#made this based off of true events. didnt make the edit tho

[gglitchshit]

ALL OF THE END OF THE YEAR ASKS!! uwu uwu uwu

OH NO

love u uwu

Song of the year?

Answered but gonna come up wih something else hmm……Spotify says Hurricane Years (by Alice duh) was my top 1 which is kinda true cuz I coped with it a fuckton and I even based one of my school assignments of it so…

Album of the year?

Trash 1989 easily DFJGHSDFJKGHL but yeah if talking this year’s album then Gloryhammer’s new albumm which I’m lazy to write the title of

Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year?

Uppermost! Got recommended him on twitter (with many other artists but he got me the most) and it was really spot on

id say Ozzy too but technically i didnt START listening to him this year, just started listening More

Movie of the year?

Us!!! But also uh idk……..I mean I’ve seen many movies this year so aside of 2019′s movies it’s definitely Prince of Darkness (god its so surreal i saw it this year….it feels like last year at least, first half of the year didnt exist for me dfgjksd)

TV show of the year?

Y’all Not to be Like That but it’s Jojo dfghfdkl (both because of you- like how much you influenced me and changed my mind about jojo and also cuz i started watching it) 

Episode of tv or webisode that defined the year for you?

Can’t think of any gjklhgsdjkl i dont rly watch tv shows

Favorite actor of the year?

even tho i watched 46758934 movies i dont have any……i mean i rly liked Lupita’s performance in Us but…yeah

maybe Liz Fenning?? she debuted for real in Dance Macabre music video and thats when i fell in love so h wait no that was last year fuck fuck

Game of the year?

Sayonara Wild Hearts and Pokémon Sword/Shield~

Best month for you this year?

-March cuz was finally home after hell month and bought lots of goodies and saw 🅱️rince of 🅱️arkness (first movie I saw after hell month, makes it extra special) -August as well maybe cuz Minecraft and good vibes….-June too cuz of that very good day with you and lots of animating…..maybe even October? Big halloween/horror mood…

Something that made you cry this year?

A gift I got at the beginning of the year and Wowaka’s death :(

Something you want to do again next year?

Go to pride but also go to more concerts with you

Talk about a new friend you made this year

I hardly make friends (like yknow real true close friends) also sorry if I forget anyone my memory is worse than a 100 year old’s but I always treasure my mutuals and I feel I grew closer to some of you…..ilu

How was your birthday this year?

Nothing interesting LMAO probably the least eventful/boring of this whole decade….. im old and depressed

Favorite book you read this year?

even tho im STILL not finished (reading in english is hard aaa), i love love love reading Dennis’ book about his adventures in the Alice Cooper group……..Ozzy’s book was fine as hell as well and thats about the only books ive read this year mega rip

What’s a bad habit you picked up this year?

cant remember anything fdgjkdf all my bad habits are 3-10 years old oof

Post a picture from the beginning of the year

this is from april cuz i dont take selfies lol

Post a picture from the end of the year

well….my hair got darker?? dfgsdfgdf

all my selfies are just me showing off my band shirts GHSDKL i got this shirt from a generous person from AR’s discord server, bless them forever tbh

edit: deleted the selfies cuz *diavolo vibe* no one must know my face

A memorable meal this year?

DFJKGDFHJK idk….i ate some rly good asian pasta meal at shrimpy food bar in like october or so, everytime i’ll go back there i’ll eat that cuz h

What’re you excited about for next year?

new albums lolol

also pride

uhhhhhh animal crossing release

What’s something you learned this year?

be grateful for everything i have and dont take anything for granted, with time most things get better except my memory

What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year?

got new bathroom and kitchen as well as NEW WINDOWS hell yeah complete revamp of some of the stuff in our house….

Favorite place you visited this year?

