#lmfao gender???? cant relate

[cricketcanadian]

I JUST FINISHED READING THE TOLL AND I LOVE JERI SO MUCH

[matoitech]

i have very little interest in interacting w media exclusively populated by very intentionally cis gay characters and that seems to be what gay dude furry vns tend to like doing. im sure theyre fun for cis guys bcuz u probably wont even consider it as kind of weird or shitty when its more ppl like u, but i am neither cis nor particularly interested in media that just doesnt have any women in it. not even entirely bcuz of the bisexuality and wanting to date the fake women cuz as established i dont have an interest in pretending to date fictional people its just kindof an immediate turn off (non sexual) for me for something to not have any female characters regardless of the like format or genre of the thing lol, and i think its more common w this stuff bcuz it generally exists For that like fantasy romance. maybe if the vns had more even splits with gender or if they werent all cis dudes + all cis dudes 1 trans guy etc id be more interested but i feel like i look at a lineup of all cis men and even being a bi man i just think nah no thanks

[catching-fire-in-the-wind]

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[youremyheaven]

How does sensuality work? I never understood (probably because I am way too stuck in the head). Sometimes I aspire to be honestly, though it doesn't come naturally unfortunately.

OMGGG I love this question 🤪✨😍

I consider myself very sensual 🥰🤪😜 and I realllyyy enjoy being in that energy 😌🫣🙈

First of all, lets begin by understanding what sensuality is and what it is not.

There is a world of difference between sexuality and sensuality. they're like night and day.

and you can be one without being another. because of the culture we live in, most people are sexual without being sensuous.

Sensual is understood as involving the five senses but also being sexually suggestive.

Sexual means relating to sex

Sensuality is more about enjoying yourself and life than it is about sexually pleasing or being sexually inviting. Sensual people seem more alive and vibrant because they truly enjoy the simple things and fine things, so they dont sweat the small stuff and usually maintain a calm and relaxed demeanour.

Sexual energy is more frantic, more wild, more aggressive. its very in your face and hard to miss. its someone asking you to give it to them, basically.

Sensuality is self-contentment and enjoying pleasure in all its many forms. be it food, music, dance, art, walking, looking at the sunset. A sensual person just enjoys absolutely everything. When you're in the presence of that energy, you feel similarly relaxed and open. They come across as warm, open and welcoming, its comfortable being around them. Someone who is fully alive will always naturally be perceived as "sexy" because they signal that they're open to enjoyment and pleasure.

All of these are subconscious impressions we form of people in nanoseconds, and whether we know it or not, we all pick up on energy and treat people accordingly. Why do we feel like being nicer to some people and standoffish with others??? its all down to the vibe. you can be a "good" person and still feel like you cant be good to some people who havent even done anything to you. its all just vibes.

I suggest reading Uses of the Erotic by Audre Lorde to understand this more. It's an essay and it's only a few pages long and she describes being erotic as a feeling of being alive.

pleasure activism by adrienne maree brown is another book i recommend on this topic.

now onto HOW to be sensual

Sensuality means being fully alive, open and vibrant. So in order to be sensual, you have to embody that.

You correctly said that you're too in your head and feel disconnected to sensuality because in order to be sensual, we have to get out of our head and into our bodies.

Sensuality necessitates forming a deep profound connection with our bodies.

This is why dancing is so sensual. just moving your body can feel so vulnerable but there is nothing as sexy or confident as someone who knows how to move???

there are many dance centered trauma release + "feminine flow" type activities. i know many of you get the ick from hearing things like "feminine flow" and i dont blame you lmao but being feminine, strictly energetically speaking means being relaxed, soft and flowing. thats Yin energy in Daoism.

dating in our era sucks because even men want princess treatment and it shows that Yin energy is def something that can be channelled by people regardless of gender lmfao xD

now many people have adopted a very harsh, aggressive "go-getting" approach to succeeding our toxic capitalist patriarchal world and whilst that might help us make some progress, we're constantly at the risk of burnout. so its in our best interest and for our long term well being to learn how to be chilled out and not sweat the small stuff.

think of Yin energy as the energy of being chilled out.

we can win and gain things by fighting for it but isnt it better to gain the same things in a softer gentler way??? you can work 200 hours a week, suck up to your boss and do all the extra work and someone else who does none of that will get 5 promotions while u get nothing. basically, life is not "fair", i.e, our efforts aren't necessarily going to be compensated for adequately and if you can get better results by doing less and chilling more, then whats the harm????

people who go far in life are often just people who are pleasant and fun to have around. look at any self-made individual and they'll have boat loads of charisma. whereas nepo babies wont even know how to hold a conversation bc they never had to lmao

anyways sorry for getting sidetracked (me everytime i talk lmao)

Do more body-centric activities to feel more connected to your body

this can be dancing, yoga, pilates or any exercise, or other hobbies like pottery, sewing, painting, basically anything you can do with the involvement of your body??? do that

they help you get out of your head and be in the here and now

being more present is like 50% of sensuality

and once you do things you care about more, you'll naturally shift to a place where you cut out things you dont enjoy and people you dont want to be around. youll enjoy life more. its all connected.

When you see someone with that raw earthy sexiness, don't they just seem so wild and free??

