#like im not living with my brothers cause theyre awful and have a drinking problem and im not living with my moms friend lilia cause
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lmao our landlord just said we have like 2-3 months before we need to leave like HUH? my mom said she's not gonna worry too much cause they cant just kick her out that quickly but like....idk man. they did that to the people above too and those ppl were the landlords family lmao like. idk man.
#anyways hope my grandma will let me live with her again lolol cause like i dont rlly have anyone else?#like im not living with my brothers cause theyre awful and have a drinking problem and im not living with my moms friend lilia cause#she only has one room and i dont want to share a room with my mom again plus i dont rlly know this lady#also theres like no places my mom and i could possible afford rent around here.#god like this sucks purely cause im bad at asking for help and while i dont thinkkk my grandma wwill say no#the thought of her saying no makes me want to cry lol
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Got any magnus the red headcanons?
boy do i ever. this is a magnus stan twit
once again, if any of these contradict canon, my L, i drink dumb bitch juice sometimes
the warp equivalent of Extremely Online. can cite daemonic memes at you at 30 paces. it’s awful
will make the awful concept a reality just to taste it. “tomato strawberry bagel sandwiches aren’t that bad”, he’ll tell you, “i’ve tried them and-- where are you going”
him and leman are the only primarchs whose natural hair isn’t brown/black
another thing in common with leman: will go to sleep naked and not give a shit. honestly magnus has 0 body modesty. he doesn’t care
him communicating with big E early on was way less “psychic visions at the witching hour” and more “hey, this weird plucky little red parentless child who doesn’t need to earn a living because tizca is quite literally a psychic hippie nerd commune says he doesn’t need parents because he can already communicate with his dad psychically. is... anyone gonna question that?”
(they did but they couldn’t really stop him)
(amon was the one who mostly questioned that one)
he did kinda raise himself/get raised by others kind of communally(?) because E only popped in sometimes? he’d be gone for weeks. he was very much an absent parent. connection wasn’t stable at the best of times and after a few years of not being able to fully raise magnus E kinda half gave up on being a true parent to him. but magnus considered him his truest parent for all his childhood
sidenote with an E headcanon: he really did mean to raise his children, but his plan got fucked up and so now he’s operating on the backup of “yes i always meant you all just as tools”. he didn’t cut it cleanly though and that... caused problems. whoops (also he was a narcissist who saw all of humanity but especially his children as extensions of himself COUGHS loudly)
y’know how the wiki says he embraced E when E arrived? MAGNUS FUCKING GLOMPED HIS FATHER AND YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE
has never konmari’d in his life, he lives in a cluttery ghibli howl’s-room hell if not physically then at the very least emotionally. he’s got KNICK KNACKS and he is NOT afraid to show it. he’s got like, the shera s5 horde prime museum of artifacts from cultures he personally made sure didn’t exist anymore in storage. i can’t find pics of the scene but it’s bone chilling it’s cool as hell i like new shera hordak is basically a primarch to horde prime’s emperor. like HP’s literally a galactic emperor
(daemonic) back brace for his injury. Back brace to help with his (russ-induced) injury. Magnus gets the back brace that he needs!
there is no way magnus isn’t nonbinary. i’m [used to identify as genderfluid at the time i wrote this now just identify as nonbinary] and ive claimed every single fictional character who can shapeshift for my cause. theyre all genderfluid. magnus will sometimes just have boobs for the day and you will have to cope with it. genderfluid bisexual magnus truther jules luwupercal
speaking of his ability to shapeshift hes got like a ton of physical appearence details that are strikingly different from basically all his brothers, who take more after big E? and it’s like, on purpose. if he didnt have his powers hed have the same similarities they all share. its still like physical build, hand shape, ears, small details like those. he still looks related to them, just, less of a brother and more of a cousin? but its all like By his own design. he looked way more similar to them back before the heresy
(actually one last one in this topic: he actually shifts between looking closer to E/his brothers and looking more different depending on circumstances. its not immediately very noticeable unless youve picked up on it before, then you cant really unsee it? for example, when he fought with russ he looked very different, and when he was getting along w say, khan or perturabo he looked more like them)
(sorry i have so many headcanons abt shapeshifting im just trans and jealous)
BEYOND obtuse, romantically, in case you wanted to know
A Smidge Excentric. just the slightest pinch. for flavoring. it’s mostly restrained to his appearence and he’s honestly mostly grown out of it, especially after the burning of prospero, but it could resurface if he allowed himself to relax and act childishly/immaturely again
likes hanging out upside down. he says it makes blood rush faster to his brain and that’s good, right (big “all my injuries are internal that’s where blood is supposed to be” energy, imo)
PEAK aquarius, like absolutely
kind of a gaudy motherfucker. would 10/10 have a neon-hued mcmansion with authentic tiger furs strewn all over the place. has ultimate garbage kitsch taste and we love that for him
probably a homestuck somehow
i can keep going but i’m gonna stop for now. magnus is my boy and i love him despite how dumbfuck his ass his because i know how dumptruck his ass is <3
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2 10 n 11 :)
this is basically an essay im so sorry. watch how hard i can infodump (ill put this under a cut hopefully it works bc sometimes tumblr decimates the keep reading things if theyre in asks)
2. Who’s your favorite of the Bound? What do you think of the different ideologies they have? Which of the factions are you most aligned with?
