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[hella1975]

OMG WHAT HAPPENED ARE YOU OK AFTER GETTING SPIKED

i wasn't sure if i was gonna answer this bc the extent of my communication skills on topics that upset me are very much 'i will make bad jokes about it in tags and that's about it' but i think i'm gonna do a quick little Poste here about it just bc i know a lot of you are a tad concerned and also bc it's just such a big thing at the moment (or at least it is in britain idk about the state of the rest of the world but we are Going Through It with spikings rn lmao)

if you've been spiked i will say there's a tw for that here bc i am gonna talk quite in depth about the effects of it and my experience, so please don't bring up any trauma for yourself just for curiosity's sake xx

so i got spiked on wednesday night and when i tell you i have NO memory of that night at all i mean i literally had to call my friend in a complete state the next morning and get her to tell me exactly what had happened. as far as i was concerned, one second i was dancing and the next it was morning. i have no memory of a lot of key things my friend told me about, including the uber home and even getting to my flat safe. 3+ hours worth of memories (spent in a CLUB in an INCREDIBLY vulnerable state) just completely gone from my mind. it's obviously an incredibly terrifying experience and it's really shaken me up, but i want you guys to know that i had good friends with me for almost the entirety of it (side eyes the 20 mins i was unaccounted for and chooses to Not Think About It) and they made sure i was safe and have generally been very supportive for the entire thing.

what i DIDNT know about being spiked is that it's quite common to feel the effects of it days later. obviously the mental strain has been a lot hence me running home for the weekend just to feel a little safer, but the physical toll is still impacting me and i didn't know that was a thing. so i guess im gonna use this as an informative post? i just want any of you who have gone through this or knows someone who has gone through it to know the finer details, bc all you're ever really told are preventative measures and how to tell you've been spiked as it's happening. for me, both are useless, bc i took all precautions, and i have no memory of what i was thinking during the period i was spiked for. i have no idea if i even knew something was wrong (that's how thorough the amnesia is. it's literally like someone telling me things that happened on THEIR night out; that's how detached i feel from it all bc for me i might as well have not been there.)

i've been experiencing waves of nausea ever since, including all of today, and i'm understandably mentally exhausted, but also physically too. these are things i didn't know spiking caused and had to find out through research, which can be quite triggering bc a lot of spiking articles tend to throw around 'what if' scenarios as if victims of spiking aren't reading it. that's why i want to talk about it here. *clicks fingers* i got traumatised so you don't have to!😊

i've not felt many other symptoms today. i've been sleeping a lot and feel very fragile physically. the nausea is bad (literally thought i was gonna have to leave the cinema during eternals today #livelovelaugh) but it's nowhere near as bad as it was on thursday, when i spent the whole day either in bed or beside the toilet. still, the aftershocks of being spiked are incredibly prominent, and i can't see them going away for at least another day. knowing that what i've been feeling is actually another side-effect of the spiking was reassuring to me, because it explained what was happening with my own body, but it's also scary and can bring it all back to the surface again, because it made me realise that if drinking excessive alcohol only gives me a hangover for a day while my body gets it out of my system, then how strong was the thing i was spiked with to make my body take days to flush it out? what was i even spiked with? how could something so strong be put into my body and i have to just live with it?

the entire thing is a big question mark. it's terrifying because you don't know anything, and every day it gets clearer to me that my memories aren't just going to come back like i know some part of me is still waiting for. that night is gone forever because someone stole it from me, and the helplessness of that is debilitating. if you have ever gone through this or know someone who has, please please be kind. it's so hard to explain why it rattles you so much because there's not actually anything you can pinpoint, and that's the problem. i can't even imagine how horrible it must be for people who go on to be exploited when they're spiked.

stay safe out there. take care of your friends xx

[hoesephseed]

Ultimate Ship Meme

Tagged by: @clutch-wept and @gamer-purgatory thank you!!!!