It's that. Someone who has that glow ✨

i hope this helped and provided some insights <333 i hope you get glowingggg <333

[androgynousdeer7]

~{Welcome to my account!}~

{Warning; Mentions of Disabilities, Politics, violence, and}

{explicit content}

{TLDR: I'm cringe, don't be a bigot or else I'll report and block you,}

{I'm queer and trans, I stand with Palestine, I'm autistic,}

{and I'm an artist in a lot of fandoms, I also write and animate.}

About me:

Preferred Names: Leaf / Ralzai (you can also call me deer or some other gender neutral nickname as long as I dont tell you to stop calling me it)

Pronouns: I'm okay with anything except she/her, but I prefer They/Them. (And yes this means anything, xenos/neos, it, call me a bug for all I care lmfao, just dont call me she/her)

Orientation: Aroace ( lithoromantic, sex repulsed cupiosexual)

(lithoromantic means desiring a romantic relation ship or feeling romantic attractions with no desire, or even feeling disgust, at those feelings being reciprocated)

(Cupioromantic/Cupiosexual is when a person has little to no romantic/sexual attraction but desires a romantic/sexual relationship)

(Being sex repulsed means to feel disgust or discomfort at the though or action of sex or sexual intimacy, it can also mean feeling disgust at the action of it and still having that attraction, or feeling disgust at the thought of it but have no issues or even experience pleaser from the action)

(Aroace is a term used for people who are somewhere on both the asexual and aromantic spectrum where they feel little to no romantic/sexual attraction)

Gender Identity: FTM TransMasc Male-Alighned Agender

(FTM is a shortened abbreviation of Female To Male, which is used for trans males or trans mascs who where born a female/AFAB but now identify as a Male or somewhere on the masculine spectrum)

(Transmasc means to be transgender but not exactly trans male or female, it just means to align with a masculine aligned gender)

(Male aligned means to be somewhere on the masculine spectrum of genders but not necessarily just 'male')

(Agender is a gender Identity that sits outside of the gender binary. It is used to describe people who feel as though their gender is neutral or just does not exist at all.)

Special Interests: Astrology (not the fate telling kind), Astronomy, anything to do with the ocean, spiders, snakes, black cats, Crystal's, gaming, art, animation, reading, Jesters/Clowns, Circus stuff, and TSAMS/TMGAFS/TLAES.

(Theirs probably more I just cant remember it)

Fandoms: Minecraft, Stardewvalley, Pokemon Arceus, Unpacking, GachaLife/GachaLife2, Creepypasta, Marblehornets, TOH, Underale, Deltarune, Welcome Home, My Little Pony, Pokemon, MHA, Marval, DC, FNAF, FNF, TSAMS/TMGAFS/TLAES, Little miss unfortunate, Fran bow, Sally Face, Little Nightmares, Omori, What remains of Edith Finch, and GoodPizzaGreatPizza

(Theirs probably more I just got a crappy memory and cant remember them all)

An intro on what I do, who I am and what I stand for:

I am no where close to being a professional by any means, but I hope to one day turn my art and writing into a career. Maybe I'll even be able to do game development haha!! But for right now I'm going to work on what I do know and build that up across platforms slowly :]

Also: I'm a furry, a therian, and I'm Aroace and Agender. I will post about these things on here and if you're uncomfortable with that you can either just skip over it or leave.

Another fun fact about me is that I have Autism and Dyslexia! I also have asthma and bad eyesight. These things affect my life daily and if I get comfortable enough on here I might talk about that a bit. But for other disabled people, please know that this is a safe space :]

This is also a safe space for other minorities and anyone who just wants somewhere to relax without having to deal with stuff like being disrespected or politics or whatever.

(So basically if you're lgbtqia+, poc, disabled, or anyone that just wants a place to chill, welcome!)

I will only talk about politics when it's about people’s rights or lives being taken. I stand with Palestine, and I'm a queer trans person who is disabled. My accounts are not a place to be a bigot, pr0sh!pper, homophobe, transphobe, rac!st, Ziønist, pedø, or any other gross or hateful thing. If you think like or support any of these, please get the fuck off my account.

What I make and creations I will most likely post about:

Animations (AMV's, practice ones, just small ones, etc) I'm just practicing it and I just recently got into it but I want to get better at it some day! I haven't done a whole lot of full animations but I'm getting there!

Writing (I write solely about my own OC's) I mostly do; Fantasy, Romance, Adventure, Action, Angste, and stuff involving gore and Violence, and in all my writing I post here I will try my best to put the appropriate warnings on it! (This also goes for all my work) if I fail to put the correct warning please inform me and I will update them.

Art (Mostly OCs but I'm more than happy to draw art for fandoms or other creators OC’s!) I mostly just do little doodles of my characters or character sheets but I'm gonna start practicing doing full finished drawings! I'm mostly a digital artist but I do make traditional art and I dabble in realism every now and then :] My favorite kinds of traditional art are painting and colored pencils! I really like drawing realism but I'm also a cartoonist!

Fursuit / Dino Mask / Coplay creation and planning, I want to get into sewing so I can someday make my own fursuit and cosplay stuff, but until then I'll just be posting what I have (which is mostly just Dino Masks).

Gaming (Minecraft, stardew valley, etc...) I'll be posting small clips or screenshots, or photos of games I'm playing, and I'll probably even make art for those games and stuff lol

[papirouge]

Yeah, pretty much like you said, men can be very cruel to each other. It's incredible though seeing certain insults being used so often and carelessly like retard, because I used to hang mostly in female leaning places, like tumblr, where its really frowned upon. On the other hand, in these sites I lurk there's also like gay jokes and even "transphobic" comments, like men freely saying "you cant be a woman if you have a penis", when some of these lolcows go trans or theres suspicion about it. And these comments have a lot of likes!

That's one thing I'll give men, they tend to care less about what others think and there seems to be less policing about what language is used. In female spaces, in my experience theres more judgement if you use certain words or make certain jokes, and you're scolded more harshly because of it.

