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doing detective work trying to figure out if my bsfs bf is a honest to god nazi. it is not looking good..
#he was sayin some shit about gnome hunting#and he keeps saying racial slurs#like too many racial slurs considering hes tje whitest dude ive ever seen#and instead of referring to me by name he either calls me jew or dyke which is just odd but i am technically both#but hes also one of those metalheads that hands up the racists cant rock sign at his shows#make up ur fucking mind
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the rise of AI art isn't surprising to us. for our entire lives, the attitude towards our skills has always been - that's not a real thing. it has been consistently, repeatedly devalued.
people treat art - all forms of it - as if it could exist by accident, by rote. they don't understand how much art is in the world. someone designed your home. someone designed the sign inside of your local grocery store. when you quote a character or line from something in media, that's a line a real person wrote.
"i could do that." sure, but you didn't. there's this joke where a plumber comes over to a house and twists a single knob. charges the guy 10k. the guy, furious, asks how the hell the bill is so high. the plumber says - "turning the knob was a dollar. the knowledge is the rest of the money."
the trouble is that nobody believes artists have knowledge. that we actively study. that we work hard, beyond doing our scales and occasionally writing a poem. the trouble is that unless you are already framed in a museum or have a book on a shelf or some kind of product, you aren't really an artist. hell, because of where i post my work, i'll never be considered a poet.
the thing that makes you an artist is choice. the thing that makes all art is choice. AI art is the fetid belief that art is instead an equation. that it must answer a specific question. Even with machine learning, AI cannot make a choice the way we can - because the choices we make have always been personal, complicated. our skills cannot be confined to "prompt and execution." what we are "solving" isn't just a system of numbers - it is how we process our entire existence. it isn't just "2 and 2 is 4", it's staring hard at the numbers and making the four into an alligator. it's rearranging the letters to say ow and it is the ugly drawing we make in the margin.
at some point, you will be able to write something by feeding my work into a machine. it will be perfectly legible and even might sound like me. but a machine doesn't understand why i do these things. it can be taught preferences, habits, statistical probability. it doesn't know why certain vowels sound good to me. it doesn't know the private rules i keep. it doesn't know how to keep evolving.
"but i want something to exist that doesn't exist yet." great. i'm glad you feel creative. go ahead and pay a fucking artist for it.
this is all saying something we all already knew. the sad fucking truth: we have to die to remind you. only when we're gone do we suddenly finally fucking mean something to you. artists are not replicable. we each genuinely have a skill, talent, and process that makes us unique. and there's actual quiet power in everything we do.
#also pay plumbers more. and electricians. and other devalued occupations#idk that this makes sense#but im like#people being so fucking pleased with themselves about the fact they can ''fake'' art#n im like#sure#but what if we stop making things for you huh#what if we stop giving u this stuff anymore#what happens to ur ai art? does it keep growing? does it keep making choices?#why do u need to see us as machines?#''i want X to exist but i don't have the skill to do it''#okay spend literally years of your life studying#''i don't want to do that''#okay pay someone who DID do that#''no i don't think it's a real skill''#okay so. YOU can't do it. and a LOT of people can't do it. but you think WE should be able to?#FOR FREE?#either it has value or it dont baby make up ur OWN mind#btw studying here is not used academically. i think if ur like. constantly knitting.#thats studying#do u spend hours reading and find urself taking notes and learning about writing#ur studying#do you follow other artists and spend a lot of your time trying new things (even unsuccessfully)#that's also studying#etc#was weird to write this thing about choices and then be like. wait why DO i like that
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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'
#cw blood#SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten#its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then#fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something#also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve#but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere#ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP#THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed#kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me#from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream#and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him#she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she#is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK#I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs#LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH#THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED#TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER#oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much
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I need people to realize how horrible 'stalking/constant surveillance/breaking into each other's homes is how the Batfamily show love' is. Like i really need someone to just acknowledge how horrific saying this bullshit is.
Like even fics where they're shown as happy and healthy and with good ties, you've always got this thing where none of them have privacy or any boundaries with each other. Which is directly antithetical to actually having good relationships. And this invasion via hacking and stalking and breaking into homes is portrayed as a positive, good thing; it's just how they show love and care to each other, after all. But for some reason I just personally don't find stalking, lack of privacy or boundaries, and emotional manipulation funny, endearing, or healthy, and just end up disgusted at the attempt to sweep it all under the rug.