Bratislava JDFGHDFSJKLG the town itself was nice too but in general being there was great cuz happiness overflowed in me all the time…….arisu……

If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?

honey you’ve got a big storm coming

Did you keep any New Year’s Resolutions?

i drew a little more backgrounds than last year so maybe that,,,

Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

GIN!!!!!! MY SPLATOON OC!!!!!! AAAAAAA one of the only best things in february hell month…..one day i made a rly cool loadout in Splatoon and i was like h what i  i make an OC out of her…..at first i felt like she wasnt gonna get far cuz i usually make ocs and then forget about them the next day but somehow she survived…..and got a big bro too! now shes in several zines and has an own toyhouse profile and i think abt her every day…shes still underdeveloped as hell but ah i love her and im rly proud of myself

[foolgobi65]

What’s the deal with padmavati?

this is going to be a long long post im so sorry in advance.... to start off with, im a diaspora kid raised in a dominant caste hindu family, and i just finished watching this movie in hindi which is not a language i understand well so if i didnt catch some things im so sorry and please feel free to add more. 

im basically going to separate the movie from the news event, and go further into why its both a bad movie and a bigoted one. the rest of this is under the cut

ok! padmavati/padmaavat (they had to change the name) as a movie and as a general News Item is .... a fucking disaster. 

in terms of the news, the karni sena which is a hindu nationalist (terrorist) group decided that this movie was an affront to their ancestors and dishonored their “queen” padmavati. Padmavati is the character in a Sufi poem called the Padmavat, and thus did not actually exist. There was talk of some dream sequence where she got with Khilji, the antagonist but most people are pretty sure it doesnt exist. The Karni Sena and their ilk has turned to rioting since the Indian Supreme Court ruled that the movie should be allowed to play, and their latest act of Rajput Valor has been attacking schoolchildren to show India the true glory of their caste. Before the movie came out there was a bounty on Deepika Padukone’s nose, her head, the director Bhansali’s head, and threats by Rajput women to commit jauhar (burn themselves alive). 

All of this, notably, without a great deal of interference and sometimes the tacit encouragement of the BJP government in power both within the provinces that are affected as well nationally. 

This mess meant that the movie released about 2 months after it was supposed to, and created this idea that to watch it was to support free speech. 

padmavaavat as a MOVIE is also a giant fucking mess.

it’s got a ridiculously regressive worldview, and the movie so far is casteist, sexist, islamophobic and homophobic. it is also a poorly written, plotted, and edited movie. 

casteist: it glorifies the dominant rajput caste, does not include anyone from outside that caste at all, will not fucking shut up about rajput valor when its clear in the present that rajput valor and values has led to a lot of shitty things. within the movie the rajputs basically constantly lose yet are still somehow portrayed as winners. their biggest victory comes from padmavati, who is from Singhal (sri lanka) and uses her intelligence instead of just fronting about her “rajput values.” Also historically the rajputs didnt become winners until they surrendered to the mughals and became commanders of the mughal army. they’re huge losers who are trying to rewrite history because theyre a pathetic martial caste known for hundreds of their women burning themselves alive when the men lose a batttle. 

sexist: the whole concept of jauhar is based on the idea that a woman’s chastity is more important than their life. 11 year old girls, pregnant women, it doesnt matter. A rajput woman cannot be allowed to live if there is even a glimmer of doubt that she may be touched by a man. Within this, she doesn’t even have the dignity to choose to die, and must ask permission beforehand from her husband. Are there women who might have wanted to live? Who knows? They’re all dead now, coerced into burning themselves alive. I’d also like to add that the movie never addresses the fate of the /non/ rajput women, which highlights a huge issue of caste and how it affects gender dynamics of hindu women. Dominant caste women are considered pure, and so they must die to preserve this purity. Other women are ignored -- if they are taken as slaves, it doesnt matter because the real victory is that khilji couldnt take the Rajput women. 