Another thing that I've noticed from being in these spaces is how much men insult each other based on what women think or like. Like making jokes about how a guy is repelent for women, or making constant virgin jokes, or how their style scream "no women, thanks,", and stuff like that. Also, weirdly a lot of jokes about some looking like sex offenders.

On the other hand, there seems to be a lot of sexist weirdos too. Like sometimes, theyll talk about women who are related in some way to these lolcows, and inmediatly talk about wanting her to open an onlyfans, make sexual jokes, and talk about what they'd like to do to her. And if shes in her 30s, ive literally seen comments about the wall, and how she'll soon lose her worth, and she better worry and have kids or open an onlyfans before she loses her sex appeal.

I do think its funny when one guy states he finds a woman online attractive, and another its like "are you serious? shes like a 6/10 at most, like id fuck her once or twice, but not much else". Like why do you care what other men like in women? lmfao

It's so important that women understand that when men say "you can't be a woman if you have a penis" to trans don't even make that out of respect for women biology, they do that only to be mean. The bar is so low that I've seen gender crit women praise that dude who did the What is a Woman documentary... Hell world.

Men may make jokes about each other lack of sex appeal, but it doesn't mean they really care about looking good for women, but rather bc they fail properly performing masculinity. Attracting women is one of the consequences lf a well executed masucline performance, but not only.

And I've said it a thousand times already: the whole wall thing is men projecting their insecurities. Men have more visible signs of aging : their hairline recedes, their hair turns gray earlier as women, their overall unkeptness is eventually showing (beer belly, ugly skin, etc). Female beauty culture, as toxic as it can be, makes women more appealing longer. That's why men take a diss at our fertility when we age, because women visually look better longer (lack of fertility doesn't show).

Also it's funny to have these scrote soooo concerned about female fertility when they themselves don't have kids and are just terminally online porn fried incels. They are part of the problem. Women need decent men to have kids. Clowning them online for not having children won't make them suddenly hoping on a penis to have one, and if older women don't have children, it doesn't stop these scrotes from making their own families.... It all boils down to shame childless women for *existing* at an older age, and I really have no idea what their endgoal... Oh wait, I know 💡 WOMEN LOWERING THEIR STANDARDS. Because those idiots only think with what they have between the legs and are terrified at seeing older women stop being desperate for family and companionship at older age, like it did a few decades ago. Men are terrified of that dynamic shift and are obsessed in maintaining the status quo.

That new online trend of ugly moids calling "mid" beautiful women is exactly for the same reason btw : PUBLICLY humbling even above average/pretty women, so regular women reading this have their self worth crushed so they lower their standards, and have them dating down (moids).

Please don't fall for this trap⚠️

[alittlesimp]

Ranpo and Chuuya with a child who is like Dazai - headcanons

request: hello,can you do ranpo and chuuya with an adopted daughter who has a similar personality to dazai? if you do,thank you!

a/n: so while it does say ‘daughter’ in the request, i managed to make it gender neutral on accident? so ill change the title to something gn LMAO,, the ‘adopted’ bit was also hard to put in because i wouldn’t love an adopted child differently (so i cant describe it differently) and i personally have no experience with adoption so i cant put in relatable details that someone who does have experience might be able to put in ^^” i did write it with that in mind, but because it’s not obvious i’ll change the title to something a bit broader! ok phew long a/n, sorry!

warnings: reader is a child in this one

· Iconic father-child duo

· He absolutely loves how smart and funny you are

· He’s going to brag about you all the fucking time

· Like I think he’d be the type of parent who annoyingly brags about the most normal shit their kid does (‘ooh they pissed in the potty again yesterday’ shut up angela, they’re three, that’s normal, they’ve done it before, they’ll do it again, stop posting this shit to facebook, yes this is a personal experience)

· But somehow because you’re actually smarter than other kids this tendency gets amplified and thus, more annoying

· He’d mostly praise his own parenting skills

· “Look how smart my kid is! I raised them so well”

· If people call him out on this he’ll pretend to be confused and say it was just a joke (it wasn’t)

· Will take you to work and see if you can solve whatever crime happened

· And like, I wanted to say ‘if he’s sure it’s age-appropriate’ but I feel like he wouldn’t see the issue and the others would have to stop him from taking a five-year-old you to a murder scene

· He wouldn’t mind if you can’t solve the case, it just gives him the chance to flex his brain muscles LMAO

· This man is a sucker for praise and jumps up at the opportunity to show you he’s the best detective in the world / a cool dad

· He wants you to be as proud of him as he is of you

· He loves you

· But you really piss him off sometimes

· The key difference is that he has infinitely more patience with you than with Dazai

· The annoyances and grievances wouldn’t be there and the initial dynamic would be very different

· Like, you came into his life because he wanted you and not because he was forced to hang out with you by a weird old man with greasy hair and ugly shoes

· So while he might get slightly annoyed with your antics and endless chaos, he would never lash out

· He’d just laugh and joke around a bit

· At first he tried to tell himself you didn’t remind him of Dazai, but deep down he had to admit it

· He’ll go through the five stages of grief because of this LMFAO

· In the end he just finds it a bit funny, he can definitely put it aside and just let you be you

· I do think he’d keep you away from the mafia as much as possible, not just because he wants to protect you from the violence (and protect the image you have of him as a father), but also because he doesn’t want you to end up like Dazai would have, had he stayed in the mafia

· Chuuya’s not stupid and knows better than to put a young person he’s responsible for in an unstable environment like the mafia, even though he’s loyal to them and cares a lot about the organization

· Listen I could write for hours about Chuuya as a dad (same with other characters ngl), please don’t get me going lolll

please comment/reblog if you enjoyed! i’d love to hear what y'all think <3

taglist (please check this post for more information!): @missrown @pjofics @jessbeinme15 @whorefordazai

[losthomunculus]

What's the instant hit ship that prompted your post and do you hate it?

im spoilering all the ship names so I don't show up in any of their tags but heed my warning for some (polite) criticism

hrmm ok I don't really hate it but I just cannot get into cyn*nari. ships that are created before we even meet a character tend to not land for me cause I dont really care about the character yet and I'm the type who likes to observe and psychoanalyze before I mash my metaphorical barbie doll's faces together.

