be closeted but we aren't gonna say anything about it cuz if we did then we can't be homophobic to him. Also everyone is sleeping on the trio toxic yaoi which is literally canon. its so canon and no one cares. literally that scene where Andrew is crying after Warren ditched him and hes like "I though he loved... hanging out with me!" (obviously about to say "I thought he loved me") like Andrew being Warrens little minion cuz he was in closeted gay love with him when his boy Johnathan was there for him all along,,, who he was really meant to be with... guys the angest the hurt comfort the. I'm not insane listen to me get back here.

ANYWAY. season 6! yayyyy!

[emlos]

Why your boss needs to know? Seems kinda too personal. Isn't there a law forbiding this?

ahh its so complicated [this is the summary of my year so far]

i work in germany and almost all of it is going through my union

im not a student OR an employee per se im a "dual student" so i have an apprenticeship and full time university, but that also mean that i have a contract

i also work at a huge fuckoff car corporation. like HUGE huge

the contract specifies that i HAVE to finish uni in the 3.5 years/7 semesters and that our boss, "ausbilder", which is more like a trainer or mentor to a degree, has to know our exam situation. also if my place of work decides my grades are ass they CAN fire me

i am. very non-functional and depressed and i have a host of other problems and i failed literally more than half of my exams and i had to explain it to my boss

germany has a different attitude towards labor than america, especially the way apprentices are approached -> were worth a lot of money to them so they try to keep us as hard as they can

so i did what my union actually advised me, and i told my boss that i have health issues, and i had a breakdown in front of him by accident, and he asked me like. if im going to a psychiatrist and i was honest "hey yeah theres no way i can make finish uni in 7 semesters"

so he suggested getting an extension on my contract, for an extra semester, but id have to go to the psychiatrist for it since a qualified opinion and diagnosis AND treatment is necessary for them to allow the extension

so uh. the next time he called to check up on me (hes really quite nice, also he told me his son was dealing with it too), i lied and said "ofc im in therapy and im doing great :D" i was doing neither and i just pulled a psychiatrist outta my ass. all that because i am the #stereotypical millenial that gets an panic attack when calling on the phone

i lived in awful stress of the lie, the mounting uni work that i DID NOT STUDY FOR AT ALL and the fact that i havent organized some work meetings i was supposed to have after the semester ended, which is like. uber important

and like. its so embarrassing but it genuinely made my life hell. ive been self harming a lot and like. talking to people and i genuinley feel like im falling apart

i also havent really cleaned my room or my kitchen the past few months and ive been subsisting mainly on junk food and like. alcohol (also i slipped into my old ed AND i tried to kill myself. also i have a problem with alcohol recently). so like. NOT GOOD LMAO

so when he told me "hey! whats up, can we talk about how ur doing?" i KNEW i couldnt keep the lie going, like. there was nowhere to go. i couldnt get an extension on the contract since im not really in therapy and i cant get a place at such short notice, and my uni exams are in a week and i havent studied for them

so i just. told him the truth. i told him about the lie and how embarrassing it was for me to not be able to call, and i told him i cant keep the uni going and i just want to have at least a finished ausbildung. and jesus christ is he a nice man, my boss

so now im officially switching from "duales studium" to "ausbildung" meaning i wont have a degree but i will have a qualified job title which for an IT guy is worth almost as much

so uh. i guess crisis averted or i lucked out with my employer fr

anyway this is gonna feel like nothing in a few years, and i wont even remember it, but GOD this was the worst 6 months of my lfie

[irlkanamedate]

The current state of my mental health.

Gonna be real honest right off the bat. Its bad. You guys know its been bad but I mean its real bad right now.

Im a mess and it won't make any real sense i dont think so read or not, its under a cut.

[Suicidal, eating disorder, just in general bad shit I guess]

Its been months of feeling worse and worse and feeling utterly hopeless and lost. Months of constant bullshit from either my brain, my living situation, my fucking financial situation, or whatever else decides to come by and ruin what I thought was things getting better.