Islamophobic: the entire movie exists to highlight the differences between the “perverse” “dark” “dank” “dirty” “insane” “cheating” “evil” Muslim, and the “clean” “light” “honorable” “pure” Hindu. The colors, the scenery, the food, and of course the characters themselves, all serve this insidious idea that Muslims are the savage invader, in India to plunder everything beautiful about it, especially its dominant caste women. By all nominal accounts, Khilji was a conqueror, and he acted like many conquerors did -- including, I might add, many “hindu” conquerors. If he was crueler than other conquerors, that is of course because of who he was as a person and not because of his religion. Khilji’s wife played by Aditi Rao hydari might have been the only actually good muslim character and even then she’s portrayed as the islamophobic victim muslim wife, trapped in a horrific marriage with a savage. There’s more to be said but like ... the foundation of this movie is the idea of a primordial culture clash which of course doesnt actually exist 

homophobic: malik kafur is khilji’s eunuch slave general and he’s portrayed as being in love with khilji. its one sided, and theres one homophobic comment by the rajputs at some point. khilji maybe could be seen as reciprocating a little but tbh its all just to further this idea that khilji and co are savage, foreign (muslim) perversions. a few scenes directly contrast malik and khilji v padmavati and ratan and clearly, the hindu heterosexual couple is meant to be the good, pure, holy one. i will say malik/khilji was the only pair i was really rooting for, and this was an almost 3 hour movie meant to center on padmavati/ratan. 

bhansali also lowkey exotified sri lanka and made it seem as like .. some foreign place with lots of buddha statues and like ... shes this strange jungle princess??? i appreciate the mention of buddhism in sri lanka/south india but i dont think she was shown to be buddhist so .... yikes. also it was 7 minutes but it was weird. he cant do anything right. 

special shoutout to the absolutely horrific jauhar scene for valorizing and glorifying hundreds of dominant caste women killing themselves because their king is too incompetent to win in single combat. the way khilji wins is btw a pathetic attempt by bhansali to make his victory actually ratan’s victory even tho ratan is a huge loser who cheats on his first wife, drones on about his honor to the point where i want to kill him myself, has the military sense of a guppy fish, and is visibly proud that the love of his life wants to burn herself alive for him. 

also SPECIAL shoutout to the end positioning of the battle between the rajputs and khilji as a “dharma yudh” or a war of righteousness. it is compared to rama v ravana, and the kurkshetra war and khilji v rajput is said to be the third war of righteousness, akin to these religious struggles. khilji is directly compared to ravana. its ridiculous. its dangerous. its horrific. of course the victory of truth in this instance is that the women khilji covets (only the dominant caste ones ofc) are burned to death. to position khilji (whose army carries flags that look EXactly like the pakistani flag) as the essence of pure evil, and the fight against him a righteous war of religion in this especially islamophobic time is disgusting. the writers should be ashamed. 

As a movie, the dialogues which i admit i didnt fully understand are apparently overwrought, sappy and ridiculous. 

the plot was too much, there were a bunch of plot points that could have been cut to make a better movie.

i was never convinced of the central love pair because there really wasnt anything about them that made me feel the other was worth being their one and only love. the falling in love process was rushed to the point that i think it should have been cut out altogether and the movie should have started with padmavati established as his queen. 

the treatment of ratan’s first wife was horrific -- shes basically sidelined and is jealous a few times and then kills herself along with everyone in the fire. just ... bad writing all around. 

the editing overall was bad. the editing of ghoomar to make the karni sena happy was atrocious. 

i hated ratan, i liked padmavati for like 30 minutes maybe when she’s in charge of the kingdom and is smart, i liked khilji despite the ways he was villanized, i liked aditi rao hydari as khilji’s wife, i liked malik kafur. the visuals were fine but the battles looked weird. 

overall its a shitty bigoted movie that people are watching because the movie itself is like ... soft bigotry and portrays a bigoted worldview but the karni sena hindu rajput terrorists are stupid and decided to throw a fit and stone schoolchildren. it became some free speech victory to go watch a movie that espouses the same worldview as the ones trying to shut it down bc 2018 sucks. 

sorry for the long rambly reply, if you have any more questions feel free to ask! if anyone has more to add please do -- like i said theres stuff that i might not have caught given my privileged worldview