#like it is literally the portmanteau shortening of ‘stalker’ and ‘fan’

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Contradictory experiences, nothing to do with being neurodivergent btw, saying as one. I, like millions other out there, both ''stan'' celebrities and hate knowing anything at all about celebrities at the same time. In this case it's celebrities who are creators and have connected with me through their art, helped me mentally. Like musicians, I'd die without music and it helps that I know some people out there are good people. At the same time, I hate that I also know a lot of big musicians are terrible people and I can't just casually listen to their stuff. And it's not just big celebs like comics fans also technically stan a lot of creators despite them insulting their fans/ fave characters, some even stan the company itself. There's a lot in this, it's not so simple to just dismiss it as ''parasocial relationship weird'' the way people who have never ''stanned a real person'' do and it's not 100% stalkery and delusion. It's understandable we feel frustrated by media making their lives the focus of ours, both feelings coexist that's society, unfortunately. You won't be free of it. I know me supporting real life humans in their creative endeavors is doing good for them n me, and I'll punt every royal family stan into the sun, such is life. (This isn't me telling you to not be pissed over it btw)

oh, yeah i understand that participation in stan culture as a Thing hasn’t got much to do with whether or not someone is neurodivergent, i think the last anon was relating specifically to *how* i expressed my lack of understanding and the way i thought about it, not necessarily the exact sentiment i was expressing.

and to be clear i may not Get it but this isn’t something i’m really *angry* about, i mentioned this in the tags but like my brain was entirely fried at time of posting and i pretty much just lost track of my general understanding that some people enjoy things i find incomprehensible. i also genuinely had been under the impression that the term had negative connotations bc of the eminem song and most people were using it ironically