I find myself once again falling back into the delusional spiral because I'm having a harder and harder time regulating my emotions and mental state and if I had ever been mean or snippy or just awful to you guys, I am genuinely sorry. I dont even remember a lot of this shit I did cause my visual timeline of things have been cut so much due to just being in this black fog of self loathing.

And maybe it is my own fault for self sabotaging and dipping from so many things. Ruining friendships and all idk. Hell i can't even bring myself to actually talk to a lot of you guys cause im just so... fucking lost.

Constantly torn between multiple different sorts of realities in my brain and being too much in a constant bad mood to feel comfortable engaging or I might say something bad or be snippy so I just run away from it again and again.

I am just some kind of burden to you guys in my own mind. Some kinda burden to my own family. Just some hopeless directionless corpse that genuinely feels like I have made no real impact to anyone. And it isnt any of your faults. I know this isn't really... true. But its such an active hard struggle to fight against this pure delusional thought that I get so tired.

I get so tired trying to just... remind myself over and over. And then my brain fight back going like "if it isnt true then why are you the only one saying it? Where is your proof?" Or pulling some other bullshit move to make me believe this false reality.

Im so tired guys. But I hate being a burden. You guys say I'm not some times but I can't stop feeling like one.

Im not saying this or ever do anything to make you guys shower me in affection and love. I never want to manipulate that sort of thing. I never intend to. But sometimes I think I do it subconsciously cause im just fucking blinded by so much shit.

I cant help but think how much I might actually be a horrible person.

Especially when I want to be mad. I want to get angry. I want to lash out. But I know its often unreasonable. But fuck when I try to be reasonable and hold back and try to be mature I still get a fucking shit result.

I dont know what to do.

I feel like everything is always and has always been my fault. My fault always my fucking fault. It's my fault I can't make decisions. My fault im a people pleaser. My fault I got assaulted. My fault I am poor.

I stopped eating cause I believed it could help my mom if she didn't have to feed mr along with that fucking bastard but here I am spending money on non essentials cause it made me happy.

But nothing really makes me happy in the end does it?

Im still here. Shit living situation, poor as shit, unable to hold a job due to multiple reasons. Unable to get proper medical care. Unable to truely be the fucking man I want to be. Unable to express anything properly and truely.

Im suicidal as shit. I made promises to many people I wont do it. And I still won't. But because guilt is whats keeping me here really.

I do love all my friends so much. I appriciate so much of what you guys do for me. And im so angry and upset I can't always see that cause my brain is so hell bent on killing me.

So I just feel guilty all the time. That I still feel like fucking shit even though I get love and care. I feel guilty for asking for things. Feel guilty for taking up space, for needing things, for just being alive but also feeling guilty for wanting to die all the time now. But I can't kill myself cause I feel guilty for breaking promises and making people sad. But I feel guilty for expressing just how bad I am cause that makes people sad.

Im stuck here by guilt and I dont know how to change that so I just feel worse and worse and worse. I cant eat but I try to eat a little so I dont make people feel too bad but I hate eating.

I dont know. I just dont know anymore.

I cant see any real future for me. I just can't.

And so im just... stuck here. Just existing day by day. Silently hoping one day I just never wake up again. Cause then I didnt make that choice. Something or someone else did for me. And I wont have to feel that guilty. Or something. Or at all cause I wasn't really awake. I dont know.

Im sorry. I'm just not ok. And this isnt even all of it i dont think but im just... so tired.

I am so tired guys.

[pupkinpumpkin]

*LONG INHALE*

DaO: Alistair. I WAS gonna romance Leliana my first time, but Alistair was super funny and he was very sweet in the way he flirted so I was like, why not? Maybe I'll end up liking him in the end (spoilers: I never did, I personally see him in a brotherly way). So I romanced him as Surana, and I made him stay a warden bc he wasn't happy as a king right? Well that funny little fade quest in Inquisition happened and I decided I was going to leave Alistair behind bc I just cared about my Hawke too much, but he started saying shit like "Oh I can't wait to be back with the love of my life and we'll finally be together and no one can tear us apart" and UGHHH FUCK, so after some deliberation, I left Hawke but that felt horrible, so I decided to make my canon HoF a Cousland so Alistair and Hawke DONT FUCKING DIE ON ME and he can still be happy as king with my Cousland besides him as queen

Da2: Anders. Honestly, no one in Da2 was my type, so I chose Anders because he was the most narratively intriguing one as a non mage. I'm personally not a fan of his romance path because most of it is " Are you sure are you sure are you sure are you sure I love you Are you sure?" Which I understand, but kinda gets me down. He does have some really sweet lines tho like

"No mage I've known has ever dared to fall in love. This is the rule I will most cherish breaking." That's pretty rad.