WE ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER I AM A PETER LOVER THROUGH AND THROUGH!!!!!! oh baby i love that morally questionable architect. pretty early on in getting into pathologic (it’s coming up on a year now...) i thought about peter stamatin too hard and now i’m here. but really i find him to be such a fascinating character!
the thing about pathologic that i love is how almost every character can be as complex as you want. pathologic does an excellent job of implying a lot of character traits while only exploring some in further detail, which in some games is frustrating but patho does it so well! it consistently hints at traits and lets you fill in the details yourself. peter’s character is extremely interesting to me... and maybe a little more relatable at times than i want to admit lol.
i think i’ll talk about both stamatins though! their dynamic hurts me a lot. i’ll start with andrey bc i’ve been thinking about him lately. although i’ll bounce back and forth between both stamatins.
i’ve said this before but i’ll say it again.... andrey’s role as a protector who inadvertently hurts the people he cares about really gets to me. he is not a shield but, in his own words, a battering ram. and the problem is that battering ram has a recoil.
i have to wonder how that mentality of his came about, anyways. the implication is that it’s always just been him and peter, so did he take on that role because there wasn’t anyone else to do it?
in his efforts to protect peter from... military, i believe, he kills four people. which leads to daniil getting mistaken for andrey, which leads to daniil getting shot. and almost dying. he protects peter but to a smothering extent, peter even says he’s been suffering for ten years bc of andrey which is a LOADED line. he protects on a physical level but he kinda fucks up on the emotional.
there’s a horrible irony in peter and eva being the people he cares about the most and both attempting suicide. with eva once she’s missing he immediately goes running off trying to look for her, and . ahh i can’t remember right off hand what exactly he thought happened. but ik he was probably expecting a fight. with peter he says that after that he’ll never let peter leave his side, at least “as far as his knife can fly”... it sounds cheesy but the one thing he can’t save anyone from is themself.
and god the way andrey bases his ENTIRE sense of self worth on peter fucking hurts. they’re not peter and andrey, the architects. they’re Peter And Andrey, The Architect. (thinking about “one architect, two brothers” here.) andrey thinks he’s larger than life and all but he’s constantly living in peter’s shadow. their theatre of death positions come to mind here, with peter standing up, looking down at andrey. but andrey is on his knees in front of peter, arms limp to his sides.... separated by a wooden beam...
peter’s side of this dynamic is fascinating too. his dependency on andrey is. ow. leaving all practical matters and decision making to him... there’s this resentment (That’s Fine I’ve Been Suffering For Ten Years Because Of Him) and lack of communication that especially shows through for him.
while in p2 andrey completely crumbles if peter dies, peter doesn’t seem to care...... at all....?? which hopefully is elaborated upon in p2. he’s willing to talk to aspity about worrying if andrey is angry with him but he can’t bring it up with andrey himself. when he asks how andrey is doing he stops and says andrey is a “tough man” and can handle anything. in general, while it’s definitely there for andrey, themes of dependency are really glaringly obvious for peter.
one of my favorite peter things i’ve talked about before is still his ego!!! peter has a gigantic ego!!! he really does think that even though he’s hit the ceiling and can’t go any further he is still “a true architect” and “the rock upon which is built the stairway to tomorrow”. he has a blunt edge to him and he doesn’t ever tell you more than he thinks he needs to which i love. if he doesn’t want to tell you something he isn’t gonna do it. this is a character trait i think ppl miss which is sad because it’s so good and adds another layer of depth to him!
it really does hurt me how he’s valued for his mind alone (AHEM AHEM AHEM. GEORGIY) but it’s the thing nobody understands about him. i’m nowhere near as smart as peter lol but i do know that pain of feeling like none of your ideas can be understood because you just can’t express them the way you’d like, and then feeling like you’ll never be able to make it happen.
