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#i dont. know what to say to explain myself i dont really feel like i need to. just look at the mildly blurry 480p screencap and nod okay? ok#i had to search through about a hundred of my tumblr likes to find the text again. dedicated to the luzeni grind 💪#lupin iii#cherry talk
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It's time for another very important annoucement-
When engaging with media on any kind, it is totally ok to not like it!! It is totally ok to express not liking it!! Other people also have a right to express that they do not like something you might like!! Also! You're allowed to just not talk about it with those people!!!
I think social media has convinced us that we all have to have a take on everything and that it has to be said out loud when it really doesn't. If you are engaging in fandom for fun and you see something that makes you feel bad, you don't have to say anything about it. You don't even have to look at it. And I'm not talking about stuff that's like, people/media being bigoted and stuff like that, I mean totally harmless opinions like "I don't like this season of a show because I don't find the narrative fulfilling".
When you're looking to interact with people around something that brings you a lot of joy, negative opinions and criticism can sometimes feel very personal. They're not personal, I promise. Just let it slide off, and move past it. You don't have to defend your thing or argue your case. It's totally fine, just let it be. I fell into this trap for a long time and honestly it just made me waste a lot of time being upset when I could've just been enjoying my thing that I like. Yes it's important to reflect on the media you enjoy and to analyze it and think critically about it, I feel very strongly about that. But at the same time, the primary purpose of entertainment is to be entertained. If it's making you miserable when you engage with other people about it then it's worth changing how you engage.
#this is a reminder for me as much as for other people#like youre under no obligation to “stand up” for your show or book or whatever#i dont have to explain myself for why i feel happy when i engage with a thing#and i dont need to convince other people that they need to feel the way i do#so im just gonna take a deep breath and go on my merry way#and also call out some fandoms by way of the tags lmao#dimension 20 fantasy high#dimension20#fantasy high junior year#that one is the most currently relevant but also#animorphs#looking at you#this is also a self call out post#the owl house#toh
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i really dont miss qsmpblr during purgatory. i dont. but theres something to be said for that unique high of posting an okay-ish shitpost after avoiding posting about discourse all day while three of your mutuals get in a vagueposting war and two people unfollow you for some character interpretation. and also at the same time gaining followers for continuing the yuriposting grind through it all. like that was such an energizing feeling. i would not go back but i do hold a special place in my heart for it in a trainwreck way. but theres a reason why qtinya is privated now. some things can be left to rest...🙏
#i cant explain why it was a little exciting for me. its not about the discourse..its the everything.#there were some absolute lows with zero excitement to be clear.#purgatory qsmpblr reached some absolute lows. and also a while after it there was not excitement in it for me for reasons. a lot happened.#but in general: there are a lot of fond memories. mostly with mutuals and my own posts and some particularly good shitposts that were made.#this post makes me sound like an angel who stayed out of discourse and didnt vaguepost.#i vagueposted a lot honestly. everytime someone said something about tina or bagi or jaiden or baghera or ironmouse#i would pull up to my blog and reblog the SHE IS NOT HIS DAUGHTER SHE IS NOT HIS SISTER SHE IS NOT HIS MOTHER image#and also start dropping aggressive posts about how we should all reflect on the way we treat the women on qsmp.#it was my most evil time maybe. mostly to myself. now im practicing a posting philosophy called The Ignorerrr#anyone looking at my posts already knows whats up. i dont feel like i need to say much. nobodys in my inbox infantilising ironmouse
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(mockingly) youre gay AND irish
#the heron giveth#ghosted (2011)#craig parkinson#john lynch#ive been watching a lot of john lynch movies lately this one has me in a chokehold. i cant explain it#this film doesnt fucking exist anywhere and it saddens me every day#theres also no version ive found online with subtitles so i had to add them myself please dont nitpick if theyre a little off center#ghosted my best friend ghosted the only film ever. ghosted.#anyways. this part was funny i wanted to highlight it. mean to him#do i even bother. with the character tags.#jack ghosted#clay ghosted#yes i do because if nothing else i will be posting about it . and i need to be organized incase theres anybody else out of their fucking#mind later down the line. looking for poasts#come into my ask box and give me a penny for my thoughts on ghosted this is not a mistake whatsoever
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sleeping