I also like the equally sweet but also slightly disturbing,

"I would cover us in blood to protect you"

But ya, I think the narrative parallels to Leandra leaving a life of wealth and fame for an apostate mage (Malcolm) and Hawke leaving her life as champion and the wealth that almost doomed her sister (until Anders helped) to be with Anders is super rad. Plus like, Hawke literally CANT kill Anders in the end. She blames all the deaths and failures in her family on herself, so to kill Anders, the man she loves, would completely break her. She does take awhile, probably a few years to fully trust him again while they're on the run

Dai: Cullen. He is the only person I have romanced that I am genuinely attracted to. I love men who are awkward and can't flirt. Plus, as someone who played Dai first, I think seeing where he is now in DAI and then going back and seeing his journey to being there is absolutely heartbreaking. I mean, he's done and been complicit in things that I can't justify and I won't, I'm aware of that, but in DAI he's trying so hard to work on himself. He complains when you ally with the mages, but he says he won't endanger your alliance. He knows how cruel he's been to mages unjustly and is trying to unlearn that prejudice that's been taught and reinforced to him. He also decides to give up lyrium! On his own! He only goes back to it if you specifically tell him to go back on it, but in the romanced route, you can ask him what HE wants and he tells you that he doesn't want to take it again. His nightmares are worse without lyrium and he gets headaches but he wants to become a better man and knows that if he can get off lyrium, then so can other Templars. He even starts a clinic in the post scenes of Trespasser! I understand why some people will never be able to forgive him, I do, and that's completely understandable, but I think his journey into being a better person is so beautiful and when you romance him, you don't fix him, because that's his journey, his task, but you're his rock. You're there for the highs and lows and you will stay by him no matter what comes. Some may see his romance and Cullen himself as vanilla and boring, but to me it's a romance of support for both Cullen and the Inquisitor as they lean on each other to deal with their burdens and trauma together (especially w my Inky's backstory, poor girl)

Also the first time I finished DAI I finally realized he has curly hair which is an absolute plus for me bc I am so attracted to people with curly or wavy hair oh my god

i’m really curious about who people romanced over the 3 dragon age games & why

here, i’ll go first:

da:o, alistair because he made me laugh

da2, fenris because i was a mage and by god i was going to make him love me

da:i, solas because some cruel god of love decided to play an awful trick on me by making me fall for him

[supermightyglue]

omgg im so obsessed with your jackass oc’s. i dont have a specific headcanon request but could you write more about a main cast girl?

yesssss yes !! & thank u sm that means the world <3 i have many more ideas and am gonna post actual headcanons and stuff but for now take this very random and very specific shit

her nickname is pissbaby. i have said it before but i must say it again so everyone is aware. she got it growing up and tbh there isn’t a real reason for it other than the fact that she has pissed herself a few times

went to the met gala with knox (was def invited before he was tho)

braids pontius’ hair a lot. does his hair in general. she’s good with hair styling nd even cuts her own

was the one to receive the off road tattoo

is always paired with knox (and tremaine sometimes) for press shit

has a lot of modeling/movie offers but tbh she just wants to skate and do stunts and travel and hang out with her guys

ik i said she cant cook but i changed my mind. cooking is lowkey her love language. she’s a vegetarian but doesn’t mind cooking meat if someone wants it. a long day filming? invites everyone over and cooks for them.

doesnt cook for herself tho. the queen of struggle meals. buys a lot of cereal

also always let’s ppl crash at her place. pontius is there a lot cuz the whole living in his van situation. he and steve were in her (iconic) cribz ep

present for most of the wildboyz trips even if she didn’t appear in the episode. she loves animals and traveling and learning about other cultures so it was like heaven for her