also, here’s a little thing i’ve picked up on. this connection probably doesn’t exist but i’m making it because the stamatins make me lose my mind and start becoming one of those people who looks for connections in everything i guess. peter standing in the theatre of death, andrey below him. peter’s loft being at a high point in the town, the broken heart being underground. peter’s loft is also higher north on the map but the broken heart is lower south. just smth interesting
i have more thoughts on them of course! but this is all getting awfully long. i feel like i’ve only just gotten to the tip of the iceberg even though i’ve written so much skfjskfjs this just feels quite surface level or. at least what is surface level for me who thinks about the stamatins so hard.
anyways i’ll keep my answers to the other two parts of this question quick! peter and andrey’s more creative vs practical mindsets are rly neat. especially because i would actually argue peter is a little more grounded in reality in certain aspects. not all, but certain ones...... their take on the utopian ideology is interesting. hot take: peter’s version of utopianism leans a tad towards humility. and andrey /does/ feel “straightforward utopian” but i think in certain regards? this man has a bit of a termite streak..... (hi al if you’re reading this). but i won’t get into that right now i’ve already gone on so long. saving that for later.
i think all of the factions kinda suck in their own way sometimes, honestly? although all of them are well written and have their pros and cons. were i in pathologic and i had to choose one i’d probably be a termite but everyone around me seems to think i’m a utopian. is it bc i love peter so much
10. What would you be like as a Pathologic character?
this question is a hard one! i did make a self insert once, mile-a-minute, but they’ve become their own oc by now. i think i’d be very...... very afraid...... probably isolating myself why does every pathologic character break quarantine???? also you could trade beetles with me :) thats about all i’ve got sorry this is real short
11. What is something you would change, writing-wise, about either game?
UGH i’ve been gushing about pathologic because. obviously i love this game so much. but the way it handles racism & such (in both games!) leaves much to be desired :/
i see a lot of the points it’s trying to make but i think the way they’re handled can be very messy. there are moments that work very well but. a lot that don’t. (i am aware that dybowski writes partially from his own experiences)
all too often the game “validates” the kin’s oppression and... at times paints them as oddly antagonistic? i don’t like how often as artemy you’re able to be like “i’m not one of those beasts” and i think there are better ways to touch on his internalized racism. in general the constant comparisons to animals is weird. you get big vlad who is obviously explicitly racist comparing them to animals, but then sometimes it’s like “ACTUALLY calling them animals is fine :)”
i think the herb brides are kind of. Hm. in their portrayal. also using parts of the buryat alphabet to denote an accent is weird. making odongh and herb brides inhuman is weird. connecting the kin to Magic is weird.
and, listen, i’d really like to not be playing Artemy Burakh Experiences a Microaggression Simulator every time i’m playing the haruspex route. hate that you either can’t call ppl out on their shit or if you can it ends the conversation/bars you from getting necessary information. glad you at least get to drag the vlads, i guess?
i also was talking about this but wrt peter specifically, and this issue is present throughout the game but it’s especially visible with peter, i don’t like how often you can mock him for his addiction.
he’s obviously in an extremely rough patch! being able to be just so plain cruel to him about the dependency on alcohol (and iirc in p1 hallucinogens, bc aglaya mentions it) he’s formed to cope with his mental illness & trauma just feels bad. especially because yes it is not a healthy coping mechanism at all but... it still is a coping mechanism, if that makes sense?
the way you’re able to constantly rub it in his face feels awful. peter is fully aware that it isn’t good for him and shows a desire to quit. even if he didn’t it would still be awful to say because. it’s just insensitive. like you don’t just go up to someone and keep being like HEY YOU DRINK A LOT YOU SHOULD STOP DOING THAT DO YOU KNOW WHAT WATER IS? feels really bad to keep harping on something that causes him pain and that he struggles with every single day.
however peter does have moments where he tells you Not to say that, or if you pry into why he drinks he’ll outright say he doesn’t remember you being his friend, which is better than nothing.
in p1 moreso than p2 i hate how you can be like oh he’s craaaazy he’s off his rocker he’s delusional!!!! that “why, i never... an architect of schizophrenia!” comment sticks in my mind because it’s just... so genuinely mean. especially because if i remember correctly that line is from when he’s planning on LITERALLY FUCKING BURNING HIMSELF ALIVE
i think if they were going to have all of this they should have gone more in depth on how it’s really. not good that he’s treated so poorly. and i do believe that’s what they were going for, a la the art book w/ the whole “not to be made into a drunken clown, this is a tragic character”, etc. but it just doesn’t land. i’m holding out for the bachelor and changeling routes in p2 to see if they expand upon any of it but i highly doubt i’ll be satisfied in this regard.
i stand by the One time it was really fucking funny to clown on peter being the time you can tell him little girls eat raspberries and earthworms and he just believes you
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