I do kinda hate y*eyato tho cause when it cropped up it seemed people were using it to intentionally piss off eim*ko fans. which like I dont even have a problem with m/f yae it just seemed weirdly targeted the way some people were talking abt it. also again- we hadn't met ayato at that point. now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth cuz of the drama.

ch*lumi is another one I really dislike but that's more into why I dislike a lot of m/f ships. I feel like there's an assumption that you can just put a man and woman next to each other and itll imply romance and it makes for very very lazy development. (that's like a big problem in shounen action I've noticed cause like obviously the romance isn't the focus but damn dude if you can develop an emotionally intimate relationship between 2 of the main guys at least give us something between who we're supposed to believe is in love.) also the fanworks I've seen for it seem.. overwhelmingly cishet.

even with my ships that are already gay I'm usually playing 4d interdimensional chess with their gender and whatnot, mostly cause I find my own gender to be something complex that I'm constantly exploring. so my assorted headcanons give me a playground to explore gender expression in a way that mirrors and contrasts to mine.

I think it can be very present when a m/f ship is queer. I've written my own m/f relationships that are palpably queer. Even if both parties are cis. Most ch*lumi content I've seen though? It's not that. which is really a shame cause even though I'm not really a traveler ship person and I really like childe and lumine as a platonic duo and I think I might like them as a ship if people made them gay as fuck. I'm more attached to other ships tho so I don't really care to get any sort of investment in that.

I can also tell when queer content is written by straight people sometimes which is just as bad lmfao. not saying straight people cant write gay romance, in fact I know many people find learn about their sexuality through writing so I fully endorse it, but you can usually tell when it's written by someone who is straight in a "I am conceptually okay with gay people but I have done nothing to unpack my beliefs that have occurred as a result of being raised in a cisheteronormative society" way. gay people are also fully capable of writing and thinking like this though so more literally I mean straight in like, a cultural/ideological way. if that makes any sense. Straight™

also definitely have seen the same thing in gender fics but I try not to be too judgemental cause like. I know half of the time their egg isn't cracked yet and they'll figure it out in a year or two. I've read several gender fics that start with the author saying "I'm not trans I just relate to their experiences" and lo and behold pronoun change in bio so like. yeah. let the chick hatch on it's own and all that.

I also dislike je*nluc for the same "people write them too cishet to have any appeal to me" reasons but also I personally headcanon diluc as gay so there's that.

also dont like b*nnett/f*schl/r*zor or any variations cuz I have my silly little siblings razor and fischl hc and then just. idk either of them with bennett doesn't really spark anything in me and it's one of those "I like them as friends so struggling to find platonic content of them has made me mildly annoyed" type deals.

no judgement to anyone who likes any of these ships of course! I think they're all perfectly fine even if they don't resonate with me on a personal level :^] except people who're into y*eyato for spite that's weird <3

I kinda got off track with that but <3 yeah

[pub-lius]

my thoughts watching the john adams series as i eat an uncomfortable amount of granola: dont tread on me 🥶🥶🥶

“you are here now 🥰 and you are safe 🥹” “uh… *leaves*”

1777 is my favorite year of the revolution tho, it was so slay ngl (totally not saying this just for von steuban)

i think john and abigail adams is good example of 18th century gender roles, where the man’s job was politics in government and the woman’s was politics in the community like social standing and all that. however it must be acknowledged that there was tension between them over these roles bc of how often john was away, which was kind of abnormal, likely bc john played so many diplomatic roles, much more than other men

“if i were a man, id be in the field of battle” idk why this made me sob. abigail knows so much about the war and what the soldiers go through, but she can only act vicariously through her husband, when this implies she really wants to do more ☹️☹️☹️☹️

IM ADDING LIKE 15 CHARLES ABUSE POINTS FOR THE SCENE WHERE JOHN AND JOHN QUINCY LEAVE BC FUCKING OWWWW charles abuse 1-15

john adams: VOMITING - john quincy: tu es 🥳 il est 🫣 elle est 🤨 je suis 🥶

omg the naval fight scene FUCKED ME UP the first time i watched it. i was like “omg his leg- OMG HIS L E G-“ and my dad was like “yeah thats what happened when you get SHOT DIRECTLY IN THE LEG WITH A CANNON”

ik this guy is having his leg chopped off and all but im just like “omg a good representation of 18th century medicine 🥰”

so uh… anyone want a granola bar?

