#like idk why some people are incapable of protecting artists

[momonyu]

what is even the point of reposting fanart without credit and consent

[louisadaydreams]

reoccurring dream

hi this is my first tumblr post lol but i wanted to talk about something that’s been constantly happening to me since 2020 & i wanted to know if anybody can relate.

so basically i’ve been dreaming about this one person over and over again and recently he’s been showing up in my dreams more often. i can’t recall when exactly i started to dream about him, but i remember realizing one day when i woke up that i’ve dreamt about him before. it doesn’t sound too weird, right? well, here’s the thing: i have no idea what his face looks like. 

i guess that’s not too weird either, but, since i don’t remember his face, how do i know that it’s the same person? well, here’s another thing: although i can’t remember his face, i can remember other distinct features about him. i know that he’s tall & that he has black/dark brown hair. sometimes his hair is neat, sometimes it’s all messy, but it isn’t very short. it’s like...fluffy (but not too big and it’s not too flat either) if you get what i mean. he’s also not super muscular, he’s on the leaner side.

you could say that this guy could still be different every time since those physical features are pretty common, but here’s ANOTHER thing: every single time i dream of him, i get this feeling. i don’t really know how to describe it, but every time he shows up in my dream i feel safe & warm & like everything is right. it’s really freaky. the feeling doesn’t just exist while i’m dreaming, though. have you ever woken up from a dream and right as you wake up you feel kind of out of place? like physically you know you’re in your bed but it’s like you were just somewhere else? it feels disorienting and like you don’t fit into your own skin. well, i only feel that way after waking up from a dream with him in it. 

but wait, there’s more (pls stay with me ^-^). all the dreams that i’ve had with him in it have been pretty different. sometimes the setting ranges depending on a movie i watched that day or a book i’m reading (literally, one time i went to bed late after finishing the webcomic “sweet home” & i dreamt that night that he & i escaped from monsters). sometimes i can’t even remember where it took place or what it was about & all i can recall is that he was in it. but, the one single thing that they all have in common is that, in every dream i’ve had with him in it, he always protected me. in every dream, there was always some kind of danger or obstacle and protecting me seemed to be his goal. i can’t remember if it’s ever been romantic/platonic, but i just remember feeling so incredibly safe with him. saying that these dreams are comforting is pretty much an understatement. it makes me feel...idk...like i’m worth something i guess. 

that’s basically it. i don’t really know why i keep dreaming of him. maybe it’s a result of my mental health and the things i’ve gone through. it could be my brain creating a coping mechanism for things that have happened in reality. i dunno, but, whatever it is, i hope it’s something more than just a reoccurring dream. 

(im gonna put a bunch of tags so that this post has a better chance of reaching more people. pls intereact/respond if you see this, especially if you have any idea what this could mean or if you’ve experienced it before:D)

EDIT: so i’ve done some research & apparently it’s believed that people are incapable of coming up with a “new face” or dreaming of a person they’ve never met (ex: you may think that you’re dreaming of a stranger, but you’ve probably seen them before, even though it might have just been a person you saw walking down the street or something. and artists/illustrators usually base their drawings of people off of others they’ve seen, whether or not they intend to) so, since this boy i dream about is basically faceless cause i can’t remember what he looks like, maybe, when/if i meet him, i’ll wake up and remember what he looks like. maybe that’s how i’ll find out who he is? idk, just a hunch, but i really hope he exists somewhere. 

UPDATE (11/5/21): GUYS!!!!!! i think ive met him???? there’s a guy at school that I always knew of but i didn’t officially meet until this year. i stopped dreaming of the boy around the time i met him and i literally just made all these connections right now. we hung out on the 30th (october) with some friends at an amusement park & since it was so close to halloween there were scare actors walking around and scaring people. i HATE that stuff but he PROTECTED ME THE ENTIRE TIME JUST LIKE THE BOY ALWAYS DID IN MY DREAMS!!!!! and i mean like he was holding my hands and i was clinging onto his arm and he would switch me to the other side of him and tug me out of the way if a scare actor came near us. on the way home, i fell asleep on his shoulder and he leaned his head on mine and slept too. we’ve been talking everyday since then & sometimes we’re on vc until super early in the morning. everyone says that he’s usually the quiet type and doesn’t really talk to people online but AHHH!!!! could he possibly be who i was dreaming about? i don’t want to get my hopes up but this is CRAZY. any advice for me?

UPDATE #2 (11/27/21): we’re dating now:)

UPDATE #3 (12/6/23): we broke up in october and i fear nothing will ever be okay again