what is considered "beautiful" by society is inevitably sexist, racist, ableist, classist, transphobic, and bigoted. it targets and attacks any perceived difference, and it particularly villainizes women of color while co-opting aesthetics; as if features and cultural norms can be worn as accessories.
and the scary thing! you can see all of these things, know them to be true logically, and also know that you are treated better if you are perceived as beautiful. if you have ever been treated as "ugly", you know exactly how much society reviles you if you don't manage to scamper along and perform to their rules.
and how are you supposed to balance that? do you want a nose job to fix your broken nose, or have you just recently been seeing videos about how many people look better after nose jobs. do you want to lose weight to feel good, or is it that when you lose weight people treat you better. do you want to wear this outfit, or is it just the thing that's least likely to get you harassed. do you want to get lip injections for your reasons or is your whole reason that you don't feel beautiful unless you get those lip injections?
and the definitions shift. the goals get more specific. in the way that you only become aware of your tongue when someone mentions it; parts of your body are introduced as problems. i had never heard the term "hip dip" until about a year ago - and it was in the context of how to get rid of this. i'm 30, i know this shit is invented, and yet! i still find that strange voice saying but do you think someone is going to notice?
how the fuck am i supposed to say "this is my genuine choice i am making for my body" when i also know that years of my life have been spent socializing me to accept this as my inevitable fate? how do i know i'm actually doing this out of love for my body - or am i doing it for how i want others to see me, which will be lovely enough to feel loved? how am i supposed to recover when my unhealthy habits are seen as self-discipline but if i relax i'm openly mocked for "letting time win"? how the fuck am i supposed to say "i'm doing it for me" when i'm also very aware that i'm doing it to stop myself from being teased or demeaned? is it my choice if the other option is being bullied?
we are living in a hostage negotiation - either consent to the demands or spend the rest of your life being treated like you're a despicable person.
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I love you rich californians who move here hoping for a simpler life then get into farming and have no idea what they are doing like what do you mean you have no idea how your mf 124 baler works lol anyways that's gonna cost you $160/hr for me to fix
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Listen if all these protesters really wanted a ceasefire or for the IDF to back off, they'd be howling for Hamas to release the hostages. It would be over immediately.
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If you support communism you are scum. Go and talk to someone who actually lived under it
omg you guys I've been on this website for like 12 years and this is my very first anon hate I've finally made it ma get the camera
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I deleted the comments but...
Ya know, I started tagging my explicit fic with "transmasculine author" so that people would think twice about being shitty about "doing trans rep wrong" but maybe I should tag all my gen stuff that way too. Since people who think it's normal to say that trans people don't belong in DV shelters because they might creep out cis women apparently feel comfortable engaging with my (ironic, this) fandom trumps hate gift fics that I thought were pretty clearly about the trans ND experience. Most of the time going through my AO3 inbox is a lovely experience. Most of the time.
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some of you never overdosed on otc drugs and irresponsibly prescribed antidepressants on your parents bathroom floor age 14 and woke up four hours later and threw up until the next morning and had to pretend that everything was normal and go to school and stuff because you didn't want your parents to take you to the emergency room and it showsssss
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So many chicks not just desire, but ask for a gentlemanly man, but then what requires them to be a ladylike, they no longer like it. They think they should be allowed to be as outlandish and nasty as they want and still keep a guy of that caliber. Nah, sister. It doesn't work that way.
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How it started vs. How it’s going
Still a work in progress, started as a fanart mixed with a value study that I’m probably taking too seriously at this point lol
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That was a very awful pose to draw btw like that is extremely uncomfortable, I’d be falling on my butt every time I tried to stand like this to get a reference photo hahahaha I tried to use some references from L (Death Note) and I think it looks pretty believable.
Also the original file is on my computer but I took a screenshot and kept painting over it on Fresco. Yes I know about the cloud but I use my friend’s Adobe account hihihihi it kinda worked tho lmao
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