OMG PARIS PARIS PARIS DHWJWHWJ they did it so well every time i see a scene in paris i piss my pants /pos (tmi but its that good)

bro who even liked ben franklin??? everyone who worked closely with him seemed to hate him or just tolerate him. like he’s funny, but damn bro. then again, the people i have in mind aren’t known for getting along with others, so maybe its that

i hate rich people but 1770s french aristocratic fashion… 🥵 (IM KIDDING IM SORRY DJSBWJWBWN)

“how is your french?” “uh… oh pas très bon…” “ah, that is easily remedied. you must either attend the theater or take a mistress” “DOCTOR FRANKLIN-“ me asf

im so shit at french, i cant even make fun of john

the whole quote john says about “i must study politics and war so my sons can study philosophy and shit so their sons can study music and whatever” is actually pretty dope. good one johnny

“he’s worked it all out” LMFAO I LOVE THAT GUY

OMG ITS LITTLE BABY LOUIS MY LITTLE MEOW MEOW omg you cant tell me he’s not ace, he’s literally wearing purple

he’s fr me tho like. “hello dr franklin!!! you have sex!!!! weird!!!! hello other guy!!!! …😐😑😐 you don’t speak french??? 🤨 not a word??? 😕… HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA bye *flutters away*”

is that vergennes? if its vergennes i’ll shit myself rn to fully understand what its like to be an absolute BABY

BEAT HIS ASS FRANKLIN BEAT HIS ASS

oh it was vergennes. i guess im going to have to shit myself. (i fucking hate vergennes so much he’s so annoying)

string quartet 🥺

D’ESTAING????? OMG LITTLE SCRUNGLY JEJEHWWBJ such a flirt too like bro keep it in your pants

who is this other guy?? who is he. he looks like my uncle. wait is that. who is the doctor. he’s a doctor. the bloodletting guy, he’s related to the schuylers. the surgeon general who is he. HELP ME WHO IS HE????

john quincy is smarter than his dad at like 12, i’ll give him that, but what is that haircut 🤨🤨🤨

OH NO OH NO ADAMS DONT GO IN THERE NO ADAMS FRANKLINS NAKEY DONT GO IN THERE NO DONT DO IT PLS STOP PLS NO JOHN NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hes dead

“i have been left kicking and writhing in the myre” you’re what 🤨

he’s right about franklin tho, he’s a shit legislator

child abuse 1: verbal abuse @ nabby who never did anything wrong.

fr tho john is being highkey negligent of his family at home like. bro you don’t have to write to your wife about politics???? just tell her you’re okay tf, she’s worried. this pisses me off as someone with a dad who couldn’t see me all the time for his work and still went out of his way to be there. so yeah, fuck you, john. fuck. you

oh god the netherlands negotiations 😒 its so painful to watch

also the dutch architecture slaps just as much as the french

“*CHOKING AND DYING*” “are you will” “*STILL CHOKING* im fine” 🤨

YAAAS SLANDER HIM FRANKLIN SLANDER HIM!!! 🤩😌😊😊🤪🥰😒🥰😜🥸😊😊🤩🙂🤪😜😒🤨

“..do you mean… have i failed here as well?” yeah, actually.

child abuse 2: sending j.q to russia when he doesn’t want to and also with that bitchass haircut

was that a duty and inclination reference 😨

[liketheinferno2]

blorbo questionaire(?):

preface: i have not watched any of these/played them besides Nier Automata and Replicant

kristoph g-something, (maybe gavin?): the inside of his head is an oil fire he is continuously pouring water on and fanning with his hands, he has this weird complex about Wanting the Black Haired Dude and also being disgusted by him. he is losing 4D chess that he's playing with himself. Also has anxiety tics

estinein: oh my god he's this like. white haired elven Guy who is in an abusive relationship with his telepathic(?) eye and i think he is also wearing the blood of the guy whos eye he just... took? questionable eye acquisition... he is coated in blood but he wouldnt smell bad because i think patch'ii cat cleans him or something, if so i think patch'ii should get a free toothbrush. i think a lot of the fandom seems to misinterpret him from what ive read of your posts and my god i can relate bc my favs also always get their nuance sucked out through their one personality trait people assign him

harchufaunt: HARCHUFAUNT

Nier (protagonist): im in act 2 after the whole tentacle ship in my first run and my grasp of nier is: cant swim, is the baby girl to kaines bad boy, he is very tunnel vision and just... Cognitive dissonances his way through the day while taking down more and more shades and tunes out any other options because otherwise nothing would be worth it. Half the time i almost forget yonhas the prerogative because niers so determined to be taking as many detours as possible and keep putting off the inevitable reality. Good boy!

Adam: woman, but no, but yes and a mother, had a stab wound baby he didnt want by deadbeat dad 2b and popularly dubbed incel 9s (i think this is the dumbest and funniest interpretation of his character and how it is held by more than one person i do not know)

9s: decidedly small and also he has half the arm of his dead not gf attached to him because he is small gender

GOD THANK YOU FOR THIS TREMENDOUS READ THIS IS ALL VERY ATTENTIVE AND GOOD. BUT I'M REALLY DELIGHTED THAT YOU SOMEHOW GOT THE CONCEPT OF PATCHAH'LI CLEANING ESTINIEN SOMEWHERE IN HERE. Because he doesn't but I definitely have him as cleaning younger characters like a cat. You can't lick Estinien's hair he wouldn't allow it. But you CAN take a bath together in an onsen:

I also want to show you Estinien's Special Guy:

This is why the eye's like a big sticky bowling ball. Big man is BIG. He's just also sentient through the eye and can talk with it, just to Estinien though. The eye was taken a thousand years ago and held as a treasure by the Blatantly Just The Catholic Church until Estinien stole it and started running around with it to draw Big Man away from the people in city and towards him, because he's a dragoon knight, a knight that kills dragons. He's like "I will be a delicious hunk of meat this guy wants to tear to pieces. What could POSSIBLY go wrong there?" When they meet in person he takes the OTHER eye out of his head and this leads to 1. covered in blood, 2. my favourite Estinien image of all time

I keep that MF THANG ON ME!!! I've ended up so attached to Esti for a great many reasons but part of it that I'm playing as another dragoon knight and that nets you a bunch of extra scenes and context for him. And he likes you best. This isn't just ANYONE'S blorbo, he's mine lmfao.