#my dc posting#dc#batman#batfamily#jason todd#barbara gordon#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#listen i can only take so much of it before i just breakdown okay#apparently controversial opinion but a family where its normal to vreak into each others homes and manipulate each other and stalk and#invade boundaries and autonomy and privacy can NOT be healthy#no matter how much you try to dress it up all cute w 'this is just how they are' 'its how they show their love' its never not gonna be#unhealthy and bad and toxic#like yeah they do do that. they are like that. either acknowledge it or stop trying to justify it#god this actually irks me so much#i try to idk. suspend my disblief but theres only so much i can actuallt fucking take before just#its just. im trying to read happy fluffy fics. but i cant be comforted by a family that normalizes breaking boundaries n invading privacy#and its specifically that the author aleays disregards it. instead of fixing it or making it better they opt to keep it and come up w excuse#s for it#and thats what actually triggers me#'i broke into ur house cus if i asked if i could come over ud say no' is actuallt fucking horrifying stop trying to make it seem loving???#im writing this while having a panic attack dont mind me 👍#but its like. if you can write the batfam w/o bruce hitting his kids or any other horrific thing that they do#then why must you keep the boundary&privacy breaking? why cant anyone even seemingly try to write a batfam#where theyve worked their issues abt this out best they can n have healthy established boundaries w each other??#like if u can write them all hanging out together 24/7 n bruce being s good dad why is this one simple thing the One Thing#nobody even tries to address properly???#'aw dick broke into jason's saehouse bc he wanted to hangout but jason would say no if he asked' aw. maybe dick should learn 'no means no'
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tbh I find Caitlyn's use of the Gray really interesting not only as a form of chemical warfare, but of psychological warfare too. The way she deliberately designed the strike force uniforms to work in tandem with the Gray in order to mimic the appearance of a monster from Zaunite stories with very recent presence in Zaun's recent memory (it was only during Cassandra's lifetime that the Gray was "locked away") to evoke fear in ordinary Zaunites is so so crazy to me.
And Jinx REALIZED that!! that's (maybe.) WHY that showdown took place in front of a carving of Janna– she's using those stories (which likely evolved alongside one another) to frame her reaction to Caitlyn's crimes as a sort of divine retribution!
Caitlyn thinks Jinx is this terrifying monster of a girl, and while it's true Jinx has done some awful things, ever since the beginning of this season (arguably since after the timeskip, even) Jinx has been working in direct response to Caitlyn and Caitlyn's actions, whether or not either of them are truly aware of it.
#arcane spoilers#the cool thing about this series is that you can pull any two characters and draw significant parallels in a lot of places#but Jinx and Caitlyn especially have been mirroring each other since the beginning.#especially now that both are being propped up as unwilling/unaware symbols of Zaun and Piltover#(idk anything about LoL so i'm not sure how these ramblings hold up with that lore in mind lmao)#anyways.#this is half me stating the obvious and half me making stuff up. fuck it we ball#also Caitlyn. girly. the problem isn't that u aren't taking the shot. it's that u keep pointing ur gun at people#i also don't think enough ppl are talking about Jinx's very real suicidal ideation like that girl wants to DIE#she went into that fight with two goals: releasing the Gray into piltover and being killed by Vi
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can ppl let others have time to have fun for a while without reminding them of awful shit going on, insisting they "cant forget" that these things are happening. as if just going around being silly and enjoying yourself for a while means youre ignoring the suffering of the whole world 🙄