Alice x John

This is an AU where Alice joins Eden’s Gate

General:

Rate the Ship -  Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - Well… Alice joined Eden’s Gate and took her place as the wife of the baptist. Until the very end, I guess… or until someone else comes along and kills John...

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - Alice wasn’t looking for a relationship when she first arrived in Hope County. She was running away from her problems... John was the one that had to kept insisting so it took a while.

How was their first kiss? - John kissed Alice first and she wasn’t very happy about it. She did felt guilty about the way she reacted and wanted to make it up to him later...

Wedding:

Who proposed? - John after taking her on a plane ride across the valley.

Who is the best man/men? - Jacob, but if Aaron was aware of her marrying and approved of it he would be as well.

Who is the braid’s maid(s)? -Teagan, Faith, and Rose!! In this AU Ilsa and Alice would be enemies so I doubt she would be there!

Who did the most planning? - They both did!

Who stressed the most? - John because he wanted everything to be perfect! Alice specifically asked for no flower print cloth or curtains or anything that had flower print on them. John doesn’t understand why she hates flower print so much.

How fancy was the ceremony? - Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big. - John has money! He wanted it to be perfect!

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? - Alice’s family! In this AU she still ran away and never told them specifically where she was, the only person who somewhat knew where she was, is Aaron. Aaron wouldn’t have approved of her joining a cult especially marrying the leader’s brother! If he was aware he would have dragged her back to Texas, even if it was the last thing he did. 😞

Sex:

Who is on top? - Alice mostly

Who is the one to instigate things? John

How healthy is their sex life? - Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now

How kinky are they? - Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head (she married John c’mon)

How long do they normally last? - depends

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? - Yes!

How rough are they in bed? - Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it.

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory.

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? - 0, Alice doesn’t want children and has made it very clear to John that she would not birth any! She has been very reckless and has done a lot of things she regrets… She is also just scared she might not be a good mother.

How many children will they adopt? - You mean animals right xD, If they survive the collapse, they would adopt/help those that were left orphaned

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? - n/a

Who is the stricter parent? - John, because of his responsibilities with the cult, but they would both be very chill.

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? - Alice would probably encourage them!

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? - N/A

Who is the more loved parent? - They both are for different reasons!

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? - what meetings?

Who cried the most at graduation? - post-nuclear world what graduation?  

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? - John, he is a lawyer after all!

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? - They both can’t cook!

Who is the most picky in their food choice? - Alice  

Who does the grocery shopping? - Before the collapse, they had one of the followers deliver it to them.

How often do they bake desserts? - John has tried and failed but Alice still ate it because she felt bad and knows he is trying.

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? - Both!

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? - Before the collapse John had someone cook a real fancy meal for them.

Who is more likely to suggest going out? - Alice

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking? - Alice, give her the oppurtunity and she will set something on fire. 

Chores:

Who cleans the room? - Both!

Who is really against chores? - Alice, she takes her time and gets distracted easily.

Who cleans up after the pets? - Alice, John wasn’t really into having pets.

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? - Alice

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? - Both! They both had very strict parents growing up and a constant need to gain their approval. Alice’s parents were nothing like John’s but they do share that resentment.

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? - John, and was surprised because he thought they didn’t make them anymore…

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? - Alice, she loves her baths.

Who takes the dog out for a walk? - Alice but John likes to accompany her during her morning walks around the ranch. Especially when things start to get more chaotic with the resistance. He knows she can handle herself but feels more at peace accompanying her.

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? - Alice grew up doing it, so she makes sure to continue the tradition. Post- nuclear war doesn’t really allow for much decorating so...

What are their goals for the relationship? - To die old and happy… probably didn’t happen...

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? - Alice, her sleeping schedule is all over the place actually. She also has responsibilities as the wife of a herald so she has to have a “normal” sleeping schedule.

Who plays the most pranks? - Alice, it amuses John.

tagging: @indigorox​ @twirlingsmoke​ @jack-morrison​ @mrspaigeomega​  and anyone else who wants to do it. I feel like it took me forever to do it so mostly everyone has done it.