#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#fhjy#d20 fantasy high#d20 fhjy#buddy dawn#sometimes i just draw a character i like and there is not much reason to it outside of that#i like when my favorite characters have nice things happen to them#bakarath#this drawing is kind of inspired by a really good fic i read#“deep into the epilogue” by artificialCharisma on ao3...... smiles#i have said b4 how interesting bakarath and buddy are to me. i think#to me buddy would be protective over bakarath but not in a “awww he's father😊�� way but in more of a#“this is my god that i made myself and i am hanging on a thread so thin that if anything happens i think i dont think i can take it”#staring at this character like i am watching a car crash and i cannot look away#do u understand my vision#hmmmhmmhm i feel the need to explain my thought process behind my art always so just know im resisting the urge so hard#i am going to. pick him up. and put him in the Bus that takes you to Therapy#ok. ok? ok.#THE THEEEEMES. THE THEEEMES. LISTEN TO ME. STOP WALKING AWAY#potatart
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doodle dump
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp agent#lobotomy corp oc#pretty sure i have more i missed. just doodling since i cant get myself to make more than bare minimum effort rn#ocs as well so i dont need to think abt how to properly portray another. considering i literally made them up#personality wise anyways. took some creative liberties when it comes to actual gear and random generated agents anyways#maybe ill actually ramble abt them on the sideblog. Eden and Eliza mirrors to one another and picking specific aspects of humanity to cling#to. Eden deciding the subconscious and concepts of humanity brought to life is more ideal that humans themself. the more one loves of human#ity the less one begins to love of humans. Eliza becoming subservient and wanting to activly love humans and her kin even when they hold no#love for her in turn. Both needing to be rewarded or feel rewarded for their dedication. Idealizing each side. the idea of everyone is capa#ble of good and thus should be forgiven and unquestionable love and loyalty. Eden viewing people as senselessly killing oneanother in furth#er elaborate ways and rejects the idea of people all together and finds solance in the Concept than the Living#Angelina and Ryn with how one views time and survival. One hyperfocused on surviving of the current day and neglecting their own very self-#and desires while the other only looks towards the future and idealizes to the point where they dont even see the today. delusion to claw#through reality. Safety team w Brook Eliza Evgeni and Katya is a little harder to explain but the main concept with them as a Group being a#a jab at the happy workplace family that gets along. nuh uh#i guess another idea that is weaved into them is 'survival' and how one sees they can be fit to live or find a meaning to live. and the con#tradictions that arise from anothers perspective and how people 'ought to live'. a clash of either accepting or denying anothers way of#how one should survive. and the projection of a way to live. of 'i view this to be right and thus i will have you do this thing' saving an#aspect or person that they can see themself in to then essentally save themself.#will i be able to handle such ideas with finesse? likely not i dont have faith in myself to properly encapsulate such topics to a perfect#enough degree but it is interesting to explore
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i love being autistic cause sometimes i get a glimpse into how regular people perceive things and its like. what the fuck. what the fuck is that? you live like this? and its normal?? i think YOURE the weird one actually. im fine. thanks though.
#THERES SO MANY WEIRD RULES#LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO HOW SOMEONE WALKS LIKE HUH????? WHY????????????#can someone fucking explain the dude head nod thing to me why do we do that. whats that about. ive never seen anyone do that irl before#is that an american thing or do i just hang around too many afab people#i am learning the intricacies of cis people gender rules and i am. what fucking planet have i been on the last 17 years like what is this#was there some like. rulebook they handed out at somepoint they forgot to give to me or something#“best way to learn is to observe the men around you” OBSERVE WHAT. YOU PEOPLE PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT????#bruh i can barely make eye contact w people...#my ass has never intentionally copied someones mannerisms ever.#i do it subconsciously. but doing it actively feels weird and wrong and like im breaking someones boundaries#“men dont smile at people.” well they should.#ive decided cishet men are the most boring people on the planet#“dont move with your hands” YOURE BREAKING MY POOR THEATER KID HEART#i need to meet more gay men irl to absorb the vibe of cause i only know like two. not counting myself#i want people to look at me and go. ah yes. fruit.#at this point im just going to accept being misgendered for the rest of eternity. id rather die than be boring in the way cishet men are#my flavor of being trans is so influenced by my autism cause my perception of genders is completely off from what everyone else is doing#im like. yeah i want to be a man. and then i look at what the majority of men are actually like and its like. wait no. not like that#shoutout to flamboyant gay men where would i be without them#i think the thing that bothers me the most is that like#in my mind peoples genders are just. the way they express themselves.#its not like. this super big complex deal like how everyone else treats it. if that makes sense? like.#regular people have so many rules for what counts as a man or what counts as a woman or what counts as neither and its like???#you can do what you want???? why do we care????#and ive been doing this since i was little. on account of the autism#i just. dont get why its such a big deal to people.#i cant wrap my head around it at all#not nonbinary not a girl not aegender not a man but a secret fourth thing#(man but i do it my way instead of everyone elses way)#unfortunately doing it my way just. leads to the misgendering dimension. for some reason