#you dont have to have this shit on ur mind 24/7#it doesnt make you a bad person to not be expending your thoughts and energy on bad stuff all the time#people NEED breaks. if you see people having fun and go ''but dont forget [bad thing]'' that IS fucked up#people can have fun without completely forgetting whats going on in the world#its just another form of guilt tripping even if thats not the intention#also tumblr isnt using april fools to try to make people forget the transphobic shit theyre doing#this is just a yearly thing they do. they do silly shit every april fools. theres not an agenda to it. not everything is done maliciously#give people time to be silly for a while then get back to fighting injustice later (given they have the time/energy)#okay. relax for a while. putting down the pitchforks for a party popper and boops isnt going to destroy activism#*also not to say some tumblr staff may not be Hoping itll make people forget or something but like#that doesnt mean thats the purpose of the april fools shit. its not a random sudden new thing theyre doing for the purpose of distraction
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can yall stop hating on my bbg aziraphale he's literally just an immortal teenage girl
#to aziraphale haters sincerely me: KILLL YOUUUUURRRSEEELLLFFFFFFF#tiktok is making me go out of my fucking mind STOP THE AZIRAPHALE HATE TURN ON UR LOCATION I WILL BE IN UR WALLS#im fist fighting each and every azira hater come on line up i have all day#seriously tho. shut the fuck up#good omens#good omens s2#aziraphale#azicrow#go s2
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and nobody will, nobody can, take it away this time he’s gotta feel good before he dies
#trigun#trigun fanart#trigun anime#vash#vash the stampede#wolfwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#vashwood#good morning everyone i'm queueing this at SIX FUCKING THIRTY IN THE MORNING because i watched the new stampede last night#and have basically just been sitting here shaking violently for the last seven hours!!!!!!#this week's gonna be fuuuucked i just know it if i'm still up when this posts at 10 u either cheer me on or mind ur business okay thanks#hey unrelated to the agonies of this recent stampede saturday bullshit (affectionate) do y'all ever think about that moment in episode 23#when vash is alone curled up in a ball unable to sleep PRAYING to rem to help him make up with wolfwood before it's too late#:)#anyways#i'm gonna go throw myself into the sea now lemme know if y'all need anything
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stop asking me for a large flat white.
#it’s a ONE SIZE DRINK anywhere selling u different flat white sizes is MUGGING YOU OFF#it is a COMPRESSED LATTE meaning a large would just BE A FUCKING LATTE#it’s always smug businessmen too. you think ur hot shit u don’t even know what ur ordering get out of my face michael#like i actually don’t mind people who tip their cap a bit and admit they don’t know shit about coffee#bc that’s why I’m there! my job is to make coffee and know silly things about it!#but when you waddle into my store to my counter and with the confidence of well. the average male demand a drink you MADE UP#hella slaves to capitalism#barista memes bc i genuinely am not getting out enough 🤞🏼
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Thinking about Wendy's first weeks in the Constant and the confusion she must've felt when she realized her tormentor looked identical to her father. I'll never buy into the idea that Maxwell and Wendy didn't recognize each other (well its possible Maxwell didn't realize it at first...but Wendy would've known almost immediately), and now I just wonder if Wendy realized it was her uncle, or if she spent an uncomfortable amount of time believing it was her father who betrayed her, who brought her into this world to suffer.
I think about Jack and Wendy a lot. About Wendy isolating herself from the world, confusing dreams for reality, obsessing over her grief until it killed her, until she ceased being Wendy and became Abigail's shadow. And I think about Jack, losing one of his daughters only for the other to reject him at every turn... watching her become a shell of her former self, and nothing he could do about it.
I think about their house. About the empty bed, the empty chair in the dining room, the untouched toys and clothes gathering dust in their boxes. I think about the silence. And it kills me.
How did Jack cope with his grief? Did he try to erase every trace of Abby's existence, pretend it never happened, and get angry at Wendy for bringing her up? Did he fall apart just as terribly, did they enable each other ? Did he shut down emotionally, stand stoic and solid, even as Wendy crumbled, refusing to share any tears, anger or comfort?
And did Wendy despise him for it? Did she lash out at him, blame him, wish he had died instead? Or did he simply disappear from her mind entirely, kicked out to make more room for Abigail...one night, after crying all the tears she could possibly shed, her eyes glazed over, incapable of seeing anything beyond her grief and sadness.
Im sure we'll know someday but until then....I can only wonder....