CRAZY stupid .. like, almost as bad as knoxville. she somehow was able to get in the bullpen and it scared the shit out of everyone (especially steve o)

honestly she doesn’t like fucking with animals and doesn’t wanna do anything to hurt them. she feels bad for certain things they do and regrets stressing them out

and she can be really sweet, but with animals? she is practically a different person. she turns into such a softie

has a few doggies. all rescues and with disabilities because she gets sad when people don’t want them

probably closest to the wildboyz, especially pontius. but knox too, and dunn <3

super fond of preston too. he’s so sweet and she can’t help but adore him

ppl swear either chris or pj is her soulmate (myself included nd i cant decide who pls help me)

always down for skate sessions

is sponsored by powell peralta (and is kinda at war with bam because he thinks his element sponsorship is better)

very fashionable. an it girl. (again, i picture her as devon aoki)

super scrappy and will fight a grown man

she knows how to fall because she’s a skater but she also has gotten some GNARLY injuries. usually to her head. always has bruises

knows first aid and she isn’t a medic obv but she has been SUPER helpful in certain situations

literally unable to drive, and yet, she drove for part of the gumball rally .. she managed to genuinely scare the guys. she doesn’t have her license for a reason.

one of those ppl who genuinely does not need deodorant but unfortunately the smell of jackass clings to her

has a lot of girl friends. she is a girl supremacist. we don’t blame her.

she can be really mean sometimes but most of it is on accident. she just doesn’t have a filter. the guys don’t really care tho, she fits in

ska music enthusiast. and a deadhead

so she doesn’t puke and doesn’t get grossed out HOWEVER she refuses to take part in that yucky shit. hell no. that’s what crosses the line.

once the guys collected a cup of their mixed sweat and poured it on her and she has never been so mad. like, she gets mad, she has a temper, but she lost her shit in a way that she never has before. made them turn off the camera. knoxville was the one to pour it—no one else was brave enough. tremaine was even on the fence about it. she ended up breaking knox’s nose. he was a good sport about it. they didn’t fuck with her in that way ever again

she can be kinda mean but it’s usually on accident cuz she has no filter. but for the most part the guys don’t give a fuck and it’s funny

interviewers and paps can be really really rude and sexist and the guys can’t help but get pissed and say stuff because they love her. BUT they also know that no one is better at defending her than she is. don’t fuck with her. ever. she will practically end someone’s career. she does not give a shit

[shining-imagines]

Hello! Love to see a new blog! Good luck with future works~

How about Quartet Night + how would they kiss you?

im sorry this took so long but!!! im alive!!!!! and thank you thank you i hope to try and keep the utapri fandom alive lol

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QUARTET NIGHT KISS HEADCANONS

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Reiji Kotobuki

now we all know how flirty reiji is lol so he would definitely not hold back in a kiss

he would give it his all because he wants to show you just how much he loves you!

verrrryyyyy teasy too, he likes to brush his lips right against yours but not kiss you juuuuuust yet

but when you pout at him he gives in lol

if you kiss him first he calls you naughty or bad but obviously in a playful way and not a mean way, he just likes to tease you

hes very needy and affectionate so expect lots of kisses whenever and wherever, such as gentle hand kisses in public and more intense making out when you two are alone ;)

Ranmaru Kurosaki

first thing im gonna say is this man is rough and sloppy as hell lol

he tries his best he really does (and that isnt to say hes a bad kisser at all) but he just has a lot of heat and emotion that he cant really hold back, especially around you

he is literally the type of the guy to be like. really passionate and rough and the second you two are alone he grabs you and kisses you hard lol

really impatient and doesnt like being teased also, not a big fan of teasing you either cuz he just goes for it most of the time

kisses you everywhere ;) like literally all over

but can be gentle if you ask him to!! he just needs to be taught a little bit lol

Ai Mikaze

this boy is definitely sooo gentle but also doesnt have a lot of experience with kissing people (or anything really)

not quite sure what to do at first and if you ask him to be more dominant he will genuinely try but still not really know what to do so fair warning he might accidentally shove his tongue down your throat

but once he gets the hang of it hes sooooo gentle, really big on forehead kisses and hand kisses and cute stuff like that

but as he gets more experienced he also gets more confident and takes the initiative to kiss you more

kinda forgets that you have to breathe sometimes so be careful lol

overall hes gentle but can be spicy when he needs to be!