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the challenge of i should commission art of my ocs. would love to commission like, siiyr or bokrae, maybe krachyn or jula. siiyr or bokrae would make the most sense, maybe krachyn. i think theyre the ones with the most detailed notes on their anatomy
but also
oh god i cannot subject another artist to the anatomical war crimes i committed in making these ocs
#toy txt post#ig id be best off commissioning someone w a lot experience w like. centaurs. let alone commisioning them actually doing anything#interesting. the good bad news is ai cant do it either. fucking i cant even do it. why did i make these bitches. i gave bokrae a gf#but shes not. she cant even. her lips dont really do a kiss shape shes all teeth#siiyr has too many fucking elbows and a weird skull situation#bokraes skull continues to break my brain. i think it does break physics in universe. birdie did weird shit w that eye#its constantly trying to explode#the art ideas i have for bokrae and siiyr have plagued me for years even now in my depression funk of no new ideas#i cant bring myself to subject other artists to them?????#i should specify Bokrae's teeth more tho probably. i used to jokingly explain it away as she has all the teeth/they change#and. they do. canonically birdie has to replace all of her bones over time especially her skull. but also#that was me being lazyyyyyyyyyyyy#idk i know you dont necessarily need like a super detailed ref sheet to commission things but like. if i was commissioning my own ocs id#want that probably?#maybe i will try to draw the girls today. probably not doing anything interesting#bc i have not drawn for One Billion Years and im out of practice with Normal Human Anatomy let alone#these fucking Monsters#also maybe one day ill figure out Jared#pigeon head on a deaths head moth body with gemstone eyes is something i can see in my head but when i try to draw it it doesnt look right#so. need to work on that? the main thing about jared is that he needs to Scuttle#and id like to incorporate a pigeon#hm#hmmmmmmm
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i love doodling swapinverse like hello drawing characters aside from the normal mtt is lowkey therapeutic 🧡🧡🧡 anyways i FINALLY FINALLY finished crash's lore!!!! and vice.SER is connected to him,,,, theyre interconnected!!! i forgot how much i liked crash's design (not the design but all the little gimmicks in the design. figuring out all the hanging ribbon bits is annoying but hey it looks good)
#outertale does not exist in swapinverse anymore. how quaint#dude thalia and melpomene are th only ones that r like. 100% good#I NEED TO MAKE MORE GOOD AND NICE CHARACTERS😭😭😭😭#mst..... recreators (qip name 4 siphon n crash?) and vice.SER........ theyre all EVIL (or have evil goals)#i WAS thinking doing something with reaper because i adore his design and aesthetic and i wanna combine it with SOMETHING idk what#anyways if core frisk error which is supposed to be vice.SER exists then should normal core frisk exist too?????#i mean i dont think that just because a core frisk role esque person exists doesnt mean the role is instantly filled up#the mst and mtt co exist in swapinverse but those 3 are like.... NORMAL aus. not outcodss n stuff#i love the giant lance thing i gave crash. i mean the ribbons can form any weapon and take any shape (kinda like puella magi mami's guns)#but like..... it just is so cool i love characters that use multiple weapons#i LOVE (haha) every single little gimmick thing i give swapinverse characters. the tiny details is what i adore giving them#if you catch me not posting 4 a bit its probably just bc im working on swapinverse or jk fashion au. or maybe ive seriously just lost motiva#anyways i have a few banger rants in my drafts ive yet to elaborate om but just like....... i dont feel like it#someon needs to wrangle those posts out of my tired lazy arms#lowkey why do siphon and crash remind me of kanade and mafuyu. idk i cant explain#if you cut vice.ser in half it would be like jelly with binary in it. i wanna eat him#he would tingle on my tongue but thats just the static. eating yhe glasses would be difficult bit they dont have lenses so its ok#i drew them both looking at us but i think that vice.ser is the only true one always looking at US.looking out from inside#god i love swapinverse sooo much i wish i could get it done faster and be goatedly good with motivation. a shame#but i do think that i may be finishing up the character descriptions 500% ish sure#SO THEN THAT MEANS I CAN WORK ON THE ACTUAL STORY!!!! WOOOOO#ive already decided that theres gonna be mentions of me myself and i in it. i love meta storytelling#im cursed with perpetually sweaty hands i hate having to draw on slighty damp paper. nobody understands me#UGH im getting too happy in life im starting to act weird in public and offering to help people. i need to stop#anyways just school doodles!!! because in the period where they take our phones i have naught to do but draw#i need to get back (start) my english reading. and then help my friend with a few questions on her homework. how joyous#and then i can get back to my BETTER homework (working on swapinverse :3)#crash managed to destroy outertale in his lore i wonder how many worlds vice.SER will destroy#actually if hes supposed to be core frisk error then i should make him NOT destroy worlds right???? right#tricule rant
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Nishiki has been of legal drinking age for 2 months at the start of Yakuza 0, what do you mean he's already a regular at Serena? He says he likes it because the "family higher-ups" haven't found it yet; how frequently is he having to interact with the lieutenants that he already needs a respite from them?