#dst wendy#sneed talks#should i make a tag for like. dst rambles specifically. im always shy about posting these but idk so much on my mind#dst rambles#ok im making it. dunno if ill put it to use. meep.#should i also tag maxy...feels like id be spamming#that's another thing i dont wanna flood main fandom tags with “low effort” stuff#meep. I think i just think too much about these things#tumblr culture/etiquette is still unknown to me#but YEAH that shit aside. erm. the carters.......omg they break me#how fucked up would that be for Wendy lol#“ohhh ok so you said youd bring my sister back but now im stuck w her ghost as an eternal reminder of my grief.”#“and also im being violently killed by monsters left and right”#“and also ur like. dad. Ok. wow thats how it is”
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in conclusion the most poignant thing about ruina is its running theme of Imperfection. imperfection, focused not on its flaws, but on the miracle of it existing to begin with. imperfection not as a failing, but as a triumph. its cracked, broken, deeply in need of repair-- but it's real and its ours and it exists. despite everything it exists and that enough is a relief beyond words, beyond expression. to present a toppled structure not as a conclusion, but an opportunity.
its the choice-- and the joy-- of looking forward, unflinchingly, and facing it. one step at a time.
#piktalk#projmoon#didnt want to . make a bigger tagwall than i already made . ae if ur reading this uhhhhhh sorry <33 hai KSJNFD#anyway one of these days i might get th voice to really truly put down everything and what it means in regards to . [motions w hands]#but this ones just on my mind right now. something abt the presentation of ruina just fucking Kills and this is the big reason why#ilike. had to take a good couple hours after th finale to just simmer with it. because well..#again. its imperfection. every other story has such stark; lined up beats and paths and Messages Youre Supposed To Take#which ive spoken on before-- and it isnt a bad thing necessarily! but it does really speak something; quietly;#for those whose development Isnt That Neat. that Isnt That Kind. to themself or to others. im no expert; but it really does mean something#that ruina is written in such a way where there is no 'this is wrong and heres how they fix it to be forgiven'#or 'this is right and what everyone should do to be a Good Person'#angela simply Is. roland simply Is. they all simply Are. they make choices; have hopes; dreams; things they care about--#and theres no overarching echo of What Should Be. simply what people do; and what people hope for.#um. anyway. tag wall again; in conclusion: Why Dont You Go Listen To Poems Of A Machine And Maybe Then Youll Calm Down
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made a mushroom pin that's also the hardest object to photograph on earth. I still have a brick and a half of air dry clay left so I hope to make more :]
#bakuspecial#I dont think I have a craft tag lmao. well#really wanted to make the gills on these shrooms more uh. physical. but I did Not have the patience for it fskjdfhdj#next time hopefully I will have more.#also the matte spray is really cool... its cocomelon shit to me it really does dry matte......#the other pins in that first pic are from a saigon art shop and a prize for a queer art contest I placed in two years ago#I need a good way to display them lol. mostly so I dont lose them#need to make like a scroll of fabric or something to hang on the bookshelf#my vision for this thing is a nice wide brimmed hat thats earth toned and I paint it to look like a log#and figure out how to embroider moss on it. and then mushroom pins#its genuinely not my style at all lmao I just wanna try and make it#alright I should go to bed soon.... Im gettin another stretch of sleepin at normal human hours for a while. best to make use of it#have a good night lads! making some fucked up little things really is so fuckin good for ur brane n mind
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i “read” this one klance x descendants au and it literally altered my brain chemistry (i recently went back and reread it and honestly nostalgia gave me some rose tinted glasses but it was still fun LMAO) so like the idea of a descendants au for my ships has been in the back of my mind for years but see heres the fucking issue. my ship rn is merthur and i cant exactly do a descendants au as they’re literally in disney and it would be confusing as all hell. i mean. i guess if i ignored some things. maybe.