Also people struggle with Estinien I think largely because he's characterised as a very socially stunted person so where another character would tell you their tragic backstory and try to explain what they're doing, Estinien just kinda... doesn't? You have to hear it from his dad, and that's optional. So they present you with a guy who is going through some extremely heavy shit but it's mostly private, you're never getting the whole story of this nebulously terrible relationship he's in; he thinks he's got more power in it than he has and the player's inclined to believe him. The curtain comes off about exactly how bad it all is pretty late in the game and even then it's not of his own will and he's resistant to being saved from this situation too. He's a Difficult Bitch. But then you do bleed and cry and help him and seeing the emotional recovery afterwards is really fantastic. Slow burn character.

Also Haurchefant? That's pronounced as "Orshufon." I know.

ALSO YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT INCEL 9S BEING THE DUMBEST TAKE TO EVER HIT THE INTERWEBZ. THANK YOU FOR THE ASK AND GOOD MORROW

[prettyprince00]

journal stuff and this 1 includes astrology sh*t lmfao of all things so double scroll past if ur one of those ppl who cant stand that stuff eh

so yesterday my sister took me 2 an astrologer and the woman read my chart. it was interesting. she said I hav this thing (asteroid?) near my ascendant called dejanira that basically gives me a "victim" aura + makes me attract evil/abusive ppl (esp of the male gender). coupled w ... um ... 1st house neptune? (dreamy/magnetic/chameleonic looks that r prone 2 b projected onto) and sum venus stuff the way she described me made me feel illfated as hell like thomas from thomas no shinzo or sum other manic pixie dream martyr faunlet archetype lolol. said im resilient and overall "strong" among other stuff mostly related 2 artistic gifts and recognition so yea maybe i do hav a chance lolol

[kekisu]

TOP 5 CHARAS AND 5 REASONS WHY YOU LIKE THEM GO GO GO

AHHHH OKAY OKAY. I LITERALLY LIT UP WHEN I SAW THIS IN MY INBOX YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA THANK YOU SO MUCH ah okay. i hope its ok if i leave it to just one or two of my fav things about them though cause NFHBGDF I DONT WANT THIS TO BE MILES LONG i hope you understand!!!!!

1. LIGHT YAGAMI

now. i dont think anybodys surprised. MFKSKFMFMHNGJN honestly, though i dont care about death note much at all anymore, hes like gum stuck to my shoe and i just cannot get him off no matter what i do. i tell myself that i dont give a fuck about anything in death note until i see him on my dash and i go apeshit. hes completely changed me and how i approach analyzing complex characters. i think hes the first character that ive ever actually cared about in that sense? the sense where i look into every detail about him i mean. its really just so fun...

my absolute favorite thing about him... i really love how funny he is. this isnt to say hes a humorous guy im saying hes funny as in he makes such stupid decisions and its hilarious to see him struggle so hard constantly. the entire ending of death note is fucking insane it sends me into laughing fits every time. theres so many funny moments in death note despite it being considered a psychological horror animanga because of him being a genuine fucking idiot 24/7. hes supposed to be a genius but he truly does lack so much self awareness sometimes.

if you wanna know more of my thoughts in depth, i have an analysis of him here that you can check out :) ID LOVE FEEDBACK ON IT so if you disagree with me or have questions etc feel free to shoot an ask and ill try to answer!!!!!

2. GORO AKECHI

god... hes perfect. he and light are on the same level of favoritism for me, dont let the numbers fool you. hes hands down my absolute favorite in persona 5 and it blows my mind knowing that the majority of the fandom feels the exact opposite or are torn over him ITS ALMOST FRUSTRATING because its mostly due to the amount of misinformation/mischaracterization spread about him!!!! but no he just happens to be the best written character in that piece of shit of a game! MFDKDHNGJJ AND PERSONA FANS CANT COMPREHEND GOOD WRITING

my favorite thing about him.. i love how hes written. and i know this sounds really basic and predictable, but its the truth i just really love his growth as a character, especially in royals third semester when he gets a chance to properly shine and oh my god! did he shine! hes literally so perfect in 3rd sem

theres just something so captivating about an angry teenager who truly thinks of his life as worthless and doesnt bother making bonds with others because of it who suddenly finds himself questioning his choices of self isolation when he finally meets a group of people he can resonate with and feel seen by. a group of people who are willing to reach out and listen to him despite his past mistakes. theres just something so perfect about seeing that same angry teenager want to take his life into his own hands and strive to grow... that same angry teenager who didnt value his own life start to see meaning in things because of bonds...

i love goro so so much he makes me so emotional if it isnt obvious enough NGFHGDGBDFH I THINK ABOUT HIM A LOT. i think about him healing so much.

(btw im working on an analysis for him atm thats similar to lights so! stay tuned for that dropping when its done in like a million years NFHFBGFHDBGHF)

3. AKIRA KURUSU

DAMN 2 PERSONA 5 CHARACTERS IN A ROW

OKAY SO i know Technically akira is supposed to be a blank slate silent protagonist but let me tell you THATS SO FAR FROM WHAT HE ACTUALLY IS. IM NEVER FORGIVING ATLUS FOR TRYING TO SHOVE HIM INTO THE SILENT PROTAG BOX AND NOT LETTING HIM BE HIS OWN CHARACTER! BECAUSE HE HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE AMAZINGGGGG ugh sorryfor caps im so fuckng mad MKDFKMGMHMGMG

it really does get on my nerves how because of atlus trying to make him a silent protag, the majority of the p5 fandom sees him as that. blank slate. nothing. when in reality he very much has a ton of spunk and id argue that hes his own character entirely if you just look a little deeper past the surface Like... its not even that hard to see personality in him. beneath the mask is literally his theme song, have you Not seen the lyrics to that? HAVE YOU NOT SEEN THE ENTIRE THEME OF THE GAME? this little dude is so traumatized and angry at those who wronged him (aka the justice system! shitty adults!) and people have the nerve to say hes the worst persona protagonist? lmfao

my favorite thing about akira is how he looks like a cat and how cocky and annoying he can be.. he is such a jokester hes the absolute dumbest. i enjoy this silly guy. *holds him under the armpits like a longcat*