I wonder how long he spent just venting to Reina about anything and everything, finally having a space of his own separate to Sunflower or the Dojima family. Anyway, this was meant to be a lighthearted "baby boy please think of your liver, you were still a teenager less than 100 days ago" type post.
#its obviously part of the gaming meta that the player needs a character who will introduce and explain everything#but i think it adds some interesting narrative implications#not to infantilise them but Nishiki and Kiryu are SO young in Yakuza 0 (even if their in-game models dont look like it)#and yes im acting like an old codger even though im in my late twenties myself but still#the gif quality is atrocious and i dont know why my bad#if you saw me post this on main by accident and then delete it no you didnt please pity me#nishiki#nishikiyama akira#akira nishikiyama#yakuza 0#ryu ga gotoku#rgg#yakuza series#nishiki yakuza#nishiki posting#nishiki thinking
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YOU MAKE THAT POST AND DON'T SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON EVERYONE'S OPINION ON SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG???
I MEAN IT'S SUCH A NICHE FUCKING TOPIC LMAO I DIDN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD CARE
but anyway here's the Egregiously Simplified version of Everyone Is Forced To Play Ten Routes Of Shadow The Hedgehog And Has To Give Their Opinion Afterwards
#snap chats#i already hear someone going 'the fuck you mean mine is number one shadow the hedgehog defender' YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME#at first i do think he'd be like 'what the fuck' but then going through all of shadows routes. or at least ten to get the final story#and seeing the constant betrayal and inability to trust others he faced yet still ultimately persevering due to his promise to maria#i think bro would be moved.. just a little.. would he think shadow a bit headassed for that considering what the humans did to him#Of Course but also its evident that shadows clearly taking things into his own hands now- as righteous of a mission as it is#despite the persistent attempted influence by everyone around him. shadows a complicated TRAGEDY he'd be moved#mine's artsy like that..... gotta go before i get shot ive said insane things before but this one'll take the cake me thinks#im not explaining everyone else mine's just felt like the one i NEEDED to explain lest i look more insane than usual#06 daigo's purely a Shadow Angst enjoyer. he understands shadow and he's wallowing in the misery of his backstory#majima's weird to categorize cause he definitely can be like Lmao The Fuck and/or just play the game chaotically#and then the aspects of identity come in and on the outside he'll be like 'bro its not that deep' but on the inside its like#Damn He Just Like Me Fr. i think. idk i dont study majima leave me alone im not making ANOTHER One Chara Exclusive category#i said i wouldnt explain anyone else and here i am explaining shut UP im gonna go eat#im not looking at this anymore bye#FORCING myself to leave cause i really will just end up typing essays on bitches perceiving shadow LMAOO
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how do i explain to lady aphrodite that she will have to share her altar with archangel gabriel /silly
#yes i am one of those that say 'lady' and 'lord' when refering to deity bcuz idk ... saying their name alone feel disrespectul#anywho been feeling weird . and kinda connected to archangel gabriel so - going to look into this#(also ... not rlly talking abt archangel gabriel as the one in the bible - it's hard to explain but yeah)#also !! i havent prayed to lady aphrodite for a bit because life get in the way but shes been helping me so much i am so grateful#(also . im not hellenist nor anything like this - i just pray to her and have an altar made for her because i feel connected to her and got#the need to do it - i do inform myself abt how to do my best to pray to her and all tho !! and i do use stuff from hellenist to do it tho <#and . i dont do any of the witchcraft or wiccan stuff to be clear)#i have a weird set of beliefs <3 dont mind it
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you know, i was about to make a post being like 'i think about dating men/masc people a lot, but i keep having dreams about women/femmes, n im wondering if i need to think more about comphet' but upon opening the app i got distracted by a joe keery gifset and went 'ah... nah i just like guys a lot too... ❤️'
#cryptic ramblings#not to say i dont still need to look into myself abt comphet bc its still real n ive still got some internalized shit i needa get over#(kinda hard when im living w family n idk how theyd respond to me being queer... my uncle in particular is... religious and conservative.)#(to put it lightly. and he lives w me n his sister who is my mother n SHES more flippant abt it but i still dk yk?#anyways at this point in time its easier to see me w someone masc or a man just bc its easier to explain to family or w/e#easier for them to swallow i guess. but i think if i moved out id be sm more open to exploring the rest of my attractions... idk)