Camus

MAN

will literally change his style and technique into anything you want in order to please you

gentle kisses? he goes into butler mode

rough kisses? he gets all dominant and shit like its nothing

but when you leave it up to him to decide hes kind of in between those two extremes, but he really just seeks to please you

he definitely like to place a hand under your chin and tilt your head up to face him 100% guaranteed

but other than that i dont really know lolz

[calehenituse-brainrot]

Say, how do you think Cale or KRS would react if his(?)/their(?) children gained suitors.

And moreover what is the reader's reaction to that?

OHHH OKAY OKAY LETS DO THIS

I'll do just do krs!cale i hope you dont mind 😵‍💫 also since reader is basically you guys, i'll just leave your reaction up to you😭

im very much disoriented from not sleeping so i cant really do much so i hope me answering your ask like this is fine </3

YEAHHSH

his son is the definition of written by a woman

LETS START WITH A SON

he copied everything his father does to his mom and he treats everyone so considerately so a lot of people will definitely fall in love with him

HOWEVER we also need to remember that he's literally the son of a hero so regardless people love him or not, noblemen are sending letters after letters to arrange a playdate between their daughters and him

Cale and his family probably started receiving letters about arranged marriages when the boy had hit like ten years old

Cale is very much neutral against it

the first time he had been notified about people asking if their son would like a meet up sorta date with their daughters, he was like "uhmmmmmm why?"

like his son doesn't really need much company

the boy was quiet and surrounded by a lot of people — sure he's the youngest among the people cale has but still

when reader pointed out how many noblemen probably wants to have an arranged marriage between their daughters with their son, it finally clicked in his head

cale is awkward about this, okay?

he went up to his son

he sits with them in silence

and it felt like a whole eternity before he finally asked, "do you have someone you like?"

his son gave him a face of confusion that looked so similar to this face here :

and they just sat there, staring at each other

his son waiting for him to explain

and cale just going quiet because he's questioning if he said something wrong because why isn't he answering???

"did mother told you something weird?"

"... no."

okay so his son can absolutely see through his facade

and like the typical ole cale, he never truly explain anything properly

"you're now of age," he started. "i just thought that you shouldn't be burdened with the thoughts of having a partner or whatnot."

his son is internally like, that has never crossed my mind tho???

"your mother and i wants you to live a free, happy life. we wont push you to do things you dont want to do," he said, patting the young man's shoulder. "though, if you do have someone you like, dont forget to introduce them to the family."

his son nodded despite still being confused, "okay...?"

and just like that, cale leaves his son alone, now a little bit calmer than before

his son was left while still wondering what had just happened and what kind of conversation they just had with their father

'my father is a weird man,' the son thought.

don't tell the son this but cale basically has ron checking on any ladies that's close with his son

which tbh, is a lot, though most of them aren't personally close

he also has alberu's assistance with providing information regarding noble families that has been requesting for his son to meet with their daughter

he's just doing survey :)

but tbh, cale's opinion doesn't really come first, you know?

it's yours and On's

and Hong

and Raon

and Lily

And Violan

Basen is also included

something about dating a man who has older sisters and young aunts is very intimidating

Cale doesn't have a lot of complaints about his son's s/o as long as they're genuine and respectful

Also pretty laid back when letters come in and people started asking for his son's hand in marriage

he just kinda lets his son decide on what he wants in his life and cale would try his best to help

he makes sure all the older ladies who's into his son are restricted from going near him tho💀

NOW LETS START WITH A DAUGHTER LMFAOOO

omg let's have her debut with on and hong

THEIR DEBUT YALL

their debut to society was practically a fancy ball that rivals a member of the royal family's

was accidentally raised spoiled because cale is a sucker for his kids

also because his youngest looks like the female vers of cale, no one is escaping unscathed

the beloved henituse

Her and On are getting asked for dances left and right and FROM THAT MOMENT—

Cale is already HOSTILE

and you think it's Cale alone???