4. SHIGEO KAGEYAMA

ahhh mob. he makes me do this -> :)

mp100, of course, changed my fucking life. mp100 is the reason i am the way i am and though all the characters are incredibly relatable and memorable and i cherish them so dearly, i, like most people, cherish mob the absolute most. seriously his strength really is incredible and though hes just a fictional character he is so inspiring and i wish to carry as much gentleness in my heart as he does.

im so so proud of him on his development he started off so.. i wouldnt say he was weak, but i would say that he lacked experience. he lived in his own little bubble not knowing what the world was like and throughout the story he grew to learn so much.. he learned to make such. mature decisions at such a young age. hes so so wise. hes so powerful not only because of his psychic powers but because of his compassion for others. he can befriend even the worst of people...

my favorite thing about him is his determination to become the best version of himself he can be. and also his relationship with ritsu (not me, i mean ritsu kageyama <3) i always gravitate towards siblings in fiction because im an only child and well <3 i dont experience that. so i like projecting onto them GHBFBBHFG they care so much for each other.. sniffle sniffle

5. RYO ASUKA

ok im going to be real even though im into devilman i dont have much of a reason to enjoy him this much. i just think hes hilarious and really cool and his satan form gives me gender envy. i love it when he commits random easily avoidable acts of violence for no reason at all its just because he wants to. and thats just fine. i think he can kill people and get away with it because hes ryo asuka. gay rights

[darlington-v]

Bro yeah... the transmasc friendship longing... its like yeah... I feel like its the youth vibes I should have had... and like, I look back on stuff I used to watch and how I felt about people around me... and like... the same wish and envy has always been there. Which like makes me feel a bit better cause its not JUST beeduo to give me the feelings...

Yeah... I just wanna be a bro who hangs with my bros...

You can like ignore this if you want, it just more of me being /same...

OK SO THIS HAS BEEN SITTING IN MY INBOX FOR A HOT MINUTE BUT YEAH

U GET IT ANON.

and yeah same i had the same reaction to like sasuke and naruto as like uhh genins, and theyre like Anime Bitches

and then i've had the same reaction to eddie n richie from IT in the 2017 film so like

i know it's not JUST beeduo but damn i still get sad when i watch them sometimes lmfao

but it's alright i mean something that can bring me comfort is like!! honestly??? fiction exists for a reason, and you can totally just.... explore things you may miss out on THROUGH fiction. and that's like a comfort. like sometimes things aren't ideal because of the cards we're dealt and that's okay! bc idk sometimes the missing cards meant more experiences that make me, me.

i was thinking about this in the car about like how. i think to myself sometimes like wow i wish i had the childhood a cis gay man would have had because i know?? a lot of like.... things ive missed out on childhood are important to me and i wish i had those experiences sometimes.

BUT ALSO??? IF I WAS A CIS GAY MAN IDK. IDK IM GLAD IM A TRANSMASC NONBINARY PERSON DUDE. like cis men are great and wonderful and i genuinely love them!! but im glad i have.... the experience of being raised "female" so to speak. like maybe i didn't have like???? the experiences i sometimes may YEARN- this is so far unrelated to bee duo bc im getting into like being a queer cis boy, and like??? idk if they're queer! maybe! it's not my business and it's not anyones but im not putting any type of labels on these guys bc its not my job nor my business like i said

BUT. BEE DUO R SLIGHTLY RELATED TO ME GOING AWW MAN WISH I WAS A CIS BOY WHO WAS KINDA FRUITY W/ MY HOMIES SOMETIMES

BUT ANYWAYS.

I MAY YEARN FOR THAT SOMETIMES but also if i was cis i think i'd not be as privy to somethings i am now? like idk! like, the male experience is vastly different from the female experience, and [this is applicable to childhood largely as our society functions on a binary in terms of gender, and only recently has it become more often that parents may raise their kids aware of gender and shit like that.] so i'm not talking about adulthood being confined to a binary, but our childhoods (at least in the US) mostly are. like typically by adulthood if you're queer you have an idea or you know and you have the freedom to explore that and experiment with it. like thats not to say by adulthood the female and male experience are the same either, it's just to say usually by adulthood it's not just a narrow binary. like maybe??? in childhood it can be more broad be depending on how you were raised, but most people are raised... with a binary.

ANYWAYS. THEYRE BOTH DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES. AND THOUGH I MAY LAMENT ON THINGS I'VE MISSED, I THINK THE EXPERIENCES I HAVE NOW HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO WHO I AM TODAY, AND OVERALL, I LIKE WHO I AM TODAY. especially MUCH more than like. how much i'd be willing to SACRIFICE that for like... a cis boy experience.

like i wouldnt be able to, obviously, but with that knowledge i don't have to lament it all the time. especially when, like i said, i can just... explore that experience in fiction. and if you really wanted to like, you could definitely RP something similar with your friends! because its a fun and cool way to explore shit in fiction!

RP and fiction is cool, it can be a healthy tool for people who have been robbed of experiences or simply have missed experiences and lament that to explore.... said experience.