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Quality interaction that just happened
I love having a quotebook in SP XD
#sepiasys.txt#There's definitely multiple of us here rn; totally. I'm really fuckin sleepy and I feel like soup and like#I felt really bad and left out and I couldn't explain why entirely because it didn't feel like mine? Like an intrusion really ig.#then I'd kinda snap out of it but mainly bc YouTube distraction is peak; and now it's just. idk. i feel like soup#If I'm aggro it's probably because B came in; said he loves us (/p); and then just left after the openly dejected response we gave#So you can imagine that was really damn unpleasant to experience? because that just. why??? I dont get why you're coming in here to say that#and then you just immediately leave like my response didn't matter being confirming I heard you??? Like what the fuck.#Anyways I'm pretty sure... most of us? were or at present??#I know ☕️ was. I feel like *I* would be 🪴; 👑 said that stupid shit after a whole daydream(?) about going out and being at a restaurant#(it was about we need to do that more; get used to ordering food; and we're allowed to be an obnoxious/mildly unpleasant customer. ykyk.)#(and then somehow it got to realizing oh yeah he wouldn't look like he does iw; he would look like the body; and that whole spiel above with#how the body looks as he talks to himself in front of a nonexistent mirror (we're in bed not the bathroom))#Btw I literally cannot tell if it's me arguing with myself or some other bitch doing it. I can't tell if I'm capable of that because like.#some of them are legitimate arguments. but idk if it's in the pro/con way or these two individuals are actually yelling at each other way :/#idk shit's fucked. Also *fuck* I can feel myself getting more awake/less tired. Dammit! I'm just gonna fuckin play YouTube videos again ffs#Yeah no multiple of us have to be present to some extent that's so fucking obvious
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Getting an autism eval. I'll let yall know how that goes sometime.
#personal#autism evaluation#audhd#recently was diagnosed w adhd and yeah#it just explains alot of my brain patterns and like#the way i didn't understand social cues and behaviors esp. on the Internet#ya#but ive basically self diagnosed myself bc i literally keep going back to being high support needs#it's just all conibg back bc im burnt out and cant function by masking anymore all day#always thought i was too high functioning but that shit was just covered up bt depression and extreme trauma and shit too#anyway#and they dont understand women's autism#they really don't#but the difference is that i don't have malintent and i just genuinely feel such strong emotions esp. in this world#and people don't understand that not everyone who looks “normal” is normal#i even have chronic pain bedridden pain#but you'd never see it unless you see my braces or are at my house#update in Dec!
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#my mom hasnt decided about driving to Toronto#i told her i need an answer#ideally now. but i feel bad bugging her#she thinks i should wait and see if prices go down#and she thinks i shouldn't spend so much money on a concert ticket#and i agree. i dont want to. i think its insane that they resell them for so much.#but its my money. and i get to decide what this concert is worth#i was telling her the prices are going up and i dont want them to turn impossible.#and she kept asking how much are they how much are they how much are they#i didn't wanna tell her bc i knew shed judge me but i did. and she did#i almost feel like she thinks she'll be doing me a favor by not helping me get there bc i wont spend the money#but she really really wouldnt be#i was hoping i could buy one for tomorrow and just go by myself and not make it her issue#but theyre more than im willing to pay for crappy seats#and she said i dont want you to go at any cost and like!!!! im not!!!!!#i hate myself for stooping low enough to accept resale prices but im not spending all of my money#and i have standards for prices for where the seats are#i made the decision to sell my vienna ticket before the shows were canceled bc i knew it was thr responsibile thing to do!!!!!#i will not drive 12 hours to toronto by myself!!!!!!#im doing it at more cost than i would like but not any cost. and id also like to not be judged for it#and also. its so important to me. and if i explain how important it is. id probably get judged for that too#idk man. she said she's gonna look some now at Toronto traveling expenses#she didn't say she would have an answer by tonight#you would think if she doesn't want me to spend a crazy amount of money she would have some urgency about answering me#ig she just doesnt wanna tell me no.#idk. idk. idk. maybe i will figure out some way to go to Toronto by myself if she says no#maybe ill buy an even more ridiculously priced ticket for tomorrow#idk. ahahhahahajahahahahah
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