#maddie's incoherent rambling tag

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Played Pressure earlier because I saw everyone fishposting and wanted to see what it was about.

Pretty good tbh, I was expecting something like Resident Evil or SCP Secret Lab but I had a good time regardless.

Made a low effort image about it as usual when I find something new

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I wonder if any of the proto-frames have religious trauma. because that could make for some really funny interactions between them and the drifter w/ the whole 'tenno devils' thing the orokin have been saying.

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I don't know if this makes much sense, but I think one of the reasons Signalis fanart resonates with me so much is the lack of reluctance to include mild gore. Just hear me out here. There's already a pretty large divide between the 'everything is fucked' Signalis media(dead or alive/half-believing/procurement by arainydancer, a surprising amount of Falke fanart, etc) and less fucked posts(watch where you're going/first dance), and on the former there's a bit of casual(?) gore. I'm gonna put some links below to show what I mean but it just fascinates me, I get it's in line with the source material but some combination about how it's handled and it's relation to the source just takes it to the next level for me. None of the posts are really too intense but it's enough to show what I mean.

I guess the last one is less so what I'm talking about but still

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Played Mouthwashing last night,

was definitely an experience, I got that almost Signalis-like feeling of needing to just let it simmer in the background. If anyone had asked me last night I would have recommended against it but honestly, after letting it sit for a while I can say I will not soon forget it. Just caught me at a bad time really, but it's starting to grow on me. Genuinely the only game I've played to give me the same vibe as Psychopomp, both in terms of gameplay and general atmosphere. It's good, play it if you can, but be wary that it's incredibly uncomfortable for a majority of the game, especially if you're already squeamish or not in a great place mentally.

(For the record the 'Me too, buddy.' is about being a charred corpse covered in bandages.)

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Fear and Hunger is genuinely fascinating to me, even though I don't play F&H 1 much anymore. It's like I just can't look away. I think that's mostly because despite the amount of depravity and dark topics the game touches on, framing it as an uphill battle to survive in a place you were sent into to die manages to make it seem completely meaningless. The dungeons of Fear and Hunger are a godless place, not in the sense that there are no gods, but in the sense that any god there means you more harm than good(with like. one exception in Nilvan). Look at something like Pocketcat, if someone just randomly put Pocketcat in another setting he's be really fucking creepy and out of place, and even though he's still creepy he just feels like par for the course at this point, because by the time you find him you've likely seen much worse, it's not worth batting an eye over. Second off, the fact that some of the hardest endings to reach, the S-Endings, are arguably non-canon in the first place, despite a lot of modern games with multiple endings assuming the hardest/most hidden one is canon. Most people I've talked to about it accept all S-Endings but Cahara's as canon, citing that Enki lived long enough to write the skin bibles, Ragnvaldr likely took Moonless out of the dungeon with him as she becomes August's family friend, and therefore survived, and D'arce's fate is somewhat up in the air. Point being, you could just as easily turn this on it's head and say D'arce brought the girl to the deepest part of the dungeon, and I wouldn't bat an eye at it personally. Maybe the god of Fear and Hunger brought Le'garde back as a necessary evil, who knows, it can probably do that, it might have been the right thing to do. A bit of a ramble but I've been thinking about F&H again with no interest to play it, I thought I should make a post about it.

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The first doomed lesbians wasn't enough my brain had to make a second entirely new set of doomed lesbians. The second doomed lesbians wasn't enough it had to happen when I was getting in the swing of working on another project.

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we're so fucking back. petura occura is back. probably like in a few hours/ a day or two. i need to let this brainrot stew for a bit

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Rewatched FLCL again a while back at around the end of April, and I can't stop thinking about it again. Going to make a rant post to try and quell the brainrot Ok so like. I don't really think Haruko and Naota in the original are problematic together TO AN EXTENT. Not because they're cute together(gross) but because the entire show portrays this as a wild tone shift from anything Naota's used to, it's actively disrupting his home and school life, and the entire basis of the relationship is that Haruko wants something that she can't get on her own(Atomsk), and she's going to manipulate him to get that. The second she realized she can't get Atomsk back through Naota she absolutely fucking loses it, and tries to hurt him. The entire theme of the show is growing up, and forcing yourself to if you have to, but by the end Naota's realized that he doesn't have all the answers, and can't save everybody. He's made the best of an extended shitty situation, with Mamimi's doting over him as a lesser version of his brother, and being used to attempt to acquire Atomsk again. He's more confident through everything(see, cutting Mamimi off in episode 5). They don't romanticize Haruko either, she's selfish and childish, and ran away out of nowhere and returned like nothing had happened. I don't know where I'm going with this but, I think the show is great. The entire story is told completely in metaphor, it's self contained and mildly unfulfilling, but it should be like that. It's a snippet of a vulnerable section of Naota's life where he learned to better himself. It's a really good watch and I heavily suggest it to anyone who has like, 3 hours to spare and a hulu subscription(or you could find it on youtube somewhere if you care to)

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I'm probably plural but I have a yearning to get back to so idrc about that rn

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The vibe of like. Fem-Androgynous baseball players of the early 2000s is unmatched and I wish I could get that energy. But I don't like snapbacks or chewing gum or playing baseball in the first place. It would be a weak imitation at best without atleast one of those 3 load bearing pillars of the vibe.

I don't feel like leaning fully feminine would work and I'm not very interested in it, but leaning androgynous feels too masculine.

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Shittiest MSpaint explanation of a personal peeve but they made her like that for a reason why make her skinny :(

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on a tangentially related note i love these kind of posts so much i want to use them as writing prompts but i can't just write 24/7 Mild NSFW under the cut but it's all just robot stuff(Signalis made me a freak for robot anatomy and disassembly i'm sorry)

The first doomed lesbians wasn't enough my brain had to make a second entirely new set of doomed lesbians. The second doomed lesbians wasn't enough it had to happen when I was getting in the swing of working on another project.