TLDR;

YEAH ME TOO, BUT A PIECE OF COMFORT I HAVE IS THAT EVEN THO I CANT HAVE THOSE EXPERIENCES, THE EXPERIENCES I HAVE NOW HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY AND I CAN ALWAYS JUST. WRITE SOME FICTION OR RP SOME OF THOSE EXPERIENCES IF I RLY WANTED TO

[magdalyne]

i was tagged by the lovely @universalinvariant to do this tag thing, i ♥️ u miss [name redacted]

name: mads or madeline ! (or literally any variation of my name that isnt maddy is fine lmao)

gender: gal

star sign: taurus 😈

height: uhhhh 5'4 ??

birthday: 5th of may babey

favourite band: currently would be glass animals

favourite solo artist: currently either fiona apple or sufjan stevens 🙃 im fine

song stuck in my head: ive had holiday by lil nas x stuck in my head for like a week adbsjchbsjdh

last movie: last movie i watched was the invisible man (the new one) but the last movie i saw in the actual cinema was synchronic

last show: at any given moment i am rewatching arrested development or forensic files

when did i make this blog: end of 2014 during my HSC lmfao

last thing i googled: 'candle magic book'

other blogs: @lincraft for knitting/craft related things, but my twitter is @/mandlens follow me i need validation

do i get asks: sometimes ! mostly from miss @randomfatechidna when i reblog those ask posts bc she a real one ☝️

why i chose this url: it me name

following: ????? i following my friends <3

average hours of sleep: 6 maybe

lucky number: 12

instruments: nada :( but used to play guitar

what i'm wearing: my pyjamas 😴

dream job: crime scene investigator / detective

dream trip: greece (again)

favourite food: this is such a loaded question im a taurus i cant pick one. probably the crumbed chicken pasta salad from soul origin in world square. the town hall one is just not as good

nationality: greek aussie mate

favourite songs: if u see me listening to willow by taylor swift avert your eyes.

last book i read: and then there were none by agatha christie !

top three fictional worlds to live:

1. australia with a greens pm and scomo and craig kelly are in prison :)

2. my own personal daydream world where [redacted]

3. inside that little 3d heart gif

i will tag @randomfatechidna @wayfarers97 @johnbboyega @planetaire and whoever else wants to do it !! 💕💕

[baphomilf]

tagged by @ahhwhocaresanyway for this uh survey thingy, thanks ^^

Name: Id rather not so, Jelly is fine

gender: female

star sign: leo

height: 5′8/173 cm

time: 2.37pm

birthday: 7th Aug

fav band: Placebo or System of a Down

fav artist: I uh, dont have one, who ever did the mother sheep and the crows idk

song stuck in my head: Gehenna, Slipknot

last movie i watched: the  Peanut butter Falcon

last series: the haunting of bly manor

blog age: like 10 days (but my other blog is gonna be 6 this year)

content: mostly just kinky stuff, gorgeous people and a bit of positivity

last google: how to play age of empires on mac;;;;;

side blog: i dont have one, i have a whole separate account for my regular blog

do you get asks: only the goldstar lesbian spam ask so far <3

URL meaning, i love Moon jellyfishes, but i wanted this url to not be connectable to my main, and the bitch is just for funzies

following: 82

followers: 18 <3

average hours of sleep: i cant cope without like 7-9

lucky number: 8 i guess

instruments: piano, guitar and violin

clothes: goth, glamorous aunty, jellyfish

dream job: uhh anything wildlife conservation related

favourite food: pumpkin soup

nationality: Australian

favourite song: shit thats a hard one..... maybe Plasticine by Placebo

last book: Where song began by Tim Low

holy moly lmfao

I dont know anyone here well enough to tag yall, but interact with the post if you wanna be tagged in future !

[soulclub]

tagged by: @tariyo thanks for tagging me <3 i finally got around to doing this skdjdkd

nickname: rae

zodiac sign: aquarius

height: 5'4

languages: english (im technically learning korean but that's....not going well at the moment)

nationality: american

favorite flowers: i dont rly care about flowers tbh and i dont really know of very many types

favorite animal: this one's hard !! cause like i of course love cats and dogs to death?? but i feel like pets are sort of in a different category than wild animals if that makes sense?? like if we're talking about pets, probably cats. but wild animals? i think whales bc ive always had an attachment to them and a fascination with them. but this is a v hard q cause i love all animals sm >:// (oh and turtles come in a very close second)

favorite scent: pretty much any kind of warm scent tbh. like cookies baking in the oven or the smell of a bonfire!! things that give me Nice feelings. i dont rly like artificial scents that much tbh?? and wow i just realized most of my favorite scents are food related ok

favorite fictional character: this is hard omg? like i dont think there's a specific character that i love more than anyone else i just have various different characters that i love (& i also specifically love characters in relation to other characters like dynamics n stuff??) if i were to try to list any it would just get really random

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: coffee but hot chocolate is a close second

average sleep: 10 hours lmfao.... (i wrote all these answers n saved them to my drafts a while ago i wish i could go back to when this answer was true rip in peaces hello sleep deprivation 🙏)

dream vacation: i dont rly have one tbh? like to be brutally honest travel gives me anxiety so i dont rly think about it

blog established: 2018

cats or dogs: cats (i love dogs sm but they're so high maintenance and high energy i cant rly handle them. its not u its me!!!)

random fact: i can wiggle my left ear

gender: girl

sexuality: ace/aro spec

where from: america

why did you start this blog: to post abt kpop & make mutuals

most recently played album: i think mots 7 probably

not gonna tag anyone cause i feel like a lot of ppl have probably done this already but if u see this n want to do it just say i tagged u :))