aww no baby everyone is strapped, ready for murder if someone tries anything funny

though Cale's hostility didn't start from the debut

it started out as some sort of bittersweet thing as he watched his daughters dancing and enjoying her time

he thinks the others who's getting agitated is ridiculous because "it's just a dance"

he is about to swallow his own words

it wasn't even like a week after that—

you talked to cale about how your daughters has been spending an awful lot of time in their rooms lately

then there were gifts sent to them — tea leaves, big bouquet of flowers, dresses, jewelry, and other things

he asks his youngest daughter about it once and she's like, "idk they just send them in, free stuff right?"

"it's just presents," on told him with a deadpan.

cale sums it all as maybe a late debutante present or the likes

then ron offhandedly mentions about how many young men are pursuing the young misses

cale, who was sipping on the lemonade tea ron had made, frowned.

he slowly looked up, his stomach dropping due to an unsettling feeling he couldn't understand

"of course they are," he replied. "they're all not worthy of the girls, though."

ron gave him a benign smile, "of course."

yeah and he's still uneasy

so he then told you about what ron had said

"ron mentioned about how many people are pursuing on and d/n"

you froze a bit and that's when cale knew something has been happening behind his back

"okay so—"

"tell me everything and do not miss out on the smallest detail."

you had cale sit on the parlor and called for hans, telling him to bring the letters

cale was presented with a few dozens of letters, all from noblemen or sons of noblemen of all ages

they're all asking to meet either on or d/n and whether the henituse duchy was interested in an arranged marriage between their children

some were love letters — again, from noblemen of all ages — and those letters explain how they wish to meet with the girls

"we've been getting these for the last week," you say, cringing as you handed him a letter

"i didnt want to tell you because the girls said they wanted to deal with it by themselves, especially on"

You watch your husband look through the letters with a very deep frown on his face, sometimes massaging his own temple as he reads them

"what do you think...?" you asked him

cale wants nothing but to crumble up all the letters and have them burned by the fire of destruction

call him overprotective or the likes, he doesn't care

for the love of god, there are middle aged noblemen asking for his daughters' hand in marriage!

do these people not use their morals at the very least??

"i'll have ron look into these people," he said. "i want to see which idiots dares to think they're a good match for the girls."

you stared at cale, a wry smile on your lips as you hear him grumble about how people these days are so immoral

Cale would definitely come over to the girls and talk to them about keeping such a thing quiet from him

"i understand where you both are coming from, but you need to include me in these types of things, okay?"

he's so gentle and soft with them 🥺

even though every single ancient power in his head is screaming at him to start wrecking those noblemens homes and lives

"i dont want to get married," on would say with a determined face.

cale nodded. "alright, then you don't have to. it's your life."

"i dont like those guys," his youngest would state. "they're all old and gross and weird."

cale nodded. "me too, i dont like them too."

i feel like being raised by such a good father and surrounded by good people, these girls will have the HIGHEST standards

they'd probably have no interest in dating and is solely focused on their family

"is there anything that you both want to do for the future?"

both his daughters glanced at each other and cale patted both of their shoulders

"it's fine if you don't know the answer right now," he said. "just know that i'll help you every step of the way to achieve it."

as always, regardless of gender, cale supports his children no matter what

he'll be fine, perhaps even prefer it if their wishes are for themselves, like wanting their own title, to travel the world, and really, anything—

as long as it doesn't harm anyone else in the process

the talk with his daughters didn't really last long as he told them he would wait and that they can always come to him

after that, he'll look into the noblemen who was twice his daughters age and have them learn their lesson, like exposing tax fraud, any kind of illegal labor they got going on, etc..

alberu will probably hear about the story because cale complains to him and you'd see a lot of those nobles getting extra work done 💀

choi han will always intimidate the hell out of them whenever he's in their vicinity

overall i feel like cale and the others would scare off all the suitors 💀

though if his daughters actually is interested and gains official suitors, they'd always be supervised to make sure they're actually good people💀

good luck with that