#personal#read is in quotes bc it was a twt au fic on instagram#so like.#yeah.#i will never write this btw#its just an idea that rotates in my mind#say i ignore a lot of things#who would their parents be?#obviously merlin would be from the isle and arthur from auradon#wait fuck merlin son of maleficent#magic? dragons? yeah.#his dad??? uhhhhh#i wanna say hades bc godly power but thats just remaking mal 💀💀#i also wanna give him like the worst of the worst#if you get it you get it#jafar? dr facilier?#holy fuck wikipedia just put me on#fucking chernabog??? literal satan?? yeah. YEAH.#merlin son of maleficent and chernabog. mistress of evil and satan. yeah they fucked and made a ray of sunshine. no i dont know how either.#ARTHUR whos ur daddy 🧐🧐#i wanna put him under sleeping beauty bc obviously blondie and also have u seen merlin trying to wake him in the morning?#also maleficent and sleeping beauty - getting over his preconcieved notions and all that#runner up is cinderella and rapunzel just bc i feel like theyd make him work#and i need him to be an arrogant ass for merlin to humble#so yeah sleeping beauty
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we all broke our rules for someone
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#actually borderline#bpd shitposting#bpd#bpd favorite person#bpd problems#bpd vent#bpd mood#my friends constantly tell me how many red flags he has and i’m just like ‶red is a great color″#like idc what ur guys opinions are about him.. i love him more than you anyways#like be fucking fr#and they know that.. they just try to make me ‶stop being dumb″ and know i ‶deserve better″ but idc i want him#like yea he’s done some fucked up things to me but so has everyone else so like it’s not a big deal to me anymore.. at the time i was very#upset but now it’s okay.. i don’t mind him hurting me as long as he’s here#beloved.txt
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What. The Count of Monte Cristo is so good :0
#NO-ONE TOLD ME???#I'm listening to it on the train gasping & shit#the narrator mispronounces a few words sadly & his French accent for the characters is sometimes impenetrable#but idc this book is so good I am LIVING#they locked this bitch up for 14 years!! no trial no charge!!#god help him he was only 19 & so on & so forth#I would've lost my mind#also. the using suicidal ideation to cope???#what is it w me & sailors who fantasise abt killing themselves#anyway he's just busted out of prison. naked. swimming for his life#the Edmond is out of his cage. yes. YES. the Edmond is free#I'm sooo ready for him to tear these bitches a new one but I'm only like 15% of the way through the book so. I assume all will not go well#anyway the more I read/listen to‚ the more I realise Edmond Dantes is Odysseus Lite#except at least Laertes makes it to the end of the Odyssey alive. unlike Old Dantes :( so Odysseus gets a point for that#I should've realised when they didn't give him a name tbh#anyway NO SPOILERS#I'm aware that it's 180 years old. STILL. 🤫#ALSO THE SCENE W NOIRTIER??? lich rally breathless#dripping w swagger. fuck les gendarmes. complete identity metamorphosis. drags his failson. fuck les gendarmes TWO!!#I'm sorry Villefort I'm sure ur not a failson#I just haven't read enough yet. & ur certainly not yr father lmfaooo#The Count of Monte Cristo
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i love. all powerful whumpers. i know i talk about this a lot but i just really absolutely love when a whumper controls every aspect of whumpee's life. not even as a human, but more as a god. a being so far above whumpee that they genuinely have no chance of fighting back.
maybe whumper literally created whumpee, and is now playing with them like a puppet. and whumpee is forced to bump into the invisible walls of their confined world over and over again, realising again and again that they can only ever go as far as whumper allows.
and maybe... sometimes... whumpee thinks they have outwitted whumper. they find a little loophole, a glitch in the matrix, a tear in the fabric of their artificial reality. they take the opportunity immediately, thinking they're about to be free... only to end up as a pawn in whumper's game yet again. the opening was put there on purpose, specifically for whumpee to find. and where it led was entirely controlled. and whumper enjoyed every second of this delightful little show of whumpee feeling some hope, only for it to be violently ripped away.
again.
#im watching a stanley parable ultra deluxe playthru and it reminded me of my love for whumpers like this#specifically the ending where stanley decides to keep on the mind control machine#and the narrator is like oh? why keep it on? u want the control for urself?#u want control so bad?#u want ur own little story?#i'll give u ur own little story#and creates a fucking. timer that counts down from 2 mins to zero at the end of which everything will blow up#and continues to talk abt how stanley can have his little adventure now#isnt this so fun?#isnt this exciting?#isnt this what he wanted?#also the way he kept going on abt 'whats wrong stanley? running around not knowing what to do? are the choices u craved too much for u?'#'or did u perhaps think there was a way in this universe to turn off the timer?'#THE HOPELESSNESS OF IT ALL#THE HOPELESSNESS OF HAVING AN ENTITY CONTROL EVERY SINGLE ASPECT OF UR LIFE AND EVERY DECISION U MAKE#EVERY DECISION U *CAN* MAKE#BECAUSE THE OPTIONS R CREATED BY THE ENTITY AS WELL..#idk man i just love it#whump#